The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 407- Charlie Kirk, Kimmel & The Death of Free Speech

Episode Date: September 22, 2025

In this episode, I break down the assassination of Charlie Kirk, Jimmy Kimmel losing his late night show temporarily, and what both stories say about the future of free speech in America. We're living through a crisis where free speech gets you fired, shot, and mocked by the crowd. From internet-radicalized kids to the useless culture of online political dunk contests, I rant about how our phones are killing empathy, making us reactive instead of human, and why celebrating someone’s death or firing over an opinion is the lowest form of intelligence and a betrayal of everything free speech is meant to protect . It's time we admit that phones increased our proximity to each other, destroyed our intimacy, erasing raw human emotion in the process, and it’s getting us killed.REVIEW THE SHOW ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ https://open.spotify.com/show/4ijzUBunTIHgVmahB0ISEN BECOME A PATRON! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/tjms⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ KEEP IN TOUCH!INSTAGRAM »⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jacquelinemonroe/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ TIKTOK » jacqueline.monroe EMAIL THE SHOW!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ MY MUSIC GUY⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ SPONSORSSpotify for Podcasters

Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome back to the show. So, heavy week. Extremely sad, heavy week. I'm going to start the show off a little different because it looks like we are officially at a place in this country where if you exercise your right to speak freely,

you're either going to be shot and killed for it or fired from your job for it. And at the same time, when you're shot and killed, people will be happy about it. Your fellow Americans will be happy about that. Or if you're fired from your job for speaking freely, also people will be happy about that. So that's where we're at as a country. And as a podcast host, like I never thought we would get here. It's a very strange time. And again, a very heavy week, a very sad week. I'm obviously going to start the episode off by talking about this a little bit putting in my two cents because I think we all I think the Charlie Kirk assassination was everyone's final straw

I think as a country we all that was the final straw and I think I hope the energy doesn't die down and that's the thing that's really really sad about the news cycle and when awful things happen. Everyone gets his energy. We all band together. We all rally around the cause, you know, we're all like making the videos and making the podcast and talking about it. And then something horrible will happen next week. Right. And it's interesting, um, or that I'm mentioning that I'm not trying to tell, I'm not trying to call myself interesting, but what I'm saying is that, um, I was thinking about that after the assassination, literally the next day it was 9-11, right? And so now we're remembering, we're grieving the death of Charlie Kirk and

Irina. I've been trying to memorize her last name. I want to say her name. I don't want to not say her name because she should not be dead. Irina Zerutska, Ukrainian refugee, excuse me, arena Zarutska. Um, you know, we were grieving that then we were grieving Charlie Kirk and then we're remembering nine 11. And then, you know, this week it's like Jimmy Kimmel, right. Pulled from, uh, you know, fired or off, off the air indefinitely. Um, which I mean, I, I don't, okay. I just go back to like the principles right I always so this entire rant or this thing I'm going to be going on here and by the way by the way should I play some like nice music right now this was a little too intense I I'm going to stay intense we're going to do the nice music just to

like calm things down a little bit oh no I don't want that one I want this one we're going to have fun okay I'm going to bitch I'm going to rant I'm going to tell you my thoughts on the current state of affairs in our country. And then I'm going to cleanse the palate. Okay. I'm going to cleanse the palate. We're going to talk about, we're going to do something comforting. Okay. We need to, we need to talk about food. Okay. We're going to talk about food, pasta. Um, we're going to talk about just bullshit fall things. Okay. Um, I'll explain that later on. So it's going to be a typical rant from me. And then we're going to go into the soothing, comforting subjects because that's what we all need right now. I need it. I'm feeling like every day. And

honestly, I, you know, I haven't been sleeping well because I've been co-sleeping with our bulldog Louie, honestly, for a week. My sleep score is 66. Currently, I think I got four solid hours of sleep. Um, so yeah, but after, after last week, after he was assassinated, Charlie Kirk was assassinated the following days just felt, you know, it's been a week officially, the following days just felt so heavy. Um, I fell out of sorts. Um, we're not supposed to see that this isn't supposed to be happening. You know, it's not, we're not supposed to be exposed to this much death on a regular basis and um nonchalant death casual um for the dumbest reasons death and it seems like it's a never-ending cycle um so yeah we're gonna have some fun let me go

back to what I was saying when I was what did I say I'm so interesting I didn't mean to say it like that I have a list here because I was curious after Charlie Kirk was assassinated and we were grieving that and remembering the next day. And then now it's the Jimmy Kimmel thing. I was like, I wonder what, if I was to compile every single, I meaning chat GBT was to compile every single awful tragedy, major headline since I like that has happened in this country that we've all been glued to on our TVs, on our social media. Um, if I was to compile that list since I started podcasting in 2020, what would that look like? And I'm looking at, and I'm going to read them to you 122 major tragic events. It's not actually all of them. I honestly, I kept in most of the mass

shootings. I didn't include all of the deaths, like the, the, um, there was a lot of celebrities. I kept in the celebrities that most people would know, but there were a lot of, um, you know, A lot of people have obviously died. People die every day, but like, you know, the, the major, I, you know, Ozzy Osbourne, for example, was included in this list because most people would, I'm assuming listening wouldn't know that name. So I included all of the death and destruction, 122 headlines here, and we'll end it number one, 22 with Charlie Kirk's assassination.

But what my point of doing this, and I felt compelled to look at this list, read you this list today because this is not okay. Like this is not a normal, um, this isn't normal. We're not biologically wired for this amount of information being fed to us all day, every day around the clock. You know, it's not, we're not wired for it. We're animals. We are biological animals at the end of the day. And we're all Guinea pigs right now with these cell phones and access to information and these algorithms and these feeds of of news we're getting fed every single day this is a we are in a new frontier this is a gold rush we are in a our brains are going through this gold rush this evolution in front of we don't we don't even realize it's happening but i think

as a society we all cracked we all um the tone was very much like the charlie charlie kirk assassination was the last straw. That's the final straw. And I think we're all waking up without anyone really saying it. I'll say it. I'll be someone who publicly declares this. The phones are the fucking problem. I think we all realized it after this assassination and the potential why behind it that the phones are the fucking problem. If this Tyler Robinson kid is the guy and there isn't any bullshit with fucking Israel and all these conspiracies and all these side things people are talking about in terms of like, you know, was this a political hit job or was this, you know, a Netanyahu thing or was it, you know, or was it this kid who was radicalized, this

Groyper, um, incel kid who, you know, spent his entire life on 4chan and these chat, I don't know. I, I, I'll let, um, I'm going to play a video in a little bit of this girl breaking down what even, what what that even is um because at the end of the day it's just so fucking dumb um the potential reason why he was assassinated just so fucking dumb um but at the end of the day it's the phones it's the phones your grandparents are right okay your grandparents are right my father-in-law is he's a flip phone guy he's 80 years old and he's like fuck the phones this is ruining your generation and I believe it you know officially after this last week you know I'm 31 now and I've grown up with without a phone and with a phone and um you know as did as my father-in-law did

but he never trans he never converted to the iphone the techie um appy phones the touch phones touchscreen phones oh my god i'm sounding so old but um and i think something that is so obvious to me now and i'm sure obvious to you and something we need to take more seriously i think we're all it's so easy to say we're too far gone. We're too far gone. AI is going to take over. As I'm saying that, I'm like, yeah, absolutely. AI is going to take over. The world's going to look different. Technology is going to take, everything's going to be taken over by tech. Eventually gone are the days that we're going to open a newspaper to find our news and figure out what's going on in the world. Like those, those are so gone, but there are so many

that that time was so beautiful like that time was so good for the human being for these kids for these adolescent kids that are super like malleable and impressionable like the newspapers that era pre-social media 4chan fucking groiper chat I don't know what the fuck it was that he was into if he's even you know I I'm saying if because it's like there's so much just go listen Candace I'm sure you all you already are I think she's like the voice of reason right now for this entire situation and um it is looking like a bunch of bullshit this Tyler Robinson suspect like I don't it's hard to believe anything you see um there's so many inconsistencies in what happened obviously and what the FBI is reporting you know what I mean so

but my point is if it is true if he assassinated Charlie Kirk because he was so radicalized by a certain sec or a section of the internet that he was on um that's so fucking dumb because of what's the why what's the why what's the why the fucking phone is the why if he didn't have the phone if he didn't have the access if he was a little kid growing up with a newspaper and until this day i'm not saying that former presidents former major um political activists made the mlks the abraham lincoln's the jfks of the world weren't assassinated when there wasn't social media like obviously that still happens it is a possibility but the level at which the amount of people being radicalized now I believe has exponentially grown um because of access

to phones and social media and these these groups um online so yeah you know the the past was a sweet time I'm starting to we're not going to go back to it we're obviously um but I think we need to acknowledge that there needs to be some sort of reform I don't know what the fuck that looks like I'm like my biggest takeaway from all of this is um and damn I'm so addicted to my phone I'll redo my screen time when I do the life updates I'll do screen time I'll do my health stats I'll tell you what I weigh I don't know I'll like go into like some fun details like I don't know. Um, just trying to lighten it up a little bit there, but, um, it's as if children should not own, they should not have any exposure, like no phones, no internet, no nothing. Um,

I know my kids won't like, I'm at the point now where fuck that. Like, I don't want them to be aliens though. I don't, I want them to fit in. Obviously I don't want, I don't want to turn into, you know that family who's psycho about technology and putting allowing their kids on it but it's at a point now where I think that is how shit changes is there's a major there's major um I don't know is it a law didn't Australia do that with social media and their their youth like so that's something that popped up is the phones are the problem um not only when it comes to causing, potentially causing, um, assassinations like this, but for the everyday person like you and me, um, trying to live their life, trying to go to work, trying to like, you know, be

a good wife, a good husband, a good daughter, a good mother, a good son, whatever. And it's not good for us to be inundated with this shit. Um, and it takes a fuck ton of discipline. Let's be honest to even to like acknowledge that it's a problem and then actually make a change and actually not scroll I mean I'm balls deep I'm being funny right now I don't want to be funny right now I'll play this music when I'm getting a little funny as like I need to like release right now I am balls deep on Pinterest my latest era is I'm a homemaker okay I am a uh or I am I am in my I am in my Meghan Markle uh who's the other chick I'm thinking of Meghan Markle um I'll turn that off I'm in my Martha Stewart Jesus why did I why did I not just say

Martha Stewart era like I'm obsessed with home decor I'm obsessed with curating every little detail of my home and looking at inspo but but honestly Pinterest sucks right now because everything's AI so like all the pictures are I wish there was a feature to maybe there is I should look for it to not include AI generated home decor images you know because you're like I know this isn't real it's good inspo but it's not real anyway so it's so difficult to not to to look away you know I I found myself yesterday I was listening to a podcast and they were alluding to this arena or they're talking about the arena zaruska stabbing and they said yeah when I found out I saw the full thing on Twitter I opened my phone and it there was the

there was the video with no edits nothing and I I felt this like itch like oh I kind of want to watch that because I'm I'm not it's that I'm you know I saw Charlie Kirk's neck explode with blood and I saw that and I'm like I can handle seeing a stabbing I you know at this point I've seen it all like I'm over I've seen babies heads blown off in their limbs out on all four corners of buildings in in Gaza like I've seen it all I'm so that's just it's not and so the fact that I even thought that is is not good but I caught myself and I said I'm not fucking watching this I'm not even gonna look it up and um we need to like pull the reins back for ourselves we need to have exercise some and maybe maybe I'm maybe I'm maybe you're like I don't relate like I'm not

on my phone like that I don't see all this negative information all the time what are you talking about so maybe that's you and I am very jealous because um as a podcast host I and let's talk about this before I get into um my little rant about the phones and um what's going on here in addition to what I just said um did I just lose my train of thought wait oh what I was saying is that as a podcast host there's this weird pressure I feel like everyone's doing it too all the all the other podcasts who aren't necessarily news podcasts like they're not they're not reporters they're not they're like comedy podcasts right there's this like weird pressure it's like on myself I don't get it from other people I get people a lot of people say I love when you talk

about current events keep doing that so I want to give the people what they want right I'm trying to do do good at my job here and a lot of people like when I comment on what's going on the world so there's that right um but at the end of the day I'm not so there's this pressure and so then I look it up and then I read about it and then I and then I try to do my best at you know processing everything and filtering it down to like what's the moral of the story here what's the takeaway what's the big picture what's the lesson I try to like you know whenever there's something to report on I always try to like or going on in the world that's I kind of do that you know I'll or I'll make it funny typically I make it funny with um you know I'll make light

of a tragedy or a horrible event I will not be doing that today about um Charlie Kirk's assassination obviously like nothing about it is funny nothing about it should be joked about I mean I've already seen comedians they're they're doing a good job I think Mark am I gonna fuck his name up Mark Norman yeah I think you know he had a he there's a way to do it but I'm not gonna make light of obviously that um there's nothing to make light about it really um I think you know at the end of the day like the Jimmy Kimmel thing like it wasn't factually correct I guess you know like he didn't it wasn't the kid was a MAGA MAGA and then it was just bad taste like bad timing like you know but I just think that's a bunch

of bullshit at the end of the day um we just can't have that we can't have that kind of um silencing when it comes to free speech that's just like that's not what we do here you know what I mean like we cannot this is a slippery slope if it continues. Um, but there's this, this pressure of like, okay, this horrible thing happened, or this trend is going on. Talk about it. Like the boo-boos Dubai, Dubai chocolate. I talked about that last week. Um, you know, I was, I did an entire episode on Luigi Mangione. I did, you know, I'm always talking or Blake Lively and Justin Baldoni. These are, these are fun to talk about. A lot of these topics are actually fun to talk about, but

it gets to a point where I don't think it's necessary for it sucks because like there's this is what I'm saying there's certain podcasts where I tune in because I want to know their take on current events I I'm hoping they give their take I'm hoping they do that and then there's other podcasts where I'm like I'm just listening to this for the degeneracy like I just I was listening to your mom's house right um Tom and Christina I was listening to their podcast and like all they do is fuck around all they do is listen or watch degenerate TikTok videos with their guests and like talk about like I don't even want to it's it's too crass to mention in this segment of the episode I might mention the the type of topics they discuss the the uh deeply

disturbing sexual nasty topics they discuss on their podcast but like that's what I tune in for so like it would be annoying if they all of a sudden started talking hardcore politics and what's in tragedies and current events. Like maybe they'll mention a couple sentences about it, but that's it. So I want to get back to that. Honestly, I, it's tough because I'm pulled in these two directions, like entertainment, light, funny, fun stuff, and going deep in the world's issues because it's my natural curiosity. Um, but I, I'm the reason why I'm like I want to stop it is because I don't think it's good for my mind and it's a I don't think it's a good I don't think it's healthy for my brain to know this much information and bad news

and I'm trying to think in terms when it comes to educating myself and exposing myself to information my new mantra like my new thing is is this useful for me to know is this useful for me to know when I open my phone and I see something pop up because my algorithm popped it up for me my first question to myself is is this useful for me to know and sometimes you just want to laugh so then it's like well I'm here to I'm here to decompress okay I'm here to laugh I'm here to and that and that that that to me I'm talking when I when I ask that question is this useful useful for me to know I'm talking about like news specifically news and especially bad news but also bullshit news like sydney sweeney's new jimmy chew

whatever she's like doing an ad with jimmy chew now and i think her new movie came out or something um or like this chick from i've never watched the show from mormon wives is the new bachelorette like that's not my lane I don't care those aren't things I'm like into so if I read it's like not good for it's too much information about shit you don't need to know it's not useful for your brain so you have to be more cutthroat cutthroat about that and so yeah when it comes to my podcast it's like I want to talk about more use I don't know remember when I was like I'm going to start doing deep dives and I'm going to do an entire episode on one subjects subject deeply and thoroughly because I don't want to be a talking head, a ditzy talking podcast host who comes on here and talks

about world issues and major events happening in this country at a surface level. I don't want to be that person. And so I took that seriously for two episodes. I think I deep dove into Luigi Mangione and I deep dove into, um, it's called Kibbe body types. It's a, it's a, uh, fashion, uh, styling, fashion styling, um, method that I was really nerding out to. Um, oh, and I also deep dove speaking of making light of serious issues in, I deep dove into the conflict between Israel and Iran, Iran and the U S and the U S is involvement as if Israel was a hot chick Iran was goth and um the entire premise was like this is a cafeteria fight a food fight in a cafeteria except they're throwing nukes instead of spaghetti so like

I tried to have fun with that episode but in general I'm okay so we're not going to do like the behind the scenes right now like my new strategy as a podcast host I want to talk about I need to stay on task here I'm gonna list off all of these tragedies 122 of them rapid fire I just want to wake your brain up again so you might you might hate this section um I just think it might be interesting for you to like hear all this stuff again because you'll realize how never ending the news cycle is and how how many of these things sounded so heavy and important at the time And now we're onto some new shit. And, um, it's a pattern that for all of time has existed, bad news, people dying, tragedy. So, um, here we go. I put Kobe Bryant's death as number one.

That was pre when I started podcasting, that was early 2020, but you've got, okay. I feel like when Epstein died, I I'm trying to decipher like, when did the timeline shift when Epstein died or when George Floyd got murdered, I think, or when Epstein got murdered or suicide, whatever. I feel like it was when George Floyd died. That's when everything, everything post that feels different. Like that was a catalyst for, I don't know that something shifted, but anyways, here we go. This is the master list of all of the horrible events that have happened in the world that as a podcast host, I've felt this weird pressure to know about, to report about, to talk about, to learn about over the

last five years. Okay. So Kobe Bryant's helicopter crash, the COVID-19 pandemic lockdowns, george floyd's death brianna taylor killed ahmaud arbery killed beirut port explosion california wildfires chadwick boseman dies ruth bader ginsburg ginsburg dies sean connery dies alex trebek dies naya naya rivera drowns eddie van halen dies larry keen was hospitalized Trump was impeached Walter Wallace Jr. killed El Paso Walmart shooting Nashville Christmas Day bombing U.S. hits 300k COVID deaths allegedly I don't know what the if that was real or not or weren't those numbers all fucking wrong or something I don't know I remember that was some drama Minneapolis protest Minneapolis protests and riots Kenosha protests shootings Capitol

riot january 6th joe biden inauguration lockdown security boulder supermarket mass shooting atlanta spa shootings indianapolis fedex mass shooting dante wright killed gabby petito murdered brian laundry suicide derrick chauvin guilty verdict astroworld festival crowd crush alec baldwin rust set shooting killing helena hutchins winter storm yuri texas blackouts surfside condo collapse in florida hurricane ida devastation kentucky tornado outbreak oxford high school shooting new york city subway brooklyn's new york city subway shooting at Brooklyn Sunset Park, San Jose rail yard shooting, Kabul airport bombing in Afghanistan, U.S. Afghanistan withdrawal chaos, Haitian president assassinated, Prince Philip dies,

DMX dies, Larry King dies, Norm MacDonald dies, Michael K. Williams overdose, University of Idaho quadruple murder monterey park lunar new year shooting half moon bay farm shootings nashville covenant school shooting we're only on 51 louisville bank shooting las vegas unlv campus shooting allen texas outlet mall shooting lewiston main mass shooting michigan state university shooting atlanta medical building shooting alabama suite alabama suite 16 party shooting maui maui wildfires in hawaii east palestine ohio train derailment hurricane idalia in florida mississippi tornado outbreak turkey syria earthquake morocco earthquake Israel-Hamas October 7th attack, Gaza war bombing, Sudan civil war outbreak, Tyree Nichols killed by police in Memphis, Matthew Perry dies, Tina Turner dies, Lisa Marie Presley dies, Russian plane crash, Baltimore Key Bridge collapse,

hurricane helene flooding and deaths hurricane milton damages nashville waffle house shooting hurricane barrel early season destruction california atmospheric river floods tornadoes in midwest spring in the spring titan sub implosion texas wildfires united health care ceo murder gaza war x escalations ukraine war stalemate heavy losses russia crocus city hall terror attack crocus city hall terror attack haiti gang haiti haiti gang violence crisis south korean halloween crowd crush kansas city super bowl parade shooting main mass stabbing accident air traffic control systems out air traffic control system out outages nationwide boeing alaska airlines door plug blowout midair pope francis health scares karen reed trial

evergreen colorado school shooting migrant smuggling truck deaths bronx daycare fentanyl deaths migrant boat capsizes in mediterranean killing hundreds minneapolis homeless camp shootings hurricane francine florida damage diddy federal raids sex trafficking sex trafficking allegations hurricane giselle gulf coast flooding california landslides from heavy rain train derailment chemical spill in ohio just lane maxwell convicted jeffrey epstein associate gene luke brunel suicide allegedly i don't know was that probably alleged gaza war ongoing casualties ukraine war drone strikes escalate ron 108 right we have 120 122 assassination attempt on slavic prime minister plane crash in nepal with americans on board deadly tornadoes

in oklahoma and kansas wildfires in the california summer la fires air india plane crash floods in houston texas texas prison escape killings haiti earthquake aftershocks ozzy or ozzy osbourne dies gene hackman dies ice tea hospitalized really important i'm included that one i think he's good burning man murder the epstein file drama continues 23 year old arena zarutska stabbed on train and number 122 to round it out here Charlie Kirk assassination. So Casey forgot what was going on over the past five years. That's like, that's the appetizer. Honestly, when I generated this list, there were thousands of things probably to choose from. I mean, I, I had to weed out a lot, probably not thousands. I had

hundreds here, few hundred, and I broke it down to those top ones, but yeah. So that's, that's a lot. Um, what will it be next week? Right. What will, excuse me, I need to like stop the phone situation during my episode. It keeps happening and I'm, I apologize deeply. So yeah. Do we want a palate cleanse right now after that heavy like huh segment like look all that shit happening so I don't want to be the bad news chick anymore I think that was it I think I just did my final release I mentioned everything that I possibly could have mentioned almost almost everything I I could have mentioned that's awful. That's happened in the world, but like, that's what it is now. Um, but honestly, 122 things like that kind of come across your desk every day. It seems

like, um, but anyways, let me move on. I don't like this now. Now I'm spiraling. Did I, is this too, I feel like this is too intense for an episode. Okay. Let me just, before I go on my a little rant. All right. I am drinking, I am drinking a iced black coffee and a lemon spin drift. We have the usual suspects over in the makeup section

of the set here. MAC syrup luster glass lipstick Ulta Beauty vagina colored like I said last week lip gloss plumping lip gloss but I also said all vaginas are different colors and this is just one of the shades of a vagina so okay we're not going to be funny right now we're going to talk about death in a couple minutes here again I have something to add and then we'll we'll put it to bed and and i'll and this i will not continue this vibe for the rest of the episode i should have said like skip halfway if you want to go to the lighter stuff um this lip pencil from nyx sorry is that loud that's a little too loud this lip pencil from nyx is really good i've been using

it every day i don't think it's called peekaboo natural lip pencil from nyx and peekaboo peekaboo natural and of course my wet and wild five-in-one essence powder to powder my upper lip throughout the episode because I get shiny and I don't want to be shiny on my clips also I contoured contoured my nose with a new product I was signed I tried to do a button nose no I did not get a nose job that is makeup you're not supposed to detect nose contour I think we've all forgotten that as the girl and mine might be detectable I'm usually not contouring my nose at all ever but I was curious about this product so I'm trying it out the nose is contoured I'm wearing a red red long sleeve um shirt on on on the podcast I'm wearing a red long sleeve shirt

I'm rocking gray sweatpants okay I was gonna make a joke about my gray sweatpants but I'm a chick how could I make that funny there's nothing to see in my gray sweatpants because I don't have a big there's this man I'm just gonna keep the palate cleanser going we just need this right now we need this after that 122 tragic events list we need a palate cleanser there's this guy that every single time I go on a walk on this boardwalk or this beachfront path by my gym every single time whenever I see him it's like he's on purpose coming out of his apartment to walk his dog with no shirt and gray sweatpants all the way down, like cum gutter showing, like basically you're

seeing the, just right above his dick. That's where the sweatpants cut off. And it's just so like obvious what he's trying to do there. Like that's just too, it's too obvious. And I, I was walking with Corey and I, I'm pretty sure, you know, whenever we see, Oh, another thing we do is, um, Oh my God, I'm such a pervert. Fuck. I can't expose this. I can't expose this. you know when you see people's anatomy in public like that why did the music stop and it's just like it it's just jolting because you're like fuck okay like there's the gray sweatpants there's the dick print like I'm not trying to notice it but like it but also you know whatever um but yeah every time like we notice some shit like that in public it's always like

one of us. It's a hundred percent of the time we both see it. And then I'll just look at him and he knows exactly what I'm thinking. And usually it's at the gym because I actually just made a video about this. Um, because about how, oh man, I'm not going to be a bitch right now. I don't want to do this. Let me just cleanse the palate. I'm going to turn the music off. I'm going to continue to cleanse the palate and give you a little more of a regular version of this episode of me talking shit on what other women are doing because nobody hates women more than women not to quote claudia ashrae shout out loving loving the toast loving the loving you back on the toast post um post baby um she always says no one hates women more than women this isn't a

hater this is giving hater energy but it's truly an observation and something that i am noticing in the, and by the way, we'll get to the rant about death and, and, um, phones and all that shit in a, in a little, in a moment. Okay. It's really short and sweet. I've already made a TikTok about it. So I'm basically, I'm going to be repeating myself based on that TikTok, but like I try to compile my thoughts as succinctly as possible. And I'm going to do my best to keep but that way when I repeat it here on the episode. So basically this is so bitchy of me, but like not really though. Um, and I'm not approved. Like you guys all know I'm like the biggest whore. Like I'm like the big, I'm just like the biggest way I meant to do this when I said that

I'm like the biggest. Okay. So sorry. Basically what I'm saying is this, like there's two things there's gym in person um my viewing of what I see in person at the gym and then also what I see online when it comes to gym attire okay I sound like one of those dudes who's like leave something to the imagination like don't like these outfits look feel like make me feel like I'm going to the club when I go to the gym like girls like what the fuck and then the girls come on and they're like defending like no let her live like she feels good about her body she looks great like fuck you I'm team that by the way I'm team like rock whatever you want to wear I don't fucking care but this is what I'm getting to like literally I don't care what you wear at

the gym that this isn't about me critiquing oh you look too revealing at the gym my tits are always hanging out I can't help myself like they're always I'm doing like whatever like they're always you know I'm always like out and it's just like hard and every single time I leave to the gym I look at Corey and I'm like is this I have I have dysmorphia like I don't I don't know that's probably why I got him so big it's because like I don't have a concept how big my body like I'm so dysmorphic from all the years of having an eating disorder and like looking in the mirror and critiquing my body that I don't even know but I know they're I know I've masked like I know that um I got them that I wanted them that way but um anyway so I'm I'm kind of one to talk but

also these little shorts, right? These little shorts that are sucked in so tight in the puss where it's like every detail of the outline of it is showing everywhere you go. Is that on purpose, right? Like, is that because I leave the house, so I'm like a black leggings girl. I typically just wear black black leggings every now and then I'll switch up a color but I just don't know where that kind of confidence and not giving a fuck comes from comes from because the reason I'm saying that is because when I clock it when I see it in the gym unintentionally I'm not I'm not you know I just call myself a pervert for what for what me and Corey do which is like it's giving Epstein and Ghislaine and we're not on that level okay but we like notice things and

we laugh about it um in public I'm sure you and your friends and spouses or whatever do too um it's just when it's jarring you're like shit like I look at that lady's ass or fucking it's like whoa you know sometimes you see stuff and you're like that's like a cartoon walk I'm buying you just can't help yourself but anyways when I see it when someone's doing a kickback or a deadlift or a hack squat or when it's usually like a leg dig vibe leg day vibe or um whatever it's just so in your face and it's so like off you're just seeing it and I'm like I just because I know that and notice it I don't want that to be me I don't want to give people the privilege of knowing that much information about my body like that like I'm trying to I I I'm all for like rocking

your sexy outfits and I you know look at me I like I like to turn it up but like at the gym it's different because I feel like it's so like it's so jarring because you're not trying to notice it so like the little like baby blue white especially little shorts everything sucked in now you guys know what I'm talking about the every it's all about like the seam on the the ass crack and now and the scrunch and like you know I love those types of leggings I wear them every day but they're black, right? Like I go for the black leggings, but anyways, um, I can't, I just don't know where that kind of confidence comes from. Is it like a thing? Do you want people to see your pussy? Like, do you want people to, to be like when you're bending over on a, on a bench and

you're doing your dumbbells for your back? Are you like hoping people are seeing your hot pink pussy from your hot pink tight little shorts through your shorts? Like, cause that's, you get one I said hot pink that's too close to the color of okay your baby blue your whatever you guys I'm just out of pocket I feel like it's very out of pocket um I'm pro wear that like I said I don't fucking care like you look I always think you so cute you look so cute you look so great I just don't have I can't and everyone's doing tube tops now I can't fucking wear a tube top to the gym I'm a little jealous of the tube tops because that just looks fun when you're at the gym just to be that free um but yeah I can't I can't wear the tube tops I have to double strap fucking

double up fucking velcro straps to like lift and hoist and it's it's a lot um anyways so that's that part so the little shorts the gym that show everything like do you want people to see it or is that just like pure confidence you don't give a fuck power to the puss like free the nip but it's like free the lips is that the new thing we're doing so there's that and then also fitness influencers right that do the try on hauls or they just take mirror photos at the gym every day or or like in their house whatever and they're like always in leggings right like they're always in leggings which I'm always in like leggings but it's when god this is so a typical rant that's so dumb that I don't need to be judging other people for I feel disgusting right

now it's because my sleep score is 66 because I'm co-sleeping with my bulldog and I'm not getting a good night's rest I'm feeling heavy sad and now I'm feeling negative um when they it's just it's just so sucked up and tight on the crotch where I can't I'm non-stop like whenever and I follow people like that do the fitness influencing and they show me the cute leggings to buy which I'm grateful for thank you for your service I like to see the different colors and the different ways things fit so I'm grateful for the there's something about the non-stop like it's just sucked in so tightly and you just can't I'm not trying to look it's just so jarring like everything is so pussy focused lately you know like everything is and

I'm grateful for that yes I'm all for tearing down the patriarchy now and I'm all for we should be living in a matriarchy and fuck everything show off all of your female uh feminineness femaleness female essence and anatomy it's just show it you like rock it expose it put it in people's faces so I get it maybe that's what we're doing now um anyways I'm just saying like I made a pot or one of my most unhinged bullshit episodes I think I was pretty stoned I don't think I'll I've ever admitted to that I think it's the episode I've like clipped it before of me in a bathrobe hairs wet from the shower big glasses on it's like a Sunday I'm watching football and I was podcasting and I was talking about gym shark leggings and how it like makes

you look like you have a fupa like your vagina's fat when your vagina like no like no one had like fat like oh my god I sound even worse it's like when you're like a fit chick and you do it it's like a bulge there and it's just it's not flattering so we need to stop hiking them up so high and that is my thesis or my analysis on gym leggings um but I guess pussies are in fashion really accentuating them through leggings is in fashion we're we're not doing it you know i i do see there's less seams going up the slit now and more what do they call them um no show or uh seamless uh there's a term for the crotch area what do they call that i know it's seamless camel toe free fucking

I don't know. They're all like camel toe free now, but, um, every now and then you see a seam and you see a full, you know, they just hiked them up all the way. And it's just like, fuck me. You know, there it is. I think you all know what I'm talking about. And again, what should I, and let me shit on the men. Now I need to shit on the men to even this out. What are men doing at the gym that is off putting everything leave uh stop being creepy like I see you staring like it's not it's so obvious like men are so obvious about it and I'm never that person I'm just I'm always like this is my pro tip at the gym I just stare at people's shoes stare at people's shoes because men think like the second you give them eye contact it's game

it's like game on and I'm not trying to give eye contact I'm not trying to but I don't need to address you as I'm walking by you it's like when I walk through the gym I'm like where are the shoes nobody like uh Corey's had to fucking come to the rescue so many goddamned it's so annoying sometimes he'll just come over and like bend me over and make out with me like he sees a guy talking to me and he just like that's always a moment I'm always so like oh fuck yeah this is great it's so nice being like booed up and married and not having to like deal with that shit anymore um yeah so anyways moving on I think I did it am I getting too hot

all right I didn't really set the scene so it's a Friday it's 10 45 a.m um September 19th and i'm podcasting cory took the dogs um this is giving this is feeling like the the we've stopped talking about the heavy thing and now we're going to transition into the life updates and i don't need to keep ranting but i will because i just want to get this off my chest so let me get back into it um all right this is where i really start talking my shit that's the scary one that's perfect for spooky season okay so I already addressed this the phones are the issue right but this is what we're dealing with okay we're dealing with okay we're dealing with men are the issue okay wait wait why haven't I mentioned that today

yet or why haven't I mentioned that when it comes to all of these horrible events this assassin the assassination we just had to witness um the horrible assassination we just had to witness the stabbing all of these horrible things that happen who doesn't men right so why didn't I put that as like how I started the episode the issue is the men that's obvious there's something going on with men um and their minds it's a mental health crisis it's a men's biology their wiring is fucking short-circuiting um and the phones aren't helping their wiring okay and the way their brains work because they're killing people right left and right and it's it's been that way for centuries it's been that way for all of time but there's something about men with access to phones um

um and access to through their phones access to people they hate that is a bad combination because they'll go and shoot them in cold blood in front of thousands of people like like no big deal just they get that emotionally out of control and unstable that they have to go fucking shoot someone right so this is the why this is the big picture this is how my brain works whenever something happens like this when assassinations happen um uh it's really only happened with charlie kirk in my lifetime um pretty sure yeah that's that's the only assassination i've witnessed but it's it's got to be politically to be an assassination what constitutes as as as an assassination versus i should look that up whatever when

things like this happen mass shooting sure school shootings this was a school shooting technically um I always zoom out and I always try to go to like root cause why what's going on that's how my brain works because a lot of people get into the weeds oh it's not yahoo it's Israel oh it's this incel groiper dude who did it and and this is why he did it and then it's like the conspiracies on the side and then it goes to well this people zoom in too much and get too on the case about it on the details of the case about it which is obviously that's smart you need to know you need to break down every single timeline and and event that happened and leading up to you know you have to understand the why right but I go even further back I go even further further back to the to the

real why the real issue here of um what's happening in this country not only with the assassination of charlie kirk but these shootings and um that never end and these just random murders like the woman on the train and how she got stabbed just randomly um so the phones like let me go to the charlie kirk assassination and if this kid was radicalized because he had access to a phone and the internet and forums and i think that is a that is a major factor in a lot of these young white men it's always a young white man shooting up schools and um or whatever events so what the phones are doing is this they are increasing proximity everyone

is on the same playing field in the world every human being is one click away your access to anyone in the world who's online with a profile and a just a profile this could be your grandma on Facebook or this could be Charlie Kirk on TikTok a viral video you watched of his this could be Donald Trump on X this could be um anyone in an interview you're seeing of Jessica Alba on YouTube everyone is one click away everyone so we the phones and the internet increase proximity and it puts everyone as on the same playing field you can access your grandma you can access the president you can access Jessica Alba you can ask access Charlie Kirk You can access your friend. You can access someone you hate that you're hate following or stalking on a side account. You can access them by clicking on just one click away. They're one little click away. But there's no increase in intimacy, real human connection and intimacy.

and when you don't have real human connection and intimacy and you might be thinking right now let me put a pin in that oh well when I listen to podcasts I feel like I'm their friend I feel like I know them I get that I think podcasts make you feel very intimate with the person you're listening to like you probably do right now with me you probably feel like you know how my brain works you feel like you understand me you know what I like what I don't like what my opinions are what what I'm into whatever but it's not real at the end of the day as much as you feel like oh this girl on TikTok I follow I love her content I feel like I know her she it's like it's like I'm on FaceTime with a friend at the end of the day it's not real we are biological beings

the phone is the is so artificial it will never be the real thing it will never be real and so when you have access to anyone in the world by clicking by clicking one little tap on their profile and you can see what they're all about and read about them and watch their videos and read their tweets they're you might feel like oh I know about this person I know what Charlie Kirk thinks I look at him in these videos and look how look what he says look what his opinions are and look who he associates himself with. And you might think, you know, everything about that person, but because he was easy to access, it was just one click away, but there's no increase in intimacy. The intimacy is still, still, still zero because you're virtually

accessing him. I'm using him as, as an example. You're not, you've never met the guy. And this is the this is the hard lesson I think and this is the it's not even hard this is so 101 human nature uh straight talking shit right now I think we all need to wake the fuck up and realize that unless you've actually met someone I'm gonna use um I'm gonna use a drag queen uh I'm gonna use a trans i'm gonna use a trans person as an example and i'm gonna use a hardcore old white republican who lives in arkansas for as an example okay unless you've met and hung out with and partied and done a bunch of blow on a fucking bathroom counter at a at a drag show or at a club in the middle of the fucking city somewhere on the east because I'm thinking of like I don't know New York

with a trans person and hung out with them maybe at a slumber party for with them for a week and you hung out with them you went grocery shopping with them you rode in their car with them um you don't you can't understand them you don't know them so for you to have an opinion and for you to to hate them or hate to the point of fuck you i need to kill you like charlie kirk um if that was again i keep going back to if that was motive if that motivation and the if it if it was this tyler robertson groiper radicalized kid who hated the guy so much he had to assassinate him okay if that is this the if that is the truth and if that is what happened if that is what we find out for real

and it's not some side conspiracy thing or some Israel thing, you know, okay. But same goes for the old man in Arkansas. Did I say Arkansas? Yeah, Arkansas. If you've never sat with a hardcore Republican old man, white dude on his front porch with his bloodhound,

I don't know what kind of dog would he have, with his German shepherd what no it's not it's not giving it's not giving the vibe I want if you never with old yeller with a fucking yellow lab who's overweight because he feeds fucking sausages from his breakfast plate every day if you've never sat with him post it up with your shotgun on your front on his front porch post up with a shotgun on his front porch when someone crosses his property and if you've if you haven't stood next to the guy when he's real acting real tough with a shotgun shooing someone away or uh what what's another hardcore republican vibe thing or just shot clay pigeons with him in his field you can't understand

him you've never met him you can't so we're empathy right love is the answer empathy we are unable to consider the fact that we are not intimately connected and we do not understand these people we think we hate and that is so unintelligent and fucking dumb it is the lowest form of intelligence to murder someone in cold blood in daylight in the in front of thousands of people because you hate them so much again if that is the reason why it was done and so my conclusion is this the value of human life and I and I someone tweeted this and I it was like a therapist we're we're literally I think we all feel spiritually um broken and damaged right now

because we're literally watching the value this is what this man said of human life wash away in front of our eyes charlie kirk should not be dead it's so dumb little kids in school should not be all of it all the what about ism what about ism that we've been doing over the last week as as a culture well you know he had it coming for him and you know he said lives are going to be lost we're going to if we want our second man right to have guns and so he whatever and it's all bad it's not this whataboutism needs to stop well what about the kids in Gaza and why do you care about it's like no no it's all bad it's all bad and um damn this is like I didn't I wanted to talk about the light stuff.

I just met my nephew, my one month old nephew for their first time last night. Speaking of babies getting blown up in Gaza and the fucking bullshit of that. I just held on one month old. Nothing. I could cry. Nothing. if you've never held a baby, like it's, it's so, um, or I'm not saying, what am I saying? It, it,

um, you see them and you're just like, how could this be fucking happening? You know what I mean? How could this be fucking happening? These babies don't, they're too perfect. They're too precious. They're too fragile. They're too perfect. Like they, they should not, you know, so it just made it so real when I was holding my nephew, I'm like, wow. Like, and to imagine if that was my own son, like, so empathy and not being able to literally walk in other people's shoes and imagine what it would be like to be them. Um, because I think a lot of people that think they hate Charlie Kirk, think they hate his message, think they hate everything he was doing, doing with turning

point people that hate liberals on the other side of things. Right. And let's go to, let's go back to Charlie Kirk for a second. I do believe that people's brains are so fried to the point where, and they're so they have zero ability to control their emotions to the point where watching Charlie Kirk get assassinated was like, um, they equated what he was doing with turning point as a cancerous thing for society. And so watching him get assassinated was like watching a cure for cancer. And that is why they were happy that that is what happened in their body because they saw his voice they saw his activism they saw his how much his and it's like the quote it's because he was effective right

they saw what he was doing as a poison and thank god he's gone because now no it's like you just made 50,000 more Charlie Kirks like now it's gonna only like and that's the energy I feel like is happening like it's it's turning a point or I don't want to be funny right now fuck um so let's go back to the tranny the trans oh you're not supposed to say tranny right trans person, the drag queen who's super hot and like popping off with the coolest hair and makeup. She dresses better than you do. Okay. And let's go back to the old man. Let's call him. What's like a, what's a conservative fucking name? John. I don't know. In Arkansas. you don't know people unless you've met them. And back to what I was going to say about Charlie

Kirk, unless you actually hung out with the guy, even if you think you hate him, you'd probably figure out pretty quickly, quickly that you probably like him. He's probably a pretty cool dude. If you actually got the time to hang out and spend time with him. We think we hate people more than we, you think it's easy to hate people that you don't know. And that is so dumb. That is so dumb. And so I think it needs to be revered. I think it needs to be cool. I think more politicians, public figures, celebrities, podcast hosts need to be put on a pedestal and revered for showing empathy and for showing how to have a healthy conversation with someone you might hate or think you hate or disagree with. where you are you are empathizing with them because the people that are doing that now in our in our country the that needs to be a wave because that is how we're gonna get back

we're gonna get closer as a we're gonna um i'm putting my hands together my fingers are going together um we're gonna we'll still be divided don't get me wrong but we're gonna get along better and it's not gonna be this you know team mentality and tribe mentality of left versus right all the time where we're constantly fighting okay I don't think that's ever gonna go away I think there's always gonna be but it's a spectrum right I think it can improve and I think that's gonna start with people showing instead of dunking on people see that's the thing I'm gonna I'm gonna say something that's gonna be probably taken this might sound really fucked up but I'm going to say it about Charlie Kirk

it's not even fucked up it's actually just a it's sad that I have I'm making this observation actually because he it's so dumb that it's at this is actually not so his thing that he was amazing at was dunking on people he was always ready with 15 like clap backs for every statement or whatever the person he was debating said to him he was so pro at that right but it's as if the way to be to keep yourself safe so you don't get fucking assassinated so everyone loves you so you're not the guy that dunks on people and shares his opinion and just like that's it period it's like it's like it's like you have to basically like when when someone got on the microphone to debate

him it's as if he should have been like oh my gosh carol is that even like a college girl's name is that a name anymore? Uh, Oh my gosh, Brittany. So tell me, thank you for telling me. Thank you for sharing that with me. Tell me about what happened in your life that caused you to think that way and to hold that opinion. What did you experience in your life that, so I can have a better but better understanding of where your opinion comes from so I can understand you but see it's like he had to fucking massage it that much and be that fucking I feel like that's that's where that's how that's how um soft we fucking are people are so fucking soft to the point where you have to babysit their emotions and you have to

coddle their their emotions so much or else they'll fucking shoot you you have to acknowledge everyone's humanity humanity to the point where like the the level of empathy it's like you know we should all have we should all show empathy but the level it's like we need so people don't get shot and killed is like everyone's like a fucking like yogi type therapy chick who's like, Oh my gosh, thank you for sharing that. Um, I want to hold space for you in this moment right now. And I want you to share with me, um, what, what did you experience? Because this is the thing about empathy. And this is the thing about debates and, um, disagreeing with people and not sharing the same opinion as your friends, your coworkers,

your parents, your siblings, whatever. The thing is, is that everyone has a different story. Everyone has a different life experience. That's obvious. We all wake up and experience a different thing. Seven, eight billion, however many billions of people are on this planet. We all get the same 24 hours, but we all live a different day. And to think that we'll all have the same opinions is dumb, right? Obviously, because our opinions are informed by our life experience that is why we have our opinions we went through something my parents got divorced when I was 20 my um I'm just I won't air out what happened but I have a very strong opinion about marriage divorce family structure based on my life experience of what happened with my family

when I was 20 years old okay that's going to be different from someone who had a peachy keen perfect childhood their parents still love each other they've been together for 60 years whatever Like, because of those are two different stories. Those are two different experiences. And so that is something it's like, that should be revered to think that way to, to really, I'm going to say hold space, hold space for that. to love your neighbor and love the fact that we think differently and that we don't have the same opinion. And now all we do and where we're currently at is you are immediately characterized as a bad person because of your opinions. You are inherently bad because you think X, Y, and Z. And that is so pea brain, dumb. We can, we can, we can say retarded, not retarded. Like you are so stupid. That just shows how stupid you are. And so when you see this shit online, these dunking

contests, these debates, these screaming matches between the left versus right, it's so fucking dumb. It doesn't get us anywhere. It doesn't get us anywhere. I think that's what we've all realized. The phones are the issue. Men are the issue. The phones are the issue. And these dunking contests, the CNN versus the Fox news, they're talking shit about Trump over here. they're whatever like it's just dumb it's fucking dumb it's like it makes me feel crazy because I'm like all of this is so dumb the causes that we're fighting for and the things we're debating about these are all important issues these are all important topics but I do believe that it exists in a bubble online and if you don't have exposure to that if the Tyler Rob Tyler Robinson's of the

world don't have exposures of viral video exposure to viral videos of Charlie Kirk debating kids on college campuses if you don't have exposure to that and you don't know what his opinions are and you just whatever you're fucking going to work you're going to school you're living your life you're not hyper focused on that right so it's a lot of a lot of these things exist in their own world online and another thing that I think is really unintelligent and fucking stupid and I and I'm just gonna I don't want to be I think it's um I actually I'm gonna give people some grace including myself because I do it too um I think that not being able to separate in your mind the online world from the real world is that is not sane like that and that's so

it's getting harder and harder to do our perception of the world, our perception of what's going on. Everything is through the lens of our phone, right? It's all. And then that is how we're perceiving everything. And it's at the end of the day, it exists. Yes, it's there. Yes, it happened. Yes. That tragic event happened. Um, I'm not speaking about Charlie Kirk right now, just any tragic event, any celebrity headline, any book launch, any movie premiere any um like cool outfit someone's I don't know it all exists online okay it's all they're separate little bubbles echo chambers whatever and um to be a person who has such an emotional reaction to all of that to that circus to the point where you go shoot

someone or you hate your neighbors you hate your friends because they don't agree with whatever is like, what are you doing? So that's where I'm at. I just think there needs to be a, it needs to be a vibe. It needs to be a wave. It needs to be like, this is what the cool kids are doing to show some humanity to their neighbors and to actually like, um, or, or show some humanity or, um to empathize bitch to just like really understand like really because nothing hurts worse than and I feel like in a way Charlie Kirk this is the this is why I feel like it's so bullshit that he's dead it's like he shouldn't have it's a debate it's a civil debate it's a it's not a but but

I feel like kids are everything is so soft now we're like his skill was dunking he was a professional fucking dunker and he was great at it right but it's like oh my gosh we can't do that anymore like we can't even or or you'll die like you'll literally die and then on over on uh adjacent to that is like oh if you're on your talk show and you make a joke that's or make light of something or comment on a tragedy that a certain political party doesn't agree with and you get something wrong factually then you're fired and like now it's at the point so it's all it's all fucking dumb um but yeah if you really think about it like think about the kids in your class that you went to

school with I'd love to go hang out with like this this one kid named Sean he hated school he was so bad in school he didn't fucking care but I wish I knew his home story you know I think I used to like judge him really hard as a classmate and it's like I bet he had a really tough home situation you know now I think it's fucking punk rock and not even punk it's like fucking, it should be like, I think, yeah, punk rock, I'll just say it, like, to get to know people that you judge, and that you hate, think you hate, it's such a strong word to hate, or such a strong feeling to hate someone, I'm gonna say something right now, but I'll just fucking air it out, I don't care, or I won't air it out, no, I won't air it out, no, I'm not gonna air it out, but

I had a recent experience where I was you know when I'm out and about living my life I don't just podcast you might think I just podcast no I have a life outside of this I frequent or I frequent a place where I see a person regularly and I remember I've thought multiple times that like oh I bet they're really nice they're probably I'd probably be friends with them you know what I mean and then there's some like bullshit that happened where it's like I didn't do anything and then they like hate me for some reason it's like what is that invisible beef how did that happen but it's like my first thought was like I caught myself being a little judgy at first because it was like judging a book by its cover if you know what I mean and then I caught myself

going you know I bet I'd be friends like cool with this person you know what I mean and um they ended up not fucking with me, which is so random because it's like, I didn't do anything. And what is that? You know what I mean? But I'm sure if they were to sit on my couch or even listen to my podcast, maybe they do. Hi, I don't know if you're listening, but, um, and hang out, we'd probably be like, fine. You know, like, so I think that's gotta be like, cool. It's gotta be put on a pedestal it's got to be revered I I now watch the Donald Trump's of the world these politicians these public these political podcasters these big podcasts these and I'm like it's just sounding like whining and bitching and it's fucking stupid and love will always be the answer empathy will

always be the answer and this whiny tit for tat fucking bullshit it's so dumb like I just don't know how else to say it now that's that's why I'm like when I when Charlie Kirk got assassinated I just my first thought is this is so fucking dumb and now everything seems dumb like everything about our society and how our government works and how we speak to each other and how we operate online with each other and how we it's like what are what the we need to like wake the fuck up and I think a lot of people and I've kind of joked about it oh I think in these times you need God you need to you know find a higher power turn to something turn to a higher power and have faith in something out there um to navigate just

mentally have something to turn to during these crazy times um but I sense that that is kind of what's shifting which is positive people are praying and they're going to church more and they're you know i think being more spiritually uh or they're more spiritual maybe than they ever were before um you don't necessarily have to choose a religion and go down that path but just to be to feel i think people are feeling again i think when charlie kirk got assassinated i think we were so desensitized up until that point think about it like this is what happened for me at least you know every other day and it's just like that list i wrote of 122 horrible headlines um every other day it's oh elementary school shooting mass shooting shooting shooting

shooting all these kids are getting shot up in the schools we're not seeing the kid's neck get shot and bleed out okay we know about it we hear about it and I'm not just this is not what am I what I'm saying let me just get because I'm I'm not trying to compare the two and say oh one's worse than the other it's all bad my point is oh and then you know I could just read some more here we got the Maui fires we've got the plane crashes we've got the war in Gaza we've got the this we got that right it's like non-stop um the wildfires the the floods the girls at camp that died and all that shit it's like we've become so desensitized and numb and then Charlie Kirk gets assassinated and it's like we all feel again something about watching him get shot I know we all saw it

hit different and it felt like a final straw and it felt like we all woke up because there was just something about it and you know and I think about when Trump the attempted assassination on Trump it didn't it it it hit but it didn't hit this hard a life being lost obviously hits the hardest of anything death is the hardest thing to to witness and to um process trump's ear getting shot was crazy but i think we all went like after like okay he didn't get assassinated and we're not going to break out into a civil war or whatever the fuck people think of who to have would have happened um but that what that didn't feel like a final straw now if he got shot shot

and died um which many people are saying is about to happen I don't fucking I mean they always say that they've been saying that for years with him but um and I know he's got a fear for his life every fucking day I'm sure like so many people that are in the public like that I mean I think Taylor Swift just left the fucking Chiefs game with like a bulletproof like thing around her like a wall um it's a scary world like going outside is scary now um the nonchalantness of the woman getting stabbed on the train really woke me up arena i'm gonna say her name i can't believe i haven't memorized it yet i've been talking about her a lot today zarutska zarutska arena zarutska that was a wake-up i mean anything could happen get your odds of getting in a car

crash and dying are like 50x getting stabbed randomly on a train probably but still it's just wild out there and um yeah but get but watching that but yeah we were desensitized back to what I was saying we've been desensitized and I think we all are feeling again and I think that's what that's what this country needs we are so emotionally avoidant we don't feel the vibe is like everyone is just reacting reacting reacting reacting reacting they're tweeting they're posting their clap back tiktok videos of the drama that's going on in the political world and they're like saying their take my hot take about they're reacting and they're acting and they're acting and no one is feeling, no one is absorbing other people's

story and, and they're, we're not, we're not embracing human beings right now. We are, it's really weird I'm spiraling I'm spiraling thank you for being here thank you this is a lot you guys I don't know if I'm gonna get to the life updates I hope my computer doesn't crash from this might be a long episode I know it's probably fine but that's the vibe it's like reacting screaming into the void screaming into our phones I think praying is great having something being connected to a higher power being more spiritual

meditation yoga whatever breath work sound baths just going and getting a massage bitch just lay on your lay on your fucking tummy and get a massage and just feel some shit literally physically you're feeling it and just mentally get into a space where you want to like love your neighbors the being glued to the drama commenting on the drama being involved in the drama is starting to like online I mean and with your friends and your family and everyone you talk to is starting to look dumb like it's that our brains are fried it's giving like it's the whole brain rot conversation like our our brains were so chronically online I'll use a I'll use a term the the the terminology is chronically online and and brain rot that it's like dumb like it's

stupid. So by the way, speaking of massages and I'm going to move on. Okay. That was, that was it. Okay. Um, guys are, that's kind of a, that one's getting a little corny for me. Um, I was at, this is where we're going to change. Let's go back to this. Wait, hold on. we're back, okay, rant over, you get the point, I did my spiel, okay, felt like a release, I needed to get that off my chest, it's time to feel, it's time to love, it's not, no more, this isn't the NBA, we don't need to dunk on each other, okay, this is real life, and I went to, and I'm second guessing what I said about Charlie Kirk dunking on people, I just,

there's nothing wrong with that there's nothing it's it was amazing what he was doing I'm just saying my what I'm second guessing is I'm not alluding to like oh he shouldn't have done that he should have shown I was saying how it's as if he had to coddle other people's um emotion so much and literally like get hear their life story and really make them feel seen and heard before he gave it back to him like it's it's crazy they're that's they're so immature and that's the thing it's maturity it's a fucking maturity issue like there's people aren't smart they're not well educated they're not mature they're reactive they're I'm so glad that we're retarded

we're looking retarded in this country I don't want to call people retarded but you know what I mean it's just like fuck I'm not trying to be on my high horse either I'm not saying like well I'm not like that I'm fucking dumb a lot like I'm fucking and I say that on my podcast a lot and I catch myself

because I'm like I shouldn't talk that way about myself but I even noticed it and that is why I wanted to do those stupid deep dive episodes am I pitting out um because I was like I don't want to be a dumb bitch with a microphone anymore oh I don't want to get the comments like they need to make podcast equipment more expensive like I fucking hate that but um you know I don't I don't want to live my life that way way where I'm just skating the surface and I'm just like reacting and seeing shit online I'm just like oh my gosh you guys every episode I'm like did you hear what happened? It's like gone are those days. Okay. So I got a massage. We, we went to speaking of summer. Now we're on something better positive. God, I need a fucking cigarette after

that. And that's what I said this morning. I got no sleep. Oh my God. Okay. I'm going to bring you in. I'm going to tell you about the massage thing. I'm going to pause this, turn on the AC, tell you about the massage thing and tell you about my morning. Okay. I'll be right back. Okay. I'm back. And I just took a look at my lip liner. I hope I don't hate it on the video. Is it? I'm so toxic. Like I'm I'm being my I'm being so critical of something so dumb. But sometimes the lip liner is just not how I want it and ruins the vibes of my clips on when I post them. And, um, you know, anyways, it's the, uh, peel off one. I I'm using the, the peel off when I was getting ready. I did that. I, you know, it's like the silver tube. It's like a viral lip stain thing that you peel off. I did that today, but I might've over lined a little too much. So the nose contour is a thing today, the fucking lips. Okay. Anyways, back to the massage. So Corey and I went

to we went on a staycation here in San Diego to the Hotel Del it was beautiful this was a couple weekends ago now and we got a massage and this was my first experience like getting a massage where there was a trough for my tits okay there was an actual solution in place for the chest so it's not smushed the whole time because that's not comfortable um and so I walk in and and I told her she's like do you have or you know how they ask you like are there any anything I should know about or any areas that you want me to work on more and I said you know I have massive fake tits so just please be careful when you're doing upward or upper back pressure because it kind of it's not the most comfortable we're back to being funny okay we're not talking about the drama shit

and the negative crazy world event shit anymore um and she's like oh my gosh like you're in luck this is the first place I've done and she's been a masseuse for I guess 15 years she's like this is the first place that has a trough for your she didn't say trough for your tits but that's what I'm referring to, uh, referring to it as where there's a thing where, you know, it holds space for your breasts. Okay. It literally holds space. It, it, it is a, it is a, like the thing, it's the, the massage chair has the massage chair has the head thing. And then it's like the table. And then there's just like a cutout that like goes down. And I, I was feeling that thing. I mean, it was I'm sure the the bigger breast ladies are gonna are gonna need a bigger trough I wonder if

they can swap it out for a bigger trough but um yeah that was nice so we got a massage and I could get a massage literally twice a week I'm always creaky I'm always sore speaking of that life updates let's get into it these are um trying to really cleanse the palate for you and give you something comforting after that deep talk we just had um something I'm doing differently okay I crack the code for myself um for a in a couple ways I am no longer working out five days a week I was working or sometimes six days a week I am now working out two maybe three days a week as of this week that's what I'm doing there's no fucking reason and it's at the point now where I'm like I'm doing that because I'm I don't want to I don't need to I'm not trying

to do anything different with my body I'm not trying to grow anything shrink anything like I'm not I'm definitely in a place where I can get away with not working out as much there's no need for it like there's no reason for it if anything my time anxiety on my workout mornings when I work out pretty much Monday through Friday goes through the roof because by the time I go to the gym workout come home shower it's 9 30 by the time I really get into my work it's like 10 30 and you all know I take a nap at 12 30 or lately I haven't been because I've been um did I ever did I tell you I'm on a new medication anyways that's helping with the naps okay anyways moving on um so basically I'm like I'm gonna wake up at my normal 5 a.m 5 30 whatever and I'm just gonna like work

I'm not gonna go to the gym so that's my latest life update I'm working out less I'm doing these early mornings I love it it's such a vibe I can't wait for it to get colder I wake up the dogs are super sleepy they're so sleepy at that time because they really don't snap out of it and like wake up until like nine and so I like wake up it's dark Cory's getting ready to go to the gym and mind you this has only happened a couple days this week because this is my first week doing it and typically like we were waking up together and going to the gym And that was one of the first things I noticed about him. One of the first times I slept at his place, his alarm went off at like five. And I'm like, what the fuck? He's like, yeah, I'm going

to go into the gym. And I'm like, no fucking way. Cause I've only ever been with guys that hate mornings. They sleep in, they're like, Oh, I have to work. Maybe they wake up early, but like, they're so negative about it. We're like the fact that he woke up at five to work out was so attractive. I was like, fuck yeah. Cause that's what I do. I'm not anymore. So anyways, he goes the gym he's awake you know he's going getting ready and I'm you know just making the coffee it's waking up the you know cuddling the dogs and I'm like just kind of looking out the window at the sunrise like really just taking in the morning that I never really get to have because I'm always at the fucking gym in the morning so that is the new thing and I the reason I'm doing that is

because I'm so sharp when I first wake up. I'm so sharp. And, um, I'm just not sharp in the afternoon. You know what I mean? So I, I got a strike when the iron's hot, when the mind is sharp, what's the best time for me? 5.00 AM to like noon. I am so efficient and productive from 5.00 AM to noon. Afternoon is like useless. She's her brain is off. It's not, nothing is. And I, I forced myself 99 so up until this point really I force myself to work and lock in and do all that in the afternoon but I know I'm not optimal like I know I'm really pushing the rock uphill like I'm really struggling it's always like a struggle in the afternoon so yeah five and my new thing is early starts and I'm I used to when I used to when did I used to do this college there's a time in my

life where I used to wake up early like this and just get going with work but I forget when I did that but it's not like I'm working out at night it's not like I'm switching my workout to nighttime it's like oh I'm walking the dogs or I'm you know just getting my 10,000 steps and picking up dog shit off the floor. No, we'll get into that. It's usually just like I do my work in the afternoon. I'm doing like house stuff or going on a walk or maybe running errands. And so that's how I'm getting my like movement in. So we are in a phase again with Louie, our bulldog. He'll be turning four in December. Every now and then he goes and he gets in a phase of pissing or shitting or both overnight it's every bulldog owner I've ever known is like just that's what it is like I

tried to train them we've done everything we've tried everything they just live their life they just do whatever the fuck they want they're like pretty they're so stubborn and you might be thinking oh it's because you're neglecting him you're you know this is a sign of stress that he's having to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night that he's pissing himself in the middle of the night he's being abused that is why he's doing it's like no like last night and I can like every night we take him out at the very last second and I witnessed him last night we um we got home from my in-law's house um my mother-in-law and father-in-law's house and super late we watched him take the biggest shit and piss for two minutes it's like it's like yeah he's not

doing it tonight and I wake up I'm like ready to get my podcast going and big big shit and piss actually we were only at my mom mother-in-law's for like three hours he also last night he took the big shit and pissed pissed on the fucking rug in the front again so my morning went what am I wait is I gonna tell a story about this morning so this is a life update oh louie's pissing and shitting and i'm cleaning it up cleaning it up non-stop and it's just annoying cory helps me obviously he cleans it he cleans it all up i do like the deep clean part of it so like he'll pat the piss and he'll wipe it up and pick up the shit and then i just go in with my hypochlorous acid and my like pine salt my rug cleaner i'm just like

really getting in there um doing the the real cleaning job so that's kind of what's going on we've been co-sleeping with him we've been really enjoying keeping Louie in the bed when we sleep except we don't sleep at all it's so hard because he's too cute we love sleeping with him and it's so funny because I feel like when I grew up it was like no dogs in the house no dogs in the bed dogs are dogs they're animals they don't belong inside this isn't a barn and now it's like i'm spooning my bulldog like we are in a cuddle puddle it's like a spoon it all we need is jimmy to like it should be like cory me jimmy louie like all of us in a line and it's the best thing ever but he just he wakes up and he always wants to lay with cory and then

we put him on I sleep through it his snoring his noises him moving I don't I completely sleep through it so I keep him on my side of the bed but um at like three in the morning like every night this week we've we keep saying we're not gonna do it and then we like get suckered in because he looks at us he like peeks around our bedroom door and just stares at us and we're like oh shit I gotta it's too cute Jimmy doesn't give a Jimmy is so antisocial with us at night like he sleeps he he's like changed rooms where he sleeps but um yeah he's in his own little world like he comes in the morning and says hi to us and that's it like he's not he's cuddly on the couches when we're watching tv super cuddly and then he goes and sleeps in another room but um anyways at a

certain point in the night Louie just he's obsessed obsessed with Corey I think it's his scent I don't know he's like marked with Corey like it's crazy when you have dogs like two dogs and you're from so they what am I saying I think you know where I'm going with this already so when you start dating guys so when you like marry a guy whatever date a guy with a dog and you like come you what do you call it blend your families um it's really wild because like we've been living together for a few years now or three years ish yeah and it's really obvious which dog gravitates gravitates to which person more or like they've their original owner if that makes sense you guys get what I'm saying it's they they it's a different it's really it's really

interesting like like the way Louie is with Corey is different than he is with me and same with Jimmy they there's something about the bond that's different I think that is so like beautiful and cool talking uh speaking about or talking about my brain's fried right now oh my gosh speaking of feeling things and feeling things deeply like that's a beautiful thing to feel um also we met my little nephew last night um he's a month old officially as of yesterday so cute so perfect um we I think we fed him twice in the course of like three hours he's just sucking down the milk okay um I was feeding him the bottle it was great and we hung out with my um sister-in-law mother-in-law and father-in-law it's a mouthful

and her friend came over it was really nice we just had like a really sweet evening meeting the baby we got to wake him up put him down feed him swaddle him um just stare at him I was just staring at him because I'm like how who are you like you're here like you were inside of her and now you're here in my arms and now you're just the full person he was so sweet and um that was really nice because um I've met so I met my niece and my other nephew but they were both a little bit bigger than he was um my nephew number two we just met last night and it was just sweet to like meet him when he's that like tiny he's so tiny um okay life updates we had our first stormy day of fall

cleansing the palate every basic bitch loves the first day of fall there is nothing or not no every basic bitch loves the first stormy day of fall the first day that the clouds roll in it gets a little darker maybe it's windy maybe it's raining hopefully it's a little rainy a little drizzly it's like it it gives me butterflies like I really I just and I am I bought a basket speaking of being obsessed with home decor I recently bought a basket specifically for soft blankets okay that's a that's a phase of life I'm in I bought a basket specifically to roll my soft blankets up into and Corey comes home from work he sees the basket he sees the new decor and he's like oh this is really nice later that night

the storm rolls in there's a thunderstorm out east we weren't lucky enough to experience that because that's the shit a thunderstorm that really I love a thunderstorm but the storm rolls in we're sitting um I should turn the fireplace on I didn't I did not we're watching like Monday night football or we're watching something on tv and he goes I know what you want to do right now and I'm like what he's like this is the perfect situation for those little soft blankets in that basket I know you just want to like curl up in those right now you just want to curl up you just want to bundle up and he got all like he's like teasing me a little bit but it's so true like it's such a vibe fall is such a vibe like I love the summer I'm such a summer person I love the sun I love the

heat I love tanning I love being a bikini I love all that shit but like fall just hits it hits different than spring winter can fuck off like I'm not a winter chick like I'm not a cold person I'm not I do not live for the winter I love the fall I love this time of year it's it just really so yeah first stormy day of fall happened um not working out as much met her nephew our anniversary is Sunday our one-year wedding anniversary is Sunday we made it okay we're a year in and we fucking made it don't think logan paul and ian are gonna be able to say that actually i'm just teasing but i talked about them last week i hope the best i really do

um so i'm not gonna do i was gonna do this pasta food quiz it's like it's like it's kind of spooky and weird but oh no that's a different one it's like what disney princess are you based on your pasta preference okay these are like the og buzzfeed quizzes i would do i haven't done them in probably like two years they're so dumb but it's kind of fun to like decompress on the on the podcast and read them so we might I don't know what time is it I loved I love doing long episodes I'm just so down for it lately late late lately you know I've always alluded to how I struggle with my L's my L's I think it's just how my mouth is my the what did I say the geology of my mouth no there's something about the L saying L it's I don't have a list but I have like an L

issue and I noticed Corey has it too or no he does or there's something else I also have an issue with speaking wise and I'm like he has it too I think it's L's what was I just saying that had L's in it um L I forget L little little I don't know that's weird I just was going to talk about oh those buzzfeed quizzes oh I'm loving these long episodes was that what I was trying to say loving these long episodes um lately I think that's what it was loving these long episodes lately oh my mouth is too big for my face it's an issue I feel like I have a sometimes I see pictures and I'm like holy fuck I'm not trying to have like it's just sometimes I'm like I feel like because I like lost weight I'm like all skinny now and yes I'm still taking my GLP-1

medication if you're I'm microdosing it okay I don't need to like lose weight but I enjoy the appetite suppressant effects and the sleep I feel like it helps me I've always said this I really feel like it helps my sleep my energy oh not really um I don't know I just feel when you're like lighter and you're not as like bogged down with food all the time. You just feel better. So I just, I like it for that. So anyways, I'm still on it, but as I've gotten tiny, skinny, I'm so tiny, so skinny. I think I'm skinnier than I was on my wedding day. Um, my mouth looks bigger and bigger. So I have less cheek to like balance it out. You know what I mean? Um, oh yeah. Our wedding anniversary. I talked about that. Um, okay. Speaking of home decor, we've lived in this

house for a little over a year and a half. And I finally, I finally looked around and I was like, it actually looks like we, we live here now. Like we've finally crossed the threshold of like, this is a new house and there's, you know, the new furniture, the new things we've put in and like now it looks like lived in and that is all that has always been my goal like I just want this house to feel like when I go to my grandma's house or my mom's house where it had those you know what I'm talking about like it just feels like home there's like shit everywhere but like in a in a nice way like we have I'm not I'm not I'm a little I'm a clutter OCD but I'm not decor OCD where it's like a lot of layers of things like I'm very into that um

I yeah I've been adding some new things just to like make it more I don't know just I don't know I just love it I'm just doing all the home decor stuff but I love the look of it being lived in I feel like we we live here and it's not like a staged because at first when we moved here we kind of like staging it looks staged it looked very um like what you see on like when you're buying like a tchotchke on Amazon it like shows like a room of like where the tchotchke would go in the room you see all the other decor and the furniture and it like there's a certain look and I feel like oh my god it's crazy my brain just did that oh my you guys I don't know if this is a skill or a divine thing but i'm i'm about to wink me struggling with my l's again i think i need

water i'm about to link staged homes versus lived in homes to yup to yuppie matcha pilates types um that is so again am i gonna just bitch about women again and say something negative who would want to ever be my friend if you listen to this episode you're like dude just cool i need to start talking shit about men more um there's okay there's a conversation happening on social media i've seen it a few times now about like yeah that yuppie pilates lifestyle the matcha pilates aesthetic there's this they're linking matcha with pilates and what that means and how it's not accessible and it's

it's a it's a luxury or because of the price of Pilates and there there's people making these really layered videos about that but I feel like and I've I've kind of talked about this before the clean girl aesthetic the matcha clean girl Pilates like there's a certain type of content creator where everything is so pristine and curated and like, there's like a dark shadow on the picture of the mantra. You know what I mean? Like that kind of vibe. And they're always like at Pilates, it's a, it's like a typical, it's like a, it's an aesthetic, right? Is that what we call it? I think that that word's being used incorrectly. I think we've all been, but everyone just says it now it's like a it's an aesthetic a persona an online avatar of like

yourself like what you present as it's like a yeah but the matcha pilates um clean girl a slick back bun gold hoops glossy lip not a lot of makeup good skin you know the glazed donut the the hayley beeper like there's like a there's like a culture right of that that exists online and for some reason I was talking about my home feeling lived in and there's like shit everywhere now that we've lived here for a while but like in a good way and in a we live here and we enjoy our home and we use our home kind of way um for some reason when I was saying that and saying like the staged version of our house when we first moved in um that made me think like the Pilates matcha aesthetic is giving like staged home like sad beige staged home I don't does that make sense it's like not

it's like too robotic or something it's too um I like I like grit I just like some fucking I like show me your fucking diet coke while you're in Pilates with your your man's XL t-shirt. I don't know. Some girls wear baggy shirts and Pilates sometimes. Um, I don't know. Do you have a nose ring? I don't know. Like what, what's like, what's like not pristine about your vibe. You're in Pilates with your diet Coke and you're, you're wearing like a dancer outfit. Like when they do like dance class videos and it's like what what is the dance outfit it's like super random like you're wearing like

just you know I got my shirt at the Goodwill like a Goodwill thrifted um I don't know like it's off the shoulder it's like ripped just some it's not like it's not like the typical like CSB Pilates what is that crop shop boutique or like set active or like aloe yogurt pilates outfit it's like your own I'm looking at my I have this shirt hanging over the light so it there's like a thing I have to do with my shirt it's like an old vintage jockey t-shirt because I'm like so not basic like that I'm like so I shop at the goodwill I don't drink matcha I love diet coke I have like four a day um I'm just like so cultured and like interesting and i have a podcast but it's like not like other girls

because i like talk about like politics sometimes i talk about like assassinations and like i'm not trying to be funny about that topic no i'm not going to do that i talk about like deep stuff about like the culture and like what's wrong with it it's like um I own a home that doesn't look stage it looks like I actually live here because I don't have a barren dry vagina and I have a soul um it's giving no soul that's the thing back to the not feeling anything it's like the and the staleness of society and like the culture and like it's so stale i think that yuppie

pilates matcha aesthetic that's like the clean girl thing and everything is just perfection and like it's so stale it's giving bad and bad it's giving you don't like to fucking you don't like to it's too some people look so I actually made a video about Tate McRae because she's the antithesis of that in my opinion she's like I actually made a video it went viral on TikTok about Tate McRae and it's like you don't want Tate McRae's body you want Tate McRae's energy right and I was I was contrasting her and how like she's just confident it looks like she fucking eats like she's not like obsessed she looks like she's not obsessed with her body maybe she is behind the scenes but like

the vibe is not like she's really obsessed with being lean and like perfect and like Pilates like she does Pilates she wears fucking aloe she works out at the aloe gym I was like I've seen videos but her vibe is just like confidence I'm Tate McCray I can dance I have a she's just like a she's like a vibe right and that's what people even if they don't realize it like you want her energy you don't want her body because a lot of people are commenting on like Tate McCray's body we shouldn't be commenting on women's bodies at all and here i am fucking going in not in a negative way just in an observational way but um there's a certain look the pilates look i think that just gives like super self-obsessed with being it's like the white girls that are super tan too that

do it you just look it looks like you're just so obsessed with that and you don't have any like like where's your soul it's just all about being lean and doing Pilates that's okay to be lean and do Pilates but it's just like the way you present and the way you post and all that shit and like the the vibe you're giving off I want to see you I want to see I think we need to have a fucking resurrection of like I want I want girls I want the Pilates aesthetic to include a little more goth and a little more yeah it needs a soul it needs a needs to be a little more um I just relate this is a thing and I think about London a lot I think about my favorite city being

London. And what was it about London that I just was like really taken back by when I was doing my study abroad there. And, um, by the way, yes, I studied abroad in London. Yes. I made it my entire personality for my entire early twenties. Like I was like, I only dated British boys. That was random. By the way, I had like my first boyfriend was British. My first wait two three all brits so make it make sense i don't know i also studied a rod over there but my takeaway the reason i was so like i i've always the reason i was so like i love this fucking city was because i would go to like east london i was like hanging out i was like on shorted in shortage on like brick lane shopping and all these like quirky like thrift stores and

like I was just like looking at the kids like what are the kids wearing what are these what's the vibe and it just like everyone had their own shit going on with their style and it was so cool to see and I crave that I live in Southern California I think that's what it is it's just my bubble where I live I think if I lived obviously in like New York I follow this account called um watching New York and they like film people they they take pictures of people's cool outfits and that's like a that's my exposure to it right now like I see like really wild outfits from that video and I'm like yes like this person is they have their own style and they their own thing and I just I always love I've just always there's something about me that's always been

drawn to individuality and self-expression that's uniquely your own that no one else can replicate and it's not enough anymore to just like be yourself you got to stand out you have to have like your own like what's like your you know like what's my thing it's like if I wore I don't fucking know um yeah so Pilates needs more of uh needs they need a different vibe I don't know it's just I just don't like dry stale stuff that's like perfected I don't know it's me this is typical like me going off talking shit um do you want to know now i'm this is how i go in this is how this episode turns into five hours in a world where you're constantly on your phone and inundated with

information and just shit and you're just like addicted to your screen there is something to be said about the pilates matcha clean girl aesthetic vibe and the lifestyle of that um and how it helps declutter your mind because a lot of what that's rooted in is discipline and your your very routine with your matcha and your pilates and your home is very minimal and clean and there's only you know everything's very curated and simple and even your hair is that way your makeup is that way I think it's people's way of decluttering their mind in a way and and finding like their zen because life is chaos work might be chaos for them but that's the thing they can control and like keep aesthetically pleasing for themselves and that's beautiful so

i love i love pilates myself i love that vibe i love that all that shit um i don't and i think something that recently i thought about god i was gonna do fun bad news these orcas okay we gotta talk about these orcas i don't know if i'm gonna do the quiz i don't think i'm gonna do the quiz i might do the quiz um when did I I had a wake-up call recently where I'm like oh I need to find my soul again like my what was it that I was you know what it was you know what it was okay this is what it was and what I mean my soul like I'm me I'm this is me right I've this is the closest you get to

who the fuck I really am there is no filter here right okay that has been the case since I started this shit it's never changed it will never change this is my I'm so natural and I for whatever reason okay it is it is what it is but when I had my five-year anniversary um on September 4th of this podcast I this was recent I was going through old pictures right old videos old pictures old content from my 20s and just like looking back and there was an artsy fartsy vibe to me that I've kind of gotten away from so yeah recently I'm like I want to find that again like I miss cutting shit out of magazines you know I wish I miss um you know I'll say it getting lost in books for real where I'm not doing it as a performance like I'm not like forcing myself before bed for

10 minutes to read because I'm like Corey we should be readers we should read books you know what I mean so there's like what other things was I like genuinely like doing and into that we're not that we're not so there were more uh that colored my life in a artsy way you could say that this podcast in itself is artsy farts it's a form of my it's my art but um anyways another pot of orcas sunk a boat and that's the fun bad news of the day so instead of telling you bad news because we're not doing that anymore on this episode we've got uh on the portuguese over in portugal here we go fun bad news orcas sank another boat in portugal since 2020 there have been nearly 700 interactions between orcas and boats off the coast of spain and portugal

more than 200 more than 250 boats were damaged in such interactions between 2020 and 2023 250 boats at least seven boat at least seven boats have been sunk by orcas in the iberian peninsula region since 2020. So seven boats have gone down. Now these are the main theories because I'm like, and I think I've covered this before. I have covered the orcas sinking boats because this has been happening for a while now since I started podcasting. And I think one of the theories and something that we have in common as humans with orcas is revenge. This is their way of getting revenge because something happened. And that theory I think is the one they're going with here because, um, and because they're seeing it as like a learned behavior because a female

orca nicknamed white gladys may have had a traumatic encounter with a boat she possibly got struck or entangled uh in it and began interacting with rudders aggressively other orcas especially juveniles appear to be copying her okay so she taught the other whales how to fuck the boats up fuck the rudders up and how to sink them okay and that's the that's the main theory. Another theory is another theory is play and curiosity. Now I grew up in the Pacific Northwest. Okay. Pods of orcas everywhere. That was just, that's where they, that's the, the, the Mecca, right? This was not happening. So there's something different happening over in, um, the European waters with orcas. I didn't even know they were over there. Honestly. Like,

do they migrate over there or are they just over there? You know what I mean? Like, do they, um playing curiosity is another theory or orcas are intelligent and social some research researchers believe they may simply find rudders fun to push twist or break that's cute um teaching or culture orcas passing on behaviors through pods rudder ripping may be a cultural fad among among iberian orcas they're different over there i'm gonna look up iberian orcas they're not I actually remember those Iberian orcas they're still at work over there oh I have to tell you a fucking okay they're they look the same as normal normal orcas they're just from

that region um speaking of orcas we're redoing our one of our bathrooms I'm like I want it to be a vibe and I want it to be something that speaks to us like what speaks to me because like a lot of bathrooms like you go into like a restaurant or a a club and it's like a really cool theme right that's fun and so I want that experience when our guests come over and so um I'm like I think we should do like violent orca like dark scary orca whale vibes in the bathroom so we'll see if we actually do that but that was one of my ideas also alligators on golf courses i thought that would be kind of us coded the golf thing and then it would be like just alligator i don't know if like the wallpaper would be alligator but it would

just feel like you're i just want it to be scary i feel like i want the guests to be scared when they're taking a shit i don't know maybe i should just put a picture of like I thought of two things I'm just gonna get put you into my brain this is what you tune into a podcast for the first thought I thought or first thought I had was should put a picture of Jeffrey Epstein across from the toilet and the second image I thought I should put across the toilet was fucking Hitler that's my brain for you okay um so not revenge but reinforcement boats are slow to react compared to fast um but reinforcement boats are slow to react compared to fast coordinated orcas successfully disabling a rudder may feel rewarding they're like dogs it's like a

oh so the behavior repeats so that them breaking the rudder it's like they know the rudder is like the most important part of the boat it's like they know that so what experts say there's no solid solid evidence of revenge or coordinated war with the orcas most scientists frame it as trauma plus play plus social learning but they do not but they do know the attacks are targeted and persistent which makes them feel intentional compared to typical animal animal human encounters i love this shit i think it is so fucking it's so funny i don't like it for the boats over there but like it's so funny they're my favorite animal I think like you know I like to declare like what my favorite things are and I like to be really like set in it because I just

like when someone's like what's your favorite animal I like having an answer or like what's your favorite movie or what's your favorite color like so I think I'm I think it's orca orca whales I actually it's it's always been like northwest animals like eagles wolves bears like grizzly bears orca whales what other yeah like it's always been those types of animals um but i think it's officially orcas um they're so cool so we're gonna wrap the episode up fuck it i'm doing it what disney what disney princess are you okay and then i'm gonna like fuck off we're gonna like turn the episode off I'm already swearing too much um it's already noon how the hell is that even possible okay your pasta preferences will magically reveal which Disney

princess matches your personality okay wait we have that or we have I kind of want to talk about McDonald's it's kind of weird and spooky but your McDonald's preferences will reveal your soulmate's initial. This could be fun. Cause I might to see if I get a C I I'd rather talk about McDonald's honestly than pasta. Like it's like pasta shapes and sauces like boring. Okay. And by the way, my favorite fast food place is McDonald's. It's actually in and out. I don't do the, Oh, the it's, but the fries are cold. No, no, no. Every time I have in and out, I'm like, this is so fucking good. I want it every single day. I love in and out. Um, so it's in and out for favorite fast food, but it's like not really fast food. It's not like a super, it's not like

a worldwide chain, but my number one is McDonald's hardcore McDonald's person. Um, forever and always. I mean, my favorite fries are Wendy's favorite chain is McDonald's. So, okay. First choose a burger and this we're going to, we're going to find out my soulmates initials when I finish this quiz and then I'm going to turn the episode off and we're going to go bye-bye and I didn't do a single plug in this episode but if I'm if I'm if you've hey Jacqueline you don't have to do plugs because if you're actually providing real value or if people feel like they're getting value out of the episode they'll naturally want to follow you and subscribe and pay you your patreon five

dollar subscription and you'll, they'll just naturally feel a pull to follow your Tik TOK. And I said, leave a five star, five star. They'll just naturally feel, so just let it happen for first choose a burger. Just the way I sell burger. I have too much fun by myself. Sometimes it's crazy. It's like, Corey's like, you're always in such a good mood after you podcast. And I'm like, yeah because this is my purpose like this is what God put me on this planet to do it's like when you're aligned in your purpose you are happy and you are so positive and great you're never you know when I was working in the corporate world I wanted to shoot myself every day so um don't know if I should say that considering what I talked about earlier on this episode but

I'm the worst version of myself when I work in corporate America because I can't be fake it's a it's just it's like a giant it's like all like corporate America is just it's it's not real like it's so it's like and I know my brain just couldn't do it okay first choose a burger burger bacon quarter pounder with cheese never had it big mac i don't think i've ever had one cheeseburger or quarter pounder with cheese i think i've had a quarter pounder i'm going cheeseburger because if you want to know my favorite mcdonald's order and i found this out about cory it's also his you should always know your significant other's mcdonald's order like that should be something you know maybe starbucks order and then

mcdonald's order but we both said at the same time like what's your favorite mcdonald's order we both said uh two cheeseburger meal so we get the two cheeseburgers because they're just so perfect the cheeseburgers at mcdonald's are they are a 10 out of 10 food item like there's certain I should do a tier list of which foods I think are a 10 out of 10 and a hundred percent worth it. Like every single time, like there's what's like another really good, um, like a double stuffed Oreo is a perfect food. Like they did it. They figured, you know, um, my chocolate chip cookies I bake that are homemade are 10 out of 10. That's something that is so I I eat other people's cookies that are other people's chocolate chip cookies and

it's not like I have a stick up my ass you might think I do just my vibe sometimes gives self-obsessed and stick up her ass and self-absorb but like I can't eat other people's cookies because they're just not as good as mine like they're just not um uh okay I need to keep it moving breakfast time okay i have to pick a breakfast item okay there's a big breakfast with hot cakes you get like pancake sausage eggs i've never gotten that bacon egg and cheese mcgriddle egg mcmuffin or sausage biscuit with egg i don't do the biscuit okay i do egg mcmuffin is like that's a 10 out of 10 at McDonald's the cheeseburger and the egg McMuffin

but recently when I've gotten breakfast at a McDonald's every time I've done it and this is only maybe maybe twice a year it's always on a road trip I get that I get that bacon egg and cheese McGriddle there's something about having that pancake syrup situation as the bun but the egg McMuffin is is so it's so it doesn't hurt my it's not as heavy it's like good just it's just it's just like enough the the egg McMuffin for McDonald's is enough it's it's enough when you get that bacon egg and cheese McGriddle it's a little bit like oh after you know especially if you also got a hash brown and an orange juice it's just a little bit there's something about I'll eat or I'll drink orange juice at McDonald's and only McDonald's

like that's the only time I want orange juice something about orange juice from McDonald's you're drinking it in the car it's giving it's like reminding me of growing up I'm like going to school I'm getting McDonald's breakfast because it's Friday my parents got paid and they're like we're going to fucking ball out and go to fucking McDonald's. I don't know. It was not, I don't think it was ever like that. My parents really concealed it though. I always think we, we never had, it was never like that, like that, the money situation ever. I don't, I listened to other people talk about their childhood and how tight it was. And I'm like, Ooh, yeah, I was Olive garden. Wasn't bougie. It was nice. It was a, it was exciting. Cause we get

to go to Olive Garden and get the breadsticks and everything but like it wasn't like oh we're really going out balling out here that was more of like a regular thing we're like um but then we'd go to like these restaurants in Seattle that were like adjacent to Olive Garden but a step up like Bucca di Beppo felt fancy and felt exciting if that makes sense okay I'm going bacon egg and cheese McGriddle that's what my soul wants right now did I eat today I know I had a clear protein shake that's my new I got a um a brand sent me this brand called grams g-a-g-r-a-m-m-s grams they sent me protein to try and I keep seeing clear protein everywhere everyone's posting about clear protein and I'm like how is it clear like it's protein powder like what's going on and I'm

telling you, when you taste it, you're like, this is so smart because I don't love, I'll drink a protein shake. I have to add like banana, like frozen banana and like peanut butter. And I have to add like berries. I want to like judge it up because just protein powder and water or almond milk is like, or whole milk. If you're like one of those people or whatever, like the raw, maybe goat milk, raw fucking goat milk. It just doesn't do it for me. But putting the clear protein in water tastes like electrolyte drinks or like a refreshing juice, like a sports drink. So it's really easy to go down and it's like, you don't feel like gross after I feel like way like, and it's way protein, but they've filtered it a certain way. So you can, you keep the protein, but you

don't have all that. They remove the lactose. It's an isolate protein. I'm not going to nerd out to this right now, but it's very good. Highly recommend clear protein. Okay. Now for the fries and sides. Again, we're going to find out who my soulmate is. Their initials based on this quiz. Now, now for the fries and sides, apple slices, chicken McNuggets, make crispy strips or fries. I, this is, I'm split because obviously chicken McNuggets, but obviously fries. i if i'm having like a burger and a side i'm getting fries i'm not getting mcnuggets with the burger so i'm going fries okay now we're on to sauce time what sauce are you choosing honey mustard sweet and sour ranch spicy buffalo sweet and sour absolutely i'll put my i'll dip

my fries and sweet and sour, by the way, dipping McDonald's fries into McDonald's sweet and sour sauce is better than dipping McDonald's fries in McDonald's ketchup. I just thought about that. And I'm like, wait, I haven't had that in so long. Yeah. Sweet and sour sauce. What's that fucking there's like um this super mario brothers song from like early youtube days i think and it was like it was 1986 i'm in the first grade i'm really i'm working really hard to get blade uh something or something but then they're like at the drive-thru at mcdonald's there's like a rap or whatever to this do you guys know what i'm talking about they go to the mcdonald's drive-thru and they're like but there was like something

about like sweet and sour sauce on my pussy what is that what's that from is that what reference is that do i i'm gonna talk to text chat gbt right now what reference or where does sweet and sour sauce on my pussy come from i've said the p word all podcast long I talked about it way too much today I used to not like the way I said that we're pussy Jacqueline why are you saying pussy it comes up in conversation sometimes I'm not going to explain when but like it does come up in conversation but I didn't like how I used to be insecure about the way I said pussy that's so funny but I like in when I would say it

I was like this sounds wrong oh it's um there's a few possible origins from why my why it might ring familiar it's not from a specific reference maybe was that like something my some kid in school said I don't know okay I need to finish this quiz and then we need to leave um then i need to eat uh shit okay so sweet and sour sauce okay now for sandwiches spicy deluxe mcchrispy the mcchrispy the mcchicken or fish filet oh this is tough all right it's either the mcchicken or the fish filet the thing is about the fish filet-o-fish excuse me is that you don't get that experience anywhere else in the world the mcdonald's filet-o-fish exists in

its own universe that flavor that experience that texture that bite that mouthfeel cannot be replicated anywhere else in the world other than mcdonald's the mcchicken now the mcchicken is also its own unique flavor but i feel like i can get that experience other places a similar it's a closer a close experience to that i am going to go filet-o-fish final answer i love the mcchicken but i prefer the spicy mcchicken choose some ice cream mcflurry with m&ms mcflurry with oreos hot fudge sundae or a strawberry shake i'm going McFlurry with Oreos um and one more choice frozen Coca-Cola I've never had that there baked apple pie a ranch snack wrap or a McCafe iced mocha I don't think I've had any of these

I think I got a snack wrap one time when I was early on my GLP-1 medication because I was in the McDonald's drive through for some reason. And I forget why I was on, I don't know, was I with Corey going somewhere and I was hungry, but not hungry enough to get like something bigger. Maybe I had the snack wrap. I honestly, I'm going to go with the snack wrap. That's the only thing I've had on this list. All right. Uh, wait, does it reveal my, what if I changed it? Would it change the letter? Okay, wait, how do I see the initial of my soulmate? It says comments, share your comments. It doesn't tell me a result. I hate this. I hate, wait, okay, wait, what if I, I think I have to reselect a couple cheeseburger, egg or the McGriddle.

I got fucking K Christopher Kyle. Some bullshit. What if I changed it to a the McChicken? Oh, I can't undo it. It makes you redo the whole quiz. Yeah. okay cool fun there's the buzzfeed quiz for you okay i hope you enjoyed this episode thanks for letting me get all that off my chest it's how i i really am truly trying to take this situation serious like like um it means a lot to me the top the thing i just talked the conversation i had with you earlier about the charlie kirk assassination the phone addiction the fucking crisis we have in this country about you know the empathy crisis just all of that like it means a lot to me it's

important to me i participate in all of it and i am trying to make just as a citizen of this country try to make sense of it all and I'm trying to I know I can't change the world alone like I know the older I get the more I realize that it's like you and especially when you read those lists like the list of all the tragedy tragedies that have have happened over the last five years since I started podcasting like the older you get the more you realize like oh yeah same shit different week something bad's always going to happen around the corner you're always going to hear about some crazy thing some crazy awful tragedy and it's sad because the older you get the more you realize like you're not going to solve all the world's problems there's too many problems to solve

and the best I can do is talk about you know I just stepped up to the plate like I'm just a normal chick with a podcast like I'm not a politician I don't I'm not like a um I'm not like one of these like nerds like I'm not like a Dave Smith who like does this thinks about this stuff all day and like research it he just he's like on it you know I'm not like a saga and what's her face like I'm not like a I'm not a reporter I'm not I'm just like a normal girl like I'm just like a normal I'm a normie okay and so I'm it doesn't matter at the end of the day we're all at the end of the day we're all people your title doesn't matter um I just wish I'm not saying I'm right but I wish my message

I think what we need and I I admire this in other people and I I try I'm trying to do it myself here and I'm I'm just I'm always a work in progress I'm always as an orator as someone who podcasts and talks for a living like I think it's helpful and I look I look for this in other people to hear new perspectives or the moral of the story the big picture about tragedies that happen it's it helps your brain understand it and so by me talking about it and giving you a moral of the story and filtering out the noise and looking at the big picture and looking at the why from my perspective. Um, I hope that's helpful. I hope

that like gives you some, I don't know what that'll do. Cause it's like, how does that inspire change? I think, I think we really need to take seriously. I I'm trying to think what's like the one message, right? Like what's the one message that I have. I do believe the phones are the problem um that's that's vague that's a little broad it's like what does that mean you know I I think yeah the phones are the problem and they're making us stupid and now people are dying getting fired dying for all this for for stupid reasons it's like stupid it's it's all feeling stupid it doesn't it's not logical like none of this stuff is logical

my brain just cannot accept it as as if I here's what I see I'm like okay if I'm a caveman I'm like phone phone in hand like uh on it all day reading chat rooms and forums about politics and fucking Charlie Kirk I don't know like and then takes gun shoots him why did that happen phone like you know or that's like a very dumbed down caveman version but like I feel like a lot of things go back to that men with phones and access to people that they think they hate because they're small-minded and immature and they're not fully their minds haven't fully developed they haven't lived enough life because they're not um they're not getting laid enough whatever the fuck these incels are fucking doing they're like dude we need to have

like the the charity movement the fucking we need to get these fucking incels some pussy like i'm gonna say pussy again we need to get these motherfucking incels with weak chins we need to get them chin implants we need to get them fucking plastic surgery we need to get them in the gym we need to have like a gym for incels we need to have get them on some god some trt i don't know and get them some fucking it's like charity pussy so they don't fucking kill any more people or go or change genders for like the sake of being more sexually appealing so they can fuck it's all about fucking at the end of the day if they could just fuck if these incels could just fuck they wouldn't shoot people they wouldn't murder people because think about it like that

is the why is that the why okay the phones but then like if they just if they were just getting pussy at a healthy level i'm not talking at an excessive level but if they were just fucking like, like a normal man's like, um, at the level of most average men, you don't have to be exceptionally, you don't have to be like, you know, over here on the, um, who's like a, who's fucking, who's fucking a lot. Um, I don't know, like Austin Butler, right. Or like Harry styles. I don't know. Like you don't have to be on that level. You just need to be average. And those men like that needs to be like the movement getting the incels pussy and it needs to be for real and it needs to be like let's get them hot let's get them buff hot chinned up chin implanted

up um there needs to be like boarding school for incels and they're they're gonna get laid they're gonna get a chin and they're gonna find god because at the end of the day love is the answer and God loves us all and once the incels realize that they will stop shooting people I'm falling apart I'm falling apart you know it's bad when I start talking like that at the end I'm falling the fuck apart like my hair's a mess too all right this is such a different flavor from my basic bitch makeup and skincare videos I post on

Instagram and shit it's so funny because I love like the thing is is I love being a beauty guru I love testing products I like working with brands and doing all this girly stuff on my like social media like profiles or whatever but my my podcast is like go for the ride it's giving us she's not like other girls and she's a pick me because she's so different and interesting and unique and nobody else is like her because she it's because I was bullied I'm trying like the thing is is it's like all all of the way I am is just a reaction to my like it's like a or a what do you call it a um correction or like an over correction because let's let's talk about it I'm I we're still podcasting it's like why do I

have massive tits and why do I always like do the makeup and the lash strip and the fucking outfits and the thirst traps and the bikini and the, this, and then that, and like, look at me and the hot chick. It's because like, that is how I have, when I, when I present a certain way as a woman, it's, it's for, it's like a safe place. It's like a safe way to be because if I look a certain way and I present a certain way, people will like me. Right. Because when you've been bullied especially like for your looks or you've been bullied and then you also hate yourself and you had an eating disorder for over 10 years and you like feel disgusting about yourself at a certain point once all that like heals you end up doubling down on trying to be like that girl and

like glowing up and being a hot chick because you're like I've never felt this way about myself my whole life so why would I not lean in and I talked about that last week like baddies never die and I was I've been a baddie this whole time even when I was getting bullied even when I was in elementary school I've been a baddie for my entire life but now I get to actually lean into it because I'm healed how did I heal I started a podcast can't recommend it enough okay I love you please hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now I'm on apple spotify I'm not gonna do the spiel anymore because I'm sensing how ridiculous it is that I'm saying apple spotify google stitcher breaker overcast wherever you listen like who listens to podcasts on overcast

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