Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 456 - Fetish Fridays: Trevor has an ABDL Fetish

Episode Date: February 25, 2022

Trevor has the ABDL (adult baby, diaper lover) fetish and he calls in to talk all about it. What is the ABDL fetish? When did he realize he had it? When it it turn sexual for him? And, how open has he been about it? Tune in for all the details which include his first memory of wearing a bib and how that first memory planted the seed, the time his baby sitter forced him to ride in a car seat and how that made him feel, when he started buying bibs and all the other baby items he enjoys including pacifiers and diapers and more, the time his then girlfriend found his bag of baby items and how she reacted, how he explained his fetish to her and how, through their marriage, she has grown to accept it, the common misconceptions about this fetish and how it’s important for people to know he’s not attracted to babies, why he wears baby items and how it’s not always just for sexual reasons, how he hired a pro mommy and what he does with her, where to go online to connect to the ABDL community for more information and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Hey, welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast with Kathy. If you want to follow the strictly anonymous podcast on Instagram or Twitter, follow the show at Strict Anonymous. If you're just listening for the first time, today is Fetish Fridays. I save every other Friday. I think I'm going to commit now to two Fridays a month or every other week, right, biweekly, how do you want to say it, where I will give you a Fetish Friday episode, a specific niche fetish. That's what we'll be discussing on Fetish Fridays. I have a really good one for you today. But if you have a fetish and want to be on the show or you have an interesting secret

life that you want to talk about and you want to be on the show, send me an email Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com or just go to my website, strictly anonymouspodcast. and click on be on the show. So today I have on a guy named Trevor. Trevor wrote in. And when he wrote in, I was super excited because he was like, I am into ABDL.

That is a specific niche fetish. The adult baby and diapers lovers fetish. Now, listen, I've been doing my show for a long time. I recently had on a guy who was into diapers. He had that fetish, but it wasn't really the adult baby thing so much. And that was a super great episode. I think that's how Trevor found. on my podcast because he found that episode first.

But he wanted to call in to talk about this because he's really into the whole adult baby thing as well. You know, he gets into all these other, all the other paraphernalia that goes into that fetish. Is that correct? The way I'm saying it, I never know. Listen, I do my show because I'm just like curious and I'm always learning. This is not my fetish. But I loved talking to Trevor because I'm a curious person and I learned all about this fetish.

So either you're going to be listening because you're like me and you're curious or you have this fetish and you're going to be super happy to hear from Trevor because you're going to be able to relate to him. We go all the way back because that's what I like to do. We start from the beginning like when did he get this fetish? Where does he think it comes from? Like how did it play out? When did it turn sexual? Is he married? Yes, he is. And his wife knows about his fetish. How did she find out? How did she feel when she found out? Like how did those conversations, those initial conversations go? And how does that fetish play out in his marriage in their intimate life. Like how far does she go with him? And what has he done on his own or

behind her back to get himself off? He has seen a pro mommy. What is a pro mommy? I didn't know. He told me what a pro mom he was, is. Hopefully she's going to come on the show. He told me he'd reach out to her and see if she'd come on the show. But he talks all about the pro mommy that he saw. He talks about all about is it like I said his fetish, where it came from, how it played out, all the paraphernalia and other things that he uses, you know, because other things come into play here. like baby bottles and stuff. I mean, he's the high chair, the baby bottles, the bibs, all that stuff. We talk about it.

So let's get to it. I'm going to be right back on with Trevor. Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm good. How are you? Thank you. I'm good.

So Trevor, you called him because you were like, I think I have a topic you've never spoken about before. A, BDL, I think is the acronym for it. You're going to explain what it is. And I was like, oh, I'm starting this Fetish Fridays series where I do like very specific fetishes, stories of people with specific fetishes on that day. So why don't you explain what ABDL stands for and then get into your story? Okay. Well, ABDL stands for adult baby and diaper lover. Some people are all of the things, all an adult baby and diaper lovers. Some people

are only diaper lovers. So there's kind of a break in the two. For me, I think it was like many fetishes and like many things. It was rooted very early on at a young age, obviously before I even knew what sex or a fetish was or anything. In fact, I think it goes all the way back to one of my very earliest memories. You know, you don't have really any memories of when you were a child or a toddler, but I do have a few memories from back then that I think were the seeds. And over time, they just germinated into what is today, you know, the full fetish. The first of them being, I was really young, toddler age, and I have a memory of being at an Italian restaurant with my family, and we had friends in town, and my mom insisted

that I be in a high chair and wear a bib. Well, being the big boy that I thought that I was, I didn't want to be in a high chair, and I didn't want to wear a bib, and especially I didn't want to wear a bib, and especially I didn't want to be these things in front of our, you know, friends that were from out of town or whatever. So I remember it being a kind of a fight that I didn't want to sit in a high chair and I didn't want to wear a bib, but obviously my mom, you know, being that it was an Italian restaurant, spaghetti, and was going to be messy, she insisted. And so I just remember that. I lost the battle. I sat in the high chair and I had a bib on. And so that memory just kind of stands out. Another memory was

when I was in kindergarten, and, you know, at the end of the day, where all the kids are playing house and stuff, and I was chosen, again, specifically remember the day in the incident, I was chosen as the baby. It wasn't something that I wanted to be, but it was also something that I didn't want to be. It turned out that I liked it. The school that I went to also was like a daycare and a nursery and stuff,

so they had babies and all the baby gear and high chair and stuff, So I was chosen one day to be the baby, and I was put into a high chair, and I was put a bib around my neck and stuff. And so I think those are kind of too early on memories that just kind of set the seed later on when I was like in around second grade, I think is when it really started to take hold. One day I found a box of old baby clothes in my closet that my mom had put away. And on the very top were like three or four bibs. and something just got in my head to try the bibs on,

and it was something that I loved. And so I started wearing the bibs, obviously, you know, behind closed doors and then private. Also about this time, I used to go to a babysitter after school, and we would ride in her car, and this was kind of before the days of seatbelts being a big thing and stuff. And so myself and the other kid that were in the back, we were, you know, monkeying around or whatever. And I remember her saying, hey, if you don't, you know, sit down and behave, I'm going to put you in the car seat.

And I took that as a challenge. So I continued to monkey around and she put me in the car seat. So here I am. I was obviously kind of big for the car seat at the time. But there I was as a second grader, seven years old or whatever. and being made to ride in a car seat. And so I think all of those just kind of feel the fact that I liked baby things. And although I didn't really know that was the beginnings of a baby fetish,

when I was old enough to ride a bike and go down to the store, I would save up my money and ride down to the local store and buy a bib every now and again. And it was just kind of something that grew over, over time, but that's kind of how, you know, that's kind of how it started. And then it never stopped. So when does it turn sexual? It turned sexual probably when I was in high school and hitting puberty and discovering that the bib was something that turned me on. And then, you know, when I discovered,

you know, masturbation and all that kind of stuff, it was just an object that I didn't really understand at the time. And at that time, there was, there was no internet, really. There was internet, you know, probably internet came around when I was in high school. Senior in high school was when I finally got it, but I didn't know anything about it. You know, I thought I was literally the only person beyond the age of about three in the world that liked to wear a bib. And then when I got to college and had my own computer and had my own access to the internet, I, There was a, I was watching Jerry Springer waiting to go to class, and there was actually an episode on adult babies on Jerry Springer.

And a lot of the older A-Bs will know about this, and it was kind of a black eye for the community, because it was, you know, your standard Jerry Springer subject of the show was not portrayed in a good light. The very end of the show, you know, the adult baby that was on said, just Google adult baby, you'll find us everywhere. Or maybe he didn't say Google, maybe search us on the internet or whatever. And so I went to my computer and I think I typed in Yahoo search engine or something,

adult baby and discovered an entire world. And I also discovered that I was not the only one in the world that had this, that had this desire, that had these, you know, these feelings that had been. this want to wear baby things and be a baby. But initially, initially everything was surround, was all the feelings and everything was surrounded by just wearing a bib. I don't know why that is.

It's just kind of the first baby thing that I found. And even to this day, it's still my very favorite baby item, although I have lots of other baby items. And I, and I do lots of other things in the fetish wear other, you know, clothing items and such. Kind of the bib is where it started and the bib is still my favorite thing. And I have a collection of many, many bibs.

Now, let me ask you this before we, but I like that. You're just going in chronological order, you know, and we'll get to where you are now. But I do want to know, is this something that the person that you're with, are you married? or does your wife know about this fattish of yours? Yes, I am married. My wife now and then girlfriend, she discovered, she discovered, I used to have like a big kind of a duffel briefcase thing

that I kept my baby stuff in in my room in college. And she discovered it one day while I was in the shower. she was hanging out in my room. So that was not a great day if I had that day to do over. If I had that day to do over again, I would do it differently. You would hide it better? What do you mean? No, I would be up front with her and try and find the ability to come out to her about it

because I think that it would have gone differently. So she was really upset about it at first. She didn't like it. She would kind of let me play with it a little bit, but it was still very much a negative aspect. And it wasn't a great thing. She since then has become to accept it more and more. And now today, although it's not her favorite thing,

she knows that it's kind of a part of me, and she does accept it and she does allow me to play. She will put me in a diaper. She will put a bib on me. Occasionally she will even, you know, dress up and wear one herself. It's very rare. And I just think that had I been honest with her and upfront with her and introduced it to her myself, I think it would have been a better scenario.

Right, because of that initial time when she caught you. I mean, you obviously copped to it because moving forward, you said you have, you know, she has worn, she knows that you do. So how, like, how did you not, like, what did you not tell her that day? I don't think there was anything that I didn't tell her. I think that I was just probably not as honest that it was something that I liked as much as I did and that it was something that I, had been into for a long time and that it was something and maybe I didn't even really understand it myself because it was still pretty it was still pretty new you know in my discovering of the fetish in the in terms of like hey I'm not the only one that has this fetish

I'm not the only one of the world and since then the whole fetish and everything has really blossomed on the internet. But back then, there were only a few sites that you could go to to find this type of content. And, you know, so it was still new. I didn't really understand it. All I knew was that I enjoyed it, that I liked it, that it brought pleasure to me. But she felt betrayed ultimately. She wished that I had been honest with her about it. So it's not that she doesn't like the baby stuff and it's not that she said hey it's either me or the baby stuff she just felt that well i feel that since it kind of went off as an explosion you know from from the very beginning it's just been an uphill battle and again today she doesn't mind it she'll

I'll ask her, hey, would you mind, you know, putting a diaper on me or, hey, you know, I'll pull out a bib and wear it during dinner. And she doesn't really mind. I sometimes can even put a bit on her. And she just kind of rolls her eyes, but she goes along with it. Right. And she plays with it. But it's not something that she's ever going to initiate herself. And it's not something that's necessarily ever going to be a positive.

or fun thing to her, which is unfortunate for me, but it's my fault. And if I could go back and do it again and, you know, in my online presence and stuff, when people come up with these questions of what should I do and stuff, I'm always an advocate for being upfront and honest in the beginning because it's never going to go away and it's never going to turn from a negative to a positive. and that's kind of a, I'm using a never, I'm saying never, but just in my experience, I've not been able to switch it from the negative side to the positive side. Yeah, but that might not be your, but that might not be your problem or your, that might not be

because of what happened. Listen, this is so many years later you're talking, your wife has never come around. I do not think, I know you have it framed in your head that it's because of the way she found out and everything that's so many years later, you know, she's, still is not into it. And if you could rewrite, you know, how that went down, she would be totally down for it. But I don't think so. I think, you know, and this goes for a lot of different fetishes that sometimes some of the, your partner is not into it. It's not what turns them on. Just like it is specific to you. It's just not to her. And you can't necessarily change those things. It would be like her saying to you, turn it off. Like I just don't be into that anymore. You can,

could never do that, right? Just like she can't maybe turn it on for herself. So that's, I agree. You know, so it's probably not like you could ever, it's not because of the way that went down. I think you're lucky that she found it very early on in your relationship. I mean, she did. And she decided, you know, maybe she can't accept that part of you or she's not that into it, but she's into every other part of you. She married you. She's still with you to this day. but that's something that she just can't get into. But she does get into it for you, just not for herself. But I don't think, and I think I'm just saying the same thing over and over again,

but I don't think it's because of the way the conversation went down. She is kind of a vanilla at heart. You know, she has a few things that really, you know, turn her on and stuff. But for the most part, it's me that has to initiate anything else beyond just regular missionary sex. Right, right, right. I have a pretty big, kinky inventory. You know, I like not only, you know, baby things.

I like, you know, bondage and some other things. But that's all me. And it's not anything that she doesn't like, per se. It's just something that I am the one that has to initiate, and I'm the one that has to present it to her in a fashion that she enjoys. she's not going to be the one that initiates it. She's not going to be the one to get it going. But it's just her.

And that's how I've lived with the baby fetish. But today, she accepts it. It's just kind of the other thing in the room. When she gets really into the mood and we're having an intimate time, she'll pull a bib out because she knows that puts me into overdrive. And, you know, that helps. but sometimes I also, you know, respect her boundaries. And I know, hey, the last two times we've had sex or whatever,

I've pulled toys out of the drawer. So this time I need to respect her and just have, you know, an intimate night, just us without any of the kinks or the toys or anything like that. So I try and consciously maintain a balance so that it's not all about me and my fantasies and my fetish and my toys and such like that. I think that's important and I think that that's smart because I think a lot of times when I'm talking to a guy with a fetish, a lot of times it's my panty hose guys that are into panty hose or other fetishes. They do get from their partner like, you know, the reason why they hesitate to always go there for their partner like by putting it on or, you know, dressing up the way they want them to is because they feel like, oh, that you're not getting turned on by me. It's just the panty hose, you know.

And so I think that. Right. you saying, listen, I don't do it all the time. I want to respect her boundaries. So it's not just about all my paraphernalia and all this other stuff. You know, I think that does help her. And that is smart because I think sometimes that's the pushback that you get. She does entertain it for you.

And then you appreciate that, but you don't go overboard. I think the hard thing with this kind of fetish is that she's probably come a long way. If I was talking to her, you know, what's her history with us? Because it is a part of her life now because, you know, she married you and she's, She's been with you this whole time. But, you know, because most people aren't attracted to babies, you know, so it's hard to say, like, oh, I'm going to get hot and heavy, and then we're going to introduce this whole baby thing. You know, there is this weird line there, right?

I'm sure you talk about it within this community and there is that aspect to it, right? I'm sure you're not attracted to babies yet you want to be a baby. So I think it's hard, though, for somebody else to tow that line. Do you know what I'm saying? Absolutely. And within the community, that's always kind of the first thing that somebody thinks about when they're introduced to this fetish is like, oh, you know, oh, you want to be a baby. You're attracted to babies or whatever, which couldn't be the furthest from the truth. And so getting, you know, getting that idea conveyed and across, you know, is a slippery slope. But it's an important line. But for on my side, it's really not even a slope because there's nothing.

One has nothing to do the other, right? But it is important to talk about, right? Especially on this podcast because I think a lot of people are going to be hearing about this for the first time. And so if that's going through my mind, just as a curious person, I believe that that's what's going through people's mind, right? That's why I bring it up. And like you said, that is the first thing that within the community that people always sort of need to get out in the open and get it, get past it because for you guys that are into

this fetish, one has nothing to do with the other, but for people on the outside, they're going to put that together, for sure. 100% correct. And so what is your, like when you explain it or when people talk about it, like that's never a part of it, correct? Never. Right. Yeah, never.

It's just not a thing, but to the person that has never heard of it, you know, it's, it's, It's not your standard kink. It's not, you know, everybody kind of, everybody looks at kinks. You know, this kind of the standard is, you know, bondage, handcuffs, whatever, pick a kink. Most people have kind of heard of, heard of it. Not everybody has heard of the adult baby. So it does have kind of a shock value. It does have kind of a shock factor to it.

And that's the first place that people go. And it shouldn't be the first place, but it is. And it's up to us to dispel that thought. Because really, there's nothing there's nothing to it. Right. So that's why I thought it was important to talk about for sure, because other people are going to be thinking that you want to make sure that people know that this has nothing to do with that.

But it is a kink. It is a turn on for you to be the baby in the situation. It's more about you Babacizing yourself, right? I don't know what the correct word is. But it's more about you being a baby or you being sexually stimulated while being a baby.

Is that what it is? That's correct. Yeah, it's just, it's a kink. I've had the, I've had the kink, if you will, for so long. Yeah. You know, it plays into just kind of every day as well.

I can enjoy it without it being sexual. You know, if I come home for lunch and eat lunch, I can wear a bib and it's not sexual, but it's just enjoyment. Oh, that's interesting. I just enjoy wearing a bib. And when I'm done eating, I take the bib off and I put it away and then I go back to work. Yeah. But then there's other times where my wife and I are playing and I pull a bib out and I put it on and it puts me into overdrive. sexually. And then when we get done playing, you know, just like many other fetishes or whatever,

they get taken off and put in the drawer and it's back to, it's back to normalcy. But over the years, baby, the ABDL community king fetish and stuff has really grown, and it has an online presence that has really taken off kind of in the last five to ten years. there are specialty diaper companies that sell adult diapers, adult-sized diapers that have nursery prints, nursery print characters, nursery themes, baby themes. There's several retailers that do a very good business selling adult-sized, you name it, diapers, pacifiers, bottles, onesies,

all the things. And it's something that has grown and the online presence has grown. And I think it's coming a little bit more out of the shadows. Now, can you direct people? Because listen, a lot of times people are finding my show because they're Googling for specific things. Now, can you, if someone has found this episode because they're into this and they want to know more, Maybe they haven't found that whole online community. Do you have any advice for them as where to go?

Well, there's, so for myself, obviously there's a presence on FetLife. Mm-hmm. Okay. But more recently, but more recently there's a huge presence on Reddit. And if you just search, you know, the ABDL, slant, R-SL, or just search, you know, ABDL or adult baby. There's a huge, there's a huge presence on there. So there's an age play and diaper fetish Reddit page, and there's 51, almost 52,000 people

that are following this page. Right. So I would say it's, I would say it's a pretty decent-sized community. And there's everybody from young, young to old boys and girls, I would say, I would say as a whole there's more males into it than there are females, but I think that is changing. And more and more you see more females in the community. And on Instagram, if you type in, if you search ABDL or Adult Baby or Diaper Lover or anything like that,

there's a number of profiles that you can find on there. just a regular Google search. You can Google adult diapers, adult baby diapers, whatever you want, and that'll return many links to, like I said, the retailers that sell the diapers and sell all the things, the pajamas with, you know, baby designs and prints, nursery prints, to onesies, bibs,

and everything. Yeah, I know you, when you found my podcast, you had emailed me and like, I don't see anyone talking about this on your show. And I was like, the only thing I did have was I did have a guy on recently, Dylan, and he was into diapers. It was such a fascinating episode to me

because he was really able to explain, you know, when that seed was planted in him and why he was into diapers because of what was going on at the time. You know, and you have to go listen to that episode because it's really fascinating. So those early memory things are always so interesting.

Because you were even like, oh, I do get into other things besides bibs, but for some reason, bibs are the main thing. But really your main memories of when you were a child, the only ones you really spelled out were all bib related. Yes, and I think that's just a function because that's the first thing I found. I think that if had had the memory as a child been centered around a diaper or something, you know, that would have been, that would have been the focal point. I remember when I was in college, I specifically remember the time I was shopping at Walmart

and it was, you know, for my weekly grocery run or whatever. And I was in the, I was in the cosmetics, not the cosmetics, like the health and beauty aisle getting some deodorant or whatever. And I rounded the corner and I kind of bumped into this little display and it was a display. of Depends diapers, sample packs. And they were just little two packs or, you know, little squares with two diapers in it. And I looked and I looked and I didn't want to be the young college kid that was seen by, you know, the public looking at a package of Depends diapers.

So I took a stroll around the aisle and came back and finally, you know, worked up enough courage to put the sample package of Depends diapers. So I took a stroll around the aisle and came back. And finally, you know, worked up enough courage to put the sample package of pins in my cart and made sure to put it underneath all the things, you know, in case I ran into somebody I knew they didn't see that I had a package of depends samples in my cart. And I bought those. And again, the diaper was kind of the next thing in line from the bib. I wear diapers a couple times a week now.

again, the bib was kind of the first thing that I found, but diapers kind of have come in as a close second. And I enjoy wearing diapers. I can wear a diaper and not get sexually aroused. It's just something that I do. Or I can be in a diaper and I can look at diaper content on the internet and it goes into the sexual category. Yeah, it's fascinating.

And then for my wife, you know, if a few times a year, she agrees to wear a diaper, to let me put a diaper on her. That's high speed, you know, overdrive sends me into a sexual attraction like you wouldn't believe. Right. So it's a lot about me being in the fetish, but it's also about, you know, seeing her in it as well. And most of the time people with the fetish have both. would assume they not only like to wear but also have their partner? I think so.

Yeah, I think so. Right. It's funny. I'm thinking, like, I watch this reality TV show, and there was once one of the girls on it was, she was like drinking a baby bottle in her bed. She's like, you know, a grown-ass adult. And it was just funny on the thing, but now I'm thinking, like, maybe she has that. You know, who knows?

Like, why was she? drinking a baby bottle. It could be that thing. Correct? Like, do you have a, does a baby bottle come into play in this fetish as well? I do have baby bottles and sippy cups. They don't really, they, you know, it's not kind of a principal attraction, but I have them and I've used them, you know, kind of when I'm in role, and I do enjoy them. It's not something that is at the center. I do have, several pacifiers that when I'm in in the baby space, in the baby head space, I do enjoy the pacifier probably much more than I would bottle.

Oh, interesting. Oftentimes, sometimes I'll just like, I'll take a pacifier with me if I'm on a road trip and I'll just put the pacifier in while I'm driving down the highway and it's just something that I enjoy. It's not something that at that moment is sexual. or anything in nature to me again. It's just something that I enjoy and that I do. Is it a comfort?

Is it a security? Is it a, you know, what kind of feeling do you, quote, unquote, enjoy about it? Can you put it into words, like, or one word of what that is besides enjoyment? Like, is it because it makes you feel calm? Does it make you feel protected? It's hard to, it's hard to say. you know, using comfort or security. It's just something that brings me, it brings me peace.

It brings me calmness. It brings me enjoyment. Yeah. So it's something that I just, it just, I just enjoy. I don't know. It's hard to describe. I just, I just enjoy it as the thing. And then it's also, you know, when the time is right and I'm, you know, in the mood for, for it to be the object of the effect.

fantasy, then it's that as well. Right. Now, do you ever act out and do this kind of stuff like behind your wife's back because she's not that into it? Or have you been completely monogamous and you keep it all with her? I mean, does she know that you're on Fet Life? And what do you do on there? Is it just talking to people online?

Are you meeting people? I don't really actively mingle and go out and find people and talk. to other people. I'm more passive in my online presence. I just kind of go and see what other people are doing, see what other people are saying, et cetera. So I'm not really active in that sense. I wouldn't say that I do it behind her back because there's nothing, she knows that I like wearing bibs. She knows that I like wearing diapers. She knows that I wear onesies. And she also knows that I'm a guy and that I masturbate and my sex drive is about a hundred times more than hers.

Right. And so it's not something, it's not something that I feel that I'm hiding from her anymore initially before, before she found it. It certainly was something that I hid from her. And early on in the days of, you know, immediately, and I guess time is kind of relative here, you know, the few years after it was discovered, it was pretty, probably kind of behind her back. I have seen a pro-mommie,

and she doesn't know that I've seen the pro-mommie, but I have a mommy that I've seen on multiple occasions and done sessions with. So I would say she doesn't know about that. Tell me a little bit about that. There's pro-mommies out there? There are. They're just like any other, you know.

Fatish, like a dog. Right? Exactly. Yeah. So there's a very, obviously, it's kind of a small and specialized segment, but there are ones out there that specialize in adult babies. And I found one particular one that's kind of her specialty and the sessions, and, you know, they involve diaper, diaper changing. You know, she has a specialized adult-sized crib, adult-sized changing table, adult-sized high. adult-sized high chair.

And the sessions are just all based around you being a baby and she being the mother and, you know, how you want to, how you want the theme of the session to be, whether you want to be a bratty baby and get punished or, you know, if you want it to be soft and cuddly and lullaby and nurturing, you know, that's kind of up to you and how the session plays out. but, you know, there's lots of different ways that it can go. For me personally, one of my favorite things, obviously, you know, kind of tied to the bib, which was, again, the very first item of attraction. She has an adult-sized high chair. Right. And so for me, the ultimate is, you know, being put in the high chair, you know, have a bib tied around my neck and being fed like a baby.

And it's just a, it's just some. thing that is just the ultimate, for me, it's the ultimate experience. Right. For me, you know, during the sessions, I'm not so much of the caring and nurturing. I'm more of the, hey, mommy's going to be strict and I'm going to get punished and keep Mommy from feeding me the icky baby food or whatever. So mommy has to put my hands in handcuffs and keep me away. So that's kind of more where I like the session to steer and less of the

nurturing, tuddling time. Well, it does go back. I mean, you know, I hate to stick on those memories, but you did bring them up. I mean, it does go back to that early memory. That is what you're recreating. That was why you got put back in that bib. It kind of was a punishment. 100%.

So it would maybe make sense, you know, and I wonder, I talk about this a lot with my hosers, the panty hose guys, that, you know, is it the seed like, Was the seed always there? Like, are you born with that? And then these situations come up and then that seed is watered and it grows. And then, you know, and then you keep feeding it water as you move on. The more you think about it, the more you focus on it, the more you jerk off to it. You know, and then it becomes this full-fledged thing.

You know, I wonder, I'm not a therapist. I don't know the answers to those questions. Do you know, since you, this is your kink and your fetish? and you know you you're really in touch with that online community do you know what they say is it something do they believe it's something that you're born with and then these things happen and that's why you remember those memories because that it triggered it I don't know you know friendship relationships with with really anybody in the community again I'm just kind of a I kind of passively lurk and stuff but from what I've seen I would say it's kind of It's kind of 50-50. Yeah. There's the people like myself that, that for some reason, they've just always had an attraction to it. Maybe they can explain it.

Maybe they can't. It doesn't matter. Yeah. But then there's also some people that say, hey, I had a boyfriend. I had a girlfriend, you know, whatever it is, five, seven years ago that he or she was into it. And they introduced me to it. We've since broken up. But now I'm fully into it.

And I not only like playing the baby role, but I like playing the mommy, the daddy role. And it's just something that's taken hold. I don't know. Maybe 50-50. There's probably a breakdown, a statistic out there somewhere, 50, 50, 60, 40. I don't know exactly. But I would say that a good, that there's a good percentage of people that are like me that had this and, you know, just through time and getting further down rabbit holes on the internet

have discovered that they're not the only ones and that, you know, as I said, as kind of the community grows and comes into its own, you know, there's things and shops on the internet that they find and they find other people that are into it and it just kind of takes on a life of its own and it takes hold and it takes roots and the next thing you know, you know, there they are. Right. And maybe if they were never turned on to it by that partner so many years ago, they would have never realized. But I think there is one common theme that I've seen over and over and over again, and that a lot of people think they're literally the only person on the planet that has this feeling. And then they discover that they're not via the internet and their iPhone. And then it's just

after that moment, it's kind of off to the races. Right, right. You know, they just discover it, and they're like, yeah, this is me, and I'm not the only one, so I'm not as weird as I thought I was five minutes ago, and they're ordering a case of adult-sized nursery print diapers. Yeah, and I mean, you live... And they're walking around in a onesie. Right, you lived as both people, you lived as the person who,

had didn't know that there was this community out there and you thought you were the only one and now you're not. I mean, I think that it must be very, you know, it lifts a lot of the shame that goes with it probably before you know that there's other people. And I think that that's really important. Because it's not like if you didn't, even if you didn't know that all these other people like this, that it would have just gone away. It, but it would have been, there would have been a burden attached to it. And it would have, you know, so I think it's super helpful to know that there's other people. and probably make it more enjoyable because like I said there's no shame attached to it you can release all that kind of stuff that doesn't really need to be there and just

enjoy it that's your thing when I discovered it you know on the internet in 1998 I think I would spend hours and hours and hours on the internet just looking and going down rabbit holes and finding, you know, that, hey, this guy is just like me. He likes to wear a bed. Or, hey, this person over here, you know, was really into diapers. And it was just something that it was like a whole world had opened up. And it was comforting to know that, hey, these feelings that I've been wrestling with in my head, I don't, normal is probably too strong of a word for it.

But, you know, I'm not, I'm not, you know, the only crazy that is like this. Right. So that was comforting. Yeah, I think that that's really important. That's why when you email me, I'm like, oh, I'll definitely have that on. And that's why I started my Fetish Fridays, because I do get people emailing me with all these specific kinks. I have a whole bunch of them already taped, you know, and it's not like, because they're so niche, you know, it's not like I could, it's not, they're not as downloaded, right, as my other ones. but I do think it's important to put them out there because I do think people will find them

who need to. Besides other people like me who are just curious and want to know, you know, I do want to know whether you're born with it or not. Like that kind of information to me is interesting because it's not something that I'm into as a kink, but it's interesting to me like the psychology behind it, you know, and so I think people will be interested in that aspect of it like I am. But there's going to be people that are going to find an episode like this and they're going to feel like, okay.

Okay, I'm not alone. I get emails from listeners all the time that say that. So I think it's really important that you came on. I think it's great. I think the right people will find this episode. And then like I said, there'll be a lot of curious people like me that will be listening just to learn about it. Because, you know, I have been doing my show for over seven years and I have never had this specific fetish on. So thanks so much for calling in and talking about it and sharing your story.

Is there anything like, do you ever read it that you want? to give a shout out to or anything like that or no? I don't think so. Okay. There's so many things out there that, you know, with just a little bit of internet searching, you can find, yeah. Yeah. So, and if you want to comment, make sure, though, Trevor, that's what we call it, right?

Make sure to go to YouTube and look over there because that's where people will be commenting. Thank you so much for calling in. It's really interesting. And I never had somebody from this community on it. and it's great to have it because I think it's important. Yeah. And just one last thing. Yeah.

I mentioned that I've gone to see the mommy, you know, on multiple occasions. I texted her. We kind of keep in contact just as a cordial basis and told her that I was, you know, considering doing this. And she said, oh, I think that's great. And she said, you know, tell the host if she ever wants to, you know, get my perspective or my point of view on it. You know, she'd be more than happy to go on as well. Oh, that would be interesting. Center my information. I would love to have her come on and talk about it for sure. Okay. I will. All right. Awesome. Thanks, Trevor. Thanks so much for calling it and sharing your story and emailing me in the

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