Tetragrammaton with Rick Rubin - 4 Readings (Patricia Sun)

Episode Date: February 23, 2024

World renowned astrologer Patricia Sun performs four readings....

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Starting point is 00:00:00 What I can do for you also is your solar return. Where were you on your birthday in June? I was in London. In London? Yeah. Would you like to know your solar return is like a chart for the year? It tells you what's coming up or what's happening. Now, if I do it for when you had your birthday in June, in this year, it'll be for this past year and the little bit that's left till next June. Or I can put it for next year starting June.
Starting point is 00:00:54 But we got enough time. November, December, January, February, March, April, May, June. We'll do it. London, right? Yeah. Aries in the first house. So you're, have energy, you're in your own body, you're owning your own self. It's really a kind of confidence actually. And you have Neptune and Pisces in the 12th house, but close. So you get a kind of deep mystical underpinning underneath it all, insights that are deeper than you normally have, or even
Starting point is 00:01:36 would think you are having sometimes. And the, you have Jupiter and Taurus, which is very earthy, a lot of good luck, a lot of good fortune, and you also have Uranus and your... This has a whole interpretation, so I'm just running through it real quick, and I'll send you that too. It has an interpretation like your chart does for your natal chart. But I just wanted to quickly sort of mention some of these things that I see. And the moon in Sag, which is a very gregarious outgoing kind of chart.
Starting point is 00:02:11 Mars in Leo, in the fifth house of Leo, you've got a lot of energy to do creative things. Cool. Yeah, you do. And to have it be successful, because it's trying the moon, it happens to be a pose Pluto But it's very wide so I don't know how much I'm going to talk about that because it's kind of why let me just
Starting point is 00:02:31 Your son is in the third house, which is house of communication. It's in Gemini I'm a Gemini. Yeah, you're a Gemini. Yeah, very natural. This should be a kind of natural good year for you I like really in a lot of ways Like being in your body comfortable, being creatively, I don't wanna say assertive, but energetic, capable. And it's in Leo, so that's nice. It bodes really well.
Starting point is 00:03:03 And it's trying your moon in sadness. So, some unusual philosophical almost inspiring and some travel. So, you were in London, so I guess that's it. But this is a house of travel. But philosophy and other cultures, so to be part of you almost unconsciously really taking in a lot of cultural philosophies, people, their attitudes. It does happen to be square very seriously and kind of deeply. And the main thing to realize about that, through whatever difficulties it may bring that seriousness and sensitivity, it's going to bring you a depth that is really valuable. You're serious, but it has a mystical connotation. It has a Pisces connotation, which is unusual Saturn. It's not serious, rules, way things supposed
Starting point is 00:04:14 to be, taking it seriously, but it's in the 12th house and it's in Pisces, Pisces house. And you have Neptune in Pisces too. So there's a spiritual, almost mystical little bit, influence. Good, your Mars is sex-tile, your sun, that's really good. I mean, the way I would make the amalgam of the whole picture is. A lot of charge, confidence, discovery, new things, looks good, figuring things out, and yet there's a touch of deep seriousness that's always actually good even though it's a little hard. It keeps anchoring you back to some other kinds of insights. Cool.
Starting point is 00:05:00 Yeah, it is cool actually. Ha! Okay, so here's your natal chart. First of all, you have a Virgo rising, so you keep track of details. You're very serious about doing things correctly. But you're a Gemini, and you've got Venus conjunct your son, which makes a beautiful aura about you. It's a very lucky thing to have Venus conjunct your son. It gives a charm, a beauty, a grace, a creativity. And you have it in the House of Philosophy also, but right close to your mid-heaven. This is a very successful career chart. It would be hard for you not to have a successful career. Mars is in the mid-heaven, in Gemini. The moon is in Gemini.
Starting point is 00:05:45 The public will appreciate it. Now, you have Mercury in Cancer, also in the Tenth House. What do you do? I make music. You make music. Do you write songs? Yeah. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:05:59 That's what I see that you can really write some phenomenal songs, actually, because you have the Mercury in cancer. So there's deep emotion there. Some of it you get from your mother. I don't know how that would mean. You also have, because you have Neptune in Aquarius in the fifth house of Creativity, and look at all these trines to this. This is very successful here.
Starting point is 00:06:26 This is your career, it's your son, your moon, your Mercury, Venus. And it's all in Gemini, which is words, words, words. A lot of communication, of ability with words. And since Venus is there, it is just music as well, just your artistic ability with music. But I would think you have a particular talent of bringing in words that are unusual or moving.
Starting point is 00:06:54 And this Neptune in Aquarius is, look at all the trines, and it's in the house of creativity. I think you would do very well focus on things that are humanely inspiring. And Neptune is the kind of mystical at Suri Paesian. And with all those trines, my goodness, I sort of almost feel like resting here because the one thing I will say in relationships,
Starting point is 00:07:27 what you want in a relationship is very deep. And you know, you're a Gemini and somebody you may be interested in may not think you're as deep as you are or how much you value their deepness. And the other thing is, you have this Jupiter-Saturn conjunct in exact, in Taurus. I have a Jupiter-Saturn conjunct in Taurus, exact, different degrees. It gives you a sense of thinking beyond duality. The ebb and flow of things is okay, doesn't polarize, and it appreciates in a loving, earthy way. This is a very unique thing, and it's very valuable,us and Aquarius, it means you may sometimes find
Starting point is 00:08:26 it unusual or hard to bring in the harmony of two really different kind of feelings inside. Don't feel bad about that. Hang out with it. Accept the one feeling this way and hear what you think about it. Look at the opposite way that seems like a different way like maybe cancels it out, doesn't cancel it out. It presents something else, presents something that will make a very unique view. And that is cool and that will build very successful. And it's a talent. You have it. It's built in.
Starting point is 00:09:05 You have it. So that's good. You do have something that is not so much difficult, but deeply unusual is you have Pluto and Sage, which is a generational thing, which means the shadows of our culture you are willing to look at in a philosophical way. The shadows of the culture, the things that you personally, our country, your family,
Starting point is 00:09:40 cultures, and other places, the things that we have unfinished shadow about. In America, having a Pluto return, it's racism and slavery. It's the racism and cruelty of stealing the land from the American Indians and demonizing them on top of it and killing them. It's about women not having the vote or having full rights.
Starting point is 00:10:08 Some of these things you write about and will write about, because look at how it's opposed this conjunction you have with Venus. It's such a lucky thing with this Venus conjunct the sun. It makes you lovable. It makes you attractive. It makes things palatable that you say or you think. The opposition is you're going to find ways, almost philosophical ways, to handle the deeper
Starting point is 00:10:38 stuff in the midst of a lighter presentation. Does that make sense? Yeah, that makes sense. So that's the main difficult aspect you have, is this one. It's not that difficult, it's just really deep. And the only other difficult aspect is this Uranus Square, Jupiter-Saturn. And again, I don't really see that as difficult as again, really deep.
Starting point is 00:11:06 This is the house of service. So being in touch with futuristic thinking, the way the high note of where things are going and servicing it, you know, protecting it, talking about it, and using the paradox beyond duality so that there can be contraction and expansion at the same time in a very earthy way, that that's not difficulty, then you transcend those squares. It's a very advantageous, beneficial, optimistic, good, lucky chart. It's good. Cool.
Starting point is 00:11:41 Yeah, it is cool, actually. Yeah, it really is. That doesn't mean you don't have to live. You don't have to overcome stuff and you have to do it. You know, there's still the doing of everything. But you'll be given the energy to do it really well, unusually too, a little bit unusual. And that's always not only popular, it usually is unusual, serves a purpose to help expand how people see and think.
Starting point is 00:12:10 So what kind of music do you write, do you think? All sorts, really. I like always start with like a guitar and me singing and I write the lyrics myself and then it can either turn into a rock song, a country song, or a weird pop song, or like a folk song in the fans where it goes. The one thing I might like to explain to you more because you're so much air and you are gemini so much,
Starting point is 00:12:34 now you have Jupiter and Saturn and Earth, fixed Earth, the Earthiest that you can get, and it's ruled by Venus, again, which is a very big asset for you, and it's in the house of philosophy, so it'll anchor you. Mercury and cancer, it's the cancer. What they say about cancer is strongly affected for good or ill by the mother. Always, the mother has a strong influence.
Starting point is 00:12:59 Now, this is not your moon sign, which is a deep psychological influence. not your moon sign, which is a deep psychological influence, this is your nervous system and your communication receptivity. So the mother will influence you on this a lot. That's neither good nor bad. Sometimes it's good, sometimes it's not good. It's not a good or bad thing. It just is a thing.
Starting point is 00:13:26 And it's in your house of career. So it might affect your career. To my mother. Your mother. Yeah. Cancer, mother. A mother figure or mother. That's the only thing that was a little bit of a mystery to me.
Starting point is 00:13:42 I didn't know what to say about it. It can be one way or it can be another way. It doesn't matter. It's that you observe it. It's also where you will be emotionally very sensitive and where you can get your feelings hurt and you can get stuck on getting your feelings hurt. And mostly in Gemini and the, you're not, you're pretty good about all that. That's not your basic style.
Starting point is 00:14:06 But this is the spot where you can. But because you have your North Node in the house of social life and everything in cancer also, I see it really just as a deep sensitivity. And a desire to be nurturing to people, actually. Cancer is a very nurturing sign. Your mercury is exactly trying my son, because my son is five degrees Pisces. Almost can feel it between us, but I almost feel like I'm being this.
Starting point is 00:14:40 You know, I'm trying to be sort of motherly, and nurture how you communicate. But I think it's just depth. It's just a sensitivity, nurturing. It lends a flavor to what your career will be like. I think it's good. Yeah, I've always wanted to be a mom. Yeah, well, you will. You definitely will.
Starting point is 00:15:03 And the one big advice about being a mother is, don't worry about it. You will have to kind of let go of taking care of anything else. It does, you know, absorb all your focus. But children just need to be felt and respected and allowed to progress as they are. So you just have to protect them. You don't have to teach them a lot, except mainly not to get hurt or something, you know? But even that's not like a don't do it.
Starting point is 00:15:35 It's, oh, you know, you could fall down here. Never say no to a child. Just say, oh, you know no to a child. Yeah. Just say, oh, you know, I don't think that'll work too well. Oh, that's not ours. We have to give it back. Something that's not no. Yeah.
Starting point is 00:15:54 No is like a slap in the face, psychically. It's very hard on children. And we get conditioned as adults to do that. Do you have any questions? That's, that's, I always ask that. Yeah, I just find it all really interesting. It's quite accurate. The whole kind of this, what was that? This one, the Pluto. Well, the one where it was, you said it was sort of like generational or like it had a lot of depth. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. I made a lot of sense to my brain. Okay, Pluto is whatever shadow we have personally and collectively that we haven't really looked
Starting point is 00:16:35 at, we're afraid of a little bit. Now you have it in search, which is pretty adventuresome and not so afraid. Yeah, no, that makes a lot of sense. Yeah. I feel like a lot of like my past life definitely drives me to do what I do. So. Which is how, what? Just like a lot of things that happen to me as a child
Starting point is 00:16:58 makes me wanna write music and makes me wanna. Like what? Like, I like grew up in the Philippines where like I had a lot of family and trauma and then I think after years of therapy and growing up and ways of dealing with it, which is music, it's definitely helped. Right, right. Well, you know, when you have that kind of thing in your childhood almost every day, something like that, it affects how you energetically
Starting point is 00:17:27 look for a mate, a partner, and it has lots of ways it can go, but it is a certain amount of compensation. So either you want somebody exactly not like that, or you pick somebody who doesn't seem to be like that, but actually are like that, or some piece of it comes through. And when that happens, you have Pisces on the house of relationship. You really want not a sorrowful relationship.
Starting point is 00:17:59 You want a deeply spiritual one. One where you, the person is kind and gentle. This is Pisces energy and that's what your seventh house is, is Pisces. That's cool because my boyfriend now, he's also a Gemini but his other, like, I think his moon and sun are in Pisces. This would be likely. Yeah, he's great. My last boyfriend, really hard one. See, you just covered what I just said. Yeah. You know, you get attracted first to the dysfunction.
Starting point is 00:18:34 Yeah. And then you get over that, seeing that it is a dysfunction, it comes from the programming. Yeah, no, totally. So anyway, Pisces is good for you. You know, that's not a hard and fast anything it what it says more is you like a relationship that's like that or it's spiritual and it's kind and it deep and yeah inspired and
Starting point is 00:18:59 Tender that's what you long for So this is good. I think we're done. Yeah, that was awesome. Interesting. You are a son and Mercury are conjunct in Torah center, conjunct my mid-heaven. So we actually have a almost, for you, a relationship. For me, it's my career for me, it's my career, what I teach, because they're in conjunction. And right now, there's a lot going on, great changes in the world, really.
Starting point is 00:19:34 Oh, so your moon is in Leo? That's very nice, creative. It's kind of terrible, but I feel like I only know about my own, about Taurus, which is like my, you know, like the main sign. Yes. Yes. The one thing about Taurus that I love so much, well, I always think of Taurus as like sweet puppy dogs. They have such a nice energy that's really wants, have good food, play, be comfortable, you know. It's very sweet. And you do have a Scorpio rising, which makes it much more intense and different.
Starting point is 00:20:11 My Taurus boys, I used to use as an example in workshops to understand Taurus. You can't push your Taurus to do anything. Push him? No, you don't want to do it. But love, they're ruled by Venus. And since I find them lovable, it's very easy for me to just then love them so I get along with them really well. But also because I have a lot of Torahs myself, I know. Oh, you have a finger
Starting point is 00:20:36 of God. I haven't seen one of these in a long time. Really? It's a certain aspect. You see, this looks like an arrowhead, this thing that's the green at the bottom and then there's this one and this one, they both have the same, they're quincunces, they're called, and they're pointing to the moon in Leo in your 10th house of career. A finger of God is Venus in your case in Pisces, is sextile Saturn in Capricorn. textile Saturn in Capricorn. This is, Capricorn, Saturn and Venus Pisces is an, I think, an extraordinarily deep combination. Two of my favorite combinations because, well, I'm a Pisces and Venus in Pisces is, it's in Leo's house too, so very creative.
Starting point is 00:21:23 What do you do? I make music. Yeah, I was going to say. You could make music. Yeah. It's in Leo's house too, so very creative. What do you do? Make music. Yeah, I was gonna say, you could make music. Yeah. That's so funny. I should have known, of course you could. Yeah, exactly.
Starting point is 00:21:34 But Venus in the fifth house, that's Leo's creative house, Venus is very loving. You could create very beautiful, delicate, sensitive music, do you? Yeah, it's intentional music, what I'm like. Oh, I love it. See? It's all pretty much about the message and delivering the message and everything is to
Starting point is 00:21:52 support it. I love it, I love it, I love it. This is very good. And it's pointing to the moon and Leo in your house of career. The moon in the 10th house often means the public. It's your own unconscious and it's Leo, so you want, unconsciously, you want to shine. You like being creative, and you like, you like the attention, you want, do it. You have a tremendous chance of success here.
Starting point is 00:22:16 Do you ever write about relationships? Not really, actually. Not really. The only reason I say that is because you have your son and Mercury in Taurus in the house of relationships, they these two the Mercury which is communication and the Sun which is basic self you know for trines to Uranus and Neptune in Capricorn you have a combination that is very fond to my heart because Pisces and Capricorn are, Capricorn is my favorite sign actually because they're earnest, they're sincere, they're very hardworking, they can
Starting point is 00:22:55 be a little dour sometimes, a little, you know, people think they're a little, but I don't because I can see underneath it. The symbol for the Capricorn is the goat climbing the mountain with sure footedness in the front part and the back part is a tail which represent like Pisces. It's the unconscious. It's the deep intuitive feeling of the ocean. So Capricorn is a very deep sign. Most people don't know that and
Starting point is 00:23:23 Capricorns that aren't nice and there are some that are really not nice, they have all been abused as children. To make a Capricorn mean, they have to be rising, so that gives you a very intense persona. And you have Pluto, which is the ruler of Scorpio, also in the first house. And it is opposed to this conjunction of Mercury and the sun. People think of an opposition, this is one thing and here's the opposite, never the two shall meet. In astrology, to get everything out of it, it's exactly the opposite. They're in opposition, but this one is handling one level of reality at this end. And it is like, look like barbells, right? Is in opposition to the sun and Mercury at the other end. Yeah, it's even more than balance, it's deeper than balance,
Starting point is 00:24:29 it's an overview, realization of information beyond what you thought each one alone could be. This is a lot, this is good, this is big. And this is sort of a sign of the times, This is what we're doing now in these days is getting this new style of thinking where it's more than win-win. Yes, more than what we knew. Yeah, it's something that incorporates things that didn't look possible, but that makes you leap up to a more profound understanding
Starting point is 00:25:01 and not only profound understanding, a revelation. That's like where I'm at right now in my life. How about that? How nice. That's very good. It's intense. You have this Scorpio rising with Pluto in your first house. It's an intense thing.
Starting point is 00:25:20 And then you have this finger of God, which is no small thing. Finger of God is like a destiny thing to do. And I have a finger of God too. But my finger of God points to Pluto. So I help people understand Pluto and know what it is. And that's my job. It's a finger of God job. I got to do it. What is your responsibility? Yeah. Your finger of God is very outproposed to what you want is success in a career that the public likes.
Starting point is 00:25:50 The moon, especially in the 10th house, often represents public acceptance and appreciation of the quality that the person has. And it happens to be in Leo, so it's sort of glamorous. It's kind of out there to do something and enjoying that. Not everybody enjoys that. And when you have something in Leo, you do. And you have Venus in Leo's house in Pisces, which is different because it's very deep
Starting point is 00:26:20 and Pisces is very ethereal, otherworldly. That's why I asked you what kind of music you write. Is there a feeling like the music is otherworldly? Yes, otherworldly. It's been a few years just. And beautiful. Yeah. Libra is beautiful.
Starting point is 00:26:36 And this is how you're going to, it's part of your finger of God. It's part of your success. Well, it's, the reason is like I see it is You know it is from studying a lot of it It's obviously studying like pet sounds and sorry to pepper and dark side of the moon Then also a lot of other stuff too and modern classical and classical and like film score and spent years kind of figuring out a Sound that would really just be the vessel to deliver like a divine message And basically I realized that through the art,
Starting point is 00:27:06 it could be our telephone, and that we could put out these messages and frequencies and things that can help heal or nourish people spiritually. The thing to know is love transforms fear. Fear cannot exist when some loving energy moves to it. And that is a very transformative power and is the sign of the times actually. I think a Martin Luther King who said,
Starting point is 00:27:39 the dark cannot take out the dark, only the light. Hate cannot take out love, only love can take out hate. And this is that thought, it's that kind of quality. Well, you got this nice, all these trines here from your son and Mercury, and Mercury is communication and words, and again, it's Torian, so you want it to be sweet, earthy, grounded, gentle, and it's trying. It gets a lot of power from Uranus and Neptune in Capricorn.
Starting point is 00:28:14 Capricorn is very hard working. Uranus is in the second house of money actually, you might be making money in a very unusually diligent, ahead of its time, intense way. And you will get a lot of support with the musicality of Torres Torres, it's very musical as well. It's ruled by Venus. Anything ruled by Venus likes the arts and music, as well as Venus itself. And since it's part of your finger of God, it's a little bit of a destiny deal, you know?
Starting point is 00:28:54 Feed the beauty of the transformation. People are starving for that, don't quite believe it, and when you put it in music and it goes through that right brain, you know, it hits people in their cells. I've been working on this thing for three years, and I'm just now finishing it up, and I'm just, it's almost there. I can't wait to hear it. It's really, it's what you're saying. I will, I would really love to. It's all messages and gems and we're using our formulas and knowledge of making songs and disguising these messages as songs.
Starting point is 00:29:33 This is good. Yeah, it's all right here. It's definitely doable. Not only doable, it's almost inevitable. When you're saying like unusual, it's basically a collective of all these musicians and vocal artists, producers, and it's like this and that, and to the completely unknown, extremely special new kids that are just as great as the people that are known as the greats. Absolutely. Well, this is a new time. This is, well, every time is a new time. But this is an extraordinary new time
Starting point is 00:30:05 where we are here to not only transcend totalitarianism and black and white thinking that's so painful and war itself, I believe. We are here to enter a new reality. I began every workshop I ever did, and I did thousands, and I went to 40 countries and I took like six seven flights a week for 15 years. Every workshop I ever did I began with, I believe we are in the midst of an evolutionary leap.
Starting point is 00:30:37 And this leap is one of consciousness, not just new ideas, though there will be, but our capacity to perceive is expanding. And this is why everybody's sort of bewildered, but riled up because the shadow is coming up in everybody's face. You know, we have to stop being crazy. We have to stop poisoning the earth. We have to stop being greedy. We have to stop poisoning the earth. We have to stop being greedy. It's so stupid. Yeah. It's like everyone's in a trance or something like that. Yes, they are. There's like a very un-realized, unawaited. Perfect.
Starting point is 00:31:19 What a good lyric. Yeah, it is. That's true. Excellent. Do you make music? I don't. I make sounds that are very healing. I knew I had a public job to help people not be afraid anymore and to heal the shadow in people and support people's capacity to love. I didn't want to get sidetracked. And I felt there was a real danger that I would. Probably not, but I did this. No, but that is, I mean, when you have a calling, you know, it's... You got to listen.
Starting point is 00:31:57 Yeah. Yeah, and mine is very strict. Yeah. Never phased, never stopped. That's what I feel. Yeah, that's good. Well, that's a finger of God does that to you. I guess so. And my finger of God points to the good of it.
Starting point is 00:32:11 It's kind of like the responsibility that comes with the realization. Yeah. Yeah, it is. It is. And it's a responsibility responsibility. You have the ability to respond to this point of purpose. And you know you have the ability to respond and you're going to do it. And it has to be done. It's like Rick's book has got such a great title where it says, you know, the creative act, a way of being. It says the whole darn thing. You have to be it. And then the creative
Starting point is 00:32:40 acts just flow all over you. Exactly, exactly. When you know what it's for and it was driven by the, by the purpose, it kind of does, it shows you. Exactly. Let me see. You have your North Node in Leo, in the house of philosophy. North Node is, this is like the tail of the dragon,
Starting point is 00:33:02 this is the head of the dragon. Tail of the dragon is what you might think, it's the tail end, it's where you've already been. Some part of you knows the philosophy of this creativity. Part of what you're pioneering now, the head of the dragon, is in Aquarius. So it's futuristic thinking. It's something unique to this very unusual time that's coming into being. I think the whole planet is going to go through
Starting point is 00:33:29 an extraordinary implosion, explosion at the same time of consciousness. Because it's catching, it'll be telepathically catching. And music and people who can generate this feeling will facilitate that. And that's why it's so valuable and so important. And why the finger of God is asking you. And why the public will like it.
Starting point is 00:33:53 Because people are starving for it, frankly. Starving. Because we live in a crazy, stupid world that's trying to go back to all the old crap. The old crap is so tiresome, doesn't work, and greedy and stupid, we don't need it anymore. We need inspiration. I see, there's like, in my head, there's almost like a storyline kind of thing that I've been writing that goes with the,
Starting point is 00:34:18 because it's an album, but it's way more than an album, so it's kind of like a philosophy to me. But it's like, I don't know, it's also a wizard of Oz. It's the, you know, the overall message is the search and the journey that we're all on. No matter where you are, no matter when you're, you know, we're all on it to find, you know, the understanding of our purpose and our peace. Exactly. And it always will be, you know, and then, you know, ideally in this lifetime, you get to that point where you find your purpose and you're exercising.
Starting point is 00:34:47 So how old are you? 33. 33. So, where's Saturn? Did you have your Saturn return already? I feel like I did. I think you are in the midst of your Saturn return. It's like, what is it from 28 to 30, I guess 33 maybe?
Starting point is 00:35:03 Saturn and 25 Capricorn. Yeah, you just had your Saturn return. Go through a big change? Absolutely. Yeah, that's it. You're on your new path. You know what it is now. And you didn't before.
Starting point is 00:35:17 I opened the same thing at mine around 32. It's unbelievable. I think your service in the music and the Venus and Pisces is very big. Well, the finger of God is very big and Saturn and Capricorn. So you've had your Saturn return, it's sextile, which is the growth relation to them. And I'm a Pisces too. So you're getting the Pisces and hit on the Capricorn. I love the combination of Pisces and Capricorn. Capricorns are very serious, diligent, earnest, hardworking. And Capricorns don't usually give themselves credit for that.
Starting point is 00:35:58 They're hard on themselves. They should try harder, they should work harder, they should have done that on time, they should get this. And why I'm good for a Capricorn is I immediately see all the beauty that they are and all the beauty that they're doing and that it's just an assist to be diligent. You know, it's nice, be diligent if you can. But you always have to surrender to the higher energy, which is spirit and flow and beauty. These are the higher energies.
Starting point is 00:36:27 And that diligence has to serve those, which means sometimes it just takes a break. Yeah, it's got to kick back. Yeah, so this is good. You're so good. This is so cool. I've never done this before. Well, you know, person's chart. Yeah, this is like alchemy. Yeah, that this before I... Yeah, well you know, person's charge... Yeah, this is like alchemy.
Starting point is 00:36:46 Yeah, that's right, that's right. And you can only get as high a reading as the person is conscious. Because some people are good sort of craftsmen, but they don't really get the magic. Yeah, you can... They got it, that's it, that's it. Okay, so let me see anything I'm missing. Oh, here's a sex tile.
Starting point is 00:37:04 Uranus is sex tile Mars. And Mars is in Pisces as well. Why did I miss that? Okay. And it's trying your Jupiter in cancer. Missed that also. First of all, you've got five trines. That's pretty darn good.
Starting point is 00:37:23 I have five squares and a few trines. Squares are hard. And through squares I learned all my unique information. Some of it took me 20 years to figure out, but that's where I got information that never was before. So it was good. The radio made you earn it. Yeah, I had to do it that way.
Starting point is 00:37:42 But I was built to do it, so it's okay. You're sort of here to deliver. You're here to deliver. And that's why these trines are really nice. But these three things in Capricorn, your Saturn return in Capricorn, Neptune in Capricorn, Uranus in Capricorn, Trine, your son and Mercury. This is a... These four trines together, they're like a dynamo,
Starting point is 00:38:13 but the earth is a trine between the earth. It's a grounding... It's more than the mystical because it's ahead of its time thought with Uranus, which is part of what you were born into, and the Neptune in Capricorn as well. That is the mystical. You know, I have Neptune and Virgo, and I always sort of laugh because Virgo is very analytical, not tremendously spiritual because it's too sort of judgmental, especially of itself, because it's trying to analyze always to be right.
Starting point is 00:38:53 The one thing Virgos always have to give up is being right. Be good, win-win, their analytical ability is awesome and it's very good. My Neptune in Virgo is I analyze psychic spiritual phenomena. And so when I read like your chart or anybody's chart, well, it doesn't hurt to see a finger of God right off, but my assistant I had when I was in LA, she used to get people coming. She had her girlfriend come.
Starting point is 00:39:27 She says, where do you see? You see this paper? You see all these lines? She can tell you your whole life. She was so cute, but she was so excited. It was like a mystery. Just look at these lines and see all this. But they are a language.
Starting point is 00:39:43 It is a language, exactly. It is a language, yeah. And these aspects are relationships, the quality and caliber of the relationships. Quinn-Kunks is a little bit difficult. Sex tiles, these green ones, they're very gross related. Like Pisces is very different from Capricorn, but how they're different is incredibly complementary. Capricorn helps Pisces pay the bills on time, which Pisces will forget they even have a bill.
Starting point is 00:40:12 But Pisces will help Capricorn soften their heart for themselves and see how wonderful they really are. Because Capricorns are a little bit too hard on themselves and so that's one thing you don't want to do and you want to access. But these are outer planets. This is futuristic information. Try in your son and Mercury. Seventh house. Are you in a relationship?
Starting point is 00:40:36 Yeah. Okay. What sign? It's a person. Virgo. Virgo? August 24th. What you want is a grounded, comfortable relationship.
Starting point is 00:40:47 Your seventh house is ruled by Taurus. Your house of relationship is the same degree as my mid-heaven, my career. And this is almost the same degree as my rising sign. So we have a strong affinity for how the energies will manifest. So do you have any other questions? Anything I could cover that I didn't? I don't know. You chart sort of does say you will earn money two ways. Jupiter in the eighth house is almost from other places in strange ways. But you have Uranus in Taurus's house, which is the house of money and possessions,
Starting point is 00:41:38 and you have Uranus in Capricorn, which is futuristic thinking, very earnestly pursued. And I would say that's how you're going to earn money. I have my Neptune in Virgo. I which is futuristic thinking, very earnestly pursued. And I would say that's how you're going to earn money. I have my Neptune in Virgo. I earn it by analyzing. It's just interesting how that works. My analyzing, I'm super very analytical, and that's where a lot of my logic and things come from and that's why like even making you know doing the thing that I feel is like my calling like my God's finger you know it's really you know it's like the awareness of like how do you say in puts thing out that's very positive without it coming across as preachy or
Starting point is 00:42:21 even corny yeah because also sometimes if you're not in a great feeling mood or something and someone says, it's gonna be fine. You're like, shut up. You know, and it has to be like, you know, almost like inception way, you know. Well, there's something in sincere. There's something in sincere about that when it's glib like that.
Starting point is 00:42:41 So, and the person doesn't really know what it is and they may be trying, but they don't really get it. When you get these sort of things that cover a couple of things all at once and say something, that's when it rings true, if it is true. Yeah. And that's when it's unique and it's artistic and it's nice. I like that.
Starting point is 00:43:06 I think I could be more of a better lyricist. I hear music in my head, but I don't know how to get it out. You should definitely write it down, even if it's just like on notes or something like that, a cool phrasing of words. You know, there'll be, that'll be the... I only have about 5,000 pages. See, let me show you this. What is this? What are words that you write down in there? Cool phrases?
Starting point is 00:43:28 Well, you know, I used to have flyers that I sent out, you know, during those years that I did workshops. And they always had a picture and a quote. So here's one. In the receptive soul, you know, opens with love to the living world, we will be home. That's beautiful. See, all of these things are like the messages. And what I've been doing is like translating or transcribing them and almost like using all the formless from all the stuff I've ever done. And with the other people that have also done stuff too, they're like architected, you know, kind of almost sound as we know it,
Starting point is 00:44:07 be like Rick, you know, and to disarm, you know, someone into just like, wow, this is beautiful, but they're also taking in, you know, a really, and some of the messages are so simple. It's like, you're right where you belong, everywhere you go, keep following the stepping stones. You know?
Starting point is 00:44:25 Yep. And I keep getting the message, I'm going to have a new career. I'm going to do something completely different. And I can just be wild as to what it could be. This is the Uranus return. You know, something inexplicably different, but it will facilitate my purpose. Yeah. So maybe this is it.
Starting point is 00:44:44 Yeah. First time it ever occurs to me. Is this something that I could take with? Or do you have extra? Yeah, yeah, these, yeah. Is that, I think that... It's like, everything you're saying is that's what it is. You know what I mean? It's like, how to broadcast and amplify those messages out.
Starting point is 00:45:01 Yeah. You know? Yeah, yeah. And that's really what I've been feeling like is my purpose and I've been giving it everything. You know? Yes, yes. And it's like after doing that too, it's hard to even look at making music the same way as like how a lot of my friends look at it, you know, which is interesting.
Starting point is 00:45:22 One thing that I learned from Rick, we were actually sitting right here and we were listening to something and he said, you know, which is interesting. One thing that I learned from Rick, we were actually sitting right here, and we were listening to something, and he said, you know, it's funny. Sometimes the intention that you put into the music can tell the story more than even the lyrics itself. Absolutely. And I was like, whoa. And then what he said actually blossomed over time for me,
Starting point is 00:45:41 and I realized that at some point I actually started hearing why people were making the music. If someone's playing me something, I can hear why they were making it louder than the song. I'm like, oh, you're chasing something. It's not actually even about the music. It's, you know, and then you hear, oh, it's like... Well, that's all the Pisces, it's Venus and Pisces. That's it.
Starting point is 00:46:03 You get that. You tune into that. And especially the beautiful and the music. As a planet, represents music and beauty. Yeah, that's beautiful. And I think using the, or utilizing the music as a telephone, as a communication tool. Oh yeah.
Starting point is 00:46:23 We're somehow like a lot of the art, or like the music that's made now, especially when this labels and like you're just trying to manufacture and just trying out stuff. You know what I mean? It's like fast food. That is lost, which is kind of crazy and it's almost like the most of the stuff that's written is like the national tendency is to lean into this is my diary. Which is kind of it. That's what feels right.
Starting point is 00:46:47 You know what I mean? This is my expression. And then I feel like certain artists when they have the revelation and they almost like rise into one of their full purposes or something and they realize like I have a super voice in which when I speak 100 million people are listening or 500 million people. And so if I could speak to 500 million people at once, but like when you look at like Balmali he realized it. Because when I realized that and I looked at some of the greatest stuff of all time I'm
Starting point is 00:47:14 like they realized it. They realized it's a telephone and he said don't worry be happy. You know in John Lennon said imagine a world where you know and it's a conversation with the listener. It was they were tuning in and they were in it. It's a great time to be alive, very interesting. And I would say take all the risks, smile, things you never thought will click, will take off like rockets and things you think are precious and should be recognized, may
Starting point is 00:47:41 not be. So don't worry about it. Just do it and see what you get. Don't worry about it. That's the biggest thing. And that's the main thing that Capricorn does. It worries so hard. You don't have to try. That's the other wonderful thing.
Starting point is 00:47:57 There's no trying at all. Yeah. I think the biggest problem for us these days is letting everything, letting it be. Keep thinking we have to try harder or do it better. Especially women, they get very in their head about how they're supposed to look or how it's supposed to be. Yeah, especially with the internet and the social media.
Starting point is 00:48:19 Oh God, so much gulony. It's like, I think the phones are like black holes kind of. And it's like, I get to see when, you know, someone's in a conversation. And then when they go into their phone, they go somewhere else. You know what I mean? They're at least 50% here now, whereas they were 100% before.
Starting point is 00:48:38 You know what I mean? It's kind of. It's too much. Yeah, it's a lot. Too much. But it's OK. Everything's moving quite fast. Me much. Yeah, it's a lot. Too much. But it's okay. Everything's moving quite fast.
Starting point is 00:48:46 Me challenges and I was one of the other things in like the stepping stones like message is everywhere I've been to help me find that it is all part of the design. What I meant by that when I wrote that part is just that it's like the sacred geometry or something. It's just there's a structure that exists in nature, you know. Without a doubt. And that this is all part of it. So I know that it's like. Absolutely.
Starting point is 00:49:14 You know, and then, yeah, ideally in this lifetime you get to the point where you realize all the. I said under estimation of the truth of it, but very few people really realize how true that is. Very true. I see it. Yeah, you're right. really realize how true that is. Very true. I see it. Yeah, you're right. You know. That's something to write about. Yeah, well that's that song, Stepping Stones. It's kind of that everything is all for a reason for the greater, you know, just it's all part of the design. It's the structure. It's like a
Starting point is 00:49:38 the veins in a leaf or something. I look forward to it. I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful for that experience. My pleasure, my pleasure. How would you like me to do this? Would you like me to just talk about your chart, or would you like to ask me something? If you ask me something, I'll start talking about your chart anyway. I know, I don't really have any questions,
Starting point is 00:50:03 but I would love to just... Just hear what's here. Sure. Whatever you'd like to share with me, I'm completely open. Okay, okay, okay. Set as a protective conservative scorpion. You know, right? I'm like, well, no, it's like, okay, so I know a lot about my child.
Starting point is 00:50:21 Excellent. And I know a lot about cardiology. And then I know a lot about, like, my personal. Excellent. And I know a lot about cartology. And then I know a lot about my personal cartology. And then I'm initiated into a few spiritual practices. So we'll have like, like regla de hocha and like bala mayombe and like, you know, like African traditional spiritual practices and Orisha practices.
Starting point is 00:50:43 Well, you know, when it comes to things like practices or even things like that you believe that help you, you know, they are very personal. And the ones that work work. Yeah. The ones that don't don't bother with. Yeah. Because they are a choice. Now, sometimes something sounds good
Starting point is 00:51:10 and maybe is good for other people, but isn't really delivering quite what you want. So don't worry about that. Don't think you're doing anything wrong. The thing about Scorpios, they try so hard. They're looking for the thing that will really work. They try so hard. They're looking for the thing that will really work. And this Venus and Capricorn, and you have a Saturn and Capricorn, you're serious.
Starting point is 00:51:35 You want these things to be practically useful. Oh, I don't even dabble in anything spiritual unless it's quantifiably proven to work for me. For you. For you. Because I'm very logical. Like, not even when it comes to magic, I'm just very like, I need to see it. Like I need to see it, feel it, touch it, to understand it.
Starting point is 00:51:55 And you know what? To believe. I'm that way too. I agree with that. Yeah, I had to like physically get possessed before I believed in that realm. One of the things that I think is important is that we are living in a time where tremendous change in the way we think is occurring. And a lot of it is an influence, I almost want to say, from Heaven.
Starting point is 00:52:21 It's from the universe. And astrology is a kind of message from the universe. It shows patterns, it shows energy, and people who can read it get a lot of information. So what's your main goal? What do you want most in life? What are you trying for that you would have all this stuff serve? I don't know. It doesn't have to be reasonable either. It doesn't have to be like a career. It could be a career, but it's just like what do you wish was clearer to you, easier for you? What do you wish you could accomplish? I want to have, I want to be a good mother at some point and I would like to have-
Starting point is 00:53:05 Are you a mother? No. No, but when you are. But I want to, and I want to have better partnerships with others and like better understanding of myself. I want to be calmer. I want to be like slower to anger. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Starting point is 00:53:22 I want to be like- I can't tell you how many times I hear that very same request. I'm screaming. You're not alone in that one. I want to be a better person. Yeah. No, but really I definitely just want to learn how to regulate my own nervous system so that like the chaos of life doesn't like
Starting point is 00:53:42 unground me with such ease or like uproot me every second. But I'm getting better, but I'd like to be better. Yeah. Sturdier, stiller. It's a funny thing that I want to say to you is, if you didn't care so much, it'd be easier. I know. Part of the problem is that you add an,
Starting point is 00:54:01 add an ingredient of trying too hard. You don't realize you are already a good person. When it comes to being a mother, the whole secret is handling it moment by moment with great attunement and receptivity and caring for the child. That's all. That's all it takes. I say all because we all have programming that derails us from doing things like that Yeah, we do and what you want to do is have friends or somebody you can confide in Whenever you feel derailed from being able to actually deliver to your child. I realize you don't have one yet, but
Starting point is 00:54:39 Don't worry about it now Because the child will tell you what it needs. Your heart will tell you what the child in your arms that came out of your body is telling you it needs. So a lot of the things you're worrying about now are kind of like programmed worries. You know what I mean? They're not really real because that's not what's gonna be. That's not what the issue is going to be. Yeah. And
Starting point is 00:55:10 you are much more capable of handling all these issues than you think you are. You just have a kind of expectation, a belief about how it ought to be, and if you were really good it would be like this. And if you were really doing it right, this would happen. But that's not how it is. That's not reality. And as long as you keep holding on to that, you'll just keep being there, because that isn't it.
Starting point is 00:55:40 It's actually kind of fun how the universe works. It's kind of exciting. And when a Scorpio starts to get this, because you know, they're so intense. I know. Yeah, my dear friends at Scorpio, and I through many years. And as many times as I told her,
Starting point is 00:55:59 I mean, she's really a wonderful person. She tries very, famous actress, treats everybody with kindness, doesn't have any premedata things. She's generous to almost a fault with people when she was wealthy especially. But she's still worried she's not doing it right. And I said, the only thing you're not doing right is you're worrying that you're not doing it right. That's the only thing Because you have all of it already in you You know when I get these kind of thoughts I think of You as a little girl. I always think of people's inner child who's very innocent
Starting point is 00:56:40 Very sweet very good And when they think they've done something wrong, you know how they get, like little kids get all like this. What would you as a good mother to yourself, or the good father to yourself, what would you say to that little girl that thinks she's doing it all wrong? Nobody's doing it, right?
Starting point is 00:57:03 They're just doing it. They're just doing it, yeah. Let's say, why can't you just do it? You just do it too. We all's doing it right they're just doing it they're just doing it. Yeah, why can't you just do it? We are just doing it. We just trying we're making it up You already the thing that you're trying to get in touch with is the deep inner part of you That is insecure. Yeah, how well and how good you are. Yeah, that's it That's the whole deal. That is the deal. And nobody can actually give you that but you.
Starting point is 00:57:31 And that's why I use the image of being your own good mother who totally unconditionally loves this little girl, thinks she won't do it right, thinks something bad could happen because she doesn't know. And you have to be the mother. The wise part of yourself. And you have it, it's your own higher self. You have to say to yourself,
Starting point is 00:57:51 almost like embrace yourself with your arms and hold yourself, and tell yourself, you know, sounds so corny, but tell yourself how beautiful you are because you care. Not because you are beautiful. I mean, that goes without saying. Thank you. But without that, I'm not even talking about that kind of beauty. You got that already. I'm talking about the kind of beauty that is lovable.
Starting point is 00:58:12 Yeah. That is real. That is earnest. That wants it to be good. It wants to heal things. It wants to make it better. good, wants to heal things, wants to make it better. You know, the biggest problem with Scorpios, see Scorpios ruled by sex, death, money and power. These are the big issues. No, they're not terrible. These are the issues that humanity gives us.
Starting point is 00:58:38 The transcendent energy of a Scorpio is like a butterfly where you have to let your guts turn to soup Nothing you can do about it. Yeah, let your guts turn to soup love yourself while you're doing it Put yourself in the safe place as you can and before you know it the crystals is gonna open and you're gonna fly away a butterfly Yeah, in other words everything you wish to have happen is going to happen by itself. You really can't make it happen. Scorpio's power is the big issue for Scorpio's. They want to understand power, they want to have it, they want to understand it in sex, they want to understand it in death, they want to understand it in money. Truth is, there's nothing to do about it except one step at a time, do the best you can.
Starting point is 00:59:27 Then you'll be exercising the best power because it will be innocent, compassionate, and loving for yourself as much as anybody else. But greatest power is not needing to control anything because you're willing to accept the universe where it's coming. And it's like make lemonade out of lemons. Whatever it sends you, you're going to like it because it's going to accept the universe when it's coming. And it's like make lemonade out of lemons. Whatever it sends you, you're gonna like it because it's gonna give you something you didn't know you could do with it.
Starting point is 00:59:51 This is the secret of power. It's not like, oh, I have this power and I can do this. That's a big old fake idea of old style thinking. We're moving to a new style thinking where you're just being it. You're gonna be it because you just care. Frankly, that's what makes good power when you actually care for somebody else and yourself as well, equally. So you have empathy. And when it comes to sex, the greatest sex comes about through
Starting point is 01:00:22 surrender, mutual surrender. And sometimes it's like a dance. That's what the tantric thing is. It's a dance between surrender and experiencing. Surrender. Oh, and it was okay. And experiencing it. It's not about doing the right thing.
Starting point is 01:00:48 There's no recipe. You don't have to look up anything. You nobody has to tell you, oh, you'll be the sexiest person in the world. You do this. Anybody tells you that stuff. They don't know what they're talking about. They're trying to entice you to get control over you.
Starting point is 01:01:02 Because good sex is innocent. It surrenders. It can be super passionate or tender sweet. It does not matter. It's moment by moment feeling the other person and letting yourself be felt. It's surrender, surrender and surrender again. And it comes up moment by moment. You know, you surrender and then you don't. And then you so relax and you notice what's happening. You're compassionate to the other person, you're compassionate to yourself. These are the gateways to let it happen. It happens.
Starting point is 01:01:40 Good sex happens. Yeah. You know? So sex, death, death, well, don't worry about death. You've got a long way to go about death. But we're all going to die. We all die at the time our higher self has chosen to die. I don't perceive you having that anytime soon.
Starting point is 01:01:59 So you really don't have to worry too much about it. The main concern you might have is someone in your life might die. And if someone in your life might die, you have to give them the entitlement to leave when they decide to leave. It's not your choice. And the best thing to do with anybody who is either dying or has died is to send them so much love and gratitude that you've known them. Because that's the purest gift for them to make the transition. To go to the next place. Because there is a transition. Just going to the next place.
Starting point is 01:02:33 Yeah. And when people around you are relaxed and love you, you get there easier. It's very powerful actually. But something I don't think you're really going to have to worry about too soon. But just in case, I think that's the thing to remember. There's no loss in death. There's only more.
Starting point is 01:02:52 You get more. And it's the nature of life. It comes and goes. That's the way it is. So sex, death, money, money. Okay, money. I know. Money is not as big of a concept.
Starting point is 01:03:07 It's a big issue or it's not? No, it's not an issue. Well, good on you, you're one up on me. Yeah. Mostly I don't have money because I keep giving it away. Oh yeah, I'm good for that too. Yeah, yeah. So anyway, that's okay.
Starting point is 01:03:20 That's okay. So money anyway, you know how the old saying is, money's root of all evil? No, no, no, no. Loving money over loving people and life is the root of all evil. And if you really get that, money will ebb and flow as you need it when you need it. So we hit most of the Scorpio things. I think the thing that's most, besides maybe the sex a little bit, but the transformation like the caterpillar,
Starting point is 01:03:52 letting your guts turn to soup, because when you trust life, you've got a healthy body, when you use it and you like it and you take good care of it, you are feeding the butterfly. And that's all you have to do. Don't violate your body, don't hurt your body, don't think of your body as something
Starting point is 01:04:17 separate, it's you and it's a treasure. And you're lucky you have such a nice one. Not everybody has a nice one. They have other problems. So being grateful. You know, it's like being grateful of your body is like a joy of being alive. Just remind yourself of these things.
Starting point is 01:04:38 You know, there was a famous, the most famous American psychologist in the 1800s was William James, and he said that the discovery of, the great discovery of this time, which it really wasn't because it was discovered before them too, but is that you have a generation that knows it has the power to choose its own attitudes. You have the power to choose your attitude on anything and anyone, and most particularly on yourself. And I want to tell you this thing that happened to me.
Starting point is 01:05:18 I don't know if it will be helpful or not, I hope so. I had wounds from my childhood. And this is when I was opening and I kept thinking, okay, I keep feeling this grief inside. I must have done something wrong. I just feel so bad. Why? I'm worried about this all the time. And so I was doing this deep meditation and I went so deep. was doing this deep meditation. And I went so deep, I went into this like black hole. And I said, there must be something there that I don't know. And this booming voice came out of the black hole
Starting point is 01:05:59 and said, there's nothing there. No. So what I was worrying about was superficial stories about life, about my childhood, things, expectations as a psychologist that there must be secret things that I haven't faith. And when I realized there was nothing there, I just burst out laughing. And I realized there's nothing there. And this is the big revelation for you and I can tell by the way you're taking it, you don't believe it yet. But when you believe it, when you feel it and you can cultivate remembering it, because your soul knows there's nothing there, you're good, you're a good person.
Starting point is 01:06:42 And even when you're not good, you're good, because you have to make mistakes. And everybody has to make mistakes, and that's how you learn from mistakes. What you have to know is when you make a mistake, you see it and you're not afraid to look at it. If you're going to be judgmental about it, if you're going to be hard on yourself or somebody else, you're not going to be able to look at it properly. Just see it really for what it is. A mistake you actually made. Be kind to you. That's the main thing I it, why it is. A mistake you actually made.
Starting point is 01:07:05 Be kind to you. That's the main thing I want to keep telling you. And it's not enough for me to tell you. I can keep feeling it. It's not enough. I got to find another way to make you feel it. No, it's something I'm actively working on. Yeah, yeah.
Starting point is 01:07:18 You are. You are. I love that it's like a don't worry. It's like a thing that I have to like really work on. I'm tough on me for sure. All right, one thing that might help is reality is transformed, including this concern. Increment by increment, moment by moment, realization by realization.
Starting point is 01:07:50 So all I see is you as a little girl laughing, laughing and laughing that you thought it was so serious. That was why I told you the story, there's nothing there. Because there's nothing there, you don't know there's nothing there. You're still suspicious there's nothing there. Cause there's nothing there. You don't know there's nothing there. You're still suspicious there's something there. And I had an experience which told me because I went to the depth of, I said, listen, I wanna know what's there.
Starting point is 01:08:13 When I was doing this thing, and I wanna know what's there. I don't care if I drop dead. I'm willing. Whatever it is, I wanna know what's there. And because I was so willing. And I was like this, waiting to hear what was this going to be. I got, there's nothing there. When you come, I feel like when you come to the ether with earnestness, it will always answer you.
Starting point is 01:08:42 It does, it does. And that's your higher self and God itself. It's just a dimension that we have access to that we've been conditioned to think we don't. Yep. But we do. And the more you use it, the more you have it. And it has access to F too. Absolutely.
Starting point is 01:09:00 100% we get to tell you nothing about that. 100% it has access to us. I know, you might as well strap up. That's right. And you know why it already loves us. Not all of it. There's some nefarious energies out here. Those energies are shadows of yourself and the culture around you. They are not heaven.
Starting point is 01:09:22 No, they're definitely not heaven. No. God and the energy, that higher self-energy, it always loves you. It never, ever doesn't. No, I know that's true. And shadow energies, you know, demoning the kind of things, those are fears projected into a form. Those, and Scorpion is good at doing that because they have very good imagination and they can tune into other people's fears.
Starting point is 01:09:47 I can remember one time I was doing a private consultation and this is when I was doing family counseling with a Filipino woman. And I realized that her culture had given her demons. I didn't know anything about. I couldn't even make sense of it. I couldn't sort of process it. And all I could say was there is, you know, some of those things are old.
Starting point is 01:10:14 Let them go. They don't need to be here. In this life, in this now, you have dominion over this piece of the planet you're sitting in. You have it over anybody else, over anything else, and your higher self resides in every cell of your body, if you will let it speak to you at all times. This I know is the fact, and this is how you can heal yourself of almost anything, but you have to do it, you have to surrender to the feeling of it. Yeah, and Surrendering is hard. Yeah, it is it is hard
Starting point is 01:10:52 It is and and you have to get like I got with that thing, you know, I said, you know, I'm so tired being Harassed by the sphere and this worry. What do I need to see that? I'm not seeing And the guy that was with me who I was doing this with, he got freaked out because I started laughing. I was laughing and I thought, this is the cosmic joke. There's nothing there. You know? But you have to live through that to know it's true.
Starting point is 01:11:21 It helps if I tell you the truth of it because I can relive it and remember it and feel it and you can feel me feeling it Yeah, and so that does help. Yeah, but ultimately it's yours You know you will and it will grow on you. It will get easier Because you want it see the only thing that makes you believe in your shadow about yourself Is there's things you don't want to let go of that you don't want to admit you don't want to let go of. Yep. I want to be really nice and good and everything, but I want to hold onto this piece.
Starting point is 01:11:51 I want to have power over this piece. I want to have dominion here. And when you do that, you're not owning the truth of your power and who you are. Very good. And it's a typical Scorpio thing to do, by the way. They get hung up on it a lot. Do you know Scorpios will be the most powerful healers in the world? I believe that.
Starting point is 01:12:10 If they would just let go and not care about all this other stuff. Just be good for its own sake, tell the truth as best they can whenever they can, and be kind. Nothing else to do. And take life as an adventure, see what comes up next. Somebody hands you a bunch of crabs and says, gee, that doesn't smell very good. I don't think I want it.
Starting point is 01:12:28 That's all. You don't have to get mad. You don't have to smack them in the face. You don't have to get them back at them. You don't have to remember forever so they pay. No, no, that's all Scorpio. I'm so much better at letting go of revenge. I remember I have a Pisces Moon.
Starting point is 01:12:43 Yes. Prasarizing, so I'm a little less. You said the right words. That's right. I'm a little less gung-ho on the Avengers. Yeah, and you know what else? You have Venus and Capricorn, right? Where are you here? Thank you. You have Venus and Capricorn. I sure do.
Starting point is 01:12:58 So you're very serious about when you love. Oh, yeah. Very serious about it. Hardcore. Sometimes a little hard on yourself and not enough joy in there because you're too hard on yourself. Yeah. And maybe even on the person who you're loving, you may be a little judgmental with them. And the Pisces Moon will help you a lot, just laugh and, and, and, you know, Jupiter in cancer is tremendously sensitive. You don't want to get your feelings hurt so much. I'll
Starting point is 01:13:27 tell you a secret since you know about astrology a lot. Okay. Every sign and every planet has a high note and a low note. Yes. And whenever you feel a little stuck on anything or you're looking a little negatively at anything in your chart or anybody else. Okay. You start to say, okay, how is the low note the one that's being practiced? And the antidote will be the high note. You don't have to give up being sensitive like a cancer, you just have to find the high note. Cancer tends to want people to emotionally agree with them to validate that it's true.
Starting point is 01:14:07 You really don't need that. What's beautiful about cancer is how they nurture people. And you've got Jupiter in cancer. When you love somebody, when you want to take care of them or nurture them and when you want to be a good mother, you will. And you've got also the Venus and Capricorn to make it serious, you will actually do it. Got a lot of Capricorn.
Starting point is 01:14:30 I do. Capricorn's actually my favorite sign, actually. I like them the best. Mine too. Pisces and Capricorn are my favorite. And you know why? Because they're earnest. Pisces is sincere and soft and sweet.
Starting point is 01:14:43 Yeah, so sincere. I love Pisces and sweet. Yeah, so sincere. I love Pisces for that. Yeah, me too. The earnestness is like you can't beat it. And the Capricorn is just so loyal. They're earnest. They mean what they say. They don't really try to fool you ever.
Starting point is 01:14:55 Man. They care about it. They really care about it working out. And this is why I say when I look at you and I felt your energy, I could already tell all that. I could feel that. That's why when I get the Scorpio song and dance, there's really a mysterious secret demon inside me.
Starting point is 01:15:11 I got to be careful about. I'm sorry. It's going to come out. I don't believe it. I don't buy it. I don't believe it. And it's not there. Except when you put it there because you believe it.
Starting point is 01:15:22 Don't believe it. Sometimes I can get really angry. Okay. The Scorpio can be very angry. Even Capricorn can be very angry when it feels that what is sensible and good is being betrayed. They don't like that. They don't have a lot of tolerance for that. Yeah. And the cutting off of people is very... I love tourists too. I do too. I love tourists.
Starting point is 01:15:46 They're my top three. Pisces, I mean, yeah, Pisces, Capricorn and tourists. Yeah. Well, I, a tourist is funny for me because my mother's a tourist, her sister's a tourist, my grandmother was a tourist, and two of my children are tourists, and I have three planets in tourists. Wow.
Starting point is 01:16:01 So I know tourists. Yeah. And when my boys were little, two of them were Tauruses, if I would come into the room, they maybe took out all the toys and it's a big mess, and I would say, wow. You guys been having a good time. Look at all the things you took out. Would you help mommy now and put them back so we can find them the next time you want them?
Starting point is 01:16:22 They say, okay, mommy. Aw. But if I said, which I knew never to say, but if I would say something like, this room's a mess, I want you to clean it up right away. These little Taurus ones would grow roots to China, they would not budge, they will not do a thing I ask. Oh, that bull is real.
Starting point is 01:16:39 Will not work. It's real, yeah. Taurus, you appeal to with love. It's ruled by Venus. And it's a great thing to know almost about everybody. Some people will betray that. Taurus never will. I love it.
Starting point is 01:16:53 Yeah, it's nice. You're doing really good. I don't feel, you know, when somebody's earnest like you are and it's kind of open-ended, I will look for, what can I tell you, what can I warn you, what can I, what can I give you that, you know, would help you out. Bring it. And I already did, I gave it to you.
Starting point is 01:17:12 Don't worry so much, trust yourself, you're beautiful. Thank you. And don't be jealous, because you're great. The good person thing, and the jealousy thing is literally, the good person part is my biggest thing right now. That's good. I can't believe, I'm glad that you went over that. Yeah, because that's, yeah.
Starting point is 01:17:31 I really do worry that I'm a bad person. You know what that means? It means you're up to change it. You're up for it. I am. It's in the ether. You're up to change it. I wanna be.
Starting point is 01:17:40 And it can't be up to change something unless you're sitting in it. Yeah. You know, it's like, you can't change the diaper when it's dirty unless you can smell it and you know something's wrong. Yeah. So that's okay. That's not bad.
Starting point is 01:17:51 Yeah. Psychically, you're looking at places where you are hard on yourself, where you have conditioning from your, not only your culture, but you got it. It's in our DNA from hundreds of generations. It's in our culture. It's in our own personal family. There is so much we take on to transform. And the good thing is God built us to transform stuff.
Starting point is 01:18:17 And so to be aware of it isn't too bad. I would say for you, it's that almost for final annihilation because you just, you don't want it. It's not who you are. And if you forget it once in a while, the antidote is kindness to yourself. Compassion for the fact that you're buying into something that's harsh and not true. But like you said, it's up for you now. As a Scorpio who takes that stuff way too seriously and gets often stuck in it, accentuate your capacity to be a healer.
Starting point is 01:18:57 Accentuate that jealousy is a denial of your own beauty and it's not true and you don't want it. I just go, pfft. I agree with that. You know, just that, just give it a raspberry, you know? Just no. And- I love raspberries. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:19:15 I don't have any matter. I don't have any matter. You would? I'm patient with them. Yeah, yeah, it's true. There's other things coming up and they're not all hero and I'm trying to find them, but they're funny. They make me smile.
Starting point is 01:19:30 It's easier than you think. That's the other thing. You've made it way too hard. I've had it? Yeah. I believe that. You believe it's hard. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:19:41 Because look, the world's a mess, right? People are jealous, right? People are doing mean things, right? So it's easy to kind of confirm that drama, but the truth is we are in a moment of profound transformation and your ability, and you're a transformer. You came here to be a transformer. So your ability to transform is right in your own hands. And that's why I'm trying to make light of all the stuff
Starting point is 01:20:05 because you got it. And it is light too, it's light. It's almost like a sphere of light. Feel this energy. You're not gonna touch you, just feel it. Oh, I feel it. There you go, that's it, that's it. Okay, there, it's getting stronger.
Starting point is 01:20:21 That energy is always yours. You can always heal yourself. You can always transform anything with it. Is this your energy? Well, I'm telling Heaven and the Energy. It's Heaven's energy. Okay. And we all have it.
Starting point is 01:20:38 I'm just a good sender. That's cool. Because I like it. That's cool. Because I like it. That's cool. I like, I'm good at receiving like a, like I catch messages and things and send like colors and energy, but I can't always go on command. But when I, it's in my heart. Yeah. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:20:58 Like, you know when I say we yell to the ether with earnestness, it talks back to you. Yeah. Every time I've ever come to the ether to move something through me, it has. Excellent. Excellent. But I have to really mean it. You have to mean it. Well, otherwise we're doing the dance. We're doing the appearance thing, which is old style thinking. That's what the world's dancing to. And it's useless. It's useless.
Starting point is 01:21:21 It just weighs time and hurts us. Being an earnest is a kind of innocent place where you really don't know what's coming next. I always like to say, be filled with expectancy but don't have any expectations. Don't have an idea of how it's supposed to be. Just expect something wonderful. Something wonderful is coming every day, all the time, in every moment. When you're sleeping, when you're awake, and it's going to happen more and more
Starting point is 01:21:51 and more and more because the world is opening. And you're going to be in the vanguard of people opening, and that's why you're going to have a place. You're going to have a place for people to catch energy from you because it is catching. And you want to be the beacon. You want to be able, you're running it for yourself, which is good, but when you run it for yourself, you're running it. When you're running it, you're sending it. When you're sending it, other people will feel it and that's the job at hand for everybody. So I also wanted to tell you, I can feel a lot of good things happening for you.
Starting point is 01:22:22 I feel like now is a deep time for cleansing and transformation for me, where I'm just really shedding old ideas about myself and trying to get into a wellness. I want to be well so badly in every way, really inner and outer. I feel like I'm inherently lazy because of my Pisces Moon. Yeah, yeah, yeah. You know why Pisces are lazy? Why?
Starting point is 01:22:46 Because they already know what God is and they have it already in them and they know that anything trying to get it is a waste of time because they already have it. Lord. You already have it. You already have it. That's it.
Starting point is 01:22:57 You're just making this. That's why I'm lazy. Yeah, that's right. You're making busy work for yourself so you won't be lazy. I'm screaming. That's so real. Yeah, that's it. So that's why I'm lazy because I had grandtrials that I was gonna be lazy because I had
Starting point is 01:23:09 too much like that made sense. You know we have to get it's not lazy it's accepting the juice of the universe that it's giving you so you can participate at a higher freer clearer level. Yeah. You know, if somebody is checking to see if the seedling is growing and you keep pulling it out to see if the roots are growing, that's what you kind of do if you keep looking for what's wrong. You keep pulling it out. Leave it alone.
Starting point is 01:23:36 It's growing crazy, growing beautiful. And every once in a while you can stop and reflect, what did I just do? How did that happen? Why did this turn out so nice? Or why did this not happen? Why didn't I get what I thought I was gonna get? And then look at it in the sense of expectancy of getting an answer, probably because something else
Starting point is 01:23:59 just came along with it that you don't want. And the universe is protecting you and giving you a break. Yeah. That's what I always find. But now I don't care. You know, when my house burned down? Mm. Oh, well.
Starting point is 01:24:15 Doesn't matter. I'll get another one. I should tell you that story. I had a premonition. I said, I'm tired of being, I didn't like fame, I was afraid of fame. I've been a hermit in my house. A beautiful dog I adored who just was a spirit of purity.
Starting point is 01:24:34 In fact, his name was Kyo in Japanese. It means pure and noble. He was a pure and noble soul. He was not a regular dog. Anyway, two weeks before this happened, I just said, God, you know, I'm tired of not moving. I'm holding back on something. Something has to happen, and I think I'm stopping it. And I got a big yes and big yellow letters. And I said, oh, so I said, so is it something I'm afraid of?
Starting point is 01:25:06 Yes. I said, okay, I'm tired of this, whatever it is I accept. I just, I'm tired of this, whatever it is I accept. Two weeks later, my house burned down. Oh my God. And I lost everything. I had about three and a half million dollars worth of antiques, I had no other money. And because they weren't insured, I lost everything I had.
Starting point is 01:25:29 No. And the insurance company roped me out. It didn't get my house fully paid for. The bank tried to steal my house. I went through about two or three years of just trying to get my equilibrium back. But I will tell you, while the flames were burning, the only thing I was concerned about was my dog. And I couldn't open any doors because it spread the fire. My house was like a five story high torch. I'm walking away.
Starting point is 01:25:58 I can't look at this. My car is exploding in the carport. I feel my dog is in the house, couldn't get him out. So I walk away. I can't bear to look at it. Two hours later I come back. My house is burnt to the ground. Only one part of the house, which is on the third level, was not burnt down.
Starting point is 01:26:22 And my son, my middle son, very psychic with animals, is trying to get a fireman to go down and look in that third room to see if the dog's down there. And the fire chief is there and he said, look, nothing can be alive in a house that had been on fire for two, three hours. Nothing can live through it. If I, Eric gets a young fireman, they go down, they remove all the debris that's in front of the door and out comes my dog. His eyes are bloodshot red from the fire. He comes walking up the hill and there's like this phalanx of all the firemen in there, black and yellow. They look like big bees coming up and he looks so little. He
Starting point is 01:27:12 wasn't that little. And the neighbor was saying, kills alive, kills alive. And before that happened when I was walking away, I looked to my right and I had all these antiques in my artwork. I sculpt and paint. I have a high criteria, sort of like Michelangelo, you know, really good stuff. My father was a great artist and everything was burnt. And I remember looking to my right and I said, oh well, things twinkle in and they twinkle out.
Starting point is 01:27:43 There's nothing you can do about it. That's the way it is in the universe. And I didn't care anymore. And then I looked to my left, and I said to, I had all my work, my writings, my computer, everything. This computer did survive. Hey. Yeah, it was a miracle, totally.
Starting point is 01:28:02 I had a lot of miracles that day. So anyway, I looked to the left and I say, Yeah, and it was a miracle, totally. I had a lot of miracles that day. So anyway, I looked to the left and I say, okay, I'll just have to rewrite it or find it another way. And then I looked it ahead and I said, but when I had said to the universe, I accept, I said, do not accept for Keel. Keel has his own life. Right. And I do not accept for Kio. Kio has his own life.
Starting point is 01:28:25 Right. And I do not accept that he died. And it looked inevitable. And then this thing, he came out. The fireman was freaked out, the fire chief. Of course he was. He thought like I was a witch or something. I don't know what he thought.
Starting point is 01:28:41 He was afraid because he's not possible. Not possible that dogs survive. And everybody who was there thought it was a miracle. And it was a miracle. He did die seven years later from the effects of the smoke. Wow, seven years is quite a long time. Yeah, quite a long time. Yeah, yeah.
Starting point is 01:28:58 So anyway, it's just one of those things. You got to trust the universe. There's another thing I can do as well as this chart and that is it's called solar return and it tells you it's another chart for the year from your birth date on June 12th of this year we've just been in to June 12th to next year. Goes from birthday to birthday and that would be the solo return for that year. Or we could skip all what we've already been through and just go June 12th next year. But probably because you've already half,
Starting point is 01:29:47 it's still halfway through. So we could do that. You wanna do that? Where were you? Yeah, for sure, let's do this one. Where were you on your birthday? I was, how am I, I think? In London.
Starting point is 01:29:59 Yeah. Okay. Well, let's see what your chart looks like. And wow, look at all those planets in your 11th house. What are you doing? What's your job right now? I'm a producer. Oh, excellent.
Starting point is 01:30:13 Okay. Well, first of all, you have a son in the 10th house, which is usually a successful person. It's the house of career. Your basic self is there. The moon, which represents the public often, as well as your own personal unconscious, it's in Gemini. They're both in Gemini. Gemini is a very communicative, likes words, likes working with words, likes words, likes working with words, likes a little bit contradictions, likes the wittiness of things,
Starting point is 01:30:49 and can be quite brilliant sometimes with their capacity to use words. I always like to say the worst example of a chimini is Trump. One of the best examples using presidents is John F. Kennedy, who was very eloquent, you know, spoke very beautifully. He had a liberalizing, Trump has a liberalizing, he's all ego, he's all won't get.
Starting point is 01:31:17 I think I have a liberalizing as well. I think I have a liberalizing. No, you don't. You have a verbalizing. Oh, really? Yeah. Wow, I thought I had a Leo Rising. Yeah, it's time is right.
Starting point is 01:31:27 That's all correct, right? Yeah, you have a Virgo Rising. Oh wow, that's awesome. And that's very serious. Virgo Risings are diligent. The main thing they have to be careful about is because they're... this is a child of a smart person.
Starting point is 01:31:42 You have a certain amount of... Anyway, Virgo likes This is a child of a smart person. You have a certain amount of... Anyway, Virgo likes to analyze everything. And the problem it gets into, every sign has a high note and a low note. You get in trouble when you're doing the low note version. When you do the high note, and you can get out of any low note version
Starting point is 01:32:01 just by moving to the high note. You don't have to change your energy at all. Your energy is your energy. Using it at the best level is the secret of success, really. And we're all in what I call old-style thinking in this world. It's judgmental, it's black and white, it's authoritarian, it's not honest. There's a lot of problems that are all part of a thinking problem, which is simplistic and judgmental. Virgos, because their key word is, I analyze. They have quick lines, analyze everything.
Starting point is 01:32:34 Every detail, they don't want to miss anything, they want to know how this worked, how that worked, what did that, you know, they want to know it all. That is brilliant if that's all they're doing. But what they get sucked into sometimes is who's right. I want to do the right thing. That's the wrong thing. You have entered a bad place. Because to use this talent well, you have to think beyond duality because you will get
Starting point is 01:33:01 caught up in self-criticism. You just get too tight into the analytical of it. And to be win-win, to see the bigger picture, is really helpful to just plain being brilliant, being useful, useful, brilliant. There's that. And then the moon and the sun, both in Gemini. Now the sun, as I said, in the 10th house is very conducive to success and career. Plus, you've got Mercury there.
Starting point is 01:33:30 Now Mercury is in cancer, and Mercury rules Gemini. So it's a very happy with Gemini energy, its communication, its mental quickness. But it's communication, it's mental quickness, but it's in cancer. So this means a strong influence of the mother, and it means on your mental style, actually. You smile, you're so cute. So anyway, so it's a strong influence of the mother on the mental style, but it's also in your 10th house. So it's going strong influence of the mother on the mental style, but it's also in your 10th house. So it's going to influence your career.
Starting point is 01:34:08 That influence will be influential. For good or ill sometimes. Like heavily related. Yeah. That's the one thing they always say about cancer. When people have a cancer moon, I say, listen, guarantee you the mother is a strong influence. For good or ill, sometimes both. You can't get away from it.
Starting point is 01:34:26 It's because it's an emotionally gripping connection. And when it's in your nervous system, your mother's fears, for instance, you're going to absorb them as a baby. So there's a very strong influence with this cancer moon thing. You don't have a cancer moon, you only have Mercury there. So it's like a, it's a particular energy filter on analyzing. It's going to have the influence of your mother. So that's, and it's in your house of career. Now the other thing about the Moon, the Moon when seen in charts, especially in the ninth or the tenth house, this is philosophy
Starting point is 01:35:05 and this is a career. When moon is in those signs, it often represents the public, the public's view of the person and yourself. So it conjuncts your mid-heaven because it's only four degrees away from your actual mid-heaven. Your son is not that close, but it is in the house of career. So this moon has a powerful influence, but it comes from the direction of a philosophy, not just an edict, but, and since this in Gemini, I don't know exactly how that's going to manifest. Jesus, do you have a finger of God too? You're the secondini. I don't know exactly how that's going to manifest. Jesus, do you have a finger of God too? You're the second person. I never see them. This is the second one. Okay, a
Starting point is 01:35:53 finger of God is an aspect that has a... It's like an arrowhead. Do you see this arrowhead? These two things are quincungs. These are the two sides of the triangle of the arrowhead. And this is the base, the star here, the green star. So your finger of God is pointing to Pluto. I have a finger of God and it also points to Pluto. It's kind of a heavy edict from the universe. You have to, in your case, you're going to use Saturn as one side of the base, and that Mercury we're just talking about as the other side. So Mercury and Saturn, judgmentalness, but in Taurus, I have Saturn and Taurus also can drunk that degree, 10 degrees, it's a finger of God. And...
Starting point is 01:36:42 Which means what? It means it's sort of like an energetic set up from your higher self to focus all the energies to make you look at this. Okay. That's the more accurate way to say it. Okay. And the Pluto... Like a focus? Like an innate purpose?
Starting point is 01:37:01 Yeah, like a purpose. Big purpose. Big purpose. Purpose not to be ignored. It's a Like a purpose. Big purpose. Big purpose. Purpose not to be ignored. It's a finger of God. You can't ignore it. And I remember when I saw those, I had to go, yeah, yeah, I do.
Starting point is 01:37:12 I have that. And to this day, I can, I know that my main purpose, which really is to heal fear and help people feel love so that we'll be healthy. That's sort of basically what it is. I still know that I have to be up for facing people's Pluto fears all the time. And you do too. And Saturn in Taurus is in the house of philosophy is to have a kind of philosophical understanding of the nature of the earth, especially a loving earth, an innocent earth,
Starting point is 01:37:47 taking it very seriously. And so it's a beautiful combination. I like my Saturn in the Taurus, and I have Jupiter conjunct it in Taurus also, so I have it coming from both ways, expansion and limitation, all. Okay, and that's directed towards the earth? Towards the earth, yeah. It's respect for the earth, love of the earth, knowledge from the earth, feeling the earth, caring about the earth, and when it's Saturn it's like a responsibility. I have Jupiter conjuncted so I have the joy of it as well. It's a kind of heavy and it's in your house of philosophy, which is also cussed by Taurus. So Taurus,
Starting point is 01:38:22 the earthiness of it, you may be a Gemini with a Gemini moon, but you have some earthy power in that Saturn in Taurus and Virgo rising. Very earthy air sign, which is a very big asset, because air signs are glib and quick and smart and bright, but earthsides are deep and solid and touch. What's physically real. So it's good. Wow. So you have your Venus in Leo in the house of Aquarius' house, friends, social associations. And that Venus in Leo is opposed Neptune in Aquarius.
Starting point is 01:39:11 Neptune in Aquarius and these two planets, that's the south node, south node is the tail of the dragon. This represents what you've already done, what you already know and understand. You've been there before, knowledge you have. Is it Aquarius? Yes, it's in Aquarius, you know this. This is the tale of the dragon.
Starting point is 01:39:28 So my mom's in Aquarius? Yeah, through that, yeah. And the head of the dragon is in Leo. That's where you're going. Creative, shining, tension, liking it in a social way, not too far off from your Venus. Good energy for being successful with people. People will like you for it.
Starting point is 01:39:53 Uranus is ahead of its time thoughts, very serious. You happen to have that Uranus square Saturn. This is the hardest thing you have in your chart, but when you have hard things in your chart, in my experience, the hardest thing is always the most fruitful thing. I have five squares in my chart. And everything hard in my chart is where I am unique. I discovered stuff that took me sometimes 20 years to figure out. But I know I'm bringing something that wasn't here before. So it's hard. But it's things that don't just come easy. What's that again?
Starting point is 01:40:28 How? And so you're what's that again here? Saturn in that comfortable Earth place, Saturn's happy in Earth, likes Taurus. And Uranus likes Aquarius, it's the ruler of Aquarius, that their square is that they're both fixed signs and they have a fixed reality. Taurus has a fixed reality of an earthiness and Aquarius has a fixed reality of an airiness of a mental version of things, not earthy. Uranus in Aquarius, which is in your natal chart. Uranus right now, being in Taurus, is trying to make a head of its time, a head of its time thought that's very
Starting point is 01:41:13 mental and bringing it into Taurus, the earth, and make it normal. That's your only square. Oh, no, it isn't. You've got another one here. Venus square Saturn. Oh, you've got two Saturn. Got a T-square, okay. So they just took it back to this one. Okay, yeah. This is kind of like... Saturn square Uranus.
Starting point is 01:41:32 Like yeah, what does it mean? Like ground, trying to ground things that aren't necessarily grounded. Well, first of all, we should notice this is in your house of Leo, creativity. So you have Neptune in Aquarius. Neptune's not particularly Neptune in Aquarius. Neptune's not particularly happy in Aquarius either because Neptune is water, mystical thought. Aquarius is mental. It loves
Starting point is 01:41:54 humanity. What they say about Aquarians is they love humanity, it's people they don't care for too much. And that's very understandable because you can have a philosophical real love of humanity and structure a lot of your thoughts for it, but people drive you crazy for many reasons that have to do with the people and that have to do with you. Either way, it could be. It could be all of that. Anyway, you have Capricorn on the fifth house, so you're very serious about this, but in this fifth house, you have these two planets, outer planets, not personal planets. They're not conjunct,
Starting point is 01:42:33 which is interesting, that makes them not too potent, not too… when something's conjunct, it's like one energy becomes very powerful. While they're both in Aquarius and they're both in the fifth house, they're wide apart. So they're operating as separate entities, but similar in that the planet is a separate entity but they're both in Aquarius. You're really comfortable with working hard, loving the earth, having a good philosophy about that, real comfortable with that. But it's part of your finger of God that points to Pluto and Sag, which is a different philosophy and not so comfortable with it. And it has to do with your childhood too, interestingly. Hmm, it's interesting that it points to your childhood. So what would you say is the most unusual or shocking
Starting point is 01:43:31 or difficult to something about your childhood? Hard to handle, hard to swallow, anything a little bit hard? I had a troubled relationship with my father. Yeah, I would guess that with the Taurus in Saturn, Father of Saturn. You know, I remember having, I did family counseling, and I remember having this insight that every child would prefer or choose the parent who they felt at the deepest level their life depended on. So even if it was the worst person, and they were the worst person to them, if they felt their life depended on it,
Starting point is 01:44:13 that was the person they would follow. And then of course as they grew older, they'd have to disengage from that because you can't keep doing that, because your life doesn't depend on them anymore. But it did. And it's fair enough, and it's a very powerful program in the physical plane that your life is dependent on something. And it's hard to undo and you have to kind of realize that anything that is difficult to undo is there because at some level you believe your life's dependent on it. And once you keep saying that and seeing it and realize that my life does not depend on it,
Starting point is 01:44:46 it's not what it is, you begin to transform it. So it's one of the things that we all have to learn in some way or another. So the Saturn is the father and the moon is the mother. Neptune in Aquarius is a kind of unusual place. It's a kind of a combination of mystical feelings with intellectual desire to be humane. It's very unusual and I think rich actually.
Starting point is 01:45:19 A lot of power in it. And it's the way Pisces and Aquarius are really, and see I am a Pisces and I have an Aquarius moon and I have Venus in Aquarius. I'm real familiar with Aquarius and how it can be very mental and very humane. But since this isn't your house of creativity and because it's where you're Saturn and Taurus and because it's trying your sun above all, it's a deep part of you. It's a kind of magical component.
Starting point is 01:45:51 It's a unique quality, and it is in your house of creativity. So you will use it. And it's a try-in. So it's actually fairly easy for you. It's a connection that comes naturally. Try-ins just feel like they're the same, not the same exactly, but you got it. You can feel it.
Starting point is 01:46:12 Now the oppositions are different. And of course now you've got Neptune in Aquarius, opposed Venus in Leo. This is Leo's house. This is Aquarius's house. This is called reciprocal. There's a kind of double fold over there in separate things, but they're really kind of related in a back-handed way. So, your Venus, when you love, you like to shine. You have a lot of pride in it. Now, Uranus in Aquarius, Uranus is the ruler, very content there, very much powerful there. It's trying, your son, also very powerful aspect to have. It's a trying, futuristic thinking, house of creativity, to your house of career.
Starting point is 01:47:09 You really have a very positive chart for creating whatever you want to create, and it will have to have something to do with humanity, because Uranus and Aquarius makes you do that. That's amazing. You care about it anyway. May I think, did I leave anything out here? Oh, Mars and liver. What one? This square? The square. Yeah, okay.
Starting point is 01:47:26 Venus is square Saturn. Okay, Venus, square Saturn. This is a little bit part of your difficulty with your father. Squares mean, when it comes to doing something right or analyzing, which is Saturn, to be creative in showing of yourself and radiant and loved, it feels squelched.
Starting point is 01:47:46 It feels stepped on. It's not a good flow. It's square. And like I said to you, the things I learned the best were the difficulties. And what it is is that both of these things are valid, very valid. And the more I got into what the validity was in each thing, I kept getting more insights which made me a more complex analyzer of everything. So that's one of the examples of it. The other thing is you have Mars and Libra,
Starting point is 01:48:19 which is opposed to Jupiter and Aries. This is in your house, the Scorpio transformation. Jupiter is a very powerful expensive thing, but it's in a very personal, the personal sign of your body Aries. You know, it's the first sign, first house sign of your body expansive. So as you, it will cause you to go through transformations about knowing, understanding and loving your body. So that's one of the nice things about having this Jupiter in aries. And it is- So this is specifically about the body? It is about your body because it's aries. Physically?
Starting point is 01:48:56 Well, it could be, physically, it doesn't have to be. It's how you inhabit your body, how you use your body to be in the world. And Jupiter is so expansive, it actually has a lot of good aspects that can be very confident sometimes about your body. Jupiter is rather expansive and happy. And Aries is ruled by Mars, and of course it is opposed to Mars, which is in Libra, which is that opposite of Aries. It is, you know, it's ruled by Venus and it wants to make nice and wants everything balanced, does not like disharmony, doesn't want to hear an argument, gives me a stomach ache.
Starting point is 01:49:38 It's very different. And so you have Mars and Libra, which is a little harder for you. It's in the second house, but it also is beautiful because... I can see this, this is the last thing I can relate to this. But it also has a benefit, and it's trying your son, which is part of that big benefit, is that when you are assertive, you tend to do it gracefully. And it is appreciated by other people.
Starting point is 01:50:04 So you don't scream and yell and hit somebody on the head. You really become rather forceful that there being some harmony here. And that's a good, that's a talent. That's a good thing. That's a good thing. And you have it in the second house and it sometimes means it's where you make money
Starting point is 01:50:23 by being this gracious, beautiful, artistic, super artistic. It's about the arts, music, producing everything. It's all about that. Actually, I studied as a painter. Yeah, it would be that also. Yeah. Yeah.
Starting point is 01:50:39 It's all the same frequency of creativity that cares about beauty and a harmony being created. Are you in a relationship? Yeah, what sign is the person she's Sagittarius? Oh interesting sad Well, sad is a very optimistic. I have a great-granddaughter is a little sad and she's just a little character She loves everybody says hi to everybody She's there being there. You know, it's so cute. You do have Pluto and Sajj, so there's going to be some deep revel. She will teach you certain things, or you will teach yourself by encounters, whichever way it goes,
Starting point is 01:51:18 part of that finger of God pointing to this Pluto and Sajj. This is the seventh house and it characterizes the relationship. And usually the sign that's on the cusp of this house is what you want your relationship to look like. Sometimes it's what the sign of the person is, but more it's what you want your relationship to look like. You want a hom harmonious, spiritual, beautiful, Piscian-type relationship, almost otherworldly. And Sajj kind of likes that kind of stuff, too. So it's not a bad choice. And because you are fire and air, both, it's very complimentary.
Starting point is 01:52:00 And your Venus is trying your Pluto in Satch. I don't know what degree her sun is, but if it's in early degrees, is she in the beginning of Satch, do you think? December. She's December 16th. Yes, early. So it's like, yes, it was very nice. So your Venus is trying her sun.
Starting point is 01:52:24 It's one of the most romantic connections you can have. Wow. That's awesome. Yeah. Isn't that nice how it works? I just never get over it how it keeps working. When I first decided I wasn't gonna be a narrow-minded scientific bore and say this can't be true,
Starting point is 01:52:42 I decided to prove how it wasn't true by taking a course in it and I got... I mean little explosions went off in my brain. It's like past life memory of being an astrologer all came awake in my head and I couldn't get over it. I'm like hard to talk and I did about 2000 charts. People famous, people I knew, people I didn't. Just did charts, did charts, did charts
Starting point is 01:53:04 because it's like learning a language. And I began to sense what it was, and that's how I learned. Is there anything else I didn't do that you could think of I might talk about that doesn't mean something to you that I should have said? Not from this one. I think you've gone... I think you've gone into everything from this one.
Starting point is 01:53:21 And this is my birth chart, right? This is your natal chart. This is your solar return. This is what's chart, right? This is your natal chart. My natal chart. This is your solar return. This is what's coming up for you in the year ahead. Okay. This is a whole other thing. This is the one that has cancer rising
Starting point is 01:53:32 and the sun is in the 12th house. So this year is probably much more introspective in- This is this year or next year? It's this year. It starts June in 2023. Okay, we'll follow halfway through. So it's from June to June 2024. So it began then.
Starting point is 01:53:52 So your sun is in the 12th house. Your moon is in the 10th in areas. You're going to be more yourself than ever. But Neptune and Pisces, that's such a deep mystical thing in your mid-heavens and Pisces. This is almost a kind of magical. This is really interesting. This year's been quite a crazy year for me.
Starting point is 01:54:13 Yeah, it would be. It would be probably the most intense year of my entire life. Yeah, and you know, one of the reasons it intends too is because the sun in the 12th house is the sorrows of stuff you haven't processed, the self is having to experience it, look at it somehow. They say that Pisces house is called the house of sorrows, which always annoys me because
Starting point is 01:54:38 I think it's the house of mystical revelation myself. But to get to mystical revelation, you have to face sorrows. So that's why in a way it's accurate, but it's not emphasizing the positive. You do have Venus in the first house in Leo, which makes you, which is just like your natal. And it's the same degree. Wow. That is kind of unusual. Makes it very powerful. And that it's in your first house. What is that?
Starting point is 01:55:10 Okay. Venus is how you love. And in your first house, anybody that got Venus in the first house, they're attracted. You suddenly, even if you weren't attracted, you suddenly become very attracted. You do have an opposite Pluto again. Boy, you are here to do Pluto. I'm a good person to talk to because of so much. That is it.
Starting point is 01:55:31 I really want to know more. Honestly, this year has been really intensely crazy for me. Okay, a Saturn in Pisces, that's hard too. You're trying to be pragmatic and logical and have the philosophy and it's all in this mystical sea. But Venus and Leo in the first house is a big advantage, except that the cusp is on cancer. So you're very emotional and it seems overwhelming because cancer rising is very sensitive. And people might even think you're touching. They might think you've been overly touching.
Starting point is 01:56:05 Did you get that at all this year? Yeah. That's the cancer rising because you are, you feel a lot of things and cancer likes to have agreement. And when there isn't agreement, it sometimes feels like, I gotta tell you one more time, I had cancer clients, they will tell me the same thing five times. And I'll say, you know, I did hear you when you told me.
Starting point is 01:56:27 I just don't agree. Oh, well, let me tell you again, because if I'm not agreeing, they believe I don't hear them. So the point of all that is, cancer is very emotional and needs to feel felt and heard, it's a deep thing. So anyway, that's what gives you some of the characteristics of now.
Starting point is 01:56:52 It also gives you that Pisces mid-heaven, which is kind of mystical. It's got Saturn and Pisces in the house of philosophy, which is also mystical. The relationship may have been a little bit more analytical than it used to be, because Pluto, although Pluto and Saj, you know, natally, and she's a Saj, so now it's in Capricorn, but it's in your seventh house, but it's opposed Venus in your first house. So Venus, how you love, it's Leo, it's shining, it's conjunct your own natal Venus. It's a Venus return.
Starting point is 01:57:26 It's returning to your natal Venus. When you have a return to a planet, you sort of have to relive what you took on when you were born. Like, when you have a Saturn return, you have to relive it, but now you've had 27, 28, 30 years of processing it. You're reliving it, but it's not the same. Wow. So anyway, this Pluto, which is in your seventh house,
Starting point is 01:57:52 any difficulties in your relationship? About currently. Of course you do water or anything. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, because Capricorn is pretty strong. It's in a very, very. It's a new relationship that I'm in. You know, it's one second away of being in Aquarius.
Starting point is 01:58:10 This is 29 degrees and 59 minutes. And I would just count it and call it in Aquarius, except it's retrograde, which means when it moves, it moves this way. So it keeps staying there a little bit, but it is on the way out. So it's... So this is the problems? Judgementalness about something, and a concern about doing it the right way.
Starting point is 01:58:37 Capricorn gets a little bit stern, not stern, well, yeah, sometimes stern. But... I think I've been playing into this recently,... I think I've been playing into this recently because I think I've been playing into this recently like feeling it more than I ever have before because in past relationships I've lost the concern very quickly and that has led to long toxic relationships where I'm just pushing the toxicity back of my mind. So give me a word picture of right now how that might look for you. Currently. Currently. In my current relationship, its financial success is yet to come.
Starting point is 01:59:25 Yeah, she hasn't, she's not on the same page as me in terms of- Is it ahead or behind? Very behind. Okay. Like she- Well, this will bring Capricorn judgment. Capricorn thinks everybody's got to throw their own weight.
Starting point is 01:59:40 Yeah. You got to do the right thing so you don't get behind. These are going to be the inherent messages you will be giving whether you're thinking or even saying it. It just means that your seventh house for you, you are concerned with responsibility. This is true. This is true. This is, you don't like it if there's not responsibility. And when Pluto's there, it's a little bit
Starting point is 02:00:03 scary. Pluto triggers wounds of the past, things that aren't processed properly. Pluto is serious stuff. And it's whatever we're working on. So it may just be good enough for you to figure out about being judgmental about it and that it really doesn't matter. But you will do what you want to do for you and you will ask her to take care of this. She is a sad, she can move from one thing to another thing before you know it, she can be off and running and doing something else.
Starting point is 02:00:32 It's not, Capricorn goes, it's not happening, you didn't do it, you didn't pay it on time. My grandson is scared. Man, you have to put money aside for the property taxes. You didn't put enough in. He's always worried wearing so serious. And I laugh. You know, I say, oh, honey bun, you know, you have to remember, I'm a Pisces. First of all, I'm fairly flip about it. I don't worry that way. Not that I have money,
Starting point is 02:00:57 I don't. But I don't care about it so much. It's just not my thing. Well, for you this year, it will change next year, it won't be the same. But it's something for you to look at that you don't want to be judgmental of her over your fears. Very big thing not to do in a relationship. You can tell her about it, you can say, you know, gee, it makes me nervous,
Starting point is 02:01:19 I'll have to get over that, you know? Because I'm sure you can handle it, but it does make me nervous that you're not doing that. It's okay to share over that, you know, because I'm sure you can handle it, but it does make me nervous. Yeah, you're not doing that It's okay to share it. Mm-hmm, but not like you better check this or it's gonna be upsetting. Mm-hmm Don't do that. That's that's that's what doesn't work and in Capricorns can do that Capricorn energy can do that because it's quite pragmatic And I'm that I have no you're not usually no you, you're not usually at all. I'm definitely not.
Starting point is 02:01:45 No, you're not that at anywhere, not anywhere. But this year. Oh, okay. In a relationship. Yeah, this year has been a big, I got out last year, I got out of a relationship, I was in this high school, a seven year relationship that turned extremely abusive on both sides.
Starting point is 02:02:02 Oh, that's one way to end quick. Yeah, and then I Got out of the relationship by finding the person I'm currently with Kind of realizing what this like beautiful love was and very you know kidding. Isn't it great? Yeah Well, you know one of the things I always say about relationships You can make almost any relationship work Unless the person is abusive or not kind to you. And that is the criteria for ending it, always. Because you have to let a relationship rise or fall of its own weight.
Starting point is 02:02:35 Now you can say, you know, I'd like to stay with you, but when you call me whatever, blah, blah, blah, it hurts me and it's not acceptable. And they get even angrier, like how dare you tell me that. You say, see you later alligator. You leave, you walk out the door. It took me four years to do that. Yeah, well, you know, that's your cancer.
Starting point is 02:02:54 That's what your, that's your mercury in cancer. That's okay. Because you learned a lot of nuance in that. You're not going to do that again. You're going to spot it really much quicker. Now the other thing for this year, you do have three planets in Taurus. This isn't a planet, this is the head of the dragon. But you have two planets in Taurus and the head of the dragon in Taurus.
Starting point is 02:03:17 And let's see this one. Five. Oh, this is close. Okay. This is the square. But this is Jupiter and Venus. Anything Jupiter's aspects usually has a positive hit on it. It usually has sometimes some expansive quality. So if it's kind of a negative thing,
Starting point is 02:03:33 it might get a little expansive. But usually it's just optimism. It's just enthusiasm. Jupiter's a good aspect, it's the ruler's edge. And Jupiter is square and it's exact. It's five degrees, almost six, square, six degrees, Venus and Leo. Now this square is Jupiter's entaurus.
Starting point is 02:03:55 Jupiter entaurus is earthy, it's good, it's very physical, it's ruled by, torus is ruled by Venus, It's great. That is square Venus in Leo is Leo's fire. It is not Earth. It just wants to burn and shine. So it's really kind of good stuff. You don't really have, the most difficult thing you have is Pluto in the seventh house, I think. Maybe Saturn will.
Starting point is 02:04:22 Which is the like critical... Yeah, yeah. And worrying about that. And of course, you know, for self-feeling, I think having cancer arising made you super sensitive. Yeah, I've been extremely sensitive this year. It's been very like... It's funny when you describe these feelings.
Starting point is 02:04:44 This feels like my this year. Yeah, yeah. It's been very much like mystical and like not understanding my own thoughts and just feeling very disconnected from reality. And I don't know when you're describing this. This is good. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, that's your nature. That's your basic own nature. And it's in the fifth house of creativity. So you'll you're going to encounter that all your life, actually, but different varying.
Starting point is 02:05:10 You know, one of the things about Australia is so neat, even the same aspect, there's this version of it in this time frame. And the very same aspect has a different version of it because it's connecting in a different context. And there's a difference. So you got to keep looking at the energy of it and use it to your benefit. What I like about astrology is nice to see where it is.
Starting point is 02:05:33 Oh, that's why. Oh, this has been extremely helpful. Isn't it interesting? Yeah, it's really amazing. Music you

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