The Bryce Crawford Podcast - The Island Boys Interview

Episode Date: September 1, 2025

In this episode, Bryce interviews the Island Boys.

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right now. What's going on, guys? Welcome back to another episode of the Bryce Crawford podcast. I'm Bryce. And today, by the title of interview, I know you guys are excited. We're here with Cody Akaret and Fly Soldier the Island Boys. You guys doing good? Yeah, man. We're doing good. How you doing? Man, I'm feeling good. Thanks for coming on, man. I'm super pumped. We were able to work it out and you guys were able to come on. So, thanks for driving over. By the way, we haven't linked in what? You and me? Yeah, since we boxed. Wait, when did you guys box? We boxed in, what was it?

Three months ago. May, right? May. And wait, why did you guys fight each other? Publicity, man yon. Call it money, yeah. So you guys, it was a business move for me. Oh, it was just business.

Yes. Okay, but is that not like that? But it was real, though. Is that not kind of scary? Like, you ever hear like Logan Paul and Jake Paul, they say they'll never fight each other? Because they're like brothers. Sometimes they'll amp it up and act like they will. That's what I'm saying.

I thought they said that. I'm pretty sure they will if they have to if they need to. Uh-huh. Yeah. But for you guys, you guys didn't care. Like, you guys were just like, we're going to do it. Yeah, yeah. I wasn't really into it, but at the same time, that's what they wanted.

So we gave them what they wanted. Uh-huh. Yeah, there definitely was some thinking about it, but you understand? Like, Logan Paul and Jake Park are two way different fighters. They're not twins. And they're also in two different weight classes. And one is a way better athlete than the other one. So I don't think that would even be a good.

combo but at the end of the day Jake Paul he runs boxing his own boxing commission thing so I guess it really wouldn't matter if he fought someone a little bit bigger than him because Logan Paul is bigger than him but with Jake Paul who Logan Paul yeah so you guys but you guys have a talk since you guys box why haven't you guys talked we've talked we talked we talked on the phone but like been in person together right well I mean he I mean he lists he lists far one number two is just like you know I don't know he thinks I don't put them.

No, that's not true. Well, yeah, it got something to do with that. It just things turned distant after, I guess, when I came out of rehab, you know, I guess he wanted to pursue his relationship with his girlfriend and stuff like that. And I did my own thing. He did his own thing. I feel like us, like, growing up, apart from each other, it became more distant. And I saw it.

But you can't say. nothing about me because I fought for our relationship, you know, and I made my, I put myself in the front line. I made myself look stupid. But I saw the vision with us, and I still do, of course. But, you know, like, I, I, it looked like, oh, I cared so much, he didn't care. He's, he's with his girl while I was single. You know what I'm saying? So I was like, you know what, like that, but he can't say like, oh, I didn't. with him. You know what I'm saying? I always loved them. I always wanted to work with them. I think we do great together. I don't know why it turned into something like

it was like a barrier like a wall. Well that's a good thing about like you guys are brothers and I felt it. You know, that's a good thing is like even when things get hard, you're so able to mend it. And like there's a there's a proverb that says brothers are born in adversity, not even just like blood related, but like the closest of friendships I have are the ones that are born through like trial and hard times and fire when like stuff goes through so you know it's like even even though it's been hard and tough at the same time it's like man i'm grateful that you guys are yeah i think i heard him say like not too long ago like uh him and my mom stopped with me because of like addiction or something like that yeah well it was just more like more like you know um you know i i live with him and

i gave him chance after chances and he was with a girl and i was going through celibacy and all that and I gave him a chance of a chance of him being my brother and it's okay I mean you know I did it to him once before and then he did it to me one time and it's always girls and then I now I did it to him again so you know it's always bouncing back and forth so it's always the relationship I mean at this point I just look at it like more like okay you know we could be in relationship we could just we're old enough to understand that we could be in a relationship we can still with each other but yeah he just lives too far to be honest with you that's just that's that's that's Yeah, distance definitely makes it harder.

Yeah, it makes it. It makes it harder. Yeah, but he's only one call away, so it's easier just to call him, but it's always nice to see him in person. I appreciate that. I was fighting for it when I was living a little bit closer to him, but I know he was going through his own thing, so I get that part. Dang. You guys are super kind, and you've been good to us, and you guys are kind of each other, so I appreciate you guys. You have been kind as well, too, with your hospitality, I appreciate it.

Thanks, bro. So did you guys grow up in Miami? Appreciate that. We're from, no, we were from West Palm Beach, Florida. Okay. So we're from a city where there's a lot of haters. And, you know, interesting enough is that, you know, my brother and I, we didn't know we were going to be like these big, these big influencers, big entertainers, big rappers. We didn't think like that at all when we first was born and, you know, going to school and stuff like that. You know, we always got, we always had haters and we never knew why.

but, you know, it's just, you know, Red and I, my brother and I, we would, we were in the system from 13 all the way to 18 years old in the juvenile system. And we kept getting locked up. And at one time, we kept getting a lot of stopping the wrist, you know, especially being reinstated on probation like five, six times, eight times. And then we finally, the judge had enough of us and we got jammed up and bamed up. And we did almost like two years in a juvenile prison, a YO camp, youth offender. program and that right there we were separated because you can't be with your brother in prison so he was in a different prison than I was but you know a lot of people say oh you went to a juvenile prison a lot of people aren't saying a juvenile prison it's 10 times worse than adult prison do your

research is facts it's glad to your school in there you got to fight so you have to fight a lot a lot and they're young so they have more into they have more I've been to county there's a lot of old folks It's easy sometimes. I mean, you know, you're going to find a big, tough gorilla, but it is not, trust me, juvenile is just as bad, but, um, no, not fading wise, but, but the conditions in a, in a county in prison is worse than, than youth defenders. Correct. That's true.

But, but dealing with the TOH, the fighting and everything, not, it's, it's, it, they're both bad. But anyways, well, I'm trying to get at a step. And when we're down the road, that's what we call it, down the road. And when we went to prison, you know, I got released 60 days before him because he caught more time because he got in trouble or got caught doing something. And, you know, I came up with the idea. I was an aggressive for three fights. Yeah.

I came up with the idea that, you know, hey, listen, we should be rappers. Because to be honest with you, I let him know, hey, listen, you know, our mom doesn't have a lot of money. We live in a single family home. like it's just our mom and him not. Michelle's dad around? Our dad died when we were four years old. So that's why I said we live in a single family home. So I was letting her own, she's broke, she has no money.

So we need to make something out of something. And we had nothing, you know? We were just troublemakers. So we had to fix something up because we didn't want to get a job. And so then that's when I was locked up. I was locked up with a lot of rappers, like hot boy, wham, spinning, man. People that were affiliated with Kodad Black. Yeah.

And basically, you know, when I came out, I came with that idea. We didn't think we were going to get haters when we first started, but we got a lot of hate, so we used the hate for fame. You understand what I'm saying? That's what we did, you know? And it worked in our favor. So what we'd do is we would rile up a bunch of haters on live, troll them,

so they could click our link and look at our music videos. So it worked in both ways, kind of like the 6-9 method almost. So we did that. And then he decided to tattooed. he decided to tattoo an eagle on his forehead. An eagle. Yeah. Oh, okay.

Yeah. And what's the eagle for? I saw Kodak come out of jail and I was like, he had a vulture. He had got it just tied it when he came out the feds and got pardoned by Trump. And I'm like, he basically, what do he do, cover up? I basically, what's it called? Yeah, he had a cross, but basically I'm like, yo, I could do it a little bit better, like in my style and stuff like that. So I didn't copy him, get a voucher.

I got a ball with Eagle. Everybody got on my ass about it. Everybody was like, oh, I copy him. I'm a follower, this and that. He was in my comment section. Yeah, I hit the blogs. So this basically upcharged me. I hit the blogs.

I got to link with Kodat. I blew up the next week as the island was. Yeah, so everything happened for a reason. And I got a no jumper. The reason why I even mentioned that he got a tattooed in the middle of forehead, it made Kodat one of the, reach out to him and he was watching my story as well too but he wanted to know about him because he he's the one that had the obviously my manifestation works yeah so you guys wanted to be rappers

like that was the start you guys were trying to be rappers yeah after you guys got out of juvenile jail yeah and all that stuff you guys were trying to be your be rappers so you got the tattoo i always been very good at freestyling so when i was in jail i didn't care to be a rapper everybody around me wanted to be a rapper every dude wants to be a rapper but when I came out that was basically the situation like I didn't

I was tat in my face I couldn't get a job my PIA was on my trying to violate me for not even having a 95 they wouldn't set me because of tattoos the energy whatever it was they wouldn't send me so especially in Florida

that's why I moved to North Carolina got a job but we did work a job just to maintain but while we were working a job we were doing our online still. I always knew I was going to make money off popularity.

Yeah, same. So you guys, was the goal to be famous? What was the goal? The goal was definitely to be famous, and the goal was definitely to monetize our fame. We knew that we had it in us. We knew that what we could do. And like I said, like, you know,

big artists were starting to watch us and Cota Black hit him up. And, you know, Cota Black sent a lot of demonic attacks towards him and me, you know, because he sold his soul. So, I mean, yeah, he said to me one time that my motion is not going to last forever. I was like, what the fuck is that supposed to mean? And he just said that to you.

So when you think of the good life, the best life you could live, what does that life? Describe that for me. What is it for saying that? But what happened? If you could describe the best life, the American dream, what would that life be if you could describe it? I think about it every day. I would say happy, peaceful. wake up very clear-minded

wake up to like a nice view on the hill pool fittingly pool walk outside breathe fresh air and be high off life like the air you know feel that sun what was your question again yeah so if you could describe the the American dream

like the best life someone could live what would that life be? I feel like I'm kind of living in now but I feel like of course it's always so much like to improvise and make it better I would say more like you know just a big house my kids a little grown up

like 10 11 12 13 years old like in their early teens you know me being a dad having a bunch of like Lamborghinies and Roseroyce in the front happiness peace abundance prosperity and feeling loved unconditional love

and just feel free free in life. Yeah. So, so, so, uh, what do you guys, what do you guys think about Jesus? God? What do you guys think about Jesus? I pray. I'm not like a hundred percent religious, religious. Like, I don't like pray before I eat or something like that, but I believe that there's a higher power. I believe in God's persons. Yeah, I'm the same way. I believe there's a higher power. I prayed right there actually. And it was a pretty good prayer. I feel like, you know, asking for forgiveness and stuff like that.

Just trying to open my mind and open my ears. And, you know, there's nothing wrong with God. I love God a lot. You know, we live in such a wicked cold world where it's just everybody's just, and you're a good guy, but, you know, there's people that are not. And, you know, we live in a very cool world where they're fake and they just use people. And it's disgusting in the world that we live. There was the time I took it out on God in, like, my relationship with them.

I would always pray before I go out to the courtroom in the holding cell. And I would just get a slap on my wrist. And one day, they're like, you're not getting out. Wait to your next court date. You're not getting out. You're not getting out. That's what happened to me too. Then I get sentenced.

Every time I prayed, and I also pray to my dead dad, like an angel in Spanish and English. And then amen. But what was it called? Then I took it out on him. You know what I'm saying? For like a year. And what do you guys think happens when we die? Like every human being has a timer on their life.

I felt like I died before. You feel like you've died before? What does that mean? Like you feel... My first seizure or first or second seizure. It was one next to his baby mom. Oh, so you had a seizure? Did you go into a coma and then like come back out?

Something like that. He had a real long seizure. Narcamee and everything. It could have been an overdose. I've overdosed myself to, I know exactly what he's talking about. But when you get in those positions, right? I felt like I lifted in a black, black, dark room.

And I couldn't, I felt like since I didn't die fully, I couldn't come out the ceiling and see the light. That's how it felt like. And then I came back. But do you feel like that, do you feel like that there's life after death? Or do you think that it just goes all black? What are you guys saying?

My soul left my body. So probably. I feel like I said exactly what he said. I don't feel like there's a life after this. I feel like your soul goes somewhere. But I don't think you're... I felt nothing. I don't think your body, your flesh is going anywhere.

I think your flesh and skin and your body is done for. I think your soul is going to go somewhere. That's what I think. Do I know everything else? No, I don't. But I believe there was a... a past life. Like, I believe that some people are, they might be 30 years old, but they're really 60 years old because they live this life for another, another lifespan. I believe in past life.

I don't know too much about afterlife, though, though, though. I really don't. Yeah, that's okay. I think when you code, you code. Like, have you guys ever looked into Christianity or looked into any religion or not really? I mean, because I feel like, right, if I was in the position of, like, an overdose or something like that. Like that's that is terrifying. It was a terrifying position to be in. Like I feel like my heart would be beating and wanting to think that there's something great like it actually slows down.

Yeah. Do you feel like were you not feeling anxious about, oh, what's going to happen when I, if I don't make it or things like that? Or that wasn't really a thought that crossed your mind. When I possibly OD'd had seizures? Possibly OD had seizure and save for you, fly. Are you asking if we looked into like God about it? Like, no, no, no.

Because in the, what I'm saying is like in those moments. right. Like if I was in a life or death situation and I didn't know I was going to come out the other side. And if I didn't believe in God, I feel like my heart, for me personally, I feel like my heart would be racing. Like I wouldn't know. Were you guys kind of freaking out in that moment? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. I remember freaking out as a simple fact that I already had so much seizures. I was like, and I'm not epileptic and they're not giving me an answer or why I'm having them. I thought I wasn't going to be able to like take care of myself, like be independent because I like being independent. Yeah. So that was a problem for me.

Healthwise. Like, for me, it's like, you know, I've been a lot of experiences where, like, you know, it was life or death. And, yeah, you know, you know, I've been shot at, I've OD'd a couple times. And I'll be honest with you, yeah, there was one OD where my heart was racing probably like, I don't know, like 400 times a minute, 40 times a minute. Crazy. That's so wild.

400 beats a minute. You OD, you said? Yeah. Do you, who do you guys, who do you guys, you know, I passed out. Who do you guys think created you? Created what? Who do you guys think created you?

Where do you guys? No, where do you guys think you're, like, like, who did you? No, no, like who do you think created you, like your physical body? Like who created you as a person? Yeah. Do you think someone created you or? I believe that was a card like everything that's created obviously was made by man, mankind in a way but i believe in a higher power i'm more towards the spirituality what is that what is

that higher power we don't think much of like who created us who think more of like what is our purpose of being in here right a vibration yeah vibrations and and what is our purpose and what's around us and who's around us and what are we doing and how can we benefit off of this that's more like it. We don't sit there and think like God created us, but like I said, we're very big believers of God. Yeah. I just feel like a lot of people just forget about God and take that for granted. Yeah. I don't know. I don't, you guys don't know anything about my life, my story. No. Nothing at all. I grew up going to church. I grew up in a Christian school. Yeah. But I didn't follow God because it didn't mean anything to me. I thought,

Jesus was just the guy that was on my Bible tests in school because I went to a Christian school. And I just kind of had this bitterness and resentment towards God and didn't really care about Jesus. And when I got in the eighth grade, I got really bad depression and anxiety. For years, I had bad depression and anxiety, like crippling depression and anxiety. And no one knew about it. It was just something I never told anyone. But when I would come home from school, I would just lay in my bed and, like, at night and just be sad and depressed and anxious. So when I was 17, I planned on taking my life to end to the depression and anxiety.

Because the depression and anxiety, it feels incurable sometimes. It feels like you can't get the pain to go away. So I thought the only way I can get the pain to go away is if I just take my life. So the night I was planning on taking my life, I went to have my last meal at a Waffle House. And when I was at Waffle House, God revealed himself to me. Jesus encountered me when I was in that Waffle House and he stopped me. So I prayed this prayer to Jesus. I said, okay, Jesus, if you're real, because he revealed himself to me when I was in this

restaurant, if you're real, take away my anxiety and depression because that's why I wanted to take my life. Serious. And I haven't had crippling anxiety or depression since that day. And that was my like foot in the door of thinking, okay, because all the questions I just ask you guys are the questions I asked myself for years. like who created everything who who you know what does my life have purpose you know if if there is no afterlife why am i trying to be a good person this was all before i became a christian because if nothing

happens when we die we don't have any reason or motive to be a good person well you know and i have god in my subconscious mind but you know there was there was times like i won't lie like you know i was living in an apartment and uh you know i was sitting a balcony and i'm like it only takes two steps for me to die. And that's just to stand up, one step, and then the second step is just to jump. And boom, I'm just anxiety. Did you ever find the root of why you wanted to take yourself in such a young age?

Yeah, it was just the anxiety and depression. Yeah, that'll do it to you. It was crushing my soul. There's no trigger to that. It just was inherited or something? I mean, I had family problems. I had struggles was right. So like I, I've never drank alcohol before. I've never done drugs before. But I would people please people? I thought if I could get everyone to like me, that it would make me feel better about myself. So I would be a different person to fly than to red. People Pleaser. Then to deal. I was a big people pleaser. I was big. I chased money. I try to work a bunch

of jobs, good jobs and like tried to make money. I had side hustles. I chased. You ever thought you had BPD bipolar depression? No, no, no. I knew it. I know I didn't have bipolar disorder. But depression, depression. Depression? It's different. No, no, no. Bipolar depression. No, I don't, I, I never had that.

I had, there were circumstances and things in my life that were bringing me down and causing me to live in this hole of depression and anxiety. And how long did that remain like a year or something? Years. So for probably like four years, I had anxiety and depression. You know, when to go about that? I tried, I tried therapy and it didn't work. and I tried a bunch of different things. And that's why I asked at the beginning,

I was like, what is the good life? And, you know, a lot of things that you guys said was like, oh, big house, nice cars, money. Yeah, but I felt like the way you just put it now, it's like, okay, you're wishing for mental health also. Be happy. Right. So, like, I think happiness is a temper.

Like, I think happiness is different than joy, right? Happiness is within yourself. Happiness is like, I'm happy hanging out with you guys, right now. Yeah. I'm happy when I have a dessert. It's a mood. I'm happy. It's tipperary, right? It's a mood. But joyful. Joy is like something I was searching. I wanted this eternal peace and I was trying to

find peace in everything else. Like every human being has a hole in their heart and they try to fill the hole in their heart with other things. Some people do drugs. Some people do drink alcohol. Some people have a load of sex. Some people... Say devil talk to them. Do a bunch of stuff. Yeah. People do a lot of different

things. And for me, I had enough of it because I had tried everything I wanted to try and it didn't work. So that night, when I prayed to Jesus, I said, okay, Jesus, if you're real, take away my anxiety and depression. I'm at my last leg. This is why I want to take my life. And it was really this moment where I was just like, I've tried everything and nothing has worked. So Jesus, if you work, I'm going to get my life because I hated my life so much. I wanted to take my life. And instead of taking my life, I gave my life to Jesus. And I put my faith in God. So, you know, the Bible says,

Even demons believe in Jesus. Even demons know that Jesus is real. So there's a difference in believing in Jesus and following Jesus. Jesus says if you want to follow me, you have to deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow him. And what I was doing is I was living for everything else but Jesus. Money was a God in my life for a time. Pornography was a God in my life for a time.

People pleasing was a God for a time of life. Even sports, I would try to find escape of sports. Yeah, you know, maybe things I also had a problem with, but I feel like people like, and like your type of world, I would say, have like a problem with people like me and my brother just for the simple fact we're tatted. So we already get judged as not being super, you know, Godlike. That's a big, that's a big anxiety thing already there.

Yeah, well, I got tattoos, right? Yeah, but I think... We have a lot. So it's like they don't want to... Yeah, we're not considered yatted. Like... I'll just show you a picture of my uncle when you guys get done. He became a Christian in jail.

He has covered head to toe in tattoos. And he is the most humble. gentle, kind human being. The Bible tells us that God doesn't look at the outside. He looks at the heart, right? So there's a story in the Bible where the religion, God loves everyone. He does love everyone, right? He does. He loves everyone equally. He loves fly the same as he loves red, the same that he's he loves me. So, you know, basic, you guys know close, the price someone puts on a shoe or a shirt, because you guys like nice stuff, determines the value of it, right? So if someone's willing to spend $300 on shoes, they'll spend $300. If you find a t-shirt,

at T.J. Max for $10. Nobody's going to pay $300 for that shirt at T.J. Max because no one thinks it's worth it. So the question I ask myself is, what is the price that God puts on my life? How valuable am I in God's eyes? And the Bible would say his own life, right? We believe that Jesus is God and he died for you and me. That's how valuable God thinks. God thinks that your life is so valuable that he died for you. Well, that's one of the reasons why my brother and I, We don't really like the industry too much because it's so devilish. And, you know, we could have been in an industry if we wanted to. But we find it like demonic because it's so fake.

And it's just, it's devil talk. And, you know, they want you to be a puppet and they want you to do bad things. And we don't do that. We do what we want to do whatever we want to do and be free by the name of God. What is freedom to you guys? What does that look at? Freedom to me is that I get to wake up and I get, I get, say thank you God for letting me wake up and me moving with the joys of God and that's it.

You know, not not working on anybody's other time, puppets, these master puppet, you know, not being a puppet, not being controlled, not not not listening to these people because the industry is fake and it's all luminae and it's all demonic and it could absorb you and it could suck you up and dry you up and drain you and you over. Does the idea of letting God take the reins of your life, like take control of your life? Does that kind of scare you or no? No.

What did you ask? Yeah, so like when I became a Christian, right? Walking with God in my life? Yeah, before I became a Christian, it was all what Bryce could do for Bryce. I was control. I was the same way. I didn't like anyone telling Bryce what to do with his life.

Bryce likes to do what Bryce likes to do. And that's how to do it. Well, I realize that sometimes, even if I think I know what's best for me, I still do stuff that accidentally hurts me. I do stuff that hurts other people, accidentally, not intentionally. And so when I became a Christian, that's what it looks like to follow Jesus, right? Do you sin? Do I sin? Yeah, I struggle with sin. But. So what's it called? So how do you deal with it? Ask for forgiveness. So when it comes to sin, right, sin is what separates us from God. Jesus dying on the cross and he raised from the dead through.

three days later, he defeated sin and death. Well, it's something that you do that, because not everybody's perfect. What do you think that you do that you say? Well, I think it would be, I would think it would be impossible to say that every human being, a Christian or not, doesn't struggle. Everyone struggles. Everyone struggles with anger. Everyone struggles with lust.

Everyone struggles with pride. Everyone struggles with all the whole nine yards. But it's according to how do I deal with it, right? So before Jesus, I didn't give a rip. I was watching porn all the time. lusting after women, getting angry at people. I was having pride. I thought I was better than everyone.

I was greedy. All these things. When I became a Christian, and even before I became a Christian, all those things, really at the end of the day, I'm doing because I'm just trying to fill the hole in my heart. That's what I was doing.

I was just trying to cure my broken heart. So would you say God cured that hole in your heart? Absolutely. The peace that I believe every human being looks for in money, fame, sex, drugs, alcohol, all that stuff that people look for, I found just by giving my life to Jesus. The second I gave my life to Jesus, I found the peace I was looking for everywhere else. And it's not that I don't struggle, but here's the reality.

It's like, when it comes to sin, it's like, what's better? Do I want a sin? Or do I want Jesus and forgiveness? So the Bible teaches us that God gives us grace and forgiveness. Grace is a gift that you and I don't deserve, right? So I gave this example to fly earlier, but it's like, if I murder someone and I'm on trial in front of judge, I deserve to go to jail. I deserve to be punished for murdering someone. That's sin. Because we are sinners, because we do awful stuff, we deserve death and hell. We deserve it. We deserve to be held

accountable for our sins. Now imagine if you murder someone and you're standing on trial and the judge reads you your sentence and then someone from the crowd is like, hey, don't worry red, don't worry fly. I'll do your sentence. You guys go be free. I'll go to jail for you. It'd be pretty crazy. You know, it doesn't make sense. But you would know that that person, loved you. And that's what Jesus does. Jesus dies the death that we deserve to die because of our sin. But he defeats death. So no human being can defeat death. Red can't raise from the dead, fly can't raise from dead, Bryce can't raise from the dead. Jesus raised from the dead. He defeated the thing that holds us down in our sin. So if I put my faith in Jesus, the one that defeats sin,

and that the blood of Jesus, his blood that was shed on the cross that he died, gives me and cleans me of my sin, then I get to be with God for an eternity. Now, the Bible says, just because you have forgiven, does that mean that you go sin whatever you want? Because a lot of people say, well, God's going to forgive me so I can do whatever I want because he's going to forgive me. Absolutely not. He says, no, there's this thing called repentance, right? Repentance means a change in mind that leads to a change in action. So Bryce said, okay, Bryce doesn't want to lust anymore. I shouldn't lust. Bryce doesn't want to have pride anymore. He shouldn't pride. Bryce doesn't want to be greedy. I shouldn't be greedy.

So I ask God for forgiveness. I thank God that he is forgiven me. And I turn from that sin and I run the opposite direction. Wow. Every day. That's what repentance is. You have to every day. It's a choice every day. You got to make the choice. Just think about this. You ready? If you wake up first thing in the morning and you consume your iPhone, right? And you see a hate comment or you see a hate video or a hate DM. It makes you mad.

throws your whole mood off, right? Yeah. Because you just started your morning. That's like if you get, if you get into a fight with somebody, they win because even though you won the fight, they win because they're in your mind all day. So you, yeah, right. So you start your day off angry because that's what you consume. Yeah.

People's opinions change. Yeah. You guys know, you've had friends that like you one day and then the next day they hate you. Yeah. Because you become snappy. People are snappy. Yeah. But God doesn't change his mind about you.

So when I wake up in the morning and I start my day with prayer and. and reading my Bible, and I thank God for giving me. So God's your best friend. God's my best friend. He's my best friend. That doesn't switch up on you. And we do everything to go, yeah, he doesn't switch up on us. Yeah.

But that's what, every human being has the choice to choose to not only. How can you have such a relationship with someone that's not a actual person to talk back to you, have a conversation with you? Can I say one thing for what he's saying? Yeah, yeah, same. It's like a figure. Like, they called God. Like, you don't even know if that's actually his face.

I'm just asking you. Like, I didn't talk back. I agree. And I asked you that question at Chick-fil-A. Remember, how do you know, like, that's what he looks like that? But the thing is, like, like, when I was praying, right, you kind of have to use your subconscious mind as well, too. Like, what would God think?

So I have, I think that God's be. What would God say, you know? Yeah, I think. More like that. Right. So I think God speaks to us in four ways, right? The Bible actually tells us that God knew us when we were in our mother's womb. So when both of you guys were in your mom's belly, before you guys even existed out of the world, you were just in your belly. The Bible says, God knew you. And he formed you. Meaning God knows you better than you know yourself. So that gives me confidence that when I read my Bible or when I'm praying and I feel the peace of God to make a decision, that whatever God is asking me to do is far greater than what Bryce wants to do for himself. But the fourth four ways God speaks to us. The first one is the Bible, right? The Bible is the Word of God. And the way I view it is it. What's Bible? ESV. The New Testament, Old Testament, and the Bible is like a love letter God's written. Which one's your favorite? Which book? I love them all. You need all of them. Because

they all have so much wisdom. Like this book, the Bible, the Word of God, it has life. Like when I read it, It does something to my heart. It does something to my mind. And the Bible says, do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by renewing your mind. So if you don't want to do the things that you're doing, you've got to change the way you think by reading the Word of God. And you read all the books? Like outside of the Bible? Every Bible.

Like the Bible is 66 books. I've read the Bible. And the Bible is the best thing. Before I was a Christian, I read self-help books. Before I was a Christian, I read the whole nine yards and nothing worked. But when I read the Bible, I get this piece and I get this fuel. So the Bible, second thing, I believe God gives us signs, right? I believe God can give signs.

Third thing, I believe God can use people. So when you say you read the Bible, did you ever read the book 48 Powers of Law? No. I've never read that book. No. I know what it is, but I've never read it. I choose not to read it. Because manifestation, right?

is all about your own willpower, right? So manifestation is, how many times can Bryce write down this thing's going to happen? How many times can Bryce manifest this thing? And let me just say something. Manifestation works. Right. But here's the reality of manifestation. Manifestation doesn't care about you.

So if I ask God, hey God, I really want this thing. Can you give me this thing? But manifestation is a good thing, though. So I would argue, right, I would say that manifestation isn't a good thing. And here's why. we believe in Jesus and we communicate with Jesus. So if I say, hey, Jesus, I want this thing and I don't get it. I have to go, okay, God is protecting me.

If I manifest something, it doesn't matter if the thing that I'm trying to manifest is going to hurt me or harm me. I will get it. Manifestation does not care about you. If we're not communicating with God, then who are we communicating with? We're communicating with the devil. The devil wants you to have everything you want because it distracts you from seeing Jesus. Does that make sense? So the devil wants you to have.

have this stuff because he wants you to be blind to what true freedom is. So the world, the whole world, you know, you all the nine yards, the industry, the industry says, this is what freedom looks like. Money, fame, women, drugs, alcohol, that's for him. That's what the industry says. That's what the world says. The world would agree that that's what freedom looks like. But a lot of the richest people I know and that have everything at their fingertips are the most sad people I know. Yeah. Because they don't have Jesus. You think that's what it is? Absolutely.

Jesus is the Prince of Peace. If I had nothing, I would feel like I had everything because I have Jesus. You have to understand. That night I was going to take my life. That was the dirtiest, most broken version of Bryce. That night, I was going to take my life. No one wanted to be around that, Bryce. No one wanted to interact with him.

Bitter, angry, frustrated, prideful, greedy. That night I was going to take my life. I was the worst version of myself. That's the version Jesus loved the most The angry one The sad, broken, depressed, anxious, angry, frustrated, prideful

But here's the reality I was honest So I once I once cried one time And I was going through a lot And I was living in a trailer And this is before I blew up As an island boy

And I'm trying to blow up Right But I'm making a good amount of money You know I'm making about like a band a day Or something like that Like close there Sometimes 500

a bad day. So I'm doing okay, but I was very lonely, very lonely. You know, I had nobody around. My brother had this new girlfriend and so he went to go visit her and I was just alone and I was in a trailer and I felt like, and I said, I've no one to talk to, right? So I got on my knees, cried and asked for help to God and he answered my prayers the next day. Yeah. I believe that like, but why, why? Why? Why does he like the broken? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? why just it's like the broken me? People that think they know it all and have it all together, you can't do anything with the prideful, right?

Like, if someone is doing drugs, for example, and you're saying, hey, bro, you should stop doing drugs. But they're prideful, and they're like, I'm not listening to you. I'm going to listen to myself and I'm going to do whatever. Yeah. It doesn't matter how many great things you say to them, how many things you do from them, they're going to change.

The Bible says, blessed are the pure in heart for their. shall see God. What that means is, blessed are you for being honest and sincere with God? When you are honest and sincere with God, your reward is more intimacy with God. So what that means is, like, if I give 99% of myself to Jesus, but I'm withholding 1%, I'm still unknown. But if I give my all to God, he can do something about it. He can use my all. He can use my brokenness, right? Because my brokenness and my sin is binding me down. It's bogging me down. It's weighing me down. So I have to give it to Jesus. Like the world sin weighs on our shoulders. And Jesus takes the weight off of us.

Okay. But we have to live for Jesus. That's what he says. Jesus says, if you want to follow me, you have to deny yourself, pick up your cross and follow me. So there's this part where it's like, yes. I saw a thing that people when they're like into Christian entity, sorry, if I didn't pronounce it right. It's okay. Are a little come off delusional. So yeah, so I totally understand. So here's the thing, right? Like, it's, I'm very,

the way I think I'm very logical. So I'm like, I'm very evidence-based. Because I'm thinking, like, what if someone's way more? So would you say you're intellectual? I like facts. I like facts. Because the logical thing is intellect. I guess so.

I guess maybe I would label myself. Not intelligent, but intellectual. I like logic. I like logic, right? I like hard facts. I like facts. Yeah, but you're talking like God heals everything. You give everything.

You're all to him, right? What is someone's more broken than just a person that doesn't talk back, like I said? There's no broken that said Jesus can't heal. You have to understand. Wait, but I don't know, go more in details, right? What do you mean by that? Like, are you talking about a murderer? Like, what are you saying?

If someone's more broken, they just like, God could save them or something. If someone's more broken, God could save them or something. I don't think someone could say someone that's real broken, that goes to more pain. No, I know what you're saying. You're talking about like a homeless guy, going through addiction. Yeah, someone has more pain than head. So check this out, right? Am I lying?

Jesus' disciples, the 12 disciples, like those guys were not religious people, right? No offense, some people have gone through more than you. Oh, I know. Oh, I know. That's a fact. Yeah. So. But also, I know myself, right? No one can deny me. I've never walked in your shoes.

And I'll never be able to walk in your shoes. You know the crap that you guys have been through. You know the crap that you guys have done. You know the sins that were committed against you. You know the sins that you've done. Everyone has their own story. I'm not denying that. But even when you read the Bible, like Jesus is saving prostitutes,

people are leaving prostitution and following God. Seriously, like these broken people. I've seen like OnlyFans models went from OnlyFans to being Christians, yep. Yep. So there is, there's not someone that's too far gone, but that's what free will is, right? You just, you said it earlier to me and you

play. And that's when I think they get into the little delusion or something. Why do you think is delusional about following Jesus? Like, what was your facts behind it? Yeah, because like, why all of a sudden they commit so many sins and they're like, it's like a girl and they're like, when they went through so much with pregnancies and stuff like that, they laugh weird like, oh guys, this is a new YouTube video. I'm into Christianity and I pray now and I'm good.

I put my life to Jesus and you're like a whole light because of Jesus now that you put on, but it might not be like that on camera or something like that. Oh, I see what you're saying. Right, right. Yeah, because these girls, like you said, the only fan's girls. I don't talk about it. I can't speak on anyone because I don't know their heart, right? It says God looks at the heart.

So one day, every human being is going to stand before. God. And everything we've done, our words, our actions and thoughts are going to testify against ourselves. Meaning we can't lie. We can't run from the things that we've done and said. But if we've put our faith in God, he forgives us from everything that we've done. I have a quick question for you. So if God told you, hey, listen, you're going to live a very good, free, happy, joyful life, fruitful life right but you can't be it successful successful like the devil tells you that you will live

like all the richness all the everything that you want right that you said that you're going to beat your goals right what are you picking yeah I'm going to pick Jesus all day and just be okay with not having the richness here's a fortune it's just my perspective has changed right So before I was a Christian, I was greedy. Now that I became a Christian, I want to be generous.

And the Bible says if you're faithful with little, God can trust you with much. And I don't think that just has to deal with money. I think that that has to deal with a lot of stuff. But now my thing is, I don't want to be greedy. I want to give. I want to be generous to people. I want to serve people. I want to love people.

My perspective has changed. Do what? Do you mean that? Yeah, I absolutely mean that. Like, I seriously love people. I love Jesus. That's why I love talking about Jesus. That's why I love sitting down and having conversations on podcasts and even off camera about God.

Why is there not a lot of people like you? That would be a big change in society. Man, we just live in a wicked world. You know, people love. Yeah, some people are wicked. But we need a savior. That's the point. You're absolutely right.

The world is wicked. But we need someone outside of ourselves to save us. That's not going to take one person, but it will do something. That's why we need Jesus. There's this Bible verse in Hebrews chapter 12 verse 2. It says, and we look to Jesus Christ as the author and perfector of our faith, meaning the guy that we follow and put our faith in is Jesus. And then this is what it says. It says, for the joy set before him, he endured the cross. So the cross was where Jesus was crucified and killed.

It was the most gruesome death you could do back in that time period. It was like death row. And he's dying. And this is what the Bible says. It says, the reason Jesus endured the pain was not because he couldn't get down. Jesus was God. If Jesus wanted to get down on the cross, he could have done it. He was God.

So the reason he stayed on the cross was because he was thinking about you. And he was thinking about me. Yeah. It was love for you. I heard the worst thing you could do about for Jesus, like to the religion of Christianity, is making a mockery of it. Yeah. I mean, the last thing you would want to do is like mock Jesus, right?

But the one sin in the Bible that the Bible describes that God doesn't forgive is called the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. And this is my, there's a couple different interpretations of it. There's a, no one really knows exactly what that means. This is what I think the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit means. When God is trying to tug on your heart. Yeah. And you feel conviction.

Not shame, not guilt, you feel conviction. Like, I shouldn't be doing this anymore. I need to change. You need to give my life to God. And in this life, you just ignore the tug of the Holy Spirit. When you die and you stand before God, you can't do anything about it anymore. You see what I'm saying? The blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is rejecting what God is doing in your heart.

I would love to see how you would deal with like a custody case. What do you mean? Like if you had a baby and you were going through a custody case, how would you deal with it? I'll tell you what the Bible says, and that's what I would try to do my best to do. The Bible says to love your enemies and pray for those who curse you. He's so funny. You tell the judge that? that I want to love,

love people that hate me. Like, give me context. Like, I don't have context of a situation. So you have, like, you have, like, a babe mama that's trying to come after you. And you have,

she has a child, and she wants your money, and she wants, she's bitter. But what, what, how are you going to, how are you going to deal with it, manage it?

All right, I give you an example. Before I was a Christian, when I dealt with anything, if someone did me wrong, my initial reaction was to do wrong. Retali. Yep. Yeah.

It was if you hit me, I'm going to hit you and I'm going to hit you harder. That was my time before I was a Christian. Then when I became a Christian, there's this Bible verse where Jesus says, if someone slaps you on the cheek, turn them and give the other cheek. It's a metaphor. It's a metaphor. And what the metaphor stands for is don't return evil for evil. And so even though people are doing evil towards me.

Does that automatically make your enemy, your baby mom? Well, I'm not saying that it makes you, them your enemy. I'm just using that as an example, right? So when you're going through anything hard. No, I'm asking him because you put it that way. So people or people are doing you wrong, right? Because things would be shady, people can be wrong. Are you saying if I was in a custody case and someone was being shady towards me?

I guess not. Is that what you're saying? I asked if that makes you automatic, your baby mom automatic your enemy. No, no, no. It's just, I'm just using that as an example, right? Like, well, well, you are a defendant. You're supposed to defend yourself. Right.

So like, obviously like, hey, look, if you're going through a. What's your mind think about that. If you're going through a court case, like, man, stand for truth, right? Stand for truth. But I'm saying when it comes to character, like your integrity. And I heard what custody about is you're not supposed to go in with bitter or anger. Yeah. So like, just from truth, like when you're in a court case, right, like stand for truth.

Yeah. Stand for truth. For sure. But when it comes to character, like your character, love them. Be kind, generous. Pray for them. Encourage them, right? If I was going through something hard before I was a Christian, it wouldn't matter what it was.

I was bitter. Kind of like kill them with kindness. Basically. Yeah. Yeah. But like why the reason is like, so here's the example. It's like, why would I want to love people? This is, again, more questions that I asked myself before I was Christian.

Like, why would I want to love someone? And the Bible tells us the only way we're able to love people is because we have been loved first by God. When I realized that God loved me first by dying for me and paying the penalty that I deserve to pay for my sin, that love that God showed. me, encouraged me, and empowered me to love other people. Okay. So it's Jesus that gives me the strength to have peace and intense situations and to be loving in intense situations. By the way, you can't have no hate in your heart either.

Yeah, because like think about this. Like the Bible says, hey, murder's wrong. And then Jesus says, okay, you know how murder is wrong? If you're just angry at someone in your heart, you've committed murder in your heart. He says, just being angry at someone. It's like committing murder in your heart. That's, that's, that's, that's, that's, it's a Bible verse, right? It's a Bible verse.

The Bible says, the Bible says, like, if you're just angry in your heart at someone. Yeah. It's like you've committed murder in your heart towards them. Does that make sense? Of course, yeah. So he's like, he's like, hey, like love, if someone's done you wrong, like love them, pray for them, right? Because the same way, like, I get, I love what you said.

There's a lot of people that have been through a lot more. crap than I have. But I also know my life, and I also know what I've been through, and I knew how broken I was, and how lost and hopeless I was. And if I knew... How are you? I'm 21. If I knew what God could do with my brokenness, and I saw what God's done with my brokenness,

then I believe God can do that with anyone's brokenness. You see what I'm saying? No matter how big or small. So that is what encourages me to love people, pray for people, have the peace in my heart because of Jesus and interact with people. because even if I'm in an intense situation and someone doesn't know Jesus and they're doing me wrong

because God loved me that is encouraging me to love them the way God loved me. Can we talk about some? So Red, do you feel like there's a dark cloud over you by any chance? No.

No? Have you ever felt like there was? Yeah. Yeah. And what changed that? What changed me not thinking there's a dark cloud with my eyes yeah uh i guess you have to find yourself yeah i guess i saw heal i guess i saw life as a different perspective and i'm more grown now so like i see things for

what it is bro life is life be lifeing people go through things all the time it's on you whether you want to work hard or not or perseverance yeah you look listen when you're going through it and your back is all fucked up you still got to get up as a man Did you guys ever struggle with lust? What? Love, love, love. Lust, lust. Yeah, this is another word for like,

like, um, do you get, like you're talking about like someone's showing you like like like lust would be like sex, porn like like an addiction? Not even just addiction like that is that something you guys struggle with. Yeah. Like lust. I have sex. Like porn sex. Um, yeah, I don't.

I definitely did have an addiction with lust. especially when I was coming off of drugs Yeah Yeah talk about that Is it okay if we talk about it Can you open up about that? Yeah no I even told you in the car

There was a time where I was trying to Telling my mind was like I need to This girl on Monday And this girl on Tuesday I need this girl on Wednesday You can fuck this girl on Thursday This girl on Friday

Every week was a different girl And I had to make sure that I Friott them And that was my goal And I did And I just you know and if I wasn't you know I was jerking my

so yeah I was a lot that was my addiction just that's pretty much it like I just I cured one addiction to another and I was a lot

a lot straight if it wasn't if I couldn't get a girl that was like a normal girl I'd go to a strip club and you're allowed to them I'd fuck them pay I'd pay them I'd go to

in massage parlors where you had to the massage women wow I searched yeah I'd search up the Hispanic ones

and did you ever struggle with any like lust or like maybe I got a tug I didn't get a Spanish woman yeah massage parlor

so I when I was when I was in the fifth grade when I was in the fifth grade I was fishing on the beach I'd love to fish I like fishing too

and I got exposed to pornography when I was in the fifth grade. And you know what's crazy about any addiction is you never forget how you were introduced to the so-called drug, right? Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll never forget how I was introduced to porn.

No, for sure. Someone showed it to me. And in the fifth grade, that's kind of what happened to us. It led to, it led into this spiral of just like watching porn all the time and, like, struggling with lust and looking at women in a lustful way and like all that stuff. And it was so hard for me Because even something like that Like

Like that was one of many things That made me broken And like I wish I had help Like I wish I had help for myself Is that what she meant when you said You got it out of you? Like not even just lust

Like with everything But in particular But your mindset Your mindset doesn't change So if you see like a fine piece of girl Like you're gonna like You're gonna find her fine Right

I mean I don't really like I'm not even saying this because I think I'm like weird, but I don't like look at women lustfully. Like a figure, like a, because, because of, I have a girlfriend now and I want to marry her.

Yeah. And so I always pray, one of my constant prayers is like, God protect my eyes and allow me to see girls as your children and as your daughters. And not as a sexual thing. Because I want to respect them and love them, right?

Because God doesn't see them that way. That would definitely do it to you. God doesn't see them that way, you know? So it's like, I don't want to see them that way. And I also want to like protect myself for marriage one day. Yeah, but you're not God though. Pure. What do you mean?

Like, because God doesn't see it that way. So. Yeah, because God doesn't look at women in that way. I don't want to look at women that way. Did you guys agree to wait to marriage? Yeah. I've never had sex before. He never had sex.

He's a virgin. That's what he told me. Yep. I never had sex before. You agreed to that? Yeah. Yeah, I want to do that. I believe it.

Like lust. lust will blind you, man, sexual stuff blind me like porn. That was like a vice for me before I was a Christian. Because then when I started watching porn before I was a Christian, I thought love was sex. But I realized sex is a form of love, but that's not what love really is. The other question was, what is love? And then I realized love was Jesus laying his life down for me. Sacrifice, that's love.

Love is sacrifice. Love is a choice. Love is a choice I choose, right? So like, you guys know I love you because I choose. to be kind to you. I choose to serve you. I choose to be intentional with you. So you guys would know, okay, Bryce loves me, right? Yeah. The same way with my girlfriend. My girlfriend knows I love her because I choose to be kind to her. I choose to serve her. I'm patient with her. I'm gentle with her. She knows. You see what I'm saying? So like, that's what love was. But before I was a Christian,

I struggled with that. You know, and then I struggled with like a whole different things, anger, pride. You know, I list a whole nine. But the reason I brought that up was because I wanted to show you, like it doesn't matter what you struggle with like god can be the answer to everything that you're god can be the answer that you're looking for and everything else but him does that make sense yeah yeah yeah yeah you ever get horny and ever want to stick it in i mean bro i'm i'm a i'm a young man with testosterone right for sure but like i there's like practical things i can do right like i can go to the gym i love going to the gym and i work out hard the gym can take that away dude the gym can totally take out testosterone in the gym yeah yeah yeah

What if it's right there and you're like, damn, I got to let it rip. Second thing, glad you asked. Sexual sin is the only sin in the Bible that it says to flee from. It says to flee from it, right? So it says don't even put yourself in that position. Seriously. So I do not put myself in the position to make a dumb decision. Does that make sense?

Yes, sir. So if I'm like... You kind of distract yourself like from sinful acts. Like, I just... She's wisdom, right? Like, you know, like some people... It's like positive coping mechanisms. Some people can't lay down

because then they'll... With their girlfriend or with their boyfriend because they'll do something stupid. And sometimes people just need to stand up and get the blood flow. How do you lay down with your girlfriend? And she's wearing... I choose not to you. I choose not to you.

Now, I'm not saying that... Wait, if she's what? If she's like... If she's wearing like little booty shorts. Well, she doesn't really wear that. Like, she doesn't really wear those clothes. She respects themselves to wear like other things. Yeah, yeah.

especially like yeah she she respects herself to wear other things so it's a matter of like she's choosing to dress herself so was your girlfriend of christian before she met you yeah where did you meet her from i met her at a bible study that makes sense okay but like there's there's like two things right so like mattie is dressing herself in a way where she's not going to lead me to make a bad decision right and me as the man is not going to put me or mattie in a position where we make a dumb mistake. On top of that, right, as a man, I can control my testosterone and I can go work out hard at the gym.

I mean, it's not really that hard. I say when it comes to, like, lust, it's not that hard to give in, you know, if you make the choice and say no. You know, it's not hard. To having sex? Yeah, it's that hard. I would say if, you know,

if you're spending a lot of time with her, maybe. Well, again, yeah. just again, like what positions do you put yourself in? Use wisdom, right? And I don't think it's, I don't think it's hard to tell yourself, no. I don't think you have to go to gym all the time. I think you can tell you so know, you're good. No, sometimes it could be hard.

Yeah, so the Bible, the Bible, there's a Bible verse in. Not if you have, not this one. So there's a Bible verse in first Corinthians 1013. You have a lot testosterone and you have a lot in your nose sac, yeah. There's this Bible verse that says no temptation is overtaking you. That's not common a man. So with any sense. Not if he looks at a shit like a temple.

and it was like, like, okay, this is going to happen to marriage. Right. So your body is a temple, right? So whenever I sin against my body, the sexual sin is the only sin that you sin against your body, right? So if I were to commit sexual sin, I would be basically slapping God in the face. You're giving up. You're giving out.

Yeah. So everything in me with sexual purity, with my body and my health, with my humility, kindness, all those things. Like I I am choosing now You did all that For just that one moment To love God

Yeah To love God That's the goal It's disrespectful to God Yeah I want to love God With everything Yeah That's the goal

I get it Yeah You see what I'm saying So I feel like It's like a game He's playing It's like a relationship It is

It is It's a friendship A best friendship Best friend And it's the best You talk to him About everything Everything

Oh, you know, he knows everything. He knows everything, right? But that's the friendship aspect is right. But you got to talk to him. Yeah, you got to talk to him because he wants to be trusted. Do you study with your girl? Study, like, the Bible? Yeah.

We read the Bible together at like a coffee shop. I remember when I used to go to like the middle school or high school, like Christian churches and stuff, and it was fun because it was girls there too. But when it was down to pray like in a huddle, I'd feel really relieved after I opened my eyes from being closed and amen. I feel really relieved and like something just like warm like a warm blanket. Where? Yeah. Like Christ Fellowship. Oh yeah. Yeah. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yeah. I think there's just something beautiful about the piece that you find in peace in Jesus. And I find that piece like not even just believing in him, but like following him. You know, like just trusting him. Trust is such a hard

thing to do now. Yeah. It's hard to trust people. Yeah. But when you trust God, it's a best decision you can make. Even if it's a decision you don't want to make, like there's so many decisions that I don't want to make that I feel like God is leading me to make. And even if I don't want to, when I do... So you trust God more than your girl? Absolutely. I love Maddie. How do you know the difference between if it's God or the devil? Because I heard the devil could disguise this God. So the devil is always going to pull you away from Jesus. Okay. The devil's biggest thing, the devil already lost. When Jesus died on the cross, he lost. So the devil's... The devil was an angel before.

He was. Lucifer. He was at sea, God's favorite angel. And then he tried to rebel against God. Yeah. And then he fell, and now he's a devil. Because he's the devil. He wants, because he's already lost, he's going to do everything else to drag as many people with him.

Because he already lost. So he's trying to distract everyone from knowing what true freedom looks like. And true freedom looks like following Jesus. So have you ever seen the real pictures of an angel? Yeah, I've seen them like with the eyes all over them and the wings. Yep. Yep. Yep, those are cool.

That's a specific angel. It's called seraphim. Is that really true? So, right. So, like, it's interesting because, like, yes and no, right? Like, yes, in the sense that, like, whoever drew that picture is doing their best to draw the picture of an angel that's been described in words. But we have to understand, like, we're limited. We live in a finite world.

We live in a 3D world that was created. God exists outside of this world. So there are things that we can't comprehend or imagine that we've never seen before. So the angel might look completely different. But that picture... Have you ever seen what the devil actually looks like? The devil actually looks like an angel, too. Yeah.

So, like, you know, a lot of people think he's like a guy that's dressing all red with a bitch for. He's seductive. He's handsome. He's disguised. Yeah, because that's what he wants to do. That's the appearance of it. Is that crazy? He was handsome too.

Huh? God knew he was good looking too. I mean, bro, God loves aesthetics, right? But like why is he handsome? Why is he seductive, right? Because sin is seductive. He's trying to lure you in, you know what I mean? You guys have been in the industry.

Do you guys, do you guys have any of Illuminati stories? I mean, I told you, Cora Black Soda Soul. He did. I don't care what it was us. What is that? He's admitted to it in songs. He said, he said, he said, sometimes I got to sell my soul for them to pay attention. He's Haitian.

one number two when I called him he was acting completely demonic not godly okay and that was when he was hanging out all red he he he pha he phaicime me on red's phone and he said well what what's that right and I said it's the 17th my angel number he said oh yeah and I'm like yeah he's like what did I say I'm like I can't see it then he gets closer he says it's 17 then I say that it says 17 he flips the camera he smiles like a demon like this Passed the phone to Red and all I can feel is like he flew like a vulture. I don't know Red seen it, but like when he passed the phone to you like a man. What do he do?

What do he do? Did he fly or something? In the air? Because he was with him in real life. Red, what do he do? Because when he passed the phone, he did it quick. He flew in the air? When I came in. He's a demon.

When I came in, it was a dark, I put up to the hood. I'm pumping him. He didn't know I was 15. 30 minutes away in Boyne Beach. And he thought he had to fly me out. And I pulled up by myself. Nobody wanted to cover me. They're like, oh, I thought it was, I think it's a setup.

I said, I'm going to go link up with Yank. I pulled up on him. His brother leaves in a charger, like a regular RT. Yeah. It was a great one with tintet. Tens. I knew it was his brother. Sel Aviv.

He's a prison now. Yeah, his brother leaves. And Kodak just comes out with a skip joint. And it was, it was like, K2. K2, Spice. And he came out like a bat. Like I didn't see him at first. Like he's a devil. He lived in the shadow. Like he goes at this. It was very dark and then he came out and it was the yellow street like on us. And then he was talking to him and I popped a Percocet with him. And so I went to a strip club with him and so like that vibe to him.

And it was ever since that day, everything's been different. He acts normal, but the thing about is. A lot changed with my mind and stuff. The thing about it is he acts normal, and I'm pretty sure he acted normal, like, whatever. You got to know him. When you got to know him. But when you first seen him, you can't sit there and act like he did not look at devil. When you first dapped him up. No.

He looked like, to me, he was just like, it was like a rapper. I've been watching for a while, and I just appreciate it being in front of him. When you hung out with him, did he not feel like you knew him? like you knew him in the past life. I did. But I don't want to say a devil. I don't think he's a, you know. He's not a demon, but he sold his soul.

I get what you're saying. He's not a demon. Like, he's not a devil or not like that. But he sold it. So what I'm saying is he just believes in that. And that's what he, that's what he does. Gotcha.

But what I'm, what I'm trying, what I'm trying to state is like, you know, Coda, you know, I think Coda had something to do with a part of her career. And, you know,

I'm trying my best to get away. away from that guy because he means no good he really doesn't I think what he wanted read a night to do was he wanted us to crash out he wanted us to be because I and I got that sense from him because whenever he said yeah he's a yeah he's a yeah whenever he said whenever he ever whenever he said something like you better not you better not rat like you want me to crash out when you're a rat I heard you're a rat you're a rat and you're worried about me being a rat you're a rat he's a rat okay and he's the one that's trying to go with the street persona I'm not yeah okay so that that that life

me the fuck off and he said I talked to uh I talked to uh my mom my mom I should listen to my mom My mom said, no, I don't fuck with y'all and shit like that. I don't give a fuck. I don't get a fuck if you fuck with us or not. I don't care what your mom said. I don't care. You know, like, that's just how I feel. Do you guys, so you guys are, what do you guys do now?

Me, I do family content. So, me, I'm like, I'm on, I'm on a positive, no. I got a lot of haters. You can tell you that. I have a lot of haters. Just be, just by just being me. I literally just do family content and people don't like it. You know, my son was in the NICU for 43 days, okay?

I didn't know my son was going to live or die. Okay. So, you know, that was a, that was different. You know, I went through homelessness, addiction, jail, prison, all that. I went through heartbreak, all that. But this one was different. It was the most harshest time in my life is that my son was, and Nicky for the days, and I only missed one day of not going there.

And there was one day that I took place for my wife because she said she couldn't go because she was starting to get NICU psychosis. Because when you go in there, it's like really, really depressing. There's kids in every unit and they're all, you know, trying to survive. You hear, do, de, de, de, and they're all in cubes and they're little babies, you know. And it's very sad because you see a lot of sad things there. You know, kids with cancer, it's not a nice place to go to. And I had a, so I'm technically I was a NICU dad.

You don't think I was embarrassed that I had to sign myself in. I had to take a picture like this so I could get a tag and see my son every single day. You know, no, I was embarrassed. I was like, I wanted my son to be home. and I showcased it on the internet. I had, you know, I thought to myself like this. Like, when I was at, when I was at the hospital and they didn't discharge my girl yet, because at the end of the day, when your baby's going to NICU or not, they separate your baby.

But she's still a patient, but she just pushed the baby out. She had an epidural. So she's still a patient. So we're in the room alone, right? And then our baby's in a different unit in NICU until he gets transported to the real children's hospital. Right? So we're sitting there and she looks at me and she's like I want to be

I want to be a drug addict And by the way, she's not a drug addict Not one bit I said I would not allow that to happen So I didn't let that happen So I took all the hits I took all the hits So I went through it I had to know myself

I went through it because I didn't want her to go through it So I catered to her, treated her like princess. I distracted her mind. I made her life real good. I paid all the bill. I did everything for her just so she cannot stress. I would tell her, hey, baby, I go to NICU today. You don't have to go. I'll do things like that, you know, so she won't be stressed out because I don't want her to ruin her life because this, because we had two options. Number one, we're very famous and everyone knows that where's the baby? And I post already, hey, we're delivering the baby. It's already got 2 million views. Okay. So now they're expected the baby. So now the next one is,

where's the baby? Is he at home with you guys? Nope. So we decided to do it on YouTube and we talked about our life and we said, hey, our baby's the NICU. And we had two options. And one of them was to hide from the internet until our baby gets out to NICU. Can't do that. That doesn't sound like a therapeutic thing. That sounds depressing. Or keep doing what I'm doing and make this into a story. And that's why a lot of people hate me because when I first started Snapchat, I did the NICU thing

and I showcased my whole life on what it was to be a NICU dad, Nicky Mom. And she's signed into my Snapchat too. It's our Snapchat. So it's a whole team thing that we have. So she's doing Snapchat, as I'm doing Snapchat's.

So we're doing all that and we're showing what is it feel to be a NICU dad, Nicky Mom. And it was getting so many views that people were like, what the fuck? I've never seen something.

like this and we would go there every single day with a whole new surprise he's got this he's got that he's got this he's got this and that's why a lot of people don't like me but the funny thing about it is is my baby my baby was not in a nick you which you know i'm not stupid i knew my baby was going to end up being a nick you okay before he came out okay one thing about me is is that if my baby was not going to nick you i knew for sure and for a fact i was going to showcase him are anyways, NICU or not. So just because he was a NICU,

that doesn't mean that I'm exploiting my child. That just means that I was trying to start my family channel. And I've said it from the jump since I, since I, before my baby came out and was in the belly, I said, hey, look, I am doing a family channel. I am going to do a family channel.

Well, it's going to be on Snapchat or YouTube. I'm doing it. I did not think about the NICU situation. But guess what? The guess God throws you things and everything happens for a reason. So I did. So I showcase my NICU stuff and now I'm pulling 8 million views a day on Snapchat. Because I showcase that.

And that's why they don't like me because I'm winning. And they think that I used my child, my child because, uh, that had, that had issues when he was first was born. And they think I used my child for view for viewership and for monetization reasons. I did not. I was going to start a family channel anyways. So when in their airhead mind ever think that, oh, you don't think because he was in a nickname? You should have never have shown that? No, dumb.

We were going to have a family channel. I will showcase whatever the fuck I want to because in the guidelines and the rules of every applications, it never says you cannot post your child no matter what degree your child is on. So I show my kid getting physical therapy. I show my kid going to docks and porn. I show all that. Why? Because he's mine.

You don't like it. You can watch somebody else. He's mine. We were going to start a family channel anyways. What are you mad about? And then I'm going through my other daughter, and I'm getting parental alienation. I'm seeing her tomorrow finally after five months and not seeing her. Come on.

Praise God, man. Yeah. So I'm finally seeing her. And I'm going through that too. And I'm going through a custody battle with my other little girl. And she was a healthy baby. she never went through anything, right? And, but like, you know, man,

she, how I look at it is she's never went through anything, but if anything, my son probably lives a better life. Why he has two parents at home, okay? He gets catered to all day long 24-7. He's a great mom, okay? And I'm not here to be angry or nothing like that, but I don't know what's going on with my daughter. I don't know who's taking care of my daughter majority times.

I just know what I know when I was dating that woman. And I know how she was. And I feel sorry. So, you know, just because my daughter came out healthy, we, you know, at the end of the day, she needs her dad. Okay. And she's going to grow up one day and she's going to have her own independence. She's going to have her own mindset. I don't think of it.

And saying, ask her mom, why was I never with my dad? What's your answer going to be? What is, seriously, what is her answer going to be? Your dad was this, your dad was that. then why did my dad say that he was trying to see me my own entire life that's when they start having their own mind oh he's just lying to you but why does my dad take so much good care of me then oh because he just changed and then the daughter's just thinking i'm not stupid i know how life goes i i dude i could have been a fortune teller i can tell how things go so

you know give it some years i said i said it last night to uh my baby mom my first one i said give it gave some years and we're going to see what she says. Okay? Just like Kim Kardashian and Connie West, Northwest wants to move to Japan with Connie West. At first, Northwest loved her mom. Now the mom is like, I'm in distraught. I don't know how to feel.

She wants to move in with her dad. Yeah. She probably wants to move it with her dad because she probably feels like her dad's cooler. It happens. So you're, you have the family channel going, first of all, bro, so sorry that you were dealing with And my first baby mama, she's mad because she knows that if I had my whole family without her,

my first baby mom, right? And I had my own family. And I have no bitterness towards her. She could be part of it. I don't mind that at the end of the day because she is the mom, right? But she has to be nice about it. She has to be a nice woman. She has to be a caring woman, a cool woman.

But she's not being that towards me. She's not lenient towards me, right? What I'm trying to say is, like, she knows that if I had my daughter, I don't think anyone can say anything. Yeah, bro, I'm sorry you've been going through that. I don't think anyone can say anything. Dead beware. Dead beware.

She's trying to make me look like a deadbeat, but really it's parental alienation. I can show you text messages of me asking for my daughter every once a week. I would code. Every Monday I would ask for my daughter once a week. I finally got it to where she says, you can see her, but you have to see her with me. And it's only going to be me only. I said, woman, you have a boyfriend. Yeah, but it's going to be me, you, and Kalaya, because she told me she wants me there.

I said I understand that she might love you a lot right now because you taught her to love you. But what if I do the same thing too? We could spew all a bunch of things to a four-year-old and you could say, hey, you know I love you so much? Do you want anything? She's going to love you so much. She's not going to love someone that is not around them. She's not going to know how to love that person because she's not around them. So why are you blocking that blessing of mine?

because you're bitter and you're not letting me see my daughter. My daughter can love me just as equally enough as the mom. The only reason why she loves the mom more is because the mom is on the birth certificate and I'm not on a birth certificate. Okay? And the mom gets to keep the baby because the mom technically has more rights right now because I wasn't there. So,

but why are you blocking that when you know damn well that my daughter can love me just as much as you? You want a few control, huh? And I'm sorry you're going through that, bro. I'm really sorry. That's hard. Yeah, so. But you got the, man, I'm sorry, man. I'll be praying for you.

No, it's fine. And that's why I say it's like, you know, I had a son to heal me. And I think my son is beautiful. He is so cute. He is a blessing. He is the calmest baby ever. He is wonderful. And I just want to say, like, he, he healed a lot in my life.

Because I always wanted a boy. Always wanted a boy. But a girl, I don't mind. having to grow. I have the best of both worlds. I love my baby girl. They're two different, two different beings. I have a boy and I have a girl. A boy is going to be a boy. A girl's going to be a girl. So, and I know how to be a girl dad and I know how to be a boy dad. That's just me. I'm only 24 years old. I know how to be a dad in multiverse two different worlds. Red, what are you up to? What do you do? Basically, I live a pretty calm, peaceful life. Like,

mentally like trauma free so I don't have like baby mamas like I don't have a kid yet or anything like that I have a girlfriend I like going to the beach I like sun gazing

I know you're not into spiritual stuff but what's it called I like the sun I like the pools I like beaches I like providing content I do get a lot of hate as well is it different from him yes but what is it called I just deal with it how I can

And I pull big moves from who I am. I feel like I get downplayed a lot. And sometimes I fall for it, like a manipulation type of thing. I fall for, I fall very, like, low for myself. When I should know who I am as a person, I'm very valuable as a person. You know what I'm saying? My worth is very, my self-worth should be always high. So what's it called?

That took me some time to realize. Yeah. You know, like get out of a hole. Yeah. I feel like if I give you some advice. Yeah. I have, because you said something about like, you know, you get downplay a lot. I think that you should, oh, hey, open your mind more.

And it's, and I'm not saying that you don't, right? Open your mind more and open your ears even more. All right. I think your life forward would be fine. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. My mentor Marcus, he told me one time, he said a lot of people have a view of your life, but very few people have a voice in your life, right? So, like, my mentors, my roommates, like the people that see me day to day, they have a different type of authority. They kind of approach me with, you know, hard truth or stuff that lest things a little bit, you know, versus like people that see a view of your life. And, you know, even though if I hear something or see something on the internet that I feel might be true or something, I bring it to the people that are around me and say, hey, is this true?

Because I do want to change. I don't need to cut you up. But like I said, like everyone needs some type of guidance. So, you know, one information I downloaded my head that I knew that everyone in this world, right, we're all supposed to tell each other, hey, you're meant to do this. you're meant to do this, you're meant to do that, you're meant to do this, but nobody tells anybody or anything because everyone's so selfish. If we were a little bit more selfless, right? And, you know, but you have to be accepting, right?

You know, there's people out there that will guide you in the right area and mentor you in the right area, but you have to accept it, allow it, and just understand it. You know, is what I'm saying? So that's why I said, you know, you have mentors, but people like me and my brother, it's really hard for us to have mentors and it would probably be amazing we had mentors but it'd be hard for us to have mentors

because who... I traveled with him for like a year and a half. Who are we going to trust? It's hard. We have more trust issues than you because I don't know your life too much but me looking from the inside, you know, from an inside glass house

I'm looking at you like you don't really have a problem with trust I could tell. But with him and I we have a harder time with trusting people but like I said if you find the right person Do you have trust issues?

I think I have the levels of trust issues right? Like I could agree with you to exist by saying like sure I think God has healed a lot of my trust issues because when I trusted God I realize that there are people that I can trust because I learn to trust God

right like I trust Marcus I trust my roommates I trust my team like those people How long you've been with your team? These guys for well I've known them before we were a team we were just friends for years It's good.

You know? So like I have those brothers. See a lot of it or day one stays switched up on us. But that's why I said like if you have the right person to guide you, you're going to be successful no matter what. Like I said, Red, you have a lot of potential, a lot of potential. And if you have a little bit of guidance and a little bit of mentorship, I'm pretty sure you're going to be way higher than you think. Yeah. Last thing I want to ask you guys about was, and I would love to pray for.

you guys to just to kind of close it out let's get it would uh do you guys still do only fans how long have you guys been on only no no no we don't do only fans anymore how long when did you guys start like what would y'all were on there for a little bit right we were on there for like eight months something like that they got banned

what was that why did he get banned because they I talked about this I talked about this in the car because they thought that like they the feds came to only fans and said it's either you're going to have these two

twins, racking up millions, or your multi-billion dollar company is going to be, is that we took down because we kissed each other and they had a problem with it. Yeah, wait, why did you guys kiss each other if you don't mind me asking? Like, what, what was that about? That's the devil right there. That was the devil and that was greed, money greed, money, greed, money, money, greed. So you guys kiss each other for the greed. For the money, for the money, for the money.

Gotcha, gotcha, got you. And it was, and that's when I realized that money, when I was making, that's, that's When I was making a mill to 1.5 mil a month, I think he was making a little bit less than me because he started after me. But he was going to start making a lot of money. They got me banned from OnlyFans, unbanned. Isn't it crazy though? They got me unbanned from OnlyMil and at the time.

Isn't it crazy though how even in the chase for money? But I was going to say, but the money that I was receiving, it didn't feel right. Didn't feel right. You felt convicted about it. I did. Yeah. I felt shameful. I felt guilty.

And I felt, I felt, I felt not fulfilled like, not a fruitful, like, like amount of money, all that big money that I made. I'm like,

it looks good. It's amazing and everything, but I don't feel like it was well earned. Yeah. I don't feel like it was well. So I was very shallow inside, very empty inside. And I wasn't taking no drugs

and anything like that. I was making a joke instead of the devil's play money. But it was, I think it was the stupidest thing. I think I look at it more like it was just, because I'm going to tell you, this right now. I was making 1.5

million a month. Oh wow okay just for kissing each other? Yeah yeah yeah oh my goodness and do you guys feel bad that the video is still on the internet or like that people still talk about it or like you know because I go through my day don't care can I tell you something yeah I knew my own family was gonna get banned I knew it because like I said I already talked about it. Praise God I felt guilty I knew I'm like there's no way in hell God is not going to allow this

Well, sometimes it takes him taking it away, you know, to get to get it going like, you know what I mean. But isn't it crazy how what you said, how you guys kissed each other for the sake of money and greed. And it still didn't even fulfill the hole in your heart. No. You know what I'm saying? Like there's. We thought we thought it was a great idea, a great decision. And it was.

It got into gratification, but it was stupid. Stupid. Crazy. It was. It just like, you know, it's basically like, you might as well just clear, clear the table. with the money, just clear it out and you take it. It was stupid. It was dumb. It wasn't

something like I would say was joyful money. I would say joyful money was more like when we first blew up and we were making 300K a day. Of music. So I'll be honest with you, we were making more money when we blew up than Onlyfans. For sure.

People say, Adam was didn't blow up. Yes, we did. Yes, we did. Yes, we blew out of that song. That's how we got the name. And we didn't just, blow up off the song we blew up off our image alone so look a rap rapper will blow up off their song but they won't blow up because of their song so you might know a lot of rap songs and you might not even know the rapper but they have a hit song but with us you're gonna know it's us because we made it more of an

image thing a viral mean thing get what i you get where i'm coming from so we were mean we're mean stars, but we had a hit song. So how does that go together? Almost like a soldier boy thing. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? So basically where I'm getting at, it's like, that felt earned. I will admit to that.

That, that when we were making 300K a day, that was earned money. It most definitely was. They, they were worth for it. Did we spend it on stupid shit? Yeah. I know. We didn't spend it on stupid shit. Do I feel like that we was like young?

Yeah, young and dumb. You know, praise God, it got taken away. That's a, that's a great thing. I'm glad you guys, you know, felt convicted about it, got rid of it, and things like that. That wasn't the only fan's money. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, praise God.

I mean, that's just evidence. Like, man, there's no amount of whether it's like money, drugs, alcohol, substances, whatever it may be. By the way, I'm completely against OnlyFiance on. You are? Like before or after? Now. Praise God, man. It's literally porn.

It's literally porn. I'm completely against OnlyFans because I do not believe it is, it's a dollar sign that you make out of whatever you're selling. You're selling yourself. You're selling your soul. That's how I look at it. And you got a dollar sign. That's Illuminati right there. Yeah.

Well, praise God for that decision you guys made. Can't, you care if I pray. Does your girls to do OnlyFans? Yeah. I can't be a guy. I tell her she doesn't have to. Yeah. But it's a dollar sign, right?

It's a dollar sign to her. Yeah. Yeah, I mean, you know, we talked about it earlier. But she doesn't like, she doesn't, she doesn't, she doesn't look at it. Right. I get it. Well, we talked about it earlier, right? And I was the same way.

I did, I did it, and I wouldn't look at it. I'm the same way. Yeah, you know, right? Same way. I would go there to withdraw the money. I do it with a lot of things I do. But I wouldn't, I, I hated the fact of even going on it. Yeah, I mean.

And especially doing it. There's no amount, like, you know, the money doesn't go with you when you die. I remember doing, no, there was no enjoyment. There was no enjoyment. And, yes, the money that you make on there or any money at all, it doesn't go when you die. So like, like I said, like, I feel like I'm doing good now because I don't, like, now I don't even look at my bank account. I don't. So you just, what do you do, like, for financial advisory?

Like, do you have a financial advisor? No, I simply just don't, I spend 20% of what I earned. I don't, I don't look at my bank count because if I look at my bank count, it's either going to stress me out or it's going to make me go crazy. Gotcha. Gotcha. I don't you need that stress? Huh?

Don't you need that stress? No, because I work anyways. Oh, okay. Yeah. That's a good answer. Well, dude, thanks for, guys, I mean, thanks for coming on the pot. Thanks for hanging out and talking. You care if I pray for you guys before we'll get on?

Let's do it. Man, Jesus. Thank you so much. for flying red. God, we thank you that you love them and that you made them in your image, God. We just ask that you continue to encounter them, send people their way to show the love of the father

to them. God, would you give them dreams and visions that Jesus, that you are Lord? God, would you allow the word of God that was spoken today to seep into their hearts and impact their hearts? God, we thank you so much for their lives. We bless them in Jesus, mighty name. Amen. Amen. Guys, thank you so much for watching and listen

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