Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 227 - Is Kevin a Sex Addict?

Episode Date: April 16, 2018

Kevin has been married for a couple of years and he's been cheating on his wife the whole time. Is he cheating because he's a sex addict? Or is he cheating because he's in a relationship with a woman who he isn't sexually compatible with? Tune in and decide for yourself after you hear all about his troubled sex life with his wife, the fetishes he's into which includes pantyhose, the escorts he sleeps with, his secret Facebook accounts and how he uses them to cheat a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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wrote in. Everybody writes in now, right? That's the good thing. named Kevin. And Kevin was really looking to talk. Like it really felt like Kevin was, because we had a lot of emails before we actually were able to get on the phone and actually tape a call, a combo between each other. And he was very much like,

I have a pantyose fetish and I do all these other things and I have a lot of fetishes and I think I might have a problem and I really need to talk. And he just was like, you know, he really wanted to get some stuff off of his chest. And he did. We talked and he talked all about his panios thing. But we didn't really get into the panios thing

because this became much more about whether he has a sex addiction or not, right? And so we talked all about like his marriage, his history before he was married, the things that he does sexually that makes him think that he might have a problem. He's sort of like an obsessive type of personality type. So he goes through like these big lengths to like get laid on the side. and they're really interesting, okay? I mean, this guy has created fake profiles in Facebook. He tries to hook up with people that way. Some people maybe that his wife knows about.

He does things. But he's successful sometimes. I mean, he tells some stories on this show that I was like, you've got to be kidding me. You're like hit the fucking jackpot, right? But we also discuss whether, like I said, he's a sex addict. I personally think he does have a problem. But you need to take a listen and let me.

me know what you think or decide for yourself what you think. It's a whole interesting story about Kevin and what he does. He fucks escorts. We talk about that too. Anyway, so that's all on the show. And I'm just going to now I'm so confusing. I don't know how to end this intro. So I'm just going to end it and say, I am going to be right back on with Kevin. Do you have a story, lifestyle, or situation you can't talk about to anyone, to anyone? Or do you just want to let your freak flat live and be on the show. Well, Strictly Anonymous wants to hear from you. Send us an email, Strictly Anonymous podcast at gmail.com with your story and your anonymous name. And remember, everything is strictly anonymous.

Hey, Kevin, welcome to Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? Good. How are you? I'm good. I feel like I don't know if anyone notices that my voice sounds fucked up, but I like lost my voice over the weekend and I'm just kind of getting it back but I think I can make it through an hour of talking and me and you me and you have been playing phone tag oh not phone tag for a while right that I don't like I swear I it's hard for me to remember like the specifics of your situation I do know that you were kind of desperate to talk to me because you started off like saying you have like a maybe like a panty hose panty fetish but it sort of bleeds into all this other stuff

and you think like you have a sex addict like you're maybe you have a a sexual addiction and you're married and you have kids and you just want to let this out, right, someplace and talk about this, whatever's going on? Yeah, I don't know what my problem is, honestly, like, I mean, at home, everything is, like, we're not married, but we do have kids together. And, I mean, she's just, like, not really open like I am. And I feel like, I feel like. When you talk about sexually speaking, like sexually?

Yeah, I mean, like, just, you know, because I'm not really too, like, you know, I feel comfortable with her. So, like, I'll tell her certain things. Like, I don't know, like, I told her about, like, the pantyho's thing. So she did it a couple times, like, she was her thigh highs, like, put on heels or whatever. And, like, you know, but, like, it seems like she gets annoyed by it. You know what I mean? Like, she doesn't. Well, she probably does because she doesn't get it that, you know, and so she probably,

probably is annoyed and she doesn't have a good way of hiding the fact that she's annoyed. You know what I mean? She should kind of probably play along with it more, but she's probably very comfortable with you enough to show that she's not really that into it. Do you know what I'm saying? Like, that's a problem sometimes of being like comfortable with somebody sometimes. Do you know what I mean?

Yeah. I don't know. Maybe it's like the fact that I'm just like, because I'm turning 30 this weekend and like me and my, like I talk to one person about like some of the deep shit that I like think about or do and because I do

escorts like I do everything like I'm just like Oh I forgot about that right right you're fucking I do a lot of shit Oh okay you know So I mean it's just I talk to one person about it And like he's the same age as me so like I don't know if it's just like an age thing where my sex drive is just going crazy

And like I'm looking at all sorts of women Like it's just like I can't get my mind off of sex Like it's all I think about Like I'll go and jerk on and get, you know, get it out. And I'm good for like a half hour, but then it comes right back. Like, I just feel like there's some sort of like, is it going to end? Like, I don't want to.

Right. Like, maybe there's a little bit of an imbalance, right? It's almost just too much just that all the time, like, every half hour. Yeah. Well, no, I'm not saying, like, I jerk off every half hour, but I'm just saying, like, the thoughts start coming. Like, I'll be driving down the street and I'll start checking out girls all over again. You know what I mean? Like, and like, and I'm in my head, like, look, oh,

look at this like woman running or whatever and like you know what I mean like I just can't keep it out of my head. And how long, let me ask you this because you're about to turn 30, right? But you've been like in your prime, right, for a while. I think guys like start to get really horny when they're like, what, 18, 16? I don't know, right? It doesn't it guys prime like in their 20s, right? So has this been like for the past like 10 years or has this just started up recently since

you've been maybe since your kids came along or since you've been? maybe since your kids came along or since you've been with this girl, like with one person, or since you started fucking escorts, like, or has this been how you've always been since you've sort of come into your own sexually? I don't know. I just feel like, you know, once I, like, the past couple years, like, I just noticed, like, it's just, like, my mind is just exploring different ways. Like, there was one point, for instance, that, um, I met this kid, well, there was this

one of those yard sale things on Facebook and like it was a really hot girl and like I don't know like me I try I see like what's the worst that's going to happen so I messaged her and whatever and it had nothing to do with you know whatever she was trying to sell but um I asked her you know if by any chance she would be interested in selling me her panty she was like really hot so come to find out she had a boyfriend and I guess the boyfriend was kind of into watching um watching her get fucked by another dude. Mm-hmm. So it kind of, you know, we spoke back and forth, and then, you know, he wanted to set something up where he could watch me fucker. And I kind of wasn't feeling it because I've never done anything like that. So what ended up happening is I kind of swindled my way in and, like, because I'm kind of good with words and I swindled my way and I told him, like,

listen, it's, you know, I've never done anything like this. So why don't you let me and her get acquainted and, you know, feel comfortable with each other and then, you know, once we feel comfortable, you can watch. Right. Needless to say, he set everything up. He told me, you know, because I was like, you know, I said I wasn't getting late at home period, but, you know, I was just getting frustrated with, you know, my fiance because, you know, things weren't going smoothly.

She's, you know, it was just like boring sex. Yeah. Uh-huh. So, um, yeah, he texted me. He's like, yeah, just let me know when you get there and, you know, I'll stop texting and, you know, leave you guys alone. needless to say I got there. It was kind of weird at first, like, knowing that her boyfriend, like, was at work and knowing

that some guy's going over to Pau's girlfriend. But everything, you know, we did it. And, you know, he started getting really jealous. And, you know, I ended up never, you know, fucking her in front of him. But... How many times did you fuck her behind his... Like, how many times did you fuck her separately from him? We...

The... first time he knew about it, but then we, like, tried, you know, several other occasions because, but that's when he started getting jealous. Like, um, you know, we hung out a couple times, but like, the last actual time that I saw her, you know, we were just going to, she, she, you know, made a pact with me. Like, if he starts getting pissed off, she's like, you know, you're really good and I just want to do it one last time, no matter what happens. So we went for that and I showed up before worked the warm morning and I guess he caught on somehow and you know I just you know I wasn't feeling it so I just said you know he there like how do you know that he caught on was he texting

like what the fuck's going on she she apparently texted him something that was really meant to go to me because she's just not that she's not the sharpest tool in the shed so needless to say like he started calling then he started calling me saying he was on his way home from work and if I'm there, this and that. Oh, God. So, like, I felt really awkward and, you know, I just, I kind of left. And after that, you know, well, she kind of, she's like, I don't want you to just go away without anything.

So she pulled down my pants. She sucked my dick and I just left and haven't spoke to her son. But, like, I have to say, that's like a, such a random, lucky hookup for you. Like, who kinds, like, who, like, I feel like it's, like, kind of like every guy's fantasy, right? to like see this hot girl on Facebook. She was having a yard sale and you wind up like arranging to fuck her in front of her boyfriend.

Like how crazy is that, right? In a weird way, right? Or was it not that crazy? Was she in the like personal section of Facebook? I mean, as far as I'm concerned, there is, it seemed like, you know, how do you get that off of a Facebook yard sale?

I think that's pretty lucky of you. No? See, like I kind of like pick and choose because I mean I don't do it all the time but like I'll see something and like I'll pick and choose I'll be like oh wow this is somebody that you know single parent and she must you know really need money judging by

the things that she's selling and I just decided to give it a shot and see what happened if I asked her if she would sell her panties and then somehow you know conversation how many times have you done that and got in like fuck you psycho and then like or is that the only time you did it

and she was like oh turns out my boy whoever wants to see you fuck me come on over I'll fucking blow you like it's kind of like I would say the like the chances of you having the experience that you have or having the outcome of what you had are so slim

that you're it's crazy that you were able to have that done or did you have other experiences before that were you tried and failed and girls were like you deleted you reported you do you know I mean no I mean that was like my

first and only actual like encounter. I mean a lot of, even like if it's somebody that act like they're interested in selling them, they usually flake out anyways. So it's like, you know, I mean, yeah, I guess. I'm sorry, if some guy asked me to sell my panties and I was selling like, you know, do you know, baby toys online and someone said, oh, but I don't want your, you know, whatever. I'll take your panties. I'd be like, go fuck yourself, you know? I mean, it's crazy that that happened, don't you think? You're kind of lucky. Yeah. I mean, I get a lot of go fuck yourself. You know, I used to have.

So you have gotten that. That's what I was wondering. Right. So you had a fake Facebook. Well, no, this one was actually done from like my real one. I don't know. I felt kind of baldy that day. But I had, you know, a couple fake ones and I would eat. And there's been times where I've actually like, you know, I have a crush in somebody that I actually know in real life. Yeah, yeah. And like, I've actually like gone ahead and made a fake Facebook.

just to see, you know, how they would feel if I, if somebody asked them something like that. And I've never gotten lucky that way because I came close, you know, that there was this one girl and she's actually good friends with my fiance and she's like smoking hot. And I messaged her from a fake Facebook and she wanted pictures. So I gave her like fake pictures and she was all into it. And then, you know, she just, you know, the conversation dwindled down in it. just never happened. Wow. I mean, my big things that don't last long. Well, you do put a lot of effort into this and you do take a lot of time because to, you know, that you're short end, it's like

very sort of covert. I mean, the fact that you're like doing this and going after like, you know, your fee, did you call her your fiancé? Yeah. Your fiancé's like really good friend that's smoking hot from a fake, like that's, that's some dangerous stuff. I know. And that, that's why I, like, feel like I have, like, some sort of problem. Like, I don't know if it's the fact, I don't know if it's the fact that, like, I'm just, I don't feel like, you know, the home sex life is great or, you know, it could be more exciting.

Like, maybe if I was excited at home, I wouldn't be trying all this crazy shit. But let me ask you this. How, wait, stop. Let me get your little backstory. Well, we got to figure out. You could just be a horny guy having normal horny feelings, or you could be somebody that's, you know, sort of like acting out in a way that is all going through, like acting out just like strictly through your dick, right? Like sometimes I think if you have an imbalance, like when I was younger, I was really super promiscuous. And like I wasn't capable of feeling like the full range of feelings, right?

Because I had issues. So like I, everything I would feel would be shoved down. And I was just always horny all the time. And I think what was going on was that because I couldn't feel like lots of different things. things, I would just feel horny. You know what I mean? Like that was like the only way I could sort of express myself. So everything sort of went through that part of my body, right? But as I was able to fix myself up and like, you know, like and I could feel all different things, like the balance of the way I felt things was more normal, right? I would feel horny in a more normal amount of time. And then

sometimes I would feel happy and sometimes I would feel sad. And sometimes I would feel angry. And sometimes I would feel horny, right? But like sometimes I think some people, if they can't feel anything, right, or they're suppressing a lot of stuff, but they're very comfortable with their sexuality or they, you know, everything gets funneled through that, right? You could have that going on. You could just be super horny. I have to get more information on you. Let me ask you this. Because like sometimes I think like when guys are like really horny like this and they're living like double lives and they're creating Facebook fake fucking profiles, I'm just like, I mean, you can be like fucking whoever you want and doing all of this not as a fake person. If you were just

single, right? Like why are you in a relationship? How? How? You're just like, I'm just like, why are you in a relationship, how long have you been in a relationship? Are you only staying because of the kids? Were you always in a relationship? Were you like this when you were single? You know what I mean? Or is it just being locked down? That's maybe like not right for you right now. Like, how long have you been with this girl? We've been together like four years now. Okay. And before that, were you like always a relationship guy? Do you go from like one long term relationship into another? Were you single before you met her? Yeah. I mean, most of my relationships. have been pretty serious. I mean, I'm not angel.

No, no, no, but you go from a long-term relationship to another long-term relationship, but you're always cheating on these girls with other people? Honestly, I feel like, you know, I have cheated on another long-term relationship, but it was because she pretty much lied to me the whole entire relationship, and I found out that, you know, she, yeah, and I pretty much, and I told her that I was going to do it, and I pretty much did it right in her face. Right, it was like revenge. You did it.

as like revenge. Yeah, but this one doesn't seem so much as just revenge. It's just like I just don't feel that security as in, you know, maybe, you know, for some reason, like, sex is a big deal to me and like it makes me feel like, I guess secure you can, you know, in a relationship. Like if you have good sex, like, you know, I don't know. Like it's just for me, I feel, you know, relieved afterwards. and like we could cuddle and go to sleep and be a cute couple, you know what I mean?

Right. When the sex isn't good for you, you feel like something is missing, and then you feel like this weird emptiness, and then you go and try and fill that up in someplace else because you're feeling insecure. Because for some reason, like, your security is tied into sex when it comes to relationships. But let me ask you this. So with your other relationships, when things were okay and the sex was good with them, you were able to be monogamous and you weren't thinking about sex so much and, like, fucking hookers and all that stuff?

Yeah, no, I mean, it's just been with her, and she really had never personally, like, did anything. Like, honestly, she's probably, like, the best girl that I've been with, like, as far as being a good mother and, you know, being supportive of me as a person. But, like, when I come to her sexually, it's, like, you know, her excuses, like, you know, oh, I'm tired or, like, my sex drive isn't like yours and, you know, sex isn't. about everything, and it's just like, you know, maybe, you know, I just feel like, you know, some nights, like, it's just, you know, it's just like boring, just pointless sex. And it's like, you know, then the next night I want to do it again just to see if, like, we can have, like, you know, I'm not trying to say, like, make a porn movie, but like, you know, something exciting. And then, like, if it doesn't happen, then I'll expect it the next night. And it's

just like a revolving thing. And then... You keep trying to get it back. Was it good in the beginning? Um, I mean, yeah, it was new. So, you know, anything new is fun and good to me. You know what I mean? Like, right? Because like, you know, doesn't it suck that you could like find somebody and they're so like it's like they're so great in all these ways and but in like one way they're not. And like for you like this girl is like super compatible with you in like every area, right? She could check it out off the box, right? Except sex and sex is very important to you. And you're really horny. guy that's in so a lot of things and she's just not right and that could be like a compatibility thing unfortunately you know yeah i mean i've told before i just think to myself like wow like maybe i should be single like you know i could just go out and do what i want but like other time then it's like but i can't be i i feel selfish if i do that because you know the first thing in most girls minds like anytime i've broken up with the girl or saying that i'm leaving all you know i get the

whole, you know, oh, we'll go have fun with her, you know what I mean? Like, and it's just like, so I feel like guilty like if I were to leave her, you know, just to leave her and the kids and, you know, there's a lot of bills involved. Yeah, now with the kids, there's a whole

other layer, right? That makes it way more complicated. How many kids and how long have you had kids? Like, how many years is that going on? We have two of our own and she's got one with somebody else. So you

and then how long were you like with her before you had kids? Like how long did you guys have together like kidless? Because you're super, you guys were super young. She pretty much, I mean she's got another daughter with a father that isn't around and

you know. So when you first started dating her, she had a kid and then how soon after did you guys, did she get pregnant? Probably about like a year or two later. Let's say a year and a half. Like I'm not, not I'm not crazy good with dates.

Right, right, but about a year and a half into that she gets pregnant, she has a baby, and then she gets pregnant again, she has another baby. No, no, no, this was just the last one that she had. Okay, so you are, she already had, she had two when I met her, but one I consider mine. I'm a little confused. Okay, so she had two with somebody else, one with you. Well, no, she's got three all together, but they're all different fathers, but one we consider just mine.

Okay. Because we have, it's very confusing. You know, maybe that's another... Is one of them yours? One of them is biologically mine. Okay, that's what I care. Okay. Okay, but that's a lot of...

Listen, that's a lot of stuff. Let me, that's like a lot to have before you're 30 years old. Okay, like, I'm sorry. But three kids, a girl... I'd be fucking escorts, too. I have to tell you. Like, I have one baby, okay? And I'm like, thank God I don't have a guy at the end of the day that I have to fuck.

Like, I'm sorry, but it's a lot of work, right? Having kids. She has three. Assuming she's around your same age, right? How old is she? She's 27. Yeah, she's 27. She has three fucking kids with three different guys.

She has a relationship with you. You want her to dress up and panties and all this stuff because you're like young and whatever. And she's just like probably over the hill. She's already had three kids at 27. I feel bad for her. She's probably be much better to date at when she's like 40 and those kids are out of the house. You know what I mean? Like this is a tough time for her.

and maybe it was a little too soon for you, right? I mean, we can't take back time and get you out of this relationship and out of the kid, right? You're like stuck at this like sort of adult situation, right? And maybe your dick isn't so grown up yet, right? And you didn't leave because you were always sort of in these long-term relationships. You never like lived it up, right? And now you're, and this I think is a problem for a lot of people, you know? And I think people don't understand that being single.

Like I once had this friend. and he was sitting across me, and he was like a relationship guy like you, and he would go from one long to relationship to another. And he was in this relationship with someone. He was like, you know, I just wish that I could just like fuck a different girl every night and do whatever I want and go out and never have to call. And I'm just like, you can do that. Like, that's called being single. Like, why don't you give it a try? Like, I don't understand, you know, but I'm a single person. You know, I'm more like the type of person. I love to be single. It's much harder for me to be sort of locked down in a relationship. And I think people are one way or the other. and I'm sure there's people that fall in between. But I think sometimes that some people that are like in these relationships like this and like for you, like maybe you should have spent some time being single and having fun and doing whatever you want. Now we have a whole different thing to talk about because to walk away from like this girl

and your child and your family. Like there's so much more involved in it, right? And now you have like all this horniness and you want all this variety and you're still really young, right? But you can't really do it because you're tied. to this girl and she's not really ideal when it comes to sex and that's like I can improve anytime soon with three fucking

kids right and you know um so you're kind of screwed I feel like I'm making you feel worse not better no I mean like it's it's something that we argue about a lot and you know I understand you know the whole

kid's situation and stuff like that but you know at the same time like this is your situation listen at the same time the truth is this is what you guys are in like i could go back and say oh maybe you should have been single for a couple years someone could say to her like oh maybe you should like do this but like the truth is like the reality is like this is where you guys are at you have she has kids and she doesn't really want to do the stuff that you do but you really want it and you're cheating on her because she's not fulfilling your fantasies she should

probably like step it up a little bit and try to please you more you know i don't I don't know if there's a solution there, right? Because she might just be too exhausted and maybe she's not interested or doesn't have it in her to really give you what you need. So you're always going to be sort of not so happy and then you act out by doing all this stuff. You know, and this I think is like in a weird way a common problem because I think, you know, I had a guy on just recently. I forget if I, if I, no, I haven't aired his episode yet. But he was talking about it. And this could be any guy. He was talking about how he married somebody, his first wife, and she, like, you know, she checked off all the boxes. Like, on paper, she made so much sense and she was so

right. But, like, in reality, not so much, right? This girl sounds like, in reality, she really is good, right? The only problem you have is she's not, like, your sexual ideal, right? Somebody would say, probably a lot of people would say, like, you can't have everything, right? I mean, if you can't have everything, then what are you going to do, leave her? Like, I wish she was on this call and we could tell her, like, please try hard or like, let your freak flag fly, like get into sex more. You know what I mean? Try to revive that with you or do something about it, right?

Because, like, how do those fights go between you and her? Like, what does the argument about? Like, what does she say? What do you say? I mean, usually it's just, you know, we go back and, forth about it and you know she'll either come up with some sort of excuse you know i'm tired but meanwhile some days she's off the whole entire day and you know all the all the kids except for one is in school and you know she'll binge watch tv shows all day and it's like you know all i ask when we

argue is you know to try to be a little bit more open-minded and she give me something to work with yeah yeah you know that's that's all i really ask for you know and then because it's not like you know when we do get into it like like she definitely has multiple orgasms. And it's always like, you know, in the long run, you know, I feel like I satisfied her. You know what I mean? And it's just like, you know, you just relieved some stress by coming like, you know, three or four different times.

Yeah, how great. Why can't you just enjoy this and like get into it and, you know, get a little extra with it? You know what I mean? Yeah, uh-huh. Don't hold back. Like sometimes I just feel like it just. Right. You should remember that in the times where she's not into it.

That if she does do it, she's going to feel great. She will relieve her stress. And it's good for her. It's healthy. And it's like, again, it's like our time like to get like to get out. Like it's for me, I get out of my head, you know. Like it's away from the kids, our time in the room. Like, you know, if it was up to me, I wouldn't mind having sex every night.

But, you know, I totally understand like not all people are built like that. And if, you know, even if. once a week, like, you know, she knows what I like. So, like, sometimes like it takes, like, a big fight and like, like, a really big, nasty fight and, like, I'll come home and, like, I'll, you know, take a shower, go in the room

and she'll be all dressed up and everything ready to go. And it's like, you know, why can't we just, why can't you just surprise me like that once a week without even, without fighting? Okay, and have you asked her that once a week? I'm sure, right? And she doesn't remember. I mean, yeah, and

she'll give me, like, oh, I forgot. Like, I'll let it slide and I'll see how long it takes, but it's like usually I have to ask her. And like, the only time I don't have to ask her is if, you know, we've gotten to a huge fight about the sex and about how, you know, bored I am with it. Like I try to say it nicely because God forbid, you know, I say it the wrong way. This is such a call. This is like seriously, you're like every guy. I mean, I think that this is a very common problem. And the saddest thing or the hardest thing for me with this kind of problem is like, I could see both. sides of things, right? I really can. And this is like one of those things where like men and women are just

so different. And I think like if she knew, like if more women would listen to these kinds of podcasts and really realize that like when you're like a guy, I think women don't really understand how much more important sex is to men that it is to women, right? Women, it's not as important. But I think to men it really is, I'm not a man, but I have enough guy friends and I've done this podcast for long enough to know that I think it's very different for men, you know, and they need it more as a release and stuff. And I think that women don't really fully understand it, right? And so that's why there's a lot of cheating going on.

Because I don't think for, she just thinks she's got you, you're living with her, she's going to do what she wants. And she has no idea that because she's not, like, meeting your needs, you're going and cheating on her. And she'd be fucking horrified that you were doing that. But this is what happens in real life, right, when somebody isn't getting what they want over time, right? Eventually, they will go and find it, right? Especially a young guy in his 20. You know, maybe if your guy's in his 60s, you know, maybe he won't sort of need to go find it someplace else, you know. But this happens a lot. And I think it could happen in the opposite way, like for a woman. And this is why a woman goes, you know, when needs aren't being met and somebody speaks up over and over again. you know, and the other person just fights and doesn't listen. And then look at what's going on. You're fucking escorts behind her back.

You're going after her friends and fake Facebook profiles. I mean, this is not good stuff going on. You're going to get fucking busted. Yeah, I mean, that's another thing. Like, I just get so paranoid. Like, I'll go and do something, but it's like I act out of impulse. And, like, actually, since I, like, I haven't been listening for too long, like, But, you know, once I started listening, I was like, wow, I have to, like, you know, let her pick my brain.

Because there's a lot of deeper shit. Like, I mean, but the main thing is, like, I'd start listening to some of these calls, like, and the one that, the stepmother, that one really got, like, that one was exciting. And it kept me on my toes the whole time. I'm sitting there. Wasn't he a great storyteller? I was, I kept pausing it. And then, like, you know, I'd go up to the door and, like, you know, I'd make my delivery. and then I'd just write back to it.

But then I'd get home and I'd be like, you know, certain stories that I hear, it's like, you know, like, why can't I have an exciting life like this? And then like, you know, I actually mentioned to her, like maybe she should start reading up on, you know, some of these things, like just about our sex life, you know. Yeah. And, you know, it's an important part of a relationship.

Totally. It's a part of it. Absolutely. No, it's a difference between being friends with, like, what's the difference, right? I mean, you know, if you didn't have sex and you're, really, you just be friends, right? It's the whole, it's, it's a part, it's a part of being intimate. Like, you guys are intimate with each other. That's a part of it, you know, and it is important,

especially four years into it. I mean, you guys aren't, you know, together 10 years or 14 years. You know, it's only four years. That's, I mean, she doesn't mean, she, like, she doesn't even know, like, half, she, you know, she has, like, a flight, you know, idea. Because, you know, there was a certain time where, you know, I was, you know, just in a bad part in life. and we weren't living together and I was struggling like in between being homeless and whatever and she stuck with me through it

and I don't, you know, there's a couple stories that, you know, I feel like she might have done something but to this day she says she hasn't. You ain't cheated on you? You know, she... Yeah, she went and hung out with, you know, somebody that she had a past with, you know, and her excuse was, you know,

she wanted to see, you know, if anything were to happen and if something were to happen, that, you know, she would have known that maybe me and her weren't okay. But being that she didn't do anything, you know, she realized that she really loved me, which I find is a little horseshit. It could be, it could be true. I mean, that could be, girls could be like that.

Like, that could be, it sounds complicated, but women are more complicated in that kind of way. I mean, that could be true or it could not be true. It's a 50-50 thing, but it's not like that is unheard of in the female world. I'm a girl. It doesn't sound that odd to me. Do you know what I mean? From a girl's perspective. I get why you don't get it because guys don't think like that, but that is not necessarily that much of a bullshit story.

Do you know what I mean? I'm just telling you. I mean, I'm just going by like how I feel. Like if I were to go hang out with an ex, I'm going to. Yeah, but this is where it's different. This is where a guy and girls are different. And I'm telling you as a girl, that could be true. Like, that's the kind of.

a complicated thoughts that we have as women. Like that kind of scenario, like I wanted to go and I felt like if I did something, then it wasn't right. Like, that could be true. I'm telling you. It could not be true. I said it's 50-50, but it's not like as sort of like outlandish as you think. And I get why you think that because a guy doesn't buy that shit, right?

But that could be true for a girl. I'm just telling you as a girl. I swear. And you know me. I don't fucking know you. I tell you the truth, you know? I'd be like, oh my God, that's the biggest crock of shit. But it might not be.

But anyway, so you were going through this really tough time. She didn't, you know, so you have a lot of shit in your past, right? Like, how fucked up does your mind get with all this stuff? I mean, it goes all over the place. Like, sometimes I'll just feel like maybe she just doesn't have enough time for me because she's out fucking somebody else. Oh, so you even have also, like, besides all, because I meant like your mind with sex and like all this crazy stuff that you're into.

and we still have to talk about like how the escorts came into play. But like you also have a mind that goes to like sort of being super suspicious with her and what she's doing? Yeah, I mean, I don't know if it's because she's like that with me. But and then, you know, getting screwed over in the past. Or could it be also that you were, oh, did your last girlfriend the girl that was like lying to you, was she cheating on you and you found out? Well, she, I don't know if it was like a constant. thing, but it was, she cheated on me early on in the relationship and then, you know, towards

the end, like, I actually got the real truth out of her. And it just felt like a fake relationship for that whole, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, that's kind of stuff is, uh, that's, that kind of shit really fucks with your trust issues. You know, you might have trust issues and then it's like interesting that you get in a relationship and then you become the distrustful one, even though, you know what I mean? Like it happened to you now, you're doing it to somebody else and then you're like, she, listen, she's suspicious of you. you because you're cheating on her. Do you understand? So why wouldn't she be suspicious? That's what I always say to people, like when my guy friends will come to me and they're massively cheating on their

girls and they're just like, they're fucking crazy. And it's just like, well, but you are cheating on them. But they don't know. It's like, but they do know on some level. Something is going on behind someone's back, right? Like it makes them crazy because they kind of know something, but they don't know what it is. Like there's this energy thing that goes on, you know? So like the fact that she's suspicious of you is not a coincidence. Look at what you're fucking doing behind her back.

I mean, yeah, I've done some unthinkable, like... Like what? Please, tell me some scenarios. Like, I mentioned in the one thing to remind me to tell you about a certain story, which I'm going to go there,

which we were together at the time and I was, you know, going through my little thing and, you know, she was, you know, sticking around and you know every once in a while like she kind of like we were so far away so like every once in a while like you know i don't know how it came about but she used to give me like a pair of dirty panties and we'd she'd call at night and we'd have phone sex and she'd you know that's hot but like shit like that doesn't happen anymore but what i'm saying is um like there's this one time i was just walking around new york city and like i just started seeing all these like

girls like you know wearing panty hose so I came up with like you're gonna think this is crazy have you seen the titles of my show I don't know that you could get me to think crazy okay this goes a little deep um but anyways so like I was getting really turned on like seeing all these girls wearing like panty hose like it was sexy like business women you know so I I decided to come up with some sort of bullshit story to talk to these girls and I told them you know, because a lot of weird shit happens in the city. Like, people do all sorts of stupid shit. Totally. I live in New York for over 20 years, I know.

So I came up with this story, and I told this one girl, I said, listen, me and my friend are on a scavenger hunt, and we have to, like, you know, do certain things. And one of the things on the list is for you to find a girl, that would let me feel her legs. So I would go around New York. Yeah, I would go on. And believe it or not, I got a good four or five of them. to let me do it. Okay.

And like, but like that, that's just like how crazy my mind is and like I don't know if it's going to change. You know what I mean? Like, because it's just like, who thinks of doing something like that? Well, no, listen, I think that, no, but that's a part of like, I think people are like concoctions, right? And even like positive things can be funneled into negative things depending on certain things.

I think like these kind of scenarios that you tell me like show a part of you that's super creative. Like you're a creative person, okay? right? That's where that's coming from. It's coming from a part of you that's super creative. I don't know if you create things in your life outside of these like crazy scenarios, right? This is where it's being funneled into like, and it sounds like crazy and stuff. But what I also see is that you are probably a creative person, right? And maybe you don't realize that about yourself and it's coming out this way in this relationship and you're doing all this stuff. Right. But that's like, to me, what I see when

you say that is that you're creative. Yeah, that you do these things. it also means you're a little, you know, crazy, and you got balls. Like you sort of think something and you have an idea. And then you actually go out and really do it. You know, so you have all these parts of yourself. And like, because you're like in this like weird place and you're acting out, it comes out in this way, right? All these things could be positive things, right? Maybe they need to be sort of, you know, funneled into like a positive area of your life as opposed to like, your sex life, right? You probably put it all there because that's where you're the most frustrated.

But I don't necessarily think that these things are that, yeah, they're nuts, but I don't see it as you being nuts. I see it as you being probably, like I said, creative, super ballsy, and, you know, a warning. You put that combination together and this is what you get. I think my biggest like thing like it could also stem from like you know I have like a huge

fantasy of just like some random stranger like and being that it was just random strangers that I was going up to like I just for some reason like you know my ultimate fantasy is like just a random business lady and

you know just me have my way you know what I mean like to have my way with somebody just randomly and like Like, it's got to be somebody that I don't know, and I haven't known for less than five minutes, you know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. But, like, is that where the escorts came into play? Is that why you go see escorts?

Because they give you that kind of experience? I mean, I feel like, you know, going into it and, like, you know, searching for them. It feels like that at first. But every time I walk out, I'm never satisfied. Like, every once in a while, like, there's the few that, you know, feel like, you know, hey, I got my money's worth. Like, that was a good experience. But, like, a lot of the times it's just, like, maybe going into it, that's what I'm feeling like, just having sex with a random stranger.

But then, like, you know, it just sometimes feels awkward. Yeah, but that's like the chasing the dragon. But I do it anyways. Right, of course, because you're hoping that it's going to be the time that it's going to be great, right? And every couple of times or every now and then it is as good as you wanted it to be, right? That's chasing the dragon. That's like, you know, but like life is never, like, 100% going to be, like, on the money, right?

I mean, that's just a part of life, but that you get, like, sort of addicted to sort of going back and trying to get that again because that fantasy hasn't been fulfilled. You should be. Yeah. I'll try to, like, you know, with the whole panty hose fetish, you know, I'll bring panty hose with me and, like, you know, thinking that it's going to help, you know, possibly, you know, fulfill my cravings. And, you know, but it never really works. You know what I mean? I just feel like it's too. rushed and you know it's like I can't do the things that I want to do like in like this is what I worry

for you okay this is what I worry for you because what happens with stuff like this and I think maybe with you is like you could get into dangerous territory because you teeter like the stuff that you do is like I mean I walk around New York City all the time if some guy came up to me and said like I want to touch your fucking leg I'd laugh in his face like I would just be like unless you're 12 like a nine you know what I mean and it's like a joke joke. Like if you're like a person and like there, I would know what you're doing and I'd be like, get the fuck away creep.

Like, you know, it would be such bullshit. But like what happened? You know, I just feel like and I don't know why this popped into my head and I don't know, but like, you know, 10 years from now you could be doing illegal things. Like it could lead this kind of like sort of obsession with things

and interest in things and you know, could lead to like sort of crossing lines and boundaries where you're not supposed to go that it could be sort of bad meaning illegal do you know what I mean that's what sometimes things you know I get paranoid that's why I haven't really done the Facebook thing lately because you know I would make you know I went through one uh account that they shut down and then another one shut down and it's just like you know it's too much work and it's like you know what if

somebody really does get offended just you know over me asking if they buy you know sell their panties you know what I mean so it's just like I'm starting to get that like feeling like you know maybe this is time that you know I should stop and just look on Craigslist or something like find somebody on Craigslist anymore did you listen like it's actually

dead in the water they canceled all the personal ads can you believe there's no section I know the personal's and all that but it still comes up under like if you just I mean I know you're a woman but like if you go on Craigslist and just type in the search bar like, you know, used panties or something like that. It'll still come up, but it's, you know, under, they usually get flagged really quick, too.

So there's not in New York City. I wish I lived in New York City because there's plenty of them there. No, they just canceled them like a week ago, though. I'm just telling you that they just canceled all the personal casual encounters. It's all gone. This happened just like last week. So I don't really know when you looked last, but I'm telling you it's a different situation. But somebody like you was going to find it anywhere, right?

You're on Facebook and you're doing it. I just think it's just like, you know, and that you're going after like, you know, your girlfriend's friends and, you know, as a strange person. Like you're, it's kind of like, you're getting into territory. You're not like close to doing something illegal, but you're on your way. Do you know what I mean? There's like, you're, you know, you're crossing people's boundaries and stuff and there's something very naughty about that and that's probably what's hot to you. But, you know, that eventually could become something that could be a problem, like I said, if it gets, bigger and you need more and then you get to a point where you're really pushing someone's boundaries

and you're doing something very illegal. Do you know what I mean? And that's where you have to worry. That's what you have to worry about, I think. Not tomorrow, but like five years from now if this is all being kept under wrap still. Because I believe something's going on here with you. You know, the craziness. You said something about you going through a bad time. At some point you were almost homeless, like, do you have a lot of shit that went down when you were younger? Like, are you one of those people? I mean, I was one of those people. I'm just wondering if me and you have a lot

in common. I mean, I got into a lot of trouble, and I guess you could say my life got pretty much put on pause for quite a few years because, you know, I was tibbling and dabbling in the drug epidemic, and, you know, I finally got

out of it, you know, the past two years, um, after I went to jail and everything. But, Right. And so why did you pick up that stuff to begin with? Okay, honestly. Like most people don't pick up and dabble that much that they wind up in jail unless, you know, they're sort of looking to that stuff to like numb a part of them because maybe they had stuff happen to them when they were younger. And I know some people don't buy into that whole, oh, when you were younger shit, but I totally buy into that. Okay. I think most people are born sort of really okay, you know, and everything, and then things are put on them, you know. And if things are put on you when you're super young that are really, fucked up. Those are the kind of people that act out with drugs and alcohol and sex and, you know, don't take that good care of themselves because they have issues, right? And that's common. That happens to a lot of people, you know, and why would you be using all those drugs to begin with? Not just for a good fucking time. You were probably trying to numb some part of you.

And if you never dealt with that, right? And you, but you had to get clean because you were in jail and now you're out of it. What you might be doing is substituting all this sex stuff. for the drugs and the alcohol. Like whatever that was doing for you, this is doing it for you now, you know? Hypochondria could do the same fucking thing. I'm an addict, right? So I understand all this stuff.

I was somebody that had to numb parts of myself, you know, and I've done, used all kinds of things. I had to quit alcohol a long time ago, but I realized before I was a drinker, before I was old enough to drink. And I'm telling you,

I started drinking at like 14, but like before that even younger, I was like a hypochondriac. I get like fucking brain tumors. It was just something to get me out of myself. to obsess on. Do you know what I mean? It was like keeping my mind sort of focused someplace else. Even if it felt terrible to be focused on what I was focused on, it was better than I guess focusing on me, you know, even though I don't, you don't think of that logically, right? That's not how

it's, but I could look back and know that, you know, and what could be going on and what goes on with sex addiction or any kind of addiction is that you're just throwing yourself into something and that is keeping you totally busy and your mind totally occupied so your mind doesn't go to to like the stuff that it's trying to avoid. And maybe that's like, you know, pain of like your childhood or stuff that sort of happened to, you know? And it sounds like you could have substituted

because a lot of people could cure one addiction and take it out, but then they do something else. You know, if you don't really sort of work on the addict part of you, which is like the damage part of you, you'll just keep picking up other things to be addicted to. You could be a little addicted to all this stuff. Maybe I'm a sex addict. Maybe I need those needs it.

But that's the problem. See, my sick mind is I want to go to these sex addicts anonymous or whatever it is and like try to pick up girls. Yeah, but they all think that. No, of course. And just so you know, you're going to see really fucking hot girls there. They're going to talk about their dirty stories and what they want. And like a lot of that goes on. But I have to tell you, you should probably just try it, right?

Like honestly, like seriously. Because what might happen, if you're in a place, because I really believe that we are like conscious people, working and we're thinking about things, but we also have like a subconscious part of us. And I do think if you're at the place in your life on some level and you might not even realize this, that you're ready to sort of work on this stuff. And I don't know if you're there yet. You would go to one of those meetings thinking that you're going to want to fuck a girl there. But you might wind up hearing something that takes you in a totally different place. And you might, it might sort of, you know, turn on some light bulbs for you and make you realize things about yourself. So you

You might just try and get, and the worst case scenario is you meet a hot girl that's really damaged in a sex addict and you fuck her in the parking lot, you know what I mean? But like, but even though that's really bad to do, but like maybe you'll go and something that you could never imagine will happen and you'll hear somebody talking and it might be somebody that's like more realized of what's going on with them and they might be talking about their experience and show you something about yourself that you didn't even realize. And it might connect the dots for you and it might be like, holy fucking shit. you might have one of those moments.

You know, that's what happens at those meetings. That's what those meetings are really good for. So you should try it out anyway. Because, like I said, what's the worst that could happen? You have a hot fantasy, you see a girl, and you jerk off to her when you get home. I don't know. I mean, like, honestly, like, I'm, you know, open to trying to figure out what it is. And, like, honestly, after listening to your show, like, I don't know why, but one day I just decided to, like,

I YouTube like like Google um sex stories you know or you know some talk radio and like somehow I came I came across quite a few of them but yours was like the most interesting one that actually like kept me like listening to more than one episode

but like I don't know like and then after listening and like hearing like other people and like I'm like wow like I feel like you know I'm a fucked up individual like because we haven't even gotten into all the other stuff I mean, we're probably almost out of time anyways, but, like, there's a lot of, like, the whole panty sniffing, how deep the actual, like, panty hose fetish goes, like, it's slight foot

fetish, but it has to be in panty hose, like. Right. And you're sniffing people. And it's just, I mean, like, trust me, there's not, when, when it comes to the panning sniffing, like, I have to know whose panties they are, like, it's got to, you know, I'm not, like, because there's different levels of it. Like, you got guys that they'll want some, like, dirty-ass nasty, looking panties and like, because I, you know, some of these websites or, you know, Facebook

groups or something and like, oh, my, here's my creamy panties for sale. And they show these, like, nasty looking panties. And it's like, to me, like, I'm not into all that. Like, I just like, you know, nice scent, like, you know, just like, I don't want you to fucking not wipe and, like, some guys have all these crazy, like, I'm not one of those. You know what I mean? But, like, I do, like, you know, sniffing, like, casually worn panties. Like, no, not like after going to the gym and having swamp ass and shit like that. So I'm going to be like graphic. Right.

But like there's some people that like really get into like, you know, putting it in places. Yeah, but let's stick to talking about you because you did say before you're talking about these other people that like your pantyose thing goes deep and you feel like it's kind of fucked up on some level. We don't have the time to get into it. But like what happens with people like you and I feel like this is very similar to myself. I could relate to people that are addicts because, like, yeah, I acted out a lot sexually and I had all these things that I did and stuff and then I cleaned myself up. But it doesn't mean that I'm not into sex at all. I think like there was two things going on, right? I was acting out sexually, but I was also like a super open-minded person that was really into sex, right? And that will come out. I don't know. I don't think that everything that you're into and the stuff that you like is completely negative and a problem, right? I think though what happens is if you have issues that are not sort of worked out yet, right? And you're, acting out and it gets involved in this. It coupled, you know, your sort of interest coupled with

your issues, then it takes it to a level where it becomes sort of overly consuming. It creates problems in your relationships. It takes up way too much time in your regular life and you're not really present for other things, you know? And that's where the problem lies. It's not so much what you're into. It's probably like the amount of time that you're into these things and the things that you're doing secretly and that kind of stuff. And I think that if you did sort of work on your issues, right, and sort of started to think maybe I'm a sex addict and go down that way, right? It's not, it doesn't mean that you would become somebody that's just into vanilla things and that's it. That's not the difference. Like, I don't think everyone that's into like hot, dirty sex is like a sex addict,

right? It just is like if somebody like you, first of all, the first sign is that you kind of think there might be a problem. Why would you think that if there isn't one? You know what I mean? And you just said a couple things. Like I was in jail. I did drugs. I was almost homeless. I mean, like, you know, that doesn't happen. Those kind of things don't happen to people that, like, you know, have a solid upbringing.

And like, let me just tell you, don't feel bad about not having a solid upbringing. Because the majority of people don't. That's just life. That's like being a human being. I would say it's 80, 20. 80% don't have a good upbringing. 20% do. So you're in the majority, okay?

It's not like a, you're so crazy or it's so sad that you have to have to, you have a, a fucked up child. It happens to a lot of people, right? Because we're raised by people that have fucked up childhood, you know, and it's just an ongoing vicious cycle. Hopefully you're not going to do the same thing to your fucking kids, right? That's just the way that it goes. Because what happens to babies and children when they're really super young affects them for the rest of their lives. So shit probably went down with you. And that's why you went into drugs and stuff. You're not a bad person. You're not, you know, but you're just doing these things that probably are not good for you or your relationship. And you should work on it. I really think. I really

think I have been to sex love addict meetings, okay? And I have to tell you, they're really fucking incredible, okay? Like, I really think you should just go and just listen. Because I think when you hear guys that, like I said, are more real, I say realized, like, I don't know what the, like, you know, that are more sort of aware of what's going on with their stuff, talking really honestly about their stuff, and you could relate to it. And there's so much like you. It really, may shine the light for you. Like it really may blow your mind or it won't. You know, it depends on, like I said, where you're at in your sort of self-discovery. I do think you have something going on that you should work on. Like I said, I don't think that it's bad the stuff that you're into. I think

you also have a compatibility problem with your girl. I think you have to keep working at it because you have kids. It's, you know, that's the right thing to do. Maybe you will wind up leaving her in the at some point. That's not selfish. Sometimes things don't work out for the rest of your life and that's okay. That's something you're going to have to get into with her. You know, you might want to go into some counseling with her together, but I think you should work on yourself first. And I think meetings are free and they're good.

The biggest thing with as far as like the relationship goes, like, like, I know she's like probably like one of the most, she's always had my back no matter what, you know, I was going through. And not only that, but, like, I make the money in the household. You know, she struggles making money. So if I just left, it would make it impossible for her. And, like, I personally can't take the kid, like, you know, with my work schedule, as you know. Like, it's always all over the place.

Like, we were trying to get what we've been emailing for the past two weeks. Yeah. Uh-huh. But, you know what I mean? So, like, she'd be stuck with the kids. Listen, I don't not. I would never recommend for someone to, like, leave. they're really, and maybe this is backwards, but I always say I'm not a fucking therapist, I don't know,

but I would never say to somebody that has issues with themselves to like, especially in your situation. If you didn't have anything going on and this was just a girl you were dating, you guys were in high school, I'd be like, fucking leave her, you know, but there are all these things that you're talking about involved in this, right? So I would never say to leave that relationship. No way, that's like 10th on your list. That's like a couple years from now. But what you have to do first before you even do that is work on yourself. Because how do you know if you didn't sort of work on things that like things with her would be different. You just don't know, right? Your sort of sex and how you act out and that is like all fucked up because it's stuff with you.

It has nothing to do with her. So I think right now what you should focus on is yourself. And then you could take care of working on your relationship. But I don't think you need to do anything right now on that because like I said, it is so complicated and stuff. But you should work on yourself and try to figure that shit out. A for you. And, And then B, it'll be for your relationship and it's also for your kids. Yeah. Oh, right, right. I get it.

Uh-huh. Right. Olders, that's what I'm saying. Like, a couple of years could make a difference. And I really don't think that, you know, and your guys are super young. Like, you have to work on that and you got to do more work. But I think that you doing all the stuff behind her back and her being suspicious about you and then you being suspicious about her because you know what you're fucking doing.

So then you become suspicious on her because you're projecting your shit. shit. None of this is helping your relationship. So you have to work on your sort of cheating and all the shit that you're doing behind her back and stuff before you could even expect for your relationship to get better because all the stuff that you're doing does not help even though she doesn't know about it. Do you know what I mean? None of this is helping. And then when you're fucked up person, it's hard to have like a 100% great relationship. So you need to start doing something and looking at the reasons why you did all those drugs to begin with. Why you're, you. You're a fucking up. You wound up in jail, like, why all this stuff happened to you?

I mean, the God's honest truth, which I know it doesn't make a difference, you know, because of all the times that I have done it. But, like, I've been kind of, like, steering away from the escort thing. I mean, I still, I mean, I've done it recently. Right, but you're steering away. I get it. Okay. But, like, it used to be, like, you know, I mean, at one point, like, it was almost like,

you know, if I had the money, I'd do it, you know, and I have. I keep doing it until I saw that, you know, okay, now I just have enough just to pay my bills. So now I got to stop for the week until, you know, I get another paycheck. And like, it was bad like that for a while. Then it turned into like, you know, once or twice a week. And like, now it's like, you know, I just, you know, it sounds kind of, you know, you might laugh. But like, I'll just like, if I'm really thinking about it, like, I won't even look at back page. I won't even like, you know, look at it.

I'll just like watch porn and jerk off. And like that, it'll, for that, you know, split second, it'll be out of my mind. And,

like, that's enough time for me to get in my car and drive home, you know, but I laugh at that. I think that that's a really smart solution to, like, your thing.

I think that's a lot better than going and seeing an escort in real life. Get it out like just as a fantasy. Like, that's a smart thing to do. That's not funny. That's good. I always go in and it's like, okay,

whatever. Sometimes, you know, you'd spend $100 or $150. And it's not even that good, right? That's what you're saying. And then you walk out, like, I could have spent that $100 on something else. Right.

So, you know what I mean? But you're smart. So jerk off and then do you still want to go pay the $150? No, you're done. So it's like, that's like, I think that that's really, actually really good. That's what you should do with all your things. And like, there was a certain point where, like, you know, because you see some of the same girls on there.

So, like, I was trying. But, like, there was just one. specific girl that never answered the phone and like my I would you know once a week I would try like okay she's gonna answer the phone this time because like she's just like you know it was just you know I don't know if I it would the body types of pictures like whatever you get a little obsessive about some things that's so yeah yeah and I kept calling and calling and like you know I'm like you know I'm not gonna go unless she you know if she calls if she answers today then I'll just go only go see her but then like she doesn't answer and I'll end up calling somebody else and like you know what I mean like

and I'll talk myself into somebody else and it's just like you know wait would I'm just you know starting to realize like you know I can't keep doing this because you know money goes quick when you start doing shit like that and I got kids and you know other responsibilities yeah and I'm dying to know about all the stuff that happened before you wind up in jail like I mean but listen would you be interested in doing a part two and like giving me a little bit more backstory on your stuff and Maybe we could do like initial like therapy session to get you sort of like on your way into really thinking about like the hardcore stuff in your life. If not, I totally understand. But I think it would be interesting.

I mean, the only thing is the schedule thing. That's okay. It doesn't matter. We do. No, I don't care. I'm always taping people. It doesn't fucking matter when I tape it. It's a as long as you're open to it, we'll do it again.

You know what I mean? Because I really feel like you need that. I think eventually you need a real therapist or you need these meetings. you know, go to a sex addict meeting, I think it would really help. But I would love to go deeper into, like, all that stuff leading up to the jail time. Because I think that's where what you need to be talking about and sort of thinking about as opposed to all this crazy sex stuff. You know what I mean?

I think sometimes I cock block the sex stories for my podcast, right? But, like, I think. I know, right? Like, I was just so ready to get it out. And I'm like, wow, I got some shit for these people. Right, but no, but like, but listen, you still listen to all my episodes and a lot of times things turn different ways, right? Because it's like, I really like helping people. And I think that like, and I think it winds up to be a more interesting podcast when it turns out like this, you know? So like I would love to get even more interesting and hear the other stuff and keep you talking about the right things. I think you need to talk about the deeper things that are going on as opposed to the surface stuff. Because I think like all the sex stuff is just, you know, uh, a symptom of like the real problems. And I'd love to sort of explore those

and then like send you off on your way to go get real help. But let's do it. Since you're open to it. And I think that'll be like a really interesting part too. It's like we were going backwards. She's mentioned, you know, thinking that I have a problem with sex and stuff like.

So I mean, it wouldn't even be that hard to be like, hey, listen, you know, maybe you're right. She would be so happy. She'd be so happy. Women just want. Women always want their guys to be better. Like, she would be so happy. The thing that scares me, though, is, like, I like it too much.

And, like, I don't know. You don't want to let go of it. I get it. Because it's so satisfying. I feel like, you know, if I did go and get help, then it's just going to, we're going to be under, like, I just feel like anything that the therapist says, it will be under the microscope. And, like, you know, it's just going to, you know what I mean?

Like, I don't know. I don't think you're, I don't think you know. Uh-uh. It's not like that. Don't worry about that. We'll talk about that on the next podcast. I'll explain to exactly the way that it goes, no, it's great. It's like one hour all about you.

It's not under the microscope at all. A good therapist doesn't push you to go places you don't want to. It's all on your terms. You don't have to worry about it being uncomfortable. If you're with the wrong person and a lot of them are wrong, it might feel uncomfortable. But when you're with the right person, it won't feel that way at all, okay? It'll be great because it'll be all about you for an hour and you'll be able to take it. and not every single time will be under the microscope.

Sometimes you're just going to be talking about your fucking day. And it's really great to have somebody that's who could help you out. But every now and then, you go a little deeper. And over time, you figure out all the stuff about yourself. And it really helps. So I think you don't really understand how it works. And it's not a bad thing. It's a great thing, actually.

I don't know why everyone doesn't do it. But I think a meeting for you would be really great. So let's decide to check in and start figuring out when we're going to talk again. and I want to talk about like other stuff with you. And hopefully maybe by then you'll have gone to meeting and we could talk about that. If not, we'll talk about you going to meeting then. But like try to go to a meeting in the meantime. One sex addict.

Yes. Seriously. Just do it. Just do it. I know there's a couple around you. Like I've looked at like the only. Oh, it's so interesting. Even if you, like I said, there's two ways it could go for you.

You're either going to get horny and go home and jerk off or pick up a girl or you might have a light bulb go off. I'm very curious what happens. I don't know it's 50-50, but there's no way you will, there's no way you're going to come back and say I was bored. Do you know what I mean? You're going to have an experience. I don't know what it's going to be, but it's going to be interesting. Do you understand?

So just please go and then we're going to talk about it and talk about your fucking jail time and all the drugs you did. All right. All right, Kevin. Trying to talk soon. We're going to do a part two. This is part one. We're going backwards. All right.

Yeah, I'll keep in touch your email. Okay. Well, thanks for calling. We'll talk soon. Bye, Kevin. All right. No problem. Bye.

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