The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 353- How To Look Stupid (AUDIO ONLY)

Episode Date: October 25, 2023

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What's up, guys? It's episode 353. Welcome back to the show. Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. uh it's currently 10 30 on a Sunday it's October 22nd um yeah let's do a podcast this is going to be audio only I've got a lot of updates for you like life-wise um nothing bad I don't know why that sounded like dramatic um I'm getting back to my roots today I'm or I'm going back to when I podcasted seven days a week and I did audio only episodes so there's no video today I I owe you an episode it's been like two weeks um there's no cooking advice there's not it's not gonna be a cooking show podcast I literally knocked out did I do three of them no I did beef stew last time

and then I did cookies I don't know I feel like I had three of them um what was it what was after Oh, I did meatloaf. So yeah, it's not a cooking show today. It's like literally an audio only life update, life update episode. Like I said, it's 10 30. I'm sitting here, uh, in my bathrobe. I just showered. Uh, Corey's golfing right now. Um, this is like, let me just set the scene. Um, Okay. So we woke up at like seven 30. I got nine and a half, nine hours of sleep. Yeah. I got nine hours of sleep and we got a coffee and decided like, I thought I was going to go work out. But then the last minute I'm like, F that I'm going to clean the house. I'm going to like podcast and like get my day going. Um, and not worry about the gym, which is biting me in

the ass right now because I do not have brain cells. Like I literally have no, I, if I don't work out, I am so groggy. Like literally this is what it takes. And I don't know. Okay. Cause I got, maybe it's cause I got nine hours of sleep. Okay. That's also true. If I sleep more than eight hours, sometimes I'm like groggy. I'm not refreshed. So make that make sense. Like we're supposed to sleep and like get all this sleep and they're wrecking the sleeps, everything. Right. And then I sleep nine hours and I'm like, yay. And then I feel like there's no amount of caffeine that's going to wake me up. And I literally back to what I was saying about working out.

Like, okay, I decided I'm not going to work out. I'm going to clean the house and podcast. I've got groceries to do after this. And then, um, we're going to go look at a house with his parents. Like we're going to go show them this house we really love. And, um, cause we're like house hunting now, life update. we're like fucking trying to buy a house in California um and then the Seahawks play at one so I want to podcast uh grocery shop watch the Seahawks meal prep like make the house all cute

and then Corey's gonna come home around like three-ish we're gonna go see the house with his parents and yeah so that's what's going on but like back to what I was saying to finish my thought about being groggy and not working out or um oh my god hi I need I didn't even do my plugs like I literally don't care I am okay every I was talking to the my friend that does my hair what are sentences I was getting my hair done the other day and I was telling the girl that does my hair I was like I'm like I go through these phases of content creation social media where I go, I, I get on a wave for like six months and I'm like hyped up about it. I'm so excited to like post content, create content, post podcast, make clips for TikTok, blah, blah, blah. And then

I just get like, fuck this. Like I'm so, and obviously like the world and the internet has been so just heavy lately. And like, I don't even, I'm not even going to talk about it. Like, I don't even know what to say. I mean, I, it's just not, I'm, it's not that kind of show today. like I'm not even going to get into world events and news. Like this is, it's just crazy. And I'm just, I feel like I'm, I'm like, I'm sick of keeping up. Why do I have to keep up with the, with the content creators out there? Why do I have to keep up with the podcasters out there doing all their, you know, you guys hear me like literally go back and forth. This is the theme of my show. Like you get inside my brain as a content creator. Like you hear about my life. Obviously

it's like my the Jacqueline Monroe show you're like keeping up with what's going on in my life and whatever but you're like also on this ride with me of like the mental tug of war of being a content creator and like having a lot going on in their life and like trying to balance it all out and every now and then I'm like this is what I'm gonna do and I have a patreon and I have this and I have that and I'm gonna make vlogs and you're gonna get extra content and then like two months later I'm like fuck this I'm not gonna I'm sick of keeping up with it I am doing an audio only episode in my bathroom on a Sunday I'm chilling I'm not trying to you know what I mean I'm just it's gonna ebb and flow with my life and and that's the that's the reality and I think

that's you know what it is what it is like I'm not gonna I'm not overthinking anymore I just do whatever feels good like I know because I love podcasting and this feels right today audio only chilling Sunday morning the dogs are passed out in the air conditioning section of the couch I've posted that on my Instagram a lot. Like it's so cute. Like I'll turn on the AC and there's a couple parts of our sectional couch here where the fan hits and you'll see their little, especially Jimmy with his long hair, you'll see their little hair, um, like flow in the wind and the, in the little air conditioning breeze. And it's so cute. So, um, yeah, I'm tired. I'm fucking not just because I'm groggy and I didn't work out. Okay. And I got, I slept too

much it's also like I've been tracking okay cycle syncing is like everywhere now like all the fit girlies and wellness girlies are um why did I say girlies do you know what do you remember when I called myself out on that I was like I don't say girlies all of the girls in the fitness and wellness space are like preaching how you should track your cycle and so I've I got this app called lively and I'm on day 27 of my cycle and if you know what's up you know that this is the this is the day I'm on I'm in my luteal phase which is like the demon phase of um the month and you're like all of your hormones are at their lowest level so when you if you have a girlfriend or like a wife or like if you know a woman who has a period um this is for the guys right now

not the girlies it's not the girls um you know when guys are always like oh she's pmsing she's so hormonal it's like no bitch she has no hormones right now like they're at the lowest point of the the month and so like the i've always say like the day before i get my period i'm so tired so you know what i gotta get myself some grace right now yeah i didn't work out i didn't cold plunge i didn't ice my face I literally dunk my face in ice now to wake up on days I don't work out so I didn't do all of that and I'm groggy and it's also because I'm low on my hormones guys what am I going to talk about today did I finish setting the scene yeah you know about Corey golfing I'm here with the house and the dogs and the cleaning and the podcast and the groceries after this and

um this is what I've got for you today and then I did mention being burnout of social media oh I I remember here's I always I always go back to where we started I was saying how um I think I realized like I didn't plug anything or I like didn't do that part of the intro so like and I was just like I don't care like you know what to do if you're listening right now and you like want to hang and be here every week with me and and listen to my podcast you know where to subscribe on on iTunes and Spotify like it's 2023 like I don't need to tell you what I mean you know what to do um okay so I wrote on my note here it's fall it's October it's Halloween season it's football season I love this time of year it's been a really special

last couple months like um I just love it like I love we watch we watch Corey and I and sometimes with his friends like we'll go to a local like bar and we'll watch a game like I just love it like I love um it just makes me happy I don't know like I watch all the teams like I'm a big Seahawks fan obviously like that's the only team I really care about but um recently I'm like you know what Kansas City is pretty good they're pretty good 49ers pretty good last year I became it's so hard it's so tough I was like okay it's been five years since I've looked I've moved to California I need to pick a team I don't care about the Rams I don't care about the Chargers to be honest because it's like they have the same colors they're both in LA LA is just not

I don't have this like connection with LA um I don't those teams just like annoy me especially because of the branding like they definitely need to one of the teams needs to pick different colors or like honestly the Chargers need okay San Diego is such a great city like the fact we don't have an NFL team like it just it seems wrong that the Chargers moved so like I just don't care about LA so I was like okay 49ers are great um Corey's sister lives in San Francisco and they love the 49ers and the kids love I'm like okay I'm gonna be a 49ers fan but it's been challenging this this year like watching them because I'm like secretly wish I just I only care about the Seahawks like it's hard but yeah like I've been again I was I'm watching all the teams like Miami's

doing great Miami and the Eagles are playing today I don't know if they're playing now actually but um yeah let me keep it moving um I don't want this to be this this is this has to be like a 45 minute podcast because you know what I'm gonna do oh my god I love I love getting hyped up like mid grogginess mid just slump mid morning slump like I was doing oh my god we our dishwasher's broken I'm saying how like sometimes when I podcast like it it boosts me up a little bit and I get like hyped up and like okay after this I'm gonna go like put on a cute little grocery shopping outfit and then I'm gonna go to Starbucks and get a coffee and go to Trader Joe's and like go to Sprouts and I'm gonna like get at the grocery like I just got excited like it just

hit me like oh like okay um but no like I was I spent okay our dishwasher is broken the guys come here bless their souls like if you're a maintenance man I am so like that is a that seems like a bitch of a job like it just seems like I don't know like it seems like a good job but like you're just always dealing with people's broken shit and like you probably see the same thing over and over people doing like people making the same mistakes with these appliances that you always have to fix and like anyways we've had the guy come like three times and he was like it's fixed it's fixed and I'm so excited because like finally the third time like it's fixed and then he leaves and then it's like not fixed so we have a new dishwasher sitting out in our hallway here

that they're installing tomorrow and um anyways I had to stand and hand wash the dishes and I did that like as soon as I woke up and I had like I I don't even my I was so like I was I mean I was a zombie doing it. It literally took me an hour because I had to take all the dishes out of the, I'm not doing, I'm not going to talk. This is like, not what I want to talk about guys. I'm not talking about the fact that my sister is a, is on her way. This is really what I want to talk about today. My older sister, Julia at Jules on Instagram, follow her, um, is going to the Olympia. Okay. She's going to compete. She is one of like, I think she's one of 19 in the world competing at the Olympia. Like she's the top 1% of the 1% in physique, bodybuilding, whatever

her category is physique, not women's bodybuilding. We're going in two weeks. And I like, I have never, I don't know how to feel like I feel so many things because like literally for the last almost 10 years, she's, this is what, this was the, this was her Everest, you know, like this was the big, the biggest thing you can do obviously in, in bodybuilding. And now she's fucking going and like, she's been, okay. So if you don't know this, she got her pro card like a year ago I think it was 2021 December 21 going into 22 she got her pro card um she's like a national champion physique bodybuilder she got her pro card um and then she competed in figure in Washington a couple months ago now she's had two shows and now the Olympia is in like two weeks

um I'm so excited like we're uh the whole everyone's gonna be there like my brother his girlfriend me and Corey my mom uh her boyfriend my sister like obviously um yeah everyone's coming out so the fam's gonna be together and it's like literally been I don't think we've been together since Christmas like all of us so um last Christmas so she got her pro card and then she um started her prep back in like may and then she competed in figure in washington a couple months ago and then placed really well and then she went to reno to compete in um physique which is where so figure is like okay there's not a it's it's bikini it's bikini wellness, figure physique, bodybuilding. I think that's the, those are the different categories

and figures the one. So after figuring you go, once you go to physique and bodybuilding, you take your stripper heels off. Okay. So she was competing and figure she didn't win that one. That was her pro debut. So that was her first professional show. Um, I don't even know, like I've, I don't think I've ever really talked. I feel bad. I'm like my, my sister literally for over the last like I think it's it's been eight-ish years she's been doing this she cleans house every time like she is so she wins every single time my sister wins um not only because her body is incredible like her her proportions her like it's so it's like elegant muscle and like what's the combination they all say like the judges it's like first of all she's beautiful

and that's why I think like okay I don't want to talk shit but like beauty is like not calm it's like you don't usually see like beautiful faces and bodybuilding and once they get like really muscular it's just like not it just the face changes as the body gets buff and muscular and crazy big like so the face gets more aggressive and like my sister just maintains her femininity through it all and she's stunning like whenever she stands on the stage it's like oh I didn't know I was at a beauty pageant so um yeah not only is she beautiful she cleans house she's a killer out there and she went to Reno what I'm saying is she went to Reno and won that shit her pro debut pro physique debut the first time she stood on stage competing in physique as a pro

she cleaned house and won it and is going to the Olympia okay so fuck my dishwasher fuck complain complaining about being groggy like that is why we're here today that is honestly like something I want to document this moment as her sister and like like this is such an important thing for our family right now and it's so exciting and like our hometown like she's from Mount Vernon Washington like little farm town and she's literally like she just made this shit happen for herself and it's so like it's just so inspiring and amazing and like um guys she's also like a she like is a prosecutor lawyer like I don't know what the technical terms are she's a prosecutor yeah she's like a really intense job and she does this I was asking her about that yesterday when we were

facetiming like how do you that's everyone's question whenever they talk to me about her they're like how does she have this high demand intense job and also like how does she also balance that with the bodybuilding stuff and I'm like I literally had to ask her she's like well um I feel like she needs to be I need to interview her I can hear it from the horse's mouth but she just gets that shit done she's just a yeah she like we're it's funny we're so similar and so opposite and in terms of like I'm disciplined but it's not even the fact she can do it like she is so disciplined and so dedicated and like um you know here's what I'll say as a content like this is my thing this is my passion this is my purpose like hers is bodybuilding and competing

in women's fitness what do you I'm like she's not in the bodybuilding category I should I think it's just it's all the same women's bodybuilding hers is the physique category whatever it's a blank I'm just gonna I'm gonna use a blanket term bodybuilding that's her thing bodybuilding and it's inspiring and it makes me go damn I need to set my shit up back to the whole like mindset of a content creator who's um what did I say earlier I was like I'm always taking you into my brain about trying to like be a machine here with the social media shit um it's funny my mom's like she listens to every episode some of the feedback she gave me a few episodes ago she's like jogging never doubt yourself never like you don't need to explain yourself you don't

need to explain like your plans about posting content for your fucking podcast like nobody like um i'm just thinking out loud i'm just that's all i'm doing i'm just bringing you in um this is literally like a brain dump right now but um yeah my sister's going to the olympia we're flying out um I'm so excited to see like literally it's gonna be like the most jacked people in the world all in one place and I've been to her shows before um like her show in Orlando a couple years ago was like those guys are I'm thinking of the guys because the guys are like once hold on they're like otherworldly huge like must it looks like you're looking at it's like fake it's so crazy how you've seen the muscle videos on Instagram the muscle guy videos like

it's unreal so like to see that in person now again um but this time it's the Olympia the best of the best of the best and I think there's gonna be like I don't know if Arnold's gonna be there that's gonna be sick if we can see some Arnold Schwarzenegger action um uh yeah I'm stoked so we're gonna go to like the expo and walk around to get like samples of shit I don't know what they yeah they always have like samples and yay so you know if you're not familiar with this industry like this is the super bowl of it like this is like if my sister was and I was this is my mindset like when my mom because we weren't at her show in Reno when my mom texted everyone in the group chat as it was happening she won my stomach dropped my I was like

we I was at Corey's parents actually we were eating beef stew with them um I brought it over to their house they loved it by the way uh cory's mom had like she kept going back for it it was that good so uh watch my last episode if you want the recipe um but yeah it was just a surreal moment because it's like if this was any other sport this is the world series for baseball this is the nba finals like winning the well she hasn't won yet um you know what i mean it's like you can't get any bigger than this and again she's what she's one of like 19 yeah 19 in the world so I'm just so excited and happy for her and um yeah it's it's crazy go follow her at Jules on Instagram um check out her bodybuilding videos like she posts a lot of reels that are stunning

um so yeah we're going to the Olympia what else is happening um so obviously we're planning a wedding right now. Like this is literally the life, the life of me, um, and Corey and the dogs. Like, okay. So I haven't made throughout this podcast. I haven't made my job, job, my personality tree. I never, like if I wanted to, I could make an entire podcast about my career and like what I do and tips and tricks. And I could be the PR podcast girly talking about media relations. Cause that's what I do. Right. I don't really talk about my job here. I just keep it. It's not really, it's not, it's not, I don't, it's not part of my, like I look at my job and it is what it is. Like I have no shame in saying this. It's a job. Like it's

not I don't it's not a big part of my identity if that makes sense I am it's like when people meet me and they ask me what I do I stop saying what like my job job I'm literally like I'm a podcast host like that this is like how I this is like I identify as a podcast host not a corporate girly okay again with the girly why am I saying you know what I'll fuck it it's it's rolling off the tongue I'm gonna stay I'm gonna start saying girly cool um you will not say me say me you will not hear me say I'm a girl's girl. And, uh, I don't really need to explain why, because I think it's fucking stupid to have to identify or label all the, all that kind of shit. Um, I talked about on my Instagram the other day. Oh my God. You know, and there's like a fuzz in your nostril

and it tickles. Okay. Hold on. So life, um, okay. It's kind of same shit different day right now. I'm not going to lie. I work all day. Um, I've worked in really late lately. Uh, this time of year is super busy for me late. Like the other night, I think on Monday night I was, I sent my last email at like 9 PM. Okay. Um, literally, um, so it's like working at work, dogs, um, hanging out with Corey's parents on the weekend, watching football, um, golfing on the weekends. We just went to the range yesterday again like we keep going like every Saturday we like work out we get this smoothie at the smoothie place by our gym we come home shower go to the driving range get food um usually come home like nap watch movies order fro-yo and then like hang and then that's our

Saturday so like um yeah it's very routine right now and then we're also house hunting so we're like looking for our forever home which is you know how there's the girl math trend and the boy math trend and like there needs to be like people keep coming up with like renditions of that and i was thinking of the the trend for us right now could be like or we could we could do the california home buyer uh math like the mental gymnastics you do when you see a home and you see the price and like the amount of times I've said oh 1.5 is a good buy 1.5 million I'm like I want to puke as I'm saying I'm like I'm like I look at a two million dollar home I'm like oh yeah that makes sense my brain in the last like couple years because of the home prices surging and

the inflation rates it's now at what eight percent um because everything's so skewed and so high right now um at first when i was seeing it i was like i couldn't make sense of it i wasn't i was just like this is my brain i i couldn't comprehend it we're now because i'm like balls deep looking at homes touring homes like we're driving like yesterday we drove around all these neighborhoods we want to live in and we're like looking at shit now i'm like i'm seeing like i i can rationalize it in my brain a little better or i can like understand why things are priced the way they are i mean the prices don't make sense in cal like in california i mean this is because what because he has um real estate in charlotte and like he's like yeah if we were to buy this

place in charlotte right now it would be like like 675 or something or no like what yes six to 800,000, but here it's like 1.9 million. It's such a mind fuck. So yeah. Uh, California home buyer math or like the, I was thinking of like, yeah, the girl math, boy math trend. And yeah. Okay. So like just the dumb shit I say to myself when I look at a home, like, yeah, well, so it doesn't have a yard. Um, but there's a dishwasher that, that works and, um, has a balcony with a view of some trees and uh there's no homeless people on the street in front of it so that's cool so yeah 1.9 makes sense yeah sure oh and it's um it's got subway tiles or something what's like the thing and excuse me the thing in the design the um interior design

world right like what's the big thing i'm seeing it's very like black white like what's that black uh iron wrought iron wood yeah i don't know so we're looking at homes um we're going to the olympia in a couple weeks we're watching football um i'm getting my asshole transition to a new topic i'm yeah i'm lasering i'm now every four weeks spreading my ass i'm spreading my butt cheeks open uh to a laser hair technician to laser my asshole okay i am getting laser hair removal on my entire body i had my first appointment a couple weeks ago life update i'm getting laser hair removal. Okay. Um, at Sev laser, Sev, not laser away. I'm going with Sev. Um, everyone

recommended Sev that I've talked to about laser. They're like, yeah, it's just better. Like they have this cooling air that shoots out while the laser hits you. So like you don't feel the burn. Um, so yeah, I had my first appointment a couple of weeks ago. I kind of want to talk about like, okay, I have, I've laser hair removal. I've talked to you about my chiropractor. I want to kind of mention the cycle syncing thing and then a tip on how to look hot all the time and then I have an idea that I came up with when I was at a birthday party a couple weeks ago um and then that's kind of it for the show to be honest so I this is like I've waited my whole life for this right I I'll never forget the first time I was made fun of for having hairy legs on

the school bus by the older boys I think I was in like fourth grade and they would always point at my legs and make fun of me because my hair like when you're a little girl and you've probably seen this like if you're around kids like girls have hairy legs like it's just what it is and so I remember that was like a big like I was so embarrassed and then um and then my arm hair was really hairy and then as I got older probably around middle school when my brother was getting acting he was like it's funny how like there was like a certain phase where like my brother was just evil like would pick me apart about everything and he would always make fun of my hairy arms okay so I just remember like getting made fun of about my hair all the time um and then in middle

school like seventh and eighth grade I had a little peach fudge peach fuzz stash okay and my Enemy slash friend. I don't know what to call him. Like we're good now. I haven't talked to him I don't know like 10 years Um, I think the last time we talked I was taking a birthday shot with him and he turned 21 And yeah, this is the story. Okay. I was bullied in middle school From seventh to eighth grade because I had MRSA on my face and I made the news king five news in seattle came to my House interviewed me. I looked like the elephant man. I got MRSA in my face. I'm in seventh grade um, I had to go to children's hospital and get it like removed and they had to do surgery and it was like a whole

thing I don't know if I've mentioned this maybe like twice on my show in the last three years but yeah I was severely bullied my entire childhood to be honest um throughout elementary school like all the girls hated me and it was like I had like one best friend who was like my rock and then everyone else just like never I would never get invited to birthday parties or hangouts and middle school all the boys turned on me because I had MRSA they called me like I was like the school leper and they got all the younger boys and all the other grades to make fun of me and um Matt and Alec they were the worst okay they bullied the shit out of me about how gross I was how I had um Matt was big on my mustache like he always made fun of it and I would shave that shit

off I was like so like okay I'm not they're not gonna be able to make fun of me because it's gone and they would still make fun of me you know like they're just that they're just being little shitheads um so yeah I was bullied um fast forward what I'm saying what why did I bring this up um whoa you guys i never lose my train of thought i always come back oh laser hair removal so i'm talking about the history of being a hairy woman i was also a swimmer and so at a certain point i was shaving my whole body okay ass cheeks and all like i was in i started doing competitive swimming swim team in like fifth grade um so i was shaving every like yeah um matt i'll never forget we didn't go to the same high schools because we went to private catholic

school together and then seventh and eighth grade was like a shit show of the bullying he couldn't even go to like graduation the principal on the last day of eighth grade called me into her into the principal's office and she's like what has been going on tell me everything and they literally would not let the two boys go to graduation it was like there was some more there's more to it like it was really fucking bad um and it was just me like I was the girl on campus I was like the oldest like I'm in eighth grade it only goes up to eighth grade and all the younger boys would make fun of me all the boys in my class make fun of me they were just like evil I can't even tell you the terms they would say to me because in this current climate and this in this 2023 um

everything you fucking say is offensive and like it's like what I'm about to say what I can't say would be the equivalent of me a white woman on my podcast publicly saying the n-word like that is the word what they would call me is a side part it's like a uh an almost an equivalent of that um and it's not the word cunt okay because I know I can say that as well okay so like um what am I saying he ended up having a crush on me okay Matt had a crush on me a lot and I always and the thing is when I was getting bullied I never let them they never they never got an inch on me like I never allowed it I never showed that I was upset I would ignore them and I would just like let it roll off my back and like because I thought okay if I fought back it's gonna make

I just always took the high road I always ignored it and I was just like they couldn't get any reaction from me okay and um looking back now it's like when you're in seventh and eighth grade like i should have told them off i wish i had a little more fuck you and me and a little more like you know like angst um but i just i was very passive and just like didn't have any reaction and i think i don't know i wish again i wish i clapped back a little more so we got a chipotle in our local strip mall in like 2012 this is right after high school we didn't go to high school together Matt and I and this motherfucker um reaches out to take me to Chipotle on a date and I think I've I think we matched on tinder or like as a joke I like matched

with him I forget how this happened so we ended up going to Chipotle when it opened in our hometown and um yeah and then that was that and then literally um on his 21st birthday he had gone to Jamaica with his family. And like when he was younger and came back with a bottle of rum from Jamaica with two shots left in it. And he said, Jacqueline on his 21st birthday, I don't know why it was at his party. I don't know. It was, it was at a Washington, no Western Washington, Western Washington university in a shit box party house. Um, it was actually pretty nice. And, um, all of our high school friends were there. He was there. Did he go to my high school? wait he did go to my high school didn't he wait did he go to my high school

I think he did wait I'm so confused right now anyways we took that shot at midnight together I was he's like Jacqueline was saving this and so like it's like that full circle thing where your bully is now your friend and it was just like a weird kind of like I don't know um but yeah he made fun of my mustache I'm now getting that shit lasered off at Sev laser hair removal and um this is my experience so you walk in it's beautiful there's like chandeliers the girls are all super nice and bubbly and it's you know clean and pristine and then you walk into that room and you just know at some point in this in the next hour because it takes like an hour hour 15 to laser your whole body you just know at some point you're going to be spreading your

legs open pretty fucking wide because they're going to have to get up there okay so it starts out and the girl's like my age maybe a little younger she's super sweet super nice we just start talking like boy talk and um it's funny she's like immediately she's like I think my ex is gay and then I was like go on and she was like breaking all this shit down about her ex and her dating life and I was like yeah I think I had the same thought about my ex and it was just like girl talk the whole time and things are fine like she's she's zapping me and I told her I was like let's see how high my pain tolerance is because I don't want to have to go like it's not cheap to get your whole body lasered. Okay. If you get your legs, that's one thing,

but when you do your full body, it's a, it's very, it's so fucking much. Okay. And, um, to do like 12 sessions, if that makes sense, 12, I think it's going to take me like 18. Okay. Um, so that's what people say. They're like, yeah, you go there and they sell to you the, Oh, it's, you're going to have like five to six session. You should be like hair free or something like that. and then what's the reality is it's actually like double that so we were like testing the machine seeing how high I could go to and I could for most of my body I could go almost all the way up to the top like intensity and then some areas were more sensitive and anyways yeah there was a moment where she's like okay butterfly take your panties off butterfly and it didn't hurt

like on my bikini area like it really didn't but then the part that was awkward obviously was a butt cheek one where she's like okay turn to your side and lift your butt cheeks I've never by the way if you're like if you're um a girly out there a girl a girly um who has had like a Brazilian wax before like this is probably nothing to you because it's like okay but for me I've other than my gynecologist like going to the doctor like I've never like exposed my ass to like anyone else like that and so she literally was like like had me like lift my butt and then she like zapped it and it was kind of this yeah so um I'm just so sick of doing the vertical splits in the shower trying to get that hair out I mean like it is so like I am it's crazy how like

when you first start shaving your bikini Brazilian bikini is Brazilian like the whole thing like is that butt crack all the way to yeah it's like everything right when when you're when you first start that it's kind of like what the fuck am I doing this seems like I shouldn't be up in this area like it just feels like wrong okay this is when you're younger um and then it's to the point now where I'm like full fucking splits on a regular basis until I get this laser hair removal like I will have to continue shaving like it's not going to just go away after one session so like it's gotten to the point where I literally am a full, I'm doing a full like gymnastics routine in my shower. Like I always like, I've made every guy I date watch me do this because I'm like, this is

what I'm, this is what, this is what it takes. Okay. To have a slip and slide down there. Okay. I'm literally like toe. We have these, these shelves. Okay. I literally get my toe up to that tippy top shelf where the shampoo and everything is. And I'm like side splitting, vertical side split and pulling my butt cheeks up like why is this now the podcast okay wow we're really we're really going here um i've been on reddit a lot lately and people i'm on all the like gossipy influencer gossipy threads or whatever and just because it's juicy and fun fun to read um it's like my goss it's like gossip mags but digital anyways super bad for my brain probably really toxic probably negative and not good to like veg out on but like I can't look away so it's really

interesting how people are like oh my god all she does is talk all she does is talk about her like this gym girl or something or like this an influencer like this they say this about a lot of people like all the like reddit haters they're like all she does is talk about how much she poops and her period and her gross body stuff and her butthole and like you know they they would basically pick me apart for like even explaining how I shave my ass on the shower like so hey I'm just trying to paint a picture that's the reality of it I mean you're doing it too so we're all in this together okay the chiropractor I dropped okay Corey blew his back out officially a year ago I think today October 22nd it's been exactly a year since he gave me a code red over the phone that's

are we don't say code red and unless it's like oh an oh fuck moment like this is like something horrible just happened um that's a tip if you're in a relationship like create a code word or like something to say when shit's really wrong and especially like i may can say this if if i stink because oh my god now i'm an influencer talking about her bowl and now how much she smells okay no like he'll kind of poke fun and like after the gym and say something like about like here and there he'll do it and i'm like no you can't joke about that like if i actually stink i need you to say code red you stink code red it's a code like people in this coffee shop right now are smelling you like it's really bad just fyi like just so you know that's an that's one example but like

we say it for everything. So he gave me the code right a year ago cause he blew his back out. It's officially been a year. Um, where am I going with this? Oh, the chiropractor. So he had done all this rehab stuff, um, to help, you know, get his back back. And along the way he went to a chiropractor and now I'm seeing his chiropractor. By the way, okay, I cannot tell you how good it feels when Corey says, I have no back pain. This is like a side tangent. I'll go back to the chiropractor. Every day, I'd say six out of seven days a week, I hear this. Oh my God, he'll get out of the car. He'll get up from a chair in a restaurant. He'll get off the couch. He'll get out of bed oh my god I have no back pain you have to understand he's a golfer he's been dealing with

like spasms back pain low back stuff for like six he said 16 years okay he meets me okay he meets me now I'm going to draw attention to my body now I'm a influencer content creator drawing attention to her fat ass um he meets me the queen of booty workouts growing her ass you know love it all um that's what I do. And he blows his back out. And then initially when he did it, like back in October of last year, I was like, I think you need to work on your glutes. I think that would help with your pain. Like do some bridges, you know, like start small. Like we don't have to do big hip thrusts. So I was initially, as soon as he blew his back out, I was saying, honey, it's time to grow your ass. Okay. It took him like nine months to figure that out because he's

hip thrust in. He's doing the abductor machine. He's doing booty workouts with me. He's doing kickbacks. He's doing lateral shit. He's doing all of it. And his butt, he's like growing his butt. And he's like this, he's like, I literally have no pain. And he's like, cause he, if you don't have a good, if your glutes are turned off, like, and you have low back pain, chances are it's because you don't have glutes and they're not firing. So, um, back to the chiropractor, let me stay on topic so yeah he's he literally what i was saying is like i can go to my death by knowing like i changed someone's life like he dealt with that shit for 16 years and i'm the reason i'm like oh my god this is why this is why i'm here like

i he's like you are the reason i do not have back pain like the whole booty workout thing you told me to do is like why i don't so if you're a guy out there and you have low back pain take a look in the mirror at your ass okay be real with yourself like come on is it saggy is it low is it flat is it kind of just hanging oh he even does that thing like we always you know how girls pose in the mirror and like stick a leg back to show their glute pump or whatever like he always fucks around with me and does that now and it's like my favorite thing so let's just say the really the relationship has never been stronger um yeah if your man has back pain and you're in a relationship like that puts a strain

in shit like it's not fun so he got a chiropractor to help him with his back and now I'm seeing that chiropractor now I haven't been there in like two months okay but the last time I was there I was like sure I'll buy the 10 session package sure like I got I was just too nice guys I don't need this shit I gotta be honest the guy's great I know he's good good at what he does um you know he obviously helped obviously helps people uh he helped Corey a little bit like not a lot but like honestly Corey was like I don't really feel any I just feel like oh yeah you get cracked but like nothing really changes like I think if you have really bad like neck stuff maybe but um yeah I literally got suckered in to 10 more sessions and I haven't been there in two months he reached out

to me last week he's like hey how's it going let me know when you want to come in and I'm like I'm like this is like the biggest waste of money and time like I'm a healthy person I don't have stuff like I have I have little okay my right leg is a little shorter than my left leg and I have to do certain stretches to help improve that. And like, I know like things are, I am not perfectly symmetrical and all that, but I don't need to go to the chiropractor. It just felt, I just wanted to try it out. Cause I'm like, oh yeah, I want to see what this, everyone talks about going to chiropractor and I'm like, okay, I want to see what this is like. So I sign up with him for a few sessions and then I do that. And then he passes me a piece of paper the last time. And he goes,

how about 10 more for this much money? And I'm like, and you'll save this much money by doing this package. And so I'm like, I was just too nice. That's the last time I'm going to be too nice. Cause he's, I'm just, we have a good rapport. Like he's nice. We have fun conversations about CrossFit and chicks. He has a CrossFit gym and I used to CrossFit and we talk about the body and like, you know, we, we nerd out about that shit together and he's doing 75 hard and he's suckering me into doing it and I'm not doing it right now. And am I secretly avoiding him because he thought I started 75 hard yet and now it's been 60 days and I haven't even started day one and I'm not going to fucking do it until next year, maybe before the wedding. Like, is that

my way? Am I secretly avoiding him? Because I don't want to have to face that because he thought I was going to start. He literally was like, download the app right now in front of me. Like I literally was like, it's don't get suckered in. Is this the tip of the day right now is don't get suckered in. Like I did not want 10 more sessions. I don't know why I signed up for it. Now I'm avoiding it. And it was a waste of money. And I just don't get the car. I feel like the chiropractor is like good for some people but not most people like I just like literally I'm in and out in 10 minutes he cracks my back he like I have lordosis my lower back's really bent because I like stick I don't know I'm just like bendy down there um he like lowers the bed down to like stretch my spine

and that feels kind of cool. And then he'll add like electrodes to my, like wherever I'm sore, stiff, usually my neck. Then it's like cracks me in and out 10 minutes. Just like, I don't know. It's, it feels pointless. If you've been to the chiropractor, like you probably relate to that. If you're like a healthy person, doesn't really have a lot wrong, but I think people go there thinking like some miracle is going to happen, but like, it just feels good for two seconds. And then you walk out and you're like, I kind of feel straighter. Yeah. Like, but that's about it. so laser hair removal the chiropractor um cycle syncing i kind of already mentioned that um here's what i want to say about cycle syncing so like do your research uh obviously like i'm not a doctor

i don't know i'm just like i just got an app oh my god every time this our neighbor flies this drone i'm like that is a ufo and it always scares me um what time is it okay we have 15 minutes until I'm wrapping up so I can't wait to go to Starbucks and get another coffee triple blonde shot on ice and a grande cup with salted cold foam on top please thank you um lost me trying to thought oh cycle syncing so like the once again it's okay a trend in the wellness health and wellness space pops up and I get it like women should know what's going on with their bodies we're not really taught this and I think that's the whole tone like most women go through their lives they get their period they shove a tampon up there they deal with the bleed the blood

for like five days however long it lasts in my case like 0.5 of a day like it literally I barely get one which is amazing I feel like it's always kind of been that way like I when I first got my period I got it literally for like seven days and it was like Niagara Falls like that was how it was when I like in middle school anyways um so it's like once again here's a trend and yes we should all know about our bodies and what's going on and I think it's good to have a pulse on like the different phases of what of your cycle and what it means and what potentially could be going on with your energy levels and how you should be moving your body and blah blah like but I just think what you have to keep in mind and this is something I'm keeping in mind right now and I've

literally only been doing this for a month so I want to give it time to really see if it's like what they're telling me on this app is matching how I'm feeling what's going on um just always listen to your body and tune into you and how you're feeling because like literally yesterday I hit the gym so hard I lifted heavy I was like going so fucking hard and I felt great I felt great all day like um yeah I was like I felt like a rock star in the gym yesterday and according to the app it's like time to stretch time to go on a long walk to yoga it's like you're not supposed to be moving or like not doing your PRs you know so people it they're treating it like the the fitness and health girls out there that are talking about, and that's where I'm learning

from. I'm like seeing it all over the internet right now. Um, they're teaching it as if it's the way, the truth and the light. And like, this is what you should stick to. And the way, the reason why you're so tired is because you're in your luteal phase and this is what's going on with your hormones. So don't do this kind of workout. But it's like, yeah, if you wake up on day 26 of your luteal phase and you feel energy and you want to go fucking hit the gym hard, go do it. That's what I did. You know what I mean? And here I am the next day feeling like, a bus hit me and I have no energy bitch how'd it all work out for you you should have listened to the app you should have done yoga no I'm just saying like take take this shit with a grain

of salt like like learn read research like see how it matches up like whatever the app's telling you see how it matches up with your body and how you're feeling but like it's not the end-all be-all and I think that's what people are they're selling it's like a course you can take now like cycle syncing it's like a thing people are it's because it's it's a hot button topic it's like it's like people are um but yeah I think it's smart track your cycle know what's going on um I'm not shitting on that part I think that's smart but just like always listen to your body don't just don't just live your life based on like oh this is what the app told me to do today So I'm not going to work out hard. Cause I, you know what I mean? So, um, cause everyone's

different. It's not a one size fits all. Like that's the, that's the thing too. Like if you're on birth control, Oh yeah. That's a whole other thing to consider with cycle syncing. Like, um, it's not going to apply to you in the same way, but like it might, cause some girls that are on birth control, like have a period still. And it's like, depending on what you're on, like it, it's still you still go through the phases and it's not the same though and I don't know so how to look hot all the time okay this is a tip for anyone out there and I need to take my own advice right now but it's hard because I'm getting laser hair removal and I'm not allowed to tan there's three categories that if you have these three categories dialed in at any one time

you're gonna be the hottest bitch alive walking the planet okay and think about it because if you see someone if you see a girl now this is I guess for the white chicks because if you're if you're naturally tan like you don't even have to worry about this now if you're also if you're a white chick and you like the pale lifestyle like this also might not be for you but am I still recording. Yes. But this is for like the girls that want to look hot all the time and be a hot girl. What am I saying? Oh my God. Is this again, is this the podcast right now? How much time do I have? Nine minutes until I need to get out of here. I'm not missing the kickoff of the Seahawks game. Um, if you think about it, if you see a chick walking down the street, okay. A white chick

and she's hot she's probably tan okay tan good hair I bet her nails are done that's all you gotta know tan hair nails okay you could you don't have to be you don't have you don't have to have a lot of makeup on you don't have to have like a sick outfit necessarily don't worry about the like just worry about like if if there's three areas if you if when you get ready I started doing this because like I don't really wear a lot of makeup to begin with on a day-to-day basis so like I do like a little concealer mascara uh brow maybe a little lippy okay just like keep it simple but what happened is I would like I would never do my hair I never fucking do my hair okay and it's like a problem like it's always in a bun it's always pulled back it's all but I started

doing my hair okay tanning now I gotta be honest I've been in the beds okay uh last month I was in the beds a little bit. Okay. Cover my face, cover my hands. I wear, I literally wear gloves and like a ski mask, a doubled ski mask over my neck and a face. Cause I'm not about to age that shit. So, um, but I'm, yeah, not recommending tanning beds. I'm not saying do that. I'm just saying like, figure out a way to be a little glowy, a little tan. Cause I'm naturally very pale, very cool toned. Like I like having a glow. I just look better. And then the nails. Okay. The nails. Now I used to get acrylics around the clock. Like this time last year, I think I was like full on, like every two weeks getting a fill, like getting my nails done. Now deep down,

I don't like it. Okay. I hate getting my nails. I hate, I hate the whole, like making the appointment, going there, sitting there for so long. It's just so many chemicals in your face. I don't know. I just don't love getting my nails done like it's okay it's nice like sometimes like it's nice but for the most part I don't like doing it so I got my own little kit here at home and what I want to tell you if you're a girl who's taking your vitamins and taking your biotin or whatever you take for your hair and nail growth um I take one with MSM in it I guess that's good to take for nail growth if you're doing that and you just naturally have like brittle nails because maybe are like low on iron or I don't know like my nails it's probably because they're so damaged from all

the gel I put on them here's what I'm gonna say enough about the vitamins buy builder gel build look up builder gel if you do your gel nails at home or I recommend doing that because you can literally have like acrylic looking nails if you grow them out with builder builder gel like your nails will get super long. Um, and they look amazing. So yeah, that's the tip. If you're like a DIY do it at home gel nail girl, like, cause no one's doing, if you're doing polish, just plain polish in 2023, like that shit's chipping. Okay. You're not doing it right. Like you got to get the gel light, the LED light. Um, I love doing my nails at home. I really do. I do this to my toes too. Builder gel. So what did you learn? You got to have good hair, do your hair, do a little beach

wave, do a little curl, do a little straight, just get your hair. Also go get your hair. If you don't like, just like go get your hair done to like, keep up with the color, make sure the tone is right for your skin tone. Like I've been into color analysis lately and I'm cool toned, right? So like my hair, it gets warm really fast when I get it colored. So I have to go in for a toner like every four weeks so like make sure the tone of your hair is the right tone for your skin type get a little glow going with the tan and keep your nails up okay that's how you look hot all the time think of any woman you ever see and when those three three three things are dialed in she could be in a little yoga outfit a little okay and like it doesn't really matter about the clothes as much

is like just the hair the nails the tan okay cool um and I guess some girls would be like you got to get the lashes you got to get the um wedding planning golf um what else is on here house hunting oh my god we had this telepathy thing happen last night so we were watching it was it was great this documentary is anyone like annoyed that like I just made a whole spiel about how to look hot like I care I don't give like if you're listening right now and you don't care about looking good because it makes you feel good like I can't relate like get out of here like I'm sorry like if you're if that's if that's like if that sounds superficial and stupid like is California getting to my head maybe

I just like all these things I like being a woman I like putting on makeup I like doing my hair I like well I just said I never do my hair I'm enjoying that I'm doing it more now um you know what I'm saying like I like fashion I like I shouldn't have to explain that but sometimes I'm like someone out there like thinking I'm full of shit because I um what's that girl oh not girl she's older than she's a woman um what's her name HRH collection she's like you're fat you're stupid you're ugly it's one of the three like if you leave a negative comment on my shit you're either fat you're stupid or ugly she's so intense if you ever watch you've probably seen her videos pop up on tiktok like it's alarming but she's like no bullshit she just speaks her mind and like

um sometimes it's like damn that's what we all need to hear some of the clips i see i'm like fuck she's kind of right um i bet she has so many people that hate her though just because she's super, um, extreme like her. Yeah. So where was I out on my, um, list here? Oh, we had telepathy last night. So we were, we were watching this documentary. We were eating fro-yo. So we got froyo um also if you want to be skinny no like this is the thing like if you're like trying to figure out what to eat for dinner but as you're trying to figure out what to eat for dinner dinner you're like I am craving ice cream so bad right now and I've been craving it all day like if that's coming over your body but you're also like where should we eat for dinner just don't eat dinner

and go get the ice cream and call it a day like that's what we do that a lot like we we went so we had our protein shake in the morning we went and got like um rubio's like mexican chicken bowl taco bowl things and then we didn't eat dinner we just got fro-yo and that was our day like it's not the most I mean it's probably not ideal okay obviously but I'm just saying like sometimes because then what happens is if you decide to have dinner and you want dessert the whole time you're still gonna go get the froyo after and you're just gonna like it's just too much food um so yeah so last night we're watching this documentary about um a heist in paris the biggest art heist robbery of french history this guy um

yeah i think it was back in 2010 um literally walked into the museum of modern art unscrewed the window and like went in and stole five paintings not one painting like literally five of them and it's it was a great documentary it's on netflix right now forget what it's called um but yeah we're watching it and like so this house we're obsessed with that we're gonna see later like we're on zillow like every five fucking minutes like it's just we're just so like all we're just like watching the shit like a hawk and um it's funny because like 45 minutes into the documentary we both look at each other and he looks at me and I'm thinking before he said this I go I just need to look at Zillow right now at this house like I'm dying to

look at it right now and that's what he said he goes he looks at me he goes I never watched this I gotta look at the house right now and so yeah there's like and we're like so like I think that's a good thing like if you're buying a house like you need to be like a like both like obsessed and we're so fucking obsessed and I know like I'm also not we're not putting all of our eggs in one basket like it's definitely um overpriced so we're gonna like wait it out a little longer um and see what happens but like um I also know that in this area we like in the next we have like a timeline so in the in our timeline like something's gonna come up that we're all probably also going to love. So just patience, you know, and staying optimistic. But yeah, that, why did

I say that? Oh, telepathy. So I'm going to end the episode with this tip because I've come across this now with two people and two different occasions in the last like month or a couple months so the tip or something that I don't like and I don't do is I don't like big talkers I don't like people I don't like ideas people when they're just spitballing bullshit and you just know it's not gonna happen you just look stupid okay so I had met someone for like the first time um a while back and I'm trying to be vague because I'm like oh god this is just out of love like honestly if I could give any like feedback or advice about like um making new friends and like meeting someone like I just don't like when people sit down and

they literally plan out like oh my god so we're gonna do this together and this and this and this and I want to have this do this thing with you and I'm talking about like business decisions or like friendship plans or like and then there's no follow-through there's no like like you say okay so yeah next week let's do this and this and like they don't follow through they're the one so if you're the one coming up with the idea spitballing about it getting all excited about it and you're not really close to the person you're talking to because I'm talking about these are like acquaintances like acquaintance slash friends like I would consider them friends but it's like we don't really know each other that well when you're staring at my face and you're saying all

shit and you're getting really excited about it and we're not like close like that and you're making it seem like it's going to happen and then crickets for a month like I don't hear from you there's no follow-through there's no action I just don't you just look I don't really take you seriously it's like I and I get it like especially when people are drinking if people when people are at a party and they're drinking they do this a lot like and I feel like do I do this maybe do I not have big ideas and big dreams like no it's not like that it's just like I don't I don't just I don't make up a bunch of bullshit about plans and things oh my god we should totally do this oh my god um I'm more talking okay parties aside where people are drinking like I get

I kind of I have more like grace about that situation but like yeah um I'm just thinking about a tip or some advice like don't be a big talker if you're not going to follow through with it and if you're not going to do it um because yeah you just look there's just like you know what I mean especially like know who you're talking to like it's not not to say that I'm anyone special but like I'm the kind of person where I'm like I'm judging that like I'm like okay you're and I'm again I'm being vague but like it would be the equivalent of you sitting across from someone and they're like um trying to think of a good example

so they're like I want to so they'd be like I know you're good at this thing and I want to start this thing that you're good at and so and I want your help with it and so I don't know how to explain this without being specific fuck me it's probably gonna backfire I'm gonna get a weird text in like a week hi just being on it like I'm just saying I I'm gonna I'm an action taker myself like I'm not gonna okay did I talk a big game about my patreon like here now I'm being self-aware because I always put the fucking mirror in my face and I go am I being a hypocrite right now as a podcast house I say a lot of shit I don't follow through with publicly here and I'm sure there's a lot of

people going where the fuck's your patreon like what was that you you plugged that like two months ago and like are you still plugging it no are you still like hyping it up are you still like making it a thing like no so who like you're you know one you're one to talk right I'm just saying um so yeah I could take my own advice but um it's just a good reminder maybe to all of us including myself um I always let myself in because that's that's where that's where I'm at like if you're not okay I'm gonna say I'm gonna box this and say like if you're meeting someone new and you're not close to them and you're saying all these things and these ideas and these plans and then you just like don't fall through with it I just feel like don't do that you know what I mean but also I

could take a I could I should apply that to my podcast ideas here too thanks for thanks for supporting me along this this ride though like I'll always own my shit and that's my number one I think to reflect I've I'm five minutes over time but we're gonna go for another five when I think about one of the top lessons I've ever learned in my life and I had to learn it the hard way I think the number one lesson actually yeah I think this is like the root of all relationship problems and just personal

problems and life problems is personal accountability like I think if you're not if you don't own up to your own shit and if you're not aware of it like you're gonna go through life like a bulldozer especially through relationships you're gonna hurt all these people you're gonna you're gonna abuse you're gonna do all these negative things to the people around you and you know what it is it's when you're so personal accountability right it's when you're, you go through your life and you're not, you don't, you never, um, okay. You know, you don't own up to it or apologize. And you're just like, nothing's wrong with me. That whole thing, that whole thing. Like I'm not the problem.

You're not accountable. You're not, I, you never say, sorry, you're not accountable. You're never like, you know, I know I fucking did X, Y, and Z to you. And I'm so sorry. Like, I know I have this problem. I know I need help. Like people, and this is like an extreme example, but like some I feel like on a smaller level like I'm literally going to the smallest level I'm like yeah I mentioned something on my podcast I was going to do like two months ago and it's not happening and so I you know I I'm owning up to that that's not even hurting anyone really it's just um but it's I put it all under the same umbrella of of importance because if you're not yeah I just think you become you evolve what it really is is you evolve as a human being you know

you get to know yourself better. You feel better about yourself. I think it also comes down to like self-love. Like if you're like, if you really love your, if you can love yourself through that and feel like, wow, I'm up, you know what it is? It's like also the ego. Oh my God. This is like now such a mixed bag of things. Like it's people's people who have the biggest egos and it's the big ego with being stubborn the worst combo is big ego stubborn and never admitting when they're wrong never admitting fault never owning up never apologizing always just putting it blaming people and being the victim doing that whole dance like those are the worst types of people so that's what i'm saying when i say the number one thing to learn in life and to like

really get good at it's not being that way it's fucking being a good person like really working on yourself really trying to not fucking hurt people and like you gotta like lose the you gotta lose the ego you gotta lose the being because that shit doesn't matter I think it's more impressive and more commendable or um yeah it feels good to be around people that like know themselves they know who they are and they're like unapologetic I would rather an asshole be like I know I'm an asshole than act like they're not an asshole you know that's the whole thing it's like it's just knowing it's like being around people that are like that it's just like all you want them to do is be like hey I know I'm an

asshole I got a problem it's like you just want them to admit that that makes it disarms a whole fucking situation it makes it makes it a little bit it doesn't perfect it it just makes it feel little bit better so how did this end I said don't be a big talker and be an ideas person and just like shoot a bunch of shit out of your mouth to people you're just meeting and not fall through with it because you look stupid and number two be accountable for your actions like literally it's not that hard um I think people are afraid of of what it will look like if they admit fault and admit they did something wrong and it's the most the it's the fear right it's the fear that holds them back from doing that and then what they find on the other side and I'm going to talk about

myself when I when I do this when I've done this what you get on the other side is you feel free you feel lighter you feel like you have less to hide you're not you have nothing no one has anything on you because you've already admit you've laid it all out there they already know that you know that you're that way and that you're trying to work on it and they're like wow okay thank you at least you're yeah I think people that are competitive big ego stubborn oh my god it's just such a headache to be around and I've had a quite a few in my life and that's probably why this is this hits home and is so important to me it's because I don't want to be like them I see how they live their lives I see what's going on in their life and I'm like

that just it's it's not healthy it's heavy it's it's toxic it's it's negative it's you know so um yeah you got one ride like don't live it by being a stubborn little shit about how you treat people and who you are and and how you act like you know we're not no one is you know it's like we all know that no one's perfect so stop trying to pretend like you're like nothing's wrong yeah so okay cool um i think that's the episode kind of a calm one at the end here um what else is happening

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