The Confessionals - 814: The Demon That Posed as Jesus

Episode Date: December 2, 2025

Wyatt’s descent into the dark masquerade begins when a powerful spirit disguises itself as Jesus and pulls him into a ritual that opens his life to sleep-paralysis abductions, sexual manipulation, and years of demonic illusions so convincing he truly believed he was serving Christ. This counterfeit “Jesus” takes him into churches in the spirit, seduces him with twisted intimacy, and uses psychosis like a joystick to drive him deeper into destruction. The deception grows all while the antichrist entity that claims it is Yahweh, convinces Wyatt he is its chosen vessel, and lures him toward a horrific plan involving Nephilim-level corruption. But everything shatters on his daughter’s birthday when Wyatt collapses in a field and the real Jesus Christ tears every demon out of him in an instant. Shame turns into sonship as God lifts his face and calls him His own. Now Wyatt walks in the truth, exposing the masquerade that almost destroyed him and pointing others to the Christ who saved him.Please pray for Tony's wife, Lindsay, as she battles breast cancer. Your prayers make a difference!If you’re able, consider helping the Merkel family with medical expenses by donating to Lindsay’s GoFundMe: https://gofund.me/b8f76890Become a member for ad-free listening, extra shows, and exclusive access to our social media app: theconfessionalspodcast.com/joinThe Confessionals Social Network App:Apple Store: https://apple.co/3UxhPrhGoogle Play: https://bit.ly/43mk8kZThe Counter Series Available NOW:The Counter (YouTube): WATCH HEREThe Counter (Full Episode): WATCH HERETony's Recommended Reads: slingshotlibrary.comIf you want to learn about Jesus and what it means to be saved: Click HereBigfoot: The Journey To Belief: Stream HereThe Meadow Project: Stream HereMerkel Media Apparel: merkmerch.comMy New YouTube ChannelMerkel IRL: @merkelIRLMy First Sermon: Unseen BattlesSPONSORSSIMPLISAFE TODAY: simplisafe.com/confessionalsGHOSTBED: GhostBed.com/tonyCONNECT WITH USWebsite: www.theconfessionalspodcast.comEmail: [e-mail] CoatsYouTube | TikTok | InstagramEmail: [e-mail] ADDRESS:Merkel Media257 N. Calderwood St., #301Alcoa, TN 37701SOCIAL MEDIASubscribe to our YouTube: https://bit.ly/2TlREaIReddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/theconfessionals/Discord: https://discord.gg/KDn4D2uw7hShow Instagram: theconfessionalspodcastTony's Instagram: tonymerkelofficialFacebook: www.facebook.com/TheConfessionalsPodcasTwitter: @TConfessionalsTony's Twitter: @tony_merkelProduced by: @jack_theproducerOUTRO MUSICJoel Thomas - Joel's PsalmYouTube | Apple Music | Spotify

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Just some of the most incredible stories that you'll hear. He went through some of the darkest things in his life. The experiences that he had have clearly shaped him to be someone who is on fire for Christ. And what you'll hear today, some of the stuff is going to be sensitive. So if you have young ears, I would recommend listening to it before. allowing them to listen to it because he does go into some more adult-themed content. Just some of the things that he talks about will be a little bit sensitive. But he's gone through quite a lot of things.

And the way that the Lord has shaped his life now to be a living testimony for him and his will and for his kingdom, it's incredible. So I'm glad that we had him in studio and were able to listen and share with him in his testimony. So anyway, without dragging this on too long, let's get to watch. Coats right now. We got them and Jack learned how to use them. Nice. And good job.

And I do wonder, why do they call black magic? You know, I think about that stuff. I've had a full revelation on glass, technology, camera lenses, telescopes, all that. God has told me that Satan, the one thing he cannot change or lie about is the word of God, but he can lie through anything. And so sometimes our eyes deceive us even in such things as technologies, man. Very interesting. Very, very interesting.

Are we recording? Cool, cool. That's interesting, actually. Yeah, I've had a full revelation on that. Like, like shown how, like, even much of the stuff in the sky and the stars, dude, is just like a lie. Because you're seeing it through a camera, it's hard to believe it could be not true. Yeah.

But Satan is the God of the fallen world, and we're supposed to be watchful of his lies. And what is that if it's not everything around us that's been created by people giving their lives, sacrificing time, family friends, devoting everything, it's worship, you know, to build these technologies and to get these technologies. Totally. You know, the Masons call him the geometrition, the great geomatician. the great geometrician.

It's because the geometry comes from Lucifer, comes from the light giver, you know, cell phones, combustion engines. Why is all that like a sudden thing in these last days? Because I guess we finally offered enough babies that he was happy enough

to give us some convenience. Yeah. Do you have a Mason background? My wife's great-grandfather was a 33-degree Freemason for 40 years. Yeah. And the guy was considered a god in the town I'm in.

I've found a lot of his books, and I won't shame my family. You know, I will just say this. The man exalted Lucifer as God, exalted himself as Lucifer. Did he know he was doing that? Yes. Okay.

Yes, by name. Really? Yes. Okay. And did many, like, a year-long rituals, rituals that would take, like, a long time to do to what it's called is give a spiritual inheritance to his grandkids and great grandkids, which would be my wife. Yeah. Yeah. And the word is that the man gave his life to Jesus

on his deathbed is what I've been told. That's good. Yeah, I guess it was just like something wasn't right and he was like full repentance. Yeah. So that is, that's wild because he's been entire life doing that, trying to give his lineage a spiritual inheritance that you don't want. He turns to Christ on his deathbed, but that doesn't break the covenants and the agreements that he agreed to, right? Yeah. Yeah. And I found a handful of his books. I found books that were in code, like complete code front to back, that were called rituals. So the only thing you could read in English was that this was a ritual assigned to the man I'm speaking about by name in 1978. So he was a 33 degree Freemason all the way back then.

And the rest of the book was written in some sort of code. I've not been able to decipher in any way. I believe that every lodge has a different way. So you can't relate it. Wow. Yeah. And so I have no idea what's in that. But in other books he has, there's rosters.

I found that show the name, dude, I'm telling you, the name rank of every high-ranking master mason in every lodge in the state of Colorado, not only name, rank, and address. So it would be like worshipful master or master mason or, but also in the second half of this pamphlet showed if you wanted an electrician, like so you're a mason and you want to go through Mason electricians, here's the businesses and the names of those guys. If you need a Mason judge, here's the name of the judge. If you wanted, like, so, so it showed judges, cops, electricians, all that were free, like a full society, bro, that they're living in, where they just use each other, yeah. That's wild. And I burned that on a TikTok video.

And then like a week later, dude, they take all, they delete everything. They don't give me any way to recover it. Really? Yeah. On TikTok. On TikTok. I burned it. So I opened up the book.

I kind of talked about it a little bit. I still have pictures of the front cover of it. And I burned it. And then they deleted my TikTok. Jeez. Jeez, geez, geez. That's wild.

So, well, there's a whole side of spiritual implications that has. And I, you just, that was a great way to start during the show of the show. I, you know, I don't know. I'm not, I always, I mean, I hope that people understand, like, I'm not an expert on anything. I just talk to people who have been through things. Maybe I do talk to some experts on some things. But when it comes to the Masons, I mean, when you talk about just the title, because that's like what you said, the worshipful master. Which that's.

Which obtains to causing others to worship the master. Yeah, it's so radical. So how can you trick the nation into worshipping the grand architect of the universe? Through acting, music, art, right? Yeah. Yeah. It's wild, man. Like, it makes me uncomfortable.

Maybe I've been, just benefited the doubt for the world. Like, maybe I've been in this too long, and that's why it makes me uncomfortable. I don't think so. I think it makes me uncomfortable because there's only one master that I should be worshipping. And saying, worshipful master, Lord Jesus, you know? And it's like anything beyond, past him is just blasphemy, really. Exactly. So, Wyatt Coates.

Welcome to the studio. Welcome to Tennessee. I told you out there. I don't remember how I came across you, but I think it's Holy Spirit-driven. Oh, 100%. Because apparently you made a video a week before I reached you. Like maybe six days before, dude, I was on a live. And I heard God say, tell him you're going to get on.

the Confessionals podcast. I'm like, okay. Yeah. I mean, God's like my manager, bro. Like, not that I'm some great man, but like God is managing this ministry in a real tangible way. Like, he's like,

hey, tell him you're going to get on the Confessionals podcast. I do it a week later. You hit me up in a comment on one of my videos. Is that how I connected with you? A comment in one of my videos. I would have missed it, dude, because I never, dude, I never go through my comments.

It's too painful. But that one, that one I did, man. Yeah. Wow. Wow, wow, wow. That's wild. Because I was trying to remember how this all came together, and I couldn't. I mean, I know our mutual friend, Ezekiel, I always draw a blank on his YouTube channel name. What is it called? We need to talk. We need to talk. Yeah. He has some fantastic guests on there. And we had the Cheney's up here. And that's, I think, where I found her. I'm not sure where I found her. Maybe it was his channel. But they connected me with him. And he just seems like such a humble guy. He's a very, very good friend of mine.

A dive for the guy. He's blessed and anointed on another level. Dude, the guy's wonderful, wonderful man of God. Yeah, I try not to get jealous of other people's anointings. It's like, that's his in mourning, not mine. I wish I had that, though. So you spent time on his show, other people's shows. laying out your story, your testimony.

And what you kind of said out in the green room, I was really kind of happy that you said because my goal was hoping that we could kind of talk about your early life, but not spend so much time on it. Because I felt like we could go deeper. And let me just say this and then tie it on my back end. I felt like we could go deeper on some of the darker things because there are realities and truths so that we could

have a redemptive angle that had more weight and impact. You know what I mean? Because you are a redeemed human being, but you walked in extreme darkness. Yes. And I feel like there's a lot of people in this world who maybe not have the same testimony as you, but aspects. Yeah. And maybe they're still walking in a world where they're not walking in the dark, but they feel like they can't be redeemed. How many times do you hear that? people say, oh, God can't forgive me. It's like, no, no, no, you don't understand. Oh, that's one of the main things I preach, bro, is like after I get done explaining the nasty,

terrible things I used to do, I'd go, now take back what you said about the witch down the street or the crystal cellar. Yeah. He like, stop because I was worse, much worse. Yeah. Yeah. It's like, I don't know if you ever heard the phrase people say, if I walked into a church, it'd start on fire.

Yeah. It's just people not understanding the power of the blood of Christ. The mercy of God, dude. It goes, if you're sitting here thinking you can kind of draw a line on what God's willing to forgive or not, dude, you don't understand how infinite God is. Like, he is willing to forgive anybody who puts their knees on the ground and says, no longer my way, but yours. I'm sorry, thank you for bleeding for me. Yeah. Thank you for being shredded for me.

I was just talking to a guy last week who's going through some things, and he was kind of spitting that same thing to me. It's just like, I don't know. I don't know if I can. I was just like, dude, you had to understand. When Christ went to the cross, he had you in mind before you walked this earth. Before the earth was created, he knew you. And he was on a rescue mission for you before the earth was even in existence. Yeah.

I mean, think about billions of years from now, barbecuing with God. He saw all that and is living in all that and, like, loves you as a best friend for billions of years. Yeah. To think, like, when you start thinking about it like that is not, it's like you start understanding why he was so willing to just viciously give his life for his friends, you know, even when we didn't understand, even when we rebuked him, even when we turned from him, Isaiah 5214 says that he was marred beyond the resemblance of a human being or even a man.

Yep. So genitals, face, you name it, gone. it doesn't say the number 39 when talking about Jesus in the Bible. I think that's, we look at the history and we go, oh, he was last 39 times because that's what history was, right? But it doesn't actually say that about Jesus in the Bible. I think that's, I want to say if the man who betrayed Jesus was an Israelite, circumcised Israelite, who kept the law and walked with Jesus himself. but he had greed in his heart,

if the devil was so easily able to enter Judas and possess him to betray the Lord, how much more was the man who carried the cat of nine tails? Amen. I hear that. You can't put limitations on the demonic environment that was around Christ that day. Think about every demonic form, in known universe all coming to that one spot that day.

Yeah. Like that's why like, so if, if Christ knew, we're going to get to your story a second. Yeah. No, it's so good. If Christ knew before the earth was even in existence that he was on a rescue mission for a creation that didn't exist yet, but he loved dearly. And then the night of his betrayal, he's sweating blood.

Yeah. because he knew what was coming. And even though he's been on this rescue mission, in that moment, he's like, this is going to be tough. The human me says this is going to be tough. Yet he went and did it anyways. Like, that should really depict to people how in depth the spiritual warfare and the anguish that he was going to go through,

that he knew he was going to go through, that for thousands of years he was on this rescue mission willingly. And at the moment it was time to do it, He was like, this is going to hurt. But then he stood up and looked him in the eyes and said, I am, which was the thing that was going to set him to the cross. And he did it in a heartbeat for us. Because he's mighty. He's our father.

And he ain't playing games, dude. I was shown a vision after being healed about that day of him carrying that cross. And everybody, dude, that had just three days earlier been laying palm branches at his feet were now, mocking him filled with demons. Doing things they never would do. I saw after his hanging, I saw many people were like, why did I act so foul? They were like, as if they had a night drinking and you woke up the next day going, what did I do? They were, dude, demons filled them, mocked him.

They took every bit of that opportunity to destroy Jesus in every possible way. And I could, after God healed me, I saw that. And it really wrecked my life. I saw the devil tell everybody he says, this is him. This is he who cast us out of heaven. This is his son. Take it out of him. Take it out of his back.

Mock him, spit on him. Throw feces on him. I saw all the worst things you can imagine, really. And it brings me kind of to my story because when it came down to that defilement ritual that Satan did in my living room, it was all the same things. It was a defilement of my spirit, my body, my mind. I wish the devil had me messed up. We'll get to it. But I was like shooting up poisons and things like that.

So, yeah, we can start. Welcome to the show, kids. So let's just start off. Because you have an idea in your mind and a feeling from the Holy Spirit of where you want to go. So I don't want to set you off on a course that you to distract from the conversation. So start us off wherever you want. If you want to talk about your childhood a little bit and then take us from there, the floor is years,

and we're just going to have a good conversation about your testimony. All right. Buckle up. Buckle up, dude. Okay, so I am born into a Christian family, good Christian father, mother. Go to church. All my like childhood. But my dad takes us from California.

The Rodney King stuff was kind of going. on. There was a lot going on in L.A. And my dad's like, this is not the place for my family. So he moves us to this big, this trailer on the mountain, Colburn, Colorado with no plumbing, no electricity, dude, kerosene lamps, woodburning stove. And we're way into backwoods. My dad's just like roughnecking it with his family, you know, from L.A. to that. Was that something that was like characteristic of him? He was a real hardcore guy. But he grew up in L.A. You know, I mean, he was a backwards dude. He tried, he didn't fit in California. We'll say that. Gotcha. Yeah, because I mean, L.A. to that is big, big difference. Big difference. And we, I mean,

bro, we didn't have plumbing or electricity. So we're living in this new place, very new to us. I'm just a kid, though. I love it. Playing in the mud, dude, running around naked, in the mountains. We had 42 acres. Me and my brother just having a blast, riding bikes, swimming, you name it, right? I didn't care that we didn't watch movies because I didn't even know that was a thing you know, like I didn't know that I was missing out on anything and we watched a movie once a month my dad got a generator

and we'd go rent a movie once a month we'd get to watch a movie. Wow. I remember one time we accidentally watched like a scary movie and it ruined it because like we would, I was like, what are we doing? Like why were we watching this horror movie? My dad turned it off.

Ruin it because we'd look forward to that movie so much. But anyways, my story and the biggest part that I really, one of the biggest things I lay down is a term that I learned in the demonic realm called legal right. The entire demonic kingdom is obsessed with this term. You'll find men and women on earth who practice volleyball, basketball, football, and they get good at that. Somebody who's well known in the demonic kingdom is someone who's versed in a term called legal right. So the better that they understand the word of God and the heart of God to cause someone to sin against it is what's legal right. God said don't.

When you do, there's repercussions. Not because God's just angry and mad, but it's for the safety of his kingdom and for the well-being of a man. There's repercussions to disobeying God. The devil has obsessed over this. So you can imagine the man with a legion of demons in him. What things did that man do to allow those demons to possess him in such a way? And Satan has wrapped this up into a ritual, a five-point major defilement pentagram ritual.

I call it pentagram because the way it's always been shown to me is the upside-down star with the circle around it. I've been shown how each point of that represents five major folds of defilement. That circle to Satan is an open door into a man, right? So all of humankind is constantly trying to go to the spiritual realm. It's all a distraction while Satan manifests through mankind into this reality. And that defilement ritual will open a man up. And that is it's worship of self, false god worship, sorcery, which I've been shown.

is anything from addictive foods, chemical compounds, physical addictions, and using pharmacia or foods or poisons to open someone up spiritually or control them. That is what I've been taught is by demons is sorcery. And then the next thing would be exalting, using, and practicing magic. Okay, and I have some really deep thoughts on this in Revelation, but if you can't accept that, just the way that we've been glorifying magic through, say, the Disney Channel alone is enough to understand it. When you study Crowley, okay, Crowley constantly was in this same pattern in his rituals, getting women addicted to drugs, right, practicing magic with them, worshiping themselves,

worshiping these false gods from Egypt, right? it all relies around this ritual. And the last thing is sex, lust, and trauma. So that's this five-point major pentagram ritual. I have been taught over and over and over, exceeds all the boundaries of the legal rights, Satan needs to possess a man or a nation or a people. You have it.

So again, I want to lay this out. This is important because if people begin to understand what Satan's after, you can see the warfare in your life. And it comes down to worshiping yourself, worshiping demons or false gods, or putting anything above the Lord, the sorcery. So anything from even over-drinking alcohol,

marijuana, drugs, fentanyl, you have it. Sorry, give me a second. I'm fine. I mean, even just the drugs, the aspect with fentanyl, that triggered my mind because Philly, the city that I came from, I mean, it's a fentanyl capital of the world right now. And you can see the demonic characteristics in bunches of different people.

They all look the same. Like you, and when you look at the... Fetano is a principality. I was just going to say that. And it's different than the principality in L.A. Yes. You see that you see principalities play out through people, but you can see in the people. These are creatures that have been tied up under the abyss until recently.

And they've come out. And this is why we're seeing all these things happen in the last century or so. Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. So as I lay this ritual down, you're going to start seeing it in the world all around you because this has been kept secret, dude. This is a big deal. I learned this while having sex with the Antichrist, night after night after night.

The devil did not believe I was going to survive. I was just being dragged around like a dead body by a psychopath. being shown tons of insane stuff. I was not supposed to comprehend or remember. Okay, but I do, and I'm here to expose it. And one of those things is the defilement ritual. Satan wants in. How can he run and rule a nation by just being a spirit?

It's better for him to have a body, dude. And so how do I possess a man? Worship of self. False God worship, sorcery, the drugs, trauma. are sorcery, the drugs, even poisonous foods like McDonald's and stuff, honestly are a binding tool by the devil to open a nation up. Exalting and using of magic, harnessing energy for personal gain, energies from demons, or even glorifying those ancient arts is good enough.

And then the last thing is sex, lust, and trauma. So we have billion-dollar adult content industries to just over. open the nation up. So demons can be filing. Dude, everybody from any child who's old enough to get their mom's phone and watch grown adults have sex. And if people, we keep saying God bless, we keep saying God bless America.

Thank you, God, for the freedom of speech. Thank you, God, for the freedom of religion. And I just don't know if we're looking at, like, what we have to sell in order to buy that. Like, so yes, you have the freedom to watch the adult content, but how many kids are being defiled by adults, dude, for you to have that freedom? Millions. So we have the freedom of religion. Like, I'm so glad you and I can sit in this room together. Okay.

but is it worth, like sometimes I'd rather physically fight, dude, than say, oh, I'm so happy to be able to have my Christianity here, but also while just watching the world worship demons and have sex with demons and glorify demons and false gods. And like, sometimes I think we got to be careful with crediting God for some things that I think Satan designed in a Babylonian nation. I want to keep going, though. So, yeah, we should probably, because you brought up the

defilement ritual and, and even, like, I know for, it's so important. You trigger people that are like having, having sex with the antichrist. Like,

wait, what? Don't skip that part. We're going to get to all of that. I want to make sure people know how did you get from the trailer to the defilement ritual? Because there was a process.

It is, yeah. I just want to break, I want to put that defilement ritual down because everything revolves around that constantly everywhere, even in everybody's own life. You're going to look at worshipping yourself, serving yourself, worshiping demons through actors, musicians. It's all around that five-point pentagram defilement ritual to open a man's soul. So early on for me, I was molested. So you have the

sex, lust, and trauma, right? I was molested. That just fractured me. I spent all my life just full of anger, rage, pride. I didn't think I was good enough. When you are sexually, molested, God has created such wonderful beings, and he loves us so much and so dearly, and we're so important to him. We do not understand that some simple molestation

really fractures your spirit. It really is a trauma. You weren't supposed to do it. If you understood how important you were to God that he would die for you and give his son for you, these things really affect the heart and mind. And while they do, Satan tries to numb us and keep us from recognizing that. So as I molested, I spend my whole life trying to prove myself because my value just broke in half.

And so now I have no value. Instead of understanding, I'm made in the image of God. Now I'm chasing the image of the beast. I'm chasing this image that Satan's dangling in front of my face. And he says, well, if you act this way and do these things, then you can be valuable. you know and um so i get molested um young in school dude i'm a fighter constantly fighting everybody um i'm having sex really young um and i'm doing drugs young my first day of sixth grade i i remember i smoked this joint that i had saved all summer and i snorted a couple painkillers i do not remember

if there were percocets or vicodans but i know i did them the first day of sixth grade by um By the eighth grade, I was smoking oxy cotton. Actually, not the fentanyl stuff around today, but the oxy cotton. And by the end of the eighth grade, I was addicted to heroin. And so all through high school, I was smoking heroin, addicted to heroin, even shooting heroin. Just so broken, not realizing how broken I was, not realizing how desperate I was for the love of God, doing anything I could to feel okay, to feel normal, to feel confident, and to feel confident, and to feel satisfied.

I was always the cool kid, but I had no friends. So I don't know how to explain that. Like, everyone loved me, but I personally wasn't okay enough to like hang out with anybody. I don't know how to explain that. And then my good friends, I would just corrupting everybody, you know. So my wife, who is my wife now, by the way, she's in prison. If you all want to pray for her, that'd be awesome. It's tough for her to hear about all these cool things I get to be doing now in my life.

She's a wonderful woman of God. She was sober for two years before she got arrested. It's just that's how long the case took. And she'll be home in four years or so. And so that's something I haven't really come out publicly about yet. We can pray for sure that she maybe has an early release. That's what everybody keeps saying. I do.

I just, I'll just tell you this. I don't know much of this woman's story about the reference. But are you familiar with Katie Susa? I've heard the net. Yes. Yes, I am. She spent time in prison. She had a whole revival in prison.

Yes. Yes. So, like, it doesn't, like, and there's even a guy from my church who got his life back on track. He's, but the law caught up with him. And he went to my pastor's wife and said, hey, some things that I used to do caught up with me. I'm going to be gone for a while while he's in prison.

He was leading people to the Lord. He has a thriving ministry in prison and now out of prison. So, like, within every season, right? Yeah. And it's got to be hard for you. It's got to be hard for her. my kids as well, yeah. Yeah, for sure.

But at the end of the day, I think redemption is, it has its own, every redemption story has its own tapestry, right? And your wife's just beginning, just like you. Yeah, exactly. Anyways. Yeah, so, I appreciate that. Thank you. So, as you remember, I was Christian, grew up Christian.

I always seem to have this close relationship with Jesus, even up in the, until I started using drugs. And then with drugs, it was just constantly hiding from God. You can kind of imagine it like when you're smoking weed as a teenager, you know your eyes are red and you walk in the house and dad's sitting on the couch so you keep your head down. You don't look at me in the eyes. That was my relationship with God now. I was hiding from him because I had something to hide, right?

Um, so I'm now with my wife. She's my girlfriend at the time. Sex outside of marriage. There's another one. Check it off the list of that, that ritual, man. telling you. So, thank you, brother.

Thank you. Yeah. And you have plenty of water. Thank you, I'll get talking a lot. No, you're fine. You're fine.

I told him, I texted him. I said, go get more water. Yeah. And it's also, all this stuff's extremely emotional for me. I still am shaking up

about some of it. God has healed me so deeply, man. But these were real things that happened. My wife and I get addicted to heroin together. We get on a medically assisted treatment together for four years. And then we get pregnant with our daughter. I have a house that I bought, own a home young, cars, job, great carpenter, you name it. It was just picture

perfect, right? And then we were codependent. You see, I always talk about the legal right. So what gave Lucifer the right to destroy my marriage? Well, it's because I was given charge of my family before and I instead of taking and catering to this wonderful gift I took my wife and I laid her down in a defiled bed before marriage and so we don't take these things serious but I had sex with my wife before marriage so the same demons that muscle you into having sex with your wife before marriage will be the same ones that cause your marriage to get bland afterwards right you've submitted to them early on. So now you've allowed them to put a ceiling on what power you have. They're the decider because they decided you folded to their command. So now you will continue to until you

repent. And you'll always continue to justify things from now on. If you look at King Saul, it was just like one little disobedience and instantly you see the snowball effect of bad decisions and justifying bad decisions and just instantly, right? He goes from being super anointed, powerful king to just one disobedience and it's a snowball effect. Same thing with any man, any lukewarm Christian, any man claiming Jesus, you had sex with your wife before marriage. It's something that we need to have a serious conversation with God and say, I'm sorry, and repent and then now cater your family to the Lord like a man is supposed to do, right? So I didn't do that. I buried my wife, buried my wife, buried my

My daughter, like, when I say buried, I mean spiritually. Right. So. Probably best to clarify, though. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So spiritually, you know, sinfully buried my wife by having sex with her before we got married.

Then, then, you know, I'm constantly beating her spirit up by her catching me watching adult content. And I would fold to that while the whole time calling myself a Christian and acting like some man of God as if people don't know. because other people don't, but God knows, you know. And my wife has my daughter. My daughter's born. My wife has this crazy relapse on methamphetamines. She was just so broken, dude. And I was like yelling at her to be better,

but the whole time she was broken because she knew deep down she couldn't trust me. And it really does come down to men. I want to express that. if you want things to be different in your marriage, stop blaming your wives and take accountability for your control and your actions. And I must say this, because every time I see a man, do it and go to God and say,

God, it's my fault. She cheated. It's my fault she left. It's my fault. I defiled her before. I was cheating on her. It's my fault. I take accountability because I want to fix it. That's when God honors that.

And we see so much stuff heal. like person after per it's every time dude every time I see men take accountability it's just a matter of time before God shows that mercy and honors that man so okay let's take a second

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So traumatic. We were codependent. and she starts like talking to other guys. The meth is such a nasty drug, dude. So disgusting. So sexual. I would watch her fall asleep and like she would start making sexual noises while she was sleeping. And I thought like demons were just already before I even relapsed on my own.

I was seeing demons like taunting me as if they were trying to tell me like they had my wife while she was sleeping. Like, you can't stop us. Like, I finally try to get off methadone, which is the medically assisted treatment I was on. And I relapse three weeks into that. Just trying to get my wife. I was like, okay, I'll get off meth if you get off meth. And it just none of it worked out. I wasn't wise. I wasn't walking with God. I wasn't reaching out for counsel and friendship and help with the other men in my life that were willing to help. I was doing it all on myself, pride. just opening all those doors for Satan to break me down, and that is exactly what happened.

I relapse meth and heroin, and in three months, I lose everything. Just everything, dude. Everything. My daughter's taken by CPS. My wife's with friends. My car's erect. I'm broken.

My house is not only taken by the bank, but it's condemned because there's over a thousand capless needles in it. In three months. Whoa. Yes. Over a thousand capless needles in it. How many overdoses? I had six overdoses personally. In a three month period? Oh no. In like a year and a half period this relapse, six overdoses. And that was, I wasn't using much fentanyl. That was heroin. So fetonol, we see overdoses like a lot,

which is, I find it to be odd because I don't know why we didn't see as much on heroin. But anyways, I overdosed six times in this next year and a half. Most of them were all on purpose because, like, I just, they took my daughter. So I went into the Safeway bathroom and did that on purpose. They woke me up with the needles still sticking out of my arm, dude. A janitor did. And I couldn't even walk. I remember weeping and just telling God, like, I hope you take people.

Like, please take me into heaven because I'm not doing this no more. I'm done. and I ended my life. I did that many times. I started getting to the point where I'd wake up mad at God. Like, dude, do you understand how much I have to go through?

Like, do you understand how hard it is for me to end my life? Like, why are you not letting me die? Like, I would be mad. I have to do it again. You know, how hard that was? Like, so I'd be mad at God. Okay.

Those three months, dude, I'm talking to demons. I'm seeing demons. I'm seeing the... Are you aware that you're talking to demons at that time? Yeah, but I'm like infatuated by... It's not like a normal person. Like, whoa, did you see that? No, I was just on drugs, bro.

And I'm talking to demons. And like... Do you think it's because the drugs were opening a gateway? They're drugs. I think the trauma, the brokenness, the fear, the pride. I think, well, what God has showed me is that Lucifer really believed I was going to die. I was going to spend forever in this broken place. He just had so much legal right on me.

He was like, no, why it's not going to repent? And it just was, he was just not hiding himself for me at all. So, dude, I'm watching demons run through me all day, like, trying to tackle me, but they couldn't touch me yet, I guess. And I would be infatuated with their rage. Like, they hated me so much that they would run from one side of the room to the other. Like, so, dude, I'm talking monsters. Creatures you can't really imagine. People say the reptilian thing, that's definitely an aspect.

definitely an aspect of some of them that I was seeing, but you name it. If you can imagine it, there's some sort of demon that represents whatever you're imagining. That is why I think I have such a hard time watching horror movies and things like that. It's literally... Because I'm like, that's a depiction of something that's real. It happened in my life, dude.

Wow. Yeah. So I'm seeing demons hanging out. I would see the demons that were possessing my neighbors. So, like, I would see my neighbors I would watch demons enter them and then I'd watch them get frustrated over nothing and the demons had some sort of hold

on all these people's lives around me where I could watch the demons cuss through people so when people are like trying to start their car and it's like I would watch the demon go do the reaction so I'd see the demon would enter and be like oh dang car start that was a spirit I saw every time

like I would see people lusting after each other and it would be spirits walking into two people and those two spirits were lusting after the people and each other. I was watching all of this stuff. I just got tapped into the demonic realm. Like I'm out of my mind. I'm gone. My wife leaves.

I'm saying crazy things, doing crazy things, making no sense. I have that overdose. My daughter gets taken from me. I have that overdose in the bathroom at Safeway on 29 Road in Patterson, Grand Yorkshire, Colorado, which I have gone into that store and preached Jesus boldly. as like a victory. And led many... And I've actually using that store

to feed the homeless shelter like three times a week because I buy chicken, pride chicken from there. So like that place of brokenness, God is just like righteously strong-arming. And dude, we're just like

using it as a victory. That's awesome. Yeah. Overdose, broken, just so broken. Dude, the pain, like people describe visions of hell and like the shame.

they feel is overwhelming. This was levels of shame and pain I can't describe. And I needed a place to stay after that overdose. I hop in one of my cars that's still working. My house was condemned, but I knew how to get into it because it was my home. And I knew like how to shimmy the locks and stuff. I knew how to get into my house. So I went to my house that was condemned. I fall asleep on my couch. This is where it gets intense. I wake up. And there is a beautiful woman right in front of me. But she's just see-through a little bit. Like that behind you is your sign.

The color of the light coming down through the hole. That's what she was. But beautiful, tangible, bouncy, beautiful, sexual, lustful, beautiful dream woman. As if, like, Satan knew what my deepest lusts were, like, created that image. And this being wakes me up. I don't have heroin. I don't have meth. I wake up.

I'm so broken and out of my mind. And this being takes me by my hand. And she's like, hey, honey, I got you. I got something for you. Come follow me. She takes me into my wife's closet where my wife had spent nine months shooting up drugs.

And there was two Sharp's containers in there. What kind of containers? A sharps container, a hazardous container for needles. Gotcha. And there was two of them, well, there was like 30 of them in there, but there was two specifically that this demon had me open up, dump all the needles out, just a mess, dude.

I'm not even trying to, like fingers getting poked. Just a mess, bro. Whole hazardous mess. And I find two shots in there that were my wives that were clotted with blood, but one was heroin and one was meth. This demon instructs me lustfully, bro. Like, I want to slow down on this. I could hold this spirit.

I could kiss this spirit. I could feel this spirit. When this spirit spoke to me, I knew what it was intending to say. I knew what it was saying. I could feel its breath. I more real than you and I sitting here because it was like when it spoke to me, it spoke to my spirit and to my ears. Like I don't know how to explain it.

It's like a deeper form of communication, a more vibrant way of communicating. That's what I had with this spirit. So let me ask you about that. Let me pull that before we move anywhere further. I just, because I guess maybe clarifications, I'm going to ask you a question here. Do you feel like this spirit was manifesting in the physical, or do you feel like you were being taken somewhere that allowed you to experience it in a more real state, but it wasn't this particularly here?

I think it was manifesting to me in a physical way. Okay. Because I was in my house, and I do those two shots. I had a nasty, clotted meat, bro, the blood, yeah, sick. And I had to, like, recook them. I do those shots. Sends me off the rails. And then that spirit, like, takes me...

Dude, every word it says is like a moan. Like, it's so sexual. Beyond... It takes me into my living room. And when I get into the living room, there's another spirit. And I haven't been able to describe this spirit as well as I would like. but this spirit was a beautiful male. Very beautiful.

Kind of like the silver surfer in that sense, but it wasn't silver. It was black and white, polished. But also a little bit see-through. And in and out of skin appearing on it. And like, just so real. Like it was like a man and a spirit all at the same time. Really hard to explain.

At first, the first thought I thought it was Jesus because the power, the love from this creature. I know now and the Lord has fully confirmed to me and because I slept with this being over the next years of my life many times, did many rituals with, much sex magic with and took command from this creature many times. This thing got intimate with me. Dude, we're going to get there. This is the Antichrist. This is a beast with much power. All other demons submit. to this beast. This beast did what it wanted. I would see other spirits as we go on, be surprised that this demon would take me with it. So I would be taken into the spiritual realm in dreams

and stuff. And the other spirits were always like, why'd you bring him here? He's like, you do what I say. And they would all bow to the spirit. This spirit had much power and physical authority in this real world, as in like it would teach me things so I could get whatever I wanted physically in this world, and we're going to get to that. But after I come out of the closet, I go to my living room, that other spirit that I call the Antichrist, okay, like literally its face is like white, white, square, black, black, but polished and beautiful and skin. I don't, so hard to explain. It has a pentagram laid out in my living room. And that's a circle with star in the middle, the upside down star, five-pointed star, and it has me lay down in it.

So I just did these nasty shots in this condemned house filled with needles, broken, everything's gone, untroman-I don't want to live, I just tried ending my life, didn't work, I needed a place to stay, and here I am in the middle of this. Now, while I lay down, this is where, like, this ritual begins. This lustful spirit starts flashing a light into my eyes, simultaneously, I hear deep vibrating like dubstep type beats and drum beats and noises. And I knew it was like coming from the pit of hell. Like I remember thinking that thought, but it was just opening my body up, my spirit up,

while she's flashing the light into my eye. She's got a finger, like spiritually into my forehead. And people go, well, this could all be in your head. Yeah. But she was climaxing me over and over. and over. I didn't have to touch myself at all. Just the light and the vibrations and her power and like using my brain, bro, climaxing me over and over and over. This was just the first of this happening to me for years. Like, even after I get sober, so I get sober. I continue in these

practices with these demons. This spirit has me, it convinces me that I am some form. of a god. It tells me that you can shoot up anything you want right now and it'll turn into heroin in your body. So it has me like take a bunch of earwax out. I'll keep in mind I was a tweaker and showered in weeks, you know, earwax out. It has me take my own feces, my own urine, the semen that it just extracted from me. If you look at Crowley, he did a lot with body chemicals and fluids, Okay. So he was really doing the same thing in a different way, all of the same things. Satan has been after these defilement rituals because they open a man up to being used. And they're happening to our masses. And I'm going to get there.

So while I'm laying there, then that other Antichrist spirit and the lustful one, they look into my soul, dude. I'm being climax. There's like a pause and it goes, Wyatt, you know how the Bible, because I was always a man of God. And like, I had just fallen into drugs, addiction, and brokenness and sin. God had always told me not to, and I always did. And I feel like he just kind of let me fall to the hands of the devil in order to get me here today where I am now, you know? And he says, Wyatt, you know how the Bible says, don't change the words this book, lest you be cursed, right? And that's what they were telling me.

They're like, they're like, why did it got changed? you're in the final days it got changed Jesus is actually the devil and Lucifer is the good one and I could feel it dude and I believed it I was like oh dude that's so smart

the devil would make himself be the savior and like I and so they said they have so I'm being climaxed dude I'm shooting up poison I'm laying on this pentagram but my feet are in the air my shoulders are touching the ground.

There's bass noises, vibrating, like just opening my mind and body and spirit up. And this light is being flashed in my eyes. Literally like she was holding a flashlight. And so I can't help but to think of like a concert is all the same things. Repeating the sayings.

There's the flashing lights. There's the deep bases. I really think we are opening ourselves up to demons on a level. People are not ready to understand. I think it's deep. I think it's really, really deep, dude. My first thought goes to what you're talking about, the Travis Scott concert there who was talking about.

It's been on my head in mind this whole time since this day. I think demons are rape. We got to careful, which what words we say? Jack will mute it all out. I think demons in their nasty, powerful way, look at humans just like a pile does. And I think in their secret. nasty ways, dude, they are using these concerts to rape us, to molest us, and we're just enjoying

it. And to God, it's like, you all are the enemy and you need to repent. This is where it's like come out of her mystery Babylon. You got caught having sex with her. You've been defiled by her. Like, our nation, dude, is emerged in demonic worship and we're not seeing it. Man, just based off what you just shared, it gives a whole perspective on music industry. The whole thing. We see the tentacles when we talk about casting couches, we talk about the P. Diddy parties and all that stuff. But we see that as a surface, and we get angry at the physical, but we're not looking at the spiritual motor behind it. That's what I said, even with the Charlie Kirk.

stuff. At the end of the day, there is a demonic influence that was pushing somebody. Like, I know there's tons of different theories and stuff, and I honestly haven't gone down those other holes. I have an opinion on it for sure. But my whole thing is that day, there was a extreme war happening in the spiritual. Oh, yeah. And we as human beings often look at the physical man as the enemy. when what the real enemy is, is the demonic force pushing the puppets into place to be used. They're playing humans like video games.

This is what people don't understand. God said don't. So we've been glorifying these deep sins, lust, sex, murder. Day after day, after day, hour after hour, after hour on TV. It has been our childhood, our midlife, our midlife, our. adult life. We spend all day watching horror films, murder films, lust films, sex films, you name it, right? Constantly. And it is opening us up deeper than you can imagine. The repercussions are going to be so vicious and violent, dude. I'm telling you,

we've watched it happen in other nations all throughout the Bible where men would show up in mobs and debower people sexually. We're going to see it here. And it's going to be way worse than any, dude. I mean, if you look up right now, you look up Babylon, on Google, they'll say there was like 200,000 people in that city. I think there was a lot more than that,

but still, like, there's 300 million people in America, you know? Like, this last Babylon is so infinitely bigger. And if those things are historical events, what's going to happen when this one crashes? It's, so it's not that,

it's not that I think God is necessarily, going to rescue the nation, it's that he wants to rescue his people from it. Like, come out of her. Like, we've been caught with our pants down, guys. I'm telling you, it's not good. I've repented so hard, so hard because I fear God now. I saw the power he has by ripping these demons out of my life in a second violently, watching them run for their lives. Demons that I thought were so powerful that I worshipped, that I thought was God. I thought this was God. Keep in mind, as my testimony goes on, I'm tricked into believing this spirit is Jesus Christ, and I serve it as Jesus Christ. I'm the bride of Christ.

I end up becoming the man that gets the neck tattoo, which represents Chimora the Baca, which is a demonic tongue, an anti-Christ tongue that means the Lord's blood turns me on sexually. Wow. That's what your tattoo means. That's what it means. and God has redeemed me, healed me. We'll get to what he said about my neck and why I haven't got it removed.

But I would say it all over. I would speak in demonic tongues. I was fluent in demonic tongues. I was like an expert on the book of Enoch. I would hyper-study it. I would do sex magic all night long. I would do orgies with many, many, many, many demons. I would fast to let demons come into me

so they could feel my orgasms and we all could have orgies and orgasm together through me. I would fast to let demons come into me so they could taste what I could taste because they were desperate to be satisfied by tasting what I can taste and feel what I can feel. And I was also fasting so demons could enter into me and pleasure my wife better through my body. And I was fasting and doing rituals for demons to come into me. And we were looking for the order of the Eastern Star. We were looking for the woman who was defiled like myself so that we could birth a nephalum

through my body. So a demon could birth itself through my body through a woman who was agreeing to let it happen. That's what we were looking for. Then you know we had a giant jump. No, it's fine. When I say we, I mean me and the Antichrist that was acting like Jesus in my life, dude. Wow. Yeah. So let's get back to this. I'm on the ground. Okay. You're going to return to the Nephlin part? Big time. Okay, because I have such a revelation on Nephlin. This is why I can't watch your show, dude. because I'll watch it. You guys talk about Nephlim. I'm like, I know how it works.

So I can't even watch your show, dude. I can't because it's too much for me, even though I love your show. We love you. Yeah. So, all right. I'm on my back, shooting up my own feces, urine, semen, earwax, and even some other poisons,

narcan, hand sanitizer, just anything to defile myself. This is why I say when Jesus was going to the cross, I know the same things were happening to him. I know they were defiling his blood and throwing things on him. I know that it was a dark day because they did it to me. And if they did it to me, I know they did worse to Jesus. So they tell me Lucifer's God.

Jesus is the evil one. I announce it many times while climaxing, denouncing Jesus Christ is my Lord, exalting Lucifer. I'm on my shoulders, feeder in the air. They got my hands crossed. It was all perfectly designed. like there was a method to what Lucifer was doing. As soon as it's done, all the spirits are gone. And I go into the deepest psych.

So I don't consider myself in psychosis at this moment. There's times where I'll tell you I was in psychosis. But this was like clear thinking. I could clearly see these spirits. I wasn't acting in a strange way other than like doing what they were telling me to do. Right after this happened. So I told you the defilement ritual opens a man up to be possessed. I believe Lucifer opened me up to possess me, and now he's taking me for a ride.

And he uses psychosis as a joystick to get me to do whatever he wants me to do. So I go into a psychosis where I believe that all mankind has been mocking me, their God. I'm their God now. I believe all my friends. I go into this psychosis where I think everyone can see what I see and hear what I hear as if my mind, my eyes, and my life is some sort of nasty, in times tribulation against Christians that is like a reality TV show through my head, like a full deep psychosis.

I hop in my WRX, which was the last card in wreck. I ended up going head on in this car too. I just swore. It was a Subaru WRX. I swapped the engine turbo bigger. It was a fast car. Too fast for a tweaker, dude. Just stock is fast.

Even stock is fast, but I built it. and then I relapsed. So I just had this car built and tuned the machine shop that I had buttoned up all my exhaust lines and stuff. That's the place I kicked in and stole the truck from. And so, yeah. But so I go into this psychosis and I spend the next whole day trying to prove that I know everybody's watching my life. the way I'm going to prove it is by running my car into the back of the car driving in front of me and if they get out of the way in time, it's proof they saw me coming.

And so everybody was getting out of the way and it was just making me raging. I was like, I cannot believe you all been lying to me. I cracked the code. I figured it out. All meanwhile, Lucifer's just driving me. He's like, let's see how far I can take him. Let's see, I'll use these lies to just make him lose his mind. I ended up hitting a cop car

just tapping into it I ran from it I ran from another cop car I passed a cop in an oncoming lane at 110 miles per hour Patterson in Grand Junction Colorado

parked the car go rip the door off this dude's garage door that owed me money for meth found my wife in there with him I'm so dude it was a dangerous

man like not um he was or you I was yeah because it wasn't why it coats I was the devil and the devil was out for blood and the devil is now in a man and he can do whatever he wants and God was still having mercy on me right there was still some control like all control God had you know he was God was in control of all this he was with me the whole time but this was hardcore man I was vicious and angry I that day I ended up getting arrested for trespassing while getting naked in front of a whole bunch of people because I believed that my clothes were the only thing they could see.

And so I stripped all my clothes off and I get arrested. And I'm like begging this cop while weeping. They're throwing me in an ambulance, not even a cop car. And I'm begging this cop while weeping to tell God, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. And he's like, it was just a really, like looking back at it, it was one of the most broken moments of my life. the next year and a half of my life

I get arrested with 12 felonies in one arrest seven in a different arrest I get into eight different high speed chases where I get away from all of them because I was too dangerous they called it off I went into a sportsman's warehouse took a 1911 cold 45 acted like I put a bullet in it

and left with that gun stole that gun they tried to stop me but I was not someone you were going to touch or try to stop not only out of my mind, but like angry, just really violent. I kick in the door of this machine shop that did my car. I steal two more guns, 1911, Colt 45, 44 Magnum, the key fove to a brand new Dodge pickup truck, and I'm just on the road thinking the world is over, like out of my mind, you know.

I'm sitting behind the Ross to kind of just button all this up. Such a chaos, dude, just the most chaotic story. I have, dude, it would be endless. if I just told you day after day, the crazy stuff I was doing and getting away with, because there's a demonic blessing where you can do anything you want and get away with anything. Now that I'm a man of God and a Christian, dude, if I do anything wrong, it gets called out, seen, exposed so quick. But when I was doing this, dude, I was getting away with everything, anything.

I was like, I was getting arrested and just getting thrown out again. like Satan was just having a good time driving my body around. So I'm sitting behind a Ross in Grand Junction, Colorado. There's a D battery on the ground. Here we go again. If you shoot up the stuff in the battery, you turn into turns into heroin in your body. So I'm shooting up.

I tear open this D battery. Is that actual or is that just what the demon was telling you? He was telling me that. Okay. But it wasn't happening. I was just being tricked into shooting up poisons. Okay. I got you.

And like, I should be dead. I'm shooting up battery acid Yeah, that's wild Yeah, like cooking it in a spoon Thinking it's heroin And shooting a charcoaled out battery acid Wow That's

Bleach hand sanitizer, you name it Remember one time I shot up a bunch of hand sanitizer Same thing And I went into this headache And I like while driving down the road Flooring it with one foot I kick out my windshield with my other foot Just out of my mind dude

Like lost it But Satan was again He was just seeing how far he could take me. I got control. Let's drive it. Imagine if you were playing a game of Grand Theft Auto, what wild stuff would you do if you could just fulfill your fantasies? So Satan's literally turning us into little devils

that are possessing men while we're playing these games because that's what he's doing in our life. He's like, well, I'll turn them into little gods controlling their own little people. Like it's a demonic concept to like fulfill your fantasies in a video game. Wow. So dark.

So anyways, I, shooting up these battery acid, Holy Spirit supernaturally intervenes, and I call out to God. And at this point, I wasn't even, like, believing in Jesus, really, and I'm calling out to whoever God is. And it was kind of this moment of, like, if you're real, come and save me, right? The next day, I get arrested, I get shot with a 12-gauge beam bag around in my kidney. be thrown in jail in a suicide cell or in the padded cell, we'll say, I spent four days in there just screaming my brains out, claiming I'm not Wyatt Coates, even though they had just arrested me 12 times this year,

and I knew every guard, you know, I'm naked because I hit a cop and they were mad at me, they threw me in the padded cell naked. There's a little grate on the floor with bars. There's no running water, no toilets, just padded cell with a little hole in the floor. And they had just hired these guards that were women, and they were like pretty and like Satan timed it so perfectly because that will break a man down even more.

Like dude, I'm an animal in a cage. I don't want to live anymore. And I'm just everything's coming out all just broken. And so I'm begging this girl cop they just hired to like take me out and let me use the bathroom. She wouldn't do it. So in front of a whole group of people, you know, when you're on heroin, you don't have bowel movements for like two, three weeks at a time. So this real messy bowel movement in front of all. these people and just an animal in a cage.

And it's so crazy. Oh, God. Save me, dude. So I cried out to God and he saved my life. And it wasn't done yet, though. I get sober. I spent a year sober. Everything's fine.

Like, I'm coming back to reality. I'm working for myself. Remember, I was a carpenter. So now I have a full-time job with a full-time employee that I was paying $25 at the time, which was really good, especially in Colorado, to be paying him full-time employee. Like, I was doing good. I'm in my shop, and I'm trying to get into the presence of Jesus Christ because, like, but I'm so filled with hatred.

I'm blaming, like, other men for everything. There was, like, my wife was pregnant with my son while I was in rehab, and she got, she got defiled, she got raped by a drug dealer who was like using drugs to get her addicted and then like forcing her into sex while being eight months pregnant with my son. So I took all my mistakes and all my rage and I was going to kill this man because it was, it felt justified to me, you know? I was like, I'm going to take everything out on him and I'll just feel better. Long story short, I went to go do it.

I gave my daughter to my father. I went to go do it. And my daughter grabs my leg. She's like, no, daddy, I'm staying with you tonight. And I heard God just so clearly. And keep in mind, I was so far from God at this point. But I hear him say, if you do this, she will grow up without a father. And I'm like, okay, all right, I'm already getting my daughter back.

Like, I'm not going to. And I let it go right then. The next day, dude, I was so bad. I had this bed in one of these rooms in my dad's shop where I had just a sliver of the bed I was laying on. The rest was just trash and mold and like rats would crawl all over me. I was so depressed, bro, that I wouldn't even swipe the rats off of me. And I would stay up all night. Like, I'd sleep all day because the day was too much. But when night came, for some reason, I'd come alive and I'd be up all night writing on the walls. I would write like, I'm God's psycho and

just demon writing on the walls, dude, all over the roof, sealing the walls. So when God tells me that if I go to hurt this man, my daughter's going to grow up with, I was like, well, if I'm not going to do it, then I better let it all go. So I took a sander and I sanded everything off the walls. I burned everything. I burned my baths. I burned my gloves. I burned all the poisons I'd put together.

All the saraquil I'd collected to poison this man. I'd written it out, planned it out. It was going to hurt this man. I didn't do it. Praise God. I was a broken, dead psychopath, dude. Like I am reborn, a new man who actually cares about humans, dude. And I never like just like dude

God loves through me so powerfully. I'll look men in the eyes and just weep in their position. Like I'm honored to be in the presence of you, this man, because I know you're made in the image of God. Like I love people. And I'm like just not very long ago, dude. I'm planning on killing someone because of my problem. You know?

So I'm working for myself. there's a lot of information here and there's a lot. I said, hold on tight, but I'm trying to get to just great things. You're good. I'm working for myself. I'm in the shop and I am trying to get into the presence of Jesus. I sanded everything off my walls. I burned everything. I had this baseball bat. I just burned it all, the hatred,

the death. And right then and there while singing worship songs in my shop, dude, this is the part that has confused other podcasters in the past. I was trying to, to get into the presence of Jesus. And that defilement ritual I had done, Satan still owned my mind, body, and spirit,

and he wasn't going to let me do it so easily. And while worshiping Jesus in my shop, I saw this vision of this demon sending spirits out, and I just saw them entering my mind. And right then and there, I just get consumed again with psychosis. I fall into it. And as like, nothing crazy happens from it, but as I come out of the psychosis, this Jesus character has placed himself into my mind and my heart in my life.

And he takes me to go share the gospel. So I'm sharing the gospel on the streets. And he's taking credit for it. And I'm thinking like, man, this is so crazy. I have this relationship with this Jesus character. Were you saying character or were you believing it was actually Jesus? Dude, I thought it was the Lord. I believed it was the Lord.

up till this point, there was no signs that would have made me think it wasn't God or anybody else. Like, Satan doesn't play fair. This is why sin. You can't use logic. Like, if you have sin in your life, you're deceived. If you're sinning in your life and worshiping Jesus, you're worshipping the same demon. I'm serious. Because when you have the Holy Spirit, when you're baptized in the Holy Spirit, when you worship Jesus, you recognize what he did for you.

You actually believe he died on the cross for you. and you don't take that for granted. It's something you naturally, like, it's not this fight. I don't have to fight to not take it for granted. I believe that Jesus died for me, and I'm not going to sit here and spit in his face while he's on the cross.

Like, there's a real transformation. I didn't have that. So in the time, this was Jesus. And he was taking the credit for, like, having me go do nice things for people. And this relationship gets really polluted really quickly. And very soon it turns into, like, I'm the bride of Christ.

I'm having sex with Jesus. I'm having sex with my ancestors. I'm having orgies with Jesus and angels and dead ancestors. Because I've been told by this Jesus character that the thing, like, it all made sense to me. Like if we're the bride of Christ, he's like, yeah, we're going to have sex in heaven. The thing that I told you guys not to do on earth, I'm saving for heaven. He showed me one night real intimate, this real powerful moment. There was this big ball of light.

and it was very ecstasy and he says that's love and I could see how like a mother loving her daughter or son was all connected to the same ball as like a husband loving his wife and so like

this just I could see the heart of the devil but I didn't know it at the time and it was this great deep disgusting sex ball of penitement hatred taking innocence I couldn't see that at the time. At the time, it just made sense.

It was like, oh, okay, well, if I'm the bride of Christ, that makes sense. Then we all can be married. It'll be legal, and we can have clean sex in heaven. So I'm having sex with Jesus, and I'm thinking that I have, he's turning himself into a female for me because he knows I'm a man and, like, women. But the whole time, he's like, I'll get you to a better place where you're understanding.

It's just me. Like, I'm being just raped by the devil, dude. Like the same way a kid gets tricked into doing sexual stuff when he's young, like, that's what was happening to me. A very powerful spirit was convincing me powerfully that I should be having sex with it. And I believed it. And what gave it the right to do that? Why did I fall for it and not everybody else does?

Well, God told me my life is a sign of what is going to happen to the lukewarm generation. If we're not careful, there's coming an Antichrist spirit is going to swipe you off your feet. You're going to fall for it. We're going to think it's Jesus, but because there's compromise in your heart, your mind, and your life, there's no fruits like God said there will be fruits. You're going to be deceived by a fake Jesus, a fake power, a fake God, just like I was. And it's going to be bloody and foul. And we're here today as a mercy by God. God's using my life to warn people, right?

And once I came out with this story, I found out there's like a lot of people who've dealt with the same thing. A lot of people having sex with Jesus. A lot of people thinking they're the bride of Christ. A lot of people, a lot of them, many reach out to me. Yeah. Wow. So that's a real tactic that's being repeated and used. Yes.

Wow. Yeah, powerfully a lot. I was also called the Third Adam. I've had many people reach out to me and say, I was called the Third Adam. I was told that it was the chosen one. I was supposed to be the vessel that Jesus Christ returned in. See how it's Antichrist? Yeah.

You're always being replaced. with the real Jesus. You're replaced, and it all comes down to that defilement ritual. You worship yourself. It's false God worship. At the time, I wasn't using drugs, but drugs had been involved in this in my life. So drugs opened me up beforehand. At this time, I wasn't on drugs. At this time, I'm just doing, I'm waiting for my wife to go to bed every day. I'm a carpenter. And if you would have known me, I was on top of my game, charming, fun to be around, dude. But when my wife would fall asleep at night, I'd get out of bed. I'd go lay in the grass out in the field.

I'd watch this Jesus character, all lustfully and proud, climb up on a cross. He would bleed out on me. And then these beautiful women, which are now the devil's demons, I understand, would use his blood do things to me.

And I would not have to touch myself. This was real sex. This is where I got the name. The Lord's blood turns me on. And I got so broken and defiled, dude. These things are just atrocious to even here, right? We're talking, it's so bad, but like, I got so broken and defiled that no longer could the image of a beautiful woman turn me on or anything humanly.

I could only be turned on if I was washed in the blood of the Antichrist. And when I was, I'd be so filled with lust, dude. I would get to the point of climax by these demons and I'd be begging them to let me climax. Like, it would almost become tormentive. Like, dude, come on. This is stupid. And they're like, and they're just in my head, bro, not letting me do it. And then as soon as they're like, beg us to come with you, sorry for lack of terms, beg us to

climax with you and we'll all do it together and I'll let you. So I'm thinking this is a fun thing, not realizing I'm letting them in deeper in a way where if they can control this, they can control other things. So now we're all having these nasty orgies where we're all climaxing together with Jesus, bro. I'm covered in blood. Like when I look down, my whole body's covered in blood and all I see is a piece of meat above me as the Lord slaughtered all prideful. And like demons, just this, dude, dude, it's so bad, bro. And I could, it's so bad, dude. Again, guys, just hear what I'm saying. If Jesus can forgive me, change me and use me to lead many people to him every single day, feeding many people. Dude, I have friends that are getting on other podcasts now that like

we've been speaking in, blessing, casting demons out. We cast demons out of people. All right. the time, authority. If Jesus can save me, you can save those people in your life that you're claiming are too far. Because I was too far. Very too far. So I'd get filled with lust, like they plugged my battery in. And then I would go out the next day. I was so filled with lust. Now I can project it onto people just by thinking it. So I was causing women to come speak to me and I wouldn't have to say a word. And then I would be given an image of a man that a specific woman loved. And keep in mind, at this point, these are Christian women, married Christian women, that the devil is having me go after. So we're kind of jumping into something else here. But I'd be filled with this lust all night long.

I'd be shown a woman. He says, see this woman? Like in the spiritual, I'd be like, yeah. She needs to know that I'm her man and you're going to use lust to tap her into the kingdom things early. We're blessing her. We're going to bless her with sex with Jesus early, right? And so I would,

these were Christian women, dude. I would be told what shoes to wear, what shorts to wear, tank tops, hats, beard, you name it. I could just be like this Kendall. I would go out and buy $500 with a clothes

that the devil told me specifically to get because he said this is her dream man. If there's any chance of getting this married Christian woman to lust after you or to agree to have sex with you, it's through this image right here. And I'd be told what to say.

I'd be given words of knowledge, very intimate things. So like, I'd be, like, there was, there was, there was a specific female who had been too drunk at a party two weeks before this encounter and two men kind of

took advantage her while she was drunk. And I told her that I knew about it. She, like, flipped. Like, how did you know? Like, how did you know? And then I told her it was God. It was Jesus. Jesus loves you.

Jesus thinks you're beautiful. I think you're beautiful. Instantly, I've become lustful. And it just turned... Dude, I was... And then what was happening was... Through my image, I'm the image of the beast.

The beast is invisible to most. I see him, but others don't. I'm his image. So when these women are... choosing to lust for me, he took it as worship for him. Like, and so I didn't have to sleep with these women, dude. It was all just about lust. The minute they'd put their hand in my hand, give me their number, I could see it in

their eyes. They'd be like, am I really about to have sex with this man? And then, like, I'd hear the demon go, okay, we got her. Move on to the next one. Because it's not about having sex with people. It truly is about the heart, and he knows it. And so I went, dude, this happened to many women. I did this for a long time, truly going out, getting contracts from the devil, getting images of these women, and then meeting these women where I was told they would be, dress the way I was told to dress, and saying the things I was told to say very confidently, very powerfully, very confidently, overbearing.

And then we're talking demonic powers that are like, I didn't lose every target I ever got. I got a lust in return. I got a phone number in return. I got. And so I'm doing that. Now I'm fasting. We're getting to this Nephilim point. Now I'm fasting to let these spirits in deeper.

I'm begging them to come in deeper. They tell me if I fast for 24 hours, they can taste more. They really are just telling me they don't have a body. I'm sharing this body with multiple spirits now. It's just comfortable. I couldn't wait to go to a diner and I'd sit down with all my demons and they would eat what I. Oh, dude, it was so good.

It was family, dude. It was the best thing ever. I would take a bite of food and we all just enjoyed it and every bite just tasted better. And like, I'm with all these beautiful women and these beautiful men and these demons. But I didn't know there were demons. I'm thinking these are angels and Jesus. And I'm just, I'm took, dude. I'm going to burn in hell.

I'm not getting saved from this, you know? So I'm in there enjoying these spirits, touching these spirits, feeling these spirits, in love with these spirits. I was more in love with them, infatuated with them than I can describe. Just every bite I took, they tasted with me. Everything I did, they did with me. And they start telling me about how they could birth one of them through me. And it started out with allowing Jesus, he pushed me to the side.

he would take over my body and have sex with my wife through me. And he's like, see, and he was like teaching me how to have sex with my wife. And it was like better. Like, dude, this is how sick the devil is. He's so foul, dude. Then after that, what that concept comes up where he can use my reproduction organs, this is where he sits me down and starts explaining to me how he could birth himself through me.

If he had full access to my reproduction organs. and there was another woman who was willing and knew what was happening. It couldn't happen through unwillingness. She has to know what's happening. God just isn't letting Nephlin being birthed through people unless they know what they're doing. She's had to have been defiled in the same ways. So she's had, I say that now, but at the time it was like, do all the same things I've done. Be as willing as I'm willing.

Do the fasting. Do all that. So if we found another woman willing, well, he knew another woman. And we were going to make this happen. I never met with this woman, but I was explained how this works. It is all through. So at the time, again, he would use all these insane ways of telling me the truth that felt attractive to me. But after God healed me, he showed me, he's like, you know how I birthed my son, myself, through a virgin, undefiled, through the righteousness of God.

Loved, I'm your creator, and I take it very serious. Jesus was perfect, sinless, and through a virgin, right? The devil does it completely opposite. On this unimaginable level of defilement, he's found legal rights to birth himself through men and women. God was always like, how does something without a body get something with a body pregnant? There's a missing link in there is these were men being possessed, having sex with women, birthing demons through that intercourse.

And that was the goal. That's what we were trying to do. That's literally what was happening. And I believe that is happening on a scale of like, like, Petri Dish scale. I believe there's deep occults in this nation, secret occult, that are birthing the most beautiful actors, like, that are coming together and birthing Nephilim. And I have, dude, everything God has ever told me happened. He told me, I'm going to get on your podcast. A week later, you hit me up.

He told me I was going to get on a podcast called Touching the Afterlife. I get on Touching the Afterlife. He says, from there, someone else is going to hit you up and fly you to their city. Ezekiel hits me up and flies me for, I'm the first time he flies someone to his city. Everything God says happens. He says millions of people are going to hear your testimony. Millions of people are going to give their life to Jesus. Well, as of right now, millions of people, many millions of people have heard my testimony.

Everything God ever said to me has happened. And I just want people to understand that when I say, like, when God says something goes, it goes. And he has told me that there is many of our favorite actors that were born in this type of way. And they are spirits. And they were born not like a baby's born where they're simple-minded. They were born a conscious demon in a baby's body saying, yes, now I will go deceive the world. And it's all planned. It's all completely planned.

These, like, some of our favorite actors, dude, we are falling to the, to sleep, to the voices of demons. Like, these are demons. And even if they're not a Nephilim, they're very demonically possessed men. So when we're watching movies and we love this favorite actor or that one and you're falling asleep to it, that's your comfort.

Like, maybe we can start to see how deeply involved we are. And God said, don't, don't do it. We're going to see someday that America was the most disgusting submerged nation that taught the world how to sin. We taught the world how to have sex with demons. We taught the world how to have sex. We taught the world the moans, the disgusting noises. We taught the world how to glorify demons through our favorite actors, our politicians, our musicians.

These people are either Nephilim or they're very possessed. And God talked to me about how the giants, right? So we think, and I'm not saying Nephilim aren't giants, but he told me this loud and clear. He says the reason why people are not seeing what you're seeing is because they think they have to be giants. It's not that. They're just very attractive, funny, easy to listen to beautiful people because that's what demons know how to be. Yeah. All right.

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We're all out of the ordinary. It really kind of puts, when you think, think about, I don't want to put any names out. I'll put one name out there. Elon Musk. Oh, without a doubt. Yeah. I was like, don't do it.

All right, you're going to do it. Yeah, actually, Jim Carrey is one. Jim Carrey? I know that hurts people. They're going to laugh. They're like, oh, you lost me. You lost me, dude. I'm changing the channel.

I, the anti-Christ spirit I hung out with was literally the character of Jim Carrey. Like the funny, the laughing. You could kind of imagine, like, those joyful Jim Carrey characters, but with like this backside of like psychopath, murder, blood, anger, rage. He was, dude, I would laugh by myself for hours to Jim Carrey telling me jokes, but it was a spirit who was white and black acting like Jesus. And it was all the same jokes. And I was told that Jesus is manifesting through Jim Carrey, the whole JC thing,

how it's Jim Carrey, Jesus Christ, how on Christmas we should be. exalting Jesus, but instead we're like submerging ourselves in Jim Carrey movies, the Grinch, how there's like this, their real righteousness, and then there's a fake righteousness. So we're falling for the Antichrist's fake righteousness through the love of the Grinch and all this stuff. Like, I was really shown, like, that's what God has shown me afterwards. But at the time, I was shown how this Jesus character was manifesting through Jim Carrey, and I was like believing it.

But now that God has redeemed me, I've been shown all the opposites of how it was the anti-Christ manifesting through Jim Carrey. Actually, Jim Carrey, I really believe is a monster. I don't mean to, like, call out names. I don't mean to do it. You can take it how you will. But I hung out with Jim Carrey in the spirit. And he, like, not him, but the character he plays.

So even if Jim Carrey's not enough of him, he's manifesting an Antichrist spirit. And we love him. We can't get enough of it. We can't get enough of it. You know, I don't know if you've ever seen that 50 cent meme. And he's like, what does he matter of me for? Yeah. That's what I feel.

I feel like Jim Carrey, Jim Carrey's going to hear this somewhere, and he's going to like, what did I do? Yeah, exactly. But, no, I mean, the, the entertainment industry is dark.

You're seeing it play over into the sports world. Yeah. You know, Larry, Larry Gators, I don't know if you've seen him around, but he talks about LeBron and some of the things that LeBron has been into. Yeah.

And, and, You're saying things that I feel like there's a lot of people who have a feeling of. They feel like there's this anti-Christ spirit in these industries, and it's bubbling to the surface. But a lot of people don't have the eyes, lenses to see it. They know it's there. They can feel it. It's the Holy Spirit.

And telling them, hey, careful. But they're like, I don't understand how. And they don't see how. And you're kind of laying that out. when it comes to this ritual, I guess it would be where you and this woman were going to create a nephalum. Yes. Is that something that is in your mind, were you going to create a nephlum or were you going to create the manifestation of the... I was going to create a Christ spirit?

I was going to create a Christ. Okay. It's what I was being told. I was going to create a Christ. But do you think that that would have, if what you created, would have been the Antichrist? A Antichrist or anephalum. I don't know if it was the...

I think the way we understand the Antichrist is a little blurry. I think we've got to be careful on putting limits on that. I think what we can say for certain is is this great and mighty Antichrist spirit, this great principality. What we can say for certain is,

will manifest himself through more than one person. Not saying there won't be this anti-Christ man that runs like a dictator. I'm not saying that won't. But before that, waiting on that, how is this spirit manifesting himself now? Well, it's through Hollywood. It's through the mainstream. It's through the extreme. It's through the underground.

Like, it's literally all of that. All of that. This is a very massive spirit. very wise, very, very powerful. In his presence, lust was something that only radiated off of his skin. He has powers beyond my comprehension. And I was under, I was like,

he was a god, a god. Like, lust, like this overwhelming lust I was feeling was only the aroma he wore. Like, and so to us, these are like powerful things that are winning men's lives. And that's just the way he smells when he walks by. Like these are very powerful, disgusting, deep, sinful creatures.

And to do what Jesus did, which Almighty God and Jesus is the full manifestation of Almighty God, right? Like just this perfect man. So to do what that did, even on a demonic level, it's going to be really hard. To have one man that represents all the things of these demons is going to be hard.

What we do know for certain is that you need to try to make these prophecies fulfill now. Like if you're kind of waiting on something to happen, you're waiting on things to take place. Jesus kind of rebukes us from that. He says, like, don't be a fool and think you have time. So we do our best to try to make these prophecies fulfilled to today, right? So if the Antichrist was exalting himself through an image today, who would it be?

Well, it's always going to be the greatest, the most powerful, the most entertaining, the most funny, the most beautiful, it's always going to be, it's always that. And especially now, he's been given authority to use the name of Jesus because we know there's a real Jesus and a fake Jesus, right? So in these last days, we always thought that the devil couldn't use the name of Jesus. But you've got to realize this spirit I was hanging out with called himself Yahweh, called himself Yeshua, called himself Jesus, called himself my Lord and my God. So this is a demon, all the names we think the devil can't use. So, so, so I was also, real quick before I get to where God redeems me, I would be taken

into the demonic realm through sleep paralysis. So many of you have had sleep paralysis, watching and you maybe have had it. Never had sleep paralysis? Wow, it's such a common thing. I know. I really think that things like that make me feel like God placed me here. very strategically. Like, I often talk to people like yourself at a pure curiosity because I have no idea what you're talking about as far as the experiential side of the stuff that goes,

lucid dreams. Yeah. So this spirit liked to torment me with fear. Even though I'm thinking it's Jesus, it wasn't just guns and it wasn't just roses all the time, dude. Like, um, this spirit would torment me with fear. So I would fall asleep. I'd go into sleep paralysis, deep, very fearful levels of sleep paralysis. Like, I used to have sleep paralysis on heroin. What I'm talking about is a whole another level. Very fearful. And he would come up to me as the being I knew and pull me out of my body and take me with him all night long, like some dead man that he just, I'm taking this guy with me. Because I think he got off on the idea of showing me, like, very secretive things. I think that was exciting to him to, like, expose to me very secretive things that he knew I was never going to get away with.

you know because like I'm having sex with Jesus dude like you know like you're not repenting you're going to die like this you know and I would be taken into I don't know if I should say the names of them but to two specific churches in Grand Junction Colorado I'll say this they're the two biggest churches in Grand Junction Colorado Grand Junction Colorado doesn't have mega churches but these are like halfway step down from that and I used to Christian Catholic they're just like Nondonam Nondon. Non-denom. You know, big speakers, great musicians,

wonderful pastor, emotional at the end of every message, right? I was taken into these buildings in the spiritual realm. And at the time, again, I'm thinking this is God. So, oh, obviously I'd be in a church. But I was shown how this spirit controls everything in this church. I know the pastor's quarters. I know what the pastor's quarters looks like in this specific church. and I know backstage rooms

what they look like in this church and I also know what the church looks like from a sky point of view dude I'm telling it because I was taken in there to be shown that this spirit runs this church and that's intense because it's a church

dude but now that I'm redeemed like and actually walking for the Lord I've reached out to these specific churches I can't get any help local I've shown them how I'm feeding people at the homeless shelter in Grand Junction, Colorado, multiple times a week.

We're feeding them with every penny we can. We've gotten them, they just closed the homeless shelter down. So we've gotten everybody there tents. We've gotten everybody there propane heaters so they don't freeze because it's getting cold in Colorado. And I have reached out for help for the last two and a half strong years that I've been healed, right? and I can't get a finger to budge from anybody inside of there. They want nothing to do with it, dude. So the more I go on, it's starting to make sense.

It's like, aren't we called to help our community? Aren't we called to feed the hungry? Like, aren't we called? But you guys won't do anything unless it adds to your program. Well, your program, you have people coming to church for the last five years. and you have your tears, your fake tears at the end of every message and everybody's emotionally connected, why are they not given their lives to Jesus?

Why is there no fruits? Why is your congregation not sharing their faith with people, going out and feeding the homeless? Why are we not seeing an explosion of fruit from this Holy Spirit-filled churches? Well, it's because the Antichrist has snuck his way into these churches through compromise. And because we are afraid of teaching people, hands-on advice on how to go out and share the gospel, because I've found out that many pastors actually signed documents that say that they won't give hands-on advice on how to share their faith

because they are afraid of someone taking that advice and getting sued. So they have boxes around how they do this. The Mormon church has found a way around it by doing a lot of door-to-door stuff because someone can easily just close their door. But there's many churches where they say, I found this out as a thing. Like, talk to, like, a lot of people about this. This is actually a thing. A very overlooked thing where it's like, okay, we'll tell them to go share their faith, but not how to do it. Like, it's a great thing to share your faith.

You're called to share your faith. You should share your faith. But actually, like, sitting your congregation down and teaching them hands-on steps on how to do it, they're afraid of getting sued that way. That's a thing. That's interesting. I've never heard of that. Yeah. Yeah.

It's been a battle I've been fighting for the last. couple years exposing this and talking about it. And a lot of people know, and they've been reaching out to their pastors. Because I said that. I said, if you don't believe me, ask your pastor, why does he tell you it's a good thing to do? But he will never teach you how. And I say there's two reasons why. One is he doesn't know how, right? He doesn't know how to teach you how to evangelize, how to go out and show your faith. He just knows how to preach a message on stage. And number two is he's actually signed agreements not to teach his congregation now. That's it. So people are. are leaving. Dude, people are getting upset. Like, so my preaching, and I'm not trying to boast,

but God pushes me hard, dude, to, like, say what he wants and not what I want. Like, you think I don't want to just preach powerful messages that cause my stuff to go viral. Like, I want to do that too. But instead, I say the things he wants me to say, and I look at my following, and I say, you guys are called to share your faith. Jesus Christ says not everyone who comes to me and calls me, Lord will enter the kingdom of heaven. He says, no only those who actually do the will of my father, right? Many times he speaks about fruits. There will be actual fruits. Many times he talks about selling everything you have and giving it to the poor. And he's like, he's serious about this stuff. Not that every person just sell everything they have and become

Amish, but it's like there's a real moment in your faith where you go, did Jesus Christ really die for my sins. Did the man Jesus die for me? Did he raise from the dead? Do I believe that? Like, you need to sit down. Do you believe this? It's not just something you go to church and say, like, your own time. Do I believe that? Because if that's true, then the most important thing. Everything else is nonsense compared to Jesus loves you and Jesus loves you and Jesus loves you and you need to have hope and faith in Jesus, Jesus will save you, cry out to Jesus. Everything else is a distraction, dude. Really, if it comes down to it, do I believe? Do I believe that Jesus Christ is Lord? And I'm so adamant about this because I look at my old self that allowed all these nasty, insane doors to get

opened. I was a man who claimed Jesus Christ, but I was still watching adult content. I was a man who claimed Jesus Christ as my Lord, but I wouldn't tell nobody about it. I was ashamed. I had, I was but I thought every time Jesus would try to wake me up. He goes, why, you're a lukewarm Christian. I'd have that thought. And I go, that's not me. That's somebody else. Somebody else is lukewarm.

Someone else is going to get spit up, not me. I'd have those verses go through my head of the people with a form of godliness, but they deny the power. I'd go, oh, that's not me. That's somebody else. While never telling anyone about Jesus, never sharing my faith, not having any fruits, and still somehow convincing myself, I am a man of God. Like, it's a deep spell.

It's a lukewarm spell. And it's this Antichrist beast. I'm telling you he's very vicious. So finally one day, God, like, showed me that there's fruits. And it's like, if I have the Holy Spirit, then I have to walk in it. But let's keep going. We're almost to where God redeems me. There's this big ritual.

I've talked about it in my other testimonies. It's really dark, dude. This spirit builds up this big thing where he wants to basically cause me to in my life. He tells me that judging people that he loves really hurts him. He tells me that judging the people he loves really hurts him. He's got to go do some judgments. He tells me that it really hurts him.

And I'm his emotional support. And keep in mind, I'm being just ragged all around in my life. doing insane things. No one knows I'm out of my mind. No one knows I'm having sex with demons. No one even knows I'm going through this. Like that's how powerful Satan is, is he can have all this happening while making me look

like a great carpenter friendly guy doing cool stuff, right? He comes back from this going away and judging things. And all the other angels I'm with, which I'm in love with, I'm in love with my guardian angel. I hear his stomping steps. My wife's asleep. I'm up by myself. I'm expecting my Lord to come back.

I'm excited for him to come back. But I hear these stomping steps, and all the angels I'm with are so scared, and they're looking at me, and they're like, he doesn't look right. He doesn't look like they could see him before me, and they're building up this fear in me. And they're like, you need to stay here

because you're his emotional support. And like they're really pressing on me that he's broken, he needs me. So I'm very afraid. I'm just this stupid man broken and dead inside and doing nasty things, man. And this spirit comes back and sexually destroys me all night long. My mouth, every orifice, keep in mind this whole time I'm being climaxed without touching myself. This is true sex magic. This is true like Crowley deep stuff. I don't know how deep he truly went. Crowley. what a mysterious man, right?

Everybody's got theories on the guy. But I know what I did, and I'm having sex with demons, and being completely raped in the mouth by Jesus Christ. Like, I'm thinking it's Jesus, dude. So I'm screaming out in this moment. My spirit, as a man, is screaming out for my God to save me. But it's my God doing it to me. And it was the most broken moment. There's no words I can describe.

I could sit here again forever and just try to tell you how deeply broken and fearful I was. I could see hell. I could see eternity in front of me. I had sold my soul of the devil. In this moment, it was full circle because remember how they told me that Lucifer was the good one? Jesus was the devil. So like right now, while I'm being raped, crying out to my God, I'm realizing that I should have like been. It was just this twisted, insane, full loop circle where I'm like,

I did give my soul to the devil, and I should have given it to Lucifer, which I really did give it to Lucifer. Crazy. There's a lot of mental gymnastics. Dude, just insane. And Satan thinks that far ahead. He'll think 20, 30, 40, he'll think hundreds of years ahead, you know. Generational curses, bloodline curses. He uses them like a science, dude.

Like a science, like human beings, don't think about this stuff. But if you were the devil, what would you be using generational curses? You would be using sin to get legal right? be controlling the nations through drugs, addiction, sin, lust. You'd want to enter men so you can live through them. How do you do that? It's through defilement. It's through disobedience and sin. So when we start taking this stuff seriously, taking demonic possession seriously, taking the demonic realm seriously, understanding it's real, understanding there's a real war, you can start like applying it in your day-to-day life and go, okay, well, what lets him in? Disobedience,

sex, lust, trauma, the drug sorcery, like just my heart. you know, giving it to demons, glorifying demons, worshipping myself. And when you realize that, hmm, when you realize that and your heart is truly for God, you run. Yeah. You know, run from it. Yeah. It's like you have no other option.

It's like a guttural thing. Yeah. It's like you can't, like literally can't stomach it. You have to run from it. Yeah. And it's not to say that people are perfect and all that stuff, and we were falling, but it's like there's a difference between grieving the Lord and doing it unconsciously. Yeah, there's ignorance.

We do have a lot of ignorance. And like right now in this moment, through your podcast, God is tearing the veil of ignorance. For sure. And so ignorance is kind of keeping us safe from God's wrath. the devil's not ignorant the devil knows God and he chose to war against him right now people are going

okay if I continue to sin bad things are going to happen like the ignorance is leaving so it is a mercy God's exposing things but at the same time it's a serious thing you can't hear what I'm saying and continue in your life

you need to make a decision so I get messed up all night by this demon completely molested, sexually destroyed all night in ways I just do. It's too much to describe. The next day, timely, is my daughter's birthday. We have like 30 people come up to the family. All these friends of the family and family members are there and I'm laughing hysterically to myself, talking to myself, walking around in circles. I'm just gone. Like, I don't even really remember

it. I just remember being, like, tormented by demons in hell, not even, like, in my body. the Most High God had been watching everything this whole time the Most High God Jesus, our Lord, who truly died on the cross for my sins, the righteous God who was born through the Virgin Mary, lived a perfect life and died

rose again three days later for me and for you and for him was watching the whole time and he was with me. And he took me into a field. I'm still just gone. When I get to a place where nobody can see me,

I fall down my knees. And I'm going to tell you, what happened to the man with the Legion of Demons. I went from being so out of my mind, broken, lost, and in a second, back in my right mind, in a second watching thousands of demons running. And while they're running, dude, they're pulling up their pants.

Like this whole time, they were getting off on just destroying me. Like, I was watching thousands of male figure spirits running, pulling. Like, I could tell they were like pulling up, like, they just got caught with their pants. dude and almighty God is here powerful in an instant it takes about takes about three minutes I'm like oh wait I've been having sex with demons oh that's not Jesus oh that's a demon oh what have I been oh my neck tattoo oh dude because my neck tattoo again stands for homoara the vaca which means the Lord's blood turns me on like word for word that's what it stands for um I'll just all the shame

dude I drop on my knees the shame is overwhelming the presence of God is more powerful than anything I can expect or I understand the Lord is in heaven above me. My shame is so broken. I can't look up because the shame, dude, I cannot believe what I had just been doing. Like, I don't know how it happened. It's just a shame, dude, so bad. Wrecked me, like could crack the earth, honestly. And the Lord grabs me by my chin, man, because all the thoughts that were going through my head is,

I can't look up. I can't look up at you. And even through all that disgusting stuff, in an instant when he decided to forgive me and love me, he grabs me by my face. Like, I don't see his hand and I don't see his face, but he makes me look up. And he just calls me son. He tells me to look at him. He won't let me not look at him. He's not going to let me keep my head down.

You are mine. I am saving you. Like, it was very emotional. Most times when I tell this story, I'm weeping at this point. It was a very pivotal point of changing in my life. he tells me he clears up everything instantly I walk inside and I apologize to my wife

because keep in mind 10 minutes 20 minutes before I had just been laughing hysterically in front of our guests dude like for like an hour straight like just insane gone and now I'm back and I'm looking my wife in the eyes and I'm like hey babe I'm healed like God just healed me like I'm healed

I'm better now I started explaining to her what was happening I there's just proof and evidence you know like if my family was here they'd be like no dude he was out of his mind

and then he comes up out of the hill and he's a man again like he's just healed like just like the man with a legion of demons dude Jesus walks up to him on mercy cast every demon out of him

same thing happened to me dude um and uh I spend the next like almost year of my life I say year I'm throwing these numbers around man I know it was a handful of good months, though, maybe eight months or something.

Just filled with shame, dude. So much shame. And it wrestles me to the point of, like, again, depression and I don't want to live anymore. And I have this crazy moment where I'm just like, I'm like, you know what, God? I'm either having to be born again, made new, detached from anything that old man ever did, detached from Wyatt Coats, in any story, any past, any magic, any defilement ritual, any memory, all I'd ever done is bad in this world. I had no fruits.

I have to be able to completely detach from that, or I don't want to live anymore. Like, I must be born again, and I heard him loud and clear say, then be born again, son. Be made new. And that was it. So I detached.

I let go of the shame. I won't let it touch me no more. I'll speak boldly on all these things. I'm very thankful of my God. I boast in my weaknesses because I know God changed me. That man's dead. Died with Jesus on the cross.

And I am new. made new. The proof is in the putting man. I devote my time to the Lord and his people and salvation. And, dude, I can't describe how just so hungry I am for the presence of God. The pressure, the power, his love, it comes out as a desperation to love his lost and broken people without decision. That's just a fruit of the Holy Spirit. This is why I just. I'm confident when I say, if you're living like this, you don't have the Holy Spirit because that's who I was. I was that man claiming to be a Christian, claiming to have the Holy Spirit.

That dude was dead. I've had to be born again from that man who claimed the Holy Spirit, who claimed Jesus Christ. I've had to be made new from that lukewarm coward who claimed Jesus Christ, yet all he did was point fingers, gossip and slander others. You know, I had to be born again from that. And now I'm washed in the Holy Spirit. I start reading the Psalms, dude, yelling them. I'm going to the mountains.

A lot of people know me as the guy who yells online because I just worship Jesus. I have many viral videos that just screaming Jesus' name, dude. That all stemmed from what I'm telling you right now where I'm in the mountains. And I'm just screaming his name, worshiping him at pain, dude, coming out. All the pains coming out, all the healing. My deliverance happened in the mountains, worshiping God at the top of my lungs, man. and I kept hearing the Lord say, take it from me, take it from me. And he was just meaning like my authority, my healing, my love, my power, my friendship.

Come get it. Like, it's free. Just, I want you to come get it, you know? Like, if you seek me, I'll seek you. So in the mountains, screaming at the top of my lungs is when I truly have my encounter with Jesus Christ. His presence rocks me so hard that I, drop to the ground. His righteousness tells a story. And it is, I could see my whole life, him just chasing me, my whole life, dude. Every minute that I pushed him away, he was chasing

me. Every minute he wanted to be part of me, wanted to wake me up, every moment he was there power. Dude, so deeply, passionately involved in every moment of my life, dude. And I did not feel worthy of that love. That was a love that is beyond. It was catered to every breath, every moment, every thought. God put so much love and power into our entire lives. And I could see that in his righteousness and his friendship. And I didn't deserve it. So I start wailing. I don't know if people know what wailing is, but it's the noise you make when you lose control of yourself. And I've never wailed before in my life. But in this moment, I'm spits coming out of my mouth. I'm on my knees. I am wailing in the presence of it.

God, dude, my subconscious reaction to rebuke him, to get away from me, I don't deserve you, was to spit in the dirt and rub it all over my face to show him I was like dirty. This is like not me making decisions. This is like just so broken in his presence. He is so righteous, so holy. He truly died for me. I could see it all. And then to heal me even deeper, he looks me in the eyes and he quotes the Song of Songs

Chapter 4 verse 4, which says, it says, your neck is as beautiful as the Tower of David, and on it hang a thousand shields, and each of them is the shield of a warrior. And I was just healed. I saw it. Like, he said, what the devil meant for evil, I'm going to use for good, every bit of it. And that's the beginning of my ministry, man. And we've been leading many to Jesus Christ. We've been leading many to the Lord.

we go to I have events where we come to every major city and we go to the worst part of the city and we lead many people to Jesus, tears and weeping and salvation. It's just the beginning. I don't know what's next, but I know I'm never going to give up and I know I won't stop until the last breath because that's how can you? Yeah. How can you, you know? I mean, that's how I feel, man.

I don't know what's next, but I just know that as long as we're in the will of the father, doesn't matter. Because we'll find fulfillment in every season if we're walking with him. And every season of our life, wherever we find ourselves at, walking the path he's laid out for us. Well, it's not just us walking a path alone as he's with us. And having his presence on that path is just a small fraction of the experience that we'll have with him in eternity.

Oh, dude. You know, it's like the overdosing of spiritual fulfillment you have of Christ, in your life right now is like just a fraction of what you're going to experience forever. It grows every day, dude. It's wild. Yeah. Yeah. You're beautiful, dude.

Like, I love you, man. I love you. Seriously. Like, I really do. Like, I'm sitting here and I'm hearing your testimony. And it's just, um, I love, I love seeing the redemption. It's crazy. The Lord is very powerful, man.

I see, I see friends of my past in you. Hmm. Um, I've lost friends. Yeah. Lots of them. Yeah. Some of them are still alive and they're not just in my life and some of them have passed away because of the drugs. Yeah.

And there's one that I'm thinking of right now. He's no longer with us. And some of the things that you share today, I remember seeing in him. Yeah. And we were at Bible College and he was just out of Teen Challenge rehab. And I can't tell me in times I've taken to rehab. Yeah. And the fire that he would have for the Lord at times,

and then just to see what you described, I never had the conversations with him like I have with people today. But I would imagine he would probably mirror something that you shared today. and I go back to Isaiah 57 on some of this because I was with James a lot and I believe that he was walking with the Lord. I do believe that he was saved. Yeah. I think the enemy was fighting for his life. And Isaiah 57 talks about, I'm terrible with actually quoting.

Quoting, yeah. But that the young often die or the godly often die young and we often don't ask why. and it's that the Lord is protecting them from evils to come. And I look at that verse and with people like James, and I just pray that that's the case there. Yeah. Yeah. But your testimony, man, it is...

It's so tough. It's evolving. You know, so, like, dude, your, you... Your testimony is up to this point, but you said, I don't know what comes next. You're 31. But in the next nine years when you're 40, bro.

Talking about millions hearing the gospel that's giving to the lives of the Lord. The tools are in our hands and you're utilizing it and it's only a matter of time.

I'm very encouraged to see your zeal. I love it. Can I say one thing real quick? Yeah. So I do have a goal

because I have an anger towards somebody who's been given much authority, and he does the little he does with it, right? A man of God, it's a very powerful rule, right? And to just corral your congregation and to make sure they're not going out, doing what they're supposed to be doing, sets me a little bit, but I don't want to make the church my enemy. What I want to do is I want to take, and this is, I will not stop until this happens,

until the best of our singers, for the best of our prophets, to the best of our prayer warriors, till the best of our pastors are taking the best of ourselves and our congregation and the most excited people to worship and we are hitting the streets for free events to the lost and broken people who cannot even get out of their tent or go get coffee or make it to church

and we were going to take the best of what we have and get to the streets and I'm not stopping until that's a thing until we're less of this church building and more of this church building and more of that, of us rounding up together, showing up together, and all of us together, watching the blind sea, watching the lame walk, watching the naked be clothed, and we're doing it together.

Could you imagine the power that God would honor us with if we started doing this? And I am also been showed a vision that that is what will take place in these last days. there will be a great revival and a great falling away. The great revival is when people go, yes, I'm going to do this. We're going to do great and mighty things. We're going to bring the best of church to the broken and the loss like we were called to do. We're going to get together and do it. But there's going to be many people who call themselves Christians who go,

I don't have to do nothing. And they're going to go to the mega church. They're going to just fade away. So there's going to be a falling away and a revival much at the same time. I see. and you just look like quote me on this because everything God says happens happens I see

okay like 40, 50, 60,000 people in Skid Row worshiping God, healing people on the streets and then the next city and the next city and the next city until it turns into that's what we do on Sunday.

On Sunday we get together and go worship, you know, in the streets. See it on the corner. Yeah. Yeah. We have to. We got like, we have to, dude.

What an honor that would be to God. He says when you give something to the least of these, it's like you're offering it to the Lord himself. Well, we all worship at the top of our lungs, and yay, that's great. But, like, is God possibly receiving it as, like, vain? Because you're willing to worship loud, but you won't give your life.

So imagine if you gave your life and you gave yourself to the Lord. And you fed him and you clothed him and you visited him. you actually honored as he's asked us to. Then when we do get together in worship, imagine the outpouring of the Holy Spirit when God goes, ooh, you actually love me.

Yeah, if you've ever been in a worship service where people are getting knocked on their butts because of the presence of the God in the direction of that's just a regular thing? I think it's about to just, we're going to see an outpouring. We're going to see people rushing to just stand in the presence of men of God because they believe the presence of the Lord will heal them.

We're going to see that again. and I think it just takes us saying let's go let's get together and do this let's do it I think that's what is going to happen I know it's going to happen because I'm not going to stop till it does yeah brother I've seen your motor man yeah it's it's a divine motor yeah and so um I don't think that thing's ever going to run out of juice no I don't know and that's the thing that's what I was trying to say just a few minutes ago I wanted to make sure I clarify this because I feel like I'm looking at you and I'm looking at what you're looking at what James could have been if he if things just would have stopped yeah right yeah and that's why I just

I don't know if it was weird to you but I like I love you and it's just like I see I see what James could have been in so many others yeah yeah and I know you've seen it too yep um how can people help you okay so well you can come follow me you can come meet up with me when I do these street events, my next one. I don't know when you're going to get this out. I'm not sure. It's hard to say. But anyways, you can come follow me. You can meet up with me when I do these events. Just follow me on TikTok, YouTube. We can leave the links in the description. Follow me. Come meet with me. Come learn how to share your faith. I've spent a couple years of making every major mistake you can make. And I've done it so that you don't have to. I will come bring any size group together.

Let's meet up in Skid Row. Let's go to L.A. Let's go to the cities. Meet up with me. I will go before you. The Holy Spirit goes before all of us. And we're going to go and love on broken people and watch them give their lives to Jesus.

I do it in my groups already. And every time we do, we see tears and weeping and salvation. We see demons manifest and get cast out. We see people get off the street. Mothers go home. Fathers coming home. Addicts coming home. People getting healed.

Cicosis is breaking. We're seeing it already. But imagine if it was the best of us, the best, every one of us out there together. That's when God's going to, that's when we're going to see dead man rise. We're going to see it on camera. Because why not? We're talking about God. We're talking about the Lord. Is he real or not? Nothing. You know? Exactly. So come follow me. I would love to meet with anybody who wants to learn how to share their faith because that is my. my anointing, especially in the loss, the broken, the homeless, and them who do not know who they are, I love to look them in the eye and tell them who they are. I love looking them in the eye and say, you don't know who you are, do you? Man of God, man made in the image of God, you know. That's awesome, man. I appreciate you coming out. I know it was tough getting here, but this was awesome, man. I appreciate it, dude. Thank you so much. Absolutely.

What I create these songs in the pain is cold, but seasonally. I'm crying, looking for signs. I need a theophony. Everything encompassing me, isotropically, and nothing I seem to do is working out. Who is spotting me? I feel like they're mocking me. Where is the God of me?

I feel like I'm dried up and bickering over the Bible while people are dying in front of them, and you wonder why people are running from. The guy that you say that is shunning them. I fell to myself. They told me to look somewhere raised not. Open the stars, up in the sky, I open to cross self with every distraction.

Got driving my tires, a ball can't get any traction. Where's compassion? We following kings, but they only from Akron. Whoa. I just know that we're more than what they tell us. We're rovers zealous when we protect what is precious. We get confused when those things start to propel us. Into things we don't want to do, leave us helpless.

There's only one who gives us peace when we are restless. I know that now.