The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 175- Approaching The Funk

Episode Date: February 27, 2021

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Hey guys, happy Friday. It's episode 175. Welcome back to the show! hey what's up it's Jacqueline welcome back to the show hi happy friday uh hit that subscribe button i'm here seven days a week this is my audio diary today's definitely gonna feel like a diary entry episode a chill episode like yesterday i don't know i'm just like ready to fucking uh talk it out with myself and do some therapy think about shit and talk about my day so yeah i'm here seven days a week uh hit that subscribe button sorry guys it's it's been a fucking day it's been a fucking day uh and head over to patreon.com slash tjms to support the show get access to

more content of mine videos pictures and today my patrons get a shout out every friday episode they get a shout out and they also get phone calls with me it's great patreon.com slash tjms S. All right. So Jimmy, we're not going to do this. He chewed through an entire electrical cord and I thought it was connected to my ring light. Thank God it's not. It's connected to my, it's like my camera charger. So whatever. I can just probably Amazon that replace easily, but buddy, we just ran. Be tired. Don't bite cords right now. I want to tell everyone how I hate myself because I just overate peanut butter while I was mindlessly listening to or excuse me um yeah so do you guys ever overeat peanut butter and hate yourself yeah I'm there I'm

fucking there it's Friday night it's 8 45 p.m I just got done with clubhouse I was hosting a room and it's I'm just like snacking when I'm on club like clubhouse is causing me to mindlessly snack I don't know if anyone else can relate to this you're just like it's like hard to be so if you're trying to work and be productive and and have club clubhouse on while you're on stage like you're if you're a speaker you kind of have to be paying attention and you have to be actively listening you can't be on a spreadsheet or doing emails it's like it's you need to be in you need to pay attention so I'm treating it like I'm in a clubhouse I'm eating my snacks I'm at camp and so yeah I had fucking too much peanut butter and I just fucking hate myself and that's where

I'm at and it's sad like this is literally my night there are people stomping in heels outside going out to uh get drinks right now I see people like through my window um dressed up going to dinner dates going to wine girls wine nights and I'm fucking eating peanut butter uh scolding my puppy it's I'm depressed am I depressed again is this a full circle moment I'm not depressed but I'll say this like let's do the diary entry shit like I'm I feel like I'm in a funk oh no I don't want to say that I don't want to put that out there um yeah I feel like I've been in a funk lately I feel kind of uh it's what it's almost March I feel like my expectations of this year I guess I don't I didn't really have them I guess I just assumed Biden would get elected

and my life would just be I don't know like I just be like it would be back to normal or some shit and I feel like a loser because I'm not uh okay buddy at what point do I I do I have to stop this episode right now. Come on, dude. Here, get your squeaker. Get your squeaker. There you go. No courts. Courts are not okay. So, um, sorry. No, I feel like a loser because, um, a little bit because I'm not putting effort into trying to have a normal life. Like I'm just I'm just I'm uh accepting where I'm at I'm just accepting this new like work from home everything's I'm in the home all the time I'm constantly in sweats I'm constantly on zoom I'm constantly um like it's just weird and I feel like I need to get out of this rut and and really

fucking make myself get out there and go do shit because I think it's gonna put me back into a depressing hole again. And so anyways, um, that's kind of where I'm at. Am I being, I don't know. Here's the thing. I think on paper, I look like one of those people that would be like a go-getter. Okay. Wait, wait, Jesus Christ. Like I'd like to think I'm that go-getter that I'm that live life to the fullest adventure bitch who's like let's just whisk whisk around and do fun shit all the time and like meet people and blah blah and I'm like fucking not and I think it's a hard pill for me to swallow because like it's it's just not the case and I'm I feel like a loser this episode sucks because I'm being negative but did anything I just say track like what did I say I said okay

I'm on Clubhouse I ate too much peanut butter therefore I hate myself and also I feel like a loser because I'm not really putting effort into trying to have a normalcy again with my life I'm just kind of

accepting this shit and I feel like I'm in a funk and does anyone relate to this do you relate to this I have to address the audience as you like my mentors on Clubhouse if you're a podcast host talk to one person hey you do you get me am I being am I not here okay so let me oh yeah Jimmy just ran good be scared go away don't bite fucking cords so here's the

thing whenever this happens let me walk you through my process of like when I feel like I'm not on point and I need to get my shit together so guys who's bored like what the fuck sorry um look I have a good I have a great life but I think what happens is I get in patterns and I get in uh yeah I get in these cycles of patterns that aren't working and so this is me live on air live on the on the podcast with you tonight working it out and going okay what's not working what am I going to correct because I think I set out this year with good intentions and I don't want to uh slip I want to stay on I want to like keep my momentum going and I think I've I've had a little bit of a setback so I guess um do you guys do this I feel like this is a smart

thing people do they're like okay what wasn't working last week what am I working on next week so usually um there's a reason I'm in a funk let's just get to it so um I haven't been sleeping being good like I haven't been disciplined about sleep like I've said I wanted to be I haven't actually done that so you know 12 30 a.m 1 a.m 1 30 a.m I'm on clubhouse I'm on tiktok I'm just like fuck it I'll just get four hours of sleep five hours of sleep I don't like I just I don't really I'm not disciplined guys I'm not disciplined this isn't like it's like here's here's what I'm realizing that's happening and I know I mentioned how I'm kind of accepting this new lifestyle I guess or whatever but and it's getting too comfortable like

I am always at my best when I have like like a morning appointment a morning meeting where I have to like get up at six shower run out the door grab a coffee get in my car drive somewhere sit down greet people talk to people like whenever I have that kind of lifestyle I feel like I'm on I'm always at my best because I'm getting to bed on time I'm getting I'm really organized because I have to be and it's this new lifestyle I have where like I work at home I literally I could 100% live inside like I even exercise like my yoga everything's indoors obviously walking my dog is an outside thing but um it's getting weird and I need I and I want to nip it in the ass and I'm trying to, I'm trying to, um, so what I'm going to do is like walk you through what I wrote down

today because I need to create a lifestyle, like a structure of my day that resembles something from my past when I was killing it. Cause I don't, I'm not a lackadaisical, I'm not a lackadaisical, dude it's Friday night I just ate peanut butter and now I fucking I'm like okay so this is like a typical I feel like this is a girl thing too they're like I just overate let me self-correct by organizing and making a plan like it's not that dramatic it's not that deep but I feel like a piece of me has always done this like whenever I feel like gross and nasty and like right now I need to wash my face and like like wash my hair tonight I need to do like a deep clean tonight I just feel gross uh end of the work week uh yeah it's just one of those times where I'm like I just

want to like write in my journal write on my planner for next week and like feel better and like drink a green juice and like whatever I honestly I'm like lukewarm about feeling in a funk like I'm not a hundred percent in it but I know it's approaching if I continue this pattern so what am I saying um hold on I need a drink I see how my sleep's been slacking off um I haven't been exerting my body uh like I I need to sweat I need to sweat again like guys I'm obsessed with yoga like to the point where I'm working in yoga positions I'm like on my mat with my laptop all day long like constantly stretching constantly doing yoga but I feel like for my mental health and like clarity

I need to be doing what I used to do almost every fucking day like an insane uh burst of cardio in the morning whether it's like hill sprints a quick two mile jog whatever like I need to sweat hard I even have a jump rope I love jump roping so um that is a no that is a non-negotiable and one of my favorite phrases non-negotiable uh I need to sweat I'm writing this down because I forgot to write this sweat in the a.m. I'm gonna do that starting tomorrow sit with Jacqueline and plan her lifestyle even though I fucking bitch about people doing this on the internet all the time I'm basically like doing what I say I hate when people do hate what people do like whatever fuck it's my podcast it's my life I'm trying to get I'm trying

to get my shit together so I think sweating in the morning is essential for me to feel good and like I do hardcore I do like a hard there's a workout I do 30 minutes it's a yoga workout it's like a cross training yoga workout thing but you know it's full body and it hurts like it's not easy but I'm talking pumping the heart pounding the pavement you know I got to do that again I need, I need to do that more often. And, uh, so yeah, sweat in the morning. So then I mentioned, so sleep, sweat. Yeah. So let's go to sleep. I'm putting a hard stop at 10 30. Fuck it. 10 30. Um, I used to be around or work with someone who was a specimen of a human being. And I remember one time he told me he goes to bed at like 10, 10 30 every day. And I just feel

like I need to be like him so 10 30 hard stop uh bedtime no ands ifs or buts about that because here's the thing I I need to be lights out at 10 30 because I I like it takes 30 minutes for me to be like knocked out because of like Jimmy's cuddling with me guys you know I've told the story there was a podcast a few days ago where I went into a 40 minute fucking monologue or speech about how like my cuddling routine with my puppy so whatever like at 10 30 jimmy's hit jimmy's head is on my shoulders like he sleeps he comes and spoons me and then he likes to sleep under my bed so for those 30 minutes I'm like falling asleep he's got his head on my neck like he cuddles it And then after about like 20, 30 minutes, he wants to get off the bed and go underneath.

So then, yeah, so whatever, like I'll be asleep at 11 and I wake up at six. Is that good enough? Wait, 12, one, 12, one, two, three, four, five, six, fuck, seven hours, seven and a half. If I fall asleep at 10 30, I could wake up. I can't wake up at six 30, whatever, six. It's better than what I've been doing lately, which is like five hours and 47 minutes a or like four and a half hours or I'm a mess guys. I'm a fucking mess. Um, I'm so dramatic. Like

wait, Jacqueline, count your fingers. You have 10. Okay. Um, you don't have acne right now. So, uh, count your blessings. What else? I got 10 fingers, 10 toes. Um, I got it. I got a fat ass. It's looking fat. Uh, eh, not in a good, not, not in the best way, but not in a bad way. So that's cool um i got a house i have a roof i have a couch i have a tv i gotta cancel youtube tv i'm not watching tv right now football season's over like i don't want i need to cancel it cancel youtube tv yeah i don't know why i'm paying like 64 for something i don't even it's like 64 a month for youtube tv and i don't even use it so cancel youtube tv i'm paying for hinged instead it's my 10 it's like 10 bucks a month wait why did I even why did I even like why is that a replacement of

tv but like I'm spending more time on hinge than I am on my cable or whatever my tv so um so yeah 10 p.m so here's what the morning's gonna look like I wake up at six oh my god am I really doing this oh am I really doing this this is like okay I mean I didn't even really tell you guys about my day but I don't care this is like this is my new plan you guys are getting behind the scenes of my life and how I think and how I coach myself to be disciplined and stop being a you know and there's like this is the most boss bitch thing I'm doing this podcast every day this podcast every day is like okay I'm I'm attacking life I'm leveling up I'm doing cool shit I'm committing to something and I'm

growing and learning and getting better at it every day right so this this lane of life is rocking it my job same shit rocking the PR world rocking my job and then it's like a personal life just like me like being like a healthy human being with a normal sleeping schedule and like fucking taking care of shit during her day. It's a train wreck. And so that's what I'm trying to organize tonight. I'm trying to get that, uh, set. So, okay. So the morning six to six 30, it's a stock season. It's fucking, I'm on my phone. I'm checking my stocks. All right. Uh, that's in the bed thing. I just roll over on my phone and then six 30 is a March. Oh, I'm going to make espresso shots tonight I'll really feel like I have my shit together if I pre-make my espresso

shots tonight um yeah then it'll be pre it'll be pre-made because that's one of the issues I'm having is Jimmy has to go to the bathroom right when we right when we wake up but I refuse to let him go before I have coffee so like I'm not gonna walk outside without a coffee in my hand like it's just not gonna happen so it takes me like six minutes to pull my espresso and like grind the beans so at 6 30 I'm gonna go to the fridge grab my pre-made coffee run out the door and I have to like you guys it's such a bitch like uh I do the big t-shirt when I sleep lately like it's either it's naked most of the year but right now it's kind of cold so I'm in the big t-shirt so I have to like change when I I'm I'm now so like my single mom new mom thing with a

dog is like I wake up and immediately put on clothes and shoes to walk him to because he has to pee and so it's like this quick thing I do and then the grabbing the coffee thing there's like that's gonna be way more convenient so I'll do that and then I'll take him out so in the morning I'm gonna do Jimmy uh walk with coffee in hand that's fun smell the sun smell the sunshine smell the fucking birds smell the fucking grass smell the smell the fresh air pop in a potty pop in a potty pop a potty dude pop a potty I'm gonna can I coin that phrase pop a potty p-o-d-d-y pop a potty pop a podcast and uh get your day started right that's what I'm gonna do pot a little potty and a little caffeine a little dog walk a little sunshine and then

I'm gonna kill it next week I'm I have this might be a series of like Jacqueline wants to get her life together and avoid getting in a funk and becoming depressed again so I'm gonna constantly talk about it every episode every single day until I get it right like it's kind of getting to that point I haven't really been sharing it with you guys because I've been I don't know like zoned into other things so anyways after the walk um is that the cardio see here's where I'm like well do I maybe I'll make I'll make him run the hill with me I'll make Jimmy run whatever that's gonna be considered right now while he's a pup and he can't go on long runs I think that's gonna be my morning sweat fuck that's not good enough I need to be more maybe I can come inside

and do four jumping jacks and call it good break a sweat um it doesn't take much to make me break a sweat now and that's really depressing uh fuck okay so that's at like 6 30 to 7 30 and then I shower and then I need to shower put on a cute outfit instead of sweats which I normally like make myself cute on top. If I'm on zoom meetings and shit, like, all right, do my makeup and like put on jewelry and like make myself look presentable. But like, I need to start wearing jeans. I need to start like putting on nice shoes and, um, yeah, like, like making myself fresh and like cute for the day. So that'll be like, okay, that'll be seven 30 to eight and then eight o'clock ish, eight 30. I'm working a noon lunch break and a nap. If I need it, I usually set a

20 minute timer so that's like a lunch break nap and then in between like eight and noon it's like whenever Jimmy rings the bell go walk because he has to pee so there's that and then I work after the break at one and then I do yoga at five when I'm done working I just put myself on like an eight to five like again I'm trying to mimic what I did in the past this is like literally I'm trying to create a nine to five and eight to five typical like work day for myself because I, I need structure. I crave structure when I don't have it. I feel like a mess and that's kind of what it's been lately. So here we go. So yeah, five o'clock I'm going to do yoga. I'm going to do my favorite Travis Elliott workouts. Like I really need to join a studio. Like I really want to,

but I don't think they're doing indoor yoga right now or like um hot yoga so I'm just kind of like well I'll just do it at home until I'm that's an option because I can do I can go like drop in places I might see here's like when I say I need to push myself to put myself out there like I need to sign up for classes I need to go online and seek these things out to get out with people again but I don't know um so yeah yoga at five and then after yoga it's like shower make dinner chill and then get to bed by 10 30 that's a good day and like I'm proud of that I just figured it out so the the differences in my day right now are the the changes I've made are who the fuck is bored if you're like I don't care pop a potty pop a potty what's that what's that uh pop a perky

did it. What's that song? It's like a 2016 song. Papa Perky. Uh, ASAP. ASAP Ferg. No, I got to find it. Um, fuck. Papa Perky. Papa Perky. If. Song. Uh, Slippery. Migos! Slippery. yes this is such a good song slippery I used to okay the the story I told you guys about the guy I told this like a few months ago I had a crush on a guy for three months who I found out was gay after I confessed my love to him he was at the gym and he had man bun he was like a Greek god he was the hottest guy I've ever seen in my life and he wore big headphones and he had huge muscles and like had he wore short shorts and it was like before short shorts were cool and I saw his like he was insanely gorgeous and so like I would play like certain songs from that era of me working

off at that gym those three months remind me of him and that is a song that reminds me of him and that is fucking embarrassing but like I don't know like songs remind you of people or like I don't know I'm really I feel like I'm very um I don't know like childlike or just immature about stuff sometimes but there's there's a line in the song called hey hey hey tater tot fuck I can't say this n-word on my radar watching watching crocodile hunter turn him to some gator shots iced out watch ice iced out watch ice they always do that okay yeah um so anyways where was I at why did that come up oh oh I'm just talking about how like I'm doing my own thing tonight and I don't I know this is weird weird content maybe to listen to someone go

through their life plan but fuck it so there's my day I'm proud of that I feel like it's gonna be good the different the changes I've made are like a hundred percent I so I gotta make I gotta pre make my coffee or buy cold brew so I have a cold brew to grab out of the fridge and I used to drink like Celsius in the morning, but I just love coffee. Like it's just better. So I just need to pre-make coffee and then I need to go sweat. Like I need to sweat in the morning. I'm going to figure that out. I'll check in tomorrow, let you know. And then, um, fucking get to bed at 10 30. And I feel like everything else is pretty much the same. Like I pretty much, my workday looks exactly what I like what I wrote in my yoga and then it's like just get to bed at 10 30

and move more basically yeah how simple is that I I feel like I'm just over complicating my life and like overthinking it which is hi I'm a girl okay I'm gonna do that I sit here and overthink welcome to my podcast but it's good to overthink sometimes when you feel like you're in a funk and you or you're approaching a funk I'm not in it I'm approaching it so you can get your life together and it feels good so tonight I'm gonna make espresso shots and make like six put it in the fridge and then get to bed it's 9 12 within the hour um yeah like let me explain something kind of like I'm gonna take you into my world right now um oh this is kind of like I don't know if I want to say this or like, uh, I just feel kind of, um, sad about myself for this. It's

like, okay. Like I don't, I don't put a lot of effort into myself. Like I want to, if that makes sense. Like when I say effort into myself, I mean like instead of like rushing into the bathroom at night to just throw on my skincare and like brush my teeth really quick and just go to bed like I don't spend time pampering myself like I want to or like I've done in the past I'm in this like phase of just everything's kind of like quick and easy and I mean I don't I'm like I'm not very high maintenance I guess like I'm I'm pretty low-key about everything I do as far as like self-care stuff it's not you know that complex and it doesn't take me forever like I don't put on self-tanner every week I don't get my nails done I don't like occasionally I do

that or whatever but I don't get like you know I don't go in and get all these procedures like these I don't go to lymphatic drainage sessions and like facials all the time and I don't know I'm not really, I don't really do a lot of that stuff. I'm like, I shower, I shave, I put on lotion. I told you guys my favorite Lubriderm lotion mixed with almond oil. Like, I do that every day. I put on a ton of sunscreen and a ton of, like, moisturizer on my face. And then, yeah, I don't know.

Like, what am I saying? I just feel like here's what I think it is. I think I'm being influenced by influencers and they're like showing their skincare sessions on like Vogue and they'll go on YouTube and show like what they do. And it's like this vibe they're in their bathrobe. It's like the nighttime they're, you know, they're spending 30 minutes massaging their face. And it's just, I don't know. That's again, I just sometimes feel like a loser. Like I'm not putting a lot of, um, time to take care of myself. Like I'm working to the I'm like working around the clock it feels like and I'm not really structuring my day where

I'm like hard stop at this time you're not allowed I didn't even schedule in the podcast do you guys notice that wait I didn't even schedule in the podcast what time I'm gonna do that fuck well whatever um but yeah I'm not putting in like a hard stop on my night where I'm like okay if I'm watching Ozark or if I'm watching whatever I need to finish it so fucking bad I'm so slow watching new shows I need to be like oh it's 10 so go to the bathroom do your skincare like get ready for bed but it's been like here's what happens it's like it's 10 I'm not necessarily that tired and I'm chilling watching a show and then I'm on my phone and then 10 30 11 I'm still on my phone I'm not really that tired and then it's like 11 11 30 I'm actually super tired and I should go

to bed and it gets to the point where I'm like crawling into my bathroom because I'm so tired and I have to go to bed and that's like dude it's like you when you're an adult no one teaches you this or tells you that this you have to like parent yourself like you're a kid and I'm a bad parent to myself right now like I'm not a good like your parents are like hey kids time to go to bed and you do it because they're your parents like you have to do that for yourself as an adult and I'm not good at it like I'm straight up I suck at it and I think uh I don't know do you relate to that do you get that are you really uh like OCD about your routine and everything and do you like get to bed on time every night do you I don't know and here's what I what I wanted to

mention earlier too is that like when you don't really have places to go and people to see and you're not really out there like you used to be you can kind of get away with being a fucking slob or and not and I know that's fucked up I know that's fucked up I know it is you can kind of get away with shit that you or you feel like and that's like not good because that's it that's a sign that um like I used to do things because of other people and I wasn't doing it for myself like I should be doing all of all of these things regardless of if I'm seeing people and having to like, present myself nicely, and take really good care, like, you know, and that's sad, and that's, is that a self-worth issue, is that a, is that a, or it's also, like, I'm growing up, I'm immature,

and I'm maturing, and I'm realizing what's important, and I'm, like, you know, when I, I was in a relationship before, where it was, like, my full-time career was my appearance, like I literally was like every hour of the day checking everything making sure everything looked okay nails done hair done tan shave like perfect all the time like I was just glistening and like body oil and perfume and fucking bouncy locks of like gold like my brown hair excuse me not golden hair and I was like never from no makeup and a messy bun just fucking chilling it was like this I was like a I felt like a Barbie and it was like that was my lifestyle and I didn't really have much going for me so now that I do now that I have this awesome uh show and I have a job and

I have like a puppy to tend to I'm not like it's not all about me and how I look and how I every that kind of stuff just kind of there's like a time I'm realizing now with my age like growing up or whatever fuck I'm only 26 but there's like a time and a place to put in a fuck ton of effort and like try really hard with your uh you know like there's a time and place to it's like I don't know it's like I don't know you don't need to be OCD about it 24 7 I guess I used to be like that now I'm not and I was also like in college you know I was fresh out of college during this and it just like you just like college is all about like looking hot and getting drunk and like finding boys and I feel like now it's like living to I'm like finding myself

I'm weathered I'm a little more weathered but it's like sexy because it's like I know myself I have this self-awareness I never had I have this I'm grounded I have I know what I want I've had experiences in life so I like you know it's like a I feel it's easy to be like oh I feel like shit about myself and I just wish I was like the way I wish I was the way I used to be uh about all that about all that stuff but at the same time like I like myself the difference is I actually I'm I do like myself now I genuinely do and I'm uh happier and in my skin and I I don't have all these insecurities I feel like all that shit I was doing was because of insecurity like constantly making sure everything looked good I was always like perfectly

it was all because I was insecure and I wanted people to like me so yeah if I got a fucking hair on my chin actually I found one today I didn't want to bring it up yeah if I find like a weird hair or something like yeah of course I'm gonna get rid of it but I'm not gonna have a fucking meltdown and cry about it oh my god I'm aging like what did I notice on my face so when I turned 20 uh I got a wrinkle I like literally looked in the mirror I was studying abroad and I looked in the mirror on my 20th birthday and I found I saw my first wrinkle in my forehead I was like oh welcome to your 20s bitch like you have your first wrinkle. Well, it was on the, so it's on the right side of my face. It's like

where my eyebrow, one of my eyebrows goes up higher than the other one. So that's, that wrinkles like above the eyebrow in the middle of my forehead. And it's only, it only shows when I make an expression. Like if I just rest my forehead flat and it doesn't move, I'm like looking in a mirror right now, uh, you can't see it. So I'm not, I don't care. But now I'm noticing on the left side, I'm getting that same wrinkle on the other side so it's like not even but it's happening and I'm like oh wait why am I bringing up wrinkles wait why did I get on this I don't know do you it's cool we're alive I'm alive um yeah I went into a bunch of tanning beds before I went to uh London I was like oh I'm gonna be super tan for my study abroad and it was like summertime when I went and

then uh I feel like the tan like I tanned the fuck out of my face like I was a dumbass I go into the tanning bed without anything covering my face like dumbest shit ever and I feel like the tan it like tightened my skin as it as it changed colors or whatever and then it like my forehead like actually started peeling around my the time of my birthday and I feel like the it peeled off this first layer of the skin and left a wrinkle. Like I'm convinced it just like pulled it tight and then the wrinkle it appeared. So yeah. Um, yeah, but aging, aging is cool. Uh, life is cool. Who else is just kind of like fucking blah. I need, here's the thing. If I knew like I just need something to look forward to I think I need to plan a trip or I need to like

I need to like you know what I think that's what I'm missing in life where before I would constantly look forward to like oh I have trips in a few months or I have this place to go in a few months or and I don't have that right now so I haven't like I haven't had that I mean I went home for a month for Christmas I guess that was the last time but that was like I knew I was going to go home and just hang out and like it's like when you're going to your childhood home or whatever it's like it's not like you're going to the Maldives or you're fucking going to Italy or some shit you're like it's you're going home so it's a different feeling of like what you're looking forward to so I feel like I need to look forward to a little getaway a little vacation I

need to take myself somewhere I need to go somewhere um just I don't know I need to spice up my life what the fuck well that was my day or that's that was that's the plan uh it's Friday it's Friday night I'm I honestly feel fine I think I was being a little bit too hard on myself but it feels good to talk it out and kind of see it on paper like what I need to work on I'm excited guys this is how fucking like you know I just get really excited about my my uh I get like energy behind a little shift in my day that I'm going to make or like whatever and I get like oh I'm gonna just like be so on point now and just like oh my god I'm not gonna be slipping I'm not gonna be in a funk because I'm literally excited right now to end this episode and go make espresso shots

make espresso shots at 9 23 p.m for tomorrow morning so when I wake up I can immediately grab my coffee and go outside that is what it's like if you're 14 right now listening to this this is 26 bitch this is 26 so yeah there's that um i don't know all right i feel like i could end it there it was kind of short and sweet dude we bombed syria i saw that today a lot of people are pissed off we bombed syria i could look up news around that um people are still pissed about biden not giving us checks It's like, look, if you're in a position where you're relying on that fucking set of, instead of complaining about that stimulus check, figure out a way, like imagine, just get your, dude, that should be your goal in life. Just like never, you never, and I know so many people are in that position.

Like I'm one to talk. Like I can't, um, you know, put that on people like, oh, well you shouldn't even, if you're relying on that stimulus check to make it, to get by, what the fuck? You figure it out. Like, what am I saying? But, um, I don't know. What did I just, why did I bring this up? like I went from here's my day here's my plan to let's just rant about let's rant about poverty it's not a it's like it's not people's fault sometimes it's just the I feel like that's how life is you're like born into a certain uh bracket or whatever wealth what's it called income level like whatever your parents are at in your community and like where you go to school and it's like a lot for a lot of people it's like they're they're that's that they're in the hood their whole life they can't really get out of that and um and your hood could be hey it doesn't mean

uh like the hood it's like from fucking I don't know the hood somewhere outside of Atlanta or in Atlanta I'm talking like your hood could be Arkansas your hood could be Nebraska small town 300 people Amish is a hood everything's a hood a hood is like I don't know I just feel like is that a racial thing I just got insecure about saying hood fuck well um see I saw that people are pissed about the stimmy check um I don't know you know I'm really starting to think that I and I wasn't like this before and it's it's what two months after the election election a month or so wait what is it fucking february 26 a month yeah a month so we're a month in to the biden harris uh white house presidency whatever and uh it's not it hasn't been the best it hasn't

been the best so far but i think this year is gonna be it's either gonna be a lot of undoing of what was done in 2020 where we can return to some sort of like normalcy again or it's going to be and that takes time and you know the vaccine that whole situation it's going to roll out as well or it's going to be more restrictions more like different types of things that suck piled on top of what was already in existence so then it's like a everything just is more of a hell like I don't know how you know what I mean like I just want all the floodgates to be open like Florida or whatever where everything's like no COVID no bullshit I'm in California by the way I'm in San Diego but again there are people living like that

I feel like I pretty much am like I never wear a mask anymore I don't well actually yeah if I go in public I fucking do I can't say that but I feel like there's a lot of people around me kind of they're just you know living like normal I think I can't say I'm not I'm just like mentally I'm not there I'm not like oh everything's back to normal um I don't know it's fucking weird but yeah so this year's gonna be interesting I feel like I was on the phone I was telling my mom this i was like i've just accepted that it's gonna be a while like i'm gonna be i can just here's what i'm when i say it's gonna be a while like the world is gonna look weird for a long time like it's not just a oh biden's elected you know if covid was political and

then everything's just gonna flip no it's gonna be interesting to watch like this year's gonna be the year that's gonna tell it's gonna say a lot like we're gonna find a lot of shit out this year about what's up and like what's really going on because yeah it i don't know um again if they like keep adding more restrictions on everything that's that are it's just if that happens like we know everything's fucked and and we should be extremely worried but if they're like no you know covid cases are down everyone's vaccinated we can you know stop wearing the masks we can open shit back up everyone go to the club like then boom that's what I feel like makes sense that's what I think we all want a world to resemble something like that

but anyways um yeah I guess I'm just at this point in life where I'm just grinding I'm putting my head down and working on myself and uh you know I haven't sounded that I feel like I haven't sounded of that, uh, like giddy and happy lately. Like I feel just like a, like a negative person, just kind of dumpy and frumpy, but frumpy dump, frumpy dump. I'm being dumpy. I'm being, uh, I'm being a sourpuss, but Hey, my puppy's looking so cute right now. He's running like a bunny rabbit. I love when he does this. Keep going. Get tired. There you go. I brushed him today he looks so beautiful dude you look so beautiful it's like his his coat is shiny because I brushed him we'll go outside yeah he knows outside outside yeah head tilt head tilt yeah

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