Tea at Four - I Was Addicted To Chemsex, Then OnlyFans Saved Me

Episode Date: April 24, 2026

In this unfiltered episode of Tea At Four, Mason shares how the "Chemsex" epidemic nearly cost him his life, the reality of "slamming" drugs, and the surprising way OnlyFans became his road to recovery and sobriety.We dive deep into the taboo side of the gay community that no one is talking about, from the "Tina" (crystal m*th) crisis to the dangers of GHB and the rise of breeder parties. Mason reveals the physical toll of a 4-year addiction, including the sepsis scare that changed everything, and how he retrained his brain to experience intimacy without substances.Follow Mason here: https://linktr.ee/masoncrossxxx

Kemsex is like one of the biggest epidemics since the AIDS crisis. I would say so. Why is no one talking about it? Hey guys, welcome back to Tiet 4. I'm Billy. And I'm Lauren. And this is the podcast where we talk all things that normally stay in the group chat. And today we have a very exciting guest.

Please give it up for Mason. Thank you for coming on, Mason. Thank you very much for having me. Now this is quite a statement. You say that doing only fans saved you from a life of addiction. Mm-hmm. Could you tell our audience a bit how you got here? was taking drugs for four years and I started taking various substances but then I got onto

crystal meth which in the gay world or any world is known as Tina right so during this podcast I refer to her as Tina very brand safe yeah yeah so yeah so I got into Tina and um started going into group sessions and sessioning with it started on on the pipe smoking it and then after two years, I made the fatal mistake of injecting it. And then once you inject it, there's no going back because the hit, the high you get is amazing. I'm not going to lie. It's amazing. And then it just spiraled out of control and this went on for two years. Was it just through kind of like friends suggesting it? Like how does, I mean, I think everyone has these visions of you, everyone goes from not doing it to kind of like all of a sudden you're in a drug den. But it's not the case. Is it?

No, I'm all or nothing. So once I've started something, I can't stop. So I think it just started. And then it just got bigger and bigger. The sessions were getting longer and longer. So my longest session I had was five days. Wow. No sleep, no food, and just probably three liters of water.

Can you just stay there? You just, you don't want to move. You just, and obviously there's a lot of chemsex involved as well. So you just lose loads of weight. And then you just feel horrendous. And so how did OnlyFans see? save you. Because I got to a point last July, August and I thought enough's enough. So I came off the, um, the drugs and I always wanted to do content creation, but I was determined I wasn't going to

go into do content creation unless I was sober. Because I've got the, the whole chemsex thing, I put sex with drugs. So I never had sober sex for four years. Wow. So I wanted to make sure I went into this and never had the two together. So I didn't want content creation to be part of drugs. So I wanted to be separate. So by using OnlyFans, OnlyFans has helped me retrain my brain. It's been like CBT therapy. It's made me realise that I can have sober sex again. And I don't relate the two. As in before, it was drugs and sex, drugs and sex. Now it's content creation, only fans, sobriety. Yeah. And for our audience, can you explain what Kempsex is, what it means? So chemsex is a massive epidemic.

It's going through the gay world. And a lot of gay people meet up and they're doing all sorts of drugs. It isn't just crystal meth, Tina. It's GHB, which is the date rate drug, which I used to do as well. Which you only use very little amounts of. And it just makes you woozy, but it can make you go under, hence the whole date rape thing. I've also known people die with that because you've only got to do one mill too much and it's game over. Or I've known people in the sessions

You know at the drug sessions or the chemsex Parties where they're not sure what drinks what And they're thirsty and they just go in grab a drink And they've grabbed it and before it's too late Yeah MCAT Which is methadone isn't it Which was the one when you have

Which when you go to the people are coming off And they give it, you go to the chemist never Oh isn't that methadone Yeah so it's methadrone Mcat And it smells like cat pee And it comes like your paws And it smells like cat wee Oh my God

God. So it's MCAT, normally GHB, the date rape drug, and then Tina is the big, Crystal Meth is the big one now. It's the massive one. It's really stupid question on here. Are Poppers considered chem sex drug? They're legal, aren't they? You've got to be very careful with Poppers. I know someone had a heart attack.

The combination they used were both legal, funny enough. Poppers are Viagra. Because one's doing one and one's doing the other. And he went blue. And Poppers, actually, I'll tell you another story. years ago, we were in a club and they sell poppers in clubs, don't they? Yeah. And someone I know hadn't ever done poppers and you used to hand them around the dance floor,

sniffing them. Yeah, yeah. He thought it was a shot. He drank it back and he went green. Someone I know said, oh, he would be all right to leave him, give him a glass of water. He'd be finding it was in intensive care for a week. Oh, my God. The friend who gave him the shot didn't realize that she was, she never slept for a week

because she thought she was, I'm going to be undone for manslaughter. Oh my gosh. I actually heard a sort of not similar story but someone was woke up in the night and they were contact lenses

and they looked for their eyedrops and they picked up poppers and put it in their eyes I did it around my mouth once because it's spilled all right I will say you look the vision of health now

I am yeah but do you know the kind of effects that has done to your body I haven't had any tests for anything but I don't even so I got turkey teeth and my teeth kept falling, the turkey teeth kept falling out.

And I kept, I hope they don't see this in Turkey because I've been back three times and blame them. But it's nice, Tina. I was like, I don't know what, yeah, no. I won't see it, will they? We've got a huge audience in Turkey.

Have you? No. So, yes, and I kept saying, he's like, well, what's going on? He said to me, why do you keep coming back? What's wrong? I said, it's your glue. It's not me.

It's your glue. And I didn't realize at first. Right. And then I realized it's Tatina. Because in America, if you Google, if people out there, they Google Crystal Meth and especially in America, you'll see a lot of people and they lose their teeth. They lose their hair. It's horrendous what it can do to you. My teeth came out and I was like, rave and my teeth fell out.

And I had everyone on the floor looking for me teeth. And we found the teeth. I should laugh. No, we're not laughing. My mate tiny, she got on the floor. She's like, there it is. I was like, put them in your bra. So she put my teeth in the bra.

So she put my teeth in the bra. missing. But it turns out, I finally found out, I was like, I put two and two and two together. It was loosening the gums and it kept falling out. Experts are saying that chemsex is like one of the biggest epidemics since the AIDS crisis. I would say so. Why is no one talking about it? I don't know. I think it's a massive taboo, massive stigma about it. And I don't think people realise when you talk to people outside the gay community,

they haven't got a clue. I know some people, some proper lads at the gym. And then you tell them what's happening, like the crystal meth. and stuff like that. What do you want meth? Like, wow, but it's normal. And the scary thing is, when we were younger, you start on a bit of weed or a bit of coke and you build your way up.

I've seen 18, 19, 20 year old lad and they're injected meth already. God. Wow. Yeah. Also, like, touching on maybe the reason why I saw BBC did an investigation last autumn and it said that the NHS aren't recording all of the deaths as chem sex deaths. Right. And at the moment, statistics say that two to three people die in London every month from Chemsex.

How many? Two to three. Wow. But. So it's just being done as an overdose. Basically. Yeah. The BBC investigation was saying that actually a lot of the deaths they believe to have been caused by chem sex aren't being recorded as the cause of death.

Right. I don't think they are. No. So therefore, the issue must be even bigger. It's just become the norm, though, in the gay community. You go on Grindr and apps like. grinder and things and there's telltale signs they've tried to police it a bit more but h and h h which you see h n h high and horny or there's little emojis you can use like little ice

emoji tina crystal meth yeah so it's loads of little things you can check and you can see and i would say over 50% of people on no no maybe i don't want to start giving statistics but I would say a good proportion of people on grinding out are using drugs. And I'm not judging because I was doing it myself. But you can tell it's not just that meet up kind of thing anymore. It is kind of a, it's becoming a bit of a chem sex platform. Do you know what I mean? Yeah.

Yeah. And like what do you think can be done about it, I guess, because I think the LGBTQ plus charities need to do a little bit more. I've spoken to some in some cities. I've had a meeting with one in Brighton, one in Manchester. I'm going to start speaking to the one in Birmingham. I think they are now. I think they're having some group sessions from people. But I did contact my LGBTQ plus organisation when I came off

and they asked me if I want to go to a group session. But I declined because I thought, well, half of them I'm going to know who they are. We'll probably all sit around talking and then fucking go back to mine and end up getting on it. So I thought, well, I'm not going to do that because I wasn't strong enough to do that at the time. So I thought, no, we won't bother doing that. But it can work for some people. And there's other people online.

There are people, can I mention his name? Yeah. Online. Dr. Dallas Bragg. Okay. So please, if anybody's suffering out there. Obviously, there's loads of, obviously you've got NA as well, narcotics, anonymous.

Yeah. But Dr. Dallas Bragg, go and follow him because he is specifically aimed at people with Tina, Crystal Meth. addiction and it's massive to get off. I had some really, really dark times. I caught sepsis. Wow. Because I'd been on it for four days,

couldn't find a vein in my arm. And I was like, what am I going to do? And I'd run out of the small pin needles. And I only had the deep vein long needles left. So I started jabbing at my feet. And I couldn't walk. I couldn't.

I was crawling on the floor. I didn't want my neighbor to know because me and her very good friends. I didn't want to call anyone over because it looked like a bloody, I've been on it for four days, it had to call the ambulance, crawl to the door and let them in, and they had to take me away in a stretcher.

Obviously, could put me on a drip and everything like that. And that still wasn't enough to stop me. What was the turning point? Exhaustion and just tired of it all. I just absolutely had enough four years of just feeling like, because you, you know, I also had my business. I had a cleaning company.

I was director of a cleaning company. So I... It was functioning. Yeah, I was functioning. kind of. I think the thing is I had money coming in. Yeah. I was running the business.

The business had about 10 staff. It was it was kind of running itself in terms of the jobs would come in. I would then send the jobs out to the girls and the lads that were doing the jobs. And I didn't really have sometimes have to leave the house. So I'd be getting messages. Oh, where are you? I haven't seen you for a while. I'm like, I'm at another funeral.

You know what I mean? You just become a liar as well. You become this horrible liar and relationships break down. because you don't contact, you don't reach out, you don't meet your friends, you don't want to meet your friends, you don't want to meet your family. Everything just becomes bare minimum. Good for you.

It takes a lot and to open up like this with us is amazing. So thank you. I just want to help other people. I just want people to realize there is light at the end of the tunnel. And as I say, for four years I never had sober sex and I just kept, I thought I would never have it. Also, when you come off drugs, especially Tina, you come off and you miss a dopamine.

mean hit in your brain. The way I put it is, I was a good addict and now I'm a good content creator. So I've put all my energy into doing what I'm doing now. What I would say to people, when they come off drugs, any drugs, try and have something to focus on. People say, well, what about sex? I'd say, look, sex, leave it alone. Leave it for six weeks or leave it as long as you want because a lot of people will put the two together like I did. So just leave that and find yourself and find something to focus on. I'm not telling everyone to go out and start doing Onlyfans. It works for you. Yeah, it were for me, yeah. But do something, find something, have a hobby, take yourself away, just find something because you are going to have times where you, you know, you need something to focus on. You don't want any time pondering around where you might relapse.

What was it like the first time having sex sober? Nervous. It was like a virgin again. It was because it was like, oh, God, because when you're on drugs, you become this machine. You're like, oh, I can do anything and I'm amazing. Because you, all the confidence. You know what I mean? After time, you build up and you're confident. And it's normal again now. And the thought of doing chemsex again, I wouldn't want to do. I hear the quote quite a lot on podcast that the opposite of addiction is connection.

When you first got into using substances, did you feel isolated? Did you like, what is the general chem sex user? Like, what do they look like? What are those feelings coming from to need to use it? I've been on sessions before and I've witnessed people inject, say, 6 o'clock in the morning, injects meth, crystal meth. And then 45 minutes later, this guy got up. He was like, I need to go.

I need to go to work. I said, what do you do? He was like, I'm a surgeon at so-and-so. I'm not going to name the hospital. I'm a surgeon at so-and-so hospital. And I was like, hell, I hope he's not doing any of his. Granny's hip replacing because she was on the high. Oh, my God.

So he went to work. He went to work on it. Yeah. So people from all different. You just get up and you'd function. You know, I used to drive lovely on Matt. No, only joke. No, that's bad. I'm a joke.

But you do, you just, because you're on it, you just, it's bad, you know. But the bottom line is, you don't have to have something wrong with you. It is just so recreationally and normalized. Oh, yeah, and it becomes normal. Yeah. And then before you do, it's a slippery slope. Before you know it, you're in that. What I, so, Tina.

Tina's a. Tina will reel you in. And at the beginning of using drugs, Tina, crystal meth especially, things are amazing. Everything's amazing. The sex is amazing. You know, you can pick it up, you can put it down. It's like a toxic relationship. Right.

And then once Tina's got you, it's too late. You can't get out about toxic relationship. She'll make it all lovely and then she'll fuck you up and she'll bring you down. And before you know it, you're under her spell. Tina's She's evil And my thing is The reason I want to talk about this

Is Tina f*** me up And now I want to Fuck her up And give her A run for her money Do you know what I mean It kind of do what she did to me I mean

This might be a really personal question How many people have you lost That you may have been a cause From Chemsex People that I know of Probably four or five there was a someone I knew there was a DJ somewhere

and he was leaving a gig and he picked up this drink and he didn't realize that this GHB was because it's not just Tina by the way it's other drugs as well this GHB where he had drinking it, wiped it back, felt a bit funny, got in the cab on the way home,

died on the way home in the cab. Wow. Yeah. GHB makes you go under and makes you act in a stupid way and you become very repetitive. So you repeat action. So like, you can't explain.

It's almost like you're having a fit. And my friend or someone I know went under, they call it going under, repeated these actions for an hour. What he was doing was he was banging his leg on a rusty radiator. And he nearly had to have his leg off. Because he caught,

he fucked his leg up because it went and he, banging, banging, banging. He couldn't feel anything. Oh my God. So it's one thing to take drugs in this manner. and mix them, but then also having sexual intercourse, I'm sorry to sound blunt, but like, how does it work and how if both of you are under the influence? I was always, you can do too much.

Like I always said to people, I used to have sessions at mine, and I was very controlling over how much people would have. I was very always in the room. Right. I was a sensible addict, do you know what I mean? You don't want people dying in your house. You don't want, you know, you don't want people under pressure. So, you know, people would say to me, they'd come to mine and they go, oh, you've given me some teen or you've given to you.

I can't feel anything. And I'd say to them, look, you can come up, you can't come down. If you're going to do it here, you do it controlled. But there's some people that don't care. They do too much. But then some people can go really paranoid. I had people at mine accused me of filming them because someone said, you're filming me, you're filming me. I was like, no, I'm not.

And I said, what's that over there? And I was like, it's an airwick plug-in. with a with a light you know because they got the little lights in the airframe and they're like oh okay and then another guy came in and he was like I've just been in your bedroom I was like okay he was like there's a Chinese lady on the bed and I was like fuck is he was like how does she get in so I ran to the bedroom I was like there's no one there so it affects people's different way so you can have set you find it hard to get an erection and stuff like that but it just becomes very um all your inhibitions go

Yeah. So you start doing stuff you wouldn't normally do and, do you know what I mean? You can get really kinky and kinky. Do you think there is a reason why Kams X is prevalent in gay men? Point at me? You're the advocate for it. It's just, or maybe it's just not spoken about with like cis couples, but it seems like this is. I think couples do it.

I think straight couples do it. But I think it's more than, like I say, I've known guys that think they're probably, you know, the gangster guy, big guys. Coke. And they think they're, you know, the Beats and he's doing the coat, which is, you know, stick to the coat. But they're, when you tell them doing the, this M-Cat, I'm doing the Tina and stuff like that and GHB, they're like, it's another world. We don't realize. Yeah. They don't realize.

What was the recovery like for you when you, you know, you decided this was enough? It was difficult. And I stayed off sex for about six weeks because I didn't want to. And I thought, how am I going to start doing? I mean, I could have just gone on Grindr, but they get a grinder. Grindr was another trigger. Because everyone on there's H&H. And the great thing about all the other collaborations I do

and all the other content creators are part of a few content creator groups and WhatsApp. They're all sober. Right. So a lot of them actually, some of them are actually recovering addicts themselves. Yeah.

You do get the, of course you can have content creators that are using, but I don't want to work with them. Yeah. You know what I mean? Because it's triggering. Yeah. I don't want to be in that environment.

And as I say, most content creators, I'll say 95% of content creators are great and they don't use anyway. So it's good. What do you think it was at the worst of the worst point of your addiction? What was keeping you stuck? I don't know. It's just under a spell, it's just literally you cannot be without it. It's just you can't, you've got to be tough to fight the cravings.

And I think the worst thing as well, because I started inject it, they call it slamming. Because I started slamming, injecting it's worse because there's no, you can't go anywhere from, injecting, you know, any drug user, sorry, will tell you that. You can't go up. You know, it's, it's an immediate hit. Yeah. So when I'd go to sex sessions and chemsex parties, they'd be smoking crystal meth on the part.

I would like, oh, no, I don't want that. I want, I want, I want, I'll inject. But I caught in Batigo and I was using, because it's just filth. You just, yeah. And the arms are cleared up now. I've still got a couple of little marks, but on the whole, it's cleared up now. And like, with chemsex parties, STI spread my spout quite. A lot of, yeah, see, a lot of, yeah, see, a lot of,

see a lot of people are on prep right do you know what prep yeah prep is preventative of HIV so people's things are well you can go to the get tested you can go and get gonorrhea syphilis and all the rest cleared up as long as they don't get they call it the big one you know but then you've got a lot of people um there's chemsex parties but then there's breeder parties did you know about what's that breeder party so that's where people want HIV so they go to they go into parties to get bread you're joking with the intention yeah yeah they want it They want to be bred. They want people.

There's people out there that want to want to get it. And there's people that want to catch H-LV. So they'll go to breeder parties. It's an incentive. I know. I've never heard of that before. Just, I don't know. It's very warped, you know.

Maybe they then want to pass it on. I know it sounds bad. But when you're on, I'm not saying, I'm not making an excuse, when you're on drugs, you just become this nympho. You become this inhibitions go out. You don't think about the repercussions. Rebecussions. So you're not.

You just, there's so much shit you do, you wouldn't normally do as a, when you're down to, you know, back on earth. You've, you've obviously been an amazing stage to talk about the very unfiltered realities and the nastiness of chem sex. Are there people out there glorifying it? Someone was bragging on social media, um, about the fact that he likes to see the light go out of people's eyes. He likes to give people the drugs and he's like, that's his turn on. That's his power. so he likes to get them hooked. That's really scary.

That's scary. It's like something deeper down than a substance of peace addiction. Yeah. Or any kind of kink. That's the kind of. Yeah. God. So then you've experienced all of this and you took a step back and you started doing only fans.

What was that like early stages like for you? It just gives me something. It gave me something to focus on because people think you just go over. You go do some videos and that's it. It's not. So I sold my business because I was a director of my cleaning company. And obviously I had time on my hands. I wanted to fill the void from addiction.

I wanted to be doing something with my time. So I've just put everything heart and soul into that. So I organise all my own collaborations. I organise, you know, I do the editing. I do all my own admin. There's lots more behind the scenes that goes on. And I just put everything into that now. I just want to help more people, this whole Kempsex thing and overcoming it.

I just want to try and do more. I want to try and raise awareness of it. Yeah. You said the first time that you had. had sex sober was like having sex again for the first time. In terms of your recovery, how did you build that better relationship with intimacy and not being on drugs? It just came with time. I also with when I first started going with people again after coming off drugs, I would always be very honest with people and say, look, I'm quite new to this again.

I haven't had sober sex for years. And I think it's good because it was done with other content. I had my first got back into it with other content. They get it. Yeah. And it's part of the business and it's part of their work. So they're very kind and very, you know, understanding. So I think that helped rather than going with someone and it's just like, I just want to

quick shag and that was it. So it built up over time. And then your confidence grows again. I guess my public assumption with only fans is that that content is a little bit performative. But in like your real personal life, was that like a whole other thing to tackle? Oh, for sex? Yeah. If I'm absolutely honest with you, I haven't had any sex.

I haven't had any set. But I don't mind that. You don't mind it? No. A lot of content creators go attend these other parties, sex parties, which is all no drugs or anything. Yeah. They're living clean and blah, blah, blah, blah.

I don't because this is my work. But I enjoy what I do. I'm not doing it because I have to do it. I'm not being forced to do. I'm not being traffic for anything. Everyone I'm safe. But it's fine, but I want to do it. And then when I've got some time off,

I don't want to be fucking. around but I don't want to go to the gym. I want to do stuff. I guess if the it's scratched, it's scratched. Yeah. I don't need to tell you about that. What is like a day in the life like for you then when you're just working?

Oh, just working. So it's up and down the country. So I live in Birmingham, but most of the content creation I do is in London. Traveling is a lot. Then doing the content creation, which is normally about two hours and then going away and then managing your social media. See, my ex account is. really big at the moment I've got within five months I got about 18,000 followers on

there but my Instagram and TikTok I really need to start building up so that that's see with the X you get everything on there you can see everything of me on there people messaged me on X and they said oh will you do like a phone call with me and I was like yeah yeah yeah of course I was like I was like do you want to talk about anything specific he was like well I've got a really big fetish where you're taking my blood pressure. Oh, so you need a nurse. I don't know.

It wasn't just, it was a nurse, but it wasn't the, trust it for me, it wasn't the new blood pressure machines. He won't, remember the old ones years ago? He used to pump it up.

Yeah. So he wanted me to go, and then go, oh my God, just go to your GP, babe. Free. I know. I'm not here.

Yeah, but then he might get Big Brenda and he don't want Big Brenda to me. That's so. What's Big Mason? Oh, wow. I've never heard of anything like that. Remember years ago you did have to go out and find something.

And I remember once I took a bloke back and we were on the taxi on the way home and he said to me, have you got a banana at your house? And I went, yes. I don't know why I had a banana actually because I don't have been on it? He said, have you got any hair clippers? And I was like, yes. And he said, when we get back, he said that if you could shave my pubes, he said, and mix in with the banana and feed it to me.

So me being polite, I did it. But then I said to him, I said, how would you manage it? Because obviously, when you run out of pubes, what do you do? I said, don't you cough up furbles like a cat? You know, and the cats are. So the banana pub epidemic of Birmingham. I've got a banana of my lunch. I don't think I'm having that.

And then I had another guy once. And he, this is all normal. And then he said to me, said, oh, I've got a love watching guys far. I've heard of that one to be fair So how would you do it then? Do you know what? The ins and out? It was you, wasn't it?

It wasn't it you? I actually fart on command. No, so I said to, I said, look, I'm up for it. I can't fart on demand. He said, have you got a straw? Luckily, I've got all these utensils in my house already, just in case. So I had to go on my back and then blow me up and then I had to blow out. And it was like, the temp fart.

And I was like, mate, I'd not be a funny lover. I ain't getting much out of it. Oh, gosh. Oh, 10th. Exhaustion. Oh my God. No, I don't know. I'm a girl.

We do off camera in a movie. Yeah. Was this before or after only fans? Oh, before. Before. Yeah, yeah. So it always have been a bit, you know. Yeah.

I do have to ask, this is funny you bring up, you say you're 38. You say you're 38 and I guess you've seen the pre-grinder, pre-dating apps, pre-social media, kind of environment of all of this. Like, Kemsex has been portrayed on queer as folk. I think, polyoaks, things like that. It's not really bespoke about. It's changed so much.

Yeah. There's always been drugs. I remember when I first started going out years ago, we'd all go to the club and then everyone would know. The club would kick out, the village would kick out about 8 o'clock in the morning on a Sunday morning. And then they'd all look for me. But where is he?

Where is he? Because they all know they'd come back to mine. But it wasn't, all right, we'd be on the sniff and this is back then. but I could put it up and put it down then and I stopped doing drugs for four years it was a Tina that got me really whole chemise you do it obviously not every weekend most weekends and you go back to people's house and you just chat shit you know like you do the

and then you come Sunday night you'll all go home it's different now it's it's more seedy now it's more dark it's more it's the whole chemset see and it goes on and on and what I was finding when I was addicted my as I said earlier the sessions would get longer and longer and longer and longer. And I remember once I woke up on a Thursday morning, went to work, got on it Thursday night, and I never came off until Tuesday morning, the following Tuesday morning. And the thing was, my head wasn't high, but my heart was. So what I mean by that was my heart was pumping out of his chest, but I knew if I did any more, I'd have a heart attack, but I wanted to do more because I wasn't getting the fix in my

head. And it's weird when you come off drugs, especially if you miss different things. I used to miss the injecting and then seeing the blood go back on the vein because then you knew that you'd hit a vein and then you could just inject it straight in. It's important when people come off drugs, they have to start looking after themselves. Because when you're on drugs, you're not eating right, you're not drinking right.

And then when you do come off the session, you do start eating, you eat shit. Because you want that fix, you want that quick fix. So try and go to the gym if you can. The gym's been a massive savior for me. Diet's been a massive thing. Yeah. Get on a good, get on like a good,

multivitamin when you come off just to get some goodness back in your body yeah are there any like obvious like triggers that you severely have boundaries and stay away from other than being around people that you know use substances

blocked all the dealers on my phone that's a big thing so it gives people some ideas but a lot of the drug dealers will have burner phones so they'll change that you can block their number but in two months they got a new burner phone and then they'll message you again anyway

so it's on a different number so I've changed my number I haven't this time but I've changed my number for you kept saying to me why do you keep changing your number four I've just wanted to change even my mum was like why do you keep changing number I was like

I keep getting these weird calls mum you can have waves of wanting to use but try and stay away from things is it tricky like speaking on triggers like pop culture at the moment there's almost like a glamourisation of like drug taking like Charlie XX, for example.

I'm not saying that's that. What? Charlie XX. You're lying. You're lying. No, I've never heard of it. Him? Huh?

Oh, is it? Where have you been, babe? So, hey, go on then, who's this Charlie XXXN or whatever? Charlie XXXX, is Brat. Do you know about the brat movement? Oh, the little dolls? No. Oh, my gosh.

This is brilliant. Oh, little brat dolls. Will you still get when he's little? No, darling. Bright neon green with the word brach. on front. No. Are you on Tina?

Are you? She's had a huge year with this past album and a lot of her songs are about like doing drugs. And then it just kind of like social media people on social media now and then kind of like have this kind of glamorization view of drugs. I was wondering have if that kind of like seeing that everywhere. I don't know. I don't think I haven't. Clearly I haven't got her. Try and get her on here for me.

Oh my God. try and get her on it, I wish. Why don't you just call, Charlie up? I love your podcast. But it's been stuff that you mentioned before and I'm like, it goes over my head. That's okay. That's all right. It goes over Christy's head as well to be first.

We have to educate her every week. Yeah. This is something worth bringing up. You've just won something at the Grabby Awards. Oh, no, not yet. You've not yet. Is it secret? No, it's not secret.

Nominated. So I've been nominated. By the time this goes out, I've lost. Oh. Manifesting. I've been nominated for the Grabby Awards, which is the adult entertainment industry. I've been nominated for Best Newcomer, 2026. Nice.

So there's various different categories. Best top, best bottom. Best Daddy. Right. Best Twink. Oh. Group scene of the year. I'm in the group scene of the year.

12 cocks of Christmas I was in. But it only ended up being seven cocks of Christmas because the other four cocks never turned up. 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12. Well, we were five cocks down, but still it was a good film. And then... Five rings are burning. They rings are burning. Do you have a niche within your content?

Mainly tops. I'm mainly giving it. But I'm quite open. There are content creators out that are doing really well. Because they find a niche. Have you filmed any kinks or anything that's kind of like a little bit outside of the normal realm? I've fisted someone on the thing. I've been saying to my sister, I'm having a private conversation with a mum over her.

I was like, I was fisting someone. Mum said, you're fisting someone. I went, yes. And she went, which hand did you use? And I went, this one. She went, your granddad's wedding rings on that farm. No! Granddad!

I was like, I've scrubbed it with a nail brush, you're fine. So I assume you're very open about all of this. Were you open about the Kemsex stuff? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Well, it's a blessing that you can be. 100%.

My dad's got to be. My sister's a lesbian. I'm gay, actually. So I will go with me. So if there any women out there that want to do some content with me, let me go try to tap into that market. Right. I would like to do that.

Yeah. A bit flaky the old girls, bless one. Not down there, I mean. Germatitis. Yeah, germatitis. So what did life look like coming off a drug like meth? A lot of sweats, night sweats, anxiety, heart palpitations, sleeping a lot.

I went through a period of three, four years and, you know, I'd have lots of weeks where I wouldn't sleep. So you're just literally like, you're trying to recuperate, trying to re-energize yourself and just get back to a point where you were before. So it just takes a long time to get back. When you were in like the depths of the worst for addiction and just coming out of recovery, what kept you positive that there was a light at the end of the tunnel? I knew some people would look down on what I do. Some people wouldn't, and you get to a point in life, you think, fuck it. I've been a housing manager.

I've been an untrained social worker. Like running, think family things, you know, like a social worker job. I've had big jobs and then I've gone to do this. And it's something I like doing. It works for me. It's kept me off the drugs. It keeps me happy. And if people don't like it, they don't like it.

But I've never been happier. Genuinely, I've never been. I'm high, but naturally high. So if anyone is listening and they're involved in the chemsex cycle, what would you say to them? I'm happy for anybody to DM me as well. And yet, come and speak to me and, you know, there is light at the end of the tunnel and you can do it.

you can and you will. Yeah. Do you know what I mean? Don't keep beating yourself up about it when you do. I had a lot of guilt when I came off and I think of stuff I'd done and you just think, oh shit. You've got a legama. Do you know what the gama is?

No. Let it go and move on. Let it go, move on. Put it in the fucky bucket. Let it go and move on and just, oh, you just fuck your brain up. Yeah. It's done. You're sober.

Move on now. Socks on or off. Depends on the feet. Fair enough. I do like feet. If you've got nice feet, that's fine. I've been with guys that are very good looking They're taking their socks off

And give me a shock It's a deal breaker for me Bigger celebrity crush Duncan from Blue, he's hot and he I love where your brain is out I love you Do you watch your own content back? No

I watch the trailers I have somebody who I trust to do the editing And I've never watched any of my content all the way through I've heard of some people wanked to their own content But I don't do that

Always watch a trailer Because the trailer's only 20 seconds and that needs to be bang on for the X and stuff. But no, I can honestly say, hand on my heart, I've never watched any of my films all the way through. Describe your only fans content style in one word. Hot. Green flag in a date.

Offering to pay. Nice. I always offer to pay. It's very tricky, isn't it, with gays? What do you do? This is the thing. Anyone straight out there. If you go on a date with a man, do not go and see him again.

if one he makes you pay the bill or two asks you to go halves a man should always pay the bill up to date three you heard it her first peeps I love it most unexpected thing that turns people on so I was fucking someone with a massive donkey cock oh no no it wasn't a donkey cock

it was a rhino cock Thanks for correcting He was a rhino he shaped it So he had a load of different Dildo shaped his animal cock And this one was a perfect outline of it And a, what did I say? Not a walrus, was it?

Rhino. Yeah, a rhino. And people were loving it. Oh, wow. It was like... And he took the whole rhino. Right. Biggest myth about Onlyfans, creators.

They're all fake and pretentious. Most money you've made in a day from Onlyfans. $450 quid. Would you date another creator? Possibly. I wouldn't be able to date someone like me. Right. So I wouldn't be able to expect.

them to take someone like me, if you saw what I mean. I find it very difficult. Although it's, I can't do the whole open a situation. No, no judgment. It works for people. I'm just saying it's probably more of a thing on me than anything else. Love it. That's one of them. This is the part of the podcast where you spill the tea and we try not to feed our special

guest, Mason. Let's go. I went back with a guy after a night out and we were up for hours having the drunkest, gayest, messiest sex I've ever had in my life. In the morning, incredibly hungover. I got dressed and quickly rushed to my mum's house to celebrate her birthday. When she answered the door, she started scrubbing something off the collar of my jacket, licking her finger and going back in to try and get it off. To my horror, it was a cum stain from the night before. I still have no idea if she was looking his cum or mine. Bit of icing on the collar. A bit of icing on bacon. My boyfriend and I were having sex and he

kept going floppy. This became more and more persistent as time went on to the point where I asked what would help to turn him on. He asked if he could put on porn to watch in the background and I agreed. After getting back to it, I noticed that what he was watching didn't sound like porn at all. In fact, it was David Attenborough's voice in my ears. I was horrified when I saw he was watching planet Earth whilst fucking me. I left that night and still have no idea if it was a lion's or David that did it for him. Or if it's like one of your friends, maybe they had a lion cock. Rhinoceros.

Oh, I was a rhino babe. Oh, but he might have a lioness. Different mammal. No. Gosh. I remember once, this is true. And I remember, I was getting fat. I wasn't really enjoying it to be fair.

It was Easter time and I saw a cabri's cream egg. And he couldn't see. And I just started eating the cabri's cream egg. my mind off of it. And that's a godd honest street on my mum's life. I started eating this fucking cabarees

and not, yeah, of cream egg. I was moaning because I was like, oh God, yeah, this feels good.

I was like, I haven't had a cabbries cream eggs as last Easter. Oh, that was incredible. That was really good. And on that note. So you spoke about only fans. Have you done any other

sex work or like performance stuff in the past? Yeah, so I recently did a really good event called honcho at the Royal Voxal Tavern and that was really fun. I think it worked out

about half an hour on stage, but in five minute slots. So the first one was like a shower scene, just washing ourselves and blah, blah, blah. And then I think I, I then I rimmed someone on stage. That was like, that just broke the ice. That'll do it. It's always an introduction. It just calms everyone down, gets everyone in, you know, lovely event. Bring all the family.

They love it. But yeah, so do that. And then, so, and then another thing, another couple of games were throw the hoop on the cock. So if you can get free, rings on the car. It wasn't massive metal ones. It was like little plastic ones and then you win a bear. That's lovely, isn't it? And then the other one was like going around giving people popcorn but you're really coming through the thing so they have a little feel and... And then the final one was I had to go around with the chip and pin machine and selling

tequila and then if they wanted the tequila, they buy it and then they got, you know, the salt in the lemon. Yes. And they get to lick the salt of my cock. I was going to say, babe, that's bartending. I thought I thought. I thought. I thought.

Oh. Don't get that in Weatherspoon. No. Thank God. Oh. Are all the allies there? Or is it like queer audience? You want to go.

Yeah. Oh, no. You can go. Yeah. Oh, well. You love it. I'll be there on the next one show. Thank you so much.

Thank you so much. You're coming on and sharing your story. It's been eye opening and I hope that people see this and they do reach out. Yeah. get help they need. I don't they can see that, you know, it's dark, but then you can see how much fun we've had, and you can change for the best and turn your life around. You can do it. Thank you so much, amazing. Thank you. For Mason, everybody.