Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 317 - Monica the Virgin had a Very Kinky Online Affair

Episode Date: January 6, 2020

Monica calls in to talk all about her online affair with a guy she met on a kink website. How did they meet? What do they do together? How did he get her to try all new kinks? Tune in for all the details which include their experimenting with autoerotic asphyxiation, anal play, spanking, bdsm, and more as well as find out how and why she made her own dildos, how she figured out how to squirt, how she became multi-orgasmic, and pansexual and polyamorous and hooked up with a girl all while remaining a virgin! **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. Strictly anonymous podcast. Conversations with online strangers. We place ads online. The Craigslist is definitely like the gift that keeps on giving. Real people respond. You go to Singapore or Thailand. You can't not do it.

The temptation is just too much. Your friend know that you're banging her or no? No, he has no idea. And anything goes. The motto of the show, let your freak flag fly. Probably the only good advice I'll ever give you is to rehire. your whips and chain. Here is your host, Kathy. Hey, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast with Kathy. If you want to follow the Strictly

Anonymous podcast on Instagram or Twitter, follow the show at Strict Anonymous. If you want to talk to me, but you don't want to and you just want to like reveal like your secret life or your naughty life or talk about something that you can't talk to somebody else about or you want my unprofessional advice. But you don't want to be on my show and you don't want me to air the episode, I offer like, I don't know if it's called coaching or consulting, I don't know, I've been doing that for some people and it works out really great. There's a fee for that, but if you're interested in, like I said, calling me up but not having me air the episode, send me an email at Strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. Today I want a girl named Monica. She wanted to use like

five different other names before we picked Monica because she is from another country and she had all these names that I'm like, they don't even sound like girl names. I need something that sounds like a girl name because my listeners are so excited when I have a girl on. So this girl, Monica, is super interesting because she is from a culture, country that is sort of repressed, but she is not repressed. This young girl, I mean, she's only like 20. And when she was even younger, she went looking online in a fetish king community to sort of satisfy her curiosity. And she found out that she was into a lot of things.

And she definitely started to play. and she talks all about what went down when she got involved in that community. There was a fucked up situation that happened in the beginning, and then she did meet a guy on there, and they started to do, like, kinky video chatting, and we talk all about that. We also talk about all the stuff that she's into on her own. Like I said, she's interesting because she's like a virgin,

but yet she's more experienced than any bitch I know. And it's more within herself. she's been able to sort of explore her sexuality solo a lot with that guy on the video chats but also just I think in her room alone just through her own curiosity to sex in the kink world and we talk about that we talk you're going to find out a lot about her so I'm just going to be right back on with Monica hey Monica how you doing today welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast well thanks it's nice to be here yeah so I don't know how you found my podcast but you remember in because you had, I mean, the end of the story is you wound up, like, involved in this online kink fetish community and met somebody and did, like, online video sex with them. But the way you got to hook up with that person was interesting because at first, when you got into that community, you met somebody and started sending nudes. And then that person, like, held your nudes hostage, basically and was, like, threatening

to put them out there, right? Which is really fucked up. when I think everybody's worst nightmare. Or like biggest fear, you know what I mean? Mm-hmm. I do. It's because, well, I haven't, it's not something you would do very often. And I, because in that community, it felt safe because people understood you in a more taboo way,

but they accepted how you are. Right. So you felt like that person would be cool, right? Like, and not do something like that. Mm-hmm. And apparently that person did that because I was being an asshole to one of his friends and just to get back at me. And I don't think that's a very moral way of, you know, trying to get back at someone. No.

First of all, how old are you? You sound super young. I just want to make sure you're legal age, okay? Because I can't have. I once taped a girl for like an hour and a half I spoke to her. And then she tells me she's like 15 or 14. I was like, I can't talk to a 14 year old about sex like an air of that. It's illegal.

How old are you? I'm actually 20. Okay, you're 20. And how old was the guy? He sounds super immature if he was doing that because you were talking to his friend or whatever. I mean, it sounds like high school stuff. Like, how old was that guy? He was 19.

He was 19. So it is kind of like young person stuff. I don't know. But I think, did you have, did you, were you dumb enough to put your face in these nude photos? Oh, no. No. So it was just like body shots, but he was going to throw them out there and say that it was you. Yeah.

Yeah, that's messed up. Let me ask, let's go back a little bit. Like, how did you as a 20-year-old, right? So I'm assuming this started when you were like 19, 18, or 19. Like, how did you find this online community and get into this kink fetish world to begin with? Well, I was more young when I found out more about these types of kinks, fetishes, and et cetera. because I get my friends introduced me to different types of fan fictions of books before so it kind of intrigued me in a way knowing about different types of ways that how people want to find out about their body and different things they want to experiment with and explore about their lifestyle. So these things are because I myself am a highly curious person and I wouldn't stop until I get to know certain types of things.

Yeah, that's like me. I'm the same way. So if somebody like bring something up to you, you go into it and like look into it and just to find everything out about it. Right. And I wouldn't stop researching about it. Right. until I am satisfied. So one day I just come across another friend of mine, or I think I found it on the list of

communities. So I decided to join it. But what was the name of the community? Oh, the name of the community was the kink server. Okay. And you knew that this was about sex and this was like all different types of kinks and you were curious about it? Is that why you got into it?

Yes. I was definitely, I was definitely curious and joined the server because of that point. But let me ask you a quick question. Were you a virgin at this point or you had had sex before? No, I am still a virgin. You're still a version, right? So I was thinking that just because like maybe where you're from, I know, right, like maybe in your culture, is it like most people are virgins still until they get married? is it, I don't know.

Well, yeah, there are a lot of people who are still virgins, however, there are just some cases where a lot of mishaps happen. What do you mean mishaps? Mishaps being like

some because there's something that our country need, which is a curfew and women or even kids can't go out at a certain time because there tends to be a lot of men

who have this habit of drinking and they just roam the streets and if they found a lady they would cat-call them and suddenly approach them and do nasty things like right and this is like

common in your culture is what you're saying it's not common it's just that It happens. It happens very often. Right. Okay. So you're like a virgin. You're looking around on this website.

You find this online community that has to do with kinks, right? And you get into it. Mm-hmm. And then what happens? I was in the community for about three months. Mm-hmm. And within the second month, this person, just comes and approaches me, asks me, oh, you're a nice person, you're really pretty, people have said you're kind and everything, and it kind of, like, I'm not the type of person to manipulate someone, but apparently he says that, he says, can I see some photos of you? So I send, like, photos of, like, blow my face. I don't show them. Yeah. I haven't show them anything yet, just blow my

face. But were these nudes or just like in clothes? First in clothes. Okay. Yeah. And it just develops from there and he fully escalates it saying that, oh, can you, can you take off your shirt? Can you take off this?

Can you take it with that? So I did that and I knew because there was no, there was no shot of the face. Uh-huh. So I was like, okay, it's going to be fine because there's no face shot. Mm-hmm. So after, the day after, it's because I stopped talking to him completely and muted the conversation with him. And then he goes on to the community, like outside of our DMs, and he says that this girl sending me news. And I'm going to put it out.

I'm going to tell the community leaders to ban you, to kick you, or like, so that you will. won't be able to get back into the community. But this is like a sex, this is like an online kink community, right? Where this is probably acceptable behavior and what people are there for, right? I mean, come on. I mean, yeah, that is true. However, it is because it's a sub-community under a organization.

So it's like different types of communities under one organization. Right. And this happens to be the sexual sort of community, but they probably have very vanilla ones and regular ones too. So if they did go, if he did go to the top, it would be a problem. Yeah, it would totally be a big problem. So within the course of like about a week and him saying that he would expose all my pictures, I had a lot of issues and a lot of people trying to comfort me,

trying to contact the main connections who will be able to help. me try to take the guy down and get his IP address and block his connection from the server completely. Yeah, he's the one. I mean, in this whole scenario, he's the one that should be kicked out of the community and who should be told on. You didn't do anything wrong, sending a picture of your tits. Like, who cares? Like, he's the one that's fucked up. You know, it's kind of backwards. He had it backwards. words. And eventually during the course of that week, I met a few people as well who comfort me and

still friends of mine until today, which is where it brings me to the guy who we spoke about in that we had the video call sex. Yeah, right. And so how does that progress? So all these people are reaching out to you. comforting you within this like kink online kink community right and then you one of them how does it go from like he's just consoling you to you guys are having video sex like what's how did it how did it play out with him well it's because at first he was saying yeah yeah he was a dick the other guy who was

trying to expose me yeah and he's like i bet he wouldn't be able to uh pleasure you the same way that i would and I just got shocked at the first time. I got a little shocked because he started, we would just usually have normal conversation. Like we developed as friends, and we found out more about each other's bodies just through messaging one another. Meaning like he asked you questions about your body,

you asked some questions about his, like that does, okay. Yeah. And he, asked me if I was comfortable if ever to do certain types of things and that's how we first begun one day we we did this type of game that we would call each other so when when we are on the call he tells me this type of really kinky and um this kinky story saying that he would do this to me do that to me and uh he would tell me to uh either touch my boobs or

binge myself somewhere, smack myself in, and he, I should vocally react so that he would hear it. So because I wasn't yet comfortable with the video call sex thing. Right. So this was first over the phone at first just. Yeah. Now because you're talking to people all over the world on these kinds of like communities, right? Was this guy from your country or was he from someplace else? No, he's from Europe Okay Mm-hmm Yeah So

The thing is like With I don't really feel comfortable When I'm talking to someone online When it comes from my country Because they can possibly find you and see you And it would cause some Issues

You know what I mean? Of course Because Suddenly You give them information about you and you live in the same area as they do. They can say such rumors about you. And, yeah.

Yeah, and they can really harness your reputation because, like, I'm assuming where you're from, you know, because it's much more common to still be a virgin at 20 and to not be really out there doing the things that maybe other 20-year-olds in other countries do. You know, you seem like way more innocent to me than most people I talk to. I mean, 20 is young, but some people in America have already started having sex when they're, you know, 16 and by 20, it's a very different sort of vibe, you know, and I just feel like because of the country that you're where you live, you know, there's a lot more purity there. So, and a lot more shame if you got caught sort of doing any of these kinds of things, right? Definitely, definitely. That's why I end up doing it late at night.

well like from yeah you better not get caught 11 p.m. till 3 a.m so what time okay so wait so let's go back to so now you're first just doing audio and he's like asking you about like your body like he would ask you questions just so that he was getting like a visual in his head about like what you look like and what your body was like is that the kind of stuff he would ask well he knew how i visually look like however not the body just yet just my face because we would share pictures with one another just the face. So you would send pictures of your face to these people? Only to that guy who I started.

Because you guys became friends. So he knew your face, then he wanted to get to know your body, right? Yeah, basically. So we were just getting to know each other. And, you know, the call, there would be, he would ask if I was comfortable, if I was, if he, if I, I like the things that he was telling me or the things he told me to do to myself.

Mm-hmm. And did you? Yeah, I did. I definitely did. Mm-hmm. Because he knew a lot. He learned a lot, he said, as well from the community to figure out what, uh, women and girls such as me like, mm-hmm.

When, in like, during sex, so. Right. And you were learning, I'm assuming, by being in that community too, right? Yes. And I didn't know that there were that many kinks at that time. Me neither. I learned from my show from having all these people on. And I'm like, oh, my God, like all these things that people are into.

I would have never known either. Yeah, because there are so many things to be, to suddenly get interest in. Yeah. And I think if you're a curious person because you're, like you say, you're very curious. Like, you know, your mind could go, you know, even if it's for like a week here or a week there, like maybe you won't commit to all of the fetishes or all the kinks, right? But as a curious person, you could probably like get down with something every, right? Because of just because of your curiosity.

Yeah. Right? I mean, I know that that's the way I am as a curious person. And I actually got into so many types of things that I didn't know that I'd be into. Right. And your curiosity led you to those things, right? I mean, so what did you guys talk about between each other that you were into that he wanted, that he was into, too? Well, there was a lot of spanking and domination.

And you being the sub and him being the dom? Yeah. Mm-hmm. And I told him that I particularly liked choking to the point where I get really dizzy and I lose my breath. And then he said like, okay, fine, you can try that. And then he said that he didn't want to hurt me at first. He was afraid. Yeah.

Because he said, like, you're innocent. You haven't had sex yet. And he was afraid of hurting me. So I said, no, just do whatever the fuck you want. Do it rough. I don't care. But you were with him in real life, right? I mean, who was choking you when you're doing this with him?

You're choking yourself? Oh, no. Like, yeah, I'm choking myself. Oh, my God. You know, haven't you seen these people that die from this? kind of thing. Like you have to be just, I just got to give a little PSA for this. That's a public service announcement that that kind of, I mean, there's been some famous celebrities that have died from that, musicians. But like, you know, that is, can be dangerous, uh, what you're doing,

you know, so you should be a little careful, especially doing it by yourself because, you know, you don't have somebody there in case you sort of click over into the danger zone to get you out. I mean, it is a little dangerous to do that. I know, I've never been into that. I don't know. much about it, but I do know that it's supposed to be very, I'm assuming, very gratifying, right? Because why else would people do it? But it is also dangerous. Like, people die from it. You know that, right? Well, yeah, I did, I do know about that. And we, both, both me and Molo are aware of this. And we did have this type of safety reason. Like, if I felt uncomfortable, I can stop. And I tell us that I don't feel comfortable.

I don't like what's happening and we should stop this. So he told me you can tell that I can tell him that. So it's fine with him. Of course. But let me ask you this. When did you get into that choking? Like how did you know you were into choking? Is that something that you found in that community and then you tried it at home by yourself?

Or do you have you fooled around with people and done like I know you said you're a virgin. Have you done other things with guys or are you sort of doing all of this sexual stuff with yourself? I'm actually trying to explore. myself more at the moment than interact with other people in real life. Right. So the choking you did for the first time with yourself? Yeah. It's because of constant reading of such erotic novels and watching some types of things.

So I thought of like, why don't I try this myself? Uh-huh. And you liked it. It's really good? Yeah. It's really good. I mean, it must be because people talk about it. And what is it that?

Like you're choking yourself while you're, like, while you're pleasuring yourself at the same time. Like, what is, how does it work? Because I've just read about it because it's been like a part of a news story when someone sort of dies, right? But I don't, I've never had anybody on my show before who has been into this to actually explain it, you know? So I'm, my, my curiosity is kicking in.

And I just want to know as a side note before we go further with the story. how does it what is auto it because they call it auto affixiation right I actually didn't know what that it was called that so I think so but like when you like are you choking yourself with one hand and like fingering yourself with the other like what is it like what actually goes to because like when you're trying to finger yourself and choking it yourself at the same time it adds to the pleasure and gives you some type of some type of like high really Yeah, it does give you some type of high. Yeah, I think that's what makes it dangerous.

Which kind of like makes you go float off to another world. And it's not normal, it's like, it's not like normal sex or normal masturbation. Of course not. Yeah, because you're fucking choking yourself. Come on. So it just, I can't even explain that that well. basically it's just a different type of high. For sure, yeah.

No, I've like, listen, people don't die from it because it's terrible. They die from it because it's so fucking good. They can't stop. And then I think what happens is because like you said, you're going to another place, right? I mean, you're not like in your body, right? And you could leave your body. And, you know, what happens if your mind isn't sort of like, you know, attached enough? to get you back, right? And I think where you could have a slippery slope is, and you don't seem like

the person to me that is using drugs or alcohol, right? Because if you combine that with doing, choking yourself, you could really make a mistake, right, and not be able to bring yourself back. So, you know, you just want to be careful. Yeah, of course. I mean, I myself, I see myself as a very self-controlling person. So, uh, I have a very high sense of self-control. So if I've, if I feel as if I've had a little too much, then okay, it's enough.

Like, stop. Mm-hmm. So you tell the guy that you're into choking, right? And then now, are you now first still doing this over the phone with him? Um, yes, actually. Okay. And then, oh, we, did after a month of the phone calls we started doing our video calls right that's what I was wondering

when it switched to be video so I'm assuming you're doing some like sex talk with each other audio and then you feel comfortable enough to do videos right because like it was just um that he asked me after a month if it were okay that we tried something like video so I was like okay maybe maybe we can try something a bit of that and then um so we started out the video and i felt kind of shy as like when he was watching me and then he was like okay um just listen to what i'm going to tell you and do do whatever i tell you to do so i start doing what he tells me and he tells me to call him daddy i was like oh oh okay then um which i i quickly actually get adjusted to and find myself liking.

Right. Yeah. And so we start out with just simple touches on the thighs, on the neck, on chest. And that's not even without clothes yet. Oh, that's with clothes on? Yeah. Okay. This guy has patience.

And, I mean, guys. Has a lot of patience. But what, the guys, the takeaway from this story, at right now for guys that are listening is like because I feel like sort of deflowering a girl as innocent as you is like every guy's fucking fantasy okay like because you're like super pure you're really innocent like I just think a lot of guys would love to be that guy in this scenario right and you know the like I said the takeaway is is like be patient and let that girl learn to trust you and you know and let her feel comfortable and let her sort of let you know when you're interested.

And then you have much more of a chance than if a guy would have come in with this same offer for you, like right off the bat, right? Like you wouldn't have been into it. This guy really had patience and let you feel comfortable and trust him, right, before he starts doing all this stuff with you. And then look at the shit that he's doing with you. Well, he told me multiple times even that his main aim wasn't to pleasure himself. but to pleasure like me itself because he thought like it's a little bit selfish if he would be

taking off and benefiting it benefiting from it more than the purpose of why he's actually doing this which is to just turn you on or to teach you I mean what he had to be though I mean maybe because he's a dom like he's getting off on like having you do the things that he wants, right? But there's got to be something in it for him. But I get why that would be a turn on for you if he's coming from that place, right? Because it's all about you. Yeah.

Well, it was not only me getting off during the video calls. I mean, he would get off as well, actually. Okay. So we would be getting off at the same time. He tells me to do what to do. And I do it. And then he says, oh, fuck, that's good. That looks really good.

Right. Yeah. And then he's, like, getting into it as well. And then do you guys, like, orgasm together sometimes? Does that happen? Well, he, first, he tries to make me orgasm, like, multiple times, which is a little bit difficult, but we end up orgasm. at the same time.

Uh-huh. Uh-huh. Yeah. And he directs you and like what are the things like I know that you started out with the choking but like when he's on to the video and you have the clothes on you said first it starts out with you touching yourself like how does he eventually get you to take your clothes off? And do you see, do you have your face?

He knows you right. I mean you guys looking at each other right because he already seen your face. You've seen him. Yeah. Well, it begins with like the touching first of all like he wants first that I get. wet before I start taking off articles of clothing so when he starts seeing some type of wet spot

like through my pants like okay take it off oh that's so interesting right and how does he get you that wet what does he telling you like hot stories like what's going on that makes you that turned on or is it just for the fact that you're on the phone and you guys know what you're going to do there's a bit of humiliation and like praising, which kind of gets me on. Like what? For example.

Like he calls me, oh, that's such a good little girl. Right. And he would tell me, you like that, don't you? Huh? You're being daddy's bad little girl. Right. It's that daddy sub thing that's you like, right? And he's in too.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. So he sees your wet spot. Yeah, go on. So I just can't help getting off to that, you know. Uh-huh. Just hearing that he's proud. Right.

And then, and he's directing everything, right? Mostly, right? And you like that because you're into being submissive. Yes. Mm-hmm. And so he gets... Sorry. No, you go.

But being submissive is like, Uh, because, um, usually how I grew up, I was, I was more, because I'm the oldest child. So I, I, I got used to being, uh, being the one who keeps telling people what to do. Uh-huh. And I didn't, it felt kind of tiring. And this, this thing was sort of a type of change for me. Yeah. I, I hear that a lot. Even with like guys, a lot of men who are like alphas in their regular life become, are into being subs in the kink world because it is so opposite of who they are in their regular life, right? Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. That's right. So I feel like that sometimes is the case. Probably not always, right? But maybe sometimes. So what else do you guys do? So he starts with the, he sees your wet spot, then he makes you take off your clothes. Yeah.

And then he would make me play with my tits for a bit. Uh-huh. And he would tease me saying that, oh, um, touch. your, touch your clit. I'm like, okay, I touch it. And then he says, no, slow down. Don't go that fast. And it's, it's so scrutinizing. It is difficult to stay at a slow pace when you know what you want. Yeah. When you know what you want, you know what you, what you just got to do. Right. But that was must make it really hot, kind of, right? It does. Yeah. And it ends up really intense as well. Yeah, we just talked about this in my last podcast that I aired a couple weeks ago about

it was a guy that was into chastity devices and, you know, all about like holding back your orgasm and not sort of going there and how all these kinds of situations could really be extremely hot, right? And so for you, it was like you could have just touched your clit. You were so horny. You just wanted to come. But because he forced you to go slow, it was like he would make that orgasm probably way more intense when you were able to have it, right? But he would like spread it out. Yeah. And that's the thing

that if I don't, if I'm not obedient, I get punished. Really? What is what happens? Like how are you punished? You can't have an orgasm? I can't have an orgasm or he would make me spank myself about 10 times. or I'd have to watch him, orgasm, and he just left me like that throughout the night. Oh, interesting. This really was a dom-sub situation going. Yeah. Right? Mm-hmm. And so...

It was kind of intense at some point, but I kind of got used to how we do our thing. And he finds new ways as well to... try to improve the experience for the both of us as well. What would he do? Well, firstly, there were types of, like, doing things anally and vaginally at the same time. Uh-huh. He would want you to do that? Like, would he be asking you to put, like, your fingers inside of you or, like, actual objects?

Like, what were you sort of putting in? It would be any. Mm-hmm. so it would really just escalate from there but like what can you give me examples of things there was this type of um what at um for like beginning

it was usually more fingers like you would start like with one and then two and then he was like okay shove the third one in. I'm like, how the fuck am I going to get that in? Right. And he somehow saw this red thing, like, in my... Because I would have, like, these type of substitutes,

because in the country, you can't really get them in here, like those type of sex toys or those types of things. So I had my own substitute. So he's like, that red thing, what's that red thing in the background? I was just like, oh, that's nothing. And he's like, oh, that's definitely something. It was one of your substitutes? It was one of the substitutes.

Yeah. Where do you get substitutes? Well, research. Right. Online, like you order them to your house. Like, I guess in a country that's so repressed, so you're not allowed to do those types of things. There is information available, right, of where you can get substitutes, right?

Actually, not getting substitutes, but making substitutes. Oh, interesting. Making substitutes. Could you tell me what your substitute was made of? It was like, because I made something with silicone, so. Really? Wow, that's so interesting. You could like really try to get people not to do engage in any kind of the stuff,

but look at what people will do just to get off. Do you know what I mean? You're like this young girl making silicon dildos in your house. If he says, like, you're figuring out a way. Yeah. It was really fun, actually. And the kind of feeling that when you make something yourself, just to make yourself a little more feeling more turned on

and that you have an extra an extra something something, you know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So he saw it in the background and he was like, go get that thing and let's play with it. And then he makes you put it inside. You know, had you ever played with it anally before? Well, there's another thing for that.

Right. What is that? Well, it's the same type of thing. Right, another kind of substitute, like an anal substitute. Yeah, but he doesn't tell me to do it at the same time, like having objects in both holes at the same time. Mm-hmm. So just to get used to the feeling.

He tells you two have the objects at the same time or at the beginning he says not. He just does it one place and then the other place. It's just one at the same time until now. Oh, okay. And now you do two, or you're in another relationship. right? You're actually in a relationship now. Do you still video chat with that guy? I do. We started video chatting once again after a long one month. Oh, okay. But are you dating someone now? Yeah, I am. And now with that person, are you having like real life like interactions and, you know,

sort of living out your kinks and things that you're into with him in real life? Not like real life. I know it's real life, you know, online, but I'm just saying, like, with him in person? Well, the guy that I'm in a relationship with, he's kind of more into a vanilla type of things. Right. Okay. So, which kind of makes it a little difficult in trying to explain things to him and making him more aware of these types of kinks and experimental methods. Right. Have you tried to bring it up with him?

uh yeah i did and it kind of made him blush a lot what did you bring up uh i was i just brought up something simple at first like uh anal and it kind of made him like stiff for a bit and he was like what do you mean anal are you sure that's safe are you sure i'm not going to break you am i going to tear you are you going to get herpes are you Oh my God

But are you still a virgin now or no Are you not a virgin anymore? Well, I'm not a virgin I mean I am a virgin But it's good to like Have a type of communication On these type of things When you feel comfortable enough to do it

Right but I mean you're talking about anal With this guy that you're dating now right But have you guys Like how far have you guys gotten with each other A lot of touching mostly. Uh-huh. Right. Now, will you have sex outside of your being married?

Like, you know, I mean, you're young. Like, are you looking at? Like, will you have sex do you think with this guy? Well, having sex, I feel like, I mean, I could wait and I can do it at the same time, whichever I feel like. And it wouldn't be a problem. However, the thing is that when you're having sex, especially in my culture, you're like, if you're going to get married to that person, okay, fine, you can have sex with them. If you're not getting married to that person, you have to refrain yourself.

And the thing is with me is that I don't particularly believe in every single aspect of my own culture. Right. Because I feel like it's a little self-straining. Yeah. For somebody like you that's making your own, what do we call those replacements? You obviously are like, you're obviously a rule breaker, you know, you're not like a follow the rules kind of person. Yeah. So wait, how did you get back to Molo?

That's the guy's name that we're calling him right on the video chat. Yeah. Yeah. So you're video chatting with him while you're in this other relationship. Yes, but it's actually fine because my boyfriend right now, he knows that I'm Polly Amoris. Oh, you're Polly. Yeah, I'm Polly and I'm Pansexual as well. Okay.

And what does Pansexual mean? There's transsexual. What's pansexual? Well, some people mistake pansexual as bisexual because they think that, oh, you like boys and you like girls. So isn't that bisexual as well? Yeah. Well, it's kind of different. it's because pansexual is basically you don't regard their gender whether it may be a boy or girl gay

lesbian or etc it's like it's just basically option that's like just options uh-huh not like you're not like you don't see yourself into a man it's just it's a person and so yeah they're just a person if i'm into a person okay they're high it doesn't matter if they're a guy or a girl uh-huh right okay Now, have you fooled around with girls in your country? Or have you just done video chats with girls? Well, I had a girlfriend. We were into this type of role play thing. In your country, or was this a video thing?

Yeah, in my country. But we try to keep it with ourselves as much as possible. Because homosexuality in the country I'm living in right now is a little bit difficult and looked down upon but how did you find like were you guys just friends did you meet her in that community like how

did you wind up hooking up with her well I met her in the community as well but we found out that we lived with one and like we lived in the same country so we're like okay sure why don't we meet up and then we do some types of

things maybe we can hang out, have a coffee, have a date, or something. So we did end up dating for about two weeks. And how was that? Well, at first, she was a little younger than me. She was like 18. So I have this type of thing when I like girls. Sorry, it's that they have to be older than me, but I also want them to be shorter than me. Shorter? Yeah, shorter than my height.

Uh-huh. Why? Do you want to be the dom in the situation when you're with a girl or no? With girls, I find myself pretty dominating. Okay. But then I'm a switch, so I can be a dom and I can be a sub. Right, with the women. But when it comes to women, you prefer them to be older than you and shorter than you.

Yeah, older and short. Okay. Have you been with any older women? Um, no. I've only dated one girl so far. It's difficult to find someone to date in this country who's female. Right, right, right. But so this girl, you dated her for two weeks.

Did you guys, like, go down on each other? Did you have, like, that kind of sex with her? Did you get that far? No, but there was a lot of making out and the role play, but we didn't really engage in the sex just yet. How come? Because it was only two weeks and then you separated? Yeah.

I found it a little difficult and understanding the situation because she was much younger than me. And the thing is when I'm in a relationship with someone younger than me, I feel like they're my younger sibling. Right. Because I'm very close to my brothers. And if I start dating someone younger than me, I can't handle it, even if it's just one day younger, I'm like, oh, no, I feel. you're giving me sort of a sisterly or brotherly vibe. Right, but maybe that's because of your role

in your family is so strong that you can't disconnect from it when you're with someone younger, right? That's why you need older. So you need older with guys too, I'm assuming. Sorry? You need older with guys too. You prefer them to be older too?

Yeah, older guys and girls. How old was Molo? Molo is 22. All right, so he's a little bit older. And how about the guy you're dating now? He's also 22. And did you meet him in this community, or did you just meet him out and about, like, where you live? Yeah, I did meet him in this community as well.

So, as I said, like, there were a lot of people who started comforting me. The guy that I'm in a relationship with, he is one of those people who comforted me. All right. So he knows you're on in that community. And I'm assuming you have a profile on there, right? with like the things that you're into. So does it say that you're into, that you're pansexual and that you're polyamorous, right?

And so this guy would kind of know. Well, he knows about everything that I'm into, but he seems to be formally okay with it because, I mean, he praises me. He says that he doesn't find it very weird to like certain types of things, especially he says, quote in quote, as me being a strong woman in his eyes. So he finds me very confident in myself. Right.

And now do you and him have like a dom-sub situation going down to? Well, with my boyfriend, it's kind of a more soft dom. So it's not very intense. It wouldn't be much of the hardcore spanking or choking or calling the partner daddy or having the restraints. He would be more just a normal type of dumb, just a top. Right. But you go back to that Molo guy when you want the more hardcore stuff? Yeah, basically.

And he's still around. And so it wouldn't be a problem because your guy knows that you're down for an open sort of relationship. Yeah. Well, at first he was kind of not comfortable with it. But then he understood why I would be in the type of open relationships, a relationship. Because I have my own types of needs and he does as well, which he knows that he can't really sometimes fully satisfy. Right. And what are his needs? What is he into? Well, he's more of the type of generic type of vanilla.

Yeah, I'm surprised that he's in that community considering, because you did say he was into very vanilla sex. Yeah, that is true. Well, he did. He was there. He said he was there because he wanted to explore more things. But the fact, the thing is that he joined the community around a month before me. but after about four or five months, the community got shut down because someone reported it. Oh, no way. Yeah, it did. And everyone got shocked. And some people tried to make a, try to remake the community, but they failed to do so.

And I'm one of the leaders in that community, which kind of is dead at the moment. Right. So you tried to recreate it because there is nothing like that. there for you guys, for you curious people that are open-minded to express yourself or meet like-minded people. Mm-hmm. And because of the community, we all felt comfortable in each other's presence. So we didn't feel like outsiders, like in the real world where some people may think that these

types of things are just wrong. Right. And I'm sure that must make you feel better. I mean, that's what my show is about. I always get people emailing me saying like, thank, you know, thank you so much for doing what you do because I, you know, they'll sort of reference an episode and be like, I'm just like that person. And now I don't feel like I'm, you know, the only person that is into that, right? And for people like you that live in a country where everything is so banned and, you know,

there's probably a lot of people at home wondering if they're like a freak because they're into choking or whatever. Do you know what I mean? You're lucky that before it closed down that you got like all these friends and you're, you still have sort of, you have relationships within that community still, right? I do. And you could keep in contact with them through different apps and stuff, right? I mean, I'm assuming the guy that you're dating lives where you live, so you see him. The Molo guy, you obviously went off the, out of the community and have each other's number,

right? And that's how you guys hook up. Yeah, I have numbers of various people from the community. and still do keep in contact with them. But some of them don't really have social media. So we still keep contact in the chat. So we have like chats that still got saved the community from the main cause of the whole different subs of communities.

Right. And so you're sort of spearheading a movement to get, some kind of community back up online where you live for people to go on? Well, yeah. However, we've been trying for a few months now for the community to start back up again, but it looks like it may not really come back because people are afraid of our relationships with other people to just disappear once again, like how it did, because that community was a lot of work, as the leader had told us, he worked on the server, on the community just for about a year to complete all the different needs and wants for the people. And he brought everybody together only to be shut down. Yeah, which was very difficult.

Yeah, I can imagine. I'm, but I mean, lucky for you that you found it and you were able to sort of, at such a young age, find a place where you could live out your curiosity, experiment with different things, and figure out who you are, right? I mean, you know you're pansexual, you know, you're polyamorous. You would like to have, like, because Polly to me is like you could be in multiple relationships at the same time, not just sexual relationships, right? But multiple, like, loving relationships, right? like you could be in love with more than one person. Yeah, that's true.

Mm-hmm. And so have you done that yet? Have you had more than one relationship? Or is this, are you new to polyamory? Well, being polyamorous is, it hasn't been that new. I think, well, if you consider a month kind of new, then I guess, yeah. Yes, I would consider it a new one month ago. Yeah.

But because of the relationship that I've grown with Molo, having a loving relationship with my boyfriend and developing another type of romantic relationship with Molo, it brought me to an overwhelming situation where I kind of locked myself in my own room for about two days crying to myself, because I didn't know what I was feeling. You mean because you were so conflicted,

like you felt feelings over here, but you also felt them over there? Mm-hmm. That's right. Right. And that must have been confusing because that's not typically the way it plays out, right? We all see movies.

You read these books, right? It's all about, like, falling in love with one person, right? They never show that kind of situation. Yeah, which I questioned a lot of things. things about myself, if I really did love my boyfriend, if it was real what I felt toward him, and all the words and such things that I told him if it were really true, if I did mean it, because of how I felt toward Molo as well, which the fact that Malo as well told me how he felt and when I started dating my boyfriend, he got into this type of clingy and jealous type of

personality. And I was like, why are you starting to act like this? And then I just found out that he said, I acted jealous and clingy because I was trying to hint to you that I had these types of feelings and that he was willing to date at that time, which is why I broke myself off from from the public and i didn't really talk to anyone at all neither my uh my my friends or my uh co-workers wait a second i'm not following that story so he was feeling jealous and stuff because he was into being open as well and that's how it was playing out i don't understand he was he was jealous and clingy is because i started dating someone else

Right. And he was freaking out about it. He was freaking out about it because he felt that my attention would focus on something else and not on him anymore. Of course, right. But did he eventually realize that wasn't the way it would be and now he's comfortable with it? I mean, did this just happen a month ago? Well, actually, it happened a week ago where he told me how, well, where we, where I understood. how he actually felt. Right. He,

maybe he thought he could handle polyamorous sort of situation, but when it really played out, he was, he did find himself getting jealous. Now, do you think, how do you think you'd feel if your boyfriend now,

or Molo, had started to have a relationship with somebody else? Well, if they did have a relationship with somebody else, but, um, it would feel,

a little bit concerning. However, I think I grow to be okay with it because seeing to it that they're comfortable with me having different relationships along with them, it brings me to think that, okay,

the amount of sacrifice that they're bringing into this and their emotional health as well, It brings me to a consciousness saying that, okay, that'll be fine. But then considering how my boyfriend is more of a very religious person kind of brings me to a difficulty in thinking that he would have another relationship. So it's hard to picture my boyfriend having another relationship aside for me. Right.

But you think that he'll be able to be okay with you having relationships with other people? because I mean he just like he just started to tell you a week ago that he wasn't really feeling okay with it right that was Malo actually that he said that he was feeling jealous and oh Molo I'm so confused this is why Pollyamory just would never work for me it's so confusing it's too many people I always make jokes I'm like I just don't have that much love to give I can't even have more than one child because I'm like I don't know that I don't know how you spread the love so much you know it's just it's too much

but uh so it's mallow that was jealous well you know you gotta understand molo's like in another fucking country he's not with you that guy gets you to get to have you in a way that he doesn't get to have you so i can understand why it would be difficult being him in that scenario because it's not like you guys ever see each other in real life right i mean it's always video chat right but then that's the thing um about not getting to know each other in real life. He just told me about how his, because he has,

his family is not that rich aside from his godfather. So his godfather offered to him and his mom that they could travel to one of the richest countries for their birthday. And what a coincidence is, is that they're coming here. Uh-huh. And it kind of shocked me for a moment, but it also made me excited because I wanted to, like, hang out with Molo and have some type of, you know, interaction after having, after a long time of just being an online relationship. Yeah.

Well, when is that happening? It's happening in February. Oh, so that's exciting. because then you'll actually be able to fool around. Will you have sex out of marriage, like say with Molo because he's not from your country? Well, in Molo's case, I think I would because interesting as it is,

even though in my perspective, if I'm not getting married to him but going to have sex with him is because I've grown this type of comfort in the person he is. And it's not, he's not pushy. He is not, he wouldn't force some type of aspects or anything. Right. So you think maybe you will have, because I'm just surprised at somebody like you that's like, you know, making your own stuff at home and having exploring all your kinks and then, you know, becoming like the leader of like the kink world of trying to really.

invented in your country that you wouldn't have you know crossed the line and had actual sex with somebody right in in you know in real life

because you have experimented so much in every other area with yourself well I wouldn't really think it would be crossing the line if if I if I seem to be in a comfort

where I know that it'll be okay with my own body and it wouldn't really damage who I was who I am as a person. And now your boyfriend now who lives here and is he the one that's religious? Like is he the one that maybe would never do it with you because of like your country's rules sort of? Or is it possible that you would wind up having sex with your boyfriend now too? Well, it wouldn't. It's not because of the laws and rules of the country,

but it's more of the rules that he has in his religion that restricts himself from having sex with me. Uh-huh. But at the time, we both have the same religion. It's just that I believe in, I don't believe all aspects of my religion. Uh-huh. Yeah, but if I would be getting married, with my boyfriend, then that would, he, he would consider it okay to have sex, like, with one another if it was, if we were both to be married. Right. But I wonder how his religion would

feel about you being with other people, because I would say that that would be very anti-his religion. Well, it would definitely be anti of me and his religion. I mean, uh, me and his, religion actually because in our religion we are both Catholic so we have this strict one man or one woman policy exactly yeah yet he's with the girl that has another guy and is polly I mean that's like that's your deal right I mean that's what you that's you you let people know like when we were doing this call you were like oh come my friend sit in and listen so I'm assuming that like you're I mean probably not with your parents right but you're pretty open about who you are and what you're into, like within your group of friends?

Yeah, my group of friends know a number of things about me. It's just that my parents, they're more of like the old school type of parents. And with them, I had to hide a lot of things about myself from them, which is why I feel like I should be open about myself. toward other people because of such a long time of being restricted of being who I really am. Right, of course. And your parents probably would never be able to take something because they're from just like a different time, you know? And that's like super common with most people, I feel like, you know, it's like you're separated by generations than your parents, right?

So it's just like most of the time it is very difficult. I mean, I think some people have that kind of relationship with their parents where they can discuss all kinds of things. But most people I think don't. I certainly didn't. Um, so that's like, you know, very typical. But I think it's great that you're able to sort of let your freak flag fly with your friends and your two guys right now. And everybody he come in contact with at such a young age, you know who you are, you know what you like. You're into all kinds of things. I mean, you're into the choking. You liked putting, you liked anal. Like what other kinds of things did you try? Or that you're, into? What else am I

into? There's like this thing what do you call this? It's like something new that I tried, it's called squirting. Yeah, but how do you try that? You know how to squirt? I'm going to be jealous. Well, yeah, actually I do. I found this type of

this area within me where you can just like type of stimulate that. And you don't go rough. That's the technique that you don't go rough. You start out really slowly. And then when you start feeling like this type of, as they call it, peeing feeling, is that getting closer to that point.

And you can suddenly just burst like a fountain. And you've been able to, and do you do that with your finger or do you do that with one of your toys that you made? I do it mostly finger. With your finger. And you've been able to do that for yourself. You can make yourself squirt. Yep. And now let me ask you this, because some people have said that the orgasm, like, are the orgasms, like, more intense than a regular orgasm when you squirt or is it the same, but you're just squirting?

Like, is there any difference? There is a very big difference between squirting and an orgasm. Because squirting itself, it's not an orgasm. Because I've heard that people confuse squirting and orgasm. as the same thing. Right. And it's not. Yeah.

Well, scruiting is more like, it just feels like normal peeing, but it's not pee. And that when you combine both squirting and then orgasming, it makes a more intense feeling than just an orgasm. Right, by itself. But like you're saying that if you squirted without the orgasm, you could squirt without an orgasm, but most of the time you wanted to happen at the same. time because it makes your orgasm more intense. Yes.

Interesting. And are you multi-orgasmic? Yeah, I can go up to like, I think five, four to five times. Right in a row? Yep. How do you do that? You're so lucky. These are all my fantasies that I could do, but I can't do any of that shit.

Well, it's more of a continuous stimulation. You don't stop until you go over, go. you like you orgasm again and again. Yeah, but isn't your clits so sensitive after you have an orgasm? That is how you get another orgasm. How? Because you're sensitive. No, but you're not too sensitive where it actually is like painful.

Like, you know, it's kind of like ticklish. Like you can't like just you stop. You just push through it. There, for in my experience, there, there hadn't been any pain where I over-stimulate myself. Right. Well, not over-stimulated. I just always feel like after I come. Like I'm like so, you know, sensitive that it feels like ticklish.

Like it's like it's almost too much. It's too sensitive. It's too heightened that I don't want it to be taught. You know, and then I could wait like 20 minutes and then go again, but it's not like one after the other, right? But that's what multi-orgasmic is, is somebody that could do that and then just come again, right? Like you could do like five in a row. Yeah. Yeah, that's great.

After having multiple orgasms, it just really tires you out. And the thing is with me is that after an orgasm, I would just get knocked out and fall asleep just like that. Uh-huh. After one or after the five? Knocked out after the five, but like drowsy if it's just one. Right, right, right, I hear you. You sound like you're having a lot of fun. It doesn't even matter.

You're like the most experienced virgin I've ever met. Do you know what I mean? Like you've done everything. You're into everything. But like you never had actual penetration yet. You've penetrated yourself with things that you've made at home, right? You've anally pleasureed yourself. You like to choke yourself.

Spank yourself. You're a sub. You're polyamorous. You're into women. You're into men. You're pansexual. You have two boyfriends. but you're a virgin.

That's like the most interesting concoction. Yeah. People are really surprised knowing that I'm into a lot of things and I can engage in something without penetration. And they're like, you're a virgin. I like, yeah. And they're more shocked and ask me a lot of questions about this. Right.

Well, it's weird, but I think it's because of how you were raised and maybe your culture. Like, you know, it's, cultural or religious as far as like the actual penetration thing but it hasn't stopped you from exploring you know all your you know your curiosity into sex and everything that it has to offer so forget about it once you actually start having the sex for real you know imagine the things that you'll be into because you've already been creative enough to get into like all these things alone on video chat with Molo, right?

I mean, now you have a vanilla boyfriend, but he might not be the end-all-be-all, considering your Polly and your pan, sexual. Who knows who you'll experience in the future, but there's probably so much more for you to do and try once you start having sex with people. But it is, yeah, it is super interesting that you've done all this stuff

and you're into all this stuff but haven't had that penetration. But you've been having such a good time. It's almost like you're not, not like you're not not having a great fucking time like you're having probably more orgasms and more fun than most people that are having penetration so it's like you have found all these other really hot ways to get yourself off and to pleasure yourself and to have fun right by yourself i mean it's not a bad place to be that's what kind of makes it really really such

a surprising but beautiful thing and how i see it um-hmm because is you can stay in some, you have like some sort of purity within yourself, but then at the same time you can enjoy things that you want to look over. Yeah, totally. And you don't have to feel weird about it or anything because you're doing it sort of private and within yourself and you're taking it slow and you're doing what you want to do. And I feel like eventually when you do meet that right person, whoever it is, whether, like, you know, when you do cross those lines, you're going to be like a really great lover for somebody because you really know how to please yourself and you know yourself so well, you know, whereas a lot of women especially don't really have that because they don't, they can't even be free even by themselves, right? So I think that that is only going to help you when you're older and in relationships and more sexually experienced because you already are so beyond.

I can't even squirt. Like I said, I'm jealous. It's like you're ready to know all this stuff on your own. somebody's going to be really lucky to get you as their partner. Because that aspect of things, I mean, there's so many other things that go into a partnership, right? But the sexual part of it will be, you're going to be a great partner. Because you've already learned that. But so thanks so much for calling in and talking about all this stuff.

Good luck with Molo. Thank you so much as well for having me. And your relationship. When you do pop your cherry, let me know. Give me the update. And I'll let people go. Of course. All right.

But thanks so much, Monica. Thanks for calling in. I'll let you know when I air your episode. It'll probably be this Sunday for sure. All right. All right. Bye. Thanks so much.

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