The Catechism in a Year (with Fr. Mike Schmitz) - Day 328: How We Pray (Part 4 Intro w/ Sr. Miriam James Heidland) (2025)

Episode Date: November 24, 2025

In this fourth and final pillar of the Catechism of the Catholic Church, we learn how to take everything we’ve absorbed this year and apply it to our relationship with God through prayer. Sr. Miriam James Heidland, SOLT joins Fr. Mike Schmitz to talk about how to pray, some common obstacles to prayer, and some of the incredible fruits of prayer that await us if we put the next thirty-seven days of guidance into action. This episode has been found to be in conformity with the Catechism by the Institute on the Catechism, under the Subcommittee on the Catechism, USCCB. For the complete reading plan, visit ascensionpress.com/ciy Please note: The Catechism of the Catholic Church contains adult themes that may not be suitable for children - parental discretion is advised.

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the fourth and final pillar of the Catechism. To help me introduce Pillar number four, I have a very special guest with me, Sister Miriam James Heidland. So, so grateful that she's here right now. But Before we get to Sister, a few reminders, I'm using, as always, the Ascension Edition of the Catechism, which includes the foundations of faith approach. It is incredible, Sister, and I were talking about how beautiful and amazing this is. But if you don't have it, you can follow along with any recent version of the Catechism of the Catholic Church. You can also download your own Catechism in your reading plan by visiting ascensionpress.com slash CIY. And lastly, you can click follow or subscribe in your podcast app for daily updates and daily notifications.

Today is 328, and we are welcoming. Sister Miriam James, sister, thank you so much for being here with us. Hi, friend. I'm delighted to be here. I recognize whenever I talk with you, how quickly I talk, because you're always so calm. And you have this sense of like just joyful peace. And I think, wow, I am scrambling like. Well, people often compare the two of us because I think when I get going, I get really going.

And they're like, between you and Father McMits, I can't listen to a podcast at one and a half speed between the both of you. Like, I have to slow it down. So I think we're in good company. I think it's a sign of a bright mind. That's what I like to tell me. Also, it's a sign of a mind that gets bored really quickly. So I need to speed things up. So sister, I, we know each other for a number of years. But I'm guessing there's some people who might be listening who don't know you or your story. Would you mind just how did you come to faith? How did you become a sister? Maybe something like something like that? Sure. I'm a member of the Society of Our Lady of the Most Holy Trinity, the Salt community. And I had been a member of my community about 25 years. And, I grew up Catholic. My parents, we went to Mass every Sunday, and I think, you know, we went to CCD, all of the church functions, but I never fell in love with Jesus. And I didn't know that was really a possibility. And in our home, I talk about this very often, is, you know, it was almost kind of fear-based. It's like, you don't do this, I was going to go to hell. And I learned some of the rules of Catholicism, but I didn't learn about the heart. And so I played Division I volleyball in college. I wanted to work for ESPN. And during that time, I just also had kind of a pretty major meltdown in my life. and God sent a Catholic priest into my life who, when we would talk about the catecas

and we talk about prayer. I mean, my mom and dad were wonderfully holy, but there was something about Father that was just captivating of that man loved Jesus and I'd never seen anything like it. And I know that's my great love of the priesthood. And so I graduated from college, and before I started to work in the media,

I went to one of our missions. And it was there that I heard Jesus call me. And so that was 25 years ago. Wow. And that was, I mean, 25 years, that's the very beginning of a journey of healing and restoration. So I do a lot of work when healing retreats and things like that, a lot of work with priest and religious sisters in the

area of healing. So that's a great honor. And that's so awesome. So incredible. So thank you so much for all you're doing. Now, we were brainstorming. Like, who could, who should be the person that we get to talk with about this fourth pillar? And it was hands down. I was like, if we can get Sister Miriam, that would be the best. So I'm so so grateful that you're willing to say yes and make this time. When it comes to this fourth pillar of the catechism, or even just when it comes to the catechism in general. I guess I don't know if it wanted to be too forward about this, but how has the catechism been part of your life? Now, you could say, like, I don't even know. It's not really part of my life. But I imagine it has been. How is it affected or influenced your life? Sure. I think

for me, it was actually in graduate school. So I did a master's degree in theology with the August Institute. So I've known Dr. Sri for a very long time. And it was during, I mean, because you know, use the catechism as a resource. For a long time, I thought of it as a resource. And so, you know, you'd plan a talk or you'd want to give. about teaching, and you'd pull like the appropriate quotes from the catechism. But in the class on mystogogy, we had to read extensive portions of the catechism, like long. And I remember sitting at my desk, just reading the catechism, and I just remember finding myself weeping. Yeah.

And I just, I would just close the book. And I'm like, this is so beautiful. Like, Archbishop Fulton Sheen, you know, very few people leave the church because of what the church teaches, but what they think the church teaches. And I'll make, this is stunning. And I just want to be like, come downstairs, like, does anybody have any idea about me? So it's gorgeous, and even reviewing this section for this time with you today, I just, I'm like, Jesus, I love you. Like, this is so beautiful, heart, mind, body, and soul, like, our faith makes sense.

And the Lord's not asking us to deny our intellect or to deny the deeper recesses of our heart, but he's bringing us into union and communion. And that's really what prayer is about. So I think we're going to talk about it's not something we do. It's a relationship, and it's who we are with the Lord. That's so good. And especially, so everyone as part of this community, the Catholicism and your community, in your community yesterday, for them, was the last day of the third pillar.

Okay. And life in Christ. Yes. And it was, you know, when I talked to Dr. Mary Healy introducing that third pillar, we know we had kind of shared that there's going to be some challenging pieces to this. There's going to be some aspects where every one of us, we all have our preconceived things or our preferences. We have kind of our things that are like, oh, yeah, this is what everyone should do.

And other things that were like, I don't want to do those things. And yet now we're making this transition from, okay, here's how. we're called to have a life in Christ and conform our hearts to Jesus's into this section on prayer where that's, in so many ways, that's how our hearts become more and more like his. Yeah, of course, living, like, according to his commands, but also, like, knowing his heart and just, because it's all God's grace. We're just cooperating with this. And so, especially for those who are just, yesterday was day 327 and they press play and they heard the end of that moral life, especially if they find themselves still convicted, I think, or still maybe challenged more

than they are consoled, that I think that there is a word of hope here, too, is that's like, okay, you're not done if you still struggle, that the life of grace is theirs. And we move forward by developing this relationship, right, in deepening this. So if it's okay, before we go any further, if we just say a prayer, that'd be okay. And then we'll launch into this fourth pillar, this last section of the catacism. We'll just pray in the name of the Father, Son, Holy Spirit. Amen, Father in heaven, we give you praise and thanks. In the name of your son, Jesus Christ, we ask you to please receive our thanks. Receive our praise this day.

I thank you for the community who have been pressing play. I thank you for all of us who have been journeying through these first three pillars of the catechism all the way to this day, to the beginning of this fourth pillar, this last installment, essentially, of your teaching, your self-revelation to the world. We ask that you, please, on this day, remind us that. you desire not merely that we know more, but that we love more, not merely that we have more information, but that we allow you by your grace and by our cooperation to have transformation in you. Help us to be more and more like you. Lord God, meet us in our frustrations, meet us in the dryness of prayer, meet us in the battle of prayer, and meet us in this moment as we open our

hearts to you. Fill those hearts with the fire of your love and help us to love you and to of our neighbor better. Help us to be prayers because Lord God, we do not know how to pray as we ought. So send your Holy Spirit now and always. And we pray this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen. The name of the Father's Son, Holy Spirit. Amen. So, sister, as we launch into this fourth pillar of the catechism, so there are some people probably who have never experienced or encountered read this section. So what can they expect? What are some of the main themes or takeaways of the fourth pillar on prayer? there's so much to there's so much to glean here and there's so much just to sink into

when I read it and was just praying through it for me it's such a beautiful revelation of the history of prayer of the rich culture of prayer that we have and I think today especially in kind of contemporary society there's all these ways to pray and they're outside of our faith tradition and we as Catholics don't even know that our own tradition of prayer and so I think going through it and seeing it and just seeing all the beautiful reiterations of the ways we pray and even back from the Old Testament in Genesis when God comes in search of Adam and Eve. And you see that call and response

from the very beginning. We see just the human heart at prayer. So this is not something that we're going to put on our to do list of like, I have to get my prayer in, but who we are. It's a response to the relationship that we have is Adam and Eve awaken to relationship.

You and I in our hearts, we're meant to live in relationship. And to me, that's the hallmark. It's just so incredibly beautiful. I can't wait to dive into it. Well, as you mentioned, everything you're saying, I'm like, oh, that, and this, and this. Like, so example, the call and response.

one of the real revelations or deep revelations of in this section, but also I think in the other pillars as well, is that I think we're going to hear today, prayer is always a response. Yes. It's always God's initiative. And can you say something about that? Sure. Well, the man's creation is a response to God's goodness. Like the very first paragraph of the catechism, you know, one of my professors,

the Guss Institute would always talk about that, that, you know, our creation is a response to his own blessed life. And that's why God calls out. So he's always the initiator of the gift. We say that theology of the body, that the man's initiator of the covenant, man, you know, God's initiator of the covenant, he's initiator of the gift. And we as the bride and whole are responding as the bride to the gift of the bridegroom. And so God's desire, any desire that we have for prayer, any of a desire for a desire,

maybe one day have a desire. It comes from God. So we don't have to, as Father Mark Toep says, we don't have to do the heavy lifting. Right. Everything we have is gift. And it's, it's like terrifying for us because it reminds us that we're so little and we're not in control, thank God. But it's so beautiful because that means every aspect of my life is under the sovereign lordship of the Lord Jesus Christ and he comes to reveal himself at all times. And that's

beautiful. I love this. So if God is the initiator and all our prayer is always a response. Yes. How does how does that change how we approach prayer? Like how is that how does that change how you approach prayer when when this this truth is not just kind of like, oh yeah, yeah, I know, God initiates and I respond. But how has that changed your prayer to know that. this deep and profound truth that, like Father Mark said, God's doing the heavy lifting. We don't have to do that. Oh, I think it gives us, well, it gives us great comfort,

I think, on a human level that this is not all up to me. And many times I think it does feel like it's all up to us. And we probably all shut up to prayer at times and be like, Lord, anytime you want to do something, like I'm doing it. Like, you want to, you know, it's just so great. We're just so little like that. But the truth that God is real, that this is not, we're not manifesting to the universe,

and some random intention that we hope the universe hears and responds, but we're speaking to a real, a person, divine person. We're speaking to Jesus. We're speaking to the trium God who makes a covenant with us who dwells within us. And I really believe, Father Mike, like I really believe when St. Paul says, you know, to pray without ceasing, he's talking about the wine cellar like in the song of songs. He's talking about the constant communion of the covenant that God makes with us that we can't make with ourselves, that God gives that to us, and he brings us into his own divine life. And that changes. That means I'm never alone. That means for all the experiences you and I have had of abandonment

or rejection or fear or shame or overwhelm, it stands right in the face of all those human experiences that God says, God is who He says He is. And that's Scripture, right? That's Bible in a year. That's God is who He says he is. And the more like Moses, I come into agreement with that and the truth I'm learning more about God,

then I rest more deeply, and then the truth of my being comes alive. And that changes everything. So it sounds like one of the things you're saying is the relationship is the key here. Because it's not, you're not just going through the motions, you're not just saying these words. In fact, Mike Gormley, you know, Gomer? Yes.

He's so wonderful. He's so great. He at one point, I remember he was years ago, and it stuck with me. He said, as Catholics, we weren't necessarily taught. He said, we were taught how to say our prayers, not how to pray. Oh, amen. And so that sense of, like, what we were saying is, no, the way we pray always is by living in this relationship with God.

So it's the matter of he's always initiating, and we always have the opportunity to respond. I love the idea, not the idea, the truth. that if God is initiating always, we never have to fight for his attention. Oh, that's a good word. That he's doing the heavy, that's the heavy lifting is the only thing. It's why it always reminds me of the very first paragraph here.

I think it's the first paragraph. Yeah, it is where St. Therese says, for me, prayer is a surge of the heart. It's a simple look, turn toward heaven, cry of recognition of love, embracing both trial and joy. That sense that she just gets to look at the father, he's already gazing at her. Yeah.

And he's already the one moving. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. And that's a beautiful relationship between us as children, children of a good father. Yeah. And if there's somebody really real on the other end of my conversation, if there's somebody who's really receiving and who really, who then is responding to me, that's a very different dynamic. And I love what you say. I really believe that we have to, we grow from just saying our prayers to becoming men and women of prayer. Yeah. That we are men and women of prayer. Like, this is our life versus, yeah, I did my, I did my thing, or I said my prayers. Or yeah. And then it's so divorced from the rest of our life. Like, that's the integration. that Jesus is calling us to, because when you look at how Jesus lives, he's teaching us how to live. And prayer with his father is at the heart of his life. And he lives from his relationship. He doesn't get his identity from his mission. We're not trying to get our identity from our mission most of the time, but he's living from his relationship. And from that relationship, and from that intimacy

comes the mission. And he's teaching us how to be human. So we're always taking everything. We're looking at Jesus. And how does Jesus live? Okay, well, if he's living like this, this is how I want to live. Yeah. And so you mentioned that relationship precedes. So RIM is the acronym, right? Yeah, yeah. And so especially for those who are like listening to this, a lot of times it says the acronym is RIM, and so relationship, identity, mission. But a lot of times when we're coming before the Lord, we come, we base our identity off of our mission, right?

The work I have to do or the role I have in life or the role I have in the church, and that gives me my identity. But what happens when that leaves. And so we live it backward. We live this backwards. And so what we're called to is that relationship, we are adopted sons and daughters of the Father, that gives us our identity as children of God, and then we can live a mission, and that mission can change, but the relationship always is the source of our identity.

Is that, for you, when it comes to prayer, is that one of these themes that we are going to hear again and again throughout this pillar of the Catechism? We are, because the whole reality is rooted in the depths of our heart, which, like it says, like we talked about in Catechism 2563, it's the heart. It's the heart. So good. Could you read that for us? Yes, so 2563, which I love.

And this is, I think, shocking, of Catholics are going to be like, what the church teaches us? Because we have to speak about the heart because, as you know, scripture is replete with heart language and Jesus speaks to us about the heart. And so when we talk about the heart, we're not talking about passing sentimentalism or what I'm just feeling strongly.

I mean, God gives us emotions. It's a whole other talk, right? On emotions, and they're given to us to emote to be able to choose what is good, true, and beautiful. But when we're talking about the heart, you're talking about the core. And what happens in our hearts matters. and what doesn't happen in our hearts matters

because it's from that reality that everything else flows. And so it says that the heart is the dwelling place where I am, 2563, the heart is the place to which I withdraw. It's so gorgeous. The heart is our hidden center. Beyond the grasp of our reason or of others, so great.

Only the spirit of God can fathom the human heart and know it fully. The heart is a place of decision deeper than our psychic drives. It is the place of truth where we choose life or death. It is a place of encounter. And because as image of God, we live in relation, it is a place of covenant, the pillar on prayer is going to unfold from there. Yeah.

Because that's, and I love that we start with that, because that's not at the end and say, oh, by the way, the disposition of your heart matters, it's saying, oh, no, no, no, this is why Jesus says, you know, from the fullness of the heart, the mouth speaks, wherever your treasure is there, your heart is, and so this, it's the core of us and what's going on within that sacred place is so important. Yeah, the heart is the place of encounter, a place of a decision. And there's this, the place to which I withdraw, like, all of those. and yet how

how tempting is it sometimes to just say our prayers like just how tempting is it sometimes so as a priest we make a promise to pray the liturgy the hours five times a day and make a promise to

we want to say mass every day we want to offer you know want to live a life of prayer but so often the temptation is in the midst of busy busyness is you just stay on the surface as opposed to actually withdraw to the heart and it's one of those you mentioned

that there's all these different ways that we can pray as Catholics there's different devotions and different tools of prayer. And sometimes we can rely overly on the tool as opposed to allowing the tool to get to our heart as a vehicle to get to our heart. I remember someone I know pretty well

who used to have prayer cards and had a stack of prayer cards. And after Mass would just pray through the prayer cards. And at some point I remember just thinking and maybe asking, so is that your prayer? Like that was, oh, I'm saying my prayers. I'm just praying the prayers in the back of the prayer cards. And no, that can be fine.

Sure. If that's resonating with their heart and it's actually the tool that helps them get to that place of depth, then that's wonderful. But I think sometimes it can become a trap because it can become the excuse or that maybe even like the, I would say, like the boundary that, okay, God, you can't come past this. Because what happens if I put the prayer cards down and I just talk to the Lord? Yes. Then am I overly vulnerable in that moment? But again, at the same time, it can be great. I think of us when it comes to Psalms, that in the Psalms sometimes I'm praying the Psalms

and it's like, yes, that's what my heart wanted to say. Yes. But sometimes it also can be service. So I guess we can be here or there when it comes to that. Well, Ben, and I appreciate the catechism talks about vocal prayer, meditative prayer, contemplative prayer. All these different kinds. And so there's a symbiosis of things that are happening there. And I think, yeah, I think all of us, that's why the heart matters.

So I think we have to ask really. And some of us were never taught to pray that way. Some of us as Catholics were taught to pray the rosary, and I love the rosary, I prayed every day myself. But so the vocal prayer is like the high point versus like the part of the rosary is to lead us into union with Jesus is to become one in his mysteries. And so I think we can always look at our hearts and say,

okay, am I using anything in my life, whatever it is to make sure that I don't have to go deeper and to know that many times the things that we don't want to talk about are the very things Jesus wants to talk to us. And you're like, oh, I'm really not. Also, I'm really grateful for you for many reasons. But one is that last thing. I wasn't trying to throw shade or criticize the tools of prayer of like prayer cards.

Because you say, no, the church will go on in this pillar to talk about there are many forms of prayer. And they all can be useful. Yes. At the same time, will I ever use any of these forms of prayer as a way to keep God at a distance? Or will I let them be what they're meant to be? which is they'll give God access. Yes. Access to your heart.

Why do you think the catechism devotes an entire pillar to prayer? Because it's everything. It's like you said, it is our relationship with Jesus. It's not just what we do. It's who we are. It's helping us grow in union with Jesus. And if that's really what Christianity is about, the Holy Spirit, configuring Christ in me, like sanctifying me.

So he was making Christ present in me. And I look at how Jesus' praise. And that's what Jesus does. And that's what I want to do as well. And I read, I read somewhere that actually, you know, people say that you should read this pillar first, that you should really read the pillar on prayer first. And then from that lens, go back to all the other pillars of the catechism, because that's going to help us understand why does the church teach what it does on the catechism, or on the sacraments, on the moral life, on the creed, because it's going to frame everything in that relationship with the Lord. Because, like you said,

beautifully, that love is challenging. And there are things that as we read this, thank God. I mean, we should always notice on our heart what captivates and what challenges us because it's telling us two different places of our heart. And so love to be excellent and love to be in the school of love, which is a disciple, it's purifying and it's challenging. And if we don't have that continue to anchor, and we can wrestle, like, wrestle all you want. And if we don't have that continued anchor of like, all right, I may not understand this. This is beyond my comprehension at this time, but I'm going to trust because God is good, I'm going to let it purify me to become more excellent and more loving. And so this pillar

on prayer. And I know it's easy when you do a series, kind of like the end series has a least amount of listeners. But I hope, I hope people come back around because this is going to be really important. And then take this and listen to the whole thing again. It's going to be really important. One of the things we did for RCA is, so I teach RCAIA up at the university. And we used to save prayer for the last two nights of the whole course. And it was going to, oh, by the way, talk to this God you're learning about. And so then what we did is we refashion it so that every single night we meet for RCAA. We have another aspect of prayer because it's one of those situations where it was if I just am learning facts about God, but I'm not

living this relationship and I'm not being taught how to have that relationship, how to pray then it remains hollow in some ways and the heart is missing in some ways I would say. That's very true. And it's one of the beautiful things when you teach children how to pray and you look at things like catechosis of the good shepherd and the children are entering with their heart, the tactile and they're entering with their heart and they're learning about who Jesus is. And you can see them, you know, you can see them just kind of go into themselves and just really ask the like, Lord, Jesus tell me. And that part of our heart, which we don't ever adult out of. We look at Jesus, who's a grown man who still goes into the inner room, to the

quiet, to pray, into solitude, not isolation, but into solitude. And all of us need, all of us need solitude with the Lord. Every single person, no matter what you're doing in life, we all need that solitude with the Lord, because that's when Jesus reminds us again of who we are. And he refreshes that grace is of our covenant and brings us into deep reunion. So solitude is something, you know, I think it's fascinating that in our culture right now, we're lacking both solitude and connection. That's a great point. Isn't that interesting?

Yes, that's a great point. So it's rare that I actually am alone with the alone. And it's really rare that I'm ever in real connection with others. And so we find ourselves in this weird middle place where we're just constantly being distracted but not connected. Yes, that's so true. And so, and it really does reinforce St. Augustine's words so many years ago that we hear so used, you know, our hearts are wrestles until they rest in you. And that's not just a nice thing you see at Hobby Lobby or something, you know, but it is something you should have. But you know, you can put that over your mantle right now. But it is true because how many, I mean, you know, we're just people, Father, like, all this experience like the restlessness of our heart. And we're trying to like, and we know, like, we know, but the theology of our heart, you know, it's like, what am I looking for to satisfy me something other than God? Or what am I afraid of? What am I afraid of to spend 15 minutes along? by myself.

Those are so many stories, and the Lord would love to reveal his heart for us. Well, that's the thing is you've been ministering with so many people, and imagine that all of us we struggle with prayer. There's obstacles to prayer. So what do you think are some of the principal obstacles to prayer for just most people? I think a lot of people labor under the illusion that prayer is really not for them, that holiness is not for them. Like, oh, it's for you and me.

But, like, whatever your mom of four kids or your businessmen, you know, whatever your mom of four kids or you're a businessman or, yeah, I go to Mass on Sunday and I give my money collection to the church. And I don't really need to, as if we'll just let those people dedicated to religion. And so most people don't know the universal call to holiness, first and foremost, that the covenant that God made with us in our baptism that marks us forever as his children sets us in a relationship. So I think there's that. So this qualify themselves in some ways.

Or not even think of them, that God even wants that, that God even wants time with them. I remember Father Thomas DuBay, you know, he has some incredible boy. books. But one, he was asked about, he said, well, I'm a mom or I'm a dad. And I just don't have time to pray. Yes. And so what do I do? And his response was kind of sassy. And he said something like, oh, it's no problem. You can be a mediocre mom. You can be a mediocre dad if you want. Or you can take time and pray. Obviously, if you're in different seasons in your life, you don't have the opportunity necessarily to go to the adoration chapel five hours a day or even one. But that sense of, but if you're going to be the person God wants you to be, we have to pray at some point

regularly. So the first thing is disqualification. What are some of the other obstacles people are going to be facing? Well, I think experiencing what it seems like a lack of time or even not even not knowing how. Many times it's not taught, unfortunately, in our faith tradition of how do you pray? Like, here's how you pray. I think honestly underneath it, there's just a lot of areas of shame, even of like, man, if I really expose this part of my heart, God's not going to love me, or the pain that we experienced are sorrowful mysteries that have yet to be brought into communion with Jesus. And so there's a lot of reasons why we'll find, and there are married times very noble, like all these excuses why. Other things to do. Yeah. I'm so glad you said that. I would

have completely missed this because it would have been like, oh, you know, time and I'm busy and it's not a priority kind of situation, but you're getting to the, going to overuse the word we've been overusing of the heart. To get to the core of this whole thing is, I don't know if. I want to get that close to the Lord, not because I don't love him, but because I'm, I have shame. I don't, I don't know if, just like here's Adam and Eve in the garden, I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid myself. Amen.

And I don't want you to see me. Amen. And so again, these other excuses are just manifestations of a deeper reality. Yeah. So if this is where a lot of us are going to be, as we hopefully either continue or begin a life of prayer, what would you say? It's okay, if that's one of the wounds we're going to, it's going to give us a thousand things to do other than pray. What do I do with that shame?

Well, one of the things that we can practically do is we walk through these days together is to be able to name what's happening in our heart and bring it to the objective truth. So in our lives, we're bringing our subjective experience into the objective reality of God. So say, for example, you know, like we talked about even the quote from the catechism of that God knows my heart fully and he says, he reveals me to myself. And I don't, so maybe it's like this area where we experience a deep unworthiness or deep inferiority. And we might not know where that comes from yet. But like, Lord, I feel like I'm not even worth praying. Like you wouldn't listen to me. And even those words are

telling us deep stories about herself. But, but I'm reading here, what the church teaches, that you actually reveal me to myself. So I'm going to start taking, I mean, I'm going to start taking those things out and letting God speak to them. And we talk about, I'm sure, you know, we talk about the sacraments. If as Catholics, there's nothing that replaces a good holy sacramental confession of standing of the objective reality, like, you know what, the Lord forgave me for this. And so I can with the Lord go to the deeper places of pain. But it's, you know, Mr. Rogers, like the beautiful day in the neighborhood, you know, he would often say that if it's mentionable, it's manageable. And so much of our life is not mentioned. And so from that,

when we can't even name it, there's something about naming how God creates and he names and Adam names, naming what we're afraid of, naming the pain in our life, naming it, allows it, it takes a lot of the darkness out of it and allows the Lord to come in with his light. So, you know, the Lord is not surprised. He's not embarrassed of it. I think that's one of the most surprising things. Lord is not afraid of us. He's not embarrassed. Yeah. And anything we're going to find out these days as we walk through prayer, Jesus already knows that. And he's already with us. And that's so beautiful. Yeah. That's the thing is like, you know, I will often encourage our students to go to a confession. And in that confession, I'm like, you're not telling God something he doesn't know.

Yes. But you're giving him access to something he doesn't have. Oh, that's a good word. that sense of just being able to say, like you said, he knows all this. And yet, go back to the first point you made this entire day is, and he's the one who initiates. So he knows your heart already. Yeah. And he wants your heart. You know, it's so strange. I've used this example and told this many times when we go to Israel, one of the things we'll do at Cana is we'll have renewal of vows.

And so I get to do a lot of weddings because I'm on college campus. And on their wedding day, they're just gazing in each other's eyes. And it's awesome. Like, I take you as my wife. I take you as my husband. And it's amazing. And oftentimes when people are renewing their vows at Cana or wherever, they don't look each other. They can't look each other in the eye.

And there's that sense of like before when I gave you this, when I made this promise, like I hadn't failed yet. But now here we are 10 years later, 20 years later, however long later. And I'm looking you in the eye and you know that I, maybe I'm, you know, maybe you know that I mean this, but you also know that I'm going to fail. And you know I have failed. And so there's not the same kind of maybe. naive confidence in one's ability and yeah but I on the other hand mentioning shame and so there's you know averting gaze but there are some couples that I have because I mentioned this a couple times who man they're they're locked on each other and there's one couple in particular they

actually came to the university and they said could you renew our wedding vows I'm like you'll renew wedding dolls I'll do the prayer but and and they were I had never seen a couple like this. They were gazing very deeply. They were like intensely present to each other as they were renewing these vows. And afterwards, we talked and there had been not just infidelity, they're not only had been in brokenness and addiction and all these things. Because that's the shame part. There had been such great, they mentioned, if you can mention it, you can manage it. There had been such confession to each other and reconciliation that they had lived the brokenness part. They had lived the shame part, but they also lived the bringing that to light. And to see.

see the love and respect affection they had for each other and confidence not again not in themselves because they knew the brokenness but it was this renewed confidence that was even deeper than their wedding day you know so they had lived through the shame but they didn't hide the shame and maybe that's part of how our prayer has to be like when we bring it to the Lord and confession yeah god you know this we've named it you've dealt with it and now there's some new way that we get to pray because I'm not deceived anymore into thinking that I'll be your, I'll be your perfect, whatever, you know, I don't know. Oh, gosh, Father, I think everything you said there, that's the entire pillar on prayer, everything you just said of the gift of self, but also as the years grow, it grows in maturity. And the repair, like the rupture, the repair, the fidelity, the, I promise you, that's what a covenant, you know, as you know, covenant language is the language of I'm yours in your mind forever.

That's why we love marriage, like it's the icon. You know, John Paul the second talks about the icon of how God loves us. But everything you just said, like, that's the battle of prayer. That's the obstacle of prayer. That's the Lord who's still faithful. That is the Lord who still invites our gaze, who never avert his gaze from us, who is there over and over and over again. And that's, you talk about the spiritual masters, you know, like John of the Cross,

truce of Avala. You look at people in our age who are just like, Father Jacques Fully, people that teach on prayer, Father Bonaphas Hicks, people that teach on prayer, Father Garaguel Lagrange. Like you look at all the, like, the generations that we have of these people, and all of them talk about, you know, coming to the end of our own strength. Like, that's Peter in the Gospels. That's the charcoal fire.

That's the human, that's the stuff of real human life. Yeah. This is the stuff of real human life. And that's what we ache for. We ache to epic, like, in our epic failures, that someone would still love us and still believe in us and to say, I know you. Like, I know, I know you, and I love you. I mean, all of us want to love heroically and we want to be heroically loved.

And that's the life that Christ, this is what the pillar of prayer. is all about is to enter, that's, that's the salvation history. Like, that's, the whole gospel summed up in our own hearts. Well, that's amazing. Just even as you say, this, in some ways, the maturity starts when we come to the end of our own strength. Amen. And how, I, this is pretty remarkable to me that, just as a reminder, again, we've been doing this for over 300 days. Something that's remarkable is the church has never condescended in her teaching here from pillar one through two pillar four. What I mean by that is the church isn't talking down to us. The church isn't saying, well, I know you're just baby beginners in this whole thing. And so we're going to

treat you like it, even in the section on prayer, it's that sense of like, no, actually you're made for the heights. Yes. And this is going to, this is where you're called and it speaks so beautifully, right? And it speaks so it's accessible. There's something about how the church isn't pulling any punches, for lack of a better term. I'm not sure what the best phrases is, but there's that sense of a proposition of we might not even realize how to the heights that God is calling us in depth of a relationship that he's calling us to. But the catechism here is just making it clear. If I could just ask you, so the catechism will say some things at the beginning here

of this section that we'll talk about how prayer is more and more understood the more what God reveals himself. But there's a section that says in the fullness of time, Jesus reveals what prayer can be because we get to see him in his prayer. So if you don't mind, what are some of the things we look for? What are some of the things Jesus teaches us when he's praying? Well, he's teaching us about what it means to be the beloved child of God, that Jesus is at all times the same person because of his identity of who he is. So Jesus is the same when they're hailing him, when they want to make him king, is when they're crucifying him, when they're spitting on him, when his own disciples fail him.

He's the same person, so he's teaching us what does it really tangibly look like to be fully human because he's the man who's fully alive? And what does it mean to live in continual relationship with the father? And we're seeing it in him, and humanity's never seen that before. We've never seen that revelation. And so when he teaches us the Our Father, he's Christ never waste words. And so he's teaching us the essentials of this relationship. So Christ is always teaching us about relationships.

So it's only from there that he says, you know, go out and do what I have done. Love is love one another, as I have loved you. We're like, how do we do that? But we experience first by allowing ourselves to be loved by him. And that's, and that really is a school of love. And I think we were talking about before we started refilling, like this doesn't end. Like there's no, and you're perfect now, catechism, 3,000, and you're done. And like, that's the continual refinement.

That's the excellence of love that we're taking this and we're continuing. continuing to grow, and that goes into eternal life with him. But in that, we're seeing in Christ the literal incarnation of the belovedness, the beloved son, the beloved daughter of God. And not only is he just like this something we're looking up to, he's actually giving us the grace to live, to forgive, to love, to suffer, to live in joy, to live in the truth. And you just see the freedom. I don't know about you father. I just, one day in my life, I just, to be is free to love Jesus the way that he loves. to be that free where you're not caught up in your own ego or your own like self-defense

mechanisms or the places where we have to like make sure everybody knows we're right because we're important it's like uh he's so lovely i just oh like how could you resist him you know like it's just so beautiful so yeah well there's how much how much of our lives are spent with image management oh and just that impression management yeah situation even when it comes to the lord yes how many people that i'll speak with who are like my prayer's really empty it's really shallow it's really dry and just kind of do some digging and say oh a lot of times part of it is mention shame but another part of it

is well I'm upset with the Lord but I'm not talking to him about it or I'm really going through a struggle and I'm not going to give him access to it or I'm experiencing some kind of battle but I'm not going to invite him into it and it's like well of course your prayer is dry of course there's this sense of like

it's shallow because it is shallow because you have this whole world that you're not letting him have access to as opposed to, again, what's revealed to us, I love how you said, Jesus, he's always the same. Yep. He's always a beloved son, like you said, on top of the world, and at his worst moment, he shows us what it is to be a beloved child of the father when everyone's left you. Yeah.

And when all your hopes and dreams have fallen, when everyone's betrayed you, and also what it's like to be a beloved child of the father when it seems like everyone loves you. Yes. He's just the same. And I appreciate what you were saying. earlier, Father Michael, how the church doesn't talk down to us, or, I mean, thank God the church isn't like, well, you're just going to be mediocre, I guess. I'm so grateful that it's a high standard. Love is a high standard. And Jesus, you know, he's teaching us as the bridegroom as he

gives his life on the cross for the bride. Like, the man, this man of joy, who's like, it's worth it. Like, he's not like a helpless victim in that regard. Like, he's giving himself as a man as the bridegroom to restore the church as the new Adam. And he looks at us and he says, it's worth it. It's worth it. Yeah. And that, that kind of love, oh, that kind of love can't help but change us. We're like, all right, okay. It's, you know, so we just start again. We just always start again, yeah. There's this saying that venerable Bruno Lanteri, he's a venerable. His name is Bruno Terry's a priest. And he had said something along the lines of, if I should fall a thousand times a day, a thousand times a day, I will begin again. I'll trust in the Lord's mercy and

begin again. So there's this phrase in Latin, Nuncchchepi, which means now I begin. That's a good one. We built a camp this last summer around this theme development of, now I begin, now I begin. Just that sense of like when it comes to life of virtue, it comes life of prayer, is now I begin. Why? Because God's mercies are without end. And so here I am with my brokenness, with my shame, and I run to the end of my own strength, to be able to say, okay, Lord, now I'm just beginning. I pick it up again and let him pick you up again. Just to give him permission. to love if I were to say what what is or ask you what is your favorite section here on pillar

four are there any kind of elements you mentioned paragraph 2563 with the heart are there any other sections or any other parts of this pillar that you'd say this is just something that speaks to my heart it's something that I wish everyone knew or I mean a lot of it obviously every paragraph is great including the nuggets but Like, what would you say? I would say the section on contemplative prayer. Oh, yeah. On contemplation.

And I love that this talks about the most deepest inter, like the prayer of contemplation. So 2709, what is contemplative prayer? St. Teresa of Avila answers us. The contemplative prayer, in my opinion, is nothing else than a close sharing between friends. It means taking time frequently to be alone with him who we know loves us. Contemplative prayer seeks him whom my soul. loves, it is Jesus and Him and the Father. We seek Him because we desire Him is always the beginning of love. That deep, later on I'll say contemplation is the gaze of faith. It is

Christ bringing us into himself. To me, that's the deep, that's the wine cellar. And I, that's a gift that. Prayer is always a gift. And I think we can talk about that. Of this, like we said, it's not me manifesting something or trying to conjure up something, but prayer is always a gift. And I think we can always go to Jesus and say, Lord, just give me the gift of prayer. Like, Holy Spirit, teach me out of pray. Every day, it doesn't matter. We don't know. We don't know, we don't know. So like Holy Spirit come, but that gift of contemplation of alone and the quiet with the Lord where he speaks heart to heart to us, where he, I really do believe, Father Mike, that Jesus whispers secrets there that he doesn't share with anybody else. It's just like,

there's a place that's reserved for just you and the Lord that, even if you're married, that's a place just for you and the Lord where that's sacred and the Lord delights in us and he speaks to us. And that to me is like my favorite place. I love that part. Well, even as you say, this contemplative prayer is to be able to pray for that even, to pray for that gift. I think it may have been St. Teresa Vavala who had said that if you're praying, you're doing your vocal prayers, you're doing your readings, and at some point, if God brings you to a place of contemplative prayer, put the vocal prayer to the side and just receive it

as a gift. Yes. But so often, it's like, well, no, I've got to get through my prayers. Yeah. And even, like, I don't know if I desire this. Remember the fear of solitude, the fear of shame. but as you noted in 2709 is we seek him because to desire him is always the beginning of love it's just that to desire him is the beginning of love so one of the things I remember

being taught this at one point it was pray as you can not as you can't and I don't know who whose principle it was but it was like okay if I I should desire condemn love of prayer I don't if I want to. Okay, well then pray to want. Amen. Contemplative prayer. But yeah, but I don't know if I want to want it. I don't know if I want. Okay, then pray to want to want to want. I don't even know if I want. Whatever. Pray as you can, not as you can. So pray to want to want to want. And that sense of just wherever you're at, let that be known by the, I mean, he already knows it, but give him access, right? That sense of like, here's what I've got going on. So I love this. Seek him because to desire him is always the beginning of love, man.

Mm-hmm, mm-hmm, mm-hmm. It's incredibly, incredibly beautiful. And it goes on in 2714. It says, the Christian, or contemplative prayer is also the preaminally an intense time of prayer. In it, the Father strengthens, and this is St. Paul's letter to the Ephesians. The Father strengthens our inner being

through power with His Holy Spirit, that Christ may dwell in our hearts through faith, that we may be grounded in love. And so the more we allow that truth of the Lord, the love of the Lord to come and to root us and ground us, that's where, like we said, the core of our being, that's where everything else comes from. And I think that looks different. I know one of my dear friends said that she actually heard prayer life change when she was

up at late a night with her newborn infant, and she couldn't go to the chapel anymore. She couldn't, and she was overwhelmed, and she would just sit up at night rocking her baby, and it was in those quiet nights, and as her baby cried or slept, that she would start to cry out to the Lord, and she said, had that not, she would have told you, like, I'm not even praying, but she's like, I realize now that it was at that time. the Lord began to put intercessory prayer in my heart or this cry, like as her child's crying out, it's like her crying to the Lord. And I just think of how gracious the Lord is in the different seasons of life and our vocations to continue to draw us in that way. So it's the continual

drawing of the Lord who delights to be with us. Yeah. As you were saying that, it's funny because I was imagining here's this mom who also is contemplating her child. Yes. Right? And there's, there's in some ways there's when it comes to you she moved on to intercessory prayer and realize it but there's something interesting that intercessory prayer we know is efficacious right praying uh petition per petition and efficacious does something but contemplation doesn't do anything amen yeah so i think for a lot of us where it's like well well i'm like i'm like i have to preach a lot and you get to teach a lot at that sense of like okay okay lord i'm in prayer because i got to give me something to say oh my gosh yes but contemplation is just

gazing at your baby I'm just like holding this child and doesn't you're not doing anything in this moment the child's not being fed it's not being what it's just you're just this as it says 2715 contemplation is a gaze of faith fixed on Jesus as the

quote from St. John Viani I look at him and he looks at me and just yeah it doesn't do anything it's not useful and so again another reason not to do it as opposed to if my identity comes by this relationship then this is the reason to be here. I don't know. Something like that. Oh, that's stunning. I

agree with you. And I think sometimes in our utilitarian culture, that's one of the things of like, I got to do stuff. Like, I don't have time to pray. I got to do stuff. And we have it. We all, we do. We all have things to do. But if it's not flowing from our being, we're inevitably, like we said, they're going to suffer from burnout, try to drive our identity from that. And so Jesus continues to, like he's teaching his disciples. Like, we see how he loves. he's teaching them how to have our loves properly ordered, how to have our life ordered around with the one thing that matters. Because like we were saying earlier, like my friend,

even, she's a better wife because of that time. She's a better wife because of that encounter. She's a better mom. She's a better sister to her sisters. And who doesn't need to gaze upon the face at Jesus? Like, ah, no, that's all right. That's your favorite section. My favorite section is the next page.

Okay. It's Article 2 at the Battle of Prayer. Okay, yes. Whenever I'm teaching anyone, trying to teach him on prayer is what this is one of the first places not the first place because I think before that we have to know the heart of the father before that we have to know I can trust God with my shame I can trust God by my brokenness I trust that he actually loves me enough that he I mean how about how crazy is this God wants to spend time with him with us we have the command

we have to go to mass on Sunday so here is this precept of the church have to go to mass on Sunday and so I go to mass because I'm supposed to but I don't know if we've ever thought it to God whether I'm there or not. Meaning it matters to God whether or not I show up and worship him. Like why would that matter to, why would the infinite,

the all-powerful, the eternal God, why would my showing up and worshiping him for an hour matter at all to him? Because why, no one else cares. And yet here is God who's like, no, actually it matters when you show up.

And so when I know that heart of the father, then it's like, okay. So, I mean, actually that's one of the arguments that a lot of atheists will say, like, oh, really? So it matters to God whether or not you act this way or that way. And apparently, he loves us enough that it does. So when I know that identity, then that's the next section, Battle of Prayer, because this line in 2725 is just, it's so good. So prayer is both a gift of grace, remember it's so God initiates, and a determined response on our part. And the next sentence is the one that just, I'm like, oh, because it answers so many questions for me.

the next sentence says, it always presupposes effort. And so for me, because I remember trying to pray as a high schooler and as a college student and then beyond, and I'm like, I'm reading all these stories of saints, and it sounds like it's really easy. That sounds like they show up, and I always describe it like this, they would go, you know, stories of saints who would go before the Lord and the Blessed Sacrament and, you know, hours would feel like minutes. And I would show up and minutes would feel like hours.

And I'm like, what am I doing wrong here? And then to come across this and to hear, oh, no, prayer always presupposes effort. you're not doing something wrong if sometimes it's hard. And I just, but it's a gift of grace, but it's also a determined response on our part. And it's, again, the battle of prayer is one of my favorite sections because then we're invited to not back away from that, but to realize that even Jesus reveals to us that prayer is a battle, which I'm so grateful for. I appreciate that's in the catechism.

Yeah. So for all the places we might feel ashamed that we're struggling, or maybe we don't want to pray, or maybe it's dry, or maybe we're all those, it's just wonderful for all those places. The cousins are like, well, here you go. Here's the human heart. And that's okay. We can understand that. And in that, we're going to keep going. Yeah. It's not a bad thing. You know, I think we have sometimes a misunderstanding. Like, if it's hard, that means I'm doing something wrong. And not necessarily. I mean, love is different. Like we said, love is very purifying. And it just, it's calling us a deeper excellence and deeper reunion. And I appreciate that

a lot, because that is kind of people get to a plateau or they get to a major struggle or they find a block in their heart or something. And then it's like, oh, I don't want to do that anymore. I tried that. Didn't really work for me. Right. And the Lord's like, no, you keep going. You keep seeking. Yeah. It's just wonderful. And the reality, of course, is that if we don't, like if we don't go through those times of dryness, you know, this section talks about distraction and dryness and dryness and all these different battles we experience. If we don't experience that dryness or distraction, our heart can't grow. Amen. Like that our, my love remains selfish. And God doesn't want us, he wants us to have, you know, like the Grinch,

heart that grows. I love it, yes. It's too big and not too small. And if I'm just loving the gifts of prayer, the consolations of prayer, then I'm just loving myself. Oh, that's such a good word. But if God teaches me, brings me through these distractions and through this dryness to continue to choose him in the midst of desolation.

Yes. And he's doing something remarkable in our hearts that I would imagine he couldn't do without because we're free. And so I'll keep loving myself as long as I can until I can't anymore, which is God has to grow my heart. Oh, yes. And thank God for that. Like that couple, the marriage example that you gave, that's exactly the place of the struggles, of the trials when it gets difficult. You know, do we love God for what he gives us?

Do we give, we love the gifts or do we love the giver? And that's one thing to receive the gifts and be in on gratitude of that. And receive all that God gives us and in that, not mistake the gifts for the giver. Because the giver is most important. Yeah, because that would be making an idol out of the gifts. Yeah. He's like a genie. Like I come to God.

God can't be manipulated like that. And nobody likes to be treated like. I mean, but it's amazing how we can kind of fall into that mentality too. Like, oh, I did the thing. Like I prayed that novina or I, God give me what I want. And the Lord's like, oh, I have so much more for you. Well, can you say something about that, how sometimes our prayer can devolve into manipulation or an attempt to manipulate God.

If I do it like this, then. I think sometimes our prayer can be superstitious of I did that. And it's more of a contractual exchange of like, I did that thing. And sometimes it comes out of deep suffering, like my child's dying and I'll do the nilvina, the saint, whatever, you tell me. But the Lord always brings us back to the heart. And I think we have to be very, I just think we have to be very careful. We always do about the images we have of God. Yeah.

So that means I did this, then he should give me what I want. Or, you know, because we're so. little we don't always know what we need. So I think that's the continual. And I love the Psalms and I love the cry of Jesus, like lament. It's like, it's the real part of the real heart of like Lord, and maybe that is like Lord, I did the thing. I went to Mass. I prayed the rosary. I didn't, you know, live with my boyfriend before I got married. I did all the thing and we're still infertile. So like what's, you know, and you can just feel like the, oh, like the human heart there in Christ is like I want to draw near to you. I love you. I want to draw. I'm not holding out.

I just those are the tender places. And I think that. That's the prayer, right? And that's, ooh, that's the tender stuff, right? But that's the, yeah, those are the real, those are the real parts of the human heart that the Lord reveals himself in and that he's not holding out. Jesus is not holding out on us.

Well, as you mentioned, it reveals the image of God we have. Yes. And so actually paragraph 2735. And following, asked the question, it says, why do we complain of not being heard? And then the response is, I think really bold, and I want to say something about this.

It says, in the first place, we ought to be astonished by this fact. When we praise God or give him thanks for his benefits in general, we're not particularly concerned whether or not our prayer is acceptable to him. And whenever I highlight this to our students, they're like, yeah, because when you thank God, you're like, oh, by the way, thanks, God, you know, but if I need something, man, I'm kneeling down. The hands are folded just the right way. I'm saying exactly the words because there's something of this really, really matters.

But wait, when I'm giving God praise or thanks, do I? care that he receives it. It doesn't even matter to me that he receives this. So it goes on to say, he goes, on the other hand, we demand to see the results of our petitions. What is the image of God? This is what you said. What is the image of God that motivates our prayer? Is he an instrument to be used or is he the father of our Lord Jesus Christ?

And that's why Jesus reveals right. He's always the same, like you said. Yeah. Isn't that convicting? Like for all of myself included, I'm like, oh, geez, yeah. I love it. The thing with me is I need to hear this. in a time of peace so that I don't forget it

in the time of distress. If I were to hear this in a time of distress, I would think that someone was making fun of me. Oh, that's a good point, yeah. And so I think that's important for us, especially those who are listening, because like, oh, in the first, we should be astonished by this fact

that you're suffering right now. Like, no, no, no, that's not the issue. I need to hear this in a time where I remember who God is because if I was in a place of just desperation, this would seem like I was being dismissed. Yeah. But that's not what, I think that's not the heart.

The heart is just calling us back to remember, what is your image? Is your image, God is the ATM, or he's the emergency paramedic or the emergency psychologist, whoever, or is he our father who actually loves us? Amen. The guy who wrote this, so the guy, whatever, apparently the chief author of this pillar of the catacism. Do you know that story? Tell me. He wrote this fourth pillar in Beirut. He's a priest who wrote this fourth pillar in Beirut while the bombs were raining on his home. And he was in the basement with a typewriter and like a candle. And he was writing this section on prayer while his life was in danger for days and weeks on end. And it's in that, it's kind of like Psalm 3,

this Psalm of David. It's a Psalm of Trust. And like the subtitle of Psalm 3 is a Psalm of David, Psalm of Trust, when he was fleeing for his life from Absalom. And so you hear that and you realize, oh, wait, this is not David on his throne. Like, life is good. And I trust God. This is David, who everything's falling around him and his own child is trying to kill him and he is on his fleeing for his life and he's saying trust God and so similarly here is this priest who

in the next moment a bomb could land right on top of his house and he's saying this is my identity this is the most important thing any of us could do which is develop this relationship with our Lord we can trust him so sister as we're coming to a close

there's more we can talk about we can talk about the fact that there's a The Lord's Prayer is the section two. The last piece of this fourth pillar is on the Lord's Prayer, kind of an explication of all the things that Jesus is teaching us to pray. But if there's any takeaways, as we conclude today, that you just want the people who are listening and are going to just play for the next however many days.

What is something that you hope, yeah, hope they get in these next 30, 40 days? I guess my heart for the people on this journey with us would be to come to a deeper understanding in their heart of how deeply we are loved. How deeply, deeply we are loved and how of infinite value that the Lord perceives us and receives us in,

that we're not alone. We're not alone, and this is not some joke or cosmic kind of game God's playing with us, that he really, just the deep heart of Jesus that he takes on every single one of our sufferings, all of our joys, and he unites him to himself and that he gives us back himself in return. I mean, who loves like that?

I just, yeah, I'm just continually just pierced by the love of Jesus. And my heart is that we come not into a formulaic kind of, you know, reiteration of some sort of prayer, but each one of us in our own way comes into a deeper intimacy with Jesus. Because that's the truth, and that's the eternal truth, and that's what we're going to spend heaven with is the one who loves us forever for eternity. So I guess that would be a real heartfelt encounter

as they go, yeah. Yeah, yeah, that sense, I'm really grateful you're saying that because one of the things that I've been I've been convicted of or I've been sitting with and maybe trying to say is the more and more Christians or Catholics I talk with,

they've heard their entire lives that God loves them, but I think most Catholics, we don't believe God loves us, we believe God tolerates us. It's true, friend, yeah. And so then, and what you're saying is, I hope, not just ending with these next 30 to 40 days, but beginning with these 30 to 40 days of knowing the unstoppable love of God

for them. And just even a willingness to give God permission to love you would be the prayer. Thank you. Thank you. Thanks for joining us. I am so grateful. And hopefully, I hope that this has been a much of blessing for those who have been listening to this. As it has been for me, because I'm so grateful sister to be with you and just be able to just even kind of touch the surface. We just scrape the surface of this fourth pillar. But I'm so grateful for you and so grateful for every person who has been joining us for these 328 days. Please know that I'm praying for you. Please pray for me. My name's Father Mike. I cannot wait to see you tomorrow. God bless.