The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 162- Saturdaycast: Q&A #18

Episode Date: February 14, 2021

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What's up guys? Happy Saturday. It's episode 162. This is Q&A number 18. Welcome back to the show! It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. Hi. Happy Saturday. Let's do a Q&A. First off, please hit that subscribe button. I'm here seven days a week. This is my audio diary. I sit down on the microphone every day, talk it out, talk about whatever comes to mind. It's a lot of fun. So hit that subscribe button. And I don't know, let's get into it. I have a few things to get off my chest before I answer your questions you asked me on Instagram. First off, I want to comment on like the level of grime in the level of grime in my apartment. Now that I have a dog, um, I'm not, I'm a, I'm a clean freak a little bit, but I'm not used to

this layer. This it's like a new layer of a combination of shit, piss, uh, fur. Uh, and then if I like vacuum anything his little paws will have like flecks of dirt and shit in them from going outside and that'll just appear again immediately after I vacuum so there's little speckles all over my floor at all times anyways I just feel like I'm I need to like learn how to be a clean person and like clean it up all the time because I feel like I don't I need to literally deep clean every day now that I have a dog and I've been he's in a he's an apartment dog so let me know do you have a dog do you have an apartment dog as well do you live in the city like how do you keep up with the cleaning I guess the short answer is Jacqueline

just fucking clean up after him it's not that big of a deal like you don't need to make this rocket science but I don't know I wasn't used like before I had a dog I was it was like clean all the time and now it's like every two seconds there's new little speckles of dirt and I don't know. Um, anyways, that's probably not, I hope. Okay. Fucking it's the afternoon. I'm over caffeinated on a Saturday. It's V-Day weekend. What are you guys doing tonight? Are you having a sexy Saturday like me? Anyways. Um, okay. So yeah, I'm over caffeinated. It's the afternoon. I'm off topic. I feel like a Sim. So, you know, like the Sims game. Yeah. Um, having a puppy is making me realize that, uh, it's, I am a little bit like I guys, I haven't talked to you guys

about this at all, but I'm saying shit like boopity scoopity, boopity scoopity to my dog. I'm saying fucking, like, Leo, Pluridon, fucking, like, you know how fucking sims talk? It doesn't make any sense. Yeah, and I know it's like, I know people talk to their dogs with, like, the mushy voice and the cute voice. And I'm speaking sim to my dog. And I'm freaking out. I don't know. Like, what is, what's happening?

I just, and also I've had these really weird thoughts whenever I look at him. like he's a robot or he's not a or he's like he's a person um like I can't even like let me try to wrap my head around what I'm thinking when I when I say this um oh god I'm rubbing my eyes it feels so good do you guys know how bad it is to rub your eyes though like do not like the beauty gurus would not recommend what I'm doing right now for wrinkles and uh for wrinkle prevention but it feels so good to rub your eyes. This is why I don't like wearing makeup. Oh, that's like a fucking, okay. I just need to do that. A little break in the, in the dog talk. Um, but yeah, sometimes I look at him and I'm like, you're a person like you're cause I look in his eyes and I'm like,

are you, you're, are you re are you, have you been reincarnated? Are you a reincarnated person? Are you my old dog reincarnated? I don't know. So yeah, I have these weird thoughts when I look him I also have thoughts that are um like dark thoughts when I look at him too like this is so random but I will literally look at my puppy and be like I'll be okay I can't even say it I'll think he's ugly like I'll have a random like what are those what are they called intrusive thoughts when you think something fucked up and you're just like why did I think that I'll be I'll look at him and be like you're fucking ugly in my brain. And I'm like, why am I thinking that? And then guys, this is

the biggest, um, thing I need to reveal to you about adopting a puppy, having a, um, a thing to take care of now, a thing, a fucking other life to take care of is I'm like questioning, questioning my bond and my love to him all the time. Like he'll be laying on my chest. we'll be heart to heart he'll be cuddling and I'm like do I love him is this am I am I trying to love him is this fake is this am I am I like am I am I doing like am I okay this makes me sound like a fucking sociopath with like no like that's um has zero empathy or emotions or compassion like sociopaths like they act out how they think they should be and it's not like a genuine emotion like literally though that's how I fucking feel sometimes with my puppy I'm like oh I'm supposed

to be cuddling you and feeling this warmth and love but I'm like questioning if it's real or if I'm trying to do it on purpose and I think you know what that is here's what I'll say because that sounds extremely fucked up, but, um, I think it's because I'm not used to having something love me so unconditionally. And I feel like I'm undeserving or some shit. And I like, can't, um, I can't just accept it and feel it a hundred percent right now. I'm like having to slowly adjust to it. And it's, that's kind of, that's sad actually. But, um, anyways, I need to get to the Q&A. So one of the questions I want to answer, it's not even a question. It was a DM I got about my relationship episode I did on a whim. I had no

notes or anything pre-thought out before I recorded. And I think it was Monday's episode about my ideal relationship. And I want to talk about that. I have some things to, uh not necessarily correct but just spell out because someone dm'd me about it he's like uh and this is this is just a normal guy like someone I respect just like a normal dude uh he had some thoughts about it and I was like oh fuck I think I that episode was kind of a train wreck and I basically there's no such thing as an ideal relationship or a perfect relationship and um obviously like I know that but I was I made that episode because or the the gist of what I was saying was about um the style of relationship I want to be and not necessarily what I'm looking

for like in a person and their qualities and everything it's more like uh I don't know um I I think the biggest takeaway from that I said the thing I want to to just reiterate right now is that like I don't and I don't want to live someone else's life all of a sudden and lose myself because I've done that in the past like whenever I'm interested in a guy I will like or date a guy I will take on all of their hobbies and interests and I'll like I'll fucking ditch mine I'll like go oh they like this so I like this now oh they do these activities I do these activities now whatever it is and I'll just completely change and lose myself and so all I was saying that episode is I want to maintain my shit what I've got going on in my life and my

independence and then they do the same and then we have like a mutual respect for like you know what I mean like I like this is what I need someone to do I need someone to be like oh I see you got this going on this going on I want you to focus on that and be and like keep going with your life and your hobbies and your career and your friends and all that shit and um like that's it's like important for me as a boyfriend or a partner to like see you grow in your own life and not like you know I I think they need to have some sort of awareness that if they're constantly whisking me away to their shit all the time and involving me in all their activities and hobbies and friends and like

Like, there needs to be a balance about it and a give and take. And in the past, like I said, I would literally just, like, ditch my life and go fucking live theirs. And it was, like, a people-pleasing phase of mine as well. Like, I was totally all about, like, I just want people to like me and accept me, so I'll do anything. And the more I can, like, change my ways to be more like them and do their things, then they'll keep me around. And I think it's sexier and more attractive if you're a woman who's got your own shit going on and you, you know, can keep that going no matter who you're dating or whatever. And I feel like your partner should support that and they should respect that and want that for you as well. Because it's all about, like, two awesome people doing their shit coming together and it's even better.

All right. So, anyways, that wasn't a question, but let's get into the first question. Oh, God. am I out of breath do I have COVID I don't know what's happening I need to drink more coffee though because clearly is my voice raspy today you guys kind of asked me valentine's questions like dating questions and I'm just like slightly slightly uncomfortable but slightly excited I don't know oh let's go here um okay my sister asked me who's the best sister in the world obviously my sister she changed my life

last summer I told you guys shout out Julia she keeps me straight she called me out of my bullshit she's like Jacqueline you are a mess figure your shit out you need help and I fucking did it because of her and I didn't know like I think it takes a family member to have a fucking sit down talk with you to say like what they like they call you out for you to really change because it's something I already knew about myself but it finally like it took her saying that for me to really change my ways and uh shout out Julia for uh being the best sister in the world to answer your question you are the best sister um oh my god let me let's see that booty just go to my Instagram. Um, I don't know. Like I, I want to flip flop around cause I, I'm avoiding this

question. Do you have a Valentine? Um, do I have a Valentine? Um, can I be annoying? Can I just be annoying on purpose and not answer that and be like, maybe, maybe not. Um, this there's a follow up question to this. Someone asked me something similar. Let me find it. Let me scroll down here. do you secretly have a boyfriend and hide it on social media? So someone asked me, do you have a Valentine? I'm like, I don't know. I'm going to be like that. And then someone's like, do you secretly have a boyfriend and hide it on social media? Um, I'm not sure what gives you that impression necessarily. Like, I don't know, but, um, I just want to say this about relationships and social media and my thoughts about it. Like I, if I ever, like if I'm ever

in a relationship like I'm gonna keep that private I like the idea of um like having something amazing with someone and it's just for us and I'm not having to like validate the relationship constantly by posting them on social media and and like you know having and needing them to do the same like I don't give a fuck if you never post me on Instagram I don't value that I don't think there's it doesn't mean anything to me I'm not waiting for I'm not going to be like oh my gosh he never posts me so he must not like me or whatever like I genuinely don't think or personally I don't want and and I did it in the past like I think my ex is still on my Instagram like way down I don't know um I never delete I like barely delete pictures but um it's something that should

just feel natural it shouldn't feel forced or like I'm purposely posting them to show that I'm dating someone and that I'm taken and that I need them to do the same to me and like I literally don't give a fuck I don't think personally relationships should be uh public and like all over social media do what you want like personally I don't want to do that so um I think if I do if I so to answer your question um I may or may not and that's just what it is so you'll never know because I probably won't be posting them okay so um and I feel like that's a conversation to have too like you know if you're the type of girl who dates someone and is like always they might not be comfortable with that they might feel um annoyed by it or just like

what's the point of this why are you doing that what's your motive I mean I think it's common that I feel like girls are more into posting their boyfriends than guys are posting their girlfriends which kind of is probably probably probably probably probably I'm I'm fucking insane uh it's probably because they're they want to look single so they can keep their options open and people hit them up still and no one will know and you know what I I suspect that with some guys but um who the fuck cares like do at the end of the day it's a bit it's just like the whole posting your boyfriend on social media thing it seems like a big uh it's kind of like a game or kind of like an immature thing like we're not six years old we don't I don't know okay so

did I even answer that question do you secretly have a boyfriend hide on social media um I think my answer was I'm gonna keep my shit private and you guys will never know so yeah I like having that like fucking James Bond shit relationship like I want to be like a Bond girl and I'm dating James Bond and nobody knows about us but we only we know that's fucking hot if that doesn't turn you on and make you excited to have like a boyfriend like that is so sexy to have a guy like okay Jimmy just killed the vibe and chewed my microphone cord so that just stopped recording like it glitched it so whatever um I don't know it's just like I said it's got to be some sort of like mutual thing you guys are on the same page about because social media is a reality

we're all on it we're all looking at it all day like I think that should be like a conversation to have and uh whatever um next question favorite thing from Trader Joe's um okay I did a whole episode a few days ago about like the new items at Trader Joe's so I don't know maybe that was their inspo for this question because they know I shop there but why do I care um okay my favorite thing or the thing I buy the most at Trader Joe's like I will buy the buy the store out of this product um I I don't know what it is about their frozen broccoli florets but I fucking buy that freezer section out bitch I fucking buy that I'm a slut for broccoli I love a good cruciferous vegetable I like a frozen cruciferous vegetable it's very convenient

I eat broccoli every day so I know that's like annoying because it's like a health food it's like a health product but I don't personally like I love Trader Joe's frozen broccoli and uh here's like a fun food for you guys this might be more this might be more like this this answer is probably what you were looking for something more exciting like what product from Trader Joe's is like a fun exciting product and I personally uh I'm a big fan of their their beef hot dogs yeah their grass-fed beef hot dogs are also go-to I buy them every now and then I don't know I like a hot dog I like a really burnt hot dog on a cast iron like once a month so there's that I mean obviously they've got the fucking cookie butter and all that shit but you know me I give a fuck

about what I look like. And lately it's about, it's about, uh, uh, it's all about feeling good and looking good. And, uh, I'm avoiding that shit at all costs. Those peanut butter cups. I love those fucking, um, what's it called? Cookie butter. I don't even buy that. I usually just buy like their fucking almond butter, which is really good. Um, oh, they're Jojo's which are like Oreos they're rosemary popcorn fucks I do I do like that it's the bag um I think it's a lime the lime green bag the rosemary popcorn uh that's a serving size of one when I buy it so um dude popcorn is literally so good like okay let's all sit down and think about popcorn right now like okay you know the most okay the indication that okay okay okay if you ever

eat popcorn with someone who eats it one at a time run for your life like fucking run like that is a psychotic person that is a serial killer that is a murderer what the fuck if you're not fucking scooping the popcorn in your hand where there's so much you can it's like falling off the side and you're shoving it in by the handful i can't be friends with you i can't talk to you i can't hang out with you like i is this like not is this not sexy i don't give a fuck like i eat popcorn by it's a lot it's a lot of uh hand to face shove it in and then it's a six-hour scavenger hunt after the fact because i gotta find that fucking kernel stuck in my teeth so it's like a it's like a fun snack

and a scavenger hunt popcorn's the best and it's always like that um you get your thumb on the side of your molar you're just like scraping around like where the where the fuck is that little kernel like this you know how the popcorn's got the kernel piece that gets stuck in your teeth do I even have to explain this we've all experienced it it's a scavenger hunt it's fun it's fun so anyways um yeah the rosemary popcorn fucks I like it a lot um next question um would you do long distance again I don't know why they know that or I guess have I ever talked about that I mean maybe yeah I guess yeah I've talked about my long distance relationship my continental relationship or intercontinental fucking European relationship um

you know what no um I think here's what I'm into just my logical brain thinks or would want to have like a casual friendship thing going on where we're you know like maybe eventually we'll date someday when we can be closer together but um it's not like I don't know I just feel like I'd rather I'd rather not put the like put pressure on keeping a relationship going while you're far apart and just kind of know that maybe it's a later thing not a now thing I don't know long distance sucks like there's obviously it's kind of nice like when I was in a long long distance relationship it was kind of nice because I could you know do my own thing all the

time and I didn't have to tend to someone else like you weren't hanging out all the time which honestly like that fucking sucks like the whole point of dating someone is you're like together a lot and you can always hang out and be with each other so I think I'm at the point where I did that thing and I just like logically think it's I just I don't want to do it I'd rather just like wait it out and until they can be closer until we can be closer if it's meant to be if it's like a good fit or whatever the fuck um does that answer I said no I mean it's like not a hard know who knows I feel like whatever it's most likely a or yeah I don't know that's my feeling right now um what's your favorite flower it's like they knew valentine's weekend was valentine's day

it's not like I asked it's not like I asked you guys to ask me valentine's day questions but um I personally love white roses I like white roses I like roses that's if you had to ask me like what's my favorite flower I'd say roses um love white I love pink roses I like red roses but I like red roses like on the it's like the occasion is a really hot date like I think it should be saved for a really like a it shouldn't be I don't need red rose see I like okay if you're dating me or whatever and you get me flowers like I'm into you know cutesy little flowers sometimes like you can get me like a fucking daisy or whatever um but then if you buy me roses I love the white roses and the pink like those kind and then if it's like a sexy time thing red roses and

that's more I feel like it just needs to be saved for those occasions those special special occasions but um I really like orchids because they're fucking crazy looking and they kind of confuse me like I don't understand orchids it's like one little flower on a stem that looks like a swan or some shit like I can't even describe it but they're they're very they're really cool and I like them um I like orchids in the bathroom I feel like I always have orchids just like um I don't know they're kind of like fun to take care of too because sometimes they I don't know whatever so I'd say like white roses and orchids um are you team Alex or team Sophia next question oh god this is like fucking team Edward team Jacob shit why do I have to pick a team

if you're like who's Alex who's Sophia they're the call her daddy former well they used to have a show together call her daddy and now Alex has call her daddy and Sophia has her own podcast called Sophia with an F and uh I mean look I respect and admire anyone who's hustling in the podcast world like myself who's doing it you know who's uh willing to put themselves out there get on a microphone and talk it out. Like, I think it's cool. Like I'm a big supporter of other, um, podcast hosts, especially female podcast hosts. I think it's awesome. Um, I like them both. I think, uh, personally I do question this about, um, and here's, here's why I feel like I'm drawn more to, to Sophia than I'm drawn to Alex just currently. Um, if you had to ask me to go

team Alex I'm more team Sophia and I and I feel like um with with every podcast I listen to a question I ask and you guys I'm a nerd about it I'm like a uh I'm a like I consume so I don't know it's like book nerds or movie buffs like I go like I ask questions about podcasts I was like I don't know but the what am I saying the the thing I wonder and the thing that is very obvious to me when you listen to someone is would they be doing this if there wasn't uh money involved and you can sense that from someone when they're on their show like you get this feeling that they're genuinely passionate about it and it's their love it's their their like fucking life what am I fucking saying it's their their love they love what they're doing they're

passionate about it and it's easy to sense that and I have an ear for I can tell like when someone's in it for um and any you can see that now a lot with people going oh like we're supposed to have a podcast like every con like every youtuber now is like oh so the thing to do now is podcasting you know so they're on that train but it's not like a like can't live without it oh my god I'm obsessed with my the mic and talking and having conversations and I like it doesn't come across like that it kind of just comes across like oh this is hot right now I want to jump on the train and I see that a lot so the question I'm asking or the going back to Sophia and Alex is I don't I get the sense Sophia would do it um regardless of money because she basically just hangs out

with her friends and just like sits in her fucking like closet or whatever and does it and it's more of like a casual thing and I think her conversations are more like random and funny and interesting and I don't know um and then you know it's I think Alex is in an awesome position with Barstool and she's got all the merch and the huge uh following and the the celebrity interviews and all that stuff and I think that that's an exciting thing for her right now and there's a lot of money involved and I wonder um it's I think it's easier because of that to go well if you took all that a way would alex be just doing it for fun and all the time and just like i don't know casually just like i'm a podcast host i love doing this you know or would she be chasing the bag would

she be constantly like seeking that i don't know and why do i care i don't care i'm just saying um i'm i think i sense that i just enjoy sophia's podcast more i guess that's to answer your question. I'm, uh, yeah, I think I'm a little bit maxed out of the caller daddy content. I don't know. That's all I have to say. Um, anyways, uh, what's your favorite yoga pose to answer this question? Okay. Um, sorry. I'm like, Oh, let's change the subject. I don't know. I don't like to talk shit or be negative or like, I feel kind of bad what I just said, but that's just being honest um whatever i like i said in the beginning i'm a big supporter of anyone who is a content creator puts themselves out there i think it's awesome so anyways

jocelyn that's stupid of course you should look at everything as a business and you should make and everything should be about like personal growth and development and your personal brand and making money so that you have a financial security for your future so you can retire and so it's good to like think of okay this is what I want to say to that uh excuse my man voice or whatever that was I think your passion doesn't necessarily need to become a source of income and I think a lot of people combine that too early or they they don't ask that question themselves Like, when this turns into the way I make money, like, will the feeling change? Will the, you know, I feel like everything changes.

As soon as you do something because of money, like, especially a passion, a hobby, it changes it. It does. That's just what happens. You can't, it's, and then, I don't know. I think it's awesome. Like, I could, I should just say this because it's from personal experience. doing like doing the podcast and just being passionate about it and it's my hobby and I love this and having zero desire for money grabs and growth and bigger bigger audiences and top

charts and all that it makes it feel like it just feels good it feels it doesn't feel gross it doesn't feel um like unnatural like that the second you're like I don't know because I don't know it's like if you're a painter and you love painting it's not like you need to start selling art you know if you like photography it's not like you need to hit people up and take photos of them and for money you know like whatever happened to doing a hobby for fun and not turning it into a money grab, you know? And I think I go, I always go back to fulfillment and I think the, the doing it for the love of it is so fulfilling and money changes things. It just, it just does. So that's something to think about. If you haven't thought about that, there you go.

Um, my favorite yoga pose. Let's answer this question after I sip more coffee because I clearly I don't know I'm getting that afternoon slump I feel like the coffee's doing the the reverse effects right now I should just chug it chug it who's annoyed by me talking about coffee and being caffeinated I don't give I don't know okay just the microphone so I like the poses I enjoy the most are polar opposites of each other so I like I don't know the I don't know any of the yogi like language the in I don't know what like the I know like chaturanga chaturanga like I don't know the one I like is called the slang term is called celibacy pose celibacy pose so that I like that one a lot as far as like

how I feel when I do it I love celibacy pose and I love froggy frog they're opposite so celibacy pose is literally like you are crossing your legs as tightly as possible it's hard to explain it like you sit on one leg or you're like in a sitting position and you're kind of like putting your knees so you like cross your knees or cross your legs over each other like think about when you're sitting in a chair and you cross your legs like a chick not like a dude where you get the legs like flat like you're crossing your you're like putting your one leg over the other so you're basically doing that in a sitting position obviously on the ground and um you tuck your ankles to your hips so like they're tight as fuck it's hard to explain and then what you do this is

what I love about it you like lean forward or you can stick your um you can do a twist which feels amazing and you can like stick one hand behind you and twist um you can do eagle arms and lean forward and just sit there and your hips like the release you feel on your outer hips is so amazing and like it's one of those poses where you're like I did not understand that I had this much tension in my body like what the fuck I had like this is what I love about yoga you unlock like areas in your body you never knew of before and like knew you had tightness in or whatever and it's I I'm still learning so many poses and every time I do a class I'm like oh you know the instructor will pepper in something new and I'm like oh my god I'm obsessed but um there's

that one there's celibacy pose and then the opposite of that would be froggy and I do this every night. It's literally, you kind of look like a frog. You've got your, um, you like think about how do I explain it? You're basically straddling the ground with like, you're in a kneeling position and then you put your knees out as wide as they can go. And then you're leaning forward. You're basically stretching out your inner thigh, if that makes sense. Um, so it's like the opposite. Instead of going closed, you're opening. And I could just sit in that for, I honestly do that. I don't care like how tight your hips are. It doesn't matter. I started doing this before bed, probably like three years ago when I got into yoga, I will sit. So my, like the last

thing I do a lot of the times before bed is I will sit in froggy. I have like an Ottoman. It's the perfect width for it. I'll sit there and just be in it for 15 minutes and I'll be like on social media scrolling or whatever. Like I'll just be on my phone or I'll be watching TV and you sleep so good because after you get out of it, you have this like blood flow, like the circulation. It's like your hips are really loosened up and like your, um, the tightness is going away. I don't know you kind of like sink into your bed in this amazing way so yeah i really like um froggy and then of course i love pigeon um there's so many poses i like but anyways let's go to the next question um how are you guys doing how's your saturday do you have a fucking valentine am i

gonna do Sunday's episode like the big reveal or should I just like keep teasing it I don't fucking care um I just like being like that you know what like I said earlier I'm fucking I like that I like that privacy thing I think that's in a world where people are sharing all their information, posting everything on social media. I think it is so sexy to not share it. And so hot if you and your partner are like, nobody's going to know about us. We're going to, we're going to fucking take over this world and we're going to take, we're going to take over it and no one's going to know. That's fucking hot. And you know what? I can't wait for that day. Someone just, you know, I'm accepting resumes, slide in my DMs, let me know. Okay. Next question. Sorry.

I'm, like, fucking all over the place on my Instagram. Okay, I think this is a word in German. Part German, by the way. Fun fact. N-E-R-E-L-I-S-N-I-Z. What does this mean? They asked us, where are you from? Oh!

Turkish. How do I hear it? Wait, let me do that. What the fuck? Neeralysen. Neeralysen. Neeralysen. Neeralysen. Neeralysen. It means where are you from? I'm from Mount Vernon, Washington. Born and raised. Yeah, that's it. All right, next question. and I live in San Diego now. All right. Um, I'm just going to end this. This is good. I feel like I just want to keep this. I don't know. I'm going to answer this question. The last one is what do you, um, I don't know. I don't want to like drag this episode on. What do you usually eat that makes you so pretty? I'm uncomfortable by this question, um, for many reasons. So what do I eat

that makes me so pretty um like I just put I just uh what's it called I just put in my order on Amazon for my groceries guys you know I was like oh I'm gonna go to the grocery store this weekend I'm gonna get out and go to the store I fucking ordered my shit on Amazon again it's so easy and I get the same stuff every week so I could literally sit here and list off everything I order food wise I think I did this the other day though I did here's why I'm uncomfortable with it the question is about like what do you eat that makes you so pretty I do believe you are what you eat I do believe in eating obviously like whole foods fruits vegetables um you know clean foods like the quote-unquote like you know if it wasn't created by God and planted in a field or fucking

grown or like what is it called like if it's not from the earth probably don't eat it you know but um I'd say like I lean more towards that style of eating and I go after like that type of shit most days and then like of course I eat like I eat garbage food sometimes you know um here's why this question is uncomfortable for me to answer I under I have been in the past super influenced and sucked into other people's diets and lifestyles to the point where it became unhealthy and it became like an it became like a religion to me like when I was vegan I was literally watching vegans on YouTube like show what they eat every day and then I was basically copying it and then I was like oh veganism is the way the truth of light don't

eat meat and then i was sucked into it and it fucked up my relationship with food for a long time like i didn't because then then i was sucked into like the fucking like rogan shit like hunt for your meat eat a ton of meat and then you know all the paleo dudes and the fucking on it people like promoting human optimization with duck fat and fucking, uh, you know, liver, eat liver and Ben Greenfield eat fucking bone broth and shit. And so then I got sucked into that, which personally is, I lean more towards the latter. I lean more towards, uh, a lot of animal protein sources and vegetables and fruits and nuts and seeds, like more of a paleo, like a caveman quote unquote diet whatever the fuck that that is um now that's I feel the best

when I eat that way when I'm like but um I think for a while like and here's what I'm saying I I don't want to tell everyone oh I just did fuck me okay I basically just said what I what I eat I just don't want to sit here and be like when I wake up I do I do this and then at 8 8 a.m I eat my oatmeal and then I have my and then I have my green juice at noon and then I if I can have a salad and a salmon and then I put this olive oil on it. You know, like if I go into details, I don't want to, I feel like that's, it's just not helpful. Do what works for you. That's what I want to say. Whatever diet works for you, do that and always tune into how you feel and go back to that because, um, I think how you feel and then how your food makes you look, because

obviously food fucks up the way you look if you eat shitty you will look like shit um go and tune into that and yeah it's not that serious too like that's why i i get the fuck off of people's social media that is like their their their fucking brand is their diet it's just like what like they're they chose a life path that's like hi my name is in my name's Susan and I'm interesting because this is this this is the routine I do every day with my food and this is how I eat and it's like a weird and when I say it's not that serious I'm like look it's pretty fucking obvious what's healthy and what's not you know what I mean like you obviously have access to all the information you could ever want or need on the internet about how to live a healthy

lifestyle and make healthy dietary choices and it's like just do that don't over complicate it don't overthink it um yeah I don't know and like I said just listen to yourself like go and go to your intuition and how you feel and yeah you uh will be a great success did I mention this about like one in three women having an eating disorder and that's why I'm like um or like fuck I feel like every woman I know has a fucked up relationship with food it's just like part of the it's like part of the gig you're a woman and you're you're here for your your appearance no yeah kind of uh aesthetics are important to us and I think there is a time in every woman's life where they realize for me it was like high school when I realized that

like I can't eat pizza at lunch every day or I will, I will have a double chin, you know, like it, I understand. So like my body started changing and then I was like, oh, okay. So now I just enjoy myself on occasion instead of like when I was a fucking 12 year old who could eat anything, you know? And that's just, um, and then it's like in return, I feel amazing and I look good so to answer your question uh bitch I eat vegetables I told you all about my Trader Joe's broccoli I eat so many fucking vegetables and and uh um like good hearty foods I love it um I I love dill I put dill on everything fresh dill I put yeah I like I love herbs I don't know if herbs make you good looking but I eat a lot of herbs I do like spirulina drinks a lot of

like green stuff uh I feel like greens make you beautiful anything like like anything green makes you pretty so eat greens um I don't know so that's the answer to the question I just you know I'll just say it because I feel like it's just kind of like maybe obvious at this point because I'm struggling to answer this question about eating and food um I've never told you guys this so here you go big reveal end of the episode I have been diagnosed with an eating disorder in the past and I have struggled with food for a long fucking time and I don't want to make my podcast and like what I put out there all about that but um it's definitely in the fucking past thank god I'm like so chill now about everything regarding diet and food and all that stuff like

it was something in the past I like I don't know and did I say this like one in three women yeah like I think one in three women have been diagnosed or they have an issue with food and so like I don't know I just want to be sensitive to that and not be so specific about what I eat and shit but I kind of did that anyways um oh shit you know and here's the thing about diagnoses you know any diagnoses diagnosis you get it's not something you have to put on your back and strap on like a backpack every day and say I've been diagnosed with this and this is part of me now like I think a lot of people go to social media to like talk about their diagnosis and their problems and they like create this unnecessary thing I feel like it just will

keep manifesting it'll keep it around if you're constantly talking about it constantly bringing up the past and how you struggle with this thing and for me it's like dude that bitch is dead she's in the past like she was brunette like she's not it you know um and I don't associate that diagnosis that eating disorder shit with who I am anymore it's just like I'm so casual about food now that's why I'm like dude just work eat what works for eat whatever works for you listen to your intuition like you know so I don't know I don't I think my advice to people out there struggling with their food and body image stuff is just like, I don't know how to give advice on it. Just if you keep, if you, whatever you think about will become your reality. Right. So just

try not to think about it like easier said than done. Cause you have to like face food every single day. Like you have to eat to stay alive. So I don't know. It's like a really hard thing to help people with. And I understand why people like go for so long struggling. Cause it's like hard to it's hard to knock but I just had this fucking epiphany that was like okay so just don't have these negative body thoughts and and negative self-talk about um you know food and and how you look and shit and then just like that's the cure and then I just didn't do that and then now I'm just like hey let's fucking I don't know who cares like I said it's not that serious it's literally just fucking like nourishment food and yeah I kind of want to

take a breather and step away from this episode and then uh re-listen to that segment and then sit and decide and spiral about did I want to actually reveal that is it really a big deal am I uncomfortable saying that on this Q&A on a fucking Saturday afternoon on Valentine's Day where I want to be injected and hooked up to a IV of chocolate sauce. Like it's, I want to be drenched in fucking Hershey's syrup and I want whipped cream all over my body and fucking all of the sugar and candy. What am I saying? That's disgusting. Um, you know, like was that a buzzkill for Valentine's day weekend? Cause this is like the cupcake weekend. This is the fucking chocolates and hearts and roses and shit weekend so I don't know whatever I think that's

what this podcast let's just end the episode with a a lesson or a thing I learned um being vulnerable is not easy necessarily but being vulnerable and honest and your most authentic self and I guess like saying your truths and and you're the hardest or like the parts of you that maybe you've hidden or haven't addressed or talked to people about in the past I don't know you feel kind of like fuck it who cares like it's not that big of a deal and then yeah I don't know I just feel I don't know um also answering questions like the learning the learning lesson about answering questions is I don't know people are curious we're all like this is what's wild about being a host now and having a show seven days a week is

this shit never like literally never ends but people are curious about the most like random minuscule thing like the most basic shit basic things about you and um I don't know it's kind of wild like I'm not changing the world with my show I'm not building a rocket going to Mars I'm not like curing cancer I'm not doing any of that but someone out there wanted to know some shit about Trader Joe's and what I like to buy and I told them and maybe when they listen to this episode they'll be like oh that's cool she said that now I know a little bit more about her now I'm like I feel more like her friend and like that's fun I love listening to other people talk about boring basic life details you know that's what's wild to

me about uh that's what's wild to me um I think I just put myself in other people's shoes and I go I like following people that share all their shit and talk about everything and even if it's random even if it's like I like this brand of fucking toilet paper my microphone keeps glitching I think it's because Jimmy chewed a hole in it in the cord um I like when people go to the internet and they're like I like this brand of toilet paper because when I wipe my ass this this like uh cloth works but like whatever the fuck or like I like um or like here's how I put my hair in a on, you know, or whatever the fuck. Um, we just like to be entertained. I think people like they're nosy. They like details. They're curious. We're yeah. And I don't know. And I think it's

like entertaining to hear someone talk about their, their, uh, someone talk, someone else talk about their life it's like entertaining because we feel like we can relate to them in some way or we feel like we're every time we tune in we're learning more and more and it's interesting and it's like you know I don't know I'm trying to think of myself like I just feel drawn to certain people that I follow and it's probably it's usually the people that are uh just like not that complicated they're just telling me their most simple shit okay i don't know this episode's kind of like i really okay it's at the point now without noise where i feel annoying when i do it it's like

like the guy i was talking about earlier who was uh saying he was dming me about my ideal relationship episode he's like here's what I said I'll just bring you into that conversation I was like it's wild to me that mostly guys listen to my show like normal dudes like fucking like not to use like the uh slang terms and the stereotypes but like fucking macho masculine dudes listen to me and they're the ones DMing me hey Jacqueline great episode the other day I really enjoy this part or hey uh I always look forward to your new your new episodes or like whatever the fuck so what am I saying I like I said it's wild to me that like that's my demographic or that's the audience right now and he's like well uh you don't really

talk about girly basic stuff like like typical influencer girl stuff and you make a lot of weird noises and so I think that's why and I'm like do guys like the shit like do you guys like that I guess you do. But anyways, I'm at the point now where it comes out on the show and I'll like squeak. And then I'm like, oh, I'm being annoying. And then I get insecure about that. I'm like, I don't know. I feel like a fucking mess today. It's, you know what, here's what I said earlier. It's the afternoon, afternoon, Saturday slump. Um, I definitely need to take a nap. Um, i may or may not have a wild saturday night ahead of me um you guys are probably gonna be pissed off or okay what did i say if i'm ever dating someone

you will never know i i just want to maintain that mystery i'm a fucking bond girl i'm a mysterious woman do you know what if I could choose so whatever so I want so if I could be anyone in this world or like from any movie universe like if I could pick anything I would want to be Jason Bourne with a vagina I would want to be a girl like girl Jason Bourne I want to live that life I want to be I don't know there's something about it like he's just like a like a you know like he's obviously okay what am I why is that weird or is that okay fucking why do I want that I don't I just like having this I share it all right but I also want to be mysterious like I don't know how that works in my brain but should I tell you guys a story

about what I told my best friend in fourth grade and what she had she believed for multiple years about my family being spies um guys I literally am obsessed with spies have I ever told you guys I'm obsessed with spies anything like my favorite thing to buy at the school it was the scholastic book fair where the spy kits the fucking like tools the spy kit tools a little like I don't even know like the what are what even oh my god I have to look it up on google I just like mysterious shit and uh okay fucking scholastic book fair episodes dragging on book fair spy kid yeah what came in this yeah secret spy literally i watched spy kids i think it was like fourth grade or third grade i watched spy kids i'll never forget saying this to my friend

and she was like my best friend for literally throughout college and like yeah i watched spy kids for the first time and got so sucked in where i was like i am a spy i am gonna be just like carmen i am a spy i would go to the scholastic book fair and buy the spy kit and look in here what do they have in it it's got like um ultimate spy there's like a code thing includes five essential tools glass special glasses like a headphone thing you can probably like listen to conversations like a weird pen anyways I'm sitting in the library with her I think this was third grade we're all on the carpet watching the librarian read us a book and she's like showing us you know how librarians would

hold up the book and like flip the pages and you know it like they how do I say this they like hold the book up and like read it to you and like show you the pictures as they're reading it yeah so the librarian was doing that and I'm sitting there I'm wearing blue Skechers and I'm fucking around with the laces and my best friend's sitting to my right or to my left I remember this so well and I'm on that carpet we're sitting like crisscross applesauce and fucking with the laces and I sit and I look at her and I go guys holy fuck I literally look at her and I'm like this is so embarrassing I'm like I'm a spy I'm a spy and I just said that and she like believed it like you know how like when you're

a kid you believe like I don't know she just fucking looked at me like oh my god no way and I had her this is like a psychotic thing this does this okay someone out there some like therapist type psycho psychologist like what does it mean when I carried on a lie for like three years with my best friend I forget when she stopped believing it or when I told her like that was all bullshit um but it was kind of like fun because I would like when we'd hang out I would tell her all this stuff about my family and the spy shit we would do and then when we hung out I would do like spy activities with her pretend I was a spy and you know of course like there's spy kids two spy kids three and I was obsessed with spy kids and the fucking whole

series and I just had it I just believed I was a spy so that's a big reveal there's a second that's another thing I might walk away from this episode and go why did I say that I'm embarrassed that was uh stupid of me like I don't know but yeah anyways back to the Jason Bourne thing like i think that's such a badass i fuck what am i saying about being a female jason bourne i don't know you're just like just a badass i just think that's all it's like okay fucking laura croft okay i'll be like laura croft there's a more sexy uh thing to say like yeah i'd want to be like laura croft tomb raider fucking that kind of chick with the holsters on her thighs and the big ponytail braid you know dude mr and mr and mrs smith is such a good movie

aren't they divorced now angelina and brad i think so anyways i'm obsessed with angelina jolie and like her fucking face is so gorgeous and what the fuck um yeah i had my friend convinced and we'd like go to recess and i'd like sit there's the tires we had these planners like adult planners like leather bound planners and we would like write spy stuff in them I don't even know what we were writing I would write like addresses and like fucking random numbers and shit and I'd like we'd like sit there in the tires and play with our leather planners and they were our little like spy books I was a weird ass kid I was also a horse girl so there's that side of me as an as a young kid um yeah horse girl spy kid fucking

I don't know I don't know this is the Q&A that just took a turn to random ass memories but um I'm trying to divert from what I revealed earlier about fucking diagnoses and shit but um I just had to call it out on myself and just say like isn't it obvious I'm uncomfortable by this question like what do you eat that makes you so pretty because I'm literally like um I eat a certain way to be pretty and I can't just eat whatever the fuck I want because in order to be pretty you can't eat with whatever the fuck you want and that's a struggle for me personally it always has been and at one point it was a very deep dark struggle and uh yeah so anyways I said it I'm gonna post this and just say fuck it I don't care I'm a big kid I'm grown up I can handle

my shit I got layers to me man I got fucking every Saturday I'm doing a Q&A and it's wild whenever I talk it out I'm like there's so much to know like my life story every it's just like and then I remember stuff about myself and I go whoa this is fun dude being alive is fun like we have such like this is why I should do interviews I really should and uh I it's just eventually probably gonna happen here and there I am so interested in people and their stories and like the most just like me revealing all this random shit to you today I love like figuring people out and like figuring out what makes them tick like what makes them excited like why they are the way they are I'm like I should have been I feel like I could have

been a psychologist or like gone into psychology like and therapy I don't know like it I've just like turned on by that and um I guess I don't know you know and here's here's something to say that I'm looking forward to oh this is kind of like a valentine's day weekend my fucking uh what's it called my microphone cord is in the shape of the heart right now like I'm just like not even doing this on purpose it just like shaped itself in heart okay that's random but um I guess something I'm looking forward to in my future or present relationship god damn it because I'm being annoying about that um god damn it I just like whoever I am currently or in the future dating like I am looking forward

to and currently um god damn it I just want to like know everything you know pick them apart down to the fucking bone and just be like they're um I don't know I I think in the past the relationships I only really knew the surface and I crave something much deeper as a partner as someone like I don't know and uh yeah so that's the current mission and uh yeah all right happy Saturday Q&A number 18 coming to a close um I really squeezed it out today I always say that like on episodes where I like I'll at the end it'll just tail off somewhere like random it goes off where so far from where it started with answering your guys's questions it's like okay I answer your questions now I'm going to talk about the most random fucking shit

and that's it so thanks for hanging out happy Saturday Saturday um hit that subscribe button if you haven't already. Follow me on Instagram, Instagram, and I'm going to just say it. Follow me on Clubhouse at Club Jacqueline. I'm a nerd about, or I'm a junkie. I'm a Clubhouse junkie now. Follow me on Clubhouse and, oh, head over to patreon.com slash TJMS. Sorry, patreon.com slash tgms to get access to my bonus content that's where i post videos pictures no one else sees i do shout outs every friday on the episode you're you're in the credits of the episode i do that and uh you get phone calls i'm gonna do zoom hangouts in the future like virtual hangouts so that's patreon.com slash tgms and yeah have a great uh valentine's day weekend i will be here

tomorrow for Sunday on Valentine's Day for a very special episode. Maybe there's going to be a big reveal. Maybe not. I don't know. We'll find out. You'll find out. So yeah, stay tuned for that tomorrow. And then yeah, that's all I've got today. Love you guys. Thanks for hanging out and I will talk to you tomorrow. All right. Bye.