The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 155- This is an EMBARRASSMENT.

Episode Date: February 6, 2021

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Hey guys, happy Friday. It's episode 155. Welcome back to the show! who has spoken 10 hours a week, that we're like, can't wait to listen. Hey guys, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Happy Friday. Welcome back to the show. Hit that subscribe button. I'm here 70s a week. Am I, am I a radio host? Is that what this is? Like, when I think about it, I'm like, whoa, I'm on the, I'm on the microphone every single day. as if I'm on the radio yet I'm posting it as a podcast I don't know what to do I don't know okay so first of all um hi this is my audio diary I'm here 70s 70s week hit that subscribe button happy Friday I hope you're doing well I hope you feel successful dude it feels so

good to feel successful and I don't know what that is for you but I really hope that you feel it today. Why am I going on that tangent? I want to go back to what I, um, was going to address about what Whitney Cummings said. I'm going to, I hope you feel successful. Let's go back to Whitney Cummings. I played that because I was watching the Tim Dillon episode and she's sitting there going, you know, no one wants to listen to a woman speak. What woman do we get excited about, uh, listening to 10 hours a week? And, you know, women, uh, for the most part are the ones that sit back and laugh at jokes they aren't funny no one wants to hear them talk but what and i'm sitting there going i'm like clamming up going oh fuck i'm like wait a minute is that do

does is this just one giant the jacqueline monroe show bitch nobody cares nobody cares like i'm posting this and it's just like a bunch of fucking people watching it or like observing the fact i do it seven days a week like fuck that i'm not listening that girl talk seven like every day like I'm like sitting back going wait a minute am I full of myself is this just a bunch of bullshit like why am I doing this I'm a woman I shouldn't talk all the time like this I don't know but um anyways I'm sitting back going wait a minute I do that and yet here's what's wild here's what's wild my audience is literally it's like 90% male and the amount of DMs I get from guys saying like I've never missed an episode

and what am I on 155 I look forward to your show every day uh I normally don't like girly podcasts but for whatever reason I like yours and you're funny and interesting like they just say like I actually look forward to it you're a girl and yet I like listening to you Whitney Cummings there's your proof that it's possible and you know what you're great you don't need to have a mental breakdown every time you walk out of the studio and think that you sucked at your podcast. I love what Tim said. I'm going to start using this in conversation or like, you know, or to back up kind of like why I'm just so gung-ho about having my own podcast seven days a week. Tim's like, Whitney, you have to bet on yourself. You have to bet on yourself. And people sense,

and he said he made a great point with podcasting he says people sense passion they sense if you're really into it you love it and um I feel like that's what I fucking I literally eat sleep and breathe this shit I'm like always talking about how much I love podcasting I feel like maybe that's what keeps people um like engaged just like I'm believing in myself I'm betting on myself I'm like I don't give a shit I'm doing it seven days a week and like it's the whole if you don't believe in yourself and believe in what you're doing no one else will you know so whatever um anyways I just thought that was funny audio a piece of audio because I'm like sitting back when we am I just is this just a fucking is this just one giant nobody cares shut up no one cares about

your fucking life and like your childhood stories and your fucking coffee you drink every day let's talk about my coffee I'm drinking okay so I woke up oh by the way by the way I'm a terrible host we're gonna go into my uh document that I said I want to talk about this I want to read from it all of February and like talk about some shit I wrote because it's kind of funny today we're gonna talk about my personal brand I my aesthetic I once wrote about and it's fucking funny because it's kind of cringy and I'm going to read it and discuss it because that was so me like two years ago and I don't know so anyways back to my beverage I've got two pickle jars sitting next to me one has uh water uh water filter by the way a water

filter update still love it water tastes great it's a cuckoo Korean water filter I'm a fucking found on Amazon it lights up it feels like you know I'm in a bar like there's like lights going on the water system thing and it's sick so drinking that and then I woke up immediately downed I pulled two shots of espresso or excuse me was that four dude it's 6 a.m. did I even mention that this is the morning this is the morning that was my dream and my goal yesterday I was like oh fuck my life I'm behind today it's you know last night I podcasted at 6 30 I'm like I wanted to get this done at 6 a.m so I'm I can report right now finally this is I'm accomplishing my dreams and my goals I'm podcasting in the morning so I'm drinking coffee anyways I had

immediately downed four shots of espresso and then I made um a latte with two more shots oh is there four dude I'm over caffeinated I'm can you hear it my voice it's just what it is okay I love this shit I love it I know it's too much but I don't care um we're just drinking like an almond milk latte with like you know four shots puppy and I played really hard all morning so he's settled and calm right now while I podcast um anyways so yeah all right happy Friday let's read from this document um let's cringe together brand aesthetic so this document if you're new is everything I've ever written since I was in like high school like eight I'd say like 18 to now and a couple years ago I took all the notes off my phone I took all my random

writings and I put it on a document and so sometimes on the podcast I read from it and it's funny to go whoa like I'm a changed woman like I was thinking this a couple years ago and I do not agree now um uh so anyways today we're going to talk about at one point when I wanted to like be an on I wanted to like rebrand myself or like be a person I wanted to be a like I wanted a personal brand so hard at one point and an aesthetic and every time you come across my shit there's like a feeling and a vibe and a color theme there's like a theme of um you know like even down to like filters on pictures and like colors and logos and fucking everything Jacqueline Monroe because you know I was like a wannabe influencer at one point where

I just thought like that's what you do reach out to brands have an aesthetic sell a fucking course or a ebook or I don't know talk about your like insta story your fucking oatmeal every day you know and I I just got sucked into that path and you know I've talked about how at the end of the day I realized like my life sucks whenever I do those types of things I'm like I'm putting effort into bullshit like none of this even matters or or is it's just for me I understand at how people think it's um it's like oh well I'm I like art and this is a creative outlet and applying a filter and like posting a story of my oatmeal it's like it's like a they enjoy that process I personally found that my life sucked when I did it it sucked me out of the moment

it doesn't matter I felt like I was trying hard and trying to look a certain way so I didn't go down that route now I'm doing a podcast so brand aesthetic first thing I wrote here. Breathe. So, oh, by the way, I can people watch this morning for once because it's not dark out. And in the past I would people watch every single day and mentioned like anything going on outside. I would be like immediately distracted by it and I'd have to report on it. So just be prepared for interjections like throughout this episode of like right now two walkers both wearing a beanie boyfriend girlfriend all black outfits I don't know that was that sucked there's also a white Tesla outside and I haven't seen it before um just people on walks okay so you probably you

probably could learn a few things here about building a brand maybe I don't know brand aesthetic first thing I wrote what do you talk about on a Saturday night what do you talk slash do the most so I was like a prompt and you know when I was thinking about building a brand like what could I talk about all the time what do I talk about the most and let's reflect on that um I mean obviously I talk on the show every day what do I talk about I mean anything and everything I don't have a niche I never fucking niche down in fact second thing I wrote carve out your niche and write it carve out your niche and write it what is my niche okay that terrifies me there is something about I feel like my biggest fear as a content creator is fucking niching down

and I know that's good for like for as far as like building a brand and getting people's attention they can always come to your shit for they like no whenever I go to Jacqueline's podcast she's gonna talk about uh fucking coffee or whatever like like I was gonna say politics fuck that no like I don't know it's a book club we're gonna only talk about books when we listen to her that terrifies me because I don't want to be in a box I don't want to ever have to like stick to one theme or do a certain I just like want to talk about whatever the fuck comes to my mind so um but I wrote like what's my niche and I felt like for a long time I was in the I just want to do like fashion and beauty and interior design or like you know decor and like

healthy food and like smoothies and like painting my nails and like share all my favorite products and like that's like what I do all the time as a woman that's my full-time career like literally I've mentioned this before like body maintenance okay anything related to my body how I look hair nails skin tan um outfits like everything it's like that's a career in itself there's so much time spent every day, and I don't mind, I actually enjoy it, that involves, like, maintaining a physical, like, your, I don't know, like, your, how you look, and, and how, how nice your hair is curled, and your fucking nail polish, and your, um, how flawless your skin is, and, you know, whatever, so, anyways, I felt like that was gonna be, like, I could ride that niche for a minute, and, like,

post about beauty and fashion um next thing I wrote but now I'm just like that's an after that's like or it's like an obvious thing that I don't want to have to like share with my audience like obviously I apply moisturizer and I paint my nails it's like duh and I don't feel like there's enough content out there I feel like I've maxed out of all of it there's enough content of people doing that and like I don't want to add to that pile of bullshit that's just like getting uninteresting it's so boring now like there's no I always say this there's not gonna be a new eyeshadow palette that's gonna change anyone's life like the all of the colors have been done all of the glitters and the matte blacks are like whenever

new palette comes out and they're like this black is the blackest black that's ever been made i'm like you can't even tell when you put it on like if you have a fucking two dollar cvs wet and wild black and a 80 chanel black you put that on someone's eyeballs it looks exactly the same that's what i don't understand when people go into like well the technology of this formula happens to stay on longer than the cheap brands so that's why it's expensive or like like people get and I understand it's art and it's people's hobbies but it's just so interesting to hear like at the end of the day if you if you put makeup on your face you can't even tell like what's going on there it just like looks nice and anyways so wow sorry caffeine hi

next thing I wrote be honest and truthful about your personal brand and point of view I was probably listening to a fucking Gary Vee podcast and I was taking notes and then okay so my personal brand point of view okay whatever all caps specific as fuck I don't want to be average at many different things anymore yeah I've talked about that in the past where I felt like I was half pregnant on 10 things and I never committed to anything and I was always like pulled in 10 different directions as far as interests and hobbies and what I want to do with my life. And now I'm specific. Like I clearly am a podcast. I'm a radio host, whatever you call this. I chose podcasting and I, that's all I give a fuck about

and all I do. And within that, this is the freedom of, and this is where I love podcasting and the creativity that comes along with it. I can get on the microphone every single day and talk about whatever I want and I didn't stick myself in a box where I have to you know and I'm not saying people that are in they've niched down are stuck like obviously not but personally I wouldn't want to um only talk about like a certain category of like I don't know fucking ah um I know guys I understand the point of all that but uh I just don't care about like SEO and like you know growth and like vanity metrics and like I don't even care about it I don't even like that's not the point of the show and I'll say this I want to I want to address this because I understand how in

the past I've said like I just want the show to unfold however it does I want this to do like I don't want to feel like I'm putting effort into this to make it grow and I realize like that's a very um easy thing for me to say because I'm not betting on that like this is not I'm not like some people where they're going all in and they're on their content they're like this is how I'm going to make a living you know as you know I've I have a job so I have a way of making an income without the um without the podcast so it's like easy for me to be like well I'll just do it every day and it'll grow however it grows and I don't I don't like need to yeah so anyways um next thing I wrote is this fun I don't know let me check in are you guys having fun is this boring

I mean we're gonna get down a list of like um ideas like it's cringy okay so okay next thing I wrote you have to be realistic about what God gave you what am I good at and I wrote my point of view realness and humor cringe okay I like making people feel good about themselves I love laughing and I wrote in quotes you can't control everything in life but you can control your attitude dude, don't take anything too seriously. Life is not that serious. And I wrote that in like all different lowercase uppercase. Life is not that serious. So me being realistic about what God gave me, I'm actually, I feel like I'm currently, uh, like fucking doing that. I'm

being real and I'm, I'm, you know, sharing my point of view on shit every single day. I'm hopefully making you feel good about yourself because as you know as a content creator my number one priority is providing value to my audience every single episode and making sure that you walk away feeling good it's a win-win I love I love you know how I feel when I'm done I feel high on life I'm like I'm happy I got my day started I did a podcast I talked it out and then in turn I hope you guys are like whoo that was fun I hung out with Jacqueline another day another podcast I don't know I do enjoy that though I like making people feel good about themselves like I think I mentioned the past my favorite thing to do it's like a game you know what and I just

think some people are like this or cut out for this or whatever this is like God made them for this. Do you guys want me to talk about like, do it? Is that okay? I'm just saying God made me this way. God made some people this way. They're the ones that like make people, especially strangers feel comfortable by making light of a situation or, you know, joking about something in the room. And then all of a sudden, or they're being vulnerable and they're saying something about themselves. That's, you know, like letting their walls down. And then all of a sudden, everyone around them starts feeling comfortable about you know the situation and the new people or whatever it is and I think that's what I enjoy doing because I like saying shit that

people around me are probably thinking but they're not gonna say that is my favorite and I think that's me that's because that's how I felt that's the that's like the way I uh was accepted into popular groups in like high school and shit like I would be the fucking person in class raising my hand and then I would say some crazy shit and then everyone would laugh and I'd be like oh they like me because I I didn't feel like I fit in and that was like the only way I felt accepted and so I that's never changed now I'm just like whenever I'm with new people I'm just like that person so so anyways I feel like I'm being uh realistic about what God gave me okay okay this is where I cringe so I get so as far as like the aesthetic

and the look and the feel of my personal brand the first thing I wrote is bubble letters so I guess in so as far as like what my um like anytime i write something or whatever i was gonna hand write that shit in bubble letters i guess homemade feel bubble letters rawness real pirate vibe pirate vibe okay this is why i'm cringing when i read this earlier i was like wait why was i thinking of having a pirate vibe I'm so confused it might I mean okay I'm trying to unpack this so I wanted I want my brand aesthetic to be like childish childish with bubble letters I think it's because in my past

like when I think of like early 2000 shit like all I did all day was color like I would write a word in bubble letters and like color it with crayons and I don't know so I guess I wanted to like incorporate incorporate that into my brand I guess but yeah pirate vibe the fuck signature accessory I feel like I'm doing that now like I definitely wear pearls every day like especially when I podcast it's like a good luck thing my signature accessory yeah I feel like it's my um my pearls like I feel like I've done that or I've like or yeah okay next because I thought okay here's what I thought this is my thought process let me take myself back a couple years I was like I admire you know when you look at like little Uzi vert right now is that who did

it and he's got a 30 million dollar diamond implanted in his on his forehead like when you think of little Uzi vert you think of that 30 million dollar diamond on his forehead like you think of him and that diamond it's like a thing that you associate right post Malone always tired under his eyes he's got the fucking tattoos all over his face or you know there's a lot of and i and i think it's because i've i'm like an observant person i study or just like i i i see that there's a trend with a lot of uh creative people out there where they have a thing you know a hairstyle a certain kind of you know fashion or like a style an aesthetic and what they they're wearing a way they post on the internet whatever like tyler tyler the creator has a very it's like

very specific to him so i was thinking of myself i'm like what signature accessory could be like jacqueline dude this proves how fucking full of myself i i think we all are like we are all not i don't think everyone's called to do do this like i don't think everyone's called to be like I want to be I want to have my own personal brand and share it with the world and like be somebody I guess that's seen and heard but for whatever reason that's my calling I feel inclined to do that probably from all of the other people online doing it and I'm like following suit and I'm like well I have to get involved because it it looks fun like having a fucking aesthetic it looks fucking fun but now this is cringy because I I just like I just want to be myself

and it I don't want to feel like I'm purposely doing anything like I'm purposely having a certain accessory on every time I even though even though I do that when I podcast it's like a superstition I'm like I have to have my pearls on but um this is kind of fun to look look at but yeah my I feel like did you guys see that by the way he has a he got like a piercing of a fucking diamond on his forehead next thing i wrote a signature food fuck i guess that'd be coffee it's like my i always have coffee with me uh which is so original i mean who like i feel like every influencer on the internet it's like I love iced coffee me a year ago by the way like this is very um embarrassing or uncomfortable to read because I can't believe that I put effort into thinking about an aesthetic

in a brand brand for myself oh my god Brady Bunch Brady Bunch montage what the fuck oh fuck okay this is an idea someone do it I don't know if I'll do it because I'll feel like a try hard but um literally I thought how you know how Instagram's a bunch of um squares and I used to watched the Brady Bunch growing up so I was like oh I can make videos that where I'm like looking up and looking around but you know unfortunately when you look at Instagram the videos don't play when you look at someone's profile so it wouldn't be that cool do you know what I mean like it'd have to be um moving for it to be fun but I was like wait I could do like fucking what's the theme song. The Brady Bunch. There was a story of a man named Brady. So anyways, I was just like

thinking of how I can make my Instagram look cool and do the Brady Bunch videos, like the heads. If you guys know what that is, it's like all of the characters in the show are in a square and then the Brady Bunch logos in the middle and they are all like looking around in their in their square at the other characters anyways so that's embarrassing but I wrote it uh style super feminine that's like how I would describe my style which um like I wrote heels red pink dresses uh okay why is that funny to me I wrote my style like my fucking outfits and shit are like feminine super feminine dresses heels red pink as my colors and what I'm wearing which is true like I feel

like I'm very feminine and girly like as far as um but lately like literally 2020 changed me like I turned that was my comfier my sweatpants here I just never really I barely dressed up you know in comparison to my past and and I think it's funny how like I literally post like wanted to have a style aesthetic that was dresses heels red pink that's embarrassing I don't know just like this is why I'm like am I a psychopath am I insane does someone out there relate to this are there other women who are like I want to be an Instagram influencer and this is this is the way I want to come across does anyone write this shit out or am I fucking crazy this is not me now by the way like this was me a few or a couple years

ago when did I write this I wish I dated it um zigzag hair part 2000s hairstyles so does anyone remember parting their hair in a zigzag I wanted to bring that back I thought I could like be unique and part my hair in a zigzag and fucking look like Britney Spears in the early 2000s because no one's doing their hair in a zigzag right now dude I should start doing that anyways like wait I would do that now I haven't played around with a hair part like that I need to cut my hair so bad guys it's I don't relate by the way like when people are like on I watch um like stories sometimes of my friends and girls like getting extensions put in and they're like they're like talking about how their hair doesn't

grow very fast and they get extensions I'm like I don't know that life my hair grows so fast it grows I have thick hair it grows fast I have a lot of it um I've never had a problem with like hair growth and is that a flex I don't know I'm just saying like sometimes I'm like wait just don't cut your hair like a lot of the times I watch people talk about how their hair doesn't grow I'm like well because you get it trimmed too much you're constantly cutting it and that's why it's not growing it's your every time you go to the hairdresser you're letting them convince you to cut it. And I believe that's a, they have this compulsive need to use their scissors because you might go there to get your roots done or some highlights or whatever. And they're like, I just

need to use my scissors at some point today. So they end the conversation or they end the hair appointment with, you know, we could do a little trim. Do you want me to clean this up? Then you're fucked then your hair's short all the time and they always take too much off and yeah so I just thought that's like maybe that's something unique about me like I have a lot of hair and I don't have issues growing it I also take biotin biotin and collagen I hate this episode all right uh roaring 20s I knew we were going into the 20s how could I bring back the roaring 20s in my own way um oh my god this is a very vulnerable thing I wrote I want to love myself more and fall in love

holy fuck I want to love myself better and fall in love like fuck I'm 25 I wrote that's embarrassing but that's also like we all feel like that sometimes right like you're just like I just want to have more self-love and also fall in love I wrote like my past relationships have been bullshit oh god oh my god this is really deep what I wrote here um oh I wrote I want I've I said I've always felt that my style has been classic and I oh my god I can't believe I'm gonna read this I said I don't want to be another Instagram Bratz doll which is I honestly I'll own that like I feel like the thing that helps or the thing that

I always go back to is as far as my aesthetic and style and like you can say what you want like I understand like I post a lot of like basic bitch fucking like I don't know like I don't know what I don't know but I always go back to like what would Europeans do or like what do the French women do or what like the German women like they're just natural and classic and they don't put on a bunch of fucking makeup and like juice everything up and I don't know I just like I'm personally more intrigued by that and I feel like that's inspired that's more like that's where I get inspo versus um you know most I'd say like the American girl way of doing things which is very like Bratz dolly and I don't know and again the only reason this was my headspace at one point

because I was trying to think of like when you come across me what do you see and like what's the vibe like I really thought I had to put that together and sell it in a package on my Instagram at one point hey brand look at my aesthetic I'm cool I have something going on here hit me up let's connect um and I've always been insecure about the fact like I never take nice pics or like I never like when a photographer is like let's shoot I'm never like yeah let's do it and I feel like all my pictures are shitty quality but whatever I don't give a fuck any like I don't care anymore but I think at one point I was so in my head about it I'm like wait everyone's using like a a nice dslr camera and they're having someone take their photo but they're always

using portrait mode like what the fuck am i doing in my bathroom taking a mirror selfie it's you know it's time to upgrade my lifestyle this is the next section oh jesus christ um i get excited about the day i'm a morning person looking ahead at the day's tasks as i sip my coffee and read my schedule makes me stupid giddy. I enjoy my life. That's facts. Okay. Oh, I don't know. Why did I say that's facts? But I'll repeat that. I get excited about the day. I'm a morning person looking ahead at the day's tasks as I sit my coffee and read my schedule makes me stupid giddy. I enjoy my life. That's beautiful as fuck. I could put that in a frame. Literally, I

let me unpack that this is when so what I just read is super um real or like that's how I feel when I have a lot of momentum going in my life in every area where I don't feel like I'm I you know when I'm not having a lot of setbacks or I'm not um you know feeling depressed or whatever the fuck like um that's when I'm waking up with excitement every day and I'm looking forward to everything going on because I have a lot of momentum and there's a lot of enthusiasm and energy about what I'm gonna do that day and I understand like like that is a ever-flowing thing where sometimes I don't I don't feel like my life is exciting and I'm looking forward to the day but for the most part

my goal or what I strive to do and I think I've mentioned this in you know the new year so far I'm like I just want to ride this wave because I feel like I do have a lot of momentum right now and the biggest lesson I've learned in my 20s or one of them is that falling off that wave and having to get back on sucks and my life is hell so I'm trying to not repeat the past and learn from my, I wouldn't necessarily call it a mistake, but a, um, learn from that pattern and stay on the momentum train and ride the wave and stay up because I think that's really when you get into the flow of, um, you know, life and you get closer and closer to um you know internal peace you bitch I feel like whenever you're just like accomplishing

your goals and like you're killing the game in every area of like even down like this is honestly I'm gonna include potty training I don't know why but like for me to feel like so right now I feel a little setback because that's a shit show literally with my puppy but I feel like this is like a weird example but like once that's in sync and in tune with my day and he's you know my puppy's like getting it and he's holding it instead of pissing inside and like I'm just gonna I'm like we're not gonna stop this this wave we're gonna keep going we're never gonna fuck up again like I don't know that's a weird example um I wake up I like who I am I wrote oh that's kind of deep should I just write that or should I just repeat that

how are you guys doing is this even fun I don't know this is kind of a selfish episode to be honest I feel selfish because I'm literally talking all about myself and how I think of myself but I think it's inside it might be interesting to see how my brain works or what I wanted for myself at one point and how all of this let's be honest all of this is because of social media and the internet and now so now I'm looking at it going it's all bullshit like this literally none of this to me matters anymore it doesn't as far as like the aesthetic and brand stuff goes like I don't I don't put a um it's not a priority in my life anymore where I'm like oh like this is what I gotta do to be a person in the 21st century

you know but um it's literally all because of getting inspo from other people doing it on the internet you know being a follower being influenced and thinking that I should I hate that I should do it too and I don't think it's um I just did I just want to podcast every day and post it and like I don't want to have a brand I'm like a fucking anesthetic and a color I don't know what else to say um but anyways I wrote this I wake up and I like who I am I was lying when I wrote that there is no way I I think I liked how that looked when I wrote it um at the time I wrote this I don't think I was liking who I was now I can say that but I wake up and I like who I am now not fucking a few years ago um mental privilege is the number one advantage in society right now

my parents have always believed in me which helps a lot I wrote in parentheses yeah I think that's so true um I'm gonna say that that's so facts that's so facts fucking Gen Z with a, the words that are like, I, I do say, what is it? There's facts or cap, no cap fucking. I need to stop. But, um, that's true. Mental privilege is the number. I feel like it's a huge advantage right now. Liking yourself, um, being genuinely happy um I feel like that what why do I call that mental privilege is probably some fucking Gary V thing I took a note on I don't think that was my own uh thought I don't think I would come up with mental privilege maybe I did

um but in a world where everyone you know not saying everyone I don't want to say everyone but a lot of people in this world hate themselves. They're, um, they feel like they're not good enough. They are insecure about X, Y, and Z. Um, they're always striving to be better, do more, more, more, more. And it's just like, like they're not at home with themselves. So they're always seeking. Um, I think in that world, if you wake up and you like who you are and you're in you're um just like liking yourself is an advantage and I don't know and I wrote my parents have always believed in me which helps a lot yeah I will say that I'm pretty fucking blessed um there's nothing I've ever done where my parents are like oh Jacqueline um like why

would you ever want to do that that's a stupid dream um you're not good enough for that like I've never had clap back from my parents if anything they're being parents they'll give me the you know the the advice and some guidance but they're never crushing my dreams and telling me that I'm not good enough or they're usually um no they're not usually a hundred percent of the time they're supportive because I think as parents their priority is my happiness like I sense that like they want me no matter what I'm doing in life to be happy and that's I feel like I'm blessed because of that dude how much more could I read on this am I done this is one of those episodes where I'm like I hope it gets buried quick like I do it seven days a week so in a week this will

be kind of buried on the list this is one of the episodes I'm gonna walk away and I and I know I shouldn't do this because guys understand I'm not a hundred percent secure that's a that's a joke like there's always a little piece of me that's like that I have to fight and squash I go whoa you just revealed a lot I think you overshared that was unnecessary I feel embarrassed and what the fuck did I do that for but here's the thing I always go back to this and that's what I'm going to tell myself after the episode my favorite people on the internet the people that I constantly follow and watch and listen to are the ones that do that and they're they're very they're just themselves and honest in every single avenue of their life and they are pretty unfiltered and I

think that's it's a refreshing thing to hear someone say their truths and say they're embarrassing things because we all have that and I think that's something if I mean if you're listening you can probably relate to me in some way with what I'm talking about um that's cool so I think that's how you build as far as the podcast goes that's how I've built a little mini community of people that um you know listen in and I think that the podcast relationship like with your audience is probably the most intimate because I literally I'm like in your ear every fucking day or I'm like always talking so whatever um okay there's just like a bunch of quotes I wrote oh my god something about on my deathbed oh shit this is deep ready guys

on my deathbed I lived by the conscious voice inside of me I lived by the conscious voice inside of me versus what other people want from me slash what they wanted me to do. I followed my dreams. Fuck. Okay. So that's fucking deep. I think that would be amazing. I think that's what maybe you guys can um let me repeat it basically when I'm on my deathbed I want to feel like I lived by the conscious voice inside my head that followed it followed my dreams and did what I what my brain was like hey this is what you like go do this this is your passion this is what you want to do go do that versus doing what other people uh wanted me to do or like

like living a life for other people and wow it's the whole like oh you should be doing this or you should be doing that thing and that's just a bunch of third parties going they're trying to be nice they're trying to tell you what's best for you. And they're like, well, because they're, it's all based on fear. Like if you follow your dreams into your passion, where's the, where's the, uh, where's the money in that or whatever? Like a lot of, a lot of the times I think a parent, parents give their kids advice based on, um, it's rooted in fear because they want their kids to be, um, stable and not fucked in all the streets, you know? So they're like, take the fucking corporate

job and do the that route and uh it's stable and you get a 401k and you get fucking benefits and and um which I believe in there's nothing wrong with that route by the way I'm not judging I personally have done that I'm doing it in a way so um I think not everyone is supposed to be a passionate creative who paints in their garage and sells it like and makes their living that way like I think um always have a safety net I've always uh done this like no matter what I'm doing whenever I pivot there's always a backup or safety net happening where I'm not fucked if I just choose to go one way and go all in there's always a like a I have I always have a landing spot to fall back on but um that's crazy I wrote that that's probably one of my favorite things I wrote

live by the conscious voice inside of me versus what other people wanted me to do I followed my dreams successful people have the ability to focus and say no I wrote that probably something I got from a fucking podcast I was a lot of the times I write shit it's like oh I was listening to a podcast and got and took a these are like golden nuggets from probably other people talking um is this even about my brand anymore I don't know these are just random things I wrote yeah if I if I've um learned anything from successful people it's like they just go in their little cave in their tunnel and they stay in their lane and they focus on their whatever their thing is and they have the ability to say no and kind of like go dark and and go all

in on their thing so they can accomplish it instead of getting distracted all the time so sometimes I think when you're building a brand or you're um a business whatever you kind of have to do that you know I don't think you kind of do I think if you want to be successful you can't be pussyfooting around a couple hours a day trying to build it you got to fucking like marry it and like fucking go off the grid with it for a bit to really get it off the fucking uh tarmac and get it into like the fucking plane off the ground um I don't think you know what here's what's cool about the podcast I didn't really do that like I just incorporated the show into my day that made like in a way that made sense like I

you know wake up and do it I do it at night it's just like it fits um I mean I could always do more like I could just like post a thousand things on Patreon a day patreon.com slash tjms I don't like plugging that I feel always I always feel weird when I plug my Patreon even though it's like a fun thing for me to do because I call you guys and I shout you out and I post like I make homemade videos for that about like random shit around my apartment and like just like random videos of me um but yeah I have a it's a patreon patreon's like the bonus exclusive content uh page of mine you can you know see all that stuff for a low price of no you do pay a price to be a member so patreon.com slash tjms

oh god this is deep this is kind of deep it's kind of cool I wrote I'm happiest when I earn things by working my ass off and knowing I did everything myself a career built on doing whatever I want and not giving a fuck what anyone else thinks dude I'm fucking finally doing that I wrote that what two years ago was this 2019 there's something about that yeah when you know you earn something 100% because you worked your ass off that there's nothing when you whatever the golden ticket or prizes at the end whatever you wanted that dream once you get it you feel so much better than no then I feel like if you if you were using people or taking shortcuts or you to something kind of shady to get it. Like, there's nothing better than going, I put my heart

and soul into this, and I achieved it, and I earned it. Damn. Am I a good person? I think I'm a good person. All right. I think that's enough. Dude, I'm kind of burnt out of this episode, to be honest. What did it start out as? Like, what could I talk about on a Saturday night or something like that? bubble letters and shit what the fuck I want to oh I wrote this is like another thing I want to own a choice I don't know I want to I'm writing down what I bring to the table fucking a for me to be most authentic I need to be grounded and clear-minded decluttering the noise is essential for my creativity and motivation to get what I want I've been spinning like a top

when I want to launch like a racehorse I have a I have a digital clutter phobia where I get overwhelmed by the chaos and content of my iPhone memory cards laptops etc I have okay this is funny because like I felt so when I basically put all this shit on a document because I was like I need to get all of the clutter from all of the little memory cards and notes on my phone and shit I've written on one document and streamline it because I felt like I didn't have a clear I was like uh I needed to like see it in one place and go this is what I've written this is what I think like this is me you know and I I have like this phobia with my phone like I have so many apps and all these like fucking

random little um loose ends everywhere that are just always like they're just annoying and I just hate having that was I don't know I just like needed to clean it up and does anyone else just like hate how many fucking pictures they have on their phone they don't delete and like I just see my camera roll sometimes and I'm like oh my god I'm like OCD like there's so much random shit here i just need to i need to delete like half of it anyways um that's my inner minimalist millennial who's like it's got to be minimal and curated and you can't have clutter and um all right happy friday i don't know why did i do this episode like this um hit that subscribe button i'll be here tomorrow i'll be here all week dude i do this every day

I'm starting to think back to the beginning of what Whitney Cummings said and I should I got it no but then I go well what did Tim say fucking bet on yourself bitch like I know that sounds crazy I do it every day I'm betting on myself I love this this is my passion I'm gonna do it every day and I'm gonna own that choice stand in my truth and fucking do it and not be insecure about the fact I'm a woman and I'm talking this much. And, uh, yeah, so I'll, uh, fucking meditate over that, uh, with another shot of espresso and, uh, I can send it this weekend and keep going. I'm not going to stop. I'm not going to stop. Happy Friday. Uh, hit that subscribe button. Leave me a review. Let me know how you like the show on the Apple

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