The Daily - The Sunday Read: 'The Woman Who Might Find Us Another Earth'

Episode Date: April 19, 2020

On today’s episode of “The Sunday Read,” we tell the story of a woman who has spent her life trying to find the light of other worlds. We hope it can offer an escape when our own feels so dark.This story was recorded by Audm. To hear more audio stories from publishers like The New York Times, download Audm for iPhone or Android.

Hi, my name is Chris Jones, and I'm a writer based in Port Hope, Ontario, Canada. Like you, I've spent a lot of time inside my house, even more than normal for a writer, over the past several weeks. I'd like to introduce you to someone named Sarah Seeger, who I think might help you get through this, get through this pretty difficult time for all of us. She's someone who endured and survived terrible personal loss, but is also doing groundbreaking, important, really inspiring work. She is an astrophysicist who is searching for other life in the universe, and she believes that she will be the one to find it. She wants to be able to take her kids outside and point to one star and go,

the planet next to that star has someone looking back at you on it. So in the middle of this quarantine, I've been going outside every night and looking at the sky in a totally different way because of the time I spent with Sarah. And I think we could all use this moment a little perspective, a little hope, and maybe in some strange way, Sarah's work and the stars might give you just a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel.

So here's my story, The Woman Who Might Find Us Another Earth, read by Gaber Zachman. Like many astrophysicists, Sarah Seeger sometimes has a problem with her perception of scale. Knowing that there are hundreds of billions of galaxies, and that each might contain hundreds of billions of stars, can make the lives of astrophysicists and even those closest to them seem insignificant. Their work can also, paradoxically, bolster their sense of themselves. Believing that you alone might answer the question, are we alone, requires considerable ego. Astrophysicists are forever toggling between feelings of bigness and smallness,

of hubris and humility, depending on whether they're looking out or within. One perfect blue-sky fall day, Seeger boarded a train in Concord, Massachusetts, on her way to her office at MIT and realized she didn't have her phone. She couldn't seem to decide whether this was or wasn't a big deal. Not having her phone would make the day tricky in some ways, because her sons, 13-year-old Max and 11-year-old Alex, had a soccer game after school, and she would need to coordinate a ride to watch them. She also wanted to be able to find and sit with her best friend, Melissa, who sometimes takes the same train to work. She's my best friend,

but I know she has other best friends, Seeger said, wanting to make the nature of their relationship clear. She is an admirer of clarity. She also likes absolutes, wide-open spaces, and time to think. But not too much time to think. She took out her laptop to see if she could email Melissa. The train's Wi-Fi was down. She would have to occupy herself on the commute alone. Seeger's office is on the 17th floor of MIT's Green Building, the tallest building in Cambridge.

It's roof-dotted with meteorological and radar equipment. She is a tenured professor of physics and of planetary science, certified a genius by the MacArthur Foundation in 2013. Her area of expertise is the relatively new field of exoplanets, planets that orbit stars other than our sun. More particular, she wants to find an Earth-like exoplanet, a rocky planet of reasonable mass that orbits its star within a temperate Goldilocks zone that is not too hot or too cold, which would allow water to remain liquid and determine that there is life on it. That is as simple as her math gets. Her office is spare. There is a set of bookshelves, optics, and Asteroids 3 and How to Build a

Habitable Planet, topped with a row of certificates and honors leaning against a chalkboard covered with equations. In addition to the MacArthur Award, which doesn't come with a certificate but with $625,000, she is proudest of her election to the National Academy of Sciences. Although the line between lunacy and scientific fact is constantly shifting, the search for aliens still occupies the shadows of cranks, and Seeger hears from them almost daily, or at least her assistant does. By the standards of her universe, Seeger is famous. She is careful about the company she keeps and the words she chooses. She isn't searching for aliens.

She's searching for exoplanets that show signs of life. She's searching for a familiar blue dot in the sky. That means Seeger, who is 45, has given herself a very difficult problem to solve, the problem that has always plagued astronomy, which, at its essence, is the study of light. Light wages war with itself. Light pollutes. Light blinds. Seeger has a commanding view of downtown Boston from her office window. Seeger has a commanding view of downtown Boston from her office window. She can sweep her eyes, hazel and intense,

all the way from the gold Capitol Dome to Fenway Park. When Seeger works at night and the Red Sox are in town, she sometimes has to close her curtains, because the ballpark's white lights are so glaring. And on this morning, after the sun completed its rise, her enviable vista became unbearable. It was searing, and she had to draw her curtains. That's how light can be the object of her passion and also her enemy. Little lights, exoplanets, are washed out by bigger lights, their stars,

the way stars are washed out by our biggest light, the sun. Seeker's challenge is that she has dedicated her life to the search for the smallest lights. The vastness of space almost defies conventional measures of distance. Driving the speed limit to Alpha Centauri, the nearest star grouping to the sun, would take 50 million years or so. Our fastest current spacecraft would make the trip in a relatively brisk 73,000 years. The next nearest star is six light-years away. To rocket across our galaxy would take about 23,000 times as long as a trip to Alpha Centauri,

or 1.7 billion years. And the Milky Way is just one of hundreds of billions of galaxies. The Hubble Space Telescope once searched a tiny fragment of the night sky, the size of a penny held at arm's length, that was long thought by astronomers to be dark. It contained 3,000 previously unseen points of light. Not 3,000 new stars. 3,000 new galaxies. Not 3,000 new stars. 3,000 new galaxies. And in all those galaxies, orbiting around some large percentage of each of their virtually countless stars, planets.

Planets like Neptune. Planets like Mercury. Planets like Earth. As late as the 1990s, exoplanets remained a largely theoretical construct. Logic dictated that they must be out there, but proof of their existence remained as out of reach as they were. Some scientists dismissed efforts to find exoplanets as stamp collecting, a derogatory term within the community for hunting new, unreachable lights just to name them. Even among astronomers, there can be too much stargazing. It wasn't until 1995 that the colossal 51 Pegasi b, the first widely recognized exoplanet orbiting a sun-like star,

was found by a pair of Swiss astronomers using a light-analyzing spectrograph. astronomers using a light-analyzing spectrograph. The Swiss didn't see 51 Pegasi b. No one has. By using a complex mathematical method called radial velocity, they witnessed the planet's gravitational effect on its star and deduced that it must be there. There has been an explosion of knowledge in the relatively short time since, in part because of Seeger's pioneering theoretical work in using light to study the composition of alien atmospheres. When starlight passes through a planet's atmosphere, certain potentially life-betraying gases, like oxygen, will block particular wavelengths of light. It's a way of seeing something by looking for what's not there. Light, or its absence, is also the root of something called the transit technique,

a newer, more efficient way than radial velocity of finding exoplanets by looking at their stars. It treats light almost like music, something that can be sensed more accurately than it can be seen. The Kepler Space Telescope, launched in 2009 and now trailing 75 million miles behind Earth, detects exoplanets when they orbit between their stars and the telescope's mirrors, making tiny but measurable partial eclipses. A planet the size of Jupiter passing in front of its sun might result in a 1% dip in the amount of starlight Kepler receives, a drop that in time reveals itself to be as regular as rhythm, as an orbit. The transit technique has led to a bonanza of finds. In May, NASA announced the validation of 1,284 exoplanets,

by far the largest single collection of new worlds yet. There are now 3,414 confirmed exoplanets, by far the largest single collection of new worlds yet. There are now 3,414 confirmed exoplanets and an additional 4,696 suspected ones, the count forever increasing. Before Kepler, the nature of the transit technique meant that most of those exoplanets were hot Jupiters, giant balls of hydrogen and helium with short orbits, making them scalding, lifeless behemoths. But in April 2014, Kepler found its first Earth-size exoplanet in its star's habitable zone, Kepler-186f. It's about 10% larger than Earth and orbits on the outer reaches of where the temperature could allow life. No one knows the mass, composition, or density of Kepler-186f, but its discovery remains a revelation.

Kepler was searching, somewhat blindly, an impossibly small sliver of space. And it found a potentially habitable world more quickly than anyone might have guessed. In August, astronomers at the European Southern Observatory announced that they had detected a somewhat similar planet orbiting Proxima Centauri, the single star closest to us after the sun. They named it Proxima Centauri b. Studying the data, Seeger supported the discovery and agreed that it might boast a life-sustaining, or at least non-life-threatening, surface temperature. There are now nearly 300 confirmed exoplanets or candidates orbiting within the habitable zones of their stars. Extrapolating the math, NASA scientists now believe that there are tens of billions of potentially

life-sustaining planets in the Milky Way alone. The odds practically guarantee that a habitable planet is somewhere out there, and that someone or something else is, too. In some ways, the search for life is now where the search for exoplanets was 20 years ago. Common sense suggests a presence that we can't confirm. Seeger understands that we won't know they're out there until we more truly lay eyes on their home and see something that reminds us of ours. Maybe it's the color blue. Maybe it's clouds. Maybe, however many generations from now, it's the orange electrical grids of alien cities, the black rectangles of their

lightless central parks. But how could we ever begin to look that far? Everything brave has to start somewhere, Seeger says. The beginning of her next potential breakthrough hangs on the wall opposite the window in her office. It is a two-thirds scale model of a single petal of something called the starshade. She has been a leading proponent of the starshade project, and outside her teaching, it is one of her principal professional concerns. Imagine that far-off aliens with our present technology were trying to find us. At best, they would see Jupiter.

We would be lost in the sun's glare. The same is true for our trying to see them. The starshade is a way to block the light from our theoretical twin sun, an idea floated in 1962 by Lyman Spitzer, who also laid the groundwork for space telescopes like Hubble. The starshade is a huge shield about 100 feet across. For practical reasons that have to do with the bending of light, but also lend it a certain cosmic beauty, about 100 feet across. For practical reasons that have to do with the bending of light,

but also lend it a certain cosmic beauty, the starshade is shaped exactly like a sunflower. By Seeger's hopeful reckoning, one day the starshade will be rocketed into space and unfurled, working in tandem with a new space telescope like the WFIRST, scheduled to launch in the mid-2020s. When the telescope is aimed at a particular planetary system, lasers will help align the starshade,

floating more than 18,000 miles away between the telescope and the distant star, closing the curtains on it. With the big light extinguished, the little lights, including a potential Earth-like planet and everything it might represent, will become clear. We will see them. The trouble is that sometimes the simplest ideas are the most complicated to execute.

About once a decade since Spitzer's proposal, he could work out the math but not the mechanics, someone else has taken up the cause, advancing the starshade slightly closer to reality before technological or political inertia set in. Three years ago, Seeger joined a new NASA-sponsored study to try to overcome the final practical hurdles. NASA then chose her from among her fellow committee members to lead the effort. After those decades of false starts, Seeger and her team have already succeeded in making the Starshade seem like a real possibility. NASA recognized it as a technology project, which is astral bureaucracy speak for, this might actually happen. Today, the Starshade is a piece of buildable, functional hardware. Seeger packs that single petal into a battered black case and wheels it,

along with a miniature model of the Starshade, into classrooms and conferences and the halls of Congress, trying to find the momentum and hundreds of millions of dollars that allow impossible things to exist. If I want the Starshade to succeed, I have to help mastermind it, Seeger says. The world sees me as the one who will find another earth. She has her intelligence, and her credentials, and her audience. She has her focus. But maybe more than anything else, Seeger understands in ways few of us do, that sometimes you need darkness to see.

Seeger grew up in Toronto, wired in a way all her own. Ever since I was a child, there was just something about me that wasn't quite like the others, she says. Kids know how to sort through who's the same and who's different. After her parents divorced, her father, Dr. David Seeger, achieved a certain fame by becoming one of the world's leaders in hair transplants. The Seeger Hair Transplant Center still operates and bears his name a decade after his death. David Seeger was besotted with his bright daughter and wanted her to become a physician. Seeger did her best to fit in. Sometimes she did. Mostly she didn't. Eventually she gave up trying. She still talks breathlessly, didn't. Eventually, she gave up trying. She still talks breathlessly, without enough modulation, she has learned by listening to other people talk. She has never had the patience to invest in something like watching TV. Things just move too slowly, she says. It feels like a drag.

She sleeps a lot, but that's just a concession to her biology. She recognizes that she's a more efficient machine when she's rested. But if Seeger's apartness didncession to her biology. She recognizes that she's a more efficient machine when she's rested. But if Seeger's apartness didn't make her insecure, it also made her feel as though the expectations of others didn't apply to her. I loved the stars, she says. When she was 16, she bought a telescope. Friendless for most of her childhood, Seeger eventually forged her way to her own vision of the good life.

She found and married a quiet man named Mike Weverick, whom she met on a ski trip with her canoe club. He had seen something in her that nobody other than her father fully saw. He saw her as special as well as strange. Later, she graduated from Harvard, an early expert in exoplanets. 51 Pegasi b was discovered just when she was searching for a thesis topic. I was born at the perfect time, she says. She and Weverick had Max and Alex. Seeger was hired by MIT, and she and Weverick and the boys moved into a pretty yellow Victorian in Concord, Massachusetts.

She took the train to work. Weverick, a freelance editor, managed just about everything that didn't involve the search for intelligent life in the universe. Seeger never shopped for groceries, or cooked, or pumped gas. All she had to do was find another Earth. Then, in the fall of 2009, Weverick got a stomachache that drove him to bed. They figured it was the flu. Weverick didn't have the flu, but a rare cancer of the small intestine. They were told that the initial prospects were good, and he fought the cancer sufferer's systematic fight. But while laws govern astrophysics, cancer is an anarchist. About a year after Weverick's diagnosis, he and Seeger went cross-country skiing, and he couldn't keep up. A few more

terrible months passed, and he began writing out a methodical three-page list, practical advice for Seeger after his death. It wasn't a love letter. It was an instruction manual for life on Earth. By June 2011, he was 47 and in home hospice. Seeger asked him how to get the roof rack that carried his canoes off the car. It's too complicated to explain, Weverick said. That July, he died. The first couple of months after Weverick's death were weird. Seeger felt a surprising sense of relief from the uncertainties of sickness, a kind of liberation. She didn't care about conventions like money, which she had never needed to manage, and she took the boys on some epic trips. There are pictures of them smiling

together in the deserts of New Mexico, on mountaintops in Hawaii. Then one day she went into Boston for a haircut, got turned around, and accidentally walked into a lawyer's office next to the salon. Seeger ended up talking to a woman inside. That woman was also a widow, and she told Seeger that there would be a moment, as inevitable as death itself, when her feelings of release would be replaced by the more lasting aimlessness of the lost. Seeger walked back outside, and just like that, the world came out from under her feet. She fell into an impossible blackness. Later that winter, she took the boys sledding at the big hill in Concord. Two other women and their children were there. Seeger stared at them coldly. They were smiling and carefree with their perfect, blissful lives.

Seeger felt ugly and ruined next to them. Then Alex, who was six at the time, had a meltdown. He sprawled himself across the hill so that the other children couldn't go down it. The two other mothers tried to get him to move. He has a problem, Seeger told them. They continued to try to shift him. He has a problem, Seeger said. My husband died. Mine too, one of the other women said. That was Melissa.

A few weeks later, on Valentine's Day, Seeger was invited to her first gathering of the widows. Today, Melissa says she could detect the telltale flintiness of the recently bereaved the moment she saw Seeger on the hill. Now there were six widows united in Concord, each middle-aged, each in a different stage of grief, drawn together by the peculiar pull of the unlucky. Three had been widowed by cancer, two by accidents, bicycling and hiking, and one by suicide. Melissa's husband was four years gone, Seeger's seven months. Widowhood was like a new universe for Seeger to explore. She had never understood many social norms. The celebration of birthdays, for instance.

I just don't see the point, she says. Why would I want to celebrate my birthday? Why on earth would I even care? She had also drawn a hard line against Christmas and its myths. I never wanted my kids to believe in Santa. After Weverick's death, she became even more of a satellite, developing a deeper intolerance for life's ordinary concerns. Making dinner seemed an insurmountable chore, the routine of school lunches a form of torture. The roof needed to be replaced, and she didn't have the faintest idea how to get it fixed. She wasn't sure how to swipe credit cards. If the answers to her questions weren't somewhere on Weverick's three wrinkled sheets of paper, it could feel as though they were locked in a safe. There was a pendant light in her front hall where the boys would fight with their toy lightsabers, and sometimes they would hit the

light with their wild swings. Seeger decided that either the light or one of the boys was going to end up damaged. She asked the widows how to do electrical work. I have to parcel out things with logic and evidence, she says. Got out the ladder and took down the light, carefully wrapping black tape around the ends of the bare wires that now poked through the hole in the ceiling. She remembers thinking that her removing that light, all by herself, represented the height of her new accomplishment. She felt so reduced. She felt so gigantic. For all of her real and perceived strangeness, the most unusual thing about Seeger is her blindness to her greatest gift. She is more than aware of her preternatural mathematical abilities,

her possession of a rare mind that can see numbers and their functions as clearly as the rest of us see colors and shapes. I'm good at that stuff, she says with her brand of factual certainty that is sometimes confused with arrogance. She knows she is unusually capable of turning abstract concepts into things that can be packed into a case. What she doesn't always see is her knack for connection between places, if not always people, the unconventional grace she possesses when it comes to closing unfathomable distances. Seeger has lined the hallway outside her office with a series of magical travel posters put out by the Jet Propulsion Laboratory. Each gives a glimpse of the alien worlds that, in part because of her, we now know exist. that, in part because of her, we now know exist.

There's a poster for Kepler-16b, an exoplanet that orbits a pair of stars, like Luke Skywalker's home planet of Tatooine. Kepler-186f is depicted with red grass and red leaves on its trees because its star is cooler and redder than the sun, which might influence photosynthesis in foliage-altering ways. There's even one for PSO J318.5-22, a rogue planet that doesn't orbit a star but instead wanders across the galaxy, cast in perpetual darkness, swept by rain of molten iron.

After the discovery of Proxima Centauri b, Seeger wrote a galactic postcard from it for the website Quartz. She closed her eyes and imagined a world 25 trillion miles away. For the average Earthling, she wrote, visiting this planet might not be much fun. She saw a planet perhaps a third larger than Earth, with an orbit of only 11 days. Given its proximity to its small, red star, she suggested that the ultraviolet radiation on Proxima Centauri b is probably intense, but the light Martian dim. She also deduced that Proxima Centauri b is tidally locked. Like the Moon's relationship to Earth, one side of the planet always faces its star, which is always in the same place in its sky. Parts of Proxima Centauri b are cast in

perpetual sunrise or sunset. One side is always in darkness. At first, after Weverick's death, Seeger thought about abandoning her work because she was having such a hard time with her responsibilities at home. Her dean talked her out of quitting, giving her financial support to hire caregivers for the boys and urging her to redouble her efforts. I had worked so hard, she says. I had all the years I called the lost years with Mike when I ignored him. We had little tiny kids. I was working all the time, exhausted all the time. But I was like, we'll have money someday. We'll have time someday. She paused. Her face was blank, emotionless. Now I'll cry. Seconds later, tears spilled out of her eyes and her voice modulated. I wanted to make it up to him,

and I never did. Seeger has always found comfort and perhaps even solace in her work, in her search for another and maybe better version of our world. In her mourning, each discovery represented one more avenue of escape. In the spring of 2013, she was given responsibility for the Starshade. That July, she met a tall, fast-walking man named Charles Darrow. Darrow, who is now 53, was an amateur astronomer and the president of the Toronto branch of the Royal Astronomical Society of Canada, and at the last minute, he decided to go to the Society's annual meeting in Thunder Bay, Ontario. Darrow was on his way out of a profoundly unhappy marriage. He worked for his family business, an engine parts wholesaler. He needed a break,

and he pointed his car north. I wanted to be alone, he says. At a reception on the Friday evening, Darrow noticed a hazel-eyed woman staring at him from across the room. I thought she was looking at someone behind me, he says. Then he went into the lecture hall, and the same woman was that night's keynote speaker. She talked about exoplanets. The next day, lunch was in a university cafeteria. The woman was in the salad line ahead of him, and she turned around. Darrow mustered up his courage and invited Sarah Seeger to join him. I knew about five minutes into the conversation that my life was going to change, he says. Seeger was taken with Darrow the night she saw him in

Thunder Bay. She had been struck by the contrast between the whiteness of his shirt and his tanned summer skin. But she didn't have the same certainty that possessed him at their lunch the next day. She wasn't sure how to develop a relationship across the 549 miles between her home in Concord and his home outside Toronto. She thought they might never cross paths again. They might not have, except Darrow resolved during his drive back home that he had to call her. He picked up the phone five times but always hung up before she answered.

On the 6th, he spoke to her, beginning a long correspondence, emails, and conversations over Skype. Darrow and Seeger talked every way but face-to-face. They fell in love remotely. I had to follow my heart, Darrow says. I decided that I wasn't going to die unhappy. Melissa, meanwhile, told Seeger that if she could close the gap between here and a planet like Kepler-186f, a journey that would take us 500 light-years to complete, then the 549 miles between Concord and Toronto shouldn't seem like such an insurmountable gulf.

By her usual measures, he was right next door. Seeger and Darrow married in April 2015. In different ways, each had rescued the other. Seeger was the cataclysm that allowed Darrow to make every correction. He divorced, left his family business, and moved into a pretty yellow Victorian in Concord. The two boys started calling him dad. For Seeger, Darrow was a second chance to know love, even deeper than the one she had known, because it seemed so improbable in her sadness. I feel so lucky to have found him, Seeger says. What are the chances?

Adapting to his new life hasn't always been easy for Darrow. He is determined, as he puts it, to make Sarah the happiest woman in the multiverse. He cooks dinner, he helps take care of the boys, he maintains the house, he walks with Seeger to the train station every morning, and he picks her up every night. He has chosen to take care of the mundane so that she can devote herself to the extraordinary. But he banged his head more than once on Weverick's canoe, which still hung from the back of the garage. Not long ago, Darrow was looking for the right ways to assert his presence, to make a claim to a house that didn't always feel like his.

The wires dangling from the front hall ceiling bothered him. They looked bad and seemed dangerous. A few months after his arrival in Concord, he took his opening. He carved out some of the plaster, installed a plastic box, ran the wires through it, and hooked up a new fixture, flush-mounted, so that the boys wouldn't hit it during their duels. Daryl climbed down from the ladder and flicked the switch. The morning after she forgot her phone, Seeger woke up and decided,

just like that, to skip the commute. With the house to herself, she tried to make coffee. She left out part of the machine, and after some terrible noises, the pot was bone dry. She sat down at her kitchen table with her empty mug and began talking about hundreds of billions of galaxies and their hundreds of billions of stars. Tens of billions of habitable planets, far more of them than there are people on Earth. There has to be other life somewhere out there. We can't be that special.

It would be arrogant to think so, Seeger said. But in her lifetime, after the WFIRST telescope rockets into orbit, and maybe her starshade follows it, she puts the chances of success at 85%. She will have time to explore only the nearest hundred stars or so. A hundred stars out of all those lights in the sky. A fraction of a fraction of a fraction. Will one of them have a small, rocky planet like Earth? Probably. Will one of those small, rocky planets have liquid water on it? Possibly. Will the planet sustain life?

Now the odds tilt. Now they are working against her, and she knows it. Now there may be one in a million that she'll find what she's looking for. She did some private math. I believe, she said. I believe, she said. Seeger's discovery will be fate-altering if it comes, but it will also be quiet, a few pixels on a screen. It will obey the laws of physics. It will be a probability equation. What are the chances?

We won't discover that there is life on other planets the way we've been taught that we'll learn. There won't be some great mothership descending from the sky over Johannesburg, or a bizarre lightning storm that monsters will ride to New Jersey. What Seeger will have is a photograph from a space telescope of a distant solar system, with its star eclipsed by her starshade, and with a familiar blue dot some safe and survivable distance away from it. That's all the evidence she will have that we're not alone. And that will be all the evidence she will need. Her proof of life will be a small light where there wasn't one before. This was recorded by Autumn.

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