Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 398 - Dillon is Into Diapers, Pee Play, Panties and More

Episode Date: July 5, 2021

Dillon is into diapers, pee play, panties and more and he calls in to talk all about it. When did he realize he was into wearing diapers? Why is he into wearing them? And, Does he wear them all the time? Tune in for all the details which include how his parents divorce ties into his fetish, how he tricked his mom into letting him wear them as he got older, how he got caught by his mom and how she reacted, how his dad found diaper porn on his computer and how he reacted, how he went to therapy and why it didn't help him, how his wife reacted when he first told her and how they've dealt with it in their marriage, how he told her about his pee play and panty fetish and all the kinky things they've done together including going panty shopping together, her peeing on him, "desperation wettings" and more, how he cheated on his wife with another "diaper lover" and what exactly went on between them, how he wears diapers while working and why his job is perfect for a guy with his fetishes, plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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attention. I was like, yeah, I'll have you on. And let me just tell you, it was a 10 times more interesting than I could have even imagined, or a hundred times more interesting than I even imagined. He's not just into diapers. He's into pee play and panties and all other kinds of things, okay? But the diaper thing is so fucking fascinating because it's not like we just talk about how he jerks off into them. Like we really go into where it came from, which is fucking fascinating. He could absolutely tie it back to something. We talk about. We talk about. you know, the ins and outs of how it turns him on, why it turns him on all the times he got caught. I mean, his mom found out, his dad found out how they reacted to it. And this is a guy,

let me tell you, that has always been honest about this fetish to women in his life. He's had two women that he's told, and he goes into details about what happened when they told them both, including his wife who he's with now. Okay. It's fucking fascinating. And then, like I said, he talks about all these other things that he's into, including piss play. Did I say P-Play before P-play? P-play. I don't know. And panties. And the P-play, he gets into that with his wife, what they do, how they, you know, get off on that. It's all fascinating. I know sometimes I say interesting too much or fascinating too much, but I promise you, this is just such a interesting episode. I loved his story. I loved how open he was. We also get into his relationship with his parents,

and how that affected him. But we dig deep on all levels, right? You're going to find out why he got into the fetish, how he plays out, okay, like what he does sexually with it, how far he takes it, as well as talk about all the other fetishes, as well as talk about his relationship with his wife

and how she feels about all of his fetishes. I promise you, I know for fact, okay, you're going to love it. I know for a fact underneath the comments on YouTube, everyone's going to say they fucking love this episode because it's great. So I'm just going to be right back on with Dylan. Hey, Dylan, welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today?

I'm doing pretty good. How about you? I'm doing great. So, Dylan, you know, I put a shout out nowadays on my episode saying, you know, I'm only interested in talking to people who are either A, females or B, I have a story that I've never fucking heard before. And you fall into the second category, right? You have a story that I have never fucking heard of before. I mean, I've heard of it, right? But I've never had it on my show.

So I'm super excited to talk to you. I mean, I don't know much about it, but you have a diaper fetish, right? And you have to explain to me exactly what that means. Right. So basically, since I was, I don't know, like four or five, I always knew that there was something about diapers that I just really loved. And I just always tried to find ways to regress. so I could get put back into them. And as I got older, it was kind of something I had to keep closeted.

And then I think when I was like 18 or 19, that's when I really started to figure out that it was sexual for me. Okay, but let's go, can we just go, I'm not going to harp on like your childhood that much because I really want to get to the point where it turns sexual to you and like how that actually plays out, right? But I do want to, because as a mom, right, I have a son. He's like five. You know, I just want to know, like, there must have been something I would think that went on maybe right with your diapers when you were really little. Is there anything that you could remember when you were a child that could be the reason for this fetish? Like, did you, were you left in your diapers a lot? And so it was some sort of sense of comfort for you or something like, is there anything that you remember about your diaper history?

you know, before it turned into like a fetish? Yeah, so I think like the biggest thing was that my parents got a divorce when I was pretty young. And so I think I just felt like a connection to those. Like I just didn't want to give up that sense of security that I had from them. So it was like I was doing anything I could to just get back to them. Okay. So when you were in, so you're saying. that like when you were in diapers, that was a time when your parents were together. And then

when you were out of them, they separated. So you felt like on some level, going back to that time was when you felt the most secure because you had that two-parent foundation going on, right? That makes sense. Right. Yeah. Absolutely. Yeah. That's really hardcore, right? Like imagine, like something like that. But I mean, that's why I ask because I find that kind of information fascinating because so many things could wire us certain ways, right? Because of, right? I mean, did you always know that that's where it was from? Did you ever seek therapy for this?

So I did try, but it's difficult because you have to find the right kind of therapist that would be open to talking about that and it not be like, oh, my God, this guy's a fucking creak. Yeah, totally. It has to be somebody that I think, you know, specializes. in sex therapy, like a sex therapist, somebody who specializes. I have a guy, I've taped him already. I haven't aired him yet.

I'm going to release. It was a shorter conversation, but he has like, he's a very well-known, very uber-smart, amazing sex therapist. I mean, that's his specialty, right? And he runs a place now. He doesn't do the therapy himself anymore, but he has people working within him. And they're the ones. And, you know, the people that work for him.

him deal with stuff like that, right? And I think it is really important, like you said, for any kind of fetish, you know, because I've had a lot of guys calling in that have all kinds of fetishes, right? If you want to seek therapy or go back to when it happens or, you know, understand it more that you do get a therapist that is going to, that has studied it, right? And has, and knows that, knows where it's coming from. That's the kind of, that's the kind of therapist you would need for sure. Right. Right. A regular therapist is, you know, going to know as much as I do, I feel like, you know. Yeah. You're like, okay, where's this really going? Yeah. I mean, listen, you could, so it's so obvious that that's where it comes from, right? Now, I wonder, though, what I want to know,

too, the next place I want to go to in your childhood is like when it turns sexual, right? There must have been a time where, because, you know, you're, you're still young when you start to want to wear them, Right. And it's not a sexual thing when you're five or six or seven, right? Because you're not even. Right. Right. You don't have those hormones, right? So now, you're trying to regress and get your parents to put your mom to put them on you at certain times just so that you could get that security, right? At what point does it become a secret to your mother that you're doing it yourself? So I think it was like around the time that I was in middle school and, you know, you start like doing chores for money and shit. And then. You know, you start to see, I think it was like the good nights pull-ups or whatever when they started coming out. I started buying those and just trying to like hide them in my room. But, you know, kids suck at hiding shit.

So. Your mom would find? She actually did end up finding them. And did she know what was going on? Because I'm sure she must have put it together because before you started buying them on your own, she was having to put them on you right you were making up all kinds of you know scenarios for her to put them on you is that what was going on before you started buying them yourself yeah basically like just you know like you're wetting yourself on purpose or you know wetting the bed and oh i don't know what happened and

you know so she kind of went along with it for a while because of the divorce um but then as i got older i think she started to realize there had to be something else did she ever sit down and talk to you? Is she the one that put you into therapy because of it? I mean, did what happened? Like, how did she deal with it? No, it was actually my dad. Because I had, I had taken one with me one weekend. I was staying with him. And he basically had like a what the fuck moment with me. And that's when I, that's when I had to open up with him. And he was like, you know, giving me the whole talk about masturbation and just weird shit. And I'm like, well, yeah, that's, That's what I use.

Okay. So how old are you when your father found them? I was probably like 13. Okay, but so before you're 13, right, you're jerking off with the diapers. When did that start? Do you remember? Before that, not really. Because I was just like super anxious about it and, you know, worried about, you know, what if mom finds out because I was still living with her.

Yeah. You know what's interesting, listen. I mean, it would, you know, you spent, I'm assuming, and answer this question, actually, I shouldn't assume. Did you spend a lot of time while you were in your room alone, right, exploring and just being by yourself in diapers when you were like alone? Yeah, I mean, I tried to any time I could. You were wearing them. Yeah. Yeah. Right. So it just makes sense that you would have wired yourself. to be sexually into them because you probably you know like any young kid right all of a sudden your dick gets hard right and you start feeling these feelings and you have an orgasm and you're like what the fuck was that right and you're wearing diapers probably the first time that happens just because you're always wearing them right and then it gets connected it makes sense don't you think right yeah definitely it's not because you went you were like horny and then you're like oh let me put diapers on this is going to turn me on It's like you probably just got turned on, right, by accident, because that's what happens, right? And you happen to be wearing them, or a lot of times when that happened, you're wearing them. So it became connected for you.

Yeah, definitely. Right? So all of a sudden now, and let me ask you this, did it, was it a thing where because it, you know, you were wired that way, did it eventually become something where, like, you needed them to get horny or have an orgasm? Yeah, I did notice that as I started to get older and actually started to find diaper porn, which I never even would have thought would have been a thing. Yeah, right? Oh, my God. Yeah.

But listen, that's the great thing I have to say about the Internet. I mean, it's kind of bad if you have an ego and you just want to believe that you're like the only one and you're so unique. You know, like that's how in my generation, because I'm 50 and there was never an Internet when you were younger. So you would just sit around thinking you're like the only one. and you're so different. And then you get the fucking internet. And you realize that, listen, if there's diaper porn, that means that there's a market for it.

That means that there's so many other people. And what the internet really goes to show is that if you're into something, there's other people that are. Just fucking Google, you know? Oh, yeah, definitely. Right? I mean, and that should make you feel better. So you're not like, oh, my God,

am I the only person that's doing this? But so there are. And listen, I would think that, of course there's going to be other people that are into it because it's such a time. in your life, you know, those formative years, right? That things are going on. So why wouldn't it be tied to stuff, right? Because like a lot of bad things could happen when kids are in their diapers and if they,

you know, I don't know. I'm really making no sense, but you know what I'm saying. I don't know why I'm not saying it properly. But it just makes sense that that would happen or there would be a lot of people out there with some sort of diaper fetish because a lot of shit's going down. when you're in diapers. And it could be super dysfunctional, all right? Yeah.

So you're, okay, where do we even start? This is like so fascinating to me. I love the psychology behind it, you know, and all that kind of stuff. But so you start getting turned on by it. You're starting to realize that you need that when you're horny. Now, can I ask you this? Like, do they need to be soiled? Do they not need to be soiled?

Do you like shitting in them? Do you like to just pissing them? Do you like to shit and pissing them? And then you get turned on. I mean, how far does it? I want to know all of the above. Sorry. No, definitely not the shitting part.

Okay. Yeah, definitely. I think just because of the male genitalia, the pissing definitely can help, but it's not always, you know, like sometimes you can just, you know, go at it. When you just put one on, it doesn't really matter. Right. Okay. So it doesn't have to be soiled or anything like.

that's not tied into it. Right. But could I ask you, like, when you would wear them alone and secretly, would you poop in them or would you never do that? No, it was one of those things where I tried it one time and I was just like, oh, my God, what the fuck did I do? Like, it's just really fucked up. So, yeah, that was pretty much a one and done thing for me.

Right. So that never entered into it. So it was more for you, just like the way that it felt and it made you feel. secure. Did you find that like if you were in a bad place or feeling uncomfortable or feeling upset about something that like that's when you really needed that diaper to go on? Yeah, definitely. And especially with, you know, my dad, he never really got any better at relationships. So it was like every time he was going through a new one, I just felt this need to regress. Wow. If your father could hear this episode, he'd be horrified. Do you know what I mean?

I don't think most parents don't knowingly fuck up their kids. I mean, it seems like they knowingly do it. But, you know, I had bad parents, but, you know, you get to a place in life where you realize they're human beings too. And human beings are just so fucking flawed, right? And depending on when people have kids, you know, if they're not, you know, they haven't dealt with their flaws yet, right? They could put that on to their children. And a lot of people do. And we're all the product of it.

And it can really fuck you up, right? And so here was your father just being a fuck up when it came to women. And he doesn't realize this is what's going down. Right. Yeah. Now when you spoke about it, right, that time when he caught you. So now your mom just was like obviously sweeping it under the table, right? I mean, she just never wanted to deal with it, even though it was probably the signs were like straight in front of her, like right in front of her face.

Right. Yeah. She was definitely the non-confrontational part. Yeah. He was the part that was like, yeah, we're going to fucking deal with this right now. Okay, well, that was, that's good. That's a good part of your dad, right? Right.

So now when he finds it, he's like, what the fuck? And what is he sit you down and start saying? You said he like went into this whole thing about masturbating. Did he catch you masturbating in them or no? I mean, he just saw them in your bag or something? Yeah, like he just saw it underneath my bed. And I had peed in it a little bit. And he was just like, okay.

well, like, what the fuck? Your mom never said anything about this. You know, I don't really think you need them, so don't even try to bullshit me. And I could just feel myself, you know, just getting more anxious and anxious, like, what's the ultimate outcome here? Yeah. And so he was like, well, you know, here's, you know, the talk about masturbation. If it gets any worse, you know, you're probably going to have to go to therapy for this. Right.

Now, did you explain, how honest with him were you? Honestly, I was so terrified that, you know, basically I just, I felt like I had to closet myself in that moment because if I told him the truth, I was like honestly terrified of how much more he would reject me. Right. Because you felt rejected when he left the family and when he left your mother, you felt like he was rejecting you, not just your mom. Right. Right. So how honest were you? What did you tell him? What did you say? I just basically tried to play it off like it was a phase. You know, I'm just kind of exploring and I didn't really, you know, I didn't really tell him about the times that I, you know, had tried to get back into diapers and things like that. I just really tried to play it off like it was a one-time thing.

Mm-hmm. And did he buy that? I mean, was that the end of your conversations with him about this? Or was he the one that got you into therapy eventually? Yeah, he was the one that got me into therapy eventually. How come did he find out again? It was on, like, I had my own computer in my room and I was just, you know, looking shit up on the internet. Like, you always get caught doing.

And he's, you know, it was like a what the fuck moment again. Well, I guess this didn't fucking go away. Yeah. So he found diaper porn. It was time for therapy. Wait, so he found diaper porn on your computer? Yeah. Yeah.

Right. So he was like, let's get you to a therapist. Right. Because he's like, I've got a shit ton of playboys in the fucking basement. And here you are looking at chicks pissing in diapers. Oh, my God. Your dad. Like he would have rather, like it was so weird at 13, you know, that your father's telling you, he would rather you just, you know, whip out the old playboys than find your own porn.

Yeah, but I don't think that that's, listen, I think if I was talking to your dad, he would think it was the opposite, right? This is so weird. Like, why wouldn't you jerk off to like hot girls, you know, spread eagle and playboy as opposed to girls pissing in diapers? I mean, you could look at it both ways. I understand. I don't, I understand why your father. would say that, right? Because if you don't really understand that, like, all this stuff, like you weren't like being as honest with your dad as you are to me, right? Your dad wasn't,

your dad's a guy. And your mom, like, was, no one was questioning you like I was, right? He wasn't digging. Right. So he was freaking out. So I think it makes sense. Most dads would say that, you know, and I could, I totally understand where he's coming from. I get why. I also, though, get why for you, that's like, what the fuck are you talking about? Like, it's just so far off of, you know, from where you were at, right? Right. So he's like, let's get you into therapy

so you could jerk off to my, to playboy and not diapers. So he, does he find the therapist for you? Yes, but he find one, but of course, we kind of lived in a small area, so again, it's very, it's like a needle in a haystack to

to find, you know, a sex therapist. Yeah. And so basically she was like a generic therapist who was just all over the place trying to figure out, all right, what the fuck's going on in? Why does he like diapers? Did she put this kind of stuff together for you? And did you go back into your childhood? And did she try to help you with that kind of stuff or no? Yeah, she tried to.

But I think basically for her, it was just one of those things like, okay. okay, how can we just make this go away? Like now that you know where it stems from, you know, okay, well, now we just have to get rid of it. Right. How do you unwire? Now, how did you feel about that? Was it something that you wanted to unwire? Was it something that you didn't want to do?

Or was it something that you were okay with? Yeah, it was definitely something that I was okay with. And as I got older, I started to listen to other podcasts. and I'd actually heard one with a sex therapist who specialized in this sort of thing. And she said, you know, even if I had a patient come to me and say, you know, make this go away, is that something you'd really want to go to, you know, to go away? And the answer is really no. Because you get pleasure out of it?

Because it makes you feel secure or both? Yeah, definitely both. Right. It can be pleasurable at times. Yeah. And then, and other times it's just for comfort. It's just for security. And going back to a time when things were simpler and, you know, my parents were together.

And I assumed that they were happy, but I can't know that. Yeah. Obviously, they weren't. But for you as a very young child, it's just having them together. Yeah, absolutely. Right? Was felt secure. And now, has your mom ever remarried?

And is your dad still terrible with chicks? Yeah, I think he's on his fourth marriage, and she only got remarried once. Did she stay with the guy? Yeah, she's still with him, but it's kind of one of those things where misery loves company, so that's kind of where that's at. So it's not a good relationship. No, it's definitely not. How old are you, by the way? You sound super young.

So I will be turning 30 in September. That's young to me. Okay, so now how? When did you start sleeping with women? And have you ever told any women about this fetish? I would call it a fetish. Yeah. So it was actually, when I was engaged, I was 23 or 24.

Mm-hmm. And basically told my fiancé about it. And, of course, you know, my first experience opening up about it wasn't so great. So this one wasn't really either. but just basically tried to, you know, give her the space she needed to figure it out. And ultimately it just wasn't going to work for her. Wait a second. Let's go back to the first time you told somebody because you're told your, wait, now,

did that break up your relationship with your fiancé? Do you not get married because of that? No, we did because we had known each other since, like, middle school. So we did connect in other ways. I just honestly didn't take inventory. That's how I would say it. I didn't really take stock and, you know, how important this really was going to be for me. And so we did try to make it work.

You know, she actually did try to work with it. But she was eventually, she said, no, this is just going to be your thing on the side. Okay, now are you still married? Yeah, I'm still married. To her? Yeah. So she knows that you do this on the side. This is like your thing.

Mm-hmm. But she just can't get into it. And does that work for you? Yeah, I mean, I make it work the best I can. She just tries to give me space to be able to do it. But really, she just said that she can't when I'm not wearing them versus who I am when I'm wearing them. She can't, what? Wait, no, say that again and cut out. Yeah, sorry. It's just kind of like she can't really separate, you know, like, oh, here's this, you know, husband of mine who's so manly during the day.

But then when he comes home from work, he just wants to put on a diaper. Yeah, that's hard. That's pretty hard to swallow. But I have to give her credit. And, I mean, I think, you know, it's pretty great that you, you know, that she accepts that you do it. solo, right? I mean, listen, I know that the top of the mountain would be that she also participates, right? And it could be a part of your intimate relationship. Yeah, that's always the goal. Yeah, that's the goal. But it's pretty amazing that, you know, you were able to be honest with her. Yeah, as hard as it was, you know, she did appreciate the fact that I opened up about it, that I didn't try to hide it because it is something that

really ends a lot of marriages. Of course. There's that one spouse that's fucking. up and, you know, here's the other one. Doesn't really have much going on. So it definitely helped to be honest. Yeah, exactly. And, I mean, you know, listen, a lot of people have different crutches in life, you know. Yours is a diaper. Some people, it's, you know, cocaine.

Everyone, you know, some people, you know, because they have stuff that's going down, they cling to something that makes them feel secure, right? So, you know, are you fucked up and she's not? I don't know. A lot of people are fucked up in different ways. I mean, this is a very interesting way to be fucked up, quote, unquote, you know, because it's not so common. But I give you fucking credit for, like, honestly, for being honest and letting her know

before you got married. What happened? You said that there was a girl before that you explained it to and it didn't go well. Like, was that your first girlfriend? I mean, what happened in that situation when it didn't go well? Yeah. So it was a girlfriend that I had in high school and she thought we were going to be pretty serious. And I just pretty much said, hey, look, this is me.

And I don't want you wasting any time. I don't want to waste your time. And, you know, she was just like, yeah, that's really fucking gross. That's a no for me. Right. How long were you dating her for before you told her? I would say probably about a year. And then, so was it Splitsville right after that?

What was that? Was it Splitsville right after that? Yeah. Yeah, that broke us up. So I got to say, even more courage of you, like even more brave of you to, you know, put it out there after you had a girl leave you. You know, I would think a lot of people, I'm just saying, you know, if they, you know, if they, you know, it would not do it again, right? Because somebody left them and I think that was going to happen.

So they'd just be like, I'm going to keep that in my back pocket and not show that card. But, you know, I think, like I said, it is very brave that you still did regardless. I give you credit for being honest and upfront about who you are. Yeah, it definitely, it kind of gave me a sense of relief. Like you could, you know, finally breathe because you had finally told somebody, especially if you think that you're going to be with them, you know, for however long. And the other good thing is, though, that in terms of cards, you know, diapers weren't the only thing going for me. So I think that's also helped our relationship.

What do you mean? There's other cards that you had to show her? What do you say? What do you mean? Yeah, like other things that I'm into besides diapers, like piss play and a panty fetish. and things like that. Yeah, I would say that that all goes together, right? Now, did you show those cards too?

Yeah, I did. It kind of took some time. Like, you know, after she told me, okay, the diapers aren't going to work. Is there, you know, something else we can do? And so I said, yeah, sure, let's, you know, let's just take a weekend, go away. And, you know, let me show you some other things I'm into. Okay, so tell me about that weekend. So basically we just got like a B&B and there was like a really big, you know, like the really big shower where somebody can actually lay down.

Yeah. And she got into the shower and she was like, oh, fuck, I got to take a piss. And I was like, well, let me just lay down and you go ahead and piss on me. And it kind of took her back. But the more times that we played around with that I think she actually did like. it whether or not she, you know, let on. Right. She actually got into it.

Yeah, she actually got into, you know, holy shit, this guy's like letting me piss on him. That's crazy. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, at first. But then eventually she got wired into liking it. It was like hot, right? Yeah, definitely. That's cool. Yeah, definitely.

I think it was helpful to be able to open up and, you know, find other things. And now so for as far as the piss play that you're into, is it her peeing on you? Do you like to pee on her? How far do you take that? Well, the biggest thing was her peeing on me. And then I'm also into like the desperation wedding. So like sometimes I would try and see how long she could hold her, you know, hold her piss before I basically make her piss herself. What do you mean? Wait a second. When you said desperation wedding or wedding? Wedding, wedding, like a W-E-T-T-I-N-G. I'm thinking wedding. Yeah. He's getting married.

Okay, wait a second. This is so dumb. Wait, so there's something called desperation-wet wedding, right? And what is that all about? Yeah, so I think the Japanese term was Omorashi. It's like basically women just holding their fucking bladder as long as they possibly can until they burst. It's like a whole other, like, kink, fetish.

where basically it was like another porn that I would look up where women were just forced to hold their bladders as long as they can and then they just fucking pissed themselves. In their pants so that you could see the wetness on the outside?

Okay. Yeah like they're like a pair of like tight gray yoga pants is fucking amazing. Sometimes their panties under a skirt, you know, whatever they got going on. And so just the visual of that

is the turn on. Oh yeah, definitely. Interesting. So did you get her to do that to play that out for you? Yeah, I actually did. When we were coming back to the B&B one night, she was like, you know, doing the whole like dancing while we were on the porch and I was, you know, pretending like I didn't know what the code was to get in. And so she, yeah, she ended up just spread leg, just. pissing all over the porch. Now, did she know that you wanted that? I'm assuming, right? No girl would just pee herself. No.

You explained to her, though, all of this? Like, after you peed in the shower, is that what happened? You explained to her, like, there is a scenario that if you, like, peed yourself, that would really turn me on? Right. Right. And just basically looking for, I guess, other methods of foreplay. Yeah.

So she's like, okay, I can roll with this. Yeah, that's great. I high-five her for, you know, getting down. And I would think that's like, you know, like, listen, the fact that she doesn't like the diaper thing, that's where she draws the line. But the fact that she gets all into the piss play for you, I think is wonderful for you. Yeah, it definitely shocked me, but it was definitely like, oh, yeah, there's no denying. That's a fucking turn on. For her?

For both of us, really. I think for her it's maybe like a dominance thing. I don't know. Maybe I'm a submissive and, you know, she gets to be the one to just piss all over me. Yeah. Make me have to clean it up. In your guys' roles,

let me ask you this because a lot of times I feel like what I've heard is a lot of times people like to like switch roles, right? Whatever they are in their regular life, like when it comes to sex, they do the opposite. That's not always the case, right? But in your guy's relationship, are you typically the domen cheese,

sub like in your everyday life and then like it switches up there or no yeah yeah definitely for the most part i'm you know the more dominant one she's the more submissive one but she'll definitely have times where she's like okay i can't fucking take it anymore like i just need to take control right but typically she's more sub so yeah maybe she does yeah maybe you know to let that you know to play that role sexually is very gratifying, right? Because it is opposite of what she is. So yeah. So you got into the piss play. You introduced that that weekend. Now, is that something that you always keep up with? As much as we can. We really like to, I don't know, I guess, just kind of take it wherever we can. Like sometimes we will go to like a public park or like a secluded

beach and try it out. Different, you know, showers, bedrooms. rooms just wherever we can. Now, what do you do at the beach in the park? Like, what's the scenario? Is this where she's doing the wedding herself or peeing on you? Or both? Yeah, a little bit of both. Sometimes it's just like,

hey, I'm just going to pull my fucking pants down and just take a piss right here in this bush or on this tree or you know, whatever you can sit against this tree and I'll piss all over you. It's just really it's really just spontaneous. just whatever she feels like doing in the moment.

Right. So you guys totally get down with the piss play. Now, do you ever pee on her or no? I did once. She was like, yeah, that part's weird. I think we'll just stick to I get to piss on you. Right. So you try.

Now, does she ever pee in your mouth, or is it just on your body parts? Mainly just on my body parts. And is that typically foreplay? Or can you just like totally get off when that's happening? Honestly, I have gotten off on that quite a few times. Her just pissing on my dick and you're like, okay, I don't need lube, so. So there you go. And then I think it just kind of, you know, that naturally turns her on because she can see that she's turning me on.

Yeah, yeah, for sure. And now what other cards did you pull out to tell her? You're into Piss Play. The diaper thing doesn't work for her. What else have you got into? you said you got into panties. It seems like it's all connected, right? That you would...

Right. Because you got the diapers. Sometimes you said you would be peeing in them when you were younger. So that's probably where the pee thing comes in, right? It's also wired that way. Plus, you're wearing something. It makes sense that it's like a panty diapers are kind of similar, right? They just get a little...

They're just different, but same thing. So how... Right. What's the deal with your panty fetish? I don't really know how it... started, but it's just something about just the different panties that she wears, and sometimes I like to wear them. I still really haven't figured out where that part comes in at, but I just know that, you know,

I like them more than just regular underwear. Right. You like them more than your underwear, is what you're saying. Right, right. Like sometimes she'll just say, oh, here's mine. you throw a pair on or one time she took me to Victoria's Secret and was like, all right, you pick out yours, I pick out mine. That's great.

So she's into it. Oh, yeah, definitely. So, and now you knew that you were into panties before her, like in the piss play, before her, like, was this something that you were just saw in porn and then you were, you know, playing it out with her? Or is this something that you played out with other people? Yeah, the piss play, I think, definitely came. from just looking for different types of porn. Mm-hmm.

And, yeah, I guess the panties, I don't know where that, like I said, I really don't know. But were you wearing panties before her? No, I wasn't wearing panties before her. Right. So it was something that you got into with her. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Mm-hmm.

And so you one day said, hey, let me wear your panties? Yeah. Yeah. It was basically one of those things where I just pretended like, oh, I don't have any, you know, clean underwear. Can I just borrow a pair of yours? And she's like, yeah, sure. You're like what you did to your mom with the things. You know, you're always looking for people to give you something to wear.

So making up excuses. So she's like, yeah, here you go. And now you're hard wearing her pink panties. Right, right. And then I think, like, the silkiness of them, you know, it kind of makes you think of like the feeling of a diaper and things like that. So there's definitely a connection there. Yeah, I don't think it's a stretch at all to figure out where that came from.

It's just like, you know, I think having a diaper on you is a different kind of feeling than your regular underwear. Having a panty on would be a different kind of feeling than your underwear, right? And that's what you feel comfortable, like something being on you, right? It's wearing something. Yeah, definitely. So it makes sense. Like I said, it's not like where the fuck did that come from.

The peeing, the diapers and the panties to me are so obviously all connected. And it's great that you could play out those two scenarios with her. Are there other things that you're into that you've done with her? Not really. I think that was about everything that we had tried as far as, you know, just mixing it up in the bedroom. Now, let me ask you this. Have you ever, now that you're older and you're married, has the conversation ever come up with your dad, or your mom? Or, you know, is that in the past and they've never said anything because you don't live with them now and you're with your wife?

Yeah, I basically don't talk to my dad anymore. Oh, you don't? Yeah, he's pretty much written me off. And as far as my mom goes, she's like really, you know, like there might be, you might hear stories about like some moms who are like, super open. Let's just talk about anything. Yeah. And my mom's definitely not that one. She's the opposite. Yeah, she's the opposite.

Like, oh, that's your business, not mine. Yeah, yeah, she doesn't want to deal. So wait, why did your dad, like, why is your dad not existing anymore? Why do you off? Yeah, I think it was just not only the diaper

thing, but just really a lot of things that he just couldn't accept about me. Like I just wasn't the type of son he thought I would be. I didn't play sports. You know, I was into music and things like

that. So he's just like, well, you know what? You're fucked up all the way around. So have a nice life. Wow. But, you know, that's, that's really fucked up. I mean, listen, he can't keep any relationship, not one with a woman, not one with his child, not one with

the, right? I mean, yeah, because he really had to be the one that was in control and he had really fucked up expectations. And if you didn't meet them, well, he just wrote you off. Right, because he couldn't deal with how it made him feel. Right, right. Yeah. So does he live near you?

I mean, how long have you not spoken to him? Yeah, so we stopped talking after I graduated high school. And the funny thing is we both live in the same state and the same county. We're probably like, I don't know, 40 minutes. apart from each other but honestly we never see each other and we never talk to each other. Do you have kids?

I have one. You do. Now let me ask you this. I was going to talk about your dad with the kids, but has he ever met your child? No. Because you haven't talked to him. No.

Right. Okay. So now how old is your child? He'll be turning three in August. So of course the question is now you have a kid, right? And you have a kid and he's wearing, Is a boy or girl?

It's a boy. A boy. So you're seeing him in diapers. Like, does it trigger anything in you? Did it, was it, like, was there any kind of feeling there? Because now you see, you know, like, did you project onto that at all? I mean, did anything go on when you had a kid and he was in diapers? Not really.

If anything, I just felt like it made me, made me an expert in them. But I really just do my, I just do my best to. keep that separate. Right. But I'm saying it wasn't triggering like, you know, because listen, you know, for you, it was such a sense of security, right? So then like when your, when your child, I mean, does your child still wear diapers? Like I was wondering, like when your child was ready to be potty trained, did you hold onto it for him and like project that onto him like, oh, he needs them or were you able to really keep it separate? You were able to keep it separate. Yeah, he's still, he's still in them. but, you know, it's like my wife is trying to obviously push to get him out of them.

Yeah. But on the sidelines, I'm just kind of like, well, you know, when he's ready, he'll be ready. Yeah, let me tell you something as a mom that had a boy. And I never pushed my son to get out of his crib or get into out of diapers. I mean, I love diapers because I live in New York City. And I'm like, the last thing I want to do is like try and find the potty for my child. You know, I was like, diapers are the best fucking thing. Like I could just change them, you know.

So I was never in a rush. And I have to say it was such an easy, this is such a side note, but it was such an easy transition for my son to be potty trained because I really waited until he was ready. And it was like it took like two days, not even. You know, I mean, he pooped right away. And I saw all my other friends. It was very difficult because they wanted it at a certain time. And they had to really train the child.

Whereas, like, for me, I really waited a really long time. I forget how old he was. but, you know, it happened when he was ready. And so it happened seamlessly. Like it was just very quick. So I think that that is a good way to do it. I think, listen, I think a lot of times projection and all that thing happens to people

when they're not being very honest with themselves, you know. And I think why you've been so healthy as a parent and able to separate your shit, right, from your child is because you are so honest with your stuff. I mean, you look yourself in the fucking mirror. Like, you're not like looking away from anything, right? It's, it's all there. That's who you fucking are.

You play it out. You get, you get, you know, you get your release. You're honest with your partner about it. So why would you project? I think all that kind of stuff comes up and we put stuff on other people in our lives when we're not being honest with ourselves. You know, that's like your, that's what your, that's what your dad isn't doing, right? He's got all his own fucking shit.

and because he can't look at that stuff and look in the mirror at who he really is. He projected it onto you and everybody else in his life. And that's why he's been a fucking failure at every relationship he's ever had. You know, in one day, if he ever does, and as long as he's alive, he has that choice, right, to make, to really change and grow as a person. He will feel really bad because all of that stuff. It's his own problems, right? And like I said, he projected it. But I think you're the opposite.

And I really do got to give you credit because I think in life we have two choices at all times. We either perpetuate the shit that was put on to us onto our children or we fucking don't. And I really have way more respect for the people that fucking don't, right, that break the cycle. You had a lot of shit that was put on to you. You were raised by two people that were like a fucking mess, right? And you took on a lot as a child, right? You figured out ways to cope. You're a fucking diaper trucker or whatever you want to call yourself.

But, you know, what I give you the most credit for and what you should be the most proud of is who cares if you wear fucking diapers? You're not fucking up your kid. Okay. You're not taking what was put. But you're able to have a successful relationship. I think that that's pretty great considering where you came from, right? Right. Not projecting your shit onto your poor kid with his diapers or whatever.

whatever because you know you're honest with your stuff and I think that that's really great because you were breaking that cycle of what happened to you right absolutely and that's wonderful because a lot of people don't I think listen there a lot of people do you right and that's the ultimate goal but a lot of people don't and that's really fucked up you know so you have to and you weren't you weren't dealt a good hand of cards you didn't come in with a good hand right but you've done the best that you can with it. And I think it's great that you have been able to embrace this fetish that you have, that you know where it's come from, that you're okay with it, that you've been honest about it, that you are able to, you know, fulfill it with your girl. How does it play out now? Like,

is it okay for you? I think I asked you this before, but I mean, like, you know, how far do you take it in your private life now, the diaper thing? I mean, I pretty much wear them like every day that I'm out on the road. And then if I get time on the weekend when her and the kiddo goes somewhere. Yeah. I'll do that. What was really fucked up that caught me by surprise that I even decided to do it was I had gone on to, I think it was like, FetLife or one of those, you know, meet up kind of sites.

and I actually stayed with another DL guy. He was probably like an hour away from me and I actually stayed at his house with him. What's a DL guy? Wait, you need to tell me what would you say? Like a diaper, excuse me, another diaper lover. Oh, DL diaper lover. Okay, I love these terms.

I don't know what the fuck that means. Okay, you know the lingo. You're in the world. We don't. Right, yeah, sorry. No, it's okay. I love to learn. You know, that's why I do my show.

So, okay, so you met another. DL a diaper lover. How did you find out, first of all, that this other guy was into it? Did you meet him online? You met him on FetLife, right? Is that what it was? Yeah, I met him on Fet Life. It's kind of like another like subcategory.

You know, you'll find panty fetish people or, you know, piss fetish people. So it was just another one of those like, hey, I'm into this too. So we met up one weekend and pretty much like diapered each other and just kind of would see where it went from there. And where did it go from there? Surprisingly, it was a little bit of by curiosity on my part, and I think it was just a lot of the fact that we were both into this, and I was finally having those fantasies fulfilled, even though it was with another guy.

Yeah, for sure. It might not mean that you're into guys. It's just that, you know, it's a guy that's wearing them, so, right, you take what you can get. Or like in that moment, that's the turn on. I mean, listen, that's what that sex therapist is here to say. That's that. Maybe I'll air.

I've been wanting to pair up his episode with somebody and I'm going to air it like as a bonus episode. So maybe I air his episode as a bonus episode with this one, right? Because what he talks about and why he was so controversial and why I reached out to him was because I have had so many guys on my show that's like, oh yeah, every now and then like I suck a dick, but I'm not by. And I'd be like, what the fuck? Like, how could you not be? you know, and he's like someone that's here to say, like, listen, just because every now and then you might fool around with a guy, it doesn't mean your bite. It might just mean that that's what you're into at that moment, you know, and he really explains that he was just like so smart. It made my brain hurt, you know, but it was really interesting, right?

So I understand when you say, like, maybe it was just because he was into it and not that he was a guy. You know, it might not be a total bisexual tendencies, right? It might just be like what you said. And I think I would have been less likely to buy that or to understand that if I had before I talk to this guy, you know? But it's super interesting. Now, does your wife know about that or was that something that you did recently or like what's the deal with that? Yeah, that was a couple of years ago. I was in the military and I had like a training to go to and I basically reached out to him and was like, hey, I'm going to.

to be close to you can i stay with you that kind of thing and so it was like uh the night before but your wife doesn't know about that is what i'm saying right right yeah she doesn't know about that now is that that was years ago was that something that you'd ever think to do again no honestly because i think it it really made me nervous right obviously because i i don't want to you know i don't want to think of myself as somebody who would end up being like my dad and being unfaithful or you know, really being pissed poor with relationships. So, no, it's definitely not something I would do again. That's good.

So you did it. You fucked up, right? But you didn't feel right about it. And you're like, and like I said, there's that part of you that's like deciding not to, right? Like, listen, we're all a bunch of things, right? And you're going to have that stuff that was put on you from your parents, right? So maybe that little part of you was like, oh, I'm going to go be like my fucking dad. Right.

And you did it. and you were like, no way. And the greatest thing is that there's a bigger part of you that's not, you know? Yeah, because you don't want to pile fucked up on top of fucked up. No, you don't. Like I said, you have a choice. You either do the same shit that happened to you or you do whatever you can to not do that to your own children, right? I mean, I had a very bad upbringing.

I don't feel. And, you know, I'm very close with my parents. It's not like I don't talk to them, but they were not great parents, right? And I got a lot of shit. but like I do everything in my power to not be that person to my child. You know, I broke that. I have other people in my family that didn't, you know, and that's, that is not cool, you know, because then their children, then your children have to be the one to break that pattern.

But I think that's what we're all here for is to grow and learn from our lessons and to be better people, right? And I think that, you know, what I love about my show is I really talk to people, right? And here you are all these things. and I've been saying, oh, it's so great that you're so honest. And then you had this moment where you weren't honest. You did cheat. And some people would just end it there and be like, oh, see, he's not so fucking, but no, you're a human being, right?

And this is what's more real than anything, that nobody's perfect. Exactly. Right? And sometimes we do things, but you did it. You didn't feel right about it. And it only will help you to probably never do it again. Right. And just to help me, you know, grow more as a person.

Exactly. So let's not fucking judge and like I said, that's why I love to talk because you need the whole story, right? And I understand why you did that and where it came from and why you did, you know, and I understand that you learned from it. And I think that that's great. It's not great that you cheated on your wife, but it's great that you know what you don't want to do, you know, and who you don't want to be. Right. you know and uh i think your story is fucking fascinating do you call yourself diaper trucker because you're a trucker yeah yeah that's where that came from i mean what better fetish to have if you're a trucker

because you never have to stop for to go to the bathroom no fucking shit that traffic jam no worries i mean do you know what i'm saying it's kind of like interesting that you turn you know that you do for a job like because you're i'm assuming you wear them while you're driving cross country i mean Are you a trucker in that sense that you drive across country? Pretty much in like a tri-state area. Yeah. So are they on at all times while you're driving, right? Right.

You know, I do have to always, I do always think, and I don't know if it ever crosses your mind. Like, you know, what if you get an accident one day? They will see that you're wearing diapers. But you know what? I have a feeling that maybe someone would be like, oh, that makes sense. He's a trucker and he doesn't want to pee, so he wears them, right? But you wouldn't? Right.

That would be my hope. Yes, that's the only thing. That's the only place. Like if you're driving your regular car, but like as a trucker, if I was like an EMS guy, is that the right thing? You know, I would be like, oh, he's a trucker. He's wearing diapers so he doesn't have to pull over. He's, you know, he's a hard worker.

He doesn't want to take time out of his day. It kind of makes sense, right? It's the only way. It's the only way that they wouldn't definitely know that you're a DL, a diaper lover. Right. That's what they call it in the porn world, right? Yeah.

Yeah, well, listen, Dylan, did we call you Dylan? What the fuck did we call you? Yeah, Dylan. Dylan. See, I never care. Names are so unimportant. It's all the rest of the stuff. Dylan, thank you so much for calling in.

I love your story. I think it's fascinating. Like I said, I give you a lot of credit for how honest you've been and, you know, how able you have been to, you know, integrate your fetish into your life and be, you know, completely who you are in your marriage and everything. I think you should really be proud of yourself. And I can't say your parents raised you properly. It's all on you. Right. You know, that really all came from you. And I think it's great. And thank you so much for calling and sharing your story because it was like fucking fascinating to me.

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