Strictly Anonymous Confessions - 955 - Carly is Into BDSM, Women, Sugar Daddies, Sexy Stories and More

Episode Date: November 1, 2024

Carly is into BDSM, women, sugar daddies, sexy stories and more and she called in to talk all about it. Tune in to hear all the details including how she enjoyed sex from a very young age, her first dom boyfriend who was much older than her and what went down with him, her next guy hooked up with who she called “the bruiser” and what would go down with him, when she started domming guys and why it was short lived, how and why she started interviewing people on tinder and banging them for a story, how she became a sugar baby and what went down with her sugar daddy, her hook ups with women and when she realized she was into them, her erotic stories written by women website and why she started it plus a whole lot more. Her eroctica website: https://readaurore.com/ **To see pics of THOMAS'S WIFE JADE + anonymous pics of most of my female guests + hear anonymous confessions + get all the episodes early and AD FREE, join my Patreon! It's only $7 a month and you can cancel at any time. You can sign up here: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/StrictlyAnonymousPodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ and when you join, I'll throw in a complimentary link to my private Discord! MY BOOK IS NOW OUT FOR PRE-ORDER!!!! Strictly Anonymous Confessions: Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers. A bunch of short, super sexy, TRUE stories. GET YOUR COPY NOW: https://amzn.to/4i7hBCd To Join SDC and get a FREE Trial! click here: https://www.sdc.com/?ref=37712 or go to SDC.com and use my code 37712 Want to be on the show? Email me at [e-mail] or go to http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com and click on "Be on the Show" Have something quick you want to confesss while remaining anonymous? Call the CONFESSIONS hotline at 347-420-3579. You can call 24/7. All voices are changed. Sponsors: https://bluechew.com Get your first month FREE! https://butterwellness.com/ Try the Butter Wellness perineum massager and use code STRICTLY for 20% off your entire order Follow me! Instagram https://www.instagram.com/strictanonymous/ Twitter https://twitter.com/strictanonymous?lang=en Website http://www.strictlyanonymouspodcast.com/ Everything else https://linktr.ee/Strictlyanonymouspodcast Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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like I said, just use my code 37712 or go to the description and click on the link and you'll be taken right there. Now today I have on Carly and oh my God, I mean Carly could talk about card board and she sounds like she's, you know, a phone sex operator. The way she talks, you're going to be like, holy shit. Like I said, I mean, no matter what she's talking about, she has a very, like, sexy way of delivering it. She also has led a very sexy lifestyle. She's got such an interesting journey because, like, right now currently, she's in a monogamous, vanilla five-year relationship. But, you know, where she came from and what she does for a living is super interesting.

And definitely not vanilla. And we go through her whole story you're going to hear about how she got into, like how she was always like super into sex and very curious from a very young age, how she got into BDSM and being a total sub and enjoying pain and all that kind of stuff. how and when she started hooking up with women and what went down there, some affairs that she had with one guy. It was pretty hardcore. Her time as a sugar baby and the guys that she met and what went down in that phase of her life. As well as, you know, how and when she started her website, which is called a roar. It's basically erotic stories. It's fucking hot erotic stories. The web.

website is going to be in the description. It's readarore.com. She talks about why she created that website. People submit stories. She definitely filled a niche in erotica for women by creating her website because it's not like that cheesy erotica stuff that's out there. Before that, we get into her whole life story, which is super hot. And like I said, when you hear her voice telling her whole story, you're going to be like, oh my gosh, you're going to probably be jerking off when you're listening to her. I do have a hot picture. of her over on her over on my pageant if you want to see her. So anyway, I'm going to get right to it and be right back on with Carly. Welcome to the strictly anonymous podcast. How are you today? I'm good.

How are you? Good. So Carly, you have like a really interesting life as well as a really interesting business that you set up. You have like an online erotic like confession, erotica or confessional sort of real stories, right? Real sex stories website. It's called Aurora. dot com and I'm going to put links to everything so no one has to remember but it's a u r o r e.com and it's a bunch of confessions, salacious ones right? They're you know it's erotica and they're all based on real life story. So it's kind of like what I do on my show but on a website all in one place. Exactly. Yeah. It's it's all written confessions based on your best sexual experiences and we like the messy ones and the very dirty details.

Well, you know, you should turn some of those erotic stories into audio stories because you sound very dirty when you talk. Like, I mean, the way you talk sounds like you're reading erotica right now and you're just saying a regular sentence. Did anyone ever tell you that? Yeah, I do get that a lot. I think it's like my California accent combined with my like general laziness. I am laying in bed right now.

Yeah, but like literally because I'm such a podcaster. I'm always like trying to figure out how to monetize stuff. Like, I mean, really, if you took all those stuff that you had online and turned them into stories that you read, oh my God, you make a lot of fucking money on a podcast because they're all real and stuff. And your voice is like killer for it. But let's get to your story. We'll talk about that again at the end.

You're giving me a lot of idea. Yeah. No, it is a great idea because I'm sorry, but, you know, this voice that you have right here, okay, it was made for, if you grew up like when I grew up in the 80s, it was made for phone sex. but phone sex is done. Okay. Now what goes down is podcast and it's such a like a sexy voice. It sounds like literally like you're talking about sex when you're having like a regular conversation.

You should take your stories and read them online. Yeah. Imagine me in a job interview like for like regular regular job. Yeah. You could write a hot porn about that because you go into the regular job. But it's like a male CEO. oh and he gets like fucking horny for you because you're just like answering him back in that really hot voice of yours that you're talking.

Oh yes. The co-worker erotica is so big. I have so many stories on the site about co-worker sex and boss, subordinate. Yeah. When people say like, oh, you're not allowed to like date at work or you can't fuck around to work, I'm like, that's like the dumbest thing I've ever heard. Okay, first of all, like you spend more time at your job than anywhere. So many people meet their husbands at work.

I fucked a lot of people I worked with. And I am like it's free game at work, okay? Who says you can't date people you work with? Who cares if it gets messy? Like live life. Plus it makes work so fun. Yeah. Like it gives you a reason to go to work because you get to like see the person that

you're hooking up with. Oh my God. There is so much sexual tension in offices. You know what I mean? Like that's where a lot of affairs go down. I used to cheat on my boyfriend and take one of my coworkers home and bang them at lunchtime just to get back on my boyfriend when I was like cheat. I love that.

Cheater. So there you go. So we'll get, we'll get to the point where, like, in your life where you start this website. But, like, let's go back. Because I know, like, right now you're currently in a monogamous relationship. And, you know, you've been doing that for five years. But you do have, like, a very interesting past. You've done BDSM.

You've been into, like, you've been a sub, I think. You, without really getting hardcore into the world of it. You've been, you know, you've done it. You've also bisexual. You've been with women. you've had some affairs and you did some sugar baby stuff, which I'm very curious about. So let's like, I don't know where any of this starts, but like let's start at the beginning, like whatever, you know, like, were you always like a very curious, open-minded sexual person

like when you were younger? Very. I think I was curious about all the fun things in life. Like all the adult things, all the forbidden things. I, in high school, started doing drugs and drinking quite early and started. started having sex at least a lot earlier than other people were talking about it. Like what age? I was 15.

So, I mean, I don't know. I don't know what age people are starting now. I hear that young people aren't having sex anymore. I don't know if that's true or not. Yeah, too bad for them. I had a ton of sex when I was in high school. Me too. And yeah, I think that, you know, one thing is like my body type, I have huge boobs.

And I think I was sexualized at such a young age and kind of this idea of being a slut was put upon me. And I decided to just kind of own it. And because of that, I think that that's why I'm in the line of work I am in because I was kind of forced to confront this part of being a young woman. And I preferred to be in control of my sexuality. So, yeah, I own the title of slut from a very young age. I enjoyed sex a lot from a young age. My first ever orgasm actually was in a jacuzzi. In this gated community that I had like an acquaintance who lived in, I visited her one time.

And then my high school boyfriend and I used the code to get in. He like picked the lock to the pool and jacuzzi and showed me how to get off that way on the jet. Oh my God. I remember those jets are good. I get off in like two minutes, not even. Totally. Still a go-to if I'm ever in a jacuzzi. I'm like leading towards the edge.

Okay. So keep going. Sorry. Well, that's, I mean, that was my first orgasm. I remember like in the beginning, I was lucky to date men who were really giving and loved going down on me. So I've always been treated to oral sex, which I've also had. is not the norm, which is also sad.

But do you mean not the norm? Whereas that girls don't love it? Because I could take that any day all day long. I mean, you'd give me the paper and I'll read it and you could go down to me for six hours. I'm just so happy. I feel like not all men love going down. Oh, you're right. I think that's kind of a thing of the past.

But I think, you know, I was in high school in the early 2000s. and I think men were very curious and giving and wanting to perform and excel at sex, which was great for me. And I think I learned a little bit to be a pillow princess back then. That was kind of my thing. You have that vibe. Yeah, as I talk like laying here in bed. Yes, you sound like a pillow princess.

You got that lazy, sexy thing going down. You know what I mean? Slightly lazy. do everything to me. I just get to have some fun. She's down like a pillow princess. You got that lazy, sexy thing going down. You know what I mean?

Slightly lazy. Do everything to me. I just get to have some fun. Yeah, I love it. And I think that kind of informed what began as a more submissive role in sex. So I kind of stumbled into that. Like I didn't go into BDSM.

knowing what I wanted or being part of a kink community or anything, I just ended up in a relationship with a man who was incredibly dominant, incredibly dominant outside of sex and in sex. Interesting. And I loved it. I mean, it was really kind of confusing for me in some ways because it went against a lot of my values, being a feminist and being an independent woman and hating, you know, being called certain names and stuff typically, but then in bed, I loved it and I loved the violence and being hurt and the pain and pleasure. And it was a real awakening for me. It turned out

that relationship, you know, because I think that dynamic wasn't built with consent or guidelines or boundaries of any kind, which in good BDSM, it should. God, that's what it's all about. Yeah. Right, right. And this was just like the dynamic that transpired between us and it was both in sex and in life. And so there started to be inklings of danger, you know, like control outside of sex that was no good. So I escaped that relationship. How old were you? How old were both of you guys when you, you know, dated? I was 26 and he was like 34 and he was really wealthy, powerful in the community, like really well-known and revered. And so we had this private life that was really like dirty.

Yeah, it was. And I think in the beginning I liked being taken care of so much. It felt so good to have somebody else being controlled. of everything. Yeah. But eventually I realized that like even though I still found the sex really hot, like outside of sex, I couldn't, I couldn't really deal with that. And I think too, like a lot of the more violent sex that we had came from issues in

the relationships and fights. And we would like channel all that through sex, which was pretty cool but also kind of dangerous. Oh my God. How did you meet this guy? I mean, this wasn't your sugar baby phase, I'm assuming. Like, how do you wind up meeting at 26, like this really wealthy, powerful guy who's in his 30s? I was a cocktail waitress. Okay.

And he hit on me while I was serving him, which actually is kind of a red flag. You really shouldn't hit on people while they're working when you're a customer, FYI, for anyone listening. But there was something about him then, even like that's so out of character for me. Like typically if someone hit on me while I was working, I'd be so annoyed. But he put his hand on the back of my thigh while I was like serving a drink to him. And I just like loved it. I wanted to be claimed by him. I wanted to be his.

And he asked for my number and then he asked to take me to dinner. And actually at 25 I was living in Brooklyn, like most dates I was going on, like the men were not asking me dinner. Like it was always very casual, like go for a drink or something. So going to dinner was like, oh, like fancy fancy. He's going to feed me. You know, bare minimum stuff was very impressive to a young person at that time, like broke, new in the city, all of that. And yeah, he lived in a brownstone in Park Slope and took me there after dinner and it was just like my mind was. flown. Right.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. So this guy, though, there were just something about him and he wound up being your dumb. How long did that relationship last? About two years. I moved in with him within a month. Of course, he had that nice apartment.

Incredibly fast. Exactly. Yeah. And so, wait, so how far did you take the pain? And was this your first experience with any of it? Were you, like, surprised? like I can't believe I'm like into this shit. Yeah, I really was.

It was also a lot of the like verbal aggression that I really enjoyed. So I enjoyed being manhandled and just like really fucked rough. And also all of the foreplay like leading up to sex kind of, you know, almost feeling attacked for sex. And sometimes there was a dynamic of like cat and mouse and I was the prey. and he was just like coming for me because he was a lot bigger than me as well. Yeah. And I think that added to the dynamic. And like I'm quite small.

I'm five too. So anyone feels bigger than me, but he was just a large man and his presence was so big too. And and the power, it's like you can feel all of that with somebody sexually. Totally. So yeah, it was,

it was really intense and I think complicated because, because it wove into all the other stuff. But, I mean, I would be left with bruises, hickies, like bite marks all of the time. And that's something that I really love. I love the markings, like feeling kind of claimed in that way, like being branded almost by being grabbed so you have like the finger marks or bite marks on you. Like, I think that's really sexy. Oh, my goodness.

Now, do you like, do you move on? through your relationships and like continue sort of engaging in the those kinds of the same kind of activities with other boyfriends with future boyfriends or did it like start with an end with that guy being a sub and being into pain? Well it's funny

actually because a few years later after we had broken up I went to a wedding of a friend and she was like there's someone that's coming to the wedding that I think that you're going to go home with and I was like okay like who is this guy and he

ended up like I went the whole night kind of just minding my business and then towards the end I run into him he like literally sweets me off my feet on the dance floor like my friend said she looked at me and I was upside down on the dance floor with him and like I think he was literally like moving my body like twirling me yeah and we ended up having this relationship over the course of several years it was never, we never lived in the same city. So it was like weekend trips back and forth. And my friends and I called him the bruiser. And he would get out his belt and like fully whip me in bed. He would choke me within an inch of my life. He was an EMT. So I trusted him. Like it's one of those things too. We're like, yeah, these things can be really dangerous. But when you do have that trust and you feel

that you know that this person knows what they're doing, then it creates a safer space to experiment. But he was quite rough. But like it was a strange thing. Like I would come instantly. Like I would come in positions that I've never come before because it was the emotional and like psychological drama of it all turned me on so much more even than what was physically happening. just this feeling of being prey. Oh, same thing with him, that prey thing that you don't. You were into that with the other guy too. Same thing, same thing that was going on with this guy.

Yeah, totally, totally. And I think like for that reason, I would be really into like consensual non-consent. It's not something that I've actually experimented with because there's parts of it that really scare me too, which I think is normal. I think for a lot of women, this is both like a family. fantasy, but also like the biggest fear. Maybe too scary. Yeah, totally. But that's why it's a fantasy, right? Different side of the same coin. I never knew what that was until recently.

And this woman called up and told me she just played that off this whole kidnapping scenario with her guy. I was like, oh my God, I'm getting claustrophobic. Just hearing the story. Yeah. For her, it was like a horny experience, you know, super hot. Yeah. I mean, I love that for people. And one thing in my work, like I've talked to a lot people that are survivors of sexual assault and sometimes like replaying and changing the narrative so that you're in control of your story can be really powerful and healing as well. 100%. I think that's a lot of times what BDSM can be for some people or like what you say, like a consent, non-consent situation. As long as you're with a very caring partner, it's a safe

space to rework that trauma while being in control, right? And rewrite the story for sure. Yeah, I love that. I love it. Yeah, it's great. So, okay, so you get in, like, and so, like, were you, like, the type of person I want to be, like, I don't know, like, how far did you take your stuff thing? Like, were you ever, like, walked around with a dot, like a leash and a collar, like that kind of stuff? I don't know why that came to me. No.

No, I think I would do that within the confines of a private space. But, no, I was never, like, I also love to wear collars and harnesses, but I've never been, like, leashed officially, but I have been handcuffed and had other bondage type stuff. The spreader bar, I don't know if you're familiar with those. That's a really cool thing. What is that? So it basically like goes around your ankles and you can widen it so that your legs are spread open more and more or less. You know, it's adjustable. And you're just completely splayed open according to however much your partner wants to open you. And that's, That's also just like, I think that's such a mesmerizing experience because you're, you just

just admit you, there's nothing you can do. And if your hands are bound at the same time, I think that just like giving over the control and like going back to these healing dynamics of kink, like subbing for people is a way to just completely let go. And for, I think, a lot of women who have, you know, a lot of demands. in their life, it's just so lovely to be able to let go in sex and just have things happen to you and not have to think so hard about what's happening and go into subspace and just float, you know. Yeah, and that's the same thing with the men who are in the dungeons.

A lot of times it's those big CEOs of like the Fortune 500 companies because, you know, in their regular day, they have, you know, thousands of people that are, they manage and, you know, all this stress. So what better way to relax and let go than being a submissive, right? A lot of times it is that switch. That's what was interesting though about your guy. He was like Dom, Dom, like Dom in his life and Dom in the bedroom because a lot of times it's like the opposite. You know, when did you wind up realizing you were into women? Did you always know that? And like, when were your first experiences? Well, in high school, I was very bad. As I mentioned, I did a lot of drugs and alcohol and sex from an early age. And I actually got sent away and I lived in an all

women's home for a while. My parents should have known your parents. They always wanted to send me away. Where did you go? Like to like a boarding school or something? I went to juvie. Like I fully got sent to jail. Oh my God. What did you do? Then I had drugs and I forged my mom's signature. It was like a string of things. Yeah. Out of control. And I got sent away. So I was living among all women. And I feel like that's, you know, it happens when you have no other options and you're a horny young teenager, you know? Yeah, totally. So I met a woman there who was about my age and she was quite butch. And she was definitely into women like for real. For me, it was kind of. And I really cared for her as a person. I didn't know like, am I by? Am I gay? Or is this just like I'm here in the moment?

Yeah. Until years later, actually, I met another woman when I was on vacation somewhere. And I totally fell for her. And that was when I kind of realized that I think, I don't know, I kind of consider myself pan rather than bye. Like, I think it's so much. much about the person for me. The women that I tend to be romantically interested in tend to be butch. So more masculine, but the, I find women to just be beautiful in general. Right, right. Hey guys, have you ever had a night where you just couldn't get it up? I can imagine that's like every guy's biggest fear. Well, now you don't have to have that fear because Blue Chew is here.

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Like I think it's so much about the person for me. The women that I tend to be romantically interested in tend to be butch, so more masculine. but the I find women to just be beautiful in general so I don't know what that makes me I'm not so big on labels because it's like it all depends on so much you know and I don't like to silo myself off to something but yeah I think there's something so soft about being with a woman and especially with these more butch women there's still this like this power and strength that makes me feel protected and small, but there's the softness that isn't there with a man. And I think that's a really, a really beautiful thing to experience.

And just the connection and like being able to talk in a really open and deep way that, sorry, doesn't always happen with men. Did you ever date a woman or just like hook up with women? I just hooked up with women. I think like unfortunately I'm romantically attracted to men mostly like when it comes down to who I want to be in relationship with. But I think that and I think that's just like I don't know why. Because I sometimes am like, yeah, I just really like men and people are like, really? Because I don't.

Men are terrible. And you want to like kind of be a part of that group, but you're like, sorry, I kind of like them. Yeah. Maybe it's like a love-hate relationship or maybe I'm a mass. or whatever. But yeah, just, I've really just dabbled in women hooking up here and there. But I, for a while, I was convinced that I was going to just date women, but then I got kind of swept into a relationship with a man. Like, they just have some power over me. I don't know what it is. This Memorial Day, shop one of Avocados' biggest mattress sales of the year and fall in love

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So, okay, let's go in. And my next life, I'll be a lesbian. Yeah, total. Okay. So what about like all these affairs and sugar baby action come in? Like are those around the same time? A little later, actually. And I was going to mention like talking about my sub days.

I, around like 2016, there was so much in the media with me too and stuff that I started to get like all this anger towards men. And I actually decided to experiment with being a dom because. I felt that this could be a way to kind of channel my anger about men, like into actual consenting men who wanted that. And I started dating a guy who really wanted me to peg him. He really wanted to be dominated and, like, call me madam and mistress and bed and be told what to do, crawl on the floor to me. And, you know, like, I shopped so much. Like, I made him give me his credit card. I was like at Purple Passion every fucking weekend, getting my latex, getting all the stuff,

the gear. And like when it came down to it, like I could play the role. But I didn't love it. And I think it's because I am like a pillow princess. And I was like, this is a lot of work. And also he was a brady sub. So he was like very much in control. Even when I was trying to control him.

Yeah. I felt like he always maintained the control of the situation, and I hated that. So I had a very short-lived moment as a dom, yeah, but I still have all the outfits for it. Oh, that's kind of fun. Do you dress up for your guy now? I mean, a guy obviously knows of your past life and everything. I mean, does he indulge in these kinds of things with you as even though it's a monogamous relationship. I mean, does he get into, you know, dominating you and all that kind of stuff?

No, he's so vanilla. No, but I love him and I feel like retired in a way from that part of my life, you know? I'm like, I really, yeah, I experimented a lot. I had a lot of sex and now I'm in a happy relationship with like really solid sex and intimacy, which is different. And, you know, that is something that I explored when I was like having just a lot of casual sex, like how to be intimate with somebody and not just make it like fucking or like mutual masturbation. Like how do you actually connect with another human? And like it was, it was really like,

you know, kind of scary because you feel like intimacy goes hand in hand with getting attached and like being vulnerable and then being hurt. But I found that I was able to have these moments with people like deep eye contact, like cuddling and not how. have to be in relationship with them. And I think that that's the thing that really like ushered me into knowing that I wanted a long-term monogamous relationship was like the connections that I was able to share. But that's like the beautiful thing like for anyone that is having a lot of sex, like making sure to like really appreciate the other human and the situation and like connect with them

on a real level, not just physical. Yeah, for sure. I love that journey that you've been on. And I totally get that been there, done that kind of a thing. I mean, you had, you've been very curious and exploring a lot since you were super young. And we haven't even gotten to like your sugar baby days. Like you did that whole thing too before you settled down and became vanilla, quote unquote. Well, I'm not going to skip over the sugar baby stuff.

I'll get back to that. But like in 2019, which is actually when I launched Aurora. I started taking antidepressants. And that like really opened up my eyes. And I think that has an effect too on like being able to be in a monogamous relationship. And like I think in the past, I was definitely like sex addict, borderline, insane, horny person. And yes, it does have an effect on libido for sure. That's like a big thing. But part of what I grapple with is like, does it have an effect on libido that is like negative or is it just evening out like what was a very overactive sex drive because you were like an insane person which like is so fun to be horny 24

my life is a little more full now I'd say like I do other things as well like I'm able to have some hobbies that aren't just fucking I'm able to run a business I mean I don't think like obviously my horniness is a big reason that I started a website for horny stories. Yeah, uh-huh. But yeah. So like in my dating crazy days and all these relationships, I would often write in my diary about the feelings, about the sex that I had, about the sex I wanted to have with these people.

And I realized I was writing erotica like all along. And it was a summer of 2017, 2016, I think, like around my Dom days. And I was like really fed up with New York. I was laid off from a job. So I went to Europe for the summer and I decided to give myself a writing assignment. So I didn't like feel so lost in a drift and just like travel for the sake of it. And in each city I went to, I went on Tinder and I asked people if they wanted to go on a date, like let them know I was only in town for a short amount of time. And then I asked when I got to the date, I was like, can I

record our conversation? I want to talk to you about sex and dating like in your city and culture and like, you know, have like a little interview, whatever. So I went on these dates and had these like, like revealing intimate, vulnerable conversations with men. And after having these conversations, it was almost inevitable that we would have sex. Like, we had spoken about sex for like hours. And then it felt just like, okay, so now we're going to fuck, right? And we did. And like, after coming back home from this trip, I had all these stories and I wanted to share them, but I wanted to share the sex part. Like, I couldn't imagine where to put them, like in thinking about women's websites and stuff because they were like too spicy. Like I wanted to talk about like the

conversations we had the experiences through these cities, but also about like the details of the sex that we had. And so that was a big catalyst for me starting Aurora was wanting to create that space for those stories and also to have stories that are about more than just sex. So they're, you know, these stories that I told, like, take you on a trip through Europe. They get to know the person that I then fuck and detail all of it for the reader. So it's a really, I think it's the content that ladies need, honestly. But also I always say that men have so much to learn from these stories because it's literally written by women detailing like exactly what gets them off. So it's like go study that shit.

Okay. Well, listen, that's why you're going to be a popular episode for me and all my other female episodes are the most popular because men want to hear women talk about sex. They do want to get into the heads of women, you know, especially when it comes to sex, right? And they do learn. So I totally get why men would be highly interested in your website. Like, do you get a lot of male traffic? you have the demographics of like who's coming to your site and reading your stories?

Yeah, it's mostly women, but I do get like a sizable amount of men. And I think a lot of men purchase memberships to share with their wives as something that they can read together. Because actually like if you're in a relationship and you do want to spice things up, but you're not really ready to like watch porn together, I think that reading erotica is a really good way or listening as you mentioned. But I had, so to get back to my, I got to tell you about the sugar base stuff. So I realized I wanted to start this site and create this space.

But I was like, how do I do this? Like, obviously I need money and I need time. So I was not working on anything but this for like a while. I became a creator in residence at Kickstarter. So I was like going to run a Kickstarter campaign to raise funds to start this site. I was trying to like market get stories. I mean, honestly, in the beginning, that's the hardest part is, like, getting people to submit stories to you. And, like, they have to be good.

So, like, I'm working with them one-on-one, like, editing, all this stuff. And I was like, okay, like, how do I get money outside of this Kickstarter campaign? And I was like, I need to become a sugar baby. Mind you, I'm, like, 35 at this point. So I'm, like, not exactly a baby. And I like put on this side that I'm 30. It's like whatever, you know. Yeah, that's smart.

That's okay. And I ended up like actually was, I did a reading last night and I read the story about this time in my life. It's called Treasure in Georgia. And I had, I ended up having this like really complicated affair with this man who like, I met him from the sugar baby site. I didn't even know what he looked like. I never asked him for a photo.

He had like a eye sock photo as his profile picture because he was cheating on his wife. So he wanted to be like super incognito. And I ended up meeting him and like it was just so awkward and weird at first. And I was like, there's no way this is going to go anywhere. But like through a series of just these little moments of him like being sweet and like giving me life. advice and career advice, I ended up like fully falling for him. So we ended, we got a hotel one day. And like, we were supposed to like try each other basically because we had been emailing and just like getting drinks and stuff. And I was so scared. Like I thought he was going to kill me because it was just

still early on. Like I didn't really know him. And I remember like going through the hotel lobby with him and like feeling like Julia Roberts and pretty woman. Like I was just like what am I fucking doing. Like, am I this desperate? The answer was yes. And like, there was something. But when you're also going for the story, like, we're also kind of going for the story, because this is another story for you, for sure. Yeah. Totally going for the story. And it just felt like meant to be that I was raising money for a sex site through this type of work, right? Like, I was like, okay, it's on brand for me. Like, everyone will appreciate this. And so in the hotel, room we end up hooking up and like I was so amazed and like overwhelmed by the fact that I wasn't

having to pretend or like summon desire for him like I genuinely was like enjoying kissing him. I was enjoying hooking up with him and it almost was too much like I got freaked out by it because I felt so much more than I expected to and I had to like break away from him and we ended up parting ways he sent me an email after like saying how good I tasted, how good it felt, how it felt like we did that a thousand times together. And I ended up falling for this guy. And it was just so fucking complicated because he didn't want to pay for my presence because he didn't want to feel like I didn't want to be there. Somehow like having to give me money meant to him that I didn't really care about him. And he didn't want to be with somebody that didn't actually care about him.

That, like, ruined it for him. But to me, it was like, I'm so into you, but you have a wife and you're never going to leave your family for me. So what the fuck else should I do other than get paid to hang out with you? And we had this, like, big, like, push and pull back and forth where, like, we never actually had sex. made it to another hotel room. Like I was afraid, he was afraid. Like it was just so much tension and back and forth. But like the story itself is pretty epic because I just remember like feeling in love with this person and being like, how did I fucking get myself into this mess?

Like I literally went on this site to make money and I end up falling in love with someone who doesn't even want to give me money. And he did end up donating to my Kickstarter. campaign a sizable chunk. How much? But 500. And for no sex, that's okay. Like, I realize my going rate for sex has got to be a thousand enough.

Like, I'm not selling my body for less than that. But he knew that. What's interesting about him, though, is like, what kind of mind fuck is he doing with himself? Like, what kind of tortured soul is he? that he's on a sugar baby website attracting women to him or like maybe he's got some sick fantasy that he wants to change the woman that shows up on his doorstep. I mean, like he's in a place where this is all like it's set up in the exact way he doesn't

want it to be, which I don't get. Right. I think like, I know. I like want you to read this story because there's so much like more to it. But like I think what happened was that he went like expecting to kind of find somebody. that he could just like fuck and like be done with and pay and then be done. Yeah. He had the same complication as you.

It was deeper for him too. Okay. Yeah. I think he realized like, oh, like this is a person that I want to talk to and like get to know. And then that became very complicated. And he always said like that he had so many issues with the way we met. And it was.

It was so fucking frustrating though because it's like, well, you were like on the site. Exactly. like I found you. Yeah, but you know, I have to, like, try to coerce you. Yeah, but I wonder, you know, if they did a study, how many times, because, you know, that male ego is very fragile, you know, and most guys have this thing, like, I don't want a girl to be using me for the money. So I wonder how many times these guys do you go on that site thinking they're just going

to have that kind of experience and then they caught feelings a little bit too. And then they want to change the game just to make sure, you know, make the girl prove to them that they like it. You know, I wonder how many times the guy does fall into that. category probably more than you think i think honestly that people that go on sugar baby sites are people that have issues with their ego that won't allow them to just hire a sex worker and so they go on this site like diluting themselves that they're going to find somebody that they can like take to dinner and that they're going to have this relationship and it's like no woman is on that site to be taken to

dinner okay we're on the site because we need rent money we want you to take a shopping. It's like I can get dinner other way. It's like I don't need to be on the sugar baby site for dinner or drinks, you know? But I think that. Yeah. And I've talked to a lot of women that have been on the site and had just like similar issues with people just not actually wanting to pay for it. And it's like it's like not free to spend time with people that you meet on an arrangement site. Yeah. Did you meet any other guys? Or was it? Was that just like a one and done like that guy after that experience? I did. No, I met other guys, but he was my favorite because he was the only one that I could actually like stand to be around.

Like the other ones were so fucking annoying and needy. Oh, seriously? Yeah, like it was like full time job like girlfriend experience shit, you know? Yeah, that's a lot of work. Yeah, it's so much work. I'm like, I'm trying to launch an erotica empire. I don't have time to. to text you all day. But yeah, a lot of like older married men that clearly just want kind of attention, like probably feel, you know, that their wives or kids are just like living their own lives and they want somebody to make them feel special. And it's like that's a valid desire, but it is a job for somebody to show up and like make

you feel good and make you feel seen. And I'm very pro sex work. I feel like sex workers don't get the respect. and the like, you know, proper protections that they deserve because that's a real job. Like, it's like being a therapist. Yeah, for sure. Like, you know. Yeah, they wind up being therapists many of the times.

Yeah. Because it's not legal here, they're not protected. And other places where it is, you know, it's great because they are protected and there's, you know, it's all regulated and everything. And that's for the sex worker themselves, the women who are providing a service that is needed. Come on. You know? Absolutely. So what about your guy now? So I mean, because you show up to a relationship, I think, like, you know, in the best way possible, like fully self-actualized. Like, you know, been there, done that, had lived out your fucking life, right? Finally ready to settle down, like, or did it just happen out of nowhere that you met this guy that you're with now? So I actually met him during my Kickstarter campaign as well. And he also donated.

to it. Not quite as much, but he donated like right after our first date $100. And that showed me so much that he was like willing to support this endeavor. He wasn't threatened by it. Like he was just like fully like invested in trying to date me. Yeah. And he has been so supportive since day one. We dated for about six to nine months before the pandemic happened. So I think it was a perfect storm of timing that settling down just made so much sense. And like we were already in a full-blown relationship by that time. But then the pandemic hit and it's like, well, we're not going to see other people, obviously. So we moved in together. We have a dog together. We have been by coastal the past few years together. And he is

continue to be so supportive and we have a very healthy, happy vanilla sex life. And I have such a fill of sex because I still edit new sex stories every fucking day. So I'm vicariously having tons of sex through my writers. I also just wrote a fantasy story of my own. And I think like for me, even as long as I've been having sex, fantasy is so much more powerful than reality in so many ways because you can control fantasy and you can have it be as fulfilling as you want. And so,

hey, also have a very healthy masturbation habit. And I think that my imagination is very powerful. And yeah, I'm still having lots of fun. Yeah, for sure. I'm looking forward to the nursing home,

like wild sex I'm going to have because I hear that that's where people get down later in life. Totally right. I used to always, when I was younger, I remember seeing a documentary called The Lifestyle. And it was, you know, where they just follow. This was like way before I started podcasting and talking to millions of swingers and stuff. But this was all about people in the lifestyle. And they followed like, you know, five different couples that were all at different stages of their whatever marriages.

And they followed them for a year in the lifestyle just to see like, you know, who after a year lasted and who did it. And it was this whole documentary. And it was like, fucking great. And I was always like, oh, my God. when I'm like 65 and busted, I'm going to be a fucking swinger. Like, you know what I mean? Like, why not? And everyone, when I talk to people now, I tell them the story, they're like,

why wouldn't you do it when you're hot? Like, why are you waiting until you're busted? You're like, why? No, but it's like everyone's going to be busted. Yeah. Yeah, having fucking fun. Like, I think it's like great. You always hear about those old age shows where everyone's getting SDDs and shit,

you know, the highest. Yes. What do they care? What do they care about it? Yeah, I think that's amazing. Yeah, totally. the second coming for us all. Yeah, for sure. So listen, I love, like, first of all, I was slightly obsessed with you and your whole story.

I definitely think you need to take this. I mean, because your website is super, I mean, this isn't like something you did on like Squarespace, right? Like, it's like really, like this is like the real deal. I love the whole vibe of it. It's, you know, like your tagline, I'm looking at right now, like re porn with a plot line, as smart as it is sexy. Like, I mean, if you turn this into like a really super high-end podcast, you know what I mean? Like with this. whole thing and just like branded it the same way your website is. Like I really feel like it could do really fucking well because it's such a great thing that you're doing.

I do think a lot of times erotica, quote unquote, could be very cheesy, you know. Yeah. And I think that there's something very empowering for women to get more in touch and be more comfortable with getting to, you know, their dirtier side, you know, just be a little bit more open about all that stuff. Like why does it have to be sort of corny and cheesy and just romantic, right? Totally. And it's so inspirational and educational. And it's like, I feel, I love telling this story about my current partner. But when we first started dating, we were hooking up one night. And like at this time, I would always like send him the news stories on this site. And I was like, are you like doing the moves from this week's story? And he was like, yeah. So he was fully like performing. And it was a lesbian story. So he was like stealing the. moves. And I'm like, yeah, that's like the best place to look for information on how to spice things up is like

stories that are detailing exactly how to touch people, exactly how to bring them to orgasm. And I love that it's all real. So it's not like total fantasy land where you can't create it. It's like, no, you can go out and have these experiences. You can make these experiences happen. Right. Because somebody else did. This is real life. And you could recreate that. and it could happen, right? Yeah, I love that. And it gives you permission to, like, go do the same things and have fun and explore. Yeah, so listen, give everyone a shot of where they could go to your website to read some stories.

How does it work? You got to log in, sign up, like, do that you charge a membership fee for, like, one year or one month, or how does it work? There's monthly and annual memberships. Monthly, it's $899, annual is $69, because you charge a membership fee. because we love the number 69. I publish a new story every week and it's both on sub-sac and on the site. The site's readarroar.com

and our Instagram is also Read Aroar. And Instagram is a great community if you want to kind of like dip your toe in. We share excerpts from stories every week and Q&A are followers on their similar experiences or their thoughts on like whatever the theme of the story is that week. So it's a lot of fun.

And we take submissions. So if anyone listening has a story that they want to share and write, definitely open to submissions. We also have a writer's society. It's called the Slutty Riders Society, which is a writing group. I do monthly. I give people a couple different sexy prompts and space to write and share in the group. And it's a lot of fun. Oh, my God.

I love it. And now do you just take submissions from women? We take submissions from everyone. Okay, love it. We only had one story on the site from a straight male point of view for years. And then I decided to take to Instagram and be like, I would publish stories from men. It's just I don't get any good ones. I get a lot of like shitty submissions from straight men.

But I got a like from that post, I got like six more really beautiful stories from straight men. So now we have a bigger selection of those. And I'm totally loved to see stories from anybody, any perspective. And I especially love stories that are taking a different stance on sex. So something new, something you learn, new experiences, experiences that changed you, your craziest experiences. But all of them should be positive experiences. And even if they weren't maybe all together positive, you can rewrite them to be positive or you can make it funny and, you know, have learned something from what wasn't so good.

Yeah, for sure. I mean, I think that that's important. You never want to tell a story like about a problem when you're in the middle of it and you haven't had a, you haven't gotten to the solution yet. Nobody wants to read that story, go to that movie, watch that. You know what I mean? You want to tell that when you've come to the end, you know, which is a better place. I totally understand. I love everything about the site. I think it's. It's great. I think my listeners are definitely going to go check it out. I'm going to put links to everything in the description.

For my Patreon, I always post like picks of people. So if you could send me some shots of you, I'm assuming some of these picks of women on here or you on your website. I don't know, you have one picture that's like lips to the side with the finger in it that looks like a pussy. I'm like, what a brilliant idea. That's like a great picture. Where do you find that? What is smart. Is that one?

That's on this site or on Instagram? No, it's on Instagram. I'm sorry. I'm on your Instagram. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, my God, smart. I've never seen that before.

It's smart. I'm assuming some of these pictures are you, but if you could send me like a couple picks to put with your episode on my Patreon, that would be great. I will put the link to your website in the description so all my listeners can go check it out. I love your story. I love, you know, your stories. I'm definitely going to go read some.

So thanks so much for, and don't hang up, Carly, but thanks so much for calling in and sharing your story. This was great. You're great. Thank you so much. I really enjoyed our conversation. Thanks, Carly. Bye. Okay, I just want to tell you before you go that my book, it's called Strictly Anonymous Confession, Secret Sex Lives of Total Strangers, is now available not only in paperback and e-book, but you can pre-order the audiobook. It's still not going to be out until August 25th, but you can pre-order it.

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