Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 442 - Jessie and her Husband Both Came Out as Bisexual to Each Other

Episode Date: January 17, 2022

Jessie and her husband both recently copped to being bisexual to each other and she called in to talk all about it. Who told who first? how did they react when they found out? And, have they had a bisexual experience since? Tune in for all the details which include how growing up super religious suppressed their sexual desires and how and why they decided to reinvent themselves, how she wants to find a guy for her husband to enjoy, how she pegs him with strap ons, how they both watched porn secretively apart from each other and then admitted to watching it, the couple she's hooked up with and how the threesome started, what exactly went down, her first experience hooking up with a female, how her husband loves being feminized, how he's a true cuck and how she buys him panties, how she can squirt and how much she loves it and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of Jessie and most of my other guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Both really decided to change things up in their life. Not only did they leave their religion, they were both raised very religious, and they decided to move away from where they lived and really reinvent themselves, especially sexually. This couple really went from being, like I said, religious, but to being very open with each other about things that they were into that they had never talked about. They both came out as by to each other, and then they started living out their fantasies. he hasn't yet been with a guy but she pegs him she's been with couples she's been with a woman you know he's a total cuck he loves it he likes to dress up in panties she buys them for him like i said she pegs him he's into that he's a very true cuck she talks about that and then somehow we get into the fact that she's a squirder and we talk you know at length about that

because i'm always like obsessed with people who could squirt and she actually likes squirting Thank God, okay. I have talked to some people lately that don't. She digs it. She talks about it and she gets into it all. Like I said, she has hooked up with people without him. And she talks about how like doing that and moving and even calling into the show and talking about all the stuff that she's done, the stuff that her and her husband do together,

the stuff that they've confessed to each other, all the stuff that they're into, how that is very freeing for her and a part of her and her husband's evolution. So it's a great story. Oh, and I do have pictures of Jesse. If you want to see an anonymous pick of Jesse and mostly every single one of my other female guests,

go join my Patreon. Patreon.com slash strictly anonymous podcast. you get anonymous picks of my guest. You'll see Jesse. You get these episodes early and ad-free. And now you also get all the anonymous confessions that are coming in. So anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Jesse. Hey, Jesse.

Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I am good. How are you? I'm good. So listen, Jesse, you emailed me a long time ago and then you emailed me again. I'm ready to talk. And I know that you were in a lot.

a very monogamous relationship married. And now I'm assuming you guys aren't monogamous. Is that the deal? I think you did say that your husband liked to be cuckled it. Do you guys play with other people? Have you started doing that? Yeah, we have. And I want to open this up with a disclaimer.

I've been married for 23 years. And everything that I'm going to say to you is with my husband's knowledge and permission and blessing. Oh, okay, I like that. Disglaimer. Yeah. Yeah, he encouraged me to call you. Oh, okay, cool.

So I'm not going to be divulging any confidences. So he's not here right now. It's just you and me. But, yeah, so I want to throw that out there. He'll probably be listening, right? Yeah, he'll be the first to listen to this one. Yeah, yeah, yeah, there you go. You're telling the story.

I'm sure he's going to find it hot. Yeah, he will. So I emailed you this summer when I was on the precipice of starting to act out. and I have a couple of, I guess I'd call them friends, one guy, and then a couple, and we played a couple times different situations. And I came home and told my husband everything about it, and he got off on it. He gets off on being cuckolded. Totally gets off on it.

But let me ask you this, because you said, like, you were very monogamous, and now you're not, or you were just on the precipice in the summer. Like, what changed in your relationship that you guys decided? to go down this path? Well, going way back, I grew up in this church that was so conservative. It made Southern Baptist look liberal. What religion? Pentecostal.

Oh, okay. That's super conservative? Yeah. Couldn't wear pants, had to have long hair. All of my media was highly restricted. Couldn't listen to secular music. And sex was something that was reserved for married couples only and something to be embarrassed about. Right. Now, were you a virgin when you got married to your husband? Oh, no. And neither

was he. I lost my virginity when I was 16 and I had a boyfriend I really loved and I was hoping that if we had sex, you know, we'd stay together. But, you know, that never works. Right. Yeah. So I'd say, you know, I had a handful, less than five before I met my husband. And then we ended up in the church and we were in the church actually up until about six years ago. And we dropped out and we decided, I don't want that life. I don't want the oppression, all of the cultural pressure. And we started, we got really honest with each other and started watching porn together. We actually, we both watched porn throughout our marriage. Together? But it was something, no, separately. Interesting. Right. Okay. Yeah. And it was, it was something that you should be ashamed of and then you

feel bad about it after you're done, something that you should be embarrassed about and that, you know, God is going to smite you with a lightning bolt. But then it came out. We got really honest with each other after we were married about 15 years, but we were still in church culture and we admitted to each other we're both totally by, but this is something that you need to oppress. Who was the first person that raised their hand and was like, this is the deal? I think it kind of came out for both of us about the same time. It was really like he he just got to the end where he was like the power is not in the pornography. The power is in the secret. And he came out and said, I've been watching this the whole time. We've been married 15 years and I knew, you know, but he wouldn't admit it.

And he'd lie about it. And then it came out. He's like, you know, I think it was him that just opened up and said, I really get off on dicks, you know, yeah, just. want to get fucked and want to suck them and the whole thing. And I admitted, like, I'm totally by and, like, totally have a boob fetish and want to eat pussy and all of that, you know. And, but then we suppressed it. And about three years ago, we started watching porn together. Okay.

And it was about that time that we started talking. And because I love him, I want to give him a real dick. And I don't, I don't have one, you know, because I know how. badly he wants it. And because he loves me, same thing. He would love to see me with a girl. Like I said, the couple of experiences I had, one was with one guy and it was a one-night, one-off, one-night stand, but just kind of cracked the seal and played with a couple for a little while, two, three times. But neither of those situations did they want to include my husband. Oh, interesting. You were like the unicorn to them. Right. To them. Yeah. But, but now,

You know, I'm looking for a unicorn and I don't even know where to start because phone sex is just, oh my gosh, it's grueling. I could find guys who want to talk to me all day long. And very few, I've had almost maybe three conversations where they're actually interested in talking to both of us. Right. Now, have you ever guys gone on any apps or anything like that? Because there's a lot of threesome apps nowadays. I've heard about them from people who have called in all the time. I literally just taped somebody before you.

And there were a couple who just started, you know, into the lifestyle in February. And they've had so many experiences and that's all been through an app called Cassidy. Now, I need to get them as a sponsor for my show because I always hear about them. I should be pitching them all the time because I think a lot of people talk about actually, you know, that being a really good app to meet other couples who are down for this type of thing, as well as unicorns, you know, single people. I haven't heard of Cassidy. With a K. Okay, I'm writing that down. Yeah.

I totally misspelled it. I haven't heard of that one. I've tried a couple of them and we tried Tinder and that was just, I found that to be kind of lame and so did he. And we haven't really tried any apps. No, try that one. I'm going to try and get them to be a sponsor and I'm going to start off with this episode. because I have to say of all the couples, like the people that I just spoke with,

like he said, you know, the other apps, you go on there and you start to get, like, hit up by all these people and they're like fake. And he said that's like, that's the one app where that didn't happen. And I have heard of Cassidy

being the number one place for couples. I think Gemma and Bob who were on my show recently, he said Cassidy, the people I just spoke with who haven't aired. So I think that that's a good starting place for you guys. But let's go back to, you know, when you guys, how did you guys both decide at the same time that you were done with your religion?

Because I think that that's like, listen, you're lucky that you both got to that place at the same time. Because I think sometimes, you know, one person might get to that place and feel like they don't want to do that anymore, but the other person isn't. I mean, how did you both, how did it both come up that? How did it come up that you were both not happy with your religion and you wanted to get out? It was a journey. I would say in one lesson, teaching one thing and another another and I don't know how much of the church you know you really want to get into on this we don't need to get into it that much I probably shouldn't have even asked if it's such a long story we don't

yeah it is just but just just the whole culture of Sunday go to meeting and conforming to the cookie cutter and just I don't want to conform to the cookie cutter anymore and you realize that your guy was in the same place too. And we were in the same place. Yeah. Yeah. We were in the same place. And then the other thing, the other thing is it made, it made it really easy is we did

a geographical. We moved from the upper Midwest to, to the southwest. And, you know, when we moved, it was easy for us to just kind of, like, when we moved out here, it's like no more Sunday going to meetings, and I'm no longer practicing churchianity. Right. And that is so I'm not in the same small Midwestern town where I'm going to run into people at Walmart and they're going to ask me. That was definitely helped, I'm sure. Yeah, they're not going to ask me, how's your walk with the Lord, you know?

Oh, God, right. Yeah, so that made it, that made it really easy. And we made a huge life change. I was working 60 hours a week and was just burnt out between two jobs. and then he had a job where he would be gone six weeks at a time. And so we had times where we just couldn't really connect and we couldn't see each other. And so we flipped a foreclosure, sold a business, and moved off the grid in the mountains. Oh, wow.

So, yeah, totally, totally off the grid. And so that made it easy to just be ourselves and not have that, you know, not have to keep up with the Joneses and not have to mow your lawn and not have to make sure your house is manicured and all of that shit. Because I, you know, I just got tired of that life. And we're in our mid-40s and are completely debt-free. Yeah, that's great. I'm glad I did ask the question because it led into that. And I think that this is like an important part of the story, you know, that freedom that comes with.

I think a lot of people don't have that with really moving out and like you said, getting off the grid and not having anybody, you know, never having to worry about walking past anybody that knows you in your former life to really be able to shed your skin and become different people. I think it does help if you do physically move someplace totally, right? That must have, it definitely helps. It definitely helps. And it's just not so cold. Right. But do you think that being off the grid, quote unquote, is the reason why it's hard, also for you to find people? I don't even know if you get, if you are like,

is this the type of place where you have like no neighbors for miles or are you in a town where there's a lot of people? Oh, the closest Walmart is an hour and a half away. Oh my God. You might need more than an app to meet people. I know. Exactly.

Exactly. But, you know, I think if it's a path that, like if it's what your heart wants and it's a path that you're pursuing. Yeah. The right people will come. Mm-hmm. You know, and, you know, it is sex, and it is, there's an element of where it is just sex and it's fun.

And, you know, it's hot. But we're going to be pretty picky who we connect with because, you know, even though I'm not religious anymore, I would still say I'm spiritual. And there is an exchange of energy. So we're looking for people who are about as beautiful, beautiful on the inside as they are on the outside as they are on the outside, you know. It's not just about, it's not just about the sex. It's about, yeah, and I don't want anyone to fall in love with me and I'm always going to come home, you know. No, but I get that. I get that, like that, they're not the same thing, but they both need to be there and that totally makes sense. You know, like I, I, it's funny because I did just talk to somebody right before you and

their experience and their view of things and how they pick and choose is very different than the way you do. And that's why I love talking to different people because you get a different angle and whatever works for everybody. But I could totally understand where you're coming from. And I think it's important to bring that up. And I, you know, one is not necessarily the same thing. Like you said, it is about sex. You are meeting them for sex. But you do also want that other thing. But it's not because you want them to fall in love with you, but because that just needs to be there for you if you're going to have sex with somebody. Yeah, so we're ready.

And we've been together long enough that we're secure enough with ourselves and secure enough with each other. I think if we would have tried to pursue this when we were first married, it wouldn't have worked. I would have been too jealous. I would have been too insecure. And, yeah, and we're going to remain partnered. We're best friends.

And if any of my experiences this last summer actually brought us closer together. You know, I came home and told him everything about it, you know, jacked off while I did. And it was, it was a beautiful thing. And so that's what we're looking for. So now when you say like, oh, you know, you really want to get him a real dick because, you know, that's really what he wants. Have you guys got like done pegging with each other? Like, have you pegged him? Did you go out and get toys to mock up that situation since he hasn't had yet?

Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. I have a bag of dildos and a strap on. Right. And know how to use it. Right. And do you enjoy it? Because I know I had a girl on recently who talked about how, you know, when she started

doing it, she didn't realize how much of a turn on, you know, because sometimes you think, okay, I'm doing this for the guy because he likes it. But she, and I've heard this from other girls that are into pegging, like she really got into and other women have really got into the power of it or something about it really did turn them on as well, not just for the fact that they were turning their guy on. Yeah, it turns me on totally. And I've had this, I don't know if anyone has felt this, but like I, the last time I did it, I, you know, I wore it for a while, you know, I just had it on for a long time. Like, a couple of hours. And then when I took it off, it's like I could almost still feel it.

That's interesting. It was almost still there. It's kind of like I wear glasses. And sometimes, you know, I'll go to take my glasses off and they're already off. Right. You know, because you're so used to feeling them, it's kind of a similar experience. And similar to that, when we first started playing with dildos, I was, I was just thinking, you know, I stuck the dildo in his mouth. And I was thinking, you know, just get it wet, you know. And I was thinking kind of clinically like that, get it wet. Yeah. And then I got this jolt when I realized how much he got, he was turned on by sucking on it. Right. Yeah. So it's like, ooh, you know. Yeah. And but you had already known he was bisexual, correct, at this point. I did. Yeah. Absolutely. And that's why you went out and bought that bag of dicks.

Yeah, exactly. Love for him and for you. Now, wait, so tell me about all those experiences that you had and how come he didn't join. Well, the thing that cracks the seal, I was at a friend's house and honestly, I was drinking. we were both drinking and and before I knew I was given him a hug goodbye and before I realized what was happening I was being kissed and fingered and then within moments on his bed and the whole thing. But I would say the reason that's more of a one-off and it was a really good experience, everything he did felt amazing. And I mean he could play a woman's body like it's an instrument. Yeah, he's one of those. I get it.

Yeah. Yeah. But I haven't been with him again. And we're still friends. We still hang out. And it was really a one-time thing. When it comes right down to it, he's a lot older than me. And I don't find him like the most physically attractive. You know what I mean? How old is he? Do you know? Exactly. Well, I'll put it this way. I'm a Jen Exeter and he's a boomer. Okay. So like old enough to be with my in high school with my. husband's dad, you know? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. You know what I mean? It's like, I mean, it was, it was a good experience and, you know, it was one of those lights of, it felt really good to

feel out of control in that moment, you know, but, but it hasn't happened again. And I know he would like to, but I have, I'm not pursuing that. Then I was hanging out with a couple, and I, it was such a whirlwind. But how do you, real quick, sorry to interrupt, Yeah, go ahead. How do you meet this couple? Like, are you at their house because you met them on, you know, the internet and they know that you guys are going to fool around? Or are you just at their house because they're your friends? You know, like, how do you wind up at their house?

I was at their house because I'm their friends. Okay. So these are just people you know that your friends with. Okay. Right. Because that's a very different story than the couple that you met online on the app and, you know, you went to their house. No. No. And it was, I mean, it was a really positive.

experience and we played a couple times, but they're not into us as a couple. They're more into me. Right. But let's slow down this story. What I want to know is how does it go from like you're hanging out with your couple friends to you guys or, you know, down and dirty? Like how is it alcohol that happened? Like do you guys get drunk and then when someone starts fooling around with you? You know, how do they find, you know, because they're married. If they know, you know, you're married, if they know, you, they know you're married. Yeah. They would assume you're monogamous.

I don't know. You know, that's just, so how do they, how does it come up and how, what goes down? Well, actually, he, he started it. They started going at it and brought me in. Mm-hmm. And, and yes, we were drinking. Right. Okay.

No, because listen, I, I haven't drank it a long time, but I used to drink. And that's the kind of stuff that could happen. Like, without alcohol, I think it's a totally different scenario. but with alcohol, those things just kind of happen sometimes, right? Yeah. Yeah. That's kind of what it was. I actually know that's definitely what it was.

Right. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So now he starts to, they start to fool around in front of you. You know that you're down for this because you've done this before. So then do you wind up hooking up with her and him? Well, yeah, the first time it was both, all three of us together.

Mm-hmm. And then I'd say the next time it was just us girls. So now how was your first experience like A with the girl and B with a couple? Well, the first experience with a couple was amazing. It was mostly me playing with her. And he was just kind of watching us two get down. And then I went home and, you know, of course told my husband everything about it. And yeah, I mean, just, you know, all of us, he's playing with.

with her a little bit and all of a sudden her tits are out and I'm sucking them and then clothes start flying. Yeah. And, you know, the whole pussy eating, the whole thing. I mean, everything. The first time it was really just me and her and then the next time it was the three of us and it was everything. It was, you know, getting fucked and sucking dick and the whole thing. I mean, the whole thing. Now, I know that you said that your husband knows all this. So like if he knows you're just going over to your friend's house and there was no plan to fool around. When you come home and you tell

him that you did, he's totally down with it, right? There's nothing wrong with you doing it on the fly like that without you guys discussing it first. No, he totally got off on it. Right, right. Yeah, totally got off on it. And I've hung out with them afterwards and nothing happened.

Right. You know, I'll come home. He's like, did anything happen? I'm like, no. You know, do you have anything fun to tell me. I'm like, no. Right. And again, I don't think it'll happen again. I think it was just kind of a summer fling and we're still friends, you know, and it was a good

experience. And like one the biggest things about them, and they're both beautiful. They're just not into the having another guy around. Right. So, and I don't know, and I don't, he's, he's more of a guy and doesn't, you know, I don't know how

comfortable he'd be with a man sucking his dick, you know, be a lot of men have hangings about that it's just yeah it's still got a stigma there's still a stigma attached to it though sometimes you know guys that think that they're not into it might then become into it you just don't know you know but did you bring it up to them like did you say hey listen you know would you guys be down to hooking up with me and my husband actually i did and they're just not comfortable that's just not what they're looking for right right that's cool your husband loved to hear about it. You were totally into, I mean, you always had fantasies about being with a woman.

This was the first time you were. Was it the hottest experience ever? Like, was it everything you wanted to be? And then some, have you been with other women since? No, that was my first and only time. And it was, I would say it was a learning experience. It's like, I mean, it's, it's instinctive, if that makes sense. But, but it was, it's something that I feel like I need.

more practice at. Right. And now had she ever been, do you know? Was she, did she know what she was doing? No, she told me she, that I was her first one too. Right. And then so you come home, you tell your husband, he's obviously into being a cock. And he now he has not yet ever been with a guy, right? He's not been with anyone but me. Mm-hmm. In, in 24 years and maybe even longer. He could really, I'm sure if he put himself out to find just a guy that wants a little private guy on guy action, I bet you he would have a lot of guys in his inbox. Yeah. Okay.

We'll check out the Cassidy app. Yeah. But I think on Cassidy, you know, you go in as a couple. You could also find that. But also I think, you know, listen, I've been doing my show for seven or eight years now, I have had a lot of, I've noticed a lot of trends or things that people are into that I never knew that people were into. And one of the big things, it's not that I never knew that this happened. I always knew that it did, but it happens a lot.

There's just a lot of guys that are hooking up with guys behind everyone's backs, you know, whether they're with somebody or not. You know, there's a lot of guys that are more experimental than they're willing to, you know, say that they are. so I feel like if your guy went out there and was like, you know, looking for experts, you know, with a guy, there'd be, you know, a lot of guys raising their hands ready to, you know, pop his cherry. If he's down, like, are you down? I mean, like, what do you guys, do you guys have any kind of rules or regulations? I mean, obviously you're down to playing separately because you've only played separately without him. I know you're dying to play together, but would you be okay with him hooking up with a guy solo? Oh, I would be okay with him hooking up with a guy or a girl solo.

Right. Okay. Uh-huh. Yeah, totally. Totally. Yeah. It's totally open. And I wouldn't say I have any rules.

I know that like some couples have no kissing rules and things like that. But no, I don't, I don't, we're both really open. We're both really open. And one of the things, he would really like to see me get fucked. I mean, just, he would love to watch me get just pounded. Yeah. And because he gets off, like the sex he gets off the most is like being feminized, you know. So, and like having a really limp dick and an open ass and, you know, dressing up and stuff like that.

And so like a lot of times when we're getting down, his dick is really small and I'm not getting fucked. And I'm okay with that, you know. Uh-huh. I'm okay with that. And that's part of the reason he wants to see me just pounded. Oh, because he likes it. He really is a true cuck. He really is.

He is a proper cuck. Yeah, absolutely. That's what a lot of people, because I've used that word before, people are like, that's not a cuck, a cuck. You know, there's got to be that humiliation or there is that part of it that's there. But I think that there's different varying degrees of being a cuck. But he really, like you said, is the proper cuck. because he wants to be in that position.

I mean, that's not a problem for him. That's like the turn on, right? I mean, even though we're not, right? Yeah, that's an absolute turn on. And that's the point that, you know, when we're watching it together, you know, that's often where we go is just watching a proper bull, the proper bull go at it and while the husband's sitting back watching. And then what does that make you?

Because I'm so bad with the terminology. Does that make you in that scenario, if that, you know, the bull's fucking you. Are you the hot wife, the vixen? That was the word. I like hot wife. Yeah. It would be the hot wife, right?

Now, does that scenario, I know it really turns him on, is that a real turn on for you too as well? Absolutely. Mm-hmm. Yeah, just getting pounded by a real dick. It just sounds amazing. I want to feel my cervix get hit. You do.

Yeah. Interesting. And I'm also, I'm very, I'm very juicy. I'm a total squirder. Oh, you are? And you've always been a squirter? Yeah, since like my early 20s. Can you please tell me you enjoy squirting?

Because I've heard of just a couple, my last couple of females that I've talked to that have squirted, it was always in my bucket list. They've kind of let me down where they're like, it's not really the end-all be-all, I have to say. Oh, my. Really? Yeah, I don't know.

And I'm like, really? Because it's always been on my bucket list because it just seems like it would be so amazing. Please tell me you love it. It sounds like you did. I fucking love it. Oh, yay. Okay. It's back on my pocket list.

Oh, my gosh. And the only thing is I have to make sure, like, I have to prepare for it. Yeah. I mean, if I don't have a towel on the bed, I'm going to make a mess. So, like, if I'm getting close to where I'm going to just like, where I'm going to explode. Yeah. If I get too close, I'll pull out if I don't have a towel because I don't want to destroy my bed. Right, right.

Or the bathroom is a really nice place for that, you know, where you have surfaces that can get soaked. And I love getting pounded from behind and just making a mess all over the floor. And then I can clean it up with towels later. So, no, yes, I love it. But like I said, I have to prepare. I have to be ready. And now how did you, when was the first time you squirted? Did you do it to yourself?

Was it the first time you had sex? Were you always a squirter? It wasn't the first time I had sex, no. I was actually married before. So this is my second marriage. I got married when I was like 19 because I was pregnant. You know, my boyfriend, you know, because the church thing, remember, let's go back there. And you don't want your son to be born a bastard. And do you have to do the right thing? But that, that marriage only lasted a year. He was very abusive. And, you know, it's been long enough. The wounds I've licked all. my wounds and they're mended over. But the first time I squirted, he was, yeah, he was pounding me and I, I just, it's like, wow, you know, it's like I'm spraying on my ankles. Oh my God. I can get on my ankles. Yeah, and ever since I've been, you know, if I get fucked hard enough, usually, and usually there's a couple positions that work really well. If I'm on my back with my legs on his shoulders. Oh, interesting.

Okay. That is like one position that like just a like it. And then also like long enough, hard enough to hit my cervix. Uh-huh. And then my other favorite is doggy style. So those are the two positions that are most likely to make me squirt. And do you feel that you have to pee beforehand? Is that like the truth? No, I don't feel like I have to pee. I, um, pee before and after sex. Mm-hmm. So I know it's not pee. It's completely different. Yeah, but a lot of people have said. And I remember, once like having a girlfriend telling me like oh I was like fucking this guy and like I felt like I had to pee and he kept telling me to just go that meant I was going to squir but I just couldn't and like I've heard that before and maybe with someone that squirts so much like you like you don't even like maybe you don't even put that together anymore but a lot of people say that you know it might

feel like you're about to pee but just if you you know work through that that's not what it is it's you're going to squirt you know I don't I don't it doesn't feel like I have to pee it feels completely different. It feels just kind of like a buildup of pressure. Right. It's like, you know, just this pressure building up. Yeah. And like I don't even miss it. I can't even put my finger on where it's coming from. Right. Like whatever, whatever it is that generates the juice to lubricate my pussy. It's like there's this buildup of it. And yeah. And then then when it goes, it's like a, I wouldn't say a flood, but. But you can feel it on your ankle. is what you said.

Yeah. Yeah. When it goes, it's just on. So, yeah, I'm glad I discovered that early, you know. Yeah, no, that's super interesting. Like I said, because like the last couple of women I've spoke to about it, and I'm always, everyone knows that listen to my show that I'm always like, oh, I just want to squirt. I'm so jealous that I can't.

But a couple of people have been like, it's not that great or it's like kind of annoying. It's like really messy. It's not all that it's cracked up to be. It's not like it doesn't necessarily happen when you orgasm, it doesn't really feel that great. But you're here to say, and listen, everybody's different, you know, that's what's, that's why I love talking to different people. They could all, you know, three squirters and everyone experiences it differently. But, you know, you love it. It is an orgasm, but I can have an orgasm without squirting.

Right. So it's a kind of a different, it feels like an orgasm. But it's not like the only, it's not like the only way I feel orgasm. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, that's cool. So now what is on, you know, besides, you know, getting pounded and I know that you also want to, I'm assuming because you're very by that you want to find more girls to talk up with. But what is like the perfect ideal situation that you guys are looking for?

Is it would it be a couple where the guy is, you know, down to play? with your husband. Now, when you said he dresses up, too, does he like to cross-dress? Is that what he does? Yeah, he loves dressing up. Yeah, I know. I'll go and buy clothes for him.

Right. Yeah, so I'll come home with tights and undies and skirts and things for him. So many, in fact, the first time that he admitted that to me, I didn't know that he was doing that because he had been doing that several. he'd been wearing my panties without me knowing about it for years before he admitted it. And I had a time where I'm like I have this really cute bra on panties set.

And then one time I put it on, I'm like, God, these panties just don't fit me. They're just like, they're just like too big now. It's so weird, you know? Oh, my God, hilarious. Yeah, it is. It's funny. The first time he told me, I'm like, go find them, put them on. I want to see.

And then the next day I went to a store and I got him like a skirt and, you know, panties just for him in his size, you know. Yeah. And then we started playing with it. I'm like, you know, let's just have fun. And I would play, I would do his makeup. You know, I'd get done with his makeup and he'd say that was one of the most sexually profound experiences I've ever had.

Just putting the makeup on him. Yeah, just putting the makeup on. And, you know, doing his lips and eyeliner and, you know, and blush and the whole thing and doing my best to make him look like a girl. And, yeah, and having, you know, just having fun with it. Yeah, that's interesting. Now, did that come up a long time ago, or was this all at the same time when you guys started to be super honest about all of the stuff that you were into? We started, I'd say we started doing that about. like dressing up probably about eight years ago.

And yeah, about eight years ago when we, it was about the time, I told you after we were married about 15 years, we got really honest with each other. Right. That was around that time too. It was about that time. And then the underwear came up at that time. And, you know, the porn came up at that time. And the strip club came up at that time.

And, you know, everything just kind of came out all at once. Mm-hmm. And it was, it was a lot to take, you know. And when, when he was admitting to me, you know, about, he had been lying to me for 15 years about porn. And that it really hurt at first, but we worked through it. You know, and my relationship to porn before that was very different. I would do it. And then I'd tell him right away, but then I'd always minimize it. And then, and then I'm like, okay, I told him. And then, and then like, a year. would go by and I do it again or, you know. Oh, my God. Yeah, because you're not supposed to do these things. These are things that, you know, if you can't do it because, you know, you're in the church and you can't watch porn. I mean.

Right. So you do it like once a year. Yeah, that was me. I mean, he did it all the time. And then when you found out, that's when you were a little upset. At first, yeah. But then it came out. And so then we got to the point in our marriage about six years ago, it's like, if you're going to do it, just tell me about it.

Yeah. You know, if you're going to do it, just tell me about it. And I went six years without watching any porn at all. Right. Until three years ago. How come? Because I was in the mindset that it was sin. Right.

You know, because I was so entrenched in the church culture. I was so, you know, it's Sunday you go to me. meeting every, every Sunday. I was so entrenched in that that it's like, you need to deny yourself. You need to, you need to not let yourself feel that pleasure because it goes against, because it goes against everything that's scriptural. And you know, I, here's an example of the hypocrisy that, you know, they don't actually, if you don't look at, if you look at it, what's actually in the text, David had a harem. And he was a man after God. own heart and Solomon right his son was said to be the wisest man who had ever lived

and had 300 wives and a thousand concubines so so I'm like you know what I'm like I I really just if you take a step back I really don't think that you know the the monogamy that is is oppressed on you in that culture is really if you look at it, I mean... A part of the teaching or what, you know, I mean... Right, exactly. I mean, like, so... So it's like, okay, the God of my understanding can still love me, even though I'm fucking around.

Yeah. Or want to watch porn. And so after six years, what was it? Was it because you guys started to become honest with each other? And then you found out that he was. And then you went back to watching what you wanted to watch. I mean, what changed after that six years? that we didn't. What changed after that six years is he told, you know, he was watching it very sporadically.

And then we got to this point where, you know, if you're going to, if you're going to do it, you know, he started watching maybe a year before I did. And then I said, why do you get to watch porn and I don't? And then like, why do you get to watch porn and I don't? And he's like, well, then watch porn. And so three years ago is the first time we ever watched together. and it was insanely hot. I mean, it was hotter than for both of us than either of us have had separately.

Right. And then I felt guilty about it at first. And then I'm like, why am I feeling guilty? You know, just there's nothing to feel guilty about. And now I felt absolutely no guilt and no shame and no embarrassment about the things I did I told you about this last summer because it was done with my with my husband's knowledge after the fact and permission and blessing. So if we're in a, if we're in unison, if we're in agreements, then it's okay. Yeah.

As well as like all the other things that you've done together. I mean, these are fantasies that you guys live out. You're both consenting adults. You're married. You know, what's, what's wrong with, with that. And what's great is that and what I think people listening that are maybe like watching porn behind their partner's backs and everything, it just really goes to show that if you are more honest about what you're doing or you put that out there and you start to communicate or watch

porn together, you know, all these other things come up and then you're really able, at least in your situation, you guys were really able to be exactly who you were and let the things that you're really into come into play. and become a part of the relationship, but now you guys are opening it up, and you're going to fulfill some of the fantasies. And you're doing that together. It's very safe, and I'm sure it's probably very freeing. It is.

Absolutely. You just need, you know, how far is the closest city or town with a number of people to you? Oh, the biggest real city is about three hours within a three-hour drive. It's also a good time in life for us because we're almost empty. ministers. Right. So, you know, we're, we're, we're at the point where we could go away for a weekend and, you know, get a room somewhere and play. Yeah, you probably if you go to that city through hours and a week, you know, get on that app and you go, you could probably start setting up things. Yeah. Very easy and start doing that and living out even more of your fantasies.

I mean, it's really like, you know, you're on the precipice in the summer. You've had to couple experiences, but there's so much ahead, right? Exactly. You know what? If you would have me again after we do have some fun, I would love to tell you about it. Yeah, of course. I love it. Where are they now? You know, I'm doing, I'm doing a bunch of them from, you know, guests that called in this year. You know, for you, you know, you're probably like three months away from doing some stuff. You're going to get on Cassidy. You're going to put yourself in like a, you know, the city area or someplace close to there so you can meet more people. Like, you know, I don't know if you listen to Gemma and Bob, they were on my show recently and they had moved to Spain and they weren't getting a lot of

action where they were. And so what they did was they went to Paris. Now, listen, in Europe, you know, places are closer. It's a lot, it's very easy to, you know, travel between countries because they're like right next to each other. But, you know, they went to Paris for a weekend and they just, their inbox just was like insane, a very different experience than when they were looking just where they were, where they lived in their small town in Spain. So, you know, they, they, they, you know, I think that you're going to have a very different experience when you go looking specifically for couples or guys, you know, when you get on that app and you look in that city that's close to you. Yeah, I will do that, definitely.

Yeah. Would you guys send, would you send in picks for my Patreon, people like anonymous picks? Absolutely. I think it's always fun. I mean, it's something I never did for many years and I don't know how it started, but it is fun. Most of the women say I always get it for the women, sometimes the men send in. But of course, I always say it's nothing like pornographic, but it could be R-rated like sexy picks. No face.

Everything is anonymous. I'm anonymous. You're anonymous. I'm going to change your name. I'm going to change your voice. Does anybody in your life besides you and your husband know about all the things that you guys do? Actually, no. The only people that know about what I've done this summer is them.

The couple that you fooled around with you mean? Yeah. Yeah, I'm the guy. And I haven't, I haven't told anyone else about it. It's really between, it's really between us and them. Yeah, and all my listeners now. Yeah, and now all your listeners. Yeah.

Yeah, totally. Now, who decided to come, like, did your husband know my podcast or did you and then, or did he know it and said, oh, you should call in and tell our story? Like, how did it come to be that you got to call in? Well, he's, he's been listening to you for quite a while. And he'll handpick, he'll handpick episodes for me. Yeah. And so we'll listen together.

And then like I said, this phone call is like one more. I'm taking a sledgehammer to all of the oppression of my youth. Right. And like this phone call is one of those steps. Like, for example, I had a tarot card reading a couple of months ago. And I've had my astrological signs done. And like, I'm just step by step by step by step. I'm freeing myself.

And so like this phone call is a step for freedom for both of us. Oh, I love that. That is that. That's so interesting. And it's weird. And I might cut this out because it's about the other people I talk to. But I'll just say it to you because it's, I literally just talked to another couple who are Orthodox Jews.

It became swingers. And I thought that that was so interesting. It was going to be a big part of the conversation because it's so religious. You know, and they were like, well, listen, we want to say that we have this doesn't, this has nothing to do with our religion. Like we don't want it to be about that. And it was so the opposite kind of a thing. And that's what I love about talking to different people is like I get a different angle.

Because in this situation with you, it is very much a part of separating from that part. And you have a clear idea. They still don't know where their religion fits in their lifestyle. And they don't know how they're going to, you know, blend the two because they know that they're separate, but they're not at the point where you guys are. but it's so interesting to talk to you and see where you're at and what you're doing and how you're freeing yourself totally, you know, because it's just like a, you know, I think you're a little bit further down.

I think they'll find it interesting when they listen to you. Yeah, I hope so. And I find listening to all of the stories on your, the stories I've listened to on your podcast. Yeah. And there was a gentleman that you had interviewed a while ago and he coined the term, naughty 40s. Yeah, I remember that.

And I'm like, when I heard that, I'm like, oh my God, I've hit my naughty 40s. Yeah. And totally identified with that. And I'm in the heart of that right now. Yeah. And there's nothing more fun. I mean, I'm a woman in my 50s and I got to tell you, you're never going to be as horny as your 40s.

More than in your 20s and 30s. Like, your 40s, you really do peak. Like, seriously. Like, it's, you know, I don't know if it's your ovaries or like, oh, this is your last hurrah, but you're going to be, it's just not only, you're just going to be like hornyer than ever. And it's real, so it's great that you've decided to really open up and live at all your fantasies now, you know, and you're not resisting all the urges. You're doing the opposite. You're having the balls to really go out there and, you know, do what you want. And so has your

husband. I think it's, there's so many men that are still secretly wearing their, girls panties behind her back and they don't know. I think it's great that he was able to let you know and that you were so accepting. He's really lucky that you're, you know, down with it and so accepting of it and instead of being intimidated by it, you know, and it's great that you peg him and you live out that fantasy and you just can't wait to see him with a dick. I mean, you guys are another, what I love is you guys are another just a very happy, solid couple that has a very strong foundation and you're in this together transitioning into, you know, the lifestyle, but going in, like really solid. And so it's only, you know, positive stuff going on, which I think is great.

Yeah, that's what we're working for. Yeah. I think that that's really important. So, you know, listen, we won't wait till the end of the year to have your, you know, the next step. Because I feel like that'll happen, be, you know, sooner than that. So definitely reach out to me when you have, when you guys, you know, have some more experiences, you know, off of Cassidy or whatever. I'm going to get them to try and sponsor this episode. And then, uh, call me and I'll have you back on and we'll update and make sure to send me some picks. I will. Absolutely. Okay. I will. Good luck to you. Thank you. Bye. Bye. Hey, everyone. Thanks so much for tuning in to this week's episode. If you want to follow the show, follow me at Strict Anonymous on Instagram or Twitter. That's at Strict Anonymous.

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