Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 434 - Merry Sparkletit's Stories Cuckquean and BDSM Stories

Episode Date: December 20, 2021

Merry Sparkeltit's (episode #432) calls in again, this time to share some of her most memorable experiences. Tune in to hear her talk all about the very first experiences she had that made her realize she was into being a cuckquean, the first time she hooked up with a girl, the time she and another girl hooked up in a car in front of others, how her abusive relationship and the sex they had led to her being into bdsm, how and why she’s more of a sub, the time both she a her friend were tied up at a bdsm event and what went down, another time she was locked in a cage at an event and what went down, who’s she dating now and the cuckquean fantasies she has with him, all the kinks she’s into including choking, dirty talk, electro stimulation, tease and denial, feeling lesser than, using pervertables and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of Merry and most of my other guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. Strictly anonymous podcast. Conversations with online strangers. We place ads online. The Craigslist is definitely like the gift that keeps on giving. Real people respond. You go to Singapore or Thailand. You can't not do it.

The temptation is just too much. Your friend know that you're banging her or no? No, he has no idea. And anything goes. The motto of the show, let your freak flag fly. Probably the only good advice I'll ever give you is to rehire. your whips and chain. Here is your host, Kathy. Hey, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast with Kathy. If you want to follow the Strictly Anonymous podcast on Instagram or Twitter, follow the show at Strict Anonymous.

Also, oh, I just want to tell you that I did an interview on another show called Unquarking a Story. You can see me, kind of. I'm anonymous. You don't see my face. but you see the rest of me. Interviewed on another show called Unquarking a Story. You could see that interview on YouTube. It's called Let's Talk About Sex with Kathy Kay of Strictly Anonymous. I will put a direct link to that show on YouTube in the description. And today, you say Merry Christmas.

I say Merry Sparkle Tits. Okay, I got Mary Sparkle Tits. back on. Now I know I talked about how much I love that name. I really do. And you're going to love this episode because this is her part two. The part one was a lot of her backstory. She's a polyamorous cuck queen. She's a cuck queen. She's bisexual. She's polyamorous. She's into religion, anarchy. And she's also into BDSM. And on this episode, she just gives me hot stories. Well, she does still give some insight into other things because she can't help giving insight because that's just who she is.

And that's what I really like about her. But she does stick to some really great stories, stuff about early on cook queening that she did. The first couple of times she fooled around with girls, the first couple times she fooled around with multiple people in front of people. And then she's got some like in other hot stories about. a lot of BDSM stuff. She's really into it and she goes into details about a couple big events that she went to and participated in.

I'm not going to give you too much details. She's going to give them to you. So anyway, sit back, relax and enjoy Mary Sparkletit's second episode. Welcome back so soon, only like a couple days later after we spend. book to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. I felt like the first episode, there was so much backstory on you and it was so interesting that we needed to do a part two with some more titillating stories because you probably had them and you wanted to tell them.

Am I correct? Absolutely. I'd love to share some more information and some more sexy stories. Yeah. I feel like I got to a lot of like your backstory, like I said, because it was so interesting. There's a lot going on with you and you taught me a lot, I feel like. But we wanted to add in something. I did promise that, I think, at the end of the episode that you would come back on.

So here you are. It's your part two. It's Mary Sparkletit's titillating story time. Maybe that's like a good title. I don't know. I'm still obsessed with your name. So let's talk stories now. I mean, you're a cook queen.

You're also into BDSM. You got into a couple stories there, but I don't know. start with like something like really memorable or really hot or I don't know where do you think we should take it or start um maybe I'll try going like not super chronological order but a little bit so one of my first experiences of realizing I didn't find or even enjoyed hearing someone else or like knowing someone else was sleeping with someone else I was or did was when I was like probably 19 yeah and I was seeing this one man very very very, very casually. And I had also slept with one of his friends and kind of had slept with both of them, like, on and off. And they knew about it and whatever, but it was like just no one cared. It was just, we were having a good time. But one day, one of my friends ended up sleeping with the other friends. So I was sleeping with one friend and my friend was sleeping with the other

man in room side by side. And I just remember, like, hearing them having sex and being like, oh that's so hot and like almost like through the walls like having like a competition for like how this like for having like good sounding sex almost oh my god that's hilarious yeah but so what happened she's like moaning and you're like oh i got to moan louder yeah and just like oh that sounds fun like i want this to sound fun and like i was having fun also but yeah it was it kind of turned to like a thing with the listening to them fucking and hearing them like, you know,

like the bed move and all those sounds and being like, oh, that sounds like a good time and, and having that part of what I enjoyed. Right. And it was also a part of a turn. It was like turning you on at the same time as well as inciting the competitive.

Yeah, yeah. And I feel like it could be a turn on just hearing someone else having sex. But like the fact that it was someone that I also had had sex with or was having sex with occasionally, like, added another layer for me. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh-huh. That's the cut queen in you. So that started at 19. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So I'd say that was kind of the first thing in that area. I had, I guess, I mean, yeah, even before, even before that I had a couple group experiences, mostly, with just other women.

Like, how does that go down? So one of the times it was in the back of a car with a couple of guys. We were, you know, young and whatever. And the guys are in the front seat of the car. And the three of us, three girls in the back seat, just kind of started, like, you know, flirting and whatever to try to, like, entice the men a little bit, which is not something I do with my, like, bisexuality now. But at that age, it was like, ooh, like, boy attention.

Yeah. But, and so we like, you know, sort of like feeling with each other's chest and whatever. And ended up like the three of us in the back seat of this car just like all fingering each other with these two guys like in the front seat of the car like driving around a park. Oh my God, hilarious. And they're watching you. Yeah. So I've talked to them like years later and that of course they still are like, that was amazing. Yeah, I could imagine because they were just as young as you.

Yeah, so that was, yeah, and that was even younger. So I feel like I just started even young just being interested in those kinds of things. And the guy I was interested in high school wasn't interested in me for the longest time. So basically I had one of my best friends start flirting with him so that the three of us could talk because that was the way I could talk to him. But it didn't bother me at all that they also talked like one on one and flirted and like I know they were like quit sex and or not sex. I guess back then it was like phone sex. Yeah. Yeah. And yeah, like you know, it's in hindsight I think that I've kind of always been intrigued by people I was interested in having sex with other people or having sexual interest in

other people. Yeah, but those other group scenarios, you said, oh, I had a couple group scenarios. You had that one in the back of the car. Any other ones that you remember? One other one was one of the first times I ever fooled around with other people. And it was with one of the same people who was in the back of the car, her, and I went to go see this one guy. And it was kind of a funny story because we were young.

I didn't really, like, neither of us really knew about, like, foot fetishes or anything like that. We went to go see this guy, and he had a cast on his foot, actually. And we knew we were going there to, like, you know, hook up or something, like, flirt, kiss. I don't know, whatever. We knew there was, like, stuff on the table. We didn't talk about exactly what that was. And we went, and we were, like, in bed with him, and both of us were, like, kind of taking turns, kissing him. And he was, like, fingering both of us.

us while we were like laying in bed together. And at one point he just tried to convince us to like rub his foot. He's like, touch my foot. He's like, you should give me a foot massage. And I was not into it. I'm like, no, you have a cast on. What? No.

And he's like, just rub my foot. And then he was trying to convince both of us. Just rub my foot. And we're like, no. Like, just touch it. Just touch my foot. And like at the time we were just like, this is so weird. don't understand. And now I'm like, oh, he for sure

had like a foot fetish. But I just understand that was even a thing. So yeah, that was like one of my first sexual experiences was in that group setting of like one of my really good friends and I going and hooking up with this one guy just tanned

because neither of us had had penetrative sex at that point. So when did you? How old were you when you lost your virginity? I was 15. Right. And then what about that's a guy?

What about with a girl? Like when did you start hooking up with girls? I started hooking up with girls. Probably 13 or 14. Mm-hmm. In very minimal ways. It was mostly like my one best friend and I. It started really funny just like just joking around.

Like I think I like poked her when she was bent over like with my foot or something. Yeah. the pussy. Like, while she was fully closed. And she, like, laughed and was like, ha-ha, that actually kind of felt good. And I was like, oh, really? And then we just kind of played over clothes for a long time. But I got really good. I have a special skill now, which is a unique special skill. As far as I'm aware, I can make a woman orgasm without her taking her clothes off, even over jeans. And that started probably with that girl, right? I mean, because you said you played with her over the clothes for how long? I mean, were you actually coming both of

you like overclosed doing like with just so mostly i made her come she doesn't identify as bisexual i think she was just enjoying sensations that felt good yeah um and so i didn't get very much on the receiving end but i didn't mind that it was just fun to experience all what we were doing and so eventually there was like i would you know actually touch her pussy like without clothes but it for a while it was overclosed and even after we did do underclothes. There was still times where I would just rub her, like, pussy to climax, like, through her pants. Right.

But did you ever go down on her? A couple times, but not very much. And, like, we ended up buying, like, a cheap vibrator from Spencer's gifts or whatever at one point. So we used that a little bit. Yeah. And, yeah, I don't know. That was about it. Like, mostly, mostly it was hats at that point with her.

Right. So that was kind of the beginning of that. Yeah, but let me ask you this. And, you know, because high school word gets out and people talk, were you very open about your sexuality when you were younger? Yeah. Yeah, I was. I ended up being in a monogamous relationship with my high school boyfriend from, like, mid-grade 11 until the end of grade 12, like just after grade 12. Yeah.

But he and I were very experimental with our sex with each other. and I remember, like, I have very vivid memories of cooking class in high school and just chatting with people about, like, all the different ways I was having sex and people just, like, listening to me talking about my sex life. Oh, my God, I remember being like, oh, look at this rug burn on my back from having sex on the pool table. And, yeah, I just, I remember always being that person who would talk about my sex life more than others. You were very open about it. So they also knew, though, that you were hooking up with girls, because, I feel like that's a different thing. Sometimes people, you know, at least, but maybe not in your, when you were, you know, coming up.

Like, people are more open-uping bisexual. I had a really, yeah, like, I had a really, really positive experience with my, like, understanding my bisexuality. I didn't have actually any negative things come up for me personally with my bisexuality. One of my really good friends was bullied a little bit about being a lesbian in high school. And I just backed her up. And then I feel like stuff kind of like chilled out. And like when I was in high school, there was one person who transitioned male to female from grade 10 to

12. And I've talked to peers and I've talked to like a couple of the teachers who taught at that time also. And there was no bullying that came up for that person. So I think I kind of got lucky with my peers at that moment in time. I can't guarantee that that school would still be like that or it would have been like that a year before even, you know? But I got, I feel like overall lucky in terms of how accepting people were in that way. Yeah, you're very lucky.

So those are your first experiences with girls. When did you realize that you were into BDSM? So my first experiences of realizing that I was into BDSM was in a really unhealthy relationship probably about 11 years ago. maybe 12 and it was at the end of my relationship with him it was very toxic we were both he was very emotionally abusive and um at the end of the relationship we'd already broken up but we were still living together for a couple months and so we were just still having sex uh and we started to like hit each other and choke each other during sex and I think that both of us kind of viewed it as like it's okay if it's during during sex it doesn't count as a

abuse if it's during sex. Oh my god, that's hilarious. Which, like, in hindsight, is still really not okay because, like, there was no, like, actual consent or discussion about what people, like, what we wanted and that we were both okay with this. Yeah. But, um, the positive of it was that it did teach me what I am interested in. And through that, I realized that I enjoyed those aspects of it.

So moving forward with my, um, like, sexual relationships after that, I always would like encourage partners to like yeah like please choke me please smack me and those were the first things that I got into is like being smacked across the face or being choked and not like choked to passing out or anything like that at that point just just like that pressure on my throat and that feeling of like someone else is in control of my life at this moments and just that loss of control feeling. And I got into verbal degradation at that point as well.

I think that a part of me was like reclaiming that after the emotional abuse. So it was like, yes, please call me like a dirty fucking horse, whatever in this contextual, like in this consensual context because that gave me onus over it again. so it wasn't like it took away the negative. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I've heard that, I've heard psychologists talk about that. And it, oh, it, I, you know, before I heard a psychologist talk about, talk about it as, you know, doing something like that and it being healing, I always, I think I would have thought the opposite. But she was like, yeah, I thought it would be triggering.

Yeah, absolutely. But she was like, it's like the person who was maybe raved that gets into BDSM. Now they are doing it, you know, it's something that turns them on maybe they, maybe they're. got triggered that way, but now they're doing it and they're in control of it. So here you are a girl who was talked down to and degraded by this person and now you're controlling it and you're making it happen and it's in your control and that's how you sort of take the power back, right? Is that like what it's about? Yeah, yeah, that's a huge part of it for me. Lots of people that, like I feel like there's a lot of belief that anyone in BDSM has been abused because why else would

they do that? And that's definitely not the case. Of course not. But it's definitely part of my process of how I got to understanding it's what I wanted, whether it's why or not. I don't know. But it definitely helped me get to a place where I had experienced it and was like, oh, I want more of this. Yeah, and you liked it. And so when you say you like to be degraded, like what are the kind of things that you get turned on by besides?

Like, what are the kind of wording? Like you said, like, your dirty slut, that kind of stuff? Yeah. Um, very, like, some people will be like, oh, you can call me anything except bitch or except, like, cunt, because those ones are specifically, like, off limit. But for me, I'm like, there's no real off limit word. Um, I don't like being called a bitch, but mostly just because I am probably one of the nicest people someone will ever meet in their life. And it just feels weird to me. Right. It doesn't ring true. It feels like, no, it just like in no way does it ring true and it just feels off. Yeah, yeah, I get it. Bring any positive to be. Whereas if someone's like, oh, you're a fucking dirty slut, aren't you?

Or something. It's like, okay, maybe a little. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. Yeah, it's very real. And I'm able to like be actually feel degraded by that. Where if you're calling me a bitch, I'm like, no, I'm not. I know I'm not. You know I'm not.

That's dumb. Right. That's not hot. I get it. I get it. That's funny, though. Yeah. Um, yeah, so those kinds of things like even, and in the context of cuck queen, uh, fetish

being told like, oh, this person's hotter than you. Oh, this person gets better head than you. Um, just anything that will like make me feel in that moment lesser. Mm-hmm. Right. Yeah. That's interesting. Because, I mean, that's, but I think that that's true even of the cuckolds, the, the men. And I get a lot of people calling in guys saying that they're into that. And sometimes I'll name it cuckolding. And some people are like, but there's no humiliating aspect to it. And I think that, you know, everyone's different. For you, you do like, I don't know if it's called humiliation, but you do like to feel that less than you have that.

And it's probably tied into the whole BDSM thing in the sense that you're very much a sub in that space as well, correct? Yeah, in that, I'm a switch. I can definitely, I enjoy topping as well. Yeah. But I like bottoming probably more often than I like topping. I definitely can be a dominant in a lot of settings, but I come from the firm kind caregiver angle. So generally, so if I was going to kind of give like my DOM angle,

it leans towards like, are you going to be? be good for me. You're going to go sit down there now, please. Thank you. Right. So it's like this like firm but like really kind. Like I'm like I'm going to make you want to listen rather than like being very forceful. Yeah. Well that's because remember you said you're not a bitch at all. You said it's not you. No. No. Even in that context. Like I can't be like mean about it. Yeah. Yeah. And like when I'm you know, and you know, stirring pain. and I'm hurting someone, it's constantly with the intent of, like,

I know this is the thing that they want. Otherwise, I couldn't do it at all. So since it's, since it's Mary Sparkleton's titillating stories, what are some situations that have, that have gone down in the BDSM world? Like,

maybe you could tell one story of, like, when you were a sub that was really hot, and maybe one that's where you were Dom? I don't know. Yeah. Okay. One experience I had that was fun was a four-person scene at an event. So myself and a woman that I was dating at the time were topped by a guy I was seeing at the time

and a guy that she was seeing at the time. And they alternated between the two of us. So her and I were both tied to like an a-frame wooden structure. Okay, standing up. So our arms and... Or laying down. Standing up, yeah. So we were both standing up with our arms above us and our legs spread and tied like ankles to the a frame and wrists to the...

No, not wrists to the a frame. We were actually, our arms were tied to each other. Right. It was a few years ago. So I'm trying to remember all the, all the details. So our arms were tied to each other's arms through this a frame. Mm-hmm. And we are looking into each other's faces.

and our ankles were tied with our legs spread to this A-frame. Right. And the two men took turns with each of us. So I think there was like almost a cucking aspect of that also because I was watching, you know, the woman I was dating with a man I wasn't. And then also the man I was dating with this woman that I was like dating. So there is some aspect of like seeing them interacting that I wasn't. that I wasn't like I was kind of part of, but I wasn't.

And so that involved, they both used a couple, like they used whips to hit us, like, floggers with like the multiple ends. They did a lot of spanking and smacking our backs and asses. And so it was a very long lead-up of like pain play for probably over an hour, including, yeah, like spanking, smacking, smacking, smacking, grabbing hard, biting, biting our backs, biting our asses, necks, and alternating between the two of us, so we would have either one of them playing with us at any time. And electricity play, I really enjoy electricity play, so there was a time where we were,

had a body contact cable attached to one of us, which basically means that, both of our bodies because it was on one of us, but we were touching. Both of our entire bodies were electrified. So anywhere we were touched would feel like tingly electric shock, but very, like quite mild, up to fairly strong legs painful. Right. So they were, yeah, playing with us with this like electricity pain between our leg, on our chest, like reaching around to the front of us as well as, yeah, just using different like metal implements because that would create a different type of chalk. And like all of that turns me on. Like even the pain, I've actually orgasmed from pain on a couple occasions. So just the pain brings me to quite an

edge. And then after, yeah, easily an hour of this pain play, they, like, started to, like, just finger both of us. And, yeah, so we're, like, looking at each other as we both, like, orgasmed after probably almost two hours of back and forth pain and alternating between some pain and, like, a little bit of teasing on our pussies. And then back to pain. and then finally getting to climax.

So, yeah, that was probably like one of the early on when I'd actually fully entered the BDSM scene, which is probably about four years ago. That was one of my early on first couple events that I had gone to. That was a scene I had at one of the early events, and it was definitely memorable. Yeah, because you're saying it was like an event.

Were there other people there besides, and they're watching this go down? Two. Yeah. So there's probably about 100 people at that event. There would be multiple pieces of like BBS furniture filling the room. So we would be the only one playing. So there would be maybe, I don't know, 10 places in the room where different people would be doing different scenes.

And they, and then there's some people walking around and watching different scenes. So some friends would be watching us or strangers. But when you're in that moment, you're not even noticing anyone else because you're so present in the sensation. And you're in subspace. I learned about subspace once. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. I have ADHD and I find that that's one of my biggest appeals to BDSM is that it forces me to be present in a moment in a way that vanilla sex often doesn't. can, but it doesn't always. Oh, that's interesting. Whereas when my body is overwhelmed with physical sensation in multiple ways, it centers me and it forces me to be in the moment. So I'm not, you know, distracted about my grocery list in the middle of sex.

Right. It's the same reason why the cutter does it because then they're distracted by the thing that they don't want to think of, right? It's that same sort of thing. It really brings you in your body and takes you out of your head. Yes. So that's pretty hardcore for one of your first forays into the BDSM world, right? Yeah, I think it was, I guess, fairly intense for one of my first events.

I had been involved in a little bit more BDSM for, I don't know, probably only a few months before that on a more deep level with this one partner that I, the woman who I would. was seeing. Her and I did a lot of rope play. Rope being one of the main things that interests me in kink as well. I like the bondage. It centers me also. I've done performances being tied up and suspended and the Japanese rope bondage kind of shabari style. Actually, a couple months ago, I did every week one or two performances with a friend suspending me and having people, yeah, come pay. to watch and it's been yeah rope was one of my first forays into kink so that was my starting place and within a couple months I was yeah tied to this a frame with my partner all right and did you know

like I mean it's it being an are you a little bit of an exhibitionist too is that a part of the turn on the fact that you are in front of other people was that the first time that I mean you did have say you have said oh I did have a group thing here a group thing there obviously you were comfortable being having sex in front of others but is there an aspect of people watching you a turn on as well? Like a little bit but more just I don't care. Right. Then it really turning me on. It just, yeah, I just don't care.

I guess the getting caught can be a bit of a turn on when I was 18. I had sex in a stairwell at a bar and got, we got kicked out of the stairwell by stuff. because we were, yeah, having sex in like this stairwell at a bar. And I've had sex in parks on multiple occasions. And I think that part of the appeal there is definitely like, ooh, we could get caught. Yeah. The naughtiness of it, but not so much when people are watching. Yeah, but in terms of, yeah, an event and being seen, it's just that I'm okay with it,

not as much that it turns me on. Right. Mm-hmm. It can be, I had one scene just shortly before the pandemic where my male partner and another male friend of mine topped me with a couple different things, I think, punching and smacking and electricity. And then the friend left my partner and I, and we actually had sex in the middle. of this event with over 100 people at it as well. So in that moment, like, he had told me we were going to do this. And I was very nervous about it, but accepting of it. It was something I wanted to do, but it comes from a place of fear and shame that I wanted to do it. So I never would have

suggested it, but being told we're doing this was terrifying and amazing. So we, you know, Yeah, we had, like I gave him a blowjob and rode him in this events of over, you know, 100 people. And I didn't even notice people watching because I was so present in what was really going on. I looked up a few times and saw people watching, but I was just trying to be present in our experience and whatever people saw they saw. I So yeah That It's but yeah

It's more about The I think the atmosphere of an event adds to the Arousal overall Not so much for me Because other people are watching But because the overall energy

In that space is sexual and accepting Yeah But that is a turn on for me whether people are watching or not. Yeah, I get it. That makes sense. I mean, I feel like you're very good at explaining these things. When I push you a little further into it, it's just like, oh, that is like an interesting

thing that I would never have thought of. A lot of times I am talking to someone and I ask them, did you find people looking at you hot, you know, and they're like, yeah. But it's interesting that, like you said, there is something to the other people being there, but it's not necessarily that they're watching you. Now, what about the dom stories? Like, do you dom both men and women? Have you ever, like, been in a dungeon?

Like, what's your experience there? Yeah. So at some events as well, I mostly have dominated women. In private, I've done some topping of men, but not a lot of it. The men I've played with have been interested in bondage, so I've tied them, but not done much beyond that in terms of pain play. Yeah. But some, like, tying a man

up and then teasing his body and, you know, deciding whether or not I'll let him come or not. That kind of topping I have had fun with with men. Like tease and denial that they're into it. Yeah, exactly. Yeah, more of that.

And a little bit of, like, you know, dragging my nails down. As I said, at the end of the last time, my, I do nails for a living. Yeah, yeah. And that's where my name kind of came from. So my nails are generally always done and they're strong.

So I will use that as one of the ways that I will cause pain, whether it's through like grabbing someone really hard and digging my nails into, you know, their thigh or, you know, running my nails down someone. So doing that while they're tied up is fun and seeing their body react to those sensations. But what is it that you just met more girls that have been into being dominated by you or just came up in relationships with the women more? Yeah, it's just come up, I think, more with women and femmes being the bottoms more of the time. So because I'm a switch, I'm comfortable in that topping role. So in a lot of the situations with women, I end up being the top.

So I end up enjoying that side of it there. So I've had, yeah, one-on-one experiences tying and teasing and hurting bottoms with a variety of toys. I have one called kind of a monkey's fist. I don't know if you've heard the term pervertibles. No, and I don't even know what a monkey fist is, so explain it all. Okay, so a pervertible is something that you buy in general vanilla world or you have from, vanilla life and you use it in a perverted context. So, for example, using a wooden spoon to spank someone with would be using a wooden spoon as a pervertible.

Oh, okay. I get it. Yeah. So that's basically what a pervertible is, is anything that you're using in a BDSM context that isn't necessarily intended for that. So. What's a monkey fist? Yeah.

You said I used a monkey fist. So a monkey fist, yeah, a monkey fist is a, it's a ball made out of rope. And it usually has a handle also made out of rope so it can swing. And sometimes the monkey fist will have a weight in the center of the ball so that it creates a lot of impact. And as it swings, it can cause deeper bruising. With NBDSM, people will ask usually, do you like study or stingy? meaning whether you like more that macking feeling of a spank

or more of a deep you feel it in your muscle sensation being study. So the monkey fist causes that study sensation where it hits right into the muscle. So I have a toy that is a pervertible. It is actually a dog toy that I bought from a dollar store. And it is a monkey fist, but it was intended to, you know, throw to a dog or whatever,

but I use it to hit lovely people's bottoms with and create nice big bruises. So I have that toy and I've used that when I've tied people. Usually my BDSM will involve ropes, but not always. And then I will, yeah, use a variety of toys, including a wigs. including a whip that I made out of charging cords, phone charging cords. You know how they always give out? I attached a bunch of them together so that I can use the cord part of it looped in half to smack an ass or legs or arms, whatever body part I'm using it on to create whip marks.

And that because it's wire inside is very stingy and hurts rather a lot, But it's fun. Now, have you done this stuff with the women in your relationships or has this kind of stuff gone down at events? Like, where is this all taking place with the girls? With women, it's been some in relationships, some where I would call the people like, friends, but we have also a physical intimate relationship. Right.

And so they know what you're into. I had a fucking call coming in. I had to. It's okay. Yeah. Uh, yes. So when I've dated, they've always, I'm very, very out with people in my close community. So everyone who is close with me knows I do BDSM knows I'm non-monogamous. I, so they, I don't really date vanilla at all anymore. I don't really have any interest in dating people. If they don't have some interest in kink, it doesn't have to be exactly the same or to the same extent, but I need that in my world. So, uh, um, How old are you again? I'm 34.

Right. And do you do, are you like, do you have a type or are you just, I would assume you don't? But I mean, do you have a type when it comes to men and women? Right, yeah. Okay. I do not have a type. I have dated or slept with virtually any image you can conjure in your mind. I've been with one person who is a piercer who has tattoos over his entire body and

multiple piercings on his penis and as just like a white man. I've dated black men. I've dated like very plus size men and women. I've dated very petite people. I've dated average size people who are from different all over the world. I just, I like people as long as the people are good people. So if I can find a person interesting, I can be interested in them. So it's not an appearance. thing for me. Yeah, I didn't think so. Remember when I asked you about what you rate yourself? Like, if you're not reading yourself and you're anti-that, I'm sure that crosses over into how you feel about other people. It does, yes. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Of course, I couldn't give a simple answer to that question. I love your, I like your complicated things. I think people are going to learn a lot from you. I find,

like I said, I think that you have really made me see things different by the way you explain things. And I think that that's always refreshing because I can, you know, I've been talking to people for seven years. I talk to a lot of people that are into the same things. But why I'll always talk to another person and is because I'm always, I'll always learn something new. You just happen to be someone that, you know, I've learned a couple new things from because you just have a different perspective of like the same thing. So, and I think that that's, if I'm experiencing that other people are. So you're your lengthy answers and how much you get into things I think is, is great, you know. we're trying to keep a titillating stories

but you keep going but all these other things come up and I'm always curious by nature and I'm always like oh I'm the biggest cock block on my show because I'm always like you know someone's talking about like a really hot story and then I'll ask something that's totally not hot whatever but you know I'm I'm like I said curious by nature

but I want to keep it because I think I'm going to title this Mary Sparkle Tittalating stories let's do a couple more like I'm you know we've done some S&M you've been a dominant Natrix with some your girls. You've been the switch with guys. You've been at events tied up. I know the whole Shibari thing. I had a Shibari expert on my show. That was like the first time I even heard of that. I do have pictures. Maybe could you do a picture like of like any like a Shabari picture of you tied up? Maybe something one of those two to add in with your pictures. Yeah.

Right? That would be cool. Yes, I definitely can send you a rope photo. Yeah. I've read I mean no one's going to be disappointed when they see your pictures. I've already seen them. they'll be up on my Patreon, but give me some memorable other stories to go off on. Give me like top three hot, or it could be a crazy scenario, you know, memorable, a couple more memorable stories. And they could be memorable for whatever. Okay. You probably have so many because this is just like, you know, your world, right? I mean, it's not like you do something like this once a year.

I mean, this is, you're really like, you're living this. It's who you are. Yes. Yes, absolutely. One of my most recent scenes was at another event with a friend of mine, who is a man. And we had discussed before the event that he was going to chop me at the event. And he knew what my limits are. We had already had a really long discussion about negotiating what I would.

was interested in and what was acceptable. At this event, it was at kind of a bar scene. And we, so no sex is allowed at those events. And also, I have no sexual relationship with this friend. So it was just going to be BDSM exclusively. Right. So when I got there, it was some mingling and seeing all the people I know. And then I went over to him. And, He was dungeon master for one section of the event, and there was cages there. So he handed me a set of a few pairs of cuffs, some that are for ankles, some that are for wrists, etc., and told me to get inside a cage and lock myself in and cuffed myself so that I would be as trapped as I possibly could be to see how I could, how, bonded he could get me to be without him doing it. So I did that.

So I got into this cage and I locked myself into the cage with a padlock. And then I cuffed my ankles together. I had taken my heels off before I got in the cage because I knew that was going to be too uncomfortable. And so I took my heels off and cut my ankles together. then I put a chain around my waist, which I was wearing a, why am I blanking? A corset. I was wearing a waist cincher, a corset.

So I put this chain around my waist and chained my wrists together. It was a Halloween theme event, and I was dressed as mini mouse just for a little bit more visual. I was wearing this polka-dotted skirt that did not cover any of my ass and fell underneath it. Yeah. And, uh, Pocodot, little crop top bra thing and mini mouse ears and a tail. And,

um, just, I feel like it's a fun little visual. Yeah, yeah, I was, listen, I was thinking to myself,

is she naked? Like, what is she even wearing? So I'm glad that you must have read my mind because I was going to ask that question I didn't want to interrupt. But I think that that's an important thing. So now you're like, but you still have this get up on,

correct? and you're in the cage now and you've tied Minnie Mouse up. Yes. I have balanced mini mouse up in chains and cuffs

so my wrists are cuffed to each of my sides by that chain and then a couple minutes went by and he came and checked on me and made sure that now the cuffs were too tight so that they

would cut off circulation or cause damage and also that they were tight enough that I couldn't get myself out of and then he said all right, I'll be back in a bit and just left me to sit in this cage on a stage with, you know, a bunch of people milling around and watching. And I just had to sit there and occupy my mind on this stage for, you know, 10 minutes or so before he came back.

And of course, he was keeping an eye on me because you have to make sure everyone's safe and nothing was going wrong. but he was still leaving me to my own devices, regardless of making sure everyone was safe. And when he came back, he used, he put a, actually a dog shock collar. He attached to one of my thighs. So he put the shock collar around my thigh and used the remote control for the dog shock collar to shock me

through that and increased the strength to, I think it was number five initially. And how is that? I'm like, well, it hurts, but it's okay. And he said, so how many minutes late did you come see me after I told you you were supposed to come see me at this event? And it was like 45 minutes, almost an hour. So he said, well, you're going to have to take shocks for each of those minutes that you were late.

So he said it to five initially, and then he increased it to 10, and checked in how I was feeling about that. And I was like, it hurts. It's all right. And he kept doing the 10 shock a few times so that it would increase the amount of time that I had said I was late. So he did the 10 about three times, so it was, you know, 30 minutes. worth of shocks I was getting as punishment for my lateness. And then he increased it to 15 and said,

we'll do the last one all in one. Are you ready? And shocked me at the 15. And it was a lot, but it was fun also because I like that. I like to be pushed a little bit. So, and then he took it off of my thigh and put it on my neck so that he could shock my neck. And, I think he lowered the intensity a bit at that point because it's just more intense when it's that close to all those nerve endings that are in our necks. And then he uncuffed me partially. So he uncuffed my hands and took me out of the cage and dragged me across the stage. So I had to walk with my ankles still cuffed together across the stage to where there was, I guess, only describe it as a mat on the ground that had shackles on it so that you could attach someone

to this mat on the ground. Yeah. So he brought me to this mat. It was very hard, though. It was not a soft mat. It hurt my knees after a little while, so we adjusted. So I was on all fours, but with my hands spread out above my head and shackled down, and then my ankles were still cuffed together.

So my ass was in the air and my face was down. as one does. And then in that position, he used a couple different toys to flog me and punched my ass a lot, punched my ass a lot until he was checking in, but I start giggling when it starts hurting more generally. I don't react in a sad or angry or emotional way other than that. The more painful it gets, the more I giggle. That's how my body responds to that pain.

So he would check in and kept punching my ass until I said, okay, the punching is all right, but my knees are feeling like this is a lot. So he readjusted me so that my legs were straight. So I was just laying on my stomach on this mat. still with my hands still bound, but now it was flat so that he could keep punching my ass until he decided I was done. And he was alternating between punching my ass, shocking me with the shock collar, and he also had put clamps kind of like clothing pins, pinching the backs of my arms, you know, that sensitive spot on the back of your arm. So he had two clamps on the back of my arms

and a couple on my breasts and just, yeah, creating sensation kind of all over my body so that I would be feeling sensation everywhere until, yeah, he wound me down by smacking a little bit softer and then like some backstrokes, just like gently kind of rubbing my back and then undid my shackles. and we had a little cuddle off stage to wind me down with my blanket because I get cold immediately after. Yeah, so that was one of my most recent scenes at an event. That was my first event post-pandemic, actually. And now what about, let's end with one last cook queen.

What was your latest cut queen scenario that went down? Okay. So the most recent Cuck-Queen scenario I have I'm going to say I have going on. So I haven't... So the man that I'm seeing right now has a wife and another girlfriend as well.

Yeah, I remember that. And we have talked... Yes, so we've talked about him having sex with one of them and then coming to see me right after so that he's, you know, still got them on him. But we haven't had much opportunity for that to come up yet.

So it's been more behind the scenes teasing. He has sent me a video of him receiving a blowjob, which was so fun to watch. And it's been mostly those kinds of play lately where it's just teasing what he's doing when I'm not there. So I'm looking forward to the future, having more of the in-person stuff or being denied more more blatantly and more of the degradation. But I think it definitely takes time to get there, especially as you're building, this is a fairly new relationship.

And there has to be some trust built on both sides because I know he doesn't want to actually hurt my feelings. So there's some caution around that. And also I need to know that this person genuinely. cares about me or else I'm going to actually feel crummy and I don't want that. Yeah. And listen, and people haven't, no, but also, like, I don't know if some people are going to find this video without having listening to your first one. They need to go back and listen to the first one because you really do explain why you can get

turned on in these situations, even if it's super competitive or he's degrading you by telling you he's really into somebody else because what you explained in that first episode is that you would never be able to do that unless you were with someone that you knew they really were into you. I mean, at the core, it's not like an unstable relationship where you really are being humiliated. On the deepest level, you know that what you have with this person has a strong foundation. And that's what's most important to you and why you then could go there and have all this fantasy and all this stuff and really get turned on. And I think that that was such an interesting. explanation of what you said, you know, and that's what people will hear when they listen to the

first one too. I think that's one of the, I think that's one of the biggest differences between BDSM and abuse. I think that that's something I've struggled with. Where is that line exactly? Yeah. Especially when I first entered the scene. What's BDSM? What's abuse?

What's self-harm? Where's that line? Yeah. And to me, I think that that line is, do you know that this person really? does care about you and not in a I know they love me but like really know that that person cares about you. Yeah.

They're checking on you during and after or especially after if they've decided that during this, if we've decided during this scene we're going to completely immerse ourselves and not checking in. Yeah. But afterwards you're going to feel so loved up by me that there's going to be no doubt in your mind that

I am here because I want to be and I care about you. And I think that's one of the biggest, biggest differences. And I think that's where people could go astray, right? Probably there's a lot of people out there who maybe have a curiosity or an interest to go there for whatever reason and then they find themselves maybe doing it in the wrong way. And I think what's interesting about your story is like, hey, there's a world out there.

And if you meet the right people and you do it the right way, it can be a very safe and comfortable and all right situation, enriching situation, right, as opposed to some people that maybe it became dark or they did feel shitty afterwards and, you know, that's not to maybe give up on it, but you, because you're really out there with who you are, like I said before,

you really live in this world. This is where it's not just where you have sex. And so I think, you know, you've met really positive people that are of the same mindset. So you're lucky that way. But I think some people have that curiosity, but they don't know where to find those people

or they don't, right? And so they find themselves in precarious situations. Yes. And I think what's, like I said, interesting about what you're saying is the point that you're making without even realizing it is that it should be done in the right way where you have that foundation.

And if it is, then, you know, the sky's the limit and it doesn't have to be anything. Yeah, at the end of the day you should feel, at the end of the day you should feel like this was pleasurable. This gave me joy. This made me feel connected to this person. Yeah. If at the end of the day you're feeling like, oh, like I felt violated or like genuinely

violated or I felt genuinely like uncared for, then you need to make a change. whether, and sometimes that change has nothing to do with that person not being good to you. Sometimes it does. Sometimes it's not good to you. But sometimes it's just, well, what made it would have made that feel better for me? Well, maybe we shouldn't have done this specific thing or I needed to stop it when I started to feel this type of pain. Right. But everything else was good.

Or everything was good, but if only he cuddled me for five minutes afterwards instead of just throwing a blanket on me and walking away. or and it takes some self-discovery to learn what those things are that you need to feel cared for during or after. As well as courage to be able to speak those things because some people I think might know them, but they don't have the voice that you have. You're very secure. Yeah, I would also add like without getting too dark, I've had. situations where I wasn't comfortable saying no in a moment and I felt terrible afterwards. And I think the biggest lesson I learned from the one specific scenario I'm thinking of is that not that I should have said no that day, because I should have, but I couldn't.

No part of my body felt safe saying no in that moment. So, but in hindsight, I knew I didn't feel safe with this person. weeks before that event. Right. I shouldn't have even done it. Right. In the first place. And my, like, what I learned from it is not, I'm not making myself feel guilty for not stopping

it that day because that day I couldn't. And that's just the reality of that day. That's where you were at, right. But in hindsight, that lesson that day. Absolutely. But in hindsight, I could see that he was, he would get angry when I would say no to something.

He would get upset when I would correct something. something that he was doing. So by the time that the specific day happened, when I was tied up and he asked me to do a thing that I didn't want to do, I didn't feel safe saying no because he was going to get upset and I was bound and I didn't want to feel his emotions when I was in that vulnerable place. So I chose to do the thing instead of saying no. And in hindsight, Right. Like I said, don't blame myself for not saying no in that moment. Yeah. But I knew I didn't feel safe saying no to him weeks before this, which should have told me

not to have another scene with him at all. Yeah. And maybe the same intuition that said he wasn't safe a while ago knew it was also safer to just go along at that moment than to say no, because maybe that would have escalated things to a place where you would have been more in danger. Exactly. So that's why I don't blame myself in that moment. Of course, yeah.

But I have definitely learned that I should have listened to that intuition far before that event. That scenario even happened. So that's my advice. Listen to your intuition, folks. Yes, yes. These are not only, is it Mary Sparkleton's titillating story that's advice. I think you gave a lot of really great advice as well on your first episode.

I think even when you're not giving advice, you're giving advice. That's what I find interesting about you. I think you're very secure in who you are and very. self-aware and so therefore you're able to really explain things well. I think if people have just listened to this episode, they should definitely go back and listen to your first episode. I'll put a link to that episode in the description. Thank you so much for calling in. I will have a picture, a Shibari picture. You'll send me that. I, I, now listen, I know that you're like kind of out there, but I will, because my show is anonymous, I will change, I will not put your face on there,

but people, if they want to see pictures of you, they could go to my Patreon. Do you want me to change your voice. I'm going to change your voice too. I change it on the first one. I mean, if you want to, you can. It doesn't matter on my end. All right. So if it sounds worse, like, and harder to understand, I could leave your voice regular. But if it, right? Yeah. Okay, good. So I'll make it. I'll go back and listen because I feel like sometimes when I change women's voices, I have to make them deeper and then they sound more muffled. So I'll see. So if I don't, since you're so out there, I'll be able to leave it the way. But, um, but, but, but, you know, but, Yeah, so people should go listen to that episode.

And you, you know, she told me off air that she used to have a podcast and she stopped it because whatever you had co-hosts. But, you know, one day, pick that back up, but do your own show. I think you, uh, your voice should be out there or make porn like I recommended in, in the first episode. Yeah. You know, somehow, you know, this whole life that you have can be monetized. You know, I think you're, uh, unique and, and special.

And I, you know, you should share what you know with other people. I'm glad that you did it on my show. Thank you so much for calling in and sharing all your stories. And, you know, I'm sure I'll have you back on at some point. Yeah, I would love to. Thank you. Yeah, I'm doing some things on the side. I'm teaching a class in probably February about orgasm control.

So there's some things I do on the side still in this area where I'm teaching or talking about these things openly. Do you do those virtual or do you just do them in person? this one coming up is in person. I haven't done any virtual, but I'm thinking I probably will in the future. Yeah, well, when you do that, I ask because when you do that,

come on my show, we'll do an episode, and you can promote the shit out of it. I'm sure my listeners would love to take your classes once you get those up and running. I mean, like I'm not talking people just specifically in your area. So, but when they are virtual

and it could be anyone could take them, you know, come on, we'll do an episode and you can promote it. Fantastic. I would love that. Thank you. Yeah. Put that together, Mary. Yes, I will. All right. Awesome. So we'll talk soon. Thank you so much for calling back in again so quickly and sharing your stories. Yeah, thank you.

Okay. Bye. Okay. Take care. Bye. Hey, everyone. Thanks so much for tuning in to this week's episode. If you want to follow the show, follow me at Strict Anonymous on Instagram or Twitter. That's at Strict Anonymous. If you are on YouTube, make sure to subscribe. I love YouTube as a platform for my show because people comment there. And I try to reply back to every single person who post a comment.

So even if you're not listening on YouTube and you want to talk about the show, go to my YouTube channel, subscribe, like and share my videos. It's strictly anonymous podcast. If you want to sign up for my Patreon on my Patreon, you are not only supporting my show, but you will get these episodes early, ad free. end, you get to see anonymous picks of my guests. Most of the girls send in anonymous picks and some of the guys send an anonymous picks. So if you want to see anonymous picks of my guests, as well as support my show and get these episodes

early and ad free, sign up for my Patreon. Patreon.com slash strictly anonymous podcast. That's patreon.com slash strictly anonymous podcast. The link is also in the description below. Thanks so much for listening. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. I kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. like there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being

girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person. And they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe. Right. but these are true stories, 17 of them. They're really short chapters, easy read. You could read one or two and then skip around. You could read the whole book. It's available in eback format, paperback format,

and finally, the audiobook is available coming out August 25th, but you could pre-order it now. And if you buy my book in any format or pre-order it, I will throw in a complimentary link to my Discord. My Discord does not disappoint. There's no way you get into my Discord any other way than getting the link from me. Okay. I give it to people who buy my book.

There's tons of people in there. Everybody shares content with each other. And that's what you get to do there. You could post your own pictures and videos. There's tons of channels. We have lots of contests where you can win a lot of money. It's a super fun place to be. It's a total, strictly anonymous community.

And you will love it. I will be giving anyone who buys my book access to my Discord. It's private, like I said. all you got to do is email me a screenshot of your purchase, whether you did the audiobook, the ebook, or the paperback. Send it to me at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. And I will send you the link to Discord.

So anyway, thanks so much for tuning in. This is the Strictly Anonymous podcast.