Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 649 - Fetish Friday- Mike is Into Panties, Wearing Diapers, Pantyhose, Pegging and More

Episode Date: June 16, 2023

Mike is into panties, wearing diapers, pantyhose and more and he called in to talk all about it. When did he start wearing panties? When he realized he was an ABDL? And, does his wife know about all his fetishes? Tune in for all the details including when he started wearing panties and female clothing and who he stole them from at first, how and why he wore them to school, how his mom caught him and how she reacted, when he started wetting and where he would get his diapers from, ow his mom caught him wearing diapers and how she reacted, the lack of attention he got when younger and how it ties in to his wetting fetish, how his wife caught him wearing diapers before they were married and how she reacted, how and why he started dressing up again started wearing pantyhose, how his wife found out he was wearing hose and how she reacted to that, their sexless marriage why sex went out the window so many years ago, why she’s not into having sex at all and whether his fetish and her knowing about it has something to do with it, why not having sex is bad or their relationship and what she can do to get her sex drive back, how and why he started crossdressing recently, how he enjoys anal action and how he told wife he was into it and how she reacted, how he still enjoys wetting and wearing diapers and how he recently realized he’s into being humiliated, how and why he’s turn on by almost getting caught, how he tried a gloryhole once and how far he went while there, how and why he only fantasizes about being with a guy when he’s dressed plus a whole lot more. To see anonymous pics of MIKE plus most of other guests + get extra exclusive Hoser and or Crossdressing episodes/content + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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Today I have on Mike. He is into wearing diapers, A, B, D, L, a, adult baby diaper lovers. And he's also into cross-dressing. He didn't start dressing again until recently, but he does have some memories of stealing his sister's stuff when he was younger, her underwear.

He would like steal and wear her to school. He was very bold of him. But he was very also into like wedding himself when he was younger. And that was something that he did. He got caught doing fucking everything, okay? Like his getting caught stories, like take up half of this up.

episode because he got caught wedding. He got caught wearing his sister's underwear multiple times. Talks about how his mom reacted, what she made him do. Pretty horrifying. Also, her catching him wedding and figuring out that he was doing it on purpose. And then he caught wind of his grandmother's like adult diapers. And he started wearing diapers. And then that became a thing for him. And then he eventually gets married. And he talks about how his wife caught him. First, she caught him with diapers. And then she caught him wearing panty hose or she caught like I don't know you'll hear how she caught him with the panty hose thing like and that's something that he picked up recently like after he got caught with the crossdressing when he was younger he stopped for a very long time and cross-dressing isn't something

that he picked up until about two years ago and we talk about that we talk about what you know how he likes to cross-dress the whole adult baby diaper thing like how he does that and how far he takes it he has experimented at adult bookstores he talks a little bit about that and we also talk about his marriage and the state of it and how his wife felt when she found out what you know how much she knows I think she knows really everything and there are issues that they're having as well his wife is not having sex with him at all his biggest fear is that she's not into him since she saw him wearing diapers but I don't think that that's the case you're going to have to listen to the whole story but he's basically in a sexless marriage too I think he gets sex like

maybe two times a year. We talk a lot about those issues. He's not old, but he's having old man problems. That's what I say to him. He's only like in his 30s and his girls in his 30s. So we do talk a little bit about or a lot about, you know, his issues with his wife, how he could get past them, how she caught him, how she felt, all that kind of good stuff. It's a super interesting episode.

So I'm going to be right back on with Mike. Hi, Mike. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? Hey, how are you doing? I'm good. So listen, Mike, you have two things going on. You're a cross-dresser, correct?

And you also have the acronym is ABDL, adult baby diaper lover, correct? There you go. So that has been in that fetish since I was young. The cross-dresser, you know, I wore my sister's clothes when I was younger, but that kind of got knocked out, you know, mother was pretty strict. And then years later, you know, it popped back up. Right.

Well, you know, I don't know if you listened to my last guy who I had on that was into that fetish. It was super interesting because he could really trace it back to when he was younger. his parents got divorced right after he came out of diapers. And so the only time he really felt secure in his life when his parents were together, he was wearing diapers. And so it was like super interesting to hear how that tied into when he's older, putting them on made him feel comfortable because that was the time of his life that he felt the most comfortable. Do you like that whole adult baby diaper thing,

do you have any idea where it came from or how it ties into anything? Not really. When I was younger, I used to, I was into, you know, wedding. I really don't have any real memories of, you know, bed wedding or anything like that. Both my parents were pretty strict. Both of them worked a lot of hours. So I was, you know, home defending for myself a lot with my sister. My sister, you know, five years older than I am. It wasn't until I was at my grandmother's house and found some, you know, old depends. And, you know, I was. And, snuck those home and tried it for the first time. I think I was probably 11 or 12 years old. And then after that, something just kind of clicked. And, you know, I'm 34. So the Internet wasn't really prevalent with that type of fetters. So you really had to do a lot of looking around, you know.

As you would probably hear a lot of people on the fetish, you know, everybody thought that they're weird. Yeah, or alone with that. You were by yourself. Yeah. And as time went on, you know, you realize that a lot of people, especially now, are into it. Yeah, but let's go back. Like, you know, you're 11 and you see your grandmas depends and you put them on. But like before that, you said you were like wearing your sister's clothes.

Like, did you have any memories of any kind of diaper thing going on or the cross-dressing, like, you know, clues of it when you were younger of both of your fetishes? no not really the cross-dressing you know wearing my sister's you know underwear and you know maybe maybe throwing on some of her pants or you know

jeans or anything like that that kind of popped up when I was you know probably 14 when I was hitting puberty but when you were younger you don't remember being like staring at their clothes and wishing you could wear them

or any kind of feelings an attraction to either women's clothing or diapers uh No, not really. I mean, not that I can really think about. I mean, it just looking at maybe my mom's magazines or something and, you know, kind of, you know, that looks good or, you know, I wonder what that feels like kind of thing. So you did have that.

You remember looking at the women wearing the clothes and wondering what it would be like to wear them and how it felt. That's right. That's right. All right. That's interesting because I typically think these things are in there somewhere. and sometimes there's little clues of it, even if you don't pick it up until way later, you know. What do you think?

Do you remember that first time that you got the inclination to try on your sister's stuff when you were older at 11? Oh, man, that was, so I would actually, you know, sneak some of her underwear and wear them to school. Oh, wow. That's pretty brazen. I don't know. I'm always like, what if you got in a fucking car accident?

Right, that's right. You're not thinking, though, you're 11. So you would take your sister's panties and put them on and wear them to school. That's right. And like I said, you know, she's five years older than I am. So, I mean, we, you know, we weren't talking just normal panties. I mean, we're thongs and, you know, satin was a big thing back in that time frame. So, you know, it's definitely a turn on for sure.

And do you remember, I mean, was a part of the turn on, besides wearing it and the feel of it, was a part of the turn on, like, going to school and having people not know that you're wearing them underneath right now? Definitely. Right. Do you ever get busted when you were younger? Yes. Oh, my mom. I know you get busted by your wife too. Okay.

We're going to get to that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. So my mom was, like I said, very. strict. They both worked. My mom and dad both worked a lot. My mom was definitely the one that did the discipline, but she always had this thing where she would search your room. I felt like I never had any privacy when I was younger. Oh, God. And she found them and confronted me about it. And actually put a, my sister had moved away and was going to college and put a lock on her

door. So that you couldn't get in. right right because she found this what does she say to you uh just it's not you know gave me gave me the speech of it it's not normal you know you should be doing this and kind of left it at that you know i told her you know it was just something that i tried and and went with that you know did she know you were wearing or did she just think you're like collecting because there's a very big difference oh like some guys into sniffing women's panties then a guy wearing them no she she she she she She definitely, she found out I was wearing because she caught me later on wearing. She did later.

Even after she locked the door and thinks she's going to like, you know, make sure you don't do it again, she caught you wearing. Yeah, yeah. She messed up one time. I left the lock and unlocked. So it was a combination lot. So you could see what the combination was. So when she was working, I'd get hang out from school. I just, you know, go in there and lock the door, get what I wanted out of there and then, you know, lock it back. But tell me how she caught you wearing. So typically I would do it while she was at work and she came home and I was taking a shower and the clothes were laid out in the floor and the bathroom. You know, being young and dumb and just leaving stuff out. And she came in and saw them like and there you are in the bathroom and you're in the shower and your clothes are on the floor and there's a girl's panties.

And there's no girl in there with you. That's right. What did she? Did she flip out? Oh, yeah. Yeah. she definitely flipped out. So my sister, she had come home. She made me tell my sister, I had to buy, you know, give my sister money so she could, you know, replace the clothes that I had taken.

Do you have a dad? Did your dad get wind of this? My mom, so my dad's pretty strict. My mom was, you know, I was fortunate enough. She kind of kept that a secret. If he did know, he didn't lead on, let me know that he knew. She probably didn't tell him if she was smart. But she, they did find. out about the, you know, diapers. Oh, get to that. I love all this getting caught stuff. But wait, let me just ask you because that's like kind of, you know, maybe in her mind

she didn't really realize, but forcing you to tell your sister, you know, there's probably some shame that you would feel involved in that. I mean, like, how did that feel for you to have to go and tell your sister, like, as a punishment? Oh, it was terrible because me and my sister both have a pretty good relationship and it was just, you know, trying to think of the word disowning, you know, not being honest, you know. And that really, that really put a stop to the cross-dressing at that time. You know, when my sister went back to college, she, you know, my mom made her take all over clothes.

So there was nothing there to use. And I wasn't really into, you know, using any of my mom stuff. Now, did it affect your relationship with your sister? No. Okay, that's cool. But yeah, that's horrifying. Like I said, I don't think she really understood what she was doing when she made you do that. But I think that that's very traumatizing.

I think it was more of her trying to figure out a way to get me to stop. And it works because you did stop for a little bit. Yeah. Well, I stopped. So that was probably 16 at that point. And I didn't start back until two, three years ago. Okay, we'll get to that, but tell me when they found out about the diapers, because you were like 11 when you picked those up at your grandma's house, right? Right.

So I would, I picked those up from my grandmother's house, snuck those home, and, you know, I had always been into wedding. You know, I would let my pants on purpose, and that would, my mom would freak out over that. Oh, but did she, did she, let me ask you this, did she know you were doing it on purpose or she just thought you were having accidents? I think she thought I was doing accidents at first, but she, she caught on. She definitely caught on. But they gave a little bit of background. My mom's an RN as a nurse. Yeah.

And, you know, she knows. Right, right, right. She knows the deal. She's seen it all. She understands how the body works. That's right. Yeah. So wait, as long as, wait, can we just dig into this little wedding thing?

Because you mentioned it before. And I just wanted to ask a couple questions. I remember where you're out in the story. As far back as you could remember, like what is, what is it about wedding? Like, you just like the way that it would feel like sitting in. in like wet underwear? Yes. You know, for some reason, you know,

never can figure out why, you know, why the mind works the way it does. But yeah. Was it calming to you? Because at that point, you don't really have hormones, right? So it's not like a sexual hormone. That's right.

Yeah. So what was it to you? Like, what was the feeling that it gave you? Oh, you know, just calming, you know, relaxing. Just I can remember, you know, sitting in the living room, you know, probably eight years old and, you know, just wet my, wet my pants on purpose and just sitting there. Right. I wonder if, because, you know, you did say you spent a lot of time alone. Like, maybe you spent so much time in wet diapers and you weren't changed and there was something about attaching that to some part of your life where you were comfortable because that's a really interesting connection that, you know, being wet equates being relaxed. You know, just like that guy that like the diapers. I mean,

really made sense. He was really able to put it back to a certain time and, you know, tie it into the whole divorce thing. And it really made sense, you know. And so for you, I wonder if there's something to do with when you were younger wearing diapers and sitting in them wet for longer than usual maybe. I don't know. I got a, maybe the attention. You know, the attention that I got from my mother, you know, most time it was bad, you know, she definitely didn't like it. Oh, where. Wait a second. That's kind of interesting. Because your mom's working all the time.

She's never really around. But when you pee your pants, she focuses on you. That's right. Oh. And so did you feel a lack of attention from your mother when you were younger? Yeah, pretty much. Yeah, that's. And when you're really young, you really need that.

You know, it's not even like a want. It's like a need, you know? So maybe at some level you figured out that. that was your way because she really focused on you and then you went and did that. That makes sense. That's right. And then, you know, when I finally, I tried that depends diaper, you know, it was, you know, it was great because, you know, you didn't make a mess. You know, you know, nobody likes the mess of it.

Oh, my God. You probably ruined your mom's furniture. It's just fucking gross. You know, pee smell all over the house if you're peeing while you're sitting down watching TV, right? I don't know. That's right. Yeah. Yeah.

But, you know, after that, there was only one pack, and I got caught, you know, taking those. So I would actually, you know, ride my bike down to, you know, Walgreens or CVS. That's what we have in our area and actually buy some for myself. The diapers. Yeah. How did you get caught again? Like, did she just found them in your room or wearing? Yeah, she found them in the room.

She never called me wearing. And was your mother, like, your mother must have been so. confused. Was she like, what the fuck is this? I don't know. There's a lot of stuff she's catching you doing. I don't care what kind of nurse she is. I mean, you know. There's no telling what they thought. I mean, there was definitely threats of taking me to a therapist, which I never did get to a therapist, but there was definitely

we're going to, you know, we're going to take you somewhere and, you know, get this figured out. That might have helped you. Listen, I mean, therapy isn't a bad thing. I mean, she might have been taking you there to make you feel like you because she thought you're weird but like for you at that age it probably would have really been helpful because here you were this little kid having all these feelings and being into all these things and like you said the internet's not around so you think you're the only one and you're being shamed because you're being caught and made to feel like you're a terrible person and you're probably confusing for you

I mean that was like hard you probably would have been very you probably would have benefited from having a therapist at that time not for like I said to change your brain but for you to figure out what the fuck was going on, you know? Yeah, I definitely, you know, looking back now, I definitely think it would have been a beneficial for me. But, you know, now I think I got a pretty good grasp. Well, you do wind up getting caught by your wife. Your mother must have been like crying tears of joy

when you got married to a woman because she was probably like, oh my God, my son's never going to find anyone. He's wearing diapers, women's panties. I mean, go on. So you wind up getting married. I know you're married and I know that your wife eventually catches you. That's right. So when I really got into dating, you know, I didn't really date too much in high school.

I'm not, you know, I'm not going to like, you know, picked on and, you know, just for being the quiet kid. I never got called by friends or anything for my fetishes. But, you know, I was always the quiet kid, didn't, you know, hang out a lot or, you know, wasn't very bad. I tried to get good grades. You know, that's one of the things that made my mom happy was good grades. So, you know, I was a good kid. Right, right. School is brutal. School is fucking brutal.

And you could get made fun of, like you said, just for being, like, quiet. It's just like, yeah. That's right. Yeah, yeah. So, you know, the diaper fetish kind of hinted off a little bit. I would still do it time to time, you know, later on in life. You know, you get a job. You get a, you know, debit card and where you can buy stuff online.

Bambeno diapers was, you know, one of the first, you know, like, ABL. diaper that you could get. So, you know, I bought some of those. My mom caught those and found those two with them away. She wouldn't really say anything at this point. She would just, you know, thumb away. But then I started, you know, dating and things on the fetishes kind of tapered off. It's both, both of the fetishes now are definitely sexual for me. It's a turn on. So actually when you're Having sex, you know, it relieves the sexual tension of the fetish and it kind of goes to the back of the mind. You don't think about it. Uh-huh.

So the year before me and my wife got married, she wanted to use my computer, which, you know, no problem at all. I had forgot. I had a picture saved of myself in a diaper. Oh, yeah, yay. So I remember, you know, she texts. She texts me and was like, what, what is this? like sends me to pitcher so you know i have to that was just a ton of bricks on your shoulders like oh my god yeah i mean what do you do i would like you want to jump off a bridge you know what i mean

like maybe like you just dropped dead it would be so easy then to have to actually explain that and have that conversation oh my goodness so it was uh it was definitely it was definitely weird you know it was an old pitcher you know it was you know two years before, you know, before me and her. And, you know, we had been dating, and I hadn't really been participating in the fetish. You know, I was being taken care of by my wife, you know, sexually. So she just, you know, wanted to know what it was about and kind of left it on the back burner. I told her it was something that I was into.

She, you know, it led it to she was definitely not into it. And that it was weird to picture her husband wearing diapers. Yeah. fiance. Yeah. But, you know, we have a great relationship. You know, we have a lot of likes, you know, hobbies, I would say. So, you know, she just kind of looked past it and we got married. She did catch me later on. I actually, you know, the fetus came back. So, you know, you participated in it and went from there. She pretty much told me that if it was something that it was so important to me in life that, you know,

you can continue to do it. Just, I don't want any parts of it. Right, but that's smart. Instead of telling you don't do it, because I think a lot of times people tell, it's like your mother, you know, telling you, you can't do this and stopping it. If someone has an inclination for something, they're not going to not do it. What they're going to do it is just do it, and they're going to do it behind

your back and they're going to fucking lie about it. So you want someone to lie? No, let them do it like your wife. Like, you could do it. Just do it, right? Instead of she got to keep fucking catching you. But just she's not into it, which I think is, cool of her. So that that goes on for a while, you know, Instagram, that life, you know, they're all pretty prevalent now. So you see different things and introduce yourself in different

fetishes. I'm the type of person. I'm a very high sex drive here, you know, experiment. I'll try anything once, right? Yeah. So cross dressers, you know, would pop up time to time in the, in the A VDL first, and it clicked again, you know, from when I used to steal my sister's clothes. So I tried it, liked it, and I dressed here and there mainly in the wintertime because I'm, you know, I work a lot and have that redneck farmers tan. So it really doesn't look good for taking pictures in the summertime. So mainly crossdressing is in the winter. But I'm trying to think of my train of thought. I bought some... You're getting back into the cross-dressing. I mean, because you really did put it to rest

when your mother caught you that last time. For a long time. So, and we're talking now, we're up to like, we're like at two years ago. That's, that's right. Right? You're still tending to the, the diapers fetish, but you had it dressed or worn anything. Exactly. Okay. And I'm sorry. I'm bad about, you know, I rushed through a story, so you'll have to stop me. No, you're doing good. Don't worry. Don't worry.

Keep going. So I definitely, I didn't want to wear any of my wife's clothes. And I want to buy my own stuff. So, you know, I would go to Target or Walmart, and I bought some painting. Or thighs. And I accidentally left the package in the trash can and she opens the trash can and says, what the hell is this? Oh, my God. You're really.

like you're just you're just like that person that just gets caught you better never cheat on her or anything because whatever you do you get caught you're just that guy you know some people have that my my sister has a kid who's like that he and no matter what he does he gets caught that's you just know that know thyself uh i'm that's one thing i can say i'm very loyal to my wife but i'm just saying but don't steal anything don't do anything ever because whatever you do you get caught end of story but go on that's right yeah So she sees the panty hose, the packaging. Does not like it at all.

Definitely not like the diapers. She is not having it. Wondering why, you know, am I, am I gay? Yeah, yeah, of course. I still into her. Yeah. And, you know, I kind of got ahead, you know, as I said before, you know, everything for me on Fennis Wise is dropped by, you know, sexual desires.

when me and my wife were dating and then when I first got married you know sex life was great and then it stopped the sex being good you mean or the sex life in general just stopped sex life in general just stopped okay like you know me and my wife are trying to figure it out she's questioning if she's you know asexual she you know she doesn't think about it or or doesn't feel good to her anymore she on the pill No. We did have a kid. We did have a kid two years into our marriage.

And I was wondering that. I was wondering if that had something to do with it. Was it after the kids? Yes. Yeah, she should get her hormones checked. Because, you know, listen, hormones have a lot to do with stuff like that. So if she's never ever thinking about sex and she was at some point in her life, she's not asexual, she just might have some sort of hormonal change that happened after

her baby and maybe she's not right. I mean, how do you ask her about that or tell her that? How do you not? I mean, you're never getting fucked. I mean, you're only going to say like, what does she? I mean, that should be a conversation you're having. I don't know how hard that is. I don't know. I'm a very

I mean, we've had it. Look, we've had it before for sure. What? I mean, you should sit, like, I mean, listen, you have that conversation as if, like, you're her, first of all, you're her husband, but you're also her friend, you're her companion, you're her, you know, partner. You want to help someone. She should have a sex drive.

She should find that. She should try to fix that. You know, you would be helping her by saying, like, hey, have you, like, look into your hormones. Like, you know, let's figure this out together. Yeah. I mean, this year for, this year for an example, we've had sex toys. Yeah. I mean, as loyal as you are, 10 years from now, you're going to be banging somebody. Okay. Like, how long could you go without having sex for the rest of your life? You never going to have sex? Come on. It's tough.

I mean, we've been married. I was wrong. I say we've been married for 11 years. And this has been going on since the second year of marriage. So you get laid maybe a couple times a year? Yes, that's it. And do you just like service yourself as far as like jerking off to all these fetishes and stuff? That's right.

Yep. Wow. That's a shame. You need to fix that. You know, I'm taping three episodes say, guy I talked to before this has had similar stuff too and he's just like I don't know it's just very interesting to me I mean you have a very like you have these very interesting fetishes going on but you also have a very interesting issue in your marriage that is a real big fucking red flag you

know something's going on there you know she's not asexual could she be depressed I mean she's always really cared about how she's looked you know she thinks about how people look at her or view her I mean in in Does she not feel good about how she looks now, though? I mean, like, did her look like sometimes after a baby, you gain weight and stuff, you know. I guess, but I mean, she is, she is the girl that is drop dead gorgeous, but doesn't think she is. Right, and she doesn't know. But yeah, and the problem is with that is that no matter how gorgeous you think she is, self-esteem comes, it's called self-esteem.

It comes from yourself. You can't make her feel better about herself. she needs to get that for herself. You know what I mean? It really comes down to how she sees herself. It doesn't matter you could tell her every day, you know. If she doesn't feel good, even if you tell her she does look good, she's going to believe herself, you know?

Right. That's right. That's exactly. I think that's exactly where she's at in her head. You know, she's not big. You know, she's normal. But is she bigger than she was? No. No.

Well, something's going on with her. I'm just telling you that something's going on with her. And, you know, it's a big elephant in the room. And then, I don't know, like, why wouldn't you be wearing panty hose and diapers? Soon you should be fucking hookers. I mean, what does she expect you to do getting laid two times a year? She should be going out and buying you panty hose. I don't know, because does she feel bad that she's never, like, do you get blowjots?

No, no. Do you get to go down on her? Oh yeah, I'd love to But do you? She don't like it She doesn't like it because she doesn't like losing control Oh yeah She just needs to talk to someone

She's not asexual She's just got some issues You know, she needs to deal with it She's young too She's in her 30s, right? Yeah, we're the same age Yeah I mean you guys have your whole lives ahead of you

You gotta tend to this shit Okay, this is like This is old people problems You know, this is like an old man That's married with someone for 50 years And his poor wife's in menopause and she doesn't want to fuck him anymore. Like, this is like old man problems here.

You guys are too young to be having these problems. Do you know what I mean? You know, in a nice way, I've tried to tell her that, but it's, you know, she's just got a metal block or something. Yeah, well, you know, I don't know what comes first, but when you get into that place, I'm sure she's not happy. She can't be happy where she's at, you know. There's probably some depression going on and it all comes down. And then once you lose hope and you're depressed for so long, you just forget what it's like to not be depressed. And it just becomes, you know, your way of life.

And she might be so far away from happy that she doesn't even remember what happy is. And she just thinks like how she is now is normal. And that's a scary place to be because it's very hard to get back from that. You know what I mean? Because she has no reference. She's been, this has been for so long. You guys have been in a very dysfunctional, odd, kind of sexless marriage for 10 years, 9 years.

That's a long time. So there's no reference anymore of what is normal. This is your normal, but it's really not. You know what I mean? And you could have so much more. Yeah. I mean, you know, and then it's sexual, it's frustrating sexually. And then, you know, with me doing these fetishes, it works until you,

reach your climates, right? And then after that, it's like guilt. Right. And then, and I shouldn't be doing this. Right, right, right. But you're going there because where else are you going to go? Right. That's right. Swear. I taped someone this morning. Okay. Another guy. He had a panty fetish. But you know what we talked about? It was like a fucking therapy session. It was like his issues with it in his marriage. No, serious. Because his wife doesn't give him attention and he doesn't feel right. And so he's, and he just goes and escapes in his fetish and that's where he goes because it's like his release and he could go there

and he could get himself off but it doesn't solve any problem you know he comes back to his life and where his life within his marriage is not good that's the same shit that you're going through I've never looked at it that way I mean it's two things you have going on you have these interesting fetishes

one has nothing to do with the other I mean you do have these fetishes and they are something that are that's in you and it is interesting and it gives you sexual satisfaction and you get to play around and your wife knows about it so you're kind of out and proud which is kind of good you know that's half the battle but yeah i mean i you know i wish she was a little bit more uh into it she's not even into oral sex this bitch doesn't even want you to go down

on her how do you expect her to be interested in all this other the extra stuff i mean this stuff i mean you're like she's not even into a b and c you're asking for like z you're You know what I mean? Like she doesn't even like any kind of sex. That's what you. So you can't expect her to like seeing you in pantyhose. Ever, you know, ever since we were together, I've always kind of forced her. What are your fetishes?

But she, I don't have any. Women don't really have fetishes. I'll tell you that. But they do have things that they're into. And I'll tell you something when you're a woman, especially if you're 34. You have eggs inside of you. Okay. And they come down once a month.

You are born with those eggs. They're in you until you're like around 50. and then you don't have any more left. And every time those eggs drop, you get really fucking horny because you're an animal and you're supposed to procreate. So it's just like it's nature. Nature makes you wake up like needing to get fucked

because you have to have babies. It's a natural process. If she's not having that natural process happening, something's going on. She might have PCOS. She has some sort of hormonal imbalance probably. And that doesn't help with depression or anything. Women's feelings, emotions, sex drive,

it all has to do with hormones. And their hormones go through a whole roller coaster every year. I'm a woman I understand. You don't understand women. Men aren't ruled by their fucking hormones, okay? Women are. And it's cyclical and stuff. And she's not having anything.

Something's going on with her. And she might not be capable of getting herself out of it because she's too depressed. And she's been this way for too long. You need to help her out of it. You need to talk to her about going to the doctor and figuring out what the fuck is wrong with her? Well, I mean, I will say this. I mean, when we were trying to get pregnant,

no, she didn't have to take hormone medication to get pregnant. She did? Yeah. Right. So she might have a hormonal thing. And listen, hormones problems are common, but they're also easily fixed if you get with the right doctor. Nowadays, there's all these telemedicine places that do hormone stuff.

Like, it used to be super expensive to get hormone testing and find doctors to really work on that because they're never covered by insurance. but there's a lot of telemedicine stuff, people that do that and everything. And she just needs a full workup and to look into it. But I think the problem with her is that she's so far gone that she doesn't care that she has no sex drive. Do you know what I mean? And that's what happens to women in menopause. It's the same thing.

Like I said, this is like an old man problem, but you guys are just having it when she's 30. But this is like what happens to women in menopause. They just lose their desire. And then they don't have a desire to have a desire. Do you know what I mean? Why do they care? They don't care. They really don't.

There's zero thing. Your poor girl thinks she's asexual. She's not asexual. She could be having a big hormone imbalance problem. Like she could have early onset menopause. Women have that. That's a real thing. Some people have late.

Some people have early. If she has that, there's things she could do. Yeah, we'll definitely have to, you know, I'd have to try to talk her into doing it. But, you know, it's like you said, she's so far into this is, how I am that she doesn't, you know. Yeah, but you have to do it for her. You're her partner. You have to help her. Like, she's like, she should be your best friend. That's how, like, partnerships you should look

at it, you know? Like, you have to help her do this for her, you know? Oh, yeah. Well, I mean, it comes. And it will be for you. It'll be for you. I mean, you know, I look back at it like this, you know, I look at my fetishes that I have. I mean, she hasn't, you know, she wasn't the girl that was like, I want a divorce now, you know. Exactly. We worked through it. I mean, we definitely job together, you know, relationship-wise. Yeah.

So if you're like, you know, so do that for her. No matter what she pushes back on, you have to be the one that's going to get you guys out of this problem. She's not going to. She's too far gone. She's depressed. She's not happy. And if you don't tend to this, like I said, I don't care how loyal you are. 10 years from now, you're going to be doing something behind her back, okay?

Because you just can't go on for the rest of your life like that. Oh, it's a challenge every day. Right. Of course it is. You know, so, and listen, at the end of the day, at first she might be annoyed that you're tending to this and trying to get her to do stuff and everything. But if you get her on the other side and you get her back to having like feelings and sexual desire and feeling good about herself and getting back in touch with that part of her body, she will thank you for it because she can't be happy.

she sounds depressed yeah you know and and then yeah the anxiety and you know kind of depression on my part is

you know that I make her this way because of my fetishes you know she just you know she's staying and she's staying in the relationship because you know

of just the kid or you know she's comfortable or you know know, is she not attracted me because of these fetishes, you know, that all goes to your mind. Yeah, well, let me ask you this. Like, did her, like, sexual desire for you go out the window? You said it happened, like, two years in. Like, was that when she caught you wearing diapers? I was, you know, I kind of thought about that, but she caught me with the diapers before we even got married.

Okay, so I don't think it has to do with that. I really don't. I think it's, like, probably a physical problem that she had. And listen, at the end of the day, if you guys get some help and work on this, like what are you going to do? Just avoid that question. Like, what if it is that, right? I get that that's your biggest fear, right? For sure, especially from your history, the way you were caught, the way you were made to feel when you were caught, especially because you do have these very out-of-the-box fetishes

that a lot of women might not be able to deal with. Okay, that's a fact. You know that. You're not dumb, right? I mean, it is a big pill to swallow. for her girl, maybe, you know, but she was okay with it. And but I know that like, I can understand that your biggest fear would be like, oh, you guys sort of tend to this part of your relationship and she finds out like really what it is is

that she's not attracted to you. But like, you need to go there and you need to figure that out because just sitting in this place where you're at now isn't benefiting either of you. Right. Yeah, I mean, I've asked her before, you know, if that was, that was the reasoning or, and she denies. She says no. I mean, I don't know. She's just telling me that just to say it. I don't

think so because it happened in two years after that. Everything was fine. Like it happened way before. And then when did she find the pantyhose? How long after the two, you know, when did that go in this timeline? She just found that like two years ago. Right. So no. Far into the marriage.

It doesn't, it doesn't track. I really don't think that that is the case. Like, does she jerk off? Does she masturbate? Does she anything? You know, yeah, I mean, she's definitely, you know, had her fair share, you know, toys, not, you know. Do you know what she plays with them? She doesn't, you know, dildo-wise, but vibrators, yeah. So she does use her vibrators on herself, but she doesn't want to fool around with you. That's, that's right. Yeah. Oh, well, that's a little bit different.

Do you know, could she maybe be gay? Like, did you, did you ever ask her if she has any fantasies about women? Yeah, I mean, I asked her and, you know, I, look, I'm open to that. Yeah, because you could be the girl. You could be the girl in the way. I mean, if she's into that, I mean, but no, I mean, she, you know, she claims she uses them when she's, you know, end in her, you know, time of the month cycle. And that's it.

So she does get horny around that time. Right. Right, right, right. Yeah, and that's normal, but she doesn't want to have actual sex with you. Yeah, she needs to, you know, she's got to figure that out. Something's going on there, for sure. I mean, I am my biggest thing, you know, I love her to death, but I don't want her going through the rest of her life, you know, disappointed or, you know, feels like she's settled.

Yeah, no, exactly. I mean, like I said, I understand why your fear is that it could be you and not her, you know, and you don't, you have to, like, unpack that by going into that problem and trying to fix it and resolve it somehow because it's just, you're not going to be able to sustain your marriage. I mean, I can't believe it has been sustained for this long. Well, she was my friend. I'd be like, I would totally be sure, and I know that you're not, right? But I would be like, for sure your husband's cheating on you. Like, no guy could go eight years without a blow job without sex, you know, and I would be wrong because you haven't actually cheated on her. No, I mean, I'm pretty loyal.

I mean, you know, everybody's experimented before, you know, I'm not. going to lie. I mean, when I first got into a cross list cross-dressing, I have gone to a, you know, adult bookstore, you know, tried a gloryhole out one time. And, you know, when you try something and you look back in yourself, you're like, yep, I tried it and it's not for me. But at least you did because you know, right? Because maybe you thought maybe I would be into this, but at least you tried it and you realized you weren't. Yeah. I mean, the cross-dressing for me is just, I don't know, Maybe like a stress. I got a pretty high profile job. You know, I don't really get too much time to myself for, you know, I just feel, you know, when I cross-dress, I feel pretty. Yeah. And that's like a release or an escape. That's right. Right. That's interesting.

You know, I do, I do like butt stuff. I like anal. Right. But not, not with a guy. Just toys. Right. So like pegging and stuff now, did you ever bring that into your relationship with your girl when you guys were having sex? Yeah, I tried. You know, I told her, you know, I told her I'd like, I'd like for her to do it. And she's like, uh, not really. Maybe not. So, I mean, she didn't flat out say no, but she didn't say yes. Right. So does she know, though, that you have toys that you use on yourself? I'm assuming that's what you do? Oh, yeah. By far. I don't try to hide anything from her. right do you guys just like jerk off right next to each other in bed I didn't try to figure out how this health goes down because it sounds like you're having a fun time but like where are you doing all

this were she I mean you know I'll take off work some days or you know right at night when I'm in the shower you know and she could be doing the same while I'm working you know she could be taking care of herself I'm working I've never been real jealous type, you know, if she wants to take care of herself, you know, we're not happy to. Right. I would like to be included sometimes, you know. Do you fully dress now?

Uh, I do, but I'm not, you know, I don't try to be passable. Right, but do you dress at home in front of her, or is it mostly in private? No, no, that's all in private. That's all in private, right? And the diaper thing, do you wear to school, like to work and stuff? I have before, yeah. But, you know, I keep it private. You know, I'm not out there trying to show off.

You know, if I'm out there not working and I'm doing it, you know, going out and just having fun, I've, here recently have kind of discovered that I like the, I mean, I can't speak, humiliation part of it. Oh, okay. When you're wearing the diaper or when you're dressed up? Wearing a diaper, yeah. And what's you, like what, what, in what? What way do you like to be humiliated?

Like you're wearing them and you look down? Like just for the fact that you're wearing them, humiliated in that way? Yeah, that and, you know, maybe getting caught by somebody, you know. Oh, right. Interesting. So do you push the limits? Sometimes I have.

Right. You were doing that when you were a little. I mean, weren't you wearing them to school? Or is that your sister's underwear? That was my sister's underwear. Well, maybe it's still like the attention, you know? remember like a lot of this started because you wanted your mom's attention. That's very well possibility.

You know, I've never, you know, dressed, you know, women's clothes out in public or anything like that. We kind of live in a small town, so it'd be kind of hard when I wear out in public with the diapers or what have you. I go to, we're right on the state line of two states. So, you know, I'll go over to the next state, go to the mall or something like that. And now do you like, because I'm assuming you're into the wedding thing, is that what the diapers is for so that you could like wet yourself and walk around and the wet and the wetness be there at the same time? Is that what it is? That's right. Right. It's not just the diaper by itself, right?

It's more the wet, the wedding. Yes. Interesting. But never any of the other, just wedding. Right. No poop is what you're saying. That's right. You'd be surprised. people who don't feel like you do you do number two yeah yeah I'm sure I mean I'm sure I you know

in all the years I've been doing my show I've been doing my show like eight years now maybe or nine I don't know but in the beginning I had to go on Craigslist you know and thank God Craigslist was around in the beginning because I was just starting out and I didn't know where to get callers from so I would go on there and I would be I would put ads but I would also you know reply to ads and I was dying to get somebody on that was into like shit or scat or whatever that's called, you know, because I've never had that. And I, like, I've had a couple people email me about it. And I had one guy who actually called on the DL.

You know, I do these private calls with people that I don't err. And I had a guy, and he called with his wife in the car with him. I mean, they were talking about it. And he was into that. But besides that, I have never had somebody on with that. But I know it exists, you know? Yeah. I mean, I, I mean, like I said before, you know, I'll try anything one time.

You know, I tried it one time. You know, it was that moment. You're like, nope, no, it's definitely not for me. Right. So you tried to suck a, when you went to the Gloria hole, did you suck a dick? Or did you get your dick sucked? Or did you do both? Like, what did you do?

I was doing the sucking, yeah. Oh, okay. So you had a dick in your mouth and you weren't into it. That's right. Yeah. Right. But, I mean, look, I mean, when you're really, really horny and you're really into the moment, you know, it always comes back to you. But you, you know, you tell yourself, you're like, look, you know, you tried it.

and you didn't like it. So, you know, but you'll think about it sometimes. Right. So sometimes when you're dressed, is it typically when you're dressed? Oh, definitely. Yep. Right. So when you're a girl and when you're in your female self and you're, you think about men.

That's, that's right. Yeah. But, um, not, it's kind of, it's kind of weird, you know, I got, the person's got to be clean. I don't like a lot of, I've never even, you know, even, you know, even, not dressing my whole life. I've always, you know, I don't like hair. I do have a beard, but, you know, leg hair, arm hair, I've got to go, just hair. You take, you get rid of that for yourself. Yes. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, interesting. So you shave all the time, all of that? You should go get laser, you know. I laser my whole body before I got my son because I'm like, I had all my guy friends telling me that like,

oh, once you get, have a baby, you're never going to shave your legs. My wife's legs. She never shaved them. like, oh, you know. And so I literally got everything. My arms, my legs, my underarms, my arms, my upper lip, my vaj, my everything, you know, everything lays it off. I spent the whole year doing it, you know, because you've got to do it consecutively and really, but after you do do it, you're good to go for the rest of your life. It's great. It's like the greatest thing I ever did. That's definitely, that's definitely on the list of do. You should do it because, you know, my wife, yeah, my wife doesn't care, you know, she's, she's, you know, I've done it ever since we've been married her together. So I mean, she knows

it's just something I do. It will change your life. And just so you know, because I became very good friends with the girl that lasered me, she was fucking great. If anyone lives in New York City and is listening to this, go to Jen at Advanced Dermal Laser.

She's the fucking best. And she dealt with a lot of guys. A lot of guys go in there and get fucking lasered. You know what I mean? And it will change your life because, I mean, shaving your legs and everything all the time. That's a lot of work. And then you get the razor stubble and the burns and the bumps.

And when you do the laser, it is gone forever. It really does work. I don't know if you've seen the hair erasers that have been advertising lately. No. Like on Amazon or, oh, my God, don't try it. What is it? You don't need it. But, you know, that's advertised as a hair removal, but it's like an eraser.

And, you know, it kind of cuts the hair as it goes. Oh, my God. I broke out burn. terrible worst pain in my life. My wife's, you know, she's just joking laughing the whole time. She thinks it's hilarious. Yeah, because she's like, now you know what I go through, like shaving my legs and my crotch and everything.

It's so annoying. That's why, honestly, I did it. And it was the smartest thing because when you do have a baby, like you do, I get why girls don't want to shave their legs at the end of the night. It's a lot of fucking work taking care of a baby. And so the fact that I never had to shave my armpits ever again in my whole life or all my legs or my bikini line especially because you get bumps over there. I mean, it's just, it's like the best thing.

You'll, like, love it. And it's, and it's quick if you go to somebody. It could be costly. It'll cost you a couple thousand dollars, but it's really worth it. And it does last as long as you keep up with it. Dedicate like a year of your life to doing it because you've got to go like every four weeks or whatever. But it's, it's, once you're done, you're done.

I've never had to go back. No, it definitely sounds like a good investment. Yeah, especially because your wife doesn't care and you like to have it all the time. You're the perfect guy. I mean, listen, I think some guys that are hiding this and stuff, they can't really do it. But for you, if your wife's down, go do it. It'll change your life. Yeah, yeah.

And, you know, I don't care what people think of me. I mean, that's one thing that I would say with my wife. You know, she definitely cares what people think. She doesn't have a lot of friends, but me, I'm just out there. I don't care. That's cool. Do any of your friends know about your fetishes? no no need for people to know really especially because it's very sexual in nature it's like you know

i mean it's it's mainly mainly because of my job i'm pretty well known in my area for my job right so you can't let like word get out of it but it's your private business anyway do me a favor and make sure to tend to your issues with your girl because i think that they need to be tended to you know what else do I want to ask you now do you have any pictures that you want to submit you know I do have a cross-dressing tier on my Patreon so sometimes for them I get like extra pictures if you want send in any pictures dressed up like I could post them there for my on my cross-dressing tier I also have a discord that you get access to for free since you called in and I'll give you that link when your episode is up because it's a fetish Friday and sometimes I do you know a girl talk uh episodes on

Fridays. The poor people who call in for my Fetish Fridays, it takes a long time for their episodes to go up. But because I haven't had an adult diaper one in a while, like this should probably be up sooner than later. It just takes a while because I don't air them like every single week, you know, but it will be up soon.

Please tend to things with your wife. Get on that. Yeah, well. Okay. Yeah, I mean, definitely, I mean, help her. Like I said, I mean, we're in a small town, small area, so there's not a lot of, you know, a big dogged But you don't need it. I'm going to tell you there's a, there's these, I'll email you the name of the place that I go to for hormones.

There's these hormone optimization places now. It's all telemedicine. It's called, there's one called, I'll just tell you the names. One is called elevate. They're not in my city, but they do most cities and they're really good or defy. Defy medical or elevate. They're not even expensive. If you're lab, if you can't get your labs covered, the most you'll pay is $250 for the blood work and like $200 for the, you know, interview.

like really go through hormones and really look and do a whole thing check up you're never going to find that kind of pricing for hormones anymore like but now that it's done telemedicine you know and you could do it over the phone with out-of-state doctors this way because they have a lot of people they could charge way less than what you normally were charged going to doctors that specialize in hormones and it's never covered by insurance they charge so much you pay thousands of thousands of dollars and it's just not like that anymore so you could do these uh go to these uh go to these companies elevate or defy and have her hormones checked out just tell her to go look into it okay yeah I mean I can call you back and let you know how it goes yeah I'm gonna be a I'm gonna do

a whole episode on it it's gonna be an interesting conversation that's for sure help her like I said you know you're gonna help her that's what your partner's there for you would want that you know you'd want her to do that for you if you were going through something she's going through something she needs help well most definitely all right so cool so Anyway, Mike, thanks so much for calling in and sharing your story. Good luck with everything and keep me posted. I will, thank you. You'll get lazered.

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