The Confessionals - 371: Demon Sex

Episode Date: September 7, 2021

In Episode 371: Demon Sex, we are joined by Jimmy, who shares his experiences with a succubus in his youth. He goes into great detail about when and how his encounters with this demon would happen, and what kinds of baggage it brought into his life as he grew older. One of the issues that stemmed from his interaction with the demon were episodes of sleep paralysis, in which Jimmy would find himself attacked by demonic entities even more horrifying than the one he experienced as a kid.Become a member for AD FREE listening: theconfessionalspodcast.com/joinMAILING ADDRESS:STE 36188 Glocker Way,Pottstown, PA 19465SPONSORSGET Cerebral: getcerebral.com/tonyGET SIMPLISAFE TODAY: simplisafe.com/confessionalsGET Hello Fresh: hellofresh.com/confessionals14 Promo Code: "confessionals14" for 14 FREE MEALS!!!GET ACORN.TV: acorn.tv/ Promo Code: "tony" (Code must be applied in all lowercase letters!)Get Emergency Food Supplies: www.preparewiththeconfessionals.comGet Beard Oil: bit.ly/2FbOhN5CONNECT WITH USWebsite: www.theconfessionalspodcast.comEmail: [e-mail] to the Newsletter: https://www.theconfessionalspodcast.com/the-newsletter SOCIAL MEDIASubscribe to our YouTube: https://bit.ly/2TlREaIDiscord: https://discord.gg/KDn4D2uw7h Show Instagram: theconfessionalspodcastTony's Instagram: merkificationFacebook: www.facebook.com/TheConfessionalsPodcast Twitter: @TConfessionals Tony's Twitter: @tony_merkelSHOW INTRO Show Intro INSTRUMENTAL: www.youtube.com/watch?v=kyub39AXxUw Show Intro FREE DOWNLOAD: https://bit.ly/2HxNcw3

Merkel Media Another dark figure stood up to my right but this time I could make out much more detail red eyes like

things coming from the shoulders and this thing was huge this was all circulating around the base that a giant had to kill but no one was supposed to talk about it I saw three long boning face reach up underneath the door, curl up to grab it, and then disappear.

When he came over to me, dude, he slithered over to me. And this giant comes out of the cave and they're all frozen. And he starts running and firing at this giant. But the giant moves. He's got a spear in one hand and he's running really fast. And spears, Dan, holds him up like this. Somebody else, shoot him in the face, shoot him in the face. him in the face, they basically decapitated.

Got closer, got closer, got closer, got closer, when he got about 15 yards away from me, I raised that 12 days and I blow this head off. I feel something pulling at my leg, and I look over and there are two small gray entities pulling it. And they're literally, I'm getting pulled off the bed. I reached my hand into this bush, and I touch air. Couldn't breathe, and I couldn't move, because I know I'm seeing. A monster.

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separate playlist on that channel for Legion of Legends for you guys to enjoy it, all the content that I make with Legion of Legends. Now, this week, we have Jimmy coming on the show. And Jimmy is somebody that I've been wanting to talk to for a while. I was really glad I was able to connect with him because he goes into great detail. Listen, friends, I'm telling you right now, this is something that you may not want your kids listening to. Sometimes people listen with their little kids and stuff. This may not be one of those episodes you want your kids to listen to. If you haven't noticed by the title of the episode, Jimmy goes into extensive details as to how, when,

where he started having sexual encounters with demonic entities. And then we get into astral projection and things like that. But this is a very graphic episode. So I just want to let you know up front. Don't let your kids listen to this, but also do what you want. I'm not here to tell you how to live. Let's get to Jimmy right now. All right. Today we got Jimmy on the show. Jimmy, how you doing, man? Doing well, don't he? Nice, man. So Jimmy, man, you have some experience here. And I think we're going to kind of touch on your experiences, maybe you're professional a little bit because I know you're in law enforcement. But first of all, we want to knock out what we're here to talk about. And you've had some.

I guess we can call paranormal. Some people don't like calling it paranormal, but I'll just call paranormal. It's shadow people and sleep paralysis. I know sometimes sleep paralysis, people say it's all scientific. And I understand that. But for general purposes, you got paranormal experiences. And we're going to start off with the shadow people. I know when you were younger, you had these experiences where they were coming to visit you. So had this all start out for you. I mean, how old were you? How did you realize what was going on? well I want to say the best of my memory I was 12 or 13 so this was probably around 2005 first it started out weird I slept first off we lived in a really old house and in the town I

grew up in it was one of three houses that had a basement and actually the previous owner was murdered inside of the house so we can get to that later. But it started out where I'll be sleeping and my bedroom was weird. It was in the very center of the house. It had no doors on it. It was basically what was meant to be probably a computer room and it had a door there that led to the basement.

The first experience I had was, it wasn't too intense, but, you know, I was only 12 or 13 at the time, so it shook me pretty good. I would remember laying down, thinking I was dreaming. I felt something grab. I think it was my right ankle and pulled me off the bed. And, you know, I'd wake up and be halfway off the bed. That's pretty much how it started. As far as the visitations,

this was before I ever had any kind of sexual encounters. I could, all right. never shared this in great detail. Yeah, and I understand it's, it's, uh, it can be a little uncomfortable. Uh, you ripped the bandit off with that. You're just like, if this is before I had the sexual encounters and everybody's like, wait, you had sexual encounters?

Oh, it will. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, so, uh, it just kind of came out a lot of vomit. It's fine, man. It's fine. Uh, take your time and, uh, go in the order that you want to go in. And, uh, we'll, we'll discuss as we go.

All right. So, later on I'd say I was the same age I would this is being awake I would start to see things in my house being in the living room I remember this like it was yesterday I was laying on the love seat I think I was watching an episode of Jeopardy at the corner of my eye it wasn't a shadow person per se

but it was a person it was a figure and I described this figure to my mother later having a Red flannel shirt and overalls. White male, I don't know, he was 6-2, 6-3, he was very tall guy. And I remember describing this to my mother a couple of days later, and she said, that is the man that used to live here. You described him to a T. And she showed me a picture of him later that day, and it kind of freaked me out.

Because I was like, ooh, I just saw that guy. And I've always heard stories how he was murder. and, you know, I just chucked it up as, you know, my young kid, and they were just trying to scare me or something like that. But I didn't know it was true until, you know, I told her that I saw him. Do you know how he was murdered? I don't. I'm sorry.

I just heard something really weird outside of my window. I heard that, too. It sounded weird. It was like, you got abduction going on or something? I don't know. I don't see any bright lights. Okay, I don't see anything. I'm on edge, you know, because of everything.

Yeah, I can understand. Anyways, I don't know how he was murdered. I always heard he was somewhere along of a home invasion and he was shot. Other than that, I never really heard anything else about that. Before we go any further, do you think that he was the one pulling you off the bed? It's hard to say because the pulling me off. the bed part. I don't remember seeing anything. I remember feeling

a presence. And it felt dark towering over me. I remember, like I said, I thought I was in a dream. And I remember I had a little nightlight in that room at the time because I'd never been a big fan of the dark.

Now it doesn't bother me so much. I do generally fall asleep with the TV on now. I remember the room getting very dark. filling up, grabbing on my, it was weird. It was right on my right ankle and it pulled me off and I woke up halfway off the bed. I didn't see anything that night. I just kind of felt a presence. Yeah, because I asked that because, you know, just generally speaking, if somebody has a house,

there's a home invasion, they get shot and killed and their spirit is haunting the place, you would think that anybody who moves to that house, that spirit might consider them another invader and would act aggressively towards the person. And that's why I was trying to see what your thoughts were on if you thought it was him or not. Right. I've never

thought of it that way, but that makes complete sense. It does to me too, but I'm a truck driver. I don't know. I'm just a cop. I don't know either. Yeah. We're just having a conversation. So go ahead. Continue, man. Let's say, I think the first actual physical encounter with

these shadow people I fell asleep on the county and I found that these encounters would be more frequent when I fell asleep somewhere other than my bed so I believe the first time I'm trying to think it could have been in my bed I want to say it was on the couch in the living room

and I fell asleep one night watching TV I just I know I was lying on my back looking straight up at the ceiling I woke up and I just see this thing over me it holds its hand over my mouth

it climbs on top of me straddling me and basically had sex with the thing is the best way I can describe it because not knowing what that was back then and knowing what that feels like now, of course, I can contribute that

and compare that. Wow. That probably sounded very weird. Well, I'll tell you what, Jimmy, you're not the first person that came on the show and said such things. So you're not alone in this. I'll tell you that much. Now, could you tell what kind of entity this was as far as like, was it wasn't more

feminine or masculine? It definitely was more feminine. I remember I could actually reach up and grab her breast. And it just felt great, you know, and I was young, and I was like, I've never felt this feeling before. I want to fill it again, you know? So as time went on, I could lie down, no matter where it was. I close my eyes and I would say, come visit me, come see me. something along those that that and it would come generally i would have to have my eyes closed and

be thinking really really hard about it and i would open my eyes there would be above me again and eventually it got to the point where i could be a little more controlling in the situation meaning this thing wasn't just on top of me holding its hand over my mouth, I could, you know, get on top of it. Okay, so was this, all right, so when it put, for instance, when it put its hand over your mouth the first time, could you feel the hand as if it was a flesh and blood hand? Yes, it felt warm, definitely felt pressure on my face. It definitely felt like somebody else was there, like it was there. Like it wasn't just a figure, but I could never make it a face. But it had a feminine figure, flowing hair, which was black matching the figure color. But it definitely felt real like it was an actual another person there and not just a figment of my imagination or something like that or a dream because I was very much awake when this happened.

Yeah, and I mean, it happening more than one time. time after a while, especially if you're trying to summon it, like, after a while, it's, there shouldn't be any doubt in your mind that it's happening unless you're literally, uh, you belong in a mental institution. You're just crazy, you know, um, so how, all right, how old are you when this first happened? Do you remember? I know you think, I think you mentioned it. You were a teenager or something? Yeah, I was 12 or 13. It, that's just a guesstimation because That was about the time we moved into the house. And about 2005, so I'd say it was 12 or 13 to be a normal month it was.

Okay, so 12 or 13, I mean, right around that, it's been a while for me, but right around that age, I think, is when kids start hitting puberty. And so it's not like something that your body couldn't have reacted to. This was something that your body probably was testosterone pumping, definitely, definitely ready to rock and roll, you know? Oh, oh, yeah. Once I felt, after that first time, I was like, ah, that's great. But, I mean, I was scared to death the first time, and I never told my mother about it.

Like, I never mentioned this to her, like I did mention, like I mentioned, like I mentioned, seeing the previous owner's ghost or figure, whatever it was. I never mentioned this to anybody. In fact, I never shared this story with anybody. until probably six months ago. And was that with your girlfriend? It was with her first. And I just kind of said, I'll tell you something.

We were kind of sharing weird stories about each other, as each other's life. I said, oh, you think that's crazy. Why do you hear this? And I was like, oh, it's over after this. There's no way. But, you know, she was understanding. She didn't think it was crazy.

She shared some experiences of her own with me. So, you know. She didn't run away, so that's the important part. Oh, yeah, for sure. I mean, if she's sticking with you through that story, then I would say she's a keeper, man. She definitely is. Because I can understand, I mean, the idea of being scared to tell, especially a loved

one, that experience, because you don't know how they're going to react. I would imagine it's similar to the idea of a teenager who has sex with their teacher. You don't want to tell anybody because you don't want to get in trouble, but also, So years down the road, you probably don't want to be that guy, you know, where you're telling people, you know, yeah, when I was a kid, I had sex with my teacher, especially if you're a female, if you're a girl that wound up having sex with a male teacher, I'm imagining it probably can be pretty embarrassing in a sense. And so you're probably pretty hesitant to talk to people about that stuff. And I imagine when it comes to having sex with an entity, I imagine it's probably

around the same grounds. It's like, you don't know how people are going to react to that. It's kind of, I don't know, it's kind of taboo, you know? Right. And I've heard about these entities attaching to somebody upon an interaction like that. And growing up, my later teens, early 20s, I went through a really bad addiction with pornography. And thinking back, I'm not so, I'm not comfortable. Not not convinced, shall I say, that, you know, it wasn't just a shadow figure. It could have been a demon of some sort putting that lustful, those lustful thoughts and desires inside of me.

Because before then I had no experience with anything like that. I never watched anything. And it seems like very shortly after that is when I started experimenting with stuff like that. Well, it makes sense. It makes sense because the younger... When you get into that kind of stuff at a young age, you constantly need to up the ante. And that's with any addiction. And it's the same with the pornography addiction.

You know, when you get addicted to something like that, you constantly keep getting deeper and deeper into you get into more funky stuff. And so if your first introduction is straight up sex with a demon, then, you know, you're probably on a psychological level looking to get that next high, which is going to need to be a little bit better than the one you just had. And that's probably pretty hard to top, especially at 13. Yeah. And I recently conquered that addiction with the help of my, with the help of my girlfriend.

She's been my rock. If I didn't have her right now, I don't know where I'd be as far as my mental state. I just don't know what I would do. Yeah. Well, I mean, it's good that you have somebody in your corner like that. I mean, I think that's the goal for anybody who's looking for a relationship with other people that when you're with that person, you're better off than you were without them. And if you have that match where, you know, she accepts you for who you are. She wants to see you become better and is willing to help you through things. I mean, I don't know what more you could ask for in a

relationship. I mean, that's pretty much a jackpot. That's right. That's how I feel every day. So how many times did this go on for you? I mean, did it happen so often that you really don't have track as far as time goes? It would happen as many times as I wanted it to happen. Like I said, after that first time, I could basically summon it by saying, come see me, come visit me. You know, that does sound like an attachment. I know you mentioned that earlier. That does sound like an attachment. I listened to some stuff on demons and whatnot. I know that famous phrase, let me in, which I never heard that. I never heard anything in my head as far as something trying to lead me somewhere

or something trying to convince me to let them in. Like I said, basically after that first time, it would happen anytime I wanted it to until I got older. When I got older, I lost the ability to. And believe me, I tried. Because that's all I knew. As far as that kind of feeling and that kind of attachment. What do you think that was? Just maturity?

I don't know. I think it manifested into something else as I got older. Okay, so maybe like the addiction to pornography then. Right. The eventual sleep paralysis. Okay, let's take a second and talk about a new sponsor for today's show, which is Raycon earbuds. Listen, friends, Raycon earbuds are pushing the limits.

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like when you said that I guess after a while you were able to take more control one I think that is probably more it allowing you to take control but when you like you used a specific example of you being on top was it like a like because I mean obviously you know you have sex with humans now and so so was it like when it like when you're taking that control, are you really kind of like taking control as if you were taking control of a physical body? I know you said that the hand felt warm and fleshlike. But I mean, when I'm thinking, you know, when you're having sex with somebody and you're on top and you're kind of taking control there, I mean, there's a lot of physical contact, a lot of like,

you know, body to body kind of thing. Is it just that real? Very much so. I've always wondered if if somebody would have woken up inside the house and walked in when this was happening to me, I always wondered if they would just find me floating a little bit and not be able to see what I see or what they see it too. That never happened.

But it felt it felt incredibly real. There was something, somebody there that I was interacting with on a sexual level. it felt real. Like I said, I hadn't had sex at the time. I was 13, 12 years old.

Finding out what that felt like later on in life, I could go back and say, that is what happened without a doubt. And this is before any exposure to pornography of any kind. I wouldn't say I was growing up in a religious house. We definitely were religious. I still am. but if we wanted that exposure, we could have got it.

Put it that way. Yeah. So, I mean, the reason why I asked that is because when I, my first introduction to people having sex with entities, ghosts, demons, whatever you want to call it, wasn't from somebody telling me anything. It was me watching Ghostbusters. And if you've seen the movie, Dan Aykroyd has sex with a ghost. and it's like a short scene, but you see his pants come on zip and then his eyes roll in the back

of his head. And I was a kid when I saw that. And now as an adult, I've heard interviews with Dan Aykroyd, I think it's probably Joe Rogan's podcast. And Dan Aykroyd recalled actually having sex with an entity and that attributing to that scene in Ghostbusters. Like he had sex with some kind of entity, and because he had sex with an entity, he put it in the movie. And so, like, for me, watching it on TV, the way his reaction was on the movie, even though it was comedic and stuff, I think in the back of his mind, he was probably relaying something that he had experienced with knowing that he did and how his body really reacted to it. Does that make sense? Like, because the way he makes it look on the movie is that, like, oh, my God,

This is amazing. And I'm thinking back now, I'm thinking probably because he, when he did have sex with whatever it was, it probably felt incredible and real. That's it. I had no idea. I actually hadn't seen the original Ghostbusters movies until I was much older, so I didn't even know about that. Yeah, it's, I think it was the original Ghostbuster movie that that scene was in.

But, yeah, it's pretty, it's pretty trippy. and these experiences, you know, aren't as uncommon as you would think. And that's why they have names for these things. I mean, people who want to attribute it to demonic experiences, they would call it a succubus or or a synchibus or no, synchubus or incubus. Incubus or succubus. And the incubus is typically a female or no, is it a male? Now, I'm trying to remember. I think the succubus is the female entity going after a male, and I think the incubus is, I don't remember now, I'm lost, but it's been a while since I looked at the definitions of an incubus and a succubus. We'll just call them synchubuses.

But, I mean, there's names for them, you know, and it's not relatively new or anything. These are ancient names of these demonic entities that come and visit people. and have sexual interactions with them. When you look back at it, not now, but like when you first started looking back at it, especially like say the first time you had sex with somebody and you're like, dang, what I've experienced as a kid growing up, that really was sex. Did it take you a while to kind of grasp that and be like, uh, this is, it's not normal. Like what I experienced isn't something that normal people experience or did you kind of

think that was kind of the norm for most people? I definitely, at the time that it was happening, thought it was not normal, which is why I never told anybody. I didn't make that connection as far as it being sexual right away, because, like I said, eventually, it stopped occurring. I don't know what it was. It just, it all came back to me one day. I wasn't even having sex. I didn't just get done having sex. It just came back to me, and I just remembered everything vividly.

I could remember, you know, what room I was laying in, not necessarily exact day or year. I know, like I said, it was around 11 or 12, or I'm sorry, 12 or 13. And it just came, it just came back to me. It's hard to explain. It's kind of like a repressed memory. Like, whatever it was visiting me. wanted me to forget and then didn't want me to remember until a certain time. I don't know. I'm new to this.

Me too. You know, it can, it can be hard to recall all the details of things that happened in our childhood. And me, I certainly can understand that. I honestly, obviously, we all lived our childhoods. we all lived the same amount of time. If you're 25 years old, you've had 25 years of experience, but I really don't remember a ton for my childhood. And I don't know if it's me blocking things out or if it's, you know, just me being stupid. But I don't remember a ton for my childhood. And so I understand, you know, things coming back later on and not really remembering up to a certain point. but what you just said with the idea of it not wanting you to remember, do you lean that direction?

I do more than other directions because I can't think of another explanation for it. Because I know it happened. These were not dreams. This was very real. I was very weak when these interactions happened. But I guess after they stopped and I didn't tell anybody about that. it that it just went to the back of my head

until something I don't know what it was just triggered it like a like a light flicking on so I guess just me not sharing it with anybody for so long on top of the occurrences stopping for many many years

made me kind of not necessarily forget about it but just it went to the back of my memory if you will yeah I can understand that and you said this was pretty much from like 12 to 13 to what later teens it kind of stopped yes okay so we're talking of just a few year period and stuff um yeah man i i don't know but it definitely is uh something that i don't think i'd want to live through to be honest with you uh you make it sound pretty cool but i mean that's my

coping mechanism right no i understand and but i mean when you're a kid and stuff and you're kind of digging it i mean i guess i understand it i mean it's all a new sensation and stuff and and you really don't know much better. But that first time it happened, I mean, were you scared at all? I mean, like, all of a sudden, something's on top of you covering your mouth, even though it felt good, were you at the same time scared? Like, I mean, at 12, 13 years old, I mean, you've heard of ghosts. You've heard of people haunted houses, things like that.

I mean, did that cross your mind that this is your experience, some kind of ghostly haunting entity doing something that felt good? I did. I was very scared. I remember my heart beating out of my chest. I could move my body. Like, if I wanted to, I could have gotten up and walked away, but I didn't. I don't, nothing was holding me down at the time that I initially saw it.

Like I said, I looked up and there it was. A female, when it was standing over me, I'll say this, it didn't appear to have a feminine appearance. It's when it got on top of me. Like, it was pretty much just a blob. and it was over me and when it made contact with me, that's when it manifested even more into more detail as a feminine-like figure. I was terrified.

And this wasn't a dream where, you know, you'd pop up in a cold sweat and be like, you know, I just woke up from a dream. That was wild. It was like, it was done. It went away. And I was lying there awake like I was before. Yeah.

And you know, what you just said kind of, it leads me into my next question. here. When the deed's done and all that, I mean, I know this is going to sound funny, but I asked him the question, but I know it's kind of funny too. Like, there wasn't any cuddling or anything after that. Did it just get up and walk away? Did it just disappear? Had this whole experience end to where you're now done having sex and alone in your room? It just ended as quickly as it began. No cuddling. I'm a cuddler. I'll like to be the big spoon.

Nothing like that. It didn't like get up, you know, bunnies on the counter and walked out the door, you know? It just, it was over as quickly as it began. Sometimes it wasn't that quick of an experience.

It felt like it would last for hours. And I would experience, I guess you would call it lost time. I would know about what time I would, lay down, whether it'd be in the bedroom, the living room, wherever I would lay down. And certain times, not all of them, but maybe one or two times felt like a really long period of time. And in reality, 10, 15 minutes might have went by. Did you ever feel like you were in a different realm, a different reality, or even look

around the room at the same time and be like something, like the room doesn't look the same? Did you ever feel like you were in a different location than where this started? No, I was always where it started. Now, I will say this, my surroundings became, I guess my peripheral vision of my surroundings dimmed. They darkened where I, you know, the TV might have been 10 feet away or whatever it was, but I couldn't see it. It was cut out of my vision. It was almost like if you see a composite drawing of like a scene of a movie and it's just got the room cut off, I don't know how to explain. it. I was in the now. I was only aware and could see my immediate area. Anything out of my

peripherals, I couldn't see. It was dark. And I just, I could look up at the thing. Like I said, I couldn't make out of face or anything or even eyes at that. So I guess it's safe to say that you were zoned in. I was in the zone. Yeah. And, you know, I think that, um, when it comes to this kind of stuff, I don't, the reason why I asked that question was because I personally don't feel it's outside the possibility of being taken into a different state of being during that experience, whether it's, it turns from what we understand as physical into more of a spiritual experience or even to the more sci-fi end of things that during the experience, your body gets taken into some kind of, let's just call it a parallel,

universe where this entity lives and exists on a normal frequent basis, almost like it's taking you to its house, you know? And that's why I wanted to ask you what the experience was there, because I wasn't sure, especially with the lost time idea. Yeah, definitely it was where I laid, down, that that's where it happened. Okay. And as far as you know, nobody else knows about this other than your girlfriend? Her and a co-worker, who is, he's also had experiences of the paranormal. And, you know, I'll work a ship with them every now and then, and we'll get to talking about it for hours sometimes depends on how busy the night is.

All right. So was his experiences non-sexual? Yeah, they were not sexual. Okay. So I'm assuming that you didn't drop the sex bomb. on the first conversation. Oh, no, no, no, no. I just, I don't, I don't think I've ever shared that detail with him.

I just told him I was visited by shadow people. Gotcha. Okay, so that's what I mean, though. So as far as outside of your girlfriend, nobody knows about the sexual experiences as far as you know. Nobody but you and the listeners now. And that's why we change your name of Jimmy. I like it.

Yeah. But seriously, though, I mean, it's one of those things where I think that it's definitely a sensitive topic. And, you know, I think that there's a lot of people out there that do have these experiences and they just refuse to talk about it. And it kind of goes along the lines of other sexuality topics of conversation where people are hesitant to talk about, whether it's, you know, that they were molested as a kid or, you know, like I said before, the sex or the teacher thing. Like there's so many things, or pornography addiction, there's so many things when it comes to sex that people are hesitant to talk about because you're so vulnerable in that situation. I mean, it's like, okay, it's like, it's like, it's not like me saying, yeah, tonight when I'm done talking, you only go up and have sex with my wife. Like that's a normal thing. Like I'm married. She's my wife and we're, whatever. But the idea of, uh, something outside of the quote unquote norm, um, is something that I know people have a heart. time coming out and just being open about. And I think it's, you know, commendable that you're willing to at least come up forward and talk about it. Now, what would you say to people that are listening to this and they are experiencing it and maybe they're fearful and maybe they're

not doing it by choice as much as it being forced upon them? Would you, would you have any advice for them or anything? I mean, maybe you don't, but I would be remiss if I didn't. I would be remiss if I didn't ask you to speak to people out there that maybe are having these experiences. That's hard to say because I didn't tell anybody. Over time, like I said, that the experiences stop happening. Now, if somebody else is experiencing this and, you know, it's maybe gone on for their entire lives, I don't know. Find somebody you trust more than anybody else that you know will keep your deepest,

darkest secrets because talking about it helps. it definitely else. Even sharing that detail of my co-worker, you know, without the sexual part, it helped a little bit. But when I,

when I opened up to my girlfriend, uh, that helped a lot. Definitely did. Yeah, I can imagine. I mean, it's like,

I don't want to attribute it to this exactly, but it's the idea of being in a group setting, like with AA or something like that, where you go and you sit down and you talk to people because it, it's a healing process, just the fact that you're, able to get something out as a healing process. And so I totally back up with what you said. I mean, if somebody's out there and they're experiencing this or anything really, if you can find somebody

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I want to say this is when the shadow figure came back into my life because it wasn't just I'm waking up and I can't move. It was definitely that. It was me in bed on my back. Now, this is different from the original encounters where my scene around me was black and I couldn't see. I could clearly make out my room. Every little detail was there. It was my room.

I was awake. My eyes were open. I could not move. So the first experience with it, I was lying. in bed. I woke up. My heart just pounding. My door opens, the bedroom door opens and here's this figure

from all those years ago. No interaction. It walks up to the foot of the bed and just stands there. It's a feminine figure like before. Only this time I can make it out without it being physically on me. And

it's there. I close my eyes and I'm trying to tell myself to wake up, wake up, move, breathe, because eventually my breathing gets, it gets really hard to breathe, almost like I'm suffocating. And this happens in every instance when I experience sleep paralysis. And eventually I can just kind of wait myself up and breathe really deep and I'll pop up. And I'm there. And the figure's gone.

The door was open, which was not open before. And that's my first experience with sleep paralysis. So this is the first experience and all that happens. In that moment, though, did you think back to your childhood and say this is the same entity, or was it later on that you started connecting dots? Or do you even say it was the same entity, but it just looked like the same entity? It was it. It was the same one.

I just knew it right then and there. It didn't take me a month, a week, a year from that first experience of sleep paralysis. It was as soon as I came up from it. I knew. It was that same one. So along that line then, do you think that it came back and it did these things to you that weren't as pleasurable? And it's almost like from the outside looking in and when you start trying to compare things,

it's almost like when you were younger, it came to you and it gave you what you wanted. And then later on, it came to you and took what it wanted. Does that make sense? It does. After that first experience, I started biting depression and it's gotten worse as I've gotten older. I've tried medications, meditation, talking to people, which helps. But it seems like after that first time, I don't know if it took something for me, but I've always been a relatively outgoing person, somebody that anybody could come to with anything, and I would be their ear or their shoulder, whichever one they needed. And after the sleep paralysis started happening, that change, I became more of a loner, I guess, very quiet in crowds.

not a conversation starter. You know, and I think that there's something, like, when people have experiences with, you know, the paranormal or just things in general in life, things that have impacted them deeply, there's things that happen inside our head psychologically. And I don't know if it's something that we can actually put to words, if it's something that, you know, I mean, like, if you're sitting here and you're telling this story, you may not even be able to tell, like, put into words what the trigger was that turned that experience into a depression state where you became somebody that you never really were before, but it happens.

And it's a shame that that happens. But do you think that was the intent behind that visit? Or do you think that was just a repercussion of what it did? I think it was, it could have been the intent. I've always heard the expression, hurt, heal. I believe it hurt me that day, whatever it was. But, I mean, it could all be in my head, you know. It could just, just experiencing that could have just set my psyche spinning.

But I think it's deeper than that personally. Okay. And now that wasn't a one-and-done thing. Like sleep paralysis continued, right? Oh, yeah. And that sleep paralysis, is it always an entity visiting you? Or is it sometimes you don't see the entity? It's always, I don't always see it.

But it's always a presence can be felt. I'm trying to put this into words, the feeling that I get. Sometimes when I wake up at a sleep paralysis and I start to drift away again into another deep sleep, I can feel myself slipping into paralysis. It's very strange. I don't know if it's normal if anybody else has experienced that. But I could experience sleep paralysis, wake up from it, start to fall back asleep. You know that state of sleep where you're basically half asleep,

but you're still aware of your surroundings? Yeah, very much. It's kind of like that, but I can feel myself slipping back into paralysis. And I try to fight it, but sometimes it's more successful than others. But more often than not, I'll slip back into a paralysis state where I'll just can't move.

And I'll always feel something, I haven't only on one other occasion that I can remember right offhand that I've actually seen the figure again during sleep paralysis. What was that instance? This one was different. This one was several years after my first experience in which I had more in between. I was living in an apartment and I was asleep in bed. let's go back to my first experience with the shadow figure where I felt like I got pulled off the bed. Okay.

So fast forward however many years later, I remember mid-20s at this point. It's very, in the evil presence I felt that night, I felt something pulling on the same side, my right side. I was sleeping on the right side of the bed, so my right side was on the edge. And every time I have sleep paralysis, I can basically feel my heart and hear my heart beating inside my head. And I'll get tingly all over, but I can't move, obviously. But this time, it was a very benevolent, if I said that right, figure. Another dark figure stood up to my right. But this time, I could make out much more deuce.

detail, red eyes, spike-like things coming from the shoulders, and this thing was huge. Nothing like the feminine figure that visited me in the past. And I could, it tried to drag me off the bed. Would force I've never felt before. I've never shared that before. Okay, so let me talk about this.

So you see an entity. It's huge. It has spikes on its shoulder, some kind of spikes on his shoulder, and it tries dragging you off the bed. Now, you're in sleep paralysis and it's trying to drag you off the bed. If it's not successful at doing that on a physical level, it would be surprising to me because, you know, pretty much it's just pulling anybody off of bed. So do you think that it might have been trying to pull something else other than your physical body off the bed, like maybe a spiritual being, like as in your spirit out of your body? It variable could have been because the thing that showed me weird was it's my same side that got pulled off the bed so many years earlier.

But this time after I snapped out, like, I can basically the only thing I can move while in sleep paralysis are my eyes. And I'm looking over at the thing I can feel it pulling at me. I'm not moving physically, but I definitely feel pressure, something grabbing at me, pulling me. When I snap out of it, I'm able to get myself out of it, and I'll wake up, deep breathing, heart racing. I'm in the same position that I fell asleep in. So it didn't physically grab me, so I guess it could have been trying to reach within. You know, and the reason why I asked that is because, again, several times in the show,

we've had people say such like things. And one that kind of sticks out to me is always, I always think it's, I always think it's episode 29. We had, and it's in the intro of the show, the guy had says that there was three or two or three gray entities and they were pulling him off the bed. But in that interview, like, that's just a clip of that part of the story. But in the interview, he talks about how, though it felt like it was, they were pulling him off the bed, and he was in bed with his wife, he said at the same time, it felt like they were trying to pull something out of him, like his spirit out of him. And it, like, it woke his wife up. Now, he wasn't dealing with sleep paralysis, but it woke his wife up. And, you know, if I remember correctly,

he never told his wife what actually happened that night. But he relays a similar experience of, feeling something trying to pull him off the bed, but it's simultaneously, he said it felt like something was trying to pull something out of his body. And that's where the spiritual realm comes in and, you know, that kind of stuff. Let me ask you this. Instead of me giving commentary on it, let me ask you, if you could choose between the two, would you rather just be pulled off the bed physically and this is something that's very physical happening? Or would you rather have the other way around where something's being almost like pulled out of your body. Physically.

Because something can get a hold of my, my spirit, my soul, and pull it out and take it with it. I would much rather just have the ever-loven, the ever-living crap was scared out of me anyway, but I would rather, you know, wake up on the floor rather than not be there. Now, I'm sitting here thinking about this,

and I'm thinking, I wonder if somebody ever truly had that experience where they feel like something's being pulled out of their body, let's just call it the soul or the spirit, and it was successful. I wonder what that would look like on the other side of that successful attempt. Like, if, I mean, assuming that they live to talk about it, like, because, I mean, what we're talking about sounds like almost like a grim reaper of some kind coming to collect your soul. Oh, geez. I mean, not saying you for, because I mean, you never, this side of the conversation,

you never detailed. So it, you said it felt like someone was pulling you off the bed. I brought up the whole spiritual aspect of things. But I just wonder if something is pulling a spirit or soul out of somebody's body and it was successful, like your spirit and soul was taken out of the body and somehow you survived it or whatever and you lived a tell about it. I wonder what that would look like. Would it look like just an hour?

out-of-body experience? Or would it look like as soon as the soul and spirit leaves the body, it is instantaneously in another realm? And what did you see there then? There's so many questions I would have, you know? That would definitely be interesting. I don't think I've ever had an out-of-body experience. There's one thing that comes in mind when I was much, much younger way before any of the

shadow people visits. I remember I don't know how old I was My guy It's seven or eight maybe I fought falling asleep in my mother's bed And um This is hard to put in words

I believe this was a dream though Getting out of bed Walking around The house being normal That's normal Everything where it's supposed to be Nothing out of the ordinary Nothing to indicate that

it was a dream and I could remember walking back to the bedroom and seeing myself sleeping and then I would crawl back in bed and wake up. That only happened once, but I'm not so unsure that that was just a dream. Yeah, well, hopefully it is a dream because if it's not a dream, it's definitely not a body experience. I mean, but I mean, honestly, I mean, if you feel like it was a dream, let's just call it a dream then, you know? Yeah, I feel that that was a dream. Yeah, me too. It was definitely a dream. We'll just say it. I like that. I like that better. Yeah. We're talking about Jimmy's dreams today, everybody.

We're going to call this Dreams with Demons or something. I don't know. Sleeping with demons. Well, yeah, I already picked the show name out. We're going to call this Demon Sex. Oh, my goodness. Okay. That won't be hard to miss on the feed. I mean, that's what it is, man. So, but listen, man, hopefully we were able to cover your experiences here in a good way. I mean, sometimes, and the way I interview people is very, it's very much dictated upon the individual. So sometimes people are very, like, I remember the one time I had somebody on the show who talked about what you

talked about in the beginning of the show and there were tears shed during the recording. It was something that he's still like every time he talks about it, he breaks down and cries. Obviously, it's more of a, you know, serious talk a conversation, but I appreciate you allowing me to kind of just take the light, hard, hard approach to this as well as, you know, pulling out details. But to wrap this up, I do want to ask you a final question and it has to do with your career. Now, you started out in the, I forget the term that you use, but we'll just call it the prison system.

You worked within the prison system and then you transitioned to becoming a police officer. So you've had a lot of experiences with law enforcement. Is there anything that sticks out of your mind as like the story that you, you're like, you went home that night and said, I cannot believe that I experienced that today or I cannot believe I made it home tonight. Hmm. There's been a couple of those. there were several instances

working in the you call a prison system I think I call it corrections the jail that I worked in it wasn't an old jail but you know there's trick of the eye you know we worked 12 hour shifts

and I was on night time night shift that time and you think you could catch something in the corner of your eye moving on one of the cameras but as far as actual like in the workplace experiences

there have been moments where we would go to apprehend a potentially dangerous suspect. One comes to mind. There was a shooting out in a neighborhood, and it happened right about shift change. So we had all the county units out there and all the city guys out there at the same time.

And I remember never been so close to taking a life until that moment. the guy comes out the back of the trailer I basically I got my sights right on his forehead and the slack was poured out of my my trigger and you know I'm just saying to myself that this guy comes out

anything in his hands it looks like a gun you know because he was said to be armed and dangerous then I was going to have to squeeze the trigger and I didn't have to, thank God. I've had one more time like that

where I came very, very close to pulling the trigger on a guy. We dealt with them a lot in the past. Everybody's got that one that they deal with a lot. We got several of those. This guy basically had a buoy knife in the middle of the day. I think it was a Sunday. This was not too long ago.

This was maybe three or four months. ago. And he wouldn't listen to commands. He basically crossed a major highway. I had to drive my car, cut him off, almost had to hit the guy. I get out. He's got the knife in hand. I got my gun drawn. And I'm just yelling at this guy to put that knife down. And he had it in a position of aggression, you could say, where the tip of that knife was pointing toward me. And I told me, if he takes one more step, I'm going to, I would have to put them down. Yeah, I can't imagine being in a situation like that, man. You know, my wife, because I mean, I flirted with the idea of going to law enforcement in my early 20s, and I also flirted with the idea of going to military. And my wife always tells me,

if there's anybody in the world that shouldn't be trained how to kill somebody, it should be you. She was very glad that I didn't go down those roads and stuff, you know, because not everybody's cut out for that, you know? And there's a lot of, there's a lot of discernment on that job that you need to have. And, uh, split second decisions. This is very much. Yeah. And I'm a, and I'm a lighthearted, you know, an easygoing guy and easy to get along with until that button gets pushed. And, uh, out of the nine or so years that I've been in it and everything, you know, there's only a couple of instances where somebody just pushed that button and I went off on them. Of course, I apologized, you know, after the fact, but

sometimes you've got to hurt people's feelings to get them to listen to you. Yeah. Yes. Yes, yes. That is so true. You mentioned about how sometimes you would see things at a corner of your eyes into prison.

And I'll just say this about that comment. Prisons I've heard can be very haunted. And I've talked to people who've had experiences in prisons. Like, for instance, I have a member episode. We call it the death. throat goblin episode 251. This guy, all he did is come on and talk about his haunting prison

prison experiences. And I'm telling you, like the prison, I don't know what it is. It must be, I don't know what it is, but these prisons can be very haunted and I wouldn't want to work in them. So, Jimmy, man, I appreciate you coming on the show. Oh, yeah,

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