The Dr. John Delony Show - I Love My Wife, but I Don’t Want to Be Around Her

Episode Date: January 13, 2025

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I'm not comfortable in a room with her, especially alone. In big groups it's not such a big deal, but my knee-jerk reflex, even if there's like, oh, I can tell my wife's been in this room, I'm just like, ugh, my wife's been here. And I hate that about myself. Why don't you like her? Why aren't y like her? Why aren't you all friends? What's going on? What's going on?

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Right before the show started, we were all talking and I said, and I quote, this particular woman who walked through is over like two fourths of the company. To which Kelly felt it really important to say, actually, you can reduce that fraction. It's one half of the company. I didn't say it quite that way, but overall. That's how I heard it in my heart. I just said, you mean one half? You know that friend that just corrects.

Oh, that friend that's right? No, every friend has a math nerd friend. That's you. Actually, I'm not a math nerd. Overall, numbers are not my thing. You're four eighths a math nerd. You're eight sixteenths of math nerd and the other eight sixteenths. Yes, go ahead. Let's go to Des Moines.

Yes, let's go to Des Moines, Iowa and talk to Tyler. What's up, Tyler? So my question is, my wife and I, we've been married for 18 years. We've got four amazing kiddos and I love her very much. I want to take good care of her and want the best for her. But in the past seven years, I really lost that loving feeling to the point where I don't really enjoy

spending time with her. I'm not comfortable in a room with her, especially alone. In big groups, it's not such a big deal. And it's gotten to the point my my knee-jerk reflex even if there's like oh I could tell my wife's been in this room I'm just like my wife's been here like it's and I hate that about myself why don't you like my question is why don't you like her it's not the love and feeling you don't like

her why don't you like her Why aren't y'all friends? I'm... I'm always thinking. You just gotta be honest. You're already in it now. You gotta be honest. Why aren't you friends? Yeah. I don't like the way she treats me.

I don't like... Tell me about that. She's gotten a lot better. Stop, stop, stop hedging. Stop hedging. Just tell me the truth. She's not nice to me. She calls me names. She is full of insults. think it, it betrays how she really feels about me. Um, like, so like, like just, just in the course of conversation, like a couple of years ago, I was like, Hey, I'm self-employed. I think it's, I think it's time to hire somebody. I think I need to hire somebody and she's just, she, her response isn't, Oh, is the business growing? No, it's, Oh, you're so lazy. This work beneath you? You just can't do it yourself.

I'm like, no, no, I think this is, you know, but it, it just, it just cuts me really deeply that that's how she sees me. And if I were really, if I, if I really felt like I was a lazy person and I'd be like, oh, that's a fair assessment, but I just feel like my wife should be able to tell me that in a way that's loving and encouraging and not skating like that The thing that is the defining characteristics of marriages that make it are at the end of the day they're friends And what I would tell you is right now

And I'm just gonna is it can I just have your permission just to be pretty blunt? Is that cool? I mean, if you must. Okay. Your wife's not a good friend. How long has this been going on? Oh, we have a long history. I mean, there's a good deal of trauma in there too. What does that mean? So we met in college through the college Christian group.

I was pretty immature and uncertain about my theology. We were trying to stay like, you know, when we became romantically involved, we were trying to stay pure before marriage and all that. And she literally, for starters, we kind of divulged our sexual history too soon. And then I felt like I couldn't break up with her because then it would seem like it was because I was upset about her sexual past or whatever. And then it was like she was auditioning to be my wife. It was like she couldn't keep her hands off me This came up in like a marriage counseling thing that I my jaw hit the floor when she said this several years ago She said she she had sexually assaulted me in in one of our dorm rooms

I Remember and this is this is I don't this this makes I dorm rooms. I remember, and this is, this is, I don't know, this, this makes, I feel crazy. I remember being really, really mad at her after the fact. And I remember thinking like, no one is going to believe me. Okay. And I was, I remember, this is the wild thing. I remember being so mad at her but not remembering what I was mad about. And I went to one of the leaders in the Christian group and he said that I needed to forgive

her and that means that I should act like it didn't happen. Well, that guy, hold on, stop. That guy sucks. Yes, I understand that now. That guy's, that guy's, uh, so for people listening who aren't, don't have a faith background, what we're talking about here is somebody who established, um, sexual intimacy boundaries and the other party, I don't care which gender is which, crash through them. And it's common to not remember details right away. It's common to have overwhelming sensations of emotions, whether it's rage or anger, sometimes it's laughter, sometimes it's intense love,

which is the fight, flight or fawn. I mean, your body responds how it responds, how it responds. But then you went and sat with a mentor and said, hey, this just happened. And they said, well, shake it off, dude. And I'm sorry that happened to you. Yeah, another instance happened later and I do remember that one. But in the aftermath of that, I was so, so just furious and I couldn't eat or sleep for

like several days. But were you mad at her or were you mad that you'd had this, you didn't want to have sex with anybody until you got married? Were you mad that you thought God was gonna strike you with a lightning bolt? Like, what was the rage that you said stop and she didn't? Yes. Okay, all right.

That I felt like I couldn't, I mean, obviously I could have overpowered her and gotten out of that situation, but like, where would that have gotten me, you know? Like, but I told myself, hey, this will be great. If we get married, it means that she's super into me and we're going to have all this wheels off sex, right? As, as I've heard it said, but then, uh, so moving ahead, we, we eventually get married and she became a completely different person. As soon as we got married, um, she just fits a rage.

Just, just, she would just fly off the handle at nothing at all. And I'm like, Hey, what's really bothering you? Oh, you put the pot in the wrong sink. What's the matter with like, how could you like, and I'm like, that's not really the issue. Like, yes, it is. You're an idiot. And just, okay. Like, so like, and that went on for about three years and we went through three different marriage counselors who all kind of shrugged and said they didn't know what to do. Um, the third marriage counselor said, let me see her one-on-one, uh, for a while and that started to help our church was not helpful.

They were, um, basically the thrust of it was, um, if my w the husband is the head of the household, the wife is the weaker vessel. And if my wife is having a hard time, it's my burden to shoulder. And I need to figure this out and make her happy. So I had to just do what, like kind of just let her have whatever she wanted. Do you want me to, you want to live in this kind of house? Like whatever she wanted was what we,

was what I had to do and accommodate. Guy, you've gotten the worst faith integrated life advice ever. Yeah, I would say so. Golly, dude. I'm sorry, man. I hate it for you. I hate it. So do me a favor.

Bring me to right now. Okay, so. Hold on me let me hop in here you have a woman since that you since you were dating has a complete and total disregard for the person in front of her which happens to be you and when you've sought help every step along the way, people have said either trained licensed professionals have said, I don't know, man, or they've given you horrific wisdom. Well, not all of them are licensed, but yeah. Which I wasn't going to go there. I was trying to give people the benefit of the doubt, but often Christian counselors

are the worst. They're the worst. The reality is, where do you find yourself right now? Because as painful as this is for me to say, having my own history of having to go through some hard, hard stuff, we're here right now. and the only thing we can change is what happens next. I try I try to have breakfast do the

breakfast thing there's this mental health podcast I'm addicted to yes which is another call I hope that hopefully I can quit that. But, uh... No, keep, that's one good addiction to always keep. Always keep that one. Um, so I was like, hey, I've been listening to this show, he's, you know, he's got some good ideas and what if we have, like, sit down and have breakfast and really iron out and she couldn't hear anything I said after that. She was just started crying. She was like, oh my gosh, you want to divorce me? Ah, like it just became this thing. And I was like, maybe, I don't know, did I need to, did I, maybe I should have softened my startup

or like maybe like, I don't, I didn't think that was aggressive. Like I'm like, look, it seems like you're off the rails right now. Maybe we can try to have this conversation later. But yeah, I would love to be married to someone that I could, you know, talk about, hey, let's go get breakfast and not have her just blow up at me.

That would be nice. You're with somebody that does not sound psychologically stable, Tyler. If she is, she's a powerfully manipulative, emotionally painful person to be in the room with. The benefit of the doubt is she's struggling with some pretty deep significant issues that she needs some clinical help with. She'll probably always be unstable but she's matured a lot in 18 years and she's made changes and she doesn't fly off the handle as often and doesn't call me names you know nearly as often. Can you be her friend? I think so. We've, uh, I...

She won't even go to breakfast with you, Tyler. We did go to breakfast. We kept the conversation, uh, superficial. That's not friendship. That's job interview. Friendship is not, not getting bit. That's avoidance. Friendship is can I tell you all the good stuff?

The amazing stuff? Can I tell you the bad stuff? And can I tell you the really dark stuff? Can you see all of me and still say I love you? I'm in. You can't even hire an employee of your own business without being called less than. Without some sort of character attack. Yeah. I don't doubt she's worked really hard.

That's amazing. What I hear you telling me is it was so bad that this is better than. I'll accept that. I trust you on that. Yeah. So, so how do we move forward? I want to get out of that past. I want to own it and change my future.

I think you have to ask yourself, what do I actually want? And then you have to be clear about what that's going to look like. If you scream at me again, if you belittle me again, if you hit me again, if you take our money and buy stuff that we haven't agreed on again, if you are otherwise a person who lacks fidelity and integrity in this relationship, then you are opting out of being married to me. And you Tyler have to make peace if you have forgiven somebody replaying it over and over and over and over is a choice to drag the past into the present.

Yeah. And that's not fair either. If she's somebody who's working hard and working hard and working hard and every time she starts to get ahead you bring up the past and hit her over the side of the head with it. I don't want to be that person. But also just get really twitchy. Yeah you got to deal with your trauma and you haven't dealt with it yet. It will find a way out. It's probably your body working exactly it was designed to to keep you safe, keep you safe. And you still have a snapping turtle in your living room. That's bitten you and bitten you and bitten you and bitten you

emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, physically, sexually. And you're still trying to figure out how do I like, hi, how do I? There's not a thing you can say, not a thing you can do. You've said everything you need to say, and you've done everything you need to do. The next move is you looking in the mirror with a professional, professional licensed counselor that you trust saying, okay,

how do I begin to solve for peace and safety in my life? What must be true for the life I want to build? And you start solving for that question. And when you have some security there, you invite your wife in and say, Okay, here's what this is going to look like. We're not going for she only hurts me or hits me or violates me or flies off the handle every once in a while now. We're looking for none of that. What must be true for me to be safe in my own house?

And I know if it's happening to you, it's happening to the kids too. What must be true for you to get off your phone for hours and hours and hours and hours at a time? What must be true for us to become off your phone for hours and hours and hours and hours at a time? What must be true for us to become friends? We've never been friends. All right, let's talk about cozy earth. Over the last few weeks, my sleep has been chaos. It's all been screwed up and I've been spending more time on screens than I like.

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Hey, Charmaine, what's going on? So I lost a hundred pounds. Yeah! I don't... How long did that take you? Two and a half years, yes sir. How'd you do that? Well, it was a long process. I also have PCOS

and the rest of my family struggles with obesity. It was kind of like a one man show for a while. How'd you do it? I started my, it was really about sustainability. Like what can I do for a long amount of time? And also just getting to the root of it, I think was the biggest thing. And that's what I wanted to talk to you kind of about

because when I was addressing that route, a lot of things sprung up. Yeah, they did. And now I feel like I'm a totally different person. And I'm just like, I don't even know who I am. Like, do I date myself? Like. I'm smiling ear to ear for you right now.

Here's why, I know what hell you went through. And I know everyone looks at your Instagram and sees the before and afters and it's cool. They don't see how much hell you got from family members who are supposed to love you, who you know are feeling miserable every day and yet they want to project that onto you. And how lonely it was and how cold in the mornings it was when you got up to go walking and how hot it was in the summer. Like, I'm so proud of you right now. I'm bursting in my seat right here. Oh, thank you so much, Dr. John. That really means a lot. Here's the deal. Beyond the weight, forget the number.

I want you to know that I see how hard you've worked. I'm so proud of you. Thank you. You were very motivating. I was walking to you for like hours and hours and I would hear your voice. So I mean I would thank you. Well women have been walking away from me for years Charmaine. That's kind of my thing. I was walking with you. I was walking with you. What an honor dude. What a blessing. All right. So how can I help? What's up?

Yeah. So I wanted to get more of a... I feel like I have a lot of pieces in my head, because I feel like it's more of a psychological battle now than a physical one. I'm basically at the end of my journey, and I would love to look myself in the mirror, put my fist to my chest and say I love this woman Yeah, I can't why because I don't know who I I don't know who I am. That's not true. That's not true That's that's Internet II gobbledygook. You know who you are Why don't you believe many things have changed though I can give you some examples like right along the first thing is like

Looking at myself in the mirror, I just like don't recognize myself. Yes. That's like a cognitive thing that's really weird. You catch yourself out of the corner of your eye and you're like, Oh, oh, that's me. Yeah. Yeah. I cannot tell you how many times via zoom or on my phone where I look at myself and

I'm like, is that me? Like, it's very, very weird. But I think deeper than that, for me, like I've always had this like script when you talk about like, what's the undercurrent of your life? Like, I know I found out what that script is. And I know that in order to like overcome that, I have to have something different,

but I don't know what to replace it with. You know, I always thought I was an ugly, fat friend who I didn't have anybody. But that's not true. I know it's not true now. And I deserve love and stuff like that. But how do I replace that with something? The script has always been like, you know, I'm undesirable, you know from the people around me To friends. I'm the butt of every joke, you know I'm always just like this alien that has no space where I can really like be myself Okay, here's what you're looking my weight first. Here's what you're doing and it's so natural and so normal

But I want to free you for a second okay? Okay. What you just described is a lifetime of other voices and it sounds like you've read my book so you know what I'm talking about when I say other people have been dropping bricks into your backpack your whole life. Hmm. And you've been carrying their stuff around forever. Not to mention you carry it up. When I say cultural, I mean in your family. A whole family generation, whole network of obesity. And there's no judgment there, man.

That's stress that is trying to get through life, that is finances, that is a thousand different things. Right? And for some reason, it's somehow some way, one half of America is now clinically obese. And you said, I'm done. And so what you've done now is you've changed everything. But you're looking for other people's voices to fill up what happens next. Because they've been directing every step you've taken your whole life. Eat this. Don't leave anything on your plate.

Oh my gosh, are you kidding me? We don't do that here. This family... You've let other voices carry you this far. And what you're feeling now is this terrifying freedom, which is Charmaine gets to choose what happens next. And I'm going to choose what happens next. And I'm gonna tell you something crazy. There's no rules. And that means that can be terrifying or that can be the most wheels off, reckless, super fun.

Let's have adventures. So let me ask you this question that maybe nobody's ever asked you before. Who do you wanna go be? I, I've never really, yeah, nobody's asked me that question before. I know, who do you wanna go be? I know.

Don't overthink it. I wanna- You've been overthinking your whole life. Don't overthink it. Don't overthink it. Someone adventurous, someone who has integrity, someone who is hardworking, someone who wants to, I don't know, try new things and meet more people. Okay, so the person you just described, that's the woman I'm hearing on the phone right

now. Two and a half years ago, you went on a hell of adventure to lose a hundred pounds. You lost two of my daughters. Okay? So you went on an adventure. You did real, real, real hard work. You were a person of integrity. You made a goal and a commitment to yourself and you kept it and you kept it and you kept

it especially when it was hard. Especially when you got low. Especially when you and your boyfriend before he was your fiance, you all got in fights. And you know the things that made you feel better in the past but they were short term and you didn't. You know how to work hard. You know how to be a person of integrity. That's you now.

Right. And I think the thing that to your point that I've been reckoning with is I was an emotional eater. So when I was sad, I ate. When I was mad, I ate. When I was depressed, I ate. And you're happier you ate? But now, when I, yeah, when I was happy, I ate. You celebrate you ate? Yeah.

Everything, everything. Yeah. And then like, because I don't go to food now, now I'm looking like at the relationships I've had, because I've always been kind of like a people pleaser, like go with the flow. But I'm realizing I wasn't really going with the flow at all. I was just depressing all of my emotions. And now it's just like this new person where it's like, or maybe it wasn't even a new person. It was just me all along. And that's what I'm trying to reconcile. So you were probably told all of your life what you weren't. And now you're reckoning with cognitive dissonance because you can see who you've become.

Unleashed. I think you're right. I think you were in there all along. There were just layers and layers of stories and other people's trauma telling you what you could never be. So here's what this new transformation is going to cost you. Old relationships where people needed you to be the overweight friend because it made them feel better about their lot in life. People needed you to be the girl without the boyfriend because it gave them permission to make bad dating decisions They needed you to be just like everyone else at the table because your weight loss brings in like guilt and embarrassment to some people

But if you think it through many of those relationships that felt safe and warm were predatory. They were using you. And so this transformation will cost you those relationships. And those real ones, the real ones, they will laugh and scream every time I see you because they're still so proud of you. Here's the part that you got to do next. You've got to practice having adventures. Put them on the calendar. You got to put two new things on the calendar. And here's the thing. I have adventure set up but I'm scared. Of course! You're right! I'm getting married soon.

Yeah! You know, I've studied abroad. I've done a lot of interesting things, but it's just like, I don't, it's like, wow, this is the new me, like this is, this is kind of, I don't know, crazy, and I'm kind of trying to connect the dots and kind of- You're overthinking it. Your excitement feels a lot like anxiousness.

Yeah. Your optimism and joy and being scared, all of that is right. Just because it's scary doesn't mean it's the wrong path. Gotcha. Just because it's like, oh my gosh, this is me. Yep. It's you And by the way go on a couple of adventures and you might find you don't like one of them that's cool You might not like two of them that's cool. Just don't do those anymore That's when I go back saying there's no there's no rules You and your husband get to co-create whatever world you want to and For a young woman who's been told her whole life You just have to go to the corner because you're less than, you're not enough because of how you look, how you dress,

the family you're in. This is wild new territory. How old are you? Right. I'm 22, sir. For 20 years, people have told you don't do what you're about to do. For 20 years, people told you that some man would never pick you. Are you about to marry a good man? Oh yeah he's great. Like he's great like on a

Excel spreadsheet or he's great like nah kind of gross. No he met me in the right smack dab in the middle of my journey and he's just been so consistent. Like, the love's been so consistent and that's another thing where I'm like, he loves me for who I am. Like, that's scary. I know. It doesn't matter what the outside looks like now.

But that's the one question. That's the one question. Now that you see all of me, do you still love me? And he looked at you and said, till the day I die. Yeah. What you have to practice is believing that because nobody's ever told you that. Right.

They've used you and your love to them has been conditional on how you look, how you act, how you dress, what you do, what you don't do. And then you found this guy that says, no, no, no, no, I see you till death do us part. I'm in. And what you got to do is practice it. Here's what practice looks like. It might be writing him a letter until y'all get married once a week, once a day, short

one. It might be writing you, Dear Charmaine, I'm so proud of you. Here's who we get to be today. Tomorrow you wake up. Dear Charmaine, so proud of you. Here's who we get to be today. Write a letter to 27 year old Charmaine.

I went through hell at the age of 20 so that you could have this amazing life at 27. And let her know what you're going to be doing over the next five years with this new ride or die, handsome pants, grody, commode boy who loves you. See what I'm saying? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, this is great. I was just like, I don't? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, this is great.

I was just like, I don't know where to start. I feel scared, but also really excited and... Run right through the middle of it, screaming your head off. Right through the fire. Right through it. And listen, you're going to mess up, you're going to fall down. People are going to be like, yeah, I wouldn't do that. And you're going to be like, I can do anything.

And then you'll be like, yeah, I won't do that one again. Like that's part of it. It's all good. Right. But it will cost you old relationships. I want you to be honest with yourself about the relationships that may have been predatory. Where people needed you to be the overweight girl.

People needed you to be the girl that couldn't get the boyfriend. I want you to be honest about those friends. And I want you to be equally honest about the friends who've been with you the whole way. Kind of like your fiance. Who knew you through this whole journey. Cheered you on.

They loved you before. They love you now. They'll love you after. Hold those people tight. Take them out somewhere special for dinner. And you pick up the tab and just tell them, hey, I just want you to know I love you. You've been my ride or die for the last two years. I'm heading into Charmaine part three, 3.0,

and who knows what that's gonna look like. But I may wanna go back to school. I may wanna get a house. I may wanna leave Memphis. I may want to, I may want to, I may want to. It doesn't matter what, you get to pick what happens next. It's the new year. It's my favorite time of year.

It's when everyone starts thinking of new routines, building better habits, stopping things that aren't helpful and overall building a better life. And we all know that most new go get them goals are a waste of time because we don't put in the systems to make them sustainable. So how about this year, let's focus on fewer more sustainable goals

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they make the stakes. Omaha, Nebraska. Talk to Alan. Hey Alan what's up? Hi, I'm doing okay. What's up, man? So my question is, how do I get back, sorry, how do I get back up after losing my job for the second time? Oh, man. In a year. What happened the first time? Um, there, so we moved up here. Me and my wife moved out here to Omaha. Um, sorry. Okay. Me and my wife moved out here to Omaha. Um, and we, for jobs and because it was cheaper.

and we for jobs and because it was cheaper. So we did that. The first time I worked in IT for a company and I actually thought it was going really well. And then due to some parts, some of it's my fault, Um, some parts, some of it's my fault, uh, misunder, well, miscommunication with my manager at the time they saw fit to let me go. Um, the first time and the first time I was able to get back up. Um, I would feel like I was able to get back up and running as soon as like, um, as soon as it happened, I found I was down and I got back up and found another job.

And, um, for the second job, I was there for six months and it was, um, there was a six month probationary period, uh, cause it was for the local government IT for them. And at the end of that six months, I was under the impression that they were gonna keep me. And so I, me and my wife, actually we decided to move forward with starting our family. And we found out they were expecting. Sorry.

You're all right. You found out you're expecting and then they also, you also found out you lost your job? About a week or two later, yeah. Oh man. So how far along is your wife? We just hit the 20 week mark, so she'd do an April. Okay. And you're scared to death, aren't you? Yeah. I feel like I'm failing as a husband and I'm not even a father yet. I'm just going to sit here with you for a second.

The psychology research tells me that losing a job, especially one that you don't see coming has a similar impact to losing a loved one. When you see it as a matter of provision, I want to be a good husband, I want to be a good dad. And it goes away. And especially it seems like it goes away without you even realizing it. Man, that's just, it's a tough loss. And so I think most of us want to scramble up and try to go fix it right away. I want you to grieve it for a minute, man. Okay? Yeah, I've been doing that for about two months now.

Okay. That's too long. And I say too long, like going, you got to go get a job at Walmart or McDonald's or something. That's not your career, but you can't feel your way back to your feet and you can't think your way or podcast your way back to your feet. You got to go do. Yeah. So I, uh, sorry. Oh, go ahead. Go ahead. Um, well, the first, so looking back, I feel, I don't know why it took me too long, so long to get up and do anything. I finally had the courage to go and do door dash after which is okay but it's not great. No it's not. It's something. It gets you up out of the house. You have to shower. Yeah. So hey so let's I don't want to blow by

something though because I think the current ethos in our culture is to blame everybody for everything. If you and me are just hanging out, having some chips and queso, just chit chat, doing some reflecting. If you had to make a list of two or three or four things that you know you contributed to getting fired right in a row twice. What are three or four things, two or three things that you need to work on that you need

to improve? I had a hard time focusing. Was that a lack of sleep? Was it you don't know how, you don't really know how to do the job? Was it, do you need to go get some medication? What do you mean you had trouble focusing? Were you looking at stuff on the internet you shouldn't have been looking at? Looking at pornography? Were you looking at YouTube all day? Like what do you mean by that? I was diagnosed with

ADHD when I was in college and I never did medication until actually, I Noticed it was an issue. I realized it was being an issue with my last job So I did go and to get help but it was just too late. I think okay. I Also have wrestled with ADHD my whole life I'm not any better any worse than anybody else, but I've learned that a lot of things I can do on a day-to-day basis like activity and exercise, even when I don't want to, and getting out in different temperatures, whether it's cold or whether it's hot,

and having some friends, sleeping, putting my phone down. Do any of those things ring a bell? putting my phone down. Do any of those things ring a bell? Um, yeah. I have done woodworking in the meantime. Well, yeah, and my guess is, here's what I want you to prove to yourself. Most people think ADHD is just an inability to focus. It's not true. Because I bet you get to woodworking you can do that for a long time, can't you? Yeah. Yes. ADHD has a hyper focused component to it. And so often it's about value. This particular task before me is not worth my time or is lame or is boring or is whatever.

So I think a big question you can ask yourself is it the job for you? There's a lot of downtime but when there are projects that I actually did really get invested in um And I did really enjoy those projects, but just the downtime was hell sometimes. Sounds like you're not telling me the whole story, but that's okay. You don't have to dig into it. I want you to spend some time being honest about, okay, what must be true

during the downtime? If I did the projects and I did them with excellence and they were outstanding The reason is is I know some I know I mean I work in a building full of IT guys If you're great at something you can really knock out the project and you knock it out of the park every time you do It people a will put up with a lot because IT guys are kind of like radio guys like It's just some men and women. They just see the world and experience it all differently. People will give people a lot of latitude and they'll have hard conversations direct with you. If you do mediocre work when the projects come in and you struggle during the off times of finding other things to do of being a good teammate etc etc etc then yeah they'll let you go.

Here's all I'm saying. I want it to be both in for you. I don't want you to walk away from these two experiences because by the way, these aren't the end of your life. You're going to go on to do some amazing things. Okay. But I want you to listen to what these experiences taught you. And the thing I think you've lost more than anything else is

confidence in Alan. And I want you to regain confidence in Alan and you can't think your way to it. You've got to go act your way to it. So here's what I want that to look like. I want you to feel a little more confident that you went to a doctor and you did something about this. I want you to feel a little more confident that you made something. I want you to make one project a month for somebody in your woodworking thing and give it to them. Mom, dad, friend, cousin, college roommate, whoever, mail it to them. Tell them some goofball on the internet's told you you needed to do this. I want you to go down to the local YMCA or down to a local gym and I

want you to start an exercise program. Okay? I want you to make a three-day commitment. I will go for a walk. I will go exercise. I will go lift Okay. I want you to make a three day commitment. I will go for a walk. I will go exercise. I will go lift weights. I'll go do something to begin to make myself feel and know I'm a little more confident. I want you to make a commitment to an hour. This is just for 30 days, an hour before bedtime. Put all screens down away. Deal with that awkwardness. Learn to rediscover your wife. In fact, hang on the line, I'm gonna send you a copy, I'm gonna send you questions for humans,

the all three couples deck and the new intimacy deck. I want you to go through those with your wife. No screens, no screens, no screens. Relearn about each other. I want you not just to do Uber and Lyft. I'm proud of you for getting up off the couch and going to do that. I want you to go get a job at Walmart. I want you to go get a job where you can possibly end up being an assistant manager. I want you to go just get a job after job after job. I want you to work.

I want you to go to bed tired at night and you spend a lot of time in your head. That's good. I want you to start writing those things down. Get them out of your head because they spin and they spin and they spin and they spin and they spin. I want you to begin doing those things. I want you out of your head. Cause they spin and they spin and they spin and they spin and they spin. I want you to begin doing those things. Once you define one or two guys you can go walk with that will meet you at the gym or whatever. And last thing I want you to do,

I want you to do that this weekend over the Thanksgiving holiday. We're recording this show right before Thanksgiving. I want you to write your future kid, your kid that's gonna be here in April. Write him or her a letter. Tell him about dad got knocked down. Dad got let go twice of two jobs that he liked and he got real scared. And then write in that letter, here's what dad's going to go

do. Dad's going to start exercising. Dad's going to start standing up a little bit taller. Dad's going to start reading. Dad's going to get off the screens and create kind of a screenish freeish life for when you come along. Dad's gonna go work one job, two job, three jobs until he lands another one. He's gonna confront those the challenges with downtime. The expression of ADHD in the workplace. We're gonna confront those things head-on and begin to make some changes. I see a bright future ahead of you, Alan. Little step after little step after little step. Here's my challenge to you.

Call me back in 30 days. Call me back right before Christmas. Let me know how you're doing. I want to know how you're doing if you're taking step by step by step. I'm proud of you, brother, for making this call. Forever, I've been talking about my love of red light therapy, my love for infrared saunas,

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This is from Sharon and Owen Cisparro. A married pair of Marines. Well, a couple and they are both retired Marines. Yes. You said that the most awkward way possible. So Sharon Cisparro is a major US Marine Corps retired and Owen is also, he's also an MD. He's fancy pants and major US Marine Corps retired. So look at that.

We have fancy people that watch this show. Semper Fi. I was raised by a Marine. So I was about to say like, I don't know if you're allowed to say that. We have fancy people that watch this show. Semper Fi. I was raised by a Marine. So. I was about to say like, I don't know if you're allowed to say that. Yeah, I was raised by one. So it counts? Yeah.

All right. Hi, Dr. John. Everybody in the booth is like, okay. All right, cool. Hi, Dr. John. I wanted to thank you so much for the questions for humans. My husband and I just celebrated our 10 year anniversary and spent every night of our anniversary week going on dates together and using the new intimacy questions for humans. It was incredible. We learned so much about each other, specifically our gas and brake pedals.

It's opened up so much for us and we feel like more life has been breathed into our relationship. Thank you. Know that our prayers for your continued work are with you. It's helping people in relationships heal. PS, we've passed along your podcast to so many people that the other day I mentioned it to a friend who was in a rough situation and my husband just said he needs some Dr. Delaney. As two retired Marines, we have your podcast at the ready for any battle. Dude, that's so rad. Hey, thank you two for being amazing people. When I think about what I do for a living, I just take a knee and like, way to go guys.

And then how awesome of an idea is a 10 year anniversary instead of like doing a thing, like going on a date every night that week. That's rad. Yeah, I've never heard that, but that's super cool. Yeah, that's like you have to be intentional, plan it. That's kind of an awesome idea. And then just to get weird. Awesome. Good call, dude. Well, dude, shout out. That makes my, that's, I'm, as I'm heading into Thanksgiving break, I'm grateful for that. There's a couple out there, couples

like that out there. What did you call them? A married pair of Marines that are out there. Retired Marines. Changing the world. It's amazing guys. Thank you all so, so much. Thank you for your service. We very much appreciate it.

And I apologize for Kelly trying to co-opt your experience. Seriously, granddaughter of Marine, daughter of a Marine, nephew of a Marine, cousin to Marines. I think I'm okay if I say simplify. Now I'm stuck because I'm either going to get like 500 cards and letters from Marines being like, she can say it. Or I'm going to get like three like, how dare. If it makes them feel any better, I married married, ex-Navy, my husband is Navy, and my Marine Corps father is probably rolling over in his grave that I married a Navy man.

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