The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 33- Toes Curled Under

Episode Date: October 6, 2020

It's Burrito Tuesday! I rant a lot in this episode and I'm self-conscious about what I said but I'm posting it anyways!! Have a great day!! :) Patreon.com/TJMS https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic

What's up, guys? It's episode 33. Welcome back to the podcast. what's up guys it's Jacqueline happy Tuesday welcome back to the podcast past. I hope you're doing well. And I'd like to start off by saying this. You are so beautiful to me. I don't know if you haven't been feeling beautiful lately, but I think you're beautiful. And I'm trying to just, I don't know, share the, share the positivity today. Cause I'm, I'm trying to, uh, just like, I want to share my gratitude for you and how much I think you're beautiful and just a great person. If you haven't been told that recently, I'm trying to help you out but um dude I'm I was I wrote a note to be positive because for the last 30 fucking minutes

not to be negative and I'm talking low because I have neighbors that are probably hearing this my toes have been curled under for the last 30 minutes out of frustration because I have so much rustling upstairs like you know how kitchen table chairs rustle around when you move them it's as if they have like a house of or like a household with six little toddlers jumping around the chairs moving around pushing them in and out and I don't want to be passive aggressive and do this but I just might buy those little pads those little cushions for the bottom of kitchen chairs you know what I mean and put them at their front door as a little hint because it is so frustrating and like when I get frustrated my toes like I get like if you curl your toes

under right now I just tense up and I get so pissed off so I wrote a note to be positive because that's how I've been feeling for the last 30 minutes and it's been annoying because I keep wanting to start this and I'm like there's too much rustling also another annoying thing is I got a lot of cars being annoying outside I have a window I can look out while I podcast so nice this is the best like office or view ever for podcasting because I would not I don't know how people function in their little studios that are like a little cave with no outside lighting or anything I just couldn't do that so I'm in my kitchen looking out the window it's my kitchen slash studio but cars are being annoying they're like one is parked with its fucking hazard lights

on outside right now it's a red Tesla so annoying um and just like there's another one earlier just kind of like like going in circles kind of and I don't know so I'm just frustrated annoyed but um I I started off trying to be positive told you you're sexy it's all good we're gonna to get into this podcast. I'm feeling like it's going to be a great Tuesday. Every day I say that every day podcast is a great day. Cause you know what? I love what I do. Every day podcast is it's like Christmas morning. Um, dude, I need to drink some coffee. I'm, um, ashamed to report. This is so me and like how I goal set dude fucking yesterday. I was like, it's Monday. I want to share share with you guys what I want to work on this week. I want to talk about my goals and things I

want to improve this week. And like number, like the first goal was I want to cut back on my caffeine because I think my tolerance is, I, it's so bad. Like I, I need like a fourth a cup of instant coffee to feel anything. And I thought, okay, this week I'm going to do a reset, right? day two, dude, I just had, this is my, this is my second latte, my second almond milk latte. It's a joke. Like I can't goal set and follow through. Um, I did complete one of my goals to watch a movie last night. Uh, well it was like a documentary, so it still counts, but I, I've, I watched it completely attentive the whole time, which was my goal. So that's good. I can, I'll update you guys on my life and everything because I that's a whole segment in itself um

today I'm also gonna bitch about uh current events like Trump and stuff I'm gonna run the risk of getting canceled again I can't wait um oh cute dog outside it's got it's got a pink collar that's really cute um sorry I just feel like I have a responsibility to hold up to you guys is that the right way to say that I have a responsibility to comment on the people watching or the people going on going the I have a responsibility to make commentary about people outside my window because that's my that's my uh that's the type of like what that's my uh quirky thing I do on my podcast that's a segment I do on this podcast it's a current it's a running theme I do and yes man but neighbor has been back guys I mentioned a few podcasts ago that

I haven't seen him in a while but he was back this morning doing his workout with his the couple doing dumbbells on the curb they are running hills and they're looking I'm I'm following their health journey just out the corner of my left eye through the window every day and he's like the one guy the the woman's looking she they're both losing weight but the man is looking really tight lately like really like he's lost a lot of weight it's been about a month or two since I've been following this and um I'm proud of them I'm excited for them it's great I I love, uh, it's like literally watching people work out, work out every morning outside my window being like rooting for them. They have no clue that I'm talking about them. So anyways, um,

let's do, uh, my 24 hour update. Did I finish my train of thought earlier? I don't know, dude. Um, so we're not going to do a coffee fact. I'm over it moving forward with that. Um, it's just the coffee fact today is that I drank, I drank too much. you know, I know my coffee fact will be, this kind of goes with my 24 hour update, but I've been looking at espresso machines. I've been reading a lot of reviews about espresso, not Nespresso, espresso machines. And, um, I had this realization. I was like, Jacqueline, why do you want an espresso machine so much? Because you're a diehard instant coffee chick. Cause I make my instant coffee, like an espresso shot really concentrated. And then I

poured over ice right I do this every day and I'm obsessed with it I stock up a ton of instant coffee I stock up what was that inflection when I talked I stock up on a lot of instant coffee and I don't know what I'm thinking like I'm gonna be this barista all of a sudden making espresso shots and then I'll be like I miss my instant coffee and I'm gonna ball out and buy this Breville thousand dollar it's not actually that much uh the one I want is like 600 um espresso so machine and just become a barista all of a sudden. So who am I kidding? Um, but dude, I just, um, who's sick of me talking about coffee. Okay. Let's do my 24 hour update. I had a great day yesterday. It was Monday.

Every day is a good day. Right. But yesterday was a particularly great day because I was super productive I had all these like it's Monday so I was like I'm an adult I'm gonna go over all my stuff my loose ends I went through all my emails looked all my financial stuff I went through all my random notes and stuff I've written down I have so many sticky notes I'm showing the camera right now you can go to YouTube to watch this I have so many sticky notes of like to do shit and just I was making sure everything was taken care of yesterday it was very productive so that was a goal I had and I get accomplished. I said, I said on the podcast yesterday, my goal this week was to be productive after I podcast instead of just chilling. Cause literally the last month of me

podcasting has been like, Oh, I finished the podcast. I upload it. And then I'm like, all right, I'm horizontal for the rest of the fucking day. Taking a lot of naps, hanging out. Then I work out and that's it. So yesterday I was proud of myself. I said, Jacqueline, you're an adult. Let's get your shit together. I just made sure that everything was taken care of all my little like adulting things and um yeah that's on that's on period dude that's okay I don't know why that just came out of my mouth but that's on period and that's on period I am so confused by that phrase it just annoys me I'm like and that's on period and like when they do the little um like TikTok people do their little like

trump this fuck this politics in america and that's on period you know what i mean it's just like they're a little like but it's on period i don't understand it i'm like dude that's on exclamation point don't you want to be like more like i don't know okay so what did i just talk about how are you doing is this are you staying entertained i your only goal or your only fucking job today is to keep listening pull through dude this is this is a good podcast um yeah so I was productive okay but I want to talk about something I'm currently liking as a breakfast option so I do greek yogurt greek yogurt and berries and then I put some protein powder in it and it's like the best thing ever so that's what I've been eating lately if you're

curious what my breakfast is um oh I looked at kittens I have a note here I've been looking at I finished my adulting stuff and then I looked at kittens for like an hour and I just I need to stop doing this because I know I'm not going to be able to take care of one until after I go home for Christmas so I don't know I need it's annoying because I'll see one that's really cute that I want I'm like Jacqueline you can't actually get it right now so I need to stop doing that um of course I went to the gym yesterday dude every day is the same like I had I was really insecure this morning I was like doing my pre-podcast um meditation session I was just sitting staring at the wall and I was like isn't it so redundant

talking about what you did every day like I tell you guys literally seven days a week what I did the day before and I don't know um but whatever uh I will get into it I went to the gym 33rd episode I'm saying I went to the gym yesterday all right um I did like incline walking again I just didn't feel like lifting that much I don't know I wanted to watch um I was finishing an episode of bad friends on my youtube podcast or my it was a podcast I was watching on youtube and I like walked on the treadmill and watched that and I watched game highlights from the Seahawks game because I missed it that I was like so cool I was like oh my gosh of a boy walks behind me watching these Seahawks highlights he's gonna think I'm so hot for liking

football so I really um I even positioned my phone dude I'm telling you guys everything I like the amount of psychoticness this is about to sound like is no let me restart this is gonna sound so batshit so like Jacqueline you need actual like you you need to go and you need to be admitted um I took my keys okay you have to understand there's a lot of prospects at the gym right I'll do whatever it takes to get a to get a look at or like you know for someone to be like oh who's this girl you know what's she doing you know um that sounds so desperate it's not really like that but sometimes I'm just like this is this is more this this thing I did with my keys and my phone and the positioning of it this is so me 2019

all the way back to like college and high school and shit because now I'm like I don't give a fuck I'm not like trying hard but I did it and I caught myself I'm like Jacqueline you just took your on my keys I have this um like a card holder thing like a little pouch wallet thing and I mean in my in my defense my phone was I was watching the Seahawks highlights it was like an 11 minute video and the thing is the treadmill is like where there's so many people behind me right so people like if they walk by they could like see what I was watching if they were looking and I've thought about it and I never do that I never look at what people are watching on their phones when they're on the fucking treadmill so I don't know what my brain was

thinking I'm exposing myself and I'm so embarrassed right now but this is what this is what I do on the podcast I tell you guys all this embarrassing shit so in my defense the screen was kind of glared but I took that little pouch my little card holder and I I like positioned it behind my phone I'm showing the camera on YouTube right now and I like propped it back up because I'm like yo everyone can see that I'm watching these Seahawks highlights because it's like so just like propped up and vertical because you know for phones like leaning back on the treadmill thing you can't really see what's going on it's like dude I'm so hot I'm watching the Seahawks highlights I'm working my ass out just a great old you know situation for me really really attracting the

males that way. I'm embarrassed that I said that. Dude, they're still wrestling and my toes are curling under again. I wonder if you can hear it. You probably can't. I got double-paned windows because I live in an airplane zone. My double-paned windows are, they're really keeping the noise out, so that's great. So anyways, I walked on the treadmill in the night. I did some like lightweight stuff like lower weight working out stuff what am I saying like dumbbells and lunges and shit like that um I didn't go hard so all in all it was a great um a great old workout um go Seahawks that's so embarrassing but you know what that's the juicy content I gotta share because that's what's that's what's gonna keep you guys fucking entertained I just exposed myself

because here's what I want to say about working out at the gym lately and something I'm proud of myself about sort of like that behavior I just disclosed and admitted to about trying to like position my phone so people could see like oh this girl's cool for watching football the fuck um that is so psychotic like that is not okay but I'm noticing this disposition change in myself lately especially because I'm at the gym I'm around new people and I'm like dude I like go in there. So like head high, happy, smiling at everyone, just kind of like acknowledging people instead of having my head down, acting like this bad bitch who's like lifting weights. And she's so cool. Cause I feel like I don't get a good workout when I'm in my

head like that, trying to be a badass the whole time where, especially if I like wear a hat and big headphones, I just feel bitchy. So lately I've been super, like, I'm proud of this that I've been like if people are around me I'm like eye contact I'm like chipper and I'm upbeat and I'm not I don't know because I think in the past maybe someone out there could relate to this you kind of you work out and you're like listening to your rap music and you're super in the zone and you just it makes you feel like my ego gets involved and I feel so this probably helps my it probably helps your workout to be like that though I'm just like I'm gonna fucking show these motherfuckers how strong I am and just be like like I don't know walking around like I don't know like a

like this I don't know what am I saying so anyways lately it's been nice I've been chipper chipper as I walk around um I'm terrible at telling stories I don't know if I should be a podcaster anymore dude how many podcasts do you think it's gonna take till I get burnt out doing this seven days a week leave a comment below the video 33 episodes in 33 days. So anyways, um, yeah, I don't act like I'm hot shit at the gym. It's just not, it's not, it doesn't feel good while I'm working out. I feel like I'm trying too hard. So anyways, um, Oh, okay. I had to get batteries at the grocery store yesterday and there's a baby in a stroller and like I don't know does anyone else do this like does anyone

make deep icon icon does anyone make deep icon with babies no I found myself like looking at this baby in the stroller and mentally I was like wishing it good luck in life I was like dude good luck I'm like you're like you're like two years old or probably not even that old like I'm a year old and I'm just like good fucking luck and it's crazy because I'm like Jacqueline you want kids though so like that's not good that's not good juju that's not good energy but I'm starting to look at little kids being like holy shit like you know the world is yours good luck in life so anyways just thought I'd mention that I got some batteries and I don't know maybe it's an age thing but as I'm getting older I'm noticing that

I'm weighing out kids like in my head like pros cons I mean I definitely want them I definitely I've established that but I'm also considering the shit storm of shit they are probably gonna have to deal with and that's terrifying and yeah so I mean just shake a baby's hand in a stroller tell them good luck in life wish them well they really need us they really need they really need our support because i can't imagine what it's going to be like when they're you know in the next like century what the fuck speaking of which i got super paranoid last night because i was like history repeats itself like every hundred years right and i'm getting really nervous because i'm like it's the 20s i'm thinking of like the world wars in the 1900s i'm like oh shit is shit about

to go down like I know I haven't seen the worst in my life like this pandemic is nothing compared to what's probably gonna eventually happen which is so terrifying I don't want to be negative again but dude my toes are still curled under my toes are still curled under it that's like what's gonna happen if my toes are curled under I'm gonna be negative but yeah I got paranoid I um like before sleep last night I was just staring at my ceiling thinking about life like dude it's not it's 90 it's 2020 go back a hundred years that's when shit started going down anyways um so yeah I worked out fucking oh the grocery store baby thing um that was beforehand I don't know why I went to the grocery store to get batteries when I could just you know fucking amazon it anyways um so I

also watched uh last night for my my movie watching I said I wanted to watch the movie every night this week 100% attentive like no no phone no phone use during the movie and I watched the comedy store comedy store documentary on Showtime which was great um a lot of people I follow have been talking about it so I was like oh I'll check this out and I um I liked it it was good um a lot of history I didn't know about comedy so that was fun um I liked I wrote a note here because I liked what Jay Leno said about having low self low self-esteem um he think he said that it's like he considers having a really low self-esteem a great thing because it's helpful for people people's careers because you you never feel like you're the smartest one in the room

and you have to like work hard and um it's like using your low self-esteem to your advantage because I don't know how to explain it he explained it better than I'm doing right now basically it's positive and I I'm like I've been verbal about my low self-esteem on this podcast but I don't want to make it my brand that I'm insecure and I have a low self-esteem, but I think that I've recognized in other people that think they're hot shit and think they're amazing that it's annoying. It's like, they're not, they're not, it's not, it doesn't, they're not, they're not like real. It's not real. It's like this ego thing. And I've, I've always been like open about, dude, I don't like myself about in this way. And I'm insecure about this thing

so I don't know I just like you can be confident but like cocky confident and like arrogant and thinking you're amazing and all that there's it's sometimes it's not it's not helpful have a low self-esteem and have a career that's basically what I took away from that uh dude and the whole like documentary was reminding me I was reminiscing the whole time about my theater days because it's like the comedy stores it's it's like it's its own world it's like a wonderland and if you've ever done acting if you've ever if you've ever been in a theater before it's especially like an old one that's been around forever it's such a vibe and I was sitting there watching the movie reminiscing about um the like first theater I ever did acting

in and being little like walking around the place it was so old like I'm sure it was I don't know the date it was built but it was so old like early 1900s for sure and it was all like like the the downstairs area underneath the stage was so creepy and there was these dungeon rooms and these like the side stages were so weird and like there was it was just makeshift everything about the theater I did I started out in was so makeshift under like underneath the main like where people walk around outside and stuff and there was graffiti all over the walls like we would we would sharpie things everywhere we would like do our lipstick for the show and like kiss the wall everywhere and every so this is why I'm like oh maybe I should do the storytelling today about my theater

days but I feel like it was such a big part of my childhood and this comedy store documentary making me warm and fuzzy like oh I remember being around a theater all the time and it's such a vibe I can't even like it's it feels this certain type of way like cool and exciting and I don't know there's something about like being around other performers you're all kind of in this like pre-show stuff together and there's this energy that you can't mimic the energy before any kind of show business stuff is unless you're in it unless you've done it before you don't understand what that's like it's similar I guess to like playing a sport and it's like the pre-game feeling that the nerves the butterflies but um it's different because it's it's like acting entertaining

talking singing that stuff but anyways um I guess I could tell you guys about the theater life I mean I was always on stages and doing plays as a kid like local theater I'm not some big shit child actor who was on commercials and like doing Disney stuff that's not me but um I just remember like hanging around the theater and I the one I'm thinking of in particular it was so I want to like google pictures of it because it was like a little maze underneath like I remember you walk in theater and it's got you know the the ticket booth out out in the front this is on like the main strip of the town I grew up in there's like a ticket booth right out front and then you walk in and it's a lot of like red carpet velvety stuff and like a classic theater and anyways you

would walk past the concession stand in the front and like go down these shitty wooden stairs and that opens that opened up into the is this the green room is that what the what it's called backstage green room that section based I don't know and I remember it just had these shitty wooden stairs that went down and there's like this okay it looked like off to the right of this where you walk down back the backstage area there's like nuts and bolts and like it looks like a man's garage like shit like that everywhere like someone's working on a car but it's not even that it's like probably for um the maintenance on the equipment and or I don't know like just the whole building so there's like a whole section off to the right on that of that and

then there was like a room a side room you walked in full of more like mechanical equipment stuff and then I wish this is so annoying because I'm trying to describe this and you guys have no like you're just paint a picture in your head let's do a create let's think creatively right now because I don't have any like pictures to reference and then I remember like the carpet was all green pretty sure it was like green like almost like a grass turf and there was like low pipes for for like air conditioning and heating and shit everywhere and of course riding all over the walls and there was a section off to the left where people there was like theater like the the seats like old seats from the theater with like the velvet backs just kind of like wrapped around

people would like store their shit in the thing i'm real the thing i'm remembering the most about this theater and going there for shows and and everything is that the entire length of of um like the whole season of shows what i'm saying the entire um time we were we were doing these plays ah every performance night dude i have a i have a limited fucking vocabulary right now um the entire season let's just say season of shows we would have a designated little camping site in the green room and I was little right so everything felt huge and I'm sure if I went there now it would look microscopic and tiny right but at the time I remember like camping out in a certain area and then we would like decorate our spot and like almost make little

forts with all of our shit for the play and it was so fun I don't know how to explain it if you ever did acting with me and back in the day from my hometown and you might remember what I'm talking about but such a vibe and then there's like stairs up to the left stage left side of the stage and then you if you walk straight um it was like concrete at this point so it went from like this weird like garage looking setup with all this mechanical stuff and theater chairs everywhere and just open space for people to sit around to a dungeon of concrete you walk through the concrete and you hang right and there's a whole hallway where that's where all the hair and makeup stuff was going down and um I just remember like the first part of the hallway was a ton of um it was

like a mirror up against the wall and then chairs for people to get their makeup done dude we put on so much blush like that's what I remember I remember sitting there just applying because I would do my makeup sometimes I could help them would do so much blush and um yeah there'd be like I think it was mac makeup that's what it looked like all on the counter everywhere like those little white wedge sponges and so that was like the first section of the hallway and then you walk a little further I think there was a bathroom in between there's something in between yeah wait am I really I'm I'm remembering there's this little shitty like rv looking bathroom like or an airplane-sized bathroom in the middle, and then you walk a little further, and that's a hair

section, so that's where, like, you know, people are getting, there's, like, hairspray for fucking days, and then if you, like, keep walking, you can, like, go outside, there's, like, a side, out to the sidewalk outside, there's a door, dude, I'm telling you, I'm, like, trying to get, take you through a, this is, like, a haunted house right now, this is a haunted theater story, it's kind of, like, a spooky season Halloween theme podcast, whatever, and then you would wrap around and there's a ramp up to the right side of the stage and I remember so when my sister I didn't do this play she did King Arthur like I think that was the first play she did but there were these like horses that people would stand in I don't know how to explain it they like did

macrame or appliques or paper mache or what the fuck is it called that stuff they like made it over they like formed these horse heads over wires and that these big like King Arthur looking medieval banners on the side of them they're all colorful and it's very majestic and and cool like these horses were parked up against the ramp so I remember like being little and going backstage during my sister's show and like seeing that being like oh my god this is such a vibe it's so cool I just remember seeing like props all the time and like a lot of cushiony, like foam shit that's been painted and fake food and costumes and just so much fun stuff backstage. And so I'm saying this because I'm talking about what I did yesterday. I'm trying to like wrap things in a

little bow and give it back to you. So this is because I watched the Comedy Store documentary and I was reminiscing in my head about my theater days. But yeah, it was such a vibe. I'm trying to think if there's anything else about the theater. Oh, going under the stage was scary as fuck because like, I don't know. And I always had a crush. Oh my gosh. My favorite thing about doing acting as a kid is I always had a crush on the crew. Oh my gosh. There's always like hot crew members and all black on the, like they're on the different wings of the stage, like helping you before you went on and I don't know and then I never did that I thought maybe I'd do that at one point but I never did I'm starting to think like if I stayed in my hometown I'd probably be

a crew member on these shows it'd be fun or like the sound guys were always hot oh and then my favorite thing I felt so cool when I was like in second grade because I'd invite my school go on a field trip to see my play and I'd be like in front of my whole class thinking I was so cool. My mom, sorry, I need more coffee. Oh, there's the guy that was working out with Amanda later earlier. Excuse me earlier. He's got a coffee now out and about that post-workout coffee. There's something about that. I like getting coffee after a workout, but anyways, my mom wants me to tell me, tell you guys a story about me being Gladys in the best Christmas pageant ever that was the first role I had where I was like a main character so

I don't want to tell that story but I just maybe I'll do that for for Christmas time I'll talk about that that first like big role I had anyways why am I telling you this okay this is like still part of my 24-hour update I haven't even talked about Trump yet I haven't talked about my I have this like uh I wrote a negative paragraph last night all about um social media and some like new thoughts I haven't even talked about the fact I'm getting my burrito tonight for burrito Tuesday I was gonna mention that and talk I was like Jacqueline should you make the Tuesday fact about burritos and dude I'm getting I'm so annoyed I even made that a thing I think this is the fifth week I've done burrito Tuesday who the fuck do I think I am I'm so different and so

unique because I'm not doing Taco Tuesday. I'm doing Burrito Tuesday. But anyways, let's get into what else I watched. Yeah. Oh, I watched Kylie and Stormi make Halloween cookies on her YouTube last night after I watched the Comedy Store documentary. That was a good time. It was so cute. And I'm like, oh, I can't wait to be a mom. But she's, it's just cute all around. I was obsessed just like how Stormi was putting so many sprinkles on the cookies. Like Kylie would be like okay what sprinkles do you want to put on on top and she'd like take a huge spoon and shovel out as many sprinkles as she could and like pile them on the the cookies and yes I watched that and then I did watch oh I watched Emma Chamberlain's latest YouTube video and then I went to bed it was

great night so that was my last 24 hours um I need water yesterday was crazy I think yesterday's podcast was crazy, because I was talking a lot about, like, I talked about my sex dream, which was, I don't know, I've never, I don't know, I just, like, it was a weird one, a weird soad, soad, um, do I want to bitch about Trump right now? I think I'll do it, dude, um, okay, so here are my thoughts, um, I like how the media is acting, they're, like, upset that Trump isn't getting that he's getting better like they're it's like they're mad he's not dying and I just think that is so fucked up like it's as if they want him to keep getting sicker and die and I just I'm just so frustrated by that I'm like are you fucking kidding me and then I'd

like to say that um the whole motorcade situation or whatever the fuck where he was doing the wave by in the um he had the secret service driving by a bunch of people and he did his wave I like how the media is like oh my god he put the secret service in risk of losing their lives and dying of covid from sitting in the same car with him as he's you know infectious or whatever and i'm like look the secret service's job like they sign up for taking a bullet for trump at all times like their job is to put their life on the line for the president and it's as if he forced the secret service to drive them and do this and i don't think on his part this wasn't the best like decision I mean obviously he's not practicing the whole like you know isolation and staying

away from people while you're going through coronavirus and everything but the way the media makes it so like oh my god the secrets and here's the thing and I saw this I forget who was maybe it was a podcast I listened to like a news podcast about this someone said that dude why don't the why doesn't the media get upset when Black Lives Matter people are screaming in the Secret service's faces with no masks and they're it's like why didn't she care about the secret service then but like now all of a sudden they're sitting in the car with trump and that's an issue and oh my gosh why do they care so much about the secret service now and like oh how terrible but all in all it's just a big shit show i think that uh i don't know even more people in my house are

getting sick now it's just it's it is what it is it's whatever but yo the fucking video of him um coming back on marine one i think that's what it's called the hill i act like i know shit and i don't literally see videos on twitter and then i like comment on it but the majestic video of him coming back to the white house and there is a video of him like ripping his mask off and like waving as he got back home it was very interesting so dramatic and i bet this is what i think i feel like the media is gonna spin this after the fact and say that the whole coronavirus thing was fake and then he didn't actually have it they're gonna like somehow this all is gonna get spun around in a washing machine and I don't know it's getting

so crazy and I called this like a few weeks ago I'm like watch how dramatic the media is gonna get in the next few weeks before the election and the fact that I watched a woman for eight minutes I know it was yeah it was about eight minutes on CNN I had to watch it I was like she's I'm sure this is like someone's sitting there like you have to stay on this uh you have to hit this point home like you cannot cannot fold you cannot roll over and let this guy change your mind but I watched this woman try to make the like for eight minutes debate about the secret service driving Trump through the like by the crowd and like the it was so over the top and insane I'm like this reminds this basically the whole yeah the way that the media's handle this particular

situation is it's i'm basically sitting here and going dude so soft america soft af so soft people are so soft media soft like no one it it's so sad they're so like bitch about everything and so like how how dare he how could he oh it's so stupid so anyways if you're on my side of things if you're like the media sucks it's all fucked up and stupid and crazy then let's be bffs um and it's like the left side of things doesn't even they're so dramatic to the point where it's like they don't even think the right cares about the same like human suffering issues as they do it's as if it's like we why am i putting myself on the right i'm just saying i lean more that way obviously if you haven't listened the podcast like you uh or if you if you've listened last

few episodes you can kind of see where i i sit on things um but it's as if they don't even think people on the right are concerned at all about human suffering and the same issues that they're concerned with and that is so fucking frustrating and they're so dramatic and i don't know why i'm making this political podcast now but like it's not a lot of their rhetoric is so on I'd say majority of the rhetoric is from the left is so unhelpful and it's useless it's like this is not actually what it is but they blow everything out of proportion and I'm really getting I'm really getting sick of it Jacqueline's gonna wrap up this segment of political shit and move forward but like I said I'm not for I don't know if I've said this on the podcast I'm not for

everyone I'm not trying to get approval from everyone I'm just speaking my mind talking commenting about the world and things going on and how I see it but I've had an axe to grind with the media since college when I established how fucked up it was and I was literally trying to be a broadcaster at one point and I totally was like like you turn go back wrap around not doing it totally I just saw through I saw through the bullshit and I was like I can't do that especially like a fucking cnn video i watch i'm like this how are people if someone out there is on her side of things like going oh yeah you make sense it was psychotic the level of crazy she went to try to get pissed off about trump in this car driving by the crowd like

anyways um okay I know I watched a I watched a lot of uh content this morning on James Charles's Instagram to change the subject let's talk about James Charles hold on it's about the Instagram algorithm issue right now I want to get into that so this morning I was um rolling over waking up on my phone which I'm not it's you know what it's part of the job I got to know what's going on in the world to be able to comment on it on my podcast every day right so I was on James Charles's story he's one of those like really intense beauty guru people that's like he's just huge and over the top and I I can't stop watching him like it's he's the type of person where I get annoyed by a lot of influencers and a lot of beauty guru people it's just annoying but for

some reason I'm obsessed with watching his stuff especially his um like his YouTube stuff so anyways he's doing a he did a whole monologue on Instagram this morning about the Instagram out algorithm change. Apparently it's, according to him, it's like his engagement has gone down like 75%. So then I went to, I went to Twitter and I'm seeing, I didn't know this was going on, but apparently the Instagram has changed and people are pissed. There's so many tweets about it. Um, and I don't know, I didn't really understand how or what happened, but, um, people are pissed. And I thought I'd update you guys as a news reporter, as a news reporter doing in my talk show every morning I'm my own like what am I my own fucking niche I'm not a news

reporter I'm just commenting on current events and apparently algorithm on Instagram is fucked and the thing I realized about that is it would suck to have it's the way it is for a lot of people but you rely on Instagram for your paycheck and that if you haven't branched out and diversified your, your, to other, you know, yourself on other platforms, and I don't know what I'm saying, I'm just trying to say, I'm regurgitating information I've heard before, so I'm not, like, some authority about online, making money online through social media, I'm not some specialist at it, but I do know that people that have their, that rely on Instagram for, to make their money, it's looking bleak right now these tweets though but I noticed like I don't I don't know I don't really I've been

off Instagram a lot I okay here's what I wanted to say here's my little oh Jacqueline you're a podcaster make up a witty comment about this I was like look everyone watches social dilemma documentary and they're not on their phones as much anymore and that's why your engagement is down 75% people's behavior is changing people are off their phones it's just blame the social dilemma social dilemma documentary that's what that's what I thought I thought Jacqueline that's a funny little it's a funny little take on that but true because I haven't been I don't know about you but um ever since I watched that I've really been like as I said yesterday I've been telling my phone to fuck off every time I think about touching it and like going on Instagram I'm like

nope bitch off you go and so maybe it's a bit I doubt it's that dramatic that people's behavior changed that much but who knows that's my dream though I'm just like I want to and I'm kind of doing it I pretty much go to Instagram to post content and I don't sit there and consume other people's shit because now I'm I'm just like in the zone with podcasting I'm doing this every day and I don't I don't know I don't find it entertaining anymore to sit and watch stories and like I don't know it's just kind of getting old oh my gosh and now I don't want to be negative again should I curl my toes under again for this segment get ready because it's it's negative I'm probably going to lose a lot of friends I'm going to lose a lot of friends I'm going to lose a lot of um

probably respect from people in the influencer industry but it's all good I'm taking a risk I take a chance it feels good to speak your mind like it literally feels good to talk talk out loud about what you really think without I just don't care like I'm not like I said I'm not trying to get everyone's approval but this is what I wrote last night I'm going to read off the note in my phone oh my gosh my brother's doing autopilot in a Tesla why is he in a Tesla I'm showing the camera right now okay so I'll get into my thing I wrote about social media and influencing but my brother just sent us a video of him driving around in a Tesla

with his 93 year old friend now my brother I don't know if I should expose him right now I just think it's so amazing how he hangs out with elderly people as like his friends hangs out around their house you know obviously driving around someone's like this um her I forget her name it's like Debbie or something but she just got a Tesla she's 93 I think yeah and he's cool like they're cool with it and I and I I get it I I know my brother he's he's just this very he's got a great mind and he's very um I don't know how to explain it he's like he's very Jesus-like and I don't know how it's just he's got this spirit about him that's so him but I I recognize that he likes to hang out with older people because of their their wisdom and their their

life experience and the conversations are probably more interesting to him than hanging out with adolescents I don't know around his age which he still does he's a shit my brother has so many friends he has so many friends he has old people friends young people friends he's got he's he's so cool shout out to my brother by the way if you're curious who made my intro music that's my brother he made that song for me on uh it's soundcloud is rob r-o-b-m-o-n if you want to check it out. Um, I always link it in the show notes if you want to go to his SoundCloud, but, um, hi, thanks for being awesome. So anyways, I just went to my phone to read the note about social media and I saw him send, he sent us a video and he, she's like in the passenger seat

and she's this 93 year old lady. They're just driving around. She finally got her Tesla. That's so cool. Anyways, let me read what I wrote. Dude, I'm nervous. I'm just going to read it. I don't care you know what this is what you tune in for I'm speaking my mind I wrote this at like 11 30 last night it's just my opinion it's it's subject subject to change I'm not stuck in my ways about things but I'm starting to see like I'm starting to look at Instagram like the the the way people posts the aesthetic stuff I'm starting to look at it completely differently and I don't know just just bear with me as I read this yo okay this is what I wrote yo I wrote yo yo if your Instagram page looks like a bowl of oatmeal when I scroll through I'm out having an aesthetic is

so old-fashioned it's not real looks like it looks forced and most people's only facial expression is dead eyes or behind their phone hiding taking a selfie it's a hack to make your brand look cool it's filters are provided fonts templates etc it's not like how it used to be where people would just draw their shit up from zero that's why i'm not impressed or inspired anymore and fuck minimalism shit it makes me so annoyed like look how i combined four things together i put that in quotes i no longer give a fuck about people who clearly prioritize their aesthetic and external beauty shit and nice to look at content over no filters and just being themselves I'm scared why did I say that yo but it's kind of true like if your page looks like a

bowl of oatmeal and it's all aesthetic and minimal and clean and you're just like taking selfies looking so dead and not in your eyes and I mean shit I used to do this so I'm not I'm just seeing it now like I just think it's not the it's not the future it's kind of sad to me and like everything's provided like you can buy apps with you know filters and fonts and templates to make all your stuff look like a cool brand and that's not impressive to me because it's provided there's no longer are people you know camped out until 3 a.m drawing up a vision on there I mean this like I'm I'm totally generalizing I'm just saying for like the basic like typical like I'm an influencer I have a bunch of followers now I'm starting my own brand I'm going to sell clothes

fast fashion they're all going to be neutrals it's basically like Kim Kardashian's aesthetic times a million all these people doing it and I get it it's like okay they got to make their money somehow their dream is to be a fashion designer they want their own fashion line but it doesn't feel I don't it's just not impressive to me I'm not impressed I'm not inspired I'm like look something's got to change and I wish people would just get away from like making everything look aesthetic it's annoying I just get annoyed by it I'm like this we've already established we've already established how Instagram isn't reality and for some people it's fun it's creative they like looking at pretty curated content where they scroll through their own page and it's like

oh you know it's so beautiful and perfect but I'm speaking I'm projecting or whatever because I've gone through this in the past I feel like when I was striving for that at one point I remember like a few years ago I was dating this guy and I remember there's a section of my Instagram where I'm like I remember like trying to make it look neutral or whatever like I was like oh like I want an aesthetic I want this to all look cool whatever I just remember like spending like life hours trains of thought like spending time caring about that and it's it's wild to me because I'm like it's so dumb like it doesn't matter and I don't think people's priorities are in the right place and I know it's like okay I have a brand I have to have like I

have to do my branding thing and have my personal brand and I just like I'm exhausted of it like I said I just I'm not impressed it's not unique anymore it's not interesting it's so overdone and I'm just looking at okay it's 2020 what are we going to do for the next decade because I don't know how much more pristine and aesthetic and clean and polished and glam and everything we can get before my fucking brain explodes I just want people to show up on the internet as if we're BFFs we've known each other for 16 years and we're hanging out at a slumber party if everyone did that and talked more and just didn't care about filtering and branding and all this shit I would feel better personally because I'm like that's real that feels normal but I'm just starting to

get so freaked out by people that I've been following for years I'm like wait they're still doing this they haven't evolved out of making everything look like oatmeal you know what I'm talking about that's how people's pages look it's like a bowl of oatmeal it's like neutrals whites and browns and I'm bitching about people's actual passions like my passion is podcasting and talking shit and I'm like judging people's passions for um art and creativity and like self-expression and I'm I should not do that so I understand how this sounds to people but I don't know that was bitchy what did I say right in that paragraph yeah it's just not

yeah filters are everything's provided to make your like you can build a brand in a day everything's provided everything's quick and easy and an app to here's a template to it's just i don't know i long for the old-fashioned days when shit was way more i don't know it was hard shit was harder you couldn't break through and have a brand overnight it was like i don't know i'm really judgmental today it's tuesday and you know what it's because those damn chairs upstairs were rustling too much and i'm frustrated and i'm annoyed and my toes were curled under for too long and this is what happens y'all this is what happens but i don't know someone dm me let me know if you're a influencer out there if you're someone that is caught up in that world of like

you when you post a picture you like use the same filters and you have the same like sad facial expression every outfit post and you're like it's you're all about like white backgrounds and aesthetics and all that like do you ever ask yourself questions about that do you ever go is this like is this do I like is when is it going to be enough like am I actually satisfied I doing this or is this just like this annoying upkeep thing I have to do every time I post a picture I got to go to my app and I got to like make the background all white make sure it looks aesthetic like I don't know does that just get exhausting to people y'all get a call center headset do a podcast every day and just don't care about Instagram because it's dumb apparently the

algorithms other algorithms fucking everything up anyways so we got to evolve I'm a dreamer I'm a visionary I'm fucking you know seeing the future 10 20 years and I'm like yo sorry Gary Vee I'm still in your thunder right now but what's the future gonna be I want to like speak I want to be the change I want to see in the world and I want people to be like I said hanging out on the couch at 6 p.m at a slumber party I've known you for 17 years and you're not trying hard because I don't know when people try hard it's really obvious to me now and it's getting frustrating I just stop let it like get a different creative outlet than aesthetic Instagram shit it's so annoying

am I jealous of that no not anymore I'm just like I want people to get on the other side and not care I used to be jealous so I used to want to do that but I've taught I've been very vocal about that how like my past brunette insecure lost little puppy self was like Jacqueline you should do Instagram influencing you should do photo shoots you should like get brands to work with you and do like post cute outfits and do a YouTube channel about outfit hauls and makeup tutorials and stuff like I that was my dream and there's nothing wrong with people still doing that I want to be very clear about that there's nothing wrong with that if that's your passion like I should I should not be shitting on it I should not be negative about it at all because that's beautiful

everyone should do what they want to do in life but I'm just seeing a lot of bullshit in it and I think people in it would recognize there's bullshit in it and it's like okay when is it gonna evolve you know you know you know I don't know I just remember life before like you'd I'd go home from school I'd get home from school and I'd be with my siblings we'd like get off the bus we'd like live by a farm we got dropped off at the corner we had to walk home like a block which wasn't too bad anyways we like get off the bus we like go watch tv we watched three shows in a row it was like oh we'd make our after-school snack and then i'd have like cereal like a lot of like mini frosted mini wheats story time childhood i just reminiscing about when shit was simple

and i didn't get triggered by people's oatmeal fucking instagram pages and we would like sit around the tv we had our three shows we watched it was like cyber kids on pbs cyber kids and we watch arthur and then i think zoom if you guys watch zoom on pbs there was like a show with a bunch of kids they'd like do little i don't know it's kind of like snl for kids kind of vibes like little skits and shit and they do like like oh i like the cooking video section where they'd like be like ask your parents if you can use the knife make sure you have parental you know get you know help when you use the knife and they cut an apple and there wouldn't be any adults around obviously the cameramen were adults but like you know what I mean it was kind of funny so anyways I just

missed days where it was like or even in high school where you just you weren't glued to Instagram oh my god this is I'm such a boomer fucking this episode sucks Tuesday I went too deep in that rant about social media again I gotta puke it out though I'm in 30 my 33rd episode it's not fully puked out yet so just bear with me you guys are part of this podcasting journey and you're gonna have to deal with that for the first like I feel like for the first I don't know like 60 episodes just like really get it out I'm exhausted I'm exhausted I want to I want to see a change I'm just over it let's progress man let's stop let's stop this bullshit I just like I'm sorry it's so overdone when I'm like every morning I wake up I drink my water and I drink my oat

milk latte and I roll my face with ice and then I go and put my workout outfit on and then I go and I do my workout on Melissa Wood Health Pilates on YouTube and then I do that and then I eat breakfast and I make this smoothie and this is how I make it and then I go on a walk to get vitamin D on my skin and I listen to a podcast and then I go do work and I check emails for three hours and then I break for lunch and I have a salmon salad and then I go and I um get back to work and then I have an afternoon coffee and a pick me up a protein power ball with um peanut butter and protein powder and oatmeal and I rolled up and I made meal prepped on Sunday and then after that i get back to work and then i go around five i um meet up with the girls for um a happy hour

and we have rosé and we talk about oh and then we all take an outfit pic um which is cute and we post on instagram and then we hang out and we play bingo and twister together at night and dude i'm sounding jealous that people have friends right now and then i'm projecting so fucking hard and then we go back and we uh check our social media until we go to sleep and then we wake up and do it again then I go out it's just like every it's just every influencer doing shit like I'm over it stop talking about obvious daily life information that's so dumb like we're teaching people how to have daily routines it's like yo my parents taught me that when I was five fuck off like stop ah I'm a bitch I'm a bitch the internet I'm the most like I'm gonna let's see if Jacqueline

get, be the most hated by influencers on the internet. Let's get there. Let's fucking get the haters rolling through. Tuesday. What's going on? Should I? Shit. Okay. I just took a little breather to cool down from that segment. This whole podcast is a learning experience and I'm learning how to talk about my raw unfiltered opinions about things that I see in the world. and I don't know how that's going to be received and I'm taking a chance taking a risk right now but I've said this many times I'm sick of being a passive or a passive person on online I want to be active I want to be you know I want my skin in the game I want to talk about what I think I want to be a person with a solid opinion because I respect people with solid opinions and I want

to be like them because they I they they're they're it's they're so real and you really know where they're at and and it's great like I I really look up to people like that so that was a that was a I was practicing right there there you know this whole podcast like I said learning experience I'm just I don't know I'm not I'm not super proud about being judgmental about influencers 33 fucking episodes in a row but like yo it's my truth it's my life you guys are part this ride and dude I have so many sticky notes I didn't even get to for today's podcast I'd even talk about what I did this morning oh I mentioned like the algorithm change James Charles that whole thing he did but I was like writing sticky notes here about inflation a little update from the fed

I was like trying to learn about inflation this morning I don't know dude I mean apparently um it's not the inflation rates are going to stay low apparently for like the next what do they say up until like 2026 it's if it's like if the rates so I have 2024 equals 2.25 percent inflation rates equal low to 2026 2.5 percent it's not going to be I don't know I just tried to learn about it it's gonna go up to two percent around 2023 so I guess I don't know the short-term inflation's gonna look crazy it's gonna look like it's three percent but it's really not that bad apparently I don't know I like I don't understand it clearly I can't even talk about it but let me check my

phone for talking points I should check my dms my mom what did she read she sent me a quote my mom sent me a quote success seems to hi mom if you're listening that's what you uh I'll share what you sent me success seems to be connected with action successful people keep moving they make mistakes but they don't quit 100 the center 100 that's me that's what I'm doing that's what I'm doing mama don't quit man I I could have cut off the podcast and gave up after I felt weird about talking about influencers but I keep going I don't quit I don't second guess that's it that's the thing I am proud of myself like I talk a lot about my I don't know the shit I've struggled with in the past when I want to

work on obviously this whole podcast is like my personal therapy session my self-mastery course or whatever but I'm proud of myself for being decisive about something for once like hardcore decisive and and really I really zeroed in on this podcasting thing and I said this is it I'm doing this I'm in it and I'm proud of the fact that look my podcast cover I made I didn't second guess I only made I made one version of it now I know that's probably like oh people out there in the you know marketing or whatever space would be like or branding they'd be like yeah you should make a bunch of you should make like six editions of it and do a poll to see which one's the best and you can send it to all your family and friends and I didn't fucking do that I just made one I

made one podcast cover I decided that is it I made my description of my podcast a podcast by me for you that is my description of the podcast and I didn't try too hard I was just like that's what this is a podcast for me by me for you decided on that short and sweet and then I um even like the YouTube like when I upload to YouTube I've been putting the number on the like the thumbnail and I just like decided like oh I'm gonna just do this font I didn't I have not been second guessing myself I've been so like just decisive about everything I've been doing on this podcast and it feels good so if you're indecisive out there just it's you're wasting your life away I can't I've wasted so much time dude remember the toothbrush story I told

go to the episode titled toothbrushes paralyze me if you want to know how bad my indecisive gets sometimes um yeah it's been a challenge I've faced for so long and I'm I'm on the other side now going oh I know what I know now what it feels like to wake up every day and love what you do and get so excited about it and now I know what it's like to be decisive about stuff and like feel good about making solid decisions without backpedaling and changing your mind that is dude i'm it took me i'm 26 i mean that took a long ass fucking time but dude i don't want to read dms i'm bored by that it's not interesting for you guys maybe maybe i have like a funny one though not just my mom's quote she sent me

I gotta catch up I gotta call my sister today I haven't done I haven't talked to her in like two months dude now we're just hanging out oh my gosh I didn't even say this yet patreon.com patreon.com slash tjms if you want to support the show every patron gets a shout out at the end of the show so if you like what you're listening to and there's also other perks as a patron you get access to all the content I post on my patreon a lot of content that's related to what I talk about and just pictures that never make it to the internet stuff off my camera roll and um so yeah everyone gives a shout out for your patron and then um also youtube if you're watching this hey go ahead and subscribe down below if you haven't subscribed to

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he went on a tweeting spree the other day like I said the only reason I'm talking about Trump so much is because it's it's so current it's like this is what's going on and I mean the election's coming up super soon and um repeal section 230 what is section 230 let's learn something together I was thinking about it um I should do podcasts like frequent podcasts where we learn something together like something I'm really uninformed about in in society or the government or whatever and i should do a podcast where we like i can we can learn something together i don't know so we're gonna learn about section 230 i don't know what that is let's learn trump tweeted that he doesn't like this section 230 of the communications decency act

that's not as too much like what is section 230 section section 230 says no provider or user of an interactive computer service shall be treated as the publisher or speaker of any information provided by another information content provider section 230 as part of its broader review of market leading online platforms the u.s department of justice analyze section 230 of the communications decency act 1996 i was two years old which provides immunity to online platforms from civil liability based on third-party content and for the removal of content in certain circumstances interesting so trump tweeted about that i just wanted to talk about like what is trump up to today he wants that shit repealed all right we learned something

just a lot of angsty tweets feeling great all caps three hours ago great yeah i can't wait the media is totally going to say that everything he did like this whole corona thing he got is fake wait what's this video and i learned so much about coronavirus and one thing that's for certain don't let it dominate thank you, don't feed him, hear that, ladies, don't let the virus dominate you, you're gonna feed it, we have the best medical equipment, we have the best medicine, interesting, so he just did a little monologue about, he learned a lot about getting coronavirus, all right, anyways, Twitter is so dead, like, compared to how it used to be for me, I just,

like don't I don't know it's just not it podcasting is it that's it y'all if Trump just shook COVID in 48 hours with a diet of McDonald's and speed we should start considering the uncomfortable truth that he's he is the risen Christ Tim Dillon if you want to if you want to read some nice uh just some good tweets about current politics and stuff go to Tim Dillon's Twitter like his takes on stuff is so funny I thought he was hot and then I found out he was gay I was like wait what he's the straightest gay guy I've ever seen do you guys know who Tim Dillon is like he he's just like his personality's hot so hot like I just like when people have a their mind is so like I I'm starting to notice that as I get older I'm like oh I'm

attracted people's minds and how their person like their brain and how they think because it's hard like like like like like I just okay I'll finish the podcast with this thought this might help all the boys out there this is what I've established now after you know I'm in my 20s I've been dating and I've been doing all that stuff but I am so unattracted now to the whole like bro-y macho thing like and all the guys like the guys out there I'm thinking the people that make comments on like the barstool posts on Instagram like those kind of guys like I like I've been struggling with this because a lot of the guys I'm attracted to like physically attracted to are so like i mean boring to me in a lot of ways i'm so like this is such a negative podcast

because you guys are out there probably like i don't like this about girls i don't like this about girls and much same thing for me but like i need i need an intellect i need someone who's got a lot of action a lot of shit firing in their brain because when people are i don't know like i i got it i've been in the dms with someone for a long time and lately i'm just like you you don't have a personality at all like you don't even have i'm just gonna expose this right now nah should i shit i don't know people are boring that's what it is guys are boring most guys i come across they're like they're just douchey and broey and i can't do it anymore i'm like yo if you sound like you or you're from a frat i can't do it i'm out that's why i'm

attracted to like people that are I just all the weird people I thought were weird in high school I think are hot now should I end the podcast on that no I need you to be hot and quirky I need I need you to be conventionally hot but like really fucking weird in the brain and do like psychotic fucked up shit that's so not what I'm thinking ah this podcast is a train wreck dude I need to I need to cut it I need to call it I need to be self-disciplined and call it let me try to rework what I was about to what I was saying there about men like I keep dating guys that are they're just like like it's easy at first when you date someone you get blinded by like all the

first initial butterflies and oh my gosh they're so hot and oh my god and you're just like the chemistry's there but then after a while you're like wait you're not interesting at all you're it's I don't know anyways I need to stop this podcast dude episode 33 let's throw throw it in the shitter and not and let's not let's not do a repeat listen one star review I mean guys are really nitpicky about girls so I can be nitpicky about guys just fucking be interesting be I don't know I know what it is a lot of the guys my age in my age group are caught up in they're still acting like it's college they're still partying they're

still living for that type of shit and I just want a man that's like reserved and quiet I guess my mom she said this before she's like that you think you want that guy who's really like he's like alpha and macho and bro and like like he's he's like out there and crazy and like fun and exciting to be around but that's what you think you want but what you really want is someone that's like reserved like more relaxed and reserved and he's like quietly confident quietly like that it's not he doesn't come out the gates like that so hi if you're like that hit me up in DMS. Let's fucking date each other. I don't know. Episode 33. Welcome. Oh no. Someone posted a picture in London and I'm getting jealous. I miss that city. It's officially

the last of the podcast and guys, Oh my gosh, I have sweat. Literally I have sweat dripping down my my abs right now my I'm I have boob sweat from sitting in this big sweatshirt that's that's a signal it's time to end the podcast I um I was looking at my YouTube channel though and every podcast I wear the same outfit I'm like maybe I should switch it up because it's it's probably annoying to see me wear the same sweatshirt every day but it's my good luck sweatshirt I don't know I do it every day and I wear my pearls and fuck. Okay. If you stuck around this long and my PMS thing, maybe that's what it is. Maybe that's why I'm so bitchy today. I, yeah, is that it? I don't really know if I get like that. I don't really, I cry the

day before I get my period every time but I don't really get I don't feel like I get that bitchy who knows anyways all right have a great Tuesday get a burrito tonight I'm gonna get mine review leave a review if you like the podcast and subscribe to my youtube channel and patreon.com if you want to support the show love you guys I hope this episode was you received it better than i think you received it so on that note bye all right today's patreon.com slash tjms patron shout outs go to three beautiful people who subscribe to my patreon and in order of subscription order they go to ricky jensen thank you ricky for your support trevor garrett thank you trevor for your support and eagle one eagle one thank you for your support

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