The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 104- icks

Episode Date: December 17, 2020

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What's up, guys? Happy Wednesday. It's episode 104. Welcome back to the show. Hi, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Happy Wednesday. Welcome back to the show. if you're new I'm here seven days a week this is my audio diary instead of writing in a journal I speak it out every day talk about my life so go ahead and hit that subscribe button damn I said it again I'm not a youtuber go ahead and subscribe to the podcast on the apple podcast app you can go over to patreon.com slash tjms if you want more from me if you want more content you can check that out. I, uh, with a subscription on Patreon, you get access to more content from me and a shout out on Fridays. So go check it out. Uh, follow me on Instagram at Jacqueline Monroe

and subscribe to my YouTube channel. I'll be resuming my Monday through Friday video podcast when I'm home, uh, in San Diego in January. So now let's do a show. Okay. Okay. Wait, Did I cover everything? I did. How are you guys doing? What's up? Uh, midweek. Uh, I'm like, should I talk about the work week? What's going on on Wednesday? It's hump day. Um, shit's going on in the world. Of course. I basically just want to do a mini update about my day. Cause nothing happened. Literally today was a work day and that's it. Like I just worked and didn't do anything else. And, uh, yeah. So I don't have a lot to say about that. Um, about my day in rather rather who am I Joe Rogan rather whenever he corrects what he says he says

rather I don't know does anyone else pay attention to shit like that I actually miss you guys I'll be honest right now I haven't talked about Joe Rogan in a while but one of my nightly nightly routines back home throughout the pandemic was watching episodes of Joe Rogan on YouTube at night. Like I'd sit down and watch a couple like three hour podcasts instead of watching a Netflix series. I'd watch that. And then, uh, ever since I've been home, like I haven't paid attention to any of the podcasts going on right now or watched anything on YouTube. So anyways, I'm looking for it. Like I have this energy right now about what it is a day I came here. Oh my God. It's December 16th. I've been here since Thanksgiving, but I was just visualizing today, like going home and

getting back in my routine and I get, I had this excitement about it, but, uh, anyways, so let's talk about my day. I, what did I do this morning? Uh, my sister's using the microwave. Um, that's cool. I think we're both making tea. I don't know. I'm drinking tea tonight. Guys, I'm proud of myself I think I'm gonna officially call yesterday my last diet coke day uh because y'all know I drank it last night on the show but tonight we're doing tea let me read you what my little tea message says here you know how they write a little nice thing on the little tea what's it called the tea flap the thing that hangs over the the cup the tea bag okay it says let me see it's a stress relief yogi tea that's what this is called it says use your heart to live with heart use your

heart to live with heart yeah listen to your heart listen to your heart what's that song anyways what's what was I saying oh what did I do this morning woke up worked drank coffee called my dad for about I don't know it was like two hours I think and talked to him it was great we had a like whenever I talked to him for a long time we just go places and I asked him at the end I'm like do you want a podcast like do you would you ever be up for it because he's talking to me about uh all kinds of shit behind the scenes info about my ideas about the show and what I'm going to do in the future and he was he's so good for advice about stuff because he's in the he's in the he's always been in entertainment and uh media like his thing is tv and video but it was fun

to talk to him about just like what I'm up to and it was great but uh I'm pretty sure I'm I warmed him up to the idea of maybe doing a zoom zoom zoom uh zoom podcast with me in the new year I don't know he has like a good I told him you're really conversational you have a really good like talking podcast voice uh it's and we talk about his his thing with me is we go into different rabbit holes and talk about like I don't know he's how do I describe it like anytime we talk about politics current events uh like adulting life advice for me it's so good he's so good at it so I'm hoping and praying he'll he'll say absolutely I'll do it in the new year and that'll be fun for you guys anyway so I called my dad worked all day I had eggs and toast again I mean

do you guys want to know specifics let me okay time out Jacqueline time out the purpose of this episode by the way I looked at my uh what's called analytics I don't care I'm gonna say it I have I think 86% males listening to this podcast currently. So I found a list of ICKS, I-C-K-S, they're called ICKS, things that guys do that girls like break up with their boyfriends over. And it's not like bad stuff. It's like stuff, it's like you're on thin ice. You're alive, but you have earwax in your ear your girl's out she can't handle it and it's a really funny thread of people chiming in about stuff guys do and I think it's funny and I'm gonna go into it later after I talk about my day but that's that's the goal of this episode I should have said that in

the beginning uh whatever but yeah like I said I have I think almost 90% males listening so it might be interesting for you guys uh yeah but back to specifics I do Dave's killer bread it's the green bag toast that I do eggs two eggs then I add crushed chili pepper salt and pepper sriracha throw that on a piece of toast call it breakfast and I had that had I don't know six cups of coffee throughout the day oh shit Jacqueline okay so my work break today was a full glam session I sat down and I put on a smoky eye I did like a gold eyeshadow situation for some reason like I know the holidays are around the corner like well they're here the whole month of December like it's the holidays is based to me is Thanksgiving through New Year's it's all

like the whole month it all counts uh but I just have this like pull to my makeup more than ever this time of year to do glitter smoky eyes tons of color and shit so anyways I did like a full face of makeup I watched uh this like therapist I found or she's a clinical psychologist on YouTube Dr. Ramani I found her was it last night yeah I found her last night and I she's so cool Like I realized that, that, um, her, like what she teaches is similar to what I've been taught with my therapist. So it's like just doubling down, you know what I mean? Trying to get stuff clear in my head, how things are going and how things should work and new tools in the toolbox. So yeah, I watched that while I did my makeup, took some selfies. Uh, I dunno. It's my

new sport I told you guys that a couple days ago I'm a content creator I do a daily podcast I'm doing a daily gram now and I kind of like it like there's something kind of fun about being like what am I gonna post today on the gram and like should I take a pic and it's fun as fuck like I I used to be exhausted I think I don't know I was how did I feel before I felt gross about it because you know what it is let me unpack this now that I have a podcast and and my bio says daily podcast host hashtag tjms with my spotify link I'm like oh bitch you can do anything you want on the gram like it's official post 10 pics a day like post a new selfie every day who gives a fuck like you're a legit like there's how do I mean how do I explain this before it was like

I'm just randomly Jacqueline I'm not actually an influencer I just like taking pics and posting them but I didn't feel like it there was a I don't know I didn't feel like I was like a cool enough person to do that all the time so I cut back a lot I post like once a month and shit uh now I have I have no breaks I'm like two a day five a day I don't give a fuck it's fun I like it and now I'm in a new, I'm in a new, uh, I'm on a new set here, uh, in my mom's house, which is fun. It's fun. Cause this is where I grew up. And, uh, today I took pics in my high school bedroom. So that's kind of fun. You know, I'm in her kitchen right now. So yeah. Um, check it out. Go look at the gram, Jacqueline Monroe on Instagram, go see what I'm doing. Uh,

I don't know and okay I swear to god I'm like this is a fucking train wreck episode but I'm gonna pull through I'm gonna pull through wait for the icks they're coming it's gonna be funny um so yeah I took selfies post that shit um post that's not very classy I posted I posted the photos, I made some lunch, like a late lunch, had pork chops, I think my sister, I think it's a pork loin, no, yeah, so remember I talked about the dry pork loin my sister made the other day, yeah, for whatever reason, like sat in the fridge a couple days, and I tried it today, and it was juicy, it was like not dry anymore, so I had that with some butternut squash, and that makes no sense, like together. It kind of tasted weird, but I was like, whatever. It's easy. It's lunch. It's already

made. And then I worked, drank more coffee. I have been over, guys, I miss talking about coffee. Hold on. I need to drink a sip of my tea. Hold on. Oh, it's a little bit too hot. The reason I'm trying to keep up with my tea tonight, because it usually gets cold and I forget to drink it. So I'm trying to make sure I drink it when it's hot, get the full experience. But anyways, I miss talking about coffee. I loved how in the beginning of this podcast, it was my brand. It was like my daily, I did a, I did a coffee fact. I told you guys like what I was drinking every day on the show. I miss waking up and drinking it and podcasting that ritual. Um, I miss my espresso machine in my apartment. Um, but anyways, today I, or ever since I've been home, I drink it like

all day long. I'll have, I don't know, like three cups in the morning and I'm icing guys. I have that instant coffee. I like here at my mom's house cause she bought it and I'm still doing that over ice, just black or I'll add cream to it, but I'll, I'll drink like three in the morning before noon and then like another one at three and another one at five uh I've been sleeping great though I don't know what's happening usually if I drink that much coffee I'm I don't know maybe it's doing the reverse effects guys I'll shut up about coffee right now I feel like I I want to talk about it I want to get into it but okay I will I'll say this thank you to my sister for buying me Starbucks this entire time I've been home um it's just worked out that way

she always pays which is cool uh but I've been enjoying Starbucks again like every time I come to Washington I'm like we do Starbucks runs we wake up and go together go together we go together and it's great it's like it tastes better in Washington I don't know what it is but I keep getting my triple what do I get triple blonde espresso on ice with cold foam salted cold foam in a grande cup that's my order and yeah I've been enjoying Starbucks I just guys coffee's great okay another sip of my tea hold on all right what happened after that I uh worked dude dude let's just do the x and then I napped I worked napped kept watching Dr. Romani videos um when I woke up sat down and I ate dinner tonight I made like this lentil I haven't eaten

lentils in like two years I don't know what happened but I found those in the fridge excuse me the freezer in the back of the freezer and I had some lentils and broccoli and sriracha it was like this bowl situation like a harvest bowl like a vegan it was totally vegan tonight which is not like me but yeah I had that and I watched a lot of uh video about the stimulus bill that's getting passed uh they're saying it's either gonna there's like a 30% chance it'll be passed by Friday Most likely it'll be a Christmas Eve, Christmas miracle package. We got Pelosi and McConnell being stubborn like all we are. They're just trying to figure out, I know right now if people that will get the unemployment extension

and the $300 boost, if they're going to allow them to double dip and also get a $1,200 stimulus check, so they're trying to figure out that, so people that, and then I think all of the brackets are the, what is it, the money, the tier about, like, where you fall on the chart will be the same as the last time they did a stimulus check in, like, March or whenever, May, so I watched some shit about that uh there's gonna be like relief for arrest or small businesses pp I don't fucking know I just watched some stuff about that did some stock research and made some tea and now I'm podcasting there's my day okay let's get into these icks let's get into this um I think it's funny my aunt sent me a text tonight people are fleeing Cali winky face

and I wrote back not me with a what's it called uh angel emoji not me I don't know I gotta get over that guilt I have I you know I'm glad I talked to my dad this morning because he gets it like I feel this I'm not going to go into this I actually I could get like really I don't know annoying right now and kind of rant about how I just want to live where I live and I don't want to be told that I should move home all the time like I should just come back to the family in Washington all the time it's kind of hard to deal with that emotionally like I get 100 support and also like the little fun poking they're not mean about it it's just like the poking like that like my aunt like people are fleeing Cali you should do don't you want

to move back closer to family why couldn't why don't you live by family so you know I'm dealing with that a little bit right now since I've moved home um it's not a permanent stay it's a month's day, but I'll be making trips back. You know, I talk about it all the time. This is my vacation spot now. I come up to Washington, but I live in San Diego. Okay. Let's talk about these icks. Now listen up. If you're a guy, just know you're on thin ice with women. Okay. You're going to listen to this and think women are shallow. You're going to be single forever. Being alive is unacceptable. you're gonna feel some you're gonna feel like shit after i read that's just going into this segment i want you to try your best to have a strong uh just what am i be uh put a little

shield on what am i trying to say all right let's just get into it so x are things so this is the the video this girl just like played a song and wrote a caption so it says when he does one little thing that gives you the ick so that little thing that totally makes you want to just get out get away from him break up can't unsee it here we go this is the top comment or top liked one one time he fell down the stairs and I couldn't talk to him anymore shit what do people say about that so I'll say this about x real quickly if you're in love with someone you don't like it's unconditional you're obsessed with them everything they do is cute this doesn't happen i feel like maybe have i had that experience no um i think this is a good

test like how much you like and love someone a hundred like completely because all this like oh they have earwax in their ear and i saw it shit is like you wouldn't care if you love someone like if you, do you know what I mean? So, um, but it's, I think this is a good radar to have. If you're triggered by little things guys do, it's probably a sign that they're not really meant, you're not really supposed to be with them. Cause like if I was in love with someone and they fell down the stairs, I would just laugh about it, have fun about it. It would be, but if you're first, like if you're in the first stages, stages of dating someone, and maybe it's not even official, but you happen to go out to dinner, and they fall down the stairs

on the way out of the restaurant, that would be so unsexy, like, I know I'd be like, there's something about it, I don't know if I'd cut him off, but it just, like, doesn't sit right with me, next one down, when his nails are too long, yeah, that's a problem, cut them, file them, clean them out just have normal nail you don't need to have like white tips um it's worse when he literally did nothing wrong but you just get the ick feeling and you can't even look at him yeah so he literally does nothing wrong but you get that ick feeling when you can't even look at him so this has happened to me before where it's like all of a sudden you'll be dating someone and you can't explain it. You don't know what it is, but all of

a sudden they're annoying. They're ugly. Everything they do is it puts you off. You have zero emotions attached. Like you're just out. And it's literally like a split second thing that can happen. It happened to me before. Uh, I don't know how long, how many years it's been. It's like a few years. I was dating this guy and uh well a couple things happened uh his apartment smelled like my brother's room and I think there's something there I know there's science behind like brothers and sisters hate how each other smell or like their scent is not it's so off-putting to the other person because that keeps incest from happening if that makes sense in like the wild and shit or I don't know evolution you guys I don't know the technical terminology but

yeah so this guy's house smelled like my brother and I just couldn't deal it was kind of putting me off and I think after a while it just like I couldn't even everything just was annoying I couldn't stand I don't know has that happened to I know is this the reverse uh or does this apply what am I saying do girls give guys the ick I'm sure it's the same what are what is it that girls do I'm sure there's a whole I mean guys are picky they can be like I don't know about certain things they can be really picky about what girls do it's more like looks I think so oh yeah here's one he literally said ote ote to me like what the fuck yeah o-t-a-y it's just ote is not it's not cute next one

holding their no yeah i love this one holding their nose when they jump into water that's like the most bitch thing ever cannonball plugging their nose no I've witnessed this so many times and I didn't realize like someone spelled it out here when I think back yeah I never I'm not a nose plugger in a pool I'm a water baby I'm a swimmer I did swim team I'm I can go upside down backwards blow bubbles out of my nose I don't get water in my nose I know what to do uh and there's something about when guys plug their nose and and uh jump in a jump off a cliff jump in a ocean off a boat fucking dive or cannonball in a pool yeah that ain't cute what are people saying about that 22 replies

you're dating a woman at that point i'm sorry jesus this one doesn't bother me someone said yeah it depends like everything is uh I guess subjective here but okay here's another one standing with his feet wide apart and like pointing outwards like shoulder width apart toes pointing outwards yeah what is it about that oh my god I was dating someone okay I dated someone who did that it was like their natural stance and I never like now I see it now I see I didn't think about it then but now I can see it because every picture toes pointed outwards it's like aggressive it's like like, it's, what is it about that that's not, it's so unsexy, it's like they're not, their hips are

wide or some shit, I don't know, um, are you guys liking this segment, literally, I'm like, I don't have a lot to talk about my day, so I'm just gonna go into this little TikTok thread I read last night oh wrote a song about me and sang it yeah that's a that's a slippery slope guys playing guitar guys singing guys serenading you it's risky like I can there's this guy I was looking on it I was looking on his Instagram profile a couple days ago um and I saw like all this sporty shit all this fitness shit all this family shit but then he had a video of him playing guitar and singing and I was just like ah fuck and I played it and it wasn't like the cutest it was kind of a turn off I don't know

why is that not because if it's your if it's your brand is if playing guitar singing serenading people if you're fucking uh what's his face john mayer or harry styles like those kind of you're that's your thing then i feel like that's more attractive than like peppering it in here in there all of a sudden you're like this mountain man who's got a guitar in his hand who's is that again this is gonna be hard for people to hear it's all subjective so try not to get too offended but I don't know what it is I think a lot of girls would agree with that like if they take a guitar if they actually like try to sing and serenade you but they're not a singer you don't really you've never heard them sing before that's key that's key if you've never

heard them sing before maybe outside of like the radio where you're kind of like or you're in the car like rapping to songs and shit that's a little different uh it's kind of like what's the word cringy yeah it's kind of that's the word cringy but again if you're if you're in love with some if you're in love with someone if you're obsessed with someone everything they do is hot so I would think like if a guy was you know my dream man and he whipped out a guitar I would be so obsessed with it so it just depends but when you're first dating someone do not serenade them it's kind of cheesy and I feel like some girls will love it but some girls would hate it you just have to read them I guess I would feel uncomfortable and awkward getting serenaded

um I'll never forget a boy in sixth grade wrote me a song the one line I remember is okay wait how did I find this song where did he give it to me okay I got a digital camera I think this was sixth grade and this boy in fifth grade liked me and I found out he liked me and then he heard that I found out next thing I know he wrote me a song wait no holy shit I'm thinking of someone in high school I just flipped this a boy in my grade in sixth grade I found out he liked me and then he knew that and then he wrote me a song and I think he delivered it it was like in my backpack in the locker area he just like put it in my backpack and I took a picture with my digital camera, and I say that shit, and I, me and my friends would laugh about

it, but the one line I remember was, am I out of your league? Am I trying for nothing? Should I look for someone else? And he went into all of his feels when he sees me. What do you feel? It was sweet, you know, but I think when you're in sixth grade, you're like, this is uncomfortable. I feel gross I feel weirded out like ew and I didn't like him at all so it was that kind of thing anyways okay what's another ick okay oh yeah 100% when he's mean to his mom no that is biggest turnoff for one of my biggest turnoffs I think I wrote it the other day on a Q&A bad really yeah bad relationship with mom and I know that's sometimes it's it all depends but if you talk a lot of shit about your mom and like have a

rocky relationship that's kind of a red flag to me uh when he says mamas yeah how we doing mamas ew that's like the females thing when guys say females females just don't mamas how we doing mamas next one when he cuts his hair a lot of girls wrote this yeah when he cuts his hair so it's always like startling especially if they had kind of long-ish hair and then they buzz it off it's like holy fuck um you get used to it but I'd say if they're clean shaved all of a sudden they usually have a little beard going on that can be alarming and kind of like if you've never seen their shaved face actually I'll say this do you guys ever have the thing where, thing happen where you'll be laying next to someone and all of a sudden you see their side

profile and you're not attracted to them anymore. Or you see their face from a weird angle and you're like, I can't, I don't think you're, I didn't know you're not good looking. Like it can happen. Or that's the same with facial hair. I was dating this guy and his, he always had a beard one time he didn't. And I was like, oh, where's your chin? Oh. And that's, you know, hey, is that superficial uh yeah absolutely but I didn't realize like it was like all of a sudden is that fucked up it is I don't I'm just being honest that's what this is you know I'm on this show to practice honesty I'm uh protesting against a cancel culture where everything's offensive. This is my attempt to carry on the legacy of, uh, the childhood I was raised in

where, you know, an upbringing I had where people said it like it was, people were emotionally strong, played it, played around, had, you know, knew what the jokes were when they were jokes and not everything was offensive so yeah that's what this podcast is is for me honestly selfishly I'm like fuck this I I can't stand how things have turned out um it I don't even know how to conceptualize it because again I don't I wasn't raised I wasn't I didn't exist in a world before I guess social media times where everything was triggering offensive but yeah when he cuts his when he when that guy had his beard when he was clean clean shaved all of a sudden I was like oh god baby face I don't think you're that cute um that actually happened

to me I was on a date when was this I think it was earlier yeah beginning of 2020 I was dating a lot or not dating a lot I was like going on dates and the side profile thing I was in this guy's car he's driving me to the date he picked me up and I'm like fuck you're so hot but from this side I can't unsee this what the fuck is wrong with me does anyone can please can someone like validate this thought I have or feeling and tell me if that's the same for you I don't know okay oh yeah that first good morning beautiful text I'm done yeah that good morning beautiful text especially like here's here's what I hate here's what I hate let's say you're on a dating app you match with the guy you end up talking all night on tinder wherever hinge whatever

and maybe get each other's numbers you're texting now and it's like a conversation until two in the morning or whatever maybe you actually like facetime or talk to them on the phone and so it's like literally day two the morning after this long conversation through text or call and you get a good morning beautiful uh-uh no I can't I can't deal with that it's like I don't know what it is I like when guys are more cool like not it's not like they're mean but they're not too like nice and too like sweetheart at the beginning I like to be your like I like to be like what's the word it's like when you're out flirting with someone and you're both kind of like rolling rolling your eyes at each other like that kind of energy there's like that tension you're not like

butterflies and rainbows and sweetheart it's not that's not sexy to me especially at first and I know that's like what my mom said you like the bad boys you like the boys that are you know but I don't know don't do the good morning beautiful even honestly if I'm even if I'm dating you good morning beautiful I don't know I like babe baby that kind of shit you know oh when he pays with a gift card I don't think that's happened to me before when he pays with a gift card why is that not cute okay wait what are people saying i hope you guys like this podcast 104 we're talking about x the x i should say what should

this be called i'll just men are on thin ice people are like well i mean he's still paying oh god i fucking love this one when he waits for the bowling ball to come back come back up on his turn. Why is that not cute? I don't think I'm bothered by that. Bowling ball. He's waiting for it to come back up. That's kind of hot, especially if he's standing there with like a hip, a hand on his hip and he's like maybe a finger on the chin, like thinking about his next move when he bowls. I think that's kind of hot. It's like a little, just like up here by the ball machine, checking the score up on the board, looking hot. And I'm back in the, I'm back in the, in the booth, sent from behind, checking out your ass. It's, it's great. I don't

mind that. I think that's kind of hot. Um, him trying to run into the ocean, but he falls. I think it'd be the best for like holding hands with someone you're like running to the ocean together and you both fall that's like a bonding experience like you're laughing you're having fun but to observe a guy sprinting in the ocean falling before the water even that's not cute um oh yeah this emoji so it's the whimper it's like the whimpering face emoji people said or this girl said if he uses the whimpering face emoji it's quiet for him it's quiet yeah don't ah don't do it do I like that if a guy sends that do I okay no I feel again if I if I if I'm obsessed with you if I like you a lot I don't care what

you do with emojis I think it's all cute but yeah I don't mind that um but if you said o-t-a-y with a whimpering face emoji after it it's silent you're not hearing from me all right, him riding a mechanical bull, that's kind of hot, I don't mind that, I want to see that, there's a certain person I'd like to see doing that, do that, I don't know why, there's something hot, why are, why are bull riders hot, is that hot to anyone else, I love watching the bull riding shows on TV, it's a great time, I love, I used to go to the fair fair the local county fair here that was always a highlight they do the barrel race my dude my my vocal cords are just like fucked right now they do the

they do the barrel racing they do the uh they a little calf would go out they'd rope the calf legs that thing they have to rope three of them it was always traumatizing because they would literally the calf would run out a small cow it would run out and the cowboy person would be what the fuck the guy would be on the horse sprinting after this little calf lasso in the hand catch it or like get it around its neck then that calf like gets jolted back cinched up the neck and then they run over to it pull the rope really fast and then they wrap they take the end of the rope to wrap its legs up as fast as they can and that's how they like it's competitive because you try to do as fast as you can so they do that and then they do bull riding I always loved that that

was like the highlight it was like the fair would be a weekend thing and then the Friday of the fair weekend would be the rodeo you have the horse show damn I miss it I feel like fairs were all shut down this year I love going around the horse barns my sister used to show her horse I used to go watch it was fun and you go to the chicken barn people would show their chickens the bunny barn the cat the cat barn was fun because people would decorate their cat cage with like it would be like a little bedroom I love that shit um anyways oh and they'd always have like a giant cow the first thing you saw when you walked in the fair was this like 10 foot high at the withers at the shoulders of this cow like an oversized cow

black and white like a uh what's that kind of cow guernsey no jersey guernsey guernseys are brown wait why didn't why can't i think of the name of black and white cows i should know this they're next door. Black and white cows. I can, I'll say it. I'll say it as soon as I see it. Come on, Wi-Fi. Come on, Wi-Fi. Do your thing, Wi-Fi. Hey, there we go. Holsteins, Holsteins. Yeah, there'd be like an oversized enlarged Holstein. Giant Holstein. I'm going to type that in. Holstein. I should go visit the cows next door. Sometimes when I go on walks, I walk into the barn, like, uh, this was my grandpa's back in the day, I can do this, right, it's, you know, um, that's what's cool where my mom lives, like, my grandparents have, like, their farm next door,

and it's, like, they sold it now, but it's kind of cool to think about, there's so much history here, holy shit, the Holsteins, they can get huge, they're, like, yeah, like I said, 10 feet tall, anyways, I'm talking about the fair, why am I, why am I talking about the fair? what was this one I read oh riding the mechanical bull I talked about bull riding okay yeah I don't mind if you ride a mechanical bull um like if you're hot and you're on a mechanical bull you're even hotter like it makes you look hotter it just depends about your ah is that fucked up to say I don't know am I superficial am I sounding is this a turnoff I don't know like if you get on that and you're

like a weak little bitch about it and you're like holding on for dear life and you're screaming yeah that's not cute there's a difference someone wrote if you need a new one ladies just imagine him shoe shopping and walking around the store to try them out oh fuck is guys shopping for clothes a turnoff or a turn on for people or kind of like a neutral thing how do I feel about this I I used to go shopping a lot the guy I was dating and it was like a full-on fucking production it was like the whole day blocked out we're going to every store we're buying clothes for 10 years like we're doing this whole entire thing. And I don't know if I, I don't know how I feel about it.

I would, I almost would rather do like couple shopping. Like I'm helping you pick out clothes that you go to a store. I want to be, I want to get clothes out and then buy for like, you help me buy shit. And then it's such a, it's such a process trying on. I just, just order online, you know, try them on at home. I love doing, I love helping guys pick out outfits and like just giving them like on a Friday night going out on a hot day like helping them pick out their outfit there's something so fun about that I miss it I miss it I can't be I can't lie um next one someone wrote a guy great to know from these comments that I can get ghosted for just existing wow mine was the way my ex walked I felt heartless but I just couldn't do

it anymore yeah that walk but see I don't even if you're I think a walk is is a big deal everything so to me it's like if there's something off about their face that you just can't unsee which is I feel like that's not too it's not superficial or stupid to say I feel like if you can't get past that in your head that you'll you're not attracted to that side profile ever you will never be and it's put it's like making you uh unattracted to them or something or if you if the way they walk is like makes you feel like they're awkward and not like a like they're weak or whatever like I don't even I don't don't like feel bad about that if you if you lose attraction I think that's it's like I don't know people are I feel like this whole

comment thread is making me feel messed up and I feel like people in general are just so like complicated next one um eating oh my god eating yogurt why is that so bitch why is eating yogurt bitch um there's a couple things about eating that I don't like I don't like when a guy is on a he's on a bigger diet than I am all the time does that make sense like more concerned about his diet than girls are like that is so annoying to me and if he's like a freak about um like if he eats carbs and shit and he's just like talking about it the whole time at dinner like oh my god

I'm being so bad like that is so boring to me I I have a hard time with that like here and there it's okay to say it but if that's like all like I was dating someone who was mad at me if I ever like baked cookies it was like fuck you for sabotaging my diet it's like I don't know and I know every you know it's a touchy subject a lot of people have issues with things regarding diet their bodies and all that so but if a guy eats yogurt going back to that there's got to be some Bacon. There's got to be some eggs somewhere. It's got it. That, that yogurt's got to be the, the maybe 20 minutes after breakfast. I want a little something more. I'm eating yogurt. I want a little sweet raspberry on the bottom situation, but I've had my bacon. I'm a man

like that is, that's okay. But yogurt, like a yogurt bowl. I don't know. Is that fucked? I'll acai bowls though is that it's kind of cute when a guy gets an acai bowl um or like just drinking milk like uh do I care I don't really you know what I don't really give a fuck just don't don't just don't talk to me all day long about your like macros and your diet I get bored um when they awkwardly order food speaking of food when they awkwardly order food yeah when they're nervous in front of the waiter to like talk to like just to say what they want to get what the fuck i was thinking about re-recording this episode because i got a i got a popular podcast um doing shit like this uh top of the charts called color daddy and she would

send it Alex would send this episode she would be so upbeat and exciting and she would get so into detail about all these ics and say the most profound things that are gonna help the daddy gang and like she would have sent it if she did this episode so I have this like uh fucking it's 9 p.m I'm drinking tea why'd I choose this subject I feel like I didn't give this I didn't do this justice I'm boring so yeah whatever we have a few more um I looked at him at the wrong angle and got nauseous that's like what I said about the guy getting in his car and like fucking god damn it we're it's just like hot from the front you turn to the side I'm like why can't I not why do I want to not go on this date with you that is so messed up

the wrong angle um oh when he writes the letter r instead of a r e you only can get away with that if you're hot you can get away with anything like texting except for they there or no they're they they're there and there gotta always spell that right that's you can't no one's safe if you if you don't spell that shit right if you never get it right I don't care how hot you are I'm out but if you're hot you can put r you can put u like just a letter you can put you can do whatever you want but some people don't like that I'm here people all say this I've talked about before like I think a good thing to do when you're starting to text someone or talk to them a lot like

don't change for anybody but like when you're texting it I think it helps if you kind of spell your yaz the same does anyone else purposely do this or am I crazy am I crazy I'm a girl I'm by default I'm crazy but I will mirror if their yeah doesn't look like my yeah all of a sudden my yeah looks like their yeah I'll match our our yeahs will become compatible texting because it's kind of it looks awkward like whenever you say or I don't know does anyone do that? I do it. I'm a YA bitch. I'm a Y-E-A-H bitch. I don't do Y-E-A. Yeah, those are my two options. And I think guys are either a YA or a Y-E-A-H. So I switch teams depending on what they're doing. I just like to make people feel more comfortable. Like, hey, we speak the same

language in the text okay next one oh this this uh text in quotes here someone wrote what if i get freaky with you what would you do what what if i get freaky with you what would you do with you the witch you the freaky witch you what would you do sexting is awkward I don't know it's like I think it's overrated um different if you're in a relationship but it's kind of like be playful but it doesn't sexting is if you don't actually if you've never even met the person you're just sexting through like dms and like texting I don't know I feel awkward at first when I don't really know someone I feel like I need to be dating you know you really well

you can banter and like play like you can have fun and say flirty shit you can sex them but if it's like a full-on like what if I get freaky with you what would you do and then I send back like some sexual thing like a description of sex something sexual like like if it's really graphic that's when I get uh I get cringy if someone sends me something graphic they're gonna do to me I'm like just I'm I'm out I'm out too much too much across the line uh let's uh let's meet let's go out for coffee let's actually do this thing before you even talk to me like that you disrespectful fuck all right one time I got he got me a glass of water and when he set it on the counter it shattered into like a hundred pieces and the water went all over his mom's

paperwork that's so specific but why is that not hot that's an ick for sure just like that fucking glass shattering getting everywhere and then the mom's paperwork and him like freaking out over it there's another one that makes me it's kind of similar I'll find it um yeah yeah I like this stayed over on a weeknight and in the morning he found out he was running a meeting that he wasn't prepared for he got super frantic r.i.p yeah seeing your man get anxious okay again if you're in love with someone who cares you'd be supporting them helping them like yeah you can do this you got this i'll make you coffee what do you need but if you're like staying the night you're just starting to date and then this happens this guy looks like like a procrastinator who doesn't have

of shit together and he's not a boss at what he does he's not you know what I mean he looks lazy like a slacker these are all things that might run through your head if this happened like trying to prepare for a meeting the morning you wake up like he's trying to do this frantically because he didn't know he had to do it and you're there like awkwardly like so should I go or like that. Yeah. Awkward. Um, let's see another one here. I like this one. Sometimes I agree with this. When he uses emojis at all. Do not know why this is such an ick to me. Too many emojis is too much for guys that don't use emojis are the hottest. I'll be honest. I like the smiley. I like, I like the smiley, um, a couple emojis, so I'd say, like, in a text, I'd say,

if you're texting for an hour, I want to see two emojis from you, uh, two LOLs, maybe more than that, I don't know, just not too much, ha-has and LOLs are, you know, they're, they're acceptable, but too many emojis, um I personally hate when men use the heart or like the three hearts around the face like I feel so loving and warm and fuzzy that one does you do you guys know what I mean it's like a new one there's like it's like a smiley little face these little hearts around it too much of that shit too much of the two hands on the side of the face smiling one the whimpering one the or like they say w y d with a crying laughing face like what are you doing

stop just don't use emojis because you know why I feel like when guys don't put too many expressions in their texts you have to think more about it they get you because you're like what is their emotion behind this if they don't have an emoji to back it up you have no clue and that I feel like that makes me like them more I'm like are you content are you happy are you mad like someone recently I was like literally I sent him a message uh like I thought something was funny so I brought it up to him and then he's like the hell if I know but I'm like are you is this like sus to you that I even brought this up are you mad are you happy are you is that are you being funny I had no I had no clue so I'm like whatever that makes you hotter for some

reason that's when people don't use emojis and like I can't decipher it do you're just sucking me in that's how it goes so guys just limit your emojis be a little more mysterious um I don't I feel like I don't use too many again it's the whole mirroring thing like I don't don't, especially if they're not using any, I feel awkward when I use a lot. Um, you have to have compatibility in your texts, continuity and shit. I don't know. I think that's it. Maybe there's a couple more. Oh, this one. I don't know how I feel. Skid marks in the toilet. um if you've ever gotten to that point in a relationship where that's that doesn't bother

you at all like the shitting situation of your man just is what it is and you actually laugh about it and it's funny like once you get to that point you don't care but I think if you're on like date two and you're in their toilet and it's just like plastered with shit all over it like it does everyone do that is everyone like OCD about if there's a girl coming over or if you're having a guy over like you go to your toilet and you just make sure everything's good if they lift that seat up if any you know what I mean ever does anyone else do that is that a thing does anyone talk about that um ended the podcast with shitting that's all I really have for you guys today I hope you know I tried something new I picked a topic talked about ics um see if there's

any last ones? When they fart? I don't know. That doesn't really bother me. Like some guys are like, we never even had a chance. A lot of this is like immaturity. Do you know what I mean? But I think we've all been there. I think we've all been on a date or, you know, thought we liked someone a lot and then they did something and you're like oh my god turn off can't talk to you anymore um it's not weird though about the guy I was dating and his house smelled like my brother like his room and shit back in the day and I like eventually just I couldn't even everything he did was annoying and I had zero attraction for him anymore it was like the weirdest thing it didn't everything was fine but it like switched over like in two seconds

I think that's when a lot of times in relationships like let's say you're dating someone for six months months and like you kind of get this you all of a sudden get this disinterest in them and you're just checked out and you're not obsessed you're not in this like those initial feelings anymore and I think that's a good thing I like to get to that point before I break up with someone because then I'm like well I already kind of felt this or like I had that confirmation that you know wasn't really working for me anymore but Jacqueline always gets her heart broken so you know what uh those are the situations though where men don't commit and uh I want them to and they're

like I can't give you what you want and you're not you need a man who will treat you right and all this bullshit I I'm you know I I'm getting out of a relationship I can't I don't want to you know there's all the excuses but whatever someday hey I'm single it's all good um shout out to uh shout out to all the guys out there who uh I don't know what to say who listened to that segment, and our, I don't know, you're laughing at it, you're not offended, you're not sad about it, I don't fucking know what to say, all right, guys, happy Wednesday, um, this is literally what I'm gonna do, 9 p.m., I'm gonna upload this, I haven't even jumped on my yoga mat today, and I can feel it,

it's a weird thing, like, when you do yoga consistently, every single day, it's, like, part of your life, you crave it. Like you're like, I feel like I just need to roll around for five minutes, even if it's five minutes, but you just like need to like reset, like move, stretch, breathe. So I'm at this point in the day where I'm like, I feel like my back is kind of like, you know, just needs a little tweak, a little chaturanga, a little camel pose, a little wheel pose, I'm cracking my back as I'm saying that, so that's what I'm about to do tonight, I kind of want, guys, okay, it's, like, the holiday season, I kind of want to stay up, like, all night, and watch Christmas movies, and, like, watch it on my little laptop, because this is the thing, my sister's got

the, I don't know, like, I don't like to watch shows, and I wish I could sit down with her and watch watch the same shit but I just like can't do it and so she's got the living room so what I do is I act like a little uh like my little teenager self and I go back into my bedroom like literally my high school bedroom when I used to live here and I literally I do the same thing I used to have a little macbook pull up my laptop and I watch shows or I watch excuse me youtube or movies on my laptop and I lay in my bed and I'm like I'm like my sister's like oh just like high school and like hiding in my bedrooms. Like what's new? I used to do that all the time. Where's Jacqueline? Oh, she's like watching YouTubers in her bed. Uh, yeah. On her Mac book. Just

like, I, I just love it though. I like having a late night browsing the internet. I don't know. I took a nap today, so I'm going to have the second one to energy 9 PM. Do you guys stay up late how late do you stay up um leave a comment below subscribe like and subscribe this video fuck okay okay that's all I have for you today it's uh it's been a great show in my eyes I talked about my day I am excited about 2021 getting back to my apartment getting back in my little routine as much as I'm gonna miss it here I I have this this like uh anticipation this energy this excitement this is what I like to do in life I like to have these chill breaks where I'm like okay I'm at home I'm with family I'm chilling I'm everything's like easy going I'm not putting

too much pressure to be just go go go go go and then I get then I get this uh this feeling in my body like okay back when I'm back it's gonna be like full throttle going like a bat out of hell again just like YouTube Monday through Friday podcast in the morning going to the gym in the morning again like all this fun shit so I am looking forward to that um and interviews I've realized you know I've done a few interviews with my mom and my sister like they're so fun uh to do because it's an actual conversation there's someone else to bounce ideas off with and uh I like when other people lead the show I'm like you just talk you know I like to do this but I like it when you talk more, it's kind of fun. Uh, I just want to like, listen to you

and yeah, so I'm excited for that. I'm going to do a lot of zoom podcasts. Cause you know, social distance, COVID-19 unprecedented times, pandemic, social distance, mask up. What are the other slang terms? I was thinking about putting a little shadow box together of all my masks and uh I don't have a COVID test I haven't done I haven't done I've never done a COVID test but uh just like put a little shadow box together with all the masks that are like full of makeup stains and dirt and shit and COVID molecules put that up on a gallery wall I want to turn my hallway back in my apartment into like a little gallery with a neon light I don't know why I want to do this so bad like I want to get a neon sign

and then the whole hallway is decked out with like pictures close together like a little it's like a little museum so i might put my little covid mask box in there this is bad energy i don't want that kind of energy i want to burn them i want to do a ceremony maybe i should do that on the podcast a live burial live burning i like to burn shit in fact we we've got a pile of a bunch of branches my mom cut down off our bushes piled up out in the field and I'm like I can't wait to do the bonfire god I don't know how many days I'm home I got I think 12 more days 16 I don't know I can't do that um but we'll be doing a bonfire come hell or high water because you know it's not like I I can't do well bonfires in San Diego I can't really do it

like beach, it's different on the beach, I don't know, all right, happy Wednesday, once again, you can go over to patreon.com slash tjms, if you want to support the show, and get access to more exclusive content from me, so go check it out, you also get a shout out on Friday episodes, which is fun, and you can go over to the Apple podcast app, if you like today's episode, you can leave a review and subscribe while you're there. That really helps me out. And finally, follow me on Instagram at Jacqueline Rowe and subscribe to my YouTube channel. And yeah, that's all I got for you today. I hope you're having a good one. I hope you're having a good one. I hope you're hanging in there. How you hanging in there?

jesus so everyone's been going through it this year everyone's just like uh unprecedented times depression COVID-19 are you hanging in there it's weirdly been I'm not done with the podcast I'll just keep talking but I feel like the highs were real and the lows were real this year for me like or excuse me the lows were low and the highs were high um but I needed that I feel like I'm in a good place in fact I was talking to my dad he's giving me all these really cool ideas about the show and he I was telling him like dad I know I've made a drastic improvement from where I was earlier in 2020 but I need my the marathon I'm running right now

is this seven days a week for a year, uh, show that I'm, I'm on right now. Like this is my marathon. I have tunnel vision, all this extra stuff I could be doing all this, like, um, extra work I could do behind the show. Like, you know what I mean? I can like go hard with this, try to grow into this big podcast and reach out to people and I could do all that but I don't want to I was telling him I'm like I just want to figure myself out I just want to get on every day talk it out and before I throw myself into anything I want to get solid with this shit and I don't feel I'm always learning I'm always new with this and I don't really have a desire or a want to like fling myself out there and say like hey look at me I have a podcast would you

want to do something with me can I go on your show do you want to be on my show like that'll start to happen naturally I think over time but right now it's all about getting on here talking about my life getting clear on my who I am building my self-esteem my confidence and this is my passion like I've struggled finding my passion for so long and my purpose and I feel like I found it and I want to ride this wave and I don't want to make it anything different than what it is so yay that's where I'm at I can't wait I really hope my dad gets on a podcast because he's really fun to talk to so yeah all right guys that's it happy Wednesday talk to you tomorrow and I hope you're happy I hope you're healthy and I hope you're fulfilled

all right bye guys