The Ezra Klein Show - Our Lives Are an Endless Series of 'And'
Episode Date: May 30, 2025This is a bit of a strange episode. It’s an attempt to explore the difficulty of everything we’re supposed to feel in a day. We’re in a time when to open the news is to expose yourself to horror...s — ones that are a world away, others that are growing ever closer, or perhaps have already made landfall in our lives. And then many of us look up from our screens into a normal spring day. What do you do with that?But that’s not new or exceptional. It’s the human condition. It exists for all of us, and it always has: life intermingling with death, grief coexisting with joy. Kathryn Schulz’s memoir, “Lost & Found,” is all about this experience — the core of her book isn’t losing a parent or finding a life partner. It’s the “and” that connects them both. How do we hold all that we have to hold, all at once? How do we not feel overwhelmed, or emotionally numbed? I found this to be a beautiful conversation. But it’s also a conversation — particularly at the beginning — about loss and grief. That was the part that felt truest to me, and so I hope noting it doesn’t warn you off. But I wanted to note it. Book Recommendations:A Place of Greater Safety by Hilary MantelSpent by Alison BechdelWho Is Government? Edited by Michael LewisThoughts? Guest suggestions? Email us at ezrakleinshow@nytimes.com.You can find the transcript and more episodes of “The Ezra Klein Show” at nytimes.com/ezra-klein-podcast. Book recommendations from all our guests are listed at https://www.nytimes.com/article/ezra-klein-show-book-recs.htmlThis episode of “The Ezra Klein Show” was produced by Annie Galvin. Fact-checking by Michelle Harris. Our senior engineer is Jeff Geld, with additional mixing by Aman Sahota. Our executive producer is Claire Gordon. The show’s production team also includes Marie Cascione, Rollin Hu, Elias Isquith, Marina King, Jan Kobal, Kristin Lin and Jack McCordick. Original music by Pat McCusker. Audience strategy by Kristina Samulewski and Shannon Busta. The director of New York Times Opinion Audio is Annie-Rose Strasser. Special thanks to the Talbot County Free Library. Unlock full access to New York Times podcasts and explore everything from politics to pop culture. Subscribe today at nytimes.com/podcasts or on Apple Podcasts and Spotify.
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I I don't know how to hold all the feelings, even all the thoughts I should have in a day
right now.
The emergency is here and the kids need help with their homework.
I have friends who have fallen terribly ill and others who have just seen their test results
come back clear. I spend days covering efforts to rip healthcare from people and torch the global economy.
And then I'm supposed to go to a birthday party.
I look down at my phone at smoldering ruins in Ukraine and Gaza and Sudan.
And then I look up into a spring day.
I know on some level this is always true, that we are just more or less alive to it
at different times.
But I guess I'm feeling more alive to it right now, more overwhelmed by it right now, more
curious about how to keep myself open to it right now.
And then I ran into this unusually beautiful book that's all about this experience.
It's called Lost and Found.
It's by Catherine Schultz, a writer at the New Yorker. And it's structured around a loss, that of her father, around a finding,
that of finding and falling in love with her partner. And then it's this really moving
meditation on the way it's all connected. The way that we, quote, live with both at
once, with many things at once, everything connected to its opposite,
everything connected to everything. It seemed worth the conversation.
Catherine Schultz, welcome to the show.
I'm delighted to be here. Thanks so much.
I want to start by having you tell me a bit about your father.
Where did he come from?
What a wonderful question to begin with because it has these kind of two valences,
the practical matter of where he came from and the kind of mystifying question of
where any human being and all their wonderful specificity comes from.
In the case of my father, both answers are a little complicated. His mother had fled the shtetl in Poland when it was
clear that the shadow of the Second World War was kind of creeping ever further across
Poland. She came from a family of 12. They had the resources to get one of them to safety
and they chose their youngest daughter, who was my grandmother and indeed her parents and most of her siblings subsequently perished in Auschwitz.
So she gets herself to Tel Aviv. My father is born and then at a very young age, he was
sent away from his mother. He was sent to live on a kibbutz and spent a few years alone there.
His father vanishes or dies, we don't know. My grandmother remarries.
And after the war, their family in a truly unusual trajectory when half of global jewelry in its terrible decimated and refugee status is trying to get to the Holy Land.
decimated and refugee status is trying to get to the Holy Land. My father and his family flee Tel Aviv and go of all places in the world to Germany.
So my father left Tel Aviv at about seven, spent from seven to 12 in Germany,
and then finally the family obtained refugee visas and wound up in Detroit,
which is where he then spent his teenage years.
You have a beautiful passage about your father being on the boat, coming to America,
and trying to conceive of how much turmoil and loss he had already experienced.
Tell me a bit about how much dislocation he'd seen before the age of 12.
Just shocking amounts really.
I mean, my father was born in 1941, so all around him, what should have been whole vast
branches of family trees are just being hewn off viciously and whole communities are being
leveled and destroyed. So there was this kind of background dislocation
attendant upon every Jew born in that era.
But then quite specifically, he was
born essentially a stranger in a strange land.
In 1948, when my father's family left Israel,
or I should say left Palestine, it was still Palestine,
it was effectively a war zone. And indeed an uncle who was traveling with him in the caravan
to Haifa to leave at the port there was shot and killed in the car with my father in the car in the backseat when it happened. There was a kind of omnipresent violence and insecurity that characterized his young life that is just shocking for me
to contemplate in part because he then dedicated his adult life to providing for his children
the stability he did not have growing up.
I read stories like this and I've been reading Melting Point, which is a different sort of
very interesting kaleidoscopic history of this era for Jewish people.
But I was also reading Wolf Hall where everybody's endlessly dying of tuberculosis.
I think of the modesty of the things I try to protect my children from now,
the things that upset me if it happens to them, and then what, you know, every generation
of humanity, including many people live today, the extremism of the experience.
And it's hard to imagine how you go through that
and just keep going, and yet people did and do.
So, this is a person who's, I mean, he's watched his uncle get murdered in the car next to him.
What kind of person does he become?
My father became the kind of person who you would never guess the quantity of tragedy
that lay in his past.
You would never guess that his whole family had been decimated by the Holocaust,
that he had all of this grief and loss and violence at every stage of his life.
My father was bouilliant. He was joyful.
He was incredibly witty.
He was shockingly brilliant.
My dad spoke, I think, eight languages.
But basically, English was the last of his many languages.
And I like to think I'm a reasonably articulate person and my father could talk me out of
the table.
I mean, he just was beautifully gifted with languages. And I guess fundamentally generous of spirit.
You know, his response to the privations of his life
were to live as generous a life as he could,
both with material means, but also with his joy,
with his intellect, with his energy,
his happiness lay in sharing it with the world.
Do you understand his temperament as an act of denial
or an act of acceptance?
What an interesting question.
I've never been asked it before.
I suppose I understand his temperament mostly as a great gift.
And I'm not trying to deny my father credit he deserves.
I know my father made a great many decisions about the kind of life he wanted to live and the kind of man he wanted to be, including in ways that changed over the course
of my life. I saw him actively become a more patient man. Patience did not naturally run
strong in him, nor in me for that matter. And I saw him make choices about equilibrium and
patience. But I think in some fundamental way,
I don't think my father was ever in denial
about the experiences that shaped him.
He didn't speak about them in great detail
until I was myself an adult.
But he certainly never pretended away the past.
And he didn't conversely speak of himself as who he was because he had been forged in the flames of disaster.
I don't think he valorized suffering as the thing that made him who he was.
Now, I certainly think that he had a very acute sense
of what it had meant to be a Jew in the world in the middle of the last century,
an acute sense of what it meant to be a refugee in this country.
I mean, look, my father had two brothers, and one of them was just a year younger than him
and for all intents and purposes shaped by identical forces and could not have been a
more different human being.
So there is something way deep down below the choices we make or our act of will in
the world that is inextricable from who we become. I always wonder when I think about what my grandparents
did not complain much about and what I do complain about
and what the generations younger than me
seem to complain about and our cultural attitude
towards trauma and self-revelation and self-work.
And I'm more of that culture than of the opposite, but I don't look around and think we're happier.
I think that's absolutely right.
And it makes me wonder, are we doing the right thing in our more excavatory culture, or was
there wisdom we have lost in the,
not that people should live in denial,
but the balance of how much we go in
and how much we simply move forward?
Sure, and what is resolving versus what is dwelling upon
and what aspects of our life we choose to emphasize
versus downplay.
You know, there was this sort of greatest generation
stoicism, right?
And this valorization
of never speaking about suffering. And I don't know that that was a perfect solution, right?
I mean, my father was an ebullient character, but his mother, my grandmother, was a deeply,
deeply bitter, unhappy, volatile woman. And heaven knows she came by those qualities honestly, right?
I mean, her life had been unrelentingly traumatic and tragic in ways I cannot fathom surviving.
She refused to talk about it. I tried at various occasions, so did many other people close
to her. And I don't know that her life was improved by never confronting the vast sources of pain within it, at least
never in any way visible to any of the rest of us.
Life is full of suffering.
It's unevenly distributed in tragic ways.
I would never dispute that.
But even the best and luckiest and most privileged life has an unfortunate share of suffering
in it.
And there are choices to be made about how much do we focus on it, how much do we
dwell on it, how much do we speak of it, how do we speak of it and how much do we pay attention
to our own suffering versus the suffering of others.
And I think you're driving at something a little deeper than everyday complaining, which
is a fundamental question about do we regard ourselves as strong and, this is such
an overused word right now, but resilient and able to overcome.
And do we dwell on what is going well or on what we hope to do on our aspirations, on
our motives, on our goals?
Or do we get excessively mired in what has been done to
us or ways that we've been wronged?
And I don't pretend to know the answer and I'm not suggesting we shouldn't speak about
trauma and upset.
As I said, I think it was a great revolution in our culture that people have permission
to do so.
But I share the sense that something was slightly lost in these generations that, yeah, I mean,
my father spent decades not really saying altogether that much about it, both of fascinating and
also unquestionably disruptive and upsetting and traumatic childhood.
I guess I'm also driving at something else.
What moved me quite deeply in your book is its attention to suffering and loss.
There's something about that I think is pretty subtle,
being open to it versus pushing it away.
It feels very deep, neither of those are denial.
You spend a lot of time in the book on the time you spent
with your father in the hospital as he was passing away.
You have this line about hospitals where you say, and I'm trying to get in your quote a
bit but I like this part, in an ICU you are as aware of the brevity of life and the great
looming precipice of eternity, yet at the same time you're basically stuck in an airport.
And there's this sort of coexistence of the banal and the profound.
What were those days like for you?
Deadly dull.
I mean, when nothing is happening,
which is a lot of the time when you have someone in an ICU
with a kind of mysterious set of failing bodily systems,
much of your time is spent doing absolutely nothing. Much of your time is spent doing absolutely nothing.
Much of your time is spent waiting for someone who has the faintest idea what's going on
to come and talk to you, which inevitably happens in the 10 minutes you decide you're
finally going to go get a cup of coffee.
So they felt long, they felt repetitive.
They of course had this kind of specter of fear always on the edges of them, because
it's not like I knew my father was dying the whole time.
At some point that became clear, but for a lot of the time it wasn't clear at all.
I will say this is so much of what this book is about.
They felt a little bit like a gift.
It was this bit of time carved out from the daily grind of, I'm at work, I'm on deadlines,
you know, I'm doing all these predictable things.
It's like, well, no, I am here in this hospital and here we are as a family, like my family
of origin together in a room and how wonderful.
And so it had moments of sweetness.
There was a kind of bleak tedium to it and yet it was always punctuated by the gift
of family.
And then of course, gratitude for the medical professionals who are trying to help us and
outside and around and infusing all of it.
This fear, which proved accurate that these were my final days with my dad. I visited a friend in a hospital recently,
and on one level this felt like the smallest possible reaction,
but it also felt very true.
I just found myself thinking, because she'd been there a while,
like I wish you could be somewhere more beautiful for this.
As you were hurting and as you were, you know, in this experience, that it didn't have to
be here.
That that feels like, that feels like its own level of cruelty.
I think that's often true.
And I think many people experience it that way.
You know, this longing people have still today to die at home, right?
And the resistance to entering
various kinds of care settings. It's not, I don't think just stubbornness or even fear
about, you know, being warehoused in an institution or no one will come visit you or this kind
of thing. It is a real sense that much of what makes life meaningful is absent from
these places.
There is a kind of cruelty at the end of life of all times to not be confronting beauty.
I mean, I will never forget.
I don't know how much of it he could take in, but I'll never forget turning on Beethoven's
Ninth Symphony in my father's hospital room because we felt like he loved music and he
loved classical music. And the urge to fill this incredibly sterile space
with something awe-inspiring and overwhelming in its beauty
was overwhelming within us in that moment.
And we've recited in poetry for the same reason.
And on the one hand, look, I want to be incredibly clear,
I'm profoundly grateful to the medical team who took care of my father at that moment
and many others.
And so I don't mean to suggest there's not a reason these places are the way they are
and that acts of incredible courage and grace and beauty don't happen there.
They do every single day.
But when you are there every single day for a long period of time, you also feel their
kind of emotional
thinness, you know, that life is so abundant.
We'll talk about abundance, I hope, at some point here, but life is so rich and wonderful
and varied and-
Not abundance as we mean it on my podcast, to be honest.
Well, sure.
So much of that is forcibly kept at bay in a hospital.
And you're right, one once more for the sick and the dying.
I'd like to ask you to read a passage.
It's one of my favorite in your book.
It's on page six.
Sure.
For a while after my father died, I could not stop seeing the world as it really is,
marked everywhere by the evidence of past losses and the imminence of future ones.
This was not because his death was a tragedy.
My father died peacefully at 74, tended throughout his final weeks by those he loved most.
It was because his death was not a tragedy.
What shocked me was that something so sad could be the normal, necessary way of things.
In its aftermath, each individual life seemed to contain
too much heartbreak for its fleeting duration.
History, which I had always loved,
even in its silences and mysteries,
suddenly seemed like little more than a record of loss
on an epic scale,
especially where it could offer no record at all.
The world itself seemed ephemeral,
glaciers and species and ecosystems vanishing,
the pace of change as swift as in a time lapse, as if those of us alive today had been permitted
to see it from the harrowing perspective of eternity. Everything felt fragile,
everything felt vulnerable. The idea of loss pressed in all around me,
like a hidden order to existence that emerged only in the presence of grief.
like a hidden order to existence that emerged only in the presence of grief. I think it's the lines that begin and end that,
that you could not stop seeing the world as it really is,
that there is this hidden order to existence that emerges only in the presence of grief,
which got me a bit short, which feel true,
which get a bit to our conversation earlier about denial.
Tell me about that sense of this is a more honest perspective of the world.
It's so funny.
Is it a more honest perspective of the world?
It is certainly accurate by many lights.
Loss is omnipresent.
We will die.
The people we love will die.
The things we build in the grand scheme of things, even in the medium scheme of things,
are relatively transient and fleeting.
There are times in life when the omnipresence
and the scale of this loss do become profoundly visible to us,
at least to me.
I think a lot about scale, right?
And if you dwell on the scale of the world,
let alone the scale of the cosmos,
our lives are stunningly short, they seem,
or can seem stunningly insignificant.
And this sense that everything around us
is terrifyingly fragile is accurate.
You can't look at the grand sweep of things
and not realize how tenuous our foothold in
this world is and how quickly we will be not merely lost but forgotten.
I had this sort of resting moment when I realized I can barely tell you my great-grandparents'
names.
I mean, that is three generations, right?
That is the blink of an eye.
But so it goes.
And everything we love, everyone we love, we are going to have to confront just the
devastating loss of literally all of them.
That's the bleak version, you know, and it's real.
I don't think it's the whole story.
There are ways to try to hold the bifocal vision of that kind of
loss and why our lives are nonetheless not insignificant, or at least not meaningless.
But certainly, you know, in hard moments, and I think for people who struggle with depression
or who have a truly unfair burden of grief in their lives, it can seem like the only
truth about existence.
You call it bleak and there's a dimension of it where it is very bleak and very frightening.
And then also the people I know who abide in it, often, I don't want to say they don't find it
bleak, but they also describe a certain beauty that comes from the noticing of it.
A friend of mine who lost his mother not long ago always tells me with some real sadness
that time doesn't heal wounds, it makes just everything fade.
And that I've sort of watched him grieve the diminishment of his grief and that there was
a sort of a beauty in seeing things as they more really were,
the sort of interconnection of life, the fragility of it.
I think one reason we turn away from these things is it feels annihilating to look at
them, but then the people I know who are looking at them, there's a kind of connection to something
very profound that seems to abide there as well.
Oh, no question about it.
I mean, grief is just an amazing lens.
I mean, its capacity for sharp focus is incredible.
And it is true that there were moments in the depths of grieving
or preparing to grieve my father that the world had never seemed
so beautiful to me or so
much like a gift.
And there's a reason we honor death so much and why so many generations of philosophers
have regarded studying death as the key to figuring out how to live a good life.
The incredible thing about death is it forces you to recognize that you are alive
and that that is not a permanent condition, right?
We have this moment and no other known or given moments to relish that fact
and to savor it and to be grateful for it.
And it is true.
I write a lot towards the end of this book about attention and the gift of attention.
And I do think, you know, some kinds of grief
can turn us inward and away from the world
and obliterate attention in troubling ways.
But I think very often grief and the awareness
of the inevitability of death truly does heighten
our sense of attention and our capacity
to look at the world with gratitude
and look at it with admiration.
And I don't know what other force could do that.
I mean, that's tragic.
I wish there were something else.
I mean, maybe some, you know, illegal drugs I haven't tried, but otherwise, I don't know
what else can make us so profoundly in awe of and grateful for life. It's a question about attention that brought me to this book because my experience of the
last couple of years for me, it's been particularly acute the last couple of months, and this
has been both a personal and at times very political experience,
is this feeling that to try to hold the extremes, to give everything its attention at the same
time, the loss and the horror, like the beauty and the elation, also just the normalcy.
You know, I'll sit here for a day and I'll cover
deportations to El Salvador and torture prisons
and then I'll go home and just have to make dinner
and read books.
And feeling that, I'm sure somebody has the attentional
capacity to hold it, but I don't feel like I do.
Like I have never quite felt this sort of
an overwhelm of the system.
And it felt like something you were exploring in
this book because you also meet your partner in a similar time.
It feels like you should be able to
settle on an emotional interpretation of a moment.
That the affect of the story should be more or less one thing,
which of course is not ever true.
We're just sort of more or less alert to it.
Yeah, I mean, absolutely.
To be honest, it's actually the reason I wrote this book.
The moment that I started thinking seriously about
what it was like to have experienced those two quite momentous life experiences
in extremely short succession, short enough that I was still falling in love
while my father was dying and found myself kind of grappling with these
extraordinarily different emotions at the same time. Speaking of attention,
that's what got my attention. I thought, well, this is interesting, right? This
actually is the fundamental nature of life, right? We are actually always
dealing with more than one thing at once.
And sometimes they are profoundly contradictory.
Sometimes they're just deeply unrelated.
And yet somehow we have to spread our attention among them.
And we then sort of just got swept headlong into the pandemic,
which was, I think, for many of us, an experience of living inside a lot
of entirely irreconcilable realities simultaneously.
It was like, suddenly you were working from home and that was amazing because you didn't
have a two hour commute every day and you got to be around your kids all the time.
But also like, oh my gosh, you were around your kids all the time and you couldn't get
any work done.
And it was so amazing to watch them grow and to have time around them, but also they made
you crazy.
And I just think everyone, or more tragically, people around you were getting sick and suffering.
And in this weird way, your family system was thriving.
Just everyone, I think, was dealing with these profoundly contradictory experiences.
And of course, that was not actually about the pandemic,
right?
The pandemic brought into focus a fundamental feature
of existence, which is we are always
inundated by profoundly clashing realities.
And some of the question is, how much attention
do we pay to them?
You are in a position right now where
you have to pay attention to it, right?
You're covering these deportations
and going home to your family. And you have to live in to it, right? You're covering these deportations and going home to your family,
and you have to live in both of those realities.
But even in the most peaceable of times,
the extent to which we are confronting the world
beyond our own immediate reality is just a choice, right?
I mean, there's always boundless suffering,
there's always boundless beauty,
and it really is a matter of where
do we look. And it's tough, right? You both have to
do both at once and can't do both at once. And the
question of what kind of balance you strike is
infinitely interesting to me.
I read this book and I wondered about the quality
of your actual attention. You write, and not just
here in your journalism too, as if you're able to
tune your attention to very deep levels of experiences, but also somehow to the cosmic
and geological context in which those experiences are taking place. You sort of zoom between
time scales very smoothly. There's a passage you have on finding and the various forms
it takes that I think is quite beautiful? Do you mind reading it?
I'd be happy to.
Finding like losing is an enormous category, bursting with seemingly unrelated contents
from gold doubloons to God.
We can find things like pencils and couch cushions and things like new planets and distant
solar systems and things that aren't things at all.
Inner peace, old elementary school classmates, the solution to a problem.
We can find things that we're never missing,
except from our own lives,
as when we find a new job or a hole
in the wall barbecue joint.
And we can find things so deeply hidden
that almost no one else thought to look for them,
as when we find glial cells or quarks.
Do you really experience the world this way,
or is that a thing that happens as a matter
of craft and writing and reflection?
I love it when people ask me questions I've not been asked and that one actually does
feel kind of core to who I am in this interesting way.
I think I experience the world that way.
I mean I love the bigness of the world, right?
I mean my most profoundly peaceful and interested place is up on top of a mountain where I can
see really far.
And that's not just because I happen to love mountains, right?
Although I do, I am soothed and intrigued by the experience of the longest possible
view.
I'm profoundly drawn to questions of scale. I mean, we human beings have a very unique situation,
which is that we are finite creatures, to the best of my knowledge,
finite creatures in an infinite universe.
And that's kind of a troubling position to be in.
And I'm endlessly interested in it.
It has all kinds of implications in our day-to-day reality,
in our whole existence as a species.
That is our context.
And I think some part of my brain, for whatever reason, is always looking kind of upward and
outward.
I think it's kind of native to my brain.
I don't know how helpful it is in a day-to-day way for these kinds of balancing acts you're
talking about, which
are endlessly hard.
But for good or ill, I do think that's just kind of how I look at the world.
Is there an experience that comes to mind for you recently where you were looking at
something small and you saw something big in it or big and you saw something small in
it?
Sure.
I mean, I'm going to tell a story that sounds like it can't possibly be true and I swear
it is.
And what you need to know by way of context for this story is that a year or so ago, my
partner and I bought the house across the street from the farm where she was born and
raised and where her parents still live.
And we've been gradually renovating it ever since then and incredibly excited to move
in and to be near family and frankly near more childcare.
And so we finally move in and I'm just reveling in this beautiful new home as we settle into
it.
And then this is only a week ago, my daughter who's now three and a half with these beautiful
fields outside of our house and she wanders off into the field and she returns with a
stock of wheat.
I said, look mama. And so I'm thinking, and she returns with a stock of wheat. I said, look, mama.
And so I'm thinking, oh, she found a stock of wheat.
You know, children pick up everything, right?
Clovers, coins, anything muddy, tarantulas, whatever they can find.
So she hands me the stock of wheat.
And I'm just thinking, oh, how sweet she gets to live in this beautiful setting where the
outdoors is full of so many wonderful little things for her to study.
And she looks at me very seriously and she says,
mama, we should use this wheat to make bread for people who don't have any.
Just one of those moments as a parent where on the one hand,
you're just so in love with your child, you think, I mean, who made this remarkable mind?
Like the last thing, I'm sitting there thinking like, oh, it's like she found a pretty flower
or something.
And there she is, apparently thinking about like the poor and, and, and privation and
need.
So right away, my kind of sense of the scale of what we were talking about just wildly
shifted.
But also to be honest, it's just, I felt right alongside feeling overwhelming kind of awe for her, I felt so
morally indicted.
I mean, I am literally in the middle of, you know, reveling in my pretty new kitchen and
then suddenly I'm confronted with real hunger in the world and I'm thinking, why do I have
this beautiful backsplash?
Like what have I done here?
My three-year-old has more moral clarity than I do about how we should spend our money and
our time and what actually matters in life.
So yeah, I mean, in a wonderful way, I feel like my world is full of discoveries that
seem small and blossom out into the enormous or seem enormous and then have some kind of
bearing on small practical things like how to be a family and how to raise children.
And it's often incredibly humbling,
and sometimes it's very funny,
and sometimes it's very moving.
And in that case, it was all of the above.
There's this way of thinking about these questions
where it really feels like the goal is to live
in full awareness of the fragility of life, the horrors, the happiness.
And then it also feels that if you really did that, how would you ever get anything
done?
If you were really fully present in the beauty of each moment, the ephemerality of, you know,
go and I play soccer with my three and my six year old most nights right now.
And on the one hand, I know I am not enjoying it the way I want to be.
Like I know this moment is more beautiful than the way my tired self is experiencing it.
He's also thinking about bedtime and, you know, are we going to be late for dinner?
And so I want to be more of the sort of monk.
And then, you know, you probably understand the way that the constant compartmentalization
and filtration of life is adaptive to moving through it.
Absolutely.
I mean, I think, look, I mean, even the monks are not that monkish, right?
I mean, there's a wonderful body of literature about distraction and, you know,
in these spaces that are supposed to be sanctuaries
from all the pressures of the outside world
and focus the mind and, you know,
you're meant to just think purely about God.
And if it were easy, we would all be monks
and the monks would be better at being monks.
It's incredibly difficult.
And they usually don't have kids.
And they don't have kids, right?
Which are appropriately,
I would never say a distraction.
They are the essence.
They are the thing we are meant to be paying the most attention to.
And sometimes that attention is profound and existential.
And sometimes it's like, you know, sweetheart, go put your underwear on.
It's just like a lot of parenting is just pragmatics, right?
I don't know that we should aspire, or I suppose we should aspire to be in touch with the beauty
and wonderful givenness of every moment.
Aspiration does not actually have to be reality.
Like I think aspiring probably is why three and a half percent of the time we
have the transcendent experience of like, here I am like curled up in bed with my daughter
reading her a bedtime story and nothing will ever be so profoundly sweet as this. And you
feel it deep inside you and you know you will always retain it. And the other 97% of the time, you won't.
And that's probably OK.
The amazing thing about these moments of awe
at the universe, at life, at what we have,
is they are so potent, you don't actually
need that many of them.
So I don't think you can give up the goal of trying to
have more of them or recognize them, but I don't think we need that many of them
to kind of sustain our souls.
So since finishing the writing of the book, you've had two children.
That's right.
So much of the book is about being found. What have you found?
Oh my gosh. I mean, everything in the most wonderful ways.
And I found a particular hair tie
that's got yellow daisies on it that my daughter loves
that vanished for a month
and she's thrilled to come across it again.
And I have found resources of meaning and patience.
I had no idea existed prior to this.
I mean, it is the whole scale of discovery.
I think one thing I've found, well, first of all,
just as like a basic reflection on parenting,
I've never been so grateful for anything in my life.
I was a little bit older when our first daughter was born.
And to be honest, I had kind of given up on,
I don't want to say given up.
I had resigned myself to the possibility
that I might never have children of my own and had sort of made a deep peace of the world
is full of children who need love and who are a delight to me and I'm related to some
of them and that is its own beauty and it can be sufficient if it has to be sufficient
and then I did have children of my own and so much is written about all the things that are difficult
about parenthood and I am not going to sit here and diminish those things.
But my overwhelming experience of parenting is just delight.
I'll never forget when my first daughter was born, my partner and I had this moment.
We were like getting ready to leave the hospital and we both were like, so we can just take her home?
Like that's insane.
You gave us a human being, right?
That's incredible.
I mean, to be clear, like we, you know, my partner grew that human being for nine months.
We weren't like, you know, she didn't have a girl.
And yet there's...
Yeah, they didn't give her to you.
But it kind of has that feeling of like, wow, I mean, we just go home and raise these children
and they are their own creatures.
And having new minds to interact with feels incredible to me.
I think I've also found, and I feel
based on our earlier conversation about kind of what's
been lost from past generations that perhaps you'll appreciate
it, I have found a tremendous satisfaction in duty.
I can't say that duty is something I thought about much before this. I have found a tremendous satisfaction in duty.
I can't say that duty is something I thought about
much before this.
I'm not of a generation where duty,
like thrift was an obvious value.
I didn't join an institution like the military
where duty is an obvious value.
But I'll tell you, no matter how tired you are,
at 7.30 in the morning, when your kid wakes up,
you go in and you help her get dressed
and you make sure she has a good breakfast. Your kid wakes up at 7.30 in the morning when your kid wakes up, you go in and you help her get dressed and you make sure she has a good breakfast and—
Your kid wakes up at 730 in the morning?
Oh, God bless her.
Yeah, she does.
She has for every day since she was like three and a half months old.
The littler one, if they are.
But oh, I just, you know, it's not always what you want to be doing.
I mean, who am I?
I was my number one fear about parenthood is I am so deeply not a morning person.
I mean, my favorite hours to write are 10 p.m. to 4 in the morning.
So on some fundamental level, everything I had been doing for my entire adult life was
deeply at odds with the task of parenting, which is frankly being up at the crack of
dawn many days in a row.
And yet it's a deep kind of satisfaction to feel like this is what you do.
You do it for yourself, you do it for your children, you do it for your partner,
and you do it because you have to.
And that's a kind of liberation and a kind of wonderfulness,
and a whole category of existence I found because I had children
that I had never appreciated, let alone kind of valorized before.
You said something really interesting in an email to me
when we were talking about doing the show, and you wrote to me, and you're talking about parenting, that where you're
looking matters so much, and it is so hard to look both near and far at the same time.
Can you say more about that?
Oh, yeah.
I think that actually a real imperative of parenting and a real imperative of being human
is you are present for those around you who need you most and you provide stability and security and you find hope because actually
it's crucial to foster hope for the next generation.
And so yes, of course, I mean, it's very tricky.
There are children the age of my children whose parents vanished overnight.
And that's horrifying to me. We are living in trying times, let us say. That said, you know,
again, depending on where you look, all times are trying times. There's never been a shortage of
suffering in the world, but I am troubled by the by forms of suffering that are happening
all around us now. And I feel complicit in some of them.
And I want to be giving them my undivided attention
and not ignoring them, even when it's not obvious to me
how I might positively intervene on them.
I certainly don't want to just pretend they don't exist.
And yet I still have to be joyful for my kids
and goofy for my kids.
And those are hard emotions to hold together all at once.
And yet I find that to be a necessary
and productive friction, not least,
because as I said earlier,
it reminds us that actually we should always live that way.
You know, if we, like you and me,
we are among the fortunate
and we have the resources and
the lives to even have the possibility of ignoring the suffering in the world, we should
be grateful for everything that reminds us not to and reminds us like we should experience
this kind of friction in our lives all the time.
One of my most inconvenient beliefs about the world
is that we now know too much about it.
And that the human mind is not meant to be stretched over
this much threat and danger and tragedy at all times.
I work in the news.
My show is part of this dynamic I'm about to describe,
but the news can sometimes be an engine
for finding and bringing you
whatever is going to most upset you
that is happening literally anywhere on earth
at that exact moment.
And it's not that it's not on some level good to know,
but I don't wanna to go to the point
where we never knew about it.
But I often think that probably the healthy medium was to be able to pick up a newspaper
once a day and find out about terrible things happening elsewhere and important things happening
elsewhere and sometimes wonderful things, but less often wonderful things happening elsewhere, as opposed to be with your kids in the park and your
phone buzzes.
And it's just something terrible that you cannot affect.
It's not even happening to anybody you know.
You definitely don't have power over it.
But somebody somewhere thought it would grab you to know about it. And it's strange.
It both makes you aware of suffering, but also I think it has some kind of other quality,
some numbing and exhausting quality that is not healthy.
I think that's almost certainly true.
I mean, it's so interesting.
You said you were reading Melting Point and there's an arresting moment in there when one of the sources in the book who we're hearing from talks about how, you
know, you used to read one newspaper and you'd get 20 minutes of news in the evening or maybe
you'd get 10 minutes of newsreels before a movie and that was it.
And I put down the book when I read that, I thought about it for a long time because
I mean there was not a shortage of news in the world.
This was in the middle of the Second World War.
And she goes on to say something I found equally arresting and highly related, which is the
world seemed much bigger and more mysterious then.
So I think you're right, although I also think it's a little bit more complicated than that,
because in this kind of tragic way, I feel like we simultaneously know more about the world
and less about our own communities in a certain sense. Like we have traded bits of news from all
over, much of it tragic, some of it just inflammatory for a deep and connected knowledge
of our own immediate communities.
And that does feel tragic and upsetting to me.
And this kind of absolute flattening of distinctions. I want to ask you about happiness.
And I'd like to do that by asking you to read a short passage from
your book, which is on page 174.
Sure. Happiness routinely gets not only less attention, but also more criticism than its
opposite number. Contemporary thinkers sometimes dismiss it as a shallow fixation of modern
life. But to condemn it on those grounds is to mistake it for proximate but different
phenomena, either superficial forms of itself like amusement and pleasure or superficial means of trying
to achieve it from substance abuse to so-called retail therapy.
I like this idea that happiness does not get enough attention or theorizing.
So if it's not these proximate forms, amusement and pleasure. Tee, what is it?
I can't believe you're asking me to define happiness
on the fly in your podcast, as for God knows what
I think happiness is.
I didn't write the book.
I didn't raise the question.
Well, you know it when you feel it.
I mean, I think that happiness is a state of profound
appreciation for what you have in that exact moment.
I guess if I were going to generate a spontaneous definition, that's what it would be.
I mean, I was moved to write about it because I was lucky enough to find myself extremely
happy.
And, you know, I knew I was going to be telling at least two kinds of stories in this book,
and one was about grief and one was about love.
And when you go and you survey the landscape of love stories, the vast majority of them
are covert tragedies.
You know, like there are love stories that get told
because they either end in divorce or premature death.
They darken drastically over the course of telling them.
And as a result, most of what we read and hear and watch of love stories
is either the beginning or the ending.
We get the how did you meet and the kind of falling in love
and all of the shiny, exciting romance and passion at the beginning.
And either it just ends there, right?
It ends with marriage, it ends with getting together or having kids,
or you know, there's just the kind of implicit or explicit happily ever after. Or we then kind of leap ahead to the
destruction and dissolution of this much longed for state, whether through separation or death.
And I found this curious because of course that leaves off the vast majority of most
or at least many relationships, right? Like when you are happily together with someone,
actually what matters to you is the middle.
And actually what you want to have go on and on and on is the middle,
but nobody writes about the middle, right?
Like there's very little about just the kind of day-to-day happiness
and just texture of a happy life, which isn't just happy. I mean, a lot of this book is about the kind of
endless overlap and contradiction and friction
and different emotions and a lot of happiness
is infused with annoyance or frustration or bad days
or whatever it may be, but still somehow fundamentally
feels for us that the deep and essential name
you would give to it is happiness.
And that was interesting to me and I wanted to write about it.
Well, I wonder if that's because we expect happiness to be simpler and purer.
I think sometimes in periods of my life that I am certain I will look back on them as virtually
perfect.
That the problems were small.
Nobody I loved was sick in that moment.
I was, you know, surrounded by family and friends.
My work was satisfying.
Even as my experience of that period is often exhausted, overstretched, over-scheduled,
anxious.
And this sort of question of, I mean, maybe one reason people don't write about those middles is that the middle is always more of everything.
Your description of your first kiss with your partner, which is functionally cosmic in its language,
is probably going to be different than the way you experience a Tuesday when everybody's
on deadline and everybody needs to be on the table, even if you'll probably look back on
that as a beautiful period.
I think we think the feeling of it should be simpler maybe than it ends up being.
I think that's absolutely true, but I don't think that's just true of happiness.
I mean, yes, happiness is more than just happiness, but everything is more than just everything.
I mean, there's this wonderful C.S. Lewis line about how you never encounter just cancer
or just war or just happiness or just unhappiness.
They are always incredibly variable in the lived experience of them.
There are good moments and hard times.
There are hard moments and good times.
We want to act like that's the anomaly, but it's not, right?
It's like the actual texture of life.
And in fact, I think we would probably all be happier
if we recognize that happiness is not a pure experience.
Love is not a pure experience.
Grief is not a pure experience.
All of them are always amalgamated with their opposite.
And it's so sweet, actually, your awareness
that someday this will seem wonderful
and easy and sure of course my life and my partner's life with two children and 17 book
deadlines and whatever else may be going on is not the bliss of a first kiss when the
world suddenly seems to be opening up and this entire new path is shining before you.
But I'll tell you the path is beautiful.
And part of what we don't, I think, pay enough attention to is the beauty of that path, of any path.
And it's what I said earlier about duty, you know.
On some level, a beautiful thing about hard moments in marriage or in anything is like,
well, you're doing this
because you're committed to it, even in the moments that aren't just bliss and joy.
And like, do I want to take the compost out in the pouring rain as I did first thing this
morning?
Absolutely not.
But do I want my partner to have to do it?
Nope.
Like, why shouldn't I?
Right?
Like, isn't the better thing to do in this moment is to man up, as we used to say, and
just go do the thing.
And there's a kind of beauty in that and a kind of happiness and a kind of fulfillment
in it.
And it's not the shiny glossy kind, but it's what a lot of life is made of.
Right.
And I do find it possible to regard it as, I don't want to say fun, you know, but
purposeful and meaningful.
What is different about the relationship between happiness and duty from happiness and fun?
Well, probably happiness and duty is more sustainable.
One can always be dutiful.
There are always jobs to be done, work to be done, needs to be met in this world.
And if you derive happiness from a sense of duty,
I actually think that is an infinitely sustainable source.
And it kind of comports with my broad theory of happiness, which is, I think in our worst
moments, the thing that can sustain us is serving others.
I really do.
And it's really powerful to remember that there are other needs in the world, that other
people have needs, and that actually you can help meet them and ameliorate
them in whatever small ways. There's no community on earth that does not need your help. And
it is good to get outside of your head and outside of your own misery. So if duty is
part of your sense of happiness, you will never have to look far to replenish it. Fun,
I love fun. Do not get me wrong. Fun is wonderful. Fun is amazing. My family and I were going to the beach this weekend and I honestly can't wait. You know,
we in a kind of narrowly defined sense of it. Like we don't have a lot of like self-evident
fun right now just because we have a three and a half month old, we have a three year
old. Like there's a kind of, we used to just jump in a car at the whiff of an interesting
story or a fun thing to do
and gallivant through the night.
And that was really fun, right?
And do I miss it? Sometimes, of course I miss it.
And in that kind of narrowly defined way, there's less fun in my life.
On the other hand, children are infinite fun.
I mean, children are hilarious, right?
Like I have never had as consistent a source other than perhaps my father.
I've never had such a consistent source of hilarity in my life as young children. They say hilarious things, they think hilarious thoughts,
they do funny things, they live with a kind of glee and humor that is contagious and interesting.
So I'm certainly not here to diminish the value of fun. I actually think the laughing is
just profoundly good for the mind and body and heart, and my kids make me do it
all the time.
One thing that I really enjoyed about the book is the emphasis on the connectivity of
all of these things.
That part of just the human experience is you don't get any of them all at once, and
you couldn't have any of them in a way without the others.
You have an interesting section on how the philosopher William James thought about our
thoughts and particularly, I guess, the connectivity between them, the sort of shadowy substructure
of our thoughts.
Can you talk a bit about that?
I can.
William James was the guy who gave us this idea of the stream of consciousness, you know,
this awareness that your mind is always full of thoughts, many of them unrelated to the task at hand or whatever
you're looking at.
It's just teeming with ideas and instincts and impulses and impressions from the world
around you all the time.
This constant flow of thoughts in our mind, sometimes we're paying attention to it, sometimes
we're not.
But as we all know from how difficult it is to meditate
or focus or fall asleep at night,
there's just always noise in our minds,
generating all of these things.
So William James writes about the stream of consciousness
and in the middle of doing so,
he in this kind of odd way sort of shifts metaphors
and starts talking about the thoughts in our minds
as birds flying
around and sometimes they're flying and sometimes they perched somewhere. And he says, you know,
we only ever really pay attention to the places they perch, which in his mind is like, you
know, the nouns and the verbs and the adjectives, like the really obvious things like as reclined
you're a noun, you're a bird perched somewhere. We can talk about Ezra Klein or we can talk about a rainstorm or a word like red. It feels like it has content
for us.
So there's all this stuff that happens when the birds are flying around, which is the
and and the if and the or, these kind of subtle but absolutely crucial elements of our thought
that we don't pay attention to and yet profoundly shape what
we're able to think and what we think about in the way that we think.
It says, you know, we should, there should be a feel of and just as much as we have a
sense of a feel for blue or cold or Ezra Klein.
And that was incredibly helpful to me because I thought, oh yeah, that's kind of what I'm
here to do.
I'm here to try to figure out what's the feeling of and, like what is this idea, what is this word doing for us?
And what's the role that it plays in language,
which is a different way of saying,
what's the role that it plays in how we think?
Did you feel like you came to an answer to that?
What is the feel of and?
So a little bit in distinction from every other conjunction
that the English language has, you know, but if or all of those
Actually describe a kind of necessary relationship if this then that that's a causal relationship
It actually tells us something about the two halves of the sentence
We're creating the beautiful thing about and is you can stick any two things together with it
They can have absolutely no relationship to each other
I give you apples and oranges right or they can absolutely no relationship to each other. I give you apples and oranges, right? Or they can have every relationship to each other,
Romeo and Juliet, or none on earth, you know, crab apples and tuxedos. And this morning
what we're dealing with is like, we have 30 minutes to get dressed and get to the library
to do a podcast with Ezra Klein and our nephew who's at our house, who's two and a half just
vomited in the crib, which means
there's nowhere for him to sleep. And also, whoops, I'm ignoring a note from my editor
and I need to go to the grocery store. I mean, this is life, right? And that's before we
get to like, oh man, and like you open the New York Times and Joe Biden has cancer and
people are being deported. I mean, the number of linked thoughts, experiences, demands
in our days is infinite.
So part of this feeling of and is the sense
that everything is connected to everything else,
which I want to say can be a really beautiful thing.
I mean, the sense that everything is connected
to everything else is also the sense
that we can make a difference, right?
Like if indeed we are all connected, then our actions matter.
They matter to each other.
They matter to people far away.
They matter to people we will never meet because they're not even born yet.
So it's overwhelming, but I think also kind of hopeful, kind of exciting.
But there's this other feeling that And has, which is the feeling that something is about
to happen, right?
Like if you're telling me a story and you stop talking, what I'm going to say to you is,
and, meaning what happens next?
It's almost a feeling of suspense.
And is this little word that propels us into the future.
And in that sense, it gestures towards this temporal abundance too.
That's the William James feeling like, well, there's always something else that we can reach beyond and connect to.
There's always something more kind of coming down the line towards us.
So I think it is a feeling of connection.
It's a feeling of continuation.
It is a feeling of abundance.
And all those to me are fundamentally and ultimately quite hopeful feelings.
I'm struck how much you're talking about the feeling in a way of the word and
the way it connects things, the way it implies procession.
I guess I'm interested in the feeling of the experience.
I mean, so much of the book is about holding these two extremes of experience at the same time,
I mean, so much of the book is about holding these two extremes of experience at the same time, the loss of your father, the finding of your partner and that love.
And I think that's been what I've been interested in.
I feel in my own attention a desire to constantly be choosing a lane of sensation or feeling.
I should feel badly about things right now.
I should feel good about them.
As if I'm running some calculation in my head that
ends with where on the sentiment scale I'm supposed to net out.
That also some part of me realizes that's wrong,
that what I'd like to be able to do is feel
different things at the same time.
I find that very hard to do.
I'm curious if writing this book or going through that experience or reflecting on this
way you have has made that easier, made your sense of feeling more capacious.
I don't know if it's made it easier.
It's certainly made me more aware of it.
And I guess that is a kind of ease to feel peaceful about both the necessity and sometimes
the impossibility of feeling all the things at the same time.
It has given me a sense of, well, this is life and it's actually okay to have mixed
feelings, mixed experiences.
I adore my partner and I think she's brilliant and she fills my days with wisdom and humor
and surprise and stability.
And also we've been married for seven years
and together for 10 and we have two kids
and sometimes we drive each other crazy
or we're frustrated or we fight.
And actually I have a lot of peace around that
which I think is helpful.
Like I just am like, well, that's not not love, you know?
That's part of the deal here.
And we feel a lot of things at once and we should. And sometimes it still stops me up short,
you know, in good ways. And I said earlier, I think it's important to be
open to the surprising feeling because I think it can trouble us morally and that's probably a good thing.
I'm a word nerd, of course, I think about how and works
and I actually do think it's interesting
and I think it's philosophically interesting
and profoundly related to the question
of how we feel in these moments.
But of course I feel it, right?
I feel these tensions all the time.
It's impossible to be alive and fortunate in the world today
and not feel like which of these things am I actually supposed, it's not which of these things am I supposed to be alive and fortunate in the world today and not feel like,
which of these things am I actually supposed to,
it's not which of these things am I supposed to be feeling,
we feel them all.
I think the real problem is,
which of these feelings should I act on?
Well, then let's end on a point of word nerdery.
I learned something from your book that I didn't know,
which is that the English alphabet used to end with the symbol for and.
I was really surprised to learn that.
I was really surprised to learn that too.
I know and I mean talk about scale, right, and space and time.
This was true until quite recently, like all the way up to the end of the 19th century
when children learned the alphabet, the procession started with A, B, C and ended
X, Y, Z, and.
That's literally how they were taught the alphabet.
It's incredible to me that that piece of knowledge instilled in generation upon generation of
school children could degrade in the course of less than a century when I was coming up
through school to the point that we had no idea that that had once been part of the alphabet.
But indeed it was, which of course I found both fascinating just because how funny that people used to learn that.
And now we don't.
But why was it part of the alphabet?
We don't spell words with the and sign.
I think the only answer I can reasonably provide is it actually did feel that crucial to the kinds of...
We learned to write the alphabet so we can learn to the kinds of, we learned to write the alphabet
so we can learn to write words, and we learned to write words so we can learn to write sentences.
And actually the word and is the third most common word in the English language.
And the only ones we use more often are the, you know, the article, the, and various conjugations
of the verb to be.
But it is, I agree, it's very interesting. It suggests a kind of importance to the ability
to incorporate that into how we write down our experience of the world.
As a metaphor for what you're worked with in your book and what a lot of us are working
with in our lives, it's actually quite moving.
I know what a beautiful idea actually that anything should end in and, right?
Something that seems like an ending is actually an explicit reminder that there's always more,
that something else can be connected, that something else can happen next.
I find it very beautiful.
And always our final question.
What are three books you'd recommend to the audience?
First of all, I have to say thank you so much for always asking this question, both because
I delight in learning what people read about and because, oh, it's just nice to know that
literary culture, however embattled it might be, is still shaping our lives and our thoughts
in all of these wonderful and enduring ways.
Okay, my three.
Number one, it's so funny you mentioned that you're reading Wolf Hall.
I would like to encourage you and your listeners at some point to go read A Place of Greater Safety,
which is the book Hilary Mantel wrote
before turning to Thomas Cromwell and his compatriots.
It is about the French Revolution, 800 pages long,
incredibly undisciplined, absolutely unruly,
and wildly great to read.
I also recommend it because it is fundamentally the story
of three people who are trying in full sincerity
to make a better nation and instead just absolutely
destroying it and destroying themselves in the process.
And I don't mean to suggest we're on the eve
of a French Revolution style catastrophe.
I certainly hope not, but it is nonetheless extraordinarily interesting reading material
right now.
So that's number one.
Number two is a book that just is out this week, I believe, which is this wonderful graphic
novel spent by Alison Bechdel with beautiful color artwork by her partner, Holly Ray Taylor.
It's about the experience of growing up in a relatively hardscrabble family and living this kind of marginal artistic existence and then suddenly finding yourself
reasonably well off. And it's very adjacent to these questions we've been discussing of,
well, how do you enjoy your life and your money and also live your values and interact
with your community? And it's very smart on the questions of what we do with our money and our morals.
And it's also just riotously funny as all of her work is.
So that's number two.
And number three, this book I think I've heard you talk about as well, also a relatively
new book.
And I'm partly shouting out my partner here because she was involved in the Michael Lewis
project who is government, which is this collection of essays by these wildly different writers about government
bureaucrats, which at the time that I first heard about it, I was like, I don't really
know how well a book about an anthology of essays about government bureaucrats is going
to do. And tragically, it met the moment.
And I can't think of a better thing for people to be reading right now than these, I found
just incredibly moving stories about what these alleged agents of the deep state are
actually doing with their time and doing on behalf of the American people. So those are
my three recommendations for you.
Catherine Schultz, thank you very much. Absolutely my pleasure. Thanks so much for having me. This episode of the Ezra Klancho is produced by Annie Galvin. Fact checking by Michelle Harris, our senior engineer Jeff Gelb with additional mixing
by Michelle and her team.
We'll be right back.
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Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. This episode of The Ezra Klan Show is produced by Annie Galvin. Fact checking by Michelle
Harris, our senior engineer is Jeff Gelb, with additional mixing by Amin Sahota. Our
executive producer is Claire Gordon. The show's production team also includes Marie Cassione,
Roland Hu, Elias Isquith, Marina King, Jan Kobel, Kristen Lin and Jack McCordick. Original
music by Pat McCusker. Audience strategy by Kristina Samieluski and Shannon Busta.
The director of New York Times Opinion Audio is Annie Rose Strasser,
and special thanks to Talbot County Free Library.