The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 178- I Cracked The Code

Episode Date: March 2, 2021

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What's up, guys? Happy March 1st. It's episode 178. Welcome back to the show. Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Hi, welcome back to the show. Hit that subscribe button. I'm here seven days a week. Guys, happy, happy one year. We made it. This feels weird. March is kind of dark now. And I don't, it's March 1st. If you're, if you're unaware of the date, I know February went quick pay your rent it's March 1st and also wow if like I don't know I feel a little bit it's like a trip putting myself back one year it seems like it went super fast and also super slow and I feel like I'm a completely different chick a year later and wow let's reflect on that let's give ourselves a round of applause you made it out alive I think March 14th is like the official

like when most places lock down day I don't know but anyways guys today let me cut to the chase today I'm gonna be continuing the series I've been doing lately of telling you guys how I'm getting my shit together and I'm gonna be I'm gonna be doing episodes related to that until I have my shit together, if that makes sense. So, so I'm going to be doing that. And then I'm also going to be telling you guys how I cracked the code. I cracked the code, code with myself and this code cracking, um, revelation, this, uh, breakthrough I have is I have this breakthrough I had might be helpful for you. So that's kind of the gist of today's episode I know it's Monday Monday motivate I know it's Monday Monday motivation

uh this is maybe the one of these episodes where you're like I just want to feel inspired by someone getting their shit together so let's get into it I'm gonna tell you right off the bat how I cracked the code so here we go um this might sound ridiculous but this is the answer to everything as far as feeling normal and sane and like I have a decent life. I have a good lifestyle. No, this is it. This is the code I cracked. Here we go. Stop working. Jacqueline, Jacqueline, stop working at a certain time every day. Part two of the code I cracked. Jacqueline, allow yourself to have an actual weekend. So that was part one and part two. That's it, bitch. So I figured out that my, like the chaos of my day and not really having

a set routine with working and everything has made me feel I feel like I'm going crazy a little bit which is clear um if you listen to the show I mean I feel like now what am I saying I've been saying I feel like this 178 episodes now it's been a crazy ride and I haven't been guys. Okay. What the fuck am I saying? Basically, bitch, stop working at like five, enjoy your evening, allow yourself to stop working and relax, do that. And then also have a normal weekend where you're not thinking about work and doing work. So that's it. Um, but anyways, I feel like this is a part of my life, my routine, my day to day that was missing. And I never saw it until just recently like I just had this breakthrough I'm like holy shit this is the

key to everything this is the code I need I needed to crack because my brain never shuts off and I know again this sounds obvious but um that's it and I did it this weekend I told you guys I watched shows all weekend specifically Ozark my love the love of my life show I love I'm just obsessed um I definitely need a lake house um and I need to live in a trailer but dude I'm obsessed with I'm obsessed with Ruth but yeah this weekend I experienced that I was like I literally just chilled and had a weekend and I didn't check my DMs or emails or anything I just enjoyed my weekend and so now um it's all about stopping work because it's Monday night I'm like I stopped work at five and that's I was on clubhouse at six but that was for I wasn't really active I was just there

in a room but anyways so that's it that's the big coat I cracked um do you guys do that do you do that if you work from home are you disciplined with your start work time and stop work time or do you just kind of like free flow it like I was doing for so long like I've literally been free flow in it since last summer like that's how my like since I've started this job and everything it's just been like no discipline work at 2 a.m work at fucking 6 a.m 8 a.m like whatever it doesn't matter don't stop working at five keep working it you know as you're watching shows no it's done so I feel good about that and uh yeah who's bored I mean again I know this series might be dry but this is my audio diary I have to work my I have to work my shit out

uh oh I don't have to I'm choosing to work my shit out on the podcast and share it with you guys and so this is just the this is the phase I'm in this is the little season of um life I'm in because I was approaching a funk I felt like if I don't change my patterns up if I don't fix this I'm gonna be depressed again I'm gonna get into a get into a funk I don't want to be in so anyways part two of this episode here's a list of the ways in which my shit equals together and I'm just going to go off. Uh, this might be inspiring. This might make you feel good just to hear how I have my shit together. Um, this is all recent. So here we go. I have fresh sheets on my bed. It's Monday. I did laundry yesterday. Okay. Uh, my laundry is done and I have fresh sheets

on my bed my grout is white my grout is white that's important to me to feel like I have my shit together when the grout in my shower and my in my kitchen floor my bathroom floor all the tile is it's pure white it's glistening it there's no like grimy dirt in it um that it it's like I feel like I'm living in a new house like I scrubbed I scrubbed my shower in my bathroom and in my kitchen floor like as if I'm moving out and I want my security deposit back and I don't want them to have you know like I was going the fuck in because it was getting bad with Jimmy you know his paws everywhere and now he's not allowed in the bathroom that's another way I've had my I feel like I have my shit together the bathroom is now a no puppy zone it's like this is not your

room this is not your hangout spot dude so uh yeah I just feel like when the grout's clean life is good and I feel yeah dude again this is kind of fucking boring another way I have my shit together another way I feel like I have my shit together now is I do my emails first thing seems obvious seems straightforward like just get them done the first like I just knocked out this morning I just knocked out like every email of my day as soon as I like I sat down at eight did it all got it done and I felt super good about that afterwards so uh like the that kind of like bitch work I get done first thing and it's not like I wasn't doing that before I would just like I was I'd have a slow start to my morning and like my work would just kind of like

roll around a it would like I'd like sit my coffee and like put on makeup and like and then it would be like working and then emails come around like midday no it's first thing um another way of my shit together I bought a pack of 50 razors five blade razors and more body oil um this is important to me as a woman uh feeling like you have your shit together equals hairlessness at all times or most of the time and like whenever I get a new supply of razors I'm like yes bitch I'm gonna constantly shave I'm always gonna be shaved I'm gonna take my time with it I have all these razors so I don't have to like you know uh and I need to be honest like i got body shamed by my dermatologist uh not body shamed she like skin shamed me she's like

you need laser hair removal you know that right like you need to get laser like what like i had a razor bump and she was like freaked out by it and she was disgusted by it she's like you need laser hair removal like one little red follicle was all she needed to see to recommend laser hair removal so that's down the pike pipeline pike what the fuck that's in the pipeline of things on my uh list to do as a woman but for now I got 50 razors bitch and I feel good about that I feel like I'm a shit together I got new almond oil that I mixed my moisturizer I've told you guys that so much I mix lubriderm uh advanced therapy whatever the fuck plain lotion with almond oil and I put that on after I shower. So, uh, dude, I just feel good about that. And then part two of

that, uh, of the razors and the shaving is, is this like, I'm oversharing. Is this like, is this like, nobody cares? Is this like, this information's not groundbreaking or interesting. Again, I just need to talk it out and say it out loud for me to solidify these uh new self-care practices and shit in my brain so here we go part two of that is lately I've been doing my skincare at night in the bathroom without a dog so Jimmy's not allowed in there uh which is great but I've been taking my time and I mentioned how I've gotten this impression from influencers and people on the internet that your skincare routine is like a spa moment of your day you're in your bathroom for like 30 minutes massaging

your face and all these oils and you're just like and you're you're having your me time it's this like beautiful experience because of like the vogue videos that they show like uh celebrities and influencers doing their skincare and it's like a it's like a vibe you know and I've I've been like what the fuck I get I'm stuck on my phone until the last second before I'm half dead asleep. And then I'm like, ah, shit, I got to go do my skincare. And then it's a quick in and out. It's a, it's not a, it's not a time for me. And so lately I've been taking my time doing my skincare and I feel good about that. And in return, my skin looks fucking amazing. So uh, next way in which I have my shit together. Um, is this the last thing? No.

yeah second to last um sorry I know this episode seems so boring fuck I've been doing yoga at the same time every day which seems like oh bitch just yeah workout like wake up workout or whatever yeah I've been doing it the same time I do it at five after I'm done working that's what I did today like I've only been at this uh get my shit together routine for a few days but like that's it so do yoga at the same time every day Jimmy's not allowed in in the yoga room so that helps I can just like zone out and do my thing um and you guys I'm feeling like I'm gonna start reading books here let me just summarize okay I just like told you guys how I cracked the code I'm stopping work at a certain time and then I listed different ways I feel like I'm a shit together I know it's

ridiculous that my grout's clean and that like obvious shit like do your emails first thing like duh bitch be clean and like do your emails right away but I think what I what I addressed with myself I think was Friday is that I'm not a good parent to myself sometimes and then there's like a snowball effect where I get into these patterns that aren't really uh useful or like they're not really getting me they're not really moving me forward in a good way and then I get I get kind of numb to it I'm not like paying attention to how they're not serving my life and not helping me so I finally addressed that on Friday and um now I'm like putting hard things on my schedule or and shit that it's just yeah it's so good dude I fucking

love being 26 and having to parent myself because I don't have a mom and dad telling me to go to bed at 10 30 that's another thing 10 30 going to bed right right on time every day so no more scrolling on the internet until I'm passed out and then realizing that I need to get from my couch to my bathroom to do my skincare and then into my bedroom and then yeah so here's what I feel like is going to happen now because of all this I feel like I'm going to start reading books I feel like I'm gonna finally color in my adult coloring book while I watch shows I feel like I'm going to go to the movies go out to dinners um like go out and do shit at night like I'm like oh my god from 5 until 10 30 that seems like such a long time Gary V would say uh do your

side hustle but and the 5 to 10 30 includes the podcast because that's one thing I didn't schedule in work is 8 to 5 right and then I got podcasts somewhere between 5 to 10 30 and that's just kind of like how I'm feeling I would yoga shower dinner podcast I kind of like that and I'm usually more chill at night which I think is better for you guys to not hear me act insane in the morning so whatever. Uh, I am kind of, I feel a little bit insane right now because I'm excited about my routine. Um, what was I saying? But yeah, now I just feel like, okay, this is so fucking sad. Like I'm, I feel like I'm going to start enjoying my life now. I feel like I'm going to start enjoying my life now. And I'm going to be like, Oh my God, I can do activities. I can read books.

i can like braid my hair and shit and watch a show like i actually think one of the things i told you guys or i've told you so many episodes in a row or whatever the fuck is that i don't really watch netflix shows i don't really sit down and like because i get intimidated by how many episodes there are and i'm like it's such a waste of time i should be doing other things that are productive and i have a really hard time relaxing without wanting to check my phone right so after this weekend watching multiple episodes of Ozark in a row without checking my phone I'm like this feels good this is like meditation in a way for me because I'm addicted to myself I'm addicted to social media I was like this is I know I'm still consuming content I know I'm still

frying my eyeballs looking at my tv but it was like this is what I used to do when I was 12 watching cartoons and shit. Like I just sit and watch and pay attention and I get sucked in and it feels good. And I know there's so many people out there. I'm sure you're listening right now going, dude, I watch, like I've, I've seen everything on Netflix. I watch shows all the time. What the fuck? But it's personally hard for me to do that. So I think phasing out of sitting on my phone all night and shit is, and watching a show instead or reading a book is going to be, I'm excited about it. I'm like, I just want to watch more shows. I think I'm gonna watch Yellowstone next um Ozark season four I need to figure out when that's coming out

let me type that in Ozark season four I'm obsessed with Ruth holy shit what's the launch date of that shit release date and everything we know so far and I'm obsessed Jason Bateman is such hey is he a great actor or am I just overthinking it like I just feel like watching him act is so interesting and I'm and I don't know I don't know how to explain it like I was paying attention to like his inflection at one point in the last episode I was watching and I'm like this guy is so good at being Marty Berg it's insane like he's just and I told you one of the reasons I like the show is the fact that like marty and wendy just and if you don't know what ozark is sorry um this is probably you're confused but they're just like and it's like their fucking minivan you know it's

really they're just like a regular suburban looking family they're white they're they don't look rough they don't look like it doesn't really match the money laundering they're doing like their vibe doesn't match that and I feel like that's why I like it because they're just regular normal looking people and even Marty's kind of like he's kind of like a calm dude through it all and anyways yeah I'm obsessed with that show but when is season four coming out um wait this came out the so it's most watched titles of all time what april 2020 30 million people watched third season okay where's season four

season four okay the news broke on multiple netflix social media platforms confirming that season four will be the last of Ozark with the caveat that it will be split into two halves. 14 episodes will make up season four in total. Oh, sick. Oh, I'm so excited. What's the date? Sorry, I'm taking away too much time to figure out this.

Whatever. Season four is coming. I'm excited. But, yeah, that's, like, a new realization I had that I'm going to start watching shows to, like, work on my attention span. like yeah so and just like feel sane and normal instead of cracked out with a cell phone and working and like checking shit all night until I sleep like duh um but yeah let me summarize this episode I feel like I need to get out of here and uh it's like again this is like a part of

the series of me talking it out until I feel like I have my shit together um so yeah it's kind of whatever this might be weird and and boring but I guess biggest things are stopping working at a certain time having a weekend and like planning shit to do on the weekend that yeah that's going to be a new uh thing for me which seems stupid but that's it um and then like going to bed at 10 30, no matter what. Um, what else did I say? Shaving. Like I bought razors, bitch. No. Like I think that taking more time for myself in the shower and in my skincare and all that, it's going to make me feel like I have my shit together a lot better or more, um, instead of rushing around doing things. And, um, yeah, I guess yoga is kind of obvious. Like I always do

it I just now I do it at the same time now um maybe I'll start reading books yeah that's kind of it guys I don't know how was your Monday how's it's like March 1st here's the thing this is what I think I'm subconsciously worried about deep down in my um this is like a survival thing a year ago I I should recap where I was a year ago I was working in a sales job I got laid off because of COVID and I moved at the same time so and I moved to a place that I was like oh this is going to be the spot you know it's happening because this is like where all the people go out and there's like great restaurants and bars and all the shit so that all got shut down and then basically from March until July a bitch was depressed as fuck and I got into a

terrible deep dark hole of um feeling lost and not having a purpose and I didn't have a job I had no hobbies I was confused had no direction in life and so I think what I'm doing right now is I'm like no bitch a year ago that happened it's not repeating and I'll do whatever it takes I'll annoy the fuck out of my listeners and talk about my routines and how I'm getting my shit together until it happens until i can like fucking trump it and fucking take my power back and not allow that negative spiral to occur because it's approaching i'm like it's march it's like fucking i don't know it's like all this ptsd or some shit i don't know but do what you gotta do podcasting and talking talking it out works for me and i know it's weird i feel like

I haven't really addressed why I'm comfortable revealing this to strangers or like what the point of this is. Cause I don't know. Sometimes I get in my head, I'm like, bitch, who cares? And like, why? I don't know. Are you being too, are you sharing too much? Are you wasting people's time I don't know I shouldn't think like that because again I always go back to my why and like what um has gotten me through hard times and it's always podcasters talking about basic life shit and it's not very exciting most of the time it's just like a normal conversation and I mean I enjoy it and I look forward to it and so I know that's helping you guys out there too um so yeah should I wrap I don't know what am I gonna do tonight

skincare routine um it's kind of sad let me just reflect on this how let me just reflect on this how like I haven't really mastered myself when I think about it because I'm having to do this little reboot I'm having to do this little reset because I'm not always on point and I'm not always being disciplined about bedtimes and working and getting you know my skincare what am I saying I never skip skincare I'm just saying like I'm not I haven't mastered like zen time with myself and chilling out and stopping work and like being present and not thinking about doing doing doing doing doing and I think this is like the big it's like I had to I had to break it up and talk it out like this because um I think that's

what I'm missing and my brain is too it's too chaotic all the time to like if it was too chaotic to realize that now that I have I'm like I just want to be I just want to be like I mean doing yoga I'm massaging my face with oils for 30 minutes every night and fucking shutting my lights off at 10 30 I'm winding down watching a show on Netflix I might be reading a book and this is all all happening and I'm not thinking about work I'm not thinking about shit I have to do just like you know it's like my life goal is just shut down and relax and be present I guess whatever okay that's it I'm embarrassed by this episode but I say that a lot after I share uh information that seems boring and annoying but whatever um I'm gonna post it

happy Monday happy March pay your rent congratulate yourself on however far you've come how far you've come in a year since uh shit got crazy in the world um yeah I'm doing a podcast that's my thing now I changed as a person I got more I did get comfortable sharing all this kind of shit and I need to figure that out and like what happened in childhood or like what about me is like the what's the reason for this I guess and I don't know I guess I've told you so many times that I finally said fuck it if everyone's on the internet everyone's not everyone but we're all the shit's gone digital and I want to show up on the internet exactly how I am in real life and I feel like the only way I can do that the closest way like the way I can close that gap

between what you see on Instagram and on social media of me and what you see in real life is to have a long-form podcast where I talk it out that's the only thing I could think of because YouTube and vlogs and all that's edited and curated and it's all but I can't do that on this show I do one take hope for the best and I post it and that's the closest you're going to get to knowing me as exactly like who I am and I think moving forward with social media and the internet um that's like I think I've achieved that goal of you guys feeling like like I don't feel like a random chick on the internet anymore i feel like i'm someone you know and like you're i'm a friend to you guys and um because i know how that is when you hear someone's voice

all the time on a podcast you really feel like you know them it's like a different kind of relationship than following someone and watching their story and you know seeing a couple youtube videos like you don't really know them know them but 178 days bitch and i've been talking this out about an hour a day. Practically besties at this point. Okay, I'm gonna end it. Happy Monday. Have a great week. I'll be here tomorrow. Hit that subscribe button. And yeah, that's it. Love you guys lots. Talk to you tomorrow. Bye!