The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 116- Back In San Diego

Episode Date: December 30, 2020

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Hey guys, happy suck. It's Monday. Fuck, I almost said Sunday. Happy Monday. It's episode 117. Welcome back to the show! hey what's up it's Jacqueline happy Monday welcome back to the show guess who's back bitches I'm in San Diego I'm here I've made it home safe um wow today was a travel day let me take you through it first off if you're new I'm here seven days a week go ahead and hit that subscribe button on the apple podcast app and head over to patreon.com slash tjms to support the show. My patrons get access to my exclusive Patreon-only content. They get shout outs on Friday. And what else? They get phone calls, tons of cool pictures I don't post on Instagram and cool content. So go check it out. Once again, that's patreon.com slash TJMS. All right, guys,

let's get into it. Early morning, wake up call, 3.30 AM, got to go to the airport. I hadn't fully packed, which I'm kind of pissed about. I like found a couple things to do. the night before that I knew in the morning I'd have to button up, like do some laundry, pack that, get my shoes. You know, I had all this shit kind of loose ends around the house. I had to pack up. And anyways, I was paranoid all night that I wasn't going to make my flight. And I kept waking up every hour and guys, I had every option in the house for beds to sleep on. And I chose to sleep on the couch with the dog again. I had one last night with Odie. I slept on the couch with him. And, um, honestly I'll, I'll blame it on him. A couple of times I woke up was his fault.

We were spooning and then he was like pushing me off, like wedging himself next to me to the point where I'm like about to fall off the couch. So anyways, it was a good, good night of sleep. Other than that, um, I woke up, I woke up feeling rested. I don't know why I went to bed kind of early, but anyways, made my flight. Let's talk about the drive. Um, I made, I made coffee at like four that was kind of crazy but I just felt I felt sad and excited the same time I've been I've been home in Washington for a month and I was sad to leave and I cried so much the day before I think yesterday's episode was all about how emotional I was to leave um but I was really excited I was drinking coffee I was like playing music I had my headphones in listening to country um you know I

do that in mornings to reset my strong American values I feel like I'm rushing through this that could have been like a funny joke right there like a funny thing to say and then I just breezed through it guys recommendation tip of the day listen to country music I don't care if you hate it just listen to the lyrics it's good shit a good way to reset your strong American values first thing in the morning I was doing it at 4 a.m drinking coffee get my shit packed how to let Odie out because here here's the deal my mom I the dog was going to be home alone pretty much all day I had to make sure this dog pissed, shit, ate, and wasn't going to eat anything that's going to kill him in the back room where we were going to leave him all day or by his bed, his little dog bed. So

I had a lot of work to do that morning. First thing I did when I woke up is I let him go run outside and I made sure he peed. I saw that. I don't know if he shit, but I'm assuming he did. He was out there for like 20 minutes. Anyways, that was a lot. I had so much to do in 30 minutes because I had to leave at what time? I had to leave at like 4.30. I don't know. I don't know if you guys want to know details. Like at this hour, at this time of day, I did this, whatever. But anyways, I was about to leave and I'm looking for the dog. I'm like, where's Odie? He hasn't made any noise. He's not back inside. And I catch him out in the front yard chewing on ground beef. hear me out he was eating meat i i think my mom left it in the front front lawn for the eagles

to eat or i don't know maybe she left it out for od i just was concerned because this dog has a sensitive stomach he eats socks whole uh he eats objects whole like he doesn't chew them and he's been in the vet many times for stomach issues so i was freaking the fuck out i'm like i i was trying to get him to stop eating it. He was so, it was like a little crackhead situation where he couldn't stop eating it. And I'm like trying to pull him away. I got to get to the airport. This dog's eating ground beef in the front yard. And, uh, it was a lot, but you know what, when it was finally time to say goodbye, I cried my fucking eyes out. I'm in love with this dog. I have never felt more connected to a dog in my life or more. I mean, I had a golden retriever buddy waking up

growing up who was amazing but Odie has this this he's like a person I don't know and I got I got to spend a lot of time with him and he's a pitbull lab by the way he's my brother's girlfriend's dog and they left to Missouri for the week and then my mom and sister left on a road trip thing and then I was gone or I was home alone with the dog for a bit and anyways we bonded so I cried so hard when I had to leave him I don't know do you is growing so when you grow up do you cry more are you more emotional am I okay I don't know I think that's normal but anyways it cried and then I said goodbye he was fine got in the car and uh I'll be honest I listen to my own podcast guys I listen to like 10 minutes of it because as you know I don't listen to the episodes I don't

give a fuck well it's not that I don't give a fuck it's that I'm I hate listening to my I don't like listening to myself talk unlike you no maybe you're annoyed too I don't know I don't like to something about that to me if you enjoy the sound of your own voice and like love listening to your own podcast that's a little freaky I don't know maybe that's good maybe Joe Rogan does that to make sure but fuck he does a three-hour podcast does he listen to the whole three hours to make sure he sounded okay and to take notes on what he did. I don't know. I mean, this is a daily thing I do. I don't want to, the last thing I want to do is listen to it right after I post or I record it. Anyways, I listened to it in the car. I was driving my sister's car to the airport and I was

like, shit, I kind of sounded emotional and like I was crying the whole time, but fuck it. Um, yeah. And by the way, also, if you're new, I feel like I've got some new listeners right now. so this is an audio vlog instead of going on YouTube and holding a camera in front of my face and telling you guys like it's taking you through my day on video I'm carrying you through my day with my voice I'm doing an audio vlog seven days a week you're getting this shit for a year September 4th 2021 will mark one year of this shit I don't know I'm trying it out I love it I I thoroughly enjoy podcasting. I love the creative aspect of it where I can't let that happen.

I can't let dead air happen. So I have to, I have to constantly come up with content to talk about. It's fun. You're like on this little quest every day. You're like, okay, how am I going to fill an hour of your time? And you know, keep a conversation going. So I really love it. But anyways, that's what this shit is. So anyways, I'm in the car. Then I was like, I can't listen to it anymore. Play country the whole way to see, uh, no, I didn't go to Seattle. I went to Everett, Everett, Payne field airport. It was kind of a maze getting there. This is a smaller airport in Everett, Washington, but I was, I pulled into the employee parking lot. Um, got all excited, like, Oh, free parking. And I realized everyone getting out of their car was wearing

some sort of vest like a green vest like they're the people out on the tarmac is that what it's called the runway direct directing the planes around yeah i quickly realized this is employee parking and i i was you know way too early i think i got there two and a half hours early um i don't know whatever don't make i usually get to the airport like here in san diego i'll get there less than an hour before my flight because i live so close and i just i make it every time regardless uh fucking I found the right parking lot um park that bitch I don't want to swear I don't like to I'm gonna drink some water drinking water tonight I've been tired all day guys traveling it took a lot out of me today I just found myself exhausted for I don't

know it felt like I shouldn't have been exhausted but I really was I think it was also the stimulation of coming back home and seeing San Diego again it was like a lot to take in but anyways let's get let's get to the point here I go to check my bag it's 55 fucking pounds I'm like bitch you are not gonna fork over a hundred dollars take out this is literally what I had to take out and uh I pulled my 55 pound suitcase off to the side now look it was like fucking 5 a.m no one was there there's like two nice Alaska Airlines employees standing there just helping me so I whip I whip my suitcase out I reach for the box of tampons and the box of panty liners liners first because um I think they were from my aunt's resort she has like extra stock or she's I don't know they were from her

house I think they were just from her house that we moved um whatever my mom had this this giant garbage bag of tampons and maxis and panty liners, all that girly shit at home. She's like, Jacqueline, take whatever you want. You know, I don't need these anymore. I was like, okay, fuck it. So anyways, I was like, okay, I can just rebuy these in San Diego. I don't need these, right? Here's a pound going away. Then I found some self-tanner shit my sister gave me. I was like, okay, here's another pound. What else to get rid of? Then I was like jimmying stuff around. Then I put on a huge sweatshirt. I'm actually wearing it still. This might have COVID on it. Do you probably, you probably shouldn't wear your travel clothes during a global pandemic when you get home from your

flight. Fuck. Um, I put on the sweatshirt to de-weight it, cut it down another pound. I Jimmy John, I Jimmy John some things around from my like big suitcase to my carry on, whatever. It ended up being 47 fucking pounds. Tampons got thrown out. It was all good. Self-tanner got thrown out. It was all good kind of sad though I did keep I'm really happy I kept the tanning mitt the glove you use to apply the self-tan I did keep that and uh when I got home today that shit got I it was freshly used and it was like stained all over my fucking duffel bag but that's all good um so anyways I go sit in the lounge super disappointed about the fact there was no coffee cafe breakfast joint McDonald's you know like airport um option eating options and drinking

options did not exist at this tiny little airport but you know what I was like fuck it it's too early for that shit anyways for whatever reason it doesn't matter what time of day I'm flying drinks happen at 6 a.m I'll start drinking on a flight that early I'll fucking eat McDonald's at the airport that early. It's almost like part of the vacation to eat at the airport. I don't know. I always do that, but I was kind of sad and I sat there. I mean, it's Monday morning. What do you think? I fucking did that early. I read about my stocks. I did some little stocky stock research. I've invested in a new, um, it's not a LIDAR type of company that does the sensors on, um, like automatic driving cars not that it's similar to that this company makes the um

hap it's haptic technology they're putting in like the ps5 controllers i've been researching about it but they're also doing stuff for um covid testing right now so i was i was reading up all about it i had two hours to kill um basically just did that i was like it's monday let's check my emails and my work stuff, which I don't know. People aren't working right now. I feel like no one's doing, no one's replying. No one's doing anything. It's like this lull after Christmas. Anyways, sat there and off to my fucking left man of my dreams. Every time I'm at the airport, I see the man of my dreams. I don't know what to do. This, this man, I liked how he looked behind from behind then, well, he had a great face, but he was so hot from behind. I

couldn't help myself. I just stared. I fucking stared. He was in front of me on the plane. I'll get to that. All right. Time to board. Guys, I'm really taking you through each step. Hold on. Let me drink more water. My oven's going to go off in a minute and 22 seconds. I can see it right now. I'm cooking chicken here it goes one minute 16 seconds I'll get up whatever it's time to board if you know anything about me I think I've talked about it before I'm the last passenger on the plane okay I don't wait in lines I don't sit in that congested claustrophobic piece of uh tube COVID infested fucking tube actually I'm not even paranoid about that I'm just joking about that but like I get on the plane last everyone else stand in line

you know group c group b group a first class military disabled like whatever go get in line get on the plane first go for it Jacqueline's sitting in the chair waiting her turn to go on last. And that's exactly what I did. And it was funny because I got up to the lady that scans your ticket. Everyone has a phone. Everyone does it virtually. I always print a ticket. I just, I feel like, I don't know. I think that's, I just always print a ticket. I like doing that. I don't know. Everything's virtual now. I just like the ticket. She's like, oh, are you going to, where are you traveling to? And I said, San Diego. And she's like, oh, well, you were supposed to board. I'm like, yeah, I know. There's, there's the alarm. One sec. I've got to take my headset

off. I don't know. I don't edit this, but I feel like it's still kind of pink inside here. The chicken tenders. Oh, they're okay. I'll just kind of shut the oven, let them keep cooking. I got a garlic bulb thing in there too. I'm roasting that shit. Whatever. she was kind of like telling me that I'm like I was supposed to I could have boarded earlier whatever I don't care I got on the plane and I always touch the plane do you guys do this I touch the plane with my right hand right next to the door when you walk in like I put my palm on the fucking plane I don't know this is a super superstition superstitious thing but I just kind of touch the plane like good plane you're gonna do good today yeah plane you can do it you're

gonna stay up in the air you got it and I always look at both pilots I'll fucking get in the cockpit kidding I like make eye call I literally am like chumming the flight attendants talking to the pilot like I will look I'll small talk that first and you know that first point of contact the people that are going to keep you fucking alive i i make sure i know what they look like and i look at i i get a good i get a good i i and i was i was vibing with this pilot before when i was sitting in the the chair early you know before the plane um was boarding i saw this like six five lanky pilot in the big trench coat beautifully polished shoes checking his plane okay this man was walking around each wing looking at each engine talking to the people that are

doing the the luggage shit you know all that I was like yeah this is a good pilot and it was he was kind of he had a great hair I you know from a distance I believe so men look hot from a distance you will literally be a 10 out of 10 in my eyes from a distance if you have a great hairline, and you're that tall, like, he had dark hair, great hairline, clean cut, you know, anyways, so I was like, he's kind of hot, he's checking his plane, I'm into it, uh, guys, I can tell stories all day long, what else you want to know, okay, so we got this guy, and this other guy, his co-pilot, they look like young, with it dudes, not, they're probably 40 I like my I like my pilot 60 plus uh they've been through wars they've been

you know they know what the fuck they're doing they're they're they're they have a ton of hours under their belt in a plane but I was I felt confident and for some reason whenever I'm in Seattle flying out I'm like this fucking plane I'm in pain field they I'm looking at Boeing like seven 47s. I don't even know what, uh, number of plane I was looking at out in the distance. These bitches are getting their paint job. I mean, they're making the planes there. I just feel, I just feel comfortable when I fly out of Seattle. I don't know what it is. And Alaska airlines, classy people, classy, uh, company. I really, I really enjoy Alaska airlines, whatever I get on the plane. Um, I think I was in like row 10. I think it was the row 10. No,

the Hawkeye was in row 10 no I knew he was in the row 10 I was in row 12 yeah I think yeah I was two behind him so I immediately was like fuck my carry-on's too tiny to fit in the overhead like or just hold on it's too thick I had a makeup case it was too fat and a purse that was too fat so I'd take that out and both of them are pink and I knew what everyone was thinking oh this bitch you know like it looked like a it's not chanel it's kate spade i was like pink purse makeup pink makeup bag i'm i don't know i don't i'm just assuming i don't know people aren't probably fucking paying attention but i felt like i was making a scene i'm the last one to board i'm talking to the fucking pilots you know you know what this is what the people on the plane

didn't know i'm very observant i saw the wings and i saw what they were doing to them i'm like this de-icing job is going to take another 20 fucking minutes. Okay. I can take my sweet ass time getting on this plane. We're going to be here a while. So I take out my makeup shit and then I see the hot man. I'm like, God, okay. You're, you're there. I'm sitting here. I'm going to stare at you this whole plane ride and holy shit. Um, he was really cocky about not wearing the mask mask. I'll say that. I mean, he had a water bottle. He's just drinking water, taking his mask off every two seconds. I wasn't complaining, but I saw, I saw him. Um, I sit down, you know, I think I text the fam I'm leaving. You know, I always do

that on my way out. Plane ride was great. Um, the thing I noticed though about this, this plane, it was kind of small. I'm not sure what, what level in the fleet, what number in the fleet this one is, but usually there's three seats per side in a row, but it was two. It was like a little puddle jumper. I don't know what it was. It was, I don't know. I don't know what number it was. 727, 767, 1420, Airbus 330. Fucking, I don't, I don't fuck with Airbuses, first of all. I like when there's a first class and a coach. Anytime we get on a plane, it looks like a fucking bus. everyone's in the same seating arrangement i get nervous okay i feel like that's a spirit airlines plane that's some european fuck well i i feel like in europe every plane i took around

there was always like an airbus i don't know i like being on a boeing boeing plane this plane had first class and it had coach but i thought oh this is kind of tiny but i knew i i was like i'm gonna feel the bumps i'm prepared i'm gonna feel the bumps this is a smaller plane whatever flight was great flew over the mountains got to see the cascades off to my right because I was on the window of course there's no one next to you because COVID-19 that's amazing I don't you know what I want this to stay forever I fucking hate sitting next to people on planes I don't hate it but like it's nice having a whole section to yourself but yeah plane ride was great. Plane ride was great. Beautiful scenery. I slept a little bit and every time I

woke up, I was like staring at the van. This guy, you know what it was about him? I feel like he just had this aura. You know how like a hot person, like when you think someone's attractive, they just vibe, like they have this like energy about, just the way he held his water bottle I was like god damn but anyways I have a there's something about every time I'm in an airport every time I'm on a plane I've the most attractive people are around me and I don't know what to do with about it because you know it's kind of nice okay well he's from Washington going to San Diego maybe he was visiting his parents for Christmas maybe he's going for business I don't know I just like to admire from a distance and long story short I was gonna I was like literally

gonna give this man my number or like try to talk to him somehow and I get off the plane we land peacefully in San Diego and like right out of the terminal because we kind of got off at the same time big fucking embrace beautiful woman probably his girlfriend wife I don't know I'm like great you know of course and I cried no I didn't cry I directly I immediately went to baggage claim got my shit. Um, I was sweaty as fuck because I was wearing my big, like sheepy coat thing. It's like a, how do I describe it? My sister made fun of me every time I put it on when I was in Washington. She like, she's like, what the fuck's this coat? But the thing is I was on pretty, pretty little thing.com and I trust pretty little thing to always have the most like Insta forward fashion.

so this is what all the insta baddies are wearing right now I'm gonna wear this oversized sheep looking coat it's kind of like a woolly just imagine what a black sheep looks like like the the coat that's what it was so I was immediately overheated it was sunny out um I'm waiting for my uber and it was great my uber was he was a nice man um what was his name uh I usually remember their names, was it, it starts with an F, Felix, Felix, shout out Felix in the RAV4, he picked me up, I mean, I live so, guys, I'm not gonna tell you where I live, but I live close to the airport, it was, it was great, cheapest ride I've ever taken in an Uber, but, um, guys, I was so happy to be home, like, I, I think this is the trip home, or this is the trip to

Washington since I moved two and a half years ago that made me realize how amazing San Diego is and like how much I love it here because I was gone for a month so I was driving you know from the airport I was looking at the city looking at the water we got a new cruise ship parked up in this bitch we got navy ships everything's like fucking beautiful it had just rained there's a rainbow it was gorgeous and I was like yes I'm happy and then I go home I walk in my apartment and no guys I didn't cry don't don't think I cried uh I was just like yes I love it here I'm so happy to be home I just like but then I got exhausted I don't know it was probably because I was up till since 3 30 I drank like probably before probably on the plane I had a black coffee

and water I had a big giant iced coffee at like four in the morning I was probably over caffeinated didn't under I and I didn't honestly I didn't sleep well because I kept waking up um but I came home I just I passed out I was so tired I came home midday ish but um yeah and then I just chilled you guys if you want to know details I pretty much chilled didn't unpack didn't do anything I watched what did I watch on tv today um I feel like I'm talking in past tense I like today's been a blur um i chilled it's really important you guys know what i watched on tv i probably watched an andrew schultz interview like a podcast on youtube what one did i watch impulsive with him a little bit of that some shit about the stimulus bill watch that um

i just scroll them guys when i've been home i haven't really been on social media i haven't been like well that's not true I haven't really been okay when I say that I haven't scrolled TikTok in like a month like I I wasn't really on it that much when I was home so just kind of laid around and scrolled TikTok and wasted time and then you know I made like now I'm making chicken I'm gonna eat dinner and like go to bed and tomorrow I feel like today tomorrow is gonna be the day I get my shit together you know gonna like unpack do all that stuff but yeah that was pretty much my travel day um I miss my family I my mom's been sending me you know like throughout the day they were sending me stuff pics of my cousin she got a new baby stroller the same one

that my sister and I had when we were little she's pushing it around and the whole family's together my grandparents my mom my sister everyone's together and I'm like uh but you know what that's part of life and I think I don't know I'm not gonna I'm not I'm not gonna be sad about anymore. I think I'm going to choose to like separate the, like I've, I've established that I've got my own thing going on in California, California. I have a great thing going on with family at home. It's always a plane ride away. It's not like I'm, you know, like I'd never see them again. It's just the fact that I was with him for so long on this trip. I was like, ah, it's going to be sad to leave. And it was, but yeah, that's pretty much it guys. I don't know

what else to say episode 117 117 coming to a close I'm really excited about getting back on YouTube YouTube next week um I'll start Monday I think that's the fourth I think you're gonna you're gonna get a stimulus check from the government and then a YouTube video from Jacqueline on Monday which which will be great I'm really excited about that I'm really excited for making my um more Patreon content like I've been brainstorming like other content I can give you guys. It's not, um, stuff you see on my Instagram and you don't really get from this podcast. So, oh, might as well plug it right now. No, I won't do it. That's, that's annoying. I'm not going to do that right now. I'll do that at the very, very end. But yeah, I just feel like

ready to go, you know, 2020, what a year. What a year. Uh, what's that Big Sean song? Isn't it Big Sean all I gotta say is what a year what a year yeah um you know and I feel ready to go for 2021 like pretty much I established mid-2020 I'm sick of my bullshit I'm sick of being depressed I'm sick of being stuck and not really having a trajectory a clear path for my life and what I want to do and I got my shit together so now moving forward like okay the last six months been me doing the work finding my passion this happened in September like I didn't plan this I didn't plan this at all which is kind of cool but now it's like I I don't know I don't know how to say this because it sounds cheesy but I now understand when people find their passion

when people find the love of their life and they just know like they have this internal knowing like they figured it out they found their thing like that's what happened to me in September now I'm just running with it now I'm just doing it every day still and I'm like you know that's already it's not something that I'm how do I say this it's effortless now like I don't have to well it's always been I've always said that like I know it's my I know I found my passion when I this isn't this isn't even um it's not even that hard or it's not even it just fits me I feel like this podcasting fits me I think a lot of people um they find they they do something a certain line of work they do a hobby whatever that it's like

it comes naturally and I feel like that's what this podcast is for me so whatever I figured that out but anyways going into 2021 I want to go hard like ignore the world not ignore the world but try to not let world events, um, make, like, I feel like I made a lot of excuses this year because of the current events, and I don't want to do that next year. Next year, I want to fucking grind, stay in my lane, work hard, boss up even more, glow up. Yeah, definitely, I need to glow up. Uh, we're working on it. Bitch is working on it. Um, I just mean that in, like, I need to glow up a lot of areas in my life, not only my, like, I feel like physically I'm just not, you know, we've talked, guys, I've told you this so many times, a bitch is thick, a bitch is thicker than ever. And you know what? The positive thing about 2020 is that for the first time in my, you know, adulthood or since I've grown into this woman in this body, like, I haven't been an asshole to myself about it.

I haven't been, I don't sit and think about it all day long where before I would have been so depressed and sad and like crying, not literally crying, but I would do extreme shit because if I gained weight, it was like death of me. It was like, oh my God. Cause to be honest, here's what, here's a profound statement. I'll say, let me drink some water before I say this. I really think that I'm happy. I'm happier than I've ever been now because I found a hobby that wasn't something revolving around my body like I found something that wasn't about like a fitness before this podcast thing the only thing I fucking did was go to the gym and eat healthy and like my

I feel like a lot of people's personality traits is the fact that they're like a fitness person which is fine especially if it's your job and your career and your passion like I'm not taking anything away from that but I don't know like a lot of people just don't have anything else going on except like they work out and then they have a job I'm just I'm not saying that's wrong I'm just saying for myself I think that was starting to it didn't it wasn't um serving my life any in any way like I don't want I don't like for whatever reason I don't want to be like oh I don't want to be a fitness like people think of Jacqueline go oh she's into fitness like I don't know why I think that it's just like I feel like I'm I feel like that's personally boring or

like it's just it's like brushing your teeth you know wake up you know work out whatever go to your job it's like everyone does it it's not interesting to me I was like finally I found something where I'm not like I don't know is that a weird thing to say I think that's this whole um podcast I was contributing to my happiness my confidence personally even though I'm plus I don't know how many fucking pounds I've gained this year I think 20 yeah I'm pretty sure 20 now it's okay uh sedentary lifestyle man not really watching I literally I was a trash can at home this one this month I don't you know what whatever I'm being honest I'm trying to be like raw with you guys but I literally am so excited grocery shop tomorrow I've I hate I'm just like I just need

salads and fresh fruit smoothies and green juice like I know how to be a healthy person but I think my issue this year has been sedentary like not really I work at home I don't really get out much whatever but um was that what was my epiphany I found a hobby that wasn't something around my body yeah um but low-key like I don't know there's something about posting pics every day I'm like I kind of want to look better I kind of want to look like a little more snatched like I want my six pack back I think that's normal to admit I'd be lying to you if I was like nah I'm stoked about my fucking well you know what why am I hyper focusing on my body right now on this podcast um why I'm even why I'm even calling attention to it when I literally don't give a fuck but I'm not

like stoked to not fit in my old clothes like I have all these cute tops that I'll just be honest like I'm so big on top now I've never been this big on top that like I can't fit into my like crop tops you know like I've never had boobs in my life and now I'm like great um or jeans jeans I like I haven't bought new jeans so I'm like okay so I'm just like annoyed by that I think that's why I'm like whatever uh okay insecure that I talked about my body so much is not the fitness and self care, fucking love yourself at any size podcast. You guys know how I feel about that. I like my models like Christina and Tom say on your mom's house. I like my models skinny. I like them attractive or I don't think they say skinny. I think they say fit attractive.

I don't need to put, I don't like looking at plus size models. I don't like looking at ugly models, alternative blah blah no I like my I could rant about that now do you guys want to know my opinion about that if you're new yeah we got to cut the bullshit with this fucking I don't know at some point we just need we just need to stop making everything so like I don't know I'm not I don't want to rant right now about it but I agree with Tom and Christina and you know what's interesting show me a fat male model show me a fat male mannequin men know what's up okay they know what the fuck's they're not always searching for acceptance or whatever from other people like men know what's up I think women like the whole

reason we see all the fat mannequins the fat um model like the like literally obese I'm not just going to say I think I've always mentioned this if you're if you're plus I'll just include myself in this 20 if you're plus I'll go up to 50 pounds okay that's kind of a lot but if you've got some extra weight that you can that you're working with that's not 200 pounds overweight that's a little different okay that's not I think when you start when you start um it's like when you're walking behind someone in there there there's no separation between their legs all the way down to their ankles like that's we got to talk about that I don't think we need to make models models should not look like that we don't need to have people in magazine I'm sorry you guys come at me

whatever I'm being honest um and I'm not a big fan of Lizzo I might be the only one out there that doesn't like her I just think she's confusing like fucking I don't know just I think a lot of people that are in that fat health at every size like fat positivity movement are a bunch of fake people like they're not everything they're doing is fake confidence show me a woman that wouldn't want to look hot as fucking bikini on a beach like I always go back to that like hot as fuck at you know a healthy body mass index of like you know I'm not saying you have to be a ripped ab whatever maybe you're you know chubby but fucking 400 pounds and feeling confident at a beach like that's fake as fuck come at me come

DM why am I ranting now I just have thoughts about maybe I should like go into uh maybe I should go back to school and do a master's around like this kind of shit I don't fucking know I have a lot of opinions about things in the world I don't like to see and just like shit that's annoying and that I don't think is positive and I think it's annoying okay so anyways we're gonna end on that note look my heart and soul loves all people my heart and soul hates these people in charge making everything a case like we gotta have acceptance everyone needs to be accepted and and uh showcase what's were represented no bitch it's not how i i just and then again it's like if that's the case jacqueline why do you care it's just because

of like i don't know i think one of my biggest sadnesses in the world is just the i guess you could say like I think my friend David he's kind of in the fitness nutrition space but I have a lot of issues with like the corporations put you know that fucking fucking everyone up with the food system and you know that's why you have obesity problems and obesity like think of like every disease you can if you're obese you have like you're you're gonna be um you know 10 times more likely to fucking have x y and z disease or it's stem like most diseases stem from that so it feels good to feel good once you figure that out I always preach this I don't feel so hot right

now I've been eating cookies for a month I've been indulged I've had so much cheese in the last 30 days thank god I'm not like I don't have the lactose thing but I've eaten so much like shit so I go back to this I don't feel great I want to I want to I want to feel better so Jacqueline's gonna go to the fucking grocery store tomorrow buy vegetables and buy a healthy fucking food because there's a such thing as that and it's all about how you feel okay I literally spent 20 minutes going into that I'm sorry um but anyways there's a topic there's a segment I think my mom said Jacqueline pick a topic in a segment just run with it for a long time before we cut cut to a different topic so here's today's podcast Jacqueline flew home to San Diego Jacqueline

laid around at home and then Jacqueline ranted about fat people everything and everyone getting represented now that doesn't okay you get it happy fucking Monday Monday motivation get your ass to the gym I'm projecting Jacqueline get your ass to the gym eat healthy fucking take care of yourself feels good to feel good um yeah hope you guys had a great monday i'll talk to you tomorrow episode 117 we're out but last but not least last but not least head over to the apple podcast app and subscribe if you haven't already leave a review that helps me out helps other people find out about the show and then go over to patreon.com slash tjms to support the show

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