The Dr. John Delony Show - My Wife Gave Me an Ultimatum

Episode Date: September 18, 2024

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Coming up on the Dr. John Deloney Show. She doesn't even necessarily see why a third child would be so difficult because I've made life so much easier but I'm just out of bandwidth my man. I got like nothing left in the tank. I hate hearing when men are doing the best they can with the tools they got and their wives or partners run all over them and And here's the bigger deal. It goes undiscussed. What up? What up? What up? This is John with the Dr. John Deloney Show.

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That's you, baby. That's me. So what's up, brother? How can I help? So the compound question's got two parts. If you'll indulge me like 15 seconds to get that out, I am well prepared. Go for it. I am not well prepared. This ought to be good. This ought to be good. Love it. So when you're the people pleaser in a relationship and always fixing the problems

to protect or make your spouse's life easier or help keep the peace, what do you do when you encounter a problem that you cannot fix? And the second part of that question, we'll see if you can link this together. What do you do when your wife gives you an ultimatum? You give me a third baby or else? You got bigger fish to fry. Walk me back on the people pleaser part. Tell me what you mean by that. Unpack that. Well, I mean, it's kind of how I've always been. Just always kind of walk on eggshells, make sure everything else is taken care of, get everyone else happy. In terms of my relationship with my wife, it's very much no conflict, just the happy wife, happy life, which is a terrible

way to live your life. Absolutely. It's terrible, terrible, terrible. And in a number of ways, early on, I would try and come up to like a conversation that was difficult. I would just kind of get shot down very aggressively, very quickly. Quick rebuke and then punishment like days or weeks of silence. At a certain point, I sort of retreated and was like, all right, I'm not even going to go near the third rail anymore. But what has happened is those small things have gone by and I've kind of laid down. Now we're getting into the bigger complicated life issues. And then the communication is just broken.

I can't stand up for it. But in terms of like the direct problem here, I'm kind of the one who's always walking in front to kind of cushion life to make sure everything's okay for her, make sure there's no stress in her life and do everything I possibly can going above and beyond to make sure there's no issues in her life. I've kind of created like a fake ecosystem that she lives in. So she doesn't even necessarily see why a third

child would be so difficult because I've made life so much easier, but I'm just out of bandwidth, my man. I got, I got like nothing left in the tank. Um, I'm just very stressed out by it all. Um, so people pleasing is, is the one problem. The second part is like, now we've had that, that train of issues not resolved, and we're at this big one that I just can't fix to make her happy, which is devastating to me too. Yeah. Man, I hate this for you.

Thank you. I hate hearing when men are doing the best they can with the tools they got and their wives or partners run all over them. And it doesn't, it's, it's a, it goes unnoticed and it goes uncared for. And here's the bigger deal. It goes undiscussed because I know millions of men are working. They're just working their butts off and it might not be the right thing, but man, the effort is there. And a simple conversation, or like you mentioned early on changes the entire trajectory of a relationship but here you find yourself this

many years later and you're at an impasse um this is a weird question you get something from this um excessive amount of people-pleasing? What do you get on the day-to-day? And not just like a friction-free life. Obviously, I get that you just do whatever she says, eat whatever you want to eat, you get whatever couch she says you want to get, and you just go figure it out

because it's not worth the fight. But you get something from this as well. What is that? Sure. I think that's a great question. I think I like to be liked or i need to be liked yeah the other the other problem is like i do like to be liked but because i i crave that i like lose the respect of the people that i want to like because they just walk out

that's it if that makes sense one million percent and nobody i i think people want two things simultaneously they want things to be easy they want to quote unquote be happy right so they want to get whatever they want whenever they want it and then deep down nobody really wants that because they know it's not safe right sure um man do you have an example of a relationship in your life when you finally stood up for yourself and said i'm dev andvin, I'm not going to do this anymore? Yeah, I mean, I didn't realize this until I did some real deep thinking as the past three months when this issue on the third baby has come up. I've done a lot of soul searching, like, why am I like this and why am I just so avoidant, convict? I have a brother.

I'm the youngest of five, but my oldest brother was just an absolute monster to deal with, always pushing everybody around. You don't respect me. Just very, very difficult. And our family, it was very much like, hey, you just let him go. He's not around all the time. So just let him do what he's doing. Don't stand up to him because you have to walk on the actuals because if we push back, he might leave the family. And, you know, about five years ago, I finally stood up for myself and was like, you know, in a number of different ways. And I kind of threw him out of the family in a way. But that was the first time I really stood up for myself. But I see kind of tendencies between that and my wife. Like if I kind of dip my toe in there, it just gets the rebuke is so quick and so swift. It's just, it's, it's, it's hard to not, um, be conditioned to just like, I'm just going to go back here and just, what's fine. I won't even be happy. I'll just, whatever you need, I'll do just please don't yell at me. Is that, is that a paper tiger? If you hung in there through the initial, um,

high winds, does it crumble pretty fast? Or is she a person who's just full of rage and anger and immaturity? So that's a great question. See, the thing about it is kind of both. So recently I've started kind of holding my ground because what will happen is generally in a relationship, I've caved. If she wanted something and I was like, I don't know if we could afford that, eventually I'll cave and just be like, all right, I'll figure something out. Because I can't figure this out by necessity. I've kind of had to stand up a little bit more because there's just no easy fix to it. And she has kind of crumbled a little bit. But what has happened over, and this has all happened past by like three months, excuse me, is she'll escalate it, like the rhetoric. So like in the beginning, like three months ago, it was like, hey, if we

have a third, I'd be really, I'd be really sad. And then it escalated to, I don't know if I'd ever get over it. And then quickly within like a month, it was, I'll resent you forever if we don't do it. And then it was like, excuse me. And then it was, if we don't do it, I'll resent you. But also, I'm going to find a way to have a third baby somewhere with someone else. And you know, you're going to be back. You're gone. So Devin, you're worth more than this brother.

I appreciate that. I'm not just saying that to be trite. Cause your brother, your older brother didn't become a monster in a vacuum either. You've been living with this crap your whole life. Yeah. Is your mom pretty tough on you? No.

I mean, my mom is the living embodiment of a saint. I think probably the other way where she was, she's just so good and doesn't think anything bad about anyone. What about your dad? What about your dad? My dad was kind of, seems very quiet. I think that like very early on with my my oldest brother they just kind of got conditioned to like just let it be that way just let it go and

they got run over too and then it just kind of dripped down to me and the family where i was like i guess i can't push back ever but um that's difficult my dad is deceased now but my mom's still around and i don't want to talk to all the, but your dad didn't have some nuclear reactor in his chest where he was real quiet and just kind of did his thing, but everybody damn well knew you don't cross that. No, I mean, he was a really kind child. There was no, like, there really wasn't any anger. I mean, I'm sure that he wasn't a guy who complained. Well, here's where the anger comes. If there is, and I don't say it's rare, but it's not common. If there's just a pretty remarkable parent, and then a child's a monster.

Who knows what happened when he was at his friend's house, whether he was abused. Who knows? It could be anything. It could just be, let's just say that's just the way that is. There's also a stark resentment, and it's hard to go there when on the face your parents were kind and loving and thought well of everybody. But there's an inner rage in the third and fourth and fifth child, almost universally. Yeah. Because they're constantly asking the question why didn't some freaking adult protect us yeah it's a good point and then you pass that on and then you try

to become the protector for everybody and everything and the only person you don't protect is you yep and you and then you wake up at one moment say i can't do this anymore and then it's a weird it's a weird thing because you find yourself blaming your wife for the world you created for her, right? Yeah, true. And it doesn't give her a pass, but also this is just the ecosystem. So let me, like, getting right to it. I would ask you not to bring a third child into this mess as it currently sits. Yeah. If I could snap my fingers and have

made one more life decision and I could have it however I wanted it, I would have had a third child. I didn't, but I would have. Okay. Life didn't give that to me. We had a lot of challenges and et cetera, et cetera. But so I love the idea of a third kid. Sounds awesome. What I want to challenge you on is not incrementally. You can't incrementally change the dynamic of this marriage to the way that y'all are both going to become healthy. There's going to have to be some sort of line. Cause now your wife is threatening divorce. She's threatening infidelity.

She's threatening the very foundation that you walk on. Yeah. Like in fact, the foundation that you spent a long time curating so that she could have a safe Predictable life. She's like i'll smash all of it If you don't give me what I want and it's escalating and I always look for trends Okay Does someone just say something dumb one time does someone just have a one-night stand like I get those things happen

I look at these trend lines This is trending in a pretty tough direction. At some point, whether it's just y'all two, and if you tell me she can't handle it, she won't, I say can't, she refuses to handle it, which is more likely the case. She's just too immature to do it. Then you're going to have to get a therapist. You have to get a third party, but you have to make the proclamation the way our marriage has been is over. I'm not doing it anymore. You can't get...

Does that make sense? And then you have to decide, here's what it's going to look like. And she might just say, forget you, dude. I'm out. Yeah, definitely. I definitely see that. And just kind of update on that is we did agree to go to therapy. We actually went to our first couples therapy yesterday.

Okay. How did it go? It went fairly well. I've gone to therapy myself, including I still go to therapy. I see someone roughly a couple times a month. For how long have you gone? To my therapist? Yeah.

About six months. Okay. Has your therapist encouraged any sort of action plan to begin to regain autonomy? Yeah, I mean, he thinks I should stand up myself more and be honest. And to be fair, I've just, you know, the other piece of baggage, if I may, is I had a prior marriage that lasted only about two years, and then we divorced, and that was a situation where I could never make her happy, and it was just, so coming into this marriage, I also wanted to, like, I wanted less conflict, I just wanted to make everybody happy even more, so it's, like, elevated. Well, and the paradox is you get less

conflict when everybody's confident of the boundaries to get more conflict when people don't understand there's a length to how far this rope will just go and i'll just keep pulling it yeah no it's 100 true so we had our first couples there but yesterday it went relatively well i gave a lot of credit for going because she's very resistant to those types of things um but it's it's strange because i kind of lay out my concerns and there's several and i would in theory kind of lay out my concerns and there's several, and I would, in theory, kind of like you, I would love a third. Like, that would be amazing to me.

I just don't, I don't think we can pull it off. I don't think it's right for our family. We have two kids. Um, obviously it's not going to be her. So, but it's like a stalemate and she's, there's no concern. You got to understand that the child is the proxy war. Oh yeah. No,

a hundred percent. Because if you have a third kid, it's going to be another thing. You will get me that car. I'm going to find a husband who will, you get me that house in that neighborhood. It's just going to always, it's always going to be moving because there's no boundary.

She's anchored into something that has is rootless. You're, you're, you're spot on, which is not surprising because I watch your show quite a bit, but, but like we're already, we're at the kind of tail end of on, which is not surprising because I watch your show quite a bit, but, but like, we're already,

we're at the kind of tail end of that, which is the extent of like, um, we've had those other ones where it's like, she wanted to have the big expensive house. We have, we have the car, we have other things.

And all those times it was always me fucking under the pressure of her leaving or her separating or something. And I'll figure it out. I'll figure out, okay, we'll look at the house. But now we're at that point now where it's like, I can't just snap my fingers and give us what we need to have this baby.

So like, I know this is a proxy because if, if this dam breaks and we have a third, um, there'll be a conversation a year now about a fourth or an addition on the house or a beach house or a car or something like she's also, and it's not fair to shut the phone. Um, but like she's a person who's never backed down and she's never been told no by her family when they were growing up sure so it's very found someone who would never tell her no like pathologically she's great for her well it's not though it's drowning her and it's about the cost of her marriage she doesn't even

know it that's why i think the most compassionate thing you can do And it sounds counterintuitive is to say no more The conversation about a third child ends and I won't engage in it for one calendar year Because we have too much work to do It's like adding a new roof on a house whose basement is completely flooded not doing not even not even having a conversation about it It's madness Yeah Because this relationship cannot hold flooded not doing not even not even having a conversation about it it's madness yeah because this relationship cannot hold that that's that's my concern uh no no no you're starting to avoid it now well but yeah i mean but the the reason why that last part is difficult for her is because, like, she's, we're older now.

And so this would, like, we couldn't even, if a third was an option, like, my view is we have to fix the marriage. How old are you? How old are you? I'm 38. She's 39. My neighbor across the street last night, we were hanging out for a long time. He's got a little bit less than a one-year-old, and he's 41 years old. Well, yeah, okay. Y'all are fine.'all are fine. You're fine. And 100%. Hold on. Let's stop talking about her for a second. Just listen to me. This has been your pattern your entire life for almost 40 years.

What you've done is not working anymore. You have a choice. You can just keep going. You're going to end up with a third kid, and you're probably crafty enough to figure it out and bury yourself in the process just like your parents did. If that's your choice, choose that. Hold your head up high, and then go on about your day.

But if you choose something different, it's going to feel radically uncomfortable. And not only from her, from your inner compass, because your inner compass says you have one job and that is to bury yourself and make sure everybody else gets whatever they want, whenever they want. And so the discomfort, like I hear you challenging me and I'm not mad. I'm not frustrated. In fact, I'm loving you for it, but I'm hearing you play out the last 40 years in real time yeah which is math doesn't matter two plus two equals four doesn't matter it's not safe i'm just going to tell you it's two plus two equals five and let's move on with our day and if you look at and i'm looking at this culturally

that's kind of the cultural narrative we have. And dude, we've ended up on the moon. Like facts aren't even facts anymore. You know what I mean? Like data is not data. Reality is not reality. We live in a video simulation. It's so strange, but it's this idea that there has to be some innate discomfort to say.

I want to be a part of a marriage where we're both working towards something, not where I am a servant. I am not a maid in my own home. I am not a direct deposit. I am a co-creator of an amazing life, and both of us get to choose that. Yeah, yeah. of an amazing life and both of us get to choose that. Yeah. Yeah. It, I,

one thing I've struggled with on top of all this is like, I've, my, my belief on kind of in the marriages, you know, you're, I think you said before, once before, like you're kind of underneath it all.

You're not above it. You're like underneath. That's right. Like you're holding everything up almost, but there's like this weird line between like serving them and being a servant. And like, I struggle with that. Like I'm doing everything because I feel like- Look, you can get under a squat rack. I did legs this morning. You can get under a squat bar and lift it and hold it. Also a doormat is underneath everything too, where people wipe

the dog crap off their shoes on you. That's my problem, right? Like that's- There's a difference. Yeah, I have a hard time with that. One is about stability and strength, and I will be a foundation. And the other is I'm a doormat. But that means you have to ask yourself the terrifying question, what do I actually want and what do I actually need?

And I don't think you've ever done that. No, I don't think that I have. And I'm telling you right now, you're communicating to your kids, you don't get wants and needs. Your wants and needs are to be a donkey for everybody else in your life, to ride on, whip, carry, drag, whatever. And donkeys don't co-create. They just do what they're told. Yeah, and deep down, I can't really blame, anyway, in some ways, my wife for it,

because I did build this ecosystem that she's capitalizing on. Let's move blame out of the context. That's not going to do anything for anybody. That's where the conversation, and it can be done with your therapist, that's where the conversation is so critical to say, however we got here, we're here. Does it matter if we took a right turn, a left turn, four lefts, two rights,

then we went on the back road, went over, over, doesn't matter. We are here right now. I'm not driving anymore until we get a new map that we drive, that we're gonna draw up together and it's gonna have a destination on it that we both agree on, period, end of story. And that destination is gonna be hard for us.

We've never done it before. Never had a budget, never made a choice together. We've never chosen to not go out. We've never chosen a smaller house because we have goals 25 years from now. We have goals for our grandkids. We've never said, we're not going to, we're not going to, we don't even know how to do that, but that's our roadmap. That's where we're headed. And we're going to do that together. You've never done that. And so at some point you just say,

I'm done driving in this car. This car, I'm not driving it anymore. I would love for you to get in this other car with me and then we're going to build a map together and then we're going to create a destination and we're going to go get there. Be underwater, over bridges. We have to walk some, hike some, but we're going to go make that happen.

And you're in a good position because you have that with your therapist my recommendation is you write out what do you want comes to dinner when it comes to i want to be taken seriously i want to um i want us to do a budget together every week i want us to exercise together whatever it is i don't care you get to decide that but you have to be willing to put it down on a piece of paper. And brother, you got to be willing for her to look at it and go, screw you, I'm out. If that happens, you have to understand she said, screw you, I'm out a long time ago. And she's just been using you as an ATM deposit machine. That's it.

If she says, my God, you're right. I can't believe we got here. I would love to build something new. And I don't even know how. And you got a therapist saying, I got you. I'll walk alongside you. Thanks for the call, man. You're worth sitting down and figuring this out. What do I want? What do I need? And then man, you got to write it down. You got to communicate it and do it in front of a therapist because she hasn't been able to hear it. And you can have some compassion for her,

but have some compassion for yourself. She's dragged you around long enough. She's beat you up long enough. She's threatened you enough. You're a good man, and you're worth having somebody that builds life with you. Thanks for the call, man. We'll be right back.

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slash Deloney. All right, let's go out to Akron, Ohio and talk to Mary, Mary. What's up, Mary? I had a feeling you'd be asking me why I'm bugging. And here it is. I love Run DMC, one of my favorites of all time. What's up? All right. So thank you so much for taking my call. Of course.

My question for you is, should I confront my dad about possibly having a son that no one is acknowledging or should it be let go? Sweet. I love it. So great. What happened? Jerry, Jerry, what happened? All right. So, um, there's a lot of information here. Um, but a few years ago, my sister found a picture of the son of the woman that, to work for our dad back in the 80s. So this boy is, guy, I don't know, is only three months younger than I am. And he is a carbon copy of our dad. Like, looks nothing like his mom, dad, brother. Um, and since years ago, when we first found that picture, that first picture, um, it's become, I feel like even more and more evident

that he just looks exactly like our dad. And. Okay. So you got a picture, give me another um so uh let's see so uh back like i said back in the um 80s they worked together she worked for him uh they worked often like late at night things like that um he does have a history of cheating um i don't think that this one was I don't think this one was caught Specifically I mean they made a person Do you really think in your guts your mom has no idea No that's the thing So my sisters and

My mom Know we all know this So this is kind of Is your mom still married to your dad She is absolutely not She is not not. Okay. She is not. Okay, here's what I would do.

I would leave my dad out of it. Do you have a relationship with your dad? Yes. So I actually work for my dad. Our family business. You know what? Because why not? Let's make this super weird.

It's awful. Have you ever met this other guy? This brother of yours maybe? Yes. We actually all have. They're from neighboring towns. My dad actually periodically has talked about him and his family to us. I have met him. My sister has met him. My husband has met him. And my dad actually sees this boy and his family on like a weekly basis at their social club. All right, here's what we're going to do. Are you ready?

Yeah. I want you to just like, quote unquote, bump into him like at a local coffee shop. And then take his coffee cup. And like then run out the door with it. And then go to to one of those places that they have in spy movies where you can get the DNA off of it. And then they'll put it in the Megatron converter

like they have on CSI, and you'll know. Or here's the second thing. That would be the way I want you to do it because that would make for a really good YouTube show. But number two, I would call this guy and say, I have a sneaking suspicion would you be willing

to take a 23 and mate with me so this is my conundrum because or our conundrum since we all know about this it's like he has been brought up in what appears to be a very good family. He has two loving parents. He has a really great... His whole life is a lie, if this is true. Yeah. And I, for one, am not participating in lies anymore. Because you know why? You've been part of a lie your whole life. Extremely. And if you have a brother, it would be cool to get to know him.

Maybe. Maybe it wouldn't be. Which is the bigger cost? Keeping it or getting it out there? I've yet to see where keeping a ginormous atomic family secret helps anybody in the long term. I know that does really it just makes us feel or like i'm going to speak for myself it makes me feel like i'm often living a lie because obviously i am in a lot of regards and especially when these people are mentioned to us it it makes

me i would say just kind of makes us sick like it's this dangling thing out in front of us. But can I tell you, Mary? You don't know. You're ignoring something really big. Huge. What is it? I'm sure you're right, but what is it? You are sick.

I hate to use this word. It's just one coming to my head. You're grossed out by Mary. You know why? Because you're raised by a cowardice man who lacks integrity. And now that's your boss. That's where you go every day. You take a paycheck from this person.

Yeah. And there's a part of you every day you clock in or whatever salary you take, you know that the person you're working for lacks the most basic level of integrity. Won't even acknowledge a son, a child. That means he is untethered to any sort of integrity or dignity. He'll do anything. You're 100% correct on that. I mean, I... And that means you have found yourself slowly participating,

which means you're becoming him. And you hate that. Oh, God. Stop. You hit the nail on the head because you are... Oh, my gosh, you're absolutely right. I've seen that. Stop. Stop. You hit the nail on the head because you are, oh my gosh, you're absolutely right. I've seen that. Stop. Stop.

It's a charade. And yes, I know this will come with economic consequences and I'm not saying do it today. Right. But without, so I guess, you know, I'm, I've always been like like my biggest worry is going through this and obviously bringing this to light and then obviously being like gaslit about it and having no proof. That's why I go straight to that dude. That's why I go straight to that dude. That's why talking to someone who has been a human being who does not tell the truth, who lies to those closest to him, it's a complete waste of your time. Oh. I have a rule. i only bring up hard things i only have conversations i only say things to people who will hear them

okay and you have a deceptive lying potentially father and let's take this one off you say he's has a history of infidelity he's been's been cheating on your mom for their marriage. Yes, I've been around numerous girlfriends my whole life. Okay. And I won't ask about business stuff, but I know the data says that there is a high correlation. So, like, you know all of this. I do. And so, asking the person in the middle of it is of no value to you.

You know that answer. What I would want to know is forget my dad. Is that guy my brother? And if so, I want to interact with him. And he may say, that guy is my dad. I know for certain he told me a long time ago. That guy may say, I've had my suspicions or whatever. And I agreed to not say anything. Or he might say, dude, I've been wondering my whole life. I would love to do a 23 and meet with you. Interesting. I just never really felt like

that was my place to get into his business, even though it would could be my business. This is your business too. Right. This is your business too. Right. This is your business too. Yeah, and I guess I've also been very, I guess, scared to pull any threads that could unravel the little connection that I do, I guess, have with my dad. You don't have a connection. It's false.

It's fake. It's not real. It's a charade. Both of y'all are playing. You're playing like, yeah, I love him. He's my dad. I trust him have a connection. It's false. It's fake. It's not real. It's a charade. Both of y'all are playing. You're playing like, yeah, I love him. He's my dad. I trust him. I work for him. And he is like, yeah, I'm playing a charade like I'm a good present father who takes care of my daughter. No, he doesn't. Oh,

well. I mean, am I wrong? No. No. It's just, it's a puppet show. That just hurts to hear. Yeah, it's brutal. It a puppet show that just hurts to hear it's brutal okay I mean does he overpay you for the job you're in

in no way shape or form could you get another job in Akron Ohio for a similar wage potentially probably yeah I mean I know that I'm smart and very capable. I do. Okay. More than, yeah, absolutely. Okay. But then I don't have that one thing, I guess. And I'm telling you right now, you don't have it now. It's not a real thing. Yeah yeah you're sitting next to a ghost oh i hate it for you breaks my soul for you yeah and you need to hear me say to 14 year old mary do this was never your fault right but it's not about him it's about you

deciding i am going to live in the light and anybody who wants to live in the light with me, I would love to have you here. But I can't drag you. I can only choose my freedom. And my freedom means I don't live around lies anymore. Cool. That's a big one I just I feel like that's what the entire basis of most

things in my life has been built on I know and it's been that way your whole life isn't it 100% yeah yeah absolutely can I ask you even harder scarier question oh yes are there secrets that your husband doesn't know?

Um, no. I don't think so. He's, I think, in the last few years, he's been horrified at the truths that have finally come out of me.

No, no, no, no, no. That's not what I'm talking about. Not your, not your, not the Jerry Springer show that is your extended family. Okay. Are there things that you don't tell him?

I mean, I don't know how to answer that because I don't know if there's things that I just don't even tell myself. Okay. Here's what I'm asking. Apples and trees Often kids who grow up in these situations Where the whole family knows you just don't say certain things And then you can kind of do what you want to do You just don't say it

And everybody smiles And you move on with your life Those turn into your family too Right And you have things going on at work You have things that Co-workers that you text back You have whatever going on at work You have things that Co-workers that you text back You have whatever goes on in the world

And husband doesn't need to know We're good Or there's No Okay If there's not, awesome Yeah, I would say not Amazing

We did go through difficult patches 100% Everybody goes through difficult patches Not anymore Okay What I want to encourage you is, if you are experiencing freedom in your own marriage,

in your own home, we just call it like it is. We tell each other whatever it is. We just say it. I want you to extrapolate that to the rest of your life, man.

And let's say you call it. Let's say you call that dude this afternoon. Say, I need to have a private conversation with you over coffee. And you slide the DNA test across the table and say, I think you're my brother. Maybe I'm crazy, but I think you're my brother. Would you take this?

Ooh. Okay. Let's just pretend. Let's say he said, you're a crazy lady, and he runs out and calls your dad. And your dad blows up. Yeah. What have you lost? I guess normalcy.

Is that what you would call what you have right now? I'm used to it. Okay, that's fair. That's fair. But it's not, I mean, it's not, I wouldn't say stability or safety or anything like that. Yeah. Okay, maybe that's a good way to say it.

You're trading normalcy for wellness. You're trading the known for the unknown. and the unknown could be worse it could be theoretically the unknown could be amazing it could be freeing heartbreaking something to grieve but it could be amazing so i all i can do in this situation not. I don't have to live with the repercussions So it's easy for me just to like throw my two cents in the in, you know in the ring I would not have this conversation with my dad because he's proven himself to be somebody who's not trustworthy Over and over and over and over and over and over again

I would need to know do I have a brother? And so I would sit down with that man and say, I need to have a cup of coffee with you. And I'm going to ask you to keep this quiet between us, but I know I can't control you. And I'm choosing to not try to control anybody else anymore. I just want to live in the light. I have a sneaking suspicion in my guts that you're my half-brother,

and I'd love to figure that out, find out if that's true or not. Would you be willing to do it? That's what I would do if it was me. That's what I would do if it was me. Mary, if you choose to have this conversation with him, please do me a favor and let us know. There'll be a whole bunch of people listening who want to know, is he actually your brother or not?

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right now. All right, we are back. Let's go to Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania and talk to Marcy. Hey, Marcy, what's happening? Good morning. Thank you, Dr. Deloney, for your time today. Thank you for calling. What's going on? Sure. My question to you today is, how can I work through the emotional numbness I'm experiencing after witnessing a traumatic event? Yikes, what happened? Well, I'll provide a little color context around my question. So I was on the front row at the Trump rally where the assassination attempt on Trump's life took place. Wow, on the front row.

Yeah, I was. Right in front of him, right behind him, um, in front of him. Wow. And yeah. And I was right below where Cody was sitting and, um, I unfortunately watched as, um, he got shot and as the CPR was performed. Okay, stop right there, stop right there, stop right there. Where is that in your body right now? I don't know. I guess kind of in my tummy. Kind of makes me sick still. Okay.

Close your eyes for me. And picture seven or eight men and women rushing that stage where is that in your body i think it's still kind of in my in my tummy area i guess okay put your hand on there right now as you're telling me this okay okay so then you see him doing cpr on this man yeah okay scene turns pretty chaotic yeah for sure okay were you with family friends well unfortunately um prior to the event a situation had happened and i had ended up going to the front to save a spot for my husband and mother-in-law. But unfortunately, they had only anticipated around 5,000 to 7,000 people to be in attendance

and over 15,000 people showed up. So unfortunately, the crowd became so large and tightly packed that they couldn't make their way to me before the rally began. So we ended up being separated. Okay, why don't you do me a favor? Close your eyes again. And I want you to picture those seven or eight men and women storming the stage. And you look over and see them doing CPR. And then I want you to imagine yourself turning around to see where your husband and your mother-in-law are.

Where's that in your body? It still feels in my tummy. I mean, that's exactly what I did. That, oh, God, I'm all by myself. Yeah, for sure. Do me a favor. Drop your shoulders. Oh, God, I'm all by myself. Yeah, for sure. Do me a favor, drop your shoulders. Oh God, I'm all by myself.

Is that in your guts? Yeah, for sure. Okay. Take a big, deep breath. Let it out. Okay. Then what happened? Yeah, there was just a lot of confusion. Obviously, I couldn't see them, and I guess they blocked the cell signals. And I guess I understand they do it for safety in case there would be multiple shooters, so they can't communicate. But then neither could we communicate with anyone else either so you know i was immediately calling texting and you know there was just no way that i could get through to them yeah i'm sorry you were in all that I'm sorry that you saw what you saw you're not supposed to see that stuff

yeah that's for sure and nobody's supposed to feel that alone it's amazing what we can absorb when we're with people that we know are in our gang it's extra terrifying when you see that we can absorb when we're with people that we know are in our gang. It's extra terrifying when you see that, when you experience that, and you feel the chaotic. The words that we used to use in the crisis world is when something sets off and you look around and you got no gang.

You're on your own. Yeah, that was definitely the feeling for sure. Can I ask you a personal, personal question? Sure. When you finally got reconnected, you got home, let me ask you this, over the past month or two, how much news coverage have you watched of this? YouTube coverage, social media coverage? Yeah, I've watched an awful lot of it. I really have because in some ways, one, I've never been under live fire before. Sure.

Most people in America haven't, right? Yeah, that's probably true. But yeah, I mean, like you want to get every little ounce of what possibly happened and see every view of the situation that you possibly can i'm gonna tell you something crazy i'm gonna say something wild okay what your body is engaging in is a very modern phenomena the ability to watch something i was presently a part of with 55 million angles and 10,000 different opinions and conspiracy theories and drama and this and that, that

is a very, very recent moment in human history and our bodies are not designed to replay and replay and replay. And what you're experiencing is some version of freeze. Okay. Your body has captured the moment and is frozen in it. And what you're trying to do is to gather all the data points you possibly can so that in some fantasy, you can keep this from happening again. Okay, that's interesting. And here is a terrifying truth.

You can't. None of us can. In our current world, if somebody wants to hurt a whole bunch of people, by and large, they can. And that is a new terror for those of us in the United States. It's a terror that, I mean, if you go overseas, I remember asking a friend and she was stationed in South Korea and I was like, are you not worried?

And she just pulled a gas mask out of her purse. And I was like, that's not normal. And she goes, it is for me. It's just is for me. Wow. It's just new for us. And so we, we freeze and we think that more data, if I can get a better look at the lion that tried to attack me,

I'll be able to watch out for it next time. Okay. And so you process it alone and then more alone and then more alone. And you go down rabbit holes and more rabbit holes. Here's what I'm trying to tell you to do. You got to turn it off. You were there. You know.

You were there. Yeah. Yeah, I was. And you realize more so than most of us, how fragile life is and how you are literally feet and or inches away. Mm-hmm. For sure. And what you have to do is let your body process this.

And that's going to be, for you, a choice because you are so cleansed right now. Okay. And I guess I'm just not really sure how to do that. No, I got it. I know. I know. I struggle with it too and I know how. And I struggle with it. Because there's a part of your body

that has said, I will never feel this scared again. And the way it has done that is by trying to grab every shred of everything in the environment, and unfortunately, the way to heal is to say, I could have died. I watched somebody right in front of me die. I was at an event that they will write about in 150 years in our textbooks.

I was terrified. I was scared to death. I couldn't find my husband. I couldn't find my mother-in-law. I was terrified I was scared to death I couldn't find my husband I couldn't find my mother-in-law I was all alone and then healing is but I'm okay I made it

I'm safe and that feels very powerless to go through that process and I have not figured out any way shape form or fashion that a person can do that on their own as the great david kessler says grief demands a witness i watched another person die i watched another person get shot and almost die within a quarter of an inch i watched what i thought would have been a safe place become a very unsafe place.

The foundation that I walk on has been shaken. Yeah, I mean, of any place you would think that was one of the safest places, because in my mind, you have FBI and Secret Service all over the place and watching us all closely. And it happened. And so exhaling is about metabolizing it. This happened to me. Sometimes I'll have somebody write a letter and they have to read it to somebody else who was there. This also means that you have to have a husband

who can be scared with you and say, I didn't know what happened. I had a thought that my wife might have died. I, as this provider and protector, I couldn't protect my wife. I didn't even know where she was. I just knew she was down there by all the chaos. In a strange, weird way, it would be healing for you to hear from your husband, I was terrified that I'd lost you. Processing this type of trauma comes from, and this goes counterintuitive,

comes from vulnerability. It comes from saying the truth out loud and being heard. Prevention of this happening again doesn't come from vulnerability. It comes from thinking and strength and architectures and designing and engineering, creating worlds that are safe. But the processing of we almost just died comes from two people looking at each other,

three people looking at each other and saying, what was your story? And saying it out loud and not letting news pundits and YouTube yahoos and internet whatever, they don't get a vote on this. And by the way, people are going to tell you, you have to cry, you have to scream, you don't have to do anything your body doesn't want to do. Yeah, that's one thing I can't cry since it's happened. not the type of person to cry at the drop of a hat, but neither am I the person that, you know, if something is very sad or, you know, I mean, I will cry, and I just, I can't cry at all.

Do you have a sense of your body feeling clenched up? Yeah, I mean, I definitely feel very stressed and tense. Like I can feel it all in my muscles, I feel like. Yeah, and your hand back on your tummy, like right there in your guts. Here's my recommendation to you. I want you to propose to your wife and your mother-in-law. Tell her you heard it from some guy on the YouTubes. Okay.

That we write down maybe a couple of paragraphs on what happened,es. Okay. That we write down maybe a couple of paragraphs on what happened, what we experienced. But I want you to spend a couple of paragraphs on what you felt. Okay.

I was scared. Couldn't find you. I felt lost. I missed you. Whatever words come to mind and encourage your husband not to be tough guy McGee, and I'm not saying he is, but he might be,

I would be tempted to write, I was ready to dominate, instead of what was underneath that, which is, oh my God, I thought I lost my wife. And there's just a knowing from sitting around each other and saying, here's what I felt, and here's what I experienced, and now we're all safe.

And the goal is to let your body unclench. It's metabolizing it. It's experiencing it. And then you have to make a choice. I'm not going to keep replaying this thing over and over and over and over and crystallize that 3D experience. You lived it. It's in your body.

You don't need to watch it over and over again. It's hard not to go through it in my mind though over and over and over again. And that rumination, that rethinking is your body's way

of playing it over and over so that if this ever happens again, you'll be safe this time. And you also realize just how random, just how random. There's no amount of, you know what I mean? There's no amount of planning. There's some choices you can make in the future. Like I'm never going to go forward without my, without my family, or I'm never going

to go to a big rally again. Or I like, you can make those kinds of choices but getting in the car it's random some guy just is texting on the way to work and it's all over for five different cars right I mean it's just that's our life and we we have this illusory um insulation to it all so when so when it happens, remember the line, grief demands a witness. Your body will hold it until it has a safe place to exchange it. And by the way, this is a hard conversation. And if your husband won't do it, then you need to go talk to a counselor and say, I need to process this story. I'm not saying you need therapy. Hear me something different. You've got to find somebody that you can have this hard conversation.

You can just let it be. And you might have to have it a couple of times. And you're going to get to a point where the rumination becomes a choice. Okay? When that lightning bolt pops into your head of the panic and your eyes get real wide and you look over and see them doing CPR on Cody, you can keep that picture in your mind. Or you can choose the moment

when you saw your husband and y'all run and grab each other and hug. You can't stop the lightning bolt. You can't stop that initial image in your mind, but you can choose what you meditate on afterwards. And so if you have that picture when you first saw your husband and you ran up afterwards. And so if you have that picture, when you first saw your husband and you ran up and he grabbed you and you grabbed him,

just have that ready to go. Every time you have a scary thought about this situation, we're going to go there. Because that replaying the scary parts feels like helpful thinking, and I'm telling you right now, it's not. How does that all sound? Yeah, I mean, that makes sense to me.

And just, I guess, just the thought process that I can control my thoughts. Like I can't maybe control the first thing that pops into my head, but just choosing not to think about it or just- No, no, no, don't not think about it. That's called burying it. Or here's the language.

You bury it or you compress it way down. What's another word for compress? What do you do with a... Kind of stuff it down in. Yeah. Stuff it down in. Yeah. You take a popsicle stick

and you put it on your tongue. What do they call that when you mush it down? I'm not sure. You depress it. You depress. Yeah. We're not going to do that.

We're not going to depress it down into our body. We're going to find somebody who's safe and we're going to say it out loud. When the thought pops in our head, we're not going to get out of our thought head, which by the way reinforces it. We're going to replace it. Okay.

With, oh my gosh, I see him, I see him, I see him. And I go running and we grab each other and we hug. I'm sorry you were there. I'm sorry you saw that. I'm sorry all that's a part of your lived experience now. And I'm so grateful that you're safe. So grateful that you're safe. So grateful that you're safe. And for everybody who experiences

this deep level of tragedy, sees things you're not supposed to see, it feels like we're supposed to go watch it over and over again. It feels like we're supposed to dissect it and pull it apart. That makes rational sense, but it doesn't aid in healing.

What aids in healing is sitting down from somebody else and saying, yeah, you too? Yeah, me too. I thought I was all gone. I thought I was lost. And yet here we are. Can I hold you? Can I touch you?

Oh, there's that thought again. There's that thought of my spouse with somebody else who we cheated on. There's that thought of that person doing CPR. There's that thought of my spouse with somebody else who we cheated on. There's that thought of that person doing CPR. There's that thought of that car coming right at me. I'm going to choose to think about something else. And I'm going to have a picture ready to rock and roll. And this is not easy and it takes time and you cannot do it by yourself.

But there'll become a season if you do the hard work where I can think about what happened and my body doesn't take off on me. It doesn't freeze on me. I feel it. And then I go do the next right thing. That's healing. And if you find yourself looped and looped and looped and looped, that's when you need to go see somebody. When you just say, I can't, can't do it. I don't have anybody who will listen to me. Yeah. I'm going to go see a professional then. Thanks for the call, Marcy. You're a gift and a blessing. For everybody else,

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All right. No one has ever changed how they treat and love people because someone yelled just the right thing in their face. No one has ever been bullied into being more compassionate, open-hearted, and open-minded. People open their hearts and minds in relationship and connection. People change because of love. If someone wants to fight you over nonsense, let them ride. Yeah, it's just, I mean, that's just our world. We scream at each other and we just yell louder and louder and louder. And nobody is asking that old famous Dr. Phil question,

how's that working for you? And we look around, it's not working. I keep going back to this when Malcolm Gladwell was, and we were both speaking at the same event. And he said, before you debate any topic, quickly pull out a piece of paper, and I'm paraphrasing, but write down a hundred things or a000 things that you want for your kids and ask the person that you want in front of you. What are things you want for your kids?

Cool. Exchange those lists before you debate. And what you're going to find is you'll want about 99% to 98% of the same things for each other's kids. Maybe one or two things are different. Let's debate those two things. But we're going to debate on a bedrock of, did I see you? Same team.

Instead of approaching each other and screaming, it's not working. And so I'm just at a point now, someone wants to yell, I'm out. I'm not going to listen. I'm going to move on with my life because it literally accomplishes zero things ever, ever. And yes, parents, if you yell at your kids, they might take out the trash and you have lost them. Coaches who scream at their athletes,

not to get their attention over the sound of a crowd, but who scream to exert power, you've lost them. Yeah, they'll run the play. You have lost the influence and love and compassion over those people. They will not be changed, men and women. And it goes on and on and on. Politicians, everybody. If you want to exert power, knock your lights out. If you want to change people for the better long term,

pull up a seat at the table. Love you guys. Bye.