Ten Percent Happier with Dan Harris - Rewire How You Talk To Yourself | Ofosu Jones-Quartey

Episode Date: May 1, 2024

Buddhist strategies for taming that nagging voice in your head.Ofosu Jones-Quartey, a meditation teacher, author, and musician hailing from the Washington DC area brings over 17 years of experience in sharing mindfulness, meditation and self-compassion practices with the world. Holding a bachelor’s degree from American University and certified by the Mindfulness Meditation Teacher Certification Program, Ofosu is a graduate of the Teleos Coaching Institute and is the male voice on the Balance meditation app, reaching over 10 million subscribers. Ofosu leads meditation classes and retreats nationwide, having taught and led retreats at the Insight Meditation Community of Washington, The Insight Meditation Society, Spirit Rock, Brooklyn Zen Center, Cleveland Insight, Inward Bound Mindfulness and more. As an accomplished hip hop artist under the name “Born I,” Ofosu released the mindfulness-themed album “In This Moment” in 2021. His most recent album is “AMIDA”, a spiritual, Lo-Fi Hip Hop album exploring life, death and his Buddhist faith. Beyond music, Ofosu is an author, releasing his self-published children’s book “You Are Enough” in 2020 and “Love Your Amazing Self” via Storey Publishing in 2022. He lives in Rockville, Maryland, with his wife and four children.In this episode we talk about:The relationship between self-compassion and a successful meditation practiceAll the reasons people resist self-compassion, and his rebuttalsWhether self-compassion is selfishHow to do self-compassion off the cushion, including practices like journaling, written reminders, establishing accountability partners, and simple questions you can drop into your mind when all else failsHow to do self-compassion on the cushion, including practices like body scans, metta, and a check-in practice you can use at the very start of your sitsAnd how to teach self-compassion to childrenRelated Episodes:The Voice in Your Head | Ethan KrossSign up for Dan’s weekly newsletter hereFollow Dan on social: Instagram, TikTokTen Percent Happier online bookstoreSubscribe to our YouTube ChannelOur favorite playlists on: Anxiety, Sleep, Relationships, Most Popular EpisodesFull Shownotes: https://www.tenpercent.com/tph/podcast-episode/ofosu-jones-quarteyAdditional Resources:Download the Ten Percent Happier app today: https://10percenthappier.app.link/installSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

It's the 10% Happier Podcast. I'm Dan Harris. Hello everybody. How we doing? I am not the first person to make this observation. And it's actually probably not the first time I'm making this observation on this very show, but it does bear repeating. If anybody else talked to me the way I talk to myself,

I would likely punch that other person in the face. This is super common, a harsh inner dialogue. It's been described as a kind of addiction, a habit that we believe on some level keeps us safe. But it doesn't. It actually degrades our resilience. It burns us out, and it can mess up our relationships with other people. Today, we're going to talk about some Buddhist strategies for rewiring your inner talk track. And my guest is Afosu Jones-Courté, who is a great Dharma teacher. We talk about the relationship between self-compassion

and a successful meditation practice, all the reasons people resist self-compassion and his rebuttals, whether self-compassion is selfish, how to do self-compassion off the cushion, including practices such as journaling, written reminders, and establishing accountability partners, how to do self-compassion on the cushion, including practices such as body scans, meta, and check-in practice

that you can do at the start of your sits. And finally, we also talk about how to teach self-compassion to children. I should say this is the second in a two-part series we're doing this week on self-compassion. If you missed it, go back and check out Monday's episode with Dr. Serena Chen, who's been researching the benefits of self-compassion. Just a little bit more about Afosu Jones-Courté before we dive in. He is the male voice on the Balance Meditation app.

He's also an author, and he's a hip-hop artist who records under the name Born I. Afosu Jones-Courté coming up. But first, a little BSP, blatant self-promotion. I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going to be your host, I'm going two biggest takeaways for me from the shows on any given week, plus three cultural recommendations, books, TV shows, movies, TikTok videos, you name it.

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the show, when you were talking to him before we ever met, before you came to the microphone today, he asked you, what do you want to talk about? You went right to self-compassion. And I'm curious why. Yeah, you know, self-compassion has evolved into being the thing that I love to talk about the most because in my own life, it's what I believe saved my life and continues to keep me alive. And that sounds dramatic, but I really think that that is

the foundation of what keeps me going. And when I discovered the importance of self-compassion in my practice and in my life, I would bring it up in casual conversation with friends and in classes that I was teaching. And I found that it was just something that folks weren't doing, that it wasn't intuitive for the people I was talking to,

to relate to themselves in a compassionate way, as a regular way of being. And so with it being such an important part of my own life, my own development as a human being, my own spiritual practice, et cetera. We talk about like, what's alive for you right now, and self-compassion is always alive for me. And it's something that I just feel we are still lacking

as a society and could use some more of. I agree with everything you just said. I'm curious, when you say it saved your life, what are you referring to? Like everybody else, I've experienced some pretty significant highs and lows. And during the pandemic, I found early in the pandemic, prior to everything just shutting down, I had been going, going, going, going, going in my music life, in my teaching life, in my family life, etc.

And I think I was moving at such a pace that I wasn't able to really feel my feelings and to feel what was happening underneath the surface. And once I stopped, I realized that I was in some ways deeply unhappy and feeling depressed for lack of a better way of explaining it. And I ended up realizing that I was pretty deeply depressed. And the doctor that I worked with, I'm always going to give him a shout out, Dr. Cholette Josue. He gave it to me pretty straight and said, you share a lot about people being kind to themselves,

but I just don't know that you're doing that for yourself. And I think I was feeling definitely at the end of my rope and just extraordinarily low. And so he put me through like a self-compassion bootcamp, really, and itcamp, really. And it really, really helped turn things around for me. The practice of just relating to myself as a friend really pulled me out of the hole that I was in.

And the successive holes that we find ourselves in as people, every time I find myself even at the edge, I'm able to bring in that compassionate voice and pull myself back Not only did it pull me out of a pretty deep hole. It keeps me from falling back in or falling into deeply This thing you just said about relating to yourself as a friend. That's deceptively simple can be dismissed as Trite even but there's a lot there So I want to just hang a lantern on that and come back to it But let me just stay with you for a second. I think some people could hear that story and say,

well, this dude's a Dharma teacher. He's been a Dharma teacher for a long time. So how could he find himself that low, depressed, consulting a doctor? Does the technology not work? Oh, yeah. So, you know, it's funny because my mom, when I share on social media, if I've had like a difficult day or something like that, you know, my mom has in the past, she shot me a message saying like, you know, you're a teacher, you're a practitioner, why would people listen to you or practice with you

if you're still experiencing challenges with your mental health, et cetera, at this stage in your practice and in your life? You know, for me, I think the most important thing that I can be is honest with the way that life unfolds, which is completely unpredictable. Part of being a practitioner is just uncovering what's there and being in touch with what's there.

My friend and teacher, Tara Brock, sums it up that, you know, this is a suffering world. We do experience suffering in a myriad of ways. And as practitioners, and even as teachers, we are no exception. There are so many different factors that support anxiety and depression and difficult mental health issues in each of our lives and in society. And sometimes those factors arise within us insidiously. Something that was happening for me is that I was working so much and perhaps there were places that I wasn't giving enough kind attention to. I could notice that there was pain or that there was anxiety or there was suffering and that's a hallmark of my mindfulness practice is noticing what's there.

But to notice what's there wasn't enough for me. Compassion is an active process. So I needed to notice and respond in a compassionate way. And that piece wasn't happening. So my practice was there. My practice was aware that, yeah, I'm not feeling great, but maybe that's enough to just notice. And we noticed the waves rising and passing

So I was aware of all of that But the aspect of caring for myself the aspect of changing how I was talking to myself how I was Relating to myself that wasn't there and it needed to be there in order for my relationship with myself to be whole in in Order for my practice to be whole I I don't wanna talk too much about myself because I wanna talk about you, but I just. We can talk about you, Dan, I'm down. I suspected you would say that, but I really don't. But I'll relate a very quick anecdote

because I think it amplifies your point, which is that I think I spent a lot of time in my own meditation practice. I mean, even wrote all fucking, two whole books about the thing, and yet I retained the capacity to be a schmuck in many, many ways. And I still do, but a real turning point for me was moving from, I want to say, like, just mindfulness. I don't, I know some people might take issue with that, but there was a way in which I was kind of, there was something missing from my mindfulness.

I was watching anger, selfishness, sadness, whatever come up in my mind. And as you say, the practice was there. I was aware of this stuff. It was like my mindfulness was clinical and cold and it missed the warmth that I think you're pointing at here. And once that came in for me, it doesn't mean that I think you're pointing at here and once that came in for me It doesn't mean that I'm flawless, right? It just means that I'm better than I was and I think that's kind of close to what you're describing It's pretty on the nose. Yeah, because mindfulness in the texts or even in how it's been

Translated and in how it's been taught no shade to any of my teachers or to any of the wonderful teachers I teach with. I just feel like I wasn't hearing enough that, hey, it can be difficult to be a human being, period, no matter what. And on this journey, the fuel that you're gonna need to keep going is remembering to be kind, to be gentle, to be patient with yourself. The one teacher who I heard that a lot from was Thich Nhat Hanh.

And incorporating his teachings into my practice during this time of deep depression for me was also a game changer for sure. Something you said to the aforementioned DJ was that, and I think this is a direct quote, I want people to be kind to themselves so they can see the path all the way through. In other words, this Dharma thing, this meditation thing, whatever you want to call it, is not easy. And if you want to keep going, it's very helpful to be able to relate to yourself warmly. Yeah, absolutely.

I mean, for me, that's even in my role as a teacher, I hold that title very lightly. I like to think about myself more as an encourager, someone who is encouraging people not to give up on themselves, someone who's encouraging people to do whatever you need to do to be able to see not just the path but your life through all the way. And for many of us who are practitioners, the path and our lives are inextricable. There are so many wonderful teachers, there are so many wonderful experiences that are available to us as human beings, but how can we see any of that or be in touch with any of that if we are

just kicking the crap out of ourselves along the way or holding ourselves to an unreasonable standard? One of the things I like to say is that, you know, many of us act as if we should have a PhD in being alive, a PhD in being a human being. And there's absolutely nothing that suggests that we should know what's going on. This entire experience is a ridiculous, difficult mystery. And I think the most reasonable response as we are drifting through this mystery is to offer ourselves some grace and by extension each other.

Well said. So here's a question I should have asked at the beginning. What is self-compassion? I'm just going to give you the definition as far as I know it for myself. And self-compassion for me is really developing a relationship with yourself that is akin to the relationship you would have with a best friend, a trusted loved one, even sometimes a pet or a small child that you're caring for,

depending on the needs that are within your own mind, heart and body. But it's learning to relate to yourself and to care for yourself the way that you would care for somebody that you love, that you hold dear. I like to ask people to just check in with themselves in any given moment. I just think about how am I feeling right now?

What's going on with me mentally? What's going on with me emotionally? What's going on with me physically? And then I allow myself to respond with the truth. Like right now my mind feels like this. Right now, emotionally for me it's like this, right now emotionally for me it's like this, right now physically for me it's like this. And then I extend this thought experiment out to,

well if my best friend, my loved one, my wife, one of my children, even just an average person on the street honestly, if anybody was feeling, but especially someone I care about, if somebody I care about was feeling exactly how I'm feeling right now, what would I say to them? Whatever I would say to them, I say to myself,

whatever movement of the heart would happen on their behalf, I allow that movement of the heart to happen on my own behalf. And that to me is what self-compassion is in theory and practice. There are many ways in which people resist this. Yeah. So let's go through some of them. One of them is, dude, this is just cheesy. I mean, the name that often comes up in these conversations, and this will be a cultural reference that

younger people don't get, you may actually fall in this category, but Stuart Smalley, who was played by Al Franken on SNL. I'm smart enough. Yes. He would stare in the mirror, I'm good enough, smart enough, and God darn it, people like me. What do you say to people who are like, dude, this is too dopey?

First, I'd say to them that I felt that this was the dumbest thing ever. When I started doing it, that I felt that this was the dumbest thing ever. When I started doing it, it just felt so stupid because it was an experiment that I jumped into. I just started trying to talk to myself with a little more kindness. And I've had an on again, off again relationship with this. And then when I was really in a down place. I just ramped it up. And I started talking to myself,

I started giving myself like a pat on the back for doing the most basic shit for like, I'd get out of bed and I'd get to the bathroom because something I say to people is like, at one point in time in your life, you got a standing ovation just for peeing, right? Like when you were a kid, you went to the bathroom, you came out and people clapped, or they were around you,

you had an audience. You know, sometimes we have to go back to that level, back to the baby level of just giving ourselves a shout out for doing the most basic things. I did that for myself, making it downstairs to make myself some eggs or just opening and closing the refrigerator to look at what's in there. I say to myself, hey man, refrigerator to look at what's in there.

I say to myself, hey man, you know, at least you did that. And when I was beginning that process, oh my God, it felt so dumb. It felt so corny. And I am a person who wants to feel cool. Like that's, you know what I'm saying? Like aesthetically, everything. I don't want to feel dopey or corny, but I allowed myself to move into that space because I was a bit at my wits end, number one. I didn't really have anything

else to give. It's natural for it to feel awkward or feel weird or feel dopey to start talking to yourself with kindness. But the thing is you're talking to yourself all the time anyway. So begin by examining that. How are you talking to yourself with kindness. But the thing is, you're talking to yourself all the time anyway. So begin by examining that. How are you talking to yourself? And I think a lot of us would find that like, damn, I don't really like how I'm talking to myself. Like I would not use these words on my worst enemy.

I mean, I think there's a certain dopiness in being mean to yourself too, right? Just the recognition like, oh, I'm talking to myself all the time anyway. And what am I saying to myself? Could it be a little nicer? I'm not into the corniness either, but I would just say, give it a shot and just baby steps. You could just say, hey, good job for doing something basic and just see how that feels. It's going to feel good. It might feel silly, but it'll still feel good. And I think the goodness eventually

outweighs the silliness. I love everything you're saying. I'm gonna make a point and then ask a question. Sure. The point is, this is not Stuart Smalley. Yes, you can do the baby mode thing that you just described, but just right back to what Ofosu said

at the beginning here, which is talking to yourself the way you would talk to a friend. You aren't, hopefully, if you're a good friend, not lying and bullshitting your friends and telling them they're great at stuff they're not great at. You know, another way to think about this is talking to yourself the way a good coach would talk to a player on a team. And that doesn't mean it's false puffery or anything like that. It has to be cheesy. It can be direct, but it's also, it kind of wants the best for you. So just saying that as a clarification, but back to the tone of all of this, you're wearing a shirt that says you're enough. Yeah.

Which I like that sentiment, but I wonder like how far on the ra-ras end of the spectrum are we willing to go here and how do you walk that line? Yeah. I mean, I think it's everybody's choice as far as how far they want to go with it. I work with young people a lot also, and there's a real issue with the mental health of our young people right now. And I think there's a real issue with the mental health of us as people right now. So for me, I want to actually be as loud of a voice for this way of thinking and being as possible. I think I'm able to do it because it's authentic

to who I am and it's meaningful to me. When I wear a shirt that says you are enough, I'm really on that team, you know what I mean? I'm not like wearing it because I wanna be on the team or I think it's the right thing to say. Like it's a religion to me. And if I am gonna proselytize about anything, it's to be, please remember to be kind to yourself. And so for me, it's a religion to me. And if I am going to proselytize about anything, it's to be, please remember to be kind to yourself.

And so for me, it's a big deal. But if by making it a big deal for me, I can make it even a little deal for other people, that's fantastic. So sometimes I'll say if I'm at a concert or something like that, I'll say, man, I put on all this fly shit and I made all these songs, just so you would find me compelling enough to listen to this right here. Please be kind to yourself.

That's it. Similar to me, I didn't even realize how close to the edge I was until I stopped and took a look at what was inside and then got some external help. My wife was like, you are really suffering. You need to talk to somebody. And in that whole process, I was like, damn, you know,

there was a lot under the surface that perhaps I was aware of, but I wasn't responding to that awareness with kindness. So that little caveat there. I think that there are so many people who are on the verge of checking out with the big C or the little C. The little C just, by that, I mean, just checking out, no longer C or the little C. The little C, just by that I mean just checking out, no longer engaging with society or with themselves or with life in a meaningful way.

And the big C all the way to harming themselves in significant ways or in the ultimate way. I know that's true with our young people and I think that that's true with many of us. And I just want to offer practice and a perspective that can help change the course of those ways of thinking and being, if that makes sense. It does make sense.

Let's go down the list of qualms that people have. Oh yeah, let's continue. Because here's another one. We kind of addressed this when we talked about the difference between like Stuart Smalley and a good coach, but let's talk about it Anyway, the argument that this practice self-kindness self-love self-compassion, whatever you want to call it will make me lose my edge Yeah, I Mean, that's a big deal for me, too

so there's all kinds of edges like the competitive edge the Psychological edge for me. There's also the competitive edge, the psychological edge. For me, there's also the artistic edge, all those edges. I think about that a lot. To me, like what's more important having a so-called imagined edge or having a life that feels livable? Yeah, make me lose my edge. Like most of us are on the edge because of those edges we want to maintain. And then we find ourselves like almost over the edge or all of a sudden we're beyond where we thought we could be because we're trying to maintain that edge. So I think there's a way for us to be kind to ourselves without BSing ourselves. There's a way to be kind. Like

I practice Muay Thai, like I'm a martial artist also. I'm a meditation practitioner and teacher. So I can't self-compassion myself out of training. That's not self-compassion to me because these things are good for me. They're not always the most fun, right? But it's essential to me having like a fulfilling life. So self-compassion is not meant to be

a form of self-delusion orion is not meant to be a form of self-delusion, or it's not meant to be a way of letting ourselves off the hook for things that we should be responsible for. To me, it's the fuel to keep going. If you want to maintain your edge, I would argue that it's not gonna come from treating yourself harshly. You might be rigorous in how you address yourself

to get your things done, but you don't have to put yourself down. I don't think putting yourself down is how we maintain our edge. If anything, it should be recognizing when we are on the right path, when we're doing things that are in service to our goals, etc. and giving ourselves positive reinforcement for that so that we can have the fuel to continue. If we're not doing that, then I think trying to maintain the edge really just leads us

to burnout at the very least, and then more severe consequences at the worst. Yeah, I mean, the data support what you're saying, which is that if people who have a self-compassionate attitude are more efficient and effective at reaching their goals, not less. And so this is just a really harmful misconception that if you baby yourself and are constantly

giving yourself bubble baths or whatever that you will be ineffective. But that's not what you're arguing for, certainly. And it's also not what I'm arguing for. I want to pick up on something you said there, which is about your training, your physical exercise, that self-compassion is not necessarily fun. Understanding that what's best for you is to get on the bike, to go run, to go face your fears in a careful, systematic, calculated way. It's really uncomfortable. But that's still self-compassion because that is what is in your best interest. And so it's not going to reduce your edge. Properly applied, it will make you sharper.

I couldn't have said it better. It's my favorite answer. You're killing it, Dan. I'm very impressed. This is the way he talks to himself, and I'm getting him to talk to me this way, too. That's right. Bam. It's an elaborate manipulation scheme here.

Let me do a couple more points of resistance that I see to self-compassion. I don't deserve this. Well, I think there are many different reasons why we might feel this way. For me, having a clear-eyed view of the ways in which I've been unskillful, the ways in which I've caused harm in life, the ways in which I know I could have been better in certain situations and was not. All of these can take the witness stand in the course of my own self-indictment and judge and rule that I'm unworthy of self compassion.

But that's where the thought experiment of, okay, so let's not make it about me, right? Let's think about somebody that I care about. I know all their flaws. You know, friends of mine who have been in jail, friends of mine who have not been the best partners or the best parents, whatever. Do I think that they are below love and compassion? Do I think that they are exempt from care? Or do I think that with more love, with more compassion, with more understanding, patience,

grace, we might see the best of them emerge. I tend to think that the latter is true, that there's no circumstance where compassion can't make things better. And so when I think about like, well, what would I say to somebody that I love who was feeling the same way? That really takes me out of my own narrative,

like I'm unworthy. And again, referencing Tara, she calls it the trance of unworthiness. Another teacher and friend of mine, Aisha Ali, going back to the young child or the baby metaphor, it's like, if it's hard to consider, how would I think about a friend or a loved one who was in the same circumstance,

then consider yourself as a child or just hold an image of yourself as a young person. Only you know all that you've been through. Only you know the traumas and the circumstances that have played a part in the ways in which you might now be feeling unworthy. Only you can give yourself the compassion, the love, the presence, the understanding that you really need. Nobody else knows what it's been like to be you this whole time, only you know.

So go back to what it was like to be a kid and think about whether or not that kid deserves compassion and start there and go through all the different phases and just see, you know, if you ever caused suffering, how were you doing at that time? Were you suffering also? It doesn't exonerate us from things that we've done that have been unskillful or harmful, but it does give us an opportunity to address the root causes of our suffering. And in addressing those

root causes, I think there's always room for compassion. I think a lot of people will get a lot of utility out of that argument you just made. Let me do one last beef with self-compassion. And this is a Buddhist beef. Buddhist beef. Does it put too much emphasis on the self when the self is supposed to be an illusion? Anyway, this whole practice is supposed to be about getting over yourself, transcending the ego, and getting into self-compassion might concretize the thing we're supposed to be losing. Yeah.

So, for that perspective, it's something I've thought about also. These are all great, Dan. I don't know how you got into my counter-argument notebook, but you got in there. And these are all things that I have thought about and I continue to think about because I think as a teacher, what you want to be able to do is be able to explain what's important to you or your perspective to like a five year old or to someone who's never encountered what you are sharing or offering. And you also want to make sure to like test your own thinking against your own arguments.

So I appreciate all of these. A few things about that. Okay, so depending on the tradition, in Buddhism we have the two wings of awakening, right? Wisdom and compassion. Wisdom and compassion are inextricable. They are deeply interrelated, but on their own they address the two natures of reality

that are happening simultaneously. There is the wisdom addressesures of reality that are happening simultaneously. There is the wisdom addresses the ultimate reality. And again, this is from my understanding of Buddhist practice in practicing in multiple traditions. Wisdom addresses the ultimate nature of our reality, which is interdependence, interconnectedness, or anatta, non-self, that there's no enduring self-nature to anything and anyone. But compassion addresses the on-the-ground reality that each one of us is experiencing,

which is that, yeah, I mean, I've got a name and I've got a history and I've got experiences and when I act, there are consequences and that's my conventional reality. So if we really want to address reality as it is in totality, we have to have wisdom and compassion. We have to be able to have our head in the clouds or in the sky and our feet on the ground at the same time. One of the ways I like to think about this is that we want to be so thoroughly clear in our relationship with ourselves

that we can then get to the point of transcendence. And by clarity, I mean knowing what's there and healing what hurts and healing what's been harmed, reconciling the issues that we have within ourselves. I mean, I think compassion can do all of that. I think we are practicing self-compassion so that there's nothing unsaid within the self. That even the shadow that Young talks about, that the shadow has come into the light, that we are no longer a scary mystery to ourselves.

We've gone in and we've taken care of what's there. We've offered light and healing and love to what's there, and now we can begin to let it go. Now we can begin to have a more free and open relationship with whatever is there, with this flow of phenomena we call the self. But when the self is sticky and full of injury, I mean, it's a self. It's a self as self can be. And so self-compassion, like any other practice,

is aimed to help us get to the other shore. It's aimed to help us get to the end of suffering and aimed to help us overcome the illusion of separateness and all of the things that hold us back from being in touch with the ultimate reality. So in that case, I don't see it as a practice that is reinforcing the self, but a practice that helps us to liberate the self,

if that makes sense. It does. Let me just see if I can state it back to you briefly. This paradox, these two levels of reality, it comes up a lot on the show, and it's very easy for people to get confused. So I'll probably say something I've said here many, many times before, but I think genuinely this bears repeating.

There are two things that are true all the time. I mean, that's what you just finished explaining on the relative level, on the consensual level of reality, the day to day, you're a FOSU, I'm Dan, we have driver's licenses, we exist. It's obvious we exist. There's a mirror, we will see ourselves in that mirror. Ultimately though, on the ultimate level of reality, and I love that expression, ultimate reality, it sounds like the name of a shitty garage band that teenagers come up with after smoking weed. On the ultimate level of reality,

it's like taking a high powered microscope to the chair you're sitting in. It's like, okay, that's a chair, we can agree it's a chair, but if you take a big microscope to it, you'll see that it's mostly spinning subatomic particles. There is no essence of chair and there is no essence of a FOSU between your ears or behind your eyes, the same with Dan. And I think what you're saying is, since the relative level of our minds, the chatter that's happening all the time that we point to and call self, since it's so thorny and tangled and painful,

if we can't turn the volume down on the suffering, then it's gonna be hard to get to the ultimate level. And so this is like the Tibetan expression that I talk about all the time on the show. And I apologize, there might be a drinking game among my producers for the amount of time I bring this up. But the Tibetan expression for enlightenment is a clearing away and a bringing forth. And you can't clear away the stuff that's blocking you from enlightenment if you don't have skillful means for doing it. That's right. Skillful means for doing it. That's right.

Skillful means is what it's all about. It's not an end unto itself. None of these practices are. They are all skillful means to bring us closer to what we already are. You know, the word Sati in Pali, which is used as the word for mindfulness, but it really means to remember, to remember who you are, to remember what you are, to remember what this is. Yeah, if you're caught in the thicket of a sense of unworthiness, how are we going to get to those lofty views? Coming up, Afosu Jones-Courtais talks about how to do self-compassion both on the cushion and

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Now we've done all of the arguments and counter arguments. Let's drill down on the skillful means, like the how of this. I'll throw out some of the things that I know you recommend and you can maybe talk about them. Sure. Here are three things

that I've heard you talk about. Journaling. Yeah. Having written reminders around the house and having accountability partners. Yeah. Okay, now for everybody who's got an edge and everybody who wants to maintain that edge,

I know all those things can sound silly, they sounded silly to me, but I did them and they were so helpful. So nobody's watching you and nobody's like, well, even if they are, who gives a fuck? Like, this is for you, you know what I'm saying? So like journaling is not a practice that I do every day But when I was in the thick of it, I would sit in meditation

I'd come out and I'd write myself a very short letter just recognizing my efforts recognizing my challenges and Just offering some words of support. It would seem a little silly at first, but that by the end, it just felt so good and so cathartic. So I'm a little bit more intermittent with journaling, but my second oldest daughter has a daily journaling practice. And I've seen for her how important it is

in just processing her life and just for her to be her own witness. When I said earlier that like, only you know what it's like to be you. Journaling is a way of reflecting that truth that like, yeah, I'm the only one who really understands all of the ways in which life impacts me and what my intentions are and how I go forward.

So journaling is a really healthy feedback loop that I think is a wonderful practice. I have a little note on my bathroom mirror that says, you're doing the best you can. I remember writing it down one day, just like as an affirmation practice for another thing I was doing, but I stuck it up on the wall,

and every time I see it, I just feel better. I have another sticker on my refrigerator door that says there are so many things to be thankful for. All of these things are just ways in which we can begin to tweak the programming of our minds against the constant negativity bias and short circuit that stream. Like if I'm brushing my teeth in the morning

and just like thinking of all the stuff I have to do and how yesterday could have been better. And then I just look up and I see the words, you're doing the best you can. It pauses that stream for a moment. And it gives me an opportunity to say, yeah, you know, I am. And let me give myself some grace for that. If I'm walking downstairs towards the kitchen

and I'm feeling ungrateful or feeling entitled or feeling like things could be better, and I just see the words, there are so many things to be grateful for. It's another cause for pause. It's another, I love at the Insight Meditation Society in Berry, Massachusetts, there's a little note on the door in and out of the office.

And it says, the pause that remembers. Yeah, it's just one of those things. It just gives us a moment to pause and ask, is this really true? Do I need to stay in this state of mind? And so you mentioned journaling, you mentioned notes. What was the third thing? Accountability partner. Accountability partner. So my wife is my accountability partner. And I always ask whenever I'm offering a self-compassion workshop or class, find somebody who can be on this journey with you

and have somebody out there that you can check in with or that can check in with you and just ask every once in a while, hey, how's your self-talk going? I have a few self-compassion accountability partners. Another is my good friend, Tanzanite. Every once in a while, we'll just ask each other, how are you talking to yourself?

How's your self-compassion practice going? It does not have to be a big deal. I know those words, you know, a self-compassion accountability partner sounds like chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff of self-compassion, but what I really mean is just let somebody know that you're on this journey. They will want to be on this journey too.

You can invite someone to be like, hey, I'm on a journey to be more kind to myself. Would you like to go on this journey with me? And all it's going to require is us checking in with each other from time to time. It's not that being more compassionate to myself, would you like to go on this journey with me? And all it's going to require is us checking in with each other from time to time. It's not that being more compassionate to yourself becomes another thing that you end up shaming yourself for not doing enough for. Having somebody to check in with from time to time can really help support this practice. It goes back to the third jewel of the Buddhist Trinity, for lack of a better

word, of Buddha, Dharma and Sangha, to have community support. And so many of us, myself included, have a lone wolf attitude towards our practice. And it's really helpful to shift out of that and to just say, hey, I'd love to have some support as I'm going on this, as I'm going to embark on this journey to learn to be more kind to myself. Just to say in your defense of the imagined critics that we've conjured in our argument against during this whole podcast, there is no shortage of data to support the argument that if you want to establish a habit, having other people with whom you do the thing is very helpful and Back to journaling Ethan cross is a psychology professor at University of Michigan. I wrote a book called chatter

He's come on the show before and he's done some work that shows that when people use their own names when they're talking to themselves Yes, a fosu. I know you messed that up, but you got this or whatever that that actually Has a meaningful impact. And because we're advice giving creatures, we generally just don't take our own advice. It's called distance self-talk. That's the technical term. If you can create some distance,

you're more likely to listen to the wiser part of your mind. So those are two things I wanted to say in support of you. And then just a little question. When you talk about putting a sticker up on your mirror that says you're doing your best, for me, I have no view on whether you're doing your best. But in terms of myself, when I think about that, immediately my inner lawyer is like, really? Are you doing your best?

I don't know. I can think of a lot of things you fucked up or a time you decided to like scroll through TikTok instead of, you know, changing the kitty litter or whatever else. True. Okay so I'm thinking about you as my friend here right if you were to say to me like man I just spent all that time TikToking or whatever am I really but I'm like but you made it to the interview Dan you look good that's you know what I'm saying like you're here you're present're delivering, you're nailing it where it counts. Listen, did the kitty litter get changed at some point?

Yes, it did. We're all just doing the best we can. Now, sometimes that's not 100% true. It's okay, but most of the time it is true. I think most of us are generally doing the best that we can and that can look like so many different things. I mean, who's the judge? Yeah, so I'd have your back if you were arguing against yourself because hey here you are and you're doing the thing You're doing the thing that needs to get done. You're doing your best. I appreciate that

So let's stay on this tip of you know off the cushion self-compassion practices a couple of other things that I've heard you talk about. A running inquiry you can try to keep going in your mind is, and this is me repeating you back to you, so I don't want to pretend this is an original idea on my end. The running inquiry that you recommend to people is the simple question, what if I wasn't so hard on myself right now? Or is this really true? Yeah.

So this is where mindfulness really comes in as our supportive witness. This is an off the cushion practice that is supported directly by our on the cushion practice of being familiar with the term Panchia or thought proliferation, just the ways in which our minds can just spew thoughts or chatter or spin scenarios or engage in very, very, you know, judgmental, harsh modes of thinking and relating. Having a mindfulness practice can support being able to check in at any given moment

with what's happening with me right now, what's happening in my mind, what's happening in my body, how am I doing emotionally? When we are developing that kind of awareness, we can sense when the volume is really up on the inner critic, when the volume is really loud on the ways in which we can shame and mentally abuse ourselves. And we can then ask that inquiry, like,

do I need to be this hard on myself right now to get this done? On the flip side, would it be possible for me to do what I'm doing right now and be a little bit more kind to myself? Is it possible for me to treat myself with more grace as I move through this? I mean, if you are packing to get to the airport or trying to get out of the house to get to work and maybe you're running a little bit behind, that, the inner monologue can get pretty harsh pretty fast and having mindful awareness to notice that that's

happening and then to offer another approach like, do I need to be this hard on myself? Do I need to talk to myself like this? What if I could support myself, encourage myself in a healthier way? So just keeping that inquiry alive is super supportive. Also, in those moments where our negativity bias is really up, or if we're having anxiety about something we said or did or something that's coming up, just asking that question, is it really true? There's this wonderful children's book called Tiger Tiger, Is It True? But it's one of those children's books that's like an everybody book.

It's like when your mind is creating all of these scenarios, you can just ask yourself, is that true? And really methodically look at the way you're thinking about the thing and the reality of the thing. Or more specifically, the way you're thinking about yourself and the reality of what's true for you in the moment. I think many times, especially if that inner critic is being exceptionally loud, we will notice if we ask, is this really true that it's inflating, conflating,

deflating, it's all kinds of flatings are happening that are not consistent with reality, yeah. You're getting very close to using a naughty term there. It wasn't my intention. I'm going to give myself some grace right now and know that the truth is I wasn't trying to go there. It really says more about my mind than yours. I think we should hang out, Dan.

Yeah, I get that sense too. So let's talk about on the cushion. Everything you just listed, in my opinion, is extremely useful for free range living. But there are ways to practice self-compassion in a much more intense fashion in formal meditation practice. So could you describe how that might work? Sure, sure. Once you become familiar with the type of approaches

that you really respond to, then you'll find that you can be very creative on the cushion with how you incorporate this into your practice. I really enjoy doing a self-compassion body scan. It's really paired with a gratitude practice. So when I'm sitting, I'll move my awareness through the body in a conventional body scan way where I just notice what's happening in the head, the face, the neck, shoulders, arms, and so on. But while I'm giving attention to each region of the body, I will also offer a sense of

appreciation for each region. If we're doing like a not a super micro intensive body scan, but like larger regions. So let's just notice our head, neck and shoulders. So bringing attention to the head, the neck, and the shoulders, and just noticing what's there, and taking a moment to appreciate all that happens in this region of the body, all that happens in the head, all that happens in the neck, all that happens in the shoulders.

And on the next in-breath, collecting any tension that might be there, and as you breathe out, giving the head, neck, and shoulders permission to relax. And as you breathe in again, just acknowledging how much hard work happens here. And as you breathe out, just offering a simple thank you to this region. And you go through the entire body like this, you know, just noticing what's there, considering all the work that happens, giving those regions permission to relax and then offering a sense of gratitude or even a little thank you, a little mental thank you to all these different parts of the body.

It's a really powerful practice to just acknowledge like, oh, this whole body is doing so much and so much of it I'm not even aware of and I want to acknowledge it and offer gratitude. And in my experience, many of us are not as embodied as we could be. And one of the ways that we can learn to have a better relationship with ourselves is to be more in touch with the body. So a gratitude body scan, a self-compassion body scan is one of the practices I really love to do on my own and to share with people. Another practice is connected to the traditional loving kindness practices where we are offering words of love and words of care towards ourselves and others, taking time to stay with yourself. This is also called meta practice or loving kindness

practice etc. I know when I first started doing this practice I really hated it and I definitely skipped over offering it to myself or I would just you know go through the motions may I be well, may I be happy, may I be at ease. And so one of the ways to shortcut going through the motions is to instead of just thinking of yourself as like an abstract, like see if you can call up an image of yourself in your mind or again, to remember yourself as a small child

and to think of what that child needed at the time or to think of what the child that lives within you needs right now and offering words of kindness and reassurance to the young person within you or just to the person that you are. One of the ways that I like to do this practice is connected to the third more formal practice I'm going to share, but it's just like, how am I doing in this moment? And, you know, based on how I'm doing, what do I need? You know, what are the words that I need to hear right now? And offering them to myself. So I don't really stick with the traditional loving kindness phrases of

may I be well or may I be happy, may I be at ease. Sometimes I do, but it can be a lot more specific than that. There's a wonderful book by Lama Sultrin Alioni. I don't know if I'm saying her last name right, but it's called Feeding Your Demons. And it involves asking any sort of unresolved parts of yourself in any given moment, like what do you want right now? And then what do you need?

And so you can have that kind of inquiry with yourself, you know, as you're doing a loving kindness practice for yourself, is it a check-in and just noticing like, okay, well, are there any parts of me that really need some attention right now? And what do those parts want and what do they need? And then offering yourself those words or wishes, you know, may whatever needs are there, may they be fulfilled, you know, may I feel safe, may I be successful, or may I be able to relax in this moment, or may I move beyond fear. Any of those types of ideas and relating to oneself.

And then finally, the practice that I like to use the most is, again, to do a short mental, physical, and emotional check-in. How is my mind right now? How's my body right now? How are my emotions right now? And then just imagine that a best friend, a loved one, a puppy, a child, any person who you would immediately feel some positive regard towards, some care for.

Imagine that they're feeling exactly how you're feeling and whatever you would say to them, say to yourself. So it's an extension of the loving kindness practice. But then you can also allow your heart to go out to yourself as well. The way that your heart would go out to a friend or a loved one or a child or an animal, Allow your heart to bear witness to whatever your reality is in the moment. And you don't have to do too much. You can just bring your heart's attention to wherever it needs to go and rest with that. Those are the three. A self-compassion slash gratitude body scan, a loving kindness practice that can consider the inner child

or that can offer phrases that are really specific to whatever your situation is. And the mind, body, heart reflection that includes whatever you might say to a friend or loved one who was feeling how you're feeling and offering those same words and movements of the heart towards yourself. Those are great.

I thought of another beef with self-compassion, and this is my last one. I think some people could argue that maybe this is all a little selfish or self-indulgent, and I totally disagree with that. And you, in talking to DJ, the guy who runs the show, you quoted the Vietnamese Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh, who said, he's not with us anymore, but who has said that when we meet our suffering with loving kindness, we do so not only for ourselves, but for all beings for all time. Yeah. Yeah.

So that's a paraphrase, but that's what I've gathered from Tai, from Thich Nhat Hanh. So this reflection is super important to me, and I'm glad you brought it up. When I was talking to a senior monastic at Plum Village, and I was asking him about whether or not folks who have serious mental health challenges can achieve enlightenment, what his thought was on that. And I was asking for a friend, air quotes,

and asking for myself also, and his response was really powerful. Shout out to DJ for remembering that I brought that up, because it's an important point. And shout out to Brother Fab Lin, and everybody at Plum Village Monastery. And what he said to me in response to that question is, go big or go home.

Imagine your own particular flavor of suffering, whether it's mental health, trauma, et cetera. Think of every human being or even every living being who has experienced your flavor of suffering going all the way back to the beginning of time. And now think of every being who is experiencing a similar flavor of suffering right now on the planet Earth out of all eight billion of us or however many there are.

And then even more if you're counting other beings. And then think of all the beings that will experience a similar flavor of suffering until the end of time. How does that make you feel? And for me, I just said, you know, it makes me realize that my suffering is not as personal as I experience it to be. This is actually part of the condition of being alive

and that, you know, my suffering is not 100% my own. Suffering is a wave that moves through the lived and conditioned experience. So on the one hand, it really opens the heart past the small self and to consider that, wow, this is a part of the suffering that beings experience. So while it's visiting me, may I take care of it

so that as it continues to go along its way, it's a little more healed. When I take care of my own suffering, especially the lineage of suffering that passes through me genetically, my parents, my grandparents, all the way back to the beginning of time, when I'm healing the conditions

that create suffering within myself, I do that on behalf of my ancestors. But I also do that on behalf of my children, and I do that on behalf of my contemporaries, and I do that on behalf of all that will happen in the future. So there's a big sense of the Bodhisattva vow to heal and to help and to save all beings

that is involved in taking care of your suffering in this moment so that it doesn't just roll on in perpetuity and cause more havoc. But as it's come to visit you, if you're developing the skills of mindfulness and compassion and you can apply those to your situation in the moment, that's not selfish at all.

You are doing that as a way of healing your own legacy, your own lineage. You're doing that and you're making the world a safer and more habitable place for your contemporaries. And you are doing that to establish a safer and more healed world for those to come. Yes. I think there's just an inexorable link

between your inner weather and your outer behavior. And yes, so you are. This is not selfish. No, I want to play a bit of your music and have you talk about that. But one last question on sure self compassion. You've got kids, three kids. Am I right about that? Four, four kids.

Okay. How or can you teach self-compassion to your own children? I really, really love asking them, what would you say to a friend of yours who is feeling the same way? There's something about that inquiry that helps us to realize that we would give so much more space and grace to others than we might naturally give to ourselves even if we were experiencing the same thing. It's actually shocking how young kids begin to develop that inner critic and how quickly they begin to believe it. I've heard my own kids say,

bumping up against a challenge that they just inherently weren't good enough, that they would never figure something out, or that there was something fundamentally wrong with them. And I've heard other very young people echo those same sentiments, bumping up against challenges.

And I think the long game is really important when you are wanting to introduce ideas around mindfulness, compassion, self-compassion, etc. to young people. My root teacher, Bhante Buddha Rikita, talks about, you know, just planting Dharma seeds. And I'll say this to my son, my seven-year-old, if he's having like a real tough time with something, I'll say, hey, you know, how would you treat a friend who was going through the same thing? And he might just bark back like, I don't know.

And that's fine. I just want you to think about that. I just want you to have that in the back of your mind. You might not know what the answer is right now, but I just want that inquiry to be a part of how you move through challenges so that when the rubber really hits the road, you've got that resource in there. When we share these types of things with young people,

we have to keep the bar super low. You not expect them to be able to digest them and put them into practice immediately, but to know that you have suggested an alternate approach. And that suggestion, and if you are consistent, not in an annoying way or in a way that's, you know, you're trying to enforce a state of mind, but just suggest, hey, there's another way to think about this, you know? Because for young people, your friends are everything. So just that question, how would you treat a friend

in the same situation is a very, I think, effective entry point. So I've got two kids who are in elementary school and I got two kids in college. And watching my older kids go through the teenage years and are now in their very young adult years and are able to resource themselves. As I mentioned, my daughter journals regularly.

They see a therapist, not because they're in crisis, but just for regular mental maintenance. They have a sitting practice. They know how to practice compassion for themselves. And even when it's not immediately available, it catches them before they fall all the way. And I'm still there to annoy them with it. So yeah, I think just planting the seeds and trusting that they'll grow. Coming up, we're going to play some of Afosu's Dharma-inspired music and talk about. Have you ever felt like escaping to your own desert island?

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I'd love that. Look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself, how do you feel? All that you know is the moment. That's the only thing that's real. Look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself, how do you feel? All that you know is the moment.

That's the only thing that's real. Look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself, how do you feel? All that you know is the moment. That's the only thing that's real. Look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself how do you feel? All that you know is this moment. That's the only thing that's real. Look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself how do you feel? All that you know is this moment. It's the only thing that is real. Moments they come and these moments they go. If we come back again it's the infinite flow. But until then we still in the moment forever The past is forgotten, the future is never the present It's all that we know and can measure

Joy in the pain and the pain in the pleasure Making it better or making it worse If it's the second then make it reverse Until the day that I'm late in the hearse I'ma just be out here making it work I fell in love with cocaine as a flirt Search for the feeling, escaping the hurt Mix it with Tito's, don't mix it with Neel's

I'm wet like a fish and I'm high like the eagle Becoming the villain, supplying my ego One moment a hero, the next one I'm evil I don't know who I am, half of the time Let it all go if I block out his vine I'm sick of dealing with life as a chore Really don't wanna feel nothing no more Do it from sundown and sundown again

Racing myself for the come down again Hating myself and the come down again Wait for the party to come round again I know my teacher would be disappointed. All of the training he gave me was pointless. But even though right now I feel like I'm worthless, I'ma just look at my mind and observe it. Tell us a little bit about what we just heard.

So that was the lead single from my album in this moment, the album I released in 2021. That song was really a turning point for me in terms of creating music that was an extension of my practice, creating music that was an honest expression of my reality, that was not trying to like game the system in any way, but just to really just be as raw and as honest and as authentic as I could be as an artist. I had always thought of myself as a rapper first and my journey as a teacher was not an ambitious one.

It's something that happened. I was doing it as a community service and it just kept growing. And I had gotten to a point where I was really exhausted with my life as a musician being one way, my life as a teacher, practitioner, parent, etc. being another way. And I just wanted to put everything together and have it all be one thing. In order to do that, I needed to just be honest about where I was in my life.

And in this moment was the song that I guess it's an extension of a journaling practice because it is a song that helped me write my way out of my depression and it helped me to see how my practice even though it was imperfect has been there for me the whole time. So the last line of that verse is, even though right now I feel like I'm worthless, I'm going to just look at my mind and observe it. And the chorus says, look at yourself in this moment. Ask yourself, how do you feel?

All that you have is this moment. That's the only thing that's real. So the first verse is really me expressing the darkness that I had found myself in. But having a practice to be able to just sit and notice what is happening in this moment. And even though I feel like I'm worthless, I can still look at my mind and observe it. That whole sequence of like despair ends in a moment of practice. And from that practice, the second verse arises.

There's a point in the second verse that's really important to me. And it says, I am the child, I am the parent, I am illusion, I am awareness, I am the pain that I didn't take care of that turned into all of the things that I'm scared of. And it's just this moment of recognition. I was very impressed with myself when I wrote that, but it's also like such an important moment of recognition that I am the pain that I didn't take care of that turned into all of the things that I'm scared of. And it is that call to self-compassion.

The following lines after that line are, what do I notice is none of it lasts. Same as the lightning and thunder that crash. All of the thoughts and the feelings and fears stay for a moment and then disappear. Everything in me is naturally free. All that's required is I let it be. And so that's the other gift of practice is that our feelings and our thoughts, our emotions, they feel so intractable. But if you just watch them and see their true nature,

they pass, they come and go. And I would add that if we watch them with an attitude of kindness, then healing is possible. And so towards the end of that second verse, I am enough is the mantra repeated for all of the love and compassion that's needed. And yes, I might fall again, but then I'll rise again, sit cross-legged and close in my eyes again. So that song that we just listened to, that was really the beginning of this grand experiment

of can I make Buddhist-themed hip-hop that doesn't suck? And that is honest to my experience. That's not trying to speak from the sutras, but to speak from the heart. Final question from me, if people want to learn more about you, get your music, hear your Dharma talks, whatever, where can they do that? An easy place is to go to my website, bornimusic.com. So B-O-R-N, the letter I, the word music.com. All my stuff is there.

And another super easy place to go and you'll see pictures is my Instagram and I'm just at bornimusic, at B-O-R-N, the letter I, music. Such a pleasure to get to know you. Thanks for coming on. Yeah, for sure. Thanks so much, Dan. Dude, let's hang out. Let's do stuff. I agree.

Thanks again to Afosu Jones-Courté. We've done some really great episodes on this show about self-compassion over the last several years with leading experts like Kristin Neff and Chris Germer to check out some of our favorites. Go into the show notes and click the links. Before I go I also want to thank everybody who worked so hard on this show. Our producers are Lauren Smith and Tara Anderson and we get additional production support from Colin Lester Fleming, Isabel Hibbard, Carolyn Keenan and Wanbo Wu. Marissa Schneiderman is our

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