Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 334 - Rick is a Subservient Nudist who Gets Turned on by his Own Shrinkage

Episode Date: May 4, 2020

Rick calls in tot talk all about what it means for him to be a nudist. When did he discover he liked to be naked outside and where did he first go “walking?” Where did he meet other “walkers” and where did they all go walking together? And, what goes on at the nudie, all guy swim parties that keeps him going back for more? Tune in for all the details which include the black and white dynamic that goes down at the parties, how and why it leads to gender bending, what he loves about serving a guy with BBC and how having shrinkage only helps him get even more turned on, plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous Podcast. Strictly Anonymous Podcast. Conversations with online strangers. We place ads online. The Craigslist is definitely like the gift that keeps on giving. Real people respond. You go to Santa Paul or Thailand. You can't not do it.

The temptation is just too much. It's real problem. Do your friend know that you're banging her or no? No, he has no idea. And anything goes. The motto of the show, let your freak flag fly. Probably the only good advice I'll ever give you is to rehire. your wits and chain. Here is your host, Kathy.

Hey, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast with Kathy. If you want to follow the strictly anonymous podcast on Instagram or Twitter, follow the show at Strict Anonymous. I have a couple of things I want to talk about. I'm trying to start. I literally, I've been doing my show for five years and it's about time I fucking make a penny off of it. I've never made a dime. I've been doing this all for free, but I'm looking to monetize. my, you know, my show. Is that correct grammar? And so I'm setting up a Patreon. That's going to be really interesting. Right now I have a donate button. I added to my website. If you want to donate to the show, I really would appreciate it. It's become like a full-time job for me now just because,

like I said, I've been doing it for five years and I have so many people listening and I have to schedule and I have to tape a million episodes and then I have to edit and then I have to reply to everyone that's emailing me and I love doing all that stuff and I want to continue to do it. But I need a little help. So if you want to donate to the show, you go to my website, Strictly Anonymous Podcast.com and click on Donate. I also added a forum to my website. It's going to be a place where everybody who comes on my show, I'm going to let them go there

and talk to people and people will be able to talk to each other, people who listen to my show, people who have been on my show. I created a place on my website, a forum, where everybody could go on and sign up and talk to each other. So you could go to my website strictly not amisspodcast.com and click on forum to go and chat with people about the episodes there. Or you could go to the Reddit page. There's a link on my website for that. Or you could go to YouTube and make comments on the videos. I reply to people there as well. If you want to be on the show, this is a call and advice show. I say it's a call and advice show, but most of the time I have people calling me, calling in just to talk about their secret and naughty lives.

A lot of times people are calling in because they want advice. I give unprofessional advice. you remain totally anonymous. If you want to be on the show, send me an email at Strictly Anonymous Podcasts at gmail.com or go to strictly anonymouspodcast.com and click on be on the show. What else? Today I have on a guy named Rick. Now, I have so many podcast tape. I keep forgetting to air people.

I forget who I've taped and who I haven't aired yet and all that stuff. And I totally forgot about this guy. I only taped him a couple weeks ago, but it's really a super interesting story. He's a nudist. And my idea of what a nudist was and what a nudist does was what I thought was right or like it was just so wrong in relation to this guy's experience as a nudist, right? For me, I think of nudist. I think of nude beaches. And I've been to one and I got a sort of vibe of the whole world that goes on there, right?

But he does a whole, he does the nudist thing in a whole different way that exists. that's out there that, you know, people that are involved in it know about, but most people won't. And if you're like me and you don't know about it, which would be the majority of people, you're going to find it fucking fascinating because not only is he a nudist and he likes to be nude out there, he goes to these nudie swim parties. And there's this whole black and white, big black cock, little white dick, subservient, master kind of scenario going on that he is totally into. And all the other guys that are there are totally into. And you just got to hear him explain it because he really puts the pieces together and explains why it turns him on, why it probably turns other people on. He talks about

nude walking. They call them walkers. I never knew about this. There's like a nudy walking thing that goes on and the people that do it. They call them quote unquote walkers. He talks a lot about the shrinkage and why that gets him turned on. He likes when he shrinks and looks like he has a really small dick compared to the other guys really big dicks at the party. I don't want to give too much away. I mean, you have to hear him talk about it because like I said, it's like so fascinating. It's something I had never heard of. And when he wrote in and said he was a nudist, I had a totally different idea of how the call was going to go. And everything he brought up surprised me. And it will most likely surprise you too, because I don't think the majority of people even know that this whole

world exists. So anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Rick. How are you today? I'm good. How are you? I'm good. Are you nude right now? Because my son, just so you know, my son has been a nudist this whole quarantine. He's like four years old and he refuses to put on clothes. And I've been joking saying, oh, he's like a future nudist because he just loves to be naked all. And I let him, you know, whatever, we're quarantined. We have no place to go. But that's your deal. For the past like 30 years, you wrote it and told me that you're, you've been a new. nudist, right? And it sort of progressed

and went into different directions and stuff. And I was a little excited because I don't know if you heard me ever talk about this on my show before, but I did have a boyfriend when I was like really young who went, took me to a nudie beach like a couple times, you know? And I just saw that there was a whole. Oh, no.

Yeah, there was a whole world, you know, which I never got into. I don't like getting involved in any kind of world other than my own fucking world. But I would love to get all this sort of information from you, right? Because you've been living as a nudist for a really long time, right? When did it start for you? Sure. It actually took an interest and it started when I was probably 12 or 13, watching those

Cinemax Showtime movies, these kind of softcore movies after dark. Uh-huh. And this one scene where these two women were out as Black Emmanuel is the name of the movie, but these two women were out on the African Savannah. And one was taking pictures, and then the other kind of snuck off behind her. And when the other one turned around with the camera, the one that smuck off kind of flashed her. And immediately I was like, oh, she just flat. You know, as a 12-year-old, I was like, oh, my gosh, she just flashed this woman.

And that was exciting. And then the girl, the camera, ran over and proceeded to take the other girl's clothes off and started taking pictures. And then the other girls started just kind of running around, having her picture taken. and she got further and further away from her clothes, and that was exciting to me. Then they both ended up being nude and having pictures, you know, self-timers taken of themselves. And I just remember thinking, oh, they are totally exposed.

Like, as someone were to come up and see them, they were so far away from their clothes, there's nothing that they could do, but just be nude and be seen. And that really excited me, and that's what started me having a fascination with being nude outdoors. Right, and being seen or maybe possibly being seen. Now, did you start to go to nude beaches? Like, was that the first way you got into it?

Or were there no beaches around? Like, how did you first start? Like, no, there were no beaches. There's no beaches around where I am. I'm in the southeast. Uh-huh. There's no legal new beaches. I was not aware of any nudist clubs at the time.

But throughout middle school, high school, and college, I would find places where I could sneak off in the woods and strip and walk around. And that kind of, that was my kind of fix. And then eventually I wanted a little more. And so I did find a new campground that was near, that was nearby. And it was all male. And I didn't really care because I just wanted to be nude. Right.

It was more about you being nude. Even when you were watching those girls, it wasn't like you were seeing them. it was about you being that right and being in that position was the turn on right correct yes yes and so i went to that nude camp that was about an hour away and unfortunately since it's closed down but i did go a few times and i would make myself a little dares to walk you know walk to the pool so i could be seen yeah you know made sure i would go up starts all talk with people. And, you know, and that was, that was my excitement of standing there totally nude in front of somebody talking.

Mm-hmm. And a few years later, I found another nudist resort that would near where I lived. So I went there and, you know, I did the same thing. But this was a co-ed. This was a co-ed campground. Right, men and women. And I just, again, I would, yeah, there were women. mostly it was men, but they were women there, and it was just great.

Contrary what people might think, just sunning nude, I mean, it's kind of boring. It's just like sunning out of pool, you know, you're just laying there nude. And so I would have to make my own little dares that I would do, like, you know, walk across the field naked. Walk up and get a drink and start talking to somebody naked. And I did, I did smoke a joint while I was there once. and that kind of heightened the feeling that I was feeling of excitement. Yeah, of course. I mean, that's what wheat does.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And, of course, I would start, I had been smoking weed, you know, before then. That's when I was, you know, walking around nude outdoors. I was going to ask you real quick. Like, when you were walking around, wait, but when you were walking around those woods, did you ever get caught?

Did anyone ever see you? No, but I would, sometimes I would see people. up on a road or something in a distance. And that was kind of exciting, but they never saw it. Right. Okay, so get back to the point.

You were just saying, I was not to go and flash anyone. Yeah, yeah, I hear you. Right, you weren't, it wasn't that, right, exactly. So you said, let's go back to where you were at in the story.

You're like at that nudist place, the new nudist colony, the co-ed one, and you wanted to dare yourself? So I walked to the opposite end of the pool and I was going to jump in the pool, swim across. So as soon as I jumped in the pool,

pool was just all that water around me, the sensation of being high and, you know, having some drinks in me. And just being nude in front of people, it just felt so good. And I was the only one in the pool. And so I saw him across and as I was coming out the steps, I just, I noticed how rock hard my knuckles were because the water was cool. Right. And as I kept going out, then I noticed how much my cock had shrunk. And then I was like, then it hit me. I'm even more exposed now. Oh, an invulnerable kind of. Right. And I'm going to have to walk across all these people and they're going to see me.

And I instantly flashed back to that movie scene when they were both, those two women were both nude out in the open and could have been seen. And it was just a huge turn on. Right. That's interesting because I would think like the opposite, right? Like a normal person would think, oh, your dick shrunk, you'd be. self-conscious that people would see it, but that's like the part, that's the part of the turn on for you. So that only added to it, right? It added, yes, it is. It added to the sense of exposure.

Yeah, uh-huh, because that's what you're too, right. Mm-hmm. And so, you know, I purposely walked by these people. You know, who knows that they noticed you're not, but it was a turn on to me. Yeah. So several times I got in and out of the water that day, just so I could have that effect. And So that was exciting. And so I went back to the news camp a few other times and I was sitting next to this couple talking to them. And a black guy came to the camp.

And, you know, I didn't think anything of it until he took his clothes off. And he had the biggest dick that I have ever seen. All right. And it was just like, oh, wow. and I noticed that the woman that was laying near me, we had been talking, and her husband was there, her attitude changed. Like, I just got a different feeling from her.

She had noticed, too. Yeah. Uh-huh. Yeah. And, you know, again, I was high and, you know, I had been drinking, and I thought, you know what? I'm going to get into the water again. And so I did in the same way.

You know, same as that, large, simple, small cock. When I came back to my lounge chair, I purposely stopped in front of this black guy's chair and just started making small talk with them. And just the fact that I was standing there with my cock totally shrunk and his being big. And then the lady that was next to him that I had been talking to, she, she could clean. And that was a turn on for me. Right. And, yeah, so I would do things like that. And it was just, it was so exciting just to be exposed like that.

And the comparison. And I guess it was a little bit of taboo as well. Yeah, in my mind. Yeah, because now you're like sort of flirting with a guy, right? And you're straight, right? But, right? There's that added thing. And there's a whole interracial aspect of it as well.

Uh-huh. added to it. Right. So I went back a few times this campground and I met some people and that's how I started meeting these nude walkers

was three people that I met at the campground that lived near me and then they introduced me to people. Right and you said nude walkers, right? I mean you cut out a little bit there. Nude walkers, right? Yes, that's what I call

the group, the nude walkers that we... Yeah, I didn't even know this whole thing existed until I got your email. Yeah, I didn't either. This was a whole new group. I just thought it was me that would go out and walk around nude in my backyard. Yeah. So, you know, these people at the nudist camp.

I met other people when, long story short, we ended up, a group of us ended up meeting and walking across the soccer field. Uh-huh. That was kind of secluded enough. And that was a rush just to be walking. And, you know, and a lot of people think that the young back would get turned on and you're hard on you're walking like that. but I have to shrink because there's a sense of nervousness.

Uh-huh. You know, with walking around, you know, where you're not supposed to, at least for me it is. Yeah. You're like on height and don't like that. You like that, right? Because that's a part of it for you. And you just use these thoughts for later when you're home and you get hard with them, right? Exactly.

Yes, exactly. Right. And so these nude walkers, I met another person that has been to some of these new moved his camps. I had met him until he went on a walk with us and we fun at his house sometimes. And he is gay.

And I kind of knew that if I was going over to the son with some of these nude walkers or friends of the nude walkers that I met that, you know, there's mostly going to be gay men there. Which again,

I didn't care. I just wanted to be nude in front of people. Turns out that I'll call him Chris His boyfriend at a time was black And so he would be there And some of his friends were there And they were black

And it was just Again the size of their cocks was just It just added a whole other level Of being nude and being exposed and a level of excitement. Right. And so that became like a thing. Now you realize like that's something that you're into.

Exactly. Exactly. And I would see people's, I know they would have other straight guys, straight white guys there. And sometimes I could see like one time, me and this one guy were starting news. And this black guy came up and started talking to us.

And I could see the white guy to my left, see him totally like change. Right. And I'd get more almost ex-feminent almost. And like the way that he moved and how he spoke. And I was just like, oh, my gosh. And I was like, oh, my gosh. And I'm like, this guy is totally good at him. It's like becoming submissive.

He's totally what? It's hard to, you just got a little hard to understand. He's totally becoming submissive. Right. Mm-hmm. To that big cock, black. like acting more, yeah, acting more feminine to a black guy. Yeah.

Yeah. And so, you know, we, we would go and I would go over there and saw it throughout the summer. And another time I was signing with, you know, a group of white guys and some black guys came over. And again, a black guy came over and started small talk with us. And I noticed a different guy started acting different. And I was, again, I was like, oh my gosh, I was like, you are becoming submissive. I'm assuming with this black guy standing in. And the black guy turned and started talking to me.

And all of a sudden I started feeling this feeling in my stomach. Very similar to that first time that I saw that movie. Mm-hmm. You know, that kind of warm butterfly feeling. Yeah. And then I was like, oh, my gosh. I was like, I'm starting to get that feeling of submissiveness. And there was nothing I could do about it.

Right. And then I noticed that I was acting different. And I was, you know, like the fact that his cock was so much bigger than mine, I was submissive to him. Mm-hmm. And I even went so far as to volunteer to get the black guy to drink. And, you know, I'm not sound. very erotic in people in my mind

that was my way of being submissive to serve him to get him a drink. Right. And I just distinctly remember walking to mixed a drink like hoping that other people that were there would see that I was doing that. That was a turn on to me.

So interesting. This whole aspect of that gender bending thing and why, you know, I feel like a lot of people wouldn't put that sort of together, right? Or wouldn't think that that goes down. but it does make sense, right?

Like you, just that black cock, then you become the submissive, and you want to be that, and you, like, would notice other men doing that. You know, I feel like a lot of people might not put that together, right? Yeah. And at Christmas place, he has a little outdoor shower. It's basically used to hose to a novel, and it's just cold water. And I would purposely go and rinse off so that my cock would shrink even more, and my nipples will rock hard and walk around and make small talk with,

the black guys just, you know, and just walk around so I could be seen. Yeah. And so there have also been some bigger parties that they've had at another person's house that has a swimming pool. And these are a lot bigger than the gatherings at Christmas House, which are, you know, usually only like seven or eight people. Right. At the bigger parties, like Memorial Day, Fourth of July, Labor Day, you know, there

might be, I've counted almost a hundred people there. Right. All naked. and totally co-ad, right? No. It's, I'd say 99% of it is all male. Oh, okay. Interesting. Yeah.

And again, I knew that it would be. I had an idea that it would be. But again, I just wanted to go where there was new people. And I started over time, I'm really condensing all this, but over time I started noticing there was definitely a black and white component to these parties. Right. There was an interracial thing going on. Yeah.

That, and overall that the white guys were considered, for like a better way to describe it, the female, the submissives at the party. Mm-hmm. And the black guys were the men. Right. And, you know, you would, I didn't see a lot of overt sexual activity, but, I mean, you know, I would see some things, you know, it wasn't like, it wasn't an orgy. That's why I'm trying to tell you.

But you would see some, you know, some activity. And I was there once, and a white guy sitting next to me was talking to the black guy. You can see the black guy getting hard. And again, my submissive way, I went to offer to get him a drink. And I did. And when I came back, that white guy was on his hands and knees on the lounge chair and was given this black guy a blowjob. And this was like, five. feet for my chair.

Yeah. And so. I'm surprised that that didn't go on more often. I'm surprised that didn't happen more often. Well, over time, I've seen it more. Right. And noticed it more. Yeah.

And so I just sat back in my chair and watching this white guy give this black dude a blowjob. And at one point during the blowjob, the white guy actually turned and looked at me as he was, you know, sucking his dick. And it was almost like he was inviting me to come over without saying anything. Right. But I just, you know, I didn't, that wasn't my thing. So I just kind of, you know, sat back and kind of watched.

And I was like, the whole time, I'm like, I can't believe I'm watching, you know, this white guy, get this black guy with a huge cock, a blood job six feet away from me. That was like, exciting. Yeah. The energy. Mm-hmm. And so, you know, there's a lot of pot being smoked, a lot of alcohol. There's a drug called moxie that we take it, that I've taken a small amount.

And that just heightens everything, the moxie. If you take, you don't want to take too much of it because then it's almost like shrews. Uh-huh. And, you know, then you're all paranoid. But if you take just a little bit, it's very similar to what I've been told ecstasy is like. Right. but I've taken that and like everything is very tactile.

Your nipples are very, my nipples get hard and it's sensitive. My cock shrinks and it's, you know, you can feel. It's just everything, every touch is almost like electricity going through your body

if you were to touch yourself or anything. It's funny that like you have the opposite, even when you're just sunning yourself, right? You're not in the pool. It's interesting that you, the shrinkage thing happens when you're kind of turned on, right? Even when you're not in the pool.

Yeah, well, so what I call it is like I'm turned on internal. Yeah. But I'm still, there's still, I've always this sense of nervousness. And I mean, I think if I were to really start, if I would stop playing myself, I'll get a lot. I'll grips off with a cold hose or jump into a pool. Yeah. So that I stay small.

Right. Okay. And I found that over time that I do that more and more because of, the energy you out of there, you know, the whole interracial aspect of it. And the attention that I get, too, is, that's another thing. You know, when I'm, when I'm there and high, I'll purposely get

into the pool, I swim across and walk across the side of the pool where, you know, there'd be a bunch of people standing there, and a lot of them black eyes, just so that they see me. Right. And, you know, that's a turn on.

and Chris, he's there, and I've met some other guys, you know, since then, but they notice that I do that. And so, you know, it's kind of a known thing, you know, within them. And, you know, again, I do these little dares and, you know, with yourself. Yeah. Yeah. And, well, the first time it happened, it wasn't there.

They wanted to know if I wanted, you know, I hit off a joint. If I wanted a shotgun. I don't know if you know. the shotgun is where somebody put you put the joint in their mouth and you blow out and another person has their mouth at the end of the joint and he blows the smoke in their mouth

well one of the black guys was blowing the smoke into Chris's mouth he's a white guy and it was my turn of course you have to get close and when I did

his dick because of his dick touched mine and the electricity I mean because I wasn't expecting that and that plus smoking and then in my head I'm like oh my god it did touch my life

that was a turn on as well and you know over time sometimes I'll again to bear myself I've gotten a joint for Chris and I'm going over and ask if anybody wanted a shotgun so I could do that so that chance of that might happen. Right. And would it happen all the time

or was it like it never happens again? Sometimes it does. I've gotten to the point now that I can almost make it happen. I've kind of gotten I know how to do it to where that I purposely

make it so their dicks touch hard. Yeah. One time that I really got turned on before I did that I was talking to the black guy and I had just come out of the pool and I noticed that his cockhead just his cockhead was almost as big as my dick

and that was a huge pernob to me and so I walked over like again I was walking like a you know in my mind like a walk walking suspicious back to Chris's

to pick up a joints and he knew exactly why I was there to do it together. Right. And I even like, I kind of knew that some people were watching me give this black guy's shotgun and that was kind of a turn on. Well, it was a turn on. Just having them see me. And I just, again, it made me feel even more like exposed.

And I love that. Right. So have you ever hooked up with a guy? Did any of these situations ever turn out? Like, you know, where there was like a dick in your mouth? No. I'm going to tell you this. Another time I was there, again, a lot of people were on Moxie.

Right. And just turned on, just being there at me is just a turn on. And I was walking around, you know, showing off. And I was really getting, like, just turned on. I was like, all right, I need to come over and take a shower or rinse off and cool off and just kind of take a breather. And I was going toward the shower, there's these two white guys. on a big blanket. And I had seen one of, I knew one of them.

I had seen him before. And, oh, let me back up. I was at the pool once, and I heard somebody go, hey, I know you. And it was somebody that I had to work with years ago. I didn't work. We worked at the same company in totally different departments. And it was so, like, turning around that we were both standing there nude

at this big pool party where essentially the women that was, you know, he didn't even remember my name and he just barely remembered my face. Right. And so, yeah, and so that was, you know, kind of exciting. But anyway, as I'll get back to what I was talking about earlier, I was walking to rinse off the cool off,

and I saw these two guys on a blanket, and I had taught one of them before. And they were eating strawberries and with, cream on the blanket and they asked me if I wanted Tom and I had a joint there too and I thought well at least I'll take a hit off his joint so I sat down in Indian style

so we're all in like a little triangle facing each other and it was kind of windy and as one of them on my left basically on my left he was doing the whipped cream and the wood cream kind of blew and hit

and hit what? I can't you just want you just checked out What did it hit? Your whipped cream started. Whipped you in the face? It blew and a little bit of it like landed on my chest. I'm near my nipple, my left nipple. And the guy on the right side, he reached over with his two fingers and kind of got it off and whipped the whipped cream off of his fingers.

That was kind of shocking. So I turned to my right to look at him. Then I feel something on my nipples. and that guy on the left, he had reached over and was licking on my nipples. Right, the whipped cream off. And then when I turned to look at him, the other guy went to my other nipple and was licking it. And that was not what I was anticipating at all. And so I kind of backed off, I kind of leaned back a little bit because I'm still sitting

cross-a-leaded. And I was like, I kind of tried to play it off. I was like, well, you know, this is too early for me for that because it's still early in the afternoon. and, I mean, because, you know, they were, they were fucked up too. Yeah. So I was able to get away with that. And so that was the first thing that something closed happened. So I went and rinsed off, and I still kind of turned on, but I was like, oh, my God, what just happened?

And I walked to, I walk around to the opposite side of the pool for my theater, and I'm just kind of standing it was trying to take all this in. on locking high, drink just backer. A friend of Rick Sebastian comes up and he saw that. And so he made some comments

and he told me to meet him back over at his chair. But he wanted me to walk the long way in front of the black guys. Right. And so I did it. And that was an act of submissive that school.

And so I did that. And when I got around, there was like a little, like a cafe table where you stand. And so he was standing there. And he just had this look like, like, he knew that I was like turned on. And he had a bottle of baby oil. And so he was like rubbing it on himself, talking to me. And he was basically like, he goes, oh, How did you like walking past the black guys?

And I was like, oh, it was amazing. Did he like showing off your small cock, don't you? And I started getting more like, up that feeling in my stomach, butterflies. I was like, you know, yes. And that he had pulled baby all on his hand and was rubbing my chest with him. And he made a comment about how hard my nipples were.

And he rubbed my, he rubbed my, he rubbed my, He rubbed my front of my shoulders, my chest, down to my thighs. And he said, I've been waiting to, I've been waiting for this for a long time. Wow. So then he put baby oil on his hands, and then he, like, at my abdomen and it robed all the way down and the hand covered my dick. And he broke baby oil on it. and then he grabbed my hand and he led me

to back to his lounge chair and he said turn over let me get your backside so again everything is spinning so I roll over I'm on my back or on my stomach and he totally

rubs down my legs my butt my back shoulders arms and I'm covered in baby oil but he doesn't try anything other than that Just touching it, right. He touched it once just to lube it up, right?

Yeah. Maybe just to see my reaction. Yeah. I've been played out in my brain after this has happened many times. So now we're just sitting there and laying down in Lauscher now. You don't want, I'm on the other because he's got another one. I am covered in baby oil. This is what my brain does.

I'm here naked, covered in baby oil at this pool party that we, the white guys, are considered the feminine part of this group. And it was just, oh, my God, this is crazy. So then Sebastian gave me a joint and said, why don't you go to pick out a black guy or two or three and see if they walk and shotgun. done. And, you know, I've never done it covered in baby oil before. Yeah. And so I did. I got this morning.

I walked over and I was, I was a female that day. I was playing the female role. Right. And I realized that and I got coming off. And I walked over and I sort of, you know, talking to some and, you know, I made small call and then I found two guys. Essentially, I picked up the black. I got to have the two biggest sticks that were close to each other.

All right. And I asked if they wanted a shotgun. I didn't use a swallow a shotgun. And the first guy, our dicks, can I see it. The second guy, our dicks touched. He knew what I was doing. And he took his hit. And when he blew it out, I started to back off a little bit.

He kind of took my shoulders. and they're like, hold on, I want another one. But the whole time he's doing this, he is rubbing the tip of his dick against mine. Oh, wow. And so I'm just, I'm just standing there waiting for him to take another hit while he is totally, you know, putting his cock on mine. And I am so turned on. Right. So we do another one.

And like two guys come up and start, because now they want some of the pot. and so I gave him the joint, the white guys the joint, and I walked back because I was like, whoa, this, I was not, this was not what I was, I knew, I knew that I would, that our Cox would touch, because that's why I went over there to give the shot down, but I didn't realize that the second black dude would really know what I was doing and then, like, actually stopped me. And while I waited while he was doing that,

while he was touching by it. I mean, it was almost like he had a plan for me. Right. And that was a turn on, but it was not my thing. And it was a little too much for me. And thank goodness there's two white guys came over. And I gave them to the joint, and I let them, you know, do whatever. And so I kind of flipped back and then kind of walked back to my lounge chair.

When I did, I looked in the pool. And the guy that I used to work with, he was there. He saw everything. and he was just kind of looking at me and just knowing that he saw was a turn on. Yeah, that's your thing for sure. Yeah, and it's just, you know, it was

that was probably one of the most turned on than I've ever done. Right. And, of course, when I was driving home from that party, oh, I was playing with myself so bad. Right, because you never jerk off, like, at those parties, right? Like, you're never doing it when you're there.

I don't. Right. I don't because I don't want to, to me that's like almost like an open invitation for somebody. Right. I mean, I personally think there's enough open, I mean, I'm walking around naked covered in baby oil. To me, that's an invitation. But if I start playing with myself, I think that's really like there's no doubt about that. And so that's why I mentioned about the gender banning.

It all led from that one movie scene that I saw when I was like 12 years. Yeah, right. But it's funny because like a lot of those other guys probably never saw that video, but they seem to do the same thing. So it must be, you know, something that sort of exists within that kind of fetish, right? If you're like a, you know, there's got to be other people like you, right? Of course. That's the great thing about the internet.

We all think we're the only ones. And then you go online and you're like there's tons of people, right? The walkers like quote unquote, like you said. At first, like you would like like to walk around. Dude, I would think if I. like to do that I would think I was the only one too but it turns out I mean like I said I didn't even know that there was like nude walking and like if that was a thing but turns out when you I got your email I heard of it and now you're saying like there was tons of

other people that liked it too right and that gender bending all naked wanting to be seen that whole specific thing that you have there's other people out there that have it too yeah and um the criss he's got to have the house that doesn't have the pool, the smaller get-togethers, you know, in between the bigger parties at this other guy's house at the big pool and it's private, he's had some days when it's just white guys there, and he wants, he calls it just a day for the girls.

That's what he pushed to it. Right. So, you know, I just go to just the con, and, you know, depending on how much pot I smoke, you know, sometimes, well, I will say that, sometimes if like any black guys come over to pick up to get pod or smoke pot and they end up stripping mood, I definitely notice a change with people, including myself, that it kind of reverts to the submissive part. And then when the black guys leave or if they leave, we still stay in that role.

Oh, interesting. Yeah. And I think ultimately, again, this was two or three seasons of putting all this together. I think that Chris and Sebastian, what they're trying to do is get white guys that are straight or maybe curious. Maybe it's a challenge to them to convert them over to fuck a black guy to dick. That's just kind of my thing. That's what I think is happening because Chris, they've never hit on me or anything before. I've never seen them hit on the other white guys.

I think they're kind of a go-between between the black guys and then the straight white guys or curious white guys. Right. Or maybe they're just, that's their thing. Like, that's what they're into. It just seems like it could be very specific, right?

And tailored to, like, how somebody is made up, right? Like, maybe they're not even trying to get someone to suck someone off. Like, maybe they just like to see the gender bending. Maybe they like to see the gender bending. that shift in energy. Maybe they just like to see black guys and white guys

hanging around naked. You know, I don't know. Yeah. I know that when that submissive part excitement kicks in for me, that it almost

taps another section of romaca in my body that I didn't know was there. What do you mean? And like I just I didn't know that that was something that I could participate in or see or think about that would get me excited. Right.

Uh-huh. Uh-huh. Yeah. And so it's like now I recognize it that it's there. And it's funny. It's only, if I'm walking around normal, there's like a black guy passenger or whatever, this doesn't even cross my mind. It's only very specific when I'm there and news. and in that setting.

And they have a bigger dick than you. I mean, if a black guy came and he had a regular size dick, would it do it for you? Isn't it also like the size of it as well on some level? Say that again? Like, isn't it, like, okay, if a black guy comes to the party and there's only one black guy and his dick is like as big as yours or just like average, do you have the, does it have the same effect or?

It doesn't. Right. So it's also the fact that they have a really. big dick. Yeah. Yeah. It's also the size, right? Of the, like big black cock, right? Isn't that a BBC? Isn't that a term like big black cock? It's a, it's, that's a part of it because without that it's not just the interracial thing. It's about what really makes you feel submissive is the fact that he's so much larger than you. Correct. And again, I still think, I still think this would have the interracial thing of those. somewhat of a tapu. Of course, right.

It's all of it together. Like, like, sometimes, it's funny that I keep pushing these, I call them on a little dares slash boundaries. This one guy who was straight, he and I were talking, and he, and I were talking, and he, he made it clear that he was there just for the nudity. and kind of like where my uncle was. And so anyway, so we're, you know, we're swimming and we're at the pool and this black guy comes up and then Chris is with him.

This is another black dude. We get, we're in the pool and me, Chris and this other white guy are in the pool and the when the black guy comes up and he's talking to us. And, of course, he's news. And, you know, we're high. We're all moxie and I've been drinking some alcohol. And, you know, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, this is after I've realized the significant state that I've gotten in before.

And so I can't, I really wasn't paying attention because I was just enjoying being in the water and being nude. And I thought I wasn't really paying attention to what they were saying. But the long of the conversation was, is that, uh, The black guy wanted to drink. And Chris made a comment. This is what I heard specifically what I said is, all right,

whoever has the smaller cock gets the drink. And I heard that. And everybody just kind of, me and Chris and the other white guys kind of with each other. And all of a sudden, this rush of a lot of energy that kind of squatting down, waiting at the water.

And I stood up and the water was like, around 5, lower 5. And I said, looking at this is a black guy, oh, I guess that's me. And I walked up with steps to get him a drink. And oh, my, just the fact that I admitted that was so hot to me. And I did that, the other white guy was just looking the black guy's dick. And so with my right hand, I handed the black guy, his drink.

and then with my left hand I handed it to the other guy who was who was sucking his dick and then the black guy took that guy to drink or took it from his hand and he he looked down out and

say do you want to taste of this in his drink and the guy you know kind of quit fucking his dick and was like yes the black guy put his dick in the drink

and gave it to him. Oh, my God. And, yeah, and so, and he didn't even drink bad. He just went straight to the black guy's dick after that. Of course. And then, like, I got the drink back, yeah, got to drink him and handed it to me. Because here you go, you have it. Oh, interesting.

What a turn on for you. I was so turned on. Yeah, so I took a sip out of it. Of course. And I was just, oh, yeah. And I thought I was walking. back, I was, I was, this guy had asserted so much power over, that white guy, and I guess me too, but I was walking back and I'm like, that guy, he owes me, like he owes me.

Right, and you like that. I got him drinks, I got him drinks all day long and I showed off for him and that white guy sucked through the dick, I don't know how many times that afternoon. I saw him do it three or four times. Oh, my God. Yeah, and I remember during the whole day, laying next to the light guy after all this happened, during the course of the day, I'm like, oh, my God,

I was like, he totally made you his bitch. And then I'm like, well, I think it's all to myself. I'm like, well, you drink, you know, you drink that drink, I think he put a dick in it, you know, what does that make you? And then it was just eternal.

Right, you like to be the bitch, too. But your boundaries are, like, you don't really go like you don't fool around with them but you just like to I haven't you haven't yet let me ask you this though do you have noticed over time yeah go ahead no keep finishing your thought and then I'll ask my questions no I've noticed that

you know it's just funny there that I caught myself just staring at a black guy's dick before do you think you'll ever wind up putting it in your mouth I feel like you get more turned on. No, but I feel like in a weird way, you keeping it as like the way that you keep it. It just keeps you on edge and like that's a part of the turn on almost not having it. You know what I mean? I don't know that it's like it's like that foreplay that just lasts for so long.

You're kind of like teasing yourself of something that you want and you don't give it to yourself. Exactly. Yeah, that maybe if you did have it, it would. I mean, then you'd have a new boundary. Maybe you could, you know, push it. in different directions to get yourself warning. But I feel like, you know, that's a part of, like, not having it in your mouth is a part of the turn on, right?

Because it's always like this thing that's there that could maybe happen. Yeah. And I do know that Chris and Sebastian are just like they're, I don't say they're waiting, but they're, they just, you know, that's why I keep inviting me because I guess they think that at some point it'll happen. Right. And they're waiting. for that but maybe a part of their turn on is like the anticipation and the fact that it hasn't right like

you're all sort of doing the same thing right let me ask you this because i know like i mean you're like in your 40s right how old are you now mid 40s mid 40s right and you're you consider your you're straight guy right like have you been married are you married are you in relationships like what's what's your regular life look like i i was married one in my 20s and then divorced, about seven years, and then I've dated off and on. Currently,

before this pandemic, I had this girl that I was having sex with, you know, several times a week, but ever since the pandemic, that has shut down. But did, like, you do this through all your relationships and stuff?

This is like a secret thing, right? Nobody knows about your, like, I'm assuming, no one in your... Yeah. So, well, the last, the last, so when I was married, I definitely, she knew I enjoyed being nude outside. Yeah.

But she didn't know that I enjoyed, you know, walking around at nighttime in the backyard. Yeah, oh, my God. She didn't know that. Did your neighbors know? Yeah. I mean, that's not while we, yeah. Yeah. No, I don't think so because I always do it at nighttime.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh-huh. After the divorce, that's when I started. thinking more about going to the news camps or looking for the news camp and taking these walks. Right. I was after divorce because I had a good time. You know, maybe during certain dry cells of having sex, maybe this was a way to release sexual energy.

Yeah. And so through your relationship since her, did you, would you do this stuff on the side without them knowing? No. No. It's always when I was in between. Right. Okay.

I haven't really had a steady girlfriend in the last like two years. for three years. I've messed around and had fun with several, but not, nothing's stayed. Right. And it's weird because when I'm with a woman and I'm hard, I'm, you know, I'm probably slightly bigger than average. It's just when I'm walking around, that's when I tend to really shrink. Right.

I looked up boxing, the drug boxing, and I think it's kind of like, you know, if you take bath or amphetamine, that makes sure. your cock shrink a little bit. And so I think it actually has that same effect on the, I think it has to do with the blood vessels. Oh, that's interesting.

Mm-hmm. So I think the boxy helps even more with the small, small cocks. Yeah, you know, I really thought, like, you know, it's so interesting. I'd love to get on a call with like a total stranger, right?

That's what I do with my show. And then just like learn about their lifestyle, right? I'm naturally curious. So I never really prepare anything. I never really know, what I'm in for coming in. But a lot of times I have assumptions based on the email, you know, when I got your email, I'm like, oh, this is going to be sort of like that whole nudie world that I was used to or that I saw, right, like on the beach and everything. But it turned out to be a totally

different thing. And, you know, like, and a topic, you know, the nudity topic would be new to, but also this whole small dick turn on thing is like something I really never heard about. I'm sure I'm going to get a lot of emails from people being like, oh, I have that too, right? of course. And so it's super interesting to hear, like, your experience. And I guess that would be considered a fetish, right? Like that aspect of it, you know, because I've never heard that before from anybody. Yeah, I didn't know either.

So maybe it is sort of like a fetish. But, I mean, there's plenty of, you know, these better parties where there's, you know, I've seen 100 people there before or around 100. I'm estimated. I mean, there's plenty of, there's all. always more white guys there than black guys. And I didn't know that there's so many black guys that are on the,

you know, that are into that on the side. I don't know if it's a power thing for them or what or, you know. Yeah, maybe. Maybe they're the doms. You're the, yeah, they're the doms. You're the subs. I think that there's probably all different kinds of people. Like, look, you're like sort of you don't cross the boundary

of like ever really doing anything like fooling around with them, but you do sort of teeter on there. And there's probably like people that are like you and the people that do want to get their dick sucked, but they're like the ones that show up there are the ones that are dominant and the white guys that show up are tend to be more submissive. But I'm sure out, you know, in other places, you find the black guys who are subs, right?

And the white guys who are doms. But in those kinds of situations, it must play. Yeah, yeah. But maybe like within, you know, coupled with what you guys all like, it seems like most of you tend to take on the, the roles that you take on, right, where the white guys are the subs and the black guys are the doms, right?

In your world and, right? Yeah, yeah, especially, yes, at these parties. And, um, and they're specific parties. Yeah. Mm-hmm. Yes. Yeah.

Before I put it, again, this was they were like three years, I kind of put this all together. Yeah. You know, they could have, the black guys and other white guys could have seen me as a sub before I, even realize. Yeah, and I'm sure that people listening to this, maybe that are into this on some level, maybe they don't go to nudie parties, but they're like into that kind of porn or they're,

they like to be seen someplace in a bookstore, you know, and they see a black cock and it makes them feel feminine. Maybe now they're going to put it together. You know what I mean? Like I said, it's so interesting that you could put that together because I think a lot of people have it. Look, it took you a long time, right, to do it to really figure that out. So I feel like people listening now, maybe you're going to put that together for them as well. And I think it doesn't have to be just in the nudist world. I think maybe that is going down in other places too. It's interesting that whole thing of like being, because I've heard a lot of guys say that they want to, when they get interested in a, they don't think they're by because when they're interested in a man or when they

want to be with a man, they feel like a woman with a man. They don't feel like a man with a man, right? you know and and you know and there's that submissive thing I guess the woman has looked at as submissive so you're a submissive so it just it ties into a lot of other things and I feel like people will take from this not just people who are nudist right but other people who are subs maybe or gender bending right it's all that kind of stuff together and like I said I thought this would be just mostly about the nudist thing but this other thing is like even more interesting you know Yeah, now I have gone to this news camp. That's about two hours from my house while still going to these parties all at same time. And when I go there, it's more about the nudist. It's not, there's not a sexual, for me, there's not a sexual element to you. Yeah, yeah.

You're just naked and you're enjoying being free. Yeah. I want to make sure there's a distinction between, because a lot of people think that you go to a nudist camp, that it's all sex and all that. No, but there's an undercurrent. Yeah. But there's an undercurrent. I remember when we went.

Yeah, there's a whole world. It's a nudie world. And I think like you had mentioned this and you said this really early on when you first went. I guess it was maybe more to the co-ed one that you don't see. Like it's not like one big fucking orgy, but you kind of get that maybe there is some sex going on here or there because there is you're going to like at some point during the day, you're going to get a little horny just like you would at a regular day.

Right. And if you happen to be naked, you know, it's very easy to go do your thing. And like when I went to the nude beach a couple of times that I went, what I took from it is like there's this whole nudie world. These people are all super open to being, but they're also open sexually. And like, you know, it does probably lead

to other things at other times, but it doesn't necessarily mean that everybody's like, like you said, having a big fucking orgy, right? But I think those people tend to be a little bit more open sexually maybe and stuff goes down at some point, right? We would have couples that come over and talk to us. And I'm like, oh, they're going to, they want us to get down. You know, we went.

off on a section of the beach and had sex. Like, you know, there were things that you just do just because, like I said, you're naked and you're kind of horny. But, you know, that happens regularly anyway, right? It could happen at a regular beach. Right. Exactly. Nudence for people and people have sexual desires.

No better if you're a nudist or not. So it's part of it. It's not solely being an aspect of being a nudist, but it's part of it just like everyday life. Yeah. And I have to say, like, I think like I never, I had never. been to a nudist beach. It was my guy that was into it and brought me with him. But I remember when I first got naked there, I was like, oh, there was a turn on. There was something about people seeing me

that turned me on, right? And just for like a second, I was like, you know, because after a while you get used to it and it's comfortable, you know, but there was that sort of, that's the exhibitionist in you, right? Like, or in me. And I think that maybe sometimes you don't even know that you have that or you're into that and you know it until you sort of experience it right and there's a lot of stuff that goes into that but that's a whole different uh podcast i thought like i said i thought it was going to be much more gear to all of that but it turned out to be this whole other world that you live in that exist out there i wonder how many other people are going to email me and be like oh we have those parties where we live because it's not like it can't just be in your area right these things must be

going down in other places i have to wrap it up now so i'm just wrapping it up but It's just so, it is like, like I said, if you're doing it, other people are, and I'm sure I'm going to hear from those people, and people are going to be emailing me about it, you know? Yeah, well, I was shocked that other people like to walk around outside nude out. Yeah, the walkers. I thought that was the only one. Yeah. It kind of led, I met some other people who did it, and it kind of led to this whole thing.

Yeah, and the whole thing about shrinkage and wanting to be looked at and wanting, like, I mean, for some guy to say like whoever has the smallest dick gets to get me and you're like it's me like normally that's like the opposite right nobody would ever want to cop to that but in this world i was so turned on when he said that and i stood up it's like i was admitting to i was like you know yeah it's crazy to hear right probably for people that don't have this fetish but you know as crazy as it is for me it's interesting as a curious person like i find that interesting because i would never know that that exists right and that's what this what this whole episode was more about.

You know, it's like, it's so fascinating. And it's even, like I said, fascinating that it took you like so many years to sort of put that together. And I think what's really great is that you're going to help other people put that together and make sense of like the stuff that they're into, right? So anyway, thanks for calling in and explaining all that. Well, thank you. I hope I'll throw a lot out there, but I hope that, you know, kind of made some sense.

Yeah, no, totally. It did. And like I said, I think you're going to make the light bulb go off for other people. And it's a topic that I've never had, so it's always great. So I'll keep you posted of when I'm going to air it. But thanks so much for calling it and sharing your story. All right. Well, thank you very much.

You're welcome. Bye. Okay. I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly anonymous confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and ebook, but you can pre-order. the audio book. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category

that I talk about on my show. Like there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person. And they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories. 17 of them. They're really short. Chapters, easy read. You could read, you know, one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format. And finally, the audiobook is.

available coming out August 25th, but you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint, okay? There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me. Okay, I give it to people who buy my book. There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other. And that's what you get to do there. You could post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of contests where you can win a lot of money. It's a super fun place to be.

It's a total strictly anonymous community and you will love it. I will be giving anyone who buys my book access to my Discord. It's private, like I said. All you got to do is email me a screenshot of your purchase, whether you did the audio book, the ebook or the paperback. Send it to me at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at Gmail. and I will send you the link to Discord.

So anyway, thanks so much for tuning in. This is the strictly anonymous podcast.