The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 327- I Hate This.

Episode Date: December 7, 2022

MERRY EVERYTHING HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!😂🎄😂🎄😂🎄😂🎄

What's up, guys? It's episode 327. Welcome back to the show. happy holidays hi happy december happy um whatever you celebrate marry everything um shit hi welcome back to the show it's Jacqueline thanks for being here let's do a podcast I'm I'm fired up there's a lot going on um as always as always there's a lot of updates um for you for this show or to tell you um let me get comfortable I'm not comfortable right now I guess I'll start off with the current situation I'm going through in my life right now and how I'm feeling about it and um what's going on uh there's always something right so as you know

I've moved in to Corey my boyfriend's apartment I'm no longer no longer living um, I'm living close. Let's just say, I don't want to say where I live, but I used to live closer to this down the downtown area of San Diego. Now I'm closer to the beach up north a little bit. And yeah, I moved in here. He's got a dog. I have a dog. He has Louie, an English bulldog. I have Jimmy, the golden retriever. Um, basically the current situation I'm going through is I have I'm unable to move my neck because of Louie I can't move my neck I haven't had a kink of my neck this bad since uh who the fuck I don't even know when and last night he wet the bed and I have a lot of empathy for that because I as you know if you've listened the

podcast before I've done an entire I think it was a few episodes ago titled my biggest accident I I was a former bed wetter. I have a lot of empathy for people and animals that wet the bed, but shit, he wet the bed last night at like three in the morning. And I was trying to be polite and, or I don't think the word is polite. I was trying to be, I was, he was basically big spooning me all night and we, we don't really let him sleep in the bed, but last night he was whining. So we let him come up and I let him big spoon me. And it was to the point where I'm like on the edge of the bed, no covers. Cause if I pull the covers, he's going to move and roll over and wake up. So I'm just stiff as a board on the side of the bed. And for some reason, the way I slept created

some sort of circulation problem. I don't really understand what kink, neck kinks are, but I woke up and now I can't move my neck because of Louie. And he also wet the bed. So I'm also, so the other current situation is I'm running a laundromat laundromat today um we have this king-size down comforter that takes this is if you're pro earth if you're pro the environment if you're pro um doing things the most eco-friendly way please this is not um this is not going to sound that that cute it takes I'd say six to seven tumbles for an hour at the highest heat for that comforter to fully uh dry I should probably dangle it off the balcony outside and let it air dry now that I'm thinking about it actually I already thought about this is like a run-on

my podcast is one run-on goddamn sentence I need to breathe I did think about it earlier and then I thought how tacky that would look and how like it we're not in it that's not what we do here I don't know what I'm saying that just gives me like it just makes me feel like poor I don't know that sounds so but like growing up we had a fucking clothesline I grew up out in the in the country everyone had a clothesline you hung up your your laundry on the clothesline and that was like nothing wrong with that but here in this like bougie part of town to like drape my fucking comforter off my balcony I don't know why I have I I've changed like what the fuck I should just do that and like yeah

conserve some energy save on the fucking heating or electricity bill this month but anyways I'm I got a kink in my neck that my English bulldog wet the bed at three in the morning uh I'm running a laundromat. What else is happening? Um, yeah. So I also have like all the other sheets and the comforter cover, what's it called? The duvet cover to do. And anyways, so that's what's going on today. I'm exhausted. It's, um, yeah. Uh, also in news about me and my life, I'm moving out of my old apartment and it's a fucking shithole back there. Okay. I had a fumigation company come through like what was that a month ago and I'm not sure if you're familiar or if this has ever happened to you before I'm not sure if you're familiar with what fumigation is but essentially

a company comes in to your building and put I don't know what kind of chemicals they put out but they blast the place with chemicals to kill termites and you have to package everything up you have to like take your plants out you have to like triple I don't even know they gave us these like special bags and I triple bagged everything and you have to leave for two days and it's a shithole now like I don't know what it was about that fumigation but now when I go back to my apartment smells it smells weird all my plants are dead I forgot to take them out so all my plants are like hanging on for dear life. Like they have all brown leaves except like one green leaf left. Um, the entire outside of my building, my nice beautiful apartment, uh, has

been all the plants, all the landscaping has been ripped up. It looks like a fucking prison. I drove by there. Um, last weekend I went to this Christmas bash extravaganza, like San Diego Balboa park tree lighting fucking see the care see the opera people singing carols on the stage um thing and I drove by my apartment it looked like a fucking it was so dreary dreary so basically what I've been doing is every weekend I've been slowly packing shit up putting it in my car driving it up here repeat repeat um because I don't know I could I could do like the whole hire a moving company thing but I I don't know I'm just doing it this way I like it's whatever I like it's just it makes sense um for me and the flow of like how

my weekend goes so yeah every time I walk in it's like that was my cute little apartment right like if you've seen if you follow me for a while if you've seen this podcast on video you see my little cute studio like it's a cute place but now it's like it smells like you know that smell when you walk into a like an old house and no one's like maybe someone lives there it's like it's got a scent and yeah it's kind of depressing that when I go back um that's kind of that's been like my weekends hauling shit back and forth um selling furniture I'm selling you guys this is this breaks my heart. Um, let me take a sip of water. I have this beautiful mirror. It's a floor to ceiling mirror. It's like six feet wide by eight feet tall. It's got a big black frame. I've had it for,

I got it in like 2019, I think. I've had it forever, or not forever. I've had it for a few years and I'm selling it and I really don't want to sell it, but I also really don't want to move it. So I had to decide on something and I I'm getting rid of it. A lady's picking it up on Sunday. So that big, beautiful mirror that I'm so attached to is going bye-bye. And, um, that's what's making me, and that like, that's kind of, it's honestly like she's, I said, okay, deal today on the price. I texted the lady back and then I got really, really sad after like, oh shit, I shouldn't be doing this I should put that in storage because at our apartment here now I mean honestly there's a wall this is the thing I'm fucking Martha Stewart in here right we got

a Christmas tree got garland garland is that what it's called garland yeah the little green uh tree branchy stuff that you drape over furniture and like the um what's it called a the banister on a staircase in a home like during Christmas time yeah garland am I saying that right yeah I'm making this place a home okay and there's a fucking okay I won't swear I'm looking at right now there's a there's like a home goods basic bitch painting that's not it's nice but everyone's got it right it's a it's a you know I'm looking at maybe four feet wide six feet tall it's a good size it's on the wall I want to put the mirror okay I've lost that fight I'm not even gonna put up a fight about putting the mirror there it's like it's over it's done I just got

I proposed the idea to Corey and I think he's like Jacqueline it's too big it's too heavy just like get rid of it we'll buy a new one at the new place like so yeah I'm looking there I'm like that's a great selfie spot it's got a good background okay if I was to take a picture there um it's not happening guys it's unfortunately the mirror's going away um yeah like what else the apartment's just it's a shit box Corey calls it the flea bag whenever he jokes around he's like like we don't fight literally at all like I could get into that I mean I could get into us I could get into like the fucking beauty of our relationship but like we we joke around a lot and then he go he'll make jokes like oh do you want to go back to

the flea bag or um oh honey do you need your space you want to go back to the flea bag that's what we call it now um because I went over there to last weekend to clear some stuff out and there was a centipede or some like crazy looking bug in my white bedding on my bed there and they're like there's dead bugs just it's so gross um I think I oh wait what else about the apartment I don't know why I'm going going on and on about this yeah it's weird I like didn't I planned on moving this year like I wanted to get my own um own apartment similar to the one I'm in now like a big loft style open concept um like what's it called floor plan with high ceilings good lighting I was gonna do that and then I met Corey and then now I moved in but

life's crazy guys. Oh my God. Like what the hell? Um, it's been like, what? We're on our seventh month now. Guys, it's not, it's not that, um, I've moved in faster than this. The fastest I've moved in with a guy was literally, I think two or three weeks. So it's right. It's, it feels right this is my this is my new home it doesn't feel rushed i know there's a lot of i was telling cory this too i was like are you aware of the studies and the research about people that cohabitate before marriage and how that the divorce rate of people that cohabitate first and move in together is astronomically higher than people that wait until after they're married and it's just like it's not that doesn't all that shit it doesn't apply to us we're just

but we're well it's like two unicorns that found each other seriously like just we're I feel really lucky I think we both do we talk about all the time like what the how is it like Louie okay the the um his dog the bulldog every time I say Louie it's it's the bulldog the the brown one um like the other night he didn't shit in the bed what did he do he pissed in the so he's got he's a puppy he's learning how to he's in he's in training and he fully pissed the bed right before we were about to go to sleep and no one yelled no one's i would he wasn't like coming at me and freaking out i wasn't going after him he yelled at the dog in the funny way he does it go listen last episode if you want to hear that he gave him a good talking okay and took him out and

then I just stripped the bed put it put stripped the bedding put it in the wash wash machine and made the bed and then boom boom he came back inside the bed was made it's done there's no fighting there's no it's just the way we handle things is so like it's so easy going and nothing's ever like a crisis or we never freak out about anything especially with the dogs like Louie has had also in dog pissing and shitting life updates he's had chronic diarrhea for like four or five days now and because we switched him to new food and he has left I got him a new dog bed at Pet Smart and it's nice right and the the first night I got it he shit there's we woke up in the morning to three I don't know if anyone out there knows what cow shit looks like it's very specific it's

not solid it's like a pile of mush we woke up to three cow shit piles on that new dog bed and then the next day that happened and then the next day that happened and then I think it's been like four or five days of that and then on the on the last day it happened there's only one pile and you might be saying like why why isn't he at the vet does he have a c-diff i think that's what that's called is he like is he okay um everything's fine he's good now we switched him back to his old food um you know i remember when i switched jimmy to new food for the first time he was potty trained at that point so he didn't have accidents inside at all um every time i took him out for like three weeks he was squirting so I was like well he's got his his the digestive enzymes are just they're

adjusting and it's gonna take a while until it gets solid and I I honestly I that's all is that um animal abuse I don't know I just let him because you know what he that probably felt good those kind of shit sometimes they feel good like it's it maybe his stomach hurt all day the one I didn't know, fuck, okay, what was I on, oh, oh, just the dog peeing and shitting, oh, how we handle stuff, yeah, okay, we got a Christmas tree, that's another life update, we got a noble fir, and it's beautiful, we, there's a tree lot, like, two blocks from us, and we showed up there and I had it in my head that we're going to get like a little Charlie Brown tree, like a little rinky dink, tiny tree. That's like four feet high. But we ended up,

I saw one that was like, and I'm looking at it right now that was hung right. Like there's gotta be, it's gotta have a whimsical hang. If you're going, okay. If you're going for a Douglas fir, that's a different story if you're going for a blue spruce a pine um a frazier it's a different story but when it's a noble fir there's a subtle difference between a whimsical noble fir and then like a uh a stiff one and this one's the the tree we ended up getting stood out to me because the branches are kind of like gently like they're kind of like relaxed the branches look relaxed and I like that so it's probably seven or eight feet tall um and the lighting setup okay so we we got some lights from his mom because we didn't have any here

I wanted colored lights and she had some so um anyways we put the lights on the tree and it's a joke like okay I'm looking at it right now the only lights that are on that are working it's like a little on the top there's like four twinkling in the middle and then the whole base is lit up but everything else is not the circuits are the I think I blew a fuse I actually blew a few before this episode um I was this is a run-on sentence are you having this is a lot of wow this is a dump this is a brain dump um wow I know what's happening right now it's just I'm purging I'm talking in like one it's like a flow it's like coming out of my brain in like one there's like a rhythm a rhythm to this am I monotone yes I feel I feel very monotone this episode

um I blew a fuse before this episode because my little robot floor cleaner thing um picked up some of the I mean we have a pile like the ones that aren't working the like the tree lights aren't working there's like a pile behind the tree and the robot vacuum like got stuck in it and then it yanked it and then I saw a big like spark like it was gonna catch fire and then the kitchen light shut off so I blew a fuse and then yeah um I found the breaker box I was like looking around I'm like this is this is a nice place I'm sure the breaker box is somewhere inside I don't know why I just had that I had a feeling and there was a we have a mirror in the bedroom and it was behind the mirror so I did a little one two click click and it everything

turned back on um I won't miss that at my old apartment it was the breaker boxes outside and if I was running a hair dryer in the microwave at the same time because I don't know what would I run at the same time that it was like a common thing where I'd always blow a fuse it was always like the hair dryer and then something in the kitchen yeah but I'd have to go outside and unlock something and it's just a whole shit shit storm we have a garbage chute here oh my god at my old apartment i had to go to the dumpster out behind behind back behind the back of it and uh it would light up like if it was nighttime the the spotlights what are those lights called those outdoor lights. I feel like they have a name. Those lights would come on and

like blast you. So everyone knew you were like throwing garbage out. Cause we had a homeless person. Uh, we had a, we had homeless people trying to, they'd like go through the garbage outside. So, um, I think that was, Oh yeah. And it was installed. That's another thing I won't miss. One of those lights is, uh, one of those spotlights is directly in, it goes directly into my bedroom window so at night um not like the blackout curtains weren't even doing it it was still like it's still the light was still getting through from that that spotlight so um but yeah you'd have to go out back and uh put a code on the there was like a little lock um what's it called a padlock on the dumpster and you'd have to do the the code to throw the garbage out but now here

now I've got a garbage chute down the hall which is so convenient and I don't throw garbage out um ever Cory's obsessed with throwing the garbage away like oh my god like every I swear like we fill up a garbage pretty fast here um and yeah it's just like are you good like you just threw it out and he's he's like no I like it to be I like it to be emptied it never gets it's like always like three quarters full and then he'll dump he'll dump it but um I hate throwing garbage away and I told him that so now he doesn't he doesn't like doing dishes and I I like doing dishes so I do dishes and um he doesn't actually the other night he did do them and that was that was kind of a good time because I knew he was hating it and I was like

just for, just once do it. You know what I mean? Just once. Um, I think I was just tired that day and I'm always working. Like when you, I mean, I'm taking care of a home now. Like I, I'm taking care of not only myself, but another person. And I'm always working. It's like, you know, especially with the whole, like I've been meal prepping out. I went to Costco on Sunday and I'm trying to set him up for success, set myself up for success. Should I talk slower? Um, with the, with the diet, meaning like what we eat for breakfast. What am I saying? Holy shit. Okay. The always working thing is like, I just find myself, it's like 9 PM. It's usually before that. Let's say like eight and I'm, I'm still wiping counters down. Okay. I'm still putting

dishes in the dishwasher. I'm still taking loads of laundry out and like I'm faffing. Is that the word? I'm like doing a faff. I'm just tidying. I'm wiping. I'm prepping things for the next day. I'm just like, I'm in motion. Okay. And then I'm taking my dog out one last time. I got to go down the fucking elevator or the stairs to get him outside. We don't have a yard here. Taking him out it's just like a lot of movement towards the end of the day where I'm like okay like I'm done I need to stop working Corey's always like that's another thing we joke about he's like always working always working um but I love it this is like my dream like I love I'm a I'm a homebody like I've always been that way but it's fun to share that with someone else and I guess we're

playing house is that what is that what Jimmy did you eat my envelope for my jury dude jury dude jury duty. Oh my God. She just short circuited. Um, hold on. I'm moving my laptop. Is that my jury duty envelope? Oh fuck. Well, we're not returning the piano. Um, or I guess that doesn't matter. It's a guitar center piano receipt. Um, okay. He'd shoot that up. Yeah. I got summoned for jury duty and other life update. I think it's in like a few days and I haven't said anything. I don't know how it works. Can I just not show? I don't know. Did they come after you? Shit. Um, yeah, that's, that's crazy. I got a, it was at the flea bag. I checked my mail there cause I haven't changed my mail yet. And it was like the court of San

Diego County or something. It was like, you've been summoned. I think it's what's the date today? yeah I think it's the next week fuck I don't know what to do I'm like I don't know I should look it up I should actually read it I should actually I opened it I read a few things I saw the date but I should actually read like can you appeal can you get out of it somehow does that date get moved um I hope so like I hope it yeah so um but yeah I'm a home I'm a home body I get to share oh I know what I was saying if I was time out hold on this is a mid-show time out I do this all the time I don't I'm not gonna shit on myself right now I was about to say if I was listening right now I'd be so annoyed but I honestly think it's it's good when you're a solo podcast host

if you can just keep it moving the whole time I know it's like I'm a chatterbox today but like I'm keeping it moving I'm proud of that um but it's a lot you know what I mean it's a lot so yeah like I'm we're playing house back to that we're playing house before marriage and whatever um so oh I saw something about being a pick-me-girl because I think I'm a pick-me-girl type like I feel like the way I my vibe is like pick me and I saw this TikTok and these two women were like that's a good thing like you do want you want to be picked like isn't that like why is it a bad thing to want to conduct yourself in a way that attracts a partner into your life isn't that what we're trying to do here like you know so when I say shit like I'm Betty Crocker

i love cooking for a man and taking care like i literally sent cory off with a fucking lunch pail today with his meal god damn meal prep okay a meal prepped for him when i say shit like that it's like that's not that isn't that like that's a positive thing i i feel like the pick me girl um after i watched that tiktok i was like damn i got influenced to think that being a pick me girl is like a negative I don't know there's some piece there's some cringiness to being a pick me girl though I do I do get that and I maybe I'm I don't fucking care um secret of happiness and I see I saw Reese Witherspoon quote and she said it too everyone that's like successful and it's fucking they figured it out they all say the same shit the second you stop worrying about what

other people think of you you're free and I'm there so like whatever I'm a pick me girl I own it. Okay. Um, so where's that? Costco. Is that Costco? Yeah. I bought my fucking, I spent so much money at Costco. Oh my God. Food prices are going up. I bought a pack of chicken from the Costco meat section. And I think a year ago when I went, I have a great episode called looking hot. It's go find the episode titled looking hot at Costco. I think that's, that's a fun one. I do remember recording that and thinking that was a good episode. Um, it's called looking hot at Costco. I'm not sure what number it is, but find it. If you want to listen to me in a, in a, when I was single and looking, thinking I was a hot bitch pushing a car through

the goddamn that's so pick me um yeah but like a year ago I bought a pack of chicken I think it was like 24 bucks for a like the big pack of chicken breasts and it was like 36 the same size package I was like okay all right okay all right uh is there there's a chicken okay here's a chicken shortage right there's like a lot of shortages um i'm just happy to be here i know there's a lot of bad things going on in the world right now i'm just happy to be here i'm making the most out of it i try to ignore the noise and the bullshit and the in the the circus happening i know there's a lot like i haven't mentioned kanye west i know i haven't mentioned kanye yet i know that's like a hot topic right now balenciaga's in deep shit okay

I know Elon's doing some things on Twitter with like Hunter Biden's laptop um he's like exposing whatever that was there's there's stuff there's some top there's some hot topics I could go into but like my I'm just I don't I don't fucking care it's always a circus always a circus I'll get back to Costco but on this um on this topic or whatever I was on the phone with my brother um and his girlfriend a few days ago and we were talking he was going on about Elon and Twitter and I'm like just we were talking about it and they were kind of debating and I was moderating it basically like they were kind of discreet and I was just like look Robert the older I get the more I realize like I'm not going to solve all the world's problems and the older I get the more I

realize like every single day of the year for my whole life there's going to be something there's going to be drama there's going to be chaos there's going to be corruption there's going to be greed there's gonna be a Kanye there's gonna be a Balenciaga doing shady shit with kids and whatever that is you know like it never ends like my entire life has been that way so I try not to zero in too much on it and like because at this point for me the online news world is like a movie and pure entertainment I'm never surprised I'm never like oh my god I can't believe that happened I'm like, of course it did. It's always something. It's just, it's always something. And this accelerated, like especially accelerated after, um, or during the pandemic, it seemed like

the world got real like strange and weird then. And then all the news post the pandemic has also just been what the, like, like Elon Musk on Twitter. And like, it's just so weird. Everything's fucking weird Kanye get like doing this career suicide shit with praising the Nazis and Hitler like what you know so I just try to stay I keep I keep my finger on the pulse but I don't deep dive too much where I'm like you know spending hours reading and watching and like you know getting too mentally um involved because it's just not it's not good it's not good the all the it's like we're our brains are so jumbled right now fuck it's so true like especially if you're scrolling social media one one story you're

on a dog playing with a ball the next story someone's grandma died the next story you're watching a video of a new piece of technology that's gonna um i don't know make shitting more what am i saying about shitting being more pleasurable why did that even i said that earlier about i i'm that my brain just brought that up because of what i said earlier i don't know that wasn't technology making you less constipated sure you know there's just and then you go to the next one and then it's like a new movie's coming out it's just we're scatterbrained as fuck no one's present no one's fucking present anymore like and I attempt it like I'll read a book before bed here and there and I'm like I feel good I feel I feel here right now I feel

I feel good I'm like I put my toes in the sand last night on the beach no phone no podcast I'm like I'm grounding I know this is good for me I know I'm getting these earth ions or whatever the fuck you know pulsating through my body right now I know this is good for my immune system I know this is like but I was processing that in my brain the whole time because I've I've just maxed out all the human optimization fucking Ben Greenfield podcasts out there and you know I'm like think like I couldn't even just put my toes in the sand and put my toes in the sand I'm thinking of that the whole time but I'm proud of myself I was you know attempting to unplug at the beach last night and not have any stimulation with my phone or whatever um so yeah but like it

it's crazy like I just we're not it's like weird in my head I'm like my dream life is to just not be a little like like it's like a fly on shit with my phone I consciously think about it and I and I'm better I feel like now that I live with someone for some reason it's helping me like not be on my phone so much like I think the more you're doing things in life the less you're on your phone if that makes sense like yeah you might be out in an event or on vacation taking pictures but I don't know the more busy I get the less I'm on my phone so that's helping, but why did I get on this topic? What time is it? Okay. Um, you get my point. Um, it's

like, it seems like, wow, what a life, you know? And then it's like, not that hard, right? Just don't go on your phone. Just don't be on social media nonstop all day. And then it's like easier seven done we're fucked we're okay we all know this um i did hear gary v quote back in like 2010 that was like don't fight it don't fight reality like we can't fight reality and the reality is we're all um you know on our socials all day and we're all like watching people's lives unfold on their stories and we're constantly keeping up with you know everything anyone and everything on I'm picking is it okay you know we're doing we're doing that now and it's just like okay according to Gary Vee we should just we should embrace it instead of fight it and I'm like well

there's a tipping point there is a tipping point where you're like am I this is not good okay I'll bring up Corey again I know we it's like okay it's my boyfriend I talk about him a lot like a few what's today we've like laid in bed together before we put on netflix and then at some point he might grab his phone like and he's like you're not into this are you and i'm like not really and then he'll grab his phone and then i'll grab my phone we're literally watching TikToks next to each other on like the volume up for like an hour and we're on our we'll go to Instagram for like like just we'll be in silence we won't even be talking to each other we'll be laying next to each other in a bed in the same room doing that and we're I'm like cool

with it I'm like I'm having fun are you having fun I'm entertaining you're entertaining okay cool yeah this is great I'll look watch this one we'll laugh together at a TikTok and then we'll go back to our own little rabbit hole and it's just like what the fuck um it's not always like that but I've noticed that a few times recently where like is this we'll like we'll like look over at each other like holy shit we just did that it's addictive as fuck okay um what other things do I have on here I have a little note oh I'm going to Washington for Christmas um I really want to go back to Mammoth I want to go skiing um we might do that in like January and then Montana in like February skiing in Whitefish so it's gonna be fun we're staying in a sprinter van

so my we're going home for Christmas Corey and I Corey's me he's going home he's already met the family but he's um going with me and my aunt has a sprinter van and we're gonna we're gonna park that in the driveway at my mom's house and that's where we're staying which is gonna be funny as fuck it's gonna be like camping um it's really nice so she has like I don't know what the style is but like the inside looks like it's like look luxury or whatever like it has a I think there's like a bathroom in it and like a kitchen and a full bed and it looks yeah it's really nice so going to Washington um Montana Mammoth um I wrote down on my note the history of toilet paper why did I write that I don't know

am I done was this a good episode am I like winding down here Jimmy's asleep um oh I um I'll talk about like working out I guess I just hip thrusted 455 pounds a couple days ago and I'm proud of that um golf swings kind to, eh, haven't been able, like, now I'm fucked because of my neck, like, I wanted to go the range tonight, it's probably not going to happen, yeah, my neck is so stiff, yeah, my golf swing, like, I just need to put the downswing together, I need to, like, feel my hips and my arms do their thing the right way a few times, and I feel like I'll, it'll click and then I'll be good but um yeah my golf oh my god okay another in fitness and sports and all that

um and in those updates oh my god literally I look like an astronaut going to space right now if you could see me I'm sitting in my work chair like my this is not like this is for some reason this feels good on my neck. My knees and my feet are like a 90 degree angle. My back's on the chair. My neck's like pushed forward. I'm sorry. Um, but I've, I shot, okay. I went over to my, I went over to a friend's house like a week or so ago and he has a basketball hoop there. And like, okay, let me sit up. The last time I remember I shot a basketball, i used to play basketball like from i think i started playing in fifth grade and then i did like um what's it called a aau i did that and then i played in high school um i was like a point guard

shooter um that's how they're called now like forward what the fuck i i played basketball don't even know what the position was. I was a, yeah, it was like a point guard. Um, I called out the plays, pass the ball, whatever. So yeah, the last time I picked up a basketball, I think it was at a, uh, at a 24 hour fitness here in San Diego, like the year I first moved and it wasn't, it was like, I couldn't, nothing was working. Like I had no depth perception. It hurt. Like I couldn't get the ball felt too heavy like I was I couldn't I was it was like airball every time my form was horrible and I don't know why but when I went over to this house and I picked up the basketball and it was a 10 foot hoop like it was not like lower or anything it doesn't even

matter how high it was it was like shit I'm back everything was like oh little jump shot no issues forms on point um dribbling was good I was like the finesse was back it was so weird I'm like how did this how does the body like a couple years ago I shoot a basketball and I'm like nope I don't got it anymore and then now I'm like three-pointer no issue yeah it was fun I love I got like and this is the thing about me oh my god and same with like ping pong I played so it was what did I say um weightlifting killing it uh golf killing it sure um not really working on it basketball killing it um ping pong what I'm saying is I am an athlete I'm very athletic and I feel like I'm one of those people that's like good at everything

I can't believe I just said that I want you know what it is I want to be one of those people that's like whatever i do i'm good at it you know especially with sports like i feel like i'm just good at shit like i um there's this family member i went to the cory's thanksgiving um this year and i think his uncle i forget who he was he was like every year he like brings his ping pong gear and like special paddle and cory and him duel and like play ping pong and like that's like their thing every year and I I beat him and I don't think I've played ping pong since like I don't know like a couple years and I don't practice I'm not but I beat I was like you know what I mean and I was obsessive the other thing I want to get in and get into especially with

ping pong and basketball two things I haven't done in a long time is I get like like with playing basketball the other night I was like I want to be I want I don't want to leave I don't want to leave I just want to play I want to play for like it was like 9 p.m. I could have been there until midnight and I don't know what part of my brain that is but I get like okay once I feel like I'm decent at something especially when it comes to sports I'm like okay I'm all in I gotta like keep keep it going keep it moving because it's fun it's fun when you're good at something and I think that's that's why I'm saying that because if I sucked if I my form sucked if I wasn't able to like you know hit the ball back and forth while at ping pong and if you know if

I'm missing constantly it wouldn't be fun but it's fun when you're good and I and I'm good at everything so um I'm fully fucking tooting my own horn right now and I it's like I'm joking but like not you know what I mean like some people you're like they're just good at everything I think I'm one of those people like I'm good at maybe it's I'm good at a lot of things and I think whatever um multifaceted holy shit I don't know um you everyone knows someone that's like that I think I think I'm like that that's cool that's like shouldn't we I maybe I'm strong I strive for that I put in work I try

um I'm also just naturally gifted at things maybe that's what it is thanks mom and dad okay um both my parents are super athletic so how fucking arrogant and cocky do I sound right now holy shit holy shit um that was yeah the most cocky arrogant narcissistic full of shit um speech I've ever given about myself about being good at everything like who the fuck am I right now it's a self-esteem thing like I and I mentioned this a lot I and maybe this isn't appealing to people that like, I mean, if you hang out with me and meet me for the first time, it's not like I'm popping off like this. It's me here on my podcast, talking myself up because this is how I've

overcome all of my, and again, I've talked about this so many times, my low self-esteem, my depression, my hating on myself, personality type, like, and I promote this. I'm like, I don't think there's anything wrong with that and I think I maybe it's from watching and observing other people I think there's a lot of like melodramatic like like sad like people on the internet that come and complain and talk about how they're going through it and everything sucks and they're on their journey of healing and it's like it never ends you know what I mean and I just want to double down and like, focus on what I'm good at and hype myself up about that. And that's all I'm doing. Like, I got a great, I got a good jump shot. Okay. I'm not going to sit here and play it

down. Fuck that. You know what I mean? Like, I think that's, I'm trying to promote that. Like, if you're good at something, pat yourself on the back, um, be your own best friend, be your own cheerleader, cheerleader. Um, that's how you get over in my experience. And I can only speak from my experience um that's how you get over um being down about yourself and not being impressed by yourself and not proud of yourself like I just started yeah hyping myself up and and verbalizing because that's my show's like an audio diary I verbalize I'm doing this and I'm happy about that and I feel good about that I'm proud of that I do this and this is what's going on in my life and oh my god the other week I and then it's like oh shit okay I don't suck Jimmy come here

he's running in circles right now it's kind of cute you're you're good okay um does that make sense like but when I list off things that I you know that's a good that here's a thought for you um ask yourself I think okay wait what's the right way to ask or put this in a question what are you good at what do you suck at what was easier to come up with or what's the right um what do you what yeah what are you good at and what do you suck at and then ask like what what's easier do you know what I mean I feel like for most people it's easier to like list off things you're not great at than like what you're good at or it was harder for me if I asked myself that in the past it'd be harder for me to say what

I'm good at because I didn't think I was good at anything so yeah that's what I'm getting to um but I'm not all about those like positive affirmations and looking in the mirror and chanting and fucking writing sticky notes everywhere and putting them everywhere in your house like I don't think you need to go those I don't whatever works for you do it but like for me it's just it was a pot I created a podcast back in 2020 when I was literally down and out depressed as fuck nothing going on and yeah I started talking about my life and sharing stories and the outcome of that is I'm kicking ass in life right now and I'm happy and I'm up and I'm proud of what I who I am and you know what I've done with my life now so

um yeah kumbaya amen what does kumbaya even mean um I think I saved some stuff on social media in my save tab on Instagram maybe to talk about i don't know um san francisco police can now kill people with robots okay that's a topic for i mean i could go into that oh this is crazy a 28 year old man fell from a cruise ship sometime it left sometime after it left the port of new orleans on november 23rd he was found alive in the gulf of mexico on thanksgiving day he had treaded water for hours with standing rain winds and waves before being rescued holy shit

that's scary i don't fuck with the ocean i meet a lot of surfers in the sauna and shit here in like at the gym there's like a surfer gang that comes in every morning and they're always talking about surfing and shit and like they'll talk about like what they you know the shark encounter or anything like, like fish, seals, dolphins. And I'm just like, nope, not for me. And they always are like, oh yeah, you should jump in. It's a, it's a beautiful day. You should just come in. And now, you know, after the sauna, it feels great. Like I'll dip my toes. Like I'll go waist deep. That's it. I'm just, I'm not adventurous in the ocean. Um, I literally moved to San Diego to be close to the beach and in the nice weather, but I didn't move here to

like be in the water. I knew coming in, like, I don't, I'm not going to be a surfer girl. I'm not going to be like I'll lay on the beach I'll wade in the water you know where it's it seems safe even though like who knows what's under there um and that's it and I'm cool with that like I'm not a face my fears type of chick um when it comes to my physical safety and I just look at everything like you got a 50 50 chance of survival I'm like uh surfing 50 50 chance of survival I know that's not statistically like I get I know but my brain is like okay skydiving your diner you're living um bungee jumping diving or living um what other crazy adventurous things do people do I can't fucking believe I hiked 50 miles in the middle

of nowhere last year with a backpack on me and just a can of bear spray I didn't I had a pocket night actually like no bear guns no one had a bear gun nothing no like no like nothing just i can't believe i did now i'm like how the fuck so i guess that was facing my fears because i do have a fear of like bears in the wilderness um even though here in the sierras where it hiked it's like black bears and they don't really fuck with people um anyways yeah i wish i don't wish I think it's cool if you're like a daredevil and you try extreme things what's with people on these slack lines okay that's the one I'm like no I don't understand I do not and shout out to Jay Alvarez um I don't really know who he is but I follow him on Instagram I feel like he's an OG

Instagram dude who like uh like influencer and he like did like model photography like shot bunch of pictures of I don't know he's like living in Hawaii jumping out of planes all the time and now he's slacklining and every now and then he'll post his little slackline videos and then he's like the most recent one he's like um he posted something like countdown the days to Columbia or he's going somewhere to slackline I'm like oh my god it's the one for me I just cannot I'm like I will not watch I do not understand how do you walk across a like two between two cliffs with nothing under you like I don't I don't know I guess that's when you feel the most alive right when you when you could easily die or if you miss a step um you know so

yeah what else oh the guy oh the guy that fell out of the cruise ship um i think my um sorry i'm on my instagram looking at stuff i saved oh shit so hope you enjoyed this episode I guess I'll wrap it this felt like a good chunk of time I'm I'll talk about like where the night's gonna go um and what's happening later after I stop recording uh and I kind of want to talk about the meal prep a meal prep Corey oh my god like

a week ago he's like because he knows about how I like before we live together how at my place I cook for myself all the time I meal prep I like have my shit together in the kitchen like that he knows about that so he wants me to do it for him so he can go go to work and like have you know nicely made proportion meals all day and like it's not we're not counting macros here we're just eating eating good food and um it's like a week ago he talks he told me about like oh I want to I want you to I want to do that or I want you to do that and so um I don't know like a week went by and I hadn't gone to the store we'd eaten out at restaurants a few times like I don't know we were like buying we were making dinner here a couple times but like it wasn't

the full-on meal prep situation yet and I okay it's at the point now where I tell you all the time how hard he makes me laugh it's at the point now where I'm like peeing I'm actually I've peed my pants from how much from how hard I've laughed the other day he comes out of the bathroom I don't know he like showered he's like on the way to work and what did he say he goes honey where's the meal prep and just him saying it in the way he says it and just that little quick phrase but just if you god it's hard to like put into words or like you had you have you had to be there and like it's not funny unless you're like I'm his girlfriend so of course it's funny to me um he's like honey where's the meal where's the meal prep I'm waiting for the meal

and i died so i was laughing so i've collapsed i collapsed i he was cracking my back the other night i was like honey i almost i almost shit my pants okay i did i did shit and i he went it was uncontrollable laughter i my i was like i could see in the mirror my head my veins i've never seen my veins in my head pop out when i laugh those were popping i'm i peed a little bit when crack on my back make me laugh I peed a little bit and then I almost shit myself so it's fun you know what that's how a relationship should be like that or it's not in my opinion in my experience Jesus Christ I've had the exact opposite like in my for me this is what this is my kryptonite dying laughing having laugh attacks with your partner is like

every single day what did he wake up and say this morning i know what you said it's like no one cares jacqueline just fucking shut up um i had a kink in my neck and i had i've never seen him laugh so hard because i woke up and i couldn't move and like honey of a kink it's really bad can you like rub it and he was uncontrollably laughing because as you know if you listen to last few episodes he blew his back out a few like a month ago and I had to take care of him he was like bedridden and so this whole like the last month has been me caring for him and his ailments and like now the table turned okay and my next kinked and he's like honey he's like um you should download the app and the app is the program he's

using to like work on his low back anyways it was just so fucking funny um yeah I'm I feel blessed I mean shit again like laughter is the best medicine I think dancing and laughter cures anything like I know that's like a white girl quote like an Instagram bio but it's true it's truly like I could have like some days I'm like not feeling great or whatever like I'm on my period. I got cramps. He'll make me laugh. I'm like, I feel great. It fixes it. So, um, oh my God, it's, well, I don't want to get into that. What was I going to talk about to wrap the episode? Oh, tonight he canceled his piano lesson. I might tell any of the minuscule details. He's practicing. He's learning piano. Okay. Um, he'll be home in like an hour,

but um uh the meal prep so what did i make do we care i did like two big sheets of sweet potatoes roasted roasted brussel sprouts um i did like this barbecue chicken uh in a pot chicken breast and then i did slow cooked chicken breast um, in my crock pot with like Mexican spices. So it's kind of got like a pulled chicken, like Mexican vibe to it. Um, I did some mushrooms, um, cook some mushrooms. I don't know why I'm telling you this, but last night, oh my God, it's like literally Monday. Right. And I sent him off with his food. He's like, I feel so great. I feel like, wow this this food's awesome thank you honey oh my god he's like can you bake those cupcakes

so last night I baked these fucking cupcakes we're obsessed with they're from Ghirardelli well it's the brownie box it's the Ghirardelli double chocolate um brownie mix and I had a box here and I've been like I really want to make them right he's like I think you should make them it's like fucking day one not like we're on a diet we're just like doing the meal prep thing and because I don't you guys I had fucking issues with food I don't do the whole like diet thing now I'm just it's a convenience like cooking on a Sunday for the week having things prepped you don't have to like rush around and figure out what you're gonna eat it's all ready that's what I mean by diet and meal prep so um anyways he's like you should make the cupcakes

and we had fucking three cupcakes last night with cream cheese frosting threw him right in the garbage this morning we had like 10 left threw them out um straight in the garbage I overcooked him a little bit um whatever so yeah it's fun I love I mean just I'm I think like that's my love language is feeding people or like yeah nurturing like like seeing him take a bite of something I cooked and and his reaction is like that is the best part of my day I don't know is that a selfish thing or is that like selfless like I feel like it's kind of a win-win right it makes me feel good and then he likes the food so because isn't that the thing about helping people and doing charitable things and like it's actually for you like right helping

people. There is a quote speaking of Instagram captions or Instagram bios. I don't know if Scooter Braun still has it on his Instagram, but it was, you don't know how to live unless you know how to give. And I always, I always remember that one. He took that off his, um, took that off his Instagram bio um 3.7 million followers okay so but yeah it's true like giving is and we're in the season of giving y'all I mean how good does it feel to gift something to someone that's my favorite part of Christmas time is like sitting down with my laptop online shopping for other people it's usually myself but like this time I'm gonna like I get to like pick things out for other people it's so it feels so good and it's like it just shows like it's like love like

yeah um there's just this it's we're living in a very self-obsessed self-absorbed i mean shout out me and my fucking self-absorbed podcast we're in a time where it's like me me me look at me follow me click me like me you know and i think we could all use a little more like like go join a go join a volunteer group I don't know like help help someone give um and it can be small you know and you feel those are the best days like when you help a lady cross the street an old lady you pick something up from some that fell on the ground for someone or you strike up a conversation with someone on the sidewalk and they're looking for directions or you know that kind of shit I always feel like that's when you feel the best that's

when you feel the most like happy yeah happy I think that's the emotion it's like you kind of walk away from those moments like ah yay you know so um connection y'all get off your look up from your devices and connect I actually had a brilliant idea this morning in the sauna or that I thought about um like if I was going to open a gym and have a sauna I would have like a no phone policy and I would write a little cheesy cheeky thing like like or you'd have like a prompt in there I don't know just to get people like people talk in the sauna don't get me wrong like it's not like people don't but just to get people like I feel like that's a good place to meet new friends and to like connect and shoot the shit with strangers and so if there's like a no phone like the the

reason you're in the sauna is to talk to the who's whoever's in there does that make sense because everyone there's a lot of people go in the gym every day there's a lot of people sitting in saunas and again a lot of people do talk I I talk to people in the sauna all the time but I don't know like sometimes you're I'm in there or someone they're just on their phone all the time i'm like hi like i don't know it's weird it's like such a small space and no one's like connecting it's like strange but we're so used to it so i don't know um what shows have i been watching i haven't really covered this yet on the episode um oh my god the we we've been watching the unabomber documentary i've heard that before

like unabomber um the term like unabomber i never really knew what it was for some reason i was thinking of like world war ii i don't know why like whenever i heard that i was like oh no it was like for 30 fucking years or some shit this guy is living in a little shed in montana making bombs that get delivered in packages to universities and on air on different airplanes that he shipped them to or whatever and he's blowing things up like blowing trying to blow people up in the technology industry like scientists and because his whole thing was like he doesn't believe in technology he thinks it's ruining society a lot yeah that's a crazy documentary highly recommend um it got better like at the beginning it was kind of like okay

you know boring but it gets better um Corey says he's on his way home all right um what other shows yeah I don't know watching a lot of like true crime um shit is so scary like I just know like we all know there's gonna be a fucking University of Idaho documentary on the murder that happened in like a couple years or so maybe less than that like the um i just watched it the girl that got her boyfriend they went on they're in their van doing van life and then i can't think of her name you know who i'm talking about um this is like in 2021 they just put out a documentary on it like the family's like getting interviewed i'm like that was so soon like i'm sure this

this university of idaho situation is going to be documented and then like talked about in a year like or put on netflix it's fucking crazy um yeah like house this is the saddest thing i used to go to washington state university and it was like a short drive to go to u of i so it's kind of like close to home to me or like it's crazy that i don't know it's like my old stomping grounds and it's just right there those kids were you know taken out and fucking the most horrible way um and no one it's like a fucking mystery i don't know what the late i should i actually kind of want to look like probably later what the latest is on that but it's terrible just fucking terrible um it's the craziest thing though when i watch these shows

these serial killers these people that kill people they have like zero emotion they just don't feel anything when they do it and that is so scary to think about people walking this planet that just have intrusive thoughts or they have compulsive thoughts about killing and they do it and they don't care. So psychopathy is wild. Um, Jimmy, I think I need to wrap it. He loves it here. So this apartment has a nice view of people walking the street and he gets to people watch all day. My other apartment was more of a dungeon for him. Like he couldn't really see out that well. So he's very happy here. He gets to go to the beach. So we live like literally a block from the beach. It's so convenient to take him there. So he gets to run on the beach a lot. Now he has

a new brother. Life's pretty good, isn't it, Jim Jim? We've been calling him, his nickname this week is Mr. Jim Jim Mr. Jim Jim yeah he's a good boy he's gotten really calm ever since I met Corey and moved in here I don't know what it is I think it's he's two now he's officially a lap dog like I remember when he was a puppy I'd sit down and watch tv or something and he'd jump up on the couch and then he'd kind of hang for two minutes and then jump off and kind of go crazy and play with his toys where now he just lays there the whole time so yeah um all right I'd say I gotta call it right now um hope you enjoyed this episode it was fun um I just have good good energy today I guess really good I'm in a good mood and I just felt like recording so

it's kind of how it is now I don't know whatever this podcast is whatever it is you know um I'm consistent though and that's the only advice I give to someone I actually had a friend reach out and um they wanted to know you know what to buy for a like what podcast equipment to buy and like you know what you know if you're starting out and I need to text him the consistency thing too like my advice to anyone out there is whatever you're doing especially in social media like consistency of your content consistency like it's everything um it might not be the like I don't I haven't um what's it called I'm not keeping up my promises to myself about like posting to TikTok every time and like

making clips and editing those and I haven't been I've been like kind of slack you know that y'all know that if you've followed me for a while and I'm calling attention to it because it's real like um that's a goal that I'm not keeping I'm not really that's a weekly goal I'm not accomplishing I'm getting an episode out which is like bare bones like that's the the that's like I have a podcast I need to post podcasts every week it's audio only right now it is what it is but um I would rather be consistent and put out an audio only episode than try to make it perfect and do video and make tiktok clips and have it all ready perfect um and be all like stressed and feel discombobulated about that so um the reality is like i've said

before like i have a podcast i have a job i'm a regular chick with a dog and a boyfriend and um like i'm a corporate biatch right now y'all i live in the i work in the corporate world and i have a side hobby and that's my podcast and it's a lot okay and I know people are pulling it off out there and shout out to them like I go in phases and I think that's just a creative person thing like I get energized as fuck sometimes and that's when you'll see me pump out like videos on TikTok and Instagram like I'm just like hyped up about it and then I get into like a valley of like I just I'm not I just don't want to I it's like inertia you like I'm resisting it and I'm Like, okay. So I just do it. I know you shouldn't do make decisions and, and do things based on how

you feel, especially in business. You just have to get the job done. Right. But I'm not going anywhere. My podcast will be around forever. So it's like, I'm not stressed out. I'm not trying to like blow this shit up in here. Like, I feel like everyone out there is trying to get, get a quick bag. And then it's like, cause they see how much money there is in podcasting. It's a, I did some research the other day it's a there's how many billion not billions of dollars yeah four it'll be in 2024 for worth four billion I think is the numbers so it's crazy a lot of money to be made um but yeah consistency back to that um I'm trailing off here as you can see so uh love you thank you for hanging out thanks for spending time with me today

I hope you're having a good December so far I hope you're as excited about the holidays as I am I love this time of year it makes me feel I love those commercials like I don't fuck I watch commercials right now like or I get excited to watch the Sears Sears gone I think Sears is gone like the Macy's commercials and the fucking Kay Jewelers commercials the Christmassy ones right like this time of year is beautiful it's perfect it's pristine it's like Christmas time is it's just it's magic and so I hope you're as I hope you're feeling as good about it as I am because um yeah it's a sweet time I hope you're healthy I hope you're happy and fulfilled in whatever you're doing right now and um yeah go ahead and hit that subscribe button wherever

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