The Dr. John Delony Show - I Hit My Boyfriend and I’m So Ashamed

Episode Date: June 28, 2024

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Alright, let's go out to Riverside, California. I was just there the other day. And talk to Aurelia. What is up Aurelia? Hello Dr. John. I'm a little nervous. Oh, I'm really nervous. It's all good. We'll be nervous together. It's good. Yeah, I never thought

I would be talking to you. I didn't think I would talk to you. Did I say your name correctly? Yeah, you did, actually. A lot better than a lot of Spanish speakers. So I'm okay. Gracias, amiga. All right, go ahead.

Well, I'm going to start with my question, because I think it will make me feel a little easy. I want to know, how can I identify the root of my anger? And how can I resolve a conflict that I had with my ex-boyfriend? Let me tell you a little bit more. So about a month ago, we had gone out

with some friends, went to a concert, and it was pretty, like, let's say, relaxed the majority of the time. We decided to go to a nightclub. So we went in there, and I asked him for his phone. So I was like, can you let me see your phone because I want to take a picture. Mind you, by this, like, we both have been drinking, like, maybe a little more than what we should have. So he gave me his phone, and before I can take a picture or anything, I noticed a text, or let's say, like, one of the apps, I think it was WhatsApp,

a name of a girl. So I asked him, who's this person? Who is it? He wouldn't answer. He just kind of stayed quiet and looked at me. So I asked him again, like I want to say two or three times. He would not respond. So I just go ahead and give his phone back. I went towards my friends and I told them, I think he's cheating on me. That's it. Then we went a little bit more through the night, and I was just about to leave the nightclub. Like, it was just, you know what, let's go.

I don't want to be here anymore. So my friend and actually one of my sisters was with me. I told them, let's go. So when I was going down the stairs, and this is so strange, like, I literally looked at him and I went for him. Like, I went at him and I told him again, I asked him again who he was. He wouldn't answer again. And I literally started hitting him. Like, hitting him, like, trying to punch him, like, my fist.

Like, it wasn't, I'm going to slap you. Like, I went towards him. Like, I charged at him. Let me, let's put it like that. Yeah. So, obviously, my sister and my friend, they went after me and they were like, no, like, stop these. This cannot come on. Come on.

Don't do this. So we ended up getting out of the club. He went after me and I don't know where he ended up like until next morning. But you said he went after you. Did he hit you back? No, no, no,

not at all. He actually didn't try to defend himself. He just, he probably like just trying to get out of, trying to get out of, um, of there, you know?

Um, so when, when I, when I saw that he wasn't there anymore, so he texted me, you know what? This is it. We're not going to be together anymore. You're not going to't there anymore. So he texted me, you know what? This is it. We're not going to be together

anymore. You're not going to do this anymore. Trying to say that I was being jealous, that I was being weird, that I was being like this, that I was being like that. So I was like, what is going on? You know, why is this happening? And then I was like, okay, I get it. Like, I understand what you mean.

Like, and I decided just texting back, okay, you're not going to, like, cheat on me again. So the next morning, I went towards his house, or I went to his house, and I talked to him, but he's just, you know what? No, I don't want nothing to do with you. This is it. And we had been together for four years. Do you all have any kids together? No, no, no.

I have three kids on my own. He has one, but he's like, it's already 20. Mine are 17, nine and eight. So yeah, we don't. Do y'all live together? No, we don't. Okay. So there's a couple of different questions here.

One is, what does life look like for you after you put your hands on somebody? What does life look like for you after you physically assault somebody that you love? The second thing is, what does life look like for you after you are gaslit in a pretty remarkable way. Because if he's cheating on you, he's already out of this relationship as you knew it. The third thing is you've probably known this for a long time. Okay.

There's a gap there and it begins to backfill. Some people backfill that gap, that distance between them and their partner when they know there's something there. Some people backfill that gap by creating their own little universe. Some people backfill that gap with sadness, like with hanging on.

And some people backfill that gap with rage and anger. There's so many different factors that play into that, how people grew up, genetics, all those kind of things. But it sounds like there was almost a vacuum that got filled up and up and up. Does that excuse your behavior one bit? Not even one iota. You can't put your hands on other people.

You can't assault people. That's abuse, right? You know that. Yeah. But your relationship as you knew it was already not what you're pretending it actually was fair yeah well has he cheated on you before uh no it's and i think that's where the the my my conflict me wanted to resolve the conflict comes because I actually never, never, never like caught him cheating or anything.

So when I asked him who he was, he wouldn't answer or whatever. But then next morning he showed me, he's like, okay, I'm going to show you this, but it's just only for me. He told me that. And I was like, okay. So he pulled out his phone and he showed me the message. Like, it's somebody from school. And you can see the messages were like, hi, how you doing? I wanted to see if you can do me a favor.

And his answer was like, oh, hi, how you been doing? And that was it. Like, there was nothing else after that. So could it be that you were drunk and you overreacted in a pretty significant way? Yes. And it just bugs me because I never wanted to be somebody to do that because I was in an abusive relationship for over 13 years with my kids' dad. And I never wanted to be an aggressor to anybody sure and this is like literally killing me inside because i from there like i

my anxiety went up like everything has just of course oh going all over the place like obviously i didn't i didn't try to reach out anymore i just um this whole month i've been just letting him be i haven't nothing just because i don't wanna i don't wanna like gaslight or, like, do something else that you just feel like, that, like, just stop. Just, you know, even make me feel even worse than what I already feel. Sure. Well, I think your feelings right now are right. I think they're right.

You became somebody that you swore you would never become. You've been on the other end of the pain you just caused somebody. And so I think the feelings of guilt and of shame and of sadness are right. I think avoiding those isn't the right path forward. I think the right path forward is right through the middle of them. And the question you have to answer, which goes back to the very first thing you asked me is, how do you deal with that anger that's inside? Where's that coming from? Is it coming from a fear of loneliness? Is it coming from exhaustion? Is it coming from just some rage on some other issues that you've got to deal with? Maybe you haven't fully grieved your first marriage and why that guy did that to

you. Whatever it happens to be, you have to decide I'm going to get to the bottom of this and you can't do it to try to win this guy back to you. You have to do it because you believe you're worth it. And you've, have you listened to my show before? Yeah. Okay.

So you know that I'll tell you the truth. You may have burned this relationship to the ground with one night of drunken rage. And if that's the case, you have to be not at peace with that, but you have to own that reality. And then what you have to do is commit yourself to dealing with that anger and rage. And it might be for you. I don't go to nightclubs. It might be for you. I don't drink more than one drink at a time because I become somebody I don't go to nightclubs. It might be for you, I don't drink more than one drink at a time because I become somebody I don't want to become. Or whatever the actions have to be in place upstream so you get a hold of this. Okay. But if you go trying to grovel and duct tape over this relationship, you're just going to duct tape over the pain

and the anger and the rage. I just find it really hard to believe that after four years, everything's going great. One night, somebody texts him on an app that is notorious for its ability to be secret. And he won't just go in a club. What? Because the music's playing really loud. And he goes, dude, it's somebody from school asking for an assignment. Why he won't just go in a club what because the music's playing really loud and he goes dude It's somebody from school asking for an assignment Why he wouldn't do that? I don't know And I do believe I don't use whatsapp, but I think you can selectively delete. So who knows what was originally there? Yeah, but it is strange that he wouldn't show you

And also it's it's completely unacceptable that you go put your hands on him, be physically violent with him. Yeah, and that's where I cannot, you know, I don't know how to put it. Like, I cannot just come at peace with that. Like, not at peace. Like, probably just have the total acceptation that I just messed that up. Yeah, four years together and we had gone like up and down and everything and I want to say most of the stuff

is because it has been because me being jealous. And it's a weird, you know, thing because I would have never considered myself jealous. Like, never.

I don't want to say until we got to this relationship. But from the beginning, I thought, okay, he's a really good guy. He did really, really well with my kids. It's like my kids have asked me for him. Like, they miss him you know um but so it's it's kind of like a strange for me to where like i felt like i had some type of stability and protection and then um i will have these insecurities of well he he might just get with someone someone that doesn't have three kids. Did you ever talk to him about that? I did.

Did you ever ask him, tell him, I feel exposed and insecure. After four years, can we get married? Did you ever ask him those questions? I did one time, and he told me, he's like, well, if, if you don't change these ways, like, of you always trying to,

like, figure out if I'm with another girl this and that, after I told you no and after I tried, he's like, how can we get married

and, and just end up bad? He told me, he's like, what I don't want is, uh,

end up in a divorce, like, at all. Like, so, I was like, what I don't want is, uh, end up in a divorce, like at all. Like, so I was like, okay. Well, what did you, what did you do after that?

Because that's it. That's an, in, well, there's two, two sides to this. One is again, he's gaslighting you so bad,

right? And he's seeing other people, and your body knows it, and he's making you feel crazy. That happens often. The other side of it is he's a pretty evolved man. He's able to say what he wants out loud and what he needs out loud. And for him to say, I need you, we can't get married unless you trust me. And everything I'm doing on a daily basis

shows you that I'm trustworthy. Here's my phone. Here's these messages. Now, maybe that one night when y'all both been drinking in the middle of a nightclub, he didn't, but here's, I don't know what else you want to see, but if it's like this every day, I can't enter into a marriage with somebody who doesn't trust me. And you said, okay. And you beat yourself up a little bit. But did you go talk to a counselor? I didn't until like all of this happened.

Okay. Like it was, yeah. So I started therapy, I want to say literally three days after it, like all this started. And you're slowly starting to peel back some layers. Did your previous husband cheat on you? Yes. Did your dad cheat on your mom? Yes, he did. Okay.

Your jealousy comes from a right place. Every GPS pin your body has in romantic relationship has somebody committing infidelity. So your body's response to love, to be weary of it, is right. The question you have to ask yourself is, are you going to trust again? And if you're not going to trust again, then don't drag another person into a relationship. If you are going to trust again, you have to be willing to get hurt again. Because that's what vulnerability and connection is.

See what I'm saying? Like, if you just came and said, hey, my dad cheated on my mom all the time. My previous husband of 13 years beat me up and cheated on me all the time. Now I've got this new guy and he's wonderful. I love him. My kids love him.

And I feel jealous all the time. I would tell you, you're exactly right. You should. And here's what we're going to do. But you've been walking around thinking that you're broken. You're not broken. Your body knows what happens when people love each other. Somebody gets cheated on.

And then you meet a guy who says, dude, I would never do that to you. And it just, it has been, every time he would tell me like i would think like really like because you don't think you're worth that because your last husband showed you that you weren't worth that your dad showed your mom she wasn't worth that but until you believe you're worth being loved and that you're worth being in a long-term relationship where people don't cheat on each other until you believe you're worth that you're worth being in a long-term relationship where people don't cheat on each other, until you believe you're worth that, you're always going to hold somebody else responsible for how you quote-unquote feel.

And that's not his job. His job is to do right by you and to honor you and to honor your kids if he's entering into this relationship with you. See what I'm saying? And it sounds like he was doing that. And if you have some very specific needs, so for instance,

if you sat him down after year one and said, hey, this happened to my mom, this happened to me, I have a tendency to get over, like I get pretty anxious around trust. At some point, I'm going to ask you, like, I just need to see your phone. Know that that's more about me than it is about you. And if he's in, if he's in, he'll go, well, you can see my phone anytime. I don't care. But if you don't have that question, you don't have that conversation and let him know. For me, especially early on in my marriage, I have some real big abandonment issues. And so I told my wife, hey, it's just a big deal. Because she would see a text come from me and she would think in her mind, when I have some time to fully invest in this text, I'm going to respond. It would make me really get skittish.

And I sat down and said, hey, it's important to me if you just respond and say, not a good time. I love you. And she started doing that. And it was awesome. But I had to speak it out. Otherwise, I walked around all day blaming her for my issue. See what I'm saying? Yeah.

Yes. So I'm glad. And I think that's. Go ahead. Go ahead. I think that's one of the biggest things for me because my communication skills aren't that good. I don't believe that. I don't want you to say that they're not that good.

I want you to say I choose not to be open and vulnerable. Yeah. Okay. It's one of those things when you say, nobody's going to do it to me again. It's like a shield, you know, and it just, it makes things worse. shield, you know, and it just, it makes things worse. It keeps you safe, but that safety destroys any other relationships you're going to have.

Right? Yeah. And so here's, here's a couple of paths forward for you. Number one, you're doing the right thing. I'm glad you're talking to somebody because you've got some deep scars and some deep hurt. Okay. Yeah. And if at some point you need to go spend

some time in an anger management course then, or an anger management with a group, then go do that. Do whatever you have to do to have peace in your home. And that starts with peace in your heart. Okay. Okay. And I'm going to tell you something that's mean for me to say, but I'm telling it to you because I love you, okay? Okay. This is bigger than you and this boyfriend of four years. Your children are absorbing an angry, angry mom. And they are going to try to solve that for themselves too.

And that's not their job. Okay? Yeah. Yes. Their job is not to make sure mom doesn't get mad Okay Their job is to be little knuckle-headed kids Actually your kids are older Some of them are younger, you're 8, 9 year old

They're just knuckle-headed kids They're supposed to be knuckle-headed kids Mom is supposed to be the one who's stable Okay So that means it's your job to go get to the root of that rage And I guarantee it goes back to your childhood. I guarantee it goes back to your abusive relationship and your marriage and all that. And you can unwind that.

And in the day-to-day life, you can practice, I'm feeling angry again. Here's the two or three things I need to go do. And you and your counselor can work those things out in particular. It's going to be something you practice. This is a new way of being. Here's the second thing. You can ask your ex-boyfriend if he'll go to lunch with you or to breakfast with you.

Just go out. And the whole conversation has to begin with, I'm sorry. Okay. Okay. Okay, okay, and if you haven't ever laid it out My dad beat up and cheated on my mom my previous husband beat up and cheated on me And so i've been living with this fear that it's going to happen again and again and again because it's all I know And then I met you and you're pretty wonderful But I held you responsible for something inside of me and I'm sorry.

I've been in counseling for a month. Will you give me another shot? And he may say no. Yeah. Also, you need to be clear. I will never, ever put my hands on you or anybody else ever again, period. Yeah. Okay.

Yes. Yeah, because I have never hit my kids it's just something i i can't you know i know i know it was rage but you're lucky you didn't go to jail right yeah yeah and if the roles were reversed yeah i would tell you don't be with the guy that does that and if he were to call me I would tell him don't be with the woman who hits you period. Yeah. Yes, I would tell him that same thing, right? So the choice moving forward for you is I got to do an overhaul the overhaul starts with you and it has to be for you And ultimately you got to get to that ticker tape that says it's going under underneath the story of your life Not worth being loved not worth being loved worth getting cheated on worth getting hit because that's a lie. It's not true But until your body believes that until you believe that these things are going to keep replaying themselves in new relationships all the time

They're going to replay themselves in your kids So the work is just, I'm stopping this now forever. And he may be done. Like I said, he may be done, but maybe not. The work's going to be with you. Thank you for calling. I'm really grateful that you opened up and told the truth and put it all out there. That's hard. It's hard. I wish you the absolute best moving forward. You call me anytime, okay? I'll be right back. Hey, it's Jelani from my friends at Helix, makers of the best mattresses in the universe.

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out their, if you're working through fitness stuff, if you're working through nutrition stuff, check them out. They are top, top notch. All right, let's roll out to the 512 in Austin, Texas and talk to SCOT. What's up, Scott? How we doing? Hey, I'm doing pretty good. How about you? All right, man. What's going on? Yeah, so my question was, so how do I come to terms with my girlfriend's financial state and move forward in our relationship? I don't know, man. You tell me what's going on.

Yeah, so to give some background, she is $156,000 in private student loan debt. And, um, yeah. Um, so she actually dropped out of her master's program, uh, with this amount of debt. And I knew she dropped out when we first started talking, which I didn't think anything of. Um, but I just found out about the found out about the debt about a month or two ago. And it's really been weighing on my mind, I guess. What's weighing on your mind? Is it who she is as a person?

Is it, like, for instance, is it the dollar amount? Like, oh, my gosh, if I marry this person, this is going to become my debt, too. And how are we going to pay this off? Or is it, I'm questioning the character, your judgment of her character being that she took on this much debt and she just walked away because it got hard or she didn't like it anymore. And she's going to be somebody that doesn't meet her responsibilities long term. Yeah, so I think it's more the second. I'm not too worried about the dollar amount uh just the way she handles it i guess and um tell me more about that which i know yeah so she is a hard

working motivated individual and um she doesn't live beyond her means splurge on expensive things and i mean hold on mean she for sure does she just bought something she couldn't afford and she lives way beyond her means to the tune of $156,000 she might not do it in purses or in shoes or in guns or in whatever

but she lives way way beyond her means for sure I guess you know it's one of those things she realized after the fact, um, which is hard for me to put in perspective because I was somebody that, you know, from a young age, um, you know, worked really hard and did everything I could to minimize the amount of that I was in. And, um, so it's kind of hard for me to see from that perspective where I know it happens all the time. Like people go through, you know, all of college and they don't really see the dollar

amount, you know, the interest rate and they don't see that racked up until the end. Um, that was me, dude. Yeah, that was me. And I racked up six figures in student loans and I'll never borrow money on anything other than a house ever again for the rest of my life. Yeah. That was me. And I racked up six figures in student loans. And I'll never borrow money on anything other than a house ever again for the rest of my life as long as I live forever and ever. Amen. So change can happen. But I'll also tell you, it was several years of pretty intense, awful suck getting it paid off. Yeah.

It's both and and yeah that's another thing too is um you know i i kind of did the math and you know if she wanted to pay this off in like five years let's say she would have to you know triple the payment she's making now you know possibly find a second job and maybe even like move home or you know if we live together um and you, I don't know if she's willing to go to that extreme. Are you going to marry her? Yeah, I, so she is an amazing person. And, you know, I do see myself marrying her, which is why I guess I'm so worried and concerned and overthinking all this stuff. Yeah, you're way overthinking it. Hold on, hold on.

Let me ask you this. Let me ask you this. Let me ask you this. Okay, let's take the money and put it aside. Why do you want to marry her? Yeah, so she has, you know, a lot of different qualities. You know, she's selfless, caring. You keep talking about her. You keep talking about her.

Why do you want to marry her? Why do I want to marry her? Why do I want to marry her? I see, you know, we have fun together. Whenever we hang out, we have, you know, really good conversations. I have fun with Ben. Me and Ben go to metal shows together. Not marrying that dude. Why do you want to marry her?

That's a hard question. I mean, I do, you know, aside from that, we do have the eye to eye on a lot of different things. Um, you know, you know, um, like when it comes to kids, religion, politics, like we do see eye to eye on a lot of that stuff. It's mostly just the financial stuff that, you know, I'm having concerns with. Okay. Have you sat down and talked to her about these concerns? So we've talked about it on two different occasions and, um, you know, and that's why it kind of worries me too, because I don't really think she has a plan and she didn't even know the interest rate until our first conversation. And at first she was like a little dismissive and defensive about it,

which I understand like she's in this hole and, you know, she doesn't feel like she's an asset and she feels horrible about it. And she hasn't even talked to anybody else besides her parents about it. So, you know, I'm just, you know, trying to be motivating and supportive and, you know, but, uh, she did, this was actually a couple of days ago, we kind of talked about it again and, you know, I asked her if she might be open to talking to financial advisor, maybe even if, you know,

she just has the free consultation just to see if that's worth anything. And then, you know know or us to sit down and kind of like go over a budget possibly um or i also wanted to you know use one of those calculators to show her like a amortization plan and uh you know so she does have perspective on it and see that if she does want to eventually get out of this, she has to put like more down with each of her payments or else she's going to be in this for a long time. Here's the, this is a common,

common challenge. And I don't want to over gender this, but it just seems to play this its way out this way. Most of the time you're trying to solve a very shameful emotional issue with a spreadsheet. Yeah. And that's not the path to her heart or most women's heart for that matter. Most want to know,

despite my flaws, do you still love me? Most men want to know that too. They just ask that question differently and they experience that question differently. But do you love me? Yes, I made a big mistake. I made a big mess. I don't know my path out of this. Will you sit with me? Because I'm not dumb. I know there's

going to come a moment when I need to figure it out. I'm still grieving the fact that I thought I was going to get a master's degree. I didn't. I thought I was going to be this. I didn't. I thought I was going to get this job, and for right now, I'm not, and now I've got this massive hole. Will you sit with me here? Just look at the car wreck for a second instead of starting to stop. I thought I was going to get this job, and for right now I'm not, and now I've got this massive hole. Will you sit with me here? Just look at the car wreck for a second instead of starting to stop. I mean, there's still smoke coming from the engine. I don't need driving lessons on the side of the road.

You get what I'm saying? Yeah, for sure, yeah. The bigger question I think you have to ask is this. I am probably speaking out over my skis a little bit, but think you really like this person and i think you're nervous and i think you are searching for reasons to keep at arm's length with her i also think you have to be really careful not to put yourself in a position of i'm better and or smarter than you. Because if you ever feel that, this relationship is doomed from the start. Yeah. And I don't believe that at all.

You know, I have no 100% confidence in her and I know she is capable of getting out of this. But if you marry her tomorrow, it becomes y'all's challenge. Exactly. And we together are going to work on it like this. But if you tell her, hey, if you triple up payments and take a second job and move in with your parents for five years, and then after you fix this flaw, then you're worthy to marry me,

I mean, you might as well just start dating somebody else because that's not going to work. Okay, yeah. But if you said, hey, I love you more to the moon and back, and you know that I'm a spreadsheet-y, like, let's just solve this nerdy thing right now in this kind of way, and I know that you are more experiential and you go with your gut,

and that's going to serve our marriage well down the road, but it made a big mess right here. So what I'm saying is, in my house, the roles are reversed on many things, but not everything in a weird way. And I'm so grateful that it has worked out that way. And my wife is too. Because I will say something like, at the end of this month, we're all going to, I don't care where we go, we're going on a vacation. We're getting out of here. And she goes, okay, here's where our budget is here's how much money we have in the checking account here's what school looks like here's how exhausted

these kids are going to be and here's what life is going to be like the week after if we just do this thing the other side and there's a reality and thank god i have that otherwise my kids would be zombies all the time they'd be sugared up they would all be just be like all the time because i'm always like dude it's midnight let's go out and the other side of it is sometimes i'm like let's just go do this and she's like all right whatever and it is amazing and it's fun so there's a balance yeah right and so it's knowing both of us bring an important role to the table. And then occasionally she's like, I don't like living out in the woods anymore. We have to move right now.

And I'm like, we can't. Here's what this spreadsheet will look like. And here's what this amortization plan would look like. And we work through that together. And so it just depends on what we're talking through. But my guess is you and her are that way. She probably brings some spontaneity and some joy and some laughter and some intimacy to your life that you don't have otherwise. Is that fair?

Yeah. Yeah, that's fair to say. So those are equally as good. They just have to be in balance. And if you feel like, man, we can be in balance together, that's amazing. But if you feel like, man, until you get this mess cleaned up all by yourself, we can't move forward, I think you need to put that on the table and let her know because she's probably going to walk. Yeah. I just hold her.

So I wouldn't give her an ultimatum like that. But when we first talked about it, I did say I'm concerned and I'd like to see that you have a plan to figure this out. Um, you know, not for my sake, but for her sake too, because, you know, even if we weren't dating, I, you know, I care about her and love her so much, you know, I want to see her out of this situation anyway. Um, but yeah. So I think it's being very careful not to become her dad. Right. Yeah. And.

Yeah. That's the thing. I don't want to be discouraging or like. So here's the, here's, here's how I would have this conversation. And here's the deal. I know you love her.

Okay. I'm not beating you up. I know you love her. I think you are equally scared at how much you do love her. Is she your first big long-termterm like I'm starting to make plans person uh probably like my second I guess probably how'd your first one end up oh the first one end up we didn't really see eye to eye on quite a few things. And that's the thing. We didn't talk about this until later in our relationship.

So now I'm trying to not make that mistake and, you know, figure all this stuff out kind of earlier in our relationship. So we can see if we're compatible and, you know, all this other stuff, figure out the issues. So here's how I want you to go forward. So I applaud you. You are a male Texan who is learning. That's a rare thing. So good for you. That's a rare thing.

All right. So here's the next evolution I want you to take. I want you to take her out somewhere nice, and I want you to take. I want you to take her out somewhere nice. And I want you to say the words, I. I love you more than life itself. Okay. And I have, I'm kind of scared at how much I love you. And I'm also scared of not being totally aligned with dreaming about what our home would look like, what raising kids would look like, what how we manage debt looks like.

I'm scared about that. I like to have a plan for everything. I know you're more freewheeling. You're a free spirit. I'm more of a nerd. nerd i i and you see what i'm saying because what i'm doing here is you're admitting what you need and what you want instead of putting it on her so instead of sitting down with her and saying you need a plan by the way she does a hundred percent need a plan i'm with you on that but in a relationship when you go a lot like lobbing grenades at somebody who's just done something really shameful

she knows um she's she just walls up and defends herself right like you said she gets defensive right but when you sit down and say if we're going to be in this together here's what i need then it's more of an invitation and so so telling her, I know you're real smart and I know that I love you. You know that. And I want you to know if you ever have questions about a path, I'm a nerd and I would be happy to help. Be super happy to help.

Here is how it worked in my house. I'm a weightlifter nerd. I lift all the time. Makes me feel good. Okay um For years I tried to talk my wife into all these weightlifting programs. She works out all the time She just does it differently And it got to where I was being I was being a jerk. I was being overbearing

Well, man, if you just tried this it that wasn't helpful What she needed to see me do is just be quiet and keep showing up and encourage whatever she was doing. Because it wasn't like she was being unhealthy. She was being amazing. She just was doing different things than I was doing. Or I would listen to the latest Peter Atiyah, Lane Norton conversation. I'd be like, oh, I need to change up everything. And she was like, hey, I'm just trying to fit this in, right, with my other 45 things i got going on today and it wasn't until slowly but

surely she would say hey tell me about this one exercise tell me about this one other exercise and i wouldn't try to be like all right here's the plan i would tell her about that one exercise because she's real smart and that's the question she asked me and then now see what i'm saying now fill in the blank we have very similar programs, and we're in sync on a lot of stuff. So all I have to say is I had to honor her path and also honor the fact that this is important to me, and it's important to her, but it's important to her in a different way.

Right. And so when we have conversations, I have to sit down and say, here's what I'm wrestling with. And that's you being vulnerable. You not attacking it with a, with a 10 key and a spreadsheet. Yeah. That makes a lot of sense.

Think of it this way with not at, or with not over for her to be safe. She'll have to know this dude is always going to be with me. Right. Right. Side by side. I dug us $150,000 hole. We're going to get married and then we're going to figure this out.

And then he's going to start working 90 hours a week. And we are going to sit there with his work addiction. And we are going to start working on having fun. And that's going to be how she lifts you up. See what I'm saying? Yeah. And that makes for a be how she lifts you up. See what I'm saying? Yeah. And that makes for a pretty amazing marriage, long-term. Oh, yeah, for sure.

That's awesome. So I guess moving forward, should I just take a step back and leave it in her hands and just see where it goes. No, I think you, I think, I think you sit down and talk to her. Like I said, like I, I haven't done this right. And I'm sorry. I came at you with a bunch of spreadsheets and you never asked me to even do that. And I'm sorry about that.

I'm just trying to love you in my own nerdy way. I think the best way I can love you right now is to trust you and to know, I want you to know if you ever need help or just say hey I've got I need a plan I'm right here with you yeah that makes sense I think I'm too focused on

you know solving it rather than being supportive there you go that sentence you just used right there is transformational because what most men don't understand is transformation happens when their partner feels supported not lectured and the other way around is often men need really clear direction on solving a problem. I need you to pick up that laundry basket like, what?

It's a clarity thing. We talk past each other. Some of that's socialization. Some of that is different ways we see the world. It's not every couple's not like that. Like I say in my house, it's reversed a lot, but here we are.

What you just said is really powerful i'm gonna be with you i'm always gonna be with you and i need you to know this particular thing makes me unable to breathe and that's you being vulnerable because she might say wow what a wimp i'm out right and if she does then she wasn't for you yeah and if she says oh me too i can't breathe either i just feel dumb when I'm around you and I don't like getting lectured because I'm lecturing myself 24 7 365 and I just get frozen

that's probably what she's going to say yeah and knowing you're right by her side and knowing you're not judging her but you're with her um then we can go solve this problem. And by the way, there needs to be a plan. There needs to be a plan and there needs to be some radical life transformation. Like you mentioned, you got to work three jobs. You got

to triple up this payment. We got to get this stuff out of our life. Let's put a 24 month deadline on this sucker and see what happens. What would have to be true for both of us to get this thing done? Are you in? I'm in. Let's go bananas. That can only be done on a bedrock of, I'm not going anywhere. I love you no matter what. And this is the same for debt.

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All right, let's go out to Evansville, Indiana and talk to Jaqueline. Hey, Jacqueline, what's up? Hey, I'm good. How are you, Dr. John? I'm so good. What's going on? So I guess my question today is how do I support my husband when my in-laws are mad at him for something that I did?

Oh, no. What'd you do? That's like, what'd you do, Richard? Was that for Tommy boy? Okay. What happened? Well, so it's kind of the short version is my sister-in-law, which is my husband's stepsister, has struggled a lot with substance abuse and just living a lifestyle that's not the best for herself and for her three young children. Last year, she actually was arrested for having narcotics in the car with her that she was driving. And then sort of since that time, she's been on probation.

And my father-in-law and mother-in-law have really just taken over in handling her kids and watching them and caring for them. Well, recently, they went on a two-week cruise. And, of course, they couldn't take the children with them. So their solution was, we are going to leave the kids with their mom. And they have grandparents there that they would also be staying occasionally. But they were going to leave the kids with their mom. And hopefully that would make her just step up and, and be a parent. Jeez.

Cause that's worked in the past, right? Yeah. Right. No. Um, no, it hasn't.

And, um, so while they were gone, um, she had a major issue where the daycare that she takes her two youngest kids to would not release the kids to her because the vehicle she was driving, they deemed to be really unsafe. And she didn't even have car seats. So they said she needed to find a different mode of transportation, or they would be calling the police on her. It was a whole ordeal.

She ended up getting that vehicle towed. Why'd she get the vehicle towed? I'm not entirely sure what happened, but that vehicle ended up getting towed from the parking lot of the daycare. So I just want to pause here. Let's applaud the daycare. Right. What an amazing group of leaders at that place. Right.

Good for them. Good for them. Right. And my father-in-law contacted my husband's brother, just telling him like, hey, I'll you some money get the get the car out of the tow yard and um I and I as soon as I heard this from my my uh brother-in-law I was just like you know pump the brakes hold on as soon as you get that car out she's going to be driving those children around in this unsafe vehicle it was it was just sort of the last straw. And, and we had just heard multiple things, um, up until this point that I just was no

longer comfortable, um, with not doing anything about, and my husband wasn't comfortable either. Um, and neither was, um, his sister, um, my, uh, my other sister-in-law, um, my sister-in-law and me, we, we And me. We both filed a report on her for Child Protective Services. Okay. Good for you. And my husband was there the entire time I was doing it. He 100% supported me in doing so. Okay. And I chose not to remain anonymous on the report either. I didn't, I didn't feel any shame in doing it. Um, and right after we did it, um, I said, Hey, you need to text your dad, let them know what we did because I'm not trying to do, you know, I'm not trying to blindside them

at all. Um, because obviously they would probably be reaching out to them as well. And right after he texted them the next morning, just a slew of text messages came in. How dare you? You betrayed us. You know, we were utilizing the summer for her to really just step up as a mom, and you just ruined that. Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on.

Her challenges are not in a vacuum right right and so you've got two incredibly guilty incredibly immature grandparents who yeah are looking a to step up and solve this issue, which good for them they have, and also to blame everybody because they're tired. They don't want to do this anymore. And they made up some imaginary fantasy where somebody who struggles with some addiction and hasn't taken care of things, isn't on the path to wellness, is suddenly just going to materialize

and become the mom she needs to be. Right. And that fantasy didn't work out. It was destructive to that mom and to those kids. And you stepped in. And your husband stepped in. It doesn't matter who hit the button. It doesn't matter who typed up the report.

Y'all both were there together. So y'all did this thing together and your husband has immature parents he's got a very sick sister and so yes when you're dealing with immature people you're dealing with sick people you're gonna get throw up on you you're gonna get doors slammed in your face that doesn't mean you didn't do the right thing and it doesn't mean that it's not gonna be really uncomfortable as your husband waffling on the decision is he trying to make his parents happy you didn't do the right thing and it doesn't mean that it's not going to be really uncomfortable. Right. Is your husband waffling on the decision?

Is he trying to make his parents happy again like he always has throughout his whole childhood? I mean, no, my husband's really hurt and I can tell.

He should be. He should be. Yeah. But that's not because of you. It's because of his parents. Right. Because in a perfect world, I'd say this,

in a perfect world, y'all went and pick up those kids and his sister-in-law or stepsister Whatever however, she's connected to you guys would have said thank god But i've worked with enough people struggling with addiction that that's usually not how it goes They usually think they're they've solved it and that they're they're fine Right, and they can't see it. And so that's not that easy. The next best thing is grandparents. Well, grandparents took a two-week cruise and they just hoped everything was going to be all right. So the next best step after no family is the authorities.

And here we are. Right. And just, it hurts me to see their relationship between my father-in-law, my husband, where it's at right now. They're just not on speaking terms. And that's because your father, it's your father-in-law's issue, right?

Yeah. Yeah. I hate that for everybody. Yeah. You were saying something about your husband? What did he do? He tried reaching out to him again, because they're back now, and just said, hey, when are we going to sit after we filed the report, DCFS actually went in and took the children because they were not in a safe situation. So now they are 100% in the care of my mother and father-in-law. Okay.

And after that happened, my husband reached out to my father-in-law and said, hey, when are we going to sit down and talk about this? I feel like I deserve an apology. My father-in-law basically said, no, you don't. You're still at fault for this. And my husband blocked his phone number. So that's sort of where we're at right now. Good for him. Good for him. Good for him. I think instead of wondering what your next move is,

I think you'll have to spend some time in grief because you had a picture of what your life was going to be like. Do you have little ones? Yes, we have two younger children and that's why I just, anything to do with children not being safe, I just, I cannot. Well, nobody, nobody should, right? Nobody should, but here's the bigger picture. The bigger picture is you had this picture where your father-in-law was going to be this awesome granddad and your mother-in-law is going to be this awesome grandma. And that's not happening right now. That's not happening. Now I'd only block a family member's number if they are constantly bombing me with negative texts. I'm not going to block it if they're just ghosting me because there may become a day when they reach out and say, I'd love to meet. But the fact that your father-in-law didn't get home, see that, oh no, these kids were in a really scary and unsafe situation.

And our little plan didn't work out. And we put these kids in grave risk. And the state has now made us sole custody, right? So mom's parental rights have been formally terminated. Is that what you're saying? For now. She does have a court date coming up. But as of right now, she's not allowed to be with the kids at all.

Okay. And you know as well as I do, for that to happen, there's some significant things going on that you're really soft peddling on this call, which I appreciate, right? Right. They were around some dark stuff. And for him not to call your son and say, thank God you called, which is what a mature adult would have done thank god you got involved he chose to blame all this on your son and he probably had different plans for his summer whoop-dee-doo right right so i think the bigger thing is sitting down in in grief and being heartbroken

and trying to take this from your husband for a while that his dad is abandoning him. His dad is choosing to be immature. His dad is choosing to not be an adult. Even when your son is, I mean, your husband's trying to be, to reach out and say, hey, let's sit down and talk.

You owe me an apology. Let's sit down and hash this out. I have a problem with you. I'm going to go to you first. Instead of doing that, he doesn't want to... Don't take that from your husband. He's supposed to be sad. His dad is walking away from him. He's walking away. Mom's letting it happen. I hate that for y'all. And I just want to, for whatever it's worth, I applaud you for doing the right thing. You did the right thing. And anybody else out there, doing the right thing sometimes costs you everything.

Or in this case, it lets people, it lets their true nature come to light. I hate that for y'all. But you did the right thing. And I'm proud of you. You're standing up for those kids with no other adults in their lives. We're going to do it. We'll be right back. Hey, what's up? Deloney here. Listen, you and me and everybody else on the planet has felt anxious or burned out or chronically stressed at some point. In my new book, Building a Non-Anxious Life, you'll learn the six daily choices that you can make to get rid of your anxious feelings and be able to better respond to whatever life throws at you so you can build a more peaceful, non-anxious life. Get your copy today at

johndeloney.com. All right, we are back. Kelly, am I the problem? All right, this is from an anonymous listener. Am I the problem for wanting my wife to look nice for me? Oh, geez, why are you doing this, man? Golly. My wife is beautiful, but she wears a lot of outdated styles or older and faded clothes. She is very thrifty and likes to save money, but I would like for her to wear some newer and nicer things. Am I the problem for wanting my wife to look nice? Good luck. It's a trap. Do what?

It's a trap. It does feel like a trap. No. Do what? It's a trap. It does feel like a trap. No, I don't think that... I don't think he's a bad guy for wanting his wife to look beautiful. And also, it sounds like he is... He sees something in her that he wants her to see for herself. And he's struggling with how to bring that to light. And I can't believe we're in a world now

where it sounds even weird to say that out loud. But here we are. What do you think? I 100% agree with you. I think it's all in how he presents it. Yes. Yeah, if he's like, I want you to look nice for me, that maybe not-

Then she becomes a trophy and that's gross. Right. But if he maybe like, you know, spend some money on yourself. Or I'm going to. I'm going to. Yeah, I would love to take you shopping. I would love to do this for you. Or if you're like my wife, just throw away all my cargo shorts.

Well. It's ridiculous. I looked amazing in those things. Sure you did. I looked so good. She just got rid of them. You could do that too. Sheila is a smart woman.

But yeah, I think it's all in how he presents it. Because like you said, he sees something in her that she probably doesn't see in herself. And he wants her to feel, he probably wants her to feel as beautiful as he thinks that she is. There you go. Yeah. There you go. And do clothes help with that a hundred percent and anybody who says they don't is it's just not telling the truth of course they do of course they do um and

there may be multiple layers to this right um she may not want to feel beautiful for various reasons um she may be uncomfortable for various reasons um he may have created a world where She doesn't want to be beautiful in that world. So it's like it's a very layered conversation, but the idea that You see your partner and think man, um with clothes that fit or with Clothes that you know were this century man Or a haircut that actually like yeah, I think that's, I think that's a thing that

couples bring to each other. I see you for how beautiful you could be. And thank God my wife has helped me there. Right. And by the way, she has asked over the years, how do you think my hair would look best? Or do you think this, and I love being able to say, are they going to be amazing like this? Are they going to be amazing like that? It's not a judgment thing. But if I saw somebody at work and I was like, ooh, I like her hair. I want her to look like that. That's gross. I don't want to do that.

Fair enough? Fair enough. I don't think we need to tread lightly on that, do you? No. I think he loves his wife and he wants her to, I mean, I'm hoping it's that he wants her to feel better about herself. Yeah. Because he thinks she's beautiful. There you go.

There you go. I think that's a good thing. Clearly, Ben's wife doesn't believe that about her husband. Just kidding. Yikes. You look great. You look great. Love you too, John.

You're very handsome. You're very handsome. And are you wearing a Deloney shirt? Wearing a My Weekly Low shirt, man. Our band. Represent. We rule. That's it.

Yes, it's okay. In fact, it's even encouraged to want your partner to be attractive and beautiful. It's awesome. It's all in how you present it. Good call, Kelly. Best of luck to you, America,

on that one. Don't screw this up. Love you guys. Bye.