Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 467 - Kevin Met his Wife at a Gangbang and Now They're Having Issues

Episode Date: March 28, 2022

Kevin met his wife at a gangbang and now they're having issues and he called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear the details including how he got out of jail and wound up at the gangbang and how it was “love at first sight,” how he quickly stated to think she was cheating and how he caught her, the time he caught her cheating with their wedding photographer and how he reacted, how he gets off on her being with being with other guys but she cant be honest about it, how he started cheating on her with guys while working, how he videotapes himself and exactly what goes down between him and the guys, how he steals her panties and bra and dresses up like a female when he hooks up with guys, how’s first wife got him into hooking up with transgender females and the threesomes they had, how him and his wife live stream their sessions together and where he posts those videos as well as the dedication videos of him and the guys, how their marriage is struggling and why he wants to revive it and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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And I air them on my Patreon. So if you want to hear those confessions as well as see pictures of my guests, most of my guests send in pictures, especially the females. You could join my Patreon, patreon.com slash strictly not on this podcast. Now, speaking of my confessions, today I have on Kevin. Now, Kevin called up and left me a bunch of confessions. It was like one confession told in three different. calls because each one was four minutes long.

And it wound up to be like, oh my God, like a really long-winded story and long-winded confession that I'm like, I could get a whole episode out of this guy. And it's super interesting. When I aired his confession on my Patreon, people were like, oh, we need to hear more. Kevin has been in and out of prison on his last time when he got out. He went to a gangbang, met a girl. She wound up being the girl of his dreams. And he wound up hooking up with her and getting into a relationship with her.

even though like right from the get-go she started like cheating on him even though he's a cuckled and wants to see her with other guys she still was doing that behind his back and he was always catching her but he still wound up even after all of that proposing to her and they got married married and then after they got married like you know even though he's dying for her to do stuff with other people she keeps that under wraps their eventual their sexual relationship eventually like went stale it's not so great right now And it turns out that now he's cheating on her. And he's truck driver. He's out and about. And he's cheating on her with men. He has a thing. He likes to be degraded. His girl also likes to be degraded.

They did a lot of live streaming things. I'm telling you like the whole episode, but it's really more interesting to hear him tell it. He lives, he takes videos of himself with the guys. So he's lying to her. She's mostly lying to him. And it's a big, crazy story.

He's a little over the place. I tried to reel it in. it's kind of hard. I did at some point think maybe he's lying to me. I don't know because the story is all over the place. I don't know what you're going to think, but I feel like people are going to think things about this episode, right? People are going to want to talk about it. If you do want to comment on the episode and get into a conversation on it, go to YouTube. My YouTube channel is a place which I love because people get into conversations about the episode. Just go to YouTube, put in Strictly anonymous podcasts. You'll find my channel. You could comment there. At the end,

he does give out, you know, a place, a website, his username on there because he posts videos of himself with guys. He wanted to send me videos of him with his wife because, oh, she did have this like affair with the wedding photographer and they all had a threesome together and he's like, I have video of it. You want to see it? And I'm like, no thanks. I'm not interested in seeing any of that kind of stuff. But I know maybe you guys are. So he has that ready and willing and he's ready, willing and he's ready, willing and able to send it to you. So he gives a shout out with his email at the end. You're going to have to listen to the end to hear that.

He does, like I said, give his email out at the end for anyone if they want to email him. He will provide proof, quote unquote, of like what he's doing. Because him and his girl, like I said, they've live streamed a lot of things and he has videotapes of a lot of stuff. So make sure to comment on YouTube if you want. Make sure to email him if you want more information on his story and video. proof to go with it. But anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Kevin. Hi, Kevin. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm doing great. How about yourself? I'm good. So listen, Kevin, I think I found you as you were calling into my confessions

hotline and you left me some couple of confessions that I was like, holy shit. This guy, this is not just one confession. I need the whole story because I had a million questions after I heard. Do you know what I mean? Not a problem. Yeah. Let's start off, okay, with you getting out of prison, okay, and then meeting your girl. I need that story because that's where it starts and then take it from there. But start there, you know what I mean?

And then tell the rest of the story. I know some things, but you're going to have to refresh my memory and tell me the long-winded story because I think the whole thing is pretty fascinating. Okay, so I got in some trouble and I went to prison. Yeah. I decided to move out of town when I paroled. So I moved up to Central California, a place that I've never been before, to start over. I got a little job and I was working and it probably been about six or eight months now.

I hadn't met anybody. You haven't, you know, and basically I was lonely. So I was talking to one of the guys at work, you know, and he's like, well, he had a friend. She does like little gang-dang session, you know, every once in a while. And I was like, well, he's like, if you'd be interested, you know, I mean, that's always a way to get, you know, to have sex, you know. So I was like, okay, well, that kind of interests me a little bit. You know, I've always been kind of fond of girls that are like that, you know. We went, he called me up.

It was like a Friday night. He's like, well, tonight's going on if you want to come with me. So I think the party started like 10 or 11. Well, we took off together and we'd get a flat tire, so we were a little bit late by the time we got there. When we got there, the door was open. We just walked in. And it was like a little apartment complex. In the back room, you could just hear some.

girl just getting it, I guess, you know. So we walked back there to see what was going on. And there was like a little tripod going on with the camera and like a little, I guess she was doing a live stream type thing. Oh, interesting. Okay. So we get back there, you know, and there's three guys with her. And she's just getting it.

And I still felt a little uncomfortable. So, I mean, I pulled my pants down. I was just kind of like watching, you know, my buddy joined in instantly because I guess he knows her. She ends up taking a little break after a little while. And we started talking. And that's when I got involved. We started up again, and it was great.

You know, she was a beautiful girl. We had a great time. But everybody, so you just joined the gangbing, right? I mean, you had sex with her, everybody. Did your friend have sex with her? I mean, everybody was a gang gang, right? Uh-huh. Yes, yes.

So she was divorced. She's divorced. She has two children. And I guess after her divorce, she decided to, it was a super vanilla relationship, she said, and she just wanted to find herself or whatever. You know, she got married at, like 18 years old, you know. And so now that she's divorced, she was able to, go and just have fun, I guess.

So, and she said she enjoyed it, you know. So, like, me, we're all gang banged here that night. There was one, two, three. There was five of us total. Yeah. Towards the end of the night, you know, people started leaving, you know, here and there. Well, my buddy's like, well, I'm going to take a shower real quick. You can hop in the shower after me.

So it was just her and me and him. So he gets in the shower and her and I were just sitting there talking. And I was just infatuated with her, I guess. It was probably, probably first time I've had sex in quite a few years, you know, because I was locked up, you know, that probably had something to do with it, You know, not to mention, you know, it was hot. Yeah. So she, we started talking, I was like, well, hey, check it out.

You know, like, I just want you to know, you know, I respect what you do. But I also want to let you know that I find you hot. You know, like, I would like to see you, you know, maybe besides something like this. And she kind of laughed at me, you know, I guess you probably get stuff like that all the time or something. I don't know. But before my buddy got out of the shower, she agreed, you know, okay, that'd be fine. So my buddy gets out of the shower and he tells me, oh, go ahead. I told him, Mom, I'm going to stay here for a while, you know, you go ahead and take off.

She said she'll give me right home. So when he walked out the door, he tells me, hey, don't, whatever you do, you know, can't change your hoe into a housewife is when he told me. That was a little saying, you know. And he laughed at me, you know, but whatever. So he takes off and her and me, we hung out for a little while. We had sex a couple more times that day throughout the day, you know. And next thing I know, I was sprung, I guess. I don't know how she would call it.

Like you were totally into her. I was totally into her. She was into me, I guess, you know. I mean, I told her right from the beginning, I don't care what you do, like this whole gangbang thing, you know, like I think it's, hot. I'm not trying to stop you from doing it, you know, even if we started seeing each other, you know, like I find it super sexy. Yeah. So we started, our relationship progressed a little bit, you know, I ended up moving in about, I don't know, maybe a month later to her house with her and her her two daughters. And then maybe a couple weeks after that, she had another gang dang

session, you know, and I was there for the whole thing. I didn't judge her. We didn't talk about it afterwards. I wasn't trying to put no pressure on her or make her feel uncomfortable. But I guess somehow it did. And so that was pretty much the last gangbang session that I was involved in. She never said nothing to me about it. You know, she just said she stopped them. I would come home from work late at night

and I would find remnants of things that have happened. So I approached her with it, you know, and basically she said that she was she was going to continue doing stuff like that, but she didn't want me involved. And then that's how it went for a while. So I caught her cheating on me a few times after that.

And basically I consider it cheating because she was keeping it a secret and not telling me. I would ask her, you know, hey, are you looking up with other guys? You know, like, I don't care. I just want to know. You know, and she's like, no, no, no, I'm not. I'm not. Well, I would come home and I find an empty condom wrapper under the bed or something like that, knowing that we don't use condoms.

So I'd approach her with it. We get in fights and arguments. So about a year into the relationship, I proposed to her at Thanksgiving in front of my family's house. She said yes But just a quick question Just so that I could get all this story Because you're going like super fast And there's like a lot going on here

You know Nervous a little bit yeah Yeah and like seven months You know you meet this girl to gang bang You fall in love with her Like you're dating her now You have an open relationship She could do this kind of stuff

But then she just like starts doing it And not really telling you about it You catch her a million times You're having fights with her all the time but then you decide to a year later proposed to her. Is that the whole story? Okay, so I would catch on the little things here and there, and we'd argue about it.

And then one day she tells me she just wants it to be just her and I. She wants to stop all that. So we decided to go on monogamous relationship. Yeah. So it's been a few months, you know, and I love her. You know, she loves me. Well, at least she loves me. We're still married.

So she loves me. And I'm thinking it's a monogamous relationship. Oh, let me go back. So from the beginning, she told me she doesn't want me cheating on her. She's, you know, I told me that was fine. I don't mind. You know, I just don't want to be cheated on either. You know, like if you do it in front of me or whatever, that's fine.

But she didn't want any girls involved in any sort of way. I said, okay, that's fine. And I'm not really worried about that. You know, I've always been into two guys and one girl or, you know, if that was ever to happen. But I'm satisfied with my one little thing I have. Yeah. So we're doing this monogamous thing, and I think everything's going great. I proposed to her.

She says yes. We're still having wild sex, though, just her and me. Yeah. Some things, I think of everything is good. We haven't set a date, you know,

for the wedding, but we've talked about it, you know, and then all of a sudden, one day, I come home and I'm outside doing something, and I can hear her talking through, and she's in the kitchen,

I guess, I hear her talking to the screen, and she's talking to somebody saying, no, she hasn't told me about what happened last weekend with this other guy and blah, blah, blah, blah.

And so I just kind of pretend like I don't hear nothing. and I wait for her to tell me. She doesn't say anything to me a couple days go by and I ask her about it. And she says no. Well, I'm kind of butt hurt because I feel like, you know, she's cheating again. Too often.

Yeah, again. Yeah. So I tell her, I'm done. You know, if you don't tell me the truth, I'm gone, I'm out of here. And she's like, this is the truth. You're crazy. She's trying to tell me I'm imagining things. And I tell her, look, I heard you through the kitchen window, you know.

And I can see her face, you know, expression change. I don't know who you're talking to it. But you said, could. During that weekend, she told me she was going to her cousin's house. Her cousin was going to move out of state, and she was going to go stay over there with a girl's night, have a little girl's night, and they were going to drink, you know, get drunk and say goodbye. And we'll kind of find out it was an ex-boyfriend.

She went and saw it made it to it when I told her I was going to leave. So she called my bluff. I started to walk away, and then she told me the truth. I walked back up, I told her, well, then marry me. If you want me to stay and marry me, she's like, well, I already said I would. I'm like, well, I'm talking like next week or the week after. So we end up getting married, like two weeks later. We go to Vegas.

We get married. So while we're in Vegas, I decided to, we stay at the Trump Hotel. I hire a photographer to come by after our ceremony to take some sexy pictures of her. None of our family came down. It was just hurting me. We went to, we did our little ceremony. We went back to the room. We had some champagne.

And within a half hour, we were getting a phone call that the photographer was there. So we let him in. He started taking pictures of her, you know. It was going good. and he was like a weirdo type. He looked like a tweaker kind of guy, so I really had no worries about him, you know, because it wasn't her type anyways.

And about an hour, maybe 45 minutes, an hour into the session, she tells me, babe, can you go downstairs and get me a pack of cigarettes? I need a break for a minute. So I tell her, no problem. So I get ready to take off, and I start walking down to the elevator, and I realized halfway in the elevator

that the Trump Hotel is a non-smoking, you know, non-casino-type hotel. So I'm like, wait a second. said, where am I supposed to get cigarettes at, you know? So I'm thinking myself, I could either do one or two things, either run back upstairs and act like, you know, a husband that doesn't trust her, you know, from right from the beginning, or I could go get the car and just go as fast as I can and go buy a pack of cigarettes wherever and bring it back to her. So that's what I decided to do. Because it's Vegas, it didn't go as quick as I expected to. I was gone for maybe almost 45 minutes

to an hour, I would say. When I got back to the room, I ran big, Basically, I ran up to the room as quick as I could, caught my breath before I walked in. And when I opened the door, they were sitting at the table, like, nothing was going on. And so I brought her a cigarette. And I started noticing little things, like, he had no shoes on. His zipper was down. But his shirt was, like, tucked in, but it was, like, sticking out a little bit to the zipper hole. Like, that's weird, you know?

And I started looking, his hair is not, he had, like, super slick back hair. It was a little messy, you know. And, of course, she was sitting there still naked. She had her veil on. but that was it but they were just sitting there talking so I'm thinking myself like what happened here you know but they're playing it off like nothing they continue the session taking a couple more pictures afterwards he sends us the pictures and then next thing I know she tells me well what do you think do you think I should thank him for services

yeah I mean like a tip wise I'm thinking she's like well kind of and I'm like I don't understand you know and she's like well basically so let me rewind so before that happened you know I kind of jammed her up hey did anything happen before I left she's like no nothing you're crazy you know why would you think something like that we just got married so I'm like okay you know maybe I'm just tripping so next thing I know she's wanting to basically ask permission if it's alright if she messes around with this guy you know like for a thank you so I'm thinking okay I guess you know well at this point we haven't had sex yet like for from our marriage you know we and she wants to mess around this guy so it goes on we all three mess around a little bit

he ends up fucking her before I do. Wait, right. Now, you go from like being... I know, I know. No, no, no. Okay, listen. I'm like Judge Judy, I told you. I'm going to back you into a fucking corner.

If you're lying, I'm going to catch you. But let me just ask you this, okay? Because you go from, you know, you come back up thinking maybe she's cheating. And I have a feeling that it's going to go to a place where you catch it to the point where now you're all having sex with her? Well, so I didn't have sex with her. So she said she wants to mess around this. guy, you know, to think I'm, do I think it would be hot? Do I, what I want her to do it?

And at that point, I'm like, I'm really, I guess, you know, it's okay. You know, when I met her, she was getting gang bang, you know, so I figured basically when I first got together with her, I was hoping that's how the relationship would go. So if she wants to mess around another guy in front of me on our wedding night, I'm thinking, well, maybe things will go back to normal or back to our, you know, exciting sex life again. He's a stranger. We've never met him before. So, you know, go ahead, you know, if you want to.

So she starts messing with him. She never has sex with me until after he leaves. She just gives me a blowjob while he was taking him from behind. But, yeah, she invited him over. And next day I know, I'm realizing that she's having sex with him before she has sex with me. But you just said she had sex with him in front of you. I mean, you knew that she did. Yeah.

Well, yeah. But it doesn't click until during what's going on, like what's really going on, you know. What do you mean it doesn't click? She's fucking him in front of you. What do you mean it didn't click? It doesn't click that. I didn't realize or even think about her that she's having sex with another man before we even confiscate or what's the word?

Consumate. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I guess I can't really consider a blowjob, you know, consummating our relationship. Yeah. So, but it's not that big of a deal at that time, you know. So things are, things happen. It's all done. He's packing up and he's leaving.

He's got quite a bit of equipment. And now I'm starting to think, I'm sure something happened before I fucking got there. you know i'm really i'm sure of it so i told him hey do you want some help carrying this stuff down to the elevator he's like yeah if you don't mind so we carry the stuff down we're hopping in an elevator and we're going down to the basement of the hotel where he's parked and i asked him hey uh did anything happen when i left he's like no why would you why would you ask me that you know i'm a professional i said well basically because she told me different and i lied to him you know he's like what he means he told you how you're calling his bluff right okay uh-huh yeah i figured that'd be the only

way, either I would look like an idiot and nothing ever happened or I would get the answer I was looking for. Yeah. So basically, I tell him, wait, look, when you were doing whatever, putting your stuff away, I jammed up because I noticed your zipper was down, your shoes were off. Like, there were some things that were out of place, you know, that made me think. And she told me, well, yeah, you know, is that that big of a deal? You know, we just had sex with them right now.

And so he bought my story. And I guess that he recorded it, most of it. I guess he tells me as soon as we, as soon as I walked out the door, and the door was shut she walked over and locked it and basically just went to town on him and like forced not really force herself on but that she should she should seduced him yeah so after that happened you know he was like she told him that she wanted him to record it you know it sent her a copy so he recorded it I told him, well, I want to see the recording, you know. He had his copy, I guess, on the, still on the memory drive or whatever. So he showed me, and it was pretty crazy. She was talking about, you know, she gets off on cheating on me and hide it behind my back

and how she's been doing it forever since we got together and I have no clue. And that's just her thing. And that's why she wanted to fuck him so bad. Is that your thing? Is that your thing, too? Like, I mean, does some part of that, turn you on as well? No. I'd, so because I've been in prison, so I've been to prison four different times in my life. Okay. Okay. And I've been married four different times now. Oh, wow. Okay. And I realize,

four for four, every prison stint gets you a new wife. Basically, yes. That's what I realized. When, when you're gone, you're going to be gone for a couple years, you know, if you try to keep your foot on the back of their neck to stay and to do all this and force them, they're going to leave. Either that, or you can you can just say, hey, whatever happens, whatever your needs are, go ahead and, you know, handle your business, you know, as long as when I come home that, you know, you'll be, you just know that you're coming home to me. Yeah. It's a lot easier.

If nothing else, you get to keep them as a friend. And even a friend in prison, you know, is a lot better than not having any friends, you know, when you're in prison. At least you have somebody to write letters to or still call and talk to somebody, you know, doing time by yourself, it's a lonely thing. Yeah. And to answer your question, no. I, so I never always told her

and everyone else I can get over anything as long as you don't lie to me about it. Tell me the truth. I don't care if you stole money from me. If you, if you fuck my best friend, if you want to kill them. Just tell me the truth. You know, and we can work whatever it is out. You know, I don't care.

Yeah. As far as being lied to, though, you know, that's what I feel like they think I'm an idiot, you know? How many wives have lied this bad to you? Just this one or all of them? Two of them. Okay. Because it just seems like, because listen, I've, it just seems like this is like the one thing you hate the most, yet this woman is doing it to you from the get go, you know, a lot. And you never leave. So I'm wondering if it's like a, you know, a sick pattern that you have that you can't get away from. And we all have stuff like that, you know, I mean, I have dysfunctional patterns that even though, you know, that I would love to stop and I could say I hate it. But it's always what fucking attracts me, you know, that I'm like, the one thing you hate is a woman that lies to you. Do whatever.

the fuck you want, but just don't lie to me. And all this girl has done is lied to you. And you still proposed to her right after, you know, always just trying to make it work. So I was just wondering if this is like, you know. I really think that I am, that I believe in true love. And I, when I meet somebody that I like, I wear it on my sleeve. And I go all in. I've always thought maybe I would have a, uh, the little house

with the white picket fans, you know, the wife and kids. And so like, if I meet somebody that's wanting to get married, I'm thinking that, you know, our marriage, you know, we've talked about it obviously before, you know, I'll propose before we get married. And their interest align with mine, you know, close enough, you know, so I think, you know, that's exactly what they want, you know. And like I said, I don't mind even if my wife is doing her thing with whoever or whatever, you know, in front of me or behind my back, but just tell me about it, you know. Just tell me about it.

Just don't keep it a secret. Let me watch. Let me see video. Let me see pictures. you know, let me or tell me about it afterwards, but don't lie to me about it, just keep it a secret because, you know, that makes me, like, I feel stupid. I feel stupid in front of those people, especially if I know them or her friends, because I'm sure some of her friends know about it or something, you know. And that's the only thing I hate to feel is stupid.

Yeah, no, I'm just saying, like, she did make you feel that way a million times, but you still wound up proposing to her and she's still doing it to you, but is there some aspect of that that also turns you on? Because, listen, you know, you met her, she was like involved in a gang bang you saw that you were like totally down for to do that do that do you like to see your wife with other men or know about it yeah yeah yeah okay so you definitely have that in you yet too right you just want her to be straight up yeah right and so like i'm a truck driver and i'm gone you know maybe i don't know i'm home probably anywhere from seven to ten days a month so knowing the type of girl that she is i told it right from beginning you know go ahead and do your thing just tell me about it you know

If, because every, I mean, it's hard. We've only been married right now, 10 and a half, 10 and a half, 11 and a half months, about 10 and a half months right now, we've been married. So, but before we married, I was still a truck driver. And I told, look, I understand, you know, I'm gone and you have needs and blah, blah, blah, go ahead and handle them, you know, just tell me about them, you know. And she's like, okay, but I would ask her about him, hey, have you, no, no, no, no, no, no. And she would ask me, what about you?

Are you cheating? No. She's like, you know if you cheat on me? It's a deal breaker. I'm gone. Like, I know. You know, I don't want to cheat on her, you know. I think it's, I have no problem staying with my wife, even though she's out there doing

whatever she's doing as long as I know about it, you know, even with the underlying rule that I'm not allowed to, you know. A lot of the guys that I talk to that are like you where they do really enjoy watching their wife with another man, they don't necessarily, most of the time, a lot of them don't have that desire themselves. to be with other women, like what really turns them on besides, you know, just having sex with their own wife is to watch their wife with someone else, but not necessarily do they need or feel the need for that variety with women. What they get from their wife being with another guy is what is the real turn on for them. Right. So I never jammed her up about what the video I saw. I just played it off like nothing happened. But then it got me thinking like, why is she cheating? Like this is,

so I don't consider myself by. I don't consider myself gay. or nothing like that. I have experimented, and I decided, you know what? She's out there doing her thing all the time. Like, what is so good about it? You don't mean, why is she cheating on me? Like, but to get dick, you know, basically. And so being a truck driver, one day when I took off, you know, I stopped at a

red stop and I posted a little ad on double list and basically a guy came over. Wait, what did you say on the list? You go through your stories fast. I'm trying to get more details here. Slow down a little bit. What did you say in your ad on double list? What were you looking for? Married man, you know, looking for a,

I don't remember what it said. Something about married man. Yeah. Who had been married two months or something like that. Wants to know why wife cheats on him with cock so much. If you like to come show me what it's all about or something, you know, I'll be at this truck stop or whatever. So I got a reply back.

Some white guy showed up. He was a fat dude, just old, nasty looking guy. Oh, okay. And really like, I'm like, fuck you know like this is not really what I'm on I'm already not you know I'm already not turned on about it you know I'm feeling kind of weird anyways so long story short don't make a long story short please just tell the story so so he's here you know we talk for a minute you know and he's like what do you want to do you know I said well I'll tell you what I kind of got scared you know

at the last minute so I tell him just jack off on my face you know and so he starts jacking off and then like halfway into it I was kind of into it I told him to grab my phone and record if you didn't mind. So he recorded himself jacket off on my face. And basically when he was done, he said, all right, thank you. And he left. I watched a video. And the more and more I thought about it, you know, I got turned on. But for some reason, it wasn't all that, you know, I still wasn't attracted to guys or nothing. So maybe three or four days later, because like I said, I'm gone for anywhere from two weeks, you know, three weeks at a time. So about three or four days later, I hit another truck stop and I could stop thinking about it.

So I posted one more ad, basically saying the same thing. This time, a black guy replied back to me. And when he showed up, you know, to Camanoversa, when he showed up, he was completely different than this other guy. He didn't ask me what I wanted to do or what I was looking for. He basically took control of the situation. He was dominating. I was scared. You know what I mean?

I didn't know what to do. And basically, if I didn't know what to do, he would, he would force, not force me into it, but push me into it, you know? Yeah. And he was into calling me names, spitting on me, slapping me. He recorded most of it, you know, talking about only if your wife knew, you know, and just went on and on and on. And he was the first dude that actually fucked me. And black guys are usually a lot bigger than normal guys.

So it really, it hurt quite a bit. I couldn't take it, you know, but he basically held me down and made me take it, which I thought was hot. like I said, I never told him to stop, but you could tell that I was uncomfortable. And he still kept on. When he was done, he basically left. He told me to go ahead and give him a call if I was ever in town again. And when he left, I sat there thinking about it and I watched the video over and over and over. I was like, well, maybe this is what it's about?

I mean, this wasn't bad. It was kind of fun to feel like that out of control, someone else in charge. For the next, I don't know, two or three trips, I would get more and more involved in that situation. With that guy or just random guys? Well, I messed up with him two more times, but not in a row. So I get home after that session goes on. I don't mess around than anybody. Go home, spend my few days in home.

When I packed my stuff to leave, I packed a pair of her panties and a little braw top of hers, you know, and brought him with me, along with a toy, you know, a dildo. So on the road, I posted another ad. You know, I think I waited until I got to him. No, I met somebody else in between. So I met somebody in between. I took some pictures of myself, posted him up on the double list. Another guy showed up. I think he was a white guy again.

And basically it was garbage, you know. Halfway into the session, I told him just to go ahead jack off of my face because I wasn't into it. But I did dress up in the brawn panties, which made me feel weird, you know. And he was just all quiet about the whole thing. So I think I made my way to, because the guy's from Nebraska. I made my way from California, Nebraska. I called him. He said, yeah, he'll come meet me.

He came at me when he got to my truck. I told him it was unlocked. He came in and there I was in the panties. But this time I had also written on my body with like a permanent marker, you know, like whore, slut, just like body riding stuff on me. BBC owned, you know, just stuff like that. So he walked in and he just laughed at me and basically took charge again, did this thing. And after he was done, I told him, you know,

really you're the fucking only guy that makes me feel like this you know like I don't he's like you're not falling in love unknown I just like feeling out of control um so we hooked up a few more times during the next month or two um I think I hooked it with another guy or two but it just wasn't it wasn't the same unless they were blocked I like the whole being degraded and and it was fun and it was fun doing it behind my wife's back made me feel like this is what she's doing you know and really like it made me feel good to kind of get get back but without her knowing six months into our marriage i haven't messed around well about that time i stopped messing around with anybody and we decided to she decides to come clean and tell me some of the stuff that she's done

she still never admitted to about the guy at the uh on our wedding she told me that she messed around with two other guys behind my back and she wants things to change she said that basically because we're planning on moving to texas and buying a house you know soon hopefully and she's like By the time we move, you know, like I want us to have a new start over there. And I told, well, look, the way I feel is I don't want you to change. I just want to, you know, tell me the truth. I want you to do your thing. I want you to, you know, I want to go back to the gangbangs.

But if you're not willing to do that, you know, just tell me about it. You know, that's all I ask. Just keep up, be up front. Tell me about your, your experiences while I'm gone. Because we both know that you're doing stuff while I'm gone. You're not that, you know, you're not that good of hiding stuff. You know, I found condoms under the bed. I found condom rappers, you know.

you also say you found out she was on seeking arrangements or some show? So that was when we first got together, yes. So I checked her email one time when we first got together, and she told me that she wasn't doing anything, and I found her, I found emails back and forth with her and some Indian guy. They had met up for breakfast, and so I jammed her up with him, and come to find out it was seeking arrangements that she had posted herself on. So she supposedly put a stop to all that.

And she told me nothing happened. He came out in bed for breakfast. He gave her $350 for breakfast and then he left. Well, I don't know anybody that's going to drive two hours and pays me $350 for breakfast and then leave. Well, if they're going to fuck the shit out of her, maybe they will. Well, yeah, but she's saying that they didn't have sex. Oh, all right. Okay, sorry.

That's how far she'll go to denying things, you know? Like, I'll find these, you know, she will deny it even if I walked in and caught her, she would deny it saying that, well, there is no penetrating. we didn't have sex. Yeah, I get it. Yeah, I know that type. And I don't understand. Like, why the big change, you know? I fell in love with her.

I told I fell in love with you. What do you mean? There's no big change, okay. Sorry to inform you, Kevin. There's no big change. She's been the same the whole time. But just, yes, yes. Well, I met the big change from when we first met, you know,

when she was open about it to all of a sudden wanting to hide it off. Oh, right, right, right. Yeah. So that's why I met the big change. Yeah. Recently, like I said, she said, she wants to be, just her and I told her, well, look, I'm not wanting that. I still haven't told her about the other guys that I've been with

or about the guys I've messed with. I'm kind of enjoying having fun, you know? And I really wish she would have fun, I told her. She didn't know about me, but I told her I wanted her to continue having fun. I just wanted to tell me about it. And really, like, if she doesn't, then our relationship, I feel like is going down to choose. Her and I don't have sex anymore, hardly ever.

And if we do, I come home late at night, you know, when I do get home, as I'm holding her, you know, I fall asleep, you know, maybe, you know, stick it between her legs real quick and do my thing. And, you know, she lets me do that and then we're done. And five minutes later, ten minutes later, you know, we're both asleep. There's no love there. I told her that we should, hopefully we have a spark that comes back in the relationships. Because if it doesn't happen, you know, I don't see a relationship, you know, lasted too much longer.

And she agreed. And so I jammed her up, told her, look, I think you should start messing around with other guys again. but just tell me about it, you know? Like if you tell me about it, that would bring, you know, at least I can get off listening to you, you know, listening to you. I can, because I get off on seeing her, have pleasure. I get off on her dressing sexy and walking down the street or her me walking through a store, you know,

and noticing other guys staring at her. Or she's always been up front, well, I'm saying always. She's up front quite often about guys trying to pick up on her when she's at the store or whatever, you know, but she says nothing ever happens, you know, like I said. So, look, if you don't, I have a feeling that, things are going to be all bad for us. I mean, like, I'm ready to go as it is.

I'm not happy in his relationship. We haven't even been married a year yet. And she agreed. She did agree that this time around that she would think about messing with other guys, you know, making me a cuck old. That's basically what I want. I want to be a cuck. I don't want the vanilla relationship that we've been having.

I got together with you, you know, thinking that our relationship is going to be wild and crazy. It's not. Well, I mean, she did fuck your, the wedding photographer in front of, you. I mean, how come you haven't set up more of those kinds of situations where you're there and you're with a guy? I mean, you put yourself on double list when you're away. Why don't you put yourself as a couple on double list when you're home so you guys could have that kind of male, male, female threesome that you enjoy that you've had before with her? Well, because, okay,

so basically because I'm not home always on the weekends. The girls is dad. They go to their jazz house in the weekend so Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, you know, we have plenty of time play around. Her kids, her kids, her daughters, yeah. So we can't do anything when her kids are around, obviously, because that would be wrong. So when they're gone, if I happen to be home and it's a weekend, then maybe I could hook something like that up. But we've talked

about it, and supposedly in March, you know, we got married March 25th, so supposedly March, you know, sometime in March, in March or early April, we're supposed to go back to Vegas. And I told her I wanted to hook something up, you know, some kind of gang-bang. She said, she'd be willing to do that. But things just haven't, I mean, this is real life.

You know, I mean, I was off this weekend, but we ended up going to the snow with the kids. You know, we told me, it's hard to set up. But you would like for her to set it up when you were away and maybe just do those kinds of things and tell you about it. And then you could get into it or get off on it when you come home. But she just winds up doing it and not telling you. Like therein lies the problem. It's probably like she is banging the other guy. The problem is she's just not feeling, she's not letting you enjoy it.

She's keeping it to herself. No, and I told her, I want to enjoy it. I told her I'd go as far as, you know, becoming a full-fledged cuck, you know, cuck. Yeah. When I leave on the road, you know, I would let her put a cage on me and keep the keys with her. Basically, when I got home, she could tell me all about it.

She likes to, she used to like to have me not come. And so I'd get ready to orgasm and she'd make me stop. So we can go back to all that, you know, she'd go back to being, you know, I wanted to have her more controlling, you know, take charge of the relationship because obviously, you know, things away with me in control, you know, things haven't been working out, you know, for us. They've gone the opposite direction. And so she agreed to try all that, but it's yet to happen that that I know of that she's admitted to you. Does she know that you like to wear bra and panty? Sometimes have you ever brought that into your relationship with her? When we first got together, she kind of messed around like that, you know, with me at first. And then she told me that she thought it was disgusting. You know, because it was my idea to bring it up, you know, we first got together. And this is before I'd ever messed around with any guy or anything.

We messed around. She dressed me up. And she told me she wasn't into it. Let me ask you this. You did say that early on before you hooked up with these guys while you've been married behind your back, that you have fooled around a little bit with guys in the past. Like when did you hook up with guys? Was it when you were in prison, you know, or was it before you were in prison and just out and about?

You know, when did that happen? So it was before, well, never in prison. Before I would have got caught doing something like that in prison, it would have been all bad. Right. So let's go back to my first wife. My first wife, so when I got to her, when I met her, we only knew each other for 12 days before we got married. Oh, you're a hopeless romantic. Like a check?

So, well, that right there was a drug-induced marriage. Okay. Yeah, so when I met her, we started getting high. Next time I know we're getting married. And next I know, she's. she's having me dress up up, you know, and she she's going to turn me out

as far as ever messing with a guy ever. So her fantasy was having a transvestite have sex with her. So I hooked that up for her. And then next I know, she brought a different transvestite home and she was

messed around with him. And I walked in and caught her. She wasn't trying to keep it a secret. She kept doing her thing and told me to come over and join. We messed around a little bit. Basically, he sucked me off. I sucked him off. I wouldn't let him have put it inside of me. He tried.

She wanted to see that. I wasn't down for it. So that's how I got turned out. I messed around with guys. We messed around for a while. Next day I know, we got raided. We got busted. We went back to prison and blah, blah, blah.

Because of drugs. That's what you're raided. Were you selling? At that time, yes. Right, right. So that's what happened. We got busted for selling drugs. Is that what you've always been in jail for?

those four times? No. No, mostly guns and stuff like that. Oh, wow. And what did you do with the guns that you'd be put in jail? Like, I mean, so I would sell guns as well. Oh, okay. And just like on the black market, like illegally you were doing it. Right. Uh-huh. Right. Um, so that's how that, my other ones got, you know, got, that's how I got caught up with the other things I was doing. Yeah. The drugs was only one time. Um, and just to let you know, so all my wives have been drug-free besides, like, marijuana and stuff, except for the first wife. She was out of control. And that's why you guys got busted.

Yeah. And we had a lot of fun though, too. Yeah. Isn't it funny that like sometimes you look back like, because I don't drink I'm a sober person for many, many years, but I really look back on my like crazy fucking times. Like the craziest times of your life. Sometimes you're like, oh, those were the best times in some weird way, right?

I'm sorry to say. No, they really were. Yeah. Yeah. So I happen to be listening to one of your podcast today about the update on the gang, what's your name? Gang Bang Bang Betty. Betty, yeah.

So I was listening to her and you were saying something like she was trying to hook up. Like that's how I wish my wife was. I wish my wife was just like her. Yeah. That's what I pictured her relationship was going to be about when I got with her. Right. Yeah, because she's, what's great about gang being Betty and I think, like you said, what you were, what you like about her.

She's just straight up like who she is. There's no, there's no complication there. It's just like this is. This is what she's into. She's very clear about it herself. And she's really open about it to other people, not to her friends because she's not stupid. She understands how people are. People are very judgy.

And, you know, that's why she calls into Michelle, right? Because she knows that maybe I'm going to listen to her, not judge her. But she really is clear of what she wants and what she's into and she's straight up. But I have to say, though, okay? Did you listen to Gang Bang Betty's first episode? I did. So you should remember that at the end of that episode? It turned out that she was

She had gangbangs with her husband He was a cuck He was totally down into it He loved her being with other guys And then when that sort of fell by the wayside Between the relationship She started to see a guy behind his back And wasn't telling him

Right, right And I don't understand why How that happens It's hard, I mean I think that there's a There's definitely I don't know what it is I don't want to analyze that Let's get back to your story

So you would love like a girl. You know what's hard is that like, you know, with your current wife and where you're at right now. It's no different than the woman who's dating like the man who drinks too much and he keeps saying he's going to quit and he never does. I mean, you know, you're kind of trying to change her. I mean, she, you know, and she might not be able, like, she just might not be changeable. I mean, you, she's just like one of those people that are like a really like, what do they call them? Like a compulsive liar, it seems like, you know. She just can't get out of the way of herself.

I mean, if she says, if you think she went right, she's going to tell you she went left. Like she does, she lies about everything, right? No, she really does. And to add on to that, which is a part I never put in there because I didn't think it was going to be, you know, appropriate. But so from basically the beginning of the time since we got together, and it's happened, I don't know, maybe half a dozen times since we've been together total. We dated for one, two and a half years. We've been married for about a year. So almost four years we've been together.

during those four years. This girl, you've been together four years. You just told me you're with her only for a year. We've been married

for almost a year. Oh, okay. And we dated, we dated for about a year, a half, two years, almost two years before we got married.

Okay. So during that time, I would say maybe five times, maybe half a dozen times, I've been approached by different people saying,

your wife owes me money for pills. And that's another thing I've told her, look, if you part it on pills, whatever, that's fine, just let me know.

Don't keep it a secret. Um, most recently, um, another sub guy gave up to me, I don't know, a few weeks ago and told me the same thing. And I tell them all, well, I don't, I don't, I don't, I don't expect, I don't expect me to pay. She denies it to me. And so when I jam her up about it, she denies it all. Um, I don't know. I mean, like I just said, I mean, like, the bottom line is is, is she lies about everything. I mean, and that's a, that's an issue. She's going to lie about everything. I don't know. I think that that is like seriously, because I've known people like that. I feel like there couldn't be a worse personality trait than that because I don't know that that person can change.

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with those people. Maybe they could have five years of counseling and it could change them. But, you know, those people that are compulsive liars that lie about everything and they can't be straight up about anything no matter what you see. say no matter, you know, that's just the way that they are. I don't think she's going to change anytime soon. It doesn't matter what you say, what you tell her, she cannot be honest. So, you know, you might have to get to a place where you could either be okay with that and make it work to your advantage because you're a cock somehow and just get her to do more stuff with you and let her do her lie shit on the side. I don't know, but I am telling you, like she's not going to stop lying.

She's not. She's really not. And I have had that thoughts for a while now. In my own head, I've come to, you know, come to terms that it's just a matter of time before, you know, she leaves me or I guess maybe I continue to put up with it like I have been or I leave her. In my mind, I want to leave her. But it's hard, you know, like I said, I'm gone all the time. So I'm only home a few days a month. But let me ask you this, okay?

And I listen to a lot of this. But I do know that you called me up a couple times and left me some messages. They were some confessions. I aired them on my Patreon. Everyone's like, get that fucking guy on for a full show, you know, whatever. And it was crazy. And I remember your first episode, you know, when you told a story about her getting gang banged in that story and in that confession, you did say, oh, you know, everybody was writing on her, BBC lever, blah, blah, blah, coming in her face, all that. But then when you told me the story now, you told me that whole story, like in relation to you hooking up with a guy.

So I wonder if, okay, Kevin, I'm just going to ask you. I wonder if maybe you have a little bit of liar in you, too. No. So basically, I've always been into fetishes. Yeah. So when we got there, yes, she was written on all that kind of stuff. and matter of fact, even after she stopped doing the gangbanks and her and me were having crazy sex, I would write on her.

She would write on me at times. Because you went to the degrading. We live streamed and we did most of those things on live streamed. Yeah, tell me about that. What do you mean live stream? So she was live streaming that gangbanks. So now you know that she's into that. So now what did you, so you guys did live streaming stuff?

Where were you streaming on? Where do people watch you? Were you on Cam Soda or like where the fuck does that? stuff. We're on camp four. We're on camp four and we did some other camp stuff on X Hamster. Okay. And if you go on to like motherlist.com, there's pictures of her.

There's pictures of me on there. So I post lots of pictures, lots of videos of her everywhere, you know, mainly on motherlist.com. Yeah. But I mean, yeah. So we've always been into the grading thing for both of us. Okay. We've always been into, she's into being choked out. she's in the, you know, crazy stuff like that, being spanked.

Yeah. So, and she, when I got with her, I've never choked her grow out. I've always been scared, you know, to choke them. Yeah. Just a little bit, just because what if she dies, you know? Yeah. But being with her, you know, I've opened up, you know, a lot and we've done crazy things. But no, as far as lying goes, no.

Okay. So it just that that's, right. Listen, I get what's going on here. But it turns me on. No, no, I got it. It turns me on her being treated like that. Yeah, no, no, no, that's what I do. I think what's going on here with you is that you're telling your story so fast and you're getting all the stuff in that, you know, you forgot about talking about the fact that she did that and yet you're into that.

And that's one of your fetishes because you're trying to get everything in. So I could give you the pass and not, you know, and say, okay, it's not that you're definitely lying. It's that that's something that you did with that guy way later because it's something that it was introduced to you with her and it's something that you're into. I did a whole giz quiz. I got to tell you that your confession and all that stuff that you talked about on that one did spur a jiz quiz on my Patreon because I'm always interested in the person that wants a jiz quiz is like do you want like I used to always ask guys like do you like get off on jerking off on a girl's face? You know because I and like as a woman do you like it if a guy likes to jerk off on your face? And for you, you're a guy. You like that as well.

I always feel like that that sort of degrading thing. I would ask my guy friends because I always felt like this is my own opinion and I know that I'm not right, but I used to do these quizzes just to find out. I always felt like someone like wants to do that to the woman if it's a guy and he wants to do that to a woman. I'm like on some level maybe like he hates women because it seems like a very degrading thing for her. And then maybe the woman that wants to be degraded or the guy that wants to be degraded has some sort of issue. You know, because why would you want to feel that way and why would you want to degrade that person? Do you, are you getting back at someone? Is it some sort of subconscious kind of a thing?

I don't know. I always say I'd give unprofessional advice. I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. You know, so I believe it's very degrading. Yeah. You know, use your faces, you know, it was like a cum catcher. And basically, but that's what turned. I mean, that's what was going on when I first met her.

Yeah. So, I mean, I don't know why things would change. I mean, I enjoy seeing her get all the enjoy making she can get. I enjoy seeing her. being treated like a slut, knocking like a slut. I enjoyed her being degraded. And she was into all that stuff too.

She told me she's never felt so sexy in her life when she was being treated like a slut. Right. Just make her feel sexy. Yeah, yeah. But she also, I do think her stuff runs a little deep because, you know, it's one thing like you could listen to like a Betty, right? Gang Bang Betty.

And like you're like, oh, that's my kind of girl. Because I feel like she has the part of herself that wants to go and be with a ton of guys and have all this sex. and just go, but she doesn't have all this other complicated stuff where in that she's like totally lying about it and doing stuff behind your back and she can't be honest. You know, that's where it starts to go into like a different kind of place, you know? Right, right. Unfortunately. Unfortunately, yes.

And so, but I mean, like I said, she's lied. She's tricked me. At first I thought it was going to be about our whole relationship was going to be like a gangbang session, you know, or in my head somewhere. I thought that. I found out pretty quick that it wasn't going to be like that at all. she wanted a monogamous relationship. And so I bit into that, you know, for a minute. And then I realized that she was cheating on me.

And she's gone back and forth, you know, back and forth from, okay, we'll try the cuckold thing to let's, no, she wants a monogamous relationship again. And I don't know. Maybe she has some sort of confliction with just being, you know, maybe you should tell her to listen to Gang Bang Betty's episode. Like maybe she just needs to be okay with what she's into. Maybe she has like some sort of like I said, confliction with what her desires are and how she feels about it like in her own morals, you know, and maybe she needs to be more okay with it or that or change.

You know, she's like playing both sides, right? She likes what she does and she, but yet she obviously doesn't feel right about it, you know, so she's got to get clear one way or the other. That's something that she has to do. We were supposed to do the show yesterday or called you on yesterday and we postponed until today. and I wrote in there was because I didn't have people to watch our children. But the real reason was because I told her about the episode

and how I got invited to do the episode. And I wanted her to join in with me. Yeah, I thought she was going to be on. So, you know, because I wanted her to tell her side of the story, you know, how she felt. She agreed to it at first when I was doing all, you know, when I was filling out all the information. But at the last minute, she tells me that she just wants to listen to me.

and I was like, okay, well, that's going to make me feel weird and awkward, you know. So that's why I ended up canceling and said that you canceled the session because of whatever, you know, and you pick it up some other time. You send me an email with a new date. But really, she wanted just to listen to me. She didn't want to participate at all. And I didn't, I would have felt super uncomfortable during that situation, you know. But now she's not going to listen at all, but does she know that you're doing it today?

No, she has no clue. Oh, so she's not going to know. You're not going to let her listen. It was either you would let her be on with you and you would do it together or she thinks you're not doing it at all and so you're, and you're not going to have her listen. I don't suggest you have her listen to this episode. No. Well, I mean, I mean, really, if she listened to the episode, I'm caught, you know,

with mess around the other guys. Sure. And she's always told me, you know, but in a weird way, I guess in my head, you know, so when these guys get ready to come on my face and the recording, me, which I try to have them record every time. I'll look at the camera and I'll dedicate it to my wife. This is dedicated to you, baby. If it wasn't

for you, you know, I wouldn't be doing this kind of stuff, you know, blah, blah, blah. But I don't ever plan for her to see him. I don't ever plan to tell her about him, but I do post them every once in a while on like motherless.com. What is motherless.com? I've never heard of that. It's like a sick, weird,

twisted, they have twisted sexual fantasies on there and it's just another point. Like a regular porn site or more twill, like, I don't know, you're like sick and twist. It's a fetish. It's more fetish? There's a lot of fetish things on there. It's a free porn site.

You can, they have cams on there. They got a, just like every other porn site, you know, but it's just called motherless.com. Okay. I never heard of it. And so you, oh, you post your videos up there with the guys? I have, yes. Okay. I don't ever expect her to find them, but if she does, then, you know, we'll just,

The thought of that maybe she could is a turn on. Uh-huh. But I know if Dan well, if it or came down to that, our relationship would be 100% over. I don't know. This whole story sounds crazy to me. This relationship is way crazier than anything I could ever imagine. Yeah.

It has not gone in the direction that I would prefer to. Yeah. If it went in the direction that I'm asking for it now, I would be a cuck. And she would be doing her thing, showing me videos. Yeah. Let me call and put the phone down so I can hear. or wait until I got home and told me all about it.

That would be my fantasy. Yeah. I love this girl, and I wish things would work out between her and I. Yeah. And I see something like that maybe sparking our sex life, you know, up again. It would definitely get me more involved and me wanted to be with her more than just when I get home at nighttime before I go to sleep. Like I said, we used to have fun when it was just her and me. even after she stopped the whole gang-bang thing, you know, going on.

But then, I don't know, maybe the last four to six months, you know what I mean? Like, sex has been just blah between her and I, you know, we don't do anything fun. It's turned very vanilla lately. And our relationship is, you know, not going in a good direction. We fight constantly. And I would think that maybe that would bring some kind of spark back, you know, brought it back to how it was when we first got together. Yeah, probably not.

She's agreed. Well, she's agreed to it, but like I said, it's yet to come. And honestly, like you said, she's always going to lie, I'm sure, and I'm sure of that. I'm never going to be, I'm never going to feel happy and content. And she's always going to continue to lie. And I'm sure this relationship is doomed. Yeah, it's very difficult. It's almost like you're torturing yourself, right?

Because the one thing you want the most and your biggest, fears what you're just living in every day. You know, you have someone that you can't trust at all. I mean, that trust went out the window a long time ago. And you're always just trying to get that. But it's kind of like chasing the dragon because I don't know that you're ever going to get that. You know, women, men, we've all been in an abusive relationships that don't work, you know. And sometimes those are the hardest relationships to get out of. You know, I've used the term, you know, when I finally get out of them, it feels like I'm getting out of prison. You know, you've actually been in prison.

I'm sure being trapped in a relationship where someone is always lying to you and you can't get the truth. And, you know, it is, it's no, it's difficult. Right. It really is, you know. I bought her sexy outfits, you know, quite a few of them within the last month. I've yet to see her in one of them, you know. It's, you know, it's bad, you know. It hurts my heart, you know, that she,

is lying to me because I know I know it the whole time. It hurts me. It makes me sad. It makes me try harder. And maybe some twisted way, like you said, maybe that's what I'm into. And I don't realize it yet. I don't know. Yeah, you're also, but you can't take out of the story.

And you're going to see people on YouTube. This one's going to get a lot of people outrage because some people are going to be like, he's fucking cheating on her too. Like, we can't forget about that. I mean, come on. Okay, you're a liar too. You know what? You're absolutely right.

And honestly, I haven't done that for a while, but when I left my house this morning, because I left to go back on the road this morning. When I left, I really thought about it. Is that going to happen this time? And I did not, you know, I really kind of in back my head and have a plan that maybe that's what I'll do, you know, sometime within the next week or so, you know, just. Let me ask you this. Why don't you tell her about that?

I guess because I'd be scared of her reaction. I don't know. I mean, if it was with a, if it was with a female, if it was with a female, if it was with a female it'd be a lot easier. No, it wouldn't because she told you straight, like, you know, according to your story, okay, Kevin, you told me that one thing she doesn't want you to do is cheat on her with a woman. Okay, so that wouldn't be easier. I don't see how that could be easier because that's the one thing she said she doesn't want,

doesn't fucking want. So. Because I could come clean with that. And I could come clean with her thinking less of me, I guess, you know what I mean, thinking that I'm, because she's always told me that she doesn't want to be with a, doesn't want to be with this sissy. That happened when she dressed me up and she decided to stop all that. You know, she didn't want none of that to happen no more. Right.

And made her sick. They're disgusted. Right. So it's hard to come clean with that. Right. But I mean, so I'm just saying that, you know, she's lying to you and she's cheating on you. You're cheating on her. So I feel like until you guys could be more honest with who you are with each other, you know, you're going to have issues. And that's why you've grown apart because you're not really, you know, to me, intimacy is about, you know, holding up the mirror in front of each other, just like really being you and becoming one. And that's hard to do when you're both living

separate lives and stuff. But, you know, I have to end this because it's like already an hour long. I'm very curious as to what everyone's going to say about this episode. Because it's a little crazy. The story's crazy. I'm very curious of what we're. We're, we're going to say about this episode. I'm where you guys are at at the end of the year when I do my Where Are They Now episode. I can't wait to find out what's going on between you and your girl. I hope you don't have a fifth time in jail. Like, you know, hopefully that doesn't wind up happening. And somehow you can make this relationship work or you could get up the courage enough to leave and maybe find somebody who's more, you know, in tune like Gang Bang Betty. You know, find yourself someone more like her. No, I agree. Well, I thank you for your time.

and I appreciate you putting me on your show. I'm sorry that I was all over the place. It's okay. Some people have that way. It's just your way. You know, the type of person I am. Yeah.

So, yeah, I do apologize. You don't have to apologize. I think that's why sometimes when people like you call in, it seems like you're all over the place. So I think like, is he lying or whatever?

But I just think, like you said, it's just your way. It's how you communicate. So that's cool. We still got a good story out of you. Well, sounds good to me.

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