The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 125- Chaos

Episode Date: January 7, 2021

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What's up, guys? Happy Wednesday. It's episode 125. Welcome back to the show! what a day January 6 2021 is going down in history what a day what did we just all witness happen at the Capitol like what what I am I'm in I'm just in like shock or just like wow whoa we're gonna talk about it we're gonna go into it but first if you're new I'm here seven days a week go ahead and hit that subscribe button this is my audio diary this is my mental health practice I sit here and talk to myself

and work out my problems things I need to work like that I want to do my goals my ideas I talk about current events so go subscribe if you haven't already and head over to patreon.com tjms to get access to my exclusive patreon only content my patrons get phone calls shout outs videos that you guys don't get here or you're listening that you don't get anywhere only on Patreon. So go check it out. It's patreon.com slash TJMS. Okay. So I'm going to start off by saying today was not that great. It wasn't that great. It wasn't. And I'm not talking about like what happened politically and like that. I'm talking about personally, personally, I've been up since five gargling and I've been gargling salt water every hour it's currently 7 20 p.m since 5 a.m

okay I'm paranoid about coronavirus I'm I've got a situation going on in the mouth and throat and the exhaustion in my body and I'm I'm monitoring and I'm paranoid okay I've had a day and it was a grind day work-wise grind like one of the grindiest grinding I haven't grinded so hard in my life well not true but I was like a big work day I had a zoom meeting I had like yeah just I'll get into it but I woke up at five and this is what's nuts I think I I'm like okay wait, whoop says I recovered. That's my, like my strap. I wear the health strap. It tells me how I recover, how I sleep, all that stuff. And it was a great recovery. I had five hours and 55 minutes of sleep, recovered 95%. My HRV was like 56, which is really good. I guess it's good to be over 50

or something. And then I just like, but here's the issue. Everything on paper, like that was all great. Said I recovered. I was like, wait, I'm supposed to be feeling good right now. Why does my throat hurt like it hurt really like I was like okay something's going on it hurt and I was I just felt like shit and I was like wait maybe I should sleep more maybe I'm just tired I need to like sleep this off well whatever I ended up waking up and I gargled salt water and had a really slow morning I didn't have any desire to drink coffee red flag big red flag just went up that's a bad sign uh didn't want coffee like I was just feeling I felt like shit and so not to be negative I don't want to bring my negative 20 like the 2020 negativity into 2021

on my podcast today but like I fucking I was going through it this morning in a bad way so I was doing math I'm like when did I travel was I breathing too close to people on my hikes like where like I was going through every place I've been um but I'm I feel like here's where I'm gonna here's what I'm gonna say now before you get annoyed that I'm gonna just rant about being like feeling like shit today I'm a champion I'm a warrior I'm resilient I know today was one of those days but tomorrow is gonna be I'm gonna like manifest a healthy positive feel-good day tomorrow. Cause I'm not going to like wallow in the fact that my throat feels like shit and I have a weird taste in my mouth and I'm tired and I'll get into that tiredness. Cause it's very odd.

Um, I'm so annoying. I hate, I honestly just, okay. So slow morning. Uh, I just feeling down about it. I was a little scared. I didn't have my wellness formula tablets. They're not getting delivered till tomorrow those are my immune support supplements I take they're called wellness formula I swear by them I'll be taking like 15 tomorrow uh if this continues so I was like okay I don't want coffee I'm not I can't I don't feel like working out I was exhausted I had like body exhaustion like my whole body hurt and so I basically just slowly cleaned my living room and like swept the floor listened to a podcast. I did like, I like Windex to my mirror. I did everything like slow and easy around my

apartment to move. Cause I was like, I need to move my body, but I don't want to like go hard. And that kind of helped. Um, and then I ended up around, what time was it then? Like seven ish. I made, I just was like, okay, well actually I, in order for me to do any work today and to like get going I need some coffee so I made coffee and it didn't taste right okay it just did not taste right so I made and so I went iced so start out with the iced coffee like I always do and I was like well maybe it's like maybe I should have a hot coffee instead I don't know like I dumped I literally was like oh I don't want like this tastes weird which is I was like oh my gosh if I have corona and I can't taste like oh you know but I ended up I was like well I'll just dump this

to make hot coffee maybe I want like a just like a black coffee so I made that taste like shit so I was so confused I'm like I love coffee I didn't want this right away when I woke up that's a bad sign and then like I didn't like the taste of it I don't know what to do so I honestly just chugged it and I started feeling the energy and I was like okay I'm starting to feel normal so I did a little like yoga flow something kind of intermediate my triceps are still so sore from Monday oh my guys I don't want to have jacked triceps but I feel like they're gonna look so toned if I keep doing this Travis Elliott workout I did it Monday and I hurt so bad I was trying to do my flow today like was so hard to do because I was dying of soreness but I did that um rolled

around for about an hour doing yoga felt great and then I was like okay work time so I showered I like got ready I put on my makeup for my podcast because I go on YouTube now and I film Monday through Friday and I got like my full face on and I got all cute I had a zoom meeting I knew at 11 so I was like you know prepping notes for that and then it hit me at like 9 30 I was like I need to go back to bed like I was so exhausted and here's the thing you're probably like well no shit you got like six hours of sleep you did yoga yoga probably made you more tired and then you wanted to pass out after that and I'm like you might be right but honestly it was like I felt like the body ache thing or just like I hate this episode who wants to hear a bitch complain about

her bodily functions and her feeling, her lack of vitality on a fucking Wednesday in 2021. Like who cares? But this is my, this is my truth. This is my, this is my diary. I would have written this in my diary today. These are my symptoms. These are my vitals. So here, here's what I'm going to tell you. I slept so hard at nine 30. I slept from nine 30 to 10 45 in a deep state. I was like out like I slept hard it wasn't a light nap like I slept and then I woke up just in time for my zoom meeting took that meeting and then worked the rest of the day and it was just one of those days I'll say this it kind of hit me um when I took a little break I like taking little mobile breaks where I go on a walk or I do something active instead of like if you're feeling the

three the 230 slump it's I feel like a lot of people grab a coffee like you perk up with the coffee but sometimes you just need to move and hydrate so I made uh I all day I drank so I was doing I was gargling salt water by the way so I said that I was gargling for my throat I kept gargling salt water on the hour I was drinking a like a full uh gallon of water with a little sea salt and then a bunch of lemon in it to like make a little hippie Gatorade situation for myself so I was hydrating and I decided to move around so I put my new sheets on my bed I put away clothes um I put I have these bottles where I put my like lotions and cleansers and all that I had to like put a new bottle of cleanser in the glass bottle and I literally this is what I want to tell you

about that. I sat there for like 10 minutes because I don't have a funnel. I just sat there pouring it slowly, meditating and thinking. I was like, okay. I had to focus because I didn't have anything like to funnel it in. I couldn't make a mess, right? So it was like a little game. I was like, okay, I'm not going to let this spill. And I use CeraVe hydrating facial cleanser, by the way if you're curious and I put it in glass pump bottles with black matte matte black pumps you got to do it it looks so elevated in your bathroom bathroom um it feels like I'm at a spa like I like to decant or like d pot whatever you call it d what would it be a d bottle d robe I like to put my lotions and potions in cute things I don't know instead of just setting

them out on the counter. I think it looks better. So I found myself sitting there and this is when like the heavy thoughts started hitting me. I just had a really like this today was one of those days where I just had a lot of heavy thoughts and it hasn't happened in a while. I actually wrote a note here. I was like, haven't had a day like this in a while. I wrote a lot of heavy thoughts hit me about the future. I made a game plan. So I'm like sitting there pouring the cleanser in the bottle and I just felt like this heaviness come over me about what the fuck am I gonna do like I I feel like I'm in this pivot point in life where I'm like I gotta make some choices I gotta get serious about some things and I like hit me so that was that was good for me I

had that little this is like my break of my work break and I fucking whipped out my notepad this is a new habit of mine or I'd say this is an improvement something I used to do where I'd sit and stew and I would like never stop stewing about it and I would get down about it I'd overthink it and worry about it instead of like what am I getting what's the solution like okay Jacqueline you feel these heavy thoughts what are you going to do about it so I wrote a little game plan whipped out I put like four bullet points on a piece of paper made it simple boom boom boom and I mapped it out and then I felt better immediately and I think that's a huge step that's a huge growth today was that was a big growth moment for me because one of the things

I nipped in the ass last year is my overthinking my negative my negative spirals I get in where I can't I don't I didn't do anything to get myself out of them or I didn't know like I didn't realize that I was just like like living in it all the time and that's why I got really depressed and now I see the thoughts and I go oh what okay what am I like how I don't want to have these what am I going to do or it's okay to have bad thoughts but just like what or you can be it's okay to be a little bit down but how are you gonna pick yourself back up so I wrote a little game plan and that's a big deal for me um so yeah I like took a little break went back to work and it was that I was so exhausted guys I was like do I need to take another nap like it I felt bad

like today I was paranoid about being sick um I was pushing through the thing is is I was like coffee doesn't taste good today I don't want anymore so I'm going to sit here and like basically be half asleep as I'm working on my laptop I was putting the spreadsheet together I was finding all these like loose ends little details for it it was kind of like a bitch to find like every little I had to like really focus and which is I love my like I love what I do there's no complaining there but it's just like when I was tired and I felt bad I was like oh my god I was really having to push myself um so yeah I did that and then I have a couple updates here before you talk about the raids at the capital um some life updates I saved my plant I saved a

house plant that was dead because I left for a month to Washington I saved its life it's a maiden hair fern and I'm happy to report it has like three little sprouts coming out of it and guys this makes me so proud I'm not actually crying when I came home this thing was crispy it was brown it was dead and I was like it was like well maybe like it was like 90% dead it still has some green to it a little bit but I knew it was dead so I looked up how to save its life and basically this plant needs humidity it needs a lot of TLC this is an advanced house plant apparently to own and I left this bitch alone for a month with no water so I I should not have done that I should not have bought it right before vacation but

I've been shower shower oh fuck I've been showering that's kind of a hard word to say have you guys ever stopped and said that slowly to yourself showering I was showering showering and whenever I shower I bring it in there with me because it needs that humidity and I close my bathroom doors I like steam it and yeah a couple sprouts came up and I just noticed that today and I'm really excited I think it's going to be my 2021 project and I'm not a house plant person I have them I don't know their names I don't know what type of plant like I don't know anything about my plants I just know that I gotta water them sometimes and they look like shit I'm like, oh, I got to perk them back up. And I take some of their dead leaves off, but I have no clue.

I think I have a pothos. I do know that. And a bird of paradise. I think that's my palm. I think it's a bird of paradise. So yeah, I'm excited. That plant, it might represent me in my growth this year. You know, that plant, how they better, if I got to take care of that plant, I got to take care of myself as good as I'm taking care of that plant or some shit like that. I can make a little cute story about it so she's doing good uh she's sprouted and she's on her way I gotta really be careful about the watering the sunlight the humidity I put rocks underneath her apparently if you put your plant on a bed of rocks it helps humidify it so anyways that's an update um just like I literally wrote like four notes here about my updates about my day um okay I told you guys

my new sheets came like you give a fuck who wants to know that it's fun you know here's the thing in life you kind of get I don't so with bedding with like clothes and stuff I just like use them till they're really fucking old or I like don't really think like oh I need to I need to get new shit or like a new all new bedding and pillows like I don't just do that until it comes it becomes like, Oh God, I really need to do this. And anyways, I bought all new stuff. So it's like, they're coming, all these sheets and blankets and pillow, all this stuff's coming in waves. I got a new mattress topper thing. It's great. Um, but I feel like I should just make it a thing I do once a year. Like, Oh, just do it on the new year. Every year you will just always have like a

nice fresh set. And it feels, it just feels nice to sleep. I feel like I'm at a hotel every night now. So my sheets are really, well, I'll test them out tonight. I don't know. Um, they feel really nice. They look really nice. By the way, you got, if you got anything with white sheets, what are you doing? Like, I don't know. I just like, I'm a white sheet person. I'm a white bedding person, all white, all over white. Like no, I mean, yeah, maybe a little gray, a little taupe, you know, but do the decorative pillows. If you want to add a pop of color, don't do fucking don't do like striped don't do like patterned sheets you're not you're not you're not living at your mom's house in your childhood bedroom like come on uh that's just personal

preference so i like crisp white i like i like to feel like i live in a hotel it's kind of how i design my apartment i'm like if i was at a little cute airbnb hotel whatever like that's those are two separate things. My place could a hundred percent be an Airbnb. Like I could, this is, I decorated it so cute, but, um, my other update, this is really important guys. Uh, why am I all of a sudden feeling better? Okay. This is why I podcast. It literally makes your health. It improves your health. See my key lime LaCroix tastes weird. I don't like that. Things taste weird today. It's really making me paranoid. It's not that I don't have taste. They, guys does my chest what the fuck okay i just said i feel better and now what's happening wait

i can still sort of it tastes weird it's just everything tastes weird my breathing feels weird okay i'm not gonna be paranoid anymore i'm gonna be a champion i'm not going to manifest sickness. My update is I got a water filter. I felt so bad. So after I recorded yesterday's episode, I was like, Oh, I just kind of sounded ignorant and just like, I didn't just didn't sound very elegant about me talking on buying plastic water bottles. I was just like, it's just what I do. I buy plastic water bottles. Um, you know, I wasn't very like Matt, I was just like saying it and I wasn't really being, I don't know. The truth of the matter is, um, a lot of people buy them. Hey, if they, if they do it, I'll, I'll do it. If we all

do it, if one does it, we all do whatever the fucking saying is. But, uh, I bought a water filter. So finally I'm going to have this cute little, I found something on Amazon that's aesthetically pleasing. So it's not going to be like, here's the thing. I don't want a water trough I don't want a fucking office cooler dispenser thing in my kitchen I don't want anything metal or ceramic or like these gross looking not even gross they're just like I don't want to look at a blue jug I don't want that blue jug in my kitchen so I got this little countertop set up that's called a kaku on Amazon go look it up kaku tankless water filtration system or some shit and it's like an Asian brand that's on Amazon it's really well reviewed highly reviewed

I looked up videos I'm really excited to get it oh my god so wow um it's gonna just like be my solution to all those water bottles I'm gonna have a I'll be like a normal human being who doesn't who has like a setup or something where they're not drinking tap water they've got some sort of like filter going on and yeah I used to have a one of the houses I lived at here it was like a reverse osmosis you know I got sucked in one time in college someone was trying to get me to sell kangen water like I got that water is like a it's a bit like there's an industry a fucking industry a huge one so I don't know I got it you know to if I piss you off yesterday about talking about plastic water bottles well i did i've got i'm getting a filter so that happened

all right should we talk about what's going on at the capitol i went to cnn.com to look at the top headline and this is exactly what's going on right now according to cnn big bold giant headline chaos in dc after capitol riot watch live oh wow you know um the democrats flipped the senate people flipped out you got people protesting or rioting or raiding whatever I don't know the technical term for it apparently if you're black you're a rioter if you're white you're a protester I guess that's how it works but yeah I saw a lot of fucking hilarious photos honestly uh these Davy Crocker looking dudes just it's I'll be honest and real it's absolutely uh it's just like sad that this is where we're at as a country the decorum just is like there

is none it's just no it looked like a bunch of like you have to remember all these grown men are basically like little five-year-olds inside just having a tantrum like that's what it looked like to me and I don't know I just feel like I'm I'm just like in this shock and awe I'm like whoa this is real life this is fucking our country this is happening oh my god you thought 2020 was bad what's happening this year I love a Joe Rogan post he posted a uh picture of you know someone being weird in the capital or doing just like a picture of it and he's like aliens now this would be this would be a good time right now or something like that if they want you know to come down to earth this would be a good time I like that he said I just like yeah I mean that's kind

where everything's at like the aliens are next the fucking I don't know it's just awful I feel but here's the thing I follow a lot of Europeans and they're all posting the like pictures and memes like all the stuff about it and there's I follow this person from Germany who let me read the caption she she's like uh we she lives in Germany we are being terrorized by white supremacists let's call it what it really is a pathetic and hateful act of hate ignorance and racism i am disgust maybe she actually i think she might live in new york too i don't know but it's just funny how like the whole world is like they're all fucking upset about this i follow like a lot of people i'm just seeing europeans rage about it but um yeah here's

someone from france all my uk people people are pissed oh god what did andy frisella say I just I'm watching his story for the first time he didn't post anything about it yeah he's probably I don't know probably got a banger story tomorrow um a lot of the ways I think about things by the way are because of like his his uh rants Andy Frisella or I I look up to the Andy and Ed Milet a lot I don't know they're just like good wholesome dudes a lot of like bangers a lot of good one-liner one-liners for you you know that make a lot of sense and resonate with me about success and you know being a good person and working hard and I just like I I like it so I'm sure he's got a hot take he'll talk about

tomorrow I think I played or like mentioned something he said a few days ago about like people being afraid of COVID and then they're like in a restaurant wearing a mask like they're not actually that afraid they're actually like I don't know so anyways I don't know what else I should say about it we got people like here's a picture of people ripping a gate apart I am seeing that videos circulate a lot of the police um there's like a video of the police opening the gate for their people to like the rioter people to walk through and get in I don't know it's just a heavy day that's why I don't I always go back to this I'm going to say this I'm going to and the show. This is what keeps me sane. And I guess it's starting to apply less and less

because my life is being affected by political things now. The shutdowns, you know, I lost my job, like all that kind of stuff. It's like a based, it was because of something, a political decision like something in politics government decided excuse me but you have to remember like how drastic does your like depending on who's president who rules the senate fucking who our government is like how much does your life pre-covid let's just say that change like it does it never really changed that much it's not like we need to fucking burn things down and go crazy and I know a lot of people are pissed off at policies ideas rhetoric like the lies that were fed and they're just over it so they're just trying to get their

their anger out about it and their frustration so they're exercising the right to protest all this stuff I get that but I feel like you kind of have to be I don't know just like okay well it I don't know it's not like we all need to roll over and take it but just right now I'm like I honestly if everyone would just fucking sit down I'm not saying sit down and obey but just like not act like a fucking five-year-old about all this it's just kind of like I don't know I don't know I just want to like ride this I'm all about like let's just ride this wave let's ride this covid wave i don't know if cooperation is going to be better like i feel like people think if we cooperate it's going to be worse than if we don't cooperate

and we have to rebut we have to rebel we have to say fuck the mass they're trying to vax us and kill us and chip us and so we have to put up a fight but a piece of me thinks well we don't know is it better to cooperate and to just go along roll the punches hey biden comes in the white house president four years of that let's ride that wave a couple vaccines roll out covid is a thing we're wearing masks more than we used to but shit's back open it's a little more peaceful i think this is the hurdle we're trying to jump right now uh are not weak because i don't include myself in this group but i'd say like proud boy proud boys all these you know fucking radical right winger people are like

we need to get this hump over this hurdle the election the inauguration the the voter fraud thing like this needs to roll out and and to get salt and it all needs to kind of unfold and time needs to pass i feel like once that all has a resolution and it's black and white and there's like a solid okay biden's in trump's out it'll fade away and the writing the chaos all that bullshit will just like fade slowly and it won't be it won't even be relevant like it will just go like naturally go away i think that's what it is i think there's all those people that are in the they're they're raiding um congress i feel like they were they still think trump's supposed to be the president like every single one of them's like trump's supposed to be the winner

that's what i'm pretty sure like that's why there's so much rage i think there's all this fuckery with the voting and they're still hung up about that and it's like to their core they're so upset this is like my president my president he will not he's not going away we are not allowing biden it's like that's just unfortunately unfortunately the supreme court said i don't know electoral college i don't know guys the thing is i don't know i don't know maybe he was robbed maybe it was all fraudulent i don't fucking know i just think i'm i i just i want peace i want everyone to just take a little four-year nap with biden for your little a little four-year nap with Biden maybe Kamala maybe she'll be there too in a big way because you know Biden might not

I just heard like something people are insane they make a case out of it they're like Biden's gonna get the vaccine and then die they're gonna say he died so Kamala can take over and or some shit like what they're trying to like fake a death like what it's a wild world out there but again I go back to like what can I can what can I control what can I do stay in my lane keep myself going just because you know it's all think of how big the world like that's just a little tiny speck on the map DC right now you know there's a little shit show going on tonight um I don't we're just gonna have another I'd say another six months months of bullshit maybe not even that much i'd say honestly let's just get past the end of the january

the inauguration and then we'll find we'll see what happens um i just hope that this year is not a continuation of 2020 i i just hope it's a month more of bullshit and then we can rock and roll patch ourselves back together get vaccinated whatever we have to do to open shit back up and live normal again like I really have that in my noggin my head right now doesn't everyone like how can we all work together to to get to that point can we just work together I feel like no one's on the same page everything's inconsistent everything's fucked but you know one day at a time one podcast at a time I'll be here all year i'll be here all year i don't go i'm not going anywhere um

the fuck like the fact like people are like flying into dc to go raid that like people are off their they're going there they're making trips i was on tiktok of course i was there's like a whole plane full of trump supporters like chanting trump stuff and like what in the fuck is going on you know I think it's cool and also fucking annoying at the same time like I just am so on like the I'm just like this is a good thing but it's a bad thing and yeah so all right I think I'm gonna call it I do feel better let me do one more taste test taste bud test yeah yeah still kind of not like it usually is um I'll check back in tomorrow let you know my

symptoms I'm gonna have a good sleep tonight get to bed at a good time uh yeah that's like the that's the plan tonight I was watching I'm gonna finish it your mom's house I watched the video of Tom Segura dunking the basketball and splitting his body in half he had like a arm dislocate or some shit and he had like a patella tendon snap so I was watching that and uh him and Christina got his wife I don't know if do you guys watch your mom's house I literally will sit and watch a three-hour episode on YouTube as my nightly nightly routine like that's what I like doing um to like chill out but they both got corona at the end of december so he he broke his leg did that whole thing had surgery and then he so had to rehab do all that and then he got sick

and she got sick like right before christmas they've been through it last december they were like fucking so i'm gonna finish the episode and see what else they have to update um about their life I don't I just like them they're they're fucking hilarious they play funny videos their fellow podcast hosts you know I'm trying to join the club just one podcast at a time you know uh I like shouting out people I like too who else do I like I don't know there's so many good podcasts out there so many good podcasts all right that's it go ahead and subscribe to the podcast if you haven't already on apple or spotify stitcher public what are all the places i'm on everything but

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is the thing, the meme going around 2020, you learned 2021, you applied. So apply the shit you learned last year. And for me, consistency with my goals, 1% each day, instead of the, I'm already noticing it with like yoga progress. I'm like, okay, I can't do my press handstand in January, but I probably will in December or I will in December. It's just a little bit better each day and then eventually I'll get it. Um, that type of stuff, just like focusing on the 1% each day and that's it. Love you guys. Talk to you tomorrow. Happy Wednesday. All right. Bye.