The Confessionals - RELOADED | 345: The Snake Demon

Episode Date: November 4, 2024

In Episode 345: The Snake Demon, guest Colin joins the show to tell us about his paranormal experiences. In 2007, he traveled to Thailand, where one night he awoke to find a "shadow person" sitting on top of him. From that point on, it seemed like the paranormal activity in his life ramped up significantly. He has had many odd experiences over the years, and has wondered if his connection to the paranormal is something that runs in his family, as his grandmother and mother have also witnessed strange things like ufos, shadow people, and memories of past lives. Colin previously listened to The Confessionals Episode 199: Miracles and Exorcisms with guest Hector, and has since joined up with him to pursue pushing back against the darkness in this world.Hurricane Helene Relief Efforts List: https://www.theconfessionalspodcast.com/helene-reliefSasquatch and The Missing Man: merkelfilms.comMerkel Media Apparel: merkmerch.comThe Confessionals Members App:Apple Store: https://apple.co/3UxhPrhGoogle Play: https://bit.ly/43mk8kZBecome a member for AD FREE listening and EXTRA shows: theconfessionalspodcast.com/joinAFFILIATESGo Silent with SLNT Faraday Bags: https://alnk.to/clXuRY5EMP Shield: empshield.com Coupon Code: "tony" for $50 off every item you purchase!SPONSORSSIMPLISAFE TODAY: simplisafe.com/confessionalsUNCOMMON GOODS: uncommongoods.com/tonyCONNECT WITH USWebsite: www.theconfessionalspodcast.comEmail: [e-mail] to the Newsletter: https://www.theconfessionalspodcast.com/the-newsletterMAILING ADDRESS:Merkel Media257 N. Calderwood St., #301Alcoa, TN 37701SOCIAL MEDIASubscribe to our YouTube: https://bit.ly/2TlREaIReddit: https://www.reddit.com/r/theconfessionals/Discord: https://discord.gg/KDn4D2uw7hShow Instagram: theconfessionalspodcastTony's Instagram: tonymerkelofficialFacebook: www.facebook.com/TheConfessionalsPodcasTwitter: @TConfessionalsTony's Twitter: @tony_merkelProduced by: @jack_theproducer

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curl up to grab it, and then disappear. When he came over to me, dude, he slithered over to me. And this giant comes out of the cave and they're all frozen. And he starts running and firing at this giant. With a giant

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Yep. Welcome to the show, everybody are listening to The Confessionals. I am your host, Tony Merkel. Thank you for being here. If you've had an encounter or a story like to share with me on the show, go ahead and shoot me an email. Or go to the website, The Confessionals. Podcast.com, hit the contact section and you can reach me that way as well. Either it works for me, just get a hold of me. And if you want more shows on a weekly basis,

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talk to other people in the chat and ask questions that way as well. But that's this Thursday on the website for members at 9 p.m. Eastern Standard Time. And also go ahead and subscribe to the YouTube channel, The Confessionals, the Confessionals on YouTube, because we are going to be doing a new show on YouTube called Legion of Legends, where I go hunting for the legends that we've heard about for so long on this show. So if you want to watch these journeys with me, go to the confessionals on YouTube, hit subscribe and don't miss a show. Now this week we have Colin coming on the show and Colin is in the UK and he's has a lot of different paranormal experiences that started off when he went to Thailand and he woke up

with an entity sitting on him. And from that point on, it snowballed in his life and it became a very common thing. So let's get to Colin right now. All right, today we got Colin on the show. Colin, how are you, sir? I'm good, Tony. How are you? Man, I'm doing good. So, Colin, before we get into anything, though, I wanted to let you kind of talk a little bit here about you're working with Hector from Episode 199. People, members know who Hector is because there was a member episode, but Hector had an amazing story and he has a ministry. And you actually, since hearing that episode, have joined his ministry, right?

Yeah, yeah. So I heard the episode, about 20 minutes in, I'm thinking, I hope they give an email address out because I'm going to message this guy. And then you did at the end. See, I dropped in an email because I was kind of looking for some kind of prayer assistance around the time. He sent me one back, had a few sessions in, and it kind of went from there. Yeah, after join the ministry. And it's smoothed something since then. So, yeah. Awesome. Yeah. So if you're a member, you want to hear that show, it's episode 199, miracles and

exorcisms. And I think we started off that interview with telling our own story where before we started recording, Hector prayed for me and my brother, Jack, who was in studio. And he's, I forget how it all went, but he's like, do either one of you have shoulder issues? And Jack's like I do. And he's praying. And like, Jack's face like is melting in front of me because he's feeling like this pain just leave his body. And it's like when I'm looking at his face, his eyes are real big. And I'm just like, whoa, something's happening here. And Jack's shoulder was healed right there. And the last time I checked with Jack was probably about six months ago. And he said his shoulder still feels great. And it was bothering him for a while. And so it was really interesting experience going into the interview.

And then the interview itself was just awesome. So, you know, people are members, they can go ahead and check that out. But Colin, knowing that you're joined up with him and stuff, lay the groundwork as to kind of your life in this paranormal stuff that led you up to even contacting Hector. Yeah. So 33 now. Grop in London, fairly kind of normal childhood. finished school, finished college. So in 2007, I went traveling in Thailand

with two other friends. Three and a half months, kind of going around Thailand, Cambodia, Vietnam, got to the end of it, and I thought, you know what, I'm not quite ready

to go back to the UK now. I'm going to try and stay out of it. So came back to the UK for a month, got some money together, went back, ended up teaching over there and staying over there for about seven or eight years in total.

So the weird stuff started. probably in around maybe August 2007. I was staying at a friend's house in Bangkok. It's in bed. It's probably about five in the morning. In Thailand, the sun rises fairly early, so I could see a little bit in the room. Suddenly, I wake up and I'm frozen.

I'm completely paralyzed. And there's a black shadow sitting on my chest, sitting on me. And this is something that I'll kind of get into the always kind of accompanies these kind of sessions, this kind of feelings. I had this surging feeling in my head, almost like your brain's being squeezed, this kind of

vibration noise, just going through your head, going through your ears. And I knew straight away, this isn't good. I was angry. So I lift myself up and all I can do, all I can think of to do to find a single thing is try and bite it. Try to bite its face.

And then bang, I'm back in the bed, I'm laying down, and I can move. So that was the first sleep paralysis kind of experience there. And to be honest, I didn't know what to do with it. I knew something strange had happened. I knew something weird had happened. I hadn't had experience before.

But I just put it to one side. I thought, you know, okay, I'm not going to think about that. Let's just go on with life. That was a bit weird. So a few months later, I'm on the internet. And I come across an article on sleep paralysis and kind of what other people have been experiencing around that. And they're talking about seeing a black shack.

you know, darker than dark sitting on top of you. And I thought, yeah, that's exactly what happened to me. So in that moment, I kind of realized it wasn't just a dream, it wasn't just some strange hallucination. You're having like a half-sleep state. Millions of people around the world for years going back have been having the same experience and seeing the same figures, the same shadow figures. So, yeah, fair to say, I was quite interested then.

I was looking into it. But then over the next 10 years or so, the experiences have really ramped up to the point where I was having to sleep paralysis almost every night, sometimes two or three times a night. For weeks on end, sometimes it would stop for a month, then it would come back. And what I came to realize is you could kind of tell when it was going to happen. You know, if you had a bad day, you feel a bit low or you just had this feeling before you went to bed a few hours before that something was going to happen. You could sense a presence. You could sense something in the room. And it'd always start with that same kind of like a zoom,

kind of sound in your head, some kind of certain feeling in your brain, and then you'd wake up paralyzed. I also started to connect dreams to these experiences. So it's almost like you would be presented a dream scenario trying to get, trying to elicit a certain emotional response from you. So it could be fear, could be something chasing you, could be something else.

And then I'll clock it. I'll realize in the drink, this isn't right. There's something going on here. And then bam, you're in sleep paralysis. You know, you can see a shadow with a standing next to you or sitting on top of you. And to be honest, you know, that was something that just happened nighttime. In the day time, I try just to forget it, you know, try and just get on with the day. And then, you know, try and just have a good night's sleep.

So this kind of followed me around going back and forth from Thailand to the UK. I remember once I'll stay in a friend's house and staying in the spare bedroom, probably about seven in the morning, sleep paralysis. And I could see these two shadows standing next to me, a tall one and a short one. So sometimes there'd be multiple figures in the room. It even happened on the plane once. That's how I didn't actually see any shadows, but I'm sitting there in second class and you're frozen, sitting up in your chair trying to shake it off.

It's almost like you know, I learned I could move, but it wasn't your physical body. It's almost like you're walking through tar, through really sticky mud. And that kind of moves into the whole outer body experiences as well. So, you know, the experience had just got more and more wild. You know, I'd be laying there off the bed, having to have an asleep in the afternoon. And I'd feel something just grab my ankle suddenly in that paralysis state. Or I'd be in my bedroom back in the UK. I'd wake up frozen

and I could hear it just banging upstairs something slammed the door open and jump onto the bed and I'd literally just feel the mattress depress around me and you'd be stuck like that for about about 10, 20 seconds

and there's nothing you can really do about it I realize if you tried to make a grunt like a noise you can't say anything but you can kind of make a noise you can try and slowly kind of just pull yourself out of it But yeah, that went on for a good few years. I would see, you know, just before I was going to bed, I'd be laying in bed, kind of watching TV and that kind of half sleep stage.

And I'd see like this black arm, like a solid black, black and then black arm coming out from over the top of the television. Look like a human hand, looked like a human arm, a little bit skinny. And then you just kind of shake yourself and it's not there. So yeah, that was what kind of those from 2007 onwards for about 10 years was like. And then the outer body experiences started. So I would be, you know, laying in bed, I'd have a paralysis attack. And then if you kind of relaxed or if you kind of just went with it, you didn't struggle, you start floating out your body. So the first time this happened, I was floating up to the ceiling.

And I thought, I'm going to bang my nose on the ceiling. And as soon as I thought that, I was back in the body, frozen, for a few seconds and then I could move. Other times, I'd be looking at myself in the bed, or I'd be kind of laying down beside myself, kind of looking at the back of my head. And around that time, kind of going around Thailand and that you kind of get into Buddhism,

you kind of learn about meditation. So I was kind of intimately meditating, I guess, and I'd heard about astral projection, things like that. And it was a bit of a surprise that this stuff had actually started happening. I mean, it's probably about a year before that that had meditated and thought about, you know, is it possible to astralobject? And then randomly it just starts happening.

Probably the crazy experience with the outer body is I floated up out of the body, through the ceiling, through the roof, looked down, saw the top of the house, looked up into the stars, and then literally shot through space, shot through the stars like warp speed, like in Star Trek,

Star Wars, you know, just going through the stars. And then it's like I was waking up the next morning. So I didn't quite know what box to put that one in. I kind of felt I'd gone somewhere. I kind of felt, you know, that was definitely something that happened in, but I didn't know how to explain it. And it was quite odd kind of shooting through the stars. And then usually have a sense of passage of time.

Like you kind of know, I've slept for six hours. but it was like bang you're just waking up seven in the morning after that. So around that time I'd be waking up in the morning thinking, I kind of feel like I've been somewhere last one, but I just can't remember it. And then it got a little bit weirder. So I'd be waking up in the paralysis state, but I wasn't in the bedroom. I couldn't see the bedroom around me. So one time I woke up and I don't know where I was.

It was quite light. I was laying flat down on my back. And when I came to, I was already leaning up kind of on my right side. And there was what I'd call a typical grey alien, staring into my face, about six inches from my face. And it kind of looked almost like half reptilian. He didn't have scales. He didn't have overlapping scales. It almost had nodules all over its face.

Typical, big eyes, small mouth, kind of slight nose. and it had like some kind of tech on its forehead. It had some kind of tech on the left side of its forehead. And I just knew it was evil. I knew it was happy that it was seeing me in this state because I was really angry. I was trying to lean up to get towards it. I don't know what was happened before that, but it's like I came to midway through that experience.

And then next thing you know, I'm waking up the next morning thinking, that's a bit weird, better get to work. Um, so, you know, I, I can only imagine going through that waking up and be like, well, that was weird. All right. Kind of go to work. Yeah. Just go. Forget about it.

Yeah. Get your suit on. Um, so yeah, it was a bit odd. Um, another time, you know, I'd be sitting in the evening. And at the corner of my eye, I saw a large spider like, like a foot across hanging in me there just like to like to the right of my vision. the second you look that way, it's not there. And also around that time, I was seeing lots of blue streets around people.

So when people will pass, when I'd be kind of looking out the window, looking at the scenes of traffic going past, I would kind of notice blue streets hanging around people. And that lasted. It wasn't constantly, but that lasted for about two, three years. And I've got no idea what that was. It doesn't happen anymore,

but it was all around that kind of that kind of crazy period, as I call it. So another kind of experience that stands out my mind, it must have been about seven in the morning in the UK, probably around 2013. I woke up, and again, I was really angry. I was in that paralysis state, but I was leaning up towards this thing.

And this is what describes just a straight-up demon. it had snake eyes vertical slit eyes almost elm kind of gold-colored its teeth its mouth was wide open it was wide wide open a hundred sharp

fang-like teeth and it just had its jaws just open like it was trying to bite my face it was no hair in it almost like a sickly kind of mottled yellowish brown color and I was

yeah it was trying to it was like it was going to bite me. His mouth was so wide open. And again, I was, I was, I was, I felt like I was been violated somehow. I just felt this thing is pure evil. And I remember looking into its eyes and there was intelligence there. And there was pure malice. So that was probably one of the, the strangest kind of in your face experiences I've had.

And at the time, I didn't think it was a demon. I don't know what I thought it was. I thought, you know, not being a strict Christian at the time. You know, you're heading in kind of other ideas about the world. I was thinking, oh, it's some kind of interdimensional being. I don't know how I was trying to explain it. But again, I'm just trying to put it to one side and just kind of hope it doesn't happen again. So also around that time, woke up laying on my front, same paralysis state.

And I saw this as like a translucent old man, just kind of halfway floating through the wall, just looking into my eyes as I woke up. One thing I started to realize after having these experiences is when you're in that sleep paralysis state, it wasn't my physical body moving. It was, you could call it your spirit body, your astral self, whatever it is. That is what could move.

So with enough willpower, enough intent, you could actually get up. So, you know, when these things are sitting on top of you and you want to try and get up just to try and push it off, that wasn't the physical body. that was, it's almost like you're pulling yourself out of your physical body. And also I noticed that you think really quickly. There's no kind of delay in your brain, like your neurons firing.

It is just straight, you know things straight away. And I kind of get into that bit later on. But that's one thing I noticed is you think very quickly. You almost just know things intuitively. You know things straight away. So around this time, I kind of spoke to my mum about this. And surprised why she says, yeah, I had something like that happened to me when I was young as well. So she told me about, no, she was probably about seven or eight years old in a bedroom.

And she saw this shadow being a peer, first on the other side of the room, and then kind of disappear, appear nearer, disappear, appear nearer, and then the pillow just got chucked off the bed. So I think that's the only thing she's ever kind of really had in that regards. But my grandmother goes, well, it's been through lots. strange experiences like that. You know, she's seen UFOs before she even knew, you know, what a UFO was. She looked out of a window in London in the 40s and saw these things hovering over the

houses. She didn't know how to explain it, but it was in the newspapers a few days later. And she also told me about when she was young, there was a room in the house where, where she slept initially, but she would feel something pushing the bed up at night time. And she had like a gherker knife. So she'd swipe her knife under the bed to try and stop it. Her brother as well had some really kind of terrifying experiences then. She also had out of bodies.

And she put an in to actually, she went to see a priest who blessed a statue. And then she put it in the bedroom and it just stopped dead. It stopped flat for her. So when I kind of heard that, yeah, you know, other people and my family had also been through these types of experiences. And I started to, you know, think a bit more carefully about it. So I met my current fiancé in 2014. And then literally within a few months, she started having the same experiences. She would start to have paralysis.

She'd start to see shadows, really bad dreams. And then we start to have shared experiences. So we'd both be hit with paralysis at the same time. So what I'd do, I'd be hit with paralysis. I'd come out of my body or I'd find myself standing next to my body. and I could just hear something coming up the stairs. So I'd run towards the bedroom door and just try and hold the door shut whilst whatever it was trying to get in. And so the next morning I'm like, I had a mad experience last night.

And she says, yeah, me too. Got hit with paralysis. And I kind of saw you getting up and trying to hold the door shut as someone who was trying to come in the room. So, yeah, so she had experiences. And that happened quite a few times. So hold on a second. She actually, so if I'm hearing you correctly, you had the sleep paralysis, you had an out-of-body experience where you left your body to do this.

And she had a sleep paralysis as well where she actually saw you leave your body. Like she could see your whatever that is, a spirit or whatever, holding the door shut. Yeah, yeah, exactly the same time. Wow, that's pretty incredible. Yeah. So you're feeling a bit bad about that. You know, she'd never act anything like this. I mean, well, I don't want to interrupt the whole storyline here, but did you?

She, was she freaked out in that moment and were you freaked out? I mean, that's, that's something that's on another level. Not only are you having an experience, but you're having the same experience as somebody else and you're sharing it together. I think to her credit, she didn't show it. She didn't show it. She wasn't scared. She wasn't, you know, upset about it too much. She was concerned, definitely. I was more angry because I kind of felt, you know, I was used to it. but it's when it's kind of affecting your family or people you love that you start to you start to get a little bit irritated you start to get yeah really bit angry about that so yeah to her credit you know she didn't she didn't show any fear she wasn't you know

she didn't want to leave she knew anything like that and it probably hit her you know it probably happened to her about four or five times I would say over that over that period but you know one thing, I know it's really kind of negative experience, all this things happen in that last kind of that, that's, that's spate for about 10 years. But one thing it showed me is there's something more to this world. That's what really was impressed upon me. It's not just a physical word, as you say, you know, you're born, you live, you die, that's it. I knew there was, if nothing else that's what it proved to me, there was something else going on. I wasn't quite ready then for the answer, but I knew it was beyond a shadow of doubt. I knew there was other stuff going on in this world.

So I took the positives from it. And I think she did as well. It was, you know, she'd kind of growing up Christian as well. But she, I think it's also kind of proved to her that there's something else to do this. It's something else to this world. So, yeah, this kind of carried on for a few years. Activity kind of died down. Around 2017, I got a new job.

We moved house. and I just focus purely on, you know, kids and work. I tried to kind of put my mind of all this other stuff, and it stopped. I didn't have any paralysis, and I thought literally that's done and dusted. It's put to bed. It's not going to happen again,

which I was fairly grateful for, I was quite happy about. But in 2019, it picked up again. So we'd been in this new house probably about a year and a half. The first thing that happened was I was sitting in, downstairs in the living room, everything else had gone to bed, probably about 11 o'clock at night, watching TV. So sitting on the sofa, TV's in front, the stairs to my right with the lights on. And at the corner of my eye, I just see a shadow and also a figure peek around the corner and then

go upstairs. And I thought, I looked to my side. I looked to my side. I kind of thought, what was that? You try and tell yourself, it's just a trick of the light, you know, you just, you know, it's just your brain kind of playing tricks on you. But invariably, you know, when you think you see something out of the corner of your eye, you normally do. You know, I do a lot of late night fishing. So many times, you know, I think I'll see something on the beach. And I won't see it immediately.

Then five minutes later, I'll see a fox go past. So usually when I think I see something out of the corner of the corner of my, I do. And I told my partner about this the next day. And she says, yeah, I'll sit upstairs in the bedroom. I think it's maybe the day before that happened. And she saw a shadow kind of just fly by in the hall. way. So it was like, okay, starting to pay a bit more attention then. So I think it must have been about a week later. I woke up and I had a blue light in my face. Literally for like a split

second, I woke up and I just had this bright blue light in my face. And I thought it was a burglar. I thought someone was robbing the house or some of the torch in there. So I got up, but no, nothing there. So I mentioned that to her as well. And she says, yeah. the other night I woke up and I thought it was a car going past outside but it was a blue light reflected in the mirror because it's like a mirror on the other side of the bedroom. So she saw a blue light and she said, you know, I wouldn't caught a orb, but it was like a blue, small, bright light. So I'm thinking of myself, oh no, you know, I haven't seen anything like that before.

Let's, you know, let's not hope this is, this is starting again. You know, and around then, that's when I say to myself, you know, that's when it shifted. that's when everything changed. So around that time, the last few months previous to that, I just had this feeling, come back to God. You know, Jesus Christ,

you know, just look at this again. And it was just like a little voice in my head. You literally out of nowhere, just thinking, you know, look at this again. You know, look at the Bible again. Just look at this again. So the moment the penny dropped, I was at work on the 27th of December,

2019. I was alone. It was like skeleton staff. It was only me in the office, sit in the computer. And I just had this emotional feeling just overwhelm me. I call it Holy Spirit conviction. I don't know what it was, but it was literally, you know, come back to Jesus. This is it. In that moment, I felt, I felt remorse. I felt really emotional. I felt repents as I just prayed. I prayed out loud. and that was it. I was a Christian. I felt I had an experience.

I don't know how to explain it, but from that moment onwards, I was a Christian and I knew my family, we were going to be Christians. So I got home that night, have a chat with my partner, and she's like, yeah, yeah, let's do it. So that's it.

You know, start reading the Bible, started praying out now, start praying before meals, praying before bed. And we started just really trying to live that Christian life. as getting back into it. At the same time, this, this, this presence in the house were just growing and growing.

Coming home every night, it literally felt like I was entering a war zone. I could just feed it as I parked up. I could just feel this, this evil feeling in the house as evil presence. And I didn't know what to do. I kind of looked on the internet, you find out about spiritual warfare, you know, what to people who are doing when they're experiencing oppression or these types of issues. So I went to kind of walking around every room with the Bible, just praying out and out, you know, reading Psalm 91 and just trying to pray them away. Just ask them to God's protection, asking for angel, asking with the Holy Spirit, just to fill the house.

And just to watch over us. And it kind of felt I really angered something because that night had my first sleep paralysis in a long while. We were asked with my partner downstairs on my sofa, watching watching a movie. fall in the sleep. I kind of come to in that paralysis state. And it felt like I was getting choked. I was literally, I could not breathe. And then she kind of notices me making noisy. So she shakes me. She kind of moves me. And I wake up. I can just move. And I was gasping for air. Like I'd just run a mile. I felt my heart was beating out my chest. And from there, then it just really kicked up again. My partner, she kind of helps me a lot

when these things happen, she will notice either because I stop breathing normally, I'll stop snoring, or she'll hear me making noises, and that will wake her up, and then she'll realize he's having a sleep paralysis session and shake me awake. So a few days later, I was going to bed. My partner was already asleep upstairs. And I'd also, I'd move my daughter into our bedroom. I kind of put a mattress next to my bed, just because I felt safer. I felt better with her, her there. And a partner's awake and she says, you know,

just had some crazy dreams, some really, really horrible dreams. She didn't tell me what they were, but I could tell from the look of her face, it wasn't good. And I just had a feeling, you know,

I'm going to pray right now. I'm going to pray for her. I felt that something was hanging around. So got into bed. She fell asleep again pretty quickly. And I prayed for about 10 minutes. You know, just asking for protection,

asking for the Lord just to watch over us. And then the second I said amen, I felt this, this force, just this dark shadow just come over me, like just envelop me. And I felt so dizzy. I felt literally like I was about to pass out. It was taking every kind of ounce of my will just to stay conscious. I try to prop myself up on my shoulder or my elbow, just trying to sit up. I grabbed the Bible next to the bed and just open it and just started reading, just reading anything. And this carried on for about that feeling for about 10, 15 minutes, and then I was just shaking.

For about half an hour, I was just pale and I was just shaking. And what I feel is what I kind of felt was something had been messing with her, given of these nightmares, these dreams, and it was so angry that I prayed against it and stopped it. And so it just went all out and all out sort, just trying to scare me, try and terrify me, try and affect me somehow. Um, so, you know, around that time, I'd be, I'd be waking up through the night praying. I'd almost wake up and I'll be praying. Um, or I just wake up with like Bible verses going through my head.

Um, so I really felt, you know, the Lord would just, would just watch, you know, for me that time. Um, it was a, it was a war zone. That's what it felt like that house. There was definitely spiritual warfare going on. It was like a battle. You know, I knew these things were hanging around. I knew they've been around for a long time. For whatever reason, they were, they were messing with me. now it's the time for him to shift on. And then I started to, you know, the penny dropped demonic.

This is a straight up demonic issue. So I'd made a decision around that time. You know, I know the power of the name of Jesus Christ. I heard stories. I heard people saying, you know, I rebuke the thing in the name of Jesus and it left. So I said to myself, the next time this happens, the next time I have a paralysis attack, or whatever it is, I'm going to rebuke that thing in the name of Jesus Christ. So it was about a week or two later.

Daughter was still in the bedroom, middle of the night for about two, three o'clock in the morning. And I was awoken. And I hear my daughter's voice just saying, Dad. And I'm like, yeah, kind of half a sleep. Like, yeah. No reply to silence. So I go back to sleep.

And I hear it again, Dad. And I say yes. And again, no reply. So I start to drop off. And then I hit Dad. And so I say, what? And literally that second it felt like a rush attack. I was suddenly paralyzed.

I just heard this high-pitched metal kind of screeching sound. And this often accompanies like a paralysis attack. You can hear this noise like machinery, like just metal, just sheer and just grating against each other. And I had almost like multiple scenes of just terror just going through my mind in a split second. Frozen, I was laying on my back

and I saw this dark mass, this shadow, coming out to my right from the ceiling, corner from the corner of the ceiling. And another figure just looming over the bed, a tall, seven, eight foot tall kind of figure, almost like a cloaked figure just leaning over the bed. And because I told myself what I was going to do immediately. I just said, Jesus Christ help me.

I rebuke in the name of Jesus Christ. And it just, it just receded. As soon as I said that, it just sucked back into the ceiling and just away from me. And then then all I know is I'm getting shaped. and kind of out of it by my partner. So the odd thing is, so for me, it felt like this lasted for about five seconds. So a few odd things here. Yeah, it lasted about five seconds.

Partner says, no, I was trying to wake you up for about 30 seconds. And also it sounds like you were speaking in tongues. And also, that wasn't my daughter speaking. She could hear me in her, she was like half asleep. She could hear me saying, yes, yes, what? But my daughter was not speaking. So I think, you know, as I was rebuking that thing in the name of Jesus Christ, in my mind, kind of in that state, what was coming out my tongues was something else. What was coming out of my mouth was something else. And yeah, like I say, that's when it shifted from that moment onwards. I knew the power of Jesus Christ. I knew who I was in him. And I knew I could actually do something about this now. Before I was just a rag doll. You know, it was, I had no control over this. You were just literally a play thing for these things. but now as a Christian and kind of realizing your authority you have in Jesus Christ,

your inheritance you have through Jesus Christ, then I could do something about it or I could rely on him to do something about it. So yeah, so it was around that time I heard your interview with Hector, episode 199, and I was thinking, you know, I'm just going to send this guy an email. I hope he gives out an email, otherwise I'm going to have to try and track him down or Facebook or something. But in the end you did you gave out his address? So I dropped him an email and kind of saying, yeah, you know,

could we arrange some prayers, could be sure have to pray with my family. You want to me back saying, yeah, you know, let's get kind of four to five sessions in the diary. So these happened around sort of May, June, time, 2019. So there are four other kind of prayer warriors that join those sessions. So typically, you know, walk through, kind of opening prayer. we would kind of do a walk around the house because it was on Zoom.

Obviously, they're in the States. I'm in the UK. And we'd be praying. They'd be kind of rebuking anything. That's in the room, just, you know, tend to leave in the name of Jesus Christ, just asking for angels, for protection, for the Holy Spirit, just to fill the room,

just to fill it, fill the room with its presence. And things kind of change then again. So I would no longer kind of have paralysis. attacks, but I would just find myself out of body in the house at night. And I just knew there were demons around. Sometimes they would take the form of a family member. And I'll say, straight, like I said, in that paralysis take, you just know things. And I just knew these are demons. These are demonic beings. And I'll say straight away, I rebuke in the name of Jesus Christ. I command you to leave. You know, and they'd start changing. Their faces would start kind of swirning around

and they're changing someone else, or they'd just be invisible. You know, one time I was in the kitchen, and I just knew something was just blocking the doorway. And I don't know what it is, some kind of intuition,

maybe it's the Holy Spirit leading you, but I just knew where these things were. And it always felt like you're clearing out the house. So it kind of really changed. My nights and experiences went from sleep paralysis, getting frozen, seeing shadows to now just being full on out your body around the house,

casting these things out. I kind of felt I shook it. I kind of shook a lot of those attachments off. I think one of the last kind of experiences kind of stands out for me is I was just sitting downstairs, happy day, you know, with the kids. And again, that kind of feeling just overwhelmed me. A really kind of dark, dark, horrible feeling.

It's almost like they're trying to terrify you, trying to scare you. I went so pale. My partner saw me kind of just walking up the stairs. I was just like, okay, just take care of it. Went into the bedroom, grab the Bible, and I was just praying. I was just reading the Bible out loud, just praying. And it took about 15 minutes and it just went away.

And I was left with this feeling of just peace, just utter peace and happiness. So, yeah, so around that time I came to realize, you know, the power of prayer, what will it can really do? And, you know, what you have actually as a Christian, who's with you, who resides in your heart. the second you're born again, where you are, where you are, you're seated heavenly places. We know what Jesus Christ died on the cross for, for all our sins, and to free us, free us completely, and to free you from the power of the enemy, from the power of the devil. And that's what I came to really, to really understand and rely on.

So around July 2019, so growing up in the UK, Christianity is quite reserved. Christianity is quite, you know, you're kind of shuffling to your church on some day. day, sing your hymns, you know, go home. That's about it. So the idea of a baptism in the Holy Spirit or anything like that was completely alien to me. It's something I'd never really heard of. But yeah, last summer, I prayed to receive the baptism. And I did.

I spoke in tongues. I prayed. I just repented. I asked for God just to fill me with this Holy Spirit baptize me. And I just started speaking in tongues. And it felt like a really kind of special experience. It felt I didn't understand anything or didn't have any kind of meanings to me at that time. But it felt like I was just praying out to heaven.

I'm just crying out to God. And at the same time, my partner is in the kitchen. She's with my son and my daughter. And then they could hear it going on. And then she bends down to pick my son up and she blurs out suddenly in tongues as well. So whatever it was spread, she walks into the living room and she could just feel the presence. It just felt different in there. It felt, it felt, you know, really comfortable,

everything just felt at peace. So that kind of put an end to those kind of experience in that house. So we then moved a few months after that into this house where I am now. And then I'm kind of sitting down praying. I'm kind of praying to Lord, you know, I really want to do something for you. You know, I can't have gone through these experiences for nothing. I kind of feel you know, you leave me down the path, you let me, you know, he's a sovereign crate of God of all. Nothing happens without him knowing. And I was kind of thing, what is the point

of this? You know, you show me these things. I've realized who I am, who you are, who Christ is. And so I'm just praying, just Lord, you know, reveal the path to me. I want to do something. You know, I want to do something for you. And in my head, I was really want to kind of get into a deliverance ministry, you know, and try and help other people going through these things. these same issues. So about a week later, I was praying. And next day, and I was actually thinking about those prayers I had with Hector and the other prayer warriors.

Next day, I get an email from Steph, who's another sort of prayer warrior in that ministry. And she's saying, you know, Holy Spirit prompted, just wondering how you're doing. So I said, yeah, actually, we're crazy. I was thinking about you guys yesterday. It'd be good to catch up. So she sends me an email back saying, yeah, you know,

let's get a prayer. in kind of talk next week. And so for a day or two before that, I just had a feeling that I was going to join that ministry. So I didn't say anything to them. I didn't ask to join. I didn't say anything. So we had the meeting.

It was with all the same guys that I met before that were in those previous sessions. And they were saying, you know, we've been discussing this. You know, the last few months, your names are popping up just in prayer. How would you feel about joining the ministry? and, you know, in that second, just the, you know, the, sort of the power of God would just impress upon me. This is exactly what I was praying for, to, you know, have the opportunity to get into a ministry like that. And I was like, yeah, you know, sign me up.

So I think the day or two days after that, we're straight into a prayer session. You know, people could be going through kind of, you know, things going bump in the night kind of issues or kind of emotional issues or, or health issues. A few of those sessions, we've heard chanting, coming down the phone, like a demonic kind of chanting coming down the phone or things kind of speaking back to you, like mocking, kind of saying things back to you.

We've done deliverances where people will feel like a squirming. So what we're trying to do, we keep it very heavily scripture-based. We invite the Holy Spirit in, we pray, you know, we let you know, Jesus Christ is suffering over this experience, sovereign over this prayer session, lots of script to read him. And so as we're kind of doing that, you always feel like you're wearing the enemy down. Whatever is around that person, whatever issues are going through.

They'll maybe start feeling like a squirming coming up in their stomach. Or, you know, one person started throwing up. She could just feel it. And then, you know, after it was done, she felt like she'd run a marathon. She felt, she felt like pace. She felt better. So I knew I could see it working. So from, you know, a year before,

I had no idea what was going on. I wasn't a Christian. I was at the mercy of whatever these things were, these demonic entities, to where I was then. You know, I found Christ. I found my identity in him. And now we were doing something about it.

You know, we're actually helping other people going through these same issues. Yeah, and so we've actually had quite a few contacts through the confessionals, people who've heard Hector's interview on your podcast. and kind of said, yeah, can we arrange a session? Yeah, you know, one session is never the same as the other. They're always different.

And we spoke to so many different types of people, so many different kind of walks of life and different kind of levels of society, lots and lots of different people going through some really kind of crazy stuff. So, you know, we'd always pray. We'd devote kind of a lot of time to praying for these people. One session I had. I was usually I tried to sleep before because it's usually about one o'clock two o'clock in the morning UK time so I try and get some shot out before the actual session and then one time I had a paralysis

kind of attack and I was lifted out of the bed and I could just hear this growling it's almost like you lift up by my neck I can just hear this growling from the side of the room and it's almost like you know the enemy knows what you're going into the enemy knows you're about going to a prayer session and he's just trying to scare you. He's just trying to put you off. So yeah, that's kind of carrying on to this day. We're still having sessions, got sessions booked him. I speak to my grandmother a while back and she, you know,

she's had so many experiences like I said. And she told me one time, it must be years and years ago, her stepfather and her stepmother, where a stepmother who just passed away, Well, she was in the process of kind of passing away. She was at her house with a husband. And before she, as she died, she saw her standing behind the chair. So she actually saw her kind of standing out of the body.

And a few months later, she heard them in her head saying, can we come into you? So it's a stepfather and a stepmother asking to come into her body. And for some reason, she said yes. And so she said, oh, you know, nothing bad happened from that. I even felt them leave a little while later. And I'm hearing this with my, you know, from a Christian perspective, just thinking, hang on a minute, that sounds really dodgy. That doesn't sound right.

You know, these demonic things are absolute tricksters. And what they desire is to come into human body. So I'm kind of saying to them, you know, this doesn't sound like, I don't think that's your stepmother or stepfather. That sounds like something trying to trick you. That sounds demonic. So I was kind of thinking, you know, I need to try and pray for it. I don't know how I'm going to approach it with her.

I don't want to just, you know, come in and just say now I'm going to try and cast something out of you. But basically I had a chat with her, kind of sort of brought around to that conclusion. And no, this wasn't anyone you knew. This was a demonic being trying to come into your body. He's basically asking for your permission to come into you, trying to create some kind of emotional bond with you,

trying to get you to open up to them. And so she agreed to a prayer. So bring in the Bible, you know, pray to the Lord beforehand. We say, you know, Lord, just bless us with your present. Just send your Holy Spirit here. You know, led to her in a sort of prayer of repentance, even though she didn't know what she was doing. Lord, just forgive me for doing this.

I didn't know. And then I placed my hands in her head. I said, you know, unclean spirit, whatever you are, wherever many of you, in the name of Jesus Christ, I command you to leave. Her legs went up. And we prayed. like this for about 10, 15 minutes

and she could just feel this buzzing, just this buzzing in her head. And it just got louder and louder. And so, also the Holy Spirit, you know, Holy Spirit, can you please just feel this woman? Just let her feel her feel her up, just let her feel your presence, Lord, just fill her up, just fill her up from her toes to the top of her head.

And she could feel this surging, tingling feeling, coming up her feet, up her knees, up her legs, up her chest, through to her head. And this buzzing feeling just popped out. and from that moment on was she was different straight away she felt happy she felt light she felt she you know she was singing she felt completely different and she looked different um it was like a shadow had just been just taken away from her face and she was glowing she was literally glowing um straight away and then people in the house were saying you know what's you know you look different

you literally look like you're glowing um so You know, and for a few days after that, she would just have these kind of uplifting kind of feeling. She literally filled with a spirit. She felt, she felt complete free. So I think for years, she had these things inside her. They never left. Say they desire to inhabit human bodies. We know that from the Bible. You know, they view human body as a house and they don't give it up easily. So it was the Holy Spirit, just pushed that thing out. And she literally was glowing.

So about 10, 15 minutes after that, feeling kind of good, you know, I feel really happy, like she's freed. Because I'd also been having some odd dreams as well, which I kind of felt was connected to that issue with her. And then my partner says to me, would you pray for me as well? And I think she was kind of thinking, we'll do it tomorrow. But I just felt, no, let's do it right now. You know, straight up in the utility room. And she had had this shoulder issue and these kind of almost like a cold shoulder, like a hunched kind of like really tight feeling across her shoulders for about 10 years.

And also her jaw. She had a really tight, tight feeling across her jaws, which was painful pretty much all the time. And she thought this was from like her day started and kind of leaning down too much and kind of writing on a notepad. But she says, yeah, you know, would you pray for me? So I was like, okay, let's do it now. We pray to the Lord. We just thanked him for who he was. We thanked him for his word, for the salvation in Jesus Christ,

for letting us know who we are in Christ and for His Holy Spirit. We just asked for the Holy Spirit just to be present, just to fill this room. Put my hands in her head. Start praying and she got dizzy. She kind of held on something just to stand up, just saying, you know, unclean spirit in the name of Jesus Christ, whatever's attached to this woman, I command you to leave. and she just kept on feeling dizzy.

So I take my hand off and pray again. And then she just felt that same tingling feeling. I'm asking for the Holy Spirit just to come in. She felt that same tingling feeling, just coming up a whole body, this kind of warm feeling, just rising, rising, rising. And then the pain just left us straight away.

Literally immediately, her shoulders relaxed. She was standing differently. There was no more pain. She said it felt like the blood returned to her shoulder. Like there was warmth there again. and a jaw which is completely free. And she was glowing. Like my dad, she was literally glowing.

Her face was light. And I saw this again later on before. But I looked at her and I was thinking, you look different. It's almost like again, like a shadow being removed from your face. She was lighter. She looked light. And that carries on to this day. That pain has never come back.

And jaw pain has never come back. And, you know, she can't explain it apart from saying, you know, that was the power of God. That was the power of God. Maybe something had been attached to her. Because, you know, I think demons do cause, we know from the Bible,

they cause physical afflictions. They cause illnesses. They can cause emotional turmoil, emotional trouble. And they can kind of almost like lodge in certain areas in the body. Just cause trouble. That's what they're here to do,

is to kill, mainly destroy. It will just to stop usurping Christ effectively. And, you know, power of God, the power, Holy Spirit, in name of Jesus Christ, that thing will be. just gone straight away. There wasn't any

thrown up. There was no screen. There's no riding around, nothing like that. It was just an easy, done. And she felt good. So that was just amazing for me to kind of go through that. So the first kind of hands on deliverance I've kind of done.

So it felt it felt like a very special thing to do that for people you love. So going off from then, I've had a few kind of other strange experiences, not like a full out paralysis, but really strange dreams, you know, things trying to get into the house. And they're always, you know, I always just rebuking them, the name Jesus Christ, and it stops or they go away. So for the last week, I've really been

feeling, you know, I've been waking up, been dropping off to sleep, waking up about an hour later, and just feeling this presence in the room. I pray and it, and it seems to go away. but the other night I wake up and I'm lucid dreaming and I'm waking up in the dream it's daytime I stand up I walk to the window in the bedroom and I look outside

and there's two pine trees there and I just know there's there's two demons in these trees just standing in the bushes hiding so I open them and I pointed them and I say I see you in the name of Jesus Christ I rebuke I command you to leave and they kind of come out

And I can sort of half see them. They're almost like translucent. You can kind of see their figure. You kind of see what they look like, but you can't actually see them solidly. And then I kind of realize I can feel the bed. I'm standing up looking out the window. But my body, all my physical sensations are telling me I'm in the bed still. It's almost like a vision.

It was almost like what I was seeing was being overlaid. I was seeing something different but my body was thinking another area. So I put my hand out and I can feel my son's hand. So I'm thinking this is really weird. My eyes, everything my eyes are telling me I'm standing up looking outside the window and it's daytime. But actually, I could put my hand

out and I can feel the bed, I can feel my son next to me. I don't know what that was, some kind of dream scenario, some kind of dream they've given you some kind of vision. I don't know. But then suddenly I hear I hear this voice the creepiest, kind of, you know, like Golan out, Lord of the Rings kind of voice, just say,

we're going to kill you. At that second, I'm just literally dragged out the bed from my ankles by these two creatures, never saw them solidly, but I had the sense they were small, almost like children, they were small, straight away, I'm on the floor of the bedroom, and one's choking me.

One's kind of, I'm laying on my back. One is sitting on top of my head, just choking me. I can't feel the hands around my neck. The other one's holding me down. And I'm just thinking, what is going on? I start trying to say, I rebuke you, you know, but I can't say it because I'm being choked. I can't get the word rebuke out.

So I think, you know what? I'm not going to struggle. I'm going to call out to Jesus Christ. I'm just going to call to Jesus Christ. And I just start saying, Jesus, Jesus help me, Jesus Christ, help me. And then this golden light appears from the other side of the room.

And in that second, all I want to do, I just want to see something good. I just want to see something of God. I want to see an angel. Whatever it is, I just want to see something good. Because these things just felt absolutely evil. And yeah, this golden light, not crazy bright, not dazzlingly bright, just this golden warm light just fills the room from my left side. And I see this thing just shoot up.

just shoot up, just float up straight through the ceiling. And then that's it. I'm in my bed kind of thinking, well, that was crazy. But I think what was kind of important to me about that, that kind of experience was I didn't rely myself at all. I sat back and I thought, I can't struggle. You know, these things are too strong, can't struggle. I'm just going to wait for Jesus Christ.

I'm just going to call on Jesus. Whether it was Jesus, where there was an angel that appeared, but something happened there. Something of God happened there. And this light appeared and it just drove them away. You know, and then, yeah, that was about five days ago. And the last few nights, I just felt you hadn't really be getting that much sleep. But, yeah, you just wake up, you feel this presence.

And I just straightway pray and I just feel at peace. I just feel better. And so, yeah, that's a summary of what's been going on since then out 2007. Jeez, man. So that is a jam-packed life in just, what, 13 years, 14 years? That's crazy, man. Do you think that whatever happened in Thailand spawned this whole thing? Or do you think that whether you were in Thailand or not having that initial experience that this would have happened? I've often thought that. I've often thought that. I don't think so. I don't know. It's not like I kind of got into anything crazy out there, you know, any meditation or any temple, there's anything around that time. but it was a bit strange it did just happen first from in Thailand.

I'm not sure, to be honest. I mean, I know I had things happen when I was younger. I know I had really, really bad dreams literally every night until I was about five, which I can never remember, but I know it was pretty terrifying.

So, no, I don't know what triggered it. And what was on it? Yeah, from that moment on was he just followed me around. It was, Yeah, I can't explain it. Yeah. And, you know, what I found interesting is throughout your stories, a couple of times,

you said that you just got really angry. Is that like a self-defense mechanism in you that you naturally, like, if you're scared, you get angry? Or is there something more maybe supernatural about that was driving you into this, like, irate rage? I don't know. What I tend to think, maybe it's just a natural thing. It's like a guy thing. You know, you can't do anything.

So you try and fight bad. because what I realized is I was powerless until I came to Christ. I was powerless trying to do that on my own, you know, getting angry, trying to bite these things or push them away. That was all futile. You know, there's nothing I could really do because it didn't stop anything. It was only when I came to Jesus Christ and I rely on him that I could actually do something about it or that I could rely on him to do something about it to save me.

So I think, to be honest, it's probably just a natural reaction. and it happens at first, I'll be honest, it was a bit scary. You know, it would happen three, four in the morning and you wouldn't really want to go back to sleep because it could happen again. But after a while, you just kind of get used to it. And that's when I think you start to get a little bit irritated because you just kind of want it to end. Yeah. And the whole biting thing, you said that a few times too.

I've never heard anybody say that. That the reaction was to bite it. I mean, didn't your mom ever teach you not to bite? I mean, I've never heard people say that multiple times that the only thought they had was to try biting it. I mean, where'd that come from? I think because I felt it was easy to move my chest and kind of my body upwards than my arms. You know, it's so much effort when you're in that state to actually move to try and do something. I think that's why you feel like your arms are literally being held down.

The only thing you can do is try and buy it. It's trying to try and get them away that way, I think. Man, that's interesting. That's really interesting. Now, here's another, this, I know these three questions have been very random, but because you're in the UK and, you know, I hear people's stories and, what, 90% of the audience that, you know, is on the show. or people who are on the show are from the United States,

when whatever it was told you that it was going to kill you, you heard that audibly, right? Yeah, yeah, laying next to me in the best. Now, this actually might have an actual deeper, deeper meaning behind the question. Actually, now I think about it, did whatever you hear, did it have an accent, like a UK accent? No, I couldn't put an accent on it. It wasn't human.

it didn't sound like human vocal chords. It was like, you know, like Golan Mount Lord of the Rings. It was like, it was like, we're going to kill you kind of voice. It was really deep and just, just evil sounding. Okay. I didn't have an accent. I couldn't place an accent on it. Because, you know, I just, when you said that,

maybe it's because, you know, to me, you have an accent. And obviously to you, I have an accent. I hear you say that. and I was thinking of myself, I wonder if it actually had a UK accent because, you know, these things, you know, they appear to people in certain forms. And, you know, obviously, if you're in the Middle East and you have a demonic attack and it speaks to you, it's going to speak to you in your native language that you understand. And I just, I was thinking, I wonder if, you know, if it's speaking to you in a native language that you would understand, does it have an accent too or what? I didn't know. I mean, it's an interesting point. I mean, I think these things are very clever. I think. have been around for a long time. They're extremely deceptive and very cunning. When you hear about, you know, deliverance ministries and kind of people out there in foreign countries doing these things, when these demons will kind of speak through someone in their

own language, a language that person does not know. See, I think it would no matter what, you know, who they're coming through, who they want to speak to, so they can speak in a language. They can get their point across to you. Yeah, that's interesting, man. Listen, I think it's really cool that you linked up with Hector and now you're part of that ministry. And the way it happened, you know, you wanted to, but you didn't ask. And then they asked you. And I, and just hearing your side of things, the fact that so many people have reached out to Hector through this show, uh, I think is really, really cool, man. And, uh, man, I appreciate you coming on and sharing these stories. It's really fascinating.

Yeah. Cheers, Tony. I mean, yeah, we've got loads of kind of context through your show, people listen. So, yeah, it's great to kind of kind of speech you listeners that way. And do you mind if I give out our website, our email address, just in case anyone's kind of having issues like this, they kind of feel they want someone to pray for them. They feel like going through some kind of demonic oppression or anything like that. Yes. Go for it. Yes. So email is the Centurium 813.com. And the email address is the Centurion 813 at gmail.com. Could you spell that for the listening audience so they know for sure that they're emailing and getting the right spot. Yeah. So it's the C-E-N-T-U-R-I-O-N-8-13-the- Numbers.com. Awesome. And it's the same for the

Gmail email address as well. Well, that's the show, everybody. I really hope you enjoyed it. And if you did enjoy it, please share the show with your friends. I don't care where or how you share the show. Just share the show if you enjoyed it because that's the best thing you can do to help this show grow. Just share it with your friends. And remember, we do have another podcast called Hammer Lane Legends. My dad and I put on on a weekly basis. So if you want more content there, go over to HammerlaneLegens.com or just look it up in any podcast playing app and you can listen. We've been doing it for over a year and there's a lot of great content on there. So go ahead and check that out. And until next week, friends, stay safe. Take care and remember the

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