The HoneyDew with Ryan Sickler - Chelcie Lynn

Episode Date: March 30, 2020

My HoneyDew this week is Chelcie Lynn! Chelcie is a comedian, actress, and internet superstar! She started building a fan base in 2014 when her sketches featuring her alter ego, Tammy went viral. Chelcie is as sweet as she is funny. She sat down with me to talk about her rough childhood, growing up in poverty. She was raised by her grandmother, both of her parents were on drugs and abusive to each other and man does she have some stories! Please make sure you’re subscribed to my YouTube channel! I’ll be adding HoneyDew episodes, standup and more there! Stay healthy y’all! Sponsor: Hurry to http://upstart.com/honeydew to find out HOW LOW your Upstart rate is

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what we do here is we highlight the lowlights. These are the stories behind the storytellers. And today, very excited to have this storyteller on here for the first time on the Honeydew Podcast, ladies and gentlemen. Please welcome Chelsea Lynn, everybody. All right. Thanks for having me. Oh, my God. I was so excited.

I met you on Josh Wolf Show, the great chaos with Josh. I love him. Yeah, he is the great chaos with Josh we did. Which, yeah, he is great, which was so much fun. It was great to meet you, and I just hugged you right away. Yeah. You're just one of those people. I feel your energy right away. Thank you.

I'm so glad you're here. Thank you so much for being here. Yeah, you're welcome. Thanks for having me. Will you please promote everything, plug whatever you want? Oh, man. Instagram, Chelsea Lynn. All my show info I keep on my Instagram.

Facebook, Chelsea Lynn. YouTube, Chelsea Lynn. I'm everywhere. Just search Chelsea Lynn. You are everywhere. Yeah. Your character, Tammy, is just so fucking. I mean, can I ask you, like, before we get into all your trauma,

fucking i mean can i ask you like before we get into all your trauma um is that a person or is that a conglomerate of people you've met and things you've gathered through life that you've thrown together into tammy that's exactly it yeah that's a little bit of everybody and i really took um have you ever seen monster with charlie's. I took the mannerisms and the hair. Yeah. And every once in a while, I'll get a comment saying, like, it reminds me of Monster. I'm like, yes, you get it. Yeah.

So I took a little bit of everything and just put it all and created Tammy. It's so fantastic. Good for you. Thank you. Good for you. Yeah. So please, let's get into it. Tell me about your life. I want to know.

I think you said you were from, like, rural Oklahoma. Yeah. Near please, let's get into it. Tell me about your life. I want to know. I think you said you were from like rural Oklahoma. Yeah. Near Texas border. Thackerville, Oklahoma. Thackerville. Yeah. Right on the Oklahoma, Texas border. It's about an hour north of Dallas. OK. Yeah. I graduated high school with 12 people. Come on. Swear to God. Your senior class was 12 people. Yep. No stoplights in our town um what else no restaurants no nothing we have one little gas station we've got the world's largest casino though for real world world's biggest in the world so people flood there for that isn't that weird that is weirdest in the world it's the weirdest thing is that what keeps the town going that casino yeah so how big is the town well they built it when i was in junior high okay and they built like half of it and that that was even a big deal and then in high school they built the other half it's just it's what is

it a commuter town like why do people live there are they commuting out to back to dallas like is it what do they call those uh damn i don't even know why people live there. I really don't. You made me catch my throat on that one. I don't know. I didn't know why they lived there before the casino. Hell, I don't know, man. I don't know. You'd think like... Bedroom community, I think they call it.

So what's the other way? You got Dallas an hour this way. We have Ardmore, Oklahoma, which is 30 minutes away. That's considered big for Oklahoma. And is that where you go to grocery shop and all that stuff? We would go over to Texas, which was like five minutes. So you'd have to go to another state, literally, to do your shit. Oh, yeah.

I worked in Gainesville, Texas, in a truck stop restaurant at Sonic. That's where we'd go to get groceries. Yeah. All right. So you're born groceries. Yeah. All right. So you're born there. Yeah. Talk. Take me through it all.

How many brothers and sisters do you have? Okay. Your parents? I'm the oldest of three girls. So I have two younger sisters. We're all like a year apart. Are you close? Very.

They live with me. Oh, good. Okay, great. Yeah. They live with me. So I moved out to San Diego almost seven years ago. And within a year, they followed me. So that's how close we are.

Yeah, yeah. Good. We don't have our parents, so it's just us. So it was weird being so far, you know. And we moved to San Diego because my husband got a job out here. So it was only supposed to be temporary. We moved out here, loved it, and we haven't left. Yeah, San Diego's great.

Yeah, yeah. So, yeah, two little sisters. We're all back- all back to back my parents had us when they were super young i think i think they were 17 when they had me wow yeah babies yeah okay yeah and then you're so you're uh they're set i mean they're kids they're not even out of high school, 17. Holy shit. I think they dropped out. They didn't graduate. No way they graduated. No. I don't think so. And did they move you guys there, or are they from there as well, Thackerville?

Oh, they're from, okay, so, oh my gosh. All through elementary, I would say through kindergarten through seventh grade, I probably went to 10 elementary schools. Holy shit. Were you just bouncing around? Oh, constant. Eviction, whatever, new whatever new job I mean it was who knows what so I never really had like a hometown so I started uh my grandma lives in Thackerville so when I say is it that v or th th a c thackerville yeah and um so we got taken away from my mom when I was 12, 11 or 12, and went to go live with her. And that's where I went to junior high and high school.

So I consider Thackerville my hometown. Okay. Although I've lived everywhere in southern Oklahoma. And would you say, because I want to come back to being taken away. Would you say that, because a lot of comedians tell me this too like the fact that they were constantly bouncing around and trying to connect and fit in with people their sense of humor is what got them in those groups of people and and quickly they were able to jump in and and be at least friendly with people in strange places 100 yeah i would say all through elementary i was super shy

super timid um and then seventh grade when I went to Thackerville those girls and all those kids had gone to school together from pre-k to now they knew they knew each other yeah that was it here I was you know like extended family yeah point yeah here I was and I remember like seventh grade I just all of a sudden I guess bloomed out you know from the shyness and I was like man these you know they're not gonna like me unless I just all of a sudden I guess bloomed out you know from the shyness and I was like man these you know they're not gonna like me unless I kind of give them something to work with so I think that's when I kind of started to become um batshit crazy seventh grade seventh grade was a big awakening for me too that's when I really started to get

things I really do tie it to seventh grade. Of all the years of school I had, seventh grade was a pretty fucking solid, pretty damn good one. I still have memories of that. There you go. Okay, so three girls, two very young parents, and why did they relocate there to Thackerville? Oh, gosh.

What did your parents do? Just everything and anything? They didn't really have careers? They just had jobs? My dad kept a job, which I don't see how. So he worked at WW Trailers in Medill, Oklahoma. So wherever we lived, he drove to there, which was usually sometimes over an hour each way.

So he was a welder building horse trailers. Okay. And in that area, that was like the only decent paying thing um my mom i mean went from job to job didn't work whatever so doing like what would she do when she worked just convenience store nursing home um oh my gosh uh she sold food our food stamps our food stamps our food stamp first it was sold food stamps then it was our I mean you name it you name it she was doing it yeah so just hustling to try to feed these three kids and get by yeah well not even that that was like she was she was selling our um food stamps for her drug money oh all right okay so let's yeah oh yeah we can now your dad

was he that was he a drug you said you don't know how he kept jobs why did you say that i guess yes but i don't feel like he was as bad as my mom okay he was more into alcohol they were both into alcohol but he was more so into alcohol and i felt like he was the one who like almost was the stable one with which if you oh my gosh if i could show you like he was the one who like almost was the stable one which which if you oh my gosh if I could show you like he was the stable one but my mom was the one she was the one who was like oh she'd be gone for months at a time what do you mean as a kid we don't we don't know I have no idea where she'd go and then my dad was either partying or drunk. So I would have, I remember being like seven, eight years old. Who's watching you?

You? And getting my sisters up for school and catching the bus. At seven, eight? There'd be no food in the house. I'd have to go knock on neighbors' doors for dinner. What? Yeah. So if you're seven, eight, then they're like five and six yeah you're getting

these toddlers you're all holy shit yeah and um because your dad's out i feel like mom's gone they part a lot a lot they partied so like even when they were home they were always having parties always having people over like always doing drugs, right in front of this. What were their drug of choice? I never saw them do anything besides weed, but I would find, I don't even know. I don't know a lot about drugs, but my mom always had needles around. Oh, man. I always saw needles in spoons.

In movies, I knew that was drugs. Yeah, something. That's heroin. Yeah. They were always partying so they never they never settled down and became adults man they they were partying our whole childhood that's all they did so and you were just taking care of your sisters and yeah yeah so walk me through a day like that what happens you get up in the morning and you're responsible enough to still go to school isn't that that crazy? Looking back. I was too. I did the

same thing. People say to me like, you could have missed so much school. I had no parents. Yeah. I could have missed every day if I wanted to. Exactly. And it didn't even dawn on me until somebody said that. Like, yeah, you're an idiot. You could have missed at least one day a week. And I went, yeah, holy shit. I could have fucking done that. Exactly. I didn't think about that until I was an adult. I was like, how at 8, 9, 10 years old was I setting an alarm? Yeah. Because I knew what time to get up for the bus, making sure my sister's hair was, you know what I mean,

and getting us out there. And yourself, you're 8. Yeah. You're 8. If you just did that all for yourself, it would be amazing. Dude, I could have missed school, but I wasn't thinking that way. I was thinking, we've got to go to school. Yeah.

And you would get up. You would knock on the neighbor's door for some. Oh, that happened a lot. For just what? Anything. A bagel. Anything. Yeah.

And they'd make us a sandwich or whatever. And then you'd go to school. And what would you do for lunches and things? Were you making lunch for your. Oh, we got free lunch okay for your lunch for school too yeah um but um yeah i was embarrassed by it oh mortified because i don't know tell me if the way they did it but our school was if you were free lunch and we were free lunch you had to go get a ticket like it looked like a fucking you know carnival ticket in the morning first and you had to go down there with everybody else that didn't want to get their free fucking lunch ticket and you're just looking around feeling like a fucking loser and then you

get your ticket and then you hold on to your ticket and you can't lose that fucking ticket you hold it all day and then when lunch comes you go through the line with everybody else who's paying and then when you get to the register, you pull out the free ticket. And they got to call out the free ticket. And then they got to write something on it and put it in. So everyone's watching you. And probably no one fucking notices. But you feel like everyone fucking knows that you're the loser with the fucking free lunch ticket.

We never had tickets. So we got to, nobody knew about our free lunches. lunch ticket we never had tickets so we got to nobody knew about our free lunches but um i think once or twice a year our elementary would give out coats like uh i don't even know if they're new new or used coats and everybody in the school knew that the poor kids got the coats so when it was coat day they would call over the announcements the names of the kids who needed to come down and get the coach and i every time i was so i mean i was pissed i was i was mad and they would literally over the intercom say i mean there's 12 of you could they just lean in the door get your jacket girl for real for real that they have an intercom for? That was the embarrassment for me, was the coats.

Oh, that's like walking to the door of the megaphone going, Chelsea, get your coat. Like, I guess I got to go, guys. Yeah. But looking back, I was so embarrassed. I was so embarrassed. But looking back, like, everybody where we're from is poor. Even the people, even the kids who didn't get free lunches or coats everybody was most everybody was poor so i shouldn't have been embarrassed but you are as a kid sure you know you are you are as a

kid we always had the crappiest car if we had a car you know what i mean we'd walk around we were the family that walked around town dude no yeah y'all know what I'm talking about? The family. The whole family. The family. Not just that guy, the whole family. That's when you really feel sorry for the people, when the kids are with them. Yeah, when the kids are with them. That was us, man. Oh, man.

That was us. So you get up, you go to school, and no one at school is like, hey, checking in or? No. So here's the thing. At times, they had their shit together. Your parents were drunk? Yeah. Okay.

They would stay, you know, off the, they were drunk 24, I mean drunk, okay, all the time. And I don't know if it's because. What were they drinking? Just beer. Yeah. Just, you know, just's really drinking just beer just you know just i think just beer um and they would they would stay drunk okay so i forgot what i was saying i'm tripping i forgot what i was saying man you said every now and then they'd have their shit

so they'd have their shit together and i don't know if it's because they just didn't have the money for it or if they were trying to. Right, let's do the right thing. Yeah, I think they didn't have the money, but I don't know. So we did have good times. When it was good, it was good. And then, oh, derail and just be, oh, we had Christmases where there was no presents.

Nothing. Those little kids, nothing. But they had beer. had you know what i mean he could have went to the dollar store yeah for real and got you know yeah so they their relationship was awful they fought like i remember being a kid and being like god they need to fucking divorce yeah right yeah i remember being in seventh grade again that was the year i told my dad like this you know i know you're trying to do this for us but i'm i'm in seventh grade i'm telling you y'all you got to get the hell you got a divorce yeah this i don't even know why they wanted to stay together like like they would always cheat on each other and we

always knew about it because they always fought about it they would say stuff right in front of us oh they would yell it yeah and then like um one time i was uh about 10 my dad pulled a gun on my mom what and was holding it to her head in front of you guys yeah oh yeah yeah we wouldn't wait till we went to sleep so um i was terrified he pulled a fucking handgun and put it to your mom's head tear i was oh i was so scared i slipped out the back ran over to a neighbor's call 9-1-1 how old are you at this i was probably 10 god 9 or 10 and um called 9-1-1 cops came and uh i don't know why i don't i didn't i wasn't there for the interaction with them the cop but the cops left after just a couple minutes oh i got in trouble

for going over and calling 9-1-1 are you serious yeah oh i got my ass beat for calling 9-1-1 by your dad yeah and my mom was mad at me. Yeah. And I remember getting in trouble. Chelsea, I told you to only do that when shit's serious. That's 911, girl. I thought it was serious. And I remember thinking, I'm getting in trouble. Holy shit.

Like, what? I have a gun to your fucking head in front of kids. Yeah. And I'm getting in trouble. Yeah. And they left. They didn't take him or anything. Mm-mm.

But they stopped fighting i mean that that it diffused the situation so yeah fuck yeah that's the kind of shit you're seeing growing up we weren't ever like we got our we got spanked but we never like were abused um and i don't like my dad was an angry drunk like he took it out of my mom that's what I was going to say you said they fought did your mom get physical back oh yeah I was going to say sounds like she did oh yeah it was awful

so I think when I was 11 they separated divorced we went to go live in the town where my grandma lives Thackerville and I'm sorry where were you before when all this was going on we went to go live in the town where my grandma lives, Thackerville. I'm sorry, where were you before, what town were you in when all this was going on? Oh, you were bouncing around so many.

Sulphur, Oklahoma, Kingston, Oklahoma. Yeah. Just bouncing around. Yeah, Ida Bell, Oklahoma. Bouncing around. They split. We moved to Thackerville. Now, why are you going with your, I mean, I'm probably asking an obvious question, but why are you going with your grandmama, I'm probably asking an obvious question, but why are you going with your grandmom and not one of your parents?

Were you placed there? When they got, when they. When they split. Well, we went with our mom when they split. Oh, she went with you to go live with your grandma. Yeah. Gotcha. Okay.

So we were living in a government apartment, a government apartment in a neighboring town of Thackerville called Marietta. That was like the big, that's the town that had a grocery store. Okay. And apartments. a grocery store. Okay. And apartments. Yeah. Yeah. And,

um, so we lived there for, I want to say two years. What's it like? What's a government apartment like? A regular apartment. Was it nice? No,

it wasn't run down, but it wasn't nice. No. Um, and how many of them would you say in the complex? Like, did you, were there other kids there you could meet and play with and stuff?

Oh, yeah. I would say probably 100. Okay. So there's a community then. Smelt my first dead body there. First of all, you said smelt my first dead body there. That's been my only sense, but hey, I'm just 32. Yeah, you got time.

Yeah. What happened? that's been my only sense but hey i'm just 32 yeah you got time yeah yeah what do you what happened so there's this old lady who lived uh downstairs named peggy she lived downstairs and across across the street named peggy and she was a fucking bitch okay this lady was like she was like 90 and was so mean hated us hated me and my uh middle sister and we would go just fuck with her like just be mean to her and she'd be mean to us but i don't even know i have no examples i just remember like we would just go fuck with her she would sit outside and she was real scary you know how old people have like short hair she had long silver hair oh that's like cryptkeeper shit yeah and she just looked and she was real scary. You know how old people have like short hair? She had long silver hair. Oh, that's like Crypt Keeper shit. Yeah, and she just looked and she was mean.

So her daughter would come pick her up once a week or so, take her to the grocery store, do things she needed to do. So when we knew she was gone, we knew that she kept Snickers ice cream bars in her freezer. So we would

go around, we knew she kept her bedroom window unlocked. N her freezer. So we would go around. We knew she kept her bedroom window unlocked. You guys broke it. Every time she was gone. Every time you broke into her home. And we would each go get. How old were you? 11.

You guys are breaking it at her. 11 or 12. I got nine B&Es under my belt, girl. We just wanted the ice cream. Because we didn't get that kind of stuff at our house. You know? And how'd you know she had it in there? What initially tipped you off? Well, we'd go into her apartment and hang out with her.

Oh, okay. It was kind of a love-hate relationship. She was mean to us, but I think she liked us there. And we loved fucking with her. So we, I guess, had saw it or something you know and we probably asked for it and she said no or something you know and they were like oh we'll just break into your house when you're gone oh can't even oh my god that's great like what so um every time she was gone and so weeks or months had gone by and we were over the house and she had said

something she was like i think somebody's and looking back she knew it was us she was like i think somebody's breaking into my house and i'm gone and stealing my ice creams and we were like oh my god that's great like like freaking out you know and um one day i hadn't seen her in a while she was always on her porch and i was like this was like july the middle of summer and i was like i haven't seen peggy in a while she would always do this to us we'd ride by on our bikes and she would look at us and go trying to scare us or some shit and it worked because she was real scary looking so anyway we still do that me and my sister to this day we'll just do that to each other um i was like i haven't seen peggy in a while so i went down there walked up a porch turn right back around i fucking smelt her and i knew yeah i knew

and i went back over to um our house and i told my mom i go mom peggy's dead and she was like how do you what how do you know i go i walked up to her porch and I smelled her. She's dead. She's like, how do you know? I go, it was a dead body. I know it. And so mom called 911 and they came and sure enough, and my uncle was a cop in Marietta at that time. And I remember him being like, how did you know? And I go, I just, when you smell, you know. You know. You know.

There's something in your mind that just knows. So, yeah, I smelt my first dead body in those apartments. And that was the year we got taken away. What is that? Tell me about that. So my mom, when they separated and we moved to those apartments, my mom was doing good. She never kept a job for more than

a few months max she kept a job we got a car that was something she never had a car um you had to start it with a screwdriver but it ran yeah what kind do you remember the car oh a big yellow one that's all i know maybe an an old Lincoln or something like that. But she was doing good. She seemed to have been staying sober. I was like, I really thought, oh, man, I'm going to have a normal life now. And then my dad started coming around, and I just didn't like it. I didn't like him around because I felt like when they were together,

it was just bad news. So he was still kind of they were together, it was just. Bad news. Yes. Where was, so he was still kind of local? Yeah, he was about an hour away. So he'd come and stay the weekend, you know. So that stopped and she just went, I mean, I think she was just back on drugs and I was still finding needles again and everything. So. But you're still living with your grandma.

No, well, with my mom at this point. And then she gets arrested for drugs. Oh, she did. And then my uncle who works at the police station called my grandma. Is that her brother? Her brother-in-law. Okay. And said, hey, you might want to come get the girls because we just

picked up Linda and she's going to be in here a while so CPS is going to take them if you don't come and get them. So my grandma came and got us and it was only supposed to be temporary. I think she did like a few months in jail. It was supposed to be, she was supposed to do her few months and then get out. She had to go to parenting classes. She had to go, she had to do a couple other court order classes and then get an apartment or a place.

And then she would get us back. And she just never did. She got out and we didn't see her for years. No. No contact. Nothing. Like ghosted or she'd float in and out? We didn't see her for a solid, oh my gosh, I would say two years.

What? No contact. And then none and then she would show up out of the blue for one day or a few hours god promise my little sister she was gonna i'm gonna get a place for us i just need time and i'm thinking you're full of shit and they were getting their hopes up sure and then she'd gone and we wouldn't see her for another six months but no word like none not to your grandmom either none and my grandma was very difficult to live with very difficult in what ways oh my god where do i start um she's still alive uh we don't have much of a relationship with her. We do. We talk to her, but there's nothing. She's crazy.

And when I say that, like, she's, I don't even know how to explain it. She's very her way or she's going to whoop your ass. Like, there's no warmth there. She's very just, she was difficult to live with. I took authority well. My middle sister, um, the, my middle sister,

Maggie did not. So she still doesn't. So they fought like, I mean like physically fought her and my grandma. Really? Yes. So that was difficult to Mike. Holy shit. Like,

but she took care of us. We always had food. We all, you know, we always, um, but yeah, my mom would,

would come and promise them like i mean what's that like and then all of a sudden boom there she is your hopes are all back up and then a day later she's gone yeah well i knew she was full of shit and i had called her out on it like i remember telling her like so at this point i'm like 13 13 14 i remember telling her like stop telling them you're gonna come back and get us when you're not like you're not I am you're not like we I would I was not that was no bullshit with her no bullshit with her because we weren't ever super close growing up because of how things were so um and how often during that six months are you seeing your dad is he showing up at all too or so when we got taken away so I was showing up at all too or so when we got

taken away so I was 11 or 12 I was about 12 when we got taken away um right at that time my dad met a woman and married her they're still they're still married so they've been together like 20 years or so and um she has like I don't know seven or eight kids um and most of them are older than my dad she's like 25 years older than no yeah her kids are older than your dad yes most of them most of them yeah i haven't even met all of them yeah i think she has two that how many what's the age difference between your dad and her 25 years holy shit yeah So how old was your dad when he met her? Oh my gosh. He had, I added this up.

I think he was like, I think he was like 30. So she's almost 60 at the time. Yeah. Holy shit. And they're still together? Yeah. Oh yeah. Holy shit.

So they met. Somehow, I don't know what she did, but he kind of straightened, he kind of got his shit together um but we would go see him once every couple weeks but that kind of slowed down as the months and years went by okay but you were seeing him at one point more than your mom oh yeah and he didn't know where she was either man she was off literally just staying with whoever she could she was on drug oh we had looked up um she passed away a few years ago and we had looked up um you can look up people's like

crime records or something on the internet yeah and during those times it was just meth arrest after meth arrest after i mean just just meth arrest so we don't know where she was or she was all you know just doing whatever but um dad got his shit together he went to rehab it was court order because i think i think he got in a car wreck met this woman um settled down and kind of my dad's a really cool dude like i feel like he's where i get my personality from we have a lot of the same mannerisms like i'll say things and my sister's like oh my god that's you look oh it's so weird like i get i get my humor from him but we're not close because like he really went into that family you know what i mean yeah yeah that's his family her her grandkids call him

you know papa that's that's his family i see him once a year max maybe once every couple years how does it come about you plan it or it's usually at some family function okay um so last summer we had a um a little mini family um get together like with the extended family and he came and it was it's very much like hey how are you give you a hug almost like an uncle that you know you see once every couple years he asked me for an autograph for his i wanted to ask you how he feels like yeah they all love you his kids oh yeah i'll know who you are oh yeah he was like uh you mind if i get an autograph for my co-worker he was really weird i was like yeah okay like it just felt you know what i mean don't you think like this is how fucked up some people are and i know this is your dad but don't you think that after

all these years if one of your co-workers came up was like your fucking kid is doing some big time shit and it's so fucking funny look at this you would think that that moment right there you'd be like you know what my kid is pretty fucking awesome yeah why don't i reach out not like not happening but yeah right right right yeah and he goes doesn't also amaze you that you and your sisters, because I feel the same way about me and my two brothers. Like, despite all the fucking crazy shit, considering, we turned out pretty fucking good and pretty goddamn normal. Yeah. Especially when I sit across from people like us every week and hear their shit. And I'm like, good God.

And we were against all the odds. All of them. All of them, you know? Yeah. And, yeah, he was like, yeah, he was like, oh my God, I can't believe you know her. And he was like, know her? She's kinfolk. And my sister goes, kinfolk?

Kinfolk. She's your daughter. Yeah, not your eighth cousin. That shows his like way, how he, you know, that right there. That's it. That's it. Told me everything I needed to know on how he views me. Yeah.

Yeah. I was like, that's weird. My sisters i needed to know on how he used me yeah yeah i was like that's weird my sisters were pissed i was like hey let it go but um yeah it's super weird uh he asked me for an autograph i was like oh my gosh but um he's great there's no hard feelings i'm not mad i'm not resentful my sisters are towards him they are yeah um like an active fuck you or yeah yeah but they weren't towards my mother and i was towards my mother okay and i don't know why we don't we can't we've talked about it we can't figure out what that was about let's take a quick break and tell you about our sponsor upstart as most of us have found out the hard way getting into debt is easy and getting out is hard, especially if your credit score isn't great. Thankfully, now there's Upstart.com, the revolutionary lending platform that knows you're more than just your credit score.

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She died. Oh, I couldn't. I'm bad with, like, death dates. I couldn't tell you when people die or whatever. But I know it was, like, five years ago. And it felt like almost like a distant aunt died that I hardly ever saw. Okay. Like, I never cried over my mom's death.

Really? Never. You never have. I felt bad for not feeling sad about it. I totally understand that. Yeah. I did not feel sad at all. So can I ask you a couple of questions?

So you, she would come back periodically and then, well, let's go to her death first. What did she, was it an overdose? Cervical cancer. Really? Yeah.

She just wasn't going to the doctor and getting checked out and stuff? Exactly. And people really don't die of cervical cancer. That's very, you can get that taken care of. She told me, I asked her, I asked her about a week before she died. I said, are you scared? Because we knew she was going to die. She knew she was going to die.

Yeah, yeah. So, all right. Can we go back to how you. All right. Yeah. You're living with your grandma. You're in school. Do you graduate in that house?

Yep. Okay. With her. With the 12 other people in your class. Yeah. I can't get over that. Yeah. Isn't that crazy?

I've been on buses that have more people than that. Yeah. Yeah. We all have. That have all I knew that's not our whole school middle middle school through high school was one uh hallway and just rooms off the side that's it wow yeah no bus we had a bus oh you did have a bus it wasn't just get your ass to school no yeah we did have a bus okay um so after high school graduation now does your mom come to graduation does dad come to graduation no i feel like my dad did come yeah my dad came mom did not come she was never at any prom um softball game nothing so you played sports and stuff yeah she didn't come to anything nothing nothing um and we lived so we we grew up poor

before that but we we grew up i think extra poor with my grandma so she lived in a single wide trailer and like there were holes in the floor dude like big holes did you have kerosene heaters that we uh-huh yeah and we had really where'd you grow up in maryland okay there was a stretch where it wasn't so great we were in these shitty ass apartments we didn't have heat and we just had the kerosene heaters yeah we always had to worry about snakes coming up through the holes that's right you're in oklahoma yeah that's real yeah so in the summer she would put she should put plywood across them but we weren't allowed to step on them because they would always break. So we'd have to literally hop over the whole, I mean.

All day long. Yeah. So holes in the roof. I mean, it was not a livable home, but we lived in it. That's all you can do if that's all you've got. That's right. So no, she never came to anything i think my dad came to my high school graduation but no games or nothing and he was about 45 minutes to an hour away and i remember one time i even had a softball game in sulfur where he was living oh come on didn't come yeah yeah didn't have the gas to go to town i'm sorry what what the gas to go to

oh my god so um damn so i graduate so all through high school i felt like um my relationship with my dad was very one-sided. I thought, you know what? I'm the one that's taking my sisters and going and seeing him. I'm the one that's making the phone calls to him. And so I graduated. This was like right before I started college. And I said, I wonder what would happen if I just stopped communicating to see how long it would take him to reach out to me.

And it was two years. Two years? Yeah. And what made him reach out? My sister had gotten into some trouble. And he called me to tell me I need to do something about her. I need to get her ass into shape. You do?

Yeah. The child needs to do it, not the parent. Yeah. Yeah. The child who's been parenting all along. Isn't it amazing when you were a child and you realized that you were actually the parent in your relationship? Yeah. Isn't it nuts?

Yeah. Yeah. Fucked up. And I remember going off on him. I mean going off. And at that time I was dating my now husband and Greg grabbed the phone I mean it was like it was a big trying to get in on it yeah let me have some of that yeah yeah I'm like I got this babe and he was like um and I told him then I go you know I haven't I haven't

talked to you in two years in two years and I told him I go I stopped talking to you to see how long it would take for you to reach out. And it's been two years. And he's like, no, that's not true. I was like, so it was a big old thing. And I felt like then is when our relationship turned more towards like a distant relative that I hardly saw. And we weren't close. We were close growing up.

You and your dad. Yeah. He's the one you took to. Yeah. He was a great. You know, when he wasn't drunk he was great um so that's my relationship with with my dad and where do you go after graduation do you still with your grandmom do you move out i went to college okay where'd you go i went to my freshman

year i went to mid-america christian university where is that in In Oklahoma City. Okay. And I played softball. You got on a scholarship? Alright, good for you. Yeah. Alright. Fuck yeah. And loved it. Oh my god. Was it paid full ride or? Most. Most. So you were good at softball, huh? Yeah. First base. First base.

Because I'm six foot tall. And back then I could do those splits, but not now. Scoop of a shit. Not now. It would be funny to see Tammy out there on first base fucking scooping some balls and shit. We're about to go do Tammy Plays Tennis.

I bought a skirt for Tammy. I was like, oh, this is going to be good. We have something coming. I've always had a friend of mine who's a big dude and he can't either. But I was like, it would be hilarious if you just play first base and you DH. But you can't move. Everybody's got to throw it in your vicinity.

But you can kind of split, and you can smoke a cigarette and drink a beer. But you scoop everything. God, that's funny. Please, take it. That'd be great. Take it and do it. You can have Tammy doing it. That'd be great. Take it and do it. You can have Tammy doing it. That'd be great.

Scooping everything. You know what I mean? Just over here off to the side, smoking and looking this way. Yes. Scooping. So I told her, throwing it around.

Just the one-liners that she pops out. Yeah, dude. Yeah. Yes. I'll do it. Got dirt in my pussy. Yes. I'm using that.

Please do. I'd be honored. I'd be honored. i'll be the guy let me throw i'll throw balls to you i'll be on your softball team god yes yes um okay so it turns bad distant relative at this point you're now in college yeah not coming to see any college games now how far is oklahoma city from from him thacker or? Two hours. Okay. Yeah, two hours. Very reasonable, yeah. So my aunt on my dad's side and my grandmother on my dad's side were wonderful growing up. Okay.

They came to as many games as they could. You know, my aunt had two little, you know, two sons our age. So she had her own thing. But she did everything she could to really you know she knew how fucked up my parents were my grandma i mean she took care of us but she was very like i said very difficult to live with and deal with so as soon as school was out for the summer we were going over to our aunts and spending the whole summer she was wonderful still to this day her and my uncle are as close to a mother and father that I've ever had.

Oh, that's great. Okay, good. So you had that. Yeah. Right. Yeah, I had something. Right. You know, I really, yeah.

So I went to college, had a blast, met some of my best friends. Were you a good student? And with all this shit going on, were you pretty good in school? Like, good grades? Yeah. No. No. No. But like what? C. No. No. No.

But like what? C's? Barely. Still. I mean, listen, for what you went through to get C's, that's straight fucking A's to me. I mean, that fact that you're not getting F's and failing out is remarkable. I think if it wasn't for softball in high school, man, I don't think I would have. Sports are huge.

That's, I wouldn't have passed high school tell you that right now i mean i gotta ask you there's only 12 in your graduate are you is everybody playing fucking softball is everybody on the team um well 9th through 12th could play okay all right so 9th through 12th were on one one team but yeah but yeah all the girl everybody did play yeah yeah um yeah if it weren't for softball high school and college especially no I just wanted to play I loved it and what was that like I mean I gotta imagine a culture shock going from a double wide to a university yeah and especially just being on your own I went up there with my best friend from high school

we roomed together she's still my best friend um man it was awesome because I just yeah to get away and I felt bad because my sisters see all this other shit that's going on out in the world too you know other people live in the way they live yeah that's great loved it um met my husband he was going to Southeastern Oklahoma State University, which is in Durant, Oklahoma. It's the same town where my aunt and grandma lived, where I'd go spend summers. And met him on Facebook. And I was like, oh, you go to Southeastern? Because I was down there every weekend anyway visiting my aunt and stuff. We didn't have games.

And met him. Started dating instantly. Transferred the next year. You transferred? Out of your school? Did you play softball there? Nope. Oh, okay.

Nope, because I could have continued the four years in Mid-America, but I was in love, you know. Like, looking back, I'm like, man, I wish I would have played. We just could have. I don't know. Everything works out the way it does. Yeah. You know, but went to Southeastern with him.

Finished out college. Worked at Sonic all through college. You know what Sonic is. Yeah. Wow. Worked at Sonic all through college you know Sonic worked at Sonic the whole time but that was a Sonic at a truck stop is that what you're saying? yeah this was just a fast food Sonic he worked there as well

with me so all through college we both worked at Sonic together yeah college was great nothing really happened I felt like um and is your mom checking in at all during any of this phase nothing you're not hearing from her you don't know anything about where she is you couldn't even go visit her no surprise her no and i didn't give a shit i wasn't thinking about her at all right i wasn't thinking about my dad you know

what i mean and even i hadn't i've never had hard feelings about it and i don't know why i've never been like oh you know you'd be well within your rights yeah yeah yeah about it yeah i've never been mad at them i've never been poor me i went through this and and and you know there have been some we had it was pretty bad growing up it really was and I've just never I've always been a glass half full person even you know as an adult because I know how hard shit can be why am I gonna you know be upset over nothing when I know damn like it's just little things. I'm like, I'm so glass half full, man. I mean, that's huge.

Oh, yeah. That is huge. Yeah. Especially when you have every right to be shattered fucking glass. Yeah. God damn. Yeah. I've never been mad at them.

I remember being about eight years old and I don't, I remember thinking this, but I don't remember why I thought this, something must've happened or something or was going on. But I remember sitting there and I was in our living room and I remember thinking, man, when I grow up, I will never live like this at like eight years old. I go, I'm going to have a good life. I'm going to have a normal normal life you know what I mean I remember thinking that as an eight-year-old and so for me I guess it's been like I wanted to create that you know what I mean like high school call it like I'm gonna create the life I want to

live and that's kind of how I still view it to this day so that's great I mean it's everything yeah okay so after so how long after college before your mom gets sick I graduated college me and Greg get married like a month later he's four years older than me um what 22 ish i was just turned 22 just turned 22 and um we moved to dallas got us an apartment i would say a year later she moves to marietta stay is staying with my sister oh wow okay yeah so the middle sister has two kids and then me and the youngest don't have any so she's staying with my sister and um my sister helps her get like a she rents like a little one bedroom in town and um i think she's i think at this point i don't know how she's paying for it i really don't maybe government check of some sort i have no clue she wasn't working she had just done like a year in

jail i knew that and um that's a while it's longer than normal so she's been getting popped a lot yeah yeah so she's coming back around and and she's sober or at least says she is and she tells us she has cervical cancer and that it's bad and like she's gonna die and and even when she told me i was just like oh okay i'm sorry you know like i wasn't sad it was like a stranger was telling me right oh that's awful wasn't like all of a sudden this flood of feelings and emotions and all the memories we shared together yeah back as there aren't any no no. And so from that point up until she died. How long was that? I would say max a year, but probably shorter than eight months to a year.

And so during those eight months to a year, my two sisters are just, I don't know. um my two sisters are just i don't know i i've i've never talked to them about this but they're how do i say it like very much wanting and trying for that mother-daughter relationship they're seeing her on a regular basis they're trying to form that relationship. My mom seemed to be loving it. She would call me pretty regularly and just, what do you do? And we don't talk. We never talk on the phone. You know? And it was weird for me.

And I didn't want it. I didn't need it at this point. I was in my mid-twenties. I didn't want it. And I would say a month before she died um she called me and and I was always always always real short with her almost like I didn't want to talk to her because I didn't I'm like why are you calling me you know yeah and I don't know what we were talking about but she was um asking me something I didn't answer her. And she was like, Chelsea, I'm your mother.

And that just, and I got pissed. And I was like, and she had said that before in our phone conversation. I said, stop saying like, why are you saying like, and I went off on her. And so we ended up having a two hour long conversation about everything about whole childhood her drugs everything and she apologized she was bawling made me cry she was talking about do you ever have like a deep conversation with somebody and then afterwards you can't remember a word that you said or that anybody said yeah it was one of those yeah don't know what we talked about other than she apologized for everything she took ownership of everything I should have done this I should have done that I should have came back and got you I should have just everything she had that with my mom yeah yeah four hours oh wow so you know exactly what I'm talking about exactly and at the time I didn't think I needed that. But afterwards, I was like, damn, I needed that.

You did need it. And I needed it. Yeah. I'm glad I got it because there's some friends I've had who wanted that conversation. And then the person died or whoever it was. Yeah. And they never got it. Mm-hmm.

And they never got it. Yeah. So it just, it just, and the thing is before, I wasn't mad. I wasn't, you know, I was good. I just didn't care to thing is before i wasn't mad i wasn't you know i was good i just didn't care to and i still didn't afterwards after that i didn't care to have you know and i guess there's a lot of the crying during that too is more about feeling sorry for the you and and and the person that this this child that was left by this lady that didn't do shit for him now you want to do all this and yep it's too late because that kid's gone. Exactly.

That kid's 24 years old, 25 years old. Now that kid's gone. And I even think I, you know, explain that to her and talk to her. And she, she said, it's my fault. I, you know, I, I know I agree with you. And it was, it was a perfect conversation. Sure.

A perfect conversation. If she could have done anything for you before she left this planet, that was the one thing. Yeah. And, you know, I went up there. I was living in Dallas and they were in Marietta, so it was a solid hour. I went up there in that month, I think twice. And about a week before she died, it was just me and her and my grandma was outside smoking and so i thought okay this is a perfect opportunity i just asked her i said are you scared

of dying and she turned around she's like no she's like i'm not she said i was she goes i was but she said it's my own fault she goes i you know, I was hemorrhaging for years. Oh, so she knew and she just never bothered. Yeah. She goes, I was hemorrhaging for years, Chelsea, and I never went to the doctor. And I said, why? And she was like, I don't know. Isn't it crazy?

The addict mentality. I'll get up and go hustle for that hit today, but I won't go to the fucking doctor when i'm bleeding out yeah i mean it's yeah just yes so the only way she even knew she had cancer is because she was in jail and they took her to the jail doctors that's the only reason i was gonna say who diagnosed it yeah yeah the only reason so when she got out it was pretty much you're on your own and you're probably going to die. And that was it. That's all. That's it.

Didn't know how. Nothing. Don't even know if she was still going to the doctor. I think they were just pretty much go home and die. Yeah. Live out your days. And then we started to talk about that. And then my grandma walked back in and she goes, we'll talk later.

And I said, OK. And then I had left thinking I was going to come back up the next weekend and then like two days later my sister calls and says you gotta get up here mom's in the hospital she's about to die wow so I get up days I get up and the whole family's there and I go and I go in and see her and like I think five or ten minutes later she died whoa yeah you were there you saw it yeah oh what is that like i mean uh is everyone allowed in the room are they all allowed to say goodbye or we all went in there one at a time to say our goodbyes and then we kind of waited outside and then literally minutes later we were all outside and i forgot who came out and told us but somebody came out and said she

passed away and it was sad i felt more sad for everybody else who was who was sad right um especially my sisters they were really tore up over it and i felt bad for them um but once again i wasn't like it felt like a family member died but not a mother right you know yeah so um what killed me was the funeral. We, so it was, we had to go in. It was my grandmother, my aunt, her sister, my mom's sister, and then us three kids. We had to go in and, um, the preacher was asking us, cause he didn't know her. He was asking us about her life. us because he didn't know her he was asking us about her life um you know i remember him looking at us and saying do you have any you know what are some good memories that i could what's a good

story that i could tell up there and we all just didn't sit there and i remember thinking what the hell is he thinking where he has no idea you know he's probably thinking oh these are her kids give me some good memories and we're sitting there and and i'm saying i don't have one i don't have one you know yeah yeah that's and so my yeah this guy's like oh fuck i'm earning my shit yeah so my aunt and grandma really had to step in on that one. And then, you know, he'd look at us and be like, you know, what kind of person was she? And we were just like, I'm sorry. Like, I felt so, that's when it felt, I felt, it just was a weird. When you realize you didn't even know your mom. Yep.

Yeah. The woman that birthed you. You can't even say one fucking thing. I didn't come up with one thing. Not one. and i tried to yeah i was sitting there i'm like oh man i got you know and i was just like no no yeah no no yeah describe her what was she like describe her personality i'm like i don't know i have no idea and so my my grandma and aunt kind of, well, you know, when she was a kid, she, you know. Had to go back to her being a kid.

Yeah. Yeah. That's when it was, I felt, I was like, oh my God. It's awful. That is awful. Awful. So, dad was at the funeral. He did come.

Yeah. Okay, I was going to ask you, yeah. Dad was at the funeral. And how was he? Just, he was fine. Did he go and see her at all before she passed? No. No.

And his wife's a little controlling, so. Not as old as ladies. You know how they are. I don't know what happened anyway. Yeah. Yeah. And now is your dad still alive? He is.

And are you close? No. Hey, we're Facebook friends. That's about it. Facebook friends. We're Facebook friends. That's unbelievable, isn't it? For a long time, I wasn't even people like, I'm not even Facebook friends with my mom.

Like, huh? Yeah. Like, right? What a world we live in. No. So I had my first stand-up shows last month yeah congratulations thank you so he called before he called my sister and we were like dad's calling you know he was facetiming we had never facetimed where is he now sorry he's living in Sulphur Oklahoma okay he's in still in Oklahoma yeah all right so we were

talking and it was kind of weird like hey what's up you know and uh he was like oh your aunt gail was telling me you have and i didn't tell him i didn't post nothing to my personal facebook i didn't want him to know about these shows your aunt gail was telling me about you know you're doing some stand-up in dallas and i was like oh fuck i'm like yep he was like well i'd love to try to come down and uh see him and i kind of just sat there i just got that gas remember i couldn't get the town i got gas money now and um i just i told him i didn't want him to come i was like i go i don't think i'd feel comfortable if you were there and he was like okay maybe future shows and i was like yeah because i talk about um them a lot and i was like i can't say

this also it's your first time doing you know what i mean like yeah he don't you don't get to just show up all of a sudden yeah i'll tell you when you yep there you go it's on your terms yeah it's your life exactly and if i wasn't if i hadn't talked about my childhood maybe but i was like nah i don't want to be the perfect thing for him to fucking hear though true you know what i mean like people yeah I said the same thing to my mom so I go you know let it be a lesson to you that you don't remember shit but your kids remember everything and you never

know who they're gonna become or what they're gonna become and one day one of them might have a fucking microphone with a bunch of electricity and people behind it listening and yeah it might be the perfect fucking thing that your dad needs to hear you're right yeah there's a lot of people out there that love you and support you and would gladly tell your dad

what they think yeah exactly he might as well stay off the internet i love that yes yeah but um yeah me and my dad we don't there's no hard feelings we just he's got his own life going on and we see him every once in a while and he's funny and he's fun to be around but that's about it right yeah yeah he'll comment on a facebook he's not fatherly he's not calling you and i don't know who i was speaking with about this the other day i was talking about the conversation me and my mom had. Before she died. And somebody asked. Do you think you and your dad will ever have a conversation like that?

I said there's no way in hell. There's no way in hell. Even if I brought it up. And tried to talk to him. He's not that dude. He's not that dude. I think he would not admit to anything. He's not a feelings dude.

He wouldn't admit to anything. He not a feelings dude right he wouldn't admit to anything he wouldn't talk to it'd be awkward he'd be probably just i don't know that'd be him you know so i'm like there's no point there's no hard feelings there's no there's no point you know so and so you say now your sisters live with you so uh one sister has two kids what are you a niece and nephew i had two nieces two nieces and they all live with you yep uh one sister has two kids what are you a niece and nephew two nieces two nieces and they all live with you yep wow good for you yeah thank you that's fucking amazing first of all that you all have stuck together through all that shit because it would make sense if everybody went their separate ways still talk and stuff but yeah the fact that you're still so together and and you

all live together that's got to be great yeah and it is and and you know live together. That's got to be great. Yeah, and it is. And, you know, my followers know that they live with it. I post about them all the time. And they're just like, you know, what's it like living with your sisters as an adult? You know, it's great. We don't fight ever. We don't fight ever. So I moved out here almost seven years ago

because my husband's an engineer. He got a job out here. And they followed quickly, man. Within a year, got a job out here and um they followed quickly man within a year they're both out here so and we've just been living together ever since it's great i love it i love that you're doing that yeah especially with the kids too like they get to have the extended family all together that's nice yeah and we could help my sister with them because you know she's got her own shit with her you know ex and it's yeah so we're helping raising them and it's great it'd be weird if it was just me and me and greg

i think it would we live but we you know we live together with just us the first um five years of our marriage i was gonna say you guys go back to college so yeah we've been together for a minute yeah so it's fine we're're good. And that was in Dallas and stuff when you did that? Yeah. But you've always been close with your sisters? Always. And there's no animosity about their relationships with mom? You don't ever talk to them about any of that?

We have. We've talked about it. What do they think of your Tammy character bringing up the family in there? Do they enjoy it? Oh, yeah. Do they ever give you stuff like remember this? Remember this? Yeah they do. Yeah they'll come in my room. Oh you need to say

about that one time. And I'm like writing it down. I'm like I forgot about that. My brothers will do that too. I'm like oh yeah I forgot that one. Oh they're great at that. They love it. Oh that is good. That's good. No they love it. They're supportive um they get

recognized in public it's weird for them i'll bet yeah maggie the middle one she's uh super shy me and beth are a lot alike in terms of personality maggie's the shy one she came home from the grocery store the other day and she was like oh my god oh my god walking through the door i'm like what's wrong she's like i was at vaugh's, and someone came up to me and said, are you Chelsea's sister? And I was like, yeah. And they go, oh, my God, can I get a picture with you? And she was like, I didn't know what to do.

And I go, Maggie, just take a picture with her. Like, why are you freaking out? She goes, I don't know. It just freaks me out. So, yeah, but they love it. I love your story. It's such a great fucking story. I mean, I was twice your age doing the same thing.

We were getting up, getting each other to school, making sure my little brother was on time. He didn't drive yet. You know, we're 16. He's 13. You know, barely any food in the house, constantly eating fast food or whatever the fuck we could get back then i think cheeseburgers were 69 cents at mcdonald's we were over there

tearing it up yeah wow good for you you've always but i can tell you've always had that hustle you've always had that heart you've always had that focus you've always had that drive you've been ahead of yourself you know your age i should say you're telling your dad like you all need to get a divorce when you're super young like you see it you feel it so good for you good for you for fucking taking that pain and all that shit and turning it into this fucking positive character thank you that makes people laugh and makes people feel fucking great about thank you man i appreciate that yeah you're a light good for you all right I ask everybody, I said to you at the beginning before we started recording, if you could give advice to your 16 year old self, what would you go back and tell 16 year old Chelsea?

I think I would say. Let me ask you this because your situation is so unique. At 16, you're in high school. You're living with your grandma at the time in Thackerville, Oklahoma. Yeah. And you're playing softball then? All right. So what would you, Oklahoma. And you're playing softball then? Yep. All right. So what advice would you give yourself?

I think I would say, you know what? Your life really isn't going to start for another 15 years. So just chill until then. And when it starts, it's going to be awesome. Yeah. Yeah. I actually feel that way i just feel like i just started living life yeah you know i was just coasting through the last 10 15 years trying to figure it out i mean look at your fucking past for you to even figure that

out and then that's what i'm saying for you to be where you are now it's yeah yeah good for you girl thank you yeah just yeah just ride it out for another 15 years and then things are going to get fun. So, yeah. And I love that you kept family close. Yeah. That's awesome. Oh, yeah. Thank you so much. Thanks so much for coming on here. I love you. You're awesome. Will you please one more time promote everything you like? Oh, OK. Instagram is probably my central. That's where you're going to find all the information for stand up for Tammy, for all that. So just message me on Instagram.

I see most of them. So I'll try to get back to you and go see Chelsea live. Starting to get out there and do live shows. Yeah. Yeah. It's a good time. It's fun. So,

all right. Thank you so much. Yeah. I love it. Thank you. I love you. You're fantastic. Love you too.

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