Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 668 - Sara Broke Up with her Guy and Started Going to Swinger Parties, Hooking up with Couples and More

Episode Date: July 31, 2023

Sara blu broke up with her guy and started going to swingers parties, hooking up with couples and she called in to talk all about it. Why did she end things with her ex? How and why did she start going to swingers parties? And what exactly goes down when she hooks up with couples? Tune in to hear all the details including how she use to dabble on Omegle when she was younger and what kinds of naughty things she would do, her recent bbc experience and how and why she ow considers herself a size queen, the long term relationship she had and how they fantasized about mmf and ffm threesomes, how and why she was really into it and why they never did them together, the time they did go to a swingers club and exactly what went down, how she caught her ex cheating and how and why she then cheated on him too, how after she left her relationship she went out looking to get in to the lifestyle and live out her fantasies, the first swingers party she went to and exactly what went down including her performing for a group of men, her hooking up with a couple and exactly what went down with them, how she met up with the same couple again at their home and exactly what went down that time they met, the other couple she met online and exactly what went down and how and that experienced made her realize she loved girl on girl action, how and why she would like to get more into bdsm and be dominated, how she’s told her friends about all her crazy experiences and how they felt about it, the kind of relationship she sees herself in in the future and why she might wind up back with her ex, why she started onlyfans and how and why she posted everything for free plus a whole lot more. Her Onlyfans: https://onlyfans.com/sarahblu **To see anonymous pics of SARA BLU plus see anonymous pics of my other female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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And you're going to be impressed with Sarah Blue. I was very impressed with her. She's a young girl. She was with her high school suite. had a baby with him. So she was like in a very long-term relationship. They talked about having threesome. She was really down with it. She wanted to have a threesome with a girl. And then they never sort of made that happen. Then he brought up, let's have a threesome with a guy. And she was like, whoa, totally into it. She talks about that. I mean, she was like, wanted to do that asap. But

that never happened. They wound up going to a swingers club. She wanted to get down and dirty. That never happened because of him and it turned out that she went up catching him cheating she talks all about that she left him she's taking a year to herself and while she's taking a year to herself this girl has been fooling around okay she's had bbc's she's had couples she loves pussy now she told me she loves it she's had her experiences she started out like going to a swingers party by herself she's been on the app she's hooked up with many couples she talks specifically about those experiences the one couple and all the guys she like put on a show for at the swingers party that she went to and she went solo okay this is a young girl like 25 going solo to a swingers party

put on a show for a bunch of single guys all watching her she talks about what happened with them then she hooked up with a couple that was really hot she gets very detailed about that she talks about her first couple and how when she went down on the girl she realized that's what she realized she loved pussy she talks about that she doesn't know where she's going to wind up she's not interested in being Polly or anything like that, but she does like to play around. She's still on the apps. She's had a couple other couples. She talks about she had a guy recently a BBC guy. She talks about how she is definitely a size queen now and why. And all that kind of good stuff. She does have an only fan. She doesn't really give it the best pitch at the end, but she has one. She has some

free stuff that you could see and then you pay and she's going to try and upload some of the like the real naughty stuff. But she has it. You're going to love Sarah Blue. I really really liked her. She's very descriptive. She gives you a lot of hot stories. She's really fucking ballsy. Her story with her guy is interesting. So anyway, I'm going to be right back on with Sarah Blue. Hi, Sarah Blue. Welcome to the Strictly Anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm doing great. I'm so happy to be here with you, Kathy Kay. I'm happy around. I have a thing for like my female listeners. You're a female listener. You left a message on my confessions line, like a long-ass message. I was like, oh, she needs to come on the show. I feel like I

corrupted you. Oh my gosh. Oh my God. I can't wait to hear your whole story. I mean the short story and what I the all I wanted to know is like I mean you did have a boyfriend you were in a long term relationship. He tried to get you into the lifestyle and now you're doing three sons but you're not with him. So you got to tell me like that's a short story but you got to tell me the long story because yes. Yeah where I don't know where you want to start Sarah. You listen to my show enough. Where do you think we should start? I feel like it'd be best to start from the beginning but too many details is It's not necessary. Don't worry.

I'll fast forward you if you're getting too involved in the details. But let's start in the beginning always. Yeah, we got an hour. Awesome. So, yeah, my high school sweetheart and I got together. And from the beginning, we were pretty much always talking about having threesomes, inviting another girl into the mix. And we ended up never doing that.

We ended up cheating on each other here and there in our relationship and having a kid. And now being a. single mother, I decided to just do the lifestyle on my own. And it's been pretty rewarding. All right. But wait. So that high school sweetheart, you guys were with each other for 10 years. So in all that time, and you did have, you were both open to maybe trying threesomes and all those 10 years, you never got around to actually doing it or really took that step? No, never together. So he went out, cheated on me, was out there doing his own thing and had a threesome by himself. And I was so sad about it because I was so.

open to the idea and then he goes and does it by himself and I'm just over here breastfeeding our kid and taking care of the house while he's living his best life and you know we separated for a little bit got back together and still never and then he confessed that he was open to trying it with another male and he was talking dirty to me during sex and oh how would it be if we if you had another cock in your mouth on fucking you and I was just like oh shit this is changing the game I never actually thought he was interested into that. So I went full force into how can we make this happen? I probably was very intimidating towards him because he was just like, whoa, I don't know

what's about to happen with my girl because I'm like, let's go. I thought every time he had his friends come over. I was going to get fucked, you know, but it never happened. He was very much back and forth on the whole idea. Interesting. Let me get a little backstory though on you. Was this high school sweetheart, like the guy you lost your virginity to? Had you been with another guy ever?

Gosh. No, I definitely had been sexually active before. I actually took his virginity. Oh, really? Yeah. But I, yeah, definitely. I've been online. I don't know if you remember Omigal or if you know anything about that. What is it? It's called Omigal. It was very popular when I was a kid. We would go on to this website and chat with strangers and their picture would pop up. And if you didn't like what they looked like, or what they were talking about, you could end and it would go automatically to the next person. And a lot of people on there would just be beaten their meat or, you know, doing really weird stuff. And I would be on there hanging out with some fetish people for sure.

Okay, you got to get more specific. You know my show. Okay, you're being a little vague. And I know that there's some naughty shit. Okay, I'm not trying to. So the one thing that I remember that I did, it was just playing around with my nipples. and they were like, go ahead and pinch them. And I showed them Bobby.

I put Bobby pins on my nipples and just was twisting them around. And now as a grown woman, I've got my nipples pierced and I love them. Oh, that's so funny. So you were a nipple girl. But so what was the name of the website you said? What was it? It's called Omiegel. It's I believe spelled O M-E-E-O-M-E-G-L-E.

Wow. Omeagle. So this was a place. Was it young kids on there or a lot of it? Oh, no, I was like, definitely old people. young people, groups of friends, you know, it was just all over the place. I can't believe you've never heard of it. No.

So you're scrolling, you're scrolling, right? And while you're scrolling, you come across like some people that just want to talk and then every now and then you got a guy he's like jerking off. I mean, is that what's going to? Exactly. Oh, my. And you could stop on whoever you want. Exactly that.

No, but did you go there because you were horny? Oh, yeah. Definitely. You know, me and my friends, my friends introduced it to us, to me. And then we'd get into it. then I would just do it on my own at home and get kind of freaky with that. And so that was like before you're married and stuff. This is when you're younger.

Yeah. When I was younger, high school. So now when your husband was talking or your boyfriend about going with girls and stuff, like you were into that and you were open. But when he said guys, you were like, I'm fucking down. Like, why was that so much more, you were so much more into that? Were you like bored with his dick? I mean, how long had you been with him for?

Yeah. Oh, well, he's got some great cock. I mean, everybody is different. And now since being single, I've had a BBC that I'm just like, oh, wow, I can't believe I've been going years without Big Cock. You know, he was pretty average size, like six, seven inches, maybe very hard. But the BBC was probably like eight or nine. And I'm just, wow, those extra two inches. You guys talk about size queens and stuff all the time.

And I'm just like, oh, no, I'm not a size queen. And then right after my relationship, I got with a really tiny. tiny dick man and I was just like oh no I I am a size queen I can't do this very well how do you take the nine inches though you like those extra two inches I do it's it's necessary Kathy you like it you like it's hitting your cervix I I don't know if that's what they're exactly doing but it feels good like going all the way in and like hitting shit it could have been that way he just knew exactly how to move my body we were a doggy style position and he just like moved my I need how it needed to be and then just pushed me around, threw me around.

I'm not really a small woman. You're tiny in your physique. You look taller, but I'm short and I'm thick. And I just needed that manly moving me around. Energy was so good. Wow. And listen, if you were here, I'd high five you, the fact that you took that big dick doggy style. I mean, that's typically my move when a guy has a little dick.

I'm like, fucking doggy style. I don't feel it better. But not with a big dick. I'm like, nah, you're not doing me doggy because I'm like, oh, yeah, I must have a small vagina. I don't know what it is. Probably, you know. And you know what, Sarah Blue?

You got a big one, okay? Because you like that nine inches doggy style. Take it and like a tree. Yeah. That's so funny. But wait a second. So you said you weren't sick of your guy's dick. You guys had good sex.

Like everything was good there. It was awesome. I miss him. You know, we love each other. but it's just when we're both not on the same page, you know, it just, it doesn't work out. Well, what happened with the cheating? Can we go to the cheating? Before we get into like your full-fledged threesomes and everything after you get divorced,

tell me about what happened with the cheating. Like, how did you find out? Oh, my gosh. I just believe a woman's intuition is so strong. Totally. So I was pregnant at the time. And I just kept getting these feelings. I'm like, he's not eating my life.

lunch that I pack for him. He's coming home late. He's, you know, making up excuses, all the red flags. And I just ask him. And he's, no, I would never, boom, blah. And I'm like, okay. And then one day he comes home and

a pack of condoms falls out of his pocket. Oh. You don't use condoms. Guys are so fucking dumb. So I was like, what the fucking he said. Oh, I found it in the parking lot. And I was just like, so you picked it up.

And you thought that was a smart idea to do that. Oh my God, I found it in my part. I like that. That's a quick, that's a quick comeback. I found it in the park. Dumbass. I was like, you're such a bitch. I'm sorry, but condoms are too expensive for people to drop a whole box.

And they look so fresh, too. I'm like, really for your cock, too. I'm sure it was perfect fit. So he was having fun at work in the parking garage, you know, going out to eat and his dick sucked and all this shit. And I was just, of course, it turned me on. I'm like, that's hot. I wish that we could have been doing this stuff together because I've always wanted to. But he had to do it alone, you know?

But wait, did he eventually confess, though? Did you actually get him to just tell you everything? Was it one person? Was it multiple people? What was it? It was multiple people. He ended up having his three-sum while I was pregnant. And then he was cheating on me with his coworker.

And it's fine. You know, I believe that it's okay because, you know, whatever. But he confessed one night. He felt so guilty. sleep. He was tossing back and forth. And I'm like, what is wrong? And this was after you confronted him about the condoms. He didn't come clean then, right? He lied. No. It was weeks after. Okay. And that's when he was like he had to tell you. Yeah. And he just had to tell me. And he confessed while we were in bed. And after he told me he was crying, he's crying like a baby. And I was just like, oh my gosh,

I'm consoling him and I should be the one crying, you know. Oh, my God. Hilarious. And then he turns around and falls asleep like a baby. I was like, oh, my God. He's been holding him. I felt really bad for him because I knew he was holding on to that and it was just such a burden because he is a good guy at the end of the day. We're not bad people. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, I love that. Listen, I got to tell you, I really believe that, you know, maybe there was a part of him that couldn't hold on to it anymore and was really like it was just weighing heavily on him because I think sometimes when we sabotage it's kind of like our own doing. Like sometimes he might have like subconsciously wanted to get caught because I think people that don't and I always weren't cheaters on my car.

No, people that call in that are cheating that feel really guilty and really bad about it, I always warn them. I'm like, you're going to get caught. The part of you that feels guilty is the part of you that's going against who you really are. And that part of you is going to take those condoms and throw them on the floor in front of your girl and make you get back on the right path. So either stop feeling fucking guilty or stop fucking doing it because that's what happens. The better part of him, the part of him. the part that you knew, the part that you love, the part that you know he is, that good guy,

couldn't deal anymore. So that part of him came in and said, fuck you, bad guy, little devil on the shoulder. I'm going to dump those out. And that's what I think. I think it's a subconscious thing. But I think sometimes, you know, he might have like sabotaged because he couldn't deal with it anymore if he felt really that guilty. Seriously.

Because trying to find a way to get out of it. Yeah, but it's subconscious. I don't think he made a deal, you know, to make it. But I think it's what happens, you know, and he got caught and he was done. Look, it did so many weeks later he's crying like a baby. He couldn't deal anymore. He was a good guy. Energetically is too much for sure.

Yeah. And then the cheating just kept going on back and forth. What do you mean? I then cheated on him from his perspective. We weren't together in what I had imagined because I'm like, you have to earn me back. You know, I'm a woman and you're the one that did me wrong. So I was sleeping around still while hanging out. and entertaining him, my baby daddy.

Yeah. And he thinks that that was me cheating on him. So then I'm pretty sure that he was going back and forth and cheating on. He got really good. You know, I just got to the point where I was, like, done checking his phone, done looking through his messages because he was so good at hiding everything. There was, it was squeaky clean. Really?

And I'm just like, those vibes are still there. And, you know, I can't do anything about those vibes, but trust them. So I just have to keep living my life. How did he find out that you were begging other people? Did you tell him? He asked and I told him yes. You probably wanted to stick it to him, right? A little bit.

I sure did. I wanted revenge. I was like, hell yeah. And it was somebody that we both knew and he was even more triggered about that. And I was just like, okay, perfect. Now I know how to get you. Yeah, that's how girls roll. Okay.

You know what I mean? Unfortunately. That's the unfortunate part about it all. Yeah. So you stuck it to him and you went and fucked his friend or someone. you get you get what you give 10fold though you did it worse yeah yeah I totally understand that so you told him straight up now did you continue to see that guy or once you told him when you're done it was just like a one-time thing I personally like to mess around with multiple people I like

I do like the idea of being with one person for the rest of my life but having the variety of I think that's why the multiple cock situation was just such a a beautiful time turn on for me because I like the variety. I like the fact that I'm the one getting every single one of those guys hard kind of thing. Yeah, I love it. Like you said, when your guy brought up to you, let's go find a guy threesome. You were, that was like the light bulb went off. Yep, it was the gas for the engine. So now the threasons that you're having now, they're with guys. They're actually with couples because I feel like I'm trying to live through them. I had to actually pause after my first couple because, well, after my second couple, because it turns out that the guy I was

messing with with this woman, his birthday is the same day as my, my ex-partner. So after I found that out, I'm super into astrology. I love zodiacs. And after I found that out, I was just like, no, what am I doing? How did I end up here? You know, I'm supposed to be here with my man. You thought it was too similar or something? It was just too much, yeah, especially like all the eye contact, all the vibes. I was like, oh my gosh, I can't do this. It just felt too similar to what I just got it out of in a lovey way. And I'm like, that's not what I'm here for.

So I had to pause on that just because of emotions. Yeah, but let's go in chronological order. We'll get to that. That's like your second couple. Okay. So now you get divorced from your guy or you guys separate, right? I mean, he's the father of your baby. Like, you still love him.

Like, you guys are still friends. But you get out of that relationship. I know you got a BBC guy who's fucking you and it's like, and you're how you had a small dick guy. I mean, so you start like the minute you got out of your relationship, you like, at some point you did tell me that you really researched the lifestyle and you were like looking into this. I mean, is that where you wanted to head to?

Did you always know that you wanted to get into that sort of open relationship or like alternative lifestyle world? Most definitely. I feel like after I realized what I was in with my partner, he just, there's this possessive energy that men in general want to have over me or even just women, I've noticed. And it's suffocating. But then it's also very comforting because that's my human. But I know that I've always been turned on by threesomes. I've always been turned on by orgies. And we've always talked about it. So the fact that he wasn't open to even trying it out with me, okay,

that's a lie. We did try it out, him and I. We ended up going to a swingers club in our relationship. And he didn't like it very much. We ended up leaving without doing anything. There was a couple that was talking to us and they just sat down next to us and the man just took off his lady's dress, slipped it off right in front of us and everybody. And then she walked up to the pole and gave us a dance and then sat back down and she said, so what do you guys want to do? And I was just like, oh my gosh, I don't know what I don't know what to say. I'm really nervous. And then they were just like, okay, red flag. And they got up and left. Because you guys were newbies.

They weren't into newbies. Not into that at all. So then him and I just went to a private, private-ish room. There's little square windows that people can look into. And there's two couches and a TV up top. We sat down on the couch together and then started making out really heavy. I'm on top of them. I'm wearing a super slutty dress.

I brought my butt plug. I was ready to play. And he was not. He was just like looking at. everybody looking at us. More people started to crowd through the windows. And he was very uncomfortable with that. So then I was like, hey, let me suck you off.

And he didn't like that very much either. So then I. Oh my God. My listeners are going to love you. My guy listeners, like, where's, I need a Sarah blue. Like, I mean, you're telling the guy in the relationship. Yeah, I was very much the pursuer of sex. So he didn't like that idea.

He's like, all right, let's just go. Let's just go home. And I'll give you some sex. And I was just like, but there's a couple over there. me go talk to the girl. Let me see if I can have my first woman interaction. And he's just, no, I don't know. I was like, okay, well, why don't you go talk to her? He was back to the, I don't know. And I was just like, okay. So we ended up leaving and not doing anything really at all. I did have my titties out. I had the put the butt plug in. And I was just showing off, you know, but nobody touched me.

And I didn't get any sex there. But as a person who's been sort of thinking about that kind of world and feeling like you belong there. I mean, did you dig it when you were there? Like what you saw? Did you feel comfortable? Were you like, this is where I need to be? It did not feel that way. It felt like I was just there too.

I mean, it smelled like bleach, if I'm being honest. The smells weren't there for me. The vibes weren't there. It was like tile flooring, you know, and leather couches that were rubbed off on and stuff. It wasn't that good of a vibe. But I did feel comfortable. It's not like I didn't feel respected or anything.

everybody was there within their own energy. It felt like a house party that had no good lighting. And lighting is very important. Yeah. So that's personally why I didn't like it. I wouldn't be opposed to going back. But if I'm spending my good money there, it's not by choice. Mm-hmm.

Mm-hmm. So now you get out of the relationship, you start just now, when you start going out and now you're single, you can do whatever you want. What do you go looking for? Well, I, knew I wasn't trying to jump into a relationship. But like I said, I guess that's just what I found because I still wanted that with my man.

I just couldn't have that with him. I went out there putting myself fully on the table, like fully available. And this guy just wants to make himself my boyfriend and he just wants to be, he's like, just with my girlfriend. And I'm like, dude, we're just sleeping together. It's not that serious. We just literally hang out in your room. You don't ever take me out. nothing. So he was the small dick guy and I just wasn't into that. I, if you're into one move,

he just only wanted to do it at one, one position. I'm into doing so many different positions. I want to go all night and that was not the vibe. So he had to go. How old are you? Yeah, I'm 25. I'll be 26 in August. Oh, see, I love the younger generation. You know what's so interesting. Like you are so lucky to be a woman now. If you were a woman at my age, oh my God. Like it's kind of like role reversal. The girls are so different than when I grew up. The girls were always sweating guys. They fucked a guy once if they even did that or when they were in love and they had to date them. And now girls are like pushing guys away. I don't want a relationship. I just want to fuck you. I'm copping feelings. I mean, it's a very different world. It's true. It's actually great.

I feel like I was like that. At a younger age, I was a little bit more boy crazy. And if one guy gave me attention, I would be like he's the love of my life and I'm going to marry him. And I'm going to have his babies. Right. And that's pretty much how I got into the situation I'm in right now with my baby daddy. And I just came to the conclusion that, you know, all men cheat, regardless of they're good men. And if they're going to act that way, I'm going to act that way.

Well, let me tell you something, Sarah Blue. Okay. I've lived double your life, okay? And I've had a lot of guy friends. And I have 665 strangers that I've talked to, most of them guys. And I'll tell you this, not all guys cheat. Okay, I promise you that. There are plenty of guys who are monogamous by nature.

It's not the majority, okay? It is the minority, but there is plenty of guys who do not cheat. So don't think just because of what you had and what happened to you that that's every guy. lot of guys cheat a lot of guys are not wired for monogamy a lot of guys it's not easy for them to just be with the same person but there's plenty of guys that they can hang their hat and that they're good to go i'm going to tell you that and you want me to tell you something interesting because you're a girl that likes variety typically i know a lot of guys that are into their girl going out and fucking guys and a lot of time those guys that just want that and love that tend to be

be very monogamous by nature. I've talked to plenty of guys who love nothing more than their girl to go out, have boyfriends, fuck who they want, come home and tell them about it. And they have no desire to have any kind of variety when it comes to women. What they get off on is their women going and doing that. So if you want monogamy,

I'm just saying if you're looking for a guy somehow one day to have that. Like, they exist. Don't think that no guy is monogamous. Plenty of guys are. mindset. You're right. Yeah. So just know that. I mean, don't, because listen, you know, we all get shaped by the things that happened to us when we're younger. And it's very unfortunate when you have at a very young age and experience like that because it can ruin your trust for the rest of your life. No, but seriously. And then, you know, like a good guy could be straight in front of your face,

but you'd never believe it. And then you're closed off and now you're not open. And maybe you're just pushing guys away because now you're closed off, not because you're just naturally not interested. And that's where you want to make sure you're rolling the same way. Listen, it's, you're still young. You should be having fucking fun. The kind of variety of the things that you're doing. I mean, maybe you're never going to have a totally monogamous, like just you and the guy together. But to be able to find a guy that you could be open with and trust that he's what he's doing.

He's telling you. And there's none of that kind of like deceit going on. It's absolutely available. And you will find that one day, you know. Thanks, Kathy. I do appreciate those words. Thank you. Yeah.

Just make sure you file that. Okay. So listen. I'm going to keep that open. Yeah, keep it open because you know, maybe a relationship girl, you're going to have to trust someone, but you might have a very different kind of relationship because it sounds like you're into some freaky shit. So let's get to like when you start seeing couples. So you get out of that relationship. You're reading a lot of guys that kind of want another one, but you're gun shy.

I think you're gun shy, okay, of course. Yeah, you know, and now that we're talking about it, I'm starting to realize how I do definitely self-sabotage in my relationships that could probably go deeper. but a you just I'm still exploring so it's okay yeah of course you're and you're young and you like you got married really young and you had a baby and I can understand you know you're pregnant you find out your guy cheats on you you're not going to leave at that time you know you had to like sort of get over it and I think it was I think it's great and I admire the fact that you were able to come to a place where you could accept it right like you didn't like of course you know what he did was wrong but he's the father of your child you're able to have a good relationship with him now

you at one point accepted and moved on, I don't judge people for that. Like I think that that's totally cool. And yeah, just because you don't want a relationship now, you don't know what's going to happen, you know, and you are having fun. And I just think because you are into all these kinky things,

you might have to reframe or really think about what your next relationship would look like. Maybe it won't be completely monogamous, but even if you have an open relationship, you can't have a fucking guy that's lying to you. Do you what I mean? And you still get. that sometimes in open relationships, you know.

So you need an honest guy, but maybe an honest guy that's going to be open to shit that you're into. When did you start doing the threesome with couples? Like, how did that come about? Well, I started interacting on Facebook groups with anonymous after dark type of groups of people. Really? They have those? They do.

And I guess there's more that I just haven't found because I had to ditch that. process as well. There was a lot of polyamorous people on there and I personally am not really into that. It's not for me. I don't like the concept of building multiple relationships with many different romantic partners. I'm more so into it for the sex, you know, and the connection. Yeah, totally different thing, two different lifestyles. Yeah. So I had to kind of ditch that because I felt that's all I was getting and then I went on to FetLife because I heard that reference in a few of your podcast and so I went on there got myself adjusted with a few groups and events and went well as my partner. I was like, hey, let's go, let's do this. But finding the time was quite difficult.

So now that I have a little bit more free time and I'm just to myself, I ended up going to one event a little bit ago. What was it? Probably. it was interesting because there was a lot of other newbies there and this story kind of it's good and bad. So I'll tell you the bad part first. Good. And then it'll lead to the good. Okay, good. So I was the first person that showed up.

I was like, heck yeah, because I know that you're supposed to meet the host if you're going by yourself. So I introduced myself. She showed me around. It was in an apartment two bedroom. So the first bedroom was more set up like a king-sized bed, lights, and it was the master bedroom. So it was more like one-on-one or however that wanted to go. And then the second bedroom, she set up a glory hole in her closet. And then she had a bed that had a tent over it so that if you wanted to put half your body in there and then just have your lower part exposed, whoever can do whatever.

Wow. So this is like a swingers party. Swingers like party. Yeah, it was like a swinger's party. She, at the end of it, was a little bit upset because it didn't go more towards the BDSM. But I just thought it was interesting because there was a good group of people probably between 15 and like 20 people that came. Okay. What were the demographics?

Like what did you see there? There was two different couples that showed up. There was four or five males. and then there was like one single woman that ended up leaving and she and I were chit-chatting for a while and she was just like telling me girl you're worth so much more because I was wearing a skimpy slutty little dress my nipple piercing were showing and she was just like you know you're basically showing them everything and I was just like you're right I deserve so much more and then I left I left and then I sat in my car and I was just like oh my god I was so influenced by that

lady, I need to sit with myself. And then I went back upstairs. And I was just like, I'm back. And she was gone by then? She was gone. Yeah. And the guys were there. They were all like, oh, I'm so happy you came back.

I mean, what are you supposed to wear a party like that? Anything more. A turtlene? I mean, why was she me telling you you shouldn't wear that high outfit? I love slutty clothes. I know. I was like, girl, I got curbs. And she was probably jealous.

I don't know. Yeah. Your nipples out. I mean, you want to show the goods. This is a place where you're coming right at it. This is what I got. I'm like, y'all get what you get. You like what you like or you don't.

You're supposed to be. That's the way you present yourself at that kind of party. I think she didn't realize where she was. I'm glad you went back. She was looking for a dominant. I was like, good luck. Most dominants out here are like 26 years old thinking that they know what to do. Oh my God, hilarious.

So wait, so now, do you hook up at that party? I did. So this is where I met my second couple that I messed with. And how it all. all happened. So there is the, it was kind of set up AA style. So it's couches and then chairs in front of the couch and in between there's a coffee table. So I'm sitting there on the couch next to a dude. And then there's two dudes in front of me and there's a chair right in the middle. And I didn't notice this chair. So I was like, hey guys, can I come sit right here? And they were like,

oh yeah, of course. And so at that time, I'm just filling out their vibe. We're chit-chat a little bit. I zone out. And they're just talking. And then I was like, like, hey, do you guys want to go to the back room and look at each other's bodies? And they were like, okay. So we get up, we go back there. And one of the guys, it's his very first event, very first experience ever. The other guy I learned he had been asked by one of his coworkers to join him and his wife in a threesome. So he's been playing around with them for months and just wanted to explore something else.

So he's pretty familiar. We went back there and he was, and the one guy was like, what are, what are we supposed to do? And I was just like, do you want to take off my clothes? And he was like, the other guy was like, you're the boss, whatever you want. So he starts taking my dress off. And the other guy is, should I shut the door? Do you want me to shut the door? Keep it open.

And I looked at him. I was like, do whatever you want. I'm over here. And he's over here wasting time over the door. And so he shuts it. And then he locks it. And I was just like, okay. And I'm still getting undressed.

and then the host comes banging on the door. She's very upset. She's, hey, no shut doors. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No lock doors. And I was just like, hey, I didn't know. So I opened it up and she's just what the heck's going on. And I was like, I don't know.

But you can tell everybody if they want to come over here, they can. Because the guy was just like, you invited us back here. I don't have any condoms. And I was just like, you don't need any condoms. I don't want you guys to fuck me. There's no penetration happening. I'm looking at your body. You're looking at my body.

That's it. That's all I asked for it. Right. And he was like, but you're insinuating that if we go to a private room, then that's what's going to happen. And I was like, no, I did not. And so him and the host are talking about it. And she's just, it's whatever she wants. But no doors need to be closed.

And one of the couple I messed with, the girl came in. And she said, if you can't handle the doors open at a party like this, then you shouldn't be here. To the guys. You mean, right? Yeah, to the guy. And he was just like, okay, yeah, whatever. So I lay down on the bed. and I'm just showing myself off.

They're just touching me, touching my tits. The guys that you just had this little argument with? Yeah, the guy that I just had the argument with. And the other guy. And the other guy. Because I was like, hey, you know, everybody gets a second chance. Whatever he can do. I like you.

You're very forgiving. Okay, go on. That's cool. So they're touching me. And then another guy comes in, the guy who was sitting next to me on the couch, he ends up because I didn't invite him because he was older, not very attractive. But he comes in and he starts touching me. And they're all digesting.

jacking their dicks off in front of me and then the one guy who i was fighting with he has his face all up in my face and he smells like straight laker and i was just like throwing up i said dude i don't like the smell of alcohol i'm gonna need you to step back yeah yeah and then he he was a mess he gets up gets his clothes on and sits down on the couch the whole night he's sitting down on the couch right and i was just like whatever so we didn't play but i let the other guys i told them i was like hey you guys can jack off on my tits and if you want to come on my titty's, that's fine. One guy came and then he started cleaning himself off and I was like, you're not going to clean me up. And he was like, oh my God, I'm so sorry. And I was just like, okay, thank you

for that. So he cleaned me up and the other guy was just still going at it himself. And I was kind of tired. So I did suck a little bit of dick. So the people watching, there was a couple guys watching, a couple watching. And at that point, they left and they're like, gosh, you're sucking dick that's all I heard oh my god they called they came back in to watch they all came back into watch and I just thought that was really funny but then I was done after I told them to come and I sat down I smoked my little wax pin so I sat down and start smoking and while but while I was up there on the bed the couple's looking at me and I was like are you guys shy or something and they were just like oh no we're just enjoying the show and I was like okay cool and we were just kind of making

light chit-chat here and there, get into nobody. And then when I was done, they started going at it on the bed. She was sucking his dick. And I was just, I was hyping her up. I was like, oh my God, girl, that looks so high. I was like, damn, she takes care of you, man. You get a good, you have a good girl for yourself. And then he looked back at me and was like, you can join in if you want. And I was like, okay, bet. So, yeah, we started having sex. I was just like sucking him off with her and, I started eating her pussy. And was that your first time? Because you did say this is my second couple.

I'm like, why did we miss the first couple? We got to go back to the first couple. We'll go back to the first couple. Okay. But the hottest part, yeah, the hottest part of this all after I was going down on her, she was going down on him. They had sex. I was laying down on the bed while she was on top of me, 69,

and then he was fucking her from the edge of the bed, which it was so hot to be able to watch his cut go in and out. That was my favorite part. it and then he came in my mouth and then she wanted me to spit it into her mouth. Uh-huh. So I did that. That was, yeah, it was so hot. I was just like, oh, my God, I don't mind doing that again.

So this is like a straight up porn. Oh, my God. It was so hot. At this point, everybody had pretty much left because I think they were jealous. Now, wait, how hot were there, was, were you very attracted to this couple? Were they super hot? Can you paint a little bit of a picture? So when they first walk in, I was.

just like, oh, yes, this is what I came here for. I was so happy because that's literally what I came here for. She's got some big old titty's blonde hair. He's black, baldhead. They're just a cute little couple. And she was wearing a nice little black dress. And they were just sitting in the corner the whole night, which is why I didn't make a move on them because I didn't know if they were interested.

I don't know what they were there for. And I made an announcement to the whole group. I was like, hey, guys, I don't know what y'all are here for, but. they just walked through the door and I'm here for this lovely lady. I'm pretty sure. And they didn't say anything after that. They just kind of laughed and we all went about talking. But when they saw me on the bed and stuff, I could tell they were interested because they didn't take their eyes off me.

And then you got them. Now, were they around your age range or were they way older? Do you know their age? Just a bit older in the 30s. And the guy, he said he's been in the lifestyle for 17 years. So he's probably in his 40s, but she's in her 30s. And yeah, I ended up seeing them again after that weekend. I saw them again.

I went to their house and then I ended up having sex with them. I let him have sex with me. And how was that? That was the first time. You didn't, that didn't happen that time at the party, right? At that party, no. I went there. And that's when I found out he's got the same birthday as my ex.

Oh, you threw this couple out because of the stupid astrology thing? Yes. Oh, my God, you're so dumb. I didn't. I still talk to them. Okay. It's just like some personal battles I'm dealing with, you know. It's just hard for me to connect when I have these other feelings going on.

I'm trying to let loose. Yeah. How long has that, but how long have you ended things with your ex? Like, how long has that been? So it's been just a few months. Oh, okay. Oh, okay. Yeah, you're not right.

You're still, that's normal. If it was like three years, I'd be like, get over it already. Who cares? You know what I mean? But it's very fresh. Oh, my God. I told him I needed a year. I told him I needed a year, so I signed a lease, and here I am.

And I've been really looking forward to talking to you, so I'm very happy to be sharing my story. Wait, but meaning you want a year away from him and you might go back kind of thing? Just like a year to myself to see where we're both at. Yeah, that's interesting. I like that. Yeah, he said while we were in the relationship, if you ever leave me, I'm not trying anymore. But then I left him, and he's like, I still want you. Like, why did you leave?

So that threw me off, and I didn't expect him to work. want me still. So I told him, just give me the year and we'll see where we're at. That's nice. I mean, listen, you have a child together, right? I like that idea that you give it a year because I think that it'll really help you really realize, you know, what you really want, you know, and you'll really know. I think that that's great. That's an interesting kind of uncoupling because it's not definite. I respect that. So wait, so let's go back to the second couple. So you go to their house, right? They invite you after. Okay. And so tell me about that. Hook up. Well, they were like, hey, hit me up anytime, you know, like we've been looking for somebody like you. They want to create content

together and, you know, I'm still on the fence of where I'm at with my whole content creation. I, like I said, I want to be able to monetize off my sexuality. I just don't know exactly how to do that. Yeah, everybody's doing it nowadays. You know, it's just, it feels like the natural thing to do and it feels like the smartest thing to do, but I just don't know I, how comfortable I am doing it in general. So I'm coming to terms with that and I don't want to give them the wrong idea that I'm going to have sex with them and then that they can record me because I don't know if I'm there yet. So when you went to their house though, did they ask you for that? No, no. They're really professional and they're really sweet. They, I don't, I don't think that if I told

them like, hey, I don't want to record that they would be like, I don't want to see you anymore. I think that we've built a nice little friendship to where we can chit chat with each other and have that understanding. But it's too fast for me. I'm just like, I'm cool not talking to people for months at a time, you know. Yeah. So if I'm going to be creating this relationship, I don't want it to turn into polyamorous or anything like that. Yeah, it's just sex. So when you

hoardy, you give them a call. So what happened that second time, though? I know that this time it was a little bit hotter, right? Even because you got to fuck the guy. Was he the BBC? He does have a big, big cock, but he's not the guy I just recently saw. Okay. So it was, it was

an average little sexual encounter. I feel like I really enjoyed the open space being watched and having that experience with all the other men kind of hyped me up. But seeing them, it was a little bit more intimate. It felt like a little bit more pressure to please. So we had, I feel like they didn't share this with me, but I feel like he was taking some type of pill to keep him up or something because he kept having to leave the room. Oh, interesting. And, yeah, and handle his own business.

I don't know what he was doing. but I get there and she's not wearing any panties and I didn't notice that she wasn't wearing any panties until she opens up her legs and she's like, I'm not wearing any panties for you. And I was just like, oh my gosh, I didn't notice. Can I come sit in between your legs? So I sat down on the floor in between her legs while we were talking and just was rubbing her pussy a little bit, just like showing her some praise. And then he's a, I'm going to get up and go brush my teeth because I had mentioned. that I didn't like the smell of somebody's breath there. And he's, I don't want to be that guy.

So he went to go brushing up. And while he was saying that, I started going down on her. And then he comes out and he's, oh, damn, do you guys want to take it to the bed? So. Yeah, news flash. He didn't go brush his teeth. He just shot himself up with those pills or whatever. That's what you said before.

That's what he did. I'm pretty sure. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm pretty sure. Okay. And him and I, because I don't know where they're. relationship is that I've heard a lot of stories where people will like get really feisty if they end up if things happen that they don't want to happen. So I just was steering clear and mostly focusing my

attention on her. Yeah, that's smart. Even though even though I really wanted that male, you know, satisfaction and his attention, I just don't want to take that away from her still. So I, we ended up playing with a dildo and I was, you know, giving her pleasure with that, made her come a few times. times he used probably three or four condoms to fuck me. It was nice. It was really fun. Nothing super special in that situation. But can we go back to the first couple?

How did we miss them? Where do they come into play? So in my whole app situation. So the apps are really not fun. But they are a central part of dating these days. So I heard of another app called Field from podcasting. So I went on there. and found a couple.

We started Snapchating, and they invited me over. I got really drunk. I was drinking a lot of tequila with the wife, and we ended up having sex. It was my very first time. It was awesome. I took my couple shots and asked them if they wanted to go to their room and if they could undress me. And so we started undressing each other and kissing up on each other.

and I was just in such bliss. It felt amazing. I, after we were done, it was just confirmed that I like pussy. I was just like, I'm gay. I'm bisexual. Whatever it is, I love it. You know? I couldn't handle myself.

I was just like, wow, I need to get more of this. Yeah. Do you think you'd ever date a woman? That's something I'm still not really sure. I don't think I could get that satisfaction from women, the way that men just really make me feel. But I don't know. I think I'd be open to it.

Uh-huh. Right, because you know you like them physically now, for sure, especially even the first time it was amazing for you. First time for sure. I was just like, can I eat your pussy? Because obviously, and I, she's, are you sure this is your first time eating pussy? I was like, dude, never in my life have I had the pleasure. So thank you.

Oh, my God. You were that good that she couldn't believe it was your first time. Yeah. She was like, are you should. And I think that's why ultimately, I don't know why. But they ended up blocking me the next day. Really? Yes.

So we were all playing and the boyfriend husband, whatever, was like, all right, guys, I'm tired. And I guess that was my cue to leave. But we never talked about that or anything. So I was still playing around. I was like he was laying there. I was laying on him. She was laying on him. So he was like in the middle of us while I was fingering her.

Yeah. And he didn't. I don't think he liked that. So he was like, can you? guys go out there or whatever so we went out to the couch and we were just kind of cuddling and kissing on each other and I think that was her way of telling me goodbye forever because we were we didn't talk we haven't talked since I was blocked so all right so maybe he felt like you were giving her too much attention or something that's weird but who cares I think so yeah yeah but that was like your

first experience with a woman right the first it was with a couple and with a woman so now after that couple that you just ditched because they got the same the same birthday do you go have you met other couples? I haven't. So after this couple, because I still want to keep them on my line. I don't want to just ditch them like that because they are cool people. And yeah, you know, I know I'm compatible with them. So, you know, I'm just taking my time to figure out how, what works best for me on that and whatnot. But I got back on these apps. I was on Bumble, just trying to be vanilla and just figure out what I want for my life in that aspect. And this dude hit me up. And he was very persistent on coming over.

And I just was a little bit hungover one morning. And he called me because he works the overnight shift. And I don't like the overnight shift workers, Kathy. They, I'm sorry to anybody out there listening, but it's just not healthy. It's not healthy. It doesn't set you up for a good lifestyle. No, it's terrible. I worked in bars when I first moved to New York.

I was just telling my sister this recently because I never looked more unhealthy and felt more unhealthy because it is unhealthy. I mean, your eyes are supposed to be open when it's sunlight outside and your eyes should be closed when it's dark. And when you're working at 5.30 in the morning and then sleeping all day, like, it just, it goes against nature. Like, it is actually physically unhealthy. You know, it is difficult. But some people just can't help it. But I think it's actually very hard for a relationship.

How you can have a relationship with someone where they're sleeping when you're awake? I mean, I don't know how that works. I think that's really hard. It doesn't. Yeah. It doesn't. And I know this. But I still entertained it because I'm just a horny fucking slug.

Wait, is he the big dick guy? Yeah. Oh, okay, that's why you're entertained. Yeah. So I'm a whole 5 foot 2 inches and this guy's 6 foot 5 or something. He's really tall. So he basically invites himself over one day just recently and it's so stupid. Men, I just don't get why they act like this.

So he comes over right after work and we start cuddling. He's a big dude, whatever. he has his condoms and stuff and I guess the condom breaks while it's inside of me and he looks at me and he's like he's are you clean and I was like what

because the condom broke he's can you take the pill and I look at him and I was like first of all I'm not buying the pill I was like no I can't I'm not doing that he's like can't take the pill and I was like I can take it but I'm not about to buy it and he's oh I'll buy it for you

so I thought that was nice he was proactive but yeah there's this little devil inside of me. That's just like that was intentional. He did them on purpose. And I don't know. I don't know. Kathy, there has to be something. How do you break a condom on purpose? I don't know. But he's, he was very genuine, it's seeming about it being in an accident. And I was like, that's fine. So I ended up taking the pill, which I haven't done that in so long. I was just like, this isn't fun. And

hygienically, I just need you to be clean and presentable, you know. And he had, gunk in his teeth and I don't like that like why are people like this? I don't know that people are like this. That guy I mean most people don't have gunk in their teeth that I see. I don't know because I look at people's teeth.

And I was kissing that mouth. So I was I was really upset about that. Let me tell you I have full-fledged. I had a booty call that I fucked for like eight years in my life and I never kissed him because I hated his mouth. It was so disgusting to me. And at one time there was a time where I saw

I'm eating a sandwich and it really fucking turn me off. I can't watch an ugly mouth eat a sandwich and see all that gunk in the mouth. So I'm right there with you. Like things like that can turn me off, you know? But I mean, did you have, did you not go back because of that? Or are you still seeing him? Because you do. No.

No, I just can't. I'm like, if I let this go, something better is going to come in its place. So I got to let it fully go. Right. And what is something better for you? It's, it's all of my standards being met. No, but I mean, but what is it? Is it a relationship with somebody else?

Is it just a, you know, a fuck buddy partner that is on the same page? What are you looking for? Yeah, I feel like it would be great to have somebody that I can just be like, hey, I'm available, come through. And they're like, all right, cool, I'm on my way. Or I can't right now. Can I see you tomorrow? And there was none of that. It's anytime I would call this man, he wouldn't answer.

So part of me feels like he, he did say he was in the middle of a breakup and he's got a kid and stuff. So I'm sure he was just probably still living with the baby mama and probably still in a relationship with her. Yeah, yeah. And he might not work that night shift. He might have a daytime wife. He might have an actual family. Yeah, exactly. You know.

Oh, my God. People are so fucking full of shit. Yeah, you don't know what's going on that. But so what you're looking for in this one year break is besides, you know, finding a guy that you could live out your. sexual fantasies with. Are you still looking for other couples? So back to that party I went to, there was another couple who was very much interested in me, but I worked all day, went straight to that party and put on basically two shows. They were like, can we play? And I was just like, yo, like the night's over.

So they've been really persistent in trying to get into my pants. And at the party, I was able to get a sense of their relationship, which is a dominant submissive role. And I thought it was really interesting because every dominant relationship is different, very different. And to witness theirs in person, I was just like, wow, I just watched foreplay happen in front of my eyes. Right. And nobody else would know unless they knew. He, so she comes in with this super funky.

I want to say like 60s hairstyle where her hair is bumped at the front and then it's clipped in the back. Yeah. And it just looks really like old style. And she's cute lady. She was doing her thing, whatever. And we were chit-chat and we ended up having practically the same birthday. So I'm like, what is it with all my birthday twins? And he's, hey, babe, why don't you take down your hair? And she's, okay. So she takes her hair down, shows it off. And he's like, go ahead and stand up. And she stands up and shows off her ass and her body. And she's just like really feeling herself sits back down and you can tell she's like feeling so beautiful and pretty at this moment and I'm hyping her up because I'm like damn girl look at you and her man is just okay babe

it's bath time and then she gets up and goes to the bathroom and her hair is pulled back how it was before and then she's back to it just chit-chat and I was like okay that's interesting I love that dynamic would you which who do you like in that if you were to be in that dynamic who would you want to be, that girl or the guy? I know that I'm a switch, so I would want both. Yeah. I would definitely want to be the one that's in control, probably out in public. And then, you know, in private, I'll take that submissive role.

Yeah, because let me tell you all these stories you tell me. I mean, it's, you sound pretty dumb. I mean, here you are like a really young girl walking into a fucking swingers party solo, meeting a bunch of strangers and putting on shows and bossing people around and telling people what the fuck to do. Like, I mean, you really have a lot of confidence,

I have to say, one, you know. I know I do. And you definitely seem dominant for sure, right? You know, you got that going on.

But you also, though, do the sub thing is what you're saying. Like when you saw like her role, you're like, oh, that's kind of hot to be bossed around. It was kind of hot.

I, I just liked how they were confident to do that. Yeah. And like that that was their dynamic, Personally, I wouldn't find myself in that exact, like, position, that exact scene. Yeah. But, yeah, I like that dominant. I like being dominated for sure if they know, if they know what they're doing.

Yeah. With my previous partner, to try to spice things up, we took some ecstasy. Uh-huh. And we ended up playing together, like, how we've never played before. And it was so exciting. We, I have these sex dice that are just like, you know, stuck here, like here, whatever. So we played with that. And it ended up instructing him to tie me up.

And I was just like, oh, shit, what the fuck are we doing? This is hot. I really like that a lot. So that was fun. Do you still sleep with that guy every no and then, ever? We have not in the last couple of weeks because of, I want to say because of financial issues. I feel like that's another huge reason why we have to split. And I'm like, give me money.

I don't like being told no. and he doesn't want to pay, so I'm not going to give anything. Yeah, that kind of ruins the sex appeal. I mean, you know, you're not horny for him. But before that, though, even though you guys are on a break and you're doing all this stuff with these people, you were kind of sleeping with him too sometimes? Probably maybe once every two weeks. Now, did you share any of this crazy stuff with him?

No, he doesn't know. Does anyone know besides me and all my listeners? Yes, I've told a few people because I just, I've had, love to show off and I'm such a like excited person. I want to brag about it and I'm like are you guys doing this stuff too or what did they say well they're I asked a couple of friends the reason I went alone is because nobody would go with me yeah I I had to and then I heard Lila London talking about doing all her crazy stuff by herself and I'm just like you know what I can do it too yeah so I give you credit I would never have been able to do that when I was 25 I don't even know that I go

alone at my age. I don't know. That's why I really, I admire you. I think that that's really brave and that you just fucking did it at a very young age, you know. And that one guy at the party who I told to back off, he stayed there the whole night waiting for me to leave. And he was, he and I were the last people to leave that party. So he followed me to my car and he actually parked right next to me. So I was very terrified. I was like, how I was going to say what the fuck is that? Yeah. He's over here trying to hug me, ask me what, what he did wrong. Why did I treat him like that? Kind of being confrontational and I'm by myself.

So I was like being really sweet. And I was like, hey, you know. Yeah. I was like, that's okay, whatever next time. And I ended up driving towards a police station because I heard that in a stories or a podcast somewhere that you're being followed drive to a police station. Yeah. So I started driving towards that.

And I lost him. He didn't follow me anywhere. So. Wow. That is a little freaky. Yeah, that's the other part of it. I mean, to go and it's like ballsy and so many different. levels, but it also is always when you're a girl.

There's this weird thing that when you're with guys, you're more vulnerable than a man is if he's by himself. You know, it's just a fact just because physically men are stronger, you know, but that's good that you're safe. So I'm still a little confused. I love your story, by the way. It's so fascinating. I, every part of it is interesting to me and different, you know, especially even the way

you set things up with your ex and how you're taking this break. I still don't really know exactly what you're. looking like where do you think but I think that that's okay I think you're just open and trying to figure it out that's what your year is about right you're not clear how could you be like that's what this is this year is right you trying to figure it out and that's really what all of your whole fucking 20s is you know what I mean that's what's wonderful about being in your 20s you really are figuring out who you are and you might be 10 different people before you turn 30 you know and that's why I think sometimes it is hard for people to get married so young because you're going to

to grow and change so much. Most likely you're not going to be on the same path with that person your whole life. People go in separate directions. Some people do stay. Those are the lucky ones. They meet the person in high school. They're still with them at 70 and they love them. I mean, that happens. It's just very rare. I'm interested to see whether you wind up with your baby daddy at the end. I know. Me too. But I feel like if I do, it's going to be back and forth again, like how it always is until we just figure out what it is that we really want. Because like you said, I don't know what it is, but I'm open. figuring it out. Yeah, but I think, you know, you got to go back to that relationship eventually after a year. Maybe you're going to need a little bit longer. Really being honest about all the things

that you did and all the things that you're into and all the things that you want to fucking do. You know what I mean? And then maybe he'll be more honest about his shit too because it seems like he had all this stuff going on, but he couldn't be straight up. And it sounds like you were open with each other. You were talking about being with other people. You went to Swingers Club yet he was still having to live this separate life. Like he's going to have to come clean too, right? Because how are you ever going to trust that guy unless he really tells you straight to your face?

Hey, I do want to fuck other people. Let's do it together. Right. Because obviously this is how he rolls. You know, he wants variety. That's the way he is. Then he's got to be up front. I'll tell you this.

Some guys just can't be that way. Some guys just can't be honest. You know what I mean? But there's guys that can. And I think once you figure out exactly what your future relationship is. looks like after you live out all your fantasies, I think you're going to meet the right guy will be out there that is going to be interested in exactly what it is, whether it's this guy, your baby daddy guy, right?

It could be him. Who knows? I can't wait. Or maybe you're going to meet somebody else and you and he will co-parent really well and you'll be in an open relationship with a guy who is monogamous but in the lifestyle with you. Because just because you're in the lifestyle and you're open and you want to fuck other people, you still got to be, you know, trustworthy and you still got to be honest, right?

And if it's like we don't play solar or whatever, you still can't fucking cheat. It always blows my mind when people still do that even with the openness. But, you know, hopefully you'll meet one of the guys. And there's plenty of them that, you know, will be so happy that you're cool enough to allow them to do that shit. That they would never ruin it by going out and getting something behind your back. Right. Because I'm just so open. tell me that's what you want and I'll be like all right let's plan a day to make it happen yeah you wanted

the threesome's you're like fuck you what you your guy you're like you went out those two other girls instead of me and it's so weird that some people cannot put two things together they can't put their dirty sex and their woman at home together you know what I mean it's that madonna or a complex like treat me like the horrors that you love fucking in the car that you were doing at work right that's what he needs to do he needs to bring that together do it with you you're a freaky girl. You like a lot of stuff. And the fact that you happen to really like relationships and all that stuff, I mean, it makes you like really like the whole package. So you're going to wind up fine. Your guy is the one that's going to wind up not fine if you don't mind up going back to him. He loses not you.

You're funny. Thank you. I agree. Yeah. And you know, you might wind up with a girl. You might wind up with anything, but you're having fucking fun. And you need to keep in touch with me. I need to know where you're at when this all comes or when, you know, the next, that next chapter in your life will be super interesting because like right now you just don't know. And I wonder what a year of having sex with couples and doing this and you're going to eventually be with two guys. Who knows what you're going to do? How are you going to feel? What are you going to be looking for? Will you ever want that guy again? Or do you want him more because you've kind of been there done that? I mean, there's so many different ways this story could go that I'm interesting, which way it does go. So you're going to have to keep me posted. I most definitely will, Kathy. You know

it. I love it. I love your story. It's so interesting. Do you have pictures for my Patreon, like R-rated pictures? Do you know about my show? Girl sent in like sexy picks. I've been taking a few this week to add up to this moment. Get me those pictures sooner than later. And then you'll also be given free access to my Discord where you could go in and chat with people and stuff if you want. Yay. That's up to you. So thank you so much. What we call you Sarah Blue. Thank you Sarah Blue for calling in. Your OnlyFans isn't set up or anything yet, right? You don't need to promote that or do you? I mean, we totally can.

I'll send you that information as well. Well, do you want to say a little bit? I mean, what the fuck do you have on there? You got to promote it. Tell people what they go. What's on your only fans? Hey, you know, all up for discussion. Oh, they have to go there to see?

I have no idea. I haven't touched that thing in months. But, you know, if this promotes it and gets things going, that'd be cool. Well, people are going to want to see more. Is there anything on your only fans? I mean, listen, you tell a good fucking story, but you're not a good advertiser, okay? This is your, this is the one flaw. I haven't found anything you don't do well.

Now I figured it out. It's the marketing. You don't know, yeah, it's marketing. Well, I am here. You're like, oh, you never know. You got to be specific. Like, what is on your only fans at it? Okay, so this is just a quick little story.

It's just a quick little story. So I had made an only fan, talked to a couple of my friends, sent them my page, and they're like, wow, once this blows up it's going to blow up and I was just like thanks for the feedback I check out my friends only fans and I come to realize that I've been doing it in a way that will never get me money because I put it all up there for free I put everything up there for free so I was like oh my gosh everybody's been seeing it I thought they had to click on it to pay so I deleted a whole bunch of clip pigs titty pigs and all that shit and it's just basic nothing super showing anything but There's a little snippets and little pickies here and there. I'll tell you something. Let me tell you this. That some guy complained about somebody's only fans recently. They're like, oh, another one where there's nothing for free.

You don't see anything you got to pay. And I think it's always good to have some free shit and really let people know what they're getting. You know what I mean? And then upsell. So I think it's fine. I think it's good the way you have it set up. So you left some stuff up there for free so people know. And then if they pay to get in, do they see videos and stuff of you?

Like, is that what's in there for paid content? Not yet because I went through and deleted all of it, all of the really nasty stuff because I was like, that can't be for free. Okay. So what's your only fans just in case? I mean, you did a terrible job of pitching it, but what's your only fans? So it is just set up as my name, Sarah Blue, S-A-R-A-H, and then B-L-U. Okay, B-L-U, Sarah Blue, without the E. You'll send me that link, send me your picks.

Thanks so much for calling it. I love your story. Good luck with everything. You're the best. Enjoy your day. You too. Bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly

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