The Jacqueline Monroe Show - 423- SECRET PROJECT: Episode 1

Episode Date: April 30, 2026

At some point in this episode, we're going to jump off a cliff together and I'm not telling you when ;).Before we get there, it’s a pretty normal show. Life updates, home projects, travel, health and wellness, my mom visiting, beach days, and where my head’s been at lately.In the news, we get into the Alix Earle vs Alex Cooper drama, looksmaxxing influencer Clavicular’s alleged overdose during a Kick livestream, the Apophis asteroid and its projected 2029 Earth flyby, Coachella and Stagecoach recap, break down the leaked Summer House reunion audio, and get into the scandal involving New England Patriots head coach Mike Vrabel and NFL reporter Dianna Russini.We also cover Congressman Eric Swalwell’s sexual assault and misconduct allegations, Harry Styles and Zoë Kravitz engagement after 8 months of dating, and Ray J’s insane claim that he’s slept with over 12,500 women. We watch the video of Cam Newton interviewing him and it's hilarious.To close, I talk about Theo Von, identity, and how the stories you tell yourself can quietly shape your entire life if you don’t question them.Thanks for listening and supporting the show! Enjoy! REVIEW THE SHOW ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ https://open.spotify.com/show/4ijzUBunTIHgVmahB0ISEN BECOME A PATRON! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.patreon.com/tjms⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ KEEP IN TOUCH!INSTAGRAM »⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jacquelinemonroe/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ TIKTOK » jacqueline.monroe EMAIL THE SHOW!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ [e-mail]⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ MY MUSIC GUY⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://soundcloud.com/robmonmusic⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ 

Hey, what's up? It's Jacqueline. Welcome to episode one of the super secret, highly confidential. This is insider information. You are not supposed to know this series. Okay. We need to have a talk. Okay. So first of all, you are one of two people if you're listening right now. Okay. And we need to separate the two categories of listener at the top of the show. So number one, we're going to get the, we're going to get these people out of the way. Cause I know you're here. Okay. Number one, you're a, you're a lurker. Okay. You're here for out of curiosity. Okay. You're monitoring my life virtually online. And I, I got your attention with the title of this episode. Like what is this secret project. What is this series? What's going on? I relate a lot to you, okay? I lurk

and I monitor other people's lives virtually online who I've never met. It's okay. We're all human. We have access to people, anyone in the world in a very easily. Okay, you get the idea. I understand you. I understand why you're here. Welcome to the show. This might be your first episode. This is a crazy one to start out on. I'll just say that. Okay. But so that's number one. If you're, you're, you're either that person listening right now, great choice, by the way, by choosing my show while you're here, go ahead and subscribe, like follow all of the things um, out of all the podcasts you could have listened to right now, and there's a million, how many podcasts are there? I, I always, or every year it goes up. Um, then people drop off

anyways, out of all the podcasts you could be, could be listening to. I'm stumbling on my words. I'm not caffeinated enough for this episode, honestly. And we'll get, okay, nevermind. Out of all the episodes, you chose mine. And for that, I am grateful. Sorry to call you a lurker. a creep, a stalker, whatever. I'm actually here to recruit you. I hope this episode recruits you officially. So please subscribe and enjoy the show. I'm going to take you on a crazy ride today. This is not my usual content. Okay. So that's okay. Those people, this is getting too long winded for the intro or hi, you're an OG listener. You listen to every single episode and I love you. And you've, you know, everything about me at this point, we are

virtually like we're, we're best friends virtually. I mean, I've met a lot of you, but not all of you. Um, and hi, welcome back to the show. Thank you for being here. I do. So for the people that are my OG listeners, I do have this message to you from someone who has, I'm sure, not only stolen my heart recently in the month of April, but I know he's stolen your heart, okay? And I just want to give you a little serenade from our great Lord and Savior, Justin Bieber, okay? This is him on Ellen, I believe, when he was 15. adore you girl I want you the one who can't live without that you that you you're my precious

little lady okay I don't think that's I think I can only play that much you guys the vocals right there insane I kind of want to keep playing it the one that makes me crazy of all the girls I've never know it's you I'll finish it you guys that's how I feel about you as a listener as an OG okay welcome back to the show um so I know it's a mixed bag of an audience here in my room that I'm recording in right now I'm an audience of zero the dogs are at work with Corey I'm podcasting alone I'm I feel like I'm jumping off a cliff today to be honest like we have a lot to get through. Um, but yeah. And anyways, welcome back to the show. Thank you for being here. Uh, please hit that subscribe button where we're listening right now. I'm on Apple, Spotify,

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It's my subscription service. Patreon. You know what? I should have put this mother episode behind a paywall, to be honest. But I said, f*** it. So yeah, I do have a paywall subscription service, Patreon. It's my tip jar. You don't get anything. You just tip me for it. You know, I'm giving you this for free. And then it's a way for you to be like, you know, I really enjoy your content and I want to support you. Support your local podcast host, your local indie niche. Really? We're working on it. Okay. Um, podcast host. Um, yeah. Patreon.com slash TGMS. Let's get into it. I'm going to set the scene. I'm going to take you into my morning and update you on my life. Okay. We're going to start with life

updates then we're gonna get into things I've missed recent uh crazy ass news which is it's the standard I mean it's been the standard since I started podcasting I started podcasting during it was in 2020 is when I started so everything was crazy then and it just hasn't stopped and we're all gonna die in a couple years anyways what is it 2026 what is it 20 yeah so in 2029 we're all gonna die anyway so it's I mean if you live on the west coast we're gonna be taken out So who fucking cares what's happening in the world? Honestly, like, don't sweat it. Apophis is coming.

And Apophis is coming. It's a size, I believe, of the Rose Bowl Stadium. Apophis is going to make, am I saying that correctly? Apophis? Apophis. I like how Neil deGrasse Tyson says Apophis. Apophis. Apophis is going to take out the West Coast.

If you don't know what Apophis is, it's an asteroid. the size of the Rose bowl stadium approaching earth. It's going to get really close in 2029, um, on April 13th. So, uh, yeah. And it's, I'm calling it now. It's going to make an impact. A phys it's physically going to, it's going to leave a three mile, I believe hole in the ocean. That's going to cause a three mile high wave. That's going to cause a tsunami. That's going to completely erase the West coast of the United States of America. And I think parts of Asia. So you know, I'm going to read these crazy ass stories, things I've missed in the news since I've last, I don't know when I last recorded and we're going to laugh at it and we're not

going to take it serious. And then we're going to move on with their lives. But like what I think is more interesting are my life updates. So let's get into it. Okay. Let's like get into the life updates. Okay. So you guys, let me set the scene. Okay. So like outfit, makeup, nails, like what am I working with today? So we are in a NBA, it's the NBA finals or NBA playoffs. I'm repping a bulls, um, t-shirt. I got a Buffalo exchange bulls. Actually, I think I got this one at the Goodwill. This is a Goodwill buff, uh, bulls t-shirt. Okay. I don't usually wear graphic tees. I'm just, okay. We need to talk about my style currently. Okay. Well that's so like I see a lot of hot chicks and I'm like, they just look so cool. Right. And I'm like, why do they look

cool? And it's because they're wearing graphic tees, chunky jewelry. Like they always have like a shit ton of necklaces on and like, it's all about the accessories. Right. And the prints and the colors like I don't wear a lot of color or prints or accessories all the things that make these chicks look I don't know just like well styled and put together and like complete where when I get out when I every time I step out of the house it's guys I'm just such a lululemon or viore all black like black leggings black tank top black zip up tennis shoes like my life by the way and we're gonna talk about Theo Vaughn random I know we're gonna like talk about something deeper well I'll put that in like the in the news section um my life is very

boring okay no that's a wrong it's not I have no drama my life is very mundane and boring and predictable and stable in the best way, right? Like I am healed every, I am in a healthy, my life is so healthy and that honestly like doesn't make for good content. So a lot of what I do here, hi, if you're one of the lurkers creeping on this episode because of the title and because of what I've maybe alluded to in your brain that you're trying to like close the loop on for yourself by listening to this episode I much like the great Alex Cooper I get a little obnoxious on because she'll also be a topic of conversation on this episode with Alex Earl of course I have to talk about that um I exaggerate and I put on a I'm pouring it on thick okay for

the for entertainment purposes behind the scenes it's a lot of like I'm wearing the the full Lululemon an outfit. I'm getting groceries. I'm going to TJ Maxx. I'm going to home goods. I'm going to an antique store on the weekends. I'm going, you know, maybe I'll hit some balls and go golf. I'm at the gym. I'm walking my dogs. I'm going to the beach. I'm reading a book. I'm vacuuming my house. I'm cleaning up dog shit. The other, the other, so life update we're read our backyards basically done. Okay. We have new turf. And now my new thing is there cannot be dog shit is not allowed to stay on the turf for more than two minutes so like the second the dogs go out and I see them take a shit I'm following them with a pooper scooper you know I guess that makes for

good content like fecal matters like it's very it you know it's disgusting and you guys are I know you're all overstimulated you're addicted to your phones and like what what gets you off You know what I mean? Like does dog shit and me picking it up, like racing by my dogs. Cause you guys, I don't want, I don't want to deal with that smell. And I was anti turf. You guys know the story. I was anti turf for the longest time. I thought I was going to win the grass versus turf war. And I ultimately fell in love with turf. We have turf now. And so yeah, my life is just like that. it's very homemaker podcast host go do a workout class get a coffee like I'm a basic ass suburban I live in the suburbs but like and it's like not middle of nowhere suburb suburbs it's like a good location type suburbs where I don't want to shoot myself as a housewife okay um because that was really important to me when when we moved into this house I was very adamant on like I cannot be in a quiet, I mean, I live in a quiet neighborhood, but like, I can't feel like

I'm in the middle of nothing and I have to commute to get groceries. Like I don't want to like on a freeway for an hour and a half. Like that was really important to me. So anyways, trying to paint a picture. How did we get here? I was telling you about my, my t-shirt. Oh, my style. Um, yeah. So yeah. But when you're healed and life is good and And it's very, your life is, you're in your 30s. It's all copacetic. There's no drama. Like, it doesn't make for good content.

So, yeah, if you're new here, I pour it on thick. And I, yeah, okay. But, yeah, I'm wearing a Bulls t-shirt. Okay, I'm wearing a Bulls t-shirt. Tits up for the Bulls. I don't know how they're doing in this series. I don't know. I don't follow.

This year I haven't watched. So, I watch the finals every year. I watch the playoffs, the finals, and I care. but right now I haven't really watched any games. We turned on the Knicks game last night. Cause I was trying to see Kylie and Timmy and I like didn't see them, but I guess he was like touching her ass a lot, which he always does. And there's a lot of content of Kylie, like taking his hand and like shoving it away from her, like trying to get him to not touch it so much. Um, I would, I mean like, of course, like anyways, obviously he's going to touch your ass and it looks like

that. I mean, Kylie's body is so it defies. Well, we all know. I mean, yeah. God bless Kylie. God bless that. She just looked so good last night in her new Kai studded LA. Uh, they're like studs made in LA Kai jeans debt, like LA acid wash Kai jeans. She's like coming out with, I'm convinced by the way, when she does these try-ons on her, we're going to finish setting the scene. I have to tell you about my diet Coke I'm drinking and my lip gloss and all that. But like when she does these try-ons of her Kai shit, I was really analyzing it the other day, other day, because these new denim shorts and jeans she was showing on her story were tailored. I know, like, I feel like everything she wears, she gets tailored to her body. So it fits perfectly. But

Like these, especially, I was like, those, there's no way those are just off the rack. The way they were perfectly like on her hips with no gapping, no nothing. I was like, that has to be custom made for her body. Because when you are shaped like that, I'm partially shaped like Kylie Jenner. I'm like missing the hip to waist ratio like she, like that she has. but when you have the the when you have a when you're when you're when you waddle like a duck because your ass is so I'm not quite there yet I'm working on it but when you have a fat ass okay and you put on a pair of jeans where it fits your fat ass it's not fitting your waist it very rarely

fits your waist and so you have to get you have to get that tailored anyways what I'm saying is that of course she probably has them tailored and I was just noticing how well they fit she wore them wore them last night to the next game with timmy um she looked great um yeah we're kind of watching basketball we're gonna start probably because it's i don't know what round they're in second round i don't know who i'm rooting for who do i like should i just root for the bulls because i'm wearing this shirt like do i really care about nba nba teams i think the sonics are gonna go back to seattle and that's who i rooted for when i was growing up because i'm from Washington and that was such a bitchin like the the branding or whatever the

the vibes of the Seattle Supersonics the retroness of it like the like the way it this is not okay you guys I know what you tuned in for like you're tuning in for like the hot you're tuning in for me jumping off a cliff and by the way I'll put this I'll put this at the front of the episode because I keep kind of I'm gonna I'm gonna milk this for as long as possible before I jump off the cliff so by the way you're not supposed to what I'm gonna do here today and what I'm doing on this secret project highly confidential what am I gonna call it secret series episode one what I'm gonna do on this series is a big no-no okay like it's a big fucking no, no. Um, in the industry, across cultures, across the world, I mean, not cultures,

like it's, you're not supposed to do what I'm doing today. Um, which means that high you're getting insider information and I hope that makes you feel important. Okay. Cause I'm desperate and I need loyal fans and literally like this is I am de-centering this information guys remember when everything was about de-centering men I fucking fell into that trap remember when I got married and like my episode after I got married was like I've been centering men my entire like I just got married and I realized that I've been brainwashed by the patriarchy and I've centered men my whole life. And I didn't prioritize female friendships and, and like other things other than dating men and being men and attracting men my whole twenties. And I'm realizing that. And I just

got married. Remember that like shit show episode I did. Um, yeah, the fucking internet brainwashes you. First of all, like the algorithms and the, the rabbit holes you get down, it's like they're ruining, it's ruining marriages. Like stop. Well, I didn't like relationships, these videos anyways um so you're getting insider information you're very special you're learning things that you're not supposed to know and i'm you're jumping off the cliff with me okay it's like it's like when my parents would ask me like oh if suzy q jumped off a cliff would you follow them and i'd be like no well i'm not giving you a choice today as long as you don't to not like click off this episode you're gonna jump off with me so yeah um okay road lip gloss

in the shade jelly bean um that's the lip gloss today we went back to the five and one wet and wild five and one essence primer finish powder um i've been skipping this powder the last few episodes it's a compact powder it's five dollars it's unbelievable for the price um it's wet and hell just sometimes it hits like when wet and wild hits it hits and this is for my upper lip we're kind of warming up still I'm a little rusty um I did take a spin class this morning at 6 a.m it's 10 17 a.m and we're just kind of warming up and we're nervous okay so speaking of spin class okay life update I took a spin class this morning it was my 100th class 6 a.m i walk in i'm i literally i'm yawning i'm like as i approach the door they're like

congratulations it's your it's your 100th ride and i had no idea i have the app and i guess like if i check it right now it'll say i have 100 class like 100 rides and it's so crazy because i used to make fun of spin class and here i am obsessed with it now and i've taken 100 rides but so they're like rah rah here's your like cute little they give you a card on your bike that says congrats on a hundred or a hundred rides. And I was feeling like, okay. I was like, I have to, I have to podcast after this. I don't want to completely use up all my energy and like kill myself in this class. So I kind of wanted to like coast through this morning a little bit. And I just felt pressure, like to go hard. Cause it was my hundredth class and it's like announced

to the world. Everyone knows Jacqueline's hundredth class today. And I'm like front and center. so I did that this morning um yeah other life updates let's just get into this I need to keep it moving do I have anything else about spin class uh no that was that's what I did you guys I still do like the the glute workouts like two to three days a week heavy and then I do spin class and what else do I do oh I'm really working my core that's another thing like I want abs like I want a six-pack like I've never really wanted like I've never I've always kind of thought and I don't know if this is CrossFit brain or like not CrossFit brain I don't know like who preached this but like working out your abs makes your waist thicker because you're gonna build the

muscle like your ab muscle and it's going to make instead of making your waist look smaller it'll look thicker so just rely on the compound lifts like the deadlifts the squats and all that to do to take care of your ab strength and core control and all that because you're using your core in those movements anyways and so you don't need to do all these extra crunches and planks and toe taps or whatever all these like now I do dead bugs I do what's my favorite bird dogs do you like deep core stuff um but yeah I've never won abs so much so I bought I have my entire life I have I that propaganda what am I saying got me whatever and I never trained core now I'm like

I want it's hot girl summer around the corner I want abs I want to have a six-pack and so I've been really doing abs um like insane like I'm just like I want I don't want to look crazy like scary with the abs but I want to have like I want to have definition like I never have like like I have lines on the side okay boring I want to have like lines down the middle and across my abs I want it to be obvious that I have a six pack okay so yeah that's the fitness update. Okay. So I told you about the backyard. It's basically done. We're like fire doing a fire pit turf plants. Um, we got these really amazing rocks. We like put a bunch of rocks in we're doing lighting. Um, we've got like 50 other, other things we want to do a gazebo, a projector,

a golf simulator, a golf course, a golf. No, like it's crazy how like you finish a project around the house and you're like it's not like nothing is ever done you just keep thinking of ideas and like the other day we're like fuck our patio uh table we we we want a couch now like we don't want this table we're like over the couch or over the table situation the the deck table so we're like now we're just looking at you guys I have a list on my fridge right now of home improvement projects we just cross things off as we go it's daunting it's the magic of a home ownership is I think the fact that it never ends like there's magic in that um especially as a creative person and as a just a girly pop like it's so fun to yeah think of fun things like fun little

things to make beautiful around the house and like things you can improve or like like I need a kitchen hutch I need a new kitchen hutch I need new couches in one of our rooms I need these are needs like they're it's actually getting to the point where um have I ever talked to you guys about our white couches yeah I said I was gonna get rid of those last year we didn't get rid of them part of my life being boring and like that whole segment was talking a lot about like picking like cleaning up dog piss dog shit uh specifically on the rugs because we have a bulldog that he's not in a phase right now he's not but he did it like a one it was a one-off situation the other

day where i had to clean the rug um because he missed the hard floor and he got a little on the rug he peed on the floor and the rug okay is this okay i feel like this is so long-winded this entire episode jacqueline keep it moving i'm talking about our backyard that was the life update and now I'm on dog piss on the carpet anyways we got these white couches because I've always wanted like a fucking cloud couch and so we get the we get the couch it's white and fluffy and whatever and I'm like oh yeah you just clean the cushions like you just take the covers off and then you like wipe it down and you vacuum it every day then get the dog hair off like what's how bad could it be it's it's it's cacha de pepe oh wrong fuck so I feel like I want to like

die I need to take a breath like when I look at the couch like I'm looking at it right now actually it's in my vantage point or it's in my view or whatever like I have to woosah like what's the what's like the meditation noise you make I have to like breathe, especially before I go and take those cushion covers off because it's a, it's a cross, speaking of CrossFit, it's a CrossFit workout to clean my couches. They're white. We have two dogs. Um, they're a little pause. I'm not, you guys, I'm sorry. There's

this quote. I was like listening to this old man talk about having a dog and how like, before you have a dog you know your house is clean your life is predictable and everything is you know you've created your life exactly for you and it's exactly how you want it you have a dog it's like things go sideways all the time and now you're like vacuuming your rugs 50 times a day and there's stains and you have to take them on walks and all this stuff so it's like but then it's like your life is more colorful and beautiful and full of more and full of so much love and so like it's a risk reward thing. It's, or sorry, the benefits outweigh the costs or whatever the fuck. Okay. Uh, the joy squashes the, the, the dread or the hell. It's not even hell having dog. It's just the dirt,

the dirtiness of the dogs. The joy outshines the negative. Okay. So anyways, I'm not cleaning their paws every single time they come in the door. Like I'm not that OCD. Um, we have a little robot that cleans the floors and kind of keeps up with the little dirt crumbs that happen along like throughout the day. Um, if, if we go to the park, if they're at a beach yeah I clean them really good but um anyways so I need I need leather couches we need leather couches that's another thing I'm looking for so life update we did our backyard okay I'm wearing eye patches every day now my sister-in-law got me eye patches and I've always seen people where I've been seeing eye patches probably consistently in the influencer world um as like

a daily practice eye patches are a daily yeah it's a daily practice if you're an influencer you don't even have to be a beauty guru you could be anyone and like it's just it's just like a if you're on camera and it's the morning and you're making a video like the girls are wearing eye patches okay so like I've seen them but I haven't really partake I haven't participated in it. Um, but this month I've been wearing eye patches and it's, it's a vibe. Like it's a, yeah, mine have algae in them. And then when they get, um, super dry, when they're done, like when you are supposed, by the way, you're supposed to take them off after like 10 to 20 minutes. You're not supposed to leave those on when you're at the gym. And like,

we already know that I can't stand that. Like they're just, I'm sure there's so many things I do that's, that's, that would be considered performative. like, what could, what could you call me out for? For what per what about me is performative? Honestly, because I'm about to say like, Oh, the eye patches at the gym or so it's such a performative thing to do. It's like, they're not at that point. Yeah. It's like, uh, what is the eye patch at the gym? It's kind of like, okay, wait, I want to, I want to analyze this. I was going to say it's the black, uh, when a football player puts the black marks under

their eye and that's, that's, that has utility. Like there's a purpose for that. Now, when they fully smear that black, what is it that they put like the black ink? No. What do they put on there? it's it's um black paste it's like a paint it's yeah yeah paint when they do the the black first of all blackface like some of these guys playing football these white guys are doing full-on blackface with their under eye paint that's only supposed to be two swipes they're doing the full

face. And that's, that's, so I was saying that's performative, right? Like here's, you're really only, you only need it here and here, but they go crazy with it. Cause they're trying to be like scary or whatever. Um, I'm trying to make a black face reference and it's like, we're talking about eye patches and, um, but I'm trying to think like, what are the eye patches at the gym? Cause like, what did I used to do in high school where it was like, you know, it was performative. Okay. the eye patches okay it was like the way we would roll our sleeves up on our t-shirts do you know what I mean you know in high school it was like you would roll them into your sports bra like like really get them in there and tuck them under

that didn't really have a function I guess when we played basketball we didn't like the short like the t-shirt sleeve so we would cut we would make muscle tees out of them and then you take that extra fabric at the top by the by the bra strap and you tuck under your bra strap that was kind of performative I don't know what I'm saying what are other perform like what's like a good example of something like what do guys do backwards hat the okay okay we need to move on um I went to a local boat show it was cool I saw some seals. My mom came and visited for a week. I wrote here that we went to the cheesecake factory. We went to the mall. So I've been going to the mall more, um, instead

of thrift stores. Cause like I realized the other day I was like, wait, there's more to life than TJ Maxx in the Goodwill. You know what I mean? Like I'm a grown adult, like go to the mall, go to the mall, you know what I mean? Like go to the mall. And by the way, I know malls are dying in America, but like the malls in San Diego are not dying in my opinion. Like some in the nicer parts of San Diego. Okay. I feel like if you go to a nicer city, there's nice malls, whatever. And yeah, the mall, it, it hits, it just hits different. It makes me feel like I'm doing well when I'm at the mall, when I'm at the Goodwill, it's a little bit like, I just feel so undercover when I'm at the Goodwill. I'm like,

who like I don't know what I'm saying guys I'm crazy it's because I'm about to jump off a cliff I'm just letting it I'm I'm I'm getting loose before I make this jump this on the episode one super secret series episode one jump um I gotta get loose yeah the mall makes me feel like I'm doing well. And I feel like I'm part of, it's, it's really like when I go to a Nordstrom socks, uh, Bloomingdale's, uh, Victoria's secret. Like, I feel like I'm in 2026. You know what I mean? I feel like, okay, this is what the style is this season. When, when I go to the Goodwill, I have no idea. I have to imagine the ads I've seen on Instagram for clothes and shit. in my head as I'm going through the racks and I'm like wait I think this is the hot thing this

season or like this is something that the girls are wearing so like I'll pull this and I'll be like okay that would be cute on me but I honestly get a lot of it might be disgusting to you at leisure the goodwill you guys it's a lot of hot moms around me like they they drop off their shit the goodwill and it's good stuff it's good stuff so like I I wouldn't be going there if it's a really good Goodwill. But yeah, we went to the Cheesecake Factory when my mom and I went to the mall and you guys, sometimes you order something. I love the Cheesecake Factory. It's such a core part of my youth, like going to the Cheesecake Factory. I feel like it was just such a, honestly, I'm confusing it with Red Robin. What the fuck am I saying? I've been in the

Cheesecake Factory like five times. Okay. Um, why am I confusing Red Robin with Cheesecake Factory? I think the first time I went to the Cheesecake Factory, I was in, I was in Honolulu at the Honolulu Cheesecake Factory. My first trip to Hawaii, my mom was like, she was on a business trip. She used to work for like the Future Farmers of America. And she was like, she, ran that shit. I don't, it was a crazy job. It was a really cool job. And I think she was in Hawaii on a business trip for that. And when my brother and I went with her and we went surfing, we went to the North shore. It was such a vibe. It was like, so cool. I didn't go actually, did I go

surfing? I went, I went surfing. I actually caught a wave on Waikiki. Waikiki was the first place I caught a wave in the last place I'll ever catch a wave. Cause you know me, I don't, I don't get in the ocean okay um last week I got when my mom and I went to the beach last last week though I did get in the ocean I did get me I actually did get in and I I'm doing this new thing in 2026 where I'm like fuck my fears like I'm gonna start facing my fears my a lot of my fears are around dying. Like my fears are all related to like, I don't have control and I'm going to die. Airplanes and the ocean. Okay. Obviously airplanes, obviously airplanes in 2025 and 2026, uh, and the ocean, it's not our home. I don't know what's underneath me.

it just takes that one just takes that one shark to uh end it all what a cool way to die but like honestly i'm not down for it i'm down i don't want to fucking say this it like creeps me out um speaking of death okay you guys know i have my this is a stream of consciousness i don't give a fuck you know i have my that's what this entire podcast is it's always been but today especially because i haven't talked to you in a little bit. Okay. It's been a little bit, it's been like two weeks. So, you know, I have my hyper fixations, right? And I wouldn't say that death stories are my hyper fixation, but I've been reading a lot about what happened, like people's firsthand accounts or memories from

when they coded, like when they died and when they came back. And, um, it honestly gives me peace. I was going to read some of them today. Cause it's something, it's a topic of interest in my life right now. Whales are kind of out. We did have a whale die or bubble up. I think it was a baleen whale, baleen. It was really puffy. Like I kind of feel like it was full of gas because when it died, all of the, the gas from its body, like from the decomposition composition gases, like just blew it up. And then it was fucking crazy. This was an Encinitas here in San Diego. And this motherfucking shark, I was like sliding through a slide of people who are on jet skis or someone, some jackass on a paddleboard next to it. And then this fucking

shark just going at its head and it's like upside down dead. And she's like going after it. people. And the thing is, is I'm like shark, maybe two football fields, offshore eating this whale, this dead whale and Encinitas people surfing right there. Shark people serving. Like I just don't fuck with that. Okay. So lost my train of thought. I totally lost my train of thought. Wait, sharks, death. Oh, um yeah they honestly like when you feared obviously like it's not cool that we have to die and like that sucks and everything but like or maybe it doesn't I don't know but these stories give me a little more peace it makes it seem less scary like the way people are like I just felt this

ray of light and warmth and love like a love I've never felt in my life and you know or they're like I don't fucking remember anything and everything like literally everything just went black that that that honestly scared that's the part that scares me but so yeah I'm trying to face my fears I did get in the ocean last week but back to the cheesecake factory I got these chicken tacos I did not order off the skinny licious menu sometimes I do that because I'm like I see the full I see the full calorie count on the main menu and I'm like oh I did not need to know that that chicken parm or whatever is 2,800 calories they have so many options did not order off the skinny delicious menu but I was looking for tacos and I only had like a

couple choices and I got the chicken tacos and sometimes you order something off a menu and you're not really expecting expecting it to be that good like tacos are it's kind of like pizza like it's hard to fuck up a taco. It's hard to fuck up a taco. It's hard to fuck up pizza. Like it's still the thing. These chicken tacos from the cheesecake factory. I levitated. Like it was so good. I was like in shock as, and they're little, like they're, they're, they're the perfect. Okay. Cause they're the, if you're going on a first date, you could eat these tacos. If that make sense like you're not gonna make a mess of of yourself or with them because they're so mini and like they're set up on a there's like these metal containers they sit in on the plate

to prop them up so it's very organized and then there's a little bit of cheese it kind of melts them together so the stuff isn't falling out I also have the best best Mexican food the other because I'm trying to something I'm also doing I'm facing my fears. I'm also trying new restaurants. I'm sick and tired of going to the same restaurants all the time with Corey. It's getting like old, you know, like it just, we get, we get, we're so boring with it. It's like, come on, like how many different times can we go to the same sushi place, the same Italian places, Mexican place. Like I get, it gets to the point where it's like, it doesn't taste good anymore because you go there too much.

And we try this new Mexican place out. And I also levitated because I was like, wait a minute. it's this taco is exactly how it tastes like from a like a taco truck the taco trucks I grew up going to in in Skagit Valley Washington it was like um uh or Mount Vernon Washington my hometown it was so good anyways I'm am I fading we didn't talk about the beverages I have water in a Stanley and I have a, uh, Coke zero. I had coffee at 5 30 AM before my spin class. I'm trying to cut back on caffeine. So typically I would have a second dose for the show and we're kind of, we're depending on however many milligrams are in this Coke zero. And I don't think there's very many. So bear with me. Um, Oh, I have back pain life

update. So we're in life updates and we're going to go to things I miss remember. And then, uh, news, and then we're going to jump off the cliff. Okay. What time is it? Okay. How are you doing? How are you doing? Are you enjoying this? I'm taking you on a ride. I'm having fun. If I'm having fun you're having fun because we're the same we're the same that's why you're here you relate to me in some way something I've said hit you right in the heart and it made you feel less alone maybe you maybe you don't fuck with sharks either okay maybe that was enough for you to go like, yep, I'm definitely subscribing to this bitch. Um, last week when my mom was here, Corey's like, Hey, she visited from Monday through Friday. And he kind of said this like

a concerned parent would talk to a kid and Corey, he is 10 years older than me. So he has a way of like having a, and I don't really have, I have daddy. I don't really have a dad set up. We've talked about it. So also if you're new, if you're one of these people lurking who are not really aware of who I am, what I'm, my life story, I have daddy issues. Okay. So Cory has a way of being like a father figure and he has a concerned parent vibe towards me sometimes. And I, and I am very receptive to it. I don't fight him and push back because I'm also good at taking critique and constructive feedback and criticism. And, uh, I don't get defensive very rarely. I just like, don't have a dog. I don't have a fight. I have a fight in me,

but not for things that are like what's the point of pushing back on this you're he's right he goes hey I noticed when you're like when you and your mom were hanging out and we were all like talking and stuff I noticed like you were swearing so much like way more like he's not weird if I swear like he's not obviously it seems like he would he is because he's calling this out but I guess the amount I was swearing and the effort like the just the raunchiness of how I was swearing too and like the fuck there's a fucking like it was at a different level when my mom was here and I'm like whoa like why did I just say that oh I have back pain no that wasn't related to that um oh did I say I think I said did I say bi bitch and then I or like fuck and

then I was like wait I'm swearing and I'm trying not to and that's also a theme of my show um I'm always course correcting when I swear and I'm like wait I don't want to overdo it unlike Alex Cooper who doesn't give a she says fuck with so much force like so like some of I'm just like yeah. Um, okay. So back pain, I have back pain and I was taking bikini pictures the other day and I've taken enough bikini pictures to notice this pattern in my butt cheeks, like the, the, the discrepancy of uh what would you call it muscle placement or or uh there's a obvious i mean not just if you just saw me at the beach in a bikini you wouldn't be like oh my god but like when you put it under a microscope and i'm someone who's really into like fitness and

body control and alignment and posture. Like I've literally been slouching this whole time when I, I, this chair is, it needs to go. I need like one of those podcaster chairs. I think it like props your low back forward. So you're in like a perfect, your lumbar area is hoisted instead of sunken back into your chair. Okay. So yeah, I'm really nerdy about that stuff I like to know and then I I'm I have a good body awareness so I can feel it and lately at the gym I'm like every time I do an RDL I'm like it's just my right leg and I've got two feet planted and I'm backing up with both ass cheeks okay so I'm like wait a minute why is just my right glute and hamstring turning on okay and long story short I'm looking at my bikini pics and

one butt cheek is slightly tighter and higher than the other one. And if you're curious, curious, it's my right side. So it almost makes me feel like my right leg is shorter and my left leg is longer, but what's really going on. And this is like a major life update because this can't happen. I can't be crooked right now. Uh, I need, it's not good for my six pack. Um, it's going to just like make, make getting a six pack so much harder. What am I saying? You just never want to be crooked and not do anything about it in general. Like you always want to correct that when you catch it. And it's been a thing probably I've kind of always had like the low back pain thing where it's a little, it's like a little murmur, right? Like it's not a full on sharp

thing, but it talks to me regularly. It's like, Hey, get out of bed. And it's like a little stiff, a little oof I don't ever feel it when I lift I don't feel so I don't have any there haven't been signs other than like the one side being more engaged when I lift than the other but anyways these pictures really gave it away and basically what's going on is my right hip is tilted forward slightly my hip flexor on that side is extremely tight my quad on that side is extremely tight and then I kind of like tilt more towards that side so it's all crunched and forward so that all needs to be rolled back lengthened and pulled away so think like a lot of quad stretching and a lot of hip flexor stretching on that right side like I have

to do every day it's non-negotiable okay um did I tell you guys about the lacrosse ball I'm putting under my cooch I'm looking at it right now oh that's such a dirty word cooch is so gross I'm not gross girl like I'm not gross girl I'm not gross girl and then I get I get like I get too loose on the show and it's like hey polish it up polish up I don't think I make enough eye contact with the camera either I think that's not good for the clips okay I'm making more eye contact Hi. Whoa. I don't think I've looked in the lens. This is such a rookie move in like 15 minutes. Yeah. I'm putting a lacrosse ball down under. And if you're a lady out there, start doing that every single day. It feels so, it feels, you have no idea how tight your pelvic

floor is until you put a lacrosse ball under there and sit on it for 10 minutes. And then you get up and you're like you love it you literally feel like you can stand up taller everything's lighter and like oh so I'm also really into like body fashion or like fat myofascial release fascial fascia work self-massage stuff like I'm just really all that feel-good stuff face massage like I really like all that stuff um but yeah my so that's what's going on I have back pain let's get into the okay f the life updates we so what am I doing to fix it oh a lot of what I said about getting getting abs is related to the back pain because I have that anterior pelvic tilt that's the that's the obvious reason you guys I literally like curve my back and stick my ass out

too much it's like my default setting okay and so to counter that like you really need to work your core to pull everything down. Do I have any other bodily problems right now? Oh, my perioral dermatitis came back. I got that before the wedding from doing too many facials and treatments pre-wedding. Like it flared it up and then it came back. It's been here for like the entire month of April and I don't know what I'm going to do because it's like a stupid red rash that happens around your mouth like little like dry red bumps and like different parts of the day like when I wake up it's not bad like it kind of like flares up and goes down and then you're basically not supposed to put anything on it you're supposed to let it breathe but even when

you do that it like doesn't go away so I don't know what I'm gonna do that's my other what other bodily issues am I having I'm like really trying to think um okay things I've missed new segment clavicular overdosing uh we missed that let's just play this clavicular overdosing you guys we've talked about looks maxing i'm very pro looks maxing i think it it uh takes you really it takes you far in life um or it will take you far in life especially if you're a two um I feel like it's better to looks max than not looks max um it goes too far though when you're meth maxing or whatever clavicular did when he

overdosed I don't know what I think he was on well it'll it'll say hold on let me play this video he's like the god of looks maxing here and honestly I feel like he's trolling on everyone I feel like a lot of it's rage bait like he's saying things with a straight phase about like taking a hammer and like just completely like denting your skull so it can so it rebuilds back the bone builds back thicker so you have a like a wider jaw or whatever um i feel like a little it's a little i don't know if he's saying if he's i know he practices what he preaches the guy's doing heroin for cheek max or, uh, what's it called? Skinny maxing. So you have sunken in cheeks. What does he call

it? Heroin for, for, for gaunt cheeks. Yeah. Like I know he'd practice what he preaches, but I feel like his dead pan delivery on these interviews when he's just so no emotion in the face just says it with a straight i'm like it's got to be rage bait he's i feel like he's got to be fucking with us but the man overdosed and here's a video clap seen here during one of his signature irl streams in miami chatting with fans after appearing to ingest a dangerous cocktail he and his friends call a pentastack sorry i can't even I'm absolutely gone. Right now, Pentastag is Adderall, DXM, ketamine, BDO.

No, not BDO. It's five-hour energy. And pre-gab. Thank you. Translation, that's prescription ADHD medication Adderall mixed with cough syrup, ketamine, which is a painkiller, and another anti-seizure med that mimics the effects of alcohol. The live stream ending abruptly when Klav appears to go unconscious. Oh, shit. Klav now sharing this photo of the aftermath, telling fans he's out of the hospital with blood still on his face.

He calls the experience brutal and says, The worst part of tonight was my face descending. aka getting scratched up from the life support mask clav who claims to be on the autism spectrum adds wait did i just miss that i zoned out is he's pissed off about the life support mask fucking his face off of course are just to cope trying to feel neurotypical while being in public but he admits obviously that isn't a real solution hold up all of the substances are just just a cope trying to feel neurotypical while being in public that's what clavicular said about why he took

he's autistic right i think he actually is autistic so that combination is is a cope is him just trying to dude take a shot and shut the fuck up like like a normal person pound a few beers like be an actual like i feel like he idolizes alpha bros like the guys that look like men who naturally look that way they don't have to smash their skull in uh in their mom's basement all day to try to look like a masculine man what's going on with the ketamine the cough syrup the adhd medicaid like it's too much that's the thing about looks maxing it's maxing you're maxing you're doing too much and that includes the drug taking just to feel normal

in public just take a shot and shut the fuck up doesn't he drink or maybe he wait a minute is he not does he not drink because it's not good for was there any drinking in this in this live stream hold on you want nutty you want nutty holy shit dude i'm trying my best but i'm destroyed i'm destroyed right now i don't think they're drinking i think they're just doing these mini shots of multiple drugs to he looks drunk yeah i don't get it it's doing too much that so I missed that clavicular overdosed I mean what a crazy ass thing we I did talk more about looks waxing in previous episodes so like we've covered it but I'm just like really into do whatever it takes you know

but I'm I'm very pro like okay when it comes in all seriousness When it comes to looking your best and going on a journey to look your best, shut the fuck up. I'm swearing too much. Sorry. Rusty with the sound effects. Don't tell anyone what you do. I'm so pro, like, shut the fuck up. Stop teaching everyone.

or tell like I know he's it's his lane and there's a community and it's it's a hobby it's at this point it's it's a hobby like these men like stand next to each other and what do they do it's like height mog or face mog where you try to like when you stand next to each other one person is out shining the other one because they're they're more muscular and then you just stand and like post in front of a camera, like a live stream camera, or you take a photo and it goes on Instagram and it's like a, and then people try, I don't know, comment. And like, it's like, there's like no point to it. It's just so stupid. It's so stupid. It's so pointless and stupid. Like just be hot and shut the fuck up. Like just do it and don't say anything.

but now it's overshare don't gatekeep blah blah i'm like don't tell people anything just keep it tight with that kind of stuff um okay so i also missed alex versus alex you guys it's time i speak my truth it's time i speak my truth about alex cooper the great alex cooper the great i mean i hate that i'm this way because it's probably not the right way to okay i'm kind of into as i've gotten older not liking people based off of vibes like you don't have to like everyone just because someone

has a top podcast and they're also a female like you're a female podcaster they're a female podcaster doesn't mean you need to kiss the ground they walk on kiss their ass there's a lot of playing the game in the in the podcasting and it's just in the entertainment industry right like you you schmooze each you kiss ass you schmooze you and I've just always been like I'm not in that world first of all I'm out here in my own bubble doing my podcast right but like just based off vibes I've always been just like something's off there you know and I see a lot of myself in Alex Cooper I find myself relating a lot to her um which is a but but basically honestly I just can't get over what happened to Sophia Sophia Franklin her if you don't know the the lore um Sophia

Franklin you you know the lore if you're listening this podcast please dear god like if you don't know the lore this is not your show sorry but Call Her Daddy used to be two girls podcasting about sex right at barstool that's the og setup they had a they had a breakup um where alex took the ip she stayed with barstool and then spotify she left barstool i think they kept doing her merch but then she got a 60 the big 60 million dollar spotify deal right we all know about that and then her ex co-host sophia franklin didn't get shit and like they broke up and there's a smear campaign from barstool um tearing this poor woman apart so i just never got over what happened to sofia franklin i've

always been team sofia i've always empathized with her from the start and i'm just like what the fuck and i again just the vibes of alex cooper just haven't that enough that's enough off for me to be like, you don't have to like everyone. Right. And just certain. There's just like her way of being right. Like sometimes I'm just like, it's not for me. Yet I related so much to her life story and her documentary and bullying and going to, I think she went to a Catholic school in her uniform and she, uh, like what other parallels were there? Well, recently, like we both got engaged at the same time. We both bought a house at the same time. We both got married at the same time.

So like a lot of our, and we're the same age, right? So I see a lot of myself in her. I think she lives a cool life. She's got unwell. She's got this, you know, all this money and she lives in, she like wears her sweatpants around her beautiful house all day with her cute dogs. And she, I don't know, wakes up at 10 and makes a nice coffee and like does an interview with a A-list celebrity. takes a few meetings and like make shit happen. Like she, she's a hustler, right? Like I don't want to, that's the thing about her. Like you cannot, that's the thing about her that I think I wish I had. I think that's a part I'm like, damn, if only I had her hustle, right? Like, um, I think you either have it or you don't, you either have it or you don't. Um, it can be, it's a muscle I have to work harder than someone like Alex Cooper who's just hungry she will and it kind of appears and I think it's been this way from the start and she used to have a YouTube channel that she would make vlogs or post vlogs on and she was just very like hi like so like

her brand is very like over the top obnoxious like cock sucking dick suck I don't even like she just was like dump his ass drink his cum like so raunchy and just obnoxious and she still has an obnoxious vibe in certain ways um I feel like the skits she does to tease her guests are a little bit but it's like you're an entertainer I think that's her that's just part of her that's her shtick right that that's what sells and it works with a younger audience and it's not cringe to them because they're younger than her or whatever and it's entertaining and um but yeah she's always appeared to be hungry that she wants it really hard she wants to be at the top you know and she and she'll do anything it takes to be famous or the best

podcast or whatever and she's just she's really vocal about it she doesn't shy away from being like, yeah, I work my fucking ass off and I will like, she's just very like full on about it. Okay. Um, and I admire that. That's a great quality to have. There's nothing. And I think the problem now with this Alex Earl situation is that I do agree that men who in business act like her aren't even like twice for their behavior when they act like this and, and, uh, maybe do people a little dirty or fire them or cut them off or, uh, underpay them or whatever. Like, it's just, they're, they're a shark. They're a shrewd businessman. And that's the, it's not looked at as a problem, but yet she's a woman and it's a

problem of course. And so like, I totally, I think that's, what's going on here too. there's definitely that such like that dynamic at play um but god damn like i'm so team alex earl like i just love that girl the thing is too and you want to if you want to talk about okay and if you don't know the drama god i feel like i have to fill everyone in and you're i feel like you should already know this but i guess it's my job to fill you in alex earl hot chick out of a hot college chick out of Florida Miami you Miami where did she go to college she was making tiktoks in in her dorm or in her sorority dancing tiktoks hot girl like get ready to go party get ready to go the football game tiktoks always to get ready

with me situation um her looking great she's a hot blonde whatever in college and her life look perfect and everyone was like living vicariously through her and especially of us older girls who like went through that and now we're like oh my god our college days like look how fun and she's like so cute and like super honest and she's vulnerable and she shares like her whole life story and she lets you in and it was fun to watch and it was kind of like from the jump really obvious that she can do no wrong like anything she posts it's like how can you not how do you what's not to like right she's very what's a word brand friendly or like digestible like her content's very digestible um so I've always been

like I just like this bitch I like her everything she does I'm just like I want to root for you you're sweet you're kind you're just her way of being right and I think and I kind of had a moment where I was like every person commenting on Alex Earl it's almost like it was a campaign to say and come online publicly on your TikTok and say and profess your love of Alex Earl and how you just adore her and you just love her and you just think she's so sweet and so nice and you love her get ready with me content it was like a moment I don't know how many years ago I want to say like four years ago where it was like women were just outwardly make like making videos about how much they loved Alex Earl as if it was some sort of campaign like

that's how much people loved her I think that was all organic honestly who the fuck knows I know she's got a great team and machine behind her and you know that's part of creating what she does and the image of it all and that's important and that's smart and that's you know it's good on her for that like keeping your reputation um squeaky clean because like that's who she is where I feel like what am I saying Cooper I think it's just naturally a little less charismatic like she doesn't have she doesn't let you in and she she she others herself from the influencer right she's clearly as once she got this Spotify deal and as she's grown and got more rich and famous I feel like she lives in her castle with her man and her dogs does her

celebrity interviews and retreats back and she'll put on these events for unwell and she'll go be the you know Alex Cooper take my picture or take a picture with me and like here let's do a shot together and she'll go party with people or whatever and she'll go to these events and then she retreats but she doesn't seem to like and I it's been said I'm listening to a lot of other people talk about this obviously and they're all like they're all like she doesn't have a lot of friends in the industry um the people she's closest to she hires like her friends like Hallie Batch whatever and that Grayson guy I don't know if they have I think Hallie has a podcast on her network um she's like an east coast

I was gonna say whore like she honestly is like I'm a whore and I don't give a fuck and I have these big fake tits. And I'm, I have an eating disorder. I'm like really fucked up and I probably should go to rehab. Like, I don't know. Her whole brand is just like, it's, it's actually hot mess. Like Alex Earl's hot mess brand. Isn't it's pretty light compared to like a Halle Balch, Balch, Balchelder. Um, so anyways, they're just like reputation stuff where it just seems like she doesn't have the best reputation. And if enough murmurs are happening in the industry and around like Hollywood amongst people you've interviewed and people that worked at your company where they're not vibing like I just think what does Corey always say

and it's so true Corey my husband if you're new here like not that you have to be perfect in life and never piss people off and rub them the wrong way. And you know, never be an asshole and always be perfect little kind soldier of this life. Okay. But there's something he says where he's like, look, if someone has a problem with me, it's them. Like it's, I know that might say I'm fucked up but like he doesn't put himself in situations and he doesn't like like what's the what's the word he doesn't um he's kind to everyone like he's a nice guy to everyone if someone has a problem with them it doesn't make sense because he's never done something where he's not like beefing with

people having drama with people like ever like he's just not that guy I don't think he's ever been that guy everyone loves Corey he's a nice he's just a nice guy and so and he really doesn't have people that don't like him like that's the thing they really don't like him I just think it says a lot when a lot when there's a shit ton of people around you especially people you've employed that have some bad stuff to say about you why is that why does that even exist why does that even exist are they like jealous of you feel threatened by you like you're Alex Cooper you have the biggest podcast in the world you're super rich they just like me are just like I don't like the vibe of you so I don't like you like maybe it's that but I think at all costs if you're gonna be

that that in that position there shouldn't nothing this should never happen if you're an Alex Cooper this should never happen so you've clearly got some flaws like you've clearly clearly got some I don't know if it's like character flaws, ego issues, like not being able to handle whatever Alex Earl, you think she did to you that you had to call out? Like, I'm sorry. The repost, it was one repost. And then she's like, how much time do you have? She commented on like one video. She threw shade maybe obviously like less than five times, like literally publicly, I think maybe three times through liking a comment, commenting a comment, and then reposting. And it's like, why is Alex Cooper, uh, concerning herself with what Alex

Earl is reposting? But people are saying now, okay, we can speed this forward and I need to move on it because we have to jump off the cliff. And this will be, this could be the entire episode because it's juicy and like everyone's talking about it. Um, but People are like, excuse me, there's the Bloomberg article that shits on her husband basically saying he yells at everyone, he's a bad boss and people are coming out telling their stories about how they interviewed with him and they were really put off. he was inappropriate by Matt Kaplan Alex Cooper's husband and it's just a bad work environment and it's a shit show working there and so it's a it's a hit piece a smear piece whatever on the unwell company and it makes her husband look really bad it alludes to like Alex Cooper's not really involved her husband kind of runs that shit and he's like which was

so obvious by the way in her um hulu documentary and nothing wrong with working with your husband nothing wrong with putting your heads together and building a company and combining because he has his company his i forget what it's called and he like combined that with hers and they're in business together and i just first of all don't think married people should be i think you should always separate that so you don't bring that home every night i think that's ideal like I think it's like it sounds nice that you are building an empire together I just don't know I personally wouldn't want that I would want a separation that's just me but it's ironic and everyone's calling this out that Alex has been so

first of all like girls girl women supporting women like fuck the patriarchy pussy power everything's for the girls about her like everything her whole what she puts out is so like I saw her on um making there's a clip of her interviewing Kevin Hart and she's showing him like tampons and dildos on like like asking Kevin Hart to like say what these women's health products are and it's like that kind of shit where it's just always like women women women women women okay and she was the the car or not the car excuse me I kind of think this is my this might be a situation honestly um the irony people are calling out is that Sophia was dating when they broke up was dating uh I want to say like an HBO executive or part he was high up at HBO

at the time the color daddy broke breakup happened because he was like hey you guys are worth more and that got in Sophia's ear obviously because they're dating and he's like advising her on like hey like you should advocate for more money and like this is bullshit what you're being paid and you're being underpaid and which was all true and this is a man who's well educated in this realm he's in the industry he understands it and here's a young naive Sophia I want to say she's naive she was smart I feel like Sophia is very very smart I don't I don't think she was like dumb I honestly think she thought this too of course they I bet Alex thought it too they're both smart I don't think they're dumb so they knew they're worth

more but and that was a problem because there was this this during the Barstool smear campaign tearing down Sophia it was his they called him suit man I think because he wore a suit he was like this businessman that Sophia was dating and it was like a problem that she was letting a man get involved in her business in her podcast business and and inserting himself in that and here we are fast forward all these years later we've got first of all unwell Sophia's word we all know that the company Alex Cooper uh her company with Matt Kaplan um we now have and this was so obvious in her documentary her husband running that shit nothing wrong with that but it's like you've got a man

pulling the strings and calling the shots and yelling at employees and I guess it's just not a good situation so um when you portray yourself as this female founder ceo like she's really a lot she's like really the girl boss thing really worked on alex cooper like that really worked on her um she like eats sleeps and breathes being a girl boss like she's no issue with that she wants that life she loves that she's a founder and a ceo and she's a female founder and ceo it's like yeah but it doesn't seem like you're running your shit it seems like your husband is and you've married this man in the industry and that's that's convenient and of course that's going to help you and it's going to help you go further but like

kind of sounds like he's a piece of shit and i hope that he's not yelling at you and i just really honestly i feel bad for alex cooper i feel bad i think i think there's some deep this is now way too long of a podcast uh we're going too far on this topic but it really is a interesting story and it's like who fucking cares they're both beautiful women they're hot and they're they're rich why are they why is this even a thing you know what i mean but again i don't drama in my life. My life is very boring and, and, and calm. And, uh, so I veg out, I veg out on other people's drama and they bring it right to me. They serve it on a platter right on their Tik TOK. And I, and I get to see it and I get to comment on it on my podcast, like all the other

podcasters. But, um, I feel like underneath it all, Alex Cooper is, I don't think she is malicious and evil and she i i think she's calculated a lot of what she's done is seems kind of calculated conniving which sounds like the opposite of what i just said i i just think she's there's something there she struggles with i honestly think it's the the choice to other herself and like distance herself from the influencer world and not really let people into her life because it's like this it's like okay if i was to marry a guy in the industry and go on this journey of building a media company a podcast network it's like there's like four branches of this company they make

drinks, unwell hydration. They have TV shows. They produce network Hulu shows. Like they're doing all this shit. Like not that she needs to take you along in that journey, but she kind of needs to take you along that journey. Cause you go from this college girl that let you into your sex life and talked all about that. And that's what people fell in love with. And that's what the people were were drawn to about you because it was just so raw and then you go overnight Spotify deal interviewing celebrities and now you've walled yourself up you get married you start building this network you start signing people and interviewing keeps you keep interviewing celebrities and it's like you never really closed that gap in our brains and like brought us in

to the real because like that's what I'm that's what the people want that's what that's what people, if, if Alex Cooper only did that, like people would be fighting so hard for her right now because they would understand her, her heart and her mind. And like how, like, like Alex Earl, for example, she's so vulnerable like that. Like, I feel like I'm like that. I feel like that's the, that's what it takes. That's, that's what it takes to, you know, I, I share everything. Like I'm so, I'm overly honest because that's what people, that's what connects with them. And so when you stop doing that and then you have this scandal and now your husband, I guess, is an asshole and your company is not, it's a lot of smoke and mirrors and they have a lot of money to

keep that show up that's the thing it's like I could kind of sniff that out I think from a distance like everything is so shiny and well like marketed and their content is really nice the color daddy stuff all the unwell stuff but like what's really going on behind all that like I feel like it's not as good as they make it seem and appear there's like a lot of what yeah smoke and mirrors. And I, I think you get what I'm saying. Shut the fuck up. But yeah, I feel bad. I feel like then Sophia's books coming out at the end of the year, daddy issues, her memoir about her. It's going to, I hope it shares some new information that we don't know about her relationship with alex cooper and what actually what happened like more deets more juice um but

then that's gonna come out and that's we're gonna maybe but she's fine she's rich she'll be fine she'll keep interviewing celebrities and she'll keep doing call her daddy and she'll come out on the other side i just like did i even really talk about alex earl i think here's the thing back to the repost of her. It was a repost of a, an account called, I think the Bravo mom calling Alex Cooper, a ambulance chaser. And it wasn't, it wasn't a very savory, like it was a, it was a shit talking video on Alex Cooper. Okay. And that's right on Alex earls reposts on her tiktok right right there publicly like for all of her eight million nine million followers to see right and kind of yeah i'll put that in like the immature bucket okay

that's like come on you know um it's a little drama a little immature a little like hey what the fuck like you're now you're getting in the mud a little more you made the comment on that one video a long time ago and now you're doing a full-on repost that's calling out alex cooper by name so that was not very but i'm like you know what since the dawn of twitter like when we really and just the internet subtweeting when you would repost something or what do you call it on twitter was it repost something shade like celebrities would do this they would shade their other their other celebrity frenemies enemies whatever with a tweet that was like an obvious like read between

the lines they're this is directed at indirectly directed at someone they hate okay so this has been going on forever alex cooper is 32 almost 32 alex earl's like 25 okay so age difference it does matter. I was a different, when I was 25, my maturity levels to women every year live a different life. I swear to God, like in your twenties, especially you are a different person every single year. And you can argue with that. Like I don't, I was, I lived 10 lives in the 10 years of my twenties straight up. Like who I was at 25 versus now at 31 is like a completely different person so I give Alex Earl a little grace she's like young she's kind of in that party she's still in that party phase that young hot party phase and she's like fuck it I'm young

I'm gonna do a repost and call this bitch out that I had a bad business or work experience with but which by the way I think you guys are probably like what do you think happened between Alex Earl and Alex Cooper I don't think it's anything juicy like I honestly think it was just like Alex Earl realized she's being underpaid this is like a bullshit deal and she's above it and she the podcasting thing just like wasn't really her jam and she got out of it and Alex Cooper thought she owned her and like there are some probably stupid catty bullshit fight thing um that isn't really juicy um and I don't think she's gonna respond I think Alex Earl's lack of response is just so great i just like love that angle i'm like yeah unbothered unbothered queen don't get

in the mud with alex cooper let her leave her on red excuse me leave her on red and keep it moving um go she's got her netflix show coming out alex earl she's got her what else is coming out oh she has her skincare line this was like the greatest thing for real actives her new skincare um Um, like the fact that this created a lot of buzz, sorry. I'm just, excuse me. I need to drink water. Um, yeah, moving on. Coachella stage coach happened. I did not go to either. Uh, love seeing the Biebs that was a real treat loved his I people were talking their shit about his YouTube like playing his YouTube videos during his concert his music videos but I'm like that's how he came up it was so nostalgic it was very um creative like something we don't usually see

I don't think it was lazy because you want to know that well i sleep that right there just what i just like the mumble i just made what what even was that um he first of all it was like starts out with all i can take best song on his swag album like it's all i can take like the vibe of his he played this he actually like sang his new album like the songs on it he did his throwbacks it was it wasn't just the YouTube videos I think people don't realize that they just saw the the clips of him playing his YouTube videos like he just sat there and lazily played YouTube videos like no um and then I guess yeah the second weekend

he kind of got in the crowd his vocals were insane that man's vocals live are just healed my heart i just love that man i i really do i think you know you know cory's been a little like i don't know about this punk you know about justin bieber and i've always been like i take a bullet for him you know like i've always been like i fucking love justin bieber and i've been out loud about that with my husband for since i've known him and he's always been like he's a punk I don't get it and you know a lot of men a lot of these men that were like that are now coming online but like my husband's like you you know he's a changed man and he he officially has a Bieber fever when you get in his car and they all the all the oldies all the

good uh all the Justin Bieber songs are playing and he's got the full-on playlist on in the car and then I catch him watching Justin Bieber videos on his phone all week after Coachella like I hear the concert playing on his phone and then he tells me like oh I didn't know this you know I thought this and that about him but like oh I saw this video of him with his fan I was like oh like he's really like he's turned a corner so that was a real treat I really have nothing to say about like the the fashion or what people were wearing I didn't really pay attention I just think that complaining about Coachella is so like we all know it's all we know we know like it's too influencer-y and it's all about it's like I just can't

like people don't even care about the music like these are the cliches everyone says every single year they shit on the outfits like I can't really if I had to guess like what the the outfit vibe was this year like from what I saw it's like there's still like western elements happening at Coachella that it's it's not full-on stagecoach western but it's tinges of like the cowboy boots the westerny vibes I don't know people had something to say about like the simplicity of Kendall and Kylie's outfits at Coachella like who gives a fuck these people are just hot and having fun people are hot and having fun that's why I'm like you know back to Alex Cooper I'm like she's hot and having fun she's hot young she hot I don't know she's she

kind of like stopped being that hot chick like she used to um she's rich she's got stuff I don't know I think it's just a setback that'll hopefully I don't know I think I think with anyone in her position all the people want is radical self-awareness and honesty and just like and you don't have to address anything you don't you could take you could take a different approach and just go don't get in the mud don't address it don't don't but you're not it depends what she wants like if you really want to connect to an audience and your and your fans and the thing is about her show like let's be honest she's recruiting the audiences of these celebrities she's interviewing every single time because if you love a celebrity if you love kevin hart and he

was just on like his fans are going to go listen to that call her daddy daddy episode so like the raw organic like just Alex Cooper I love Alex Cooper call her daddy OG fans like those are the people that need more of her vulnerability and well everyone does like it would be nice for everyone but like I'm just saying like those people like I feel like she just kind of doesn't give a fuck about them she just takes the approach of like oh don't don't explain like don't don't explain just like retreat and just don't address but she addressed alex earl and she called that out which was very out of character but people say that that was a a block in bridge pr move where she was trying to

get you to think about a different story instead of the bloomberg article hit piece about her company and then also there's a vanity fair article coming out that i guess is way more in depth about her company coming out and like they're dealing with this pr crisis situation and so this was her trying to distract but anyways i just think yeah you gotta be more okay it's getting a little too like this episode's getting a little too we're chewy summer house reunion linked leaked audio don't really care haven't really paid attention to that since i last covered the west and amanda situation like the original situation like i don't i know there's a reunion they've taped the reunion and there's leaked audio

and Amanda's being defensive about what she did and I guess West is just keeping his mouth shut which is interesting um he's actually smart for doing that Diana Rossini Mike Vrabel Vrabel scandal so you say it Vrabel she's a sports reporter he's the coach of Patriots coach head coach um that's juicy I guess okay but then I was digging so so Diana Racine is an NFL sports reporter right um and Mike Rabel's the head coach of the Patriots okay so she's like interviewed him they've been in contact for years because of their jobs and they crossed paths and I guess they've been fucking okay like or allegedly I don't know there's pictures there's things from the past and it's come out, but I was, cause I'm always curious when there's a fair stuff. I'm always

curious who the spouses look like because they're both married with kids. And Mike Rabel's been married for 24 years. Got married in 1999. He married his college, Ohio state. I think he was a football player at Ohio state. And his wife, Jen was a volleyball player at Ohio state. They were college sweethearts got married in 1999 they have I think two kids not quite sure about that but what I'm always curious about when there's alleged cheating affair scandal stuff I'm like what do the spouses look like and I looked up Diana Rossini's husband and there's facially it's like Mike Vrabel's the more alpha version more masculine version like facially of her husband who's got like the same structure the eyebrows slant the similar way

the nose shape and angle is very similar kind of similar smile vibe like face shape but it's like Like, Vrabel's got the just a little more masculinity in that face. That's just like a little more. So it's like she has got it. It's like I always look if they have a type or if like what's the attraction. I don't know. I just think it's interesting. There's like a vibe that it's really too bad.

And then she named her son Mike. People are doing the math and they're like, yeah, I don't know. There's like some crazy timeline of when Diana and Mike were in Nashville at the same time and then nine months later her son was born and she named him mike so yeah that's kind of our latest that's like our 2026 cold play uh hr lady cold play cheating scandal bullshit kevin goldschmidt is diana rossini's husband i guess he's an executive at shake shack they got married in 2020 so they have two sons they're newly married ish six years um

Goldschmidt currently works as the vice president of total rewards at HR technology at Shake Shack okay cool Swalwell scandal Eric Swalwell that's also happening you guys I don't really know I just hear stuff and I'm like

I just don't give a fuck it's always a man putting his dickeration in it okay it's like a former so there's like sexual assault and rape allegations so who is he he is um a representative in california california rep is that what he is he resigned obviously and as of april 2026 multiple women have come forward with various accusations against the

former congressman a former staffer alleged she was raped and sorry i don't think like you know people go r-worded i don't know what i can say i'm not monetized on youtube so like i don't really think it i don't know she was r-worded by swalwell twice i'm not laughing at that but including once in a new york hotel room in 2024 while she was too intoxicated to consent a model publicly alleged lana drews that swalwell drug choked and raped her at the Montrose West Hollywood Hotel in July 2018 she stated she was incapacitated and after one glass of wine lost consciousness during the assault other sexual harassment allegations so Swalwell

that happened I don't really you guys we're about to jump off the cliff soon stay with me we're still going um secret series episode one like this is the episode but like the segment you're probably tuning in for is just around the corner so zoe kravitz and harry styles are engaged after eight months of dating she is i was curious like how old what's the age gap she's 37 he's 32 and if you remember if you're like an og one direction harry styles fangirl like myself he was always seen with older women and specifically there's this woman and i i forgot that she's now that she passed away like really like hit me like like a bus when i remember that because that was such a time like

her name's carolyn flack and she was a i think an entertainment reporter in the uk and long story short um she passed away in 2020 by suicide which is crazy and they had been rumored to be dating harry styles and her and she was much much older and so as a young like what was i 17 16 year old hearing about this old woman taking this young hot man that i was like in love with i was just obsessed with harry styles in one direction it was it pissed me off i was like no like no but now he went older with zoe kravitz and they've been together for eight months i heard that he has baby fever or something and like he's like wanting children and they're cute together nothing nothing no I have I feel nothing honestly happy for them but like as a former fangirl like I feel

nothing other than just happy for them um I've said this before and I'll say it again like he just fucking glowed down as he got older in my eyes like and I don't think his album did very well you don't really hear about it I don't really maybe it's just not my algorithm like like i'm not hearing the songs they're not crossing my path like i think what was it called like disco occasionally kiss a lot kiss all the time dan disco occasionally that was literally the title of his album i don't know how well it did he just aged in a not the way i i guess expected I just think of like George Clooney or like Brad like people that just get better and they're notorious for like as they age they just it's like you kind of age like milk and you know

what it is you guys it's the fucking facial hair he needs to lose it he's got this like stubble situation going and this like spiky short hair Harry Styles I just don't like the mustache it just doesn't, I don't know, for me, I know Zoe's into it. I know she's riding the shit out of that because I know he's into that type of. What the fuck am I saying? Whoa, we just went there. I know, I know that man eats pussy, eats pussy. Like he, that's his preference. His preference is like, just he loves, you just look at his mouth and you just, it's like, it's the mouth of a man who loves eating pussy. Okay. I've always thought that. Um, so yeah, that's probably why he's keeping

the stash. I don't know. Like I don't really, we're not going to go there. Um, but it's kind of like a pube stash. Like it's not like a good, like the facial hair just isn't the stubble stubbliness of it. I don't think it flatters him. I think he looks better clean shaved. um god when he had like the long hair i know it was crazy but like even that was just better than like whatever this is i don't know he's also kind of a quiet kept to himself celebrity maybe i expected him to be more more of like a showman like i know he tours and he does his thing but like more of like a a man about town and like not just getting a coffee with zoe in new york every morning of the week getting paparazzi like that's like the content i get now it's like

i don't know he's he's eccentric he's a he's a quirky guy um yeah so yeah they're happy for them they're engaged life or not life update news update um speaking of eating puss how many hours are we into this episode Ray J makes outrageous claim he slept with over 12,500 women who's the guy the basketball player that slept with 20,000 I googled him last night hold on um no what's his name hold on there's someone who slept with 20 000 women tuesday evening will chamberlain so he famously claimed in his 1991 book a view from above that

he slept with 20 000 women in his lifetime um this figure averaging roughly 1.3 to 1.4 women per day from age 15 until the book's release is widely considered a massive exaggeration likely intended to be a hyperbolic statement about his active sex life rather than an accurate count um so he was a basketball player of course he was uh yeah um harlan globetrotters what is this philly um philly yeah so ray j the thing about these men that say these numbers it's like at this point i mean are they keeping a spreadsheet how do you just come up with do you just average in your head like yeah out of 365 days a year i've probably fuck 300 girls multiply that by

x amount of years they probably banged more than that so anyways he was on cam newton's podcast um cam newton man he he's a hot piece of ass right like let me look up a picture hold on he's former uh i don't think he plays football anymore does he he just does like podcasting is he on the um he's for a former professional football quarterback he played yeah he played for the panthers and then he played for the patriots right he kind of flopped like he he had a glow down a football glow down like i feel like he wasn't he was is he hot wait he wears like a smoky the bear hat or he wears that no who's the who am i thinking of he wears a

have um not Phil Collins who's the music guy that wears the top hat Pharrell he wears a hat like Pharrell um anyways Ray J was on his podcast and this is the conversation they had about body count and we're gonna play the whole thing because I haven't watch this yet, but this is when he tells, tells the class that he slept with 12,500 women when cam asked them, ask, asks him about it. Um, again, like the spreadsheet, like how did, at what point are you like tracking this? Like, is it just a mental note? Um, yeah. I texted Corey last night. He beat me, he beat me, beat me. He beat me, beat me by one. I'd be in a wheelchair, by the way. I wouldn't be like, I'd be, yeah. If that was the case, I would be definitely in a wheelchair.

if that was how many yeah the thing is about body count is that it doesn't matter for women it are we gonna have this conversation do I know my body count yes that's all I'm gonna say and I think that's a good thing I think it's good that Ray J knows that knows his body count you know, is it ideal that, or is it, is it not great that it's 12,500 women? Yeah. But like, at least he's, at least he's keeping track, you know, we got to give him that. Okay. Like let's listen to this interview. You went on a podcast recently stating that you have slept with 11,500 women. I did a booby trap party when I reached 10,000.

What? Yeah. So we did a celebration, booby trap, celebrated my 10,000. I had about 400 or 500 girls that I fucked with came through, supported. It was a massive parade. You're talking about different partners. 10,000. I think, yeah, a little bit more now.

Different partners. What you mean? Like, this could go for how many times you've had sex. No, no, no. These are 10,000 different people. You said 11. It's at like 12, 5 now. But I wanted it to get to like 11, so I was guaranteed 10.

Okay. I didn't want to be at 9,000, and I wanted to be at 11. Then I said, okay, we went to 10. Okay. Just wanted to make sure I was over it. Do you know what the average is? with the average what like you're 45 no okay i can only fuck a thousand more bitches i can't do anymore so cross average of of of the volume of different sex partners do you know what

that is what do you mean like i understand the math and the skill okay so that's sleeping with a little over one and a half women honestly rage is a funny fuck like i listened to a little more this interview and he's kind of a he's a he's a little he's a little funny fucker like he's got a he's got that like little funny fucker shithead vibe about him and i kind of like it a day for 30 years yeah the math is different because when we're on tour we're thinking five to ten a day A day, bro. A day, so you're scaling it. These niggas got way more bodies than me.

I got, first off, some of my friends. Some of my homegirls, they fuck 45,000 niggas a year. Okay. All right, bro, I'm not capping. Some of your homegirls. They at least fuck, yeah, 45,000 a year. No, like, maybe. 45,000?

It's only 365 days in a year What kind of bender do they got to go on To make that math make sense Rotholds and stuff like that Wait, wait, wait I actually borrowed them, you know Let's do that math Hold on

That math is 365 45,000 That is 120 that is a hundred and twenty three point two men a day okay hey bonnie blue can do it so i you know i guess it is possible she does a thousand in a day But what else does he say?

I don't know how much longer this conversation goes. Let's keep listening. But I don't think that's what's your body count? 20,000? No. 10,000 for sure? No. Bro, there's no way.

All the football games, everything. You know you was running through for sure 10 after every game. No, bro. That's not fair. That's too much energy, bro. For you, it's nothing. No. No.

So, what, you got 5,000? I got 5,000. Six. Not six. Four. We like... Four. No.

You for sure four. I don't even crack 1,000, bro. All right. We're not being honest. 1,000? Just think about this. 1,000 women. Right?

Mm-hmm. 365. 365. 365, 365, yeah, like think if you're like 19, 365, 1,000, 300. Bro, I wouldn't, bro, I wouldn't. So you're doing 1,365, right? You're 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30. I'm 45.

Five is 1,800, 1,825,000 women. That's two, that's five years? No, no, heck no. So where are you? 4,000? No, bro. Cam, like, I want you to continue to be a role model, but you said you was a savage.

Bro, let me tell you something. That's not my vibe. Okay. If I'm giving you a rough answer, it doesn't even scratch a thousand. Got it. Just being honest. Okay.

And I'm flying. Right now, in the air. How you gonna put bodies on me, bro? I never want to put a body on you. I just want transparency in this I'm giving you transparency You mad that I ain't hitting hoes like that bro Look

Women First off you hit one You hit one of the family that you wanted to hit That we was talking about you already had 20,000 I never hit that I know but once you do you already had 20,000 bodies off one twat How you get into your number though Because now how you get into your number is

One 20,000 bodies I can't believe this conversation I'm getting my number is two different ways so the girls that just doing 45,000 bodies right if you fuck one of them you're at 45,000 bodies

oh so you're talking about having unprotected sex with people who are actively having sex and you're taking on those members so that's what you That doesn't count for me. I'm one by one.

I'm talking about you. I'm one by one. I'm 10,000, 12,000, one person at a time. And shout out to Will Chamberlain. He's at like 25,000. That's a lot, bro. Will Chamberlain has a world record. Like I said, 1,000 is the only, is all I can do left in my world.

Oh, my God. i unbelievable i i think he's gotta be exaggerating because that's just he thinks cam noon's gonna bang 10 girls after a game like that's just like and like how does that work is that just a are you just that's just an orgy situation like at the hotel like what the fuck and that's just like a normal thing like rage is like yeah 10 girls in the room and cam's like it's too much energy yeah i'd be so fucking tired from my game i'd be going to bed see how that happened okay theo vaughn i mentioned we're gonna talk about

we have a new then we have a story um a new citizen of the sky we're gonna cover and then we'll jump off the cliff this is a long episode i kind of like this though because i'm not gonna do those ai time stamp things where you can just scroll to see the topic of the jumping off the cliff secret series episode one segment like you have to actually like listen to find it so I'm like really stretching this out okay so Theo Vaughn I'm a little worried because I see myself in Theo he deeply he's deeply introspective he he uh he like cares a lot um he's a solo podcaster he interviews people now I feel like is he ever so i don't listen all the all the time but i saw this clip of him kind of like

not i don't want to say crashing out but just like getting deep let's just play this and then i'll say what i have to say i never thought i would be saying some of this stuff but i'm glad that i am because i just i'm ready for a new story i'm ready for a new story and i'm ready for like yeah and the scary part is i don't i like is who will i be if i let go of these things that i've always done and known some of these behaviors if i even can let go of some of them and and i know i'm not going to get anything right or whatever not there's no like it's just like oh i don't know, man. I don't even know what I'm saying. I'm kind of tired. Um, what, what can I, what

can I suggest? Do you think travelers offer some thought? Do you have any thought about any of this? I think it's, it's really hard. And I think praying is a great first step if you don't know where to go or how to break a cycle. Yeah. Yeah. That, that, that, that's it. I just like, yeah, I just started like, that's, that's something that's helped me is I just started praying but I started praying like like as honestly as I could okay let me just start this

saying some of this stuff but I'm glad that I am because I just I'm ready for a new story he's ready for a new story okay so I watched that and I've seen some clips of him like when he

I think the last time he was on Joe Rogan's podcast I was listening to it he seems to be like he kind of a consistent theme is he's got internal struggles, demons, or I want to say like demons, but like he's got internal stuff that like fucks him up a little bit, you know? And it, he talks about it and he's really, that's

the thing I love about him. He's very honest and vulnerable and all of that. And it reminded me like just watching this clip, cause I don't do it. I barely do it on the show anymore. And it honestly naturally kind of happened because what happened with my show is that I started out by vomiting vomit really enunciated the tea like just barfing out all of my inner world problems and I would dissect every inner thought and the meaning of why do I think this? And why am I, why am I the way I am? And what stories am I telling myself that are limiting beliefs? And I would do all that therapy stuff and I would go in so deep and my tangents would be so long and I would, but, but what I realized, what I realized and I had, there was

an epiphany. I forgot how man, it was like the epiphany of this podcast that happened. It was like month six, um, without exactly getting the epiphany, right. Cause I can't recall it. Maybe it'll come to me. It was kind of like a realization that I'm, I think too much about myself and my issue was depression, right? Like that's what I was overcoming at that time. And I was crawling out of a hole and it was during the pandemic. It was really dark and horrible. And I, I had to like rebuild my self-esteem and my identity and like I just but it was all it was a process right but I kind of realized like I'm thinking too much about myself I'm I'm going it's like just fucking accept yourself and move on like you don't need

to psychoanalyze and overthink and go deep about yourself every single waking hour of the day and spiral. And that's what I was doing. I was allowing the thought to just spiral and spiral and spiral. And I find like watching Theo Vaughn, it's like, Hey man, like you're okay. Like you're perfect. Like you're okay. Nothing is wrong with you. I know you've got stuff you want to overcome. And like, you want to tell yourself a new story, which I think is great. I'm very pro rewrite your story. Like don't keep telling yourself the same story about your life and yourself forever like it's not facts it's based off of experiences that you gave stories and meaning to that are made up in your head like it's not real like it's it feels real but if you keep

telling yourself those stories for too long it calcifies in your brain and then you identify with those stories and that becomes who you are and that's what you live your entire life being and it's like you don't you can cut that shit off and you can rewrite that and you can change the trajectory of your life by doing that. And I'm a big advocate of doing that. I rewrite my story all the time. I catch myself slipping. I'm like, why am I spiraling in my head again about this stupid thing I don't like about myself or this thing I want to change? It's like, no, no, shut the fuck up. You're fine. Like that doesn't, that's not helpful. Um, I think it's good to be self-aware. I think it's good to address things about your personality that suck and that you

need to work on that you don't like about yourself that have come up in relationships where people are up again they're coming up against the same issue with you all the time and it's causing strains in your relationship and that's something that like definitely needs to be worked on I'm very like do that but when Theo's getting emo all the time in these podcasts and he's making comments like this I don't know what his stuff is I think he struggled with addiction in the past I used to listen to to his podcast a lot like back in the day like I was listening to a lot of um but it's like man you got to get off the therapy train at some point like you can't keep talking about it like you gotta I feel like you just have to fucking get

off the therapy train if you're a podcast host who talks a lot about yourself and your demons and your struggles like you're just kind of manifest or re, um, you're keeping it alive. And when you stop talking about it, like it's not that it does, it's not like you're sweeping under the rug and you're not addressing it. It's that you're like, you're not allowing your brain to constantly go there. There's a time and a place, But like, if you're constantly going there in your brain and you're talking about it, you're deep diving into it and you're telling stories about it and you're podcasting about it. I don't think that's useful. So.

Just do what I did. I just fucking woke up and started telling myself I'm the shit and there's nothing wrong with me. Not in a not in like a there's literally nothing wrong with me way. But I was like, wait a minute. I'm making up these stories about in my head about myself that are all based on bullshit like bullying and past life stuff where I had insecurities because of stupid shit like other people around me that I was jealous of or that yeah bullied me or stuff that happened in my household growing up my childhood stuff like um that doesn't need to exist today I don't need to

keep telling myself that story about myself today like I can just wake up and be like today you're the shit. Nothing's wrong with you. You're great. You're perfect. Seize the day and move on. And honestly, that's what medication helped me with the most. Like when I finally got on medication at first, like that was a big epiphany. I was like, wait, this is helping me not spiral. Um, I don't know if Theo's medicated. I don't know if he's anti that. I don't know what RFK has been telling him or whoever is it telling him. I don't know. I feel like he's kind of into that like holistic-y wellness bro whatever stuff ways to well whatever Rogan's got um but yeah you realize like wait I'm not thinking about myself all day long anymore I'm not

spiraling into a hole anymore I'm just it doesn't those thoughts don't really consume my life and so I have no idea what the context of this conversation was by the way I just saw this clip. And I was like, you know, I relate to that. I used to do a lot of that. Man, those stories he's saying he wants to like let go of. I think that's great. It's good to embrace change, let go, write a new story. I think that's a great step. Yeah, because otherwise those stories become self-fulfilling. And that is, I swear to God, like this is, again, a lot of what I do is a direct reflection or it's a reaction. Like, okay, I witnessed something from other people in my life and I'm like, oh no, I can see this is like a limiting thing for them. This holds them

back in their life. Like, ooh, like this is a pattern, right? And a lot of what I'm seeing with other people that drain me in some ways not all the time but like parts of them are very draining to be around it's because they've been telling themselves the same story about themselves and they tell that story to other people about themselves for my like the entire relationship the entire time I've known them it's like the same story and that is their life and that became self-fulfilling for them they identify with that and now that that is their life they haven't broken free from that story they've never rewritten that story they've never asked questions about that story and if that story is even necessary or useful like not to be Elon Musk about it but

sometimes he says stuff and I'm like that's actually so true like it's so the way he says it is like so simple, but it's like, yeah, that's true. Like, is this useful? Like you can break things down in life to like, is this like zoom out? I'm a big, big advocate. Also like proponent of like zoom out of yourself, like zoom out. Like if this is my little whale here, like this is me like zoom out. You were, I'm the whale. Don't be in your head. Like zoom out of your body. Have like a fly on the wall view of yourself zoom out and just like ask yourself is that useful like what's the point of telling yourself a negative sad sappy story that is rooted in it's it's shaped by your past

it's not facts like it happened you think it's a fact because it happened these the story of your life, the story of you, right? Like you think it's, but think about like, go, I know this is like, maybe we're getting too deep and I don't really do this as much anymore, but you made it up in your head. So you can make up other stories in your head and you can re write the story to be positive like for example if your story is your um fat ugly and broke I don't know like I'm trying to think of something and that's the story you think of yourself and every day you wake up and you're like I'm fat ugly and broke and I'm a loser like you can go I'm skinny I'm rich I'm beautiful and I'm great. Like you can, you know, it's all that, it's that manifestation stuff.

It's that affirmation. That's what I mean. Affirmation stuff. You have to affirm new stories, like new thoughts about yourself. Um, but again, if you're not, if you don't have that introspective gene thing, like a Theo or a me, or a lot of these other great podcasts, Yeah, I'm calling myself a great podcast host. If you don't have that, you're going to be at a disadvantage because you're not, you probably lack self-awareness. You're probably not into like developing and evolving as a person in a healthy direction. You're probably just like going through the motions of life, telling yourself that same story, never poking at it, never asking questions about it, never being curious about yourself. Why you tell yourself that like the bullshit you don't like get in the weeds of it. You just kind of, again, like live day in and day out. And without even realizing this is the this is the kicker, you probably don't even realize you do it.

That's just your normal life. That's just normal for you. That's just how you feel about yourself. but the thing is you don't feel good when you about yourself when you say that story it makes you feel like shit so stop telling it like tell a new story is that is that stupid um there's actually this reddit thread i was looking up um yeah i follow the emotional intelligence reddit of course i fucking do um the question was why why the story or the the topic was why the story you tell yourself might be holding you back and does

it really matter and someone wrote something interesting if everyday people tell you that you're worthless and a loser and that's all you'll ever be does that not wear on a person's psyche and morale no matter how much you try to grow and evolve and no matter no matter your personal successes in those endeavors the narrative from the people in your environment never changes wrong environment nope so wait yeah so the narrative from the people in your environment never changes they still think that about you and that's what they keep telling you even though you might be successful even though you might have done something great with your life and persevered and yeah they still tell you

so wrong environment nope right where I'm supposed to be right now so that's so what's with the crabs in my bucket? Okay. This is Reddit. I don't know what this, this is a little quirky here. Yeah. It's, this is the kicker. And this is hard to remember when you're in your head about us of, uh, in your head about a story about yourself, Jesus and the episode and it, Hey, we're getting too deep. We're not off the cliff yet, but we might as well be perhaps they themselves are unsatisfied with what they've become and don't like what they see in the mirror so they take it out on you projection everyone fucking does this the person trying and succeeding so they take it out on you the person trying and succeeding to improve

themselves beyond what their detractors could accomplish for themselves is this a me problem fuck no it's a you problem i am self-aware i recognize my faults and i'm alone and the only person who can help myself I'm working to better myself and just because you aren't doesn't make me a worthless loser in perpetuity perpetuity it makes you one word yeah like that's the whole thing it's like you have to again it's not facts like a lot of the story you tell yourself is based off of shit other people have told you about yourself and then you and this is I'm speaking from experience then you like for me that's what killed my self-esteem as a kid and as a like teenager and I was like the bullying didn't help and like the stuff at home and all this shit

like made me actually feel like I sucked and I was a loser and like this makes when I tell Corey this he's like like he gets so upset about he's like I can't believe you like legitimately hated yourself and thought you were a loser like how could you like he sees me as perfect right how could you go that that long and those that many years like feeling that insecurity and like how and I'm like I internalized what other people said about me because it it was a long time of hearing it where I actually I didn't know how to be like fuck you like I'm confident I love myself Like I didn't learn that until I was like 25. Actually, I learned it when I had a, when, after I moved to San Diego and I was with

this asshole, the man who like I lived with and it was like a shit show and I've told the story and it's like crazy. Um, I got my self-esteem stripped even more at a really crazy time when I'm like supposed to be moving to a new city and flourishing that was all stripped. And so like literally after I left that situation, it was like brick by brick. And I think I was what, 23, 24. so yeah mid-20s then I learned how to love myself then I learned how to build confidence and actually like but it took a long time I wish I learned that when I was five you know I wish that

was something I just and it's kind of crazy like no matter how much my parents would hype me up and tell me I was great I didn't feel it I didn't like viscerally think it and feel it I always was Like, and I was always embarrassed by my, like certain things with my family. And I was like comparing myself to my friends as families. And, and I was like, grass is always green. I was like so young thinking this. And then I felt like an outcast, like, cause my, they would have like their perfect little family and their perfect little neighborhood and their perfect little this and that. and I just felt like I couldn't relate to it like I couldn't I wanted to be with I wanted to be

friends with that and be around that and like be in that but I felt like embarrassed and like I was another like I couldn't and I think that energy is palpable when you're around someone like me as a kid like other kids feel that and I think that's something I also learned like no shit you had struggles making friends like you brought that energy to school like you brought that exuded off of you that wasn't your fault like none of the shit was your fault but anyways rewrite your story don't get too deep it's not useful it's useful to a certain point but if you keep milking that cow or beating that horse whatever the you keep slapping that pig's ass what are the the phrases I'm thinking of um

like like I think Theo recently I've noticed he's done that I'm like you gotta at some point like kick it kick the fucking shit down the road and move on and just like I think that's what he's saying in this video though he's like I want to break free from these stories but it's scary because these are things for my these are the things that I have in my past that I whatever he said like I still identify with and hold on to it's like but it's scary to break free from that and I think it's yeah sure scary but it's like man when you get to the other side it's liberating because you don't hate yourself anymore you're not struggling or whatever his situation is in my case it was like i don't have fucking struggles like i used to like the big ones like the

inner world struggles like that is so important you know so all right there's a new citizen of the sky and it's not this asteroid apophis coming at us in 2029 deleting a bunch of tabs because i'm confused on where i'm at on these stories is this a three-hour podcast god damn it okay so let me pull this up don't play don't want this audio to play because it's tiktok first tiktok is like that just popped up i'm gonna play the one i saved um it's like boomers are a disgusting generation and they need to be fixed fuck okay so this is the this is like a news thing um

i'll play it's like a abc video of some a new citizen of the sky watch it here it's a recent delta airlines flight gained an unexpected passenger when a woman suddenly went into labor mid-flight. The baby has been delivered on the aircraft so they're going to be coming in with the baby delivered. The plane from Atlanta was preparing to land in Portland, Oregon when crew members along with a doctor and two nurses on board stepped in to help deliver a baby girl at cruising altitude. The plane was met by emergency crews on the ground where both mother and newborn were reported to be in stable condition. Delta says it does not restrict pregnant passengers from flying, but recommends consulting a doctor before travel in later stages

of pregnancy. The airline also says its flight crew receives comprehensive medical training to assist in situations like this. Delta saying we extend our sincere thanks to the crew and medical volunteers on board who stepped in to provide care to a customer on board prior to landing in Portland adding we wish okay so baby was born on a flight and um a delta flight and I was curious I was like how many babies are born on planes because like that's crazy um what did that shit smell like like I'm thinking of so many things like this is a crazy headline um and wait do I have another headline here or no so I think it was a cryptic pregnancy which is crazy when you don't know you're pregnant like you don't show and like I don't know how that's even possible

um I yeah I want to say it was a cryptic pregnancy and she didn't know which is so insane um I'm reading some quotes here from passengers and whatnot so um Tina Fritz and Karen Powell are two Oregon EMTs who delivered the baby their friends who were there their friends who were returning from vacation together when Ashley a fellow passenger who they didn't know suddenly went into labor in their flight it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience actually Fritz told koin6 i think this is out of portland it all began when an announcement over the intercom by a flight attendant asked for any personnel on board uh on board the plane to ring their service bell then the steward came up to us and he goes hey we have a lady up front who thinks

she's going into labor contractions are about three minutes apart can you guys check her out they went up the aisle and immediately knew the baby was coming sooner rather than later i asked an ob kit which they did not or i asked for an ob kit which they did not have i asked for blankets which they did not have so i was like okay we need to get blankets from passengers fuck i need some shoestrings wow so the flight attendant took a shoestring out cut it for us Fritz said they had to improvise with what they could borrow using the shoestring as a tourniquet to start an IV on the patient shut the fuck up oh my god she's like I gotta push I gotta push and within three really good pushes the baby was out and doing perfect three pushes this is a

miracle mom was like a rock star like mom did so good Fritz said I cut the cord and wrapped her up and they're like the plane is touching down so Corinne so Corinne grabbed the seat and I grabbed the seat we didn't get anything buckled and we just landed then we gave the baby back to mom we taxied into the whole plane cheered for mom it was great holy fuck there was like an older dude like I don't know probably like in his like 40s 50s probably like his 50s sitting kind of like in front of the seat and I was like I wonder he's like don't look back don't look back like it's crazy so I was looking up um how many births happen on planes every year like how frequent so there are 3.6 to 3.7 million births per year in

the U.S. some airlines um or no fewer than 10 births per year happen on planes so yeah because you're not supposed to fly after i think 36 weeks so like when you're later in your pregnancy so it doesn't happen very often less than 10 a year um some airlines oh yeah this is of course this happens some airlines used to give free flights for life but most stopped because people would literally try to game it yeah of course like that's insane um citizenship can depend on where the plane is registered airspace or parents nationality yeah so that baby that's the latest I just thought it was a fun um a fun headline to end the episode actually we need to jump off the cliff what's crazy what's crazy when I was reading this um baby delivered on delta flight article is

that I realized something and it's so crazy like I was reading this article I was like what does this remind me of and I'm like wait this shit's reminding me that I'm 14 weeks pregnant huh what Yeah. Or should we do like. I'm 14 weeks this article reminded me that I'm 14 weeks pregnant question mark

what's the vibe like what's the vibe a real dad a real husband a real man a real mom a real wife and a real woman i'm 14 weeks pregnant there we jumped off the clip secret series episode one cat's out of the bag I don't know how to do this without just fucking saying it. Yeah, so hi. That's what you tune in for. I put on the sunglasses because I'm actually, I literally have butterflies and I'm nervous.

Typically, the couple posts the Instagram post. They do the baby bump photo and it's like, we're pregnant and they come out as a couple together and they're like, we fucked and now we're pregnant. baby coming in the fall or whatever the fuck they say like not that we're not gonna do that I just wanted to because my relationship with social media is this it's I am so close to you here and then everywhere else I feel like people just I can't like monitor my life that don't know me I feel like yeah a lot of friends and family follow me they already know the friends and family

that all the most important people in my life know. So they are, they already know Instagram's not going to know for a long time. I don't know when they're going to know this is not going to be a Tik TOK series. I'm not, I'm not going to do the mommy like pregnancy blogger thing. Um, were there signs? Hi, were there signs? Was this an obvious thing? i don't know um i mentioned getting abs earlier in the episode might have thrown you off there because i in fact will not be having a six-pack this summer it's gonna be fat bitch summer but fat bitch with toned a tone it's gonna be a hard round stomach with a nice i'm like i'm trying to get those lines in my bump. I want to get those obliques cranking. Cause I want to, I want to

have, I am, am I toxic about my pregnancy weight gain so far? And like what my goals are when it comes to my fitness during pregnancy? Like who, I don't, I honestly, I frankly don't care because like at the end of the day, like working out and being extremely healthy right now is the best thing for me and my future child. So like, um, yeah, I'm trying to be extremely fit and like conscientious of my core because I don't want my apps to like go to shit and split apart, which is horrible. So yeah. Was this obvious? Did I throw you off? But again, you're getting the inside scoop right now. This is insider information. This is by the way, my DMS are open. You can, you can talk to me there. If you want to say anything,

If you want to give me a little wink emoji, like I know that I know the, the secret I listened to the episode, like send me a DM. Okay. We do not comment on like a past post. Don't share a story of me of like, or whatever on your public, like, come on, like, let's all be adults here. Let's be mature. Um, have some respect. Okay. At this time, I'd like to, I'd like this to be a safe space where I feel like you know it's gonna happen soon like eventually everyone's gonna know and it's gonna be fine but like I just wanted to do it publicly here first um because it's I think it's a special like like we can have the secret and only you and I can have it and it's kind of fun that way um and I really want to like document it without turning my social media into mommy

content and like week 14 of my pregnancy symptoms. And like, this is what I'm eating this week as a mom, a future mom. And like, this is my workouts for pregnancy. And like, I'm not making content around it. I'm de-centering in the motherfucking shit or I'm de-centering that type of content. Uh, every, everywhere else except here. Okay. And that is the boundary I'm setting because there was a day I was so sick you guys I was so sick and I'm just gonna be honest like I was so sick for weeks I was so sick for weeks it was my I'm not I'm out of the first trimester I'm fucking fine now but and I was so angry for no reason like I was just so fucking pissed off and I I got so mad and I just started yelling like not yelling but it was the type of thing

where Corey I was like oh my god I can just really be myself and I can say whatever is on my mind to him in any state like I'm sick and I'm nauseous and I'm angry and I'm just like pissed off and I was going off about mommy culture I was I was like these fucking moms and their frumpy fucking lives they fucking let themselves go to shit and all they talk about is the chaos and the I don't have time for me and mama needs a coffee and I was just like fuck all this shit and I fucking don't want anything to do with it I can't relate to it I'm I'm like what the fuck is this shit they all look like I just was so like and I know it's like that's so women hating of me because like give them a break they're like busier now they have a kid but I hate the culture of it right and I've

never related to it and that's something I've talked about on the podcast here like I I made like I've made episodes like about having kids before and like my thoughts around motherhood and like the identity of motherhood and combining that with like where I'm at now and like bridging that gap someday when I become a mom. And, um, I've been extremely honest about it. Like, it's just, there's like a lane that's cute, but like not a lot of women make content that are like the people I vibe with the mom group, like the mom, mommy people I vibe with never make a complaint about their kid online publicly. They're not posting their kids for content. They're rarely posting their kid they're not they're not like making their entire portfolio online about their

child they've maintained a sense of like who they were before they've maintained the same content um I don't I'm not but I'm not trying to be like you can't switch it up and because of course it's an incredible life change it's beautiful it's all you think about it's all consuming of course like that is true and that is wonderful and of course you can do that I just think the people I relate to because they probably have the same thing as me where I'm like I want some things in my life to be private just because I become a mom like doesn't mean that has to be what I lead with and like serve on a platter to people every day like that doesn't feel right to me and doesn't need to be any deeper than that like

cool. Like I can just say that and move on with my life. But, um, I was so pit, like I was having like a rage about it. I was like, I was so angry. Cause I, I'm like, they just, I just don't like, I just don't like it. It's just like, cause what do we value on this podcast? Being hot. Okay. Looks maxing even while you're fucking pregnant all right keeping that shit tight keeping it together putting your best foot forward even when you're puking in your toilet after you ate one piece of grapefruit on a fucking Tuesday morning like I did and that's the first time I puked and I was like great here we are we're nauseous we're puking we're pregnant and life is but am I posting that am I making content of me

vomiting in the toilet like some of these other mommy bloggers like no I'm not sharing that side in my life because it's just not that's not what we value here like they they value that like rough and tough like raw side and honest to god like i'm being so raunchy and hot headed right now about this but to be to be loving and kind and sweet sorry it's the hormones like you probably like what the fuck bitch like that's rude like sorry everything I'm pregnant it's the horn give me a pass um no in all seriousness like their content is giving me life right now okay in all honesty so like I consume it I'm not making it that's like the end of the story like totally understand that world and those people and like get it don't really relate to it but

like I will I do I will relate to it like I do right now like people that make pregnancy content like I relate because I am pregnant I'm just like them but like um yeah making like me doing the posting of it I just can't that's not for me but the videos of like every week I can search where where other people are at their symptoms things that are weird or whatever like you can always look it up and someone made a video about it so I appreciate the mommy bloggers and the people making content you're probably wondering a lot of things you're probably like hey how are you doing how are you feeling like how's your life like what the fuck was this planned what's the gender do you have a name uh this is so on brand of me by the way to do this type of thing

like going about it this way is so me and that's why I feel good about this because I'm like this is the way I yeah like it's the way I work okay this feels safe this podcast feels safe even though I have no idea who the fuck's listening I cannot see that um which is so weird like doesn't make sense that I think it feels safe yet strangers listen and I have no idea who you are unless you like tell me and dm me which please like sure um I love telling people I'm pregnant. Okay. This is the thing. I'm like, okay. Once I, once I was like in the clear and everything's good, I just love, like I told my spin class instructor today and I was like, by the way, it's my hundredth ride and it's my future, not saying the gender, um, their 10th

ride. I've been writing for two this whole time. Yeah. Yeah. I'm just, you know, spinning along with a, a future spin class, super, super, uh, super stud, super stud at. So that was cool. I just like telling people I can't help myself. It's so exciting. And I love when people are like, how are you feeling? You look so great. Like, I just love the attention. Like one thing I realized is like, I know why women have 10 kids. It's because they love the attention of being pregnant, pregnant and the vibe is so different than like getting married and planning a wedding it's so like because that's like stressful and it's like oh my god we got to get a venue and we got to get the flowers and we got to get the dress and it's like everything's like crazy expensive and then

you're pregnant and everyone's just like like bliss and happiness and oh like like they're just so like the word is joy and bliss like every day you're just so giddy people around you are giddy um they really check in on you like that's a thing too like people are really like concerned for my well-being and like how am I feeling and like which I don't mind I think at first when I was sick I was like I don't want to be contacted and like people didn't know so that was also a weird thing it's almost like you I wanted to tell people or that would have been nice for my mom to know, like when I was super early, when I was sick, because it's like, Hey, like when you're feeling shit, it's like, you just feel like shit. You just want your mom. You know, you just want

your mommy. Sometimes new moms need their mommies. Like it's true. Like you never, you always need your mom. Um, so it would have been nice, but like, it was all good. Um, but yeah, how am I feeling? I feel better than ever. I feel you guys, I feel so fit, so healthy, so energized. Like I'm sleeping amazing I'm the only thing that's like the issue right now is my hunger levels like I just have to eat more than I used to more frequently like I cannot skip meals if I skip it like when I was at this boat show I didn't talk about it because I wasn't going to share this until the end when I was at this boat show the other weekend there's a point where if I feel hungry even like two percent hungry I have five minutes or else my stomach will literally eat

itself. And I was by, it was so, and I get like hangry. Okay. So we were with court. I was with Corey and his, his work buddy who like knows all about boats and fishing. And it was like really cool. He was like giving us a tour and it was really fun. And we saw the seals and it was, it was so cute. Okay. Um, but there's a point where I got hungry and we're in this hot parking lot where there's food trucks and tents with different, it was like a fair setup. Okay. and Corey's like oh let's just run and grab let's get something right and there's like lines of people by the by these food trucks and I'm like everything's fried the pavement's hot I'm hot I'm looking at like disgusting fried like chicken and and oh there's a barbecue truck and then

burgers and it was like euros and it's just I'm looking at people eating it and I'm getting like nauseous just from this and I'm like this does not feel like nothing about this is feeling right I'm so hungry right now. I'm getting grossed out to the point where I feel like I'm going to puke. Like I need to leave. Like, this is not the vibe. Like the, like, I'm so sensitive to like what the food vibe is. Like if it doesn't hit, if it doesn't hit for me as a pregnant lady, like I'm not eating it. Like, we're not just going to get a hot dog because it's right here and it's quick. No. So I was like, okay, we're going to go over to this fish market, stand in a 200 person line. Cause it's a really popular fish market and, um, air conditioned, which was nice. I did enjoy that.

so I was willing to stand in a longer line and wait longer for food, even though I was so hungry. Um, and then we got, then I got a fried fish sandwich. Um, yeah, the hunger is a thing. So like, what are the symptoms? Like, okay. I was really sick at first. Hunger is a new thing. I like, don't have a bump. Like I was bloated at first and now I just like, don't have a, it's like I have abs for actually abs. Um, the baby is healthy. You guys are probably wondering, I said the gender, oops, we have to like delete that part. Um, baby is healthy. It's very exciting. Again, I'll tease this. We'll get to the gender on episode. What episode will I do a gender reveal for you guys on this series?

I'll do the gender reveal like maybe as like the fourth episode because here's the thing I bet by like because I'll keep talking about I'm not gonna do so we're gonna do this segment like I am with child segment secret series episode two episode three episode four it'll be a segment I'll also cover other stuff like just normal podcast stuff but this will exist as a series if that makes sense I know it's kind of like probably annoying you'll have to skip to this part if you're just curious about this pregnancy journey um but I'll do like I don't know how many episodes until we like actually did I'm like we're gonna do a photo shoot and like we're gonna have like the do the cute bump pictures and all that fun stuff but I'm like something about Instagram I

feel so like y'all it's like when we got engaged we did the engagement photos we got married we do the marriage photos and then like the next photo is like hey I'm pregnant you know it's like you do that and it's like we haven't done that yet I just feel like it's too early I kind of am over it I'm like let's just drop let's just drop that we had a kid like let's not even show anything else but only show like a foot like I'm not showing that face like we're not showing the face um we're not going to be like here's our trophy or like like a fish like we're not those people um so I don't know what's going to happen but like that was my intention like do this secret series until we do the public Instagram drop which I kind of think it's so me like it's so me

I'm really girly over on Instagram like I don't feel like I feel like the way I've handled this segment and this jump jumping off a cliff and telling you that I'm pregnant pregnant segment is like so tomboy like so like like I'm not very girly pop like girly feminine oh my god like I'm not like I feel like I should be wearing like a cute dress and like I should be like sweeter sweetie pie like I'm just like so like in bliss and like I should be sweeter like I don't know I'm more like I feel like a tomboy right now I think it's how I like manage it's just how I talk about I don't know it's just how who I am like guys when we're hanging out on this podcast it's just you and me like this is what you're getting um

like that real friend like this is how I would talk to my best friends I do talk to my best friends like this um but yeah the version of me on other platforms is a little more polished okay a little more feminine and girly and sweet okay but hey I'm in a bulls t-shirt with sunglasses on in my podcast telling you I'm knocked out it was planned okay if you're like was it planned we planned it it was okay like how what else can I tell you I'm trying to be like somewhat. Um, I don't want to like overshare every single detail, but yeah, it was planned. Um, I feel very blessed that we were able to get pregnant as easily as we did. I know that like, I see videos and women my age are like, yeah, I've been trying with my husband for five years.

and I'm like whoa yeah like that's I see a lot of that kind of stuff I'm like damn like I just feel like it's such a miracle and such a blessing and yeah oh I also like another symptom I cry I cry at everything I cry at everything cry at everything my mom came so she was here last week because she's visiting for she's obviously like grandma's in town or future grandma's in town right she like brings my baby book and I lost it I couldn't read like I would read a two words and I would lose it because she was journaling about me and like the appointments and like how she was feeling before I was even born I was just imagining my mom and like in the same phase of life that I'm in now and I'm like whoa like it just was so heavy and like emotional and like

full circle and yeah so I cry a lot um I'm trying to think of a couple other things like I'm starting to feel that hunger now which means we need to end the episode oh I had to take my belly button ring out I'm like oiling my belly like I'm doing all this stuff um taking the supplements I'm eating like so many eggs for choline getting my folate in um I would say for five weeks straight I was sick as a dog like actually five weeks straight I would track like I have I would write down like the days where I was like literally bedridden I would wake up and this would happen multiple days in a row so I would wake up and I'd be like two feet out of bed and I'd be like I gotta go back to bed I'm not going to the gym

and then I would like I would sleep till nine nine nine to ten at ten I'd like wander into the kitchen and like get an orange and just like eat a little orange or a cracker or something and like obviously I'm drinking water I'm hydrating I always have that next to my bed um and then I'd go back to bed I just lay in bed and then I would maybe just doom scroll because I'm like I just slept until 10. Can't really, I, it was the type of, okay. I feel like I could share this on next week's episode about my first trimester symptoms. Like the next episode could just be first trimester. Um, it was so crazy because my body felt like it was moving through mud. Like I could do a task. Sure. I could work on my podcast. Sure. I could like do a couple of things, but I would

do like one task for it and then I would need a three hour nap or like literally or I would like okay I can do laundry I would put a load of laundry and I would fold some clothes and then I need to go sit down immediately after and like as I'm physically like moving laundry or like doing dishes or even just like cooking myself something or I wasn't even like the dogs going to the park just like wasn't happening with me Corey would have to take care of that like I kind of, that was just way too much energy expenditure. But like, just like the feeling of moving things around, just like walking felt like I was in slow motion. So, so technically I could do it. So I would have like, okay. On my house cleaning Saturday, whatever. On my weekend

clean day, I would, Oh, by the way, Corey did everything. Oh my God. Yeah. How is he handling it? you guys don't fuck around with who you marry and have a kid with like I'm just it's disgusting how perfect he is but like speaking of cleaning like he would just do everything like I would never touch a dish never touch a uh laundry I would never touch it he would just clean and just take care of it and get groceries and like I was doing that's why I was doing the grocery ordering so I was talking a lot about in the recent episodes like why am I getting so much door dash and groceries yeah because we're just like kind of house bound with me um the thought of like going out to a restaurant going to dinner just wasn't happening um

there was a couple things I went to that I was pregnant at and no one knew that was kind of wild but I was also sick um but yeah I would I would be so slow motion feeling like I'm going through mud this sickness by the way it wasn't like I was just non-stop nauseous puking I didn't have that like pukey nausea I did like I did but then honest to god it was like a flu but it was a it never ended for five weeks and I would have like maybe two to three good days a week maybe three three days a week where I was like okay I can get to the gym I can have a normal routine I can maybe record a podcast whatever I was you guys women who work during the first trimester now everyone's different people have a different capacity for what they

can handle but like it's there should be first trimester leave like maternity leave it's I have so much more respect now I just see like I'm already starting to see the world differently I'm seeing women differently like like differently like we're fucking superheroes it's crazy and but yeah I would like have my good days back to that and then I think what's been consistent is when 5 p.m hits I'm just so tired I'm just like I'm done for the day so yeah that's the that's the news okay that's what you just learned on the show today um I am hungry which means I need to eat now that's been a crazy thing by the way so like anytime I leave the house I feel so great like the thing is is like I don't feel sick anymore

I feel so great so energized so happy I'm like bouncing off the walls like do my workouts I'll do like a spin class then I'll go lift I'll like go crazy in the gym still I'm like so finally like I'm back. Right. The only thing is, is the food. So like anytime I leave the house, I have a lunch box now and I like have mandatory high protein, like things that will sustain me snacks. Um, because it's crazy how fast my tank empties, like I'll feel that hunger come back. I mean, sometimes it's like every, I'd say it's every two hours. Um, so I'm just eating more often and it like hits me like a bus and I wake up. Oh yeah. That's another thing. Okay. Like week 14. Actually this happened last week, week 13. I think the baby's this baby's the size of an orange this

week, which is cool. It's pretty big. Um, yeah, last week I would like consistently wake up every single day at four 50 and I would feel I'm like, I know I'm hungry. Like I know I'm hungry. I just don't want to get out of bed right now, but it would be like, Oh no, by four 55, 5.00 AM. It's like get to the kitchen now and I would have to eat like I always am I'm having like high protein yogurt or like rice cakes with um like almond butter or like fruit like I'll have a banana and yogurt like I'll just eat like a simple little breakfast thing to like and then I'll go back to bed so that's been crazy like and then Corey's like what are you milking because he knows how dramatic I am and like what are you actually like he doesn't know we joke around like the difference

between does my back really hurt do I really have that back pain because I'm pregnant pregnant or like am I just unwilling to get off the couch right now because I don't I'm being lazy and I don't want to get up so that's been kind of fun like milking it and getting away with being a lazy piece of shit so um but man when I was going through the first trimester I was out loud saying like this is the hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life straight up like it was terrible and I understand what women say they're like oh wait because how could you do that again right like how could you have multiple kids and because because of how sick you were right like how could you want to do that again and I think it's it's happening to me right now you get like

amnesia I'm retelling the story telling you how I felt the first trimester I'm recalling it now but like lately I'm like, I feel amazing. Pregnancy is amazing. Like I feel great. So I get it. Like you kind of forget. And then you're just like, it's only how many weeks is the first trimester? Like it's only 13 weeks. It gets, it's so hard. And not everyone gets sick. Not everyone. And like, I was cocky. I was like, Oh, I'm so fit. I'm the healthiest I've ever been. Like, I'm going to sail through this first trimester. I'm not gonna i'm not gonna be hit with i'm not the nausea's not gonna hit me it's all gonna happen and then boom week six hit me like a bus who do i predict pregnant right now

um like what celebrities i think i think alex cooper's no uh the craziest thing is like the video that related I related to the most she posted like the thing I was like wait I like her again like wait I didn't really I she wasn't really I wasn't listening to call her daddy I really never I maybe listen to like maybe one a year if it's someone I'm curious about um but she posted a video titled like I'm not ready to be a mom and she posted this I think last year and or maybe the year before I'm not sure and at the time like her experience again I relate to it to her a lot what she was describing I was like I totally resonated so much

with me it was like the inner conflict of like wanting kids but not being ready at that day at that time like now and like the whole thing is you're never ready and like you'll never be ready but i'm i'm such a control freak where i always wanted to be like when i have kids like like feeling like this visceral like i want it now thing and that happened so i feel grateful like it all turned around but but that at the time i just remember being like damn this is the kind of content i want to see from her like this is some real shit but yeah um i think maybe hailey bieber and justin will have another baby this year or get pregnant i don't know maybe taylor swift after the wedding um there's a few pregnancies right now celebrity but like no one

I like heavily fuck oh I think Olivia Colpo's pregnant the baby number two with Christian McCaffrey I'm just I don't think you're supposed to speculate on women's bodies like that but like I think they're having a second baby they're pregnant so yeah that's the news that's what you found out. I'm going to end it here. Let's see. Please hit that subscribe button. I'm trailing off. I need to eat. Please hit that subscribe button wherever you're listening right now. I'm on Apple, Spotify, Google Podcasts, Stitcher, Breaker, Overcast, wherever you listen to podcasts. Please hit that subscribe button and review the show five stars while you're there. Follow me on Instagram and TikTok at Jacqueline Monroe. Subscribe to the YouTube channel. This is a

video, and audio podcast. Subscribe to my YouTube channel. And finally, if you want to support the show, patreon.com slash TJMS, patreon.com slash TJMS. All right. That's it. Love you. Thanks for being here. Wait, how much weight have I gained? Are we like going to, do I like, do I look, yo, do I look pregnant wait we didn't cover this I'm so concerned I'm kidding uh Corey just texted me if I'm free should we call the future baby daddy or current baby dad I mean technically it's like he is now you free 23 minutes ago this is such a long episode um should I call him we ended the show and then we're like still going what's what's so typical uh one second hold on

yeah you're on the cast oh you're on the cast i thought you were done no it was a long one but i told them good i told them you're wrapping up i told them about us did not say the gender so don't say the gender okay huh sounds good okay well I'm gonna wrap it up I guess I'll call you after I thought maybe like you would say something more

like exciting no I just need to know the parameters of what have you talked about what's your favorite part of your wife being pregnant so far the constant cravings for all these different sweets food

food travel the grocery store protein shakes cookies a little dabble of italian yep sure i'll have a burrito sure maybe six roll tacos sure honey i just said that i'm i'm like not being a fat fuck about it and now you're making you're exposing me you're not there yet but you have some cravings here do you see my abs this morning crazy right all right i love you i'm gonna wrap it up okay i love you okay bye so funny cravings okay uh love you thank you so much for tuning in and coming into my inner world of my real life that is extremely classified and top secret at this moment so hey if you listen to this episode I mean sure spread the good word to your I don't know like maybe tell someone I don't

fucking care eventually everyone's gonna know but just don't publicly say anything like on a forum of any kind I think the thing is this is how you know I'm not a big podcaster like like actually we gotta be real for a second the way you know I'm not popping off like that okay with that like with those crazy download numbers is because this would immediately be on reddit so and so's pregnant oh my god she put it on her podcast like I feel like maybe a big like if Alex Cooper did that that'd be like news like you know what I mean but fuck it I'm just this is where I wanted to do it and this one end up on reddit if this ends up on reddit like you guys do we need to make a reddit for the show that's all right we need to add the episode I love you thanks for

being here and I'll talk to you I'm in such a good mood I feel so good like I'm like why don't I podcast tomorrow and the next day and the next like literally just make this a week like a daily thing again love you talk to you next week bye