Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 648 - Mara is in a Situationship with her Husband and her Lesbian Lover

Episode Date: June 14, 2023

Mara is in a situationship with her husband and her lesbian lover and she called in to talk all about it. When did she realize she was into women? How did she get a free pass from her husband to hook up women? And, how did it turn into a situationship? Tune in for all the details including how and why she wound up telling her husband she was into women, how he felt about it at first and the parameters they set up, how and why he wasn’t into joining in, how she went about looking for a girl to hook up with and how she met the girl she fell for, why she fell so hard for her, how and why her husband felt uneasy before her first hook up, how the girl she met was married as well and why she was looking to play outside her marriage, how her wife felt about her finding a hook up partner, their first meet-up and how it went, their first hook up and exactly what went own, how and why hooking up with the girl made sex with her husband even better, how she was trying to set up a threesome and why it never happened, how and why she enjoys oral with women more than men now, how her husband felt about her copping feelings for the girl, how her new girlfriend feels about her husband, how and why the girls wife shut it down and how she feels about it, why she’s willing to wait it all out and not find someone else to hook up with, how her friends know and how they feel about her situationship, how her family found out and how they felt about her being bisexual, why she should go out and meet other people but why she doesn’t want to plus a whole lot more. **To see anonymous pics of MARA + anonymous pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Mara is in a situation, a relationship, a threple, a poly relationship. I don't fucking know. She's in a confusing situation. It wasn't so confusing when she emailed me, okay, But it got confusing, like last night. Okay, but for three months, the past three months, Mara's deal is she is married. She asked her husband, who she's been with since, you know, since high school, if she could, like, hook up with a woman. She had always wanted to hook up with women, had some, like, making out encounters when she was younger, but never, like, the full-on thing.

So he allowed her. He wasn't that into it at first. He has his reservations. She explains about all of that. and she went on like some app and met a girl. And this woman was also married, but to a woman, okay, which is a little twist there. They started hooking up. She talks all about their first hookup, their second hookup.

She talks about how she, you know, realized she really loved going down on women. And she started to caught feelings for this girl. So it was wound up to be way more than a hookup on both of their sides, okay? so much so that on the girl's side, her wife, her partner, decided to shut it down. Just last night they had a whole terrible meeting hookup where the girl told her she's not allowed to see her for like a month because things got messy. Not on her end though, not on Mara's end. It's very interesting that Mara was able to start seeing this girl, even though her guy didn't really want her to. he allowed her to and he doesn't like to hear all the details but he knows and she's very honest with

him and he knows that she actually fell for this girl and he's okay with it and it has not affected her feelings for him if anything she says it has made her grow closer to her husband uh she is completely like in love with her husband and everything's good there but also has feelings for this other girl she's like devastated that she can't see her for a whole month uh it's a very messy situation. It's ongoing. There's no resolution right now. Like I said, she's like literally like on a break now and it's hard for her. And we talk all about it. So anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Mara. Oh, and I do have an anonymous pick of Mara. So if you want to put like a body to the story, you know, because everyone remains anonymous, there's no face shot of her. But if you

want to get an idea of what Mara looks like, before. you listen to this episode or after join my Patreon. Patreon.com's strictly anonymous podcast. I'm going to be right back on with Mara. Hi, Mara. Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm good.

How are you? I'm good. Now listen, this is the story that I got from you. Though you did tell me before we got on and started taping that there's even more drama that's going down, which I was slightly excited about, you know. But what I know already is that you're married, to a guy. You got a free pass to hook up with a woman. You love nothing more than going down on

girls now. You have one girl. You're seeing last, you emailed me. You couldn't wait to fuck her with a strap on. And you were trying to coordinate a threesome, but we're having difficulties on both ends. So I'm like wondering is like the drama that the girl is now like hooked on you and your husband is jealous? Like I don't know. Is this like some fucking situation ship? Thruple, poly, I don't know, what do you label it? Like, what's going down? I don't really know how to label it. I refer to her as my girlfriend. Oh, you do. But it's kind of like this weird, Polly situation that we did not intend to fall into. It was supposed to be very casual, and it quickly, feelings got involved. Okay, so let's go back. Now, how long are you married

for before? Like, how long have you been with your husband for? I've been with him since high school. Okay, since high school. How old are you now? You sound young. I'm 37. Okay. And he's so now, had you ever hooked up with women before? No, I mean, I made out with girls in high school who hasn't. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But no, I had never been intimate with a woman before. I wanted to, but I had never been. Right. And I'm assuming that's why you brought it up to your husband. So like what was going down? Like you had always just, was always like a fantasy as yours? Was it some of yours? Was it something that you talked to your husband? about before he gave you that free pass? Like, how does it come up? Well, it's been something that I've

wanted for a really long time, but I was nervous to bring it up. I listened to your podcast like all the time. I was like, you know, that could work. That could be fun. So I was really nervous. So I just kind of brought it up in like a joking manner. Like, I would be like, you know, if you let me have a girlfriend, I wouldn't be so needy all the time. Or, you know, if I had a girlfriend to hang out with, like kind of just joking, but I'm feeling out like what he would say. And eventually I just flat out was like, I want to fuck a girl. Right. So when you were saying girlfriend, you were like, you're not thinking you're going to like cop feelings or anything. You're just like wanted to hook up with a girl. Yeah. Yeah. It was just kind of like a joke. That's how I was just feeling it out to him.

And then I just flat out of it one day after me had sex. I was like, you know what I want to fuck a girl. What did you say? Like, hey, listen, I like I have a little. a fantasy to be with a woman? Like, was he turned on? Uh, no, surprisingly not really. Like, he's very, we're very vanilla. Our entire marriage has been very vanilla. So he didn't seem like it was something that, like, turned him on, but he was just like, I would be open to that at some point, but, you know, maybe not right now. So we talked about it for probably months. And finally, I kind of just, like, jumped the bullet. My coworker has this app that she uses. And, and And she, like, uses it to hook up, like, it's for, like, threesomes or ethically non-monogamous or

poly people. It's not, like, a typical singles app. So I asked him if I could download the app with a stipulation. I won't talk to anybody. I just want to look. And he said, fine. Yes, that was fine. So I got the app.

And then I started wanting to talk to this one girl. And so I got permission. And it just kind of from there has progressed. Okay. But let's go back to. you now. So, you know, is it that you were always, like, when you're, like, playing with yourself or with your husband thinking secretly about women and had never brought it up to your guy before, but it was something that was like, right? So that was just, like, growing inside of you?

Like, why out of nowhere, right, did you decide to, do you think you decided at this point to say, like, listen, I want to go do it? Yeah, I mean, I feel like it's something that I've always thought about. Like, my very first crush as a child was another girl. Like, I always knew that I was by. I just never experienced that side of myself. So I think I'm 37 and I was like, you know what? Life's too short and I don't want to die before I fuck a girl. Right, right. But you did have a crush on a girl, though, too.

So there was a little bit of that going on as well. I mean, that little crush that you had might be a little bit more than someone that just wants to have sex with a girl, right? Right, right. Yeah, that's maybe why you have a little drama going on now. A lot of drama's going on right now. Yeah, yeah, wait. So listen, I think that a lot of people think like, oh, every guy's fantasy is like, oh, I want my girl to be with another girl.

But I know plenty of guys that would not want their girl to be with anybody, whether it's a woman or a man, you know, that they'd be jealous. I mean, so does he know every step of the way what's going on and how is he reacting? Yeah. So we had to set boundaries pretty quickly in rules. Like he had to be in control of the situation or it just doesn't work, right? or it just, you know, becomes more of an affair and not, you know, ethically non-monogamous. So he knew everything.

And the night before I was actually, so I talked to this girl on this app and then we started texting. And it became like an everyday thing. And I was on vacation in Mexico. And we just didn't get to like actually meet in person for a couple weeks. So the night before I was going to meet her, my husband was really upset. that I think he was scared. Yeah, of course. And he was a little emotional about it.

And at that point, I offered to, you know, we don't have to do this. We can just be done with it. And I don't have to meet her. And I can delete the app and be done with it. But he was like, no, you have to do this. Like, I can't be married to you knowing that you have this in the back of your head. Right. Now, tell me a little bit about this girl, like paint the picture.

Like, why her? What was it about her on that app that? you were interested in? She's cute and she's easy to talk to once we started talking. You know, first it was like a physical thing. But then when we started talking, it was she just, we had a lot in common. She doesn't live that far from me. She was in a similar situation except she's married to a woman where she, yeah.

So she's in a similar situation where she just recently opened their marriage within the last couple months before we met. So we had a lot in common in that aspect. Like she wasn't very active in any kind of lifestyle or anything. We're both kind of newbies. Yeah, but what's interesting, but what's interesting and very different in your guy's scenario is that your, you know, your guy can't give you what you're going on that app for, right? So in your relationship, that that's where it stands. In her relationship, she's already with a woman. Like, why did she decide that she needed to go start hooking up with other women. Like were there issues in her relationship or she just likes to, she just likes to have multiple partners. Do you know? There's definitely

some issues in their relationship. We'll get to that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, obviously. Because like I said, it's very different if she's with a woman and she's deciding to open. How did her girl feel about, like how did her wife feel about her going online looking for, you know, a side piece? Well, it was a decision that they had made before she went open. And she told me that she's told her they've been together similarly as long as I have with my husband. They've been together since they were in their late teens. Yeah.

And she said she always knew that monogamy was not going to be a thing for her forever and that she's been very open about that. So I think it's just something that she's always wanted to do. But her partner was not super thrilled about it, but knew that it's something that probably was going to happen. or, you know, their marriage would come to an end. So you guys both, kind of like the timing of lines, like at the same time you decided you just need to do this.

She also, for the first time, was it the first time that she was also dipping out? Yeah, it was. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. How old is she? She's the same age as me. She's a few months older.

Okay. And she was your type? What is your type? I mean, you know, like paint the picture a little bit. Like, how hot is she? You know, guys want that information. She's pretty hot. I'm not like super femme or super butch. I'm like in the middle. Like I like in the middle. Like someone that can like go camping and get dirty but then also do girly things too. So she's very petite, very sweet. I mean, did you have a type like when you were looking for girl? You know like no. So it's more. So a lot of it was personality too. Yeah. Most of it was personality and just how easy we connected. Like it was like we had been best friends forever. Yeah, that's important. I mean, listen, it's your first time. I would think, I think women are wired a little bit differently than guys, you know. I think a guy could go have a hookup and maybe not know anything about the other person and that's just how they roll. But I think most women don't roll that way. You know, like you just really want to have a connection, whether it's a guy or a girl. Even if it's just for a hookup, it just turned out that not only did you feel comfortable with her, it was like, it sounds like it was maybe even more than that right off the bat. Right. Yeah. I think lines are,

across almost immediately. Really? The amount that we were like texting and talking about things that weren't sexual. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Interesting. Because you're really meeting just to have a hookup. Okay. So let's get back to the night. So your husband's freaked out, but he doesn't want to hold you back, which is, you know, I get how he felt, you know. He was like in the horrible position, right? Because you don't want to, he loves you enough to not want to be the person that holds you back from something that he knows, he already knows this is what you want to do, you know? So if he stops, like there's, you're going to maybe do it anyway or eventually you're going to have to face it. So you wind up going the next day, right? You didn't change your mind. Okay. And what went down? So we met at like a little

coffee shop. It was very casual. I was so nervous. Even though I felt like I already knew her because we had talked so much for, you know, weeks at this point. Yeah. I was so nervous. And I'm awkward at baseline. So I was so nervous that I was going to be really awkward and she was going to be like, no, you are so weird. But, you know, she's a little awkward too. We're both a little awkward. So it was fine. But I, during the middle of the first time I met her, I started feeling really sick. And I wasn't sure like what was going on. I'm like, is this my nerves? Like, I felt really sick. So I kind of cut it short. Like, we just had coffee and we talked. We made out a little bit. and then I drove home and I had a fever and I ended up having COVID.

Oh my God, that's what I was thinking in my head. Yeah. Oh my God. Did you get her back from? You guys made out. Did she get COVID from you? No. No, she didn't.

So funny. I think she's immune to it. I mean, we made out a lot that day. Yeah, interesting. And was she a good kisser? Like, was there that instant chemistry considering? I think most of the time when you have that really good connection, like the attacks and that talking.

most of the time that chemistry is going to follow, I just feel like, don't you think? Yeah. Yeah, it was natural. After, after, you know, my nerves calmed down a little bit, it just flew naturally. It was, it was fine other than me having COVID. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's so funny. So you get fucking sick. Now, when you get home, like, what is your, what is your, how is your husband doing?

Fine. Okay. Yeah. So we kind of just like, well, then I was in quarantine. But when I came out, we just kind of started planning like weekly dates. We're still texting every day. We're planning like weekly dates. I think we went for like a walk or something very, you know, boring.

But we went for like a walk. And my birthday was coming up. So we got she rented an Airbnb because we're in this like kind of weird situation where we both have kids. We both have spouses. We're not going to each other's houses to have sex. Yeah, yeah, yeah. We're going to have to, we're like teenagers again trying to figure out where are we going to you know, have sex. So she booked an Airbnb.

But the fact that, you know, you're booking like a, like, you know, you're not booking a hotel for one hour already is like a red flag to your partners because you guys want to like, you know, get an Airbnb together. Like it's already a fucking relationship. Do you know what I mean? Like that's like a very committed. It's like the opposite of being noncommittal. You know, it's like the opposite of just a fucking hookup. Yeah. I mean, how long you book in this first trip for? Oh, we just did it for the evening for the night. Oh, okay. Okay, okay, I'm sorry. Yeah. We didn't even end up spending, no, we didn't even spend up, like spend the night.

We just hooked up and then we're like, oh, we had to leave early, sick kid. Oh, that's so funny. You just used their, they didn't know that you just use their house for a lesbian hookup. So good. All right, so go on. So she booked an Airbnb though for my birthday and I was like super nervous because I know what that means, right? Like, okay, it's time. Yeah.

Do what I've wanted to do. but I was so nervous. I went and got a Brazilian wax. Oh, no. Don't tell me you got a rash. No, but I've never had that before. So I'm like, okay, I'm going to go do this before our hookup. Yeah.

And I have to tell you, I had tears running down. During this wax, I did not expect that. Yeah. Can you believe how in there they get? I mean, it's pretty hardcore. Right. So I'm all prepped and ready and we go. And I think we just swung and got some beers and we had snacks or whatever there.

And we didn't end up eating any of those snacks. But she obviously knew because you're talking that you're a newbie, right? And that you've never gone down on a girl or anything like that. That's cool. Right. Okay. Yeah. She knew everything.

So, yeah, we ended up hooking up that night. I was so nervous. I had no idea what I was doing. It's very intimidating to be with. another woman. You know, men are easy. You just fuck them and they're happy. Right, right. But women, you know, you don't have to have any special

tricks. They're easy. But women, it's very intimidating. She's initiated, you know, the beginning of it or whatever. And it was kind of like, okay, it's now my turn to go

down. And I felt so lost. Like, I was like, I feel like I'm not doing this right or, you know, it was, it was a very awkward first time. I ended up, she didn't end up having an or she's going. Oh, my God. I was going to be one of my questions. Yeah, it was a very, it was very awkward for me. I didn't hate it, but I didn't feel like I, I don't know if I didn't have the confidence. I was so freaked out the first time. I just, I didn't want to suck, you know, I didn't want to be terrible at it. And listen, your first time is with a full on lesbian.

Okay, so, you know, I think that's even more scary. It wasn't like you were two newbies. I mean, this is a girl who was professional. I mean, this is all she's been doing. You know what I mean? This really was your first time. So I get why you'd be nervous. Yeah, yeah, I was nervous.

It was not a win in my book. But it wasn't terrible. Right. And she got you off, right? She went down on you. Like, how was that? Was that the first time you ever had a girl go down on you? Yeah.

Yeah, it was. Yeah, it was good. That was good. She's a little rougher than my husband. Isn't that interesting? You would think. Yeah. The opposite.

Yeah. Not in a bad way, but she's a little feisty. And I think that also is what kind of threw me off and made me a little bit more nervous because I was like, oh, this girl's like in it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That makes sense. She's fucking hardcore. Yeah. So was she cool, though, about it?

Like the fact that she didn't get off, like you guys were all good, right? Okay. Yeah. Yeah, it was fine. We continued to talk. We continued to, you know, we usually met, like, one day during the week, we would meet for lunch or coffee. And then another day, like, on the weekend, we would meet to hook up. Now, but wait, after that first hookup, okay?

Like, how was your husband after that? Did he ask a lot of questions? Was it kind of like, don't ask, don't tell? Well, he likes to know, like, some stuff. Like, he likes to know where we're at. Like, he wants to know, you know, he doesn't want to know every little detail, but he likes to know where we're at in our relationship. her and I, I would call it a situation ship and she would get offended by that.

But that's what I would call it. The situation ship, he felt better if he knew where we were at and it would just put, you know, kind of his mind at ease. I feel like in his situation, imagination can probably be a lot worse than reality. So emotionally, he just needed to know where we were at. And so he knew that we hooked up. I told him before I left that that was probably what was going to go down. Now do you come back and like do you are you like more horny for your husband less warning for your husband or no warning?

Yeah. So it did add to the sex with your husband. Yeah. I feel like we we have sex way more often than we used to. Interesting. And I definitely get off way more than I used to. That's interesting. Are you thinking about her or him or both?

No. No. No. Okay. I mean, has he noticed? Like, does he ever say anything about that? Yeah, yeah, I think he notices. And we make it at a point to go on like a date every Thursday night.

We do a date night. And we're definitely, you know, trying to spice things up on our end as well. So it's not just all this excitement on one end and letting, you know, my marriage kind of sizzle. It's not my plan. Yeah, well, what kind of boundaries did you guys get set up? Because it doesn't sound like you have many. I mean, you're seeing her once a week. You're texting all the time.

and you're also hooking up with her other times during the week. Like what were the boundaries that you had in place? So his boundaries when we went open was he didn't want me with numerous people. Yeah, stupid of him. It would have been better if you were with numerous people, sorry to say. It's true. He didn't want me with numerous people. And initially it was like no relationship,

like no relationship initially that was one of his things. like he didn't want me to have a girlfriend. It was, you know, friends with benefits. And he didn't want me with a bunch of people and no overnight visits, like no overnights. Okay. But obviously, he never wanted to be there. Like he didn't have that role.

It was always solo, right? It sounds like he just didn't even want to know it was happening. Just go do your thing and then come home. Right. See, he's doing everything wrong. That was another wrong thing he did. Do you know what I mean? You should have been right there with.

you. I've tried. Yeah, yeah, I hear you because you said that in your email. Yeah. So now you're continuing to see her and hooking up. Like what happens the next time? Like when do you get great at going down? Because you're like in your email. I think you put it all in caps. Like I love eating pussy. Okay. So now you're obviously a professional now. You know, I don't, I'm not, you know, with my husband, I don't like giving blowjobs. It's just something I just don't like doing. Okay. I hardly ever do that. And so for me to go down on her and actually enjoy it is like mind-blowing to me because I normally do not like oral sex. Like I don't like doing oral sex. I was joked that I'm the pillow princess and I joked with her before we even met like, you know,

in my marriage, I'm a pillow princess. So, you know, when you have sex with a woman, there's only so many things you can do, right? And that's, that's one of them. And so I enjoy, first of all, she has a beautiful fucking pussy. It is so tiny and so petite and just like, perfect. And I, I was nervous about that because, you know, sometimes they're a little wonky looking. And I was, I was nervous that it wasn't going to be an attractive pussy. But it is. And, and so that helps. That definitely helps. And now the second time when you did it, were you less nervous? Like, how did that second time go down? And where did it take place? Since you can't never do it at each other's houses. Is she always renting Airbnbs? Like, where do you guys hook up in the car? Yeah, so it was another

Airbnb. Okay. They're cheaper than hotels sometimes, right? Yeah. And they're a lot nicer. Our area is pretty rural and our hotels are pretty. Oh, dingy. Okay, so that makes sense. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So the second time we went to an Airbnb and we had sex for hours. And I think that's what kind of made me more comfortable was we had a lot more time. And so I go down on her. We do our thing and we realize that afterwards that this Airbnb that we rented, there was like a bed against the wall and it had like curtains behind it. Like it just looked like it was covering a window.

we opened the curtains after and it was a closet door to the actual house. What? Yeah, like it was like zip tide shut. So they could hear probably everything that was going on. Thankfully, I don't think anybody had rented the other side because there was no other cars. And when we left, it was pitch black. But we were like, what the hell is this? Oh, my God.

hilarious. So you just rented out like a part of a house. So there was another side to it. And it was like right there. Yeah, it was like an apartment or like a little just this. It was like on the back of a house. And so we thought we had, you know, full privacy. But then at the end of the night after we've been loud and doing our thing,

we realized there's literally nothing separating us between us and the other Airbnb other than a zip tied like accordion closet door. Wow. But nobody was there when you guys split. When we left, nobody was there. But I don't know about it. Yeah, you might have given someone a good time or not, you know, depending on who was on the other side. So the second time you had way more time and you did everything that time.

I mean, like you said, there's limited things. I know that you do want to fuck her with a strap on. I don't know if that's happened since you emailed me, but. It hasn't. I had the opportunity to do last night, but I can, we'll get to that part. Last night was a bad night. So it didn't happen. It didn't happen.

But we're not there yet. We're at the second time when everything's great. You spend hours fooling around. with her. You guys do everything you can do, right? With a woman, like you said, there's not much. Right. Yep. And I think at that point is when we, I think feelings really started getting more involved and we realized that, you know, this is not casual. I think everybody else knew that, but that's when I kind of felt like this is definitely not just a casual hookup and I'm actually getting feelings for her. Yeah, well, all that texting and all that shit. I mean, it really is only

your second time, but I think like all that communication that you had since the get-go plays a big part of it. Yeah. Her wife was at that point, I think starting to get uncomfortable with the situation. And I think that was the night that she told me that, you know, their marriage was on the rocks beforehand, but. Of course. It sounds like it was. Yeah. Yeah. Like, But that night, I think, was the night that she told me that she wasn't sure if they were still going to be married or what was going to happen. They were having some issues. And it was really starting to kind of affect us because I felt like, is this my fault? And I, you know, I was like, maybe you need to let me go and you need to figure out, you know, your own marriage.

And I remember that that was the night that I kind of, that's when I was, you know, sad about that. And I was like, you know, you got to let me go. If it's me that's causing the issue in your marriage, you've got to let me go and you've got to figure it out. And that's when I realized, you know, wow, I actually really like this girl. Yeah. And how are you feeling about your marriage at that time? I was feeling great. I feel like our marriage, you know, I'm not going to say it's all easy on our end.

But we get along great. We communicate. We have a lot of sex. We do date nights. So even though this has been hard, it has. hasn't really affected us negatively that much. That's interesting. So it's kind of like you're a little bit maybe wire to be Polly

because it's not like you falling for this other girl has affected your feelings for your guy. Right. No, not at all. If anything, I feel closer to him and I feel like I'm more attracted to him because he is allowing me to do this. And that just makes him like that much more sexy to me. That's interesting. Because I'm thinking like, oh, my God,

your poor guy, you know, you're like falling for this guy. He's going to be fucking left in the dust. But it kind of sounds more Polly because you're still emotionally with him the same way, if not more, like you're saying, which is very interesting. Which is funny too because I have, you know, family that are Polly and I know people that are Polly and that's not anything that ever dawned on me. Like I never would have imagined being in this situation. So it's just funny how it all kind of worked out, you know.

Yeah, totally, but she's not Polly. I mean, or that's not what's happening over there. Right. And that's one thing that the wife was really struggling with was how much we communicate, how much we, you know, I think that's, I think it's more the feelings that the emotions that are involved. She's fine with the physical, but the feelings were, you know, really. Now, did you ever meet the wife or anything like that? Like how long has this like relationship?

Because it sounds more like a relationship. Yeah. No more a situation. How long has your relationship with her been going on for? It's been three months. Three months. And so you've been seeing each other regularly now? Like that hookup and coffee or lunch thing has been going down regularly.

And like is her wife trying to put an end to it at all? So last night I met her for our weekly hookup night. And right off the bat. She started crying and told me that we can't see each other or talk for a month. Oh, here we go. Yeah. Yep. Did you guys, did she tell you that after you hooked up or before?

Before. Okay. If it was a guy, he would have hooked up with you first and then told you. Yeah. It was so different between men and women. Yeah. No, she told me right off the bat. And it was a very emotional couple hours.

And she, they're closing their marriage, meaning they're not going to be open anymore to other people for a month. And they're going to work on their stuff. And then in a month, this is the part that doesn't make sense to me. But in a month, they can open back up and her and I can go right back to where we're at. Yeah, that's, that's really confusing and messy over there. But it's interesting. How does she, though, feel about your marriage with your husband and your relationship with your husband? with your husband.

She's told me that she's been a little jealous at times about it. And so I was trying to, so she has met my husband, actually. He, we have like a little camp and he came down, her and I were hanging out at camp. And he came down and cooked us dinner one night. And that's the only night they've ever met. And she, she's been a little jealous of, you know, how, I don't know if it's how close we are or I'm not sure what it is. but that's what kind of is getting in the way of when I was trying to coordinate a threesome. Yeah, well, it doesn't sound like she's Polly.

It sounds like you are, but it sounds like, you know, maybe that's not what's happening with her. Especially like, is she into guys at all? She's been with one guy. Right. So now when you wanted to do a threesome, the threesome's with you and your husband, correct? Correct. How did you, what did each one of those people say when you brought it up to them? she said she would be open to it but she selfishly wanted me to myself right now and he was I think a little

creeped out by it and said the only way I would ever do this is if it's because you really wanted it. I would do it for you if that's what you wanted. Well isn't that what you wanted? I mean isn't that why it was brought up? Didn't you be like, well, that's what I fucking want. That's why I'm asking for. Right. I'm like you will love.

her pussy. I promise you. Yeah, yeah. And you would be totally fine with sharing her with your guy, right? Like, none of that bothered. No, it literally turns me on thinking of that, like, that's all I want to do. And do you tell him that? Yeah. And what does he say? He's freaked out by that? Yeah, he's never had sex with somebody he wasn't in a long-term relationship with. Right. He's that kind of guy. Uh-huh. Yeah. So I, I don't think that will happen. Well, unless you got, like, unless she came around for longer and they became friends, you know, like, I think he would need that kind of connection too, because he needs a connection to feel attraction to somebody. Like, that's the way he rolls. I know guys like that, right? He's just not going to, he's not just into her because she's got a beautiful pussy, like you say.

Like, a lot of guys would be like fucking down, right? But it's not your guy and you're lucky. That's probably why he's monogamous and you can trust him. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, you know, he's the sweetest. Yeah, you have that kind of guy. But so I think, you know, he would probably need to know her for much longer and she would need to be around and he would need to develop like a solid friendship with her or something.

Yeah, and I think it could get there. You know, we'll see what happens now. Yeah, well, this is the problem because it sounds like she has a very different scenario going down with her wife as well as with her feelings for you. Because like has she ever brought up or asked you any questions about your relationship with your husband? Not really. I mean, we talk about it, but. I mean, does she know that you're just totally in love with your husband and you have no plans on leaving him?

Yes, yes. We've talked about that. Yes. That's what I mean. Like she's brought that up because in the perfect world for you, would it like would it be that you would be with your husband and she would be your girlfriend and you would live with your husband and you would just see her on the side like it is down and that's how it would always be? Yeah. I mean, I would like to see her more, but yeah. And what do you think her perfect situation

would be? Do you know? I don't really know. I think she, I think she, I don't know what she wants, but she told me she accepts that like our relationship would never progress as a normal relationship. You know, we would never move in together. We would never be married. We would never, you know, because we've already done that. We already have that. So I think she has very similar expectations and wants that I have. But she's actually, she told me the night that we, the night that we went down to camp and she met my husband. She told me that she loved me actually that night. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And how do you feel about her? I care about her a lot. I I didn't say it back.

It's hard for me to not compare when I say I love somebody. It's hard for me not to compare that to my husband that I've been with for 20 years. Yeah. It's really hard to say not. Someone three months, you're comparing someone three months to someone you've been with since high school. Right. For her, it's very different because she's having issues with her wife. I mean, you know, I think it's, she might say.

say that she could accept that you're with your husband and you guys would never be together because she has this primary relationship right now, but it doesn't sound like that primary relationship that she has is on solid ground. And if she ever lost that or they can't get back on solid ground and she was like single, like I don't know how she'd be about this kind of situation with you. Like, you know, I don't know if like if she eventually, like, and I'm just projecting it to the future a little bit, like if she ever found somebody that would be her primary, like you, I wonder if that girl would still be looking outside. Like, I know that you said that she said she never wanted to be monogamous or anything, but it really sounds like she went

looking for someone else because she had issues. And I wonder if she was with somebody by herself and solo that she would really be looking for other people and would be able to roll that way. I don't know. I don't know either. I mean, I'm not the only one that she's with. Oh, okay. Well, that's important information. Yeah, she's got other people that she sees as well, but she told me that they're strictly physical and that she's like, I don't like text them other than like, where are we meeting? And she said it's very different and it's very infrequent. But she does have other people. Yep. Now, she's either that person who just says that to everybody and she does actually like them all or she's telling the truth, you know, what she was doing was hooking up all these people to try and find somebody else

to fall for because she has a room inside herself for that because something's going on in her primary. Do you know what I mean? Like I just really wonder if that girl is capable of being as open as you are. That's what I'm trying to say, you know? And at the end of the day, will you ever really be aligned? Because even if you're aligned now, it's because she has this issue over there, right? So you're filling a void probably of what she's not feeling at home, which is all that emotional stuff as well as the sexual stuff, right? But I wonder if she lost that relationship that she has at home and, you know, if she went and found somebody else that could actually really love her back without a guy at home, you know, and have something similar,

whether she would still have room for you or maybe she'd be taken up with that. I mean, that's not going to happen tomorrow. So you're still going to get your fill of it. of her, but, you know, you don't have her for like a month, quote unquote, like, you know, it just sounds like really messy and confusing over there. Yeah, it's very confusing. What I don't understand is if they're closing their marriage, you know, even if, say, I was just an ex, like, it just seems very controlling to me to say you can't even talk. Well, listen, they're trying to do that now and they're having all that now because they're

trying to save like a sinking ship. I mean, you know, listen, the worst thing to do is to open up your marriage when things aren't good. Like I said, it just sounded like from the beginning that she was out there looking for other women. It didn't sound like they were doing it together or for fun because why wouldn't her wife be a part of it? You know what I mean? Like it just, I get why you were doing it and why it works for you because at home you have something very different than her. He's meeting your needs for us. a man and she's meaning your needs for a woman. But like she had a woman at home and a relationship and the fact that she was so open to copying all that other stuff with you and falling emotionally,

I think it's because she had a void of that in her own relationship because to me it didn't make any sense. Because like does her girl go out and fuck other people? No. She has she has the permission to do so, but she does not. She doesn't want to. She doesn't. I think her wife is like a sex. honestly. So she's not getting late at home? Is that what she told you? Yeah. Right. But that's like a problem. Intimacy isn't just about sex and physical. Like that stuff brings you closer together on all levels. You know, so I think when that goes out the window, it really causes a problem in relationships. Not just the physical. You know what I mean? Like you're still connecting with your husband and that's important. And your sex is still is better, right? And you said it's better and you feel closer to your husband.

Why? Because all of that stuff is connected. Right. You know? With her, it sounds like it's driving a wedge. Because if it wasn't, her girl wouldn't be shutting it down. Why is her girl shutting it down? I think that the emotional part is really what was the driving factor there. And I think they just need to reconnect and figure out what they're doing.

You know, I don't know. This might be the beginning of the end for them. And like you said, listen, it's not you that's breaking them up. I don't think people wind up falling for other people when they are emotionally satisfied at home. Now, somebody like you, you know, like I said, you have like your needs met for your husband. You weren't looking for another guy. But, you know, you have this relationship with her and it's a separate thing and you're capable of feeling both. And it hasn't affected your relationship with your guy.

And that's how you are. but I feel like that's not what's going on over there. And I don't think most people are wired that way. Because I talk to a lot of couples who have open marriages. And, you know, the ones who wind up straying emotionally and it winds of causing a problem, they had issues to begin with, you know, because it's very rare if someone's having all their emotional needs met at home

to have room and space, especially for women, to go and really fall for somebody else. You know, typically the guy or the girl that's falling for the person at work, It's because like something at home is wrong. Sorry. Like face the fucking reality. Like that's like the way it goes. Like you could say anything like that's a whole scand of all thing.

Like sorry, something was really wrong there or else he wouldn't have gone and done that. You mean, sometimes there's just like hookups. But when there are emotional stuff going on in these kind of hookup situations, there was room for that to happen because something was lacking at home. And so there's problems in that marriage that I just wonder like is one month going to to solve it of them closing up. Like that's like you said, like that's most likely just trying to control and trying to fix something that's already broken. And the fix is not that. The fix is like what was happening before they even opened up their relationship. Do you know what I mean?

Yeah, it's very confusing. I've been today's day one of the month. I just saw her last night. So that was when I found out. Did you guys walk up though after she told you or was it just a big crying fast? We hooked up. Okay. So she told you cry, but you still hooked up because this is like your last time. I mean, I would think eventually you're like, oh my God, I got to hit that, right? Because this is your like, now what about you?

Have you been thinking about like trying to find somebody else? Like when it comes to that like female part of your desire, like, you know. I think she's worried about that because she did tell me if you don't want to be with me, please text me within the month, like tell me immediately, like if you aren't waiting for me anymore. So I think that's a fear of hers. You know, it's a lot of work to get on that app and like, weed out the duds. And it's a lot of work. And I probably would be easier to do that and to not have all this complication and drama in my life that I don't necessarily need. But I don't really have the desire to do that. I really like her. And I do think that if

she could get her shit figured out at home, that it's worth the wait. Right. And now when she tells you about their relationship, like did she bring up that they had been having a lot of problems or anything? Like how long has she been like hooking up with girls? She, she'd only been open, I think like two months before I met her. But did she tell you like her journey like you're telling me now? Like did you ask the questions like I'm asking like why they opened it up and so what was going on? She had only had sex once before she met her. wife, her now wife. So her wife was only the second person she'd ever been with. And I don't know if that was something that that made her want to open up or, you know, or if it was just the lack of physical contact at

home. I'm not sure. Right. So she did tell you that they were having like zero sex at home. What about like emotional intimacy? Like did she ever talk about their relationship outside of the bedroom? Yeah. I mean, you can tell by the way she talks about her that she loves her a lot. and, you know, she doesn't ever say anything bad about her. She's very, she, you know, talks about how she's a great mom and all those things. Right. It's very apparent that she loves her, but I'm not sure how close, you know, I'm not sure. I know they talk a lot, but it sounds like the check-ins that they have are not as positive as my weekly check-ins with my husband.

Yeah, but has she ever thought of whether she? could love two people at the same time like you can. Has that, have you talked about that? Does she feel like she's Polly as well? Yeah. Well, we don't really use the word Polly, but we talk about how like we can care about us the way that we care about each other and then still have our marriages and still love our partners. We've talked about that and how it's very different to us. Like how we feel about each other is very different about how we feel about our spouses. Okay. But we don't, We haven't really used the term Polly, but I think that's kind of what we're falling under. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but I just don't see her relationship as that.

But I don't have all the information, like what you're telling, what you just said there. Like, it sounds like she really does love her wife and everything is great except there's no sex. I mean, that's their problem. And but that does create like a wedge, you know, and that does leave room for this kind of stuff. And then it gets too messy. I mean, there's other people involved in this. But like, your husband is. is okay with you?

Like, does he know that she said, like, that she's in love with you? Like, how does he feel about that? I told him. He said he wasn't surprised because that night he had come down and cooked us dinner and he said he could see it in the way she looked at me. Mm-hmm. So he noticed that. Right.

Now, like, that girl at home that told her, like, you've got to stop fucking her. There's something wrong there. Like, that's where I just don't think it's, like, as clear as it is for you over there. over there because if it was her girl wouldn't be shutting it down. Right. Yeah. So I just wonder if she could really if she really loves you

and loves that girl at home different. Like listen of course she's been with her since the dawn of time too, right? She loves her but like is she still in love with her? I don't know. Yeah, I don't know. You know? Because she fell really hard and fast

for you and And I just always wonder, like, how could that happen in that short of a time if someone's totally happy at home? And how could they work on their relationship? Like, listen, I get why she shut that shit down. I mean, I just wonder if, like, a month is enough time. I mean, I think, you know, that's why I worry for you whether you might just have to wind up finding someone else.

Because if they were smart, you know, I'm sorry, but if they were smart, it's going to take longer than a month for them to figure their shit out. don't you think? Yeah, I do. I think the wife originally had asked for longer, but they, they like negotiated a month. Right, but the problem is, listen, your husband was smart. He's kind of like, I know that this is what you want. I can't control you. He allowed you to do it because he didn't want to be the one to say no. You know, eventually something's going to happen there if she continues to keep it shut down. Like I think that that's a smart thing to do, but I just wonder. how long it's going to last and how messy it's going to get.

And I just think that's the problem for you because I think that it's all confusing on her end. And you might eventually, if you don't want to be in this big sloppy mess, you might want to look for somebody that is more in line with you. I don't know because I just don't see that situation over there as being the same. And I don't think a month is going to make any difference. Yeah, I don't think it will either. You know what I mean? It's like a bandaid. And I just wonder the more she got, if she didn't have her wife, she'd be even more into you. And then she might be more jealous of your husband.

I mean, she was already jealous of your husband. Yeah. Right? Yeah. Yeah, I've got a lot of reflecting that I need to do in the next month for sure. Yeah. She'll probably be back and you'll have it. It just might be super messy for a while.

I get while you're going to wait for her because it is hard to find someone that you have that connection with. You really like her, right? as a person. I would assume at this point she's like a friend too, right? Yeah, I, I, that's what I miss the most honestly. It's only day one. And I'm like, she's literally one of my best friends right now. I talk to her all time about stuff. Yeah, yeah. So it's hard not to just text her and be like, oh my God, you'll never believe what just happened or, you know. Yeah. Now, how does your husband feel about this whole breakdown of your relationship? I mean, do you talk to him like you're talking to me about it? Uh, yeah, I talk to he's, I'm so open with him. Like you got to be, right? You got to be honest. Yeah. I mean, I didn't hide it.

I was crying last night when I went to bed and I was crying when I woke up this morning. So he obviously knows how I feel about it. Breakup. Yeah, it is. So he's like very sympathetic and like I'm so sorry. I know you're hurting. I wish I could make it better. And, you know, he's been very sweet. I'm very supportive. So I'm very lucky. Yeah. I mean, you're you're more lucky than she is. Like I said, it's just it's unfortunate. it but because I was wondering when you first called in if like that same thing was happening in your relationship like you know I was thinking like maybe you're going to wind up realizing maybe you're gay and you just want to be with her and you don't have feelings for your husband but that's not the case I mean it sounds like in your case it's you in the perfect world

it can exist that you have a girlfriend and everything's cool and you are still really in love with your guy and that's totally fine. Yeah, that would be the perfect world. I think that that could exist. You just need to be with somebody that's not having issues. I think the problem is that they were having issues in their relationship and, you know, maybe you get another woman who has a husband is more like you. You know, like, listen, I don't think it's over with her and she'll be back at some point.

It's hard to say no when you have all that chemistry and stuff and most of the time things don't just end one day and you never hear from the person again, you know. Right. We all know that's going to be a big sloppy mess for a while, right? But eventually, you'd probably be more suited for somebody who's more in your kind of situation than a woman who's with a woman. I think that was the first thing that I was like, oh, God, this is going to be a problem. Do you know what I mean? Yeah.

Yeah, it gets a little sloppy quickly when there's three women involved. Yeah, because it's like, why is she looking for other women and her woman isn't? Like it just sounds like there was something missing. And obviously there was because look at what's happening now. I mean, it really obviously is not working for them, having an open relationship, especially because she doesn't want to and then you throw in that she's not having sex with her wife, you know, so she's going out and looking. And obviously her wife is not happy with it because she shut it down.

Yeah. I hope they can, I hope that they can get, you know, to a better place. and that's been a big fear of mine is that they're going to split. I've thought that for three months, you know, and I don't want that to happen. Yeah, you shouldn't want that to happen. Yeah, no, I do not want that to happen. So, you know, a month isn't a long time, but I do hope that in that time and beyond that they're able to come to some sort of mutual ground and be in a better place because it would

definitely make our relationship easier as well. Yeah, for sure, obviously, because if she, like I said, if she, if that relationship ends then she's going to want I don't think she's going to be happy with the situation the way that it is and just be with you and I don't know it'll be even worse so I think you want her to and it's going to take longer than a month but you never know I don't know I'm not talking to her I'd love to have her I'm fucking showing here in her story because I think that there was like I said problems before and there you know you guys have a two different story very different stories and her story is the problem not yours yeah You know, and eventually. I can try to get it again. Yeah, but eventually, you know, you can eventually, you know, maybe meet if someone else, if worst case scenario that this breaks down eventually, which it might, you could go on those apps and eventually you're going to meet another girl that you would be down for.

Did it surprise you that you copped feelings for her? Yeah, I did not expect that. Do any of your girlfriends know? Yeah, it's pretty open. Pretty much everyone knows. Oh, that's cool. Younger people are so much open than older people nowadays. That's cool.

How were your friends? Like, what did your friends say? My friends in the beginning were like, she's a red flag. She's a red flag. They knew. They were right. But as the months have gone on, they've been, you know, a lot more supportive. Right, because they see that you like her.

But she was a red flag. I mean, look where you're at three months in. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. Family found out. and leaked it to people that I didn't want to know, like my mother-in-law. Oh, my God. How did your mother-in-law react?

I think she was pissed. Mm-hmm. But she's, everything's fine now. Everything. But these people didn't even know I was by. So for them to find out that I had a girl on the side, not knowing I was by, I imagined was a pretty big shock. Yeah, for sure.

I mean, that's like a big coming out and staying with your husband and everything. I mean, it's like a, that's a big move. And then for the whole family to find out, how did the mother-in-law find out? A family member found out and then told her she thought she already knew, I guess. I think it was meant, she meant to just tell her. I don't think it was an accident. I think it was just malicious, you know. Are you a one woman woman?

Like, have you ever, while you were seeing her, been looking for other girls on there as well? Or did you just want to be in the very beginning In the very beginning I was talking to another girl There you know a lot of the conversations there You don't really hit it off And there was one girl who I ended up video chatting with And she ended up being crazy Like as soon as I got on the video chat with her

She just took a big old bong rip Got high as a kite And it was just going on about Toxic masculinity And just going on Right on this rampage and I never talked to her again. Right. So you were looking and do you know that she was,

she had to cut it out with all her girls, right? Did she ever like talk about having a threesome with any of her other girls or anything? Or does she always want to keep you to herself? Yeah, we, she never talked about having a threesome with me. But she was talking to a couple. She was hanging out with a couple. But as far as I know, they never got intimate. Right.

And she was open to maybe. being with your guy, but your guy was the one who was kind of like, I'm not really that interested just yet. Yeah. Right. Yeah. I think with time, it would have gotten there, but now I don't think it ever will. Yeah. Listen, I think she'll be back around for sure. Like I said, especially if, you know, they're having issues and problems. Nothing's going to get fixed in it in a month. And maybe they'll open it up and close it back down. I mean, it typically breakups or endings or trouble times don't just, you know, they're not clean. They're messy. You know what I mean? Even if they want to. back together. It might be a year of hard times and she'll come back and forth.

I don't like, I think you will wind up, you know, fucking her with a strap on. I just wonder how it will end or if it does. But at the end of the day, you know, I feel like for you, what an interesting twist. Five years from now when you look back, like this was really pivotal. You learned a lot about yourself in this relationship. Right. How does your future look? Do you feel like you would always want to have a girlfriend? Yeah, I don't think this is the end for me, even if she doesn't come back. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But we will see.

She'll be back, I bet you, you know, for sure. Even if it's just the month, if she takes the whole month, you know, she'll be back. It just might be like super messy for a while. I want to know what winds up happening. Yeah, yeah. I'm sure you're going to have plenty. I'm sure you're going to have plenty of time more with her. When she told you, did you feel like you were never going to see her again?

Like, like, no, no, she was, she was really upset by, I could tell it was not a, like, a decision that she made. And she was like, you know, I understand if you don't want to wait for me, but I promise you, I will be in contact with you in a month. And it was very apparent that she was really hurt by this whole thing. So, yeah, I think she'll, I think I'll hear from her definitely in a month. what our relationship will look like. If not before, I just think. Let me know if I'm right. I think you'll still see her a couple times too,

even if it winds up eventually getting shut down. I just think typically endings of any kind of relationship never really happen clean like one time. I'm never seeing you again and that's it. You always go back a couple times, you know, just the way that it happens, you know. So I just think you might get a couple more times. But if I were you, just because that's such a messy situation, over there, I would open yourself up to that app and just continue to look just because, you know, maybe you could, like I said, find somebody that you feel the same way for eventually, but isn't

in a complicated situation and is more in line with where you're at right now. Do you know what I mean? Like you met this girl when you didn't know what the fuck was going on. Now you're a little bit more clearer about who you are, what you want, you know? Yeah. I just wonder if a girl that has these kind of issues with a wife at home is the perfect person moving forward eventually. So if I were you, I'd keep yourself open to maybe meeting someone who's more in line with what you are, like how you are, you know? Yeah. So that you could keep the relationship going.

It's a lot of work on that app, man. Yeah, well, you know, it's like you're lucky to meet somebody. I mean, this is why people settle down. This is why that girl was crying because it's not easy to meet that one person that you feel all that for, you know. But your girl, the truth is, she's not ideal at the end of the day long term. So eventually you might have to meet somebody else. Maybe they won't be as perfect, but you have your husband at home. Yeah.

Right? I mean, you don't need to meet someone that has everything and maybe you won't write a off the bat, but eventually, you know, you'll meet another girl that you really fall for. My fear is that I will fall again, you know? Like, how do you, I've proven first time, I can't just hook up with someone. There's emotions involved, you know? Yeah. So.

But why is that a fear? Because I don't know. What if I make this more complicated? What if I meet somebody? Well, that's what I wonder. Like, it seems like it's not complicated on your end, which is confusing to me. Because it would be for me, but that's because I'm. I don't feel like I could be Polly.

But it sounds like even with all of your feelings, like it's not complicated for you with your husband, right? So what would be the problem? I mean, there's definitely complications where, you know, I wouldn't say it's all perfect. He struggles some days. And, you know, he thinks that I'm maybe a little too, oh, everything's great, you know.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, nothing's complicated. And maybe, you know, know, he struggles some days with it and has a hard time with it. But for the most part, it's been very open and very accepting and very supportive. And I don't know. I don't know. Because, listen, the problem would be that you fall in love with another girl and it makes you want to be with her instead of your husband. But you don't feel that way. I mean, it's only three months in. What would it be like one month? No. One year later, I don't know. So, you know. Right.

No, I can't imagine ever not being with my husband. Right. So, I mean, that's like a, that's an important. thing for like that other girl to know and I wonder how she really feels about that even though she says she's okay with it I don't know you know yeah so just keep yourself open and keep looking but keep me positive what happens with this mess it sounds it you know I know you want to fuck her with this trap but I predict that you'll have that that time will come well I had it with me last night oh you did and even though you guys hooked up it didn't work out yeah I was not in the mood for that Right, right, right, right, especially the first time, right? Yeah.

Yeah, well, continue on looking on that app and just get a little backup plan and keep me posted. What do we call you, Mara? Yeah. All right, Mara, this is like an ongoing drama. I can't wait to hear what happens. Good luck with everything. Thank you so much. Thank you so much for calling it and sharing your story.

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