The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 350- The BEST Chocolate Chip Cookies of ALL TIME

Episode Date: September 6, 2023

Welcome to my kitchen! Today I'm giving away my secret chocolate chip cookie recipe as a way to give back and say THANK YOU for all the love and support of this podcast over the last 3 years. Come along and bake with me while I tell the story about how I got into podcasting and all of the lessons I learned along the way! **Remember** POWDER PUFFS. SODA SPREADS. THANKS FOR LISTENING, ILYSM!! :) BECOME A PATRON!   / tjms   KEEP IN TOUCH! INSTAGRAM »   / jacquelinemonroe   TIKTOK » jacqueline.monroe EMAIL THE SHOW! [e-mail] MY MUSIC GUY:   / robmonmusic   SPONSORS💎 Spotify for Podcasters

What's up, guys? It's episode 350. Welcome back to the show! I don't ever slow up. No, I don't take shit. I got no love for the fake news. If you wanna play tough and wanna hate this, I'll always show up and make a statement. I don't ever slow up. No, I don't take shit. I got no love for the fake news. If you wanna play tough and wanna hate this, I'll always show up and make a statement. Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show and welcome to my kitchen. Today is my three-year podcasting anniversary, September 4th, and as a gift to you for listening over the last three years, I have decided to give away my secret chocolate chip cookie

recipe that is very near and dear to my heart, that everyone loves and everyone begs me for. In fact, this week I've had two orders from two different people to bake this for them. So this all lined up perfectly. It's my anniversary. I'm going to celebrate by baking cookies and by giving you the recipe. And I'm also going to be making these for Corey and my sister. It's his birthday on Wednesday. And then it's her bodybuilding competition this Saturday. She's a bodybuilder. I don't know. I don't even know if I've ever talked about her. She's prepping right now. It's peak week. and for um after her show she wants to have these and so I'm gonna have to bake these and ship them today so we're gonna do this all in my kitchen together and I've got the microphone in front of me I also have a mixing bowl in front of me with no KitchenAid no hand mixer it's gonna be all done by hand and so yeah buckle up it's gonna be a bit chaotic and crazy but I'm really excited I I'm this is like peak happiness for me right now like baking cookies and podcasting I can't

think of a better way to celebrate my podcasting anniversary and I will tell stories along the way this isn't going to just be a cooking show I want to talk about how I got into podcasting I'm going to react to my first podcast episode that is extremely depressing to like listen back to. I'm going to react to that. And yeah, I've got, um, just lots of stuff to share with you about the last three years of my journey of podcasting. So I'm going to start off by reading the recipe. Um, I'm just going to give it away for free right now. Here you go. If you want to have, uh, people knocking on your door all, all the time for your, what am I saying? Fuck Jacqueline. This, I feel so out of sorts right now. Like I don't have my headphones on. Okay.

I'm standing up podcasting I feel very professional right now like I feel like I'm on like the today show doing a segment like this does not feel natural so um basically what I'm saying get your pencils and paper out right now and write this down because this is literally the only chocolate chip cookie recipe you'll ever need and I'm also going to be sharing with you not only the ingredients but the technique involved in making these because I feel like it's all about how you make them it's like everyone can use the same ingredients and they would turn out completely different if that makes sense so um over the years people have been like constantly asking about my cookies because if they've had them before for me oh my god I can't talk

holy shit I am drinking a lot of iced coffee right now it's midday people are obsessed with my chocolate chip cookies that's my point okay cool so let's start off with the first ingredients here you're gonna need two cups of unsalted butter I'm doubling the recipe I'm assuming that if you just double it okay every time I make chocolate chip cookies chocolate chip cookies I double it I don't fuck around with like one cup of butter I do two cups of i'm already swearing i feel like i'm i'm supposed to be like really like this setting just me and this little pink apron go to youtube or spotify to watch i feel like i should be more like polished and poised in my little like housewife fit right now but okay so double the

recipe you're gonna need two cups of unsalted butter okay two cups of white granulated sugar two cups of packed brown sugar four teaspoons of vanilla extract pure vanilla extract try to get the best vanilla you possibly can I happen to have the cheap shit today because I was in a hurry to buy these ingredients and I was at Vons and I had decision fatigue looking at all the different vanillas and i just grabbed the cheapest one anyways four teaspoons of vanilla four large eggs at room temperature and the butter you want the butter to be softened you want that to be a room temperature too i i leave this out overnight when i make cookies so a couple tips room temp eggs room temp butter um two teaspoons of baking this is like the the special ratio this is where

like it matters to get this right baking soda and baking powder okay two teaspoons of baking soda one teaspoon of baking powder two teaspoons of sea salt now if you don't have sea salt I would recommend kosher salt or something that's a little more coarse than like a table salt now I'm going to teach you something right now about baking soda and baking powder that will literally change your life and you will never forget this for the rest of your like for the rest of time okay powder puffs soda spreads so when you think about a chocolate chip cookie the baking powder a lot of recipes I feel like some recipes don't call for very much of it or or at all but the baking powder is what lifts up the cookie and kind of puffs it up a little bit

the soda the baking soda spreads it out so it's flat so I think that the perfect ratio is two to one for baking soda and baking powder two teaspoons of baking soda one teaspoon of baking powder soda spreads powder puffs soda spreads powder puffs I don't know who taught me that I forget where I learned it probably my mom or I don't remember but that is how I never forget like what like what each ingredient does when I bake so two teaspoons of baking soda one teaspoon of baking powder and two teaspoons of sea salt or a coarser salt than just like a yeah I like to taste the salt in my cookies if that makes sense that's why I like it to be a little more thick and last but not least as many chocolate chips or as much dark chocolate or

whatever chocolate you want as possible I would say somewhere in between four to six cups I just buy the giant tool house cookie um chocolate semi-sweet chocolate chip oh my god you know what it is I can't hear myself the headphones like the monitoring and the headphones today and so I don't know I like I'm not like keeping track of this conversation very well um I don't know how to explain it if you're a podcast host you get what I mean maybe a lot of hosts like don't wear them though. They don't wear the headphones. I love it, but we have a different setup today and that's okay. So I buy the Toll House chocolate chips, the semi-sweet chocolate chips, the big like 36 ounce bag. And I pretty much use the whole thing. And then I also chop

in dark chocolate, like 85% dark chocolate, like little chunks of it. So that's the recipe. Let's get into it I'm gonna start off by creaming the butter and the sugar and I'm also going to while I do that I'm gonna share with you how I get into how I got into podcast do I restart this like should I I feel like you know what the difference is today's podcast is very like feels formal okay it feels structured it feels I don't feel like myself right now you know what I mean I need to like, what do I always say? I need to, I need to bring more sauce to it. I don't know how to explain it. It's like, I just feel in my head right now. Should I rerecord this? No. Cause the second I start putting these ingredients in this bowl, we're off to the races and I can't

like restart the episode. So I better like pull myself together right now. We drink a little more coffee. I'm going to tell you the story about how I got into podcasting while I cream the butter and the sugar. Let's do it. So all you need to know about butter when you buy it at the grocery store is two sticks is one cup. So I'm doing two cups of butter which is an entire pack like the square pack or the rectangle pack of butter when you buy it at the store. Okay so I'm just going to drop this in the bowl. I've got this metal mixing bowl and a silicone spatula spatula Chula. And I'm going to just drop the butter in. I don't have a garbage can. So this is going to be really messy. I should have put one next to me. Fuck. Okay. Okay. This should work. I just

grabbed a bowl to put my wrappers and all my garbage in. I'm pretty sure someone on the food network taught me that. Like who was it? Was it Sandra Lee or like Rachel Ray? They always had a thing called a garbage bowl next to them while they cook to throw all the little scraps in. So I've got my little garbage bowl going to throw things away in now. And I've got, let's see, another stick of butter to add. I've got four sticks of butter in this and I'm going to add my sugar now, my granulated white sugar and my brown sugar. So add all the sugar and the butter in now this is the part of the podcast where I'm a little concerned for your um for your ears for your annoyance or levels like I don't have a hand mixer and I don't have a

kitchen aid and I'm gonna be doing this butter and I'm gonna be creaming the butter and the sugar by hand so um while I tell the story of how I got into podcasting because does anyone I'm sure that I have new listeners but I feel like I haven't told that story in a while and I feel like it makes sense for my three-year anniversary to like bring you back three years on this day to when I started podcasting for the first time so um essentially I like I said I'm gonna be creaming this by hand which means I need to blend the butter and the sugar together until it's super light and like fluffy like you basically it's called creamy it's called creaming yeah but um if you don't do that it's like there's a there's a science everything with baking is science right

it's like something happens when the sugar crystals dissolve into the butter fat and like you need that to happen before you can move on to the next step where you add like the eggs and vanilla so um I'm gonna just talk for a long time here while I do this because it's gonna probably take me 10 minutes of non-stop stirring all right September 4th 2020 my the three years ago I recorded my first podcast do you want to hear it before I like the clip of it first should I react to this first and then tell the story um let's just do it whatever it's so sad for me to listen to this because I was in such a different place in life um i actually released the first episode okay it's like it's a long story i recorded my first podcast

on soundcloud okay that is my technical first podcast if that's but it's not on apple or spotify or anywhere you listen podcast it's not available it's like a private soundcloud um like clip or whatever so i decided well now you can listen to it because i decided for my 200th episode I'm gonna release that as my 200th episode so this is the first time I sat down to record a podcast and it is I don't even recognize myself whenever I listen to this I get like immediately depressed so let's start off start off before I tell the story with this um wait it just sounds so sad in this listen hey guys what's up it's Jacqueline I'm gonna do a podcast right now on my 2020 experience so far experience so like who the fuck am I it's currently September

1st I think this oh yeah so I recorded this so we're a few days behind okay so I recorded my first episode on soundcloud on september 4th uh first why do all these details matter i don't know maybe i'm i'm trying to like tell the story like exact i recorded the soundcloud episode september 1st my first podcast podcast that went out was on september 4th like out on spotify and apple okay it's a soundcloud track you're gonna have to listen to this on because i'm not a podcaster but I'm doing this because I just paused the Joe Rogan experience it's a five hour and 19 minute episode with Duncan Trussell and I paused it after 10 minutes because I was like I just kind of want to do a podcast right now I just got all inspired so uh here we go 2020 let's see uh January

okay so let me explain what happened there like I said I was sitting down on my couch on this day I need to cream the butter and the sugar oh my god how am I gonna these cookies are gonna take so long to make if I talk and don't mix at the same time okay so I was sitting down on my couch watching the Joe Rogan episode where he was interviewing Duncan Trussell the it was the last interview interview he did at his old studio before I moved to Austin I'm sitting on my couch and I got a DM from someone responding to my story I think his name is Kane or Kanye I always forget his name um this is actually creaming really fast or like really well because the butter is like super soft so I got a DM he responded my story and he literally wrote to me

um you should do a podcast on this and I was like 10 minutes into the Rogan episode I was committed you know it's like 9 30 p.m it's five hours long I pop some popcorn I'm like ready to watch this whole thing for some reason that DM like sparked something inside of me where I was like I need to like podcast right now or I just want to like record myself and recap my entire 2020 up until that point because if you're not aware um during the pandemic so when when everything when shit hit the fan in March I moved into a new place all by myself a one-bedroom apartment apartment I was single at the time I was laid off at my job I had nothing to do and I literally spent those first like four to six months like I spent them depressed I don't know that's like the wrong

phrasing I was just like down and out I gained 35 pounds okay I my health went to shit my mind went to shit I literally didn't get out of bed or really leave my place for two weeks straight which was so not normal for me and so odd and that was like in May so basically my 2020 was um up until September where everything 180'd after I started podcasting um yeah it was really dark and sad and I was very lost and didn't really have much going for myself I had no friends I had no social life I wasn't doing anything like I finally got help my sister and my mom came and visited me that summer for my birthday and they kind of like called me out and they were like dude this isn't you like come on like that's what I like about my family we call each other out on

on like when we're like we have we have high standards for each other if that makes sense and so I knew it they knew it I needed to get well I needed to see a therapist I needed to get in shape I needed to you know get a job like literally get a job I think I got yeah I forget the job um oh my god it is so hot I have to turn on the ac right now I'm breaking a sweat mixing this I feel like my upper lip is just super shiny right now okay just turn on the ac um back to the story yeah so it was one of those things where I was going through a dark depression where I just felt lost I didn't really have anything going and then I get this dm on that September night that I should start a podcast or I should do a podcast and I literally was off to the races and

recorded a podcast seven days a week for 300 days in a row so that is the story of how I got into podcasting and you might be like uh why did you do it seven days a week that's not a podcast that's a fucking radio show um I felt the immediate like what's that called when you like all the stars aligned the first time I recorded a podcast and I felt this spark of like like my soul just like came alive if that makes sense it felt so good and so freeing to talk all of my problems out day after day after day and just to like release everything in my mind verbally so I committed I was like oh my god I can I was like this is so easy I was like I'm just gonna talk every single day I'm gonna put something out and that's literally I committed to it which was another

issue in my 20s up until that point I was so half pregnant on 10 different things and committed to none of them and I constantly made goals or I constantly strive strived for oh my god how do I mix and talk the same time I'm like out of fucking breath okay I would set these outlandish goals and I was never able to achieve them but this was the first time where I was like no I'm gonna fucking do this and I'm gonna complete it and I'm gonna go I'm gonna go um I'm gonna go all in with this which is a commitment that I had that type of commitment is something that I had never made up until that point so I just felt so empowered so free I was I I don't even I mean go listen to my older episodes like it was pretty wild like I did some pretty cringy stuff back at

the time I mean not to say that what I'm doing now isn't cringy but um like I feel like I embrace the cringe I feel like that's a thing with like content creators you just have to like you you truly have to like not care and just be yourself and be and say what you mean or say what you think and just like put yourself out there and um I totally did that I had no fucking filter like none it was so sometimes I look back and I was like damn like who is she like I feel so much more like evolved and mature since then but um it has been three years and a lot has changed a lot has improved and that's how it all started so literally someone just sent me a dm and sparked sparked my pod like I just got some sort of like thing after that after I read I was like I'm gonna

do this so okay the butter and the sugar I should probably whip it up a little better it's getting nice and creamed um I kind of want to play a jackass clip of mine from 2020 and this was kind of like the vibe back then um so like just my personality and just my like fuck it mood I was in um where is it I literally fried an egg and I was like this is like a bit I did on my podcast it's 8 a.m on a Wednesday in 2020 shit's on fire out in the world and you're put on a headset every morning and talking to yourself but you know what I'm feeling wired so I prepared an egg because i know i'm gonna need those healthy fats 34 episodes in 34 days i feel like i'm hitting a

wall ah should i eat my egg i don't know dude i've got chalula sitting next to me for my egg listen the fact that people are doing what i'm doing right now and they're like that is their career i'm looking at you joe rogan why wouldn't i go for it i'm in my 20s gary v would tell me try it all i'm all in bitch i'm all in all right i'm gonna eat my egg now so if you're vegan just skip ahead see a free-range grass-fed chicken i prepared the egg on a paper towel here god this is gonna be gross i mean why am i doing that i'm oh no this is disgust guys i need to be nourished i need to sound more saint by the next segment of the podcast what's in an egg omegas maybe i don't know what's the disease people have where they can't stand when people

chew jamie misophonia phonia so if you have misophonia here you go i have a huge mouth i'm gonna put this whole thing in my mouth 2020 if you haven't gone crazy this year you're not normal that's where i'm at i'm there if you're not sitting alone eating an egg on a podcast on a wednesday morning at 8 a.m talking about misophonia dude that's where i'm like people that haven't lost their shit this year and gone absolutely crazy scare me i don't get it crazy is the new normal okay oh my god like that was i would say the first yeah 300 or maybe not 300 maybe the first 100 episodes were kind of like that um yeah i just i just went off the rails every every day and uh yeah so should i i feel like i'm gonna stir this for 20 more minutes and it really

doesn't need it next steps okay um we gotta add the eggs we gotta add the eggs we gotta add the vanilla um how are you doing or is this enjoyable are you I mean is this a redundant podcast because you already know about my podcast story I'm honestly just I like to I like retelling my hero's journey or whatever my uh character of all the what the fuck is it called my character development story my evolution story because um I think we all can it's something that everyone has like anyone that's done anything big and I consider what I've done the last three years pretty big um you know I'm a solo podcast host I've put out 350 episodes I show up every week I do this um I stay consistent I I think that's a big accomplishment and I think anyone who's in

my shoes or anyone that's built a business or done anything um you know achieved any goal in their life any big goal has that story of how they got started you know and I think it's fun to recap it and to reflect on it and go back to where I began because I think I found so much joy I don't even know what to say like I feel like I gotta make these cookies guys I feel like am I even making sense right now okay I did write down a note kind of recapping my podcasting the the term that comes to mind when I think about my podcast is mental freedom because I was in a prison of my own mind for literally oh I would say from middle school through my mid-20s I was I think I started my podcast when I was what 26 26 27 26 yeah so up until that point I was in a

mental prison where I was constantly self-conscious of my personality of the way I acted I was insecure about my body had all this body image shit I had all this eating disorder I had literally had eating an eating disorder for like a decade I literally hated myself I had no I wasn't I was never proud of anything I ever did and this is all like behind the scenes because no one would ever know this looking at me because my whole um persona and what I put out there publicly was you know this big smile and I'm this like happy chick and I've got it you know a decently happy life um but inside obviously I was miserable and that's something I hid for so many years and I struggled with in silence so the mental freedom I found from podcasting it it changed my life

because I was literally exploring my personality day after day after day that I podcasted and um it healed me it fully healed me and I believe in the power of self-talk I believe in the power of um like positive affirmations and when you repeat the same things every single day the same positive things about yourself every single day it will rewire your brain to the point where you love yourself and you like who you are and that's what happened to me and I think the number one thing I'm proud of is that I used to wake up and I used to hate myself um I had nothing good to ever say about myself and now I wake up and I like who I am and I think that is my in my 20s that is or in my life I don't know how how far back can I put this I think um that

is what I'm I think one of my biggest biggest accomplishments and I think it's something that I don't want to have to struggle with for the next 50 years so I figured that out it happened to be through podcasting I know people heal their minds and and discover or this or learn to love themselves in other ways but for me it was talking out loud sharing my story every day um and yeah here we are so time to add the eggs uh hold on okay I just realized the reason why I'm so hot is because the oven's right next to me and it's on right now so um yay and I'm also wearing all black all black long sleeves so did I even tell you how many eggs um four eggs at room temp I'm gonna add one at a time okay so we're just gonna do should I do vanilla and then I do

eggs and vanilla um doesn't really matter but I do one at a time I'm actually gonna use this pre-cracked egg that was cracked at the grocery store last night um Corey and I got Italian food at this new place and the grocery store is across the street and I was like hey let's go get the chocolate chip cookie ingredients and we went in there and you know when hold on let me crack it um you know when things just get all like awkward and like the rhythm and the cadence is just all backwards like this chick was bagging her groceries and like just the way she was doing it was so annoying I'm like just set the bag here but she was setting it there and then with the eggs she's like do you want them in the bag or do you want them out and she's like moving them

around a lot and then I set them on the little uh counter thing where the uh card reader sits and I like had them there and then she grabbed them and then set them back in the back it was like this weird dance with the fucking eggs long story short um as I walked away I like flipped the whole thing upside down and they cracked on top like a few of them did so I'm gonna use those eggs today that's what I'm trying to say but um yeah I was just like just set them down and don't move them like I got the like I wanted to carry them out by myself but anyways um Corey was getting all frustrated with me like couldn't figure out what was going on these yolks are so dark I've got the um Vital Farms pasture-raised eggs today um these were $6.99 at Vons like

I feel like everywhere else I've seen these they're like $12 so I think they're on sale um it's probably because they're expired no wait what's the date um it's like next February 2024 so we got a long time to use I'm kidding okay so I mix the eggs in one at a time again they're room temperature um this is a great arm workout one at a time we're doing four so there's one there's two I used to be able to crack eggs with one hand and now I oh do I have a shell in there and I feel like I can't do that maybe I should try um so yeah I don't know like enough of this fucking sob story about how I was depressed and how I found myself like I mean what else could I talk about today I'm just making cookies okay now there's two women in my life that have cookies

that can compete with me one of them is dead and one of them is alive my dad's mom my grandma was she had like a famous recipe that she used and I think her specialty or like her secret was um I think she used Crisco like lard instead of butter I think that was her thing and then my aunt who might so my grandma died um a year ago now but my aunt makes them also like her so my grant so wait what am I trying to say my grandma her cookies were very like soft and pillowy and I think it was like the lard it just made them like kind of like a fake grocery store vibe but in a good way um and then my aunt and she gave me that recipe like one of the last things my grandma did with me was bring me into her kitchen she pulled out a recipe book and she

gave me her chocolate chip cookie recipe I just remember that um now now my aunt her thing is like kind of what I'm doing here now it's like she does all that she always leaves the butter out overnight I know that she leaves the eggs out overnight so she's really into the room temp eggs egg and butter thing then I swear her special her like thing is creaming the butter and the sugar for like 10 minutes straight and then she also uses these stones in the oven like those pizza stones she bakes her cookies on that and I feel like it gives them like a crispiness that a normal pan like I'm using normal baking sheets today like I feel like it doesn't that these sheets don't do the same thing so the way hers turn out are always like super crispy on the

edges and then really soft in the middle and they're like thinner so but she does the toll house cookie recipe I'm pretty sure she just uses the one on the back of the package but it's how she does it she creams the butter and the sugar forever um she does she's big on like room temps I mean everyone I feel like everyone that knows how to make cookies knows to do um or knows to leave the butter out or um leave it or leave it out oh my god hi episode 350 it's like my first time how many eggs did I do wait one thank god this carton was full so I can tell how many are gone one two three four okay one more egg now I pre-measured the flour um it's sitting next to me so I have six cups of flour to add to this

in this little bowl say a prayer um it's gonna be interesting so eggs eggs eggs so these are like done I'm gonna set them off to the side now I don't measure vanilla um I never have and also remember how I talked about baking powder puffing up the cookies I don't know why but like I have this uh superstition or like whatever that the reason why mine turn out so well is because I do two straight up tablespoons or teaspoons excuse me of baking soda like I make sure they're measured out perfectly and I do the baking soda where it's like a teaspoon and then a little like I do a little more baking did I say baking powder I think I said baking powder right yeah I do the two teaspoons of baking soda perfectly measured

and then I do the baking powder one teaspoon with a little more let's do it almost like not a heaping teaspoon but like so I add a little more than a teaspoon um I feel like in baking that kind of thing makes all the difference and then I buy regular flour I don't buy like anything special for the flour I just make sure to measure it really evenly and sometimes I use less flour than the recipe calls for because I like my dough to be more on the sticky side and less on the dry side so and I will teach you something when I add the flour in a sec because I think that's where people get it wrong so up until this point let me just tell you now up until this point I'm mixing the shit out of this batter okay or this dough I don't care that I'm over mixing I don't care how

much the butter melts with the sugar and the eggs like it doesn't matter so but when you add the flour you don't want to over mix it because it'll um cause the gluten to gluten whatever gluten does it'll cause the gluten to do its thing and when gluten does its thing baking uh things you're baking get tough they get rough and tough okay you want to fold the flour in and mix it just into the point it's combined not more you don't want to keep mixing it mixing it like i'm doing now um with the butter and everything so um yeah just something to keep in mind, whenever you're baking and you're using flour with gluten, gluten-free, it's a different story. Whenever I make my gluten-free chocolate chip cookies, I just literally add everything in

a bowl at once and I mix it up. So yeah, whenever you're baking with flour, make sure to not over mix because the gluten will form and it'll make your cookies tough. Okay. I don't have another drink and this is like running out did I even talk about what we did today we went to the gym it's literally labor day it's the most beautiful day in San Diego this entire year like something about the way the sun rose and like how the weather is today and just like the lighting like it's super pretty today and sunny it's probably like 85 um it's literally labor day okay I have the day off it's Monday and this is what I'm doing instead um so yeah again this is like my favorite thing cooking or baking cooking or baking whatever and podcasting um my mom's like

or no someone sent me a dm I think I posted a steak a steak cooking video and they're like you need to have a youtube channel a cooking a cooking youtube channel by the way shout out to Claire Saffitz on YouTube. Killing it. Killing the fucking game. I love her. I love her cooking videos. This is a brand new vanilla pack. I have to like use my teeth to open it. I started watching her videos during the pandemic. It's called like, um, she has like a seer. It's like an, she called it something. She used to be with Bon Petite and when that shit hit the fan there with like their um CEO or something he did something racist or I don't remember it's like I think it happened during the pandemic because I was like

watching all those Bon Appetit videos on YouTube with um Claire and the tall guy and the other tall guy and they had like a whole cast of characters on their YouTube channel and I was really into it they would do like they would try to make like the perfect Thanksgiving dinner all together and everyone would have a different responsibility or like the perfect pizza or they would Claire would always make um remake like famous foods like pizza pockets but like in a gourmet way or like Cheez-Its she would try to make those or like Oreos or anyways I was obsessed with the Bon Appetit YouTube channel and then she had the fan with the CEO and they all kind of like went away or like some of them stayed and Claire left and did her own created her own cooking show

on YouTube which is amazing she's still popping off she came out with a book it's called like what is her thing called I should just look it up um let me just look it up because it's gonna it's gonna bug me it's like what's for dessert no um Claire Saffitz um youtube dessert person it's dessert person that's like her channel so she also makes like savory foods and anyways um where am i in the recipe okay vanilla vanilla we're doing vanilla um was that racist am i gonna get I'm just thinking of this really nice lady that makes quarry and I we get the same coffee every day and she has an accent um and the way she says vanilla is really cute that's not me making fun

of her it's just like that way she says it we always like it's a room it's memorable okay anyways vanilla uh in the bowl this is where I go wild and I don't care just like the chocolate chips vanilla to me is like more is more um especially because this is cheap and this probably has alcohol in it vanilla bean x yeah this is not usually i try to get the alcohol free one like the pure vanilla but yeah it smells pretty artificial but um i think what's my recipe is it two tablespoon no how many it's uh four teaspoons okay for double doubling the recipe is four teaspoons so i'm gonna go uno dos tres cuatro cinco just a little bit more a little how much is left just a little more i do like four dumps and then a little bit more

that's how you measure it um and then i mix that in sometimes i add the vanilla and the eggs i don't know it doesn't really matter i don't think it matters just what i do just copy everything i'm doing especially copy the fact that i'm doing this by hand um and don't use a mixer um you'll feel way more accomplished at the end of it um some people say like this they turn out better when you mix them by hand I feel like the mixer can really aerate the dough and or like the butter and the sugar and really whip it up well so it gets to that really light pale yellow color where when you do it by hand it I feel like it just never really gets to that point um okay now we have to add the flour and the salt and the

baking powder and the baking soda so i need to incorporate those ingredients together first okay i have this pre-measured bowl of flour all-purpose flour six cups okay sounds like a lot um but it's the amount you need okay this pre-mixed or measured bowl and then I have my two teaspoons of salt two teaspoons of baking soda and one teaspoon plus a little a little more of baking powder in here and a whisk so before you add the dry ingredients to the wet ingredients you want to combine them together you want to combine all of the dry ingredients together so what I do is I add all of the little uh mini ingredients that I'm baking the little like what would you the leaveners is that what they're called the leaveners and the salt to the

flour and I take a whisk and I combine them together you can like sift this you can do what I mean there's you could use a fork okay I just get in there with a whisk and mix it all up because it's going to distribute better into the um the wet dough when you mix this in so um just do that just a little I mean it's nothing crazy just go over it a few times and then now is the part where you don't want to over mix so I have my wet dough and I have my dry ingredients. I do it in thirds. So I do the first dump, third of the dry. This is the part where if you're using a KitchenAid, you want to make sure you're

doing it on a low speed because you're going to get a flower facial and it's going to puff up everywhere. Um, now just watch what I'm doing on the, go to YouTube or Spotify. This is going to be a like a video a better video experience today than an audio one but um you're just going to want to fold just gently fold until it's barely combined by the third dump you're going to want to fully combine it but the first two dumps you're going to want to it'll still look a little white and powdery if that makes sense um I might not use all of it just based on what I'm seeing here a little on the dry side already so you're gonna want to make it so I'm gonna show the camera it's gonna look like that so I didn't super combine it or mix it up or um

it's like I podcast and I I feel like I choose the wrong words the wrong combination of words and after I say something I'm like I'm so fucking stupid I didn't super combine the flower with the wet these stuff it's like um i purposely did cardio this morning like a bat out of hell because or like i went super hard because i was like i want to have the mental clarity to bake something and talk at the same time because like this is not this is not very easy um the fact i have this microphone like perfectly positioned is and like i'm able to do this is crazy like i thought this height would be all messed up and like I wouldn't be able to just stand here but it actually worked out really well okay folding the

second third of flour and salt and baking powder and baking soda just gently folding okay so I'm supposed to divide this in half and give half of it to Corey and half of it to my sister and I'm kind of feeling like I should have tripled the recipe um we'll see so I still need to add the chocolate chips and all of that we'll get there in a sec um okay now I'm adding the final flour I think I'm gonna just full send it you know what I did this last time they turned out okay when I use six cups um it just looks very dry it's like I'm like should I add a couple more tablespoons of butter or something like I don't know like it looks like if you go to the camera this literally looks like a bowl of flour right

now so mix mix mix um isn't that that meredith chick's phrase on tiktok doesn't she always say like or no she always goes blend blend blend I don't really have a shtick I feel like I need a shtick that's one thing I haven't come up with in the last three years is like what's my thing you know what's my shtick um what's we all know this bitch doesn't have a niche okay that's like the number one advice I'd give you right now if you're like hey I'm inspired by your podcast and the fact you've done this for three years and uh you know I want to start my own podcast my number one tip for you would be to niche the fuck down okay put yourself it be talk just talk about cookie dough just nerd out about cookie dough or something that specific like

have like i was on the stair master day and i'm like i could just do a podcast about climbing the stair master and like the benefits of the stair master for your health and shit um because that's how you find i feel like that you can grow faster that way and you're easy more easily discoverable um because you know we all know I'm a big needle in the comedy podcast haystack uh that's literally the category I put myself in and um that's literally everyone everyone's category like every podcast is a comedy podcast um I feel different though not to say that you know I'm special but like I'm just gonna add nah fuck it I'm just gonna add the rest of the vanilla I feel like I'm a good example of um what was I saying you know

how everyone has a podcast now it's like we don't need any more podcasts it seems like yeah everyone he knows like I want to start a podcast or I have everyone's like I have a podcast blah blah it's like I identify as someone who's like a true in the podcast community I feel like a true like artist or entertainer or like I feel like I feel different I think people start a podcast they're like oh I want to make money online or I could um connect like their business they could like promote their business through their podcast or it has some sort of connection to like money making money and which is great there's nothing wrong with that but I feel like I literally do this because I feel like I'm flying I'm having so much fun I love expressing myself

this is how this is my art like this is my creative outlet like I feel like I can't go a week without doing this or else I'll start to feel like crazy like I need to I need to express myself and podcast so um I truly love it and I feel like an like an artist like I get how people I mean thank god I have a full-time job on this side this is my main thing I what do I say I'm a podcast host but my uh uh my PR job keeps keeps the lights on um I get how people become starving artists because they're like they're just obsessed with their art that's all they want to do um but yeah so I'm already over remember how I said don't over mix the flour how many minutes did I just stir this okay like I'm pretty sure these are going to turn into

hockey pucks now because I think I'm just trying to get all the flour to uh mix you know it kind of gets to a point where you can't I think by hand you can't really overdo it I'm just trying of get the bottom flour to incorporate with the top part there we go and then you like roll it over and then it's just still dry um god I'm so sweaty it's like the ac is at 68 and I'm like the oven's like right next to me and I'm breaking I'm am I sweating do I look shiny so yeah like podcasting is my true number one passion like I do this because it's like my favorite thing to do I don't know I feel like people just started podcasts or a podcast no like I I'm supportive of it all I think there's room for everyone I do believe in that I don't

but um I just feel like that's something that's maybe unique to me is that the way I approach it is as if it's like like I'm Taylor Swift writing a song not to compare myself at all to Taylor Swift but like that kind of artist thing where you're like I just need to like get my art out through words and like I need to write this song it's like for me it's like I need to tell my story through my podcast oh my god we have a visitor we have a visitor go to YouTube here he comes here he comes who is it Jimmy hi Jim I left the bathroom door cracked so he could come say hi hi Jim you guys I had Jimmy did I have him when I started this I think he was yeah he was still a puppy um maybe I should recap like what's changed in the last three years or what's improved or

what I've learned or um okay I'm gonna add the chocolate chips now actually because this is pretty much done so obviously a lot has changed in the last three years and improved I'd say it's been nothing but improvement which is wild like the graph just keeps going up as far as like personal development personal uh fulfillment in life um growth career growth everything just it's it has gone up okay I've obviously had bad days and lows but nothing in nothing compares to my life before podcasting and um i swear it's like yeah the whole power of self-talk thing and um working out all my bs through the microphone um for 300 300 days in a row so you know i started from rock bottom i was bleach blonde i was i gained a bunch of weight at the time which

not that it matters but it kind of matters because i'm like extremely well not it's so fucked up to admit it's like yeah i went through all that eating disorder stuff and like body image stuff and then like i it's like i i'm always gonna care i'm not just gonna pretend like oh i'm like healed now and i don't care it doesn't matter anymore it's like no at that time i didn't want to be in public i was so self-conscious of my body i was literally like i think have i ever said how much i weighed does it matter it doesn't it doesn't matter i don't want people to like compare themselves or whatever so um that was how i started and then I got Jimmy so that was 2020 I got Jimmy in January 2021 and then when did I meet my ex I

went through a year-long relationship before Corey Corey that was oh yeah that was 2021 so I oh that's what it was I got Jimmy in January podcast in September 2020 January I get Jimmy my golden retriever puppy like may i start dating this new guy i started like things were healing by then because i was doing it seven days a week um for like at that point like almost 300 days um met this guy in may dated him for a year um and by that time i went back to brunette i like started i lost a bunch of weight i think i lost like like most of the weight at that point because I was walking Jimmy every day I was going to the gym I was you know taking better care of myself and podcasting every day working on my mind because I do I always say like podcasting is

like my mental gym um and yeah so that was kind of the first year or so or less I was less than a and then the next year so 2021 2022 I meet Corey break up with um my ex meet Corey two weeks later um the rest is history now we're engaged um and we're getting married and like yeah that has been like the crazy arc and then I also had a different I was working in a different company at first um fully remote and then now I'm in a new company um my podcast is weekly now it's not daily obviously um yeah and my health has improved my my everything has improved I I'm like living now I feel like here's the here's what I'm trying to say sorry it's hard to cut this chocolate and talk at the same time I feel like before podcasting I was just surviving and just like

I didn't really have much of a life like all I really did was work out watch Netflix watch YouTube videos work repeat you know I think I dabbled in YouTube before and I was trying to like make YouTube vlogs can you even hear me am I talking the microphone sorry um adding the dark chocolate chunks now um but I didn't really have like much going I didn't have any friends I was just like living in my little apartment and everything was just kind of sad and like ho-hum where now I'm like doing shit okay like I'm going on trips I'm going out with friends I'm going um like what else am I like supposed to add here um I have activities and things and remember how I used to joke I was like I want to be the socialite of San Diego I want to be like in the scene and I

want to you know be that chick it's like I'm not there yet I'm not I mean that's like extreme like I'm not trying to be like going out three nights a week and shit but um I've definitely evolved that side of my life which is the part of my life that was so empty for the longest time and that's a part of my life my social life that bucket where whenever I'm social and I'm with people and I'm doing fun things and I'm traveling and I'm at parties and I'm I'm you know at dinners at concerts all that stuff it just it makes me feel the most full so I found that yeah that's like that was a missing piece and I think the podcast helped me gain the confidence to go meet people and put myself out there and um it's just all cliche and boring and redundant

like you are you guys just like bitch make the cookies and like I feel like this is just like it's like kind of corny like I'm just like podcasting changed my life and um I'm really grateful but um what a wild ride like honestly so mixing the chocolate chips I just want to eat the shit out of this right now this looks so good I'm just mixing them in um Corey requested extra chocolate chips I'm sure my sister wants that too let's see how many more I've got got like half of this bag left I'm just gonna add a bunch more um then I'm gonna have to wash my hands after this and I roll them by hand I don't use a scooper

um I just like the creative control of forming my cookie balls especially because I want the chocolate chips to be like the perfect amount and I can't really like scoop them up and get that so um yay i think this is mixed well enough now do you want me to taste this yes or yes um okay cookie dough to the mouth let's do it by the way i have a dinner to go to tonight cory's parents are taking me and cory's friends out to dinner like a surprise birthday dinner so i have to have this done by the next in the next like hour um have i eaten today i had a protein smoothie after after the gym i'm real i'm fucking real does it need anything no wow wow wow wow

okay I'm gonna get my cookie sheets out I'm gonna wash my hands I'm gonna form these balls and show you how I make them and then or like the size I do and how I put them on the pan and then I'm gonna bake them then come back and do a taste test so you can see how they turn out I just remembered that I brought my original podcasting notebook here today and oh my goodness I used to handwrite all my podcasting notes like every single day I would write the 24 hour update because I was doing it seven days a week so I do like a recap of my last 24 hours since I podcasted and then throughout the day I would write down all my observations and the things I wanted to talk about um it's really funny to read back on I might read a few of these when I'm

waiting for them to to bake um but now I'm gonna form the balls and put them on the cookie sheet um while I'm doing this though I want to talk about some of the themes of my podcast I'm looking at my notes here in front of me now um so I do like little sorry I'm trying to show you the size I would say this is a what size of ball is this a racket ball no um it's like a golf ball and a half size and I do singular balls singular balls what am I saying I put the balls on the on the cookie sheet I put parchment paper down um and sometimes what I do is I'll do the balls and I'll let them cook and I'll see how the

first batch turns out and then I'll decide from there if I should push on them a little bit because sometimes they're too tall and the way they bake isn't um they don't bake like they don't spread out how I want them to so I'll push push them down a little bit oh my god I'm full I'm fully forgetting the number one tip of making chocolate chip cookies my number one tip put this in the fridge overnight let the dough sit in the fridge overnight and let all the ingredients kind meld together and I feel like it just they like the flavor develops or something while they sit in a way that it's like I don't know how to explain it it's just like a nice the depth of the flavor is just better when you do that so um and you cook them so when I

whenever I put them in the fridge I put them on the pan cold they still turn out really good but it's like if I do them like this but I don't know I also feel like the reason why mine are so good is because I know how to like bake them like the way you you have like I'll show you I feel like the timing is everything the temperature of the oven the timing you just have to know when to pull them out because they're going to continue cooking and I feel like most people make the mistake of leaving them in the oven too long and then they're crunchy and they're like too brown so um yeah so don't do that um all right I'm putting two four six on the pan okay just put them in the oven for 12 minutes I'm gonna check them around 10 maybe 9 a little before that I'm

always like checking them I'm always paranoid that they're gonna overcook so I'm gonna check them in like eight to 10 minutes. Um, but yeah, back to what I was talking about as far as I have my notebook here, but I want to read some themes. I wrote down some reoccurring themes of my podcast over the last three years. So number one, I wrote humor is a safe space. I've totally leaned in to, um my comedic side and I've fully embraced that side of me and I feel like I've really what I've learned is that there's a line and the funny what's funny is on the other side is crossing that line the humor is on the other side of that and most people get up to the like most podcasters or not most I feel like everyone's a comedian everyone's everyone's got

a comedy podcast but say the thing people are thinking you know what I mean like say the thing that people are afraid to say and I feel like that is there's it's a lot of fun um that's where I feel like I'm the most creative is when I get into that like mode of just like I get wound up I'm like on one and I get I get this like psycho energy where um some episodes I'll be like drinking way too much coffee and I'll just be popping off I'll be ranting about something and yeah I've really learned that yeah like that's kind of my wheelhouse naturally I'm just I'm an entertainer that way like um and I remember I've told this story before like um the first time I found out that I was funny or people around me always wanted to hear what I was going to say because

it made them laugh was in high school because I wasn't really friends with the cool people but they all liked me if that makes sense and I always felt like I was on the outside like like a little leech like trying to get into their circle but um I ended up making friends with like all the stoner kids in pottery class and I feel like I picked up their humor because they just like didn't give a fuck and they just said it like it was and it was just like said it like it is and they're just like free like that and so it rubbed off on me and then yeah during high school like I would be in class and I remember this leadership class I was in um it's called like BSP I don't think it was called like yeah BSP and then also one of my literature classes like I would literally

raise my hand and ask a question and the whole fucking class would die laughing and I'm like I'm not trying to be I was not trying to be funny I was just talking no I feel so fucked like I am so dry right now I am so dried out boring you know I do want to talk about how I think working in the corporate world has made me um like ruin my personality no um I feel like or maybe it's me getting a little older and more polished around the edges but like the way I started my podcast like that energy that like psycho comedic energy I feel like it has gone away a little bit and I'm always like is this because I work a corporate job and it's like all serious all the time and then when I podcast I'm like it like doesn't switch on like it used to I don't know

I have this whole theory about that but um yeah like what I'm saying is I'm so funny and I'm the funniest person I know and I'm the funniest person you know and that's why you're listening right now and oh my god like this is not the type of podcast that I usually put out this feels very like reflective serious I'm baking cookies it's very formal I'm wearing a pink apron um no what I'm saying is that I won people over I learned that yeah I can win people over through comedy through making them laugh and so I would lean into that because all the people I was around that I or I wanted to be friends with all these people that I was making laugh and I was like that funny girl in class you know what I mean so that's when it started and then um I noticed through like my

snapchat stories in college and my instagram stories over time like not so much now but i used to be like i would like be in public taking pictures of people and shit i'd see and i'd put little captions and comments and i used to do like um i had all these tweets i would write like um it's like a stupid tweet i remember i don't know i had all these like i i explored my humor on Twitter and shit so this is an extension of that I guess my podcast like I it's like or a continuation where it's a way for me to explore my personality and especially the comedic side and back to the theme the regular theme of my podcast or one of the major themes is humor is a safe space I think every time I listen to a comedy podcast I was just listening to um

fucking Tim Dillon and um Giannis Pappas the latest episode of that and then day before I was listening to burr and tom and it's just like nothing is better than laughter and like laughing and if i can contribute some humor to society and make people laugh through my podcast and someone out there who thinks i'm funny i don't care if it's one fucking person then yay you know um i'm trying to keep it light and entertaining most most of the time so um yeah just like i'm so in my head right now i'm like i'm just so dry you know what i mean um like i'm not on my period i'm like it's a beautiful sunny day it's my podcasting anniversary i'm i worked out i mean i'm making cookies like where's the pizzazz bitch where's the pizzazz

like I do I need like I feel like I need a drink right now I need I need something on board like I'm boring I'm fucking boring right now so humor is a state of safe space um confidence is a choice another theme I learned that even if I didn't believe it saying positive things about myself out loud like I'm going to the I used to say the most dumb shit I was like I'm going to the top charts podcasting I'm gonna blow it all these bitches doing it once a week because I do it seven days a week I was like just really like cocky and arrogant um and it's sarcastically fun it wasn't like a serious way I was like obviously being sarcastic but I learned that like over time the

more I said positive things about myself um the more I started to believe it that whole like power of self-talk thing and I think being confident is a choice and that's something I struggled with before podcasting for so long obviously so now I just wake up every day every day and um I think it's also a combination of I don't have the shit talking thing in my head anymore where I'm like how many times have I literally shit talk myself on this podcast like I'm constantly cutting myself off like bitch you're so boring spice it up like it's because I'm also a harsh critic of me as a podcast as my I'm I'm not saying these these things because I hate myself I'm saying them because I have high expectations of my podcast and how I'm entertaining you and I want this to

be fun and a good time so I don't want to be boring and that's why I'm calling myself out throughout the episode okay why does it sound like I'm out of breath um is this a four-hour podcast wait are the cookies burning we have three minutes and 26 seconds left so I need to check them like now one sec okay they're definitely gonna need those three more minutes they're very soft and doughy so um yeah I'm the whole confidence is a choice thing yeah I wake up every day and I choose confidence okay I choose happiness it's it's not what it's being it's like I I just or I don't even think about it anymore um it just is because I think the my lack of confidence came from my constant negative self-talk because if that little voice is going on in your head all

day because mine literally was from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed it was negative thoughts about myself negative negative so that creates low confidence low self-esteem poor poor self or bad self-image or self-perception so um because I've eliminated all of those negative thought patterns it's easy for me to be confident i don't think i'm lacking and i suck and i i think it used to be like i thought i i hated who i was which is like dark and very like that's like pretty severe we're like not like oh i hate that i suck at um following through with my goals it was like no I'm a piece of shit I'm a worthless human being because I never achieve what I wanted like it was that bad so because I don't have those negative thought patterns um it's easy for me to

be confident I just feel like you have one life like be I always promote this too another major theme is like be your biggest fan be your biggest cheerleader be your best friend like hype yourself up look yourself in the mirror every day tell yourself you're the shit because you are and like there's no one else but you and once you embrace that and realize that it's freeing and then you don't have all the worry about how people think of you or like because you're just you're you're just you're rooting for yourself every day so that's a that's an extremely um important theme of my podcast is um yeah being your own best friend like choosing confidence every day choosing happiness um again why do I feel like this is so cliche and stupid but like I really

want to I'm reflecting because it's been a hell of of a journey over the last three years and um yeah so I gotta I gotta pull these out they have 23 seconds left okay there they are the cookies are a little underdone you're gonna look at them and think they're too doughy and they're they need more time but trust me when they slightly turn golden brown on the edges like think of a like toasting a marshmallow you know how or roasting toasting a marshmallow you know when it gets that first little flicker of brown to it like that little tiny bit of toastiness same thing with the cookies that's when you want to pull them out so these are gonna sit they're gonna continue to cook through and um yeah just don't mess with

them don't take them off the pan sometimes I don't even put them on a rack I was gonna say sometimes I put them on a cookie sheet like a cookie or a cookie rack but um I'm just gonna let them sit and do their thing and um as that as they do that I'm literally gonna leave them here and keep talking about my podcast so and go back I'm gonna go back to the themes talk about humor is a safe space confidence is a choice and another thing the fact I was decisive for once the fact I decided to be a podcast host um that was one of the most impactful things I shifted um what am I saying one of the I think there's so much power in being decisive and so much freedom in being decisive and life is so much easier when you're decisive and what am I trying to say up until that

point I always had these big ideas about like what I wanted to do and I dabble right I was in my 20s I'm still in my 20s holy shit got a lesson a year left okay fuck um I would dabble okay I was like what are the things I used to try I was vegan for three years it's a big yogi chick I um was obsessed with like food combined they all had to do with like diet and fitness holy shit obsessed with like the food combining thing or like um crossfit or like i was a runner i was what else did i dabble in tried youtube vlogging um i was trying to do like fashiony stuff on instagram um i dabbled with like the cliche influencer shit um whatever what am i trying to say i never picked any one of those things and like ran with it and stuck with it and i'm glad

obviously I didn't stick to veganism thank god but what am I I feel like I didn't nothing what I nothing stuck nothing stuck and for good reason because none of those things okay all of those things were me seeking out an external path or hobby or whatever endeavor to fix myself or to be a better version of myself which is you would think that's like a positive thing um this is how I want to phrase it yeah where where podcasting felt like writing with my right hand and not my left hand it was just like so easy and seamless and it felt so right and I decided the whole point of me saying this is I

I decide it was like day one I'm like I recorded the first episode that really depressing clip I played earlier and I was like I'm gonna do this it's funny how in that clip I'm like I'm not a podcaster you're gonna have to listen to this on soundcloud like how how funny is that now look at me um but it I felt empowered because I made that choice and I think it feels good oh my god Jacqueline get the words out it feels good to make a decision decide pick something and I think for if you're someone who struggles with their self-image or identity if you have identity issues and you don't really know who you are and what you do you're just like twirling around like a top and you're just like going from one thing to the next thing and you don't really have a good

pillar of like who you are pick something and I just happen to pick something that I'm obsessed with and that I'm extremely passionate about and that's ideal like if you can pick something you're you have a ton of passion for and you're not um just doing it because you think you should do it whatever like and then you're gonna build confidence because I know Ed Milet said this and he's or was Andy Frisella Andy or Ed Milet they're like my literally I was listening to them when I was like 18 walking around my college campus like nerding out to the self-improvement shit um I think Ed Milet said you build confidence by keeping promises to yourself so when I set out and said I'm in a podcast seven days a week and I did that every single day I would see a new

episode come up on my Spotify or my Apple I kept seeing it come through and I was like okay this is this feels good I'm committed I've committed to this I've decided that I want to be a podcast host and I'm doing it and then over time when I saw this episode stacking up something about seeing that over time made me feel really confident and really proud of myself for once so that's my whole point like this decision being decisive is another main theme and something I believe in um there's so much power in that it's it's like that book and I had read it before I started podcasting um it's called the one thing I'm pretty sure it's called the one thing and it kind of breaks down how like a lot of the greats out there in the world are obsessed with their like one thing and

they don't waver from it and that's how they become great it's because they're focused on one thing they're not split between 10 things and it's funny because recently you guys have probably heard me bitching complain about how I'm planning a wedding I'm a full-time I have a full-time corporate job I'm a podcast host full-time content creator editor producer writer like I got it I'm a dog mom I'm I'm a housewife like I constantly bitch and complain about how like I'm stretched so thin but there's a lot of truth in that and I I am I am the type of person now I make it work okay I'm a hard worker I make it work um I'm very privileged and I I know that and I have a very sweet life I'm just saying that there are I feel like some people can benefit

from just picking a couple things and that's all they do and that's all they focus on and that's what they stick with so um obviously the dream for me is the podcasting and the housewife shit and um this is my full-time income but that takes time that takes a lot of work obviously and I'm in it for the long run I'm not going anywhere you'll see me in another three years that's not even a question to me but um yeah I think if you're kind of like stressed out it's like it's probably because you're doing too much and just pick one thing and just stick with it so that's another theme um these are looking beautiful they're probably probably have a few more minutes until I'll taste one um 100% personal accountability is another theme I've witnessed so many people in

my life let's just say family I've witnessed family members let me just get more specific um repeat the same behavior year after year after year after year after year they repeat the same behavior they come across the same problems and nothing changes and they go their entire life where that area is just like in the shitter at all times and so the theme I wrote down is 100% personal accountability because um which kind of ties into self-awareness because which is another main theme or core value um because I realized through observing that that that's no way to live that seems like it's a living hell and it's so it feels so good you just own up to your bullshit because I always say this like you know when you're doing something

you know when you've hurt someone's feelings you know when you made a mistake you know when you treated someone poorly you everyone has a conscience like you know that and so and being stubborn and I just lick my lips so creepily oh my god sorry um but being stubborn and pointing the finger and not taking accountability and blaming and all that it's like so toxic and that builds up over time to the point where like you ruin relationships with family members you friends whatever romantic partners like it's just an unhealthy way to live so i have learned and it has helped especially my relationship with cory like he's the same way it's like something we like both super agree on and something we practice all the time like

we immediately own up to our shit the second it happened like not the second i mean that's extreme but like literally within the hour or as it's happening you admit fault you say you're sorry and you apologize and you try to work it out you don't let it fester and and have this like resentment thing build up and and go into your separate corners and like that's where like the anger and the toxicity grows and it's just like once you realize and I think for me it was like a realization that it feels good it feels good to be decisive okay it feels good to express myself and entertain you with humor on my podcast because that was the other theme and it feels good to own up to your mistakes and take a hundred percent accountability for your actions at all

times like it just like I don't I feel like you live if you don't do that you live a life of there's just like always something on your shoulder like or like a it's like a heavy weight just like always with you because every time you run into those people you have bad relationships with where you've been mean to them or you've hurt them and so it's like and you never it's never addressed you never apologize it's just like that's that's that's you're carrying that with you everywhere you go so 100 personal accountability is another core value or main theme um of my show should I taste one I'm kind of getting bored of this like self-improvement talk shit honestly like again I'm reflecting but like is this what this is what we came here for

the cookies we do not come here like I don't know again I'm just like doing something new today in my kitchen but wow okay let me like really get into this um they're still kind of oh yeah it's kind of mushy a little bit because they're still hot which is like the best time to eat them i don't really show you the bottom this is this is not this is not the presentation i wanted wait let me maybe lift this one up i'm just trying to show you how the bottoms look they're too they're too hot um i don't know if you can see on there they're like perfectly golden brown but yeah they literally have to sit for like 10 to 15 minutes so they can set wow okay so

okay enough of the fun stuff um another theme Do what works for you. Focus on the big picture, not details. You are the creative of your reality. Health is wealth. You guys, should I end the episode? Like, I don't know why I went this route.

Fuck. My core values are authenticity, integrity, self-awareness, decisiveness, common sense, and joy. Corey wants to talk. Let me get him on the horn. tell him he's on the podcast he always calls in hello okay i just pull out the first batch and you're on the podcast right now oh hi is everything okay yeah i was just i had i found a really cool house oh well don't tell him where it's at huh i'll have to bleep that well that's fine

well it's whatever um that i wanted to go with you and look at today but what time i mean like right now i don't know when you'll be done i'll wrap up i mean i have to bake all the cookies but i can probably just like put it in the fridge okay like you'd pick me up and uh yeah or we can just meet there but yeah that's fine i can pick you up is it like we got to go now um i'll be there in like 30 minutes but it's it's um you know i could be there in 30 minutes do you want to facetime you while you're there i mean you'd like to see it just i know but i'm like i gotta do i gotta finish this episode and like i feel like i'm i want to can we see it tomorrow or um i'm busy tomorrow i know me too fuck so uh just finish when you just finish we can go and

you know maybe like in an hour or something are you gonna pick me up or are we gonna drive stuff yeah i'll pick you up okay i'll finish and that's perfect we okay sounds good all right love you bye oh god the drama of our lives no i'm kidding um just buying a house um so yeah i feel like i just you know have all these wholesome um things to talk about here on my podcast um do what works for you yeah that's another main thing let me just go back to that wow this cookie is really good like here i am giving advice unsolicited advice but the internet is full of

so much information and so many tips and tricks on how to be a person and how to live a healthy happy life and I swear like this whole generation of people are like up and coming it's like all about being happy people are obsessed with like chasing happiness and like you know being happy and um like we're always seeking like the the little hack or the tip to like feel good and like have optimal health and you know are obsessed like morning routines and cold plunging all this shit now so which is they're good things it people mean well and they're they are promoting health which is obviously a good thing but um with that being said I always say do what works for you because I have literally dabbled in it all I've tried it all I've heard all about I've heard

like every wellness tip I've heard of every mindset tip every um biohacking morning routine tip uh productivity tip um time blocking time stacking journaling meditation like just you name it I've like literally heard it all so something that I've learned is that it's good to dabble in it don't get me wrong like it's good to try things out and to get inspired and excited about a new wellness trend or new habit you want to create but um if it doesn't work for you like if you're like what the fuck every time i cold plunge i feel like i'm gonna have a heart attack and i feel miserable after but like everyone's talking about all these endorphins they get from it and i literally feel like shit i think i need to go like don't cold plunge like you don't

have to do it so and that goes with everything um like um yeah just try things out and do what works for you and it's kind of like fun to have your own personalized shit that no one else does I don't know I feel like everyone's just copying each other and um I used to make the joke that my morning routine is I get up I drink coffee and I get to work I don't sit and meditate I don't sit journal I don't sit and drink the lemon water I don't fucking look at the sun and I don't get my toes you know deep into the dirt and do the fucking grounding shit like I just like simplify and so yeah I don't know how I got here oh do what works for you tune in to your own intuition and follow that like and and stop seeking answers out from the internet for every problem in your life

like that's it that's my other big advice or tip speaking of like I'm so I'm like such a I don't know is this like hypocritical or is this like what do you call this um do I need to end it I feel like I'm hitting a wall um it's because of the accessibility of information now it's it's like a knee-jerk reaction or it's like it's a it's I feel like the easy route is to go straight to the internet to find the answer to your problems but no one's teaching anyone how to tune in like you I feel like you all everybody I feel like everyone knows the answer if you really got square with yourself and looked yourself in the mirror and if you've got a problem in your life and you're like I don't know what the fuck's wrong

I need to figure this out. It's like, go inward. Think about like, tune into your mind and your wisdom of being and think back to all of the experiences you've had where you've overcome something or revert back to what used to work and try that again. Like go inward instead of seeking information and answers from the internet all the time. Because I think it disconnects you from yourself and it makes you I feel like you lose that trust in yourself and I'm saying this because it's happened to me and I still have to be like hyper aware of this because I swear like everyone on the internet is talking about a tip and a trick and a hack and all day long like it's everyone just selling that on their podcasts right now and

um it's just easy to get suckered in where you're like yeah going to the internet for all your problems and and trying to get all the answers there but it's like you have it inside of you you really do um and so what I've learned over time is that it feels good I always go back to what feels good I'm all about like how does it feel right like it like I said it feels good to be decisive it feels good to um what was the other one I said humor is a safe space decisiveness um be oh it feels good to be accountable for your actions and to like own up to your mistakes and release that instead of harboring all that negativity and being stubborn um it also feels good to

like go within and to like do things for yourself based on your own intuition and not because of what someone else told you to do and it's hard in this day and age it's like everything you know is from like something you learned from a fucking tiktok you saw or like a instagram post or like that i swear like everything comes from the internet now like all of your knowledge and it's fine um but just yeah pick and choose do what works for you tune into your intuition um he just sent me the house we have an i have to be be at this house tour in an hour fuck okay um and oh my god another major theme something that i'm extremely

big on is focusing zooming out and focusing on the big picture it like this was a cooking show this was a hi welcome to the anniversary podcast I've done this for three years I'm gonna bake cookies and share with you my secret recipe and now we're literally literally in the uh mindset trenches or like the holistic mindset trenches and tips oh my god this is what I do this is what I do I could literally talk for four hours about this stuff um oh my god my hair so another bite of this cookie um god damn should I just turn this into a mukbang a mukbang okay focus on the big picture not the details let me get back to this what I've observed and noticed in my life when I'm around other

people is that there's like two types of people people that obsess over small problems small little details every little aspect of their day and their to-do list and their schedule and where they need to go where they need to be how they need to act how they need to dress what they need that's like every little detail is like they're they put a lot of value and weight to it and therefore they're high anxiety high strong they're very these are like your super type a like go go go types of people that seem like warriors about literally everything it's like like I'm trying to think of something I did today where they'd be freaking freak out like I don't even know but there's those types of people and then there's like the

then there's a good there's not the good people there and there's the then there's the me's of the world where we are and you're probably like this too if you're listening you're probably more chilled out or i hope you are because what the fuck why are you worried about shit that doesn't matter like all the little details all the time it's good to be detail oriented but not to the point where you're like you put so much value and weight to it and you're stressed out all the time I have learned that and the way I have evolved to be is a person who zooms out and looks at the big picture and has perspective now I don't know if this is a trauma response I don't know if it being chill like a super chilled out um calm person is a

trauma like I feel like I've evolved to be this way because yes I've experienced a lot of hard times and trauma and abuse and all this stuff in my childhood and you know I've had a lot of hard times even in my 20s whatever and so now I have this perspective where like um I'm not dead like what am I trying to say like the big picture is like okay yeah this sucks right now yeah this little detail I you know that went awry that went wrong yeah it sucks but I'm not gonna freak out over it because based on history based on the history of my life and what I've learned I will overcome this and I will not be dead like as long as I'm not that's the whole thing like you it's the whole like Marie Forleo is that her name also used to nerd out to her podcast or her stuff

everything is figureoutable I think was her like phrase or her mantra like everything has a solution you've proven proven this to yourself time after time after time like every problem you've ever encountered it sucks but you will get to the other side even the small things missing the appointment forgetting your keys locking your keys in your car like getting locked out I'm just thinking of all these situations like get locked out out of the house um your shoes are um you're wearing two different pairs of shoes or your shirt's on backwards or your um you shit your pants in public like everything has a solution you always get to the other side and literally you always get to the other side to me it's like as long as you're

not dead you solved like how does this work in my mind I know this is extreme but this is the kind of perspective I have it's like extreme gratitude that I'm alive and that I have a roof over my head and hot showers good food love like healthy relationships cute dogs like fucking um cookies to bake like a ring on my you know I'm got this fucking rock like I have so I'm so fucking blessed so like it's like zoom out I have extreme gratitude because I know how blessed I am I know how good I have it in this life and realize that like unless I'm unless my safety my physical safety is an extreme fucking danger and I've got bombs getting dropped on my place and like people shooting at me I'm fine I will figure this out and I'll get through it and that's why

I have learned and I always fucking talk about this that the successful people my mom taught me is successful people recover quickly and they go from this she always said that successful people recover quickly it's like my mom's like wise advice but they go from the problem to the solution in the shortest short of time possible so like when you get a flat tire and you're on the side of the highway people successful people people that like get shit done in the world and they're happy and they're having a good life they have that flat tire happen they get the flat what the fuck they ran they run over the nail the side of the highway and they go oh fuck for like two seconds and then they're like calling triple a they're calling whatever they're a tow truck i

don't know they go to the solution okay this sucks my tire's flat um i'm kind of stranded right now so i need to like get my car towed or get this tire changed or they'll just like go change their put the spare tire on immediately just go into that action um versus people that holy fucking shit they like spiral out of control they freak out they have a temper tantrum over what just happened and I feel like that's normal that's human so I'm basically promoting be a robot and don't have emotions in tough situations and maybe that's a very like masculine um military kind of mindset to have but I think it's just like a better way to handle stuff when you just like get to the solution as fast as possible because you again it feels better it feels better than

wallowing in it fighting it screaming about it swearing about it kicking like it just like that's why I don't understand when people have road rage I'm like that is so out of your fucking control that other person like I would I never waste my breath on other drivers very rarely do I ever make a comment about someone driving next to me or like in front like I can't control their job like I can't do anything about it so why would I even waste my energy freaking out on them so yeah focus on the big picture that's my main theme I go from the problem to the solution in shortest time possible um and it's just a better it's just a good way to live okay so um that is all goodbye thanks for no i'm kidding um did i miss anything

i also wrote i'm not for everybody i learned that yeah that's a big hurdle i crossed the whole people pleasing thing um like who is she like i literally i learned very quickly with this podcast that um i'm not for everybody i think i'm the type of person um i think this goes for every content creator out there like you're either rocking with them or you're not some people just annoy you for whatever reason and that's okay I probably annoy people I probably piss them off it probably what it is what it is like that's inevitable like you're putting yourself out there publicly on the internet you're speaking your mind you're being authentically you and not everyone's gonna

like that and that's okay and so that's a huge like hurdle I cross for myself is like embracing that and embracing that I'm not for everybody and that's okay so um I think I will wrap it here um okay the cookies are like levitating off this now oh my god oh my god okay big reveal yay okay so like these are perfect uh holy shit holy fucking shit okay so yeah they sat for like what 10 to 15 minutes there which one has the best bottom on it sounds sexual but um do this one I'll break this one okay so here is the can you see on the camera the golden brown bottom the gooey center oh yay perfect perfect cookies um they're very chocolatey like I know

Corey wants extra chocolate chips sometimes it's like too much oh my god nothing better nothing fucking better so I think that's it thank you so much for following my podcast and supporting me over the last three years I love getting your dms I love when you you know tell me about something you're related to on the podcast episode or just random stuff you send me. Um, I really appreciate the messages, the reviews, um, your just time, like just the, thanks for, um, hanging out with me over the last three years. Like it's crazy. Like 350 episodes. I don't know how many, let's just call it 350 hours of me talking. Like how many days is that? So it's a long time. So yeah.

thanks for the support um and following my journey and you know having some fun with me along the way so wow those are rich as fuck I can do like maybe two that's like what one and a half I'm just gonna say this now if you want if you want to start a podcast this is your sign this is your sign this is your sign okay if I can do it you can do it um just post something just put it out there it's so freeing like I think that's the word like people people seek financial freedom in this life people you know that's a big thing like people want to be financially free like I think mental freedom is the number one advantage in society right now

over financial freedom because I think if you have financial freedom but you're not mentally free what's the fucking point of having all that money so mental freedom I it's I podcasted now for three years I've put out 350 solo episodes all by myself and I went from being in a living fucking hell of a mental prison to a mental paradise a mental freedom where I I can only go up from here you know life can it's like and I say this all the time to Corey you know we just got engaged and I'm just like it's a mind fuck like I'm I just I literally was like how does it how does it get any better than this like how I'm like is this you know people chase happiness people chase all this it's like I have never been so full and happy and like loved and and in my whole life and I'm

like I it's it's a trip I'm like I I've it's because I think it's such a trip because I went for so many years in the dark depths of my mind and and I was in hell like a mental yeah mental prison so it's like what the fuck but I attribute it back to what I was saying like I honestly think the podcasting um healed me helped heal me I had to do the work obviously it wasn't all just from blabbing on my microphone but um yeah I'm really proud of myself I really can't just say enough positive things about myself now and and it's yeah um so yeah I hope this was a source of inspiration a source of comfort and joy and companionship for you today thank you so much for tuning in I hope you enjoyed my chocolate chip cookie recipe

if you let me know if you try it um it's nothing groundbreaking honestly I think it's just the ratio of the baking soda and the baking powder um yeah let me know if you tried it um post a picture send it to me or whatever you want to do um that'd be cool and here's to another three more years of podcasting three more years of podcasting who the fuck knows where I'll be in three years I'll probably be knocked up burping a baby on here while I'm podcasting you know I'll be like changing diapers um I'll be we'll probably be moved into this new house we're gonna go look at no it's so crazy like buying a house life is life is like actually crazy how it unfolds and i'll leave you with this you are the creative

holy shit you are the creator of your reality okay everything starts and ends in the mind so if you can imagine it you can achieve it when i say and i'm just gonna fucking toot my own horn right now i don't care and I've always said this about myself but it's become more and more true in the last couple years like everything I've ever dreamed of I have and I have it when I wanted it if that makes sense which is a little trippy because I think for some people they have these dreams and aspirations for their life but it doesn't unfold in the time they want it to or it's out of order and it's crazy how like i had this vision for my life and what i wanted and it's literally been like

to a t okay i'm gonna leave you with that i'm gonna cut myself off happy baking thank you so much for hanging out with me today i hope you enjoyed this episode please hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now i'm on apple spotify stitcher breaker google podcast wherever you listen to podcasts make sure to subscribe to the show and leave me a review while you're there one of the best things you can do for a podcast host and for me specifically is leave a five-star review on the show after you listen to it helps us out probably the most out of anything um so review the show subscribe hit me up on instagram at jacqueline monroe tiktok at jacqueline monroe and if you want to get access to my bonus content

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And now you gon' wish you had shut the fuck up real bad And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back