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Episode Date: June 22, 2026

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This is Natasha. That's not her real name. We've changed it to try to protect her. It appealed to me. So I just started putting on these little streams. Natasha's a League of Legends player mostly. Her eyes light up when she talks about it. It's a multiplayer battle game played on the computer. Two teams of five go up against each other and as you play, you watch on from a bird's eye view as your characters, jump around swinging swords and casting spells. The aim of the game, other than beating the shit out of the other team, is to destroy something called a nexus.

Basically, it looks like a big crystal. Bright blue for one team, deep red for another. I usually played Vi. She has a big metal fist, and she goes around punching people, I guess. It's summer. Natasha's been streaming for her. for a while now. She spends hours each day playing league, punching players with her huge metal fist.

She records and uploads videos and then streams on Twitch too. I streamed, I guess, a few times a week. Natasha's still pretty small time. She gets maybe 50 viewers on a really good night. But she's trying to be consistent and build up her following. I was like, I have to start a stream at a certain time because it was being treated as a job. Today, though, Natasha's in a rush. No time to sit on stream for hours. So I'm just going to make this quick video for me to download later.

Natasha's feeling pretty cute today. Her makeup is on point. She'll make a video about that and get back to her usual programming tomorrow. She turns her webcam on, does a quick cosmetic rundown on how she's done her makeup. She clips it, uploads it, and then logs off. And then the next time Natasha... Natasha logs back on, she sees that her tiny little offhand video has gone viral. Part of it doing well was because they were kind of making fun of it. Like, ha-ha, it's a girl.

Two-thirds of Twitch's audience is male. Not the most welcoming audience for makeup content. Oh, a woman making makeup on Twitch, the audacity. I was like, no. This wasn't intentional, I promise. The next time Natasha's streams, her audience hasn't just doubled. It hasn't tripled. It's gone up a hundredfold. Lo and behold, suddenly my stream's getting rated by thousands of viewers. I'm like a mix of excitement, but also nervous because there's so many people. All of this newfound attention is a fantastic opportunity for a budding streamer.

Natasha's front and center for a whole new fan base. but it's a double-edged sword. The general community was, you could say, a bit toxic for sure. That toxicity is often wielded against young women and girls who play League of Legends. It's sad to say, but it was so common to experience that from a certain small subset of males. Are boys. I think boys is more accurate. being a visible woman just made you an easy target. Still, Natasha knows this can be a springboard.

It can catapult her into the next level. Make streaming a real career, not just a hobby. Unfortunately, I didn't really get to take advantage of it, which we'll get into. Natasha's makeup video is blood in the water. And now someone dangerous has caught the scent. Vicious. I'm pretty sure that video is what drew him to me. He saw it, and he found his target.

Natasha has no idea what's coming her way. There's no warning signs on the horizon, because this is all happening in summer of 2013, over a year before Vicious be friends and then turns on Esther and months before Sergeant Ben Finley is on his case. Vicious's case. Vicious's campaign of internet terror is only just getting started. I was an earlier victim.

But as we know, she definitely won't be the last. If Natasha wants to stand any chance of standing up to Vicious, strength in numbers is her only real hope. She's going to need to work together with fellow streamers just like her, figure out Vicious's tactics, and put a stop to them. From Sony Music Entertainment and novel, this is You Are Next. I'm Lee Alexander.

This is episode four. League of Girls. As a long-time game and technology journalist, I've spent a lot of hours thinking about why people behave the way they do online, why they flock to some games and reject others, but also what communities they seek out. Online gaming has always been a land,

of opportunity. For a lot of us, including myself, it offers a way to build friendships, create spaces where we can learn and share, where we can play, collaborate, and escape reality for a moment. But lurking in gaming's darkest corners are people who play by their own rules. They don't care what damage they cause or who they hurt. Shielded in a cloak of anonymity, they can act out their worst, most insidious fantasies of control and coercion. Often it's fueled by their own sense of powerlessness and a desperate need to be noticed by the very same people their intent on destroying. I wonder if that's what happened with Vicious. If he really is the vision of himself he's sold to Esther, a depressed, unimportant nerd

with a shitty home life and few friends, and a burning need to cast a long, dark shadow over any female gamer he manages to trap in his orbit. I would run around at like three years old. Like, I want a pewter. I want a pewter because I really wanted a computer to play games. By the time she's old enough to actually say the word computer, Natasha gets her wish. My dad surprised me with this custom-made one for my birthday. We had one of his coworkers, build me a computer. It was see-through with all these lights.

It was really cool. Natasha is 13 when her dad gets her the custom computer and she spends a pretty large part of her remaining teenage years sat in front of it. Around 20 or 21 is when she first gets into League of Legends and she really gets into it. I made a lot of friends and I joined like Skype groups are these online forums like this one place called League of Girls because I wanted to play with other women because they were harder to find.

League of Legends is one of the most popular, most influential PC games of all time. Millions of people play it every month. But like a lot of mainstream online games, it also has kind of a mixed reputation. There's a lot of great parts of it, but the community has a toxicity issue for everyone. Natasha mostly tries to seek out and form teams with other girls. When she does play with guys, the toxic behavior tends to ramp up. There'd be like people who would, like, on your own team would purposely try to lose the game by following you around. They would basically hold you back

and make it impossible for you to play the game and they would call you names the whole time. Riot Games, the company behind League of Legends, are trying a few different tactics to discourage abuse in game. They introduce a reward system that encourages fair play. It's called honor.

But often it's left to the players to self-police. We had this tribunal where you could get involved in punish bad players and judge them. The community almost helped regulate itself. Now there's a new player emerging from the shadows. More dangerous than anyone Natasha or her friends has dealt with before.

Vicious. It's summer 2013, Natasha's about 20. Fresh off of her surprise viral video, she's trying to capitalize on the publicity. She logs onto her computer and starts streaming. Within a couple minutes, my stream would just go down. And then you would try to go up again and then your internet would go down.

And I would be so confused. Natasha doesn't realize it at this moment, but what's happening to her isn't just a bad connection. It's deliberate. It's something called a DDoS. The denial of service attack, they send a bunch of information really quickly at your router, essentially, and make it impossible for you to have Internet.

Remember, this is 2013. Bicious is only just getting started on his campaign of internet terror. His reputation isn't preceding him yet. I honestly didn't know that much about him. But then Natasha starts hearing things through the Gamer Grapevine. Practically all of her friends are also being deduced. We weren't sure what was going on. And then eventually you get a message from this guy.

bragging that he was the one responsible. At this point, they only know him on social media by his username. We were all streaming, so he was simultaneously watching all our streams to look for information of something he could exploit. He would first try to do something to get your attention. D-Dash you for a long time. Next, the messages start pouring in. He would usually use Twitch messaging.

And that was a way he harassed us. He used Twitter a lot to reach out to me, but he used everything, though. Like any way he could, he would reach you. Soon, Vicious graduates from the DMs and the DDoS attacks. He starts hacking into Natasha and her friend's accounts. He would actually hack into people's Skype through social engineering where he would call Skype. Vicious pretends that the accounts are his, that he's locked out and needs access.

He calls over and over again. If one Skype employee doesn't give him what he wants, he calls another. Convincing Skype to give you over your premium Skype account, I mean, which he took from me, and then he would change the information, and then you would call, and they'd be like, sorry, your information's right.

I'm like, yeah, because he just changed it. The problem was we were all connected. So if he had one girl's Skype, he had all of our Skypes. Vicious's behavior is rapidly escalating. It's not long before he starts doxing Natasha, publicly posting private information about her. Any kind of information you would give out on your stream or your profile,

he would take it, run it through Google, and he'd run it through Facebook. Oh, if you could find your Facebook, you could find where you went to school. And then eventually he could, for a lot of people, find even their ads. address or their phone number or their email. I remember I'm posting my PayPal balance at one point online. He could let you know, oh, I know where you live. And then he would reach out with a message through a Twitter DM, something, a Skype DM, if he had hacked someone else's Skype and could message you.

And were the messages themselves ever abusive, or was it the threat of, I can find you, I can reach you? It was mainly the threat of you better do what I want or this is going to get worse. He was just after power and attention, he wanted you to feel helpless and for him to feel completely powerful. All the while, whenever Natasha or any of her friends try to stream, Vicious is there with another DDoS attack, stopping them from being able to broadcast and from building up their following. He wanted to make sure that you didn't succeed. The league players are constantly checking in on each other, sharing the latest about what's happening to them, sending support and advice.

They would message me or I would message to make sure they're okay. Then Natasha gets another message, this time from Vicious. If you want this to stop, you have to talk to me. If you want a deeper look behind cut, color, kill, now is the. The time. Join our free newsletter at patreon.com slash the binge, and you will get exclusive story details you can't get anywhere else. Again, join me at patreon.com slash the binge. Hi, I'm Grace, host of Red Rum True Crime podcast. Why not jump in at episode 114, the tragic murder of Jasmine and Alia? The main suspect in this case may even have thought he was

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I had decent viewership and I really enjoyed it and I was unable to capitalize them. If you can't monetize or you can't build your community because any time you get more than a certain amount of viewers, you're attacked, then you can't really grow or succeed in the, scene. I wanted us to be able to do our jobs. So Natasha reluctantly agrees. I did talk to him just so my other teammates could play. I was kind of just in the management mode, which I tend to do in those kind of situations,

like just get through this, figure out later. Natasha gets on a Skype call with Vicious. She can't see his face. He keeps it hidden. But she can hear his voice. And now that she can hear him talking for real, she can get the measure of him. Can I curse? I thought he was an asshole. Like, I thought he was an asshole.

Like, he would talk about my other teammates. He would badmouth them. If Natasha has to be on this call with him, she can at least make it worth her while. She starts mining vicious for information. Whatever details she can share with her friends, her League of Legends teammates so they can protect themselves from his next attack.

I was stuck talking to him anyway, so what else am I going to talk about? I just asked them basic questions. I was like, how did you get our IP? How are you getting all the information? How are you doing all this? He just was very happy to explain it. More than happy to flaunt how smart he was.

I don't know how to put it other than he was just like peacocking. Did he speak to you about his other targets? Yes, he did. He was sharing his screen. He had an actual, like, file he would make, text file. He would just store, like, you have your victim's name, and he would store the information he needed to harass them. Showing how he could hurt other people, showing how much power, what he could accomplish.

It's part of, like, a control harassment campaign. Very aggressive and sociopathic. To Natasha, it feels. like vicious is everywhere she turns. I used the word stalker because it was someone who quite literally stalked you, right? He kept all your information in a file. He always kept up what you were up to. You didn't know that person.

And when you told this person you didn't want to have contact with him, he would still pursue you. And your consent and your boundaries didn't matter. And he wanted to have direct access to you whenever he wanted, regardless of how you felt about it. I felt very exposed because the internet has your information widely available

to anyone who is willing to take the time to find it. And Vicious is more than willing to take the time. He shows Natasha name after name, all the information he's compiled on other women and girls. His target list includes a lot of up-and-coming streamers like Natasha. but it also includes some more established names. If you became too popular in the gaming space or you became too visible,

that would definitely attract him to you really quickly. Another thing he showed me that he was part of like this chat room, basically, where there were a few other like self-proclaimed hackers, as they would call themselves. These self-proclaimed hackers share a lot of the toxic misogynist views. running rife through League of Legends and other online games like it, which isn't surprising to Natasha. Unfortunately, she's used to it by now. But what is surprising is these hackers' level of dedication to their fucked-up cause.

Their whole goal, like their stated goal of that chat room, was to bully in Target women. This is where mine and Natasha's experiences, unfortunately, converge. So I rarely like to revisit this topic, but I think it's time. Let's talk about GamerGate. Most people associate the beginning of GamerGate with an online post made by a bitter ex-boyfriend. He claimed his video game maker X, named Zoe Quinn,

cheated on him with a journalist who then gave Zoe's game a positive review. Never mind that the accusation was completely untrue. This post started off an eruption about how the whole gaming industry was supposedly rigged to promote the work of women and minorities and deprioritize the needs of white men. A coordinated online mob formed,

full of what I'd describe as alpha nerds. They didn't actually care about games journalism. They were looking for an excuse to express their misogyny. I was a freelance journalist at this point, covering the video games industry. I wrote an article in defense of Zoe, really in defense of all women and marginalized people carving out their rightful space in the gaming world. And in response, the mob turned on me too.

Thousands of messages started pouring into my employer or to anywhere that had invited me to speak, telling them to fire me, demanding advertisers pull their funding. Even more threatening and abusive messages made their way to my social media and my email accounts. One comment on an Instagram post I made, it was just like a person. picture of me in my neighborhood said, she doesn't even live that far from me. I could find out where she lives and put a screwdriver in her eye. All of this was designed to discredit me in public and scare me in private. In the end, I basically felt finished with game industry journalism. It wasn't worth it to me anymore. But despite the toxicity, Natasha doesn't want to walk away.

She refuses to give up her ambitions as a streamer, even with a target on her back. The thing was you always knew he could come back at any time, so it's not like you felt safe. Vicious is escalating his campaign of harassment against Natasha and her friends. They're overwhelmed, putting out every fire that Vicious is gleefully setting, and they're tired of being burned. So Vicious better watch out because he's pissing off an army. Are you one of those media strategy people clicking through slides, scrolling spreadsheets? Yes?

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posting his personal information on different forums. it's those same posts that Sergeant Ben Finley would eventually come across, revealing vicious as a Canadian teenager. Whenever a post about him goes up, the streamers shared around with each other. The only reason we ever found out information was because of these other girls in their efforts. And I think because he had escalated with them to swatting. The swatting is when the general knowledge started being known. A lot of streamers have Amazon wish lists linked to their Twitch accounts. things subscribers can buy for them.

One streamer who will call Stephanie was too frightened to talk to us on tape but did talk to my production team on background. Stephanie figures out that Vicious is using those Amazon details to track down the home addresses of streamers. She tells people to close their accounts or to use a P.O. box. Stephanie also warns others

that Vicious is able to get hold of passwords through hacking recovery emails. She tells people to change their password every two weeks and not to use the same password across multiple accounts. Ficious is under more and more scrutiny from female streamers who are banding together to share information about him and strategies for fighting back. But he's showing no signs of stopping. In January 2014 alone, he calls in a bomb threat at a university on the outskirts of Vancouver

and tries to swat a streamer from Toronto. He DDoS is another streamer and says he'll stop if she's sends him a photo of herself. He calls her parents, too, and while her dad is on the phone, Vicious threatens to rape his daughter. He zeroes in on one streamer and starts calling her home every night

and calling her cell phone as much as 20 times a day. But he's always got Natasha in his sights, too. When he would decide to reach out to me, it was unrelenting. It was a lot at once. Endless messages across Twitter,

across Twitch, more and more DDoS attacks. I was streaming and I heard my mom call from the bottom of the stairs. Did you order a pizza? And I'm like, what the heck? No. Of course, that's when he reaches out and is like, oh, did you enjoy the pizza? What does it feel like when you know that this person has your home address? It was pretty scary because at this point,

you were actually possibly putting your family in friends in the crossfire. It wasn't just you anymore, right? I was very aware that it was a possibility that I could get swatted. So I even called the local sheriff's department. The lady answered the phone and I tried to explain to her what was happening that I was an online personality. And I was trying to explain to her like, hey, please be aware of this. There's this guy who knows where I live, who has actually sit cops to other people's houses.

And I just want you guys to be aware of that in case a false call comes in. They made me feel really small and silly and like I was stupid, basically. You're just like, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever. Like, I can't help you. Just move on. No matter where I turned, I was just met with, like, what are you talking about? The only place Natasha gets any understanding and any support is from the other streamers being harassed. Like her, they're raising the alarm, warning about what Vicious is up to, figuring out how they can protect themselves and each other.

I changed my Skype name to sound like I was a boy, and I was able to kind of stay under the radar from him for a bit. I had to learn how to change our IP address. But it seems like Vicious can still find and target Natasha and her friends whenever he wants. The problem was, as long as he had our Skype, if one of our teammates logged into Skype, it would instantly give him our new IP address. To Natasha, her local police don't seem to be able, or even willing, to stop him. She's been fighting for so long to protect herself and her fellow streamers. It's reaching a point where she doesn't know how much fight she has left.

or if she even wants to stream anymore. It made me give it up pretty much entirely. Like, it took a lot of the fun out of it. It was so exhausting. It was so exhausting. It was so exhausting. It would spend so much mental effort just dealing with awful things that most people don't ever have to deal with. Yeah, and it really, it takes a toll.

You become tired, and then you don't get to participate in the way that everyone else gets to participate. You don't get to do the work that you came to do because so much of your sort of headspace is being taken up by putting out those fires. I totally relate to what you're saying. I lost my personality. I mean, I can see from my earlier streams to my later streams, I just became a different person. I was not as fun.

I was not as perky. I was not as happy. I was miserable. You know, he definitely hurt my mental health and my career. I finally reached like a breaking point. he would threaten things like, well, if you leave, you know, I'll do this or what if I do that? I was like, go ahead. I have nothing to live for. There's literally nothing you can do to me.

I didn't hear from him again after that. On the next episode of You Are Next, he would start cycling through victims. Victims like Ava. If you wanted to ruin your life, he really could. The motivation for him to do these things is to feel like his power over these women. But Ava is about to take the power back with an audacious undercover mission. It was a big risk, but I can stop him. And the tide might finally be starting to turn as Sergeant Ben Finley finds a powerful new ally in his fight.

That was the game-changing moment. Once we got started, Sergeant Finley and I never gave up. We never stopped. Don't want to wait for the next episode? You don't have to. Unlock all episodes of You Are Next, early and ad-free. right now by subscribing to the binge podcast channel. Search for the binge on Apple Podcasts and hit subscribe. Not on Apple? Head to getthebinge.com to get access wherever you listen.

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