The HoneyDew with Ryan Sickler - Todd Glass - GlassDew

Episode Date: May 13, 2024

My Honeydew this week is veteran comedian Todd Glass! (Ten Year Old Tom, Act Happy) Todd Highlights the Lowlights of losing his mother to cancer abruptly, and what helping her through those last few days were like. Todd also shares his deep-seated love and thrill for performing comedy, looking at his grief to reflect on how this tragedy is driving him to pursue his passion project now more than ever. SUBSCRIBE TO MY YOUTUBE and watch full episodes of The Dew every toozdee! https://youtube.com/@rsickler SUBSCRIBE TO MY PATREON, The HoneyDew with Y’all, where I Highlight the Lowlights with Y’all! You now get audio and video of The HoneyDew a day early, ad-free at no additional cost! It’s only $5/month! Sign up for a year and get a month free! https://www.patreon.com/TheHoneyDew What’s your story?? Submit at [e-mail] CATCH ME ON TOUR https://www.ryansickler.com/tour Get Your HoneyDew Gear Today! https://shop.ryansickler.com/ Ringtones Are Available Now! https://www.apple.com/itunes/ http://ryansickler.com/ https://thehoneydewpodcast.com/ SUBSCRIBE TO THE CRABFEAST PODCAST https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-crabfeast-with-ryan-sickler-and-jay-larson/id1452403187 SPONSORS: Cozy Earth -Get up to 35% off site wide when you use code HONEYDEW at https://www.cozyearth.com Rocket Money -Stop wasting money on things you don’t use. Cancel your unwanted subscriptions by going to https://www.RocketMoney.com/HONEYDEW The Farmer’s Dog -Get 50% off your first box plus free shipping when you go to https://www.TheFarmersDog.com/HONEYDEW

The Honeydew with Ryan Sickler. Welcome back to The Honeydew, y'all. We're over here doing it in the Nightpant Studios. I am Ryan Sickler, RyanSickler.com, Ryan Sickler. On all your social media, and I'm going to start this episode like I start all of them by saying thank you. Thank you. Whether you're new here or whether you've been here. Thank you so much. Whatever you do to support anything that I do from the Patreon

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And I am very excited to finally have this guest on the honeydew. Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Todd Glass. Welcome to the honeydew, Todd Glass. How are you doing? Good, sir. It's very good to see you again, Todd Glass. You don't even know. Can I just say this quickly and I'm going to let you promote everything you'd like. You gave me the greatest introduction of my life on any podcast I've ever had. Back in the day, I don't know if you still record there at all, but you had that studio that overlooked a vintage car museum. Yeah, no, we moved to a carriage house in the back of my

house, which was also very cool. Fantastic. You let me do a photo shoot back there. Headshots. But that was the, where I learned you were very big on lighting. Yes. But black horse motors was. It was like out of boogie nights or something that the all glass. And I mean, literally there's the bandit from smoking the bandit down there. I'm like, Oh my God, these vintage, you know, classic cars. Um, and not like, I mean, real from movies and things.

And I remember sitting down, we start the podcast and we must be 10 minutes in and you're like, all right, we're gonna introduce you. I'm like, wait, we're gonna introduce it. We already started recording. He's like, you're like, yeah. And look, you have two choices. You could either sit there and we'll introduce you

or you can go over there, walk down the steps a little bit and we'll play you in. And I said,, walk down the steps a little bit and come play you in. I said, well, shit, if you're going to play me in, Don Klapp, I want to be played in. I went over and I crouched down and you had a three-person band in the room, not much bigger than this really cranking it. You called me in and I was like, man, I have never forgot that.

We had J.J. Kirkpatrick on, we had trumpet, drums, and keyboards, and boy can you, man. Well. With that glass, it's all so good. Overlooking, yeah. So thank you. You're welcome.

And it is great to see you. Please, plug everything you would like to plug. Well, I appreciate it. You know, if you wanna know sort of a taste of the show, go to, just go to the, go to YouTube, Todd Glass, The Event of a Lifetime. Even people listening today, go watch it. Cause then when we reference it,

you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. Cause it's hard to explain. Okay, so here I go. I'll try to keep it short. Do your thing, buddy. So I've always, I'm going to try to bypass the thing I've talked about so much. You know, most people that know me know that I care about even at comedy clubs like the music I play as people are coming

In and all that stuff. Okay, that's a given we don't need to talk about that but with this show I sort of took it to another level and I you know, I took advantage of like wait before the doors open I thought of every level now that I have a band and If the I have a I have a saxophone player playing out in the street before the show starts. Some theaters or clubs, the seating is an hour. They're sitting there for an hour. I have two of the band members go out and play,

and they don't just noodle. It's instrumental so people can talk. And I always tell them, guys, no offense to you, but don't leave gaps in between the songs. I want people to know that this music now is for them to talk. You don't want them to feel like they have to applaud. So just play, no gaps, no gaps.

One song to another anyway, nevertheless. And then there's a tight comedy show backed by a band after the show. I try to have something like an ice cream truck or cookies and hot chocolate to go and some of the band plays out there. So it's, it turns the night of standup comedy, which is already. And not to interrupt here, but again, when I very early on in my career,

I worked with, you were headlining. I believe it was Jimmy Dore featuring. I was opening for you in Ibrea. It's probably been like a Wednesday or a Thursday and you're walking the fucking tabletops. You're doing sweet Caroline at the end and you're literally walking on the table. I'm like, who the fuck? I would. Yeah, I like the mixture.

Yeah, the mixture of both. It was always an event. It was always something that was thought it was intent behind it. And I always appreciated. Well, I appreciate you saying that. And hey, by the way, that's why I call it the event of a lifetime. It's just it's not just a name. So anyway, I'm not going that. And hey, by the way, that's why I call it The Event of a Lifetime. It's just, it's not just a name. So anyway, I'm not gonna try to explain the show.

It is a stand-up comedy show backed by a 10-piece band. But go watch, I'm telling you or you, go watch Todd Glass, The Event of a Life on YouTube, and then you'll get it. You're like, wow, I don't know, if I keep explaining, it doesn't help. But here's the thing I will explain. So I wanna do the show in New York.

This explains the crowd source, and I'm almost done. I wanna do the show in New York. This explains the crowd source and I'm almost done. I wanna do the show in a run in New York. But the truth of the matter is, and this explains a portion why it's, I think it's 150,000 we're going for. I could go do the show in New York and make it the best show in the world, but if I don't have the funding to,

like when they bring a play into New York, it doesn't have to be Hamilton, but already anybody that's thinking, oh, for PR for a show 10, 15, by the minute I say like when a play opens right away, the figure and the figure we got, he goes, you could spend three times more, but the first figure when you could bring in series promotion and really is production value, 30 to $50,000 for just promoting it. Just the promotion. And then there's obviously to have the band and all that

and fly them in from Los Angeles. This year, I even toured without the band because I wanted my standup to be as tight as it fucking can be. And I go out on stage now, like I have something to prove. I always did a good job, but now it's at another level. And the only thing that could go wrong, that's why I don't mind waiting this out.

Everything takes longer than you think. Everybody listening knows. And sometimes people get embarrassed to talk about it. As long as you're doing something to make it happen, everything takes longer. You go, I'm embarrassed to mention it. It was two years, three years I've been talking about this. I think the only thing that could go wrong,

and I really mean this, because every slice of this show is as tight, excuse my language, as it fucking can be, is to not have the money to do it right. And that's how I wanna do it. So that explains the crowd source. And there's different tiers, it's all over there. But if you go to Todd glass.com, it'll take you right over to seed and spark,

which we've been having a they've been great, you know, they've been a great, great helping us out. And I'll just tell you that the high the two highest tiers and then we're done. Then we're done. One is named the band or your business after you. It's a high ticket item, the band or your business after you. It's a high ticket item. The band or your business. Hey, I'll call them the Joe's Pizza Band. I don't care.

First, my friend goes, let people name the business after the band. Like their business. I go, no, that's gonna, it's one thing if you go, ladies and gentlemen, the Ryan Stickler Band. That sounds cool. A lot of comedian's names would sound cool.

The Roy Scoville Band, but Joey's Pizza? And then I went, oh, no. The Roy Scoville band, but Joey's Pizza. And then I went, oh, no, I love it. Please, the Joey's Pizza band, they paid for them folks. And the highest tier, here's the highest, highest tier that one person sweeps in a benefactor and pays for the whole thing. Now, here's why I think it's a pretty cool tier.

My goal with this has always been to get the money first. I do not wanna go to my comedian friends and ask for the money. But once I have the money secured, if it's one person and it's a benefactor, then I'm looking for four or five people to present me. So instead of just blank presents, Mike Brabiglia presents, Jerry Seinfeld presents,

whoever, I don't mind mentioning his name. But it's like, brings an elephant into the room, you mention his name. But if one person pays for it all, so then I'll go get like five comedians to present me on all the advertising. It'll be like boom, boom, boom, six names, five names, present Todd Glass. But if you're a benefactor and you pay for the whole thing, your name goes up. It'll be cool names. I don't want to mention who it'll be because some people that I'll ask might say no with a reason, I'm sure, but four or five are going to say yes. High, high profile comedians with a large audience. You get to have your name right there with them. So maybe, you know,

somebody like that pay for the whole thing. My brother goes, what if two people split it? I go, okay, I'll squeeze both of their names up there. So there it is, there's everything. Thank you for letting me go long with that because it's really, it's my passion project. Yeah, and again, where do they go for that? They just, I thought it was easier

instead of sending them to Seed and Spark because they could forget that, go to ToddGlass.com. Thank you, Brian. ToddGlass.com. Thank you, Brian Auditor. I can't say his name, but I love him for my website. And that'll take you, ToddGlass.com will take you right over to Seed&Spark.

And by the way, what we might talk about today, it all ties into why now? Because that's what somebody, you know, was asking me, why now? And I'm like, it all sort of ties in. Yeah, well into why now? Because that's what somebody was asking me, why now? And I'm like, it all sort of ties in. Yeah, well, why now? What is it? Because, okay, let me just ask Jesus to set it up. How old are you now, Todd?

Oh, Jesus. Come on. I hate it, 60. Are you really? Yeah, shut the fuck up, right? Fucking look good, dude. You know what, I don't have kids. And you've had a heart attack.

It's not about that, bro. I've had, you know, I always think, I go a ton of lasers, you know? I'm don't have kids. And you've had a heart attack. It's not about that, bro. I have. I've had, you know, I always think I've had a, I go a ton of lasers, you know? I'm big on the lasers. It's stand up over the years alone. It's just not, it's not a healthy choice of occupation for us. When you really dive into the clubs and the addictions and all the other things that go along with it, but you look great.

You know, I don't do everything right now. I eat a lot of candy late at night. I did quit smoking 12 years ago. I do work out seven days a week. I stretch with someone that comes in once a week. I don't, I do push-ups, sit-ups. I do all myself once a week. That's a stretcher.

He's not a stretcher, he's just a trainer. But when he came, I said, all I want help is for you to stretch me once a week. Let me tell you something, it's amazing. I know it. Changes your fucking life. I've had to go to PT for over a year and I love it. And once you're stretched out, it's not that hard.

Like one time I go, Moses, I'm all. I can't wait for it to fall now. We just start talking. We start talking and I go, I don't really feel like before. He goes, yeah, because you're stretched out now, we're just maintaining. And if you're just maintaining, it doesn't hurt, like the first two months where you're trying to get your leg

to where, you know, when they, but. And how long have you been in standup now? I started in 1981. 81, so what is that? I was in high school. 45 years. Wow. So there's now leading to me to my question. And I still, by the way, 45 years. Wow. So there's now leading me to my question.

And I still, by the way, I still love it. And I'm glad that I'm aware, because it makes me a better comic, how I'm aware of the honest state of comedy today, which is great in my opinion. It always gets better and better. The arts get better and better. They just don't get worse and worse.

It's not the way it goes. So I'm glad that I'm in touch with no new comedians and I'm happy because I still really love it. And Stand Up Alone is great, but with the band, I mean, I go out, I fucking love it. I mean, it's fun. It's powerful. Dude, back in the day, we did that crab fees home run derby. Jay and I, Jay got the ice cream truck and I didn't say anything.

And I hired a five piece Mariachi band. And let me tell you, when I went over to these guys, I'm talking to them like, hey, do you guys know the national anthem? And they said, which one? And I said, oh, we got an authentic one here. All right. And I was like, both of them. So they played both national anthems. And then I said, every time I go up, you're my hype music.

You're my theme music play. This is my walk up to the plate. Isn't it fun? And I said, as soon as I'm done, you go silent. You don't play shit when he walks up there. You're not here. You're here for me. And that was my and it felt and then I knew also I knew just in, you know, a lot of people showed up to watch it, but you hear a mariachi band at a park. You're going over to see what's going on over there.

It puts you in a good mood. You're walking right over and go, what the fuck's going on over there? Yeah. Going right over. And that's what happened. People came to like, what the hell is this? What's going on? Yeah, real quick.

I'm sorry to interrupt. You don't interrupt. We're conversing. When the show starts, like I know people are there for standup, I want them to get, I know what it's like to want a fix of standup comedy. So this show gives people that, and I preface that all the time, because in case people think,

is it a one man show? No, it's a standup comedy show. But the opening, I had, sometimes I'll have the singer say, hey, when I met Todd, I talked about how when I met musicians, I found my people. And Todd said, comedians, because we talked about this. And when I found comedians, when I was 15 or 16, a lot of comedians, I like comedians, I really do.

With all our, you know, people can have their issues and they can deal with things, but I really I could I could like cry because it's like there I met so many nice comedians over the years like I get it. I doesn't it's not lost on me What a great group of people to to so in a shorter version He says and when Todd met comedians he did he felt the same way I found my people so and he makes this very short He goes we're gonna open the show tonight. And he shreds for once in my life. I have someone who needs me and dedicated to all the comedians that Todd's met over the years. Does a two minute version. And I mean, shreds it. Boom, at the end of the song, hits the deep keys, boom, blackout.

And then ladies and gentlemen, and then I come out. So people, you know, get a little, it's a little emotional even, and then I got no trouble following that. So you can start the show in a big way with music. Anyway, there we go. So why now? Well, why now? Well, I always wanted to do it,

but, and we talked about this on the phone a little bit. You know, like I always preface two things when I talk about this stuff, for my own insecurities. You preface like I always preface two things when I talk about this stuff for my own insecurities. You preface everything. I preface everything. Look at that. I know. Preface your preface.

I wonder if like, I know someone said when I preface everything, I go, don't say that. Now I'm going to preface my preface. Now you created it. I told Kirsten, I go, wait till Todd gets here. I was laughing to your clip of like, you can edit that out and put it back in later. And then we'll pull it out,

we'll put it back in somewhere else down there. I don't know why. I think maybe I can later in life, can I still work on my stuff? Can I stop prefacing? Why do I do that? But anyway, one is everyone has things they go through. I don't tell it in some way like, oh, whoa, it's me.

And two, why? Why talk about it? Maybe it makes me feel better. And I go with an old Mr. Rogers quote. And Mr. Rogers, you know, just when you think you can't love him anymore, some clip shows up on TikTok or Instagram. He said, if you mention it, it's manageable.

Because back in the old days, no one mentioned anything. If you can mention it, you can manage it. Doesn't mean it'll be easy depending on what you're mentioning. So I figure on a show like this, you mention it and it continues to help manage it. And then maybe for somebody else, including me still, but other people.

So, you know, I dealt with death in my life, but this year, about a year ago, almost exactly a year ago, my mom died. And, you know, my mom was 80. She had a lot more life in her cancer, you know, cancer came during the pandemic, I thought I was gonna have to say goodbye to her over zoom. Oh, no, you know, cancer came during the pandemic. I thought I was gonna have to say goodbye to her over Zoom. Oh no. But she gained, she got back. The doctor goes, no, we can, you know,

and we can deal with this. We can get you on, you know. Can I ask what kind of cancer? You know, it's a name that I have a hard time saying. It's not like a lung or? No, it was something. Oh, I'm so embarrassed that I don't know but also it's disgusting There are so many of them that we don't even know what the hell they are and they're just wiping us out

Yeah, it was it was it was it was oh, I thought I thought the name came to me, but it didn't but nevertheless she fought it she got back everything seemed great and Then I She got back, everything seemed great. And then, I mean, you could ask me any questions you want, but I'll give you the short version. And then I got a call from her one day. You know, my mom had sometimes gone into the hospital and gone out and sometimes we thought she, you know, after a while you're like, oh, she's gonna be okay.

And she did, she recouped, she was okay. I got a call from her earlier in the morning, I went to a voicemail, because when my mom called, I always litigated a voicemail. I had a good relationship with my mom. I was about to ask, okay. But you know, she was always, there was a lot of drama. And I dealt with it and there was also a lot of laughs.

Me and my family, we all get along. She was crying, she said the cancer came back. So I called, I called, then I did call her. I called her, she picked up. She was, she was, you know, to, hey, you know, talking upset, but very, you know, my mom didn't have a, how to say it, but old lady voice, you know, she, my mom just talked like, you know, probably because she quit smoking years ago. But so what I don't know why I'm saying that, but it was a very like a lucid, is that the word conversation? And at that point she said the doctor came in and I called her back in an hour and then it took another level. And then she was told that she, well, oh Jesus Christ, that she wasn't gonna live that long. Really?

Yeah, it happened very quick. I was gonna say that's instant. Well, she hadn't been feeling well for a little while. The cancer was there from two years ago, and then she got chemo. And it's funny, everybody in my family probably has a different version of this. The guts of it are the same,

but I always wonder when they listen to these shows, and I say that just in case they are, I'm close enough. That's not how it happened. Yeah, yeah. So, you never came home. Pick it up. So, you never came home. They start emailing your show. So I said, are you scared? You know, I couldn't even say dying. Are you scared?

Can I stop you here for a second? Yeah, yes. When they tell your mom, you don't have much time, how much, what sort of timeframe are they giving her? You know, it's weird how everything- Days, weeks, like- Months. Months.

Months, months, you know, two months, could be seven days. Yeesh. So I asked her if she was scared, and I was trying to hold it together a little bit, but I was crying, I knew it was all right to cry, but maybe I didn't cry that time, maybe I wanted to hold it together for her.

And I said, are you scared? She said, well, I feel bad for the people that I'm leaving. So I was like, okay. And then we talked a little bit more. I said, do you want, at that point, she wasn't really talking to a few people in the family. It was going on for like two years, which happens. And I said, do you want me to call them? And she said, yes. She cried. She said yes, which I was glad. Because you know, some people, they go to their death holding on to things. Even though I wish it could have resurrected, but I had to stand back. I could not fix this, which I used to try to in the past. I stood back, I said, mom, that's not my job

if you're not getting along with these people. And I'm learning as I tell this story, it doesn't matter what it was, that's irrelevant to this story, why they were arguing. People have family drama. This person's about to leave the planet. Yeah. They say, hey, if you're interested, I'm open to a conversation. And it was only two years. Not the whole family, a few of them. Yeah, yeah. It wasn't. And in that two years, there were moments they tried, but it didn't. And she said, yes. So they took her home

moments, they tried, but it didn't. And she said, yes. So they took her home the next day to hospice at the house. So now it also goes quicker because she got off all medicines, all everything, you know. So they all went and they told me I was going to go home, you know, because you hear that in two days. My brother called me after talking to the doctor and said, Todd, you should get home. And I was like, shit, I wanted to get a haircut. I wish I was lying. I wanted to get a haircut. I wanted to look good if I have to go home. So anyway, I'm so embarrassed.

Yeah. By the way, it's my vanity is sometimes just not, it's so, so embarrassing. But again, if you mention it, it's manageable. So I don't, I don't get a haircut. I thought you were going to say you don't go home and you get a haircut. No, I don't go home at all. Well haircut. I thought you were gonna say you don't go home and you get a haircut. No, I don't go home at all. Well, I wanted to get some things in order, but when he called me, I got on a midnight flight. Sure, sure.

Whatever, it was 1130. And I, oh, I'm trying to think how I tie. I also have a friend, this ties into this, who's talking me through this. His name is Kevin Sousa and there's some, he also, well, we'll get to that, but everyone can tell something happens with Kevin too. He's a therapist. He's my best friend since we were so young. I met him not like when I, I met him when I was like, we were 10 year difference. And he was editing his, he had a band

and they were like back in Philly and they were like 17, 18. I was 28 and I saw their band cause I was editing at this place. I'm like, oh, you guys are good. Then I got him a job. I'm like, hey, my friend has this place. He needs a band.

You guys are pretty good. And that was it. Never saw each other for three years. Then my friends own a college bar in Pennsylvania called Smokey Joe's. So Kevin's three years later, I'm own a college bar in Pennsylvania called Smokey Joe's. So Kevin's three years later, I'm at the college bar. At this point, I'm like probably, I don't know how, yeah, 27, 28.

I hung out at the college bar still, I couldn't anymore. And we became best friends. He had a bad drug problem, but we were friends. He was, I mean, he was a fucking bad drug addict. But through it all, me and Kevin, I'm not. I smoked pot and we were just close. He cleans himself up, becomes a therapist. So he was helping me in life.

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be able to call him. I go home the day before they're all there, getting along great. Everybody, it's good. My mom's husband, he's not my dad. My dad died when I was 23. So they're all there. They're all there and I zoomed them. And my mom was, you know, a little more tired. I'd never really seen her like that. And then so I zoomed with them. The next morning I got home, landed at six, seven in the morning, whatever, it went right to the house. I get inside, I go into her room. Have you ever done it? Have you ever? Yo-yo.

And I'd never, I'd never, I'd never seen her like that. So- I've never seen her like that. So I remember seeing my grandma, I'm like, when she had Alzheimer's and when she was like ready to go, I'm not kidding you when I tell you, like, you know, you lean over and hug, you feel all the bones. I felt like I could blow her over. You know what I mean? Just, yeah, just a human being like that. Yeah, it's hard.

I have messages on my phone. With my dad, I had one voicemail on my message machine years ago. Oh yeah. And I just didn't mean as much to me then. I don't know why. My dad was great, but my mom, I started to save her voice memos

and I started playing them on my podcast to drop some things that I know I would love and they would be stored there. I didn't have to worry. I lost them. I have messages from 11 days before she died. My friend wants to come. Is it all right? Because she moved from her house into this like, they were like little lofts, but in a building. And everybody was very young, like 22 to 35. And she made friends with everybody, her and her husband. So she would always wanna bring people to the show. And I loved it.

I was like, no, no problem. She would always bring people to show. I have messages of her asking, can I bring these people to the show 11 days before she died? And I walk in and there she is. I mean, it took a turn. I was not ready for that. I thought I was going to sit and ask her all these questions. I even had some questions like, remember Billy our dog or remember Bear? Like, what happened to Bear? Like I wanted to like

these things. And she absolutely knew it was me though. She knew it was me. She said, hi, Todd. I gave her a hug. And but it was a lot to look at her and just take her in. And luckily a lot of people from the building, one woman that lived next door was a hospice nurse. So she was, oh man, just thank the universe for those people that were there. All those people right there. Oh my God, they weren't afraid of my mom.

I was afraid to lift her up, but she would go right in there and lift her blanket up. And she wasn't scared of the... They were just, oh, those people. And it was hard. I told her some things. I said, the next day, let me go to the next day, because then it got even worse.

And I said, no, no, this was the first day. She was out of it. And I said, mom, cause like two hours later, I went in there and no one was around. And I said, you know, she squeezed my hand. I said, I know you squeezed it, don't kill me, but like squeeze it three times. I wanna know.

When some people go, I think they knew. And that's beautiful too. I wanted to know. She had done it twice. And I'm like, do it. So she went, squeeze, squeeze, squeeze. Did she? Yeah, she squeezed.

And I'm like, okay, now I go. So she's here. And I just said the things, you know, I said, I wanted to be so realistic. I said, I know this last two years has not been great, but I go, mom, I'm gonna cry through this, but I think it's better I tell. Made me cry Todd Glass.

I was like, you gotta say everything you wanna say. And I said, mom, which is all true. And I'm leaving, there was a little chaos around my mom and it was getting worse. My friend Kevin said, when you don't work on yourself when you're younger, you envelop. It's not good when you get older.

It blows up even bigger. Big time. Yeah, so that was happening with my mom a little. So it was hard to celebrate her because she was always causing chaos. Well, she also said something that's very important that I learned a long time ago, because when someone dies, we think about how we lose that person, but that person's losing everyone.

And your mom said that. She feels bad for that. People who are, I'm leaving. Yeah. Yeah. Isn't it interesting that she wasn't, is she still thinking about everybody else? Yeah. She was, and I get that. I get that. I really do. Yeah, they're losing everyone. We lose, again, pulling all emotions and everything out if

you're looking at it as a mathematical equation. We lose one, they lose all. They lose everybody. And I don't really know if she was scared or not. She was a pretty spiritual person. But when I went to tell my mom what she did right, what I wanted to say, there was a lot she did right. And I said, mom, I know this last two years, but mom, you did such a good job. I go, you got so, her mom was a monster. Not a normal mom, crazy mom, but she was a monster.

And her dad left when she was 12. And I go, you did such a good mom, crazy mom, but she was a monster. And her dad left when she was 12. And I go, you did such a good job, mom, such a good fucking job. And I started to tell stories because I know they hear, you know, again, that day she was still like, you know, not as coherent as I wanted, but she was still there. And I told stories about, because my friend Meg showed up at that point. And I said, I go, Mom, and I said it again, I go, Mom, you need to know. I mean, you know, you really, you did such from, and I even said some things, I go, from bringing us to see hair, when we were in elementary school, she brought us to see the play Hair. And I think that says a lot about my mom.

Like some people think, and even her friends, were probably thinking, what are you bringing kids in elementary school to see hair? But those songs stick with me to the end of this day. Making can't- That moment just came all the way back to her death. I mean, that's, yeah.

Yeah, the bare necessities when she brought that album home from Disneyland, when she went with my little brother and we met so many cool people. I go, Mom. And I said all these cool people, because my mom was cool. So we met cool people. And then the next day, it was much worse, much worse. She was, you know, she was still able to eat, eat a little, but it was hard for her. And I had some emotions in me that I mean, I'm not a not an affectionate person, but I've some of it was like, I can't believe that I was able to do it. And like one of them was like, just, I was, I was feeding her sherbert. I go, do you want some sherbert? She said, yes, I fed her sherbert nice and slow. And I, I don't know. I said, I called her

baby. I was like, you're all right, baby. You know, I was like, and I knew that that was like, that I didn't know I had that in me to be that affectionate with my mom. We were close and I rubbed her head and I fed her sherbert and I was patient and her dogs were in bed with her, the two dogs. And then people would come in from the building, you know, like that lived there, they would come in and when they would go in to say hi to her, we let them go by herself, themselves. And when they came out, some of these people,

they weren't ready for it. Death is that close. They would come out, some of these people that did not look like, she met everybody in the building, so it'd be like a 25-year-old guy was a construction guy and looked like he would come out and he would look like just torn. Just, and I hugged everybody. I'm a pretty big hugger. So I hugged everybody and I was like, I know you weren't ready for that, were you?

And they're like, no. She just invited me to the show like a week ago. Yeah. And then Matt, this guy, I think his name was Matt came in and Matt, my mom had like probably a little crush on Matt. He's a very good looking guy and Matt came in the second day. She was very out of it and she lifted her head up. She went, Matt, you showed up. I'm like, you, I go, Matt, get the fuck out of here. Jokingly. I go, Matt, get the fuck out of here. You just got more than me.

You just got more than me. And I slept there. I did stay there. I stayed on their sofa. And the dogs were in there. It was, you didn't get a lot of sleep. I tell you what, if it ever happened again, I would probably go with a nurse through the night.

Cause I don't want her, I don't want her lips to be dry for one second. If you know, it was, it went pretty fast, but, but, but I thought about that. We were about to do that. We thought let's Spencer, my brother, Michael, Corey, let's get it. Maybe get a hospice nurse tonight. Just someone's there with her all night long. And, um, the hospice nurse came in on the third day and said to Steve, her husband, she's,

you can tell by the frown here that she's, you know, she's in a little bit of pain. And I thought Steve was going to be afraid to administer the morphine, because you have to do it. And I was like, please don't be afraid. For lack of a better word to say it, me, we all wanted like, you know, like heavy on the morphine. Don't keep her around for us.

This is what it's for. Right. And then the hospice nurse pulled Steve aside, talked to him. My friend Meg had dealt with it with her dad and said, don't do it for you. Like trying to be understanding to him, but also, he was so appreciative. He did. When he was told by the hospice nurse, it's time, he went in and he really gave her a big dose, what he was supposed to, but the highest dose he was allowed to give her at that point. And then someone told Steve to take,

it was about six hours later, to take a walk, go. Because sometimes they stay because for you. Steve came back again, I hope I'm remembering it right. He came back and he came out of the room and he had a look on his face. And I said, is everything okay? I mean, he's like, he's like, no, she's done. And I'm like, Jesus Christ.

So at this point, my nephew's there, Tyler, my brother. I thought maybe everyone won't want to come because they don't want to see her like that, but everybody came. They were coming that night anyway, but my brother pulled his kids out of school. They came, my nieces, my nephews, every single person came. Tyler was there already, my nephew. And I went into the other room and I was like, I mean, I'm close with Tyler, but I mean, I just grabbed on and ugly cried for about probably a minute, you know, probably a minute. We'd never seen each other like that before.

And then pulled back and was like, you could pull together pretty quick amazingly, not faking it even, just okay. And I went back out and somebody said, Todd, don't be here. That's why we were in the room because don't be here when they take her. Don't take her when they put them in a bag. And the coroner showed up. I remember peeking my head out. He was in a suit. I didn't think that would be, but I guess out of respect, they show up in a suit. And I didn't want to see it. I shut the door. Then I went out. And in the meantime, my brother Spencer came before the coroner was there. He went in. And in the meantime, my brother Spencer came before that coroner was there. He went in, he was not ready to be that emotion. He didn't know it was gonna hit him like a ton of

bricks. He just went straight to the bathroom, shut the door for about like three minutes. Then the coroner came, we came back out. And you know, it was pretty, there's a lot of love there. A lot of people were there which I was happy with and even a lot of laughing. Even a lot of laughing. Steve was very sweet to everybody, her husband. Sometimes he can be a little gruff and you know, but he was everybody. His son, Steve, little Steve I call him, his wife, Kara, people from the building.

And I called my friend Kevin because I was like, I'm always all right. Even when my dad died, I was like 23. And I remember finding out, I went into the emergency ward because I didn't know what happened. I thought he just had a heart attack and he lived. My brother goes, Todd, Todd, dad died.

And I was like, I went over and I like hit the wall. But then I came right back. I was like, after like 30 seconds, I go crying, but I go, we're gonna have Christmas. Everything's gonna be all right. We're gonna be good. I went in and said goodbye to my dad. And so I was like, everybody was there, we were laughing. And then I remember this moment when I

went over to, there were these cookies that my mom made every year and there were some there and they were in the freezer. I go, hey Steve, can I eat these? And he goes, yeah, your mom made them for you. I was like, oh Jesus Christ. Oh my Jesus. And it was just a, of course, I know, one moment between me and him, of course I think I'll eat one and then I'll like, but I ate them all, there was like eight of them. And I thought I'd eat them over the next day to get my mom's cookies. And we laughed, we told stories about my mom. We even made some, you know, oh, my friend Kevin said, Todd, I call him because I couldn't, I was having a hard time sometimes even catching my breath.

It was overwhelming to me. And that my mom's just gone, just gone. She's not here anymore. Part of it was life might be, she did cause a lot of drama. And I thought, you know, I was thinking sometimes on a bad day with my mom, I would like, it might be easier, you know. And maybe it is, maybe it is easier. But the thing that makes it difficult was, not difficult, but now that my mom isn't around causing topical drama, which I call it all the trouble with Steve, I'm able to celebrate who she was.

And there's a lot to celebrate, a lot. And we did, we talked, we laughed, everybody laughed. But I called Kevin, I said, Kevin, he's my friend. I said, Kevin, he was taught, you know, he said, listen, it is an honor and a privilege. This was something he said actually, when I was rubbing her head, he goes to take her through this journey.

It's an honor and a privilege. So just go in there, you'll know what to do. And then when he died, he goes, oh, leave the body is, he called it the meat suit. He goes, it's the mind, the love that transcends that that transcends. So, you know, I went, we all hung out for a long time, everybody hung out, a lot of laughing. And then I needed to get out of there. I didn't want to sleep over then, but he had enough people with him. I went to my friend Meg's house. She has an old farmhouse in Philadelphia. I spent… I had nothing to do. I spent a week. I mean, the farmhouse is only important

because it was a cool way to go. Everything the way I like it, it's perfect and pretty in the yard. yard and Meg I've known forever. And I existed for a week with like no world existed. I slept when I tell I wanted to sleep. I woke up, she took me to the gym, she dropped me off. It was like I was in elementary school and we laughed and we cried and we just existed. She made dinner every night. We sat around the fire and it was just pure bliss of letting myself disconnect from the world, which I've never done like that before. I think some people felt that a little bit around the COVID. Since everything stopped, there was this sort of peacefulness in with the horror, obviously too. And I just existed there. And then Jim Gaffigan found out what happened through my manager and he texted me.

He goes, do you think it would be good for you to do some dates with me? I said, oh, definitely, definitely. I did those dates, went right back to Philly and I had some shows at Helium. I'm almost done. I had some shows at Helium. I'm almost done. I had some shows at Helium and Comedy Club. My mom went to Helium every year.

She did, yeah, she always saw my shows, always saw my shows. And I did my shows. I knew I wanted to talk about her. So I knew I had to have good shows because you can't have a bad show and then talk about your dead mom. You know what I mean? It's too personal to share with an audience that doesn't like you. So I went out there with a mission every night. My mom, she sat at the same place with all her friends all the time, was right ahead of me.

And I did my show every night. And at the end, I said, folks, I want to share something with you over the years. A lot of people knew because when I did Preston and Steve, I'd always go, my mom needs landscaping. Is there any landscapers out there? And I just said, as some of you might know, she was dealing with cancer and it's sad, but I'm telling you for a reason, she passed away. It was a little hard for me to say, but I said it. And I go, and I'm telling you not just to be sad,

but when she was in the hospital during COVID, I couldn't go. So I asked people on my podcast and people on MMR, cause that's a local podcast slash radio show, to send her cards in there. She got hundreds of cards. Really? Hundreds of cards.

Wow. Which, you know, it sort of, it sort of, you know, reminds you how decent we can be as a species, you know? And I said, if you send something, thank you. And I told people, don't worry about getting a card. Don't worry. I don't care if you write a happy face on a post-it,

because I don't want to put anything in the way of someone going, oh, I got to get a card. Oh, I want to do that. Happy face on a post-it. And a lot of those came in. I'm glad that I said that. And I said, even if you did, I've done this before. And I said, folks, even if you didn't send anything,

but you thought about it, I go, I'm not kidding. You just thought about it. Thank you for that too. If you just wanted to do it, but you thought about it. I go, I'm not kidding. You just thought about it. Thank you for that too. If you just wanted to do it, that means a lot too. And I told some stories about her. I told some stories about her and then we sang, Let It Be and everybody. And then it was just a nice way.

And that club, I couldn't have been at a better club. Talk about reminding you how good we can be as a species. The staff, I mean- Yeah, they're great. They're great at healing. They're great anyway, but around this, I mean, I couldn't have walked into a more loving atmosphere from the manager, the bartenders, the people in the kitchen. They wrote this big card and they all signed it. And I go into the creative room, and there's flowers, and there's these

really nice messages. And I went back out because they were doing their staff meeting. And I was like, guys, you don't understand. It's not just like, hey, thanks. And I just started. I couldn't say anything. So I just said, I think you get it. I just went back to the green room. And you know, I said the other day, I go, this is about a week ago, two weeks ago, I go on, I miss when my mom was just dead. And I think whoever, I was talking to a few friends, and they go, do you know what I mean? They go, well, because you got more love. I go, yes, yes. And I told my friend, Ted Alexander that, and he goes, I was thinking, could I do that in my act?

He goes, I think you could. He goes, just say, folks, I thought she was gonna be just dead forever. But you know, because you get all that love and everything. So the helium was a great way to enter back into standup comedy, but in a loving atmosphere. And then I went off, same thing, did a show in New Hope at this place called John and Peters.

And with some sentimental value, which I didn't realize, my mom would take us to New Hope when we were little. You didn't even remember this. I knew when I went to New Hope for the last few years, but I wasn't thinking, oh, there's not just another show. There's a show with like Philadelphia, more of an attachment to my mom.

Because when we were little, we'd all go to New Hope and John and Peter's has been there forever. And I talked about her, I did two shows and I talked about her on the first show, I didn't on the second or the other way around. Then after the show, the owners, they take all five, six tables, they put them up on this gigantic stage with black tablecloths over them, they get all the candles from the room and they put them down the middle, they turn all the lights out in the room, all sat

around the table, some local comedians, some people I knew. And we stayed there. We ordered food. And I knew that he did that. I go, oh man, because here's why I figured he didn't want the night to end. I'm like, what? And we did. We stayed there until probably 3.30 in the morning. And they let us eat and drink and just hang on this table. So entering back into the real world was the best way that I could possibly do it. And I do, I think about my mom all the time. I have one little anecdote that happened the other night because my mom would start buying me things. Like she goes, oh, I want you to have something to remember me by. I go, mom, I have a spatula. Because I'm saying, oh, a spatula.

I'm not calling it, oh, a spatula. So I have a spatula. Me and Bert went through this on his show. And then when I watched it, I go, no, you're saying it right, spatula. But you're going, I gave my mom a spatula. Yeah. So, and she took it out of the frame I gave her a year later.

She goes, I needed it. And we had made, I remember this from third grade. And I have it. And that's all I wanted. That night, Steve was going, is there anything you want? I go, I want that. And I wanted a jar that she kept dog biscuits in. She used to use flour and sugar in it, but it was a Lance jar. She kept dog biscuits in it. I swear, Todd Glass, my father died when I was 16, and I remember family coming in and just taking his camera and anything that they thought was of value. We didn't even get offered. Same when my grandmom died.

The vultures just came in and they took things. They had jewelry, anything they could. Yeah, that happens. And now I have my grandmom's afghan, which is on the way back set. I have, I swear I keep fingernail clippers and things in this little zip pouch thing, it was hers. It means more to me to have a blanket and a makeup case than

any camera back then or any of that shit. And I try to tell my daughter now, like, she's very, well, you gave this to me. I go, listen, for years, I would not throw away a pocket Bible because my grandmom would give them to me all the time. And I'm like, I don't fucking want it. You know what I mean? Yeah. I had the guilt of the Bible, the guilt of my grandmom is a gift. And then I, one day I was like, fuck it. And I threw it away and it was so freeing because the memories and the stories and everything are so much more, the laughter, it elicits the tears, the emotions. That's better than any fucking watch or any pendant. I told her like, don't get attached to stuff I give you.

God forbid something happens to me. I don't want you to freak out. You said this to your daughter. I did. That teddy bear got torn. You know what I mean? Like it, just remember I gave it to you. That's all you gotta remember.

It's not gone. But you know what I mean? I'm not gone because that's gone. On a side note, I had the same thing, some things people gave to me. I'll make this quick, and then I'll get back to the other story. Some things, they meant something to me,

but I didn't want to get rid of them. And someone told me, I don't remember who even, but I clear out my phone every year. And you go through it, I get rid of the stuff I don't want. It's usually pictures, of course, screenshots of texts that went back and forth. It's usually pictures, of course, screenshots of texts that went back and forth. They get nostalgic two years later,

reading through the book, oh, look at this between me and Roy or somebody. And then things that I wanna get rid of, but I feel guilty, but they do mean something to me. I just don't want them. Now there's certain things I want the item, but that's not that many of those. So take a picture of it and then throw it out, or if it's something you can give the charity. Now when you're turning the item, but that's not that many of those. So take a picture of it and then throw it out,

or if it's something you can give to charity, now when you're turning the pages, now I see it. It's not in a drawer. So anyway, with my mom, she would do that and she bought me this Christmas thing, rocking horse, and you turn it. And after Christmas, I put up my tree, I went to put it in the shed behind my house and it's cold in there. And it's like, oh, Ryan, I put up my tree, I went to put it in the shed behind my house and it's cold in there and it's, I go, oh, Ryan, I couldn't do it. I couldn't put it in the cold. I was like, I know it's just an item, I get it.

But I couldn't leave it out there in the cold and I put it out there and I went back out and I brought it in the house and now I just keep it in the house. I could not leave it out there in the cold. That's the one thing that I couldn't. So, you know, they say you never know what's gonna remind you of that person.

We know that everybody's heard that. It's not like I go, wow, it's weird. The weirdest, you just don't know the feeling till you experience it. I come home one night and I take my shoes off and I have those like inserts you put in your shoes and they're chewed. And I went, they're from one of her her dogs chewed it when I was home.

And it was a dog I really liked. And I remember going into the living room. I'm like, somebody chewed this. And no, he had it in his mouth still. And I go, oh my God, do you know of any idea? You know how when you do the bits with dogs or a cat or whatever, I go, do you have any idea who chewed it?

And he's got it in his mouth and then he drops it. I go, all right, you don't have any idea who did it. All right. I go over and I get it. You sure you don't know? Cause if you know, I really would like to know. I don't know. And then I go, that's the last thing

that one of my mom's dogs is gonna chew, which I never thought I'd miss that. And I get emotional. Oh man, yeah, see, that's the math I do too. Like, man, I'm concerned. I get emotional. Oh man, yes. That's the math I do too. Like man, I'm concerned. I get emotional. And I think my mom, this was a crazy night. I think that my mom wanted me to always have a dog or a cat.

I don't know, and I didn't, not because I don't like animals, I'm just on the road a lot. I'm a little bit of a very clean freak. So I never had one, but so that's important for a reason. So I see the spatula, the spatula. I see the tune thing. And then I realize that there's a blanket

at the end of my bed that, because it's just been there for two years, so I almost forgot about it. When I was home visiting my mom, I needed a blanket. I took one out of the closet. She goes, oh no, that's a puppy blanket. Cause she would have like litters of puppies and stuff. And they had like probably poop and piss all over them

and been Cloroxed and that, but it was so soft. I go, I like it. So soft. And then at the end of the, when I was home, I go, can I take that home with me? I had it trimmed up and a new lining put on it, but it's so soft. And that's at the end of the bed on my feet,

see the spatula, the tune thing, and I'm about ready to let a cat that just came to my house, showed up very underweight, probably sleep in bed with me, high probability of maybe having fleas. And I went, I start crying. I go, Mom, I said it out loud. I go, mom, Jesus Christ. You see I'm you. I'm you. You know, even though I never had a dog, I'm you. You know, I got a blanket with shit all over it. At the end of my bed that I cuddle up with every night and you know, right? And this cat that might have fleas, I go, I'm you. And I just cried. I know the poop blanket, I told my brothers that. And it was just that, and so since then

I do these things where I call them guided cries and I know it's gonna bring tears out of me. But on the other side of it doesn't have to be, they say you can only be as happy as you're willing to be sad. I get that there's a reason for that. So I could play a song from Hair, any song from Hair or the Country Bear Jamboree song from, and it will bring up emotion in me. I call it a guided cry. Sometimes it lasts 15 minutes.

I feel flushed at the end of it, and then I just go back to just enjoying the night. Todd Glass, listen, this has been definitely the most I've cried in an episode for sure. This one in, I would say say Tom Segura's episode. I can't thank you enough for coming on here and sharing this. I feel every bit of your pain. But I do wanna ask you this, this is your first time here. So after this conversation,

what advice are you giving to 16 year old Todd Glass? Wow. I thought about this because we mentioned it when I came here. It's weird, it's like I'm trying to not give some advice that's been given a lot, but it's like, nothing matters. I mean, it does matter, but like the thing,

like I remember back in elementary school or third grade, I get in trouble and I was like, oh, you're gonna go to the principal's office. And then later, like, what the fuck was it? Nothing, what was gonna happen to me in third grade with the principal? It's not the president. But that,

I wish I could send it to you later. Like right now, go right there. Look at this. Look at this. Ask me the question again. Todd Glass, what advice would you give to your 16 year old self? Oh God, that's a good one. Can you just lay that in later? We'll cut that in for you. You can lay that in later? We'll cut that in for you. Take a lot of pictures, take more pictures.

You never take pictures with your friends. And later when you realize, oh, I love these pictures. So, you know, and just be silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly,

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silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly,, silly, silly, silly, silly, silly, get older, you realize, you know, your own mortality? Immortality. Immortality comes to play. You know, I'm thinking, remember when my mom was my age, and then you lay in bed and do math. You're like, oh my God, I got 20 minutes. My dad was never my age. I know, me and you two.

Isn't that right? How about that? I know, my dad died at 43. You said your dad was 23. And he was 47. Yeah, my dad was 42. My dad's never been this age. How did your dad die?

Heart clots and- Same with mine. Blood disease. Same with mine. That nonsense. And so I never got to, he never got, when I remember when I turned his age, it was like very, but what were we just saying?

Oh, so yeah, like, so, you know, I realized like, you know, there's an urgency now to this show. You know, I just don't wanna say it where it goes in one ear and out the other, but I do, I lay in bed at night. For three years, I've been fantasizing doing this show in New York. And I will say this,

maybe it's a shout out to a benefactor. People have been very generous with their donations, but not just some bullshit pipe dream. There is high, high, high probability that this show will be a success because I put the work into it. Not only have I been putting the serious work into it for three years touring with, but 45 years doing this. I am a well-oiled machine with something to prove. I still love comedy. I'm still growing and happy about it. So if we have the, I'd rather wait another year, and believe me, I thought I was gonna do it last October, to do it right.

Hopefully I don't die before it happens. Amen. Or there's gonna be a lot of comedians. Why do I say this? Because I want them to hear this and do it. There's some comedians out there that have the money to go, Todd, I got it. I want them to hear this and do it. There's some comedians out there that have the money to go, Todd, I got it. I want this to happen.

I'm not being selfish. If I die, I won't be around. How can I be? They're gonna feel bad. They're gonna be like, why? I think it's because they don't know this thing could be successful. They don't know what it is.

They're not aware what I'm doing. But anyway, also I'm not a mercy mission that anybody has to come in and help me, but I'll take the help. I'll be desperate. But yeah, why now is because, you know, if not now, then when? And I want to do this for the rest of my life. I want to do this show for the rest of my life. So Toddglass.com takes you right over to Seed and Spark. And even if you don't look, there's people right now, they don't have the money. They don't have, they're short $5.

I get it. Just go over, watch it because I think you'll get and leave a kind message. If that's all you can do is go over, watch that, Todd Glass, The Event of a Lifetime and leave a kind message on the comments. That'll be really awesome too. Great.

And good, good. You know, it was, it does. It brings up, if you mentioned it, it's manageable. It is. This was a powerful episode as well. Uh, you really got me with the three squeezes. That's where I started to lose it. As always, uh, Ryan sickle and all your social media, come see me on tour. Tickets are available at Ryan sickler.com.

We'll talk to you all next week.