The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 354- Olympia Bound (AUDIO ONLY)

Episode Date: November 4, 2023

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What's up, guys? Happy November. It's episode 354. Welcome back to the show. Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. hi happy November welcome back to the show happy November go Seahawks five and two right are we five and two I should know this five and two go Seahawks and I'm going to Florida tomorrow I'm cramming this in at the 11th hour I just shut Corey down for he was like on his way home he's like hi honey I'm on your way or I'm on the way to you like I'm driving home I'm like turn that around waste some time for an hour i gotta get this podcast out i feel like is that bad um he could like literally be in the room when i do this and i wouldn't care but like

that's kind of where i'm at right now pumping out a podcast at the at the 11th hour i gotta pack i gotta go to cvs to get some mini toiletries and um i gotta walk the dogs i gotta feed them the farmer's dog we just switched them over to the farmer's dog fresh dog food so yeah lots on the to-do list I also I also have to sew my pants that I ripped um before this trip so I don't even know what to talk about like here I am as a podcast host coming to the coming to the internet episode 354 I don't know what to talk about um you know it's been it's been a week it's been a it's been a hell of a hell of an October um I just listened to what am I even saying I don't really listen to the Joe Rogan podcast anymore like I don't know I go in waves of

listening to it and I listened to the Elon Musk Halloween episode this morning like in the shower when I was doing some work around the house and the pregnant pauses he does are so inspiring like as a podcast host I'm like the I'm doing I'm trying to do it right now it's like I'm not even going as slow as he he does when he talks like I'm not like okay I'm also not one of those people that's like oh my god anything Elon does is gold and I'm like obsessed with Elon Musk like I honestly listen to it because I always I listen to all the Elon ones like I'm just like it's always an interesting conversation whatever and but like in the beginning of the episode Joe would ask him a question you just like stop for 10 seconds then you go well um like just the way he talks is

it's kind of inspiring like he really thinks before he speaks so that's my um little inspo as a host today so yeah like I don't even know what to tell you let me bring you into my world October was so chaotic for me work-wise like I talked about that on my last episode it was a really busy month like my busiest month all year and um I'm so sick of talking to you guys about how busy I am I don't really it's like not what what should we talk about I okay I talked to you guys about house hunting we're going to the Olympia tomorrow we're hopping on a flight at 10 um the Olympia is the bodybuilding competition show my sister's competing in shout out at Jules on Instagram go follow her Julia my sister my older sis

we're a year apart um I really need to interview her like I was literally taking a nap like a 20 minute power nap where I'm not really asleep and I was like daydreaming day thinking whatever and I was like I really want to get into her brain and like understand her whole like journey with this because like I know I know when she started doing it but I want to know like when did you first see someone on a stage or like see a bodybuilder or like when did you first get that like oh I want to do that someday oh I want to go to the Olympia like when I want to know that story and I feel like as her sister like I'm so close to her and I don't even know like some of these like inner workings of her mind like that you know so yeah so we're going to the Olympia

she's a physique competitor um and tomorrow yeah we're getting on a plane at 10 um guys this is like hi we're hanging out this is like a facetime call like I literally I'm so sorry actually I'm not going to apologize we're not doing this today I'm not I'm not um I'm not going to explain myself I'm just going to keep it moving and if I don't keep it moving and it slows down it's because I'm trying to be Elon Musk and pause for 10 seconds before I say the next thing we changed our wedding idea life update we're um it's been okay so when we first got engaged by the way that was the high of my life like I love

I love thinking about getting engaged that moment that whole trip we went to Catalina Island like I think about it like every day I think about it and I look down my ring and I'm just like it's it's always a reminder I'm like oh my god that was the best experience of my life and I've talked about um on other episodes I've talked about how I think you should shouldn't how I think you should get engaged versus how you shouldn't get engaged and I know there's a lot of control freaks out there but like I loved that I had no idea what was going on and this poor girl I I think I saved her tiktok i'm not gonna play it but she was like i know we've talked it's been four years we're ready to take the next step i know it's gonna happen before christmas and now i'm so paranoid

like every single day i'm like once like she's like expecting it and like i never had that feeling and that anxiety and that like i just i had literal like and people might be like was that too soon like you didn't even have the conversation about getting married it's like no none of that but i just didn't i wasn't like think i guess some people just think about it more like i was just like in the moment just like on this little trip for our anniversary Catalina Island like having a good time and boom he pops out the ring so um anyways ever since we got engaged so people talk to us all the time like every time we go out to a friend's party or a dinner or hang out with his sister who just got married a few years ago or whatever they're like you're gonna change your

mind every single month like something's gonna the whole plan's gonna change every month and that's so true. Like we just had, by the way, I could do an entire podcast episode about the evening I had with Corey last night. Like you guys, it's, I know I always come here and I'm like, sorry, it's like annoying. I always gush about my fiance, but like literally I want to be a source of inspiration that it's possible that you can find someone that like truly treats you like gold and like really loves you for you and is always there for you and always wants to help you and see you grow and like push you all the things like it's possible and I have that like I could do I could do an entire episode last night about how he walked in the door

and we he's like I gotta talk to you about the wedding I have this idea or whatever and he was like all nervous that I was gonna shut it down and get like which I never do like we're always on the same page he's very level-headed and so am I like very rational thinking about what we should do and I'm always like we just ping pong and it's never like argumentative but we talked there was a moment where I started crying and it was like a beautiful cry and then we went to dinner and he took me to the first date restaurant we went the date oh my god um the the first fucking day the restaurant we went to on our first date and then we talked more there and it was just like i don't know you can literally in within a relationship this is something that is so crazy

and i and i always and i experience this all the time with cory like when you first meet someone you're on that honeymoon phase shit you're like so like high on life and like you have that like rush every time you see them you know and it kind of like ebbs and flows sure like during the in the first like what is it like what's the honeymoon phase like it's different for everyone um we like to say we've never gotten out of the honeymoon phase but what I'm saying is you can have moments throughout your relationship where the love grows deeper and you bond together more and it's like way more I can't explain it and you just like and like last night was so it was just another moment of like wow this is the shit like this is what people are looking for their whole life

sometimes like this is what people want you know and I have it and I feel so fucking blessed and um I'm yeah like it's crazy I just think about the little moments and I even told him am I doing this is this a relationship episode what was I going to talk about oh how we changed our wedding venue I also got to talk about the bears the bangles the browns um I got to talk to you guys about what people do when life isn't going their way I have a thought um yeah house hunting updates because we're trying to find a house so the dogs can shit in a yard instead of the side on the side of the sidewalk because i'm sick and tired to take no that's literally why we're buying a house no i'm kidding like literally it's like the dream right

now as as apartment dwellers is like i just don't want to have to walk outside with a poop bag every single time my dog needs to take a shit like I just want to have grass I'm so obsessed right now with like having grass having an herb garden I don't think chicken coops are legal legal in San Diego like I would love a chicken coop like in certain parts I don't know like what's the are there like pet or animal laws um around here there I'm sure there are but okay back to what I was saying uh this is called hi I love Corey and I'm going to talk about him on my podcast um because I don't really know what else to talk about because I honestly didn't prep that much today once again um over explaining the details you guys don't need to know but

again we're just hanging out on FaceTime because I don't know you need a friend and I'm here for you and I want to uh bring you into my life and let's bond over like real life stuff okay like falling in love and getting married and buying a house okay so um something that's so nice and you've probably okay every person I've ever dated after like a rough night of drinking or just a rough day or anything rough that happens to them is so like negative and like glass half empty and just like the next day they're like oh fuck this I don't want to have to go to work oh they're just like grouchy you know like I've dated a lot of grouchy men and literally we went out on Sunday okay first of all this was this was the

kind of Sunday that we didn't plan it just kind of happened and I was like okay I'm down whatever it's football season I swear to god I have never this is my drinking year by the way like I've already established that I have never drank so much in my life than 2023 like literally okay it's Thursday night football it's it's uh Saturday Saturday college we don't watch that Thursday night football Sunday night football Monday night football is there another day wait football wait Thursday Sunday okay so we were watching football we're rooting for the Seahawks Corey just bought a Seahawks hat I'm really pissed it doesn't fit him right because he like won't wear it and anyways we're going out with friends we're drinking we're having a good time at the bars

watching football so sunday a couple things um it was a chill weekend i think we golfed saturday and then looking at the clock i have a hard stop okay so just making sure we're on task here um do you guys like this audio only format like i'm just fucking rolling with it this is how i get my podcast out to the masses like i literally love on a regular basis like i'm gonna talk about this we're gonna i'm gonna give you a little content content creator update at the end because i had an epiphany okay this sunday um oh shit hold on no okay um this sunday um did we work out I forget I just remember doing yoga and the games were on oh yeah yeah yeah okay we had the game on at like 10 I don't know what team was playing I'm doing yoga on the

ground in the living room here and all I remember is Corey walks in with he's like do you want me to get you food it's like the morning like do you want a bagel or something I'm like no I'm good i'm drinking coffee i'm doing yoga we're having like a slow sunday morning my favorite thing like we're not working out we're not trying to do anything crazy today we're just chilling we're gonna watch football it's it's it's cool so he's like can i get you anything i'm like no it's good so next thing i know he comes in with um a bunch of like booch craft like kombucha hard kombuchas it's 10 a.m okay he's like let's get fucked up today we're watching football like just as like he's being funny and i'm like doing yoga i'm like i didn't drink i was like i'm not this is not what

we're doing and then like i don't know 30 minutes goes by and he's like hey the boys want to go watch kansas city play at this bar here that's like a kansas city city bar and he's like it's gonna we're gonna be going hard just fyi you know you know these guys like you know what we're gonna do um and so i was like i just had that moment of like fuck it okay i'm down like sure okay and then i was like as long as they could put a tv on for the seahawks i'm i'm cool with it and they did They literally had one TV with the Seahawks game and I walked in with my stupid little Seahawks hat and I was like the only fan there watching the Seahawks game. But what I'm saying, this is a full circle story. Don't worry. Let me take a second. Pregnant pause like Elon Musk.

The way he talks about AI just makes sense. Like he's like, yeah, this is probably a bad idea. And like yeah it kind of seems like it is a bad idea like it's so magical it's so genius the way it works and it's like that's not that's probably not gonna be a good thing so yeah um anyways I keep doing yoga I'm drinking my coffee then I um oh I made it okay yeah I literally dumped like a half a container of egg whites in a pan because i was like i didn't he didn't get me food and i didn't really have like much of an appetite i was like i just need protein i just threw a bunch of egg whites in a pan i ate that and then i started drinking my kombucha in the shower i started getting ready for this football

afternoon at the bar and i had so i had a bunch of egg whites and a fucking kombucha in me and then i go to the bar and the next thing i know it's buckets of coors lights shots every time the chiefs get a touchdown like we're going fucking hard i don't even know then we went to another bar with his other friends later and it was just like one of those sundays of like football and drinking and i was just like oh my god what i'm saying is the next day we woke up it's literally five he sets an alarm like a jackass i think we get to bed at like 11 30 he goes alexa set an alarm for 5 10 a.m or he always does like a stupid number like 5 13 a.m i'm like i heard him say that i'm like fuck off we're not going to the gym because it's monday it's like we hit the gym

on monday we go we go early okay and anyways like the alarm goes off in the morning and we just look at each other and we just were like fuck this we're so hungover he had a headache he had been up since one he couldn't go to sleep because he was so like hungover and headachy and what i'm saying oh my god let me just cut to the chase because i need to wrap this up so sort of soon because i have to pack for florida um and take the dogs out and feed them and go to cvs and all things we laughed all morning about how shitty we felt we were just in a bubbly good mood about being hung over we weren't like it was just nothing but fun and that's what I'm saying like I've had experiences and he's had the same thing we always talk you know I think it's healthy if

you can talk about your past relationships and your current relationship like we're we're both open books and I think it's how it's really healthy because you can pull information from the past and use that to inform your current relationship what am i saying i sound like wizard here um something like relationship wizard it's just i think it's a healthy thing to do it shouldn't be like oh you can't talk about it oh i don't want to hear that and you know oh fuck he's home fuck he just pulled in this is what i do every time he pulls in to the boys is he here is he here I'm just gonna podcast through this he's gonna hear about himself as he walks in the door I'm gonna be like he's the best he was in such a good mood um because we've both dated

people where do you hear him whining yeah that you go out during here whatever you have like a rough day and then they wake up and they're just like fuck this I hate I just hate life I don't want to talk to you and they're just like they're short with you and they're in their negative and they're snippy and I just love that we're both just like we we laugh through the pain I think that's the that's the whole moral of the story like laugh through the pain laugh through the pain okay so moving on because I don't want to talk about him as he walks in the door um what kind of shit could I talk right now about him just to make him think that I'm is this whole this whole fucking podcast is literally about my fiance and whatever I don't

have a lot going on in my life other than him work football dogs wedding planning um it's fucking november so bears bangles browns i wrote same team same region same colors chicago bears orange wait cincinnati bangles right no cincinnati browns no cleveland bangles whoa wait cleveland browns okay okay same region cincinnati ohio cleveland ohio chicago illinois same region okay same colors orange orange orange bangles browns bears i guess i this is like a stupid thought i had they all like fucking confuse me bears bangles browns confuse me as a female football um watcher um bears bangles browns let me see this is a thing bears bangles browns i should call him in his car but he's sitting out there just watching tiktoks

because i told i gave him a time that he should come home dude okay here's a thought i had when the fuck did we okay if you're listening this right now Wait let me get my phone up because I need to I need to make a video. Hold on. I'm putting my sunglasses on for like the the visual the visual sauce because I have this I have this idea for my I have this idea for my Instagram content. Okay wait this looks like shit. Hold on just stay with me. Okay. hey are you here because the dogs are barking really really bad i am here you are are you watching tiktoks

yeah you're not sneaky i could see you through the window no i'm in the parking i'm in the i'm parked i know i saw you pull in and now jimmy's going nuts because i told them that you're here oh you should have said that okay i know it's my fault they're they're barking because I did the whole like is he here thing okay well I'm gonna wrap it in like 15 minutes or less so all right love you okay bye okay what I was gonna say is this is like not a new thought or like original but like literally if you're watching this hi hi Instagram like you're just on your phone all day right like I'm just on my phone all day you're just on your phone all day like we're all just on our phone all

day like I know this was a slow drip and now here we are 2023 wrapping up 2023 and something that trips me out is like I don't go anywhere without my phone ever neither do you I'm assuming and like do you ever just think too deeply about that like I saw this woman again this is something people always say on like a tiktok video you've seen or like instagram like i saw this woman walking her dog yesterday on halloween it was like halloween night just walking the dog no no headphones no you know no music going no podcast playing just walking her dog i think she was like in her 60s and i thought my my thought because i have these giant not these ones i have these giant headphones I wear these wireless like not the apple ones everyone wears like the cool girls

but like and I'm like listening to podcasts I wear those all day long I wear them while I work I wear them around the house when I do chores I wear them all the time I'm constantly entertained and overstimulated and I thought I'm like oh that looks nice there once was a time in my life when I was a little younger where I would just do stuff all day and I wasn't plugged in and I wasn't listening to something and so my whole thing my thought was like how did we get here I guess it's like addictive right like you're I feel I love information I love listening to podcasts I love like like I can do a lot of things work-wise and like around the house where I can pay attention to a podcast while I'm doing it and so I just I don't know it's like it's a habit obviously

but um it's wild like I literally I go everywhere with my phone I'm always on my phone I'm always checking my phone I'm always clicking apps and like last time I'm at dinner with my fiance and I'm like I look down at my phone this probably this probably happens to you all the time I'm like there's a reason I went to my phone I don't even remember why and six apps later I figure out oh this was the app I was trying to get to after I had gone through like Instagram TikTok Zillow Amazon then I finally made it over to the windy app to see if there's any hurricanes coming like that was the thought I had I'm like oh is there a hurricane in um the Atlantic right now I need to check out like I literally that was why I went to my phone but it took me that long to figure out

and I'm like that is so much something that also trips me out is I'm in my late 20s and it's like I've I feel like I've lost so many years of my life to my fucking phone and I just got this app called opal i think it's called opal yeah go look at opal and it was like if you continue this screen time over the course of your life if you live to like 90 or 100 that's 31 years of your life on your phone and it is what it is like you know one of my favorite quotes ever from gary v um i don't really pay attention to stuff anymore but back in the day back in like 2012 i don't fucking know when i was listening to the gary v experience what was this podcast called yeah whatever I remember him talking about the internet and social media and snapchat and

facebook and all the apps right when they were starting to really pop off and get huge I remember I remember him saying to it's because like if you want to get ahead in this world at this time with these apps and these opportunities on the apps like you can't fight reality you can't fight that social media is here and it's taking all of our time up and it's the new way to do business and all the things like you can't fight reality you just have to like roll with it and go with it and um yeah I guess that's where I'm at with my phone like I know that's such a cop-out answer like no Jacqueline you should be more disciplined you shouldn't stare at your screen before bed you

should do all these healthy habits around your phone and like limit your screen time and it but like then I go you know what it is what it is this is reality I can't fight it like this is just what it's like to be a human being in 2023 like we're just always on our fucking i don't think about it too much but whenever i do i get really uncomfortable i don't like it so yeah that's my little question of the day and comment below if this is something that this is like the most relatable as a content creator i think the most if you're like looking for something to like hook people in and like make them feel like they can relate to you as a creator just ask them like are you on your phone all day like of course everyone's gonna say yes

I'm just saying like it's chronic it's chronic and this is something that everyone talks about um I don't know what the solution is I think you have to be extremely disciplined and you actually like it's almost like any other addiction you just have to like want to quit it and like go through a program or something or get one of those apps that blocks your social media apps I don't know it's hard if you if this is how you like do business and stuff like you're kind of fucked because you have to be on your phone but I'm just like always watching TikTok videos I'm just always on Instagram I'm always watching people's stories I'm always doing shit on me like oh my god Amazon shopping before bed is like crack adding things to lists on Amazon

on crack I literally just like sit there at night and I'm like oh dream up like oh I need this accessory that I don't have for this outfit I'm wearing in two weeks I'm gonna like buy that real quick and then I have this thing for the house that I am low on I need to replace it's just like yeah 2023 as a human being is crazy so um by the way that was the that was the video clip for this episode i gotta wrap this actually i'm pissed like cory just pulled it and i'm like i don't want to make him wait for like an hour because you know me you know that's a great idea i have such a hard time ending my episodes i should just have him like i'll start the podcast when he's on his way home

and by the time he pulls up i should be done with it like i have to stop um because i had a couple thoughts okay so real quick content creation let me just bring you in because this is kind of where I'm at this is the epiphany I had that I mentioned prior to the little uh monologue I just did about being on your phone all the time like how cliche like it's literally like all people fucking talk about on the internet like we've been talking about that for years but um I just had this thought recently where I'm like damn I'm literally everywhere I go it's just glued to my hip all the time everywhere even in the fucking sauna I can't relax in the sauna like some chicks walk in with a book and like couldn't be me never that could not be me so this is episode 354 I've been

podcasting for over three years now as a solo podcast host fully producing this shit by myself and back in 2020 when TikTok started popping off and then D'Amelio D'Amelio's and Addison Rae got really big like I was just like and like people were just like people's podcasts blew up on TikTok um I felt like shit this is where I gotta live I gotta be on TikTok I gotta be on Instagram reels I have to promote my podcast via video clips on socials and I was like this is what I have to do and so a few weeks back I created a oh finally I put together a list of all the tasks it takes to put together a podcast like the production the setup production the post production all of it the editing everything and it's 25 hours a week just to like do what I'm

doing right now on video right and then do all the post-production work and make clips for socials and so I had this epiphany and I'm like look you gotta like this is what I love I love podcasting you guys know that I've talked about that since day one like this is my passion this is what I love doing I don't love all the other stuff and now at any time because this isn't going away like I can add in the video I can you know hire that out I could have someone like edit the clips for me at this point in my life right now I just it's not healthy and it's not a good it's not good for me to try to like do it all and I have such a high standard and high expectation of myself because because of the goddamn D'Amelio sisters no I'm kidding like because literally since the TikTok

clips of podcasts rolled out and everyone's posting those I was like I gotta compete I gotta be able to like promote my I have to like that's the industry standard this is what you do you post like three clips from each episode you put out and this is like what you do and I was like putting all this pressure on myself so literally a week ago I'm like fuck it I'm just gonna do audio and then you know what if I want to make a video for social I'll just do what I just did I just grabbed my little iPhone and I did a little selfie video during the podcast live on air like while I'm doing it that'll be my promo video fuck it so yeah it's it's crazy because I used to do this seven days a week and the reason this that the reason that was possible was because it was audio

only and i literally just podcasted and posted it no editing no nothing and um yeah i'm like i'm like i'm sick of like ah keeping up with the junk i said this last week i'm just like it's so unnatural like to just do so much work for your fucking content all the time like it just some people are built for it i i think i'm built for the long i i'm built for podcasting I'm being an entertainer I don't like all the other stuff you know that's how I feel about being a bride dude okay I was in the sauna and this beautiful I love this woman this like older Mexican lady she literally like every time I see her in this in the locker room or the sauna she always talks about the wedding she was just at she's been to like 15 weddings since I met her

like six months ago she's always giving me these ideas and you should do this you should that she's like giving me all these um tips and tricks and the things she saw at the wedding she went to and blah blah blah and I'm like I literally and I had this conversation with Corey last night just how I said in the same way okay I like showing up to my podcast as the entertainer you you press record for me I get on the mic I do my shit and I dip okay all the editing post production work is done by someone else I don't touch it I don't do it okay am I willing to do it yes and I have and I have I done that yes this entire three years of podcasting however it's not my love it's not my passion now I remember Logan Paul saying that's why they were able to do what

they did is they loved they loved editing they loved creating videos they loved the art of that and they and not that I don't like editing I do love editing truly deep down um I just don't like doing it all I have a lot I have a lot going on in my life outside of podcasting and I just can't can't just do this okay so yeah and so this little lady and she's she's like talking to me and it like stresses me out everything about being a bride getting married it's like not exciting it's like stressful I just don't think I think I'm one of those people that's like I said this to Corey last night we had this like beautiful conversation I'm like honey okay aside from like picking out my own dress and like stepping in a dress me like yay this is the one um I just want

to like wake up on my wedding day get my makeup done get my hair done sip a glass of champagne and show up i don't care what the fuck it looks like i know it's gonna look fine however the wedding planner does it like i don't care about the colors i don't care about the flowers i don't care about anything i just like want to show up and be the bride i just want to be that's like me saying i just want to show up and be a podcast i just want to jump on the mic and do it that is like i don't know is that like lazy i think that's very self-aware like i'm not going to try to pretend i'm someone i'm not and that's something i preach here like know yourself be yourself be authentically you like um everyone's different right and so i think ever since i've been engaged

i'm like i have to like do all these things and i just don't give a fuck about any of it to be honest and i saw this tiktok recently and this girl was like the real flex is not having a wedding because it's financially irresponsible and like save her money like put that towards something else that's like actually a better investment like people that are balling out like I remember the Sophia Richie wedding came out what was that like that debuted she fucking aired that shit what was that like a year ago now or like kind of it's been within the year and that thing was like that's if you've got money money that's what you do like everyone else that's trying to like make their wedding look like that is scraping the bottom of the fucking barrel now I've heard about

like I have friends around here and their weddings were like 250 grand plus and I'm like okay that just seems stupid even if I had all the money in the world though I just again back to what I'm saying though about I don't really care it's just like it's not my dream it's someone else's some other a lot of people dream about that I don't dream about it I love I'm like I'm so happy I found the man of my dreams and i have like and we got engaged and like that whole moment was so important to me and so like or beautiful to me and like that's what's important like the little moments a beautiful relationship we have that's what at the end of the day when that wedding's over it's like that's what matters and i'm that's all that's super solid so it's like

yeah back to the content creation thing because i do need to button this up because he's probably gonna call me again and be like um can i come in um yeah i just want to like show up on the mic spit my uh flap my gums and dip that's what i'm gonna do for you okay i'm not gonna go away i've said that for the last three years i'm not going away i'm just saying i'm trying to get like smart about my life and i want to be more efficient and i want to be more i want to fuck is it me being like a highly intuitive water sign cancer woman like everything i decide to do my life is based on like how do you feel right now it's like bitch do you think Taylor Swift feels good all the time and always wants to do a four-hour fucking performance probably not she

just does it but then I would say you know that's that's Taylor Swift and I'm not her and I just can't really you can't compare yourself to other people it's just like I'm kind of like a I don't know I'm not I work I feel like I work really hard but I don't like doing things I don't like to do for no reason like I'm doing all like literally I'm like I don't I love podcasting all the other shit I don't care about blowing up on a TikTok video like if you're watching this or if you're excuse me you're not watching because I'm not doing video anymore I don't know what your perception of me is and it's like the whole thing with social media is that people are like trying to control people other people's perception of them they have like the creative control of their

their everyone's doing their own PR okay I don't know what your perception is of me but like I when I podcast it's truly just because I love podcasting and if you've ever seen me on a video like promoting myself just know that I did that because I felt like I had to do it and I didn't really like want to stare at myself and edit myself for fucking six hours you know what I mean like I'm not like self-obsessed like oh I just love watching myself on video talk and I love posting these clips it's like no that was like a job to me so like Ethan Klein said shout out Ethan Klein from the H3 podcast he was on I forget what what interview it was but uh he said when he first started the podcast no one was listening but he was in he was doing it for the love of the game

at that time it didn't matter that no one was listening he did it because he loved it he did youtube i forget what he was talking about i think it was maybe it was his youtube channel but that's where i'm at so not going away not going away i'm just getting smarter and i think you guys this is what i'm trying to like close this chapter of me coming to so this entire year i've like you've been on this mental tug-of-war journey with me about how i should what i should do content wise you know what I mean like you've heard me try to like I've said I'm gonna do something and then I try it and then it doesn't happen and then I stop doing it and then I try something else and I say something else and it's like me just saying I'm gonna do something and

then I don't do it so I think that's just the beauty of being human though is you're not perfect and you're gonna try and you're gonna fail and you're trying you're gonna fail and the whole thing is um what's the benjamin benjamin franklin quote i believe it's um trying is failing failing is not trying is trying is failing doing i'm doing it trying to do something you don't try no that's a different quote um basically just like don't give up never quit now there's a really good quote I wish I could remember it I ordered skims I'm looking at my tabs right now life update I ordered skims I am so obsessed so guys I'm literally so obsessed um shout out to the nipple bra that literally came out the day after I got the same bra without nipples like I

definitely I don't think I'm gonna buy that one because like I don't know if I'm about showing my nips like that like for decoration but um i love skims i literally put the bra on i wear the bra all the time it's an underwire it's the teardrop bra the ultimate teardrop bra and i literally like wear it all day long sometimes and i'm like i don't even feel it on me every other underwire push-up type bra i've ever worn like digs in it hurts like even the victoria's secret ones that are like famous for like being a push-up bra the bombshell bra like those things just they don't feel good for a long time but skims is where it's at. I bought a ton of basics. Um, I got some shapewear, which I'm excited to try out. Um,

and yay. Um, Corey, five more minutes. I'm going to make you sit in the car. Um, I'm going to text him five minutes. I don't know if I want to play this tech talk, but, um, yeah, I'm going to fuck it then I'm gonna riff it's kind of about it's it's what I mentioned earlier about people telling themselves what they want to hear when life isn't going their way and then finding a community online that agrees with them and then they just like feel better about their situation even though deep down it's not what they really want so here's an example of that um shit if somebody saved tiktoks I don't know which one it is so we're gonna find you're gonna try to find it um

it was basically like keeping a man is cringy or something oh shit where is it i saved it i know i did can you hear jimmy whining in the background oh my god i love this tiktok oh no my headphones are my bluetooth is still hooked up hold on pregnant pause like elon musk 10 minute pause jimmy's whining at the farmer's dog it's on the counter thawing out he is so obsessed with it if you let another girl step foot in your car that's a body if you laugh at a girl's joke that's a body this isn't the tiktok but you guys you've probably seen that video she's like listing all this shit she's like if you if a girl wipes something off your chin that's a

body the amount of girls hold on i gotta find this tiktok i was recently talking about um i think it's this who is gonna fucking tell me that it's not my that's gonna get 10 oh no that was about your cervix getting huge when okay that's a different tiktok i this is kind of a mess right now at the end i don't care i really wanted to play this for you or maybe i could summarize it why the fuck it's like one of my newly saved videos here we go here we go you really gonna have standards or you're gonna have a man but you're gonna have both When I was younger, and I used to see people in my family, or just people in general, have these 20, 30, 40-year marriages, right?

When I was younger, I used to be like, wow, I want something like that. Like, I want to be so in love with somebody that I'm with them for 20, 30, 40, 50 years, and we die together. I used to think that what held marriages together for that long was true love. and of course communication understanding sacrifice all those things let me tell y'all what really holds marriages together women just putting up with shit that's all it is when you understand that all it takes to keep a man is for you to constantly be forgiving bullshit and constantly be just be like okay i don't want to lose him so i'm gonna forgive this i'm gonna forgive that that's all that's all a long marriage is is just a woman constantly putting up with

shit that's all it is you not leaving him because he did this and that's all a long-term marriage is and that's why when these dumb men be in my comments talking about you're gonna be single forever you're gonna die alone you're gonna die with your cats i'd be like good good for me good for me if the alternative is having to put up with you good for me like keeping a man is not an achievement keeping a man low-key be sometimes a failure for a lot of y'all okay like so everyone's uh worldview is so different like when i listen to that i'm like damn she's jimmy i got can you hear him whining hey five minutes bud daddy's in the car he's on the way you're about to get your farmer's dog in like 10 minutes he's so cute like

my little it's like i i see these videos and here i am getting married and i believe in love i believe in long-term marriages and i believe that it's one of the best decisions you could ever make for yourself in your life is to find a partner and like grow with them and build a family and build a life with them I think that is like one of the most beautiful things about life and I I'm a big I believe in it and I and I is okay and I come from a divorce I come from a divorced um divorced parents okay like I at 20 my parents got divorced and so and I I'm still a believer in that and I'm not um I don't think and what back to what she was saying the whole reason I'm playing this tiktok is she was saying that all a long-term marriage is is a man or a woman putting

up with a man and allowing a man to just like like basically walk all over and get away with shit the whole marriage and that's not like a flex that's not like a good thing that's not an accomplishment as a woman that's like a bad thing and i'm like see her worldview is like it's women putting up with men it's like men okay i'm just not to call her out and say this but like because she's like oh men will tell me oh you'll be single and living with your cats or whatever it's like men have to put up with women like her men have to put up with women too it's not one-sided and so it's interesting how when she sees couples that are happily married her perspective is that woman's just putting up with that man not knowing that that man might be

putting up with that woman now I've witnessed it from both ends and it's so true like it could go either way and um I think what I was saying before I played this is like people literally tell themselves what they want to hear at this point and just go to the internet and talk about it like they literally just like her reality probably isn't going her way she's probably single you know it's not relationships aren't working out for her and she's just coming up with some shit in her head that makes her feel good about relationships and long-term marriages basically what i'm hearing is she probably wants to be happily married in a long-term relationship but and you know her life path isn't going that way right now and she's had some

probably bad experiences and so she's sitting here like making a like basically explaining why that's a bad idea even though you know it's just it's people just telling themselves what they want to hear and then there's people like in the comments like if you read the comments it's like um marriage is living and these are all people that agree with her marriage is living in a constant state of tolerable unhappiness this is so true every marriage i've seen in my life has been struggle has been struggle love and the wife is the one struggling I've just started realizing it it's all a fairy tale it's a fairy tale or it's like when a woman says we've been through a lot together it's years of forgiving his infidelity

she's talking about and the stress she's been through this is all true like I don't disagree that a lot of women have unhappy marriages where they're putting up the man and they've got kids and they're trying to make it work because they don't want to break up the family like that I'm not I'm acknowledging that that's a reality that's real but I'm just saying like this is an example and I don't have to get into the whole like marriage topic here this could go for anything it's people like I said people are doing this on the internet all the time now you see someone coming to the internet being ho-hum about something that is a societal norm or like a traditional thing like marriage and they're saying why like I see this a lot with women saying why

they're not having kids and like all of their justifications why they don't want to have kids or why they don't want to get married or why they don't like they come to the internet and they're like this is these are all the things wrong with the traditional system and then it's just like deep down i'm like i feel like they've had a hard they've something has altered their like something has happened they've had a bad experience or they've witnessed something that's making them think this way because see and I could wrap myself into this and go like okay my life experience like I've had I've I've witnessed divorce and like I've like a toxic relationship and I've and I've been a child in that and I yet I don't feel like I'm doomed and that's not the

way and that's a horrible idea like I think marriage is great and I can't wait to be married and I can't wait to have a family. I can't wait to do the whole thing. Like, yeah, it's just, it's a choice. I think you have to choose to like not let the doom and gloom of the world change your true little dream inside you. And if your true little dream inside you is like, I want to get married and live happily ever after, stick with that. Like put that kind of energy out there and that's probably what you'll find. You know, I could have gone through my whole 20s and my whole dating career being like fuck men you know men are trash like what my dad did and like suck all this shit and then the kind of energy I'm putting out when

I'm dating is like I don't and a lot of women do that so there's an entire like trope or whatever it's like an entire like personality trait on um shout out Julia Fox for spearheading this that's like anti-men people are like fuck men I hate men men are trash it's like this whole thing right now there's there's like a movement of it and yeah okay but what I'm saying is I don't think people start out this way something happens to them they have a bad experience bad relationship men treat them like shit over and over and over and over and over again like 10 men okay whatever it's like they've gone through hell and back with men and now they feel this way and I'm just like damn I've had the same thing happen to me where I've had I've been treated like shit by men

i've been treated like shit okay i think every woman can relate like you've had heartbreaks you've had you've been cheated on you've had men abuse you how in all different types of ways and you feel like you feel like so low and stripped of your soul and your identity all the things and just mentally like just down about who you are and and you're insecure all the things happen to you when men treat you like that now that's happened I'm saying I've been there but I never let that change my true little dream inside of me that I want to fall in love and live happily ever after and find a man that truly loves me and treats me like a queen okay and I think that's a choice because um I think it's easier to just fall into that like hate mode and like anger and rage

mode and jaded mode and um it's it's fuck you gotta like see the light look on the bright side i know that's cliche and that's corny but i'm just speaking from experience i see a lot of people it's like oh fuck it's like everyone it's i can read through it and i don't know if it's because i'm just very i'm super like discerning i don't know that's a trauma thing i don't know i like see people come to the internet all the time and they're like ranting or complaining or saying something kind of like how I do it here constantly complaining I'm like underneath all of this all this stuff they're saying is like deep down I think they want something else I think they actually want the opposite or whatever they're just telling themselves what they want to hear because it feels

good and then now with the internet you can tell yourself what you want to hear publicly and find other people that agree with you and then you're like all in this together instead of being like this happened to me and I don't like it but I truly want this and I'm going to find a way to get back to that and get and find that for myself in my life like you got to be raw and honest like that you can't tell you I think hmm when I've been here's a great example and I'll end the episode with this you have to be willing to change in this life you have to be you have to want to evolve past your past self okay if you don't want that if you don't think about if you're not conscious

of that like get aware of like like snap into it okay wake up um because in my lowest moments of life I've had people literally come save me like I'll never forget my sister shout out Julia when it was 2020 I was like six months into my deep dark depression where I like didn't leave the house for weeks I laid in bed I just I gained like 35 pounds I was just like a piece of I was just like so down and out mentally I know nothing going on just I was a mess my sister literally was like she came and visited me with my mom I think for my birthday that year and they're like Jacqueline you look like shit this isn't you now I could have been like I could have sat there and justify like well it's COVID and

you know things have been really hard it's like no I was like you're right I literally just told them yeah I know I know you guys are right this isn't me I know I'm better than this and then I literally 180'd my life in the next like three months I started my podcast that October or that September and here I am today all three years later like completely like evolved I've grown damn it he's here okay we have to end the episode you guys have heard me talk about this like a thousand million times um awkward have I ever podcasted with you in the room oh yeah I have I've been I've interviewed him a couple times um do you want to take them out I didn't feed him he's acting he's like sorry okay that's it I'm gonna wrap the episode right here um I gotta

pack I gotta go to CVS I gotta sew my pants what else post this podcast get the dog food all ready for the dog sitter by the way we use the rover app again because that's usually um when we travel that's who we board our dogs with and every time I do it we have a good experience where like I'll book with someone and they're like okay I can do it and we meet do the meet and greet and this time I had like five people cancel on me so literally yesterday we found a guy with it we had like a day to go and he said he'd do it so um he has a puppy so the dogs are gonna play with a puppy all weekend while we're in Florida so that's it love you thanks for being here make sure to hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now i'm on apple spotify youtube google

podcast stitcher breaker overcast wherever you listen to podcasts hit that subscribe button review the show five stars right now go hit that review button helps me out helps people find out about the podcast follow me on instagram at jacqueline monroe and tiktok welcome what you can talk louder he's dancing he's like we're going to Florida just blow me up okay blow me up blow it blow me up blow it do you have any final words for this to tell them famous last words they can't hear you but like follow the podcast I'm repeating you big things are coming up oh by the way he told me text he texted me today or told me I forget

on the phone he's like make sure to bring cute outfits to Florida and so then I called him I called me at lunchtime and I'm like are you planning something while we're in Florida like are you I was like you already proposed to me okay like there it's not like you're trying to like propose you want me to wear a cute outfit for the pictures or whatever and I'm like it's Julia's Olympia bodybuilding show it's all about her like I don't know why I'm supposed to look cute and then what I'm getting is he doesn't like my style and wants to make sure I don't look frumpy this weekend and wants me to look hot while i'm with my mom and my family and my sister is that what it is because we're in florida and it's like a vacation

what all right no are you being serious i'm gonna tell the podcast publicly just tell me if there's a surprise or a plan did you coordinate this plan with my mom he said there's a plan did you coordinate it with my mom there's a plan though and i have to look good does it involve a camera is this a family photo shoot with you like oh here's my fiance he's with the fam we're all going to take pictures together um is it a place in orlando like a universal why do i have to look can you just tell me why i have to look cute or going on a vacay he wants me to look hot it's so like night this is like so um

what is what do you call that um disrespectful no i'm kidding i feel like we have a very i'm not i'm not into the podcast i don't care i feel very comfortable now that he's home and i can i'm not like it's not awkward that I'm talking or anything because whatever um it's funny we do this act where he treats me like I can't even say this I feel like this is like what people get canceled for it's a joke but like he'll be very um what's the voice you do like honey make sure to look hot no what's that like condescending it's like he does this condescending tone where he it's very like

aggressive um it's like passive aggressive and condescending at the same time i can't explain it like no i'll just interview you you can do it i don't know it's just but what i'm saying is um we do this all the time it's like a joke but not a joke um because he wears he tells me what to do and i just that's a thing tip for the ladies just relax let a man take the lead let a man you don't okay i'm so anti being an independent boss babe like you guys have already listened we talked about that the secret to life as a woman the secret is just relax literally chill the fuck out relax you don't need to have okay like just let a man take the lead you don't need to be hyper independent and take care of yourself

a man wants to do that for you and you can find a man that will do that for you and you can just do all the women things and it's the best thing ever and i i fucking love my life because i don't have to stress over providing for our like i don't have to do i work yes but that's my choice you know what i mean so um he's witnessing right now like here i am he just walked in the door i don't know 10 minutes ago and he's witnessing me not i always say this i'm like i can't end the episode like i don't know how to end this honey what are we going to do after i record where are we going to eat we're going to go get italian food then we're going to go to cvs get a bunch of plain snacks and portable or toilet what do you call them fun-sized

toiletries let's get the discounted halloween candy yeah it's the best i don't know what you're looking for but like if you're if you just like want to have a relaxing enjoyable life just let a man take care of you just let it happen you don't have to wear you don't have to take the lead and call the shots and be a boss who gives a fuck um and like you know if you really listen to men and i always preach this listen to listen to men as hard as it is just listen what they say they don't give a fuck about your career they don't give a fuck about your money they don't give a fuck about it is it like nice to know like oh congratulations that's a great quality or no that's like amazing good job you're a billionaire

and you built this empire and it's like they acknowledge that they think that's great i think that's a really attractive quality to a lot of men like oh she has you know her she's got her own shit going on and she can you know if you've built an empire i don't think any man's gonna like look at you and be like maybe i think a lot of men are intimidated intimidated by that but even if that's you like at the end of the day men want to be men okay just let them do it don't fight it feel it okay that's the end of the episode he's don't shave too short god damn it can you do a mustache honey sometimes i get so mad it's one of my favorite things is telling him how to do his facial hair

um yeah happy halloween happy thanksgiving happy thanksgiving happy christmas happy halloween happy almost 2024 happy q4 we're in q4 um um don't stop pushing keep it keep it going um what are my final words today Do all the like subscribe things Um Ending the episode I don't want to go Bears, Bengals, Browns

Are the same team in the same region with the same colors And they need to get a rebrand Goodbye And now you gon' wish you had shut the fuck up real bad And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back I don't fucking take smoke, I'ma poke a hole through you, choking's overdue Come at me and you won't get any older, dude, crack your hold or two

Heated up inside of me, blood so violently, thanks for trying me Now it's finally time to see how this rivalry becomes my dynasty I know there's no turning back Oh God, adrenaline wasted, so mad I can taste it I know there's no turning back Ayo, ayo, I'll do what it takes, I ain't making mistakes like that I'll bleed on your face just to make you go take it back I'll lose my shit, I go crazy when I'm mad

And now you're gone, wish you had shut the fuck up real bad And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back And now that I'm gone, yeah, I know there's no turning back Thank you.