The Dr. John Delony Show - He’s Seeing Prostitutes After 38 Years of Marriage

Episode Date: February 16, 2024

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Coming up on the Dr. John Deloney Show. I think an affair will be easier for me because if it wasn't an affair, he would be emotionally involved with someone. But because it's prostitutes and they kept saying, he kept saying that was just a service. So I don't know what to do. I'm stuck. I cannot change my mindset.

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You know what I'm talking about. Valentine's Day, same thing. Every time you mention a holiday, you say Thanksgiving. Well, I like eating. You're just so thankful is my assumption. I'm just a grateful guy. I'm a grateful guy. I'm running a scam called a podcast.

In a few years, you're going to be like, how do we let people get away with this? If you haven't bought a Valentine's Day gift yet, it's not too late. It may be sold out, but give it a shot. And I said in a recent episode that came out, I guess this will be a couple of weeks from now that, that I was going to put a PDF in the show notes that had the, the, some of the conversation starters that me and my wife use when we do our annual retreat. Didn't put it out there. It is in the YouTube show notes now. So for all 11 million of you that wrote in

and was like, you're an idiot, you lie. I was born in the wrong century. I don't even know how PDFs work, but it's there now, right, Kelly? Good? Yes, it's in there. So if you'll go back to the episode, I believe the YouTube title of it was My Boyfriend Won't Let Me in there. So if you'll go back to the episode, I believe the YouTube title of it

was My Boyfriend Won't Let Me Meet His Kids. If you'll go back to that... No, no, no. That's what you were telling me before we got on the air. That's not the title of the show. That's the title of the entire show. No, you were telling me that about your life. Well, yes. I won't. What? Your boyfriend won't let me meet his kids.

Which is really awkward for my husband, by the way. No, but if you'll go back to that episode and look in the show notes on YouTube, and they're also in the—it's already been posted in the show notes on podcast, but you'll be able to find a link to that PDF. Very cool. And, hey, this is maybe my favorite email I've gotten in a long, long time, except for the one that Kelly, when she wrote in and said, I'm not going to be at work today.

Listen to this. We got this on January 22nd. As I'm recording this, you haven't heard this episode, but it's coming out. And so I'm really excited about this. It says, hey, Dr. John and crew, it's Kayla. After our call, you asked me to check in and let you know if I was going to an inpatient treatment program somewhere. I just wanted to let you know I did call and found a place, and I'll be checking into it tomorrow. I wanted to thank you for your call with me and the time you spent. I'm excited to talk to the crew in 30 days with my first ship. Love, Kayla. Kayla, so proud of you. So proud of you.

Feels like you can't breathe because your kids are at home, your husband's at home. This is where it all turns around for you and your family. And I'm so proud of you. I can't wait to hear the follow-up and I can't wait to see a picture of that chip, and we'll post it for everybody. So, so, so proud of you. It's amazing. So proud of you. All right, let's roll out to... Let's go out to Sylvia in Long Island, New York.

What up, Sylvia? Hello, Dr. John. How are you? I'm so good. How about you? Well, I'm calling in, so I'm not so good. What's going on? Well, as of today, one year ago, I found out that my husband was cheating on me.

And when I asked him along, he said a few months, and then I went back and checked, and I found out that it's been a few years. How old are you, Sylvia? I'm 56. 56? And how long have you been married, hon? 37 years. 37 years? Yeah.

Wow. I'm sorry. Thank you. And it's been a year? It's been a year as of today. Okay. So he was cheating on you for years. Tell me about what you found out.

I found out because he texted me saying where I was because sometimes I leave work earlier than other days. And he texted me and he said that, are you home? And I said, I'm on my way home. And he said, okay, I'll be right there. But I was actually arriving home, but his answer didn't sound right.

So I tracked him and I saw the car parked near a hotel. I didn't believe it at first. I had never tracked him before. Like in your gut, you knew exactly what was going on and it kind of all made sense, right? I felt weird that something was off. Yeah. sense right i felt weird that something was off yeah his answer was weird because usually he tells me oh i'm going here i'm going there i'm not saying he was telling me the truth back then but um now i know he's not telling me the truth back then yeah um and did you kind of know he was

something that was off even back then i'm'm sorry, can you say that again? Now that you have lived in this, and I know you've probably replayed every conversation over and over and over again. Oh, yes. Every single scenario. Yeah. Well, we don't need to go back. How can I help you now? It's a year to the day. How can I help you now? I'm stuck. It changed a lot. It changed to the wonderful husband I knew all along. It could be. Who was he having an affair with? Oh, no affair. Prostitute. I think an affair will be easier for me because if it wasn't an affair, he would be emotionally involved with someone. But because it's prostitutes and he kept saying that it was just a service. But whatever it is.

He puts you in an incredibly unsafe position. I know. I know. And when I found out and I waited two days to confront him because I didn't really know how to go about this

yeah um that's the first thing I told him that's the first thing I told him you're gonna have blood work done

immediately yeah have you so am I have you yeah okay good yeah

and you're safe yes thank god good so um I can tell you right now Have you? Yeah. Okay, good. Yeah. And you're safe? Yes, thank God. Good. So I can tell you right now, as you're running through scenario after scenario after scenario all the time, you're looking for things that, well, at least it's not that. I'm just telling you, I haven't talked to a whole bunch of people over the years.

Being emotionally connected to somebody would not have made this easier. It might have been less disgusting or it might have, it's devastating. It's devastating across the board. There's not a way to make this easy or not easy. It is devastating, but in my mind, my mind will be easier to make a decision,

I guess. Ah, I see what you're saying. So if he had fallen in love with somebody, it would be easy for you to walk away? Mm-hmm. Okay. So it's a year later. He's singing and dancing the right way.

He said he's changed. Yes. And you even acknowledge he's different now. Yes. But you can't come acknowledge he's different now. Yes. But you can't come back. Completely, 100%. You haven't come back. I haven't because I'm stuck.

I cannot stop thinking. That's the first thing I do in the morning. That's the first thing I do before I go to sleep. Okay. I'm going to ask you some hard questions, okay? And it's because I love you, not because I'm coming at you. Is that cool? Sure, of course. Okay. That's why I'm here. What is that getting you'm it's because i love you not because i'm coming at you is that cool for of course okay what i'm here what is that getting you it's solving something for you

what is it um maybe justifying the fact that he was such a lousy person for me throughout years nope what's it getting you you wake up every day you wake up every day and start thinking about it again. And every time he's gone, you're thinking about it again. What is that getting you? What's that protecting you from? I don't know, actually. I don't know. I would like to know.

Okay. Brene Brown calls it dress rehearsing tragedy. Okay. You're replaying it because there's a part of you that knows this could happen again. And I'm going to keep replaying it and keep replaying it and keep replaying it. That way when it happens again, I'm ready for it. Well, actually, it's like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. That's right.

Yeah. I mean, I don't have any reason to believe he's done this since I found out. Yeah, but you don't have any reason to believe he didn't. That's the problem. That's the hard thing about loving somebody and being in a trusting relationship. Sometimes you can't prove either way. True. And so I don't know what to do. I'm stuck. sometimes you can't prove either way true and

so I don't know what to do I'm stuck I cannot change my mindset you can that's not true you can't you have to be willing to get absolutely hurt again I have to be willing to be

absolutely hurt again. I have to be willing to be absolutely hurt again? Correct. You can't put on a full suit of armor and go back into an intimate, vulnerable relationship. Because he'll never be able to get to your heart. And if you say, he's never getting to my heart again. After four decades of him doing this, never again, well, then your marriage is over. If you choose...

And he knows that. He knows if he does it again, our marriage is over. But I think your marriage is over right now. What you haven't chosen to do is rebuild a new one. He has. Not yet. He has. Yes, he has.

He has. And he's very frustrated because he doesn't see me improving my situation. It's very frustrating that he doesn't see me going back to be who I was. You're never going to be who you were. I know. You had all your guts ripped out. And you could choose to be somebody new. I'm trying, doctor. i'm trying doctor i'm trying but i need your help i don't know what to do to to move past this every time that you open your eyes

and the thought of him going up that hotel room with a strange beautiful woman you yell out in your home no i, I'm not having this thought. I'm not doing it. I refuse. And then you consciously bring up a memory of him doing something amazing for you. Because your brain wants to protect you.

That's its job, is to keep you safe. And you got really hurt, very badly. Yeah. And so it's is to keep you safe and you got really hurt very badly Yeah And so it's going to keep looping and keep looping to protect you It's going to make sure this doesn't happen again It's going to make sure that when you find out oh, by the way

This happened for 25 years instead of just a few years, which by the way, it probably did This probably just didn't pop up after three and a half decades Okay You know that I know that but you're choosing to stay great you have to choose to go all in again and that means he might hurt you again but it also means he might not in all relationship is a risk all of it and and and that's the thing I mean he says there's no more lies now but he lied so easily before how can I trust him

yeah you have to slowly rebuild it now here's where people fall it turns into a big mess A you stayed and you've told him things have to be different and they have to be different A B C and D and it sounds like he's done that.

Actually, yes. He has done everything that I requested. Okay, but it hasn't been enough for you. No. Here's why, here's why, here's why, here's why. Why? Because you thought he could do something to fix you on the inside. He can't. What he can do is create an environment for you to heal from the inside out.

He has done that. Okay. You're choosing at this point then, if you're choosing to stay, and you're choosing to build a new marriage with this man, then you also have to choose to do your damnedest to not stew on these old thoughts and these old images and these old what-ifs and these old, yeah, I probably, and the old, it could happen, it could. What those constant ruminating moments are doing to you

is poisoning your home. Actually, yeah, and destroying me in the process. Right. And Sylvia, if you told me right now, I want to leave him, I gave him a shot and I can't come back, I would totally support you. I don't want you to feel like you've lost ownership of your life. What most people don't understand about infidelity, especially this long in a marriage, is that, yes, you lose trust in him.

Yes, it makes you hate everybody. But more than that, you lost trust in you. I did. And if you don't trust you, you can't have a trustworthy relationship. You can't give something you don't have. And so you have to be honest with yourself and say, hey, did I bury my head in the sand on some of this stuff? Yeah, maybe. I knew he was coming home late and his answers were weird and I didn't press him on it. I just didn't think of it. Now I look back. You have to forgive yourself.

Who thinks their husband of 35 years is with prostitutes. Right? That's way out there. Forgive yourself. Give yourself some grace. I, um... I'm glad it's me, and I'm trying. I know you are.

Have you written Sylvia a letter and said, dear Sylvia, I love you, and we got hurt really bad And I'm so sorry We were deceived by the man Who promised our family and me And God that he would be with us forever Through sickness and in health And he went and hired prostitutes

And brought them into our bed We were taken Advantage of and brought them into our bed. We were taken advantage of. We were hurt. We were lied to. And we missed it. Yeah. You got to sit in that.

I told him that it will be the right thing to do, to come out and say and tell me if there's other things I should know. Because if something comes out later, that's going to be, you know, another huge trauma for me. But he says, no, no, it was just the time I told you. No, no, no, no. But he didn't tell me.

I had to find out. I had to do the research. I know. I know. So it's even worse than having him come up and say, okay, you have this problem. It's not, Sylvia. I mean, it's all bad.

It's all bad. It's all hard. It's not, Sylvia. I mean, it's all bad. It's all bad. It's all hard. It's all devastating. But if you're going to leave for your sake and for his, go. And if you're going to stay and you've been very clear about what you need, I need to see your phone. I'm going to go through your emails. We're going to go through our,

our finance receipts every month, every week. If you're ever five minutes late, I'm going to stay away. I'm like, whatever you need. And he's done all that. That means the next step is you have to make the choice.

I'm going to start building something new too. Every time that thought comes into your mind, a picture of him with another woman, him calling you and deceiving you, every time you start to go back and replay a phone call, say out loud, no, stop. And then you have to replace that pause with something positive and what you're going to do over time is you're going to teach your body not just your thoughts your body that he wasn't safe then but he's safe now i'm going to trust him again yeah that might take a little longer of Of course it will. It'll take a long time.

And there's going to be a part of you that keeps asking, what if he does this again? That's a reasonable question. What if he does this again? It's scary and it's terrifying. And the only path forward, otherwise he's an employee who clocks in and out. You can't build a marriage on that kind of relationship.

If you choose to stay, you choose to stay. That doesn't mean you're not going to have flashbacks. That doesn't mean you're not going to have moments where your guts are all twisted up. That does mean I'm not going to throw it in your face. I'm not going to beat you up about it every time. We're following the trust rebuild protocol. It's going all twisted up. That does mean I'm not going to throw it in your face. I'm not going to beat you up about it every time. If we're following the trust rebuild protocol, it's going to come up. I'm not going to jab you. I'm not going to be passive aggressive.

I'm back in. And if there's times that you need to say, hey, I need a break tonight. Y'all had put sex on the calendar. Y'all had put a romantic night on the calendar. And you just are running low And you get bombarded with images I'm gonna take tonight off Cool, that's fine

But also you're gonna have to decide I'm gonna begin to alter my thinking I'm gonna catch myself as that train begins to leave the station I'm gonna say out loud No, I'm gonna go walk around the block One time I'm gonna think about a time My husband did something amazing and how good I felt. The joy, the smiles. I'm going to write him a note every day that says,

I see how hard you're working and I love you. I'm going to take my husband and the two of us are going to go and we're going to look out five years and say, okay, how do we want, what do we want the next five years to look like? What do we want our 40th anniversary to look like three years from now? Let's reverse engineer it into right now. And what do we have to do to get there? Let's begin looking ahead, looking that way, looking forward. If every minute of every day, you just surrender. I'm not saying this is easy and people are going to say, I just can't do that. You can.

And it sucks and it's hard and it's scary. And some days you do it better than others. And that's okay. We're looking for overall trend line over a period of weeks and months. I'm not going to go through those thoughts anymore. I'm not. I'm done. I think you can, Sylvia.

If you're going to be in, you got to be all in. If you're going to be out, you got to be all out. Can't ride the fence on this one. I'm so sorry that your husband blew up your marriage. So, so sorry. I'm on the line. I'm going to send you a copy of Own Your Past, Change Your Future. Taylor will get you hooked up. She'll get your address and mail it to you, and it'll be my gift to you. I think it's a good book for both of y'all to read together to talk about, okay, everything blew up. What are some steps we can take right now? We'll be right back.

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That's BetterHelp, H-E-L-P.com slash Deloney. All right, let's go right above Oklahoma and talk to Brianna in Toronto, Canada. What's up, Brianna? Hi, Dr. John. I'm one of the original 17 listeners. Yeah. I'm glad that you're still with us. We're down to like four now, so we original 17 listeners. Yeah. I'm glad that you're still with us.

We're down to like four now. So we're losing listeners like crazy. It's an honor to be on your show. Thanks for having me. I appreciate it. It's like we're having a nice cup of tea on the Titanic as this whole thing goes down. What's up? What's up? Yeah.

So I kind of need your help. Um, I've been a nurse for 18 years, but I have this debilitating fear that I'm going to accidentally cause a patient harm or do something that might result in their death. Oh, fantastic. And, um, and I say not fantastic, like that isn't fantastic. Um, fantastic in the manifestation of this, right? And so do you loop on this and loop and loop and loop? It is so, so bad. Like when I'm looping, I, yeah, I can't eat, I can't sleep and it's just really bad. Wow. And can I make a guess. I bet you are one of the most conscientious, graceful, amazing nurses in your whole practice,

aren't you? Well, conscientious, yes. I'd like to say the same for the other things, but yeah, I try. I bet you're incredible. Oh, well, thank you. No, but you have to say it out loud.

If you're not, if you're just like, no, really, honestly, I'm just like a pretty good, like, let's be honest. I'm not good at this job. Like, I'm like, like, inner human's really good. Like, I know where I rank on these things. Like, for you, are you one of the best nurses in your, in your practice? I, well, to be honest, honest i'm like this is a thing i've like jumped into a new role thinking that i had the anxiety under control okay um so i'm like in a brand new role and i mean it's like my dream job and i plan to be the best nurse in this role

as soon as i'm like comfortable. But I think that's kind of where I've kind of hit a wall because, you know, two weeks post orientation and I'm like spiraling again. It comes again. That's right. That's right. Have you ever killed a patient?

No, not that I'm aware of. I just realized I talk to medical people all the time That's been most of my career I'm real direct, I realize to the average person Sitting there like, what? So yeah, I just asked you that Oh yeah, I would ask you that privately You've never heard a patient?

No, not to my knowledge That means no Because they would have let you know, I assure you Right Have you Ever gotten really close? I've made mistakes. Have you ever almost killed somebody? No.

Okay. So if I was to ask you, where does this... What's your body trying to protect you from here because it's not it's not your it's not your clinical work because you've been exemplary it's not um the fear that um you're not good in your peers eyes because they just promoted you right so what's your body trying to protect you from? Failure. Where? I actually don't know. I'm like, I've... How's your marriage? I'm trying to figure this out.

Marriage is great. How's your kids? They're preteen kids. How's the balance of being an amazing nurse who just got promoted into your dream job while also trying to manage, can I have a snack? Can I have a snack?

Can I have a snack? And also manage, hey, are we having sex tonight? Come on. It's been like two days. I know. That's, yeah. The struggle is real.

How's your finances? Amazing. Okay. Thanks to the Dave Ram ramsey show okay so here's what i'm getting at often not always but often that paralyzing anxiety lands on a particular thing and we try really hard to solve that thing, and the thing was never the issue. The issue is our body is screaming at us that we're not safe in some aspect of our life. The things aren't working, and it just lands there. And you have probably solved for it before, and it will move to a new thing.

Like maybe it was just a simple putting in a line and you finally like breathe through it. Like you did your own miniature exposure therapy. I am putting this line in gently and calmly and it's perfect. Good. And then it would move to something else. I'm going to, did I miss that? Did I put the heart monitor on right? Did I put it on right? I'm going to miss the heart monitor. I'm going to have to go back in. It's just going to keep moving on you, I'm going to have to go back in. It's just going to keep moving on you, but it's because that's not ever the issue. Well, I have noticed a trend, to be honest, like when I look back at kind of periods of my life where this has kind of resurfaced, it's always when I've kind of met my stress threshold, just like in life. So you're absolutely right. Like it's always like, so this most recent time was like,

I was just orientating full time for X amount of weeks, learning all this new knowledge, and then bam, Christmas holidays on top of that. And that's when I just kind of spiraled, you know? What about the holidays, you know? What about the holidays makes you spiral? Well, to be honest, it was just the sheer volume of things to do, the to-do list. The to-do list, yeah. I may be wrong, but I don't know if I fully believe you. No. I may be wrong but I don't know if I fully believe you no because a really busy to-do list

without a lot of consequences is just a long list but if you have parents or mom and her dad that will really get on to you if you're not doing it right you have a husband who's wonderful except when you don't make the reservation that

i told and all of a sudden your nine-year-old little girl again getting yelled at by your dad do you see what i'm saying yeah sometimes holidays bring out a lot of it's not just the list of things i got to go do. It's the consequences or the perceived consequences of what happens if I don't do all these things. I have a huge list of like landscaping things that I want to do at my house, but none of it matters. Like right now my house isn't going to fall down. I just want to like put some stuff up, right? But I also, before this evening is over,

I've got to finish this show. I've got to do X. I've got to do Y. I've got to do Z. I've got to go pick up some flowers, and I've got to meet tonight for my daughter's holiday play that got moved because of snow and ice. The consequences of me missing that are making my heartbeat run a little hotter than usual.

Yeah. So what am I missing? Well, I mean, thankfully, yeah, I don't know. There's nothing, there's nothing that's gonna come falling down, you know, like no, no family dynamics that are necessarily like anything I'm afraid of, but, but just not doing it right. Could it be that I just put that on myself? Like, I don't know. Yes. Where'd that story come from that you do it all wrong or maybe even a different story. There's only a right way to do this, Brianna,

and you're not doing it the right way. You're like, yeah, but I'm doing it my way. My way's great, and I get good grades, and I'm doing it good, and I'm making people happy and feel good. There's a right way. You've probably been sitting on that story for a long time, haven't you? I have. Yeah. That story's going to kill you.

I mean, it is. Yeah. You're going to stress yourself into any sort of, any number of numbing behaviors. It's going to allow you to not have to deal with that. And I fear, like, I don't want to pass that on to my kids, you know? Yeah. Yeah, totally. How old are your kids?

14, 11, and 8. Okay. Do you have a daughter in the mix? I do. How old? She's 11. Tell me about your life when you were 9, 10, and 11. Wow.

It was not easy. My dad, right around that time, went on disability due to kind of a work injury. And my mom had to work like three jobs just to keep us afloat. Did she have to prop up your dad's broken heart and his ego too? Well, or was that your job? I suppose I did have, well, I, I can't say anybody put that on me,

but I, you were, you were a kid. Of course. I know, but I just mean, I think I, yeah,

I, I did internalize it that way that it was my responsibility to take care, you know, and make sure everyone was okay. Right. And here's the tough part. Those experiences made you an amazing nurse. And if you're really honest, on both sides of the ledger, I was really hard season. And your body has a GPS pin and being a 9, 10, 11-year-old little girl, and you're watching a miniature version of you walk through your house every day and your body just starts sounding the alarms again.

Mm-hmm. And you throw two knucklehead boys that you have to remind every day, will you please brush your teeth? Golly, really? Yes. You have to do that all the time? Every day? Forever?

Yes. You throw all that in there. Yeah. On top of it, on top of it. So here's what we're looking for. We're looking for a magic word. And I'm not talking about, I'm talking about, I'll just say it's margin. But I want you to look at margin.

I want you to reverse engineer margin. What does that mean? That means you and your husband sit down and look at your family calendar together. And you think, I want to solve anxiety around my nursing career, we'll do that. But we're going to start by looking at your husband and saying, we've never been married with three kids that are 14, 11, and nine before. We've never been married when I have this fancy new job. So now we got to rebuild our marriage into something cool and awesome because it's new.

It's all new. What do I need in this world? In this new marriage? Because it's different than the marriage that we both had when we got married. And I want you to look at your family calendar. And my guess is you'll do a lot. You'll got to be a lot of places all at the same time. You got it.

And so we're going to reverse engineer and we're going to say you and me go on the calendar first you're smart your husband's smart you're compassionate and loving your husband's compassionate and loving your kids are going to be fine so they're going to get one thing during the season after school one maybe two you see. You see what I'm saying? And we're just going to reverse engineer this thing. And we're going to create some financial margin. If finances is good right now, cool. They may be really good. And you just need to remind your 11-year-old self, money used to be really, really scary.

And now things are different now. So when I feel that tension coming up, I literally, I had that too. Grew up with not a lot. My life has changed. I'll put a fist in my chest. And I'll say, wasn't good then, but it's okay now. We're okay now.

I had a plumbing issue today that my wife called somebody. And my first impulse was, dude, I was going to do that on Sunday when I get back. We're okay. We can afford that. Yeah. Right? Yeah.

No, that's exactly what my body does when anything comes my way. So what we're going to do is we're going to both acknowledge that feeling and then we're going to attack it with data, with truth, with honesty. Is this true? I keep, I have it on my desk right now. If you're watching this on YouTube, I keep a journal with me all the time. And I write down those things. Is this true? I have time to fix the water system PVC pipe that cracked during the ice.

Is this true? No, it's not. It's not. I don't have the money to pay somebody to come do this. Is that true? No, that's not true. I do. Right.

Right? And here's my promise. Mine was the monetary system. It was economics. Yeah. And then it moved to something else. And then it moved to something else. And then I kept getting promoted, which And then it moved to something else.

And then I kept getting promoted, which meant I had to deal with more budgets and more people and more economic pressure and more revenue accounts and more expense accounts. And I'd get more anxious and more anxious. And then I'd get promoted again and I'd get more budget, right? See what I'm saying? And the more I tried to solve it,

the more it got spun louder and louder because my body was saying, you're missing what we're trying to tell you. You keep trying to find the smoke detector. We're trying to tell you that the house is on fire. Does that make sense? It does. Okay.

Hear me say this with all my heart. You're not broken. I want you to consider what if my body's actually working really good? hear me say this with all my heart, you're not broken. I want you to consider, what if my body's actually working really good? That's hard in the middle of the night, you know? Oh, yeah, it is. Yeah, it is. But if you don't give your body a chance to stop, if you don't give your brain a chance to breathe,

if you don't give yourself a chance to write down some of these stories until your head hits the pillow It has to cycle them all out Right, and it's going to take till 2 a.m to get those done, right? Think about this think about this If your finances aren't good If there's a conversation in your marriage you have to have If we just have to come back together on our parenting stuff If you need to write a letter to 11 year old you and let that little girl go play

she's been dealing with your dad for 40 years let her go play then your body would be failing you if it let you sleep all night right and so it's actually doing its job by waking you up every night

now when I wake up at 2 a.m. I smile and go huh what are you getting me up for? Because it's not doing it to be mean. Your body also knows how desperate you need sleep. But right now it thinks it's going to die. Well, let's go figure out why you think you're going to die, body. Finances now are good. Time with friends.

When's the last time a friend called you to come have dinner and you went and just hung out? Yeah, not too long ago. I definitely, you know what? I've been prioritizing many of those things. And honestly, thanks to the advice you give on your show. Awesome. To help put things in perspective. So do this for me.

Hang on the line. I'm going to send you a copy of Building a Non-Anxious Life. I want you to get online. I want you to go to johndeloney.com and take the anxiety test. Okay? I want you to take it. And it will at least, it's not a diagnostic tool of any sort, but it will give you a direction.

It will point you like an arrow towards, look here. See if this particular part of my life is out of whack or if my body's trying to get my attention here. The results we've had people come in, it's just, it's, it's, it's blown me away. It's a, it's turned out to be a better tool than I thought it was going to be coming out of the gate. Go check that out. I think it's johndeloney.com slash tests or anxiety tests, something like that, but Google that and you can find it. Check that out. But I want you and your husband to sit down together and ask yourself, okay, what if my body's telling me the truth?

What if I'm not safe somewhere? Or it's at least identified some places where I'm not safe. What could those be? And it may be as simple as you writing a letter to your 11-year-old self. It may be reading it to your 11-year-old self and maybe reading it to your 11-year-old daughter. Because she's not you. You had it really hard. You've worked really hard

so that she doesn't have that same experience. Maybe it's time to let her go play. All that told, you're a pretty amazing woman. You're pretty amazing. Head directly in to the alarms, to that anxiety. Directly into it, even when it's scary, even when it's terrifying, even when you think you can't. The healing's on the other side of whatever that alarm is trying to get you to run from.

We'll be right back. All right, let's go out to Dayton, Ohio and talk to G R E G. Greg, what's up, Greg? Hello, John. I'm a longtime fan and I knew you would spell my name. Very cool. What's up, man? Well, I, I've listened to that many episodes What's up man? Well I I know what you're going to say to me

Because I've listened a long time But I just need to hear it I'm about six months into a divorce It's Pretty much amicable And we're living under the same roof Which is Why?

Finances mostly No, why? amicable, but, and we're living under the same roof, which is why finances mostly. No. Why? Okay. That's a lie. I know it is. Why? Why are you still there? Okay.

So, so a little bit, I, we have an 18 year old daughter and she's leaving for college. Um, and so, you know, I'm, I'm, I don't, I'm getting closer to moving out,

but I haven't wanted to because I haven't wanted to lose daily contact with her. I totally get that. But if you and your wife have come this far and decided to get divorced, your house is filled with poison gas. Absolutely. And your daughter's breathing that gas. Why are you still there? Is this not amicable? It is.

We just avoid the heck out of each other. We communicate through email and spreadsheets. You live in the same house. Why? Yeah. Well, what happened? What happened? Okay. The, the, the big crux of the issue has been, um, paying for college. My, my daughter. Hold on. Hold on. That's why y'all got divorced. No. Why'dall got divorced? No.

Why'd you get divorced? She just said she doesn't need me. She doesn't want me anymore. She doesn't want to be married anymore. We went to marital therapy, and she said she did not want anything to do with me anymore. So this is not amicable. The love of your life has said, I don't want you. Yes.

Why won't you say that? I can't say it. I know. I know. I'm so sorry, man. I'm so sorry. And so right now, you feel like if you walk out that door, you lose everybody. Right.

God, man, I'm so sorry, dude. Because the sucky part of it is, and by staying, you're assuring that you're going to lose it all. Well, you know, I... I value my relationship with my daughter. I know. And... I know.

Are you a good dad? I, for a while, I thought I could win my wife back. I could prove myself back.

And that hasn't worked. So I felt like, you know, the win-win was sleeping in the basement. We've done this for about five months now. I get brief interactions with my daughter when she comes home, and I save money.

And those brief interactions are just little bitty gulps of oxygen, because you're sitting at the bottom of the ocean and your tank's out. Right. little bitty gulps of oxygen because you're sitting at the bottom of the ocean and your tank's out right will your daughter go have dinner with you once a week will she be with you or she doesn't want anything to do with you either no no she's she's caught in the middle of two adults acting like crazy she's she's very nice to me. Um, the issue was this, this college that she wants to go to an out-of-state school. Whereas, you know, we had kind of budgeted for an in-state school and I'm saying, Oh, and my wife is saying, this is now her dream to provide this for her. And, I mean, it's going to be four or five times the cost of what we could pay, what we can afford. Right.

And so I feel like my wife is, she's throwing everything, she's liquidating our marriage to pay for her college. We're essentially buying a Ferrari when we have a Toyota in the garage. So that's what kind of broke everything. Now, were there issues before this? Yes, but maybe I wasn't willing to see those. And you think it's irreparable? Think it's over? It's definitely irreparable. Okay. Is the divorce final yet? It's not. We're wrangling through lawyers.

I thought you said it was amicable. Why are you dealing with lawyers? Well, okay, true. I mean, we're arguing over money i mean it's amicable in that we're not shouting at each other yeah dude but we are assassins don't say anything brother i'm sorry assassins don't say anything they just kill you. Yeah. I hear a man who is quietly with less and less fight in him

and dying right before my very eyes. Yes. Is paying 5X for a school over... Is going to a fancy private school out of state that you got to sell everything for to send your kid there when you have the money for an in-state college? Does that make good sense? No. Is that worth dying over? No.

You're reaching that, you're in that weird gray area, but you're getting really close to when you can't tell your adult kids what to do anymore. You have to shift how you interact with them. And it becomes a relationship of influence, not a relationship of you will do what I say. Now, some parents hover over and they put, you know, like, you do this or I'm taking away the college money. Okay, you can do that for a few more years. I've worked with your kids for two decades. They'll be happy to leave after they're done.

But that will shift. And so there may come a moment when you tell your daughter, I don't think this is a good idea. And I love you. It compounds the matter to know that her long-term boyfriend also goes to school. So, you know, what are... I went to a school chasing a girl and we broke up two days into school. And I was at a university and I didn't know anybody. It happens, man.

Then also to consider, you know, she's seen that we are throwing our marriage away and liquidating the house to pay for this. What kind of guilt is that going to put on her? What kind of pressure is that going to put on her? Dude, she's been living in this home for years your marriage has not been good for a long time my guess is from just talking to your wife finally got something that she could hold on to and she's going to ride that sucker all the way to the bottom of the ocean yes And maybe she didn't have the income in the house and you were the income producer

or she didn't have a voice in the house. But this sounds like one of those moments where either she's just been brutal your whole marriage. Brutal. She's that wife that's like,

no, I'm driving a Suburban even though you don't have the money. Right. And maybe that's been her. She's been a spoiled brat your whole marriage and you've tried and tried and tried and tried. her she's been a spoiled brat your whole marriage and you've tried and tried

and tried and tried and she has just crashed your family into the ground with her immaturity maybe

or maybe this was her last desperate attempt to like no no no I'm digging my heels into this one I found a thing

I'm gonna dig who knows but your marriage has been a mess for a long time and your daughter's absorbed all of it yes on the thing. I'm a dig... Who knows? But your marriage has been a mess for a long time. And your daughter's absorbed all of it. Yes.

We've both been quite codependent on her. Yeah. She's been carrying you guys for a long time. It doesn't surprise me at all that she found

a guy that she can run away to. Yes. Because the burden of carrying the emotional weight of your life and your wife's life no kid can carry that's too heavy right right i see that now so yes is there going to be some guilt of course

especially if your wife is the kind of person that's going to come circle back around and expect your daughter when she gets out of school to prop up her lifestyle that way because your wife's going to find out that being divorced isn't all it's cracked up to be, financially speaking. Yes.

She's going to have a strong fiscal reality when she's the one dealing with money in her life. She's getting the lion's share of everything. Why? I'm going to be gonna be the one why are you abusive no are you do you cheat on her no okay why are you why are you doing that years i have been i have worked so hard my greatest failing is i'm a workaholic. Okay. Did that workaholism come from my family marriage? Maybe.

But I have been in counseling for years and I've been trying to fix this. I know. I've been a good husband. I don't deserve this. Okay. I actually, I believe you. And here it is. And there's that awful, no, you don't deserve this at all.

Nobody deserves to experience what you're going through. Nobody. Nobody, it deserves to be kicked out into the basement of their own house, to have the person that they've dedicated 20 years to look them in the eye and say, I just don't want you in my life. Nobody deserves to have all their hard work. I know it is.

But what are you going to do now? Don't let her have your dignity and don't let her have your respect and don't let her have your self-confidence. She is leaving you because something is going on inside of her. Yes. And you love her and you want to help and she's saying, I don't want your help. And I can't think of something scarier than being that powerless.

Fair? Yes. your help and I can't think of something scarier than being that powerless fair yes I'm really it's important to me that um couples that are separating or getting divorced or that have kids don't talk about about the other spouse right you've heard me say that probably on this show I have it is not out of bounds it's not out of bounds for you to take your 18 year old daughter out to dinner and say I have been in a 5 or 6 month black hole I loved your mom and I dedicated my life to her

and she has asked me not to be a part of her life anymore I wanted to keep our marriage and your mom does not and so I'm going to stand back up on my two feet I'm a grown man, I'm your dad I will be your dad until the day I die

I love you and that love will be broken by no bounds through the end of time I would love to have breakfast with you or lunch with you or dinner with you once a week. The thought of you going to college is like a knife in my heart and I know it's the right thing to do,

but I got to move out of this house and regain my dignity. I'm a good man. When you tell your daughter that, because right now your daughter sees a pitiful curled up man in his basement and all she gets is a one-sided narrative from your wife

who has drained your blood for two decades yeah is that fair that's fair okay I'm not saying this is easy I'm not saying you don't grieve this this is going to change you okay that's okay but let's go do the next right thing because it doesn't contrary to what our

culture tells us this is black hole kind of grief dude and it doesn't give us license to go drink too much or to just stop working or to stop doing the next right thing. And I know you're not, but I'm just putting those things. It doesn't give approval for us to blow our lives up. Yes. Fair? Yeah. I mean, I am in counseling.

I am going to support groups. I am doing everything I can to keep going. But every day I drive home and I go back to my, the graveyard of my 20 year marriage. That's right. Move out this weekend. Time. Yeah.

Because like you say, you're doing the right things and my guess is there's moments now when you see the sun's come out and you have a meal and you might even

laugh a little bit you'll feel weird about it or bad about it but you'll even laugh a little bit and your daughter might text you something funny

and then the moment you start driving back your body gears up because it knows where it's going it is going back to hell right stop taking it there and have an honest conversation with your daughter

yes you're going to have to start talking to her like an adult now she's 18 do you like this dude that she's going to chase down or do you think he's a scumbag? He's okay. He's not terrible. That's what every dad wants to say about his daughter's future husband.

He doesn't suck. He's not terrible. Does he live near you, or does he live several states over at this other place so he's from our same hometown

but now he's he's already at this college okay so you know if she was going to

another school equally as expensive without a boyfriend I'd be probably a little more on board but I just wonder, you know, why go into so much debt for college and for to be with boyfriend? I mean,

if I had a good marriage, we would both stand up and say, no, this is crazy. And you know what? She could walk out the door and get student loans on her own and go wherever she wanted. And you could say that I'm not paying your car insurance and you're not taking a car with my name on the title. And she'll say, cool, I'm taking the bus. And it's a powerless, terrifying feeling when parents begin to realize that their kids turn 18 and the world opens up to them. I would rather her assert that independence than split our marriage and split our... Don't you put that crap on her, dude. She didn't split your marriage. No.

You're right. You're right. Don't say those words, man. No. No, I'm not. Okay. But a collective no, I'm not. Okay. But a collective no. You're right.

But the collective no would have started back when she was 12, right? The collective no would have been, we as a family are telling you that social media is stupid. We're not going to let you do that. We as a family believe in treating each other with respect. These things would have been part of the ethos of your home for a long time. The plan for college has always been something, I mean, something in state. This is just. You got to let it go, Greg.

Greg, you got to let it go. It hasn't come out of nowhere. Your wife is desperate for your daughter's approval. Yes. And she's going to sell everything she owns to get it. Stop fighting it. Even me. Yes, even you.

And what that tells me is your wife's not okay. She's not well. Yeah. But you're sitting there trying to make sense of a math problem and somebody is irrationally saying no, 9 times 9 is 6 and you keep sitting in your room

writing it over and over 9 times 9 is 81 it's 81, we've been saying it's 81 it doesn't matter anymore that's exactly right Let it go That's exactly what I'm doing Stop

Stop Give yourself A picture of A man who respects himself Give yourself a picture And that means I'm not just going to give everything to my wife So it's easy of a man who respects himself. Give yourself a picture. And that means I'm not just going to give everything to my wife so it's easy. No.

You are free to leave me, but you can't take my life with you. All of it. You've taken my heart. You've taken our home, our nest egg. You can't have it all. No. Not doing that. Da can't have it all. No Not doing that

Daughter, you're 18. I love you more than life itself And here's the reality of the situation I don't think it's wise And I know for an 18 year old this isn't a math problem This is a young girl who's so exhausted carrying the weight of the adults in her life That she's going to run into the arms of somebody who's saying, I won't make you carry me. He will, by the way,

but at least that's what she thinks. Even tonight, a simple exercise, brother, is just get out a yellow pad, a piece of paper, or a Word document, and just type up the things in this situation you can control. Can you control whether your wife wants your marriage? No.

Can you forcibly control your adult daughter where she goes to college? Kind of, but no. Maybe you can, and you could go to the ends of the earth, and you sacrifice the next 10 years of your relationship. I mean, what can you control here? I'm going to get my own place. I'm going to stop putting my body into hell every day. I'm going to at least start exercising a little bit.

I'm going to keep going to my meeting. I'm going to have a weekly meeting with my daughter. Maybe I'm even going to go visit this guy at the university and take him to lunch and talk to him about how important she is to me and how much you love her. But I'm going to begin standing back up. I'm going to give my daughter a picture of what dignity and respect looks like. I'm going to give myself a picture of dignity and respect.

Open your hands up, man. I'm so sorry this happened to you. It's every man's worst nightmare. It's everybody's worst nightmare. The question is, what are we going to do now? Call anytime, my brother. i'll walk with you anytime this one's going to take a season it's gonna be hard i'm proud of you we'll be right back hey what's up deloney here i am just super excited to announce I'm hitting the road with my buddy Dave Ramsey this spring on a brand new

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Problem? What's up, Kelly? All right. So this is from Martha in Madison, Wisconsin. Martha. I left my husband on the side of the road. Am I the problem? Nope. Nope. We were driving home from one of my husband's appointments and conversation started escalating into arguing. He called me a stupid biatch and I pulled the car over and told him to get out. The way you just said that, the way you moved your head was amazing. And I told him to get out. He walked home or is currently walking home as I am typing this. So she typed it before he ever got home. Incredible. Okay. I know. It was five miles from our house. It's 35 degrees outside

and he's only wearing a sweater. I also had an online class. He also had an online class that he's likely to be running late for. Him yelling and cussing at me is a reoccurring issue, and he knows that I'm hanging on to this marriage by a thread. I'm not sure if I went too far with my response or if it was appropriate. Am I the problem? Oh, man. Like high school, college, John wants to answer this one way,

and like grown-up John maybe wants to answer it different. What do you think? As a wife driving home. I mean, if he called me that, I'd be pretty angry, especially if he's yelling and cussing. That can be frightening. Terrifying. Yeah. Unsafe.

I would be curious to know, was there a, I need you to stop doing that right now, or I'm going to tell you to get out of the car. And he, you know, continued, and then she's like, all right then. You're out. Because there's a strange wrinkle here too as I'm thinking this out loud. He had to get out of the car. Right. He actually, I mean, got out.

I don't know that she, you know. It's not like she could force him out. Right. Right. And so he got out. If she felt like she was in danger, if it was that terrifying and you're trying to drive, then yeah, I think maybe she was in the right. it was just i'm just done with this get out of my car maybe when it's 35 degrees outside not the best yeah or if he dies like exposure yeah

so yeah if you call any woman that, ever, yes, my gut instinct is you get out on the side of the road. I don't care if you're 100 miles from your house. You don't talk to women that way. Period. Period. Period. And also, I mean, you can't kill your husband, right? I mean, you can't put somebody on the road at 35 degrees

and they get a run over. And also you can't... Ooh, this one's tough. Taylor, I'm bringing you in on this one. What do you think? I just don't mess with it. But I would kick someone out. Yeah.

I mean, she said the marriage was hanging on by a thread, so clearly things aren't good Right I think if they're at this point They need to sit down and have it come to Jesus Yeah I love the fact that it was still going on And she sat down and wrote into the show

That makes my heart feel good She got home as soon as she dropped him off She was like I gotta tell Jalodi about this one Let me say it this way I'll say it this way This is not not gonna be popular a unwise immature response to an unwise immature person is never the right thing right if you have to hit somebody to keep yourself safe if you have to

forcefully remove somebody from your presence because you're not safe that's one thing but when i choose to be like oh yeah then really i'm being them i'm just reenacting what they just did and just in a different way and so absent if there's abuse of physical abuse psychological you're not safe then yes um getting somebody away from you ASAP, you're not the problem. You're doing it right. Just getting mad that how dare you talk to me like that. I wouldn't have. I don't think it's wise to put somebody on the side of the road.

It's kind of a boring into an awesome question, man. The YouTubes are not going to like that answer. Not like that answer. Ben, what do you think? I think there's going to be fallout when he gets home. If he gets home, you know what I mean?

Yeah. Unless he's dead. Yeah. True. Frozen. I guess our problem is solved, but yeah, it feels like a very extreme reaction unless she is physically unsafe.

Yeah. In which case, yeah. Make the jerk walk. Yeah, I'll kick you out. Yeah, exactly. Okay. All right. Well, there you go, America.

Hey, write in. Put in the comments below here whether you think she's the problem or he's the problem. This is going to be incredible. They're both the problem. He is more of the problem. But I don't know, man. I don't like these cliffhanger ones. Not everything is black and white and easy.

Sorry. That is true. Michael Jackson once saying doesn't matter if it's black or white. You can't quote Michael Jackson more, can you? That kind of over. Sarah, got to get that editing pen out. Hey, everybody. Love you guys.

Stay in school. Don't do drugs. And don't say mean things. Don't kick people out on the side of the road. Love you guys.