The Dr. John Delony Show - My Husband Treats Sex as a Performance

Episode Date: May 6, 2026

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I feel exhausted by the theatrics of it all. Is there any part of you that, is quietly asking. But what just about me? It's time to stop and collaborate and listen. This is Dr. John Deloney's show. I'm John. I'm glad that you are with us.

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And we don't know where to turn. That's what the show is. a seat and we're going to figure out what's the next right move for you, for your life, your family, whatever you got going on. If you want to be on the show, click the link in the show notes and it will go to our overlords, Kelly, Daniel, and she will get you on the show. Let's go out to Seattle, Washington and talk to Alexandra. Hey, Alexandra, what's up? Hi, Dr. John. Not much. How are you? Thank you so much for taking my call. I'm good. I'm good. Thank you. How are you?

I'm literally running a scam here called the podcast. It's awesome. It's good work if you can get it. It is awesome. Yes. I love it. Oh, you're too kind. What's going on? Okay.

So my question is how can I talk to my husband about my interest in doing the kinky stuff we used to do kind of fading away and me being no longer interested in that kind of thing as much anymore? Okay. How long have you all been together? So we've been together for two years and married for a year and a year and a half. Okay. So at the start of your marriage, it was kind of like, oh, yeah. And now, not into it as much anymore? Yeah. I mean, it's been for the past maybe, I don't know, four to six months, I just haven't really wanted, wanted to do the crazy stuff as much at all. So it's still there. I still am interested. I just, I feel like exhausted. by the theatrics of it all where it's like it always seems like, you know, the next newest and crazy wild thing and what else can we bring in and like let's talk the last thing we did.

And I'm so happy that he comes to me with his ideas and I want him to continue doing, I don't want him to feel shut down or like I don't want him at all anymore because it's not the case. I just don't want all the frills. And I don't want, you know, I'm okay with somebody's a little more vanilla. more of the time and it's just getting to the point where I feel like now I don't know

I'm avoiding sex because I you know it's stressful now Yeah Is there any part of you That I don't want to put this into I don't want to put it out into the ethos

If it's not real so I'm asking you okay And this isn't a leading question This is me just trying to gather information Okay Is there any part of you that is quietly asking what's so bad about just me? Like, why do we...

Like, I love the fun, I love the play, I love the adventure, I love seeing you so wild and spun up and turned on, I like all that. But what's just about me? Yeah, I think I've given some thought to maybe my fear surrounding

telling him more about this is that it wouldn't be enough to not have all the other extra stuff. Which, yeah, kind of boils down to like, why not, why is it not just enough to, yeah, just me and not all of the toys and outfits and everything else. Okay, so I want to make sure, and this is hard, this is heavy. Yeah. But I want you to take the next to allow yourself to feel the weight of this, okay, which is this. it's not about the next thing.

Is he going to be okay without this? The real scary question is, is he going to be okay with just me? And talking about we used to be kinky and I kind of, I want to settle into some boring married sex because it's awesome. I like being with you. All of that is cool and it makes for clickable headlines, right?

Right. The real concern I have here is you're the first part of your question. How do I talk to him about? Yeah. That's the, that's the, that's the more of an alarm question for me. So what is it about the nature of your marriage, the nature of your relationship with this guy? What is it about you're just your friendship, right? Marriage is, when you just go all the way down, is like two awesome friends.

what is it about your friendship with this guy that makes you saying hey here's what i want makes you uncomfortable with putting that on the table well yeah that's a that's a great question too that has been you know on the surface of my mind as this is constantly coming up for me and actually since i submitted my question you know because it's been so uh just so much on my mind i actually i did talk to him about it last night okay how to go um It went well. I'm still, I think I'm still a little nervous about how to articulate exactly, you know, the why I'm feeling what I'm feeling. And he actually, all my nerves were surrounding like, I'm going to disappoint him. He's going to feel rejected. He's going to be alarmed that I'm not interested anymore. He'll take it personally. And he, there was a little bit of that, but he was really supportive and really great about it. But there's something, I guess this kind of maybe evolved to the question to a part two. He is so good to me. He's so great.

And we are really happy. And he really prioritizes us and my happiness. And he took it and ran in a great, you know, he's like, I want to do some research on this. I want to talk about slowing it down and things being less about, you know, the props and all of the wild stuff. And I kind of noticed myself because this was last night and it continued this morning, sort of being like, well, it's getting stressful again. Like too much pressure again on making it something, you know, else, you know, like where he, he wants so much to please me and satisfy me that I'm starting to think, like, yeah, maybe there is a little bit, like, I just want to take a break from having sex at all. Okay. What makes that not okay? Well, I know that there's a lot of emphasis on how happy he is with our sex life. He was,

He was in a previous marriage. Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. Okay. I'm talking about you. Not him. Oh, I, yeah, I think it's kind of back to, you know, the question you asked me a few minutes ago is it's, it's me putting it on myself that it wouldn't be enough, you know, to. Not it, that you wouldn't be enough. Yeah.

Yeah. Less valuable, less lovable. you know, he would lose interest, that kind of thing. Is that true? No. Have people lost interest in you before? Yeah. Okay.

Let me say this. I'm so grateful that you called this early in your marriage. And I'm so grateful that you called while you still seem to really care about this guy. And I'll trust you and take your word for it that he really cares about you. you okay yeah um but a marriage only works if you see and know and celebrate and challenge each other but you're doing all the seeing and all the knowing and all the celebrating and all the challenging right now yeah and in a weird way you did last night and i'm really proud of you but you're not allowing yourself to be seen and known and celebrated either and part of the

of being known is here's what I like, here's what I don't like. And part of celebrating somebody is saying, awesome. I want to do these things. And it's cool that it's out there. But you can't control that for him. What you can control is walking in and saying, here is where I'm at right now. Right? Because what you're trying to do is you're anticipating his discomfort,

his feeling of rejection, his frustration, his whatever. you're anticipating that, and it may or may not be true, and then you're trying to manage it for him. And in managing it, you're stepping on yourself or the definition of codependence is, I need him to be okay so that I can be okay. Yeah.

And what I want to challenge you to do is to begin to ask yourself, what is true for me? What do I actually want? And what's hard for most people is it's not, there's a tension. It's not either or. because probably, and again, shut me down if I'm wrong,

there's times when I kind of like to just get wheels off again. That was fun. And there's a fear that if I do this, then it's going to have to always be like that. And then every night's a performance. And where I see couples get is, I don't even want to hold his hand because if I grab his hand,

that starts a set of dominoes that I'm going to end up in some weird outfit on my head with a giraffe costume singing, right? Like, so I'm just going to avoid even hold his hand. Yeah. Right. And then he's going to loop around and say, well, then I need to escalate even more and more and more and more and more and more and more. And then we end up getting further and further apart from each other.

Right. And so let me ask you like a series of like, is this true or not questions. Okay. I know what you feel, but let me ask you like, is this true? Okay. Do you not want to engage in any sexual acts with him or? Are you tired of the performance aspect? Tired of feeling like you have to perform to be intimate?

Tired of feeling that I have to perform to be intimate. Okay. So where does the story that you have to perform? Where does that come from? I think there's a lot of positive reinforcement surrounding the things we've done and, you know, his enjoyment and excitement. And I do love to make him happy. And I guess starting early on, you know, we seem to be very well aligned, you know, with libido and all of that.

And, you know, he definitely was very verbal about how much he enjoyed everything. And so I think I'm just a person in general who probably thrives off praise and wanting to keep the momentum of like, oh, he's really loving this, which I guess, you know, equated to he's really. loving me. Nice. So that just kept the momentum going. So let me ask you a deeper question. Who's responsible for loving you? I am.

So that what? So that then you can show up. Right. And part of loving yourself is asking yourself, what do I actually want? What actually feels good? What do I like? Mm-hmm. Right?

And in every marriage, there's times of generosity, right? And generosity sounds like such a clinical dramatic term. There's times when you're just like, I'm going for it. Like I'm a rock his world tonight. Like I'm in. Right? That's part of it. And there's equally part of it where I would love for her to get the giraffe costume out.

But tonight is going to be gentle, slow. We're going to look each other in the eyes all the way through. Yeah. Right? And so it's it is a constant attention. to out-serve each other. But that means there's times when I'm going to allow myself to be served. And I can only be served if I'm known.

And I can only be known if I allow myself to be known. And I can only allow myself to be known if I know what the heck I even want. Okay. Right? Yeah. So let me ask you. This is an awkward question, but what do you want? like if you could imagine a romantic sexual encounter with your husband

paint me a picture of what that looks like I think I would well I really do want a little bit of what I'm intimidated by like I know I want slower I want it to start earlier on in the day with intention and I don't want to get to bed and be going right for it you know, definitely much more warm up. And during, like, I really would like to have the sense, like, this is, it's completely

on me, but I don't feel like I can make eye contact during, and I would really like to be able to do that. Okay. So, not safe in an abusive way, but do you feel safe enough to say that out loud? Yeah, I do. Is there a part of you that? I have. Can you say, I don't like it when you have to Google what we're going to do? Yeah, I'm working towards that. You know, I think there were moments of our conversation last night where maybe not in that direct of a way, which I need to work on.

I let him know that all of those extra Google sketches were getting exhausting for me. Okay. And he might turn around and tell you, I feel like I'm going to disappoint you. because maybe I disappointed my ex-wife. Right. And so I'm going to research this. I'm going to be perfect at this. I am going to never let the spark die. Yeah.

And he's trying to use a blow torch to light a candle. Mm-hmm. Right. And so when you tell him, hey, clear as kind, here's a roadmap. At 10 a.m., I want you to text me and say that you're thinking about me. And at 4 o'clock, I want you to text me and say, how can I love you? I'm headed home from work in about an hour.

How can I love you when I walk in the door? And I don't want you to Google anything. I want us just to watch a show. And then I want you to take my hand and take a, like, you get what I'm saying? Yeah. Like this is super un-Hollywood. Right. This level of clarity.

But the alternative is you keep participating in something that makes you feel more and more used and less and less seen and known, or you just shut the whole system down. Yeah, that's definitely what it feels like it's happening. Okay. So the path forward is hope he'll read your mind eventually or Google the just the right thing. Or I want to be so clear so that you have a path to me. And it might start with, I want to do 30 seconds of French kissing and we're going to make direct eye contact and not break it. David Schnark, he's a famous therapist and, you know,

sex therapist, he's a brilliant thinker. But he has a whole section about eyes open everything. And it's intense, intense, right? And maybe saying I want to, I want to sleep together tonight for the first time. I don't have sex and I want us to make direct laser eye contact a whole time. That might be too much for the first time. But I just want us to kiss for a while and I want us just to make eye contact. I want to see you and I want you to see you seeing me.

Mm-hmm. Right? I want to be the person that you come to, not this, not the, not the Google search. Right. Right. Yeah. And I think he would, he would absolutely be on board. You know, he would, he's willing to to also try anything I bring to the table, which is great.

Okay. But will he do the next thing? And that is this. Will he hear you if you put on the table? I'm nervous to disappoint you. Yeah. I think putting that fear out in the open, because that's the fear underneath all of this.

Right, you're right. And so let me put that on table. The story I've made up is if I don't do all this stuff and I'm not super into it all the time that you're going to find me wanting, you're going to leave. Mm-hmm. And you might know intellectually,

he's not going to leave. He loves me. He's crazy about me, all this stuff. Look at these, he's Googling giraffe costumes for crying out a lot. Like, right, you might know that intellectually. actually, but in your spirit, in the middle of your chest, you're like, do, that guy's about to leave. I got to keep participating in this. Yeah.

And so let's put that on the story I made up is this and let him respond to that. And my guess is, based on what you've told me, is he's going to say, oh, God, no, never. And then we can get into the fun, what I call, like, the negotiations day, like, how do I signal to you that I would just, like, a wheels off night? Okay. Or how would I signal to you? Is it a text? Is it a call? Is it a like, I'm going to make the bed a certain way that tonight, I want to slow, chill.

I just want to be with you. No drama, no theatrics, no whatever. Okay. Right. And a fun, intimate conversation, and y'all may have had this already is, not what are the things you want to try, what are the things you want me to wear, what are the roles you want to act out. But the intimate conversation is, tell me, tell me what. excite you about that. Tell me what makes you feel alive about all of that. And my sense is being able to have that conversation will free up the next conversations that need to happen.

But A, you're awesome for making this call because your willingness to have this call is going to help a jillion people. Thanks for the call, sister. It's awesome. Appreciate your vulnerability and your openness. And I think your marriage is going to be in a pretty amazing place moving forward. We come back. A woman asks if it's reasonable to feel like she doesn't belong in the house her husband bought with his ex-wife. Nice. This show is sponsored by BetterHelp. May is Mental Health. And according to the National Institute of Mental Health, more than one in five U.S. adults experience mental illness and mental and emotional challenges every year. And nearly half of that group never gets any help.

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All right, Chicago, Illinois. Let's talk to Lynn. Hey, Lynn, what's up? Hey, how's it going, Dr. John? I'm doing good. How are you? I'm good. I'm a feather in a whirlwind right now.

I love it. I'm hoping you can help me out. Go for it. What's up? Yeah, I'm just trying to figure out how to feel like I, fit into this house that I live in with my husband now that he bought with his ex-wife. If you want, I can give you a little bit of the context behind it. Yeah, go for it.

Okay. So we've been together almost four years, married a year and a half, and he bought this house with his previous wife as their dream home. And like even when we were dating, he told me like straight up, he was very honest. He's like, this is the house I want to grow old in. I want to retire here. This is my dream home. I've always wanted to live here.

It's a beautiful house, like really beautiful. But I'm really struggling because he bought it with her. And that was, I feel like it was, it was their dream together. And then I'm coming in to this. And I feel a little, I don't know how I feel about it. I don't feel good about it, I guess. You know exactly how you feel about it. Just own it.

Yeah, I don't like it. And I don't like the feeling of, I don't like the feeling of being second and living in someone else's dream. I love that. That's like you said that perfectly. That's super clear for me. Oh, okay. Like you all too had a dream. She's out of the picture and you just replaced her picture with mine in your dream.

Yeah. Yeah. And I feel like I want to build something with him new. but I also, you know, I know that I gave him my word that I, you know, I agreed to move in here with him. Well, that's the hard part is you, like, to his credit, he was pretty straightforward and you signed up for this. I did. And then I was like, oh, shoot, I thought a year and a half in, I'd be like, oh, yeah, this is my house. And I think it maybe has something to do to with before we got married, like a big dummy.

I was like, oh, she still has stuff in your house that, you know, whatever. I'll help you clean it out. That was a terrible idea, like terrible. So I went in and like, I was helping him get stuff out. She had like a U-Haul amount of stuff that she left at the house. And there's like all sorts of intimate, very, very intimate items and love letters. And I just can't unsee those when I walk into the room now. Okay.

Can I challenge you on something? Yeah. How much of this is the house and how much of it is what the house represents that he had somebody that he said I do till death do is part with before you? I don't know. It's probably a lot more of the, that it was, because I never thought I was going to be. I know. I never pictured that I would be with someone who was previously married. Right.

So, and you haven't metabolized. You signed up for a new picture. Yeah, yeah. And you want so, so, so, so badly. And you're not crazy for wanting this. You want to be his only one. Yeah. But he had another one.

Yeah. And like he still has the wedding pictures in the basement in a bin. And, you know, I want to be like, hey, you know, I have a past. You have a past. That is our past. And that's okay. but I just, I'm really, really struggling. And I don't know if maybe part of it too and part of the thing with the house that gets me confused is that growing up, we, my family, like very, very close net, but incredibly financially and stable and on the table almost monthly that we might be homeless.

and my parents would try and reassure us and be like, oh, you know, like, we'll send you two kids off here and you kids over to this relative. So that way, you know, we'll break up the family, but you'll have a place to stay. And so I don't know if part of it is maybe I'm afraid of connecting too because I feel like the other shoe's going to drop. I don't know. Did you move a lot in your adult life? Yeah, I moved all over the country Yeah And the crappiest part about having the childhood you had

And moving a lot is every new place you showed up to You went with you Yeah Yeah So let me ask you like some real clear fact-finding questions Are y'all, is this too much house for y'all to afford? Um No

Are you broke? Well, right now we are, but he just started a new job. So I think it should be okay. Okay. I want you to get really clear on that. And what I mean by that is I want a path. I want you all two to sit down and talk through what must be true over the next month, the second month, the third month, go three months out and say,

how will we know if this new job is working? and part of him loving you part of you loving him is knowing he's got wedding pictures with somebody else in the basement now I'm not going to wait in on whether I think he should get rid of him or not whatever like I think those are symbolic

of he's he built a life with somebody else and it didn't work out right and so that's true but part of him loving you is knowing I grew up in terrifying with a terrifying sense of anxiety around finances. So I need some extra clarity. I've mentioned on the show before,

having a mortgage, having a car payment, my wife loses zero seconds of sleep. Doesn't bother her at all. How I grew up, how I grew up, I will pace the house at night if I owe somebody money. I will make a lapse around the house. It makes me bananas. Yep.

Okay? Oh gosh. And so her way of loving me is showing up and saying, got it. Then we're going to drive these kind of cars. Cool. Done. What's next? Mm.

All right. I'll go on a crazy plan and forego vacations for a few years to get this house paid off. And we're going to buy half that size of house than we can actually, we actually qualify for because it's more important for both of it. For me to have a well and whole husband. and it's more important for my husband to not owe anybody any money, so we're going to buy a house

that looks like this, and we're going to love it, right? And on the backside of that, I have a hard time spending money on vacations. And part of me loving her was, I want to go see the world. Then baby, we're going to see the world, right?

Yeah. But it came in that order, but it also came with us putting all of this on the table and her saying, I always wanted to go see a bunch of stuff and me saying these things scare me to death

and both of us saying I see you and know you enough I'm in right it's when you think you have to hide parts of yourself from him that those things rise up like dragons hmm yeah

and and I think you know I'm having a hard I have a hard time talking to him because we've talked about it a couple times And I know I've hurt, like, I've hurt him when I say that I'm like, it's a beautiful house, but it doesn't feel. It still feels like your house. And he's like, you know, I feel like I've tried to make something really beautiful, like a little home for you. And you're rejecting me.

And I don't know how to, I guess I can't make him feel one way or another. And I'm not trying to be ungrateful because it is beautiful. But flip that around. he can't make you feel anyway either. And let me say it, that's not totally true. When you get married to somebody, my buddy Jefferson said this, and I love it, you give each other the nuclear codes. Huh.

So you know the things you could say to destroy him, to make him feel really bad, and you know some things you can say to really lift his spirits and vice versa, right? Yeah. So there is an aspect where I can make my wife feel a certain way. Yeah. But over the long haul, she's got to be responsible for, and I have to be responsible for, why am I feeling the way I do and what part of my emotional reactions can I begin to control? I can't control those feelings. They just loop into my body, but I can say, what must be true?

Hmm. Right? What can I own here? Yeah. This guy's trying to make an amazing house. And if you find yourself saying, I just won't be comfortable here. I won't put in the work to become comfortable here. I'm going to always choose to look at this house, not as just a bunch of sticks and bricks,

but I'm going to look at this house as a symbol that you used to love somebody else. You can choose to look at it that way for the rest of your life. Yeah. Well, it's not going to make me happy. Nope. And by the way, y'all are going to sell that house, move somewhere else, and you're going to go with you again. Yeah, oh man, yeah, that's true. And so the big question is what must be true for me to be okay in my own skin?

And there's some very real tangible things. Like, I need to make sure we're financially secure. I want to be a part of the plan. I need to be able to tell you the things that make me nervous and scared. I need to be able to say, in my perfect world, you would have never married anybody else. You would have just known me. And you would have not built this amazing house with somebody. The thought of y'all leaning over the architectural plans of this house makes me want to throw up.

And also, you get to choose whether you meditate on that or not. When that lightning bolt pops in your head, you get to decide, am I going to think through that? Am I going to spend time imagining her saying, oh, I want the wall here? Or am I going to say, not having that conversation. This is my house now. Right? Yeah. We get to choose what we meditate on.

Yeah. I guess it's the practice itself that I'm going to have to have to keep trying to figure out how to do on the day to day. Can I give you a couple of just pretty simple, straightforward things? Yes. I want you to make a daily practice and do this for 60 days, two months, okay? Okay. I think we're at the very end of March or the very beginning of April when we're filming this show, right? Mm-hmm.

By June 1. on, here's what I want you to have. I want you to have a notebook by your bed. Okay. That has every single morning you wake up three to four things you're grateful for. Okay. Next, I want you to write three or four things that you are grateful about him. And I want you to make this a daily practice where you tell him. Hmm. Okay.

I then want you to write down three or four big, scary feelings you have. and then I want you to quickly look at those feelings and ask yourself two questions. Is it true? And can I do anything about it? Hmm. So for instance, I feel like this is not my house. Is that true?

Like, legally, no, it's not true. Yeah. Can I do anything about that feeling? I'm going to quit looping on that thought. And I'm going to every morning wake up and say, I'm so grateful I got to wake up in this big, amazing, beautiful house. Big fear, he still keeps the pictures of his wedding in the basement.

Is it something you can do about it? Yeah, you could sweat him out on that. You can say, I know you had another life before me, but I want no physical evidence to remain, right? You could do that. Yeah, I'm a burning slasher myself. I don't want to do that to him. I mean, you can, but like, but you can choose to be like, yeah, that's actually in the

basement. It's part of his old life. I'm part of his now life and his future. Yeah. And my promise is if you meditate on those things, things that he does awesome for you, things that you do awesome for him, if you begin to look down the road

and fantasize is not in a sexual way, but fantasize about the life y'all are building together and y'all are regularly talking about, how do you want this house to feel? What kind of life we want to build together? then your default setting shifts from this is all going away, this is all going away,

to look what we're building together. Thank you so, so much for the call. I'm really, really grateful. We come back, a woman asks how to convince her a husband to redo their wedding. Nice, I can't wait. Hey, I want to talk to you about love for a second

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From the block. Hey, how's it going? I'm doing great. How about you? Good. I, you know, just all nervous. Oh, that's all. You're all good.

I'm not very good at this job, and you have nothing to be nervous about. What's up? All good. Well, I just had a quick question. Okay. I want to redo our wedding, and my husband's not 100% on board. Why do you want to redo your wedding? Long and short of it.

My sister-in-law ruined it. Nice! And every time I look at our wedding pictures, I just get that knot of anger. How did you ruin it? So we had a micro wedding. Hold on. I don't spend much time on social media. What's a micro wedding?

So think of like a small wedding, but smaller. So we had like a dozen people. Okay. All right. So a super mini micro. Okay. All right. So we have a micro wedding.

Okay. And we asked everyone, please wear white colors, everything. She showed up in her dress that she reserves for funerals. So all black with a black veil, a whole nine yards. A black veil? Black veil. Incredible. Why does she do that?

I honestly don't know. She was my best friend. and I had completely had hoped that she'd be like my maid of honor, but when I got engaged to my husband, she just changed. And she just changed. And she became very mean towards me and him. And, you know, I sat down with her and had conversation like, you know, you're really important to me because at this point I've been listening to your show. I'm like, you're really important to me. I don't understand why, you know, what's going on. Did he say something? Did something go down?

And she basically told me that, you know, I don't see any point in getting to know him because he's not going to be in my life or your life for that long. So what's the point in getting to know him? I thought she was your sister-in-law. She is. So my brother's wife. Oh, okay. I thought it was your husband's sister.

Okay. No, no. I wish. All right. So, and she told me that, you know, he was going to leave me, you know, two months after our baby was born. And that I deserve to have a miscarriage and just all sorts of other things. Well, let me, let me first say this. I was, I was, I misjudged this hard.

and I was laughing at the beginning of this call. This isn't funny, and I'm sorry. No, it's okay. It's not funny at all. Not funny at all. That's bad on me. I don't think you can do what you want. I don't think that the problem here is,

redoing your wedding is not going to take away the grief that you feel here. And it's seeing that wedding every time, like seeing your photos every time, maybe don't put pictures up with her in them, right? or put pictures up with you and your husband up and that's it and that's sad and that's frustrating, et cetera. But that's not going to take away the hole in your heart that you had a really close best friend that just went nuclear on you.

Said some awful horrific things. Yeah. And redoing your wedding isn't going to help you grieve that loss, right? What do I do then? I think healing looks like, can I look at pictures of my wedding and be sad, but I have my body run off into the woods on me? with anger and rage and heartbreak. Can I write her a letter that I'm never going to mail her,

but can I write her and say, you broke my heart? I treasured our friendship, and you spit in my face on a number of different counts, and I'm going to miss you and I wish you well, but I'm going to stop carrying you around like a cinder block in my life because I got a new baby, I got a new husband, I got a new life. And you're also going to have to grieve the fact that you probably had a picture of you and your brother spending holidays together with y'all's families, and she blew that picture of Smithereens.

Yeah. And that stinks. It's heartbreaking because it's not only you lost her friendship, but in a way you lost your brother too, right? Yeah. I mean, family gatherings, it's kind of like the Hatfields in McCoy's. Everyone takes aside.

Yeah. And it might put you in a position at some point to say, I'm not going to choose. Actually, what I'm going to choose is peace at holidays. and so I love you guys with all my guts this woman wished me to have a miscarriage and she wished my marriage to fail and I'm just not gonna, I'm not gonna be around that

so I love you guys and I wish all the best. None of that's easy but here's what I want you to do this is you taking control of what's inside your chest and I'm gonna stop handing it to her. She tried to ruin your wedding she didn't have that kind of power anymore. know, every time I just look at the pictures, I'm like, it was such a beautiful day. And it's like...

And it was. And what does it represent? Tell me about your marriage. Give me a few words about your marriage now. Oh, my husband's just so amazing. He's such a hard worker. And he, you know, he's like, I don't feel like we need another wedding. We live our vows every day, you know.

You married? You married a keeper, Jenny. Yeah, I did. And tell me about this little baby I can hear in the background. This is our second. Okay. Tell me about your first. She is just a spitfire.

You know, she just has so much personality. And, you know, every day she's just, it's wild and crazy and just keeps you on your toes. I love it. And so sister-in-law doesn't get any of that anymore. No. Because that celebration y'all had on that day that she tried to ruin by showing up in a whatever dramatic fashion, it had no impact on how amazing your marriage is, how much your husband loves you to the moon and back, your two amazing kids and more to come. Like, she doesn't get a vote in her life anymore. Okay.

And here's what this is. It's you saying, I'm not giving you that power over my life anymore. Okay. Is there any nagging question in the back of your mind of what did I do? I mean, I, you know, I've written her letters multiple times, and I just can't ever seem to, like, put it down. When I have the pictures of our wedding up, I just go there again.

And I'm like, I mean, I've cut her off. in my life in almost every other conceivable way. But. And know that I'm generally against people cutting each other off these days. It just happens so frequently. I'm super in support of this one. Okay. I support you on here.

Here's what I want to challenge you with. We cannot stop the lightning bolt of feeling or of thought that shoots into our head or into our body. Okay. We can't. It just happens. It's our brain trying to protect us, right? We can choose the moment. after that on what we're gonna meditate on.

And so what I mean by that is, you can walk by your house, be having a great day, see that picture and see her with like all these bright colors of just a few people and see that one black dress and the black, though, and you can laser right in on that. And you can then cascade down to, I can't believe she did that, I told her, and she, I can't believe she said,

and you can do all of those things. And your body will go to war on your behalf. It'll flood you. you with adrenaline and corals, it'll be ready to rock and roll. And all you're, all you're doing in those moments is making a choice.

I'm going to think about this and not about this amazing baby. I'm holding. Not about this amazing man. I'm married to. Right? Because going down the exercise of, because here's what your body's trying to do,

it never wants you to hurt like that again. Yeah. And so it's going to keep bringing it up and bringing it up so that you remember this can't ever happen again. and all that's going to do is rob you of the beauty that you've got surrounded by you all the time right now right yeah and so it's like i had seasons when i'd walk through my house and i would yell out loud no like i'm not thinking about that i'm not i'm not going to have that story i'm not i'm not going to spend time on that

story i had to yell out loud to break myself of the habit but i'm going to begin to practice it's literally think this it's a practice i'm going to practice having two or three awesome things from that day to think about not just that She doesn't have that kind of power over me anymore. Okay. This is not easy. It's hard. It's real hard.

And right when you think you've got it, she's going to text you out of the blue. Yeah, that's why I'm like, maybe if we just redid it. It won't. It would just be a whole new memory. It won't. It will be,

you'll see that and be like, we had to do that again because of, and it would just, I mean, it will compound the loop because you'll spend money, you'll take time, you'll go through the whole song and dance

again and that will not erase the original pain, which is a family member and a close best friend stabbed you right in the heart. That's what my husband's a smart guy. Sorry she did that. I know. I just wish it was different. There we go. That's that. That's grief is the gap between what we wanted to happen and what actually happened. And so we're going to say I wish it was different and it's not so I get to choose what happens in this moment right now. Have you tried the cinder block game that I used to give people back in the day? No. I know you've got babies and you've got kids in your house but I want you to get a cinder block from Lowe's. Have your husband pick

one up on the way home or maybe he's got one out. Oh, he just got home. Okay, maybe he's got one in the back or something. I want you to get a cinder block and get a piece of duct tape and write her name on it. and then I want you to carry it around the house for a while. Just go around doing your regular life, your regular chores, your regular stuff, until that thing gets so stinking heavy you literally can't carry it anymore. And I want you to take it and throw it in the backyard or over your fence or put it in the trunk of your car and take it somewhere and tear that duct tape off, throw it in the trash and say out loud, I'm not carrying you anymore.

And it's a touchstone for your body to go, no, no, no, I already set that down. So when the thoughts come again, when you see the picture on the piano, and all this, you're like, no, no, I already set that down because you have a, you physically set it down. And that exercise in and of itself won't just magically like, ah, it's all gone. It won't. But over time, it will be a touchstone. It will be an important moment. It will be like a miniature funeral of your friendship.

I didn't want it to be like this. And it was. And so I'm setting this down forever. and now I'm going to be about thinking about living into meditating on things that are good and right and beautiful and full of joy because life's got enough crap as it is. I'm not going to keep dragging back to somebody who tried to ruin my special day because by the way you didn't my marriage rules my kids are healthy and whole and they're firecrackers and I love it and I'm going to live in this moment and prepare for the one to come no more living in the rear of your mirror.

Thanks for the call, sister. I'm on team husband on this one. I don't think a new wedding is going to wipe this one away. I think this one's on the inside, and we have to heal from the inside out. Thanks for a call, sister. We'll be right back. As the great Johnny Cash once saying, love is a burning thing. And you know what else is burning?

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slash deloni. All right, we're back. Kelly is gone. She's out of the booth. And Alex is producing the show today. Good to see Alex. Good to see you. Um, all right, we're going to do a surprise for Kelly. This has never happened before. We'll never happen again. But all of us are just going to say like one nice thing about Kelly. And I know that's a little bit of a mindbender coming from me. But she's pretty mostly, mostly pretty great. So we'll start with you, Ben. Go ahead. Me first. Put me on the spot. Kelly is an incredibly fun and inviting person to be around. And she looks. leads the team so well partly because she makes people very comfortable and having a good time when they're working with Kelly. Well, partly is because she takes shots starting like 9.30 in the morning. Oh yeah, that's why.

She is super fun. Okay. Awesome. Alex, what do you think? Kelly doesn't look as old as she actually is. Amen. If you all knew the amount of AI, dude, she was sobbing when they canceled Sora because so much of Kelly.

on the show that y'all see as AI. But yeah, you're right. She does a good job hiding that age. But to be real, she's an incredible person to work with. She is such a good, like a good person to go to for really anything when it comes to the show and working with her. It's just, it's, it's, it's, makes it so easy to come up her and ask her things and get things changed.

I feel like I can say whatever I want honestly and she's good with it and we can keep rolling. It's great. So. Thomas, what do you think? Yeah, there's nobody that actually cares about the team and the audience as much as Kelly. She, the amount of work she puts into the show and the crew to really make sure we're serving each other and serving our audience well. It's, it's impressive.

It's awesome. And I guess I will end the show with something that I think is awesome about Kelly. Oh, Mia! Mia! I didn't see you behind the screens over there. Wow. What do you think, Mia? Wow, okay. I mean, Kelly is so thoughtful.

She'll leave me notes on my desk. She left a little Christmas gift on my desk. And she comes in with, like, cookies and treats. She loves to bake for us. So I really admire her, like, how thoughtful and intentional she is. That's awesome. So to everyone listening, contrary to what I say all the time, she actually is a really caring person.

She never directs that care towards me, but she does direct it towards all of these amazing men and women. So, Kelly, shout out. We're glad you're in our gang. And we really, really hope that I was going to say it. I'm not going to say it. Love you guys. Bye.