Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 545 - Maitland Ward: From TV Star to Porn Star

Episode Date: October 24, 2022

Maitland Ward is a TV star turned Rated X star and she called in to talk all about it. Why did she decide to leave Hollywood for the porn industry? What did she learn about herself in the process? And, how did her old Boy Meets World co-stars react when she “came out” as a porn star? Tune in for all the details including what she was posting on social media prior to getting into porn and how that organically led her to into it, how her husband supported her every step of the way, how they define their relationship, when she decided to tell her family and how they reacted, her first porn shoot and why she wasn’t nervous, how being in porn has helped her live out all her fantasies, what she’s into on camera including gangbangs, orgies and more, how she became the main star at Deeper.com and why she loves working for them, what she’s learned fro doing porn including how much she loves anal, tips on how to squirt, what they use as fake jizz in porn, the support she got from Hollywood after she came out, who didn’t support her from her old cast, her fave movie you should check out, how writing her memoir Rated X was very healing and a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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listening to this, don't worry about it. Just go to the description later on. So today I have on Maitland Ward. The TV actress turned porn star. Now, some of you might remember her from Boy Meets Worlds. Some of you may know her from porn. But today you're going to hear about that whole transition. From Boy Meets World to porn, it wasn't an overnight thing. It happened slowly. She got into cosplay. She got into writing erotica. She was doing stuff on Instagram. And then she did a Patreon and that's kind of how it organically happened for her. And she talks about that. I mean, this is a girl, a woman who went from being a major TV star to being a major porn star. And when I say she's a porn star, she's won awards. And obviously she's going to be good at it because not only

does she love SCX and she talks about that, but she's a great actress. So how could it not be, how could she not rise to the top? I think the worst thing about porn half the time is that bad acting, but here's like a real actress that got into it. She talks about that whole story. She just put out a book. It's called Rated X, How Porn Liberated Me from Hollywood. You could get more detailed information about all of these stories that you're going to hear on this episode. By getting her book, I will put a link to that as well as a link to her only fans and all her other social media stuff. But on this episode, you're going to hear about how that journey happened, how she went from being a Disney star. Okay, that was like a real vanilla show that she was on to being hardcore triple X girl that's into anales, gang bangs, DPs.

Should we talk about all of that stuff? She's married. She's been married for a long time. She talked about how, and this is something that she did while she was with her husband. They talked about it. He was always okay with it. She talks about how they define their relationship, how he felt at first when she brought it up. She talks about how her family reacted when she told them.

She talks about how her cast reacted, who was okay with it and who was not. She also talks about how the industry as a whole, the entertainment business industry as a whole reacted to her coming out and when she did. Her journey does include her living out all of her fantasies. I think I mentioned before, she talks about gangbangs and DPs. Like, that's the stuff that she gets to do on film that she loves, that she can't do at home. But she talks about the difference about at-home sex, porn sex. She gives some really interesting little tips at the end, like anal tips, squirting tips. She gives you a little behind the scenes.

Like, what do they use on a porn set to make fake giz? You're going to find out. She talks about that. And then she talks about her relationship with deeper.com. I had never heard about deeper.com. It is a female-led porn company that makes these really amazing movies. Her movie Drift, she talks about that at the end, is available. You should go check that out.

But first check out this episode because you're going to get a great overall picture of her story. And then you can go buy her book and get more details. but I'm going to be right back on with Maitland Ward. So are you today? I'm doing good. It's good to be here. Nice to talk with you today. Yeah, well, listen, I typically have people calling in talking about their secret lives.

And I was always hoping that I would get on the DL, kind of like the mass singer that like somebody, quote unquote, famous or in the public eye would call into my show. Like I said, undercover anonymous, like I typically am doing and talk about their secret lives because so many people do. live secret lives or they're doing these kinds of things that there's so much stigma attached to it and they're keeping it under wraps. But what's even better than that is to have somebody like you who's putting it out there has been in the public eye and you're not even doing it as a secret. I mean, you have this really super interesting life. You're the Disney girl gone to a porn actress, right? Disney actress gone porn actress. And you are out about that. I mean, you just put a book out, right, it came out in September. It's called Rated X, How Porn Liberated Meets

Me from Hollywood. And to me, there's nothing more liberating than really putting it out there like who you really are and not hiding the fact, not calling me up on the DL about a secret life. Here you are someone that was on an iconic show. You were in a show called Boy Meets World. It went off air when in 2000? Yeah, 2007. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And then, and now you're a very successful, famous porn actress and out there. That's what I think is most important and amazing that you had the courage to do that because I don't think a lot of people would. Yeah, it's interesting because it's funny, one of the first shoots I did another, because a lot of people change their names in porn to,

you know, be secret like you said, so they don't have to go out in the public as their real name or whatever. And one of the performers said to me, wow, you just go out there with your like real name and everyone knows. And I'm like, can you imagine if I went out there? And I, tried to change my name and hide my identity. It would be so great. They'd be the scandal of the, she's trying to hide this. She's ashamed.

And I'm so not ashamed. It was such a, it's been such a journey for me in my own sexuality and my own exploration. And it started like before I did anything in professional porn. Right. I was doing my own content and my own stuff. And I was just taking, I was just doing things and my fans were watching along the way.

It was really cool. They've been with me on this whole journey of all my exploration pretty much, except, you know, years ago my personal life, but this journey, they've seen everything on my content and stuff, and I was just doing things I wanted to do and trying things I wanted to try, and that really

was liberation for me. I was able to finally not be in this box or this pigeonhole that Hollywood wanted to put me in and wanted to keep me there. They didn't want to hire me for this person that they put in the box or do anything new. They wanted to keep me there. I say like, it's like Christmas ornaments

in an attic. You bring it out every so often, but you put it back in the rest of the time. So nothing. So in that, you just said that you had, it's not like you went straight to porn. I mean, you didn't do your first porn movie to 2019. So there's this huge gap, but it wasn't like from black to white. It wasn't like you just went into porn. You said you were doing things slowly and getting in touch with that side of yourself and you were putting that out there from the get go. Like, what does that mean? Like, were you on Instagram or Twitter? Yes. Social media had a huge part of it. And even before that, I had moved away. I got married.

and moved away to New York. And I was really, that's actually when I really was able to explore myself because I had, I don't know, I was able to take a breather when I was away from Hollywood and that whole machine and just that whole competition between actresses and like what audition did you get? Did you book this?

Are you at this party or premiere? And I was just able to get away and really focus on myself. And I started really erotic writing. And it was interesting. Yeah. And I really found I was able to pour my truth out onto the page. and it wouldn't judge me back. I could just have it secret there for me.

And so eventually, though, I became more comfortable with that. And I began to explore more and more. And then when I came back to LA, I took screenwriting at UCLA for two years. And I really thought I was just going to write scripts, maybe of a more erotic light or a more, you know, I did dark comedy with very sexual undertones and stuff. And I always found myself writing that kind of character, which was interesting. Yeah. That kind of sexually empowered woman who had been unencompassing. powered for so long.

Yeah, yeah. And so, but then Girl Meets World, the spinoff from Boy Meets World came around. And not that that tied into it, there was just more renewed interest in the cast. And I've been told, you know, you can't be sexy. You can't do things you want to do. Like my sexual scripts, no, they're not, you know, they're too much. You can't dress in bikinis on your Instagram. You can't dress in costumes because I love doing cosplay.

Oh, interesting. So, but eventually on my Instagram, I was like, forget it. They're not giving me anything. They're not, you know, they're just wanting to keep me in a box. Yeah. So I just said, forget it. I'm going to do what I want to do. And I started doing cosplay photos and setups and bikinis and whatever I wanted to do.

And my audience really started to respond. And that was kind of the beginning of me discovering that I love this exhibitionism and this like shock kind of thing and like to, and exploring my body and my sexuality and being proud of that. Because before I had been, you know, so. uncomfortable like with my body and with my sexuality and how I could, you know, portray that in Hollywood because I had to hide so much of it in order to be like a good girl and a good sitcom and all of that. And so social media really was the instigator of me finding like who I was. And once I started to just authentically show who I was, that's when people really started gravitating and following me. And it's been amazing. And then I started to do content because

I kept getting kicked off of social media. I kept getting pictures taken down because they might have been suggestive. They weren't even like that bad. Just like, Oh yeah, they don't have to be. Yeah. No, I know.

So I kept, so my fans suggested that I do content and I didn't even know what that was. But quickly like I skyrocketed to the number one adult creator on Patreon because I started off there because I didn't even know where to go. Only fans was newer back then. Not around yet. Right. Okay.

Yeah. And so so I started doing that and I started doing that. And I started, you know, it was doing my sexy cosplay pictures and nudes like playboy-esque type nudes. And then I just wanted to explore more and more. And I found it. And my husband was super supportive of me. He saw that this is something that was really I wanted to do. And it was I was passionate about.

And I was a good performer. And so I started doing stuff with girls. And then eventually it led to stuff with guys. But it was like a year and a half before I actually did a professional porn scene. It was all, you know, very organic to my content. creation and my fans were the ones who you know they paid to see it and it was kind of you know in that day it wasn't secret because i didn't keep it secret but it was a little secretive because it wasn't out to the mainstream public everybody to find out you'd really have to be my fan and to subscribe to

my stuff in order to get this stuff yeah yeah totally so when i did finally do a scene in professional porn and came out like that that was when it really like everyone knew and so the and i was so i just i was proud of it. I was proud that I did this and I took my own brand and my own business into my own hands. Yeah. And now I would assume that at some point you had to make a decision to say, bye, Hollywood. And you never know because I think people are, our world is changing, thankfully, to be much more open-minded and stuff. And I feel like eventually mainstream media will catch up. We're way closer than what used to be, right? But I mean, there had to be. Yeah, thank God. But there had to been a time where you had to cut ties. I mean, do you remember that moment where you said

it's either this or that and you made that choice? No, it wasn't an exact moment. Of course, I kept firing agents and public systems. Yeah, because they would be like, what the fuck are you doing? Exactly. But it wasn't like I was saying, oh, I'm cutting off Hollywood. It was more like, it was more organic than that. It was slower than that. People think it was such a fast thing, like I just did it. But it was, it was just like I just kind of fell into it and it was meant to in that way and I felt comfortable with what I was doing. I think the moment is like when I started with my social media just saying I don't care anymore what people say.

Yeah. I'm not going to listen to the judgment. That's more of it. It wasn't like going into porn and saying, oh, I'm done with mainstream because I really, like you say, I really believe like now I couldn't have done what I've done and had the respect that I have. Yeah. And like people being more interested in mainstream in me and like an interested in what I've

done. Like if you would have done this 10 years ago, 15 years ago, like especially back when I was on Boy Meets World and they were really controlling like our our destinies so to speak. I could never have done this. I would have been shunned. That's why it was such a surprise when I came out in the press doing my first big feature for porn. Yeah. And everybody was supportive.

I mean, they weren't, of course, they had flashy headlines and Rachel's doing porn, but nobody tore me down. Nobody like degraded me. Nobody said she's desperate. They were all, the press was excited about it. And I was. So it was really, and I remember everybody in porn and everybody who I knew in mainstream was like, don't tell the press they'll ruin you. And it actually was amazing because it just catapulted me into this other realm of porn and a performance. And it was really, it was really gratifying to know that I had done something that I created with my own hands and my own body and my own, you know, soul.

And I created this brand that really like was my own. and I had control over it and I had control over like what my destiny would be not like I did when I was younger. Yeah. It was just beholden to the Disney machine. And it was organic. I mean, it wasn't like thought out like, oh, I'm going to go to an only fan because girls are making 10 grand a month. No. And they weren't.

That's a big difference. No, there was a huge. I didn't think I'd make that much money when I started Patreon on. I said, I'll be able to take some pictures and maybe I can put them into some photo shoots or like maybe I'll make 500,000 a month. And then I was like, whoa. Like I hadn't even mentioned. it when I created my Patreon page. I kind of put it together one night. And then the next morning, 20 people had signed up and I hadn't mentioned it to anyone. And I was like, wow.

So I'll mention it. And by the end of the week, I had like 2,800 subscribers paying anywhere from like $15 to $300. Wow. And I was like, wow. So they really are interested in me being sexy, unlike all those photographers, all those publicists and agents and managers and stuff who told me they wouldn't be interested in the kind of stuff I wanted to do. So it really snowballed from there. And then of course, eventually later I got only fans. I got a big only fans with that. But yeah, this was really in a beginning of stages when there wasn't that much content going around. Were your fans getting a sneak peek into you figuring out your sexuality too?

I mean, had you been with women before or did this all sort of happen at the same time? Were you figuring that out and putting it out to your fans at the same time? I had been with women privately before, yes. But I would say that my sexual performance and my, how I wanted my sexuality to be shown to the public or to be, you know, just my authenticity. My fans were along with me every step of the way. They saw everything. Yeah. And it was really cool because I have people who, you know, they follow me on the, on deeper on the websites that I do now.

And all my only fans and everything. And they've been with me from the beginning. And they remember like just, they remember back when I was getting kicked off. And then when Reddit was trying to steal all my content, like right when I started, it was a big deal for like people on Reddit to like rip off my content and like put it everywhere. And it was like a nightmare. So I was just because I was just trying to figure out everything back then. And I didn't even know about that kind of stuff. So, so yeah, in the beginning day is getting Rachel's nudes were a big deal to put all over the internet.

Oh my God. So many guys that watched you then grew up with you. And it's like that you grew together. It's really true and it's so cool when people say, oh, you know, I was 16 and masturbated to you and now I'm like, I have your fleshlight and I'm still masturbating to you. And it's like, wow, that's a long relationship. And you've known me all these years. So it's like most people because they don't have that longevity and like a and that sort of intimate connection with people. Yeah, totally.

And it's real. Like I said, it's not just, oh, I'm doing this to make money. And now you mentioned that you had a husband. Did you get married super young? No, I didn't get married super young in my late 20s. Oh, okay. So I had known him a long time. So we had like known each other and we'd gone back on fourth a long time.

And I was so, I was so scared of like marriage and commitment like that. I didn't want this traditional thing. Even though I lived in a world where I was expected to have a very traditional marriage and like, you know, whatever family unit. But I was like, I didn't want it. So I kept resisting. But then he's so open-minded. that he was like, why do we have to do everything like everybody else? Can't we have our own deal?

And then that really switched my mind and it helped. And the commitment that I had that I have to him and had to him at the time, like I said, really helped me have an anchor at home and then be able to explore things outside because I could have a safe place to go back to if I got scared or if I got, you know, scared of what I was confronting in myself and finding out about myself. So that really was a place where I felt I could come home. And I can go and like, you know, find myself in many ways and sexually too, because I had repressed a lot of that for so long. And he recognized a lot of that and me too that I needed to do that because I had been so repressed.

And I had, I was so adventurous in my heart, but I stomped out that adventure for so long. And now what kind of, because I mean, you're doing porn now. So you're having sex with other people. What kind of does your husband see other people? What kind of, how do you label your relationship? Actually, we live a very monogamous relationship. I don't go out and date people and stuff, except some women. He understands that I need to explore myself with women.

Okay. That is not a big deal. That never has been a big deal. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And we had to talk about that in the beginning and stuff. And yeah, I talked about that in the book. But with men, I do it on set. And I think we found, like, he knew.

He actually recognized a lot in me that I wanted to perform and do all these things like that he couldn't do here in my marital life. I mean, I couldn't do gang bangs and like DPs and like all these things with acrobatic things, dungeons and all. It's not part of his thing. And I respect that. I mean, he's, he's, you know, intimate and more traditional in that way. Yeah. But he recognizes that I need to do these things. So we felt like when I started doing content, I started doing, we found two guys.

There were longtime porn performers who were wonderful and taught me so much to get into regular professional porn. But we were very lucky. We found that doing it with porn performers and then later doing it in porn is such a safe space for me to explore because they're professionals. They come in. They know what the job is. We have a great time. We do all this stuff. And then they go home.

It's not like there's a, there's not like an intimate connection with it. There's no blurred lines because no, you know what you're doing. Like the first time I, my husband was there. The first time I did a full sex scene for my, you know, Snapchat, Patreon videos or whatever for my video. that I sold. Yeah. And then he was there. And we were wondering if it was going to be uncomfortable.

And it wasn't. It was just the guy came in and he was nice. And he talked to my husband about football and went, okay. And then we started the scene. We did the scene. And I remember the guy, Danny Mountain, who was the first guy I fully, you know, had intercourse with on screen. I asked him later, what do you remember about that first time?

Because we were still very good friends. And we've done so many videos and stuff together. And he's like, you weren't nervous. And I was like, yeah, I wasn't. Once I got into it, I loved it. I loved the performance of it. I loved just letting myself go in that environment on, you know, film like that. And it was just so freeing to me. And it wasn't weird between my husband and I. It was kind of like this. It was really this safe space that, and he doesn't come to any of the professional porn sets now, but that was really important for us to like test the

waters there and see how that was for us. And it was fine. And it was thrilling for me. Well, I would think that your acting background would really help you out. And it's probably why you have won awards in the porn world because that's like the worst part of porn is the bad fucking acting. Like, why I know more of them learn how to act a little bit? Because sometimes the bad acting really takes away from what you're watching. And I would assume that for you, a part of why you weren't nervous is because you have that acting skill down. You're an actress. That's true.

I do know like the cameras and I know how to act for the cameras and stuff. And it's been so great to be able to make, like, what I do a deeper, which is the site that I'm in the face of, we do lengthy, full scripted, full, like, directed acting features. And I'm able to really act. And I hope that I bring something different to the table. I really think if, you know, it's funny about acting, I think the one issue in porn, which I don't really have an issue with because I can act fast and I can do it and I can memorize my lines and everything, that I don't think that. I don't think that a lot of people are used to the lines and they're not used to, they don't have enough rehearsal time for it. I think if they were more comfortable in their space.

Yeah. Like I think that would really help. I think, but there's not a lot of time, especially, I mean, when we do productions, there is more time for it. But like for most scenes, there's not, there's not a lot. There's, you just go in and go out and you learn your line. So it's like you're just reading it cold a lot of times for people. Oh, it is that first time.

What is, when you say you're the face, you're the face of something. Which is one of the Vixen Media brands and it's directed by and created by Caden Cross and it was really a brand that was she had a vision of making films that had she. That's because it's a she. Yeah. And she. I know. She's the director of the year three times in a row. It was really cool to, we just by total happenstance. Well, I think it was fate because I had done a scene for Vixen and it blew up. That was one of my very first, very first scenes. and it blew up and they she had actually been she just launched her brand with the Vixen Media Group brand

because they have a lot of different brands and she was the like the creative but she's sort of like the independent film like art film kind of thing that was of the poor world right going for like the wins awards at festivals and things like that yeah I love it and stream work and so she lost her co-star lead actress

on this new feature she was going to do she was under a time constraint to film it. And she thought on like my scene that blew up came out on a Saturday and on Monday morning, her scene was also filming and she lost the actress that same day. She came into the Vixen offices and was like, I don't think I can do this feature. I can't find a person who can act and do all these lines. Right.

And stuff. And they were like, talk to Maitland. She just blew up and she's an actor. She's an actual actress. Yeah. And so I read her script and it was brilliant. And it was like something I had always wanted to do.

It was fully scripted. It was like I was reading an audition from mainstream. And so we met that afternoon at a Starbucks and we hit it off and that was the history. And then we started the film and it was amazing. And it just really broke all records. And it was just so cool to be able to do something that was different for porn. And it was something that I had always wanted to do. I thought, you know, why can't we have good acting and writing and filmmaking and have sex?

And this was something I fell into and it was really an amazing opportunity that now three years later. I mean, I know that your husband was along for the journey. What about your family? Like when you decided to do porn and you were really going to be out there. Is that when you told them or did they also go on that long journey with you so it wasn't like some big surprise? Well, when I was younger, see, I was very straight-laced. My parents weren't like, my grandmother was very religious and she definitely wanted me. marriage she had all these rules and everything yeah typical and they and they did too they weren't

quite as religious about it but more like they wanted me to be a good girl and and but it was more I think all of them was more that they wanted me to be safe and careful and not get hurt and like that it wasn't like they were punishing me in the basement or anything but you know I just definitely felt that that need to be a good girl and so no they didn't come along the journey with me I think they did know that I was doing like sexy cosplay stuff and I knew they didn't knew I was in the press doing, you know, Comic-Conns and maybe bikini shots and stuff, but they didn't know anything about my Patreon and me doing the adult stuff.

But when Drive, the film, the first film I did with Caden Cross for Deeper came out, it like broke everything because it like beat Bernie Sanders heart attack for like the most searched on Google. Oh, wow. So wait, it's called Dry.

That was your coming out movie. Yeah. So my dad saw it in the New York Post. Oh, God. And he called me. And I was like, oh my God, this is the moment of reckoning. Yeah. I tried to avoid him a little bit. But so we went to my parents' house and my husband and I when we talked to them. But they shocked me with how supportive they were of my happiness in that way. They didn't want to know, like, details. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But they were so proud of me that I had done this and taken these chances and have found this success. And, and you know, know what I think it's true. If you have good people really in your life, people are always worried about, oh my God, they're going to judge me. They're going to hate me. They're going to do this.

But as long as they're not terrible people, generally, they are going to be happy if you're happy. Right. Like, they're going to accept you for your authentic yourself. And I really saw that with my parents. And I saw that I built up a lot of it in my mind over the years, not for the porn stuff, but for being this good girl. I mean, I thought that they would judge me so harshly and they didn't. And it was, a very good conversation with both of them. And it was funny. And looking back on it, just the way that it happened with The New York Post and you haven't interviewed, like, talk to them. And it was just, but it's been good and they've been very supportive. They don't look at anything, but they have been super supportive. I think that's timing to. A lot of the times I feel like you were

really at the point where you were not judging yourself. You were very clear about what you were doing. So I think if you come to people from that place, that's what you get back. It wasn't like you were. Right? You really were clear about it. And that's when you threw it on the table. I think the problem comes when you start this stuff first starts percolating and you don't even know and you might still be judging yourself.

And then you put it out there and then you get judgment back and it makes it all a big fat fucking mess. But I think it was because you were, you had been, this was a long time coming for you. were completely clear and ready to be who you were. Yeah. And I think that's true in the press and everything that I, when I put it out there, I think a lot of people, if they feed into the shame, then the, then the, then the vultures come. Yes.

They smell the blood. Yeah. But if you're happy and you're, you know, true to yourself and you're confident and positive about it, what can they say? Oh, you're happy. You can't be happy. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I mean, if you have no zero shame, they can't, they don't smell one ounce of it on you.

There won't be any. Yeah, very much, very true, very true. And now, as far as, like, SEX is concerned, I mean, you were, you threw out there before, like, oh, my husband can't do gangbangs, DPs, all this. Is that all the stuff that you do in your movies? Yes, I'm not, listen, I think people thought I would come in and be very light, like, very, yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh, no, I want to be credit on all of it. Oh, I love it. I do more things than a lot of girls in this industry do.

Like, I found I was very good at anal. with very large members. Oh, interesting. Okay. Yeah. So, and I, yeah, and I just did this DP for this, for this film we did. And, you know, I have like so many, I have all these acts, gangbangs, orgies. I've done all of them.

It's just so fun to me to just take it to the next level and explore and stuff. And I'm not somebody who's, you know, going to shy away from a challenge, I guess. But I think it's a fun challenge. And, again, it's in this environment where it's controlled. like this we did a huge orgy but it's like so I don't know so orchestrated and you have to you know hit your marks in certain ways and it's it's just interesting um but it's it's a lot of fun

and uh you know the guys I work with I get to choose my cast who I want to work with oh that's cool so um yeah so I I'm very confident in a lot of people that I that I have I'm not just like surprised one day somebody comes in so I get very top line talent so I'm very fortunate in that way just you know being the contract star like that that i do get all of that say so um so yeah i've had some wonderful talent to work with but it would be very very hard in real my real life to go out even if i was single and whatever to go out and find guys who wanted to do a double penetration i mean

it's not easy and how you're going to find people you necessarily trust or won't do something or some it's it's it's not like this way it's just a way that i can express my myself in this safe controlled environment. Yeah. I mean, it's all, like you said, it's all orchestrated for you. I mean, but you're still getting to live out your fantasies. Yes. You're enjoying all this, all this exploration.

Oh, yeah. Yeah. Quick question about your husband. Then I have more specific questions about like the sex stuff that you're into. I mean, has, was the journey for him easy? I mean, were there any time during this whole thing that he got jealous or he was freaked out or was he always completely fine with it? You know, I was actually talking to him the other day.

He said he would get like a little twinge in the beginning, like, oh, is she going to fall for this guy? But then he said it would quickly take over to the point where, wait, she's hot and she's doing this. I think he really enjoys seeing me in my full sexual power. You know, like he's not a cuck. He doesn't care about the guys or the, you know, all that. Yeah, yeah. Like watching that or any, that doesn't like interest in. but he does love seeing me like truthful and empowered in my sexuality.

So he thinks that's very hot with me. So he says he says that he's never gotten jealous to the point where he would like he never did anything or tried like argued and stuff like that. Yeah. But but he'd feel a twinge in the beginning now. It's old hat. He knows most of the people I work with anyway. So, but yeah. So that was like he with the girls, it was not a twinge.

He says he's never had any problems with that. And he, you know, understood that. And he likes that probably better than, you know, anything with the guys. Right, right. But, yeah, just in the beginning, probably a little bit. But he, yeah, he's very comfortable with it now. But yeah, probably, you know, a little bit. And what about your guy's sex life?

Did this add to it? Because here you are going out and having all these, like amazing experiences. And then you come home. Is it like, oh, the guy who's cooking cookies all day, and bro doesn't want to fucking eat them when he gets home? Or is it like makes you more horned up? Because you just had all this action. Now you want to go home and do it with your husband.

Oh, yeah. I mean, maybe not on the same day. Yeah, yeah. But it does. Yes, it definitely adds to the action.

And I learn new things. And I'm very like he likes. Like I'm very sexually empowered. And I, I am very like much more comfortable with myself. And because, you know, when I very,

very, very first knew, I wasn't so comfortable with my body and my sexuality and myself. And I was trying to be just like, you know, a very, vanilla kind of person but now it's exciting and stuff so it definitely adds to us but also i also like a different kind of sex with him more of an intimacy like more of a not the acrobatics all the time and and all that it's it's different it's just different it's much more of an emotional intimacy as opposed to

you know this act this this this big acrobatic kind of thing that's fun and challenging and thrilling but then there's like the sex at home that's well we do can add some of that to it it's i like really enjoy the intimacy of it all and the safe feeling of, you know, being home and comfy and having that wonderful, you know, warm sex. Yeah. So it's like apples and oranges and you have both. Yeah. Yeah, you get both. Right. Yeah, which is kind of amazing, right? Yeah. It is. It's really amazing. I am very fortunate. Yeah. And now, are there any, I mean, you said that you found out you loved anal and you could take really large insertions. Is that something that you tried for the first time there? It's like, did, what kinds of the things did you learn about sex from doing porn?

Well, it's interesting. I had done anal in my personal life, but I mean, these dicks in porn. I mean, they're 12 inches. I mean, come on. Oh, my God. I mean, seriously. Yeah. You're not going to find it.

Even though my husband is very nice, it's not 12. It's not a foot long. Yeah, yeah. So I did find out, and in the book I write a whole chapter on anal preparation, that was a big deal, too. because it's not just doing anal sex, it's preparing for it, cleaning out and making sure there's nothing like, you know, coming out that you don't want to be seen on film. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And it was this whole thing, but I did find out that I do anal sex with large cocks very easily because the other day I was on a scene. And I actually actually had an accidental anal anal where there was a lot of lube involved.

And all of a sudden, it went all the way up and I was like, oh, we're going here. They're like, no, we're not. This isn't an anal scene. Oh, my God. That's hilarious. It just lit in the other hole. Wow. Huh?

It just slid in the hole. Yeah. It just went right in and I was like, fine. And I, yeah, so I have a, I found I can, I have a very nice anal cavity, I guess. Because a lot of girls have to have, some girls have trouble. It's just how you're built. It's some girls have a lot of trouble opening up all the way, all the way up in there, you know. I mean, I always wonder, and I'm sure it's somewhere in the middle.

But like when you're watching porn, you're like, wondering, is these real or? orgasms or are they not? And I love anal. I'm a three input girl. I've always been into it. So I know about it. And I know that. Like the more horny you get and the more you feel fucking good, like the more you open up and you could do anything could get in there.

So you must be really turned on or you're loose in your asshole. I don't know. Oh, I really totally am. Yeah. Like we are having orgasms. Yeah. Sure, you have to do them to the camera and you have to think about like that kind of stuff. Yeah.

But of course, these guys are professionals. They really know what they're doing. It's not like just some random guy. It's like these guys know what they're doing. And, you know, so yeah, it's definitely a turn on. And you're right. In order to have a good anal, you have to be relaxed and turned on to really like open up and feel great about it. And I, yeah, really, you know.

And once you're having sex for a little while and you get turned on, that's when to go for it. Don't just like go in dry. That's why every woman hates anal because some guy in their life at some point said can I. And she's like, okay, and he shoved it in. I'm like, you can never do. I can do that. It's a worse. I know.

And you know, and Minuthorne absolutely know this. So you do warm up. Like you do do that. Right. And but it was funny. The first time I did anal, the guy, super sweet guy, Manuel Fuerre, he was really like, okay, we're going to take it slow. We're going to do this.

He was very kind. It was like, I was like, okay. And then he goes, he's a spooning is actually the easiest way to do it. First. Oh, interesting. Okay. Yeah. So that's what he told me and he was right.

But he did it and he was like, okay, I'll pull out. We'll, like, relax if you need to. But the thing is, it went all the way in. We just went the whole scene for like 35 minutes or whatever. Oh, my God. He was like, wow. I just was like, let's go with it if you're okay. He didn't realize what a professional you were.

And I was so proud of myself afterwards. Do you remember your first gang bang? I mean, what's the most amount of guys you've had in one of your gangbangs and your movies? Um, four. Four. Yeah. And I had my first gang ring last year and then I just had, oh, another one that hasn't come out yet. That's going to be.

That actually, I'll just give the audience a preview. It has an anal train in it. Oh, my goodness. But that hasn't come out yet. But I had a gang bang last year. And it was funny because it was cool because Danny Mountain, Hawaii was the first guy that I did my content with that, you know, he was in it. So it was kind of like a coming full circle. Did you pick him or did they set it all up?

They suggested, but I definitely said, yeah, let's have Danny. I want Danny there. It'll be fun. Yeah. But yes, it was both of us. And then I had another guy that I knew and just a group of four great guys who were so helpful with it. But the most thing about that is that I realize it's so hard when there's like, to put

it to mild, all these dicks flying at you. Like you really, it's a lot. lot of work. It's a lot of work if you're the only one. And Orgy is much easier because it's, you know, it's kind of in and out. There's girls. There's a lot of people. But man, if you're the only one with four guys, it's like you're, the tension, you have to go back and forth and back and forth. And like, it's super enjoyable, but I was, like, the athleticism of it is, it's definitely required. It's a lot of work. A lot of decks. I lost so many earrings. I lost, like, I lost hair. I lost, eyelashes, hair, I lost everything in that shoot.

Oh my God, that's hilarious. Did you, like, learn anything? I had, like, any tricks while you've been doing porn? Like, did you go from not being able to squirt to, to be able to score to, or were you, like, are you multi-orgasmic? Like, can you do those things? Or did you learn them through doing so much porn? I've always been multi-orgasmic, especially if I have one orgasm, I can have a bunch.

Right. It's getting to that first orgasm, then once you do, I can do a, it's, I've always been like that. Yeah. But squirting has actually been the most difficult thing for me, but I have learned tricks about it. What are they? Well, you definitely have to be hydrated because it comes from a place of like you have to have like fluid, like hydration in you. So you definitely have to be hydrated.

So a lot of girls will drink like pediolite beforehand. Oh, I never heard of that. See, these are those little tricks that you know that we don't know. Yes. Because it makes you so hydrated because if you're dry, if you don't have a lot of hydration in you, there's going to be no fluid. There's, you know, it's just naturally because you're not going to have fluid in your body. Right. So that is a trick, the pedia light.

Although, you know, it's squirting is in the scene is hard for me because I'm like so into the orgasm and all that kind of stuff that I'm not somebody who just naturally projectile squirts. So it's more of a, so it's more of like I need to warm up a lot. That's my thing. I need to, I figured out that I generally squirt better when I'm like, we do it slowly, slowly, not like when we're in the middle. to have seen and really like in the drama and the acrobatics of it all i like to do it when it's like we can really you know build up to it but yeah pediolite is it and i learned like on your period you use a sponge like not a tampon like a cosmetic sponge and you put it up there and guys and guys in porn are so like not they don't even think about periods they'll dig it out for

you at the end they don't it's like they're so open minded not that they shouldn't be but a lot of guys in real life are kind of like, oh, God, period. Yeah, yeah, yeah. These guys are used to it. Also, like, we use setafil, like face wash is used a lot of times for photos for the cum shot on your face. Oh, that's so funny. I love these little insider to.

Yeah. Yeah. Because, first of all, they can't come twice if we're doing photos. It would be bad for them. They wait until the scene to come. Yeah. And so if we're doing photos first, so we just do the setafil and also shows up better on camera. That's so funny.

That's what they use as jazz. Sadaful. Yes. Either that or what's that stuff called? It's certain lube that's spunk lube. Spunk lube. But it's the same thing, really. It looks the same.

So wait a second. You have an only fans too. I was just going to say, though, let me just say this first. Like obviously because you were doing stuff before like videos and everything for your Patreon. I mean, did you realize you were an,

I would assume you're an exhibitionist. That's what I was going to say, right? I mean that you do you get off on knowing that people are watching you getting turned on by you? Yeah, I love that. And I discover that. You're right. I discovered that more when I started doing my social media posts. I really found that that was such a turn on for me.

And then when people are watching me on Patreon and OnlyFans, it's so much of a turn on. That is definitely something. Like I loved the scanty outfits and being shocking with that. Right. It was so much fun for me. And what do people get on your OnlyFans that they don't get on? because you have your movies and you and stuff and you're do you still have that patreon? I still have it although it's not like it was and a Patreon changed a lot of rules too.

Yes. They used to be a lot more open with stuff than they are now. But yeah, I still have it for my very core members. And yeah, people can sign up to it if they want for me. It's Maitland Ward. But but then I have like the majority of everybody is on the only fans because I like have like 30,000 subscribers on there and like. You must make so much effing money.

It's amazing. But on there, I get to be, I get to have my personal stuff. And I make so many custom videos for people. Oh, interesting. Where they get, you know, I say their name and I do what they want. And it's cool because a lot of times I get a lot of ones that were they just want me to like dirty talk and dominate. And like during the pandemic, I got things like they wanted to pretend like they were out on a date with someone or on a date with me or they met me to bar because they couldn't meet people and they couldn't be with people. So it was like, yes, it was really cool.

to have that really human interaction with people. And I did a lot of live shows. I do that. And, you know, I just sell a lot of picture sets and videos and things like that. So, oh, so you do live show, meaning like live streams and people are watching you? What do they see? Like, you, like, have you having sex? Or do you set up, like, little porn shoots there?

Is it just you solo? I do more solo stuff. But during, like, especially during the pandemic, I had, like, a plastic doll guy, like a whole torso. Mm-hmm. And he had, like, a straight-up dick. and no head. So I was like, look, he's always ready.

And he never talks back. So he was quarantine man. Oh, my God. So I do that. But I'll do with dildos and vibrators and stuff. I don't generally have somebody with me. I mean, I think I might coming up, though. It might be fun.

But especially, you know, I do a lot of solo stuff on there. Now, you said that people were super supportive when you came out. I mean, in the industry, when we're talking like, and you don't have to give names or anything, but were you surprised, like, or did, like, anyone reach out to you that? you were surprised of. And what about your cast? I can't believe I forgot about that. Like how were...

You're from Boy Meets World? Yeah. I have to say Trina, who played Angel. She was very supportive. Actually, she was vocally supportive when I first came out. And later on Will Fridel, he's been over the time he calls me and he texts me and he's very supportive. He says he won't watch anything because I'm like his sister.

Yeah. But he says he's very supportive. And actually, somebody I wrote about a lot in the book was Michael Jacob. was the executive producer. After the book came out, we actually had like an hour and a half conversation. He called me. Oh, wow. That's cool.

Yeah, and we talked out a lot of stuff. And it was very good. I mean, it's been a lot of years. So a lot of time has passed since all of that. And I had a lot of troubles back then. And I talk a lot about that. But I have to say I'm so happy that he wanted to speak to me like that. And we had a good in-depth conversation.

And he said he's proud of me. He said he's very proud of me. But other than that, it's been crickets from the cast. Oh, really? And I know Danielle, I think she has a real problem with it. Like when Girl Meets World came around after, you know, spent off from Boy Meets World. You know, she had been to my wedding.

And we had a great time. And she was wonderful. And I thought, wow, we're grown up now. We can be friends. And before, like, when I was on Boy Meets World, she was the team so much younger. four years younger, three or four years younger, it's like, oh my God, she's a child and I'm an adult. But now it's like nothing.

Of course, yeah. But then I came to the set of Girl Meets World for the pilot just to see, and she didn't want to talk to me. She didn't want to say hello to me. Oh, wow. And she didn't invite me to her wedding. That was her first wedding. And I had written her a note on Facebook saying, I just want to tell her congratulations. I think you're going to be beautiful, all this stuff, and give her a little advice.

But she says she never got it. And I think she actually did not probably get it because she had actually unfriended me on Facebook. But so, yeah, I don't know what the difficulty there is because back then I wasn't even doing porn. And not to say that she should judge me because I'm doing porn. I hope that we could be friends just because we were friends and we work together. And I don't think you have to support everything I do or agree with it or whatever. But I like, I respect you for being my co-star and being somebody that I spent time with. And I, um, somebody said no matter what, the cast is always going to be together, no matter

through time. We're never going to be able to be apart from each other really because we're connected in that time and space throughout, you know, and it keeps airing and stuff. So, um, so that was, that's an interesting thing. And I hope in the future we can talk. But yeah, other than that, not that I expected Mr. Feeney, Bill Daniels to say anything. I please, like take him out of the equation. Of course. But my contemporaries, that was the thing that was like more hurtful.

But did you get any support that you were surprised from? I mean, not even just from the cast, but just from people in the industry that, not the porn industry, but the regular entertainment industry that came to support you. Because I think it's pretty brave what you did. Yeah, you know what's interesting? I think in the beginning when they,

some people saw that I was doing Patreon, I was doing these things, they probably thought I was crazy or whatever I was doing. But once they saw the success I was having and how happy I was and how it was winning, awards and I was like making films that I was proud of. They really started to come around. I started to get so much more respect from a lot of people in the industry.

And like people in the background too that you wouldn't know it like not actors. But like they would say, you know what? That's really cool. I love what you did. I'm so that's so empowering. And so they finally kind of saw, especially when I started my professional porn career, they saw, wait a minute, this is something that's, that's different. And she did something.

She took it into her own hands and is in control of it. And she's happy and she's having success. And so I think a lot of people actually surprised me with that. Like old producers or people like who would work behind the scenes, they call me and they're, or they text me and say, well, I'm really empowered by that. Yeah. So, yeah, that was, so I definitely think there was a lot of people. And what's, I mean, because you've been in the entertainment business and you were successful

there. Now you're very successful in the porn business. Like, what's the difference? Do you feel? I would assume you probably feel. feel more free in the porn industry? I mean, or is it just as fucked up as the entertainment industry or is there a very big difference? I mean, is it like anything else where there's good stuff and bad stuff?

Of course, it's like anything else. Of course, I work at a very high end level. Yeah. Just like with main, like I, you know, I was actually told by a producer, don't say mainstream in porn because it's not. You're an actor. Whatever you're doing, you're an actor. You can act in whatever genre you want.

I think that was a good piece of advice, although I have to differentiate. some on these things just so people understand but um when like in the porn industry i definitely feel free i can be myself i can do what i want to do i have i have such like power and and i can you know take control of you know the reins of my own destiny um in but you know what if you were starting out there might be some creepy guys that would you know lure you to do things that maybe they're not a reputable company just like in uh hollywood maybe yeah totally independent filmmakers or photographers like lure you into doing something you don't want to do it's true everywhere i think um but i think in porn the problem is if something like that happens people aren't listened to like

women aren't listened to like during the whole me too movement a lot the porn women who had had any problems coming up or it had issues with i don't know directors or or whatever in the past they weren't listened to or their their testimony wasn't given the weight of mainstream actors Yeah. Because, oh, you do sex for a living. You should just always accept it. But no, you do sex on your own terms and with consent. Just like before every scene we do, we have to give consent and sign paperwork and talk about it and show our IDs and say on a film that you want to do this.

And so I think that normalizing the industry, like not making it perfect or evil is what is the goal because we just want to see it as something normal that people, they can have a conversation with. can talk to and it's not it's integrated into society without the taboos and stigmas and it doesn't have to be perfect like nothing's perfect in life but but if they're able to talk about things if people have a problem then it can get fixed and find a resolution much more than if it's like pushed aside is taboo and we you don't deserve to have a voice on this so um so i so i think that yeah normalizing it is is the main goal and do you have any part of yourself that like oh in 20 years you wish you could maybe do something more mainstream and get back into that world? Yeah, definitely.

And like I filmed a television pilot last year where I was able to be a producer on it. It's a very positive look comedy sitcom on the porn industry. And so that was amazing to be back on a set for a comedy in mainstream. And it was kind of bridging both worlds. But I definitely think so. I think the world is changing. I think there's some people out there that want to like cancel. horn and all that. But I think the voices of younger people, and I really see this in younger women and

stuff who are really empowered by, you know, taking control of their own sexuality in their 20s and 30s and stuff. So I, my hope is I can do a mainstream project, hopefully like sell my film, my book rights too of my story. But I hope there's a mainstream project where it would be on streaming, of course, because they're already so close with shows like sex life and everything, where there would be like a full scripted movie and have sex in it. not like it is in porn where it's like 45 minutes of sex. Exactly. Maybe it's five minutes and just glimpses of it and where it's like, it's like really hot.

And it takes the scene very organically into this like really hot place and actually has a story points with it. Because you've seen so many movies where it's like, oh, that's so hot. They're together. And then it cuts off. I think the thing that porn locks at, you're saying what you wish would be would be like a story about a woman. and there's like she has a full life and you see all that. And then you actually see her really enjoying sex too as opposed to porn. Yes.

The woman is like, oh, it's like she's getting fucked and it's like the hot part of it. Absolutely. And I'm fortunate with my characters like on deeper.com. I'm always very much the one who's in control of my pleasure. And I like, I never play characters that are like succumb to this like stereotype of women just being fucked and abused or whatever. I actually, I probably abused a few. men and my son in that show.

Yeah, I tie some people up and I, and they were funny. I've never actually ever played a milf either. We really steered away from that. Not if there's anything wrong with it, but I've always wanted to be not labeled anything. But then I also say my characters would never have children because she'd probably eat her young.

Because she's like, yeah, she's, I have different characters, but they all are very, um, very sure of what they want sexually. Yeah. And they're very much enjoy what they have, what they have, what they want. So, um, so that's been really cool. It's such a, so against stereotype that you

would think of and being that it's fulling, fooling feature films that have these sex scenes that are hot and they add to the story. I've been really fortunate to make something like that. Yeah, that's great. I didn't ever even heard of that. Deeper.com. I had neither. It's amazing that to me in the industry that I didn't realize that women directors are so prominent and they're, they win awards and they win the, like they make, there's several women directors who really, are making films. I mean, Caden was really the first, and she does it the best. I am biased, but we have the biggest productions and the biggest money towards productions and to make it really professional. But there's some other films that are amazing, and they're made by women,

and they're winning awards, and they're getting recognized. And I don't think people realize that the porn industry has such a female force in it. Yeah. That is, is creating things. So what would be your one movie if you wanted to tell people to go and watch it, that you're the most Well, we have out now. Well, right now, my movie Drift is out, and it's actually a very dark, metaphorical kind of story. It's my journey, but it mirrors my journey in a very dark way. It's like natural-born killers meets Wanda Vision. Oh, my God, I love it.

Yeah. But I like him, this America's sweetheart sitcom star. It's not Boy Meets World, but it's a sitcom. Basically, we kind of, like, we kind of jump genres, too. We go from, like, 50s, 60s, like, all this really, like, cool. special effects and stuff. And then I step off the soundstage and I find myself in the, you know, dark of night like down this road where I find these different sexual adventures and escapades and stuff. But I'm really finding like my deep, dark part of myself that is a

truth of myself. And it really marries at the end very well. And I think it's really cool. And it's something like we've never done before. It's, it's really special. So it's on deeper.com right now. Drift. Okay, cool. So people could find you, that's one of your newest movie. They could also get your book. And I have my first DP. I have my first DP in that movie?

In that movie. Oh, there you go. Wait, so, and then people could get your book X rated, right? I mean, rated X. Rated X. How porn liberated me from, that's available on anywhere you could find, like on Amazon, whatever. Yeah, Amazon, anywhere. Amazon, Barnes & Noble, your bookstore.

I don't, yeah, it's available. And the audio book is really selling really well because I read it all myself. Oh, there you go. Did you write your whole book since you were a writer and you were doing all the erotica? Did you write your book? Yes. I wrote no ghostwriter, nothing. It was every word of it.

But I had a great editor who streamlined to me. Yeah, yeah. But yeah, it's funny because people think, oh, you're a celebrity memoir. You had a ghost writer. No way. I wrote every single word of my book. Yeah, that's hard. That's amazing.

And then I read it. And it's so weird reading it back to yourself. Your whole life story back to yourself. But it's healing. But I mean, I think there's something very therapeutic about, doing something like that for anybody to write your life story and put it out there and then like you said to go back and read it as a third person both of those things is amazing yeah for sure it's the amazing it's so amazing psychologically just to go back and see your life and see what you did and things

you make mistakes you made good things you did things you should have done like anything you just like go back on it and see what it's like yeah not only putting it out i think writing it out and letting go of it is one thing is part of it and then watching it or reading it or seeing it from the outside is another thing. I know that when people call into my show and tell their whole story, they always will be like, oh my God, that was so amazing to like tell somebody for the first time all this stuff.

And then when they, but I'm like, but wait, wait until you listen to it back. You're going to get even more out of it, you know? And that's what it is. I'm sure you got even more out of it when you were able to see your bold journey

as that third person. And you get like so, and I think that's another, that just takes it to a whole other level. And that's amazing. for you. Yeah, it's true. It's true. It really does. And I learned so much about myself just doing it through this whole process. And yeah. Yeah, and it's amazing because what you did is you didn't, is you're helping so many other people. I really believe by putting that stuff out there. I think it's super brave. It takes

total balls. I think it is the perfect time, which is great. And I hope everyone goes out and buys it and checks you out on deeper.com. Go to you. They can find you on OnlyFans, Twitter, Instagram. all that good stuff. I'll put all your links. Thank you so much for calling in and sharing your story. Thank you. I really appreciate this conversation. Yeah, it was awesome. Thanks, Maidland. Thank you. Bye.

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