The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 238- Nonplaces and The Universe

Episode Date: May 1, 2021

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Hey guys, happy Friday. It's episode 238. Welcome back to the show. Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. so, happy Friday, wait, should I restart that, you know what, fuck it, I had a thought, okay, wait, happy Friday, hit that subscribe button, I don't know what that was, I'm in a weird mood, I just spent, okay, I have a thought I need to tell you, and I need to tell you what I just did, so you know when you have a door handle that's like falling off and you're trying to put it back on and then the more you try to put it back on the more it falls apart and it just like I ended up like taking the door the doorknob the doorknob off and I was really frustrated I was really

frustrated by myself because I was like okay it wasn't this bad I didn't need to make it worse why did I fucking why did I mess with it and then I was like frustrated by the fact that I was wasting so much time doing that and I wanted a podcast and I was off in the I was off in the other room with the doorknob. So there's that, but no, I had a thought. I had a thought I need to share with you about, um, the podcast. What was I going to say? How are you doing? How are you doing? Uh, Jacqueline, come on. Remember, remember. Oh yeah. I had a thought about the podcast and me doing it and everything. I'm like this, I don't know if this makes sense, but I was like I was reflecting on it and I was like wait a minute I'm really doing this I was like wait a

minute Jacqueline Jacqueline I was like you're really doing this like you're you're doing a podcast now like you that's your thing now like you're really doing it you're doing a daily podcast holy shit like I don't know why it just hit me I was like whoa here I am I don't know does that make sense I just I just like overthought about I just got in my head about it I was like I'm like a year ago you know like I guess I'm saying this because a year ago you would if you told me a year ago what this would have been yeah a year ago I was in my depression era so yeah my depression era was March 2020 to July 2020 yeah that was when I was the lowest I've ever been and just the most lost and the most confused and the most sad and

the most, everything was terrible. Um, that was my rock bottom. But yeah, a year ago, if you told me this, I'd be like, what the fuck? Because here's the thing, by the way, this episode is going to get really, it's going to, we're going to, I'm going to go on about this for a little bit and then just for like two more minutes but there there's gonna be um some juicy content coming up I have a I have a couple interesting topics I want to talk about so stick around things that you things that you've probably never heard of or thought about before so we're gonna talk about that today um probably gonna check the news and talk about current events and drama happening and shit I don't know no but um the crazy thing is a year ago I was uh yeah depressed

whatever but I was trying to do YouTube I was trying to do a YouTube channel like I literally made so my thing in 2020 and during when COVID hit was okay I lost my job um I'm chilling the world shut down I was helping like grow I was doing like delivery like helping people with their groceries, like old people. I was doing that. And I was like, you know, I've always wanted to be a YouTuber ever since seventh grade. I've never taken it seriously or done it. So I was like, I'll do a weekly vlog every single week. I literally made like seven. Right. And the crazy thing is the reason why I'm like, if you told me a year ago, I would be a podcast host every day and like, whatever. The crazy thing is like those vlogs, like me trying to do that was the most,

it I how do I say this like I was such a fake bitch like I was so depressed right I was so like lost and insecure and whatever I was just in a bad place and then I'm like okay I'm just gonna I'm gonna make YouTube vlogs and I literally was like making my life look better than what than it was I wasn't talking about real shit I was like I'm gonna go to Trader Joe's and do a grocery haul I'm gonna show you around I literally I shopped at Zara like I went into Zara at the mall and I bought a bunch of shit to do a haul on YouTube like biggest shit ever right I was like oh this is what you do you're a YouTuber you buy shit you show it off I got like skincare I went and got like new heels and like a new outfit I was like here's all my shit I even bought like a

Maverick clothing shout out Logan Paul Maverick clothing Maverick clothing my DMs are open Logan Paul hit me up, just, you know, go, if you want to, if you want to collab, if you're looking for a third, it looks like you're looking, looks like you're down a podcast host now that Mike's in the doghouse, so let me know, Jesus, this is the, this part, this is where I'm like, okay, now I really should delete this episode, I wanted to, I wanted to delete the intro and restart it, I didn't, and I want to delete this part and I'm not going to do it. Yeah. Like bought a Maverick clothing hoodie and did like a review. Like when he dropped his new clothing, like I didn't even know what I was doing. I was just so not my, I wasn't myself. I wasn't being myself. I was being fake. I was,

I was like putting on a little like YouTube vlogger girly performance that was, I was like doing whatever, doing, doing what everyone else was doing. And I'll never forget. I owe my siblings so much in this life. Like I owe them for everything, right? I feel like my brother's changed my life and with some of the shit he's told me and my sister has. And she told me one time after she watched one of my vlogs, she's like, you sounded so fake. She's like, that's not you. What the fuck? That's not you. You sound so fake. And I was so defensive at the time. This was last summer, right? And I was like, what the fuck? Like, no, this is me, whatever. And then now I get on the microphone and I say dumb shit like I said 30 seconds ago and I wanted to delete

this and that whole that whole thing that came out of my mouth and I didn't plan on it plan on it and I got it I now I'm embarrassed but you know what Logan Paul's a he's a he's a you know I said it on uh go listen to the go listen to the Logan Paul episode go listen to the go listen to the Logan Paul HMU episode. I forget what number is it. Go listen to episode. There's, it's, I don't know. I'm just, I'm just having fun. It's episode, wait, uh, 226. Yeah. Anyways. But yeah. So then now I'm, I'm, uh, getting on the microphone, just letting it fly. Just really letting everything hang out. No editing, no whatever. And it's, I feel like this is actually me now. And so a year ago if you told me I'd be doing this I'd be like I'm gonna share this much information I'm gonna

be this raw and uncut and unedited and unfiltered and I'm just gonna like be okay with it because for the longest time I've heard people tell their story their story of success and how they made it eventually or how they got out of depression or how they built their business or how whatever they always tell the same story it's like they finally well it's not all the same but like the And a common theme and a common phrase I hear, I feel like Aubrey Marcus back in the day when I first started listening to his podcast, like he said some shit like you got to share your story and be vulnerable. like once you once you're able to let your walls down and be vulnerable and share your authentic story and all that shit like then you're that's when you find peace and freedom and who you are and you feel a sense of like I don't know like yeah freedom like that's how I feel now I feel

a sense of freedom like you know what I've just come out of the closet as who I am I'm sharing myself with the world exactly as if you came over to my house and we're having a conversation right out like it finally happened for me I finally did it and I always was I was always scared of doing that that's like that's when I say when I was at the that's what that's why I said when I was in the YouTube vlogger phase I would like go to Trader Joe's go to Zara show my shit and I was like I wasn't really being myself I was just like playing a little character of myself or like doing a little act and now I'm like bitch this is me and it feels so free freeing and so good and I can't I don't know podcasting is more my style it's more me and I love it so

yeah so that's what my that was my big thought I had to share with you like I I can't believe like holy shit I'm really doing this I really you know and I've been having my weird doubts my self-doubt for the last couple months I think I've told you guys like over the last week I've been kind of going through I've been in my head a little bit too much for whatever reason and And, like, yeah, for the first time ever, I've been doubting this podcast and what I'm doing here. And I've just been in this weird headspace. And so, but today I was like, no, bitch, you're really doing this. Like, this is what you're doing.

Like, you're doing it. Just shut the fuck up and get out of your head and do it. So, yeah, I want to tell you guys something today. We're going to talk about, we're going to learn about it together. I mentioned it yesterday. um we're gonna talk about non-places non-places and before I get into it sorry I'm having trouble with the mic before I get into it I want to define it for you because this is a new term this is a completely new term for me a new concept a new idea but it totally makes sense

and resonates with me and like I feel something or I felt something when I first learned about it so anyways let me define it first a non-place is a neologism neologism I don't know that word coined by the French anthropologist Marc Auge A-U-G-E Auge Auge to refer to an anthrop to refer to anthropological spaces of transience where the human beings remain anonymous and the and that do not hold enough significance to be regarded as places so think airports parking garages um parking lots i'm trying to think of other examples let me look at images places that are non-places uh train stations i'd argue cubicles even though you're a person there it's just kind of like you're just kind of another you're just I don't know

you're not an individual you're part of the pack um that's kind of a more I don't know about that like even grocery stores like in Walt like super walmart's that's kind of a non-place no maybe that's not a good example um there's actually a book and I kind of feel like before I form I feel like I need to form a solid opinion about non-places before I elaborate before I you know explain it to you and talk about because I want to I want to connect this non-place concept to city structure and like city planning in the United States and how I feel like we've done things kind of ass backwards and upside down here and it's not it it's like we built our cities in a fucked up way and i have some i feel like i need

to like learn more there's a book let me read the let me read the book um summary here markage non-place is an introduction to super modernity super modern super modernity hardcover 809 67 100 800 bucks for a hardcover i think that's a joke uh paperback 1745 on amazon and ever so this is the summary sorry an ever increasing proportion of our lives is spent in supermarkets airports and hotels on motor on motorways or in front of tvs computers and cash machines the invasion of the world by what mark oz calls non-space results in a profound alteration of awareness something we perceive but only in a partial and incoherent manner oz uses the concept of super super modernity modernity modernity to describe a

situation i'm really struggling with pronunciation super modernity to describe a situation of x of excessive information and excessive space in this fascinating essay he seeks to establish an intellectual intellectual intellectual armature for anthropology of super of an anthropologist oh fucking a okay uh for this is like what the teacher calls you uh calls on you in class to read and you fuck up and i'm this is probably the worst i've ever done i usually do well reading on this podcast. Not today. Seeks to establish an intellectual, intellectual armature for an anthropology of super modernity. Jesus. Interesting. Um, I'm highlighting here with my mouse excessive space. Yeah. And I, again, I feel like I need to kind of dive deeper into this and think

about it a little more, but we definitely have an excessive space, okay, yeah, it seems like there's a lot of excessive space in our cities, and like, even when I'm looking around, I'm like, if these houses, okay, again, I need to, I need to, I don't want to just talk out of my ass here, but I guess I definitely romanticize Europe you guys all know that I love Europe I love I just feel like it's better there in so many ways especially their city structure like how their cities were built and how there's a closeness like everything's close and people are closer together and there's more mingling and like it's tighter I don't know how to explain it It's more like charming and nice and it's like the structures themselves are beautiful

and I know they're older and they're, you know, like a bunch of super old buildings and that makes them, I don't know. So I'm going to figure this out. I'm going to figure out why I have an opinion about this and why I'm interested in this non-spaces non-places topic because I guess yeah I'm thinking about excessive space but I'm also thinking about our cities in this country that are like like the majority of our towns here are like you drive on the freeway and then off to your right you've got excessive like like the way we use space in this country is insane like or fuck it's just the way it is it's fucking it's just the

way it is you're on the side you look out on the side of the freeway okay and you've got this is like think of every fucking towns usually i'd say like not even not just small towns like big towns every town you've got your your home depot walmart target petco ross tj maxx type places maybe a fabric store a mcdonald's a starbucks like an outback steakhouse you know these like strip these shopping places that we all go to you've got a cvs maybe there's a chase bank a shell gas station with a car wash maybe a local restaurant maybe there's just like out in the target parking lot there's a like a red robin maybe a tanning place a cold stone creamery uh maybe if you're in a really fancy place at cabela's you know what i mean like all of our cities like we all have

these common chain shopping center places and it honestly makes me depressed and i'm just like it is what it is um but yeah i don't really know how i feel about it i just feel like it's excessive it's why do i don't know do you know what i mean though like imagine if every grocery store every store that ever existed was one of a kind like how much i feel like that'd be so cool that'd be so cool i don't know I, I, I just, I guess that, like, for example, there's this little, um, deli down the, the street for me. And the first time I went, went into it, I was like, oh, so if I just need a few things, like if I need a few groceries and like, let's say I want to make pasta tonight and

I need noodles and I need sauce and maybe I need some fresh basil and bread. And maybe I want to get some meat at the counter or cheese or whatever like I can literally just go into this little market deli place and buy it and it's just like cute and small and whatever but tell me why my fucking so what I do when I want to make pasta is I either Amazon fresh I order it to my door well I used to do that like every that's when I first got my puppy I ordered for like two months I order groceries, but I have a bad habit with that, or I go to the store, or I go to fucking Costco, or Trader Joe's, like, I just buy, I don't know, but I, I, I guess I get excited about the idea of, like, going into a little corner market, just getting a few things, carrying it into,

carrying it in, bringing it back to my apartment a little, in a little basket. I mean, I'm European, my, I mean, that's where my people come from back in the day, but, like, I don't know. There's just something that makes me go, damn, maybe I should move there. I don't know. I just, everything here is deluxe over the top excessive. And I got to read more about this. I don't know what my opinion is. I I'm trying to come up with it on the fly here and I don't want to, I don't want to confuse you. Cause I don't, I don't even know what I'm saying. Maybe you guys kind of get the gist of what where I might be going with this um yeah there's this what was the other what was the um definition here back to the I highlighted excessive space and I also

like what he said about um non-space results in a profound alteration of awareness something we perceive but only in a partial or an incoherent incoherent manner result a profound alteration of awareness there's a weird example of like going up to a cash machine like you're just i don't know okay i should move on um i wanted to bring that up i think i i mentioned yesterday that i came across a tiktok about non-places and i was like this is a new concept I haven't thought of and I really don't know what I think I literally just need to read more and research more I mean we could do that here I don't know I feel like if I keep going if I keep reading and I keep learning I'm gonna get

I feel like I'm in a rant I feel like I'm in a rant and I don't know why because here's the thing when I um saw that video I was reading the comments and people were talking about how like where they grew up has like affected their like their mental health is affected was affected by their the city they grew up in and like where they live and shit and I was like oh my god I don't I've never really like heard this conversation before people are talking about how like a lot of comments were like yeah I've I've been like I grew up in such an uninspiring environment and I felt depressed just living here and this is and it was like oh this is all there is to life like this is all there is like this is it and every people just

stay here forever like what the fuck anyways so yeah I'm not gonna I'm not gonna keep going I I just feel like I need I don't know what I don't really know how I want to I need to read more okay so there's that um fuck should I check the news uh should I look up drama happening in the world or I don't know I didn't really come with a plan I had that to tell you actually do I have anything saved I've been um I've been screenshotting and saving videos from TikTok to like talk about on the podcast I feel like there's something else oh not to talk about the universe and be like that but like I screenshotted a comment someone left on a video about like i don't know it's like a spiritual tiktok or some

shit i was on and this is what it says because i kind of i read it and i was like oh my god here we go nothing can't exist therefore there's infinite existence so life is just a part of that infinite existence it's random and there's no meaning part two you are the universe and when you realize that then it's your universe I feel like I don't ever talk about this shit but like I was really thinking about it I'm like that's kind of it like here's another example of something making sense in my head and then for me to verbalize it is going to be a train wreck so I feel like I need to take more time on this topic before I podcast about it and I don't know I I think I a lot of the times I come unprepared and I speak out of

my ass and then I feel like I'm not it's just like a train wreck so something I'm working on regarding regarding the meaning of life in the universe and why we're all here kind of has to do with the whole like we're all the same concept we're all the universe experiencing itself then I was going deeper with that and I was thinking about how like what is experience like what does that even mean like experience and I feel like every day every situation we're in comes with a different it's like a different experience a different and then I was digging deeper I'm like okay emotions feelings highs lows sadness fear happiness love anger you know any situation you experience because we're the universe it's

like that quote you are the universe experiencing itself itself is in that case where it's just like a lot of feelings and emotions I guess your whole life and like I don't fucking know because every person think about it like I'm not going to go on this is going to be one more minute and then I'm going to like read the news or do something else every set of eyeballs everyone's looking at the planet everyone's everyone's got a different thing going on in their life everyone's looking at something different every day he could be a doctor a lawyer a nurse teacher a pilot construction worker whatever everyone's like doing something different and that's also trippy like do you ever look at someone on the freeway in the car in their car and you're like where are they

going what's their life story like holy shit like it's kind of trippy to think about like everyone is going through something different we're all here together and like you don't it's just trippy anyways but um we all have a different set of eyeballs and different thing going on in this life but we the thing we all have in common is our like the feelings we get which is interesting like and again I need to like i need to like think a little a little bit more about this we all wake up like we're happy sad like the thing that's crazy is like why does a body feel like why do we have emotions why do we you know that's what's interesting to me again i can't shut the fuck up about this i

need to like bullet point this out think about this a little more but the thing that we're all different so we're all different because we're all doing something we all have like a different life story we're all on a different path we all we live in different countries we speak different languages blah blah but yet the thing that's the same for all of us is like seeking happiness love connection and then like we get stressed out we get mad we get sad it's like what the fuck's going on there why is what's the point of all this and why are we like this and what does that mean if we're the universe experiencing itself when our experiences are basically a bunch of like highs and lows and anyways so yeah fucking someone dm me and explain this back to me because i don't

even get it but like do I need to do acid do I need to fucking do acid like I've never done that should I just will that solve my will that explain it for me do you have to do drugs I mean shit what else could I talk about yeah what's with that like getting the answers from doing drugs like I did DMT I think I've told the story before and literally it was the biggest fat fucking joke to me I was I couldn't take it seriously the whole time I was I saw all the visuals I saw I closed my eyes I saw the the gestures or whatever making fun of me and laughing at me it was kind of creepy but then I opened my eyes and I was like describing what I was looking at

I was making fun of it the whole time in fact there's a I think I told this story I don't even know when but um it's not like I did DMT and and like got the answers to the universe I just literally took my I took it upon myself to describe what I was looking at and make fun of it and go oh of course oh of course like the guy oh this is fucking great this is such a red flag I literally did it on a first date I've told this story before I don't know what episode it was but i remember like looking at the guy's face i was like oh yeah okay your face looks like a fucking tree tree trunk because all of the details and weird lines and like everything looks crazy so he took a video of me he's like oh my god jacqueline he's like i've never seen like as

it was as i was seeing all this shit he's like he's like no just lay back like what are you what are you doing wait what are you doing he's like i've never seen this before most people just like close her eyes and go through it and lay back and I was like I'm this is insane I was like I have to talk about this right now like I have to talk about what I'm looking at so he started recording me on video and there's a video of me on DMT but things ended pretty roughly with this man and he blocked me on it's the whole thing and uh because for Jacqueline has her reasons for being crazy i had my reasons and he didn't like me um he didn't like being called out for being a little shithead so he blocked me and that happens sometimes anyways he possessed maybe he deleted

the video but he he has the video and i really fucking want it because i think it'd be hilarious to look back on yeah i'm like i'm not just gonna stay silent and he didn't give me some weak ass like i don't even know the levels of of strength of dmt i don't even understand it honestly probably one of those situations in life that I didn't like I just had a lot of trust for whatever reason and a lot of like you know I've been spontaneous I've done some crazy shit and I guess that's probably one of those experiences one of those situations that was like that and I'm just gonna have to own it and accept it, and that was me, you know, long time ago, but, um, anyways, someone, yeah, someone DM me the meaning of the fucking universe and shit, or, like, what

is it, what's happening, I don't know why I've been, like, in my head about this lately, I've just, I've just been, like, overthinking life, and I'm turning, I don't want to say it, I'm turning 27 this year god damn it I just said it and you know what is this what how is this why there's a 27 club does this happen to everyone when they're about to turn 27 they freak out about life I just have a lot of questions lately I have a lot of questions that I don't have enough answers and it's I'm in a phase I'm in a phase I'm in a phase yeah DM me what you think the meaning of life is and the universe and all this shit and then DM me if you've had a DMT experience and what you learned maybe I learned that I shouldn't take myself I okay this is honestly what I took

away from that um I took away that obviously there's more going on that our eyes can't see for whatever reason like there's everything seems alive and connected and I don't know I don't fucking like I'm looking at my white white wall but if I was on DMT I would see like cells and like movement and like color and it's just wild like it's I don't whatever so I saw that and then also I was doing that little monologue the whole time and I was playing I was being super light-hearted about it the whole time and I was making fun of it and mocking and I feel like that what I took away is like oh I shouldn't take myself too seriously and also like when I saw the jesters laughing at me and shit I was like oh because I I did I was being a fake bitch and I was

taking myself too seriously at that time and you know I was not I I wasn't really when I was like who I was alone versus with with versus when I was with other people like it wasn't um I feel like I was always warping and and changing myself and kind of trying to fit in and just trying to like hide my truth and hide who I really like how I really think what I really I don't know so and I probably thought I don't know I think I was just whatever fuck do i need to end this episode i really don't know what happened

um oh i was gonna read the news non-places the universe experiences dmt existential crisis existential crisis i think that's what's happening definition yeah i think that's what happens to people when they have like um they like disassociate or they like what what triggers an existential crisis a few causes of an existential crisis may include guilt about something losing a loved one in death or facing okay let me click a different definition an existential crisis refers to feelings of unease about meaning choice and freedom in life

whether referred whether referred to as an existential crisis or existential i don't like this word anxiety the main concerns are the same that life is inherently yes that life is inherently pointless that our existence has no meaning because there are limits or boundary has no meaning because there are limits or boundaries on it and that we all must die someday existential anxiety tends to arise during transitions and reflects difficulty adapting often related to losing safety and security for example called shoot you move away blah honestly the only reason that i have these thoughts because i'll watch like a stupid fucking tiktok and then i'll think about things and then i'll get in my head about things and i'll be like

oh my god what's the meaning of life and what's why why is the universe a bunch of emotions and feelings and experiences but for the most part i don't go through my day spiral spiraling about this like i'm not um i don't know like i blame tiktok i've been on this weird side of tiktok for too long and i need to get off of it because who gives a fuck just literally create your life however you want like do your best um like maintain your relationships like like be good to people maintain relationships whatever i mean develop meaningful relationships do all do everything that your heart little your little heart desires and live your dreams like that's rather than like trying to find the meaning to the universe just fucking send it

send it. That's all I have to say. That's what I'm going to do for the rest of my life. I got a golden retriever this year. I never, I wasn't prepared. I wasn't ready necessarily. I was just like, fuck it. I'm going to send it. I'm going to get a puppy. I didn't really premeditate the decision. I just said, oh, I really want a fucking dog. I really want a puppy. I really want my own golden retriever. And I got one and then I'm making it happen. And that's how life is. Like my most I find no matter what I do no matter what I get my get myself involved in I find success in it because I just make it happen I just figure it out I just put one little foot in front of the other and I execute like it could be anything yeah I've never nothing is too much

of a big deal or too crazy or too overwhelming because I just make it happen so yeah cool all right. What a weird episode, right? What a weird episode. Should I check the news? What's Biden doing today? Oh, God. I can't do CNN right now. Can I? Should I check it? Safest top headline today CNN safest activities for the fully vaccinated oh my god is this oh my god it's a movie dude this is just a fucking movie outdoor activities you can do without a mask okay the biggest joke of all time is Joe Biden's Instagram post. I said it. Joe. Let's go to Sleepy Joe's Instagram. God damn it. There's an ad. Biden. Is it POTUS? POTUS. Yeah. At POTUS. There's literally a picture and a graphic that he posted that says

why is this so fucking crazy to me I'm like is this real this is our president fully no wonder I'm like going crazy and this is a weird episode it's like this kind of shit makes me crazy full it says fully vaccinated people can go outdoors without a mask bitch what like okay so if you have the vaccine you can go outside without a mask now it's like i know we've been going without the mask outside this whole time like people aren't fucking who gives a shit i'm definitely and there's like what's the science like you can't get covid

outdoors anyways or in the open sunlight or i don't even know but i'm like that's a literal like that's a post from the president and now here i'm reading a news uh an article about safe activities for fully vaccinated people that uh without the face masks or whatever they can now do without face masks i gotta read this because it's going to be retarded outdoor activities you can do without a mask every activity outdoors bitch you can do every activity exercise outdoors alone or with members of your household attend a small outdoor gathering with fully vaccinated family and friends attend a small outdoor gathering with fully vaccinated and unvaccinated people interesting dine at an outdoor restaurant with friends from multiple

households bitch this is nothing everyone's been doing this this is so fucking stupid choosing safer activities unvaccinated people versus fully vaccinated people oh my god i'm talking i'm talking shit right now i'm watching me get covid i've been i've gone i've gone this whole time without it i've had a few scares but i'm not i've never had it that i know of maybe I had the uh what is it called when you get it but you don't have symptoms whatever oh my god indoor activities all require a mask okay visit a barber or hair salon go to an uncrowded indoor shopping center or museum right like the biggest joke and I'll never forget when I was on the plane

it's like so everyone's masked up on the plane until they hand out the snacks and beverages and then it's okay to take it off like how does that make any sense once I saw that and like honestly it my brain shut down with all this so much earlier than my plane ride home for for the holidays last year but like yeah once I saw that I'm like this is literal whore literal horse shit how many people like and also like I said this I was like how many people back when I think was it Florida and the beach yeah once like there's video on the news of the beaches in Florida where people were they weren't social distancing where they were just out there crowded like doing

whatever just like living life I'm like okay so and I get it it's all about like protecting other people and stopping the spread and whatever but like how many people ended up in a casket as a result how many of those people on the beach ended up in a casket you know what I mean like what the fuck you can't stop you can't prevent every death end of story and I think that's what I learned last year like it's as if we're trying to prevent every fucking death and there's so many risks every day of just being alive like getting a you know a piano falling on your head no like a car crash there's a better example or a heart attack or you know a bullet from a white police officer if you're black like there's so many ways to die every day so we can't

when death or now i'm seeing oh my god there's so many vaccine there's so much coming out about that vaccine like more let me read this um post this guy did the guy that um is it ian fitness something ian smith the guy that like never shut his gym down that that guy on instagram he posted this article he's like nothing to see here so i don't know what where this is where this is published um children children's health defense.org this is the source the the article says significant jump this week and reported injuries, deaths after COVID vaccine. VAERS data released today showed 118,902 reports of adverse events following COVID vaccines, including 3,544 deaths and 12,619 serious

injuries between December 14th 2020 and April 23rd 2021 and then he wrote of the 3,500 or this might be from the article of the 3,544 deaths reported 25% occurred within 48 hours of vaccination 17% occurred within 24 hours and 40% occurred and people who became ill within 48 hours after being vaccinated so like what so 3,500 people died of the 3,400 people a quarter of them died after 48 hours of the backs of getting the vaccine it's just interesting like I'm seeing a lot of okay so there's this then I'm seeing a lot of women there's like a Facebook group of irregular like people like women with irregular cycle uh problems now after getting the vaccine I don't know if that's like I feel like yeah there's like

women coming out saying or there's like young girls getting their periods now that have been vaccinated or like women that never had their period got it back and there's been miscarriages and weird shit happening with pregnancies and like I don't so I'm seeing all this shit come out and I'm like I don't know there's side effects with every drug like there's shit happens you know you can't but my point of saying this is like okay we can't prevent every death what was i saying about like last year taught me that it's as if you want they were trying to like keep everyone from dying and but then there's this it's like isn't one what was a comment a comment said like um i thought one death was too many that's what they were saying last year like one death

there's too many deaths someone commented we're literally killing one percent of healthy people to protect one percent of the vulnerable population because logic i don't know i'm not an anti-vaxxer or anything like that i'm just like trying to i'm just seeing a lot of shit come out about it that's negative i'm like holy fuck like is this population control is there mass sterilization is there infertility happening is there why are people dying of getting after two days of getting the vaccine like that's a legit statistic according to children'shealthdefense.org I feel like I need to know more I need to know like were these people on their way out I need ages I need to know if there were

other things happening with these people's health outside of just like oh I went over to the local I went over to a random parking lot at the at some stadium and got my arm injected and then two days later I died but I was otherwise a healthy person and everything was good like I don't oh I forgot this part there's three reports of deaths among

teens under age 18 including two 15 year olds and one 16 year old who died unexpectedly from a blood clot 11 days after receiving their first Pfizer dose fuck oh god so moral of the story is try to just keep yourself alive I I don't know it's a weird it's a weird time and you know I've been kind of

this this episode I'm gonna end it because I'm just like okay I just read safe activities for the fully vaccinated like I was going to check the news and I read that and I went on a tangent but um you know as much as I get discombobulated and I don't know my ideas go all over the place on this podcast I'm I think at the end at the end of the day this is such a strange time compared to any other time I've lived and I think I'll like look back at this and I'll be glad that I put my skin in the game and got and contributed to the conversation going on the world and contribute contributed my ideas and my raw like you know in the moment unfiltered thoughts about it because like

I don't know it's a it's a cool time to document um like current event or document like talk about current events and shit so anyways um I don't even know what I said today this was one of the most fucked up episodes I think I've ever recorded what did I did I talk about wait I talked about um oh my god I'm a podcast host I had like a moment of realizing that like I'm really doing this, and then I think I talked about non-places, yeah, non-places, and then I talked about the universe, right, and what it, the meaning of life and shit, and DMT, I did that, and then I talked about COVID and the vaccine I think yeah now I'm here right is that it

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