The Dr. John Delony Show - I Regret Divorcing My Wife

Episode Date: October 8, 2025

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I divorced my wife, and I'm like seven weeks out from the divorce now, and I kind of realized I was the problem, and she was amazing. My addiction to video games, they were things that stressed her out as well. So since you've been divorced, you've had all the time in the world to play your video games, and it's pretty hollow, huh? What up? What's up? This is John, with the doctor's John Deloney. show. Coming to you from Nashville, Tennessee, taking your calls from all over the planet on your mental and emotional health, your relationships, whatever you got going on. So this is a huge week

for me and for Ben at the soundboard. Our punk rock band has a huge show this weekend. And we had a rehearsal last night. Ben, it wasn't great. It was maybe the worst rehearsal we had. We're not good. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do. Get out there and jam, though. It's going to be fun. I know. That's the problem. I think some of our new band members don't have jam in their spirit. I asked another member of your band last week how things were going, and he sat there for a minute, and then he just said, we'd really appreciate your vote. Yeah. I don't even need your vote. I just need your prayers. I need thoughts and prayers.

I'm not super certain what those two things do in combination, but we could use them. Hey, I'll be down there dancing one way or another. I know, but I've seen you do that at like weddings, jazz clubs. I've seen you do that at karaoke. You can always count on Kelly to be seven drinks in just dancing. I don't drink, so I do all that sober. Well, that's, I was giving you the benefit of the town. I thought you moved that way simply because of the alcohol.

I didn't know that was just you, but alas. Let's go to Eugene, Oregon and talk to Milo. What's up, Milo? Hi. How's it going, man? man? I've been better. How are you? I'm good. You seem surprised that we're talking. You're doing okay? Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. I just got emotional when I'm thinking about the topic I'm thinking about. Oh man, very cool. We'll bring it on man, let's do it. What's up? Yeah, so

I divorced my wife and I kind of blamed her for my feeling of unhappiness in the marriage and I'm like seven weeks out from the divorce now and I kind of realized like I was the problem and she was amazing how long were you all married we were together for five years and married for one and a half years after that a lot of it was long distance

so in person I'd say we were together for like yeah the marriage was most of our in person time pretty much Okay. And you just had a feeling and you just decided you didn't want to be with her anymore? Tell me about deciding to divorce her. Yeah.

So she's in grad school. And a lot of our fights were about, you know, how she expresses herself when she stressed or angry. And it just felt like. an issue that kept not getting solved and um was that the real fight or was the fight you didn't know how to support her when she was stressed i think both okay um and you know i just felt like in my head at the time i felt like she couldn't manage it and i blamed her for it and it triggered me because it reminded me of being around my home when I was a kid and I really like hated the way my dad expressed himself when he was angry or stressed

and I just I don't feel like he would be around it anymore but really looking back I feel like I was contributing to that stress a lot through my actions and behavior. Okay. But I was just, you know, blind to it. I was, you know, I had such a big ego. I thought I did nothing wrong, and I just decided to blame her

because it's easier than looking at myself. So in the ash of this divorce, what has caused you to look in the mirror and be so reflective? Um, well, in the final night, before I moved out, she kind of like told me that you know um my lack of empathy um my addiction to video games

um my dishonesty about my feelings they were things that continually came up and stressed her out as well um and i didn't make her feel supported. Was she right? At the time I said no because I was so defensive but sitting on that conversation

yeah yeah I realized that she was. So since you've been divorced you've had all the time in the world to play your video games and it's pretty hollow huh? Yeah I I kind of stopped playing after like

two weeks and I like I realized I wasn't feeling any better yeah what are you doing right now to take care of you um like take care how i guess well if you've determined you're the problem and you've already determined and by the way yel co-created this probably you're right on on multiple counts her stress response probably reminded you of your nervous system of how you grew up, which is in a weird way why you were attracted to her and it's a weird way why

it felt like an electric fence and maybe you were addicted to video games, but video games are a great Xanax, right? They're a great way to numb yourself from reality. And

but now you're sitting in the ash. You're lonely and you're alone and you realized, oh my gosh, I contributed to this. But if you, let's say you call her today and she said, thank God you called, let's try again, you would bring you right back to that mess. Yeah. And so my question for you is, are you going to counseling? Have you started a workout program? Are you working two jobs? Are you paying off all your debts? Like, what are you doing? Have you gone back to church? Like, what are you doing to begin to heal from the inside out? Right. So that you can be the best version of yourself. So when you show up with.

somebody else who's got challenges, you're anchored in and y'all can meet those challenges together? Yeah, so I've started a couple of things, so I started working out again because I was not taking care of my physical health. Awesome. Because I spent all my time playing video games. I've actually dropped, like, I was pretty, I was in free fall during the divorce in terms of weight.

Like, I dropped, like, 10 pounds. Yeah, that's pretty common. People don't eat. Yeah, because of stress. Yeah, I wasn't eating. But I've stabilized. I'm down to, like, losing just a pound a week, and I can tell I'm getting stronger as well.

Like, I was on, like, an hour-long run, like, one weekend. I ran, like, 11.30 per mile for an hour. And I'm, like, last weekend, I did, like, 8 minutes per mile for an hour. Good for you. Good for you. I'm, like, journaling, making sure, like, I'm kind of accountable. I actually made myself. what I call my self-love list where I have a daily physical activity that I do

and that's just like my workout schedule like I either lift or I run and then I have like a mental health thing and I can actually let's see if I can remember what's on the list off the top of my head That's okay you don't have to Here's the big one do you have A couple of people you can sit down and be honest with

Yes Yeah, they hold me accountable I told them what happened They didn't know that part of me And they're like And you're a jerk Yeah Well good

I'm glad you have those men But also Are they celebrating you on the winds too? Yeah Okay Yeah So how can I help today man Um

I'm happy just to sit here with you But if I can help Let me know Yeah Um Well You know in your experience Have you ever seen

in this situation. Have you ever seen someone, like, you know, throw away their best friend, basically, and find a way back to them? I have. Have you called her? Have you shown up on her front door?

John Cusack style with the radio playing her song? I mean, have you, what have you done? About two weeks out from the divorce. I kind of like realized she was right and I panicked and I sent her like this big confessional letter that was rereading it, it just read like you know, a guilt dump that

you know, she didn't really deserve and it was just like explaining away all my behavior instead of like apologizing for my actions and how they made her feel. And since then I haven't really I've just given her space she didn't respondent to it

I wouldn't respond to it. I wouldn't respond to it. I don't really want to try and go back to her without making sure I'm someone that I can constantly say I love yeah can you say that can you say that I think I'm choosing to even when it's hard that's it right there brother that's it no one I know feels lovable all the time it's will you go do the things

the right next thing because I love you even when I don't feel it that works in marriage that works with parenting that works with co-workers that works with yourself yeah

I think I was really naive during the relationship where I mean it wasn't just that I didn't feel love you know like you said like I learned the same same thing with video games is that they just

numb, like any addiction really numbs out your emotions, right? Yeah. And I wasn't feeling anything at the end of the marriage. And I really hate how I handled the divorce as well because you know, she was suffering the whole time. Like I moved

out in like two weeks. You know, we didn't have to say separated for like a year or anything. We just got the divorce within the week. And then she just saw me the whole time online, playing with my friends and laughing and having a good time. And I packed all my stuff, like, really quickly. And, you know.

So let's do this, brother. Yeah. Right now, the only word that's coming to mind, and it's, it's ugly, it's rude word, okay? But you're just wallowing. And so the question I have for you, right, this second is, what are you going to do now? Because here's the deal. you're doing the things on a minute-by-minute day-by-day basis to honor yourself, to love yourself.

Yet, every morning when you open your eyes, you chain yourself to two cinder blocks and you drag them around on your runs during your journaling time while you're at work. Yeah. And so what are you going to do next? I don't know. I don't know what to do.

how do I decide you know I don't know what you what you need to decide if you miss your if you miss your best friend of six and a half years at minimum saying hey can we talk and writing out a letter and saying what you're telling me right now

not with an intent to try to win her back or not with an intent of any other ulterior motive other than to say I was wrong and I hurt the closest person to him and I'm sorry. And that's going to be a vulnerable risk. She may say, no, I don't ever want to see you or talk to you again.

Yeah. And if she was my friend, I'd probably recommend that. So it would make her crazy. Right? But sometimes love makes us do crazy things. and maybe she would hear you out she may be sitting at home crying too wondering what's wrong with her why she is so unlovable you're not going to be able to look yourself in the mirror until you sit down and let her know what i've done and she doesn't have to be an audience for you and if she says no i don't ever want to see you or talk to you again

great you can write back and say i'm sending a letter to tell you how wrong i am and how much i messed up and who I'm becoming now. I just wanted to let you know that you're worth being loved and I loved you. I'm sorry. She doesn't have to read that letter, but the process of writing it will be healing for you. I've actually already rewritten a letter I would send like so many times and I've just, I don't know, I've just held off on sending it just because I just, I don't want to bother her anymore. more than I already have.

All right. You're not a burden and you're not a bother. You screwed up bad. You blew it up. Yeah. But you moving forward is not a bother.

Okay. Otherwise, here's the deal. Every minute you don't, at least if you reach out to her and she says, no, I never want to see you again, talk to you again, ever. I'm out.

You'll at least know and you can begin healing. But don't find out because you need something from her. Go let her know that she's worth being loved because it's the right thing to do. Go tell her you're sorry because it's the right thing to do. And there's something about you being vulnerable entering into a scary space where you've hurt other people. you might not get the absolution you may not get the big hug and the fairy tale ending the Hollywood ending but you're going to have done yet again the next right thing which is to make amends to say the words I'm sorry I failed you I let you down

I let me down and part of that process if she won't talk to you or have you back will prove to you in the future that when you're with somebody in the future and you hurt them which a hundred percent chance you will you will have practice saying the words, I'm sorry. I messed up. I need a minute and then I'm going to come back and make this right and whole because we're building something together. And maybe, maybe, maybe, she says, I've been waiting for this call.

Can we go get coffee? Maybe. Maybe not. I don't know. But you won't know either until you just make that call. And I hear a broken man, dude. but I'm going to challenge you to continue to ask yourself this one question. What am I going to do now?

Who do I need to go make amends to? Myself included. The sun's going to come up in the morning. And who am I going to be when it does? It's your move, brother. My recommendation is you reach out and shoot her a text message or better yet, send her a voice message and let her hear your voice and say, I'd like to talk to you.

I was wrong, and I need you to know. Let me know how that goes, ma'am. And if y'all both want to call in and talk about what happens now, I would love, love, love, love to take that call. Call me anytime, brother. I'll be here. When we come back, a woman asks how much say her parents should get to have in her adult life. all right let's get cozy you all know that i love adventures i love doing crazy things and i love being out in about and i'm telling you at the end of the day though i'm ready to shut it down when i do i want

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transforms the algorithm in our favor and helps more people and more people in your community get these amazing conversations of bravery and next right move that's gonna heal and help all of us in this time of chaos Let's go out to Ontario and talk to Alyssa. What's up, Alyssa? Hi. How's it going? It's going pretty well.

Very cool. What's up? I am wondering how much they have my parents should have in my life. But I've kind of established I need to have boundaries, which is really good. But I'm not sure how to have a good relationship with my parents when my boundaries impede their boundaries. How old are you? I'm 23. I still...

Do you still live at home? I lived at home and... Yeah. Okay. You're not going to like my answer. I know. I know, but I'm... I'm most likely going to be moving out in the next, like, two months.

All right. They get a say in your life until two months is up. Okay. And I know that's not a popular, cool thing, but... If you live in their house and you eat their food and you live under their roof and use their electricity and their water, they get to tell you the rules of engagement for their place. Yes. What if, what about if I'm dating someone? What about it? They don't necessarily approve of them.

I know. I mean, they can say, they can decide who, they can decide who, comes and goes in their house, right? Yes, I agree. 100% I agree, but I'm not bringing that person to their house. How are they showing you their disapproval? There's lots of conversations about how they aren't a fan of them for a bunch of different reasons. Tell me some of them. Which I will say, well, I, um...

All right, let me say it this way. You, have you listened to my show for a while? Oh, I love your show. Okay, would I be a fan of him? I don't know, actually. Okay. I would, I hope so. That was a long pause.

Okay. All right, tell me some of the things... It was. I overthinking. Tell me some of the reasons why your parents... don't want you with him? They don't think he puts enough effort in.

Okay. It's long distance. Okay. Which is really hard. But they don't like how they he wants me to go out there and visit. They want him to only come over here.

which he did, like, the first four, five visits, and he stayed for a week or two weeks at a time at my family's house. That wasn't awkward at all, was it? It wasn't for me. I think it was for him at first. He was kind of just thrown into it, which was pretty rough for him. But. So get to the root, root question.

question behind the question behind the question what is it how how how how do i have a good relationship with my parents and have a good relationship with my boyfriend the person that i want to marry great question you don't get to decide their response and that's heartbreaking for all adult children it's it's literally epidemic right now i think it is a unspoken about untalked about destroyer of families which is adult parents who think that they get a vote in their kids lives which by the way you live at home so they still do get a vote um but who are willing to sacrifice their relationship with their adult kid by continuing to treat their adult kid as though they're a preteen.

And at the same time, there's an epidemic of adult kids who want to live independent whole lives, but either A, keep going back to mom and dad to pay their gas or pay their rent or pay their phone bill or whatever, or don't want to wrestle with the adult consequences of adult actions, meaning you can date whoever you want, you can marry whoever you want, you can have kids with whoever you want, you can do whatever you want, but they can opt out of that relationship too. And the hard part of being an adult is knowing when are the people who are trying to love me actually trying to manipulate me? Are they trying to keep me safe? Or when do their fears in my life overtake my autonomy?

So here's a good proxy. Have you ever dated somebody that your parents liked? Well, this is my first, like, actual relationship. At 23 years old? Yes, sir. Okay, so I'm not making fun. I'm just wondering, like, I'm trying to cultivate a world where my son, who's a teenager, is dating or has opportunities to go out.

I'm trying to make that possible for him. Was that same, because I know relationships, especially pre-romantic relationships, if you will, hanging out with people with the opposite sex, like hanging out with people that you might be attracted to in the future, hanging out with, like, whatever. Like, I want him, that's a skill. I want him to be good at it. want him to practice that while he's in my house and if you were always told no you can't do that it's not smart it's not good it's unsafe yada yada yada yada yada yada and your first relationship's at

23 years old and they're still trying to have a say in it then maybe they have fears about your life that are more their fears than our reality maybe maybe not But you're asking a question that all adult children are asking these days. How can I go to a new church and have my parents still want to be around me? How can we not hit our kids? When our parents hit us, I don't know. Like, how can we not have screen time and our parents just hand our kids' cell phones and iPads because they get annoyed? Like, this is an – how can we vote this way when our parents vote that way?

and families are getting divided up and diced up like vegetables in a chop house right now because people don't know how to exhale and love each other and then through that love, through that relationship, say, hey, I care about you and I see something you may not see. So if your parents are saying it's him or us, they're putting you in a pretty tough position. A

Yeah A guiding principle for me is to choose guilt over resentment And so If you spend on that a little bit more Yeah So if you just break up with this guy if you really think you'll have a future together and you're honest if this is your first relationship it feels good it feels good to be wanted um it feels good to be flirty and send like flirty romantic

text back and forth and electronic communication and you all don't have to live with the realities of seeing each other every day and so you all are getting the the best versions of each other right now and also you've spent multiple times together of one week or two weeks together you see how you each navigate family stuff and travel, all that stuff, great. If you actually think, I got a future with this person, I want to really make a go with this. And your mom and dad say, it's him or it's us? If you break up with him, you're going to resent your parents. Because they didn't give you a shot.

They forced you to choose between a lifeline, oxen, and a potential long-term romantic partner if you go with him and they say fine we're not talking to you for a year you're going to feel really guilty but in your estimation if it's the next right move to pursue this relationship further um i would rather you choose guilt over resentment that makes sense okay i think beyond the real i think what you need more than anything in the world right now is getting your own two feet underneath you the the weight if you will of adult responsibilities paying bills having your own place my boyfriend said having to call somebody to get your get your faucet fixed or going to home depot and youtube and figuring out

how to do it yourself. And that would probably be really good for your parents, too, because right now, in your eyes, you're still 16. Nothing's changed. Are you working full-time? Yes, sir. Okay. Did you go to university?

Yes. Okay. So what are you worried about? What's keeping you up at night? Um, I just, um, I don't know, the, I think the value I hold over my parents' life is a lot, and I'm starting to detach from that. But I also have a bunch of younger siblings that live at home. I also don't want to lose them in the crossfire. But that's not. If you were to tell your parents, I'm, I'm going to get my own place. What would they say? Do they not want you to have your own place?

I don't think they don't want it. I think my parents are more on the side of stay home. It's cheaper. They don't ever want me to rent. You live in Ontario. You're going to have to be a bigillionaire to buy a place. I know. So let me ask you this.

Are your parents safe? Do you believe in your guts they care about you and want you to have a good, want you to have good outcomes? Yes. Okay. So if you sat down with one or both of them and said, I've heard you, you don't want me to rent, I need to go explore being an adult. I would love to have your blessing. I'm going to do this. I would love to have your blessing.

And I'd love to be able to call home and get some support and care as I transition to independence. what would they say I think right now they would just blame it on my relationship and that's why I want to move out doesn't matter no

I don't think they're going to hate you I don't think they're going to write you off especially if you have an adult conversation about transitioning towards adult things my hope is that people parents and their children have this conversation at 18 when the first kid goes to college or the first kid goes to trade school

which is hey this is step one into adulthood I am the second oldest of seven kids none of us have moved out or went away for school okay so you're blazing a trail and i'll tell you on behalf of all 23 year olds i'm sorry that your parents aren't interested in transitioning you to the next stage of your life it sounds like they've created a bubble and by the way it's not easy for parents my son's 15 i'm already pre-grieving him leaving i'm already pre-sad but it's right it's the next right stage for him and you're going to have to decide whether you want to be uncomfortable i mean here's the deal

you're going to be uncomfortable there's no question you're going to have to decide i want to be uncomfortable doing what's going to be best for my 25 year old self and 35 year old self and 45 year old self because here's the other thing who cares if one of the main reasons you're moving out because you're interested in somebody else that you might want to make a life with that's normal too I'm concerned that your parents don't have any interest in what comes next for you other than just continue to live here forever indefinitely because it's expensive and you just save up $2.2 million while you're living here at home and then you can like that just I don't know something about this isn't sitting right with me and I don't for sure know what it is it's one of two things either your parents are very kind but through their kindness they are very oppressive and overbearing they want to control your life or this guy's not a good human being he's a pretty abusive guy and your parents don't have the courage to sit down and say like hey here's what we're seeing in him and so they're just making this esoteric arguments about well he should come visit you more which means we want to be able to

keep our thumb over him too like you're 23 years old the reality is you can go do what you want to do but those decisions come with real consequences math problems like rent money cell phone bills, gasoline. So you have to ask yourself, do I want to work a full-time job plus maybe another job on top of that so that I can afford to live in Ontario? Do I want to move? Do I want to go get an apartment on the other side of the province? Do I want to move to the states? Do I want to, I don't even know if you're allowed to do that anymore?

Do I want to go make some changes in my life? You get to do that. You're 23 years old. But if you're constantly living for their approval and their approval continues to move on you, um that's a that's a red flag for me it's your move i think i know which one you're going to choose i actually i think i think you're going to stay and i want to challenge you to at least go look at some apartments at least go get some real numbers and see what it would take because i think the easiest thing for you would be to stay and maybe that's the example you're going to set for

all your siblings that there's a time when an adult needs to go be an adult. When we come back, a man copes with his wife considering being a surrogate. We'll be right back. All right. If you've listened to my show, you know that I'm always talking about boundaries, emotional boundaries, relational, financial boundaries, but there's one boundary that I don't talk about very often. Almost nobody talks about it. And that's boundaries around your digital life. Right now, your personal information, your phone number, your address, even where your kids go to school, where you work, all this information is sitting on countless, gross websites that you've never heard of. And you didn't give them permission to have all this information, but it's out there. And let's be honest,

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Tennessee and talk to Will I am. What's up, William? Hey, Dr. John, how's it going, man? I'm good. I'm good. I'm good. Thanks for calling in, dude. What's up? So a few weeks ago, my wife brought up that she is considering being a surrogate for her sister, for a little sister, and I'm not okay with it. Yeah. So I guess it's a two-part question.

First, how can I say no while protecting our marriage? And second, if she ultimately decides to go through with it, how do I keep resentment from taking over? Yikes. I mean, this is one of those

You don't have a lot of say And what she does with her personal body And at the same time You should have a I mean, I don't know, man, it's So when you said, I'm not cool that what does she say? She was pretty understanding, you know, but I could just see in her face that there's something inside her that, you know,

she's just very close with her family. There's a lot of, there's some background to it that, you know, it makes sense why she would consider it. But when it comes to the context of our family and kind of our relationship, I just... How long have y'all been married? Five years in December. You'll have your own kids?

yes we have a three-year-old boy and a one-year-old boy oh geez and just to give you a little context about everything so before we got married i was you know very open about having wanting to have three to four kids um and since we've had two obviously you know things have changed you know now that we realize kind of what how much of a handful everything is and um she's She's very adamant, you know, we're done it too. And I am more than content and grateful and, you know, understanding of her, you know, decision. And, you know, there's no resentment even remotely towards her about that. Um, so when she brought this up to me, there was just a lot of, you know, confusion as to why she would be willing to go through the pregnancy and do

all these things for her sister when she's told me on multiple occasions that, you know, she's not, she just doesn't want to deal with it again for our family. Yeah, I mean, this is going to sound harsh I'm about to say, but I think you're asking the wrong questions. The right question is, if she comes home and says, I'm pregnant with my sister and another man's baby, what are you going to do? And if that is a violation of this co-created life that y'all both agreed to and you're going to leave, then you need to put that on the table.

if you consider that a violation of fidelity right and at the same time if you're not going to leave then there's something about making peace with it and saying okay i'll be here during this too but trying to figure out how to not be resentful when this happens and this something you consider a pretty significant violation of on several fronts and at the same time recognizing it's her body she can kind of do what she wants to right like like a like a lesser way lesser version of this somebody called in the show once and is is or a woman called and she wanted to get a bunch of tattoos and her husband doesn't didn't like it didn't think it was attractive and at the end of the day she can walk into a tattoo parlor and get whatever she

wants and is she willing to to put his needs behind hers you can do that and that comes with a cost and is he willing to put that aside and say ugh but whatever she's no life and i love her or i'm out like it i wish it wasn't that cut and dry but it kind of is because then it keeps all this middle stuff out of the way do you what i'm saying yeah but but yeah this for multiple reasons i mean feel free to be entitled to however you feel and my guess is that that pregnancies were, all pregnancies come at a cost to the existing relationship. I always tell people when you get pregnant, when you, like when you all start moving down towards next kid, that marriage is over and you've got to build a second marriage or a third

marriage or in your case it would be a fourth marriage, right? Yeah, and I guess the main, you know, I've never even in the past couple weeks since I've been thinking about this and, you know, we've even. has never even crossed my mind. It's more of a, you know, I've seen how she's handled the postpartum. You know, she deals with pretty severe anxiety and all these things. And I just have a hard time seeing myself having empathy and not being resentful towards, you know, the inevitable postpartum recovery and all these things. When we, we have our two youngans that need their mom, they need her to be present, they need her,

you know, she's putting herself through all this potentially. I mean, she hasn't made a decision yet, but. And is that, is that a conversation that can be had, which is, have you said those things out loud? In a not as detailed way. I mean, we've had one or two conversations about it. And I think our first one was more of a, you know, she kind of just told me it and I was on my way out of the house going to work. And I, you know, I wasn't, I didn't blow up at her by any means, but I was very, like, clear in, you know, that I completely disagreed with the, like, just even the idea of it. And she kind of, you know, it's not like she got hurt or anything, but I could just see

in her face. And then I brought it up a few days later, just to, just to kind of reiterate everything. And she, you know, she was like, okay, I understand. I get it. You know, but. But we haven't sat down and actually said, like, we need to, like, figure out if this is actually something that, like, could become reality. Because, I mean, right now all I'm doing is making up, you know, my feelings and how I'm going to respond to everything. Yeah, you're having a ton of imaginary conversations with yourself. Yeah. And it's dividing the relationship in your own house unnecessarily. like you're you're fighting with her on a minute by minute hour by hour basis so you you've lit a fuse to your existing relationship based on one conversation in the kitchen that a year out may be based in guilt and in feeling sorry for a sister and in what is my purpose i mean in any number of things and at the same time you put your foot down and you saw her face

and it's kind of like it's kind of like guys who act all tough and hard like i'll hit that dude sometimes when you hit somebody as hard as you can it it doesn't it doesn't it doesn't the real world implications of that what actually happens in real life watching somebody crumble or their face explode or their teeth fall out or what breaking your hand whatever it's not the fantasy you had in your head and you turned in walking out the door and you let her have it man and then you saw that you melted your wife and that didn't feel good either right it definitely didn't feel good and it and I mean that was the kind of the main reason I wanted to reach out and just get a second opinion on everything so my challenge to you would be that wouldn't have been

the place to blow up on the way out the door yeah and maybe the place to start not maybe I would suggest or if I'm in your seat I would I would sit down and say hey on the way out the door the other day we had this conversation and I didn't handle it well I'm sorry because it sounds like you're frustrated at yourself too and by continuing to be mad at her it justifies your feelings about yourself yeah I've always kind of had pride in the fact when our relationship I mean we've been together for a decade plus and I've always I'm very opinionated about things with her but I always just kind of say my piece and then if she makes a decision she's a grown woman she can kind of do whatever

you know she's like you said she can do whatever she wants but dude that's not a marriage man that's two people live inside by side you get what I'm saying yeah am i crazy no i know i just you know i've always felt

felt like that's that's kind of a the best approach i guess it's just more because i feel uh you know i feel better when she kind of approaches things that way i know man but that's ego dude that's like you wanting the world to bend to the way that you want things done and that's just not why you i mean that's That's not how people work.

Or I'm wondering what would have happened if she had said, hey, I'm thinking about being a surrogate for my sister. You know she's having problems getting pregnant, and they told her that she can't carry a baby, and I'm thinking about doing this. And on the way out the door, when you feel your temperature rising, you're already late to work, you've got to get out, and she drops this doorknob disclosure on you as you're walking out,

to turn and say, man, that's really big. I appreciate you sharing that. Can we set up some time to talk through that? Yeah, that probably would have been a little bit more effective. Yeah. And patient. And if nothing else, it reiterates the version of you that you want to be in the world. Because I don't think you want to be a Knoxville, Tennesseean who's like barking at your wife and telling her the way she's going to do things and what's going to happen.

You don't want to be there. that guy, but it comes out that way, right? Sometimes, yeah. I mean, if we're going to be honest, yes. And then you just have to roll your eyes and be like, man, women are going to do what women do, and she just can do whatever she want. Like, that's just not a good, that's just not a marriage. It's just two people run inside by side.

Or, in my experience, and I don't want to cast this in your life, but in my experience, that's the marriage that somebody at your office is going to think your jokes are freaking hilarious. Or you're going to turn in a person. presentation and one woman in the backs can be like, dude, you crush that presentation. It's going to feel so good. And that's going to be the tiny little crack in the armor. You know, you get what I'm saying? Yeah. And I don't want to speak to that over your life, man, but this is a huge decision and you're right to have every bit of your being and care come out.

you've watched your wife suffer after two pregnancies you see the chaos of your house and in your deepest darkest dreams you would want a third or maybe even a fourth kid and you'd be willing to endure all that with her for the benefit of this picture you have 18 years from now of four knuckleheaded kids sitting on a Thanksgiving table but when somebody comes in and drops that on you and you realize I'm about to lose control of what little control I have over this chaotic house. You got two young kids. You have a wife who's struggling postpartum, like all that stuff. Yeah, man. That's a lot. I've just never seen that go well when met with when declaration is met with declaration. Yeah. And I guess too, you know, her sister has a baby. So she can't

get pregnant. They just had a traumatic experience and she's not willing which is understandable to go through that whole risk going through that again. So what's the chance that your wife wasn't even remotely if she was just saying out loud or let me back up. Is there ever a time

she says something declarative when really she's just testing her own waters? I'm sure there have been. Yeah, I mean she's it seems like in that specific situation I was just like I said I just kind of was gauging her body

language very I think this just conversation is to be revisited in a much more understanding approach and just kind of see if she's even you know I have never I've never seen

outside of an abusive situation which I don't see that at I've never seen a marriage, the repair part, which is an essential part because every marriage gets sideways. Every, every, every partnership gets sideways, always. I've never seen a repair conversation not aided by one person saying, hey, I want to revisit this, and I absolutely blew it. And I just want to start by saying, I'm sorry. And maybe you're not sorry for having your feelings. I don't, I'm saying you should. I'm not saying you should be sorry for being mad that your wife wants to give somebody else a kid when you want another one. The sorry is I said some things in a way that

A, I don't want to be that guy and B, I hurt you. Even if I was right, I hurt you with it. And I'm sorry about that. I'm sorry that I contributed to you feeling less than. Tell me what's going on in your heart and your mind about wanting to get back and have a kid another kid that's not ours and i'm gonna be honest with you and if this is the moment to say like i really want a third kid not right this second our life is chaos but i do i've stopped that picture of my head then you got to be honest to put that on the table um and if you really don't you're totally good with two and i don't do this again cool then asking like help me square this up because together we had a dream and together we chose a different path

and now I feel like the path is getting changed again and I'm going to do that together too but again all of this starts with reestablishing safety that's just part of the repair process and it's not kumbaya safety and it's not nonsense woke safety

it is just saying come what comes I'll be right here with you I'm always going to choose relationship over being right and I didn't handle that one right and so I've set aside some time for us to get away, reimagine our marriage together. I want to hear more about your heart about this. I know your sister's hurting.

I know you're hurting for your sister. I want to hear you out. And sorry, I snapped at you on the way out the door. And let's just agree that big grenades like that, let's don't drop those when I'm walking out the door too. Like both of y'all can learn from this. And in the future, if you have a big bomb like that you want to drop, let's set up some time.

have a big conversation I want to have. It'd be great. Let's start from there. I think you're a good man, dude, and I'll reiterate it, man, any man at any time who catches himself being somebody he doesn't want to be. And I have high, high respect for that man, especially when he says, all right, I'm going to do the next right, hard thing, even if that means taking a knee in front of his wife and saying, I'm sorry, I think I was right, but I'm sorry, and I want to be with you.

you as we decide what happens next and dude if she wants to go through with this all the way y'all both call me back we can we can have that out on the air that'd be fun um but it's an honor to talk to you brother you're not crazy but you still got to go back and repair it and do the next right thing we'll be right back this show is sponsored by better help most of us are guilty of oversharing with the internets or with the wrong person at one time or another or maybe you're just like me and you're just a bit of an oversharer all the time. And let's be honest, our entire culture is based on oversharing. Everyone is giving everyone else mental and emotional health advice,

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there's so many layers to that I guess layer number one is we've turned sex into a performance how well is he performing how well is she performing and number two everybody both women and men everybody has been told since you're zero that men can't even help it they just want to have sex with everything all the time forever and ever and it's just not true

and number three I don't know how old this person is, I don't know ages, I don't know hormones, I don't know, obesity levels, there's so much going on here. And so, yeah, there's few things, there's few things more like, e-ish, that is hard for a man to hear than, it's okay. Like, no guy wants to hear like, it's okay. but also that's sometimes the best thing you can do or already have a plan for what happens if this happened regularly he needs to go to the doctor if it happens every once in a while then having a plan for

okay if this happens when we're having sex we're going to pivot to fill in the blank um and then he has a choice that you can't give to him right no amount of patting him on the head and being like it's okay um that's not going to make him feel better he's going to have to choose that sometimes bodies just do what bodies are going to do it just happens doesn't mean you're not attractive doesn't mean he's not into sex doesn't mean any of that

stuff it just means this just happened if it happens once every whatever that happens if it happens after he's had two drinks then he needs to quit drinking like if it happens after i fill in the blank then he can look for that pattern of behavior and if it happens regularly he needs to go talk to a doctor period um nobody talks about this stuff happening in real life and i promise you guys will talk about a lot of stuff no guys sitting around being like guess what dude like i keep losing my erection like that just doesn't come up this is a conversation had not in the moment whether it happens every once in a while whether it happens more regularly regularly this is a conversation that needs to happen over a breakfast or a lunch like and you spouse say i'm going to put i'm going to have an

awkward conversation when we are sleeping together when we're having sex and you lose your erection i still love you and i still got my needs and so this is how i want to pivot great or this is where we can have fun after that moment great and then he gets to choose whether just to bury his head and and who woe is me or he can make his move the second layer to that conversation is hey this has been happening regularly i want you to go to the doctor i love you and i don't like seeing you ashamed and i know your sexuality is a big part of your your identity our joy and fun and excitement and hilarity and like connection and i want you to go see a doctor i'm not going to you to i'm asking you we go see somebody i would feel loved if you went to see a physician to

get some some sense into um what's going on with your biology could be a heart issue it can be a weight issue it can be a testosterone issue could be a psychological issue could be a number of things i would feel loved if you went and saw somebody it's going to be so weird and awkward you want to hear about my OBGYN appointments i didn't think so go go go go go see somebody and so that's the way to handle that. But in the moment, no guy is going to feel good when it's and then just a pat on the head like, it's okay. It's not. It's not okay. Especially with how performance-minded sex has become in her culture. So that's my answer to that. Kelly, anything you want to add?

Nope. I, nope. Nope. Man, you really whipped out on that one. Love you guys. Bye. You know,