Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 836 - Scott is a Cuck who Lost his Hotwife to a Bull

Episode Date: May 27, 2024

Scott is a true cuck who lost his hotwife to a bull and he called in to talk al about it. When did he realize he was into being cuckolded? When did him and his wife open up their relationship? And why did his wife wind up leaving him for a bull? Tune in for all the details which include how he found out his wife had a one night fling and how that led to him being a cuck, where they went to find the first bull and what went down, how he felt the first time his wife was with another guy, how and why he stayed out of the hook ups at first and then why he started watching, how he became the clean up guy, how she eventually started seeing bulls as well as random guys she met while out, the bull who turned them on to her denying him sex and how long her went without having sex with his wife, what he got out of being denied, the last bull she met up with and what was different about her “relationship” with him, the vacation they all took together and what he saw that made him realize there was trouble, how he asked her to stop seeing him and why she said no, how she eventually left him for the bull, how he felt about the betrayal and a whole lot more. REPEAT (originally aired 11/22) **To see anonymous a pics of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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I'm typically been airing those repeats on Thursdays or Fridays, but this week it's going to be on Monday because it's a holiday, and a lot of people will you be, a lot of you will be at the beach still, barbecuing, having fun. So this is a repeat, but it's a good one. Okay, a lot of people love the repeats because I have so many new listeners. People are always finding my show, and I have over 800 episodes. How are you going to listen to them all? I pick and choose really good ones. This is a great one. The guy's name is Scott. He wrote in and he was like, listen, I know that you've had a of great cuck stories on your show, but I have a not so great cuck story. And I was like, I love a story gone wrong story, only because that's real life, right? And I think it's important for

people to listen to if they're looking to get into the cuckle, the hot wife lifestyle. You're not just going to, you don't just want to hear from people that did it right. I think you could really learn even more so from people who did it wrong. Now, Scott is a real true cuck, like extremely Kuck. And when you listen to his story, it's going to be very easy for you to see why and how things are just going to go fucking wrong for him. Okay. But you have to really understand when you're listening to him. So you just don't judge him so much because he got a lot of judgment when I first aired it. That this, you know, a lot of times it's so much easier to see things from the outside than to see them when you're in it. This whole process and his kuck gone wrong story took a lot of

while. It started out with him finding out his wife cheated and it turned into them getting into the whole cock hot wife thing. And then things progressed from there. I'm not going to give you all the details because nobody wants to hear all the details in my description. My intos anymore. But there's many details in between her cheating on him, them starting to do the cockat wife thing and then things ending badly. You're going to have to listen for all those details. Like I said, everyone was very judging about him. Like, oh, duh. But like I said, Remember that it's really easy to see things when you're outside of it than when it's in and when it's happening, you know? So anyway, I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Scott.

Hi, Scott, Scott, right? Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today, Scott? Good, Kathy. Thanks for having me on. I appreciate it. No way, I'm glad to have you on because you wrote in. I've had a lot of cock, hot wife, stag episodes lately. people effing love them and I tend to find a lot of or I tend to attract a lot of couples who are doing that kind of thing

and everything's rosy great people are very successful at it and you wrote it and you're like I want to talk about how it could go wrong because it did go very wrong for you and of course there's so many people out there that probably have that story and because I'm an effing realist I say it all the time and I really am I like to show all sides of things and I think it is important for people to hear and know that sometimes opening it up or these kinds of situations could really be bad too. So why don't you tell your story, Scott? Sure, yes. And everything exactly right. And you always have amazing guests. And I'm always, you know, in my story, I was like, there's got to be more people out there. I kind of always feel like I was, you know, I'm always asking myself, like, what went wrong?

All these people are having so much success. So I met my, well, now ex-wife, but I met my wife. We were together for 17 years, married for 15, a little bit of background. She was a young single mother. She had a child in high school. So she kind of missed those wild times you have through the college, early 20s. So she was kind of more reserved. I definitely was more experienced, I think, just in like things of a sexual nature and past relationships.

She didn't really have a lot of background. And so we got together and things were good and just having like your normal everyday life together, raising her, her child and together and things of that nature. And I feel like she just got to a point where, you know, when we discussed it further, where she just feel like she missed out. And she was feeling a little, as you probably can relate with talking to other women. She felt a little bored. And I had a health scare and kind of took me.

out of commission for a good year to two to rehab and just was never back to what I always felt like I was in the prior. And I found out during that time, she was kind of being a little distant and this and that. And just through some probing questions, she finally came out and she had a one-night stand. She had a one-night stand when she went away with her girlfriend. And so my first reaction is probably like what you hear a lot from people is I was mad. I was upset. And we were doing the whole back and forth and just not in a good space.

And then I didn't really know much about cuck holding, to be honest with you, back then. And it just got to the point where I just had it like a weird where like I went from anger to like when I would think about it. It kind of turned me on a little bit. And I approached that with her. And her first reaction was like, why would that happen to you? And we just kind of talked about it. And I kind of approached originally, would you be up to maybe, should we bring another couple in? And I feel like she felt like she didn't have any experience besides me at that point.

And she was very upfront and said, honestly, I don't think it'll work because I feel like I would get jealous of me being. with someone else. So I kind of let it just sit and didn't really think of anything. And she has a friend who's pretty out there, just real sexual, bisexual. She goes to these big parties, whatever. And I guess when they talked about it, she said, well, why don't you approach him, if you don't want to share, bring up a cuckold relationship. And we really didn't know much.

So, and this is going back some years when this happened. And the internet wasn't what's out there now, like with your podcast and other things. Like it just really wasn't a lot of great stuff to look into. But actually, I felt like more what helped was there was like some research books by, I guess, like, sex therapist more people. And it took out like that porn aspect of it. Yeah. And it just kind of gave more to a relationship-wise. She liked that part of it as opposed to me and like some of the other stuff out there.

She's like, I'm just not going to walk into some club and start having sex with 20 guys and in that way. And then it sounded fun, but I also had some hesitation. I'm like, I'm going to share my wife, but then I don't have a partner. Like, how am I going to react? It's all a lot in your head. So we just, after a lot of talk, we just said, well, let's try it out and see what we can and see what how it goes. And we went on some, like, this is going back. in like those old.

Yeah, but wait, I'm going to stop you there and everyone's going to be mad at me, but I'm going to remember exactly where we are. Okay. Here you were this guy that was married. You had this health scare a setback. And then you found out after that that your wife had cheated on you, right? How, like, how did you work through that? Was there ever a point because she had cheated that you thought of leaving her or anything

like that? How did you resolve that part of it? I never didn't think that I was going to leave her. her, but I was, like I said, I mean, my initial reaction, I was angry. I was upset. I basically was like, you kind of betrayed me. Like, you know, here I am. I had this incident with me that, you know, put me out, and then here you are, you sleep with somebody else. And it just, it was a lot of tension between us. And she was doing the, I'm sorry and I'm apologizing, but I didn't really think I would ever, was ever going to leave her.

But it just, it was a rocky couple months because she was resenting me being like, you're holding this over me. Like every, you know, my, how long are you going to bring this up? And it's always going to be my fault because of this. And so we kind of just, I stopped bringing it up. And I think once I stopped talking about it, it's somehow just, I don't know why it would enter my mind when I'd be alone thinking of her in that way. And I was like, why was I so.

pissed off. And then now I'm like kind of sort of like feeling some type of an excitement out of it. It just, I didn't understand it. And I thought it was very weird. And I think once I started feeling like that, I kind of let it go and like accepted that it happened and just we were able to move on in a better space after that. Could I just ask you a quick question about her? Because I know that eventually things go wrong in this situation later down the line. And I just want to get a little background on her when she did get caught or she admitted to you that she cheated on you, did she say, oh, it was because you weren't paying attention to me? What was her reasoning or that she gave you? She just said, I think she's like, I've been spending my whole life being a young mother,

raising a kid, and then we got married, and she's like, I just feel like I missed out on even just like having those experimenting years. And she's like, I just got, I just got bored. And she's like, I just got, I just felt like I wasn't fulfilled. She's like, it wasn't anything you were doing in particular. But I'm like, did I miss out on what's out there? And she's like, and then that sounds cliche, whatever. But when my recovery, she's like, I just felt we lost our attraction or attention to each other. And she's like, I just was.

And she's like, not an excuse, but some guy paid attention to me, told me things I hadn't heard in a while. She's like mixed in with, again, not an excuse with alcohol. she's like I just felt there was something alive in me for the first time and forever and she was like I felt guilty but not in that moment. Yeah, I feel like that's pretty honest and real life. None of it like you said, none of it is an excuse. None of it makes it right. But that's a big reason why a lot of people cheat because they wind up in those scenarios. And I think that people find it hard to believe that kind of stuff. But it's very, it's, it happens. Especially with the, people who get married and have kids very young.

No, I agree with you. Like I said, we both said it was an excuse, but it was more like I kind of understood it later. I'm like, I get it. Not that I was accepting of it at the time. No, but you understood it. And listen, she wasn't really safe. It wasn't about you.

It was about her. It was. You know, it was very, to me, honest, you know, and the alcohol and all of it. I mean, people like, oh, it's not an excuse. Yeah, it's not an excuse, but this is the shit that has. happens. Right. It's like you just mix everything in. Oh my God. Yeah, the cobblins. The alcohol takes it

over the edge. Right. Yeah. And then she had that friend with her, that friend, there's no way that friend was saying, hey, think twice. You're drunk. Don't do it. That friend was probably egging her on. Yeah, she, yeah, she definitely out, like I said, it was the perfect moment because her, her friend just doesn't see, like, she's that person as like, how can you be with one partner? She's very in that. Yeah, exactly. She's not monogamous, doesn't believe in it. So she's like, oh, fucking live life. Yeah, all right. So now we got the full backstory like I want. So now you are looking on apps. And you guys decide not to look for couples because you got into the, you figured out that the cucking thing was probably the right way to go. Yeah, she just was like, I just don't think I'm like she goes, I know this sounds. She's, I feel like I'm a selfish bitch, but she was like, I just don't really want to see you with somebody else. And I just don't think that that would work for me. And then when her friend brought up and we looked at it,

and I was like, well, we can try that. So we went that route. And I can be honest, the beginning of it, I don't think it was as out there as it is now. Like, it was a struggle at first, like finding you sort through all these guys or people that say, and like we had scheduled meetups and a couple guys didn't even show up. And we're like, this is hard. And on top of that, the first time we did find a guy, it wasn't a great experience for her because, one, he was way better on the phone and, like, talking than he was in person. And I think he kind of fibbed about how much in the lifestyle he was.

And her first encounter just wasn't great. He was having a hard time. And she was like, ready to give up almost. And she was like, well, this isn't even worth it. And we got lucky. We were about to. And then her friend knew a guy. They were out somewhere.

And she was like, would you want to give it a try? And it was, then that changed everything. Yeah, but that first guy that wasn't so great, did you guys hook up with him? Did she hook up with him? Yeah, she did. It was after we had two guys not show up. He showed up. We had conversations with him.

He told her he was, like, really involved in this. And so we felt comfortable, but when we got there, we were starting off meeting it because we didn't want to do it at our house or, you know, her being someone's house. We did, let's meet up at a hotel lobby, have a couple drinks or something. Then we had a room reserve. And when he showed up, he just didn't seem like he had portrayed himself. And she said when I waited and she came back down for us to go home and she said, that was awful. like he really couldn't perform and it took a while she's like is it me and she's like then when we did it just we were very awkward we weren't in sync together so just so you were waiting downside but so how

though were you feeling you're like you're you're you're a cuck for the first time now this is all set up your wife is up there fucking another guy you don't know that it's gone wrong but is it like supercharged are you nervous you you still not know how you're going to feel? How are you feeling that first time in that lobby while you were waiting for her? So leading up to meeting him, when we knew that he was actually going to show, I was super excited. I had all this excitement with me.

I got to be honest, when they left the lobby bar and I saw them go in the elevator, I didn't, I lost that excitement. I went to, this is really happening. I think like it's at the reality check when it's really about to go, go down. And I had a lot of angst. I was like, and how will this happen? I'm losing that excitement. And then I did.

I was thinking of things that just, I was probably a lot of nerves and jittery. But then I was like thinking she was going to come back and be like, this is the best thing ever. And we're driving home. And she's like, well, that kind of sucked. Right. And I was like, oh, no. I'm like, so we went all this way, all this talking. And it's from the time we said we were going to do it.

So we actually, she got with that guy. A lot of time it passed. You know, we just didn't jump right in. But such a difference when the guy that her friend set her up with was just a totally different experience for her. Like, it just was, that's what we were looking for, and not in a way of what we ended up doing later down the road, but the sex was good for her. And that's what I think needed to happen. And I think because her friend knew the guy, she felt safe, but that makes sense. Like it wasn't some total stranger.

And she just, she came back and we, we talked all night and went over everything. And she just had, there was an excitement about her. And she was just saying she was like, that was, that was just, I just had great sex. I just that. And then the fact that I'm coming home to you, I can't believe this is really like something that really can happen. So the first, that experience changed. So once we knew it could work, she got more into it. Because I feel like in the beginning it was more me, like I was finding the guys.

I was giving her things to read for research or, hey, but after she had the great experience, she kind of took more control. Like it felt good. And she was like, you know, that was probably the first time she's had sex with somebody where it just was pure, just good, great sex with no strings attached or, There was no, nothing involved. And it just totally unblocked everything in her mind. She said if I was just not into it, she said probably would have turned her off.

She said, we probably would have not gone further. She goes, I needed your, needed your support for me to want to keep going. I just couldn't do it if it was going to be an issue. Yeah, that's interesting too. I didn't want to go back to that cheating, our phase back then where we were back and forth with each other. So that just kind of led into And it was more Before we really found people

Like down the road It was more She saw him that guy Another couple times And then he kind of knew What our deal was And he was like Well I have a friend I can introduce you to

He loves He doesn't want any strings attached And so kind of went from Knowing somebody That's how we Got further And then that guy Kind of told us to go on

Fet Life and we sorted out, we met this guy on FetLife, and he was just kind of like in that lifestyle and he was great. He was probably the person that escalated us to where we were because we were new at it and he was experienced. So he kind of told us how things can be. He kind of gave us also like some places. he's like you're looking for guys here's here's some he even gave us some people or go to this go to this website but go to this in section there's there's real guys there that i know and it's just that's where

it really took off because it just got to the point where she was just going crazy and it's because he was a we weren't it was we pretty much took away the meeting all the fake people and i mean like Every time we were meeting someone now, it was what she was wanting. So that guy that we had met really turned everything around. So the first couple guys were strictly, I was not to be involved or to be around. So she would come home and it was in the beginning, like she would shower right away and then we would stay up and we would do foreplay with each other. And there would be sometimes we would have sex. but I would probably say the first two years that was the case and then by the third year

she met a guy and he was really into you're going to do this you got a the whole point is like not sleeping with him and you need to tease him so that was the first time that when we met this guy he wanted me in the room like he wanted me to see them together and then he also brought up, I should be doing the cleanup or all that stuff. So it, and he was also like, he goes, you know, you don't realize it yet, but he goes, you want to do some humiliation. Not in like, outlandish things. It was more like when they were having sex.

Like he would, like, if he was doing her from behind, he wanted her to tell me that I could never do what he's doing, that type of thing. And so we generally started grazing into. after that period of time, I think maybe we had sex two times after that. We have found, and I think you've had her on, that she goes by Anne. She's a hot wife. I believe you had her. Her name's Anne.

I think I thought you had her on. Maybe I'm missing the name, but she doesn't have sex at all with her husband. She's got like a big website where she like. I don't think I've ever had her own. So this is a hot wife. Okay, wait. It's okay. So wait, so when you said, you just said, okay, this guy wanted you to come in and be like a true cuck and now you're there and you're watching and she's telling you, oh, he's so much fucking better than you and stuff.

And then he tells you guys that eventually to really get this going the right way, she has to stop having sex with you all together. Correct. Yep. That changed after being with him. It totally changed where she just was full. time she was going to have sex with other men than I wasn't and I was and but like I said I was more involved at this point where I opposed before where I only saw her after now I'm in the room there we generally moved into when she was comfortable with somebody they'd come to our house so that was a different experience to be there or also have to go into the other room because they wanted to have more alone time. So to be in your house, hearing your wife with another

guy, that was a different dynamic too. That changed. That was a different experience because before she'd come to a hotel and they come home, it was different to have them there and hear them and see them just totally, I think it ramped it up. Oh yeah, you're just

becoming it. You're just peeling back the layers to reveal the truest cuck. And now when that guy's fucking your wife in your bed, like now you're the fucking cuck. That's it. that's the top of the cuck mountain yeah and then she was mixing in guys that we would meet and set up involved with she was going out and you know with that one friend or this and that and then she would you know come home like late all hours of the night whatever and you know

I would just be like how was it and she was like why met a guy so she was having quote sex with unquote unquote like not guys in the cuckold world yeah but still just having that sex on top of the guys that we were meeting. So she was getting a little bit of both because the guys that you meet online, sometimes it takes a while. They're not from the area or it's like you meet up and you're like, hey, do we match? And they're like, yeah, I'll be in three weeks. Yeah.

So it was almost like that was the stop gap. And for her, was it like once she opened, was it like Pandora's box for her? Once she opened that door, like she couldn't stop. She just needed constant new dick. That she's like now going out with their friends, hooking up with regular guys. Yeah, she pretty much said that all that time that she was bottled up and didn't have her wild day she felt was all. I just saw a huge change in her. She was just like a hundred times more sexual.

She felt better about herself. She went from just wearing a sweater and jeans to like she's wearing tight dresses. or something showing more of her body and the way that she was even having sex, I thought was different. Like things that I was thought that she would held back on when we were together, you know, before all this. Like, I'm like, wow, like at some point I'm like,

I can't, like that was in her. She was just more like the passion that she was having to have sex anywhere. It would be something simple, which probably doesn't sound too erotic. But if a guy stayed over our house and the next morning, we're having breakfast he would come out of the room, literally just

pull her pants down and have her right there like on her island where if I was to try to do that in our marriage, she'd be like oh I need a shower or... Yeah, yeah, yeah, totally different scene. Oh my God. So, or... It's like porn. It's like your little porn scenario is happening right in front of you.

Yeah, she just, I was like she just got real... She just got really wild. I feel like she just was letting out all those years where she wasn't sexual was coming out now. She just, and like I said, most of the time, there were still some guys that were flops and didn't work out. But she started gradually going to when she liked someone, she would see them for a little bit more. You know, and I feel like if they had a good connection, she was like, why am I going to try this new guy?

He might not be what we want. This guy definitely works. So we kind of switched to like she'd see a guy steady for a couple months and then not see anybody else. and then kind of went to there. So it was more of a steady thing. You got to know I'd have some of those guys would stay with us three, four days. But like when you're not having sex with those guys

and they're staying with you, are you like watching sports with them and hanging out with them and just rapping like dudes? Or what's the dynamic? Yeah, it's kind of weird majority of the time. Like there was a couple guys that was kind of awkward.

Like we kind of stayed in separate quarters a little bit for why they were there. The other guys were great. It was almost like, like you said, like we would have drinks and grill out. And you're sitting there going, I almost forgot that this guy's here to fuck my wife the whole time. Yeah, yeah, that's so interesting. But that's because we got to know them for a week. That was just through a lot more just feeling comfortable.

Now, when you weren't having sex with your wife for that time when that started, what are you getting out of it? Were you in a cock cage? Were you loving being denied? Were you jerking off furiously? how are you getting your rocks off? So I was giving her, which I've always liked to do, and I was giving her a lot of oral.

She was giving that to me in return sometimes. But there was also times, too, where a lot of what I got out of it was if I would masturbate in front of her having sex. But then sometimes, like, when she would come home, and I wasn't there, what she liked to do would be to kind of tell me everything that was happening and like how great it was and then she would jerk me off.

Yeah. Uh-huh. And, but we eventually, when we got to the guy that was the steady guy, he had wanted to me to be. And for a brief time, she had me caged off and on. Uh-huh. So we tried that. So that was hard for me because that was the first time I was ever like full-time denial. Right.

But yeah, no sex. So I would say. like none at all like I said besides the her masturbating me or jerking or she every now and that would give me oral like I had not penetrated her in a sexual way in years but what do you get out of that what does is there something about that that turns you on I don't know if it's the denial but I was just I was so consumed with how sexual she had became and and it felt like just knowing what she was doing or if I was there seeing, I wasn't having sex with her, but I felt like I was in a way, like, feeling what was going on.

And just to see how, like, she was just in such bliss, it would just turn me on like crazy. So you didn't really miss it. I'm sure other guys that have the cuck thing going, understand it. I'm just trying to get you to kind of explain it to the people who don't have that. Because I think some people are thinking like, what the fuck? Like, how could you sit there and see all this stuff that's turning you on? It would seem like it would be sexually frustrating. But for you, the cuck, and probably any guy that's like a cock, that scenario works.

And it's not sexually frustrating. No, and I would tell everyone's, I think the big misconception is that a lot of guys think they want to do it because they watch that porn stuff, which I don't think is any type of reality of what happens. happens. Nothing compares. I don't care what video you watch or like story you hear. When you actually see it and you're in a good place with your partner, it's, there's nothing like it. I had a guy tell me it was a great thing. And I'm not a, I'm not a drug person. But he said he equated it seeing like the first time like someone probably would feel like when they did heroin or something like that like you just never get that high until you see it and I admit it like I've seen other videos

of things like that and after watching my wife through all those years I'm like they don't do anything for me was actually being there or being in this lifestyle totally sexually satisfied me even though you weren't having actual penetrative sex the jerking off that you get from her or you jerking off and the watching and all of that stuff was enough And more than enough, actually, probably. Yeah, it was weird. I didn't have the sex, but when they were done, when she was done with a guy, they're done. And you're having that post-sex.

I felt like I was having the same buzz as they were. Wow. That's interesting. And now, did you become the cleanup guy? Would you do that kind of stuff? Did you go that far? Yeah. So I always liked doing the oral even before we got into this.

And then when that one guy kind of told us, like, that's part of the full. experience. She was kind of weird about it at first because like I think I told you in the beginning, like when she started like she would shower when she got home and when it took about a couple, she was very uncomfortable the first couple times. She just was like, oh, I don't want, you know, if I want you doing that. And then it got to the point where we got comfortable, she would come home and just literally I would be in bed and she would just climb on top of me or, you know, the guy, if I was in the presence of them, he would get out and the snatch. She was like, you're good to go.

And she got into it. She just felt like it was a way for us to connect. Okay. So now you start to get steady guys. Now, in between while this is all happening, are you guys communicating or talking about what you're doing and making sure everything's okay with everybody or you just had? No, we did like that. was a big thing. I said, and I was like, the one thing that I did when I was, when I read those

books by those sex therapist was like, if you guys don't keep talking and it'll go wrong. Yeah. And I, I can honestly say that that was a great advice because we were just doing check-ins, because there were times, I'll be honest with as much as she was loving the sex, there were times where she had some guilt. And she was like, and what are we doing? Is it right? She said, like, in the moment, she would be like, I love doing this. But if she had sex all day, Saturday, by, like, Wednesday, she was like, am I doing this right? Is this the right thing to do? And I sometimes had those as well.

I would, you know, say, can we ever get back to our marriage and, like, what it was? Like, once you start opening this door, what would it be like? But we just were saying, like, everything's going good. If there's any doubts, we'll take a pause. we did every now and then take a little bit of many breaks just to kind of calm things down and just kind of said. But then it would go back. And generally, like I said, most of the time, we weren't having any problems in that way. And when she had those doubts or if I did, we just kind of reaffirmed that it's not affecting our marriage.

We still are very into each other. Long as that remains, this can happen. So this can still, this still can proceed. Okay. things were going good and then we met this one guy quote unquote this is going to be the guy I have a feeling I don't know

yeah no no this is so that so we did this off and on so we all told we did this for seven years wow that's a long time yeah and we did this the way that it was going and like I said there'd be spells where you know we didn't see anybody for six months

So there was pauses. But we met this guy. Wait, but towards the end, by the time you met this guy, how long had you been in that phase where you have no, like, sex at all, where you've had no sex? How long? I hadn't had sex. I had sex with her once in the last four years. Wow. Okay.

And that was, we were in one of her, we were in one of our dry spells where we just weren't meeting any guys. and we were away and she just was like, I need sex. And that was the one time that we had actually did it in that time frame. So yeah, about close to four years, I hadn't done that, except for that one day. Okay, cool.

So now your four years, no sex, all, you got this thing going down. You're totally a cuck at this point. She's having regulars. She meets this guy. Right. Yeah. So she meets him.

and I can always hindsight 2020 picking up on things, but I got to be honest, I didn't really. And he was different when I look back at it because he was the only guy that she really talked to non-sex days or and he, they just seem to talk about like most of the guys that we were with were it was always like sex talk or about the meetups. He generally would ask her like, how's your day? How's work? she would check in on with him. And just at the time, we just thought we were just building good rapport with this guy. Looking back,

you could be like that was something that was different than all the rest. Yeah, they'd have normal conversations. And he was the first guy that she ever went away with for an extended period of time. Like they did a weekend together. And that she never, she would,

even if she did it overnight, I mean, she was coming back home or if the guy was there, like they generally left. any mean like this. So they went away for a weekend. Again, you know, everything was, nothing seemed out of the ordinary besides that.

They just, they just had a kid. I got to be honest, she was like, he was by far the best lover that she had out of all the guys. On top of the fact that she obviously liked his companionship too. No woman's going to go away on a vacation with a guy unless she likes him more than sexually. That's why I that she took him on vacation and agreed to that because she liked talking to him. She liked his companionship. Yeah.

And I admit he was very, he was a nice guy. Like he was very good with me. Yeah. Even. But like he was if you were to, I think if she was to create somebody in the lab, what she wanted to someone look like, this guy was it. Oh, wow. Yeah, he was, I have to admit, he was very attractive. He was everything that, you know, that women.

like would look at him and everything and stuff and they just had a really good they had a really good connection and i think the first time and they saw each so we were strictly with him for a year oh wow okay i think she maybe had a one or two one night stands but generally when he was it was him he was coming over she was seeing him so we were with him for a while and i think what changed everything for us was I had got a thing for our work project and one of the things was I had to go to

Mexico and of course it was just supposed to be for me and her I had one ticket so she was like what if we take him we bought him a ticket and he came with us so that was five days we traveled together and I think being

away out of the country felt free for her I saw her with him in a different light and I think what brought it up was those little lazy pools that you have at the resort. Well, they were like in it together and they were just constantly

making out and everything and I was at the bar and these group of women were like, oh, they must be on their honeymoon. And I said, I was like, no, they're not married, whatever. And that lady goes, one of the women went to me, she goes, well, I wish I had some passion like,

that look at them and that night we went to dinner and they were it was almost like I wasn't there and then we went to a little bar club and they were dancing and it looked like they were practically having sex on the dance floor we went back to our room which was one of those where you have the room the little kitchenette and then another room they practically had like sex for two hours and I would walk in just to look at every now and then and for the first time out of all All the guys that she had been with, they weren't having sex. They looked like they were making love. Oh, no.

It just, it just seemed different to me. And I think now, and like I said, I can hindsight 2020, I started looking at all the things leading up to that. I'm like, that should have been a signal. I missed it. Yeah. And we came back and I kind of said, I'm like, hey, I was like, maybe we should start seeing trying out some other people. She was like, why would we do that?

We have a good thing going. like him. I said, yeah, I just think nobody should push paws. And she just didn't want to do it. And I just had a gut feeling. And she was on one of those, I can't remember what it's called, but one of those apps where you can, like, chat with somebody, not like your text message. Yeah. And I was going back and I was, it just, it hit me like a gut punch how they were talking to each other. Oh, because you saw everything. Yeah. And he pretty much. Yeah. And he pretty much. was like, I can't help it that I've fallen for you and no offense to your husband, but there's definitely a connection with us. And she basically was fighting feelings with him for months,

but still seeing him. And he pretty much put his cards on the table and said, I want to be with you, like leave and give me a chance. And I confronted her. And I just was like, hey, I know what's going on. I want to end this. And she said she was going to go see her mom for the weekend to think. And then I found out that they were together. Oh my God. And she came home and I said, I don't agree with this. Like, I'm going to put a stop to it. And she just was like, look, she was like, I hate that this happened. She was like, I'm in love with him. I have real feelings for him. And we started going back and forth. And I said, you just need to take a break from him. And she was like, I honestly don't think I could do that. And she had told me like, when they

took a little break when we were seeing other people he apparently went out a couple times with another girl she like lost her shit about it wow and she just was like i can't help it like i'm emotionally connected to him and she was like at this point he gives me everything that i want and she was like an emotional level with him and we're on top of the mountain with sex where i'm only providing one at this point oh wow so it was kind of tough to hear very and what was the one thing you were providing her. When you said he was giving her everything and you were only giving her one, not giving her one thing. What was that sex? But I mean, wasn't like, is that what you weren't giving her? She just was, I basically, her point was that like with him, it's everything.

And I, she basically was like, I, if we were, if I was to stop seeing him and you and I got together, we won't connect like that anymore. Like, I'm way past how we had sex with him. And, So, and she just told me she was in love with him. And I basically was like, do I even have a chance here, you know, what to do? And she said, I'm just going to be honest with you. She was like, I don't think time will help. She's like because just he were just, I think I just want to see what it's like. I want to be with him.

She's like, I just don't know how I cannot be with him. She already, they already were in it. Their only way out of that was through it. but she had to go into that relationship and see how it played out. Now, I know that you leave, and I still want to hear the story, but I just want to know real quick, because I'm so curious. Is she still with that guy? Yes.

They apparently, you know, I moved away, but they guess, I guess they took a break for a little bit. I don't know why. Because we kind of kept our lifestyle under wraps, except for a couple people. I mean, there was a time where she got caught being with another. guy with a friend of hers. And then I had a neighbor one time like, hey, just want to let you know there's cars here

sometimes that aren't yours. That's what I'm always like thinking if I was the neighbor, what would I do? Oh, that neighbor like gave you the fucking heads up that your girl's cheating on you. Yeah. So we didn't end up, she did it up like, I guess because some people were like, why are you leaving? And so she ended up telling some people, we kind of just gave everyone the song and danced with the divorce.

But I did find out there was more. more people knew. And we were in that lifestyle. And that's why they were together. But yes, they took a little break, but they are still, they're still together. How long is it? How long has it been since she's been with him? So it's coming up on 18 months. Oh, okay. So it's still kind of new, but they're still together. So now she says like you have no shot. This is something that I have to do. Well, me 18 months of, 18 months of just them seclude like without me there. Yeah, yeah, yeah, totally. I understand. But they had a year. But they had a year. year before as well with when you were there.

But do you know if they have an open relationship? I do not. I can't say for 100%, but I'm going to say no just because that's kind of not her nature. She didn't even want us to couple up in the beginning. But I don't know if this guy's different. I would think if anything, maybe they might swing with another couple if they're comfortable. Yeah. And the sad thing is, Scott, is that you probably, when she should send a.

you a thank you card and some flowers for this but what you did for her was you just said okay live out your child like you gave her seven years of getting all of that out of her system so if she was ever prepared to be monogamous it would be now because she was able to have those seven years of fucking all those guys and getting all of that stuff out of her system you it was timing thing for you you met her at the wrong time this guy guy came in at the right time. Here she is seven years after living at all of her fantasies. She probably can be monogamous now and probably maybe doesn't need all of that.

Yeah, I think because that's the thing. She just didn't have a lot of experience and she had this was a lot of experience for her. And then this guy is the one that stood out. So she's probably just very like, I don't, I think in her mind she's like, well, what's going to be better than this? Yeah. You know, what I have now with him. Yeah.

She was able to test the waters a good bit. It's sad for you. The story is sad for you. Now, like, when you guys ended it, because you did have an open marriage, you allowed this guy to come in, I wonder, was there a lot of animosity between you two? Or were, you know, how did that parting of ways go?

Are you guys still on friendly terms? It's, I wouldn't say friendly, but it's it's respectful. I was very, I felt like I did in the beginning when she first cheated on me. I got very angry because I basically was like,

I just gave you the world to do what you wanted. And the one thing that we said that we couldn't allow you allowed it to happen. Like the thing that pissed me off the most was when I went back and read their messages, it was months ago,

they discussed with each other if they were having real feelings. I feel like she should have stopped it. Yeah. She didn't want to. Now she didn't. I guess I couldn't force her to or this and that. So I was a little just not happy with her.

And so we did. It was very throughout the separation and the divorce. It got a little tense. But we still have to talk because I help her with supporting her daughter. Still. So even though that's not your child, you still help. So even though that's not your child, you still help. Yes.

Just because there's a lot of time there. Yeah, yeah, you probably see her as your daughter, right? Yeah, exactly. Yeah, you're a good dad, stepdad. So we still have communication when it comes to that. But I don't do the, like basically, if we have mutual friends or having like a party or something, if she's going, I don't go. Yeah. I pretty much have only seen them maybe like twice since that, since this all happened.

So at something, which was unavoidable that we both had to attend. So. Yeah, listen, I can imagine how you feel because here you are a guy who was cheated on. She came to you with a reason. You said, okay, I'll give you a pass, which is pretty effing cool of you and fair of you. And there is a big difference between what she did then and what she did the second time. But you say, okay, I'm going to forgive you for that. And then you open up the relationship.

And like I said, I think you really helped her live out all these things and gave her back all those years that she didn't have. You got something out of it too. 10 years from now, you'll look back and realize you did too. You were having fun. She got to have all her fucking fun. But then she goes and takes that and runs with it and falls in love with another person. She probably didn't mean to, right? No one's really at fault here.

Some people, I can't wait for the comments that people are going to go fucking crazy because they're going to be like, oh, he fucking deserves it. What do you expect? That is the scariest thing in everyone's biggest fear and everyone's reason why they think it can never work out. Because like, why wouldn't that happen? It's kind of like Russian roulette. It only takes one guy to come in, especially if you're starting to have regulars and the way you're setting it up in that true cuck fashion.

where you are really not even having sex with her anymore. I think that's one of the biggest reasons that he was able to come in and really penetrate. Because I do think that sex, the physical act of real sex between a couple, is a part of a relationship that needs to be there. That's the true intimacy. And if you're not having that with each other, there creates a distance. You didn't have that closeness, and I feel like that was a misstep maybe on some level, because you created a little bit of a hole that needed to get filled in,

just like a little distance between you and her, that she would look someplace else. But it's still a sad story, and I really feel bad for you. No, and I appreciate that, and I think you made a great point because, like I said, And one of the things she told me when I was trying to fight winter back, she was like, well, I'm getting everything from him where I'm only getting part from you. That's what I kept saying. What did she say she wasn't? It's a sex.

I do think that that was where you guys went wrong. Yep. And I didn't want to come across as like, oh, cuck holding is bad because I, like you said, up to that point, we were having a good time with it. There's peaks and valleys with everything. I just kind of felt like I look back because a lot of things like when I can listen to your podcast and others, I'm like you just hear these like fantastic couples and stories and I'm like, wow, like why did it go wrong? What did I do wrong? So there's been a lot of self reflection.

Self reflection of what did I do different than like when I hear these because when you have these couples on. Yeah. I'm like, well, that was us at one point. But don't you think I think the real big difference is you did not have. Sex. Like when that, when those ladies were like, look at that fucking passion between them. And when you said, I saw them making love, you had not, not just not had sex with your wife. You had not made love to your wife for four years. To me, that's the big misstep. It wasn't just sex that you weren't having with her. You weren't making love. And that is a part of it.

And I really think that was something that was not good, I don't think, personally, for a relationship. No matter how hardcore you're playing and everything, I think you always have to come back and connect. What I find is going on with the couples that I hear that's always the best thing about the situation is the coming back to each other and that it's always about them. and it makes their sex life with each other better. And I know that you were getting off on the scenario by yourself and she was getting off with them, but it doesn't seem like you guys were coming together and getting off of it together.

And that's the disconnect. And maybe you let go of it too. This was like a joint thing. Both of you decided to not make love to each other. So I don't know. Was there maybe you guys never, got fully back together after that time that she cheated on you, I don't know. I wonder if maybe you didn't fix your foundation first before you went and played with

others after that initial cheating. I think that's a great point because when I think back at that, I'm like, we were such in a bad place and then it just turned around. That's what I mean. We tried to patch it up. And then we talked about doing this. And I probably, looking back, we probably should have gave our source. off like a good bit of time to just connect with each other then approach this.

Yes, 1,000 percent. You never did. So that disconnect was there. And then it just got bigger and bigger in where you went. You were on a path of that only led to things not going well. I'm sorry. But that's why I asked a lot of those questions in the beginning when, because it seemed like I could tell that you worked through it so fast.

didn't really understand. It was like months later, there you are. What about that issue between you guys? And I think, like you said, you probably never really fix that and you just got into that. And not to say that you both weren't into it and you guys were horny for it, but you didn't tend to the issues at hand. And those were just swept under the rut. Yeah. And I also think we just didn't have the knowledge and experience. There's so much more out there now. Like I said, when her friend, When her friend approached her with it, we were kind of like, what really is it? You know what I mean? So I feel like now, like it would be totally different because we're like, okay, these are,

there's so much now like these are the do's and don'ts and make sure you do this and don't do that. Where we were, to be honest, like flying by the seat of our pants in the beginning and just kind of taking it as a go, we probably should have had more guidance in that way. And that, like I said, that's, you know, that was probably more on me. I should have did that more because, you know, I was the beginning doing all the research and such. But I think, like, in today's world, the people that are doing it now, I think they just have a lot more information and people's experiences.

Yes. And listen, I don't know. You had seven years. You were with her for 15. You had seven years of this. By no means, is it a total failure? This is not like, oh, my God, one year later, your girl's, like, in love with someone You did it for seven years.

She met that guy. They're still together. Are you with anybody else? I haven't had so, when this all happened in the separation, I took a little self-reflection time. But I've dated here and there. And I got to be honest, it's kind of, it's been, that's been the adjustment because I'm going into dating, trying to reset like what I was living the last, like in the back of my mind. The first time I was, I had sex with somebody.

I was the whole time I'm thinking, does she want to be with somebody else? Is she okay with just me and her? So it's been a struggle. What would you want? What's your perfect relationship now? Would you never want to be in an open relationship like that again? Would you be able to put your cuck tendencies aside and just maybe roll play it out or something? And you would want a completely monogamous relationship?

I mean, I could definitely go back to being the monogamous. but I think like in a perfect world, I would like to find somebody and our relationship starts off with that we connect because I think you have to have that. Totally. I think so. Yeah.

And then if she was wanting to explore, I almost think I would have to meet somebody that was maybe wanting to do this as well, but also wants the relationship aspect. And if we hit it off and that way, then down the road we could lead into it. So if that could have to happen, happened, that would be great. But yeah, I've been out on dates. I've only the longest, I think I saw

somebody was like two months and it just wasn't feeling committed or, or into it. So just kind of still out there, like just thinking of what I want. And I also didn't want to be serious with somebody because I'm still like, what am I wanting in the end? And I wouldn't be fair to the other woman. Yeah, you have a lot of baggage to unpack. What about sex? Have you had sex? You were like four years I hadn't had it with your wife. Have you been able to have sex ever? Or has it been? Yeah, that's what I was saying. The first girl that I had sex with after our thing, like as soon as I was done, I was like, she wanting to be with somebody else. Oh, right. Right. Okay. It was hard getting back on the horse, not like wanting to have sex,

just like getting back to being like, I'm the one doing it, not the one. Yeah, I can imagine. It's kind of just relearning almost. You're like, I mean, the first couple times I was like, wow, it made me realize how long it had been. So I feel like I'm finding myself again in that realm, being in that nature. And I feel like it, there's been a couple good experiences. Also, I'm a lot older now than I was when we started when I was married. So I'm generally, like, when I go out on dates or see somebody, the women are generally around my age. So they probably, like some of them, like the one woman I had a pretty good sexual connection with, she was coming out of a sexless marriage. So we were both like, we just, it just, that worked out well because she had,

in a way, was not having sex like I was, obviously for different reasons. She wanted to her husband didn't, but she was looking more for a long-term thing. And I just was up front saying, hey, it was like, the lot went on to my marriage. I didn't get into the details of like, I'm not going to be 100% there. So probably don't want to waste your time. So, yeah, I'm just going to see how it goes. So are you in therapy at all? I am not, no. You should. Are you one of those that doesn't believe in therapy?

Like, guys, I think a lot of guys don't. Only because I do think sometimes it really helps to talk about things with somebody and who are you going to talk about this shit too? You can. There's probably so many people don't even know it. And I think when you were cheated on and that first thing that happened, it's like someone pulls the rug from underneath you. and then the second time of her having an affair, and that was so complicated. I think that there's just a lot to unpack,

and just being able to have someone to talk through it and just rehash it could really help you just get over it and get closure on it so you could move on and show up to another relationship, whole and ready and figure out what you want. No, I think you're right. And honestly, I wanted to give you a shout-outs. It's the podcast like, and some others out there where, like, you talk to people in this manner,

and it's more in a good-natured way where, you know, I'd rather listen to some of the ways that you do and some others where you deep dive into this stuff as opposed to someone just being like, just tell me about the sex all the time. No, this is the stuff I love. I, like, love this. And this is why I do my show is to, like, really help people and show people the real deal. I never just want to hear the sex stories.

I want to hear all the stories. stories. And that's why when you emailed me and said it was a cuck that didn't go right story, I was like, yeah, like, fuck yeah. Let's get that on because it's important. Because it's real life, and it's not, I don't like to paint a picture that's one color. I like all sides of things. And your story's super interesting. I think people are going to really be analyzing it the way I did. And giving their two cents, I think my two cents was the right two cents. I appreciate that. And I'm, I really appreciate allowing me to talk with you. and your advice, and not just here when you do your other podcast,

I always generally find why I get done listening. I'm like, oh, you know, I didn't think of it that way. So I think it's helpful you have a platform like this for things that are out there and what people are doing. Yeah, I love it. I love it. Seriously. And I believe it's needed and I love to do it.

The reason why I started my show is because I would be like analyzing my friends' lives like this and they'd be so fucking annoyed with me. Because some people don't want to, you know, they don't want to do that. And that's why I started my show because I'm like, let me just do it and analyze people and question people that want to, you know, that are in that place and ready for it and meet people where they're at. So, and so it's a great outlet for me because this is what I love to do. I loved this episode. I loved your story. Thank you so much for calling in and sharing it because it's, it was fascinating. Thank you so much for allowing me. I really

appreciate it. Yeah, it was great, Scott. So stay tuned. Let me know what you think after you hear it. And getting in therapy, keep me posted. Okay, bye. Bye-bye. Bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook.

It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it. The book is basically 17 different stories taken from my show. kind of picked one story from each category that I talk about on my show. Like there's a hot wife story. There's a cuck queen story. There's a cuck story. There's a gang being girl story. Like I said, 17 stories. And they're all told in the third person. And they're all true. I took the interview and rewrote it in the third person. And I wouldn't really call it like a total erotica book. Think like Penthouse letters. It's more direct. It's not so over the top like erotica. I don't really like that kind of vibe, right? But these are true stories. 17 of them. They're really short.

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money. It's a super fun place to be. It's a total, strictly anonymous community, and you will love it. I will be giving anyone who buys my book access to my Discord. It's private. It's private. it like I said. All you got to do is email me a screenshot of your purchase, whether you did the audiobook, the ebook, or the paperback. Send it to me at Strictly Anonymous Podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. And I will send you the link to Discord. So anyway, thanks so much for tuning in. This is the Strictly Anonymous podcast. Hey everyone. Strictly Anonymous Podcast is looking for people to call into the show. So if you lead an interesting, naughty secret life that you want to talk about while remaining anonymous or not anonymous, if you're out and proud, that's cool too. Send me an email, strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. That's strictly anonymous podcast at gmail.com. Or go to my website, strictly anonymous podcast.com and click on be on the show. If you have a short confession that you want to get off,

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