The Dr. John Delony Show - Grief Expert: The Key to Overcoming Life’s Hardest Moments (With David Kessler)

Episode Date: November 11, 2024

In this episode, John sits down with author David Kessler to have a conversation about grief. Next Steps: Learn more about David Kessler and resources for grief Follow David on Instagram 📞 Ask John a question! Call 844-693-3291 or send us a message. 📚 Building a Non-Anxious Life 📝 Anxiety Test 📚 Own Your Past, Change Your Future ❓ Questions for Humans Conversation Cards 💭 John's Free Guided Meditation 🤘🏼The Dr. John Delony Show T-Shirts Connect With Our Sponsors: 🌱 Get 10% off your first month of BetterHelp. 🌿 Get up to 40% off at Cozy Earth with code DELONY. 🔒 Get 20% off when you join DeleteMe. 😇 Go to Hallow for a 90-day free trial. 💤 Visit Helix Sleep for special offers! 💪 Get 25% off your order at Thorne. 🥤 Get 20% off at Organifi with code DELONY.  🏔️ Use code DELONY at Poncho Outdoors. Listen to More From Ramsey Network: 🎙️ The Ramsey Show 💸 The Ramsey Show Highlights  🍸 Smart Money Happy Hour 💡 The Rachel Cruze Show 💰 George Kamel 💼 The Ken Coleman Show 📈 EntreLeadership   Ramsey Solutions Privacy Policy https://www.ramseysolutions.com/company/policies/privacy-policy

If you're dying, your marriage is falling apart, you're in the worst moments of your life, you want David Kessler there. It bothered me. I wanted to be, oh, you're having a party? You've got to get David Kessler there. I didn't want to be the death grief guy. Yo, yo, what's going on? This is John with the Dr. John Deloney show.

So grateful to be here with you. Listen, we're talking about your emotional health, your mental health, your relationships and underneath all of those things Is hard moments hard seasons every single person I know you included goes through hard seasons We go through loss we go through things we want to happen that don't happen And if you have listened to this show for any period of time, you know I've referred to this man the great David Kessler I have recommended his book finding meaning over and over and over and over again I think it is the

masterpiece on Dealing with not only heavy things like personal loss and romantic loss, but just all loss Well, he's on the show today. We're having a two-part conversation when When I got going with him, dude, I took out my notepad, I started taking notes. It's one of the most incredible conversations of my lifetime, and I'm so grateful that the cameras were rolling and that you get to be a part of this amazing conversation.

In this first part, we cover the gamut. I want you to sit down, I want you to pull out a piece of paper, and I want you to take some notes. I want you to digest this episode because this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for you and your loved ones and your friends and family to sit with a Guy who's been there personally a guy who's been there professionally and a guy who has helped me immensely sitting with hurting people

Listen to my conversation with a great David Kessler. This is the first half of the interview. Check it out. I first read this and my son was younger. When did Finding Me Come Out? 2019. Okay, yeah. So that's about right. So my son was I think, yeah, maybe nine. And I remember not having a psychology for it. And so I used to work in residence halls in universities, and I would hug these dads who were dropping their daughters off, and they would be sobbing, and I would be rolling my eyes out of the back of my head. And then I remember dropping my son off when he was like one at a local Tuesday, Thursday school and I just sobbed in the park a lot.

And so then fast forward now, I've got an empathy for your times not here yet, but that pain is real, right? These people aren't. Reading this was a heavy, I didn't have a I didn't have an exhale for it. And I imagine eight years later. Well it is a reminder that he was a gift I could not keep, that did not belong to me. And then I try to remember that about everyone. You know, this moment we're in is a gift that will be gone. And people think, oh, well, that sounds depressing. It actually becomes the opposite. When I go, oh, everyone's a gift that doesn't belong to me. Every moment is going to disappear. It doesn't make me go, well, what's the point?

It makes me go, well, this is my time with John. Let me really make it count. That makes it infinitely more precious. Let me go into this. Let me soak this moment up. Let me not throw it away. It's another podcast. It's another moment. It's no, this is like, this is an amazing moment I'm in and to just take it in. You know, I come out happier. I ran into a neighbor that used to work with 30 years ago and she said, oh, I've been following your career. I would be friends with you, but it must be too depressing. And I was like, Yeah, actually not. I mean, I'm kind of a really happy person.

And I know you're like a grief expert and kid die and shootings and parents and da da da. Yeah, that makes me understand the preciousness of all this. That makes me understand joy. Pete In a visceral way. Pete Yeah. Pete Or almost like oxygen. I know the importance of joy. Pete And it's also like, years ago, I was on the road all the time, day and night.

And I would go to these cities and, you know, have a hotel meeting room and be in the meeting room. would go to these cities and, you know, have a hotel meeting room and be in the meeting room and a few hundred people there. Next door was the meeting with the realtors, the nurses were down the hall, the Rotary Club. And at the end of the day, the staff would say, hey, what were you teaching? And I go, why do you ask? And they'd go, because your group was laughing the most. And I would go, grief. They'd be like, what? And what I think it's hard for people to understand is that group and those of us who are willing to, like, be present for the joy but also the pain, we have a larger bandwidth to sit in that pain, but we have a larger bandwidth for the joy, for the laughter.

So, it really allows us to become bigger people. Yeah, I have noticed that several of my colleagues who, for our careers, we've just sat with hurting people, also are the most irreverent and the funniest and the most like, bring your jokes on about like, because I used to think it was because we have to. And now it's now I get to. Right. Right. Because this comes to an end at some point and I want to have not left a laugh unlapped. Right. Right. That's great. I want that's a great quote. Yeah. Right. So I remember I was not well in a season of not being well.

And I was reading a book and I was sitting by in bed, my wife and I were both nerds, we were both college nerds and we were sitting up in bed both reading, as you would imagine two nerdy people reading. And I dropped the book and I looked at her and said, and my son was one and a half, I think two. and said, and my son was one and a half, I think, too. And I was not making this adjustment well as a new dad, a professional, yada yada. And I looked at her and said, oh man, if I'm 92 and you're 91 and the clock strikes midnight and we turn and kiss each other and we both die and our son has to deal with our bodies. That's the best this gets and

every other scenario is just worse than that. And she looked at me, she just looked over her glasses and she's like, you're the worst. It's 10 o'clock at night. Why this thing? But it was this strange moment that I had been sitting with hurting people always at arm's length, and I don't think that made me very effective at it. But suddenly, I got a child now. This ends. This ends for all of us. It was this reckoning, not a theoretical reckoning, but a reckoning here.

And over the last 10 or 15 years since that moment, that specific moment, I've been wrestling with looking around culturally is this strange, like, plexiglass we've all given ourselves to try to live between us and reality, which is hard things happen to everybody. And pain is not a bug, it's a feature, it is. Loss is, not being here someday is. As you've traveled the world sitting with hurting people and hurting groups, what's the birthplace of this denial that hard things are a part? And so, learning how to sit in hard things is really where the effort should be, not in trying to pretend it's not all coming.

Does that make sense? Yeah. I think it's fairly modern. I think it's the 40s, 50s, the ideal TV shows, the ideal life, what life should look like. I mean, I think before there were all those, Ozzy and Harriet and all those, you know, TV sitcoms and Leave It to Beaver, I think it was life is, you know, tough. There's ups and downs. You know, I can remember literally, you mentioned Leave It to Beaver. Leave It to Beaver, I remember seeing an episode, and Beaver says to his brother, Wally, I got a problem, Wally. And Wally goes,

tell me about it, Beaver. And I remember saying to my older brother, I got a problem. And he goes, yeah, you think you got a problem? I have two beers and no opener. And I'm like, oh, life is different from that. And I think those were when the illusions happened, that oh, life can be perfect and we're not as good as the Joneses. I mean, I guess comparison and all that was always there. But I just know from this work, whether we're talking about any kind of loss and, you know, oh, we got the marriage that went wrong, we've got the death, we've got the betrayal. No, everyone's got something. Everyone on the planet has something. And freedom is only found in reality.

When I am unhappy, I am fighting with what is. And there's a lot of things I want to fight against, but the problem is reality always wins. Always. Reality always wins. And I've found that the more you don't traffic in reality, man, A, there's somebody always willing to sell us a path of avoidance, but my body's always solving for reality. So as much as I don't want to admit that my teenager is not talking to me for some deeper issues, and I want to play over it, my body knows something's not right. My teenager is not talking to me for some deeper issues And I want to play over my body knows something's not right or my marriage is falling apart I'm my health is yeah, and we also live in a world that almost treats grief as

contagious Like your grief is making me so uncomfortable Can we get you past it? Yeah, so I don't have to think about what if my marriage goes south, what if my partner cheats? What if I have someone who dies? Like, just like, let's get through this to make life perfect again. Everyone I've ever sat with has always circled back

a hundred percent of the time. I can't imagine, I can't remember a scenario when they didn't say at some point they became responsible for their closest friends and family. It became their job to make sure they were okay. You know, I remember in my childhood, after my mother died, horrible shooting, she died alone in the hospital, all of this stuff went down.

I saw so many people being killed. The trauma, the grief, it was, you know, the only advice I got was be strong. And I think to most of us, be strong gets in like, don't have a lot of feelings and take care of everyone else. Yeah. That's where we start from. But I think the phrase, be strong,

almost is a reflection of the person who spoke it. I can't sit with this much hurt. I need you to deal with it. The strongest, most powerful men and women in my life have been able to sit with me when things have fallen apart. And that's that old, hold my arms up in the desert, right, when I can't, right? There's like, we'll take care of food when you can't, we'll take care of the next right

thing when you can't. That to me is strength in a powerful way, not, hey, toughen up, right? How do you sit with somebody and bring them to reality? Or can you? Well, I think they have to be allowed to deny it. They have to be allowed to deny it for a while. You know, denial is the first place we go to. I can't believe they betrayed me.

I can't believe this marriage is over. I can't believe that they died. I can't believe it. And I always tell people, so I'm going to go, they're in denial. There's a grace in denial. If we let all the pain of loss in, in one day, we would be on the floor and never get up. I like that, okay. Denial paces the pain. It gives it a little bit at a time. So there, I think people don't understand what a grace. How amazing that our brain, our psyche knows this is too much.

It's okay to not believe it. For now. For now. Yeah. For now. And so I mean, partly you start with I can't believe it either. I'm right there with you. I'm right there with you. You know, people are like, we got to get them out of the denial. Stop that. You do not need a crowbar, you know? You need a pillow to put behind them, not a crowbar. For people watching this, they'll know, like why does John have, taking notes, I never take notes. No, okay. This is graduate school for me too today, man.

All right, good folks, I wanna tell you about Cozy Earth. The holidays are on us like a freight train and these stores keep playing the little drummer boy over and over. Can we just be done with the parumpa pum pums? Listen, at this time of year, we need to create peaceful environments, especially a peaceful sleep environment. And I call mine my sleep sanctuary. And for me and my family, a big part of our sleep sanctuary includes bedding and bath

linens and comfortable clothes from Cozy Earth. Listen, y'all know I love the sheets and I love the bath towels and all the good stuff there. But you don't know that Cozy Earth has amazing hoodies and crewneck t-shirts. They're called cityscape hoodies and crewnecks and they come in men's and women's and kids sizes. I Can't stop wearing them and my wife loves cozy earths long-sleeve bamboo pajamas set They're so amazing and just wait till you feel the cozy earth cuddle blanket. It's big. It's heavy It's super soft. It just makes you go

All of these things make incredible gifts during the holidays and don't forgetzy Earth offers a 10-year warranty on all of their bedding. So amid the holiday chaos and the perumpa pom poms, you can create your own peaceful sanctuaries, your own peaceful sleep sanctuaries with Cozy Earth. Go to CozyEarth.com slash Deloney and use code Deloney for an exclusive discount for up to 40% off. That's cozyearth.com slash deloni. And if you get a post purchase survey, say that you heard about Cozy Earth on this podcast. November can be bananas.

And we have the normal November chaos with colder weather and there's family drama, Thanksgiving and figuring out holiday plans. And with the recent election, well, no matter what you think about any of this mess, we all need an extra helping of peace. And one of the easiest ways to find and maintain peace is with the help of Hallow, the number one prayer and meditation app in the world.

With so many external things trying to divide us or capture our attention or just make us bananas. Hallow is there to help you and me keep grounded, to stay present and to focus on our faith in God. I use Hallow every day and I absolutely love it. Hallow has thousands of prayers, songs and meditations to guide you along the path of gratitude, to help you keep peace and to help you answer hard questions and to help you along the path of gratitude, to help you keep peace,

and to help you answer hard questions, and to help you grow closer to God. And I want you to watch for an upcoming Advent Pray 25 challenge that will make the countdown to Christmas truly special. Download the Hallow app and go to hallow.com slash deloney to get three free months. That's three free months of the Halo app totally free at

Halo HALLOW.com slash Deloney. So let's talk about feelings. I feel like we've been given two cultural narratives. One is feelings are your universal truth. Don't do anything outside of your feelings They are reality and this other narrative that feels like it's emerged recently has is Feelings don't count. They have no validity Throw them out and I find Heartbreaking illness on both sides of this and there's can you paint us a picture of a new third way I Think of feelings as information. It's data. Take it in, look at it. Here's the problem. Especially in grief, we feel a feeling and we have the luxury of being one of the first generations to have feelings about feelings.

Literally. Will you unpack that because that's really important? I'm angry. Anger is inappropriate. Let me just un-feel it and throw it behind me. It's inappropriate to be angry. Okay? I'm sad, but people have it so much worse. I mean, look at the world. Look at what happened to Janet. Look at what happened to Bill. Let me throw that behind me. And so we keep throwing half-felt feelings behind us and just carry them with us, unfelt,

trying to get our attention all the time. And one of the things that our mind says is, you don't understand if you feel like, David, if I start crying, I might never stop. I say to people, I have been with thousands of people, everyone stop crying. Doesn't mean we don't start again in our life. Everyone stops crying. So, feelings are data, they're information, they're knowledge about us, they're the way forward in terms of understanding our own psyche, and no feeling is a fact, and no feeling is final. We go...

Good grief, David, you're giving me al-qaeda. This is like, oh my gosh, you know, my spouse died, I'm going to have 40 more years of sitting at the kitchen table lonely every night." Yeah, that's what your mind, you're lonely today. And you're right, your spouse is never going to be there again. You have to grieve that. But we don't know what your feelings really are for the next 40 years. I mean, you know your future is not written, but those feelings we think are written, I'm going to be broken forever, I'm going to be sad forever. Well, we know you feel sad and broken today. I mean, we actually don't know the future. So, feelings

are huge. In this, I'm just going to show you this. Let me tell you, one of the things people go, I say, what are you feeling right now? I don't know, I'm numb, I don't know. I feel numb. People think in feelings we have anger, sadness, happy. That's my choice. I put in the good old feeling wheel. Amazing.

Tons of feelings. I got all these exercises and I put this in front of people and I'll go, choose five. And I promise you, they're like, I don't have five feelings. And then they're like, oh, oh yeah, I'm rejected. Yeah, I feel helpless. Yeah, I'm insecure. Yeah, I'm a little, I mean, literally, they suddenly find ten feelings. And they're all there. They just need to be felt. And yeah, that new third way is both and, right? Like I have to feel these things. And they're not facts. And they're not the truth. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

They're not facts. But you have to acknowledge them, right? Absolutely And I like the way you said that you stone behind you One of the analogies I always kind of beat to death is that we're all wearing Backpacks and man if you don't acknowledge them and at least walk through them, man I just feel like I'm always piling them up back here and they will find this way out You'll appreciate this. I think I think of it sometimes with weights I feel like I'm always piling them up back here and they will find a way out. You'll appreciate this, I think.

I think of it sometimes with weights. I literally go, ooh, I feel hurt about what just happened. Okay, feel it fully is choice number one. The other choice is I have to decide, is this a five pound? Is this 10? Is this 20? Is it 30? And am I going to pick it up?

And am I going to keep carrying it for the rest of my life? Yes. You know, and that resentment's going to weigh me down. That, it's going to weigh me down. I can just really work through it and feel it or carry it all the time. Yeah, that's one of the first exercises I give people is to go to Lowe's and buy a cinder block and carry it for a few minutes and then set it down. Like, right, I'm going to choose to not carry this anymore, which leads me to this. Like, if you ask, like, like what's your superpower John? I would tell you I

Don't know how I don't know why but I can sit and the worst of it right in the worst And I can sit with people and then go home And I don't know why that is. I remember leaving the first Messy shooter situation and my dad was a was a hostage negotiator. So I called him and I said, hey dad, what do you do when you find out your greatest gift is giving people horrific news with grace and then just sitting there. And he got quiet and he doesn't talk very much.

He's an old Texas cop. He didn't talk very much, but he said, be really grateful that you found your thing and you better do it right. With just sense of like, go learn how to do this the right way. So that was my superpower. The reason I keep coming back to your work over and over, and you don't know this, I will just randomly put

the name David Kessler in a podcast feed and find somewhere where you have been on an interview just to hear your voice and your wisdom. That's why I sat down with a book today. You believe in people. You are one of the few voices in culture today that continue to empower people and say, I've seen the worst, trust me, David Custow, I've seen the worst and

you've been open about your experiences with your mom and your child, I've felt the worst, and I still believe that you can play a role in tomorrow being better. How do you arrive there? Thank you for that. But I also have a personal question right back at you. All right. Did you ever resist it? Ask that again. Okay, all right. Did you ever resist it? I said again.

Well, let me tell you for me. It became clear to me that I had some gift, just like you around sitting in the worst. That's right. The worst betrayal someone's like marriage is shattered, child, whatever it is, shooting. I can sit there. And then I got labeled the death and grief guy. And I remember someone saying, I was probably late 20s, 30s, someone goes, if you're dying, your marriage is falling apart, you're, you know, in the worst moments of your life, you

want David Kessler there. And at 29, 30, it bothered me, because in my mind, I wanted to be, oh, you're having a party? You've got to get David Kessler there. I didn't want to be the death grief guy. I wanted to be like the fight, you know, so it's interesting. One of the things when I went, okay, that's ego. You got that. Now, let's unpack this. What is that sort of gift? What is that? I walk in a room What is that? I walk in a room knowing that, and this is going to sound strange, let me think about this, nothing has gone wrong. Like I know that these are the worst circumstances and this is part of the tapestry of life and the path of life and the road

of life, and I know you have it in you to survive it, and I will see that before you will. And that, that to me is the gritty scratching and clawing of hope. Well that's why people want you there because you walk in and you shine a light. Well and I always feel like, look, the truth is, I talk about, you know, death comes in many forms, not just grief of a person dying. A breakup is the death of a relationship. Divorce is the death of a marriage.

Job loss, pet loss, those are all huge deaths. Relationship with abusers, narcissists can feel like the death of yourself. There's all kinds of losses there. And so, I sit with someone who is hopeless. And I know it may very be, look, the physical death, absolutely it's true. The marriage being over, the death of betrayal, you know, trust over, person's death is permanent. The loss of hope that you are feeling is temporary. And I believe it's temporary.

And I know how precious it is to hold hope. And I am going to hold your hope until you can find it again. I have hope for you. I have hope for you to get through this. You know, I believe we were talking about this earlier, this idea that like our modern culture, how did this happen? I always say, you come from a long line of dead people. Yeah. Like every ancestor you've ever had has died. Right. They've been cheated on, they've been betrayed. I mean, all this has happened and you're actually

built to take a number of hits this lifetime. You are built for loss and to survive it, and I'm going to remind you of that and get you through it. That's such a voice of empowerment in a world that just tells me I'm going to be the worst thing that ever happened to me. That's my story with a period at the end. It is the worst thing that's ever happened to you, now, here, and I hope it's the worst thing in your life. I hope this is the worst valley. It's not my place to know. And I'm just to remind you, it is a valley and valleys don't go on forever. That's You know, that's all I want to do

is walk you through that valley. So let's talk about that pain. After the initial loss over the years when sitting with hurting people, and sometimes it's not that night or not that week, it's a few weeks later, or maybe it's years later. I often find myself telling somebody in a moment of compassion, let that kid go, play. Let that abused kid that's sitting inside of you, let that little boy or

little girl go play. She's tired of fighting. Or I might tell somebody, you gotta let your dad go. He passed away two years ago. Let him go. Like, let him go. Like, give him peace. And I'm often met with really wide eyes. And it's this sense of, oh gosh, if I let go, not in a way of expediting grief or discomfort, but if I let them go, they're really gone How do we teach somebody that Holding on to pain or being a pain collector in a way. I Don't know how to say without selling callous It's almost like a choice to continue being miserable as though I don't have permission to laugh or love or make love anymore I have to if I if I let, I'm betraying that person who's

gone or I'm betraying the abuse I experienced. Talk through that for me. Yeah, I think it is a disloyalty factor. In all the books, in this I even put a disloyalty checklist. I don't even think we understand the amount of disloyalty we have around living again. Gosh, will you say that again? We don't understand the disloyalty we have around living again. Man. After the breakup, after the divorce, after the betrayal, after the death. You know, let's go to in the past, decades

ago, if you had a death, you would wear black. It wasn't a style. Anyone in black, they're grieving. Grief is what's inside of us. Mour mourning is what we do on the outside. It was a sign of mourning, okay? At the one-year point, you would have a meeting with your clergy, and your clergy would say, the one-year mark has arrived. You may continue to wear black, or you can take it off now. You take it off whenever you're ready, but beginning now, you have permission to live again. But at your own pace. There is not a moment in our society when we've gone through horrific pain, trauma, that we know, oh, at some point, it is okay to engage in this.

You know, even for me, after my son died, a dear friend, Diane Gray called, was head of the Elizabeth Kubler-Ross Foundation. She also, um also bereaved mother, and she said to me after my son died, she goes, I know you are drowning and you are in the deepest end of the ocean. And she goes, you can't see it yet, but there will come a time when you hit bottom. And when you hit bottom, you are going to consciously or unconsciously have a choice to stay there or push up. And I was like, I remember sort of dismissing it like, okay, thanks, da da da da da. And like, but yet the seed got planted. I often talk about planting seeds. The seed was planted like the recording was the seed got planted. I often talk about planting seeds.

The seed was planted like the recording was made for playback later. And then later on, as I began to think about the rest of my life and think about my future, I live in a little cute neighborhood we were talking about, little cute neighborhood, I live in a little cute neighborhood we were talking about, little cute neighborhood, little houses, and I thought, I pictured ten years in the future, twenty years in the future, the teenagers riding their bikes, and a new kid moving to the area, and he's riding with the kids, the pre-teens and the teenagers, and they're like, what's that house? Is that like a haunted house? Like the and they're like, what's that house? Is that like a haunted house? Like the cobwebs, like what's that house? And one of the kids says, oh,

there's a guy in there. He was a grief expert and a writer and an author, and then his son died and he never came out again. And I thought, yeah, I could write that future. I could write that future. Okay, I know I could do that one. I'm curious about what other futures there might be. And so, and I'll tell you another thing, this is like a challenge. Obviously, when my son died, I had like a bazillion lectures planned. We had to cancel them all. And then eventually, when I was like, I got to go back and do this, do my work, get back to my work, they sent out brochures, it's been rescheduled, all that. I got emails.

I saw your brochure. You're smiling in the picture. I know your son died. You should not be smiling." I had to really sit with that and go, okay, is that true? Does that feel like I should never smile again? The first person I wanted to take that to is my son. David. Yeah. And I went, David loved my career. He loved my work. Would he want his death to like take away my smile and like, oh my gosh, that person, that's so about them and not about me and my David and my relationship, absolutely not. Absolutely not.

And like, you know, I'm going to live again in his honor. And this isn't about, we talk so much about the post-traumatic stress. This is the post-traumatic growth we're talking about. That's like the big hush hush thing. Nobody talks about it. And it occurs more Way more dramatic stress doing more, but we don't know it's okay to not just go through this but grow through it This show is sponsored by better help this month is all about gratitude and most of us have a person or two We'd like to shout out for helping us out somewhere along our life's journey

I'd like to take a moment to thank two people who have transformed my life. One is the great Marilyn Fanon and two is the great and powerful Dr. Jean Noel Thompson. Marilyn gave me a chance when no one should have. She brought me along and taught me poise and professionalism and she challenged me when I needed help. Jean Noel taught me how to be a dad, a husband, a professional, and how to balance the seemingly impossible weight of caring for a whole bunch of people all at the same time. Big time thanks to Marilyn and Jean Noel.

And for all you listeners, I know you have people in your own life that you're grateful for, and hopefully you stop and thank them. But there's one person that we often don't take time to think enough, ourselves. We there's one person that we often don't take time to think enough, ourselves. We don't always acknowledge that we're surviving or moving forward.

We're grinding towards a better life, better relationships and a better world. And in a world where everything's gone bonkers, this isn't easy. So here's my reminder to thank the people in your life, including you. And sometimes we need more than just to thank you. We need some professional and personal help.

We need to talk to someone who is trained to help us discover true gratitude for ourselves and others, especially during the holiday seasons. That's why I recommend my friends a BetterHelp. BetterHelp is 100% online therapy. You can talk with your therapist anytime so it's convenient for your schedule. Just fill out a short online survey to get matched with a licensed therapist plus you can switch therapists at any time for no extra cost

This holiday season let the gratitude flow with better help visit better help comm slash deloni I always want to live out of the things that happened to me and the things I've experienced. I always want there to be some sort of peaceful, Nirvana-esque path forward. I was inspired by the veterans that I've worked with for the last 20 years. When they tell me something, I often find starting from a sense of obligation is okay. When they would say, no, no, no, no, so and so died, I have a responsibility to laugh and live for two now, man. Because if I don't, it's dismissing.

And I have a responsibility to over laugh, over adventure, over treat people well because of what happened to me when I was a kid. I don't know that that's healthy long term, but I think sometimes obligation, I have a responsibility to go find joy because of what happened to me as good jet fuel to get somebody, get me personally off the mat. Well, let's just connect that as where we just were. As one side, I have to live for two. On the other side, I work with veterans who also will say to me, you don't understand. This pain that I carry forever is a badge of honor. And I, this is my connection to them is the pain.

And I'll say, I see that and I understand that. And it's been a while that you've been in this pain. What would happen if you released that pain? And I would lose the connection. And I would go, I don't think so. When you release that pain, you would stay connected, but you would be connected only in love. And I can tell you, that pain that you think is a badge of honor, love is a stronger badge. And you can wear their love.

So it is between back to the disloyalty and I'm not going to live, to I'm living for both. I mean, find a place within there, but not be an extreme of either. Well, that reminds me of the old, it's a cliche now, but it's true. You get to choose your hard. Do you wanna choose hard and carry pain around forever? Or do you wanna choose hard and figure out ways to laugh? And I always tell folks when you're faced with that,

find the hard or choose the hard that on the other side of it gives you the best opportunity for joy. And you know, one of the things that you mentioned is that little person in us that we're always working on healing. And going back to one of the keys for me that was different is, because that is that little wound itself. And one of the things I see so many times is people go, I'm so screwed up. You know, my abandonment comes up every time I'm in a new relationship. My this comes up, da da da, and all that. My fears, I was abused, I think I don't trust, all that.

People are going to die on me, whatever that flavor is that comes up. Why am I so screwed up? I always think about what if we didn't see it as you're so screwed up? But what if it was that little child within you knocking, don't forget about me. I still need some healing. I still need some healing. I still need some healing. So on one hand, I think we have to recognize that, you know, inner child. There was a John Bradshaw comic strip, I'll never forget, that it said, there's this guy,

John Bradshaw, that says we all have these, it's two bears talking in the woods. The two bears are talking, there's this guy, John Bradshaw, that says we all have these, it's two bears talking in the woods. The two bears are talking, there's this guy, John Bradshaw here. He talks about our inner child and we got to nourish that inner child. And the other bear says, hmm, that's very interesting, but let's eat him. You know, it's sort of like that. But here's the other piece I think people don't realize. You talk about that inner child in you or I talk about that inner child in me. It's not just about trying to heal those wounds, and they get revealed in our grief.

Sure. Can we bring them with us? Like, it's cool for me, but I got to tell you, the little David and me is sitting here with you today Yes, I want him to come to these good moments I don't want him to be a shooting and there was abuse and I want him like I hope that like John and little Dave like both little John look they're getting to be in this moment with each other and Enjoying this moment with us and that we bring them forward. And here's the thing, I don't want like how many people leave that child in the abuse, in the death. Like bring

them with you. So that's probably in the thousand things I've learned from you, that's probably one of the top three things that has been, what I would tell you is a direct gift and something I find myself saying often now. And when somebody, I just recently was sitting with somebody, just the worst of the worst, and I made them look me in the eye and I put my hand on the back of their neck just to be still. And I said, they're not hurting anymore. They're not hurting right now. How often do we get locked into that child who got hit too hard, that child who got sexually abused, that

there was a car wreck and we imagined that flash of recognition and the hit and what was pain. We trap either ourselves, we trap our loved ones, we trap the nameless people we see on the news. We trap them in that moment and there's something so profound about saying, hey, they're not hurting right now. Yeah, they're not in that moment anymore. I understand your loved one was murdered, how it's as horrific as it gets, and they're not being murdered today.

And you know, so many times- Oh, that's such an exhale. And I'll tell you, but the thing is, so many times, especially with the therapists I train, we talk about in coaches, you know, everyone's like, let's bring our clients out of the traumatic moment into the now. And I'm like, but we can't leave our loved ones in the trauma. Right.

We got to bring them into the now. They're no longer in the car wreck. Our inner child's no longer getting abused. We got to move everyone into the now when we keep anyone in the trauma. And all grief does not have trauma, but all trauma has grief. There you go. Yeah. And yeah, that's a, it's like feelings, it's become this thing that it's not, right? On both sides of this equation, I think trauma is that same thing. Trauma is very, very real. And it's a part of you. And every uncomfortable feeling is not trauma. Right. And every dumb thing your parents said is not trauma. It's a weird mix. I'm trying to tell

people to own and recognize their trauma and also, that's not trauma too, right? It's a both and. And right, it is that. It's like on one hand, no one else gets to define And right, it is that. It's like on one hand, no one else gets to define... That's it, that's it. Your trauma, your trauma. Two people can go through the same thing and one is traumatized, the other is not. And there's some underlying wound if every day in life you are re-traumatized by something that's happened. Correct. You know, why are you wearing black? Do you not know how traumatizing that is? I mean, you know, and one of the things in our world now

is we so want to outsource our healing. We want to go, everyone's got to like really give me trauma warnings, we got to understand. It's y'all's job. It's y'all's job to heal me inside. And it's interesting when people say to me, where do we begin? I don't know where to begin. How do we, I'll go, what triggers you? What activates you? That's a map to your grief and trauma. Yeah.

And it's a map to your healing. Yep. Like, don't dismiss that. Like, that's the map we're looking for, for you to get through this. I've often, I mean, not often, always, healing's on the other side of that. It's not around it, right? And often I'll tell people, I know it looks daunting. I'll go with you. I'll walk with you. Right. Or at least walk until you can be with the next person and with the next person. But if you want peace, you got to go to the other side of that. Okay, so let's, I want to shift gears.

I want to stay here for a while, but I want to talk to some practical things. Yes. Okay. I just need to double click on something before we do that. I want to go back to just what you just said, because I can't let that slide with our listeners. You telling somebody, me telling somebody that your healing starts here and it's you getting somebody, it's you choosing to walk towards this thing. That is the empowerment.

That's somebody looking, I believe in you not, and I've been guilty of this, especially at the university level, spending all of my time trying to clear the deck for everybody so that they can go through their world with no discomfort. That is disempowering. That is me looking at you saying, I don't believe in you, let me go clear it for you instead of saying, no, no, no, I believe in you. Let's wrap skills

and support so that we can go together. We can go to the other side of that. That's empowerment. It's the good news and the bad news. That's right, that's right. And, you know, the bad news is, it's actually in you. The good news is, that's where you can get to it. Like, oh my gosh, I don't need to talk to the abuser. Oh, I don't need to get my healing from them. I don't need to get it from my ex. I don't need my loved one who died. If it's in me, I don't need my loved one who died. It's in me.

I have access to me. Like, how lucky am I? It turns out the issue is where I can get it. Yeah. And I want to, we talked about disloyalty. I want to just unpack healing for a moment, because there's some people who go, I don't want healing. And I'm like, it's a bad word. Yeah. Here's, people think there's something about healing means, oh, I'm going to forget them, I'm going to dismiss the trauma that happened,

I'm going to minimize it. To me, healing means the events or the event no longer controls me. I don't make decisions anymore from my abandonment. I don't have relationships from my prior losses. I can't connect with you because we could die, we could all lose. I mean, I am now in reality and in freedom to feel, do whatever I want and write a different future without using the pen of all those losses or traumas. My goodness. So how do we, and I'm laughing because it sounds like such a cruel question, how do we show

up with the right amount of compassion and the right amount of, I don't even have a word for it, for folks who I would call pain collectors or injustice collectors or I just have to, like, my identity is how much I hurt. Right. And they're just, we all have a family member, we all have people in our local church that I end up feeling like I don't even go, I'm going to take a different path out of my church building because I don't want to walk past. Right.

Right? How do we provide grace and empathy and compassion and also? So there was a therapist that I met years ago who said to me, every client I meet leaves a little pain in my office. And I went, oh, you're not going to make it. Oh, no, you can't be a pain collector. Oh, no, no, no. This is, oh, I would like to look at some other gigs. This

is not for you if you're going to collect pain. So, here's the thing. Let's talk about which grief is the worst. People always want to know which is the worst grief. Is it the sexual abuse that ruins, it feels like your sex life for the rest of your life? Is it the trauma of your childhood? Is it a divorce where they didn't die, it feels like your sex life for the rest of your life. Is it the trauma of your childhood? Is it a divorce where they didn't die, they're like rejecting you every day on this planet? Is it the betrayal that you can no longer trust? Is it the person dying? Is it a murder? Is it a child's death? I always say the worst loss is yours. It's yours. I can never know your losses, your griefs. I can't know it. I can only know my own. Now, I work with people and work very hard to find security in my grief. So many times I need you to honor my grief and my pain and

my loss. I always say, what if you're the one that needs to get it? What if like, I can't make John understand what I've been through. I mean, look, I could explain it. You could be like, what if I'm the one that needs to get how brutal this was and I need to sit with it and heal it? What if I forget trying to get John and Sue and Martha to get it? What if I get it? So there's that piece. The other piece is, whenever we're, and this is like a really important piece for therapists and coaches and all that,

whenever you have that person, like in the grief group who goes, really? Your spouse died a year after you were married? Oh, I lost my spouse of 40 years. That's real grief. So whenever anyone goes, how dare them? How dare? They're really saying, you know, you have gotten too much grief attention and I haven't gotten enough. So the advance work is to go, the person who's comparing is really telling us they haven't gotten enough support. Now we're coming back to feelings. In my online group, I have a grief group for the death of a person, Tender Hearts.

In that group, sometimes we have what's called a check-in. And I'll go, what are you feeling? And there's people who will be telling their stories and I'll go, have you had a chance to tell this story? And some people are like, no, no one lets me tell this story. I'll go, but we want to hear it, please continue. And there's other people who go, yes, I've told this story a thousand times and it's never enough. It's because the feelings didn't get witnessed, not the story. There's a feeling that didn't get witnessed.

So there is this one place, getting back to your question of, I need to see your pain. Your grief, your pain, it needs to be witnessed. On the other hand, I also see you more than your pain. I know you feel victimized, and there is more to your story than that. I want to remind you of your greatness and see your pain. And so that's the challenge when we see people who like, it is nothing and I'll tell you one of the things I start with in this workbook is having people tell their stories. And. And to see and bring awareness, because I have them tell it different ways, how do you tell your story?

Do you tell it? Because listen, in my life, I have told my story when I was young, I was like, yeah, there was a shooting, my mom died, it was no big deal. Like I wanted to be like everyone else, I minimized my story. Then there was a time where like I'm screwed up. This is the story of someone who screwed up. I'm like a victim. Then I was like, I'm a victor. I'm a victor of my story. You know, there's a part of me that like when my son died my younger son. Are you kidding? Why? Why me? Yeah, like really if not like I have I not had enough grief

Why me? And then there was another story I found of like yeah, that's painful and why not you? Did you think the grief expert? Gets to only have grief in it. Did you think the grief expert gets to only have grief in it? Did you think, you know, why not you? So how we tell our stories is really a key. Yo, I saw a headline the other day that made me want to set both of my ears

and my nose on fire. One third of the United States population's background, their information is now totally public. 115 million of us, our personal, private information is just out there for anyone to find and do with what they please. And with data breaches becoming more frequent, it feels like we're losing control over who has access

to our personal information. Nothing feels like ours anymore. That's why I love Delete Me. They are the best folks out there taking care of all of your private data and getting it out of the hands of the bad guys. Delete Me removes your personal information from the countless data broker websites that buy, sell, and trade your data. And that information includes your name, address, phone number, work history, property values, places you've lived all throughout your life and much more. And as much as I hate the interwebs, here I am, I'm on them everywhere now.

And Delete Me puts the power of my data back in my hands, helping me take control over where my information is stored and who has access to it. And your information doesn't need to be in the hands of other people. So sign up with Delete Me today. Individual Delete Me plans start as low as $9 a month, helping to protect you from the risks of unwanted exposure and online scammers, spammers, stalkers, and thieves.

Go to joindeleteeme.com slash deloney today for 20% off. That's join, J-O-I-N, deleteme.com slash deloney. All right, we are back. Hey look, you can get the Finding Meaning workbook. That's David Kessler's workbook. It will be linked in the show notes. All of the stuff we talked about will be linked in the show notes.

His website, grief.com, his groups, the great book, the greatest grief books of all time, the greatest grief book of all time, Finding Meaning. Listen, join us again for the second half of this interview. It's gonna be coming out in a couple of weeks or a couple of months. Stay tuned for it. Send this episode to everyone you know. Everyone in the world needs to listen to what David Kessler has to say about loss, about finding joy, and about how to sit with hurting people. Thanks for joining me.

Can't wait to see you soon right here on the Dr. John Delaney Show.