Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 308 - Lauren is a Young Crossdresser Addicted to BBC

Episode Date: November 4, 2019

Lauren is living a very secret life as a young crossdresser who is is addicted to BBC (big black cock). How long has he been crossdressing? Why and how does he keep his crossdressing life a secret? When did he first start hooking up with guys and where does he meet them? Tune in for the details plus hear all about the first guy he met while crossdressing and how that relationship helped him, his many sugar daddies and how much he has made from them, the cop he recently started hooking up with and the guy who peed inside him, how he's been dating his girlfriend of three years and how he feels about her and a whole lot more. *If you'd like to contact Lauren, please email [e-mail]. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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anonymous podcast on Instagram or Twitter, follow the show at Strict Anonymous. Today I have on a girl, a young cis cross-dresser named Lauren. Now this guy named Lauren, who is a guy in his regular life, but in his secret life, which is a very major, secret life. He's a young sissy crossdresser. That was like the subject of his email to me. And we talk a really long time. I literally, it was like so sad because he saved one of his best stories. I mean, the whole story is like really fascinating. All the stuff that we talk about was really interesting. But towards the end, he came to this other story that was really fucking interesting that included like a cop and a BBC. I mean, we say the word BBC so many times on this

podcast. You should play that drinking game where every time you hear BBC, you take a shot, you'll be fucking wasted by the end of the episode because that's his favorite thing is BBC. But his last story involves a cop and his BBC and their sort of hot relationship. And I kind of like had to rush him along because we were already at like an hour and a half. It was like craziness. But there's so many other interesting stories that happened before that. I mean, this is a guy who's got a girlfriend who at night without his parents knowing because he still lives at home with his mom and he's still, he's been dating his grown for a long time. Nobody has any fucking clue that he is Lauren, that he dresses up, goes out and picks up tons of guys. He's into BBC,

like I said. He gets paid for it. He turned it into a little fucking business and he's really cute. I don't know. There's something about him that makes me want to hug him when you hear his voice. I don't know. I just really liked him. But like I said, I had to cut him off at the end and I feel so bad. But anyway, he talks, like I said, all about all the stories like, when he started cross-dressing, how he gets away with it, who he's dated, the relationships he's had, how he started charging for it. And why he keeps it a big, fat secret, because his family is, he explained like his family's total disapproval of that kind of lifestyle and why he has to keep it a secret. And I don't understand how he's going to because he's super young.

But he's a pretty much a fucking professional secret lifer. So anyways, I'll be right back on with Lauren. So Lauren, you're a male, right? Can I say that? Right? Like your name is Lauren, right? We're using that because that's your cross-dressing name, right? You're like a secret cross-dresser who thinks that they're straight yet you fooled around with guys, which is always the most fascinating part of the conversation for me because I've heard it a million times. You're not the only one. Right? Yes. Yes. I actually am a cross-dresser. They call me Lauren in my cross-dressing body. My girl, body. Yeah. Um, yeah. You could call me Lauren. Yeah, no, but I mean, you do though, like you do hook up with guys, but you do consider yourself and you dress up as a woman, right? And when you're dressed up as a woman, you do hook up with guys, but you consider yourself straight, right? Yes. I actually, when I dress up like a woman, I feel like a

head to toe woman. Because I actually love it. I mean, but in my other world. You could say I live in two different worlds. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But I consider myself straight, though, because at night, that's when the cross-dressing comes out. You know, I kind of sneak out and just want to feel like a girl here and then. But my daytime, it's our strength. Like, nobody has ever found out that I cross-stress or don't even have a hint of it or nothing.

Right. Interesting. Like nobody would ever have a clue. No one has a clue. And let me ask you this though, like, because you say during the day, you're like straight at night, you're cross-dressing you're with guys. Like are you, do you also have girlfriends or are you married? Like what?

I mean, you're super young, only 21, right? So do you have girlfriends? Yes. I actually been dating my girlfriend for about going to be three years now. Oh my God. And she has no idea? No idea at all. Holy shit.

And if she found out, like, Like, would she be totally shocked because you don't, like you said, you don't show any signs of it? Yeah. Wait, but wait. So do you, like, okay, so you're, you know, you've been dating a girl for three years. So when you've been dating someone for that long, you're, like, really ammeshed in their life, right? So when do you have time to be Lauren? Like, when do you do it?

Like, where does she think you are? Yes. Well, I'd be telling her when, well, when I'm going to drive. up and go out or whatever. I'd be telling her I'm going to stay overtime at work or, yes, I have a side job or anything like that. Yes. And she's never caught you.

I mean, because that's not to me like. No. So you say I'm working late or I'm doing something else and she just totally buys it and you do your thing and let go out and she's never caught you. Yes, never. I'm very, very discreet. Like, I'm, like, I've been doing these cross-stress me years before I got with my girlfriend. Uh-huh.

So I'm a little sneaky with it, you could say, like, very, very, because I take that, like, my life. Because, remember, I consider myself straight, though, like, that's my, that's me. Right. But when I dress love or, yeah, I'm, like, a total girl, like, total bottom. Oh, my God. That's so hilarious. It's so interesting. It's like a different category that I think a lot of people, like, like everyone nowadays is talking about transgender, right?

And those are people like who were maybe born a woman, but they want to be a man, right? And so they just totally cross over into the other side. And that's, they just want to be the other person, right? Like they want to be the opposite sex of whatever they are, right? Someone like you, and I had another color on recently, Kaley, who liked to also be a woman sometimes, right? Did you listen to her? Yeah. It was very similar to you, right?

in that you like to be both. It's not like you prefer one or the other. Like, it's not like you're a transgender who feels like it's not like you're not a man, right? That you were supposed to be a woman. You like to be both. Is that true? Is that right? Yes.

I love to be both. But like if I wasn't as close as my family, how I am or like, you know, scared of the fact that anybody close to me will find out anything. And I would so turn it to transgender. Oh, you would. Okay. So I'm wrong. So it is. Yes.

So you do feel more like a girl, but because of like you said so many, there's so much baggage attached to sort of giving up your maleness, right? And becoming a woman that you just do it on the side or like live this double life. Right. Right. Right. That makes more sense. Yeah.

Like, yeah. I mean, I had a lot of chances of. of turning into transgender. Like, due to my cross-dressing time, like, I met a few guys,

all the guys and stuff that they promised me, like, they swear to me, like, oh, turn a transgender, you look so cute,

beautiful face, beautiful body. Yeah. You already look like a total girl when you're cross-dressed, like, you know? Yeah. He's like,

I'll pay for everything. I'll pay for everything. Oh my God, hilarious. Like older men that are like into your young, like having you as their girl. Yes, yes. It's weird, but not weird because I like it at the same time. But it's weird because I wish I was able to do or take the offers. Yeah.

And you would like, so you would give up your whole like straight side of you or that life to just be a woman all the time. Yes, I would. I actually would. I actually would, but once again, like, I keep that in head that I can't. Because of your family and everything. Let's go back a little bit because I know that you said in the email to me that you started, like you remember as far back to when you were seven, right? And you used to start trying on like your mom's like panties and clothing and stuff, right?

And that's like when you remember it sort of started to percolate in for you. Yes. Yes. It started around when I was like seven years young. Like my mom would go to work. She'll go to work and stuff or I'll get early from school or even before school. Like I didn't even know what like sex was to tell you the truth. I didn't, you know, I'm seven years old.

So they just started like, oh, I want to wear my mom's panties. I see how I look. Right. And like little stuff like that. Like, you know, and then I started. growing around the age of I was young it was like 16

I was 16 when I started well I got from 7 to 16 I started wearing more clothes and feeling myself because I look real good in a in girls clothes you know and so

so I posted a post on Craigle's I posted a post on Craigleys. I posted a post on Craigle's I put young, young bubble bud. Bubble bud? Is that what you said? Yes.

Oh, my God. And I put pictures up there, pictures and then proof of videos and stuff. Now, I've never been with a guy in that time, though, while I'm posting the post on Craigs. Right. How old were you again? So I'm 16. 16. Okay, go on.

16. So, so I started getting a lot, a lot of research. replies like a lot. I thought, well, in the post, it was, I'm 21 years young, young bubble, but, you know, I was insane. I was 16. Um, so I started getting a lot of replies, emails and stuff. And, um, well, I was so tempting of just meeting someone out of all of them, but then when I was like on my way, like, I was dressed up like at one in the morning and my mom's, I'll sneak out, you know, dress up in the basement and walk out. And, Once I was halfway down the street, I'll just back off.

I'll run away from me. Right. You know, I was scared of all types of ways. Yeah, of course. So, yeah. And so I started posting for like the next week, like two more weeks. And I met this guy. He replied.

He wrote a real long paragraph with pictures or phone number and like, you know, call me, video call me so we could see it's real. I'm not trying to fuck. I'm not trying to, you know, I'm just trying to take care of a little sissy. Oh, interesting. Okay. So that was a little bit maybe more safe for you, right? Yes, definitely.

And he was older. He was, what was he, 42? Okay. Yes, he was 42. He was like six, two, a real big husky guy. And he was black. He was black. Okay.

Yes. And so, yeah. Yeah, we ended up hanging out one time. He told me, oh, you could meet me two blocks down at the alley of Subway. That's where my mom lived, like, two, you know. And so I met him. I walked over with her, and he was real nice. He was real nice.

We did not fuck the first day. He made me feel so comfortable. He was talking about like, oh, do you want me to go far? We could drive an hour, two hours away. you don't have to dress up right here, you know, like, I'll drive off so you could dress up. Oh, right. Okay. Yeah.

So he made me feel so comfortable. Yeah. And, well, he became my best friend for all these years now, like five years now. Yeah. That's great. Oh, yeah. That was very considerate and thoughtful of him, you know, to really be sort of thinking of things from your point of view, right?

Like to be making it more comfortable for you. more safe for you, all those things. You know, instead of being like a typical guy, because like, you know, that just is fucking wants their dick sucked. Do you know what I mean? Or like it just is more thinking about themselves. It is very rare that you meet. I mean, I'm a girl, so I date guys, so I know how they are.

Like, you know, I'd love to meet a guy like that guy too who's like thinking about me over themselves. It's like, man. It's nice of him. Yeah, yeah. I met the right one. I said I met the perfect, the perfect one. because like after him, we ended up having sex and whatnot.

That's how I fell in love with black cock. Yeah. No, I'm, yeah, I'm Latin half white, so I kind of be scared too. It's like mess around with Latin, so it's nothing major like that. You're kind of scared in what you say? Yes, I don't know. Why? I feel like, I don't know.

I just don't know. Like, I've never, ever messed around with someone my race. Like, it's not, it's not, they're so cute. I mean, I've played around with them and everything. But, like, I don't know. I just couldn't, couldn't do nothing further than that with them. How come? I don't know.

It's because, like, I don't know. They remind me of, like, I don't know, like, it's a closer, it's closer for them to know somebody. It's a small world now, you know? Oh, okay. So it's a safety issue of getting busted. Okay, I understand that. I thought it was like some other thing else.

I was like I couldn't even understand what it would be. Oh, okay, because it's like you're afraid of getting busted. Like someone knows. Yeah, and that's smart. You're smart for that because you know what? You never know, right? Yes. Right?

So it's smart that you go totally out of, you know, the beat on the beaten path. So you like, what do they call it, BBC, Big Black Cock? BBC, Big Black Cock. Yeah. And then they, I mean, they love me because I literally look like a, like a girl, you know. I'm 5'5. I wait like 1.305.

And I'm like super big, super big. And I'm not like any cross-roessor. Like I heard it on, I heard a show. episode on your show about how they be dressing up and just like making us little bad and et cetera, you know, like they don't know how to paint themselves and stuff.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, there was one, right, who really, and I didn't he sent me a picture and I gave him advice on it? Is that the one? I don't know. There was one that actually sent me pictures and I never look at pictures,

but he really wanted me to so that I could give him advice and I sort of broke my rules for him and I didn't give him some advice, but I normally never, I mean, that's the one time out of five years I ever looked at someone's picture. Oh, wow. Yes, I mean, it takes time in years. Yeah.

For you to, like, actually look the way you want to look and practice, you know, confidence. But you've got it down. Uh-huh, yes. So you look, you were saying you look really good to these guys, right? You're like, you're thick and you know how to put yourself together. Yes. Yes, definitely. Right. Definitely.

And now when you're with. Like when you were with that guy, the BBC guy, the first time, was it like, you know, like the greatest experience like when you had? I'm sorry. When you had sex with him? Yes. I didn't satisfy myself with a big black cock. So, yes, and since he was nice and stuff, now, once again, we didn't, we didn't do nothing. Like, those first days.

Yeah. But the day came down, yes, because he was so sweet. He, like, he was very understandable that I, like, never had sex with my butt. So he took his time. I love the way you talk. You're very cute to me. I don't know how you're saying. Oh, my God.

Thank you. Thank you. Sorry, go on. Yeah. He, yeah, he was very slow with it. And, like, he did not fuck me. the day he actually started playing with me. Right.

Playing with me, you know, he was on some, oh, I'm going to take care of this. This is mine. I'm a looser to birds and this, that. So that got me so naughty and making me feel like a tall girl, you know? Yeah. Like he fell in love type of thing because I wasn't the one trying to get fucked either right away. So I guess he liked that too. Yeah, yeah.

Interesting. Uh-huh. That worked for the both of you. Yeah. And so, yeah, we ended up fucking, I loved it. I really, really loved it. He ended up taking pictures of being, like, dressed up and, like, making me feel so girly. Uh-huh.

And, yeah, we ended up messing around for, like, literally nonstop for, like, like, like, eight months to a year, probably. When did he find out that you were, actually 16 and not 21. Yes. He found out I was 16 like, like a few months later when he tried taking me to this trendy show club. So it's like a gay club, you could say.

Uh-huh. He convinced me we went like to the next day for me. Yeah. Which is like two hours laterly. And, yeah, right, right there. that's when And was he freaked out or was he okay with it Because you guys knew each other for so long at this point

No He was No Not really Not really what He wasn't freaked out He was okay with it He wasn't freaked out

Okay that's cool Yeah he wasn't freaked out So we ended up right there And We started having some, oh, no, no, no, we ended up getting right there. He, we ended up getting right there. And he's like, oh, take your ID out.

Take your ID out. I'll give it to the guy. Oh, and he knew the bouncer, though. He knew the bouncer. Yeah. He knew the bouncer before I keep going. He knew the bouncer of the club. So that's when I'm like, oh, I forgot to tell you.

I do not have no ID. This is dad. Yeah, yeah. He didn't freak out. he was so calm, like, oh, it's okay, calm down. Like, you know, he's like, can I ask you something? And then that's like, yeah. And then he's like, he's like, I kind of figure you're not 21.

Oh, okay. So he already had a clue that maybe you were 21 anyway. I actually, yeah, I mean, he had to know. I was 16 baby things. Right. I'm sure he knew the way I act probably. I mean, not immature, right? but I'm sure you could tell

when someone younger. Yeah. But he obviously liked young girls. Yes. Right? I mean, come on. Right.

That's what he was looking for. Yeah. Yeah. So he kind of got me off guard when he told me. I figured you're not 21. You're younger.

I'm like, I'm like, no, he's like, how old are you? I'm, like, don't worry. How old are you? And I was in a title. like 18, 19, like all types of numbers were running and that. And then I just, since I was kind of feeling him. Yeah.

Since I was kind of feeling him, I told him. Right. I'm like, yeah. And he, I know he did freak out of the inside of him. But he didn't show it though. Right. You know, like to remain me real calm. Mm-hmm.

That's, that was his, that's his style, right? That's what makes them so great for you. I mean, yeah, that made me feel like, oh, wow. And he's like, don't worry, sit in the car, and I'm going to talk to the guy at the door. So he went and then he, like, 10 minutes passed and he just waits his hand down for me to go. And we went through a side door, actually. And, yeah, that's how I ended up in my first club and him finding out. Right.

Let me ask you this. Was he married or, like, what was his deal? Was this a secret kind of thing for him? as well? Yeah, he lived with his mother. Uh-huh. With his mother, his father passed away,

so he moved with his father. No, with his mother, so he could help her. Right, right, right. You know, he passed away, and she didn't know nothing, nobody knew nothing. I mean, he did have friends. He do have friends that are gay.

Like, I'm assuming, like, friends that don't know his family. Right, yeah. His mom is all he has. So he, I could consider. him straight, like real straight, because, I mean, I don't even know what to describe him, because he is straight, like, when we're in bed and everything. Like, he's a total top. Yeah.

But he takes me out, though, to dress up and stuff without being embarrassed or nothing. So I don't know. Right, right, right. Like, he's not hiding that. I mean, he could be straight, right, and just don't care because he feels like he real-life. has a girl like I real life feel like I have a man. Yeah, but let me ask you when you guys are fooling around.

So like he'll never blow you or anything like that. Like because you're the girl, you're the woman, right? Yes, never, never, ever. Like, the most he's done was probably touched my dick. Yeah.

Like literally 10 seconds. Right, right, right. Yeah. And that's it. Like that said, he just eats me out and fucks me. Right. Interesting. Okay. And so for you, how do you get off? Like, I mean, are you, do you, like, jerk off while he's doing all that stuff? Or could you get off like that a prostate, like, massage, like? I could actually just buzz without even, if the date's so good, I'll buzz without even touching myself.

You will. You can get it just from the anal sex, right? Yes, just by the anal flight. Right, right, right. Like, yeah, it has to hit my guts. Right, but it works, but that works. But yes, but it works. So let me ask you this when you're, so you're hooking up with that guy, right? You're doing this all in the down low.

Do you, are you at the same time, like, experiencing, like, sex with women, too for the first time? Not for the, not for the first time. I actually experienced a woman when I was, like, 14. When you were 13. 14. 14. Okay. So you were with women.

Did you enjoy it? I, I loved it. I love it. You love it. You love women. Yes. I'm a total cop when I mess around with a woman.

I take over control and like I fuck like I would want to be fucked. Right. Right. Interesting. Right. Because you know. Right. But so you, so you equally, but so you are really into women too, right?

So, like, maybe if you were transgender, would you still be with women or and just be gay with women? I don't know. That would be confusing. Yes. If I would be a transgender, I would actually be with a guy. Yeah. Like, I'll turn into a bully time girl, woman, you know. Uh-huh.

I wouldn't mess around with a woman. I mean, it's in the scene one day, you know, like, it pops out of nowhere. Maybe, yes, definitely. Right. But for me to be looking for a girl with stuff, no, I'll probably be embarrassed for them to find out that I'm actually a guy. Right, right, right. So you would stick with it. No, I'm just wondering because you do obviously enjoy women, right?

So you like tits and pussy and all those things that women have as well. And you say, right? Yes. And so when you were started with that guy, right, since you had already been with women, did you have a girlfriend at that time, too? or no? Yes, yes. I had a girlfriend. I had a girlfriend,

not for a long term, right? I was seeing somebody at the time. Yeah. I was. She wouldn't suspect anything at all. Either, right? Yeah, at all, at all. Like, nobody, nobody has found out anything.

You're good. You're a professional because it's like, I mean, to me, like you said, like you walk out of your mom's house, like dressed up as a girl. Like, I feel like, what if a neighbor's looking out the window and see you. Yeah. Like,

I don't know how you didn't get caught at some point. Right. Maybe I did get caught somebody at me. You know, I always told watching. They probably didn't say anything. Right. They probably like,

oh, look, that's this neighbor we have. Right. Do you have brothers or sisters? Yes. I have two sisters and one brother. Now, did you always wear their stuff too

when you were little? Yes, definitely. You did? Yes, I would. They would be so mad. Who's taking my panties? I can't find my panties. I had them somewhere in the porch.

Where do you hide them? In the porch, one of the basement ports. Okay, so you had a specific hiding spot for them? Yes, yes, I would. And then, like, guys that I met and stuff, you know, like, after that one guy, they would buy me stuff and buy me clothes, taking New York. They would just buy the clothes and bring you. to me like here I would love you to where it is then.

So where do you keep all that stuff? In the basement. There was like my little secret cave right there. Right. Your sis cave. So you would and you would keep all your stuff down there that all these guys would buy you. What were you on a scale? Let me ask you this.

Scale of one to ten, right? As a guy, right? As whoever you know, your guy name would be, right? Who you are. What are you considered on a scale of one to ten as a male? a male. I am like a aid. I do get a lot of, I do get a lot of 10 simple women. Okay. And then as a woman, as Lauren, what are you scale of 1 to 10 as Lauren? Like a 8 also. I look actually better as a girl. So I would say 8 and a half.

Can't exaggerate, you know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, but that's, that's it. Like an 8. You know, I look like a total, total woman. Like I could fit any little clothes. Yeah. But let me ask you this. How did you learn? I mean, for other people listening, because you said, like, I've heard some other people on your show that didn't really

maybe put themselves together, but you really know how to. How did you figure that out? Or why are you so great at it and other people aren't? Like, I, like, as far as putting yourself together, like, you say, like, you know, like, because you really could look like, a girl and you really know how to put yourself together and look good. Like, where did you learn that? I learned that actually alone.

Actually, yeah, by just doing it every other day at home, you know. And before I even met the guy that I first met and messed around with, I would sneak out my house, like I would say, you know. Yeah. And just walk around, walk around, get beat, that, you know. and trying to get picked up like you need a right. Like, you know, and it was just like time, time started practice, practice inside the house and speaking out at night, you know, and then messing around with this guy. Once I met him, he made me feel so comfortable and, like, made me lose the scariness I had in me, you know, like.

But how did you figure out the makeup? The makeup? YouTube tutorials. So YouTube tutorials. That's what I was thinking. Yeah. YouTube tutorials. and then I would always, like I grew up, eyeballing my sisters.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. You know, and then, you know, I'm joking around. Let me do your makeup or let me do your makeup, you know, and they always thought that it was just funny. They never expected nothing for me. Yeah, yeah. And then once I would do it, though, finish it, you know, obviously, wouldn't come out perfect, you know.

And once they leave, I would have. go into cabinet and just making brushes. Right. You would take stuff from them too. Yeah. I've been putting makeup since 16. Five years now. Right. So I'm pretty good at it. Like, so good. Do you still live at home or do you live with your girlfriends?

I live at home. Right. Okay. So you don't live with her. So it's not like she could ever find your stash of stuff. Yes. No, no. I mean, she do sleep over here and there, but no. No. she wouldn't be able to find that. But let me ask you this. When it comes down, we've got to go back more to your, like, history too,

but like when it comes down with your girlfriend, right, you're dating her for three years, you're 21. You know, say four years from now, if you're still with her, you're with someone else. Or like, when you start to get a little older and if you never switch over, right, some girl's going to want to, like,

get married and have kids, right? Like, is that something that you see for yourself and you just feel like you'll just always keep this as a secret sort of side thing? I would have to stay as a guy. Yeah. You know, like, because my family's actually, like, very ill into gay people, you could say, you know,

and they get that. Yeah. You know, they dislike that, like, 100%. Right, so forget about it. Yeah, as much as I would want to, I would. Right. I would have to remain a guy. So you see yourself getting married, having kids with some woman at some point one day,

and then just always sort of doing this on the side? Like, that's just what you've accepted. Yes. I actually, I mean, if I do get married one day, years later or whatnot, I mean, I don't think the sissiness is ever going to go away from me. Right. You know, like, because I believe that's just in me because I've been. trying that since I was seven years old. Yeah, before, like you said, even before you even were like a sexualized being.

Like you, it was just something that you put on out of, you know, so it was, it's just a part of who you are for sure. Right. Yeah. So that's never going to go away, right? But like, I feel like people your age are so much more open minded. Like maybe at some point you could meet a girl that would be. Okay, but would that not work for you?

I don't know. I don't know. Yeah, I actually wouldn't mind that. You know, like, I wouldn't mind that because they would know what I am. If I was a transgender and finding something like that would be hard, you know. So I'm actually, I mean, yeah, I would like that. I would like that. And I know there's women like that out here.

Yeah, probably. I mean, they're probably. I just think in your generation, there's more of a chance of finding somebody that would be open to it. I mean, that would be the ideal thing for you, right, so that you don't have to live a double life because you're only 21.

What are the odds that you could live the rest of your life with this secret without getting busted? I just feel like you eventually, because like it's not like you're 50 and you just started, I don't know, like, like it's, and you do,

let me ask you this. How often do you, you live life as Lauren, right? Is this something that you, like, go and hook up with guys and dress up, like, once a month? Is it more than that, or is it, like, a couple times a year? Yes, it's weekly. So you do it a lot? Yeah, like, maybe twice a week.

You know, it's a big thing. Twice a week. And now let me ask you this. Are you seeing, like, one guy or do you hook up with multiple guys, like, what's your deal with men? After the years passed for me, that guy, yes, I got with multiple. Uh-huh.

How long did you date that guy for? Well, it wasn't really like a dating thing. It was just like a messing around thing. Yeah. Like eight months, 10. Uh-huh. Like, yeah. And I mean, we still kept messing around,

but it wasn't as often no more. Right. You know, like he was. would rather hook me up with someone that he knew that I was interested in. Like, he knew what type of guys I liked. Yeah. So he passed you on. Yes.

Uh-huh. Yes, he did. And after I lose all the scariness, you know, like, I just went on by myself. And then you started to meet guys on your own. Yes. And they were all black. Right. Always. So it's always BBC's now. That's all you hook up with. Always.

Oh, interesting. How do you meet them now? Like at clubs or like where do you go? Like how do you meet the guys now? Because there's no Craigslist, right? Yeah, yeah. I go downtown like certain clubs, you know, like gay clubs. Yeah. And then I'd be just networking right there. Right. Okay. And you can never bring people back to where you are, right? So where do you guys get busy? Like do people get hotel rooms? Do you fucking cars? Like, I mean, where do you guys? They'll do whatever. Right. So if they have to sneak me in, which I don't like, sneaking in nobody's house. If they what? They will. Like if they will have to, like some guys, if they had like I bump it to do guys that if they have to get me in the house in order to, for them to get on it.

penny. Yeah. They will sneak me in, but I prefer not. So they don't mind pain. For the hotel. Right. Right. Yes.

Because it's kind of like a hot commodity to find somebody. Maybe you to get down with them, right? And you're young and you look good. Right. Yeah. Yeah. Like, yeah. Yeah.

Like everything just started me liking me type of stuff. You know, like. And then like the more guys. I met, like, they would give me so many offers. Like, you know, without me even looking for no offers. Right. Meaning, like, offers for what? For sex?

Yes. Yes. Right. And, like, just donating money, that stuff, you know? And, um... What does that mean, donate money? You're like, you get, you have, like, sugar daddies? I actually do.

I do. I do. I do. Tell me about that. How does that deal go? I mean, I know how it works for, you know, men with women. Is it the same thing? Like, you have some guys and they, like, how much do you, how much do they give you?

And, like, what's the set out? Like, what's the arrangement? There's not really a price for it, you know, because I'm not asking. Like, I do it because I want to do it. But, like, I met this older guy. He was, like, 55, 56. Uh-huh. BBC.

Almost 50. Yeah. Yeah. BBC. He was married, had like five kids, a huge house. Like, he owned his own network company. Uh-huh. And he had, like, so much money. And, like, my intentions weren't for his money. Right, right, right. But I kind of started noticing he had money once he would pull up with, like, a Mercedes van today. Next week with an Audi. And, like, very expensive stuff, you know, like a lot of jewelry. And, but I wouldn't really pay mind to it. you know, like me, just being me, Lauren, a fissig girl.

Yeah. Made him just like me, you know, like, oh, you do my, like, you do what my wife don't do. Oh, this pussy's tighter than hers. And, you know, like. That's because it's not a pussy. Right. Call it a boy pussy. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And, yeah, he, every time, like, it's the same. thing, like, we didn't fuck the first, the first time. Like, we got to me, I don't know, it's just not me, but you know what? That attracts, like, nine out of ten guys that I, like, I meet, you know? Like, I'm not, it's not that I'm hard to get, but I am hard to get. Yeah, yeah, you play. You play a little bit of a game. Yeah, yes, yes, you know, like, since it works in my, and my benefit, you know, benefits me.

And, well, this guy, he, like, the second time I hung out with him, you know, like, I started just jerking him off, you know. He just pulled my leg in the down. Like, I have a huge ass, so that's what he liked. And he, we were just playing around, you know. He was fingering me and stuff. And he had a huge cock, like, like, the size from my wrist, like, like, my nail to my elbow type of thing.

Right, right, right. Yeah, he had like the 12 inch maybe, you know, real big. And he would just, like, it was impossible for him

to fuck me even though he got me loose before he even tried to fuck me, like, he'll just play with his cock in my, in my ass, and like,

it took a while for him to actually fuck me the right way, you know? Right. But after that one time that we actually were playing and stuff,

he wanted, Like, oh, because I got there in an Uber. Uh-huh. I got there in an Uber. And he actually, like, no, I'll give you a right home. Don't spend your money. I'll give you a right home. I'm like, okay, great.

Just got me off a block away. He's like, okay, so we went. You know, I was still horny on their way over there. So I was just jerking him off and just playing with myself with my, with my anal. Yeah. And, and once I got off,

he just gave me, like he had a lot of 20s in his hand, like a lot. And then he's like, here you tell you, I'm, no, no, don't do that,

this, that, like, I'll see you tomorrow, just take me out, take me out somewhere for, for some drinks or something, you know,

let's get something to drink and just go to the lake late at night where nobody can see me type of stuff, you know? And then he's like, no, here, take it, take it. So he gave me $600.

I took him because he was like for real take it, you know, and I took it. Now, we didn't fuck still, right? That was the first time. Right. And after that, it took a few more times that we hung out like a little while when it actually happened. But every time, every time that we hung out, he gives me $600. And it's not like he calls me to hang out.

It's like if I need, like, it wasn't like that at first, me wanting money, but it turned into like, oh, I could get money for getting fucked for what I like. Might as well. You know, so, like, if I wanted $600 tomorrow, I'll call him and he'll answer. Like, like, you know, and if I want to call him tomorrow and Sunday, he'll pick me up or order me over or whatnot. And for the day of today, he's still right there. That's how I pretty much be getting my extra little slide money. Yeah, no, that's not bad, considering you could see him three times a week, every week, and be making an extra $1,800 a week, like seriously?

Yes. Right? Yes. And it's not like, I mean, it's not like, like you said, you didn't go into that arrangement because of the money. So you were obviously attracted to him, right, and liked him because you were there before you even knew that, right? so.

Right. So. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely. And, um, well,

him give, it's spoiling me like that. Like, it was him. I, like, I turned out

like this because of him, like, money-wise. Yeah. You know, like now every, like,

now every guy I was looking for money. Right. You know, like, why am I getting for free? It was because I,

Right. It ruined you kind of. I could get money off him while he likes me. Yeah. I like him. You know? Uh-huh. So you turned it into a business. So it turned, yes. Yes. It turned out into a little business on Crakely's.

Well, Craigs not on no more, right? Uh-huh. I would start posting stuff and I met like a lot of guys, but like real nice guys and then real rough and ugly guys. You know? Uh-huh. Like everything.

But like, like I did meet a lot of good guys. And I just started turning addicted into black cock. You started what? I turned addicted to black cock. Oh, you got addicted to it. Uh-huh. Yes.

I got addicted to black cock after what they would give it to me. And especially with that guy that would spoil me and the first black guy, man. Yeah. I talked about him earlier. well, making me feel so comfortable, and I just fell in love with a black, black cock. Right. And that's all I was looking for. I had few guys, you know.

But it's not like, it's not like. At that point, because you said you started it. At that point, they were paying me. Okay, how much? $3.50. Okay, that's what you charged. Okay, your price was $350, right. And now, let me ask you this, because you always,

had this way that you always like to go in and play a little, not like hard to get, but like you like to get to know the person or whatever, right? You never just like, like, you weren't the type of person that would just like fuck on the first date, right? But now that they're paying for it, right? Did you have to fuck them on the first date? Or did you still play that sort of game?

Like, were, and were they okay with it? See, that's where my game would come in. Like, I would set it up and everything or they would set it up. And, like, once I will get there, I would act hard to get. Like, oh, no, it's not even about the money, this, that. Like, I knew they were going to fall for my body for my, because, like, literally, I have a huge ass. And, like, you know, like, it's short, like, feminine body. So they really, like, I know I'm going to get them, you know.

Like, I know, like, I'm not going to lose nothing by telling them now. Yeah, yeah. You know, like, they're the ones that want it. And the more they want it without you giving it to them, the more they pay, you know, once they pay, they don't want nothing no more. You know, I really got it. I don't want it. You know?

Uh-huh. Uh-huh. So, yeah, I turned it into my own little business. And it went for a while. It went for a while. Uh-huh. And it went for a while. I mean, I still had that one sugar daddy. And I have, like, 10 guys on my contact list.

Well, not on my phone. I do have another prepaid phone when I'm a girl. Oh, interesting. Okay. And, yeah, I have them there. So whenever I feel like, oh, I want to go out with him or I want to go out with him or if they pick me and I'm feeling it, then there I go. But I do not have nobody out of those maybe 10 guys in my contact list.

None of them. Not one of them don't give me money. They all give me money. They all do. So how much you take in a month from fucking guys? A month? I mean. About.

About. The most I took in a month would be, I mean, I wouldn't count it like that. Yeah, yeah, I got it. But approximately, like, I don't know, like $4,000, $5,000. And I remember that because once in a point of time my car broke down and I was on a mission. You know, like, oh, my job. I'm not going to do it. So let me start hitting all these guys up.

Yeah, yeah. And I hit them up and I made like $4,000, maybe a little on top of $4,000. Yeah, yeah, just and he took care of your car. Yeah, yeah, take a bottle brand new car. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Bottle brand, brand new car. And, yeah, like, it was just so addictive. Like, oh, I could get whatever I want.

I, like, I would get money. And there's the guys that, like, give me. me money not compared to the other ones they'd rather buy me stuff yeah as games you know like here baby girl here i got through five pairs of leggings with some heels and five thongs we could say you know yeah yeah and i don't know it just turned real dicting all of it the money the gifts the sex yes yes i don't know how you were keeping i don't know how you were keeping like because i'm assuming that all during this time, you had girlfriends, right? You obviously...

Yes. Like, how you're keeping these two lives together? It's hard. Like... Yeah, I can imagine. It's real hard. Like, sometimes I just be with my girlfriend at home and, like, it's not that I feel bad. I mean, deeply in me, I do a little.

Uh-huh. But I don't. Like, that's just me, you know? Like, I just wish. I bump into a girlfriend, like you say, there would probably be out there, you know, that would actually agree with me and play with me

and love to dress me up and, you know. Right, so that you wouldn't have to do a secret. Because I'm sorry, like, if you, the reason why I asked you how many times you hook up with guys in a month or a week, you know, because like when I was saying, like, how are you going to keep this together, this lie and not get caught for the rest of your life?

Like, it's one thing, because I have a lot of people, living double lives that are on my show, you know, but a lot of them are like, it's something that they do a couple times a year, you know, it's not like a full-time job. Like, you're young, and that's because I'm talking to older people a lot of times and they have families and what, you know, and so they can't really sort of have that much action. I mean, but you're only 21, right? So when you still live at home, so you have a lot of free time.

So you have like, like your double life is a very active and you're doing it a lot of the time, you know, and you're going to be. doing it for a lot of the time because you are going to you're still young and you're going to be young for a while right so it's just like I don't know I just feel like it's a matter of time that you're going to get fucking busted somehow I don't know you have too much

you have too much stuff you have gifts you have clothes you have burner phones you have money coming in from places that you should like someone's if you better date stupid girls like if you dated a smart bitch she would someone you could wind up getting busted

at some point and you're being dropped off a block away from your house and you're walking around as the girl and then you're sneaking out. I don't know how you haven't been caught. Are you invisible? I don't fucking tell it. No, I'm just, I'm just very scared. That's it.

You know, like, very precautions about it. Uh-huh. Like, where's that other phone? Where's that, you know what it is? You're still lucky because you live at home with your family and your family doesn't go snooping through your shit. But if you lived with your girlfriend, she might. Do you know what I mean?

So like I feel like if you maybe like it's going to change when you get in a real relationship when you're older, right? And you're living with somebody. Right. That it's going to be, I think, harder to keep that shit hidden and stuff. You know, now it's like your family. Your mom's not going to go looking through your shit. Where do you hide all this stuff in your house now?

I mean, you have so much stuff, I'm sure, right? Lauren's stuff. Yeah. It's in the same. cave I told you about it. Yeah, I mean, that's a big cave. Yeah, like nobody literally goes downstairs. You know, I only, I'm only living with my mother right now and one sister.

Right. At the moment, so the basement, like, only the, the washer and the dryer are downstairs. So they don't use a basement. There's, like, tools right there for my brother and stuff. So nobody ever goes through nothing. Yeah, but why? But don't they wonder why you're down there all the time? Because I smoke a lot of weed.

And they know that? They, I mean, they know that now. I mean, it's nothing that they could really do now. Like, I actually pay half the mortgage for my mom. Uh-huh. And she only knew where you get the money. I'm sorry. Right.

I just work. I work a lot. I work 12 hours a day. Uh-huh. sometimes overtime, you know, and sometimes I lie. I work like six hours and just go turn into Lauren, go look for my big black cock and just go on with the day, you know? And they get your 600 bucks as well, too.

Yeah, my 600 bucks. Yeah. And my 600 bucks. So I do have a little saving on the side. I mean, I do live with my mom and my girlfriend do not go through my personal belongings like that because she don't live with. me. So she really don't know what I have in my account or not. My mother's sister, they just believe, they don't bother me. Right. But no, because you also have, like you said, you have a

separate phone, which is really good, right? But like that other phone, I think it's easy to keep it sort of on the down low because you live at home with your mom. Whereas like, like I said, if you're with a wife at some point or a living girlfriend, you know, eventually you're going to have those kind of relationships. if you're still with women. Right. You know, and it's just going to be hard to, I think, at some point you just might get busted. Do you use condoms with all these guys?

Yes, actually. I thank God that I haven't caught nothing and no whites, you know, like no rice at all. I checked myself about three weeks ago because I was like, I was just worried. thinking like, oh my God, what if this, what if that, like just freaking out, you know? Yeah. And I went and thank God, I'm good. Like, I'm good. So that was a really big relief of me.

And now, like, these past three weeks, I've only fucked one guy. And like, it's because I'm scared. I'm scared. I'm really scared. I'd be networking on Google and stuff, you know, and I know. and I know the, like, I've seen the percentage of chances of you, you know, catching something and all that stuff. But, no, I have not. I have not.

You never used condoms? No, I always used condom. Oh, okay. I always did. So what did you say? I have not what? You have not what? I have not caught any disease.

Oh, I didn't mean to do you catch a disease. I wanted to know if you, so you always wore condoms. Yes, I There's been guys that Multiple guys that I fuck that haven't wear condom But it's been more guys

That That have fucked me with a condom now In order for me to get fucked Without a condom I got to be knowing you For like at least two, three months Right You know, yeah I'm not like I don't even let a guy

Fuck me in the first day Right So I'm very precautious about that now I wasn't when I was younger when I first started. Yeah. But now I really am. And it's more because it'll be real easy for, like, my girlfriend to catch me if one day I gave a disease without even knowing. Now, I don't fuck my girlfriend without a condom, you know?

Now, what if I give her something like, oh, hey, you gave me this, you gave me that? Yeah, like, where are the fuck that you get that? Oh, I'm sorry. I fuck the girl, you know? Yeah. But, yeah, I've got to be very precautioned about that. Yeah, so you're, you play it safe. Now you always work.

You should always wear condoms with the guys, especially because when you leave a, like, when you live a double life like this, right? And, you know, like, it's like if the only, like if you don't feel bad about the girl, what you're doing behind her back and all that stuff, you're living and stuff really, that's fine. But like what you don't want to do is like what you were just talking about

is like go back and give her something. thing. You know what I mean? That would be really, really bad. So the least you could do for her or for whoever you're with is always wear a condom in that life, you know? Because you're the bottom, right? So you have more of a chance of catching something, right? Because they're inside you. Right. So yeah, always be safe. That's smart. But let me ask you this. Yeah, go on. no no I was gonna say yeah I've gotten really lucky with that like really lucky there was this guy

that well that's kind of why I went three weeks ago because I've been talking to this guy for a few months and he's so nice black you know the way I love him and big huge and um he was so cute and I just love

his cock right I fell in love with it And he, like, I just wanted to give my art to him. Yeah. Type of stuff. Like, I literally got a crush on him. You know, we could say, like, it'd be a fuck with him. And he was just going in, I mean, like, we started kissing. I started sucking him.

It was just crazy, like a point scene. I sucked until he bust. then heat in mind he just started jerking it off again with his own come and he's just like turn around so now i felt like a total total fissy you know like okay daddy i'll turn around so i just bend down you know my fat booty you know i just was out there and then he just started fucking me so i was all in it not even thinking nothing he's like i'm a busting you i'm a busting you I'm gonna bust in you now. I don't really let no one do that.

Like I haven't. It's probably, I could count it in like one hand, you know? How many guys have busted in me? Now, he stays inside of me, right? He stays inside of me. Huge cock, huge. Like, it's hurting. I could just feel the pressure of my boy pussy right there.

Like, it was hurting, but it felt so good at the same time. Like, it was so, like, when he would take it out, it was like, oh. Like, it would, like, it felt like it would, it felt like it would, never stop, you know? Right. And he just stood inside of me for like a minute. And I'm just right there. He's like, don't move.

Don't move. So I'm like, okay, now I'm so horny, right? And now these guys playing with my dick and stuff. So he's my naples. So he's getting me so horny. And I'm not even paying no mind on what he's doing, right? So I'm over there thinking like, oh, daddy's going to bust in me. Daddy's going to bust in me.

All the time, he's like, okay, okay, baby. I'm done. He takes his whole cock out, super wet. And I get up and then I just start squirting, like literally, squirting. Like, a lot. Like, it wasn't come. What was it? It was like he took a piss inside me.

You're fucking kidding. Yes. He took a whole piss inside me. Now, I'm like, what the fuck did you just do? He's like, oh, I pitting you. your mind, Liz Dad. You know, like, I'm gonna pick you up tomorrow. I want you to move in with me.

I'll get another apartment and Liz Dad. You know, you could stay there. Here's my credit card. Like, he fell in love too, you know? But at that moment, I didn't know I fucked up. You know, like, I'm like, what? Like, remember, I had a crush in him and, like, I was just in love with him the first time I seen him.

Yeah. But, like, I forgot. I had all about that at that moment. I'm like, holy shit, and the piss wouldn't just stop dripping out of my asshole. And I go to the washroom and just shower and just start throwing up just by thinking about it, you know? Yeah. Oh, you start throwing it. You're throwing up.

Yes, yes. I was just throwing up. And then I got scared after that. I'm like, oh, pick me up tomorrow. What is that? You know, I'll take your offer. If you give me $3.50 tomorrow, I'll hang out. You know, and then he's like, he just, okay, make sure you call me, this, dad.

Now, I had his, he only had my number on my prepaid phone, so I didn't touch that phone for like about two weeks. Uh-huh. Like, I was just disgusted. Yeah. And then that's when and why I went to go get tested, you know, and thank God I came out. Yeah. Yeah. Did he ever contact you again?

Yeah, it's when I went to, like, he just stopped like five days ago. Right. Now, are you going to see him again? I do have a crush on him and everything. I will see him again, but I do. I'm not going to fuck him for a while now, but I do have to make him understand that if he wants to mess around with me, he has to understand what I want,

and don't want, you know, because a guy that goes by what he wants disgusts me, you know? Like, I'm a girl. If I want to get fuck like this, you're going to fuck me like this. If you're, you know, bust your cock out. I want to suck your balls.

Like, you do that, you know? And it's just me. It's just me. Like, yeah. You know, but the way that he said, you're mine now. Like, I don't know, something about him pissing inside of you. says a lot about his

Yeah. Says a lot about his personality. Yeah, it's like a dog piss. Yeah, it's like a dog pissing on the tree by his house marking his territory. I've never felt that humiliated. Yeah, that's like, like as a girl

who's like knows guys because like the girls deal with shit like that. You know what I mean? Like that's like a, that's like a bad like not your type of guy. Trust me. I wouldn't bother with him. No, I don't know.

No, go find someone else. He's an asshole. He's an asshole. Yeah, because I told him, don't bust in me. Don't nut at me. He did worse. He fucking pissed in you. To me, that's so degrading and rude and, and, like, and gross.

Especially if you, listen, if that's why, I've never heard of that before, okay? Like, you know, but, right? But, I mean, the fact that he did that without. asking, I think you should fucking stay away from him. I was just like a little crush. Like I said, I fell in love with this guy. Yeah, we all like the assholes.

I mean, welcome to being a girl. That's like, but you're not, but normally that's not what you're into. You normally like these other guys that really treat you like a woman and treat you well. So this guy just isn't your cup of tea. Like this guy's not cool.

I don't think. I think you should fucking stay away. I've said it a million. I just said it already. Yeah, I was thinking about that too. Like, no, I don't want to. And more right now, like,

especially right now, like, the reason why I haven't talked to him, well, I looked at my phone, like, two weeks later. Yeah. Like, two weeks later, like, that I didn't touch my phone. I was disgusted. I had, like, 30-mish calls from him

on like 50 messages, offering me money, this is that, here's my car. So I've been ignoring it. Like, I just, not ignoring it. Yeah. Not ignoring it, but just going along with it. Yeah. Just going along with it.

And while that period of time, I was thinking about him and everything. And I just recently was walking on a main street by my house, not by my house. Like maybe. well yeah by my house like five minute drive yeah i dressed up went out like at two in the morning and i was walking right and i had some heels some leggings so short top you know and fake boots my wig and just hiding my my dick you know like you can't tell i'm a girl i got the curbs and everything and um i was

walking like at two in the morning and then there will there's nothing about freaks at that time unless you're going to work, you know. And every other car would beat me, but I'm a scary, I'm a pussy, you know, like when it comes to that, I got to know you. And once again, I only mess around with life. Yeah, yeah. And so I was feeling comfortable like,

oh, hey, all this attention, moving, bouncing my ass, you know. It's like, like feeling it. and I'm on my phone walking, and I don't know where I just feel something next to me, like a big saddle. So I turned around and it was a cop. No way. It was a, it was a cop. So my heart dropped. Why?

For the simple reason that he's like, oh, hey, come here. And then I ignored him, kept walking. He said, come here. I didn't want to check your name. So I walked up to it. He's a cop. but like I've never gotten so scared like this while I'm dressed up. Yeah.

You're right. Because I'm about to walk to this man and he's going to notice like my voice. And, you know, like I do. I could get anything. Like I'm not going to say anybody, but most guys by my looks, but like my voice. You know, like, it's not hard to tell if you're a guy, right? Yeah. So he knew right away and then like, what you're doing out here?

So late walking around looking like that. Yeah. That's what he said. Yeah. So my scariness went out away, like away. My scaringness went away because he probably did not mean it like that at that second. But he was so sexy, big, huge, black guy in a police uniform, you know? And I just took it the sexually way because my mind was sexually at that moment, you know, walking around dressed up.

Yeah. So he's like, what you're doing? out here walking like that this late i'm like oh nothing um i'm like oh nothing coming out of my friend's house walking home he's like it's too dangerous to be walking out like like that this dad now he wouldn't say like oh he's dangerous out here he'll he was just like throwing it at me like oh it's it's dangerous for you to be walking out here like that and this dad and then he kept eyeballing me like you know and then he goes do you have anything on you like any anything at legal on you.

And then I'm like, no, officer. And he's like, turn around. And I turned around. Like, he just wanted to see my ass. And he's like, he's like, just lift your shirt up. You don't have a gun, right? And then that's when I, like, it hit. Yeah.

I'm like, wow, he's trying to like flirt with me. It's 2 in the morning. He's working. He's probably horny. Yeah. You know, so. Yeah. He's like, oh, do you have a, uh,

Do you go turn around, lift your shirt up, see if you have a gun. Do you have a gun? I'm like, no, I said, no, I don't, but I might have a gun. And that's where I fucked up. I thought it was, you know, like. Were you being funny? Yeah, funny. And what did he say?

He's like, oh, put your hands up. Put your hands in the car. He got off. Yeah. Right. So he's like, do you have your ID? I'm like, holy fuck. Yeah.

You know, like, fuck. And then I gave him my ID And then he's like Oh are you a trans- We started talking He's like oh are you transgender Are you are you prostituting yourself I'm like no I don't do that

I just dress I told him the truth Like I just dress up I just go to my friend's house Dress up and just walk home Dressed up And then and then we were just talking He was not flirting no more You know

But he's like oh you gotta be careful Because there's creepy guys out here It's dangerous to be walking at 2 in the morning Yeah And then, yeah, like stuff like that. He's like, how far are you from you? I'm like, literally two blocks, officer. He's like, all right, jump in.

I'll give you a right. I'm like, no, it's fine. He's like, jump in. So I'm about to jump in the back. And then he's like, no, he just started moving a book bag that he had in the passenger. He's like, jump over here. So I jumped in there. He gave me a right home.

And then I'm like, thank you, officer. This is that. And then once I was getting off, he's like, oh, here's my card. And then in his car, like his police. these cards he put with a pen his cell phone number he's like this is my cell phone number for if you ever need a right i'll give you a right if i'm on duty he's like if i you ever need a right i'll give you a right if i'm on duty because it's very dangerous to be walking out here like that and then like when he said like that he moved like his neck and his eye eyeball me head so i'm like

i'm like i'm like okay officer thank you so much and then he's like all right so i was scared of message in, right? I was scared of message him. And then I messaged them. I messaged them. And he replied, and he's like, hey, you haven't been walking out here like that, right? Because I've been patrolling those blocks at that time when I

caught you walking. You know, and then we would just talk all day, like, not all day, not all day, like all day in his shift time. Yeah. You know, he was married. He is married. He is married. He's a

cop, a city cop, and he has two kids, and he's like a straight cop, straight guy, no bisexual, like nothing. Well, that's what he said, right? I don't know, probably, because I have met a lot of straight guys that are like fucking guys. Yeah, yeah. And, yeah, he, we just been messaging each other to, nothing like that, like that, but yeah, he'll throw me hands. I'll throw him hands and he would go.

I go to, you know. And, and, um, yeah, he, he sent me a picture. I'm like, what are you, I'm like, good morning, sunshine. What are you doing? Lauren. And then he, and then, and then he replied with a picture with a coffee in his hand, in his uniform and his squad car. Right.

Like working. Have you pulled around with this guy yet? Yes. Okay. I was waiting for this. I was like really hoping that the story wound up there. Yes. So we ended up texting each other.

He sent me a picture, right? He's like, how about you? I sent him a picture in a thorn. Yeah. Right? Like my leggings right under my butt cheeks, right? And he's like, oh, wow. You know, like, you're so beautiful.

Oh, this dad, sadly, I can't do that. Like, kind of told me, like, because he's a cop, he can't mess. around and stuff like that, right? Like giving me that scrape. So I'm like, I was going to not remember. I'm hard to get it. I play that game. So I'm like, no, don't worry. I'm not even trying to do nothing with you all I'm trying to do his final friend, you know,

like not even not even plan nothing, just make it fall, you know, like and whatnot. So after that, after we chatted one day, I decided to go walk around once again, you know, my excuse, my plan was I'm going to walk around. And then, well, before I went to walk around, I was texting him, and he was saying I'm on control. It's a slow day. He's dad. So I had the whole plan ready. Like, oh, I'm going to go walk around.

Stop texting him for like 30 minutes, an hour. Got ready, you know, as sexy as I could get. And I started walking, walking and walking, like, as far as I could from my house, looking as a girl. Why? Because my plan was to hit him up. Like, I'm walking again. Yeah.

You know, like, the further I got, the better. So I got a little far and then I messaged him. Hey, I'm walking home again. Same, like the same main street I met you in. Right? And then he replies with, were you looking. No, he said, are you looking like you were the day I met you? Uh-huh.

And then I replied, I am and better. So, right. Right. So he's like, okay, where are you? And then I told him, he's like, all right, I'll be there in three minutes, literally. Yeah. I'm looking at my phone timing, you know, and just like nervous because he's going to bump into me in three minutes. So I'm walking and then boom, he shows up.

He's like, where are you? I'm like, oh, I see you. I'm on the right side. He's like, all right, I'm going to turn right on this street. because remember we're in the main street he's gonna turn right on the street before the alley and just walked to me

because I don't want nobody to see right I'm like okay so I got in the car right and then we're just talking now he's literally flirting with me oh my god you look so good girl you're so big this dad whatever

and then and then yeah I was just feeling him feeling him like in a way my feelings you know towards him I'm like oh my God, I'm with a cop. Yeah, it is car. Like, I'm with a cop being a girl, like my, like a fan. Like a fan type of stuff.

Like, a porn. Like a porn. Yeah. Yeah. So he, he, we're driving and then he knows I'm not wearing my seatbelt. He doesn't put your seatbelt on. I put my seatbelt on. Remember now I have tities, fake titties, right?

Titties and leggings looking like a real. Yeah. Like a, yeah. Not a hooker, but like a. a girl that comes out of a club type of stuff. Yeah, totally. And I'm putting my seatbelt, and once I click it,

that's when he reached to my hand. He's like, is it, is it click good? And then I'm like, yes. I'm like, yes, it's click real good. He just glip his hand and my thigh, and that was it. Boom. We, like, right, that was a heat,

but it got me real horny, dropped me off. We texted. I didn't even text him. My way, the friends texted me. And so he texted me. I acted hard to play. He's like, I have my day off Thursday. Or, yeah, it was like Wednesday, Thursday, I believe.

It was, yeah, like Thursday. And he's like, I know this spot a little bar where we could go. I've been going there for this many years. I know the owner. I'm like, oh, no, like, I don't want to be around here. He's like, no, me either. We're going to drive like two, three hours from here In the same state, though, you know, like two, three hours from here

I'm like, oh, okay, great So I trusted him, I had my fully trust, why, because he was a cop. Yeah. I mean, I got nothing to do with it, you know? Not every cop is the same, right? But I just felt so comfortable. Uh-huh. And he would show me, like, his pictures of his family,

like, oh, my wife, this is my wife, this dad, You know, I got kids. Like, like, like, we click so good, right? Like, we click so good. And I believe also that my magic work, because I didn't want to suck him off right away. I didn't want to touch him right away. So we went to that little bar, you know.

He was so sexy, dressed up casually. You know, I was on my heels and just looking so good away. My brain earrings, like everything makeup. I'm shaved everything too You know And um Yeah She uh

We went We went And he didn't He only had Like he only drank Half a glass of wine Uh huh Like the whole night

And he bought me About like 20 shots Oh my God And like Yeah Like literally like 15 shots we could say 10, 15 shots.

It was a lot, and I drank, he got a bucket of six beers and I only drank three. I was good with that. Literally real good with that. After that, after that, he's like, oh, I'm getting a call. I'm getting a call.

I got to stop. I got to stop at this location, and then I will go drop you off. And then I'm like, how far is it? He's like, I'm like, is it in the city where, you know, And then he's like, no, it's right here. It's literally five minutes away.

So now my head started spending like, wait, five minutes from here. I thought he just knew the spot over here, you know? Right. Like, right. Like, where is this guy going to take me? I start now I'm drunk. Yeah. Now my head's spinning.

So we're driving. It's not five minutes. It's not 10. It turns into like 20 minutes. But while we on our way, while we on our way, he's telling me, oh, I'm sorry. I thought it was five minutes. but it's actually 20. Like, he didn't lie, you know?

Yeah. On some, it's too late type of stuff. I had no choice anyway. That was my right. Yeah. We're driving out of nowhere. He drives in a hotel parking lot. Okay.

So that's where he was taking it right. Yes, he drives in the hotel parking lot. He's waiting here. I'm still thinking, like, oh, he came to drop something off and pick something up. Right. You didn't realize that hotels for you guys? No.

You wasn't really drunk. Yeah, I was. I was, but you know what? I remember every inch of it. Yeah, obviously, yeah. And we went in there and, yeah, he just literally started kissing my neck, once the door closed. I started, he got naked, he got meat naked, you know,

and then he was just impressed. Like, oh, my God, this looks better than what I deal with every day what I ever had, you know. but it's hard for me to believe it on a guy when they say that because they say that to every girl. I mean, I'm a guy and I've been around guys all right. Yeah, you know. Right, exactly.

Right. So, but at the same time, I'm very smart in situations like those because of experience. And I just, I just went. I just went, you know? Like, I gave myself to all men. I just gave myself to him

We started kissing Now he's a cop He was off duty He did pull his gun out Out of his holster Under his shirt Put it there His badge

And it was just so sexy So He started Kind of manhandling me You know like Oh Carrey me Here like I guess it was his fetish

Like on that Oh I'm gonna crack you I'm gonna rip you apart It's the type of shit Yeah Yeah So he started doing that And then I kind of pushed him off

And then I told her, I'm like, no I'm like, don't be rough Don't go crazy on me at all You know, and just be slow And you know, loosen me up He also had a big cock I mean, majority of the black guys I'm with got big cocks

Why? Because that's something I look for too You know? Yeah, so I started just sucking him up. He had a huge cock also. And he was playing with my ass. And he's like, oh, my God, it's so small. So we were there for like five, six hours.

He took about three hours, not even, like two hours, one hour, two hours playing with my boy pussy. And just licking it and stuff. And him putting the tip of his cock in me. And he just opened me so bad, like literally five inches wide. asshole he left. Right. And he felt like he was this is going out right now.

I just met him now, right? Because the guy that took a piss in me was like a month ago. And I haven't texted him because I just met the cop. And so I've been messaging him every other day. Well, every day he sends me a picture of his car. And now

that's who I'm fucking with. That's who's fucking me right now. And you don't ask him. He. for money, right? No, I do not ask him for money. Yeah. I do not. Now, he just, when he picks me up, now he just gets there with a dinner, lunch or, you know, like, oh, hey, do you like, oh, hey, do you like, what kind of wigs do you like?

Hey, what size tongue are you? Like, I'm going to get something, you know, like, spoiling me. Now, he has, like, two lives going on, too. Why? Because literally we're clicking up so much. that he's not even paying attention to his wife. Oh, my gosh. Like, I'm feeling him and he's feeling me.

And, like, right now it's when I'm living two lives better than ever. Because I could say, because him also says, oh, you're only mine, you're going to be mine. This dad, you know, like, who's your cop daddy, baby? Like shit like that. So he's like, yeah, he's like, oh, I'm going to be picking you up. this dad. I know I know Peter, A and C. Peter about two hours from here, we're

going to go and stuff like that. So it's not even turning into just fuck buddies because we could hang out without even fucking just him rolling my diet or just, you know. Let me ask you the, yeah, would you have a relationship with a guy?

Uh, but as if you were a woman, if you were transgender, you would, right? I mean, like, because do you ever feel romantic to guys? I mean, it just seems like a lot of hooking up. but it seems like you have, like, friendships and sex with these men. So, like, do you ever feel romantic with these guys? And then we got to end because we're too late.

Maybe we'll do a part two. But do you ever have romantic feelings? Like, yes, like when, yes, like the guy that took a piss on me. You know, like, I had a crush on him. Yeah, but that's different. I mean, you didn't know him for, you didn't hang out with him for that long. But, I mean, these guys hung around with, like, that first guy that you around with for a long time for eight months.

I could say, yes, I could say that was a relationship. It wasn't official. I know, because I said how long were you doing? We weren't dating. But it seemed like if you were like that close for that long that you guys were like kind of in like a relationship. But this guy, cop guy, right?

He, how long, how long you've been seeing him for? For like three weeks. Okay, right. So you could wind up liking him. He's obviously obsessed with you. because Yes, yes.

This is like, who knows what he's done in the past if he's ever had these kind of experiences, maybe he hasn't had that much. So this is like he hit the jackpot with you, right?

He's got this little secret fuck buddy and he's doing... No, and that's what he said, actually, that it's the first boy pussy he's fucked. Right. And the only, yeah, that's why he's so whipped.

The only reason I fuck you it's because you look and look like a whole girl with a big ass so he's in love with like big ass we could say you know like he loves a big butt

and that's what attracted him to me and the way I act and we're clicking so I could say I am feeling some type of way for him and I feel it inside me that he is too by the weight. He asks and talks and etc.

with me feels and we're planning a lot of stuff up ahead and everything we plan, we do. Right. You know, so. So who knows what's going to go? You're going to have to keep me posted because I need to know if you wind up in a relationship with this cop or somehow you get busted because of this cop. I don't know.

Because it's becoming. Let me tell you something before. if, now we talked about this before, would you ever turn a transgender, whatever, now, now here it goes. If I ever end up in a breakup with my girlfriend and this guy gets serious with me, you know, like serious with me,

because he was talking about, like, he was going through personal problems right now with his wives and, you know, like almost in a divorce and stuff. if he gets for real, then I probably would turn a transgender and just be with the guy. So if that happens in the future, I would- For the cop, you'd give up your family for the cop? All right, we got to talk again.

Not just for him being a cop because the way he is with me and his black cock. Okay, but you're only with him for three weeks. You've got to calm that down. I think you're a little bit like just crushing on him as much as he is for you. you're like whipped to each other because it's like for you it's a hot scenario for him it's like the first thing so you know are you going to give up your whole family and turn trans for him I mean I think that's a little premature to say but what I want because this podcast is way too long right now it's an hour and 27 minutes and I have to cut it I have to end it but this is

the deal you're going to call me back in three months you have a lot more stories than you I have a lot more questions and you're going to have to give me updates on what's going on with the cop and the piss guy because you're probably going to wind up seeing him again and I want to wind up I want to know what happens with him too so we need to do a part two I want you to take two months do you thing and call me back and we need to figure out what's going on with you now two months from now I want to know if you fuck the piss guy again if you pissed in you again or turned out okay and if you're still seeing the cop and what's going on and if you've got busted so you have to get me posted I will okay so anyway thanks so much for calling in

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